#i'm here but also not i've been hanging out on my other blog ya know

[leovaldezluvr]

"my honeybee, come and get this pollen!"

synopsis : hc's of leo valdez and his gf !!

pairing : leo valdez x daughter of apollo!reader

warnings : swearing / cursing, intentional lower case writing, kissing, nothing crazy tho!

requested ? yes! by the amazing @sunnitheapollokid 😚

masterlist : coming soon!

nai yapps : HI BABIES 🤭 first time writing hcs, hope ya like!! it turned out longer than expected so yeah haha, not proofread so please don't mind the grammatical errors 😭

on the radio . . . "espresso" by sabrina carpenter

in my opinion, leo is kinda insecure (just like percy) so it took him a while to realize that you liked him back !!

in the meanwhile, he would fangirl about you to his friends

oh and trust me, they were SICK AND TIRED of that boy

"guys, did you see the way she looked at me at dinner??"

(which he told them like for the 1293858th time that week)

#delusionalking

and don't act like you didn't do the same thing as well, because we all know damn well you did

yapping about leo to annabeth, silena and piper at the cabin 10 sleepovers is a weekly (almost daily) occurrence

like i've mentioned in the beginning, leo's probably really insecure, so he uses his flirty and cheeky personality to cover it up!

which has you giggling and kicking your feet

because that boy flirts with you more than anyone else

oh and when he found out that you work at the infirmary with will solace?

it was his most visited place other than bunker 9

leo is naturally a really clumy person (me too lmao) so he injures himself on accident quite often when working on something in bunker 9, but one way or another he'll find an excuse to come visit you there (even if he's not hurt) and say shit like

"you come here often?" or "can you kiss it better?"

with a shit-eating grin as you heal one of his injuries

since you're a child of the music god, you have AMAZING taste in music

so every once in a while you'd come over at bunker 9 and play some of your music while leo works on his projects

you'd be on his bed, painting away or even working on poems

speaking of poems!

you once wrote a poem about leo and after building up courage (with the help of your girlfriends) you read it out to leo!!

and let me tell you, that boy turned as red as a tomato

and he couldn't stop thinking about that poem FOR DAYS.

like girl you had that boy wrapped around your finger 😭 (hence the song i choose for this blog)

after that, he decided it's time to ask you to be his gf!! (screaming)

him and his friends (percy, jason and frank) have been planning and scheming on the best way leo can ask you out

since percy has a big mouth, he told the news to his girlfriend, annabeth.

your and leo's friends were pretty much one big friend group, so you guys hung out quite often

soon enough, piper and silena found out about leo's plan too

SOO HERE'S HOW I IMAGINE HOW'D LEO WOULD ASK YOU TO BE HIS GF!!

basically, the group decided to hang out at the beach is Montauk

"LAST ONE IN THE SEA IS A ROTTEN EGG!"

percy yelled, all the boys racing to the sea, except for leo.

"boys." annabeth muttered, rolling her eyes, causing piper, silena and you to giggle.

you had your beach towel spread out onto the sand, your tote bag to your left and a book in your hands.

leo sat at your right hand side, applying sunscreen onto his arms and upper body as he watched the boys splash and attempt to drown each other.

"could you please apply sunscreen on my back, y/n?"

you look up from your book you're reading and place your bookmark between the pages. a smile grew on your face as you nod, signaling leo to turn so his back faces you. he obliged and did as you said, he pulled his knees closer to his chest leaned his head onto his arms. (kinda like this I'm bad at explaining haha 😭)

hours pass by, the group has all been at the sea having a splash fight, then also played volleyball. now they wanted to have some snacks and drinks

and of course the group decided to pick you and leo to go get the snacks

you, oblivious to their intentions, started putting your flip flops on. as you weren't looking, leo shot a look at the smirking teenagers he calls his friends. piper and frank were showing thumbs up for support. while jason and percy gave him a knowing look. leo saw annabeth mouthing "now or never" to him.

"lee, you ready to go?"

he put his attention back on to you and nodded, heading to the corner shop with you next to him. he glanced back to his friends one last time, seeing them look at the pair walking off and cheering for leo, but silently of course, so you wouldn't suspect anything.

after you two have bought the snacks and drinks the friendgroup wanted, you head back to the beach.

leo noticed the group playing volleyball again, and used to opportunity to confess now. He stopped walking, standing at this area.

"hey, y/n. could we talk for a sec?"

you didn't think much of it and nodded, walking closer to where leo was standing.

then, his nervousness got the best of him and that boy just started rambling.

"so i just wanted to say that Iive liked you for REALLY long time. like a i like you A LOT and I really want to be together with you but i'm not sure if you feel the same and i really don't want to ruin this friendship. but i've never felt this way about anyone and–"

then he got interrupted with kiss!! (by you of course)

he froze, definitely not expecting that. but quickly kissed you back. his hands on your waist, pulling you closer as your hands wrapped behind his neck.

you soon pulled away, both of you catching your breaths.

"i like you too, leo."

a bright smile appeared on leo's face, him leaning his forehead onto yours.

"can i be your boyfriend, y/n?"

you act like you're thinking about, rubbing your chin jokingly, but ultimately day yes.

he kisses you again, but pulled away quickly as you two heard screaming and cheering from the back.

the pair turn around to see their friendgroup being the cause of this loud noise.

piper, annabeth and silena were the ones screaming, holding each other's hands as they jump up and down like little girls. While the boys were cheering and clapping, Percy even started jumping up and down with the girls. (LMFOAOA DON'T TELL ME HE WOULDN'T DO THAT)

anyhow! that's how i imagine it'd happen

leo and you are both you clingy mfs, even before dating. but now you two are glued to the hip.

he definitely calls you cute nicknames in spanish (#latinoking)

"mi amor" , "cariño" , "mi vida" , "hermosa" , "mi corazón" , "mi sol", "mami/mamas"

he loves, and i mean LOVES when you help him with his projects (cough this fic cough)

whenever a piece of your jewelry (earrings, necklaces, ect..) breaks, you already know your boyfriend is there to fix it for you.

despite being the daughter of the sun god, your hands were always FREEZING. that's why you had your fire boy to warm you up

that boy is basically your human heater. while you two would cuddle in the summer, you would get so hot while being in his embrace, but you just suffered, because his grip is strong as steel.

your guys' dynamic is sunshine x sunshine protecter!! (the protecter being you because leo doesn't do shit to stand up for himself)

#1 princess treatment giver!!

"baby, i can get out of the car myself–"

"shh, don't worry about it mami."

wow this is getting way too long woopsie

in conclusion, leo valdez is the best boyfriend ever and you two are the power couple of chb!!!

THE END!!

— 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, 𝐍𝐀𝐈.

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[the-cleaning-guy]

Howdy!

My name is Bruce and I'm Princeton-Plainsboro's janitor, nothing too special. I keep the hospital clean and occasionally bring in my dogs to help the patients.

I've been told to include some things about myself so here ya go:

Age- 25 (April 21, 1979)

Pronouns- He/Him

Sexuality- Fag

I have 4 dogs, a truck almost as old as me, I can play the guitar, harmonica, and drum on buckets. Feel free to ask me something or talk to me I'm all ears buddy!

Some information about him!

Bruce grew up in a trailer park with his parents and older brother. His dad worked a blue collar job and his mom was a bartender. His brother is 6 years older than him, he wasnt home often so theyre not very close. He still goes to see his parents, he'll stop by and have dinner with them every so often. All of them were really distant growing up (still are) but they care about eachother in their own ways.

He started using drugs around 14 and it got really bad from 16-20. He originally got the job at PPTH at 19 but a year later got sent to rehab because he almost OD-ed. Cuddy gave him the job back because he was a good worker and his recovery was going really well. Hes relapsed a few times and had to stay inpatient at PPTH.

He has a slight southern accent that comes out with certain words but its not super obvious. His right eye is a very light grey/blue, his left eye is an olive green. He has tattoos all over his body (including a tramp stamp he got at 16). He has a labret, a septum, a tongue, 10 ear (3 on top, 2 on bottom), and a belly button piercing. Him and his brother both have moles under their eye but on opposite sides.

He owns an old red pickup truck from the 80s. Lives in a small rundown apartment 40 minutes from PPTH. He has four dogs (two pit bulls, a german shepherd, and an australian shepard). One pit bull (named Bones but he calls him Baby) is a trained therapy dog who helps him with his addiction and anxiety. He plans on getting his german shepherd (Jack <- named after jack twist from brokeback mountain) trained to be a therapy dog too. He learned to play guitar, harmonica, and bucket drums as a young teen practically on the streets.

