#i'm not going to do anything

[sga-owns-my-soul]

lol ignore this 🙃

i can't stop crying at work because everything in my life is going wrong and this stupid shit with my stupid cousin and family is upsetting me so much and it shouldn't be and i feel so fucking stupid for being bothered by this bc it's what i wanted!!! but no i'm wrong again and this time they're just all fully cutting me off and i'm working non fucking stop and still can't afford anything bc the world is going to absolute fucking shit and i'm just so sick of feeling like i can't do anything right ever and i've been feeling suicidal every fucking day for an entire fucking MONTH because of everything and my cousin was who i always reached out to when things got bad and i fucking can't because SHES NOT TALKING TO ME and i'm going to cry AGAIN FUCK

i'm so sick of this

i'm so sick of falling apart because of my family

i'm so sick of never being good enough

i'm so sick of feeling like this

i'm so fucking tired

[friendsofabracadaver]

[ikamigami]

I want to kill myself..

I just wish that I was dead..

I just wish that I was never a sams fan..

Apparently they love to make fun of fans who has mental issues..

Look, how they made Miku to act like.. I would never be so insensitive about such thing..

Davis is an asshole!

I hope that people will stop watching this shit flop..

I want to delete every little bit of everything I put out about this damn show..

I'm done..

I want to die from embarrassment..

I want rip my skull open.. bash my head so hard till nothing will be left of it..

I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I hate it here I

[lazylittledragon]

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hey now, Let her cook!

[geiyankii]

Not that I think doing this for people is transactional but I'm so fed up.

All my life I was basically put in a position where I was responsible for other's physical and mental well being, even as a child.

I had to take care of my father and basically parent him even though I was a child. Even my mother told me I was responsible for him and had to take care of him when he was making my mental health abbohorent.

Then I had to take care of my uncle, and my step father, and my mothers. Under the guise of the fact that family helps each other.

But whenever I needed something and wanted or needed help, people's reactions to it just left me with trauma. Things that felt more like threats and dismissal of my problems.

So much time when I needed help I was given what other people thought was help and not what I said I needed or wanted. I literally had plans to get myself independant sabotaged because I wanted to work a job (where my mother also worked and I'd worked at before), get my own place, and get more of an education and EVENTUALLY much farther down the road, leave that job for whatever I studied for.

It wasn't the only instance of something like this either.

It didn't matter if I was uncomfortable or what I wanted to do at all. Grown adults and people much older than me would throw tantrums to get their way and my entire existence was basically and after thought, I don't feel like I've ever been treated like a real, full human being.

And now because I had a flare up with my back problems, mostly due to stress I'm sure since my step father just up out of the blue decided he was done, asked about how I'd feel about him dating again on week and then a week and a day later he's moving out and getting married and making it impossible for the people living here to stay. It's suddenly "We don't know what we're gonna do with you" after being told by my uncle we'd find a place to live together since it'd be easier. Because "I don't think we'd be able to take care of your back". Without asking how bad my back actually is after all the testing, without asking what treatment is available and how effective it is.

Even implying I wouldn't be able to transition now as if it was some casual thing and not just compounding how horrible shit is right now.

Meanwhile this man never cleans up after himself, can't properly do the most miniscule household chore. Can't/won't make meals if they take more than 2 ingrediants. I'm the one that does all that. He doesn't even clean his place after eating dinner and is a typical mama's boy that acts like everything needs to be done for him and the world revolves around him.

I wish I hadn't been such a fool to think care would be reciprocated. I wish I had never given any trust to any of these people.

I'm so indescribably exhausted. My life has been a waste and with my family's typical life span, it's more than half over. I don't know if there's a point to going on anymore, even though I gave myself til 40.

It's pathetic and doesn't feel worth it for me to try to pick up the pieces.

[unforth]

Gentle reminder that very little fandom labor is automated, because I think people forget that a lot.

That blog with a tagging system you love? A person curates those tags by hand.

That rec blog with a great organization scheme and pretty graphics? Someone designed and implemented that organization scheme and made those graphics.

That network that posts a cool variety of stuff? People track down all that variety and queue it by hand, and other people made all the individual pieces.

That post with umpteen links to helpful resources, and information about them? Someone gathered those links, researched the sources, wrote up the information about them.

That graphic about fandom statistics? Someone compiled those statistics, analyzed them, organized them, figured out a useful way to convey the information to others, and made the post.

That event that you think looks neat? Someone wrote the rules, created the blogs and Discords, designed the graphics, did their best to promo the event so it'd succeed.

None of this was done automatically. None of it just appears whole out of the internet ether.

I think everyone realizes that fic writing and fanart creation are work, and at least some folks have got it through their heads that gif creation and graphics and moodboards take effort, and meta is usually respected for the effort that goes into it, at least as far as I've seen, but I feel like a lot of people don't really get how much labor goes into curation, too.

If people are creating resources, curating content, organizing the creations of others, gathering information, and doing other fandom activities that aren't necessarily the direct action of creation, they're doing a lot of fandom labor, and it's often largely unrecognized.

Celebrate fan work!

To folks doing this kind of labor: I see you, and I thank you. You are the backbones of our fandoms and I love you.