He gets along with most people really well since hes easy to talk to. He has resting bitchface but when he talks to people hes very polite and friendly which makes up for it. Kids tend to like him so he carries candy in his pockets for them. He has sort of a random country uncle feel to him? Hes very charismatic but you also wouldnt want to get in a fight with him. He looks like someone you'd see at a bar drinking beers and watching the game on tv. Though hes not really a fan of sports other than hockey or fighting. He seems older than he really is both physically and mentally. He'll bring in Bones for the patients to hang out with when hes allowed to. He enjoys talking about music, movies/shows, history, dogs, etc. People tend to talk to him about their drama so he knows everyones business, hes a good listener!

He likes men but he doesnt really talk about it often. He grew up getting called 'fag' by most of the people around him (even if they got along) so he usually just calls himself that. He isnt currently into anybody but he gets around. Hes a cis guy but doesnt care about gender much so its never really on his mind, he probably doesnt know what being trans is but he doesnt give a shit either way.

Hello!! im ghost (@ghostboyhood) the person behind this blog. Sorry the information above is so all over the place i have a rough time wording things 😭 I'll usually talk ooc in specified tags unless youre specifically asking ME something and not Bruce -> [#ooc- blahblahblah]

This is my House Md oc Bruce N. Valentine!! Feel free to ask him things and talk to him, he'd love to listen. Hes up for answering almost anything just be smart about what you ask <3

Go check out the other people hes surrounded by at @ppth-staff !!

[cnovelartreblogs]

with tumblr dying, do you know of any open discord communities for danmei and cnovels?

Hey hey!

The only public fandom server I'm part of for Chinese media (...virtually the only public fandom server I'm in at all, and my personal main hang-out spot on Discord...) is @merinnan et al's Daomu Biji server.

It's the nicest, chillest, most welcoming public fandom server I've ever been in - not that we haven't had our moments of drama, but they've been rare, and I've always felt comfortable there - and I've made a lot of friends too. That said, if you're not into DMBJ and/or as obsessed with Zhu Yilong as I am, I can't imagine it'd be a great fit.

Also, so - I'm @unforth, and my day job is that I own and operate an indie micropress, Duck Prints Press, that publishes original work by fanartists and fanauthors. As part of that, I and the staff involved with that run a "Book Lover's" Discord server. While it's sort of a combo "about the Press" and "about all queer books" and "about whatever we feel like talking about" server, we do end up talking about danmei a fair amount because multiple of the people involved in the Press, including obviously me, are into that kind of thing. Like we do a weekly chat on Wednesday about what we're reading and yesterday's was like, "here's one mlm YA book! here's a thriller in Dutch! here's the Yuri manga I just read! And here are the eighteen bajillion things we're all currently reading on Bilibili oh and I started Poyun." You're certainly welcome to join us. What we talk about there really boils down to what the people who are there want to talk about, ya know?

About a million years ago, I started building a cnovelartreblogs Discord server myself, but I've been so frackin busy the last couple years that I've never managed to finish setting it up the way I'd like. That said, it's got penciled in rules and channels for some of the more popular cnovel fandoms (mostly danmei, tho there is a Please Don't Laugh section). If I could get help moderating it, I could open it.

I just really don't have the ability to do it myself anymore, my days right now are like:

wake up

scroll tumblr and do upkeep on the art side blogs (while sitting with my kids and helping them get ready for the day) (1.5 hrs or so)

study Chinese (while sitting with my kids and helping them get ready for the day (.5 hrs, tho I wish it was more, if I can manage more than 30 minutes then I can actually try reading a real damn book but I only have the time maybe once or twice a month)

work (7 to 8 hours on weekdays, often more on the weekends, bonus if my kids are around and my wife is at work, such as tomorrow)

try to be a good mom (all the hours)

errands, chores, kid after school activities, etc. (1 to 3 hours a day)

read while snuggling kids on the couch and trying to ignore the tv (an hour if I'm lucky)

sleep (8ish hours, I hope)

there's just no wiggle room left for me to do any extra fandom stuff right now, sigh.

(sorry to whine about that part. it's not relevant. I just got my covid booster yesterday and I feel terrible today so I'm feeling sorry for myself. it's truly not a bad life overall I'm just perpetually exhausted)

[nerdybutch]

howdy 🤠

[stormblessed95]

Why do you think we don't ever hear of sightings of Jikook out together "ALONE" anymore? Like lately when JK goes out, he is alone or with friends, but never JM & same with JM. There use to be sightings of them all the time. Ice Skating, Movies, Shopping, just standing randomly at a busstop. The last time we know of was White Day, but they still were not alone. I'm not trying to debunk Jikook & I'm not insecure. I guess puzzled is a better word, considering how inseparable they seem in Memories.

And Anon 2 from the opposite side of the spectrum here:

Thinking Jikook are going to be spotted out together publicly sope, Namjoon & Hobi, Hobi & Jimin + how they are with their other friends at other concerts is incredibly unrealistic. They’ve got a image to portray for one, that they aren’t THAT close and two they’re together all the time at “home” why would they go out to a concert together or football game or a museum date. They’re gonna choose less public occasions like the white day dinner with their shared friends that people only knew about because someone took a picture. They didn’t sign anything to make people aware. We wouldn’t of known that hopeminkook went out together with HER until Hobi shared it with us. We don’t KNOW.

I had like 8 anons over this topic asking or throwing fits over the same thing anon 1 is asking about. And I've seen this Same ask being tossed around to other jikook blogs as well. So I deleted most of them, blocked the gross ones and decided I would actually answer this question. And bare with me anon if you actually care to know what I think and aren't just here sowing discourse. Because it'll be a longer post. And some of it aligns with anon number 2. And almost all of it comes back to my favorite phrase to throw at my insecure/other shipper anons. Object permanence.

Again, bare with me. If I forget a "date" I'm working off memory here. So ya know, keep in mind that I, too, am only human.

I think a lot of people struggling with lack of content must mean lack of contact (for jikook). And that's simply not true. But people fall into the pitfalls, especially when they haven't been here since 2013, of seeing content all at once and then being greeted with no content. Or slowed down content, and then they panic. They used to be SPOTTED OUT ALL THE TIME they must just never see each other anymore. Well, let's ACTUALLY look at all those times, and all those dates, shall we?

2014, Jimin and Jungkook go out on a chicken dinner "date." They were never spotted by fans. The only reason we know they spent this time off work, off camera, hanging out, is because Jimin posted about it in his blog. Photo captioned: “for dinner, we ate some delicious chicken~~~ jungkookah, hyung likes chickennnn ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ give me one don’t shove it in my mouth you punk!!!!”

May 2016, again Jikook had a spicy chicken dinner "date" alone, and weren't spotted. The only reason we know about it is because Jimin again, shared it with us. If he didn't share, we would never know. The "before" video too. JK decided to stay up late and hang out/eat with Jimin even though he originally planned to sleep instead. Also in August 2016, fans spotted Jikook out walking in the streets together, JK walking with a bike. When they noticed they got spotted by fans the fan said Jimin "hailed a taxi and they ran away together"

In 2017, when they were given free time by the company, everyone went off to do their own thing and jikook went bowling together. Not spotted by fans, but it was shared in Burn the Stage Ep 5.

In October 2017, they were spotted in Toyko together several times. Which they then also posted about and then never shut up about lol

January 2018, jikook watching the first snow together. Alone. Again, we only know about it because they shared it with us. Not that they were spotted.

February 2018, Jikook went out to dinner and an escape room with Sungwoon, the day after valentines day. Jimin came home early from a Japan schedule right before this too. Left their autograph and was spotted by fans

Summer of 2018, Jikook were spotted seperated from the rest of the members and camera crews before they left Malta hitting up a few stores and going shopping together. They also took the boat back out to watch the red moon together after dropping all the rest of the members back off.

Also summer of 2018, Jungkook told us about how he hung out with Jimin over the break and did bowling and went out for Karaoke. They weren't spotted. We wouldn't otherwise know. And they've mentioned going to do Karaoke together multiple times as well as bowling together many times. And again, summer of 2018, they were spotted by a non army (other kpop stan) standing outside together hanging out at around 1 am.

October 2018, Jikook were spotted by an ARMY riding the bus and they were out alone shopping together.

November 2018, Jikook flew in with the rest of BTS from Japan and then immediately took off on their own and went to dinner as well as then went ice skating and were spotted out together as well as the restaurant sharing an autograph.

In 2019, while in Paris they went shopping together and were spotted by fans. While in London they went out to eat, to see the London Eye and London Bridge with Jimins friends. And in LA they were spotted seeing Avengers End Game together and afterwards went out to dinner together. JK later talked about it at a fansign and they posted a video in the car together coming home. They also stayed late at a concert for a bit when the members had all already left the staging area to watch the fireworks together. Not spotted by ARMY but shared by themselves. In 2019 as well. Jk confirmed that over the break the only members he saw at all were Jimin and Hobi. Not spotted once by fans, but they still spent time together even during all of Jimins traveling around the world.

In 2020, they were rumored to have been spotted at a convenience store together. As well as in September, Jimin confirming they spent the night together.

In 2021, they shared a vminkook trip to the beach, where the Above photo was shared. No one spotted them, but it still happened. As well as in 2021 they shared about how they were practically stuck like glue through the entire time they were in LA (Nov - Dec 2021). Including how they walked together everyday and worked out together everyday. JK Visited Jimins rooms and hung out there all day. And months later, a fan (who happened to be a tkkr since 2014) shared a video of jikook walking into her gym in LA at 3 am to workout alone together. Basically confirming a fan sighting and confirming everything they shared in that vlive as well too. As well as in 2021 (September) they were spotted getting pre travel covid tests done at the same clinic together.

In March 2022, they were spotted by fans out to eat during White Day with a friend, maybe more at a lowkey restaurant. JK also that year shared how when he got out of covid quarantine that he went to Jimins room and got a hug. As well as yoonminkook and staff all went out to eat after the concert in Vegas in 2022, where the waiter who served jikook kept talking about how excited he was to have served jikook, where they sat together at their own table during their closed down restaurant party with drinking and everyone singing lol

So. Out of 10 years of being together as a band. Jikook have been spotted out together by fans approximately 14 times. If we add a few of the others that I included here (which doesn't even scratch the surface of all the times they've shown us how they are always together) that brings us to 25 times they were together that we know of off camera. And again, there is TONS more as well as staff commenting about how jikook are inseparable and literally always together and comments from the two of them about how much time they spend together, etc. You had 3 of those times (2 being a spotted by fans and 1 being told by JK) happen in 2022. And it's technically not even September yet. When in other years, the most frequent year of fan sightings was 2018, in which there were 7 times. And 4 of those times were shared with us by jikook themselves not random spotting. And 4 sightings spread across an entire 12 months, is not THAT much if you actually think about it for the other years to be a drastic decrease like people are saying.

It seems like so much because it is. There is no other BTS duo that has been caught hanging out by fans nearly as much or as often. Nor have any duo told us about hanging out off work/off camera nearly as much or as often. They do, it happens, but not as frequently as our stuck like glue duo. So from 2013 to 2022, there were at least 14 fan sightings of jikook. BUT You recongize that spread over the years, that's a lot of fucking time in between sightings, yes? Good. Glad we are on the same page. I also hope you recongize that during all these years where we got anywhere from zero to 7 jikook sightings of "dates" out and about, they were also being spotted doing things individually as well. Like getting food, going shopping, going on bike rides, seeing concerts. As well as doing those things together with other friends/members and individually with other friends/members. None of that detracts from how often and how close they are. And how they are constantly together. Choosing to spend so much of their free time together. And everytime people lose their minds about it, they make a comment about being "stuck like glue" over that time period.

It's a pattern, and the Rollercoaster of Insecurity has to be as exhausting for everyone else as it is for me. Why be puzzled when it's clear how much time they spend together. Especially when you saw people claiming they grew distant in 2021 (just like they are doing now) and memories proved how they literally were always together and they didn't even know the meaning of the word distance. People need to relax and I'm tired of repeating myself. 😭😅

Anyway. I hope this helped at least a few people recognize that this is just a pattern repeating itself again. And that you get bogged down by content and then confused when content slows down. But Jimin and JK have lives outside of content, which includes their relationship together. And lack of content, does not mean lack of contact between them.

[tunabesimpin]

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[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

hi ashley, i could really use some advice because i feel like i’m going insane and i don’t know what to do

i have a friend that we’ll call sarah, and we have been friends for just over a year. we used to be really close, texting all the time, seeing each other multiple times a week, and just generally really close. after christmas, all of that took a nosedive. she rarely asks to hang out and it’s always me who’s asking, i feel like she rarely asks about my day and how i’m doing and actually cares, and i feel like she mostly texts me to complain about her life. i feel like i can’t say anything right to her lately, and when i try to give any advice she’s not appreciative at all. an example is that yesterday she was telling me she wants to start getting some tattoos and was showing me inspiration pics, and i said “oh so you want to be like the patchwork girls!” just meaning that, she wants that patchwork look. and she became oddly defensive saying “well i just want the placement of it” and i said “ya i’m agreeing with you!” and she responded with “doesn’t sound like you are”. she has said before about different friends that every time she talks to them she wishes she hadn’t, and i feel like that’s what’s happening with me, that she’s just phasing me out because she’s made better friends lately.

but on the other hand i feel like i’m blowing it out of proportion. that i’m being ridiculous to want so much of someone’s time, and to be the most important thing to them. and maybe i’m not putting in full effort either, and she made me a valentine’s day bag. but even the valentine’s day bag felt like an after thought because she was already making them for other people. am i being toxic for expecting so much from her?

i’m hesitant to say anything to her right now because i don’t even know how i feel about the whole thing. i keep second guessing myself and downplaying how sad i really feel because maybe my perception is just off and i have unrealistic expectations. i also want sarah to care because she actually cares, not because i’m making her feel obligated to put in more effort. i’m at such war with myself and it’s making me lose my mind. i know you don’t know our full story, but from what i’ve said do you think i’m being ridiculous. cuz i don’t know what to do and i can’t keep going like this.

thank you so much always, your blog is such a comfort to me and i think you’re amazing for all that you do to care and help people ♥️♥️

hello, dear! first of all, i don't think you're crazy or unreasonable. it's not that you're upset because you want to monopolize all of sarah's time and attention; you're upset because of the completely unexplained change in the amount of time and attention sarah gives you, not to mention the tone of it.

after all, i'm sure that if sarah had said, "i'm feeling really burnt out and i want to take a little personal time where i don't text as much. it's nothing you've done, i still want to be friends, i just want some mental health space for a little while." then you would have been cool with that, right?

the real issue here is communication, and the lack of it. she used to treat you one way, now she's treating you a different way, and she hasn't explained why the change has happened. it's completely normal to be upset about this lack of communication, because without that explanation, you have no idea where you stand in this relationship. not knowing where you stand in a relationship is very anxiety-inducing.

like, even if she came right out and said "i don't want to be friends anymore," that would hurt a lot, but at least you would know that status of your relationship and you'd be able to move on to grieving that loss instead of being stuck in limbo and not knowing what to do.

so i think that the only thing you can do is try to start that communication, even though it's uncomfortable and you're scared of what she might say. you need to tell her, "hey i know this is awkward, but is something wrong? i've been getting the message that you don't want to be as close with me as we were last year, and i'm really confused because i'm not sure what happened. i would really appreciate it if you could talk to me and tell me if you don't really want to be friends anymore so i know where i stand."

again, i know that no one wants to have that confrontation, it's a miserable experience. but just going on as you are right now is miserable too.

it's possible that she's going to say yes, she doesn't want to be friends anymore, and that's going to really fucking suck. she might not even explain why, and that'll hurt like hell. but there's also a chance the message you've been receiving isn't the message she's been trying to send, she does still want to be friends, and there's something else going on with her that you don't know about.

but either way, i truly don't believe that any of this is about something you've done. whether she's the kind of person who just goes from one short but intense relationship to another, or whether something happened around christmas to change her attitude, i think the way she's behaving has to do with her, and i don't think you've done anything wrong.

it's possible that you said or did something that she took badly and she's been hurt about it, but that's something that she should have brought up with you rather than just going distant. you can't just go through a relationship constantly racking your brain for something you did wrong; if there's a problem, the other person needs to communicate that problem. but since she hasn't, communicating with her can also allow for that possibility.