[puppyboyprincess]

I think my life would be greatly improved if I just ended it actually

[sapsolace]

obsessed w these boneheads as of late :]

[melvinthedepressedrobot]

the main reason i've never tried to kill myself is that i'm afraid of pain and i'm afraid of the nothingness of death

and yeah on some level it's because i don't want to upset the people who love me but

it's not even really a close second - not because i don't care about them but because i hate myself so much that i cannot believe i would make enough of an impact on them

my disappearance from their lives really wouldn't make that much of a dent, and I've had that proven to me

so i'm just here, existing, because even if i know the future's shit, i at least have some idea of what it is, as opposed to just... a nothingness my brain can't even properly conceptualise

[galactic-dragoness]

[zosanbrainrot]

I'm not just cooking, i'm baking a whole ass CAKE

not 100% happy with the design but I wanted to get it out of my system, I went for darker and more muted colors for Zoro while still utilizing the usual elemnts of his outfit like the sash and the haramaki. also the color palette for the full outfit turned out very tasty, like it makes me think of chocolate and sweets. not sure about the use of haramaki though, I feel like it makes the proportions a bit awkward when everything else is dark, but it does make the shirt fold nicely so I may keep it in the end

now that I'm further into WCI I think I should add a suit version as well for the wedding bit hmmm

My idea for this is after coming to Big Mom's territory and fighting her commanders they get to the Germa carriage just like in canon. Zoro watches Sanji fight Luffy, restraining himself from interfering. He respects Luffy's decision to not fight Sanji back, but the moment Luffy gets knocked down it's Zoro's turn to try and bring the cook around and he's not gonna hold back

a very tense fight ensues

[mildmayfoxe]

a lot of these candies have a lot of haters out there despite most of them having a lot of lovers too. but which one do YOU love despite it all??

[shivunin]

Because I have just seen this specific thing for the second time, I would like to say:

If I reblog your art, I do not expect you to reblog (or share!) my fic in return

If I comment on your fic, I do not expect you to comment on (or read!) mine in return

My enjoyment of anyone's work does not come with strings or expectations

My friendship is not a bill that you will have to pay later

That's it!

[merrigel]

I want it back = I drag its dead weight forward

[qqueenofhades]

oh god is biden dropping out? i don't know what happens then

Jesus effing Christ.

Few thoughts:

The billionaire Democratic donors got their way, apparently. All I saw was that the big-dollar donors were secretly putting pressure on the rank-and-file Democratic elected officials (i.e. House and Senate) to denounce Biden or not get any more money, and other shameful backroom maneuvering to knife Biden. I will refrain (lol, no I won't) from speculating that billionaires of any political stripe feel threatened by Biden's increasingly progressive tax/wealth redistribution policies, and saw their chance after the bad debate performance to knife him. Because until further notice, I'm going to think that was the biggest factor.

I don't know if there's an actual health condition that made Biden agree it was the best time (in fucking July) to step down, but if this was an issue, there needed to be planning last year, at the earliest, to prepare for a new successor. I don't know what's going on. This is a clusterfuck on many, many levels.

However: it is true that this does change things and not necessarily only for the worse, as long as Harris is immediately confirmed as the new nominee and this stupid Democrats In Disarray nonsense, which is giving the media exactly what they want, is put to a fucking end. If Harris is also swept aside and the billionaire donors try to install their preferred "Centrist!!!" candidate (lol Manchin or some shit) with an equally antidemocratic closed-door Star Chamber convention, then yes, we're fucked. Because the Congressional Black Caucus and African American voters saw exactly what the rich white man billionaires were trying to do by torching Biden and then Harris, and they are not going to play ball with some Magical White Man replacement.

If Harris is immediately confirmed as the new nominee (and to the best of my knowledge Biden has endorsed her), then she has a chance of reinvigorating the race. There were a lot of Americans who did not want either Biden or Trump. I suspect they were fucking braindead, but so be it. Harris has apparently polled pretty and increasingly well in recent days (in some cases actually better than Biden) and again, there is no remotely small-d democratic alternative to her. The billionaire donors already trashed the duly elected (by the primary process) Democratic nominee. If they do the same to Harris, then yes. We will have Trump and there won't be any more democracy in this country on either side, because the Republican big-bucks donors will gleefully pick up where the Democratic big-bucks donors left off.

Jesus fucking Christ.

The message needs to be "Harris is Joe's successor, she is younger and already has four years of experience and is the only candidate." Anything else is a fucking gift from god to the Republicans, once more getting trashed after Trump's terrible RNC speech. Maybe she can then pick Whitmer or Shapiro (both popular and effective Democratic governors of swing states, MI and PA respectively) as a running mate, but the nominee has to be Kamala. There is no other fucking choice. This is already enough of a mess.

If that can happen, and the fucking donors can refrain from fucking it up, then... okay. It's not great, but it does change things. It makes the ticket younger. It makes it historic (first Black female president beating Trump would be amazing). It could reach people disenchanted with the current two-old-white-guys setup.

This is an incredible sacrifice on Biden's part and I only wish that I could believe he did it voluntarily, rather than being forced out by a small class of rich people worrying about his policies getting too progressive.

I wish him only the best and I recognize this decision was taken under extreme pressure. If we then lose to Trump, I hope everyone who forced Biden out burns in hell.

I was a diehard Biden supporter not because I loved the guy personally, but because he was the only choice for preserving democracy in America. The essential stakes of the election have not changed, even if the billionaires just knifed us in the fucking back, possibly to nobody's surprise, because R or D, they are not our friends.

Kamala is the only choice. I will now have to defend her as hard as I did for Biden. She needs to beat Trump. There is nothing else to it. If you think she can't, then you need to work at helping her do that. There is already enough calamity and doom. We do not have a choice. We cannot lose sight of what is at stake here.

Kamala Harris/Whitmer and/or Shapiro and/or Buttigieg 2024.

The end.