BUT, i would be on guard for her giving an explanation that deflects all kinds of blame on you for her behavior. if she starts saying "well i don't want to hang out anymore because you always blah blah blah," that's bullshit. she hung out with you for a year without being bothered, all of a sudden she's annoyed? and still, she should have brought up with you anything that caused a problem, not just started gradually ghosting you or using you to vent.

to be perfectly honest, it sounds to me like there's a chance that sarah is someone who likes to use other people, who draws someone in by lavishing them with time and attention, uses them for praise and sympathy without fully returning the effort, then gets bored and moves on to the next person. that might be uncharitable of me, and i might be completely wrong, but i do think you should maybe reflect on your relationship and ask yourself how much of it has been you being there for sarah and how much of it has been sarah being there for you.

if it turns out this whole friendship hasn't been the real closeness that you thought it was, that really fucking sucks and i'm so very sorry. but getting taken advantage of by someone that you care about isn't your fault and it doesn't mean you can't find people who truly care about you for you, i promise. having a kind heart can get you hurt, but it's never the wrong choice.

try to talk to her, okay? and take some time to honestly ask yourself if sarah has been a good friend to YOU, not just the other way around. you deserve good friends who treat you well and communicate with you.

take care, dear.

[tsat0ri]

❝kuroo taking care of his stressed s/o❞

request: hello! i heard your requests are open, and I've had this on my head for weeks now, how about kuroo giving a massage to his s/o cause she's tense or something and then it just— escalates 😳

scenario under the cut!

blog directory | requests open

tetsurou kuroo.

cw: female reader, desk sex, kinda dom!kuroo, escalates from cute kuroo to sexy kuroo vv quickly, reader gets degraded but also praised, uhhh dumbification if you squint

─ kuroo is a very busy man, but that doesn't means that he doesn't see you often

─ when you guys can, you guys hang out togheter, because he loves spending his free time with you

─ he doesn't care if it's a fancy date in one of the most expensive restaurants in the town, or if it's just you taking his lunch to his workplace, he enjoys every second

─ and, it is actually in his work place where the scenario happens

─ it had been some weeks since you guys last had a real conversation

─ for having a big and important job, kuroo had also a big amount of paperwork for him to take care of

─ he always came home when you were already asleep, so he simply hugged you and tried to get some sleep

─ so, since you were missing him, you decided to make his favorite meal: grilled salted mackerel pike, and take it to work

─ and when i tell you how his pupils dilated when he saw his lunch, you wouldn't believe it

─ "you're way too good for me, love", he says as he makes you sit on his right thigh so he can give you a quick peck on the lips

─ he realizes you groaning in pain, and gets concerned

─ "are you ok?", he asks looking at you softly. "yeah, i'm fine.. i'm just a little stressed this week. nothing much", you answer, you hand still on your back

─ for bringing his favorite meal to his work, he felt like he owe you something

─ "since you were an angel ─ as always ─ and appeared here with my favorite meal, i can do you a favour and give you a massage!", he says excitedly, which made you smile and murmur a little okay

─ he started his massage, you were between his legs, your hair was tossed aside so he didn't had anything on his way

─ his large, firm hands were exploring the back part of your body like he was seeing a painting

─ as soon as he started to get in your tense muscles, you sighed in relief, you really needed something like this

─ his hands were skilled, and you were feeling a lot better every time touched you

─ you were moaning for the relief, and sometimes pain, and kuroo couldn't help but think: when was the last time you both had sex?

─ he smirked, knowing that you couldn't see it, and kept massaging your back

─ suddenly, you feel kuroo's lips in your neck, but he was still massaging you

─ he was now sucking your skin, probably you were going to end up with some hickies, but you didn't really care

─ suddently his hand stopped in your back, and he hugged you, slightly playing with your breasts

─ your breath hitches up, and kuroo goes to your ear and say "how about i make you tense in a different way, hm?

+.

"what a desperate little slut you are", he grinned seeing your naked form on his desk. "you came here to bring me my lunch, and

"so good takin' my cock like that", he thrusts a little harder, gripping your hips, they were going to be bruised tomorrow.

"ah! 'tsurou!!", you panted as you self kuroo hands slapping your ass, a common habit he had.

"you're loving this, aren't ya'?", he asks you, while your hands are holding the other side of the table, making you stare at the door. "you love your cunny being fucked hard in my desk, while i'm in my job, even knowing that anyone could walk in", he smirks, and slap your ass again "my good dumb slut"

you moaned as kuroo kept hitting the spot that made your legs weak.

"t-tetsu... i need to- ah!" your sentence was interrupted by a scream, but not loud at the point that someone would hear it "i need to c-cum.."

"well, then..", in a quick move, kuroo turned your body, making you face him, "i always love seeing your face when you cum, baby. today won't be different"

he put one of your legs on his shoulder, hitting a different angle, making you closer to the edge.

"play with your clit", he demanded, fucking you in this new position "play with your clit while i fuck you"

your shaking hand went to your clit, kuroo's large cock still going in and out of your pussy.

the stimulation in your clit, and kuroo hitting your spot in every thrust made you scream, your chest going up and down.

"'t-tetsuroooou, i- i can't take it any.. more!" it was difficult to talk, but still, your hand didn't stop moving on your puffy clit.

"i.. 'tsurou- ah! i... i.. oh fuck!!" and you came on kuroo's cock, you came hard, your legs were shaking and your mouth open, you walls tightening kuroo harder than ever before.

you thought that one of your best decisions after you started dating kuroo was to bring him lunch on that day.

[bondsmagii]

You know that post you made about how to live through an abusive homelife where you talk about having an escape plan even if its not exactly complete or sane. I'm not the original anon but like that post is the one thing keeping me going rn so thanks for that I appreciate it

I'm at that weird overlap where my homelife is not great, I definitely need to talk to a mental health professional for other issues and yet I'm unable to access help for either. My lifes just been me kinda comparing my own lack achievements to the many achievements of people who don't have this other shit to deal with day to day and I'm literally just unlearning how awful that mindset is but it's uh. Hard. Like yeah if someone broke your leg its gonna be hard to keep up in the mandatory race without even a crutch, this ain't rocket science. Despite that being obvious i somehow keep managing to forget that lol.

Not sure exactly where i was going there but cool blog. I enjoy coming here you talk about interesting things and i think you're very cool. Also you seem like you'd be fun to hang out with.

Anyways catch ya later have a good day 😊

I'm really glad to hear it helped! I know just the kind of limbo you're experiencing, and it's infuriating. it really can feel like things have stagnated and they're never going to get any better, but so long as you keep that idea of a future in your head you'll get there eventually. the future keeps coming, whether you're ready or not, and I think there's a comfort to be had in that when things seem like they're at a standstill. sometimes "everything changes" can be intimidating, but in situations like that, I think it's a huge comfort.

and thank you! I've been told I'm fun to hang out with. I think it's something to do with the fact that I always drag people on road trips or to museums after hours or into haunted abandoned buildings.

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

Heyo can I request a hq matchup thingy? I've been all over yer blog and its cute!

I'm 5'8 (on the verge of 5'9), sorta athletic build, lanky but not really slim and more on the curvy side, she/they, light redish brown skin tone, I have shoulder length coily dark brown hair with bangs, glasses, i wear beanies to hide my bedhead and I have a slash on my left eyebrow from when i scraped it on a desk at age nine it was very fun. Totally unrelated note but my friends say i smile like Squirtle and when I'm mad i just look like a really intimidating baby duck 😞

I'm a sagittarius, I have ADHD, a little tomboyish personality wise bc i wear a lot of skirts but im nowhere near girly, I'm a bit rowdy but I'd never do anything to make someone uncomfortable, i gots mommy issues and a little bit of a temper but I'm very approachable, I speak fluent sarcasm and can come off a little rude if ya don't know me that well but I'm very respectful but i kinda swear a lot....

Despite my 'sense of instability' i come from a family full of lawers and veterans (kept separate my parents broke up before i as born), growing up I didnt have the best childhood so i always have empathy and best believe i will fact check you if your out of line 🤬. I'm the one who's willing to cheer you on and support you through thick and thin as well as being at almost every game or event your preforming/ playing at :), I'm very generous and a bit of a care giver(more of a simp if ya squint): ya want water?? "here have mine", hungry? ''oh want McDonald's? i can pay if ya want'' cold?? "here my hoodie im pretty warm already"

My hobbies include singing, playing bass and acoustic guitar, both traditional + digital drawing, dancing and i play a lot of sports like volleyball (i spike and/or set), softball (pitch), boxing + track and field (are those two even a sport???). I've always wanted to be a really big artist and if it doesn't work out i can always try out voice acting bc even though my voice is pretty low i can make it really high pitch like shoujo anime girl high pitch or become a sports journalist ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm the memer of my friend group and i like to think my sense of humor and style are on point. I'm a big horror movie junkie... from 80s to late and early 2000s, every slashers, thrillers to sci-fi trust me I've watched it all >:), i loveeeee Pokémon i may or may mot have had a huge crush on Brock and James when i was 6 , and Sanrio, i stick kuromi stickers on everything i own 😅. I also have a really big Batman obsession (grew up around a lot of bois other than my brothers) but i prefer MARVEL...

Sorry this seems pretty long and totally disregard if yer busy but have a good day/night <3

@callmedirtbag

Romantic Matchup

Semi Eita

How Y’all Met

So you we’re new to Shiratorizawa

And you we’re just walking around campus when you found a gym

When you peeked inside you saw a empty gym

But what really intrigued you was the volleyball net and balls inside 👀

The gym looked pretty empty so you decided to mess around with the volleyballs for a bit

You got so into your practicing that you didn’t notice Semi walk in

Semi was a little confused on why there was just a random person in the gym

But he couldn’t deny that you had some skill 😗

However he saw that you were struggling with your sets

So he decided to help you 😃

Ngl you we’re very kinda embarrassed about getting caught practicing

But he assured you that he didn’t really care and that the rest of the team wasn’t coming for another 30 minutes or so

After hearing that you gladly accepted his offer to help you practice

You two actually got to know each other quite well during this time

So when the rest of the team started filing in to practice

You gave Semi your number and told him to text you if he ever wanted to hang out

You left just before Tendou started picking on Semi for blushing 👀

Anyways you guys became really good friends and would hang out A LOT

So nobody was too shocked when you both decided to start dating

But apparently Tendou and Shirabu had made a bet on it 😅

What They Love About You

He loves the fact that your kind

But will fuck someone up if needed 🙂

He knows he never has to worry about you

He loves that your a fellow musician

To him it’s just one more thing you two have in common

And it’s one more thing he gets to do with you

He loves how supportive you are

Even though you know that semi doesn’t get to play that much

You still show up to EVERY one of his games to cheer the team on

And oh god when he does get to play

I swear people from OUTSIDE the gym can hear you cheering for him

Honestly he doesn’t mind if your a simp 👀

There’s a teeny tiny 🤏 part of him that likes to be babied

Favorite Things To Do Together

Oml he loves for horror movie marathons

He absolutely loves them

Because A: he gets to watch almost EVERY single horror movie made

And B: he gets to watch them with you :D

Oh and he also loves to watch any and all marvel movies with you 👀

But other than movies

He loves to make music with you

Duh

It’s usually you both playing instruments together

But every now and then one of you will sing 🎶

Random Hc

You two write the CUTEST songs together

But you never ever sing them

Like wtf you two

One time semi offered to help you practice your spikes

And you accidentally hit him in the face 💀

Now he swears you have a better spike then ushijima 👀

Your friends mentioned your squirtle smile to him...

And now he can’t unsee it 🥲

Astrology

The security and flexibility they can give one another.

Once they open up to one another and to appreciate their different philosophies in love and in life, these two have potential for steamy relations, deep connections and heartfelt respect.

As long as they communicate and celebrate their differences, theirs will be a passionate relationship.

Both Scorpio and Sagittarius see each day as an adventure and as an endless opportunity to explore, to probe, to learn. Shared escapades bring them closer.

While Sagittarius may get fed up with Scorpio’s stubbornness and inflexibility, Scorpio could be thinking their Sagittarius mate is just a little too hotheaded.

They’ll enjoy learning together, and travel could be very beneficial for this pair.

Their relationship is always on the go!

Mars is the God of War, opening the door for Scorpio’s determined, courageous character.

Mars, when combined with Pluto, represents rebirth and renewal.

Jupiter focuses on philosophy, higher learning, expansion, optimism, luck and travel.

These planetary attributes — of growth, expansion and masculine energy — combine to create a sustainable relationship of mutual admiration.

Overall Aesthetic

90s

No Scrubs - TLC

Say My Name - Destiny’s Child

She’s So High - Tai Bachman

99 Red Balloons - Nena

[mego42]

I 100% agree about wanting more fanfic lists! I honestly think it's the best way to get a variety. Everybody has personal preferences, if someone, who mostly reads long, fluffy au Brio fic, is making recs, they're not likely to mention short, angsty, canon Brio (which is understandable and fair!) so ideally someone else, who does like those, would also do recs. I'm pretty sure I've read or at least tried the vast majority of Brio fics, but the recs often make me re-read the fic and author.

YAAASSSS!!! I mean like, okay, I v much get why people have issues with rec lists, and I def do not by any stretch endorse the idea that recs/rec lists should be considered anything other than one person sharing a think they liked, but to me a lot of the issues (the same fics/authors getting recced, feeling like awesome fics/authors are going unrecognized) can be solved by more reccing, not less. everyone’s got different taste and different stuff they look/read for and I am extremely pro sharing that.

Idk, I think about it like this: in a previous internet life I was a YA book blogger and I lived and died by recs from other bloggers whose taste and preferences I knew. I mean, you know, I’d check out a book bc the premise sounded interesting but literally the first thing I would do was go to Goodreads and look for a handful of people who tended to like the same books I did and see what they were saying about it bc that was the best way to get a good idea of if I wanted to give it a shot. Or, on the flip side, there were some people whose reviews I followed bc I knew we v much did not read for the same things so if they hated a book for X, Y and Z reasons, I was probs going to like it (one thing about book blogging is if you want to keep current, you do not have a lot of time to mess around, snap judgements are key but that’s a whole other thing and idk if it’s even relevant anymore bc that landscape has changed so much). 

ANYWAY, the point is, I got in the habit and now I do the same thing with fic bc, tbh, I don’t have a ton of time to read, esp not when I’m actively writing which, with the exception of the last week or two, I’ve been doing p non-stop since I got here. All of which to say is, I am desperately in favor of fic recs for purely selfish reasons, I need them! Give them to me!!! Please!!!!!

That said, I uh, am v bad at returning the favor and I recognize that (I think I’ve made what? two rec lists for this fandom?) so I will try to do better to live by my own, idek what this is, moving on and here are 10 recs not really thematically linked by anything other than I’ve read them and loved them and don’t think I’ve put any of them on one of my rec lists yet (and if I have, my blog is a trainwreck I cannot be expected to remember what’s on it LET ME LIVE):

The Goodest Boy by EnsignDisaster

There’s a key turning in the lock and Buddy rushes over to greet his Master excited for her to meet his new friends. The door opens and he dances around Master’s feet rejoicing on the fact that she’s made it home. It's been literally forever.

“Hey Buddy what’s wrong? Need to go potty? Need to pee-pee?”

“Nah he’s good we took him out.”

Master does something very unMasterlike, she drops all the food she’d brought in on the ground and screams. It’s a non traditional avant garde type of hello…Buddy loves it. Mostly because while Master taps furiously on her small light box and sits tense in the corner opposite his new friend Buddy can lick up the egg smashed on the hardwood floor.

Buddy! The! Dog! POV! no further explanation necessary. Technically WIP, but it covers the whole pilot in a way that could be read as standalone (THOUGH THAT WOULD V MUCH GIVE ME A SAD though, when did the show forget the Bolands had a dog? so maybe that’s a tragic casualty of canon, idk)

May The Moon’s Silvery Beams by @pynkhues

Emma hums in agreement, and Rio turns her around to sit her on the counter, grabbing one of the older looking boxes of muesli while she kicks her legs out, heels bumping back against the counter, watching him. He gropes around the inside of the box, finally just opting to pull the plastic cereal bag out and peering inside. He can’t quite keep the grin off his face when he sees the wad of cash lining the bottom. This woman kills him, she really does.

Then there’s a little face peering up beside him, trying to peek into the box.

“What is it?” she asks, and he tilts the box sideways so she can see inside.

The upside to not getting here until s3 is that old fic is new to me! Huzzah!! Idk how many of y’all have already read this on but if you haven’t I highkey recommend. Extremely cute take on what if Emma woke up when Rio and came by to collect his/Beth’s/whoever's money during the shutdown. Cannot believe I’m reccing kidfic. Witchcraft!!!!!!

Maybe You’re My Fantasy by ohmisterjapan

He fucking loves the involuntary. It speaks to how he likes to unlock chaos and walk away. He's been called a control freak before and it felt like such a misunderstanding of him - he's all about self control but he doesn't want to control others. It's more that he enjoys revealing to them how little they can control themselves. It's more that he likes to stand still in the eye of someone else's storm and pick coldly through the wreckage.

Another oldie but a goodie. This fic is more like an extended character study (first chapter Rio POV, second chapter Beth) and I LIVE FOR THIS KIND OF SHIT. I really really really love the take on both characters, it really digs in and pulls out some nuances that made me sit and think about my own read of them and I love it.

A Shock Of Blue by mintletters16

“You don’t look very well. Would you… like me to get you a glass of water or something?”

Her voice is low but smooth, laced with a softness that cuts straight though to his core. Strawberry blonde locks fall gently just above the pair of magnets freezing him in place.

He can still feel the chaos tearing through his veins - emanating from the gold plated gun stuffed in his waistband - and suddenly he can’t be here anymore. Can’t meet this wide-eyed gaze that’s been locked on his for the past God-knows-how-long anymore.

Can’t see blue alive and concerned when he just left it cold and void somewhere in oblivion.

She’s looking at him like he’s on the brink of madness. He thinks maybe he is.

Apparently, it’s backlist rec day over here and I’m not sorry. This one is another technical WIP but the chapter works as a standalone (BUT if the author decided to return to it I WOULD NOT BE MAD). It’s a what if Beth and Rio met pre-canon and it works so!!! well!!!! The tension and fascination and build are all *chef’s kiss* plus the writing is gorgeous and lyrical and ugh, I love it.

for a moment we were strangers by openhearts

“We got stuff,” Rio motions with a nod to the backpack Beth hadn’t noticed when they arrived hanging on the back of one of the chairs at the island.

She swallows and turns back to the dishes, realizing Rio apparently means to sleep there , assuming the place isn’t bugged.  Or for some kind of cover story if it is.  She turns and fixes Rio with a narrow-eyed stare, studying his face, the corner of his jaw especially prominent from the angle she’s looking up at him.  He’s methodical about drying each dish and setting it back on the rack, maddeningly ignoring her hard stare, so when he goes to take the next plate from her hands she grips it tightly and gets his attention.

“Hey.”

“What you on about now?” he asks, irritated.

It gets her gut uneasy, how he’s just . . . there, settling in, in ways he never had before, no matter how nonchalantly he would let himself in through her locked doors.  

“This is,” Beth tries, failing, to find words for it, “. . . it’s weird .”

This one takes place post 204 and Rio and Marcus end up spending a long weekend staying with Beth and Emma for reasons (that work, for the record, I’m just not trying to summarize rn) and it’s domestic and cute but honestly my fav part of it is how weirded out Beth is by how easily they slip into sync. The story does an excellent job balancing where they are in canon (uneasy post-sex truce) with a snapshot of what they could be if they got over themselves (HA! as if) and Beth is DEEPLY FREAKED which makes her slow slide into realizing she could maybe sort of kind of oh shit like it/him??? that much more satisfying.

Not So Careful by @bensonstablers

When he doesn’t answer, her eyes go to his but he’s too busy watching the letter opener which is still pressed against the back of his hand. Curiously, Beth runs it up his arm, careful not to press too hard, and smiles a little as he shivers. Pulling her leg up onto the bed, she shuffles closer to him before pressing the tip of the sword to his chest and slowly circling his left nipple with it, being sure not to get too close.

“You ain’t gotta be that careful.”

And when she lifts her eyes to meet his, he’s got that look. The one that always makes a lump form in her throat and for her to fall back into bed with him without a single thought of what they have to do that day. Only thing is, this time they’ve got nothing to do for the rest of the weekend and well, staying in bed the entire time had seemed like an appealing idea so she allows herself to give in a little to that look.

It makes me EXTREMELY SAD that knifeplay ranked so low on the kink survey so I’m gonna need y’all to check out this V V V EXCELLENT example of it and come back and tell me you’re sorry and you voted wrong. I am v reasonable what are you talking about.

love (where it wasn’t supposed to be) by @lilliloves

"You know what I can't stand?" Rio asks, stepping closer. It's a rhetorical question but he pauses for a second and watches Dean sniff, watches a bead of sweat trickle down his forehead, watches him shift on both his feet as he contemplates making a run for it.

"A guy who don’t realize how good he's got it." Rio continues, looking Dean up and down in disgust. "A guy that will literally fuck up a good thing just to get his dick wet."

"Yeah, well I can't stand a guy who can have anyone he wants but chooses the married woman he's not entitled to.” Dean shoots back. "And I really can't stand the fact that you're always in the room with us even when you aren't there."

And who brings him into the room Dean hmmmmm????? Jk, jk (or am I). In this one Rio catches Dean out on the town with another woman (bc of course he is) and tries to call him out but whoops! gets called out himself. I really love the like, idk, undercurrent of wistful regret in this fic. I love Dean straight up calling Rio out on his feelings (spoilers but there’s an exchange right after this one that made me straight up holler), and, you know, obvs I am here for Rio making Dean feel like an ass. 

Hell Is Other People by makemanybraver

Rio: We're in Hell, Elizabeth! If you don't think you belong here, then repent! Don't fuck everyone in the room in hopes that you get to go out!

Beth: Why do I have to repent?!

Rio: Because you did some fucked up shit in your life, Elizabeth! You keep doing fucked up shit here, too! And you think you don't belong here!

Beth [screaming at the top of her lungs]: Because I don't!

This fic is existentially bonkers and I love it. It’s the kind of experimental format/homage/what have you kind of thing that I L O V E. Based on No Exit by Jean-Paul Sartre, Beth, Rio, and Fitzpatrick are stuck together in a room in hell for all eternity. What more do you need, honestly.

Working On Things by odenkirk

Unknown Hold up, Elizabeth. I'm really thinkin about you here.

Beth turned her face into the pillow, effectively suffocating herself for a moment, but thinking it was a good trade off for the way the cool silk of her pillowcase chilled her skin.

She lifted her head to glance at the still sleeping Dean before replying.

Beth I'm thinking about you too. But this can't happen.

She wanted him to know she wanted him, but she also thought that admitting she was already there would save Rio from trying to convince her. She wanted him, but morals had to win just once in a while.

YES this is technically Beth/Dean while also being Beth/Rio BUT it’s also sort of Rio/Dean and I am HERE FOR THE DIVERSITY OF SHIPPING leave me alone who asked you.

Five Times He Knew What She Was Thinking, and One Time He Didn't by JoeyLee

Aight, so tell ‘em I was hittin’ it. Said deliberately blunt, eyes locked on her face the whole time, just to see those blue eyes widen. She looked so shocked that he almost laughed, so he softened it teasingly just to keep her going. Oh, I’m sorry, sweetheart, tell ‘em we were makin’ love.

Then he just watched her, just watched her face, just fucking fascinated. Her lips were parted and her eyes were big as saucers, and…there it was. Before she could look away flustered, he watched the thought go through her mind. Him and her together.

He wondered what she was picturing or where. Them in the back seat, her bed, a motel?  Her on top or him from behind or his face between her legs?

Whatever it was, the blush started immediately, and he watched it bloom out from her cheeks to her hair. Then she was tearing her eyes away to gulp a little.  But it didn’t knock her down for long before she was looking back. And then, wait, was she actually asking him how to go about telling a fed they were fucking?

Okay this is another technical WIP but works as a standalone. I am absolutely fucking feral for character POV takes of canon scenes and this is a supremely excellent take on Rio POV of some notable scenes from the pilot through 204. Imo it brilliantly captures Rio’s voice and I love it a lot. 

HEADS UP I am absolute shite at tracking ao3 to tumblr unless people have specifically told me someone’s ao3/tumblr name SO if you recognize any of the non-tumblr authors on please lmk so I can tag them and YES I recognize that I am asking y’all to do things for me throughout this entire post and I’M SORRY OKAY I’M A WHOLE ASS MESS LOVE YOU BYE

[arcanefaye]

I'm currently listening to Clinton Kane, and it's making me so sad :((

i really like 'forget about us' kinda makes me think about my dad, just because i wonder if he's forgotten about us :/

pfftt

anyways!!

i don't have the screenshots but Colton was being really funny in the group chat today, talking about something called "Drinking a gallon of Mtn. Dew then proceeding to pee it out neon green."

doesn't seem healthy... but we cheered him on anyways.

oh, but i wanted Ian to listen to egirls are ruining my life by corpse, and surprisingly he did... but i don't think he liked it;

well no. he walked into my room a few minutes later telling me how dumb it sounded so...

i recommend!!

-- hmm

maybe i should talk about my day? i'm not that great at this.

Well, for starters the day was good! i slept in a bit which was great since i have test coming up and i've been lazy on studying.

i find it ironic that my group and i made a club for studying, yet im still so lazy with it. Margaret and Amanda are great on helping me gain energy to study. which is very sweet of them.

Colton tells me that he pays attention in class but jusr copy's peoples homework lmao (!not a smart move colton)

im actually really hungry - there's food truck down the street and the ice has cleared up a bit so i should see if we can get some tacos or something.

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UPDATE!

food truck left right as i was about to ask, BUT Ian came home with some Chinese food sooo we had that instead. It tasted a little odd, so i wouldn't be surprised if Ian laced it or something :/

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can you major in overthinking? cause i definitely coud be CEO of

✨ overthinking ✨

i guess a mini rant rq - tw // insecurities - stress

so... school has gotten stressful lately, and to add onto that Ian and i have been fighting a lot recently. and i hate it. i normally fight with him, but this has been continuous... and i don't want to apologize 'cause it will make me look weak... but it just makes me more insecure with what he says. they're not nice - that's for sure.

he normally has this 'cold' attitude, but it's gotten to a point where it's too much, and it's too much fighting. too much drama.

adding onto that, grandpa has been really sick - meaning he has continuou doctors appointments. but he can't leave the house so the doctor has to come here, and the house was super messy today and i felt bad that he had to see that. especially since idk if it smelled bad... hopefully not.

i spent hours cleaning around the house cause i just felt bad... and Amara was also having a cry fest so i had to help her with that.

idk, i sound whiny... it could definitely be worse. but yea

TW OVER //

i want to tell my friends about this blog - but i'm not sure they'd like it.

oh that reminds me !!

i2iC gets all the news on new kids, but us being sophomores we dont know everything. and all the new kids are normally fre or grades above us. but i don't befriend people grades above or below me, because they somehow always know my brother - and it makes me uncomfortable when they talk about him. my friends thankfully think he's weird and would rather stick a needle in their eye than be friends with him. ... a bit harsh but colton has no filter.

anywho... we've only had one new kid in our grade, and they moved shortly after. BUT !! we have news that there's going to be a new kid in our grade! they're from Korea - so it'll be fun getting to know a foreigner!!

i hope they can atleast be our friend or hang out with us - my group can be chaotic, but we always have a warm spot for new guest!

anyways... i might go read for a bit then sleep.

or update the blog a bit more... other than that,,

see ya! :)

[mooifyourecows]

this is related to a bunch of fandom discourse shit, (TRIGGER WARNING) so you don't need to answer it if you don't want to. I've probably been too invested in twitter lol. I'm a minor and I've constantly been seeing the same message over and over again. What's your take on "ship what you want" when the people defending that statement are also including incest/pedophilia?

My take is that it doesn’t matter.

When you’re on the internet, you’re in charge of yourself and nobody else. It’s your responsibility to control the content you’re exposing yourself to, not control the content that other people are supporting/producing. Don’t mind them. Leave them alone.

What other people ship is none of my business and I genuinely don’t care what they’re doing with their fandom experience. UNLESS they’re bullying/gatekeeping someone else. Then I care. Don’t be a bully or gatekeeper. (When I say ACAB, that includes purity police ya know)

Fictional characters are incapable of being hurt or abused. They’re literal objects with no real feelings. You don’t need to protect them from the evil bad people shipping them in “problematic” ways. Worry about yourself. Protect yourself. Learn how to use the block button and tag filters and create the pure and unproblematic fandom environment of your dreams if that’s what you so desire.

This is the internet. There are no teachers or security guards roaming around to make sure everyone is following the rules. You’re going to see a lot of weird stuff here. Some of it you’ll like and some of it you won’t. Some of it is going to make you totally uncomfortable. That’s the internet, Bud. If you can’t handle the possibility of being exposed to content that you don’t like, then you’re going to need to find somewhere else to hang out.

Don’t like it? Don’t look at it. Someone ships something that you don’t approve of? Block them. Move on. The end.

It’s that simple. I’ve literally blocked people over their opinions on milk man it was the easiest decision I ever made and it cost me zero time/effort/money. 

Understand that nobody is responsible for you or your online comfort and there are ways to manage your virtual environment without projecting your preferences onto others and expecting them to adjust to suit you.

Just mind yourself and channel your outrage into something that actually matters. Like bullying nazis. Or spreading knowledge and positivity. Or tearing down capitalism.

If you’re making the conscious decision to spend your time on the internet harassing people for their ship preferences then I think you probably need to find a hobby, my dude. How boring and tedious you must be if THAT’S how you choose to spend your time in a landscape of endless knowledge and media and music and potential friends.

Use that uppity energy to make a blog for your pet lizard wearing funny hats or something. 

You’ll feel better in the long run.

[euphoriacrossing]

So while I sit here trying to get normal balloon spawns...

I may as well write a blog. I am using a guide post on how to catch normal balloon spawns to try and get more cherry blossom recipes. Well I am only half using it.. I am camping on the beach waiting for normal balloon spawns instead of going there every 0/5 ending minute. I'll share the guide on here after this if I remember, but I already got one new cherry blossom recipe just by camping on the side of the beach that balloon spawns are coming from and ignoring the bunny day balloons, so I think this could work, too.

Anyway, now story mode is over, but I still have so, so much to do that it's not even funny. I am making it my main priority to save miles up to buy all the different paths and stuff. I think I have three left to buy so roughly 6,000 miles to earn. But saving miles means making less bells as Nook mile trips are where I made the most, I think. And now I can't take them because I have no miles/am saving miles and so I don't have the bells to pay off my house or to build a new bridge or any of the things I am saving for. But in part the fact it is harder to save bells just makes it feel like I have more to do and that is comforting in a way. I want the appeal of this game to last forever but I know my brain doesn't work like that. Still for now it's the best distraction I have and I'm grateful for it.

Having the ability to make paths is tough because it's just another million decisions to make and hope I get it right or can redo it better or whatever, so that Euphoria becomes the island I dreamed it could be. Right now I have a lot of dirt paths and I think they look okay. But I plan on redoing them someday with either custom paths or maybe just the arched tile ones... I like that path style. Still I started when I just had dirt so I just kind of kept going that way.

It looks alright, I think, especially at the entrance. I haven't finished a lot of the paths on either the right (residential) side or the left (wooded area/orchard) but I have mostly finished the center which is shops and such.

(So far I've gotten a normal balloon spawn every 5 minutes! So it works to just hang around the beach and then look for the spawns at every 0 and 5 ending minute. Edit: Aw, nope just didn't get that last one... I am probably doing something wrong then. Oops Edit2: Definitely doing something wrong. Didn't get a spawn again. Oh well I'll check the guide again once I finish this post. I am also watching for wishing stars so it won't be a total waste.. though I haven't seen any of those either. Last edit: Guide said spawns don't happen every time AND I just got another regular balloon, so maybe I'm fine? I hope I am not just wasting time.)

I am moving most of the houses before I do the paths on that side which is ANOTHER expense for sure, but after seeing a couple of my friend's islands, I knew I could make the houses probably a bit straighter and I decided I want them not quite as closer together as I want everyone to be able to have a yard. One of my friends has houses that are PIN straight and have little yards to them. I don't think I can accomplish that. But I do think I can space them out far enough to fence them in and have little yards.

So I started with the last to move in which was Marina. I put her in a space both by the beach, and by my house because even though she just moved in we're absolute besties. No but honestly, I love her. She sings like everywhere she goes and it's adorable.

I would move Beau next but I think he might stay close to where he is. Unfortunately if I have to move him a little bit I first have to move his house out of the way and then move it back because you can't move buildings just a tad, you have to find a whole new spot. This is why I had to move the whole museum to a new spot as it was slightly out of line and i couldn't just move it to where it lined up. I wish i had known this when i put things there. I didn't take care placing anything because I knew it could be moved. I only ASSUMED it could be moved a small amount as well especially since I assumed correctly that you were paying for it. But no, so oh well, now I have to come up with new spots for things, that's fine. Luckily both Nook's Cranny and the Able Sisters I got in perfect alignment with resident services like I wanted to so they're all on one straight path.

Anyway, I hope I can get it looking like i want it to. I thought that decorating it how I wanted would be the hardest because I still need to find all the furniture. But the paths might give that a run for it's money when we talk about difficulty level if you include trying to get all the houses in the right position and such.

But as hard as I've been "working" (it's definitely still fun or I wouldn't do it) I have found plenty of time for play as well. Yesterday morning I visited a friend for her KK Slider concert. I luckily have a good group of friends from a discord I'm part of and a lot of them are from other countries so they experience stuff before I do and things like that. So a bunch of us visited her for her KK concert and we did some of that...

And then things got a little wild...

Lol, it was fun. I thought for a second about the state of the world but I didn't panic thankfully. I just saw a bunch of us coming together from across the globe, some of us in quaratine, almost all of us at least ADVISED not to go out unless necessary. The world is a scary place right now, but the fact we could still come together from across the globe to be silly and enjoy a game together makes me feel like everything might be alright. I mean, it would still be cool even if these things weren't going on, but the fact they are abd socialization is becoming more difficult than ever, it's cool to see an alternate means of that in action.

I can't believe I took no pictures of her super straight houses, ugh, if I go again, I will have to, they are literally perfect.

And the weirdest thing about all of this to me is how included i feel in all of this. We're all on a small AC discord together and it seems like a lot of them have maybe known each other a while. But unlike a lot of other places it doesn't feel cliquey to me. I've always been welcome to come to their islands, and they have always been very courteous when any of them have come to mine. They act as happy to see me as they do anyone else. And I've only known them a short time so it would usually feel strange to call them "friends" but it doesn't. Now obviously they could feel differently but if they do they don't show it. I am incredibly grateful to have found them. I really couldn't ask for a better group of people to play with.

I actually was invited from this tumblr. Likely after I made some kind of post about not feeling like I belonged in the AC community or something similarly emo and whiny, I'm sure. So I am surprised I was invited at all, but I am so thankful I was. It was just what i was looking for in the AC community.

(Yes! I learned cherry blossom umbrella! Balloon hunting is going fairly well considering I only had like two of the cherry blossom DIYs total before I started and now in about an hour I've doubled that.)

I do have some facebook friends and such I have play AC with, and I am also grateful for them as well of course. It has brought us closer together and I am thankful for that. I have one friend who we constantly send each other gifts like if we accidentally got two of something or a DIY we already have or just if we think something is cool, it's really fun. I enjoy mail as much in game as I do in real life.

But yeah, I was nervous when this game first came out that I would be stuck playing just with my sister. And don't get me wrong I love playing the game with her, we always have a good time. But sometimes you need socialization beyond your own family and I really saw this as my one chance to connect since I'm not very social, I am very anxious, and I just struggle with these things. I may have been right about it being my best chance at connection because I can hide a lot of the awkwardness in game. Very thankfully though, I found people who accept what I can't hide in game. And who accept me. For some reason that's just been really hard to do. Every community I am a part of I feel like an outsider until now. But yeah, I am looking forward to a continued friendship with these people and continuing to enjoy the game moving forward.

I guess I've rambled enough. I still need to get more balloons, but I can't write here forever. Though... I frequently do write far too much here and I wonder if it get read. If it doesn't I don't blame ya. But yeah. I will leave you with this adorable pic I took while Marina was singing... you can't really tell she was singing, but still, she's adorable either way.

(And don't you love this dress? I have it in I think 4 different colors, I just love it.)

[dotsz]

Ngl I've always wanted to be more invested in the Phandom, but It seems I can never really get "in" ya know? I've tried to do a lot of things but, it seems like what I try never works. I want to dm and ask blogs to interact, and I've tried joining the Phandom Baby Server... But none of it has worked. I'm stumped on what to do at this point and I feel like I don't belong. Could I get some tips?

i’m gonna be honest, it’s not an easy process!! joining a fandom and making friends can be hard at times, even in this one where it’s typically pretty inclusive and, in my experience, easier than others i’ve been in. i joined sometime in april 2018 and didn’t actually feel like i was really a part of it till the phandom phight club. granted, i’m p shy and never really went out of my way to talk to people, so i kinda blended into the background for a bit. overall, you just kinda have to put yourself out there. it can be a little hard but i have some ideas you can try

if joining the pbs server didn’t work, you may wanna try the official phandom discord, where p much everyone in the phandom hangs out. i’m not a mod so i can’t get you the invite, but i’m like 80% sure @dovahnicky is a mod, so you can try them? (sorry if it’s wrong ajshdks)

phandom events are a sure fire way to put yourself out there, since big blogs tend to run and reblog posts about it. dannymay is coming up and you can pretty much do whatever you want for it, from shitposts to art to fic!! it’s low commitment too, but it’s just a nice way to contribute that could be fun to try

the phandom has really chill standards when it comes to posts. don’t feel pressured to do super well on everything, to make high quality posts. we love memes and shitposts, and i personally really like to get more smaller artists/writers/whatever recognized, so if you want your posts or ideas out there more, please don’t be afraid to reach out!! re reblog your posts, or, if you joined a discord, there’s typically a boosting channel where you can promote it, or even dm me, i tend to be super excited when people come to me with new ideas, headcanons, art, etc

generally, don’t stress too much about how much you contribute, either. it’s okay if you’re more on the sidelines - we appreciate those who just reply and reblog posts so much as well, like. we see you and we love you okay, you’re super valid and it’s definitely a form of contributing.

also, people go absolutely apeshit over headcanons in this phandom, it’s hilarious. i’d def recommend following @reallydumbdannyphantomaus, their posts and submissions are super funny and they’re such a cool person!!

otherwise keep sending asks, dm people you feel comfortable with, send them posts or memes, whatever! i’m fine with it!!

here’s a list of people i’d also recommend following if you haven’t already, they’re super invested in the phandom and reblog a lot of posts and are just all around great people:

@lexosaurus@kinglazrus@dannyphandump@what-is-love-babey-dont-hurt-me@artistically-gay@purpleillusn@qlinq-qhost@phantombreadproject@babypop-phantom@dannyphantomisameme@fennecsus@ceciliaspen

(obv there are loads more y’all are great)

i hope this kinda helped a little!! remember that no matter how many followers you have or what people you interact with, as long as you love the phandom and the show (and you don’t even really have to have seen the show, honestly, lots of people here haven’t and that’s totally okay), you’re valid in my eyes. you’re a super valuable member of the community no matter what and we’re all so glad to have you here!!

[jjksblackgf]

hey, there

I'm officially back!

Remember when I said it would take me weeks to get back? lol It's been literally 7 days

First, I want to start by saying how much I appreciate the support you guys gave me, and to say thank you for the 'stay well' wishes. I loved reading it, and I'll remember every single one of them <3

If you want an explanation about what led me to take a hiatus, I'll leave one below the cut 🥰

So let me tell you what's next for this blog.

1. I'll scrap a couple of WIP's that I have (namely dámelo dos, papi and baller). They were good pieces of content, but my heart isn't in it, so they're out.

2. I'll focus on writing serialized material (like my lines series, eating you out series, etc), I like writing series much more than I like writing one shots.

3. In between the stories that I'll post, I'll give you guys some writing prompts that you can request. I'll release one prompt list later today, it's Valentine's themed 😁

4. I'll also focus a little more on visual content and social media au's *cof cof* blossoming *cof cof*

And that's all for now. Luv ya 💞

If you want to snoop below the cut, feel free to 😉 k, bye

Those of you that have been following me for a while, you know my tendency to self-sabotage, and that's exacly what happened.

I started to not like the things I was writing, and instead of scrapping that material to allow me to write things I actually wanted to, I insisted on finishing what I'd started.

That turned into a domino effect. I burnout super quick because I was spending my time in things that i didn't want to do. I have some triggers around doing things I don't want, which made me have a mental breakdown.

So I decided to take a few weeks off to cool down and sort out my thoughts. I really thought I was going to be out of here untill March, but thank God for the therapy that I've been doing for the past couple of years, because the I got my shit together in 48 hours.

The rest of the days I was itching to get back in here, but I decided I needed a break. And then, I made some goals for myself.

1. only write things that you feel like writing.

It sounds silly, I know, but really, having this in mind has taken a huge weight off my shoulders. That meant saying goodbye to projects that I didn't want to say goodbye to.

But being honest with you guys, I want people to like me so much, that what I was hanging onto was the potential validation that I would get from said projects.

So I need to put on my big girl pants and be the one validating myself, and learning how to love myself to the fullest, I can't let other people have that power over me, no matter how nice and good people they are.

2. log out of tumblr mobile and have a specific time to login into web

I'm getting so caught up in the need for validation that checking tumblr first thing in the morning has been my morning routine for months now.

And that's sad because it's not everyday that I have the amount of notes that I wish I had. That was leading me to think nobody liked me and nobody cared if i lived or di*d, and I need to understand that's not true. People do care about me, and they do want to see me be well and happy.

So I'll only be here to post and queue some stuff.

And that's all I have for today. Love y'all 💙