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creaturecravings · 2 years

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I hate that I don't have energy for consistent close friendships :( or even rly distant friendships. Ever since I entered my perpetual autism burnout, every interaction is just too much mental energy than I can spare.

Overthinking what the other person really means, overthinking my reply, wondering if it'll come across how I intend, worrying it didn't make sense, worrying it was weird, rejection sensitive dysphoria when their reply is slightly different than I hoped.

I just!!!! I am lonely and tired

#rly sucks that i dont have any irl friends lol #well i have my partner but we only see each other occasionally rn #idk!! just a lil vent #ok to rb if you relate #autism #autistic #actually autistic #autistic burnout #neurodivergent #audhd #adhd #vent #leaf speak

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angelpuns · 4 months

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Pretty sure my parents think I'm a heartless freak but like idk what I'm really supposed to do about that-

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0xeyedaisy · 2 months

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Was gonna make a vent post talking abt how everything sucks but then something good happened so I'm okay now, I'm cured

#Still gonna vent a lil...#So things kinda sucks as of late for me #I have all these little problems. That on their own aren't that bad. But they just. keep piling up and become one big problem for me #One thing after the other. I am tired. Like emotionally. My mind is exhausted #At this point I keep thinking that something really bad is gonna happen #I try to be positive. I try to make all these problems not get to me #But man. It's kinda hard #Idk. I just don't know.#I just feel unlucky #Whatever. At least I still have my ability to draw. That's one of the most important things for me!#If I feel bad I'll just draw something. Maybe even for someone! I've been having fun drawing other ppls ocs :]#I feel better now btw. Sorry for the vent tho I actually don't like venting like this but also. if I don't talk abt this I'll explode.#So yeah. Hope everyone has a good day!

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danidrawsstuff · 3 months

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so i went to grad yesterday

rambling in the tags

#dani says stuff #i have... a lot of thoughts #im still thinking a lot of thoughts #i guess this counts as vent art/???? fdjkkjds #im just idk man the industry is rough rn #and i understand that it goes through its ups and downs i knew that when i jumped into the deep end #but this was the cherry on top of a cake #i truly felt like i was in a sitcom and they were gonna roll credits any moment #its just... such a choice of topic to say to the graduating batch from the school of creative media arts #in the age where meta wont let you opt out of their ai scraping tech #and adobe is claiming rights to artists work to train their own ai #its hard not to feel disheartened a lil tbh #three years of working myself to the bone only to get that at the end of it all #i laugh about it because if i dont i just get more upset #and honestly something about the sheer absurdity of it all does make it funny in a weird way #oh well back to drawing my silly little ocs it is <3 #vent art

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yesloulou · 7 months

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#im blogging like i don't have 2.3k today please scroll on and pretend you didn’t see this i just really need to vent a lil #the fact that 800 ppl apparently thought this made sense is so upsetting #max did not ignore carlos on the podium and if he did it would not have been funny #in the cool down room was NOT the wrong ferrari charles was fucked by his car which was a shame but carlos podiumed fair and square #max was also not pouting he gave carlos compliments like he would've any fellow racer he respects #finally that man was not down horrendous that day even by lstappen standard #these 'scholarships' are so so bad that they actually made me unblock il-p #she's so normal in comparison #tbd #idk #*

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tricksterlatte · 8 months

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Anyone else think short form social media based on algorithms designed to promote topics that create more engagement instead of more joy, the idea of fast fashion but conveyed through social media, and the fact you can monetize suffering and outrage better than ever has largely resulted in the death spiral of media literacy and the mass emergence of bad faith readings?

#I may be venting a lil but god it blows my mind #fyp is a blessing and a curse because i don't think ppl were ever meant to be subjected to this many ppl at once #god i took a bird site hiatus for weeks and now BARELY check it and it already feels like a hit #oughhhhh #even fandom spaces have hugely incorporated marketing and networking into them bc of cmms and sponsorship and building portfolio #which would be fine tbh if it weren't for the way socmed is designed #now it's like you can't support too many ppl or else you're shadow banned or you have to make yourself palatable and marketable #and websites with threads in which people will only read the first post before qrting because ratios are seen as five minutes of fame #features that permit beating an algorithm are locked behind a paywall that promises you money if you go viral #and what goes viral is usually incendiary content meant for those ratios or trends. whether for or against OP #even in hobbyist spaces the climate has changed so much due to the monetization and marketing and just. ugh #not to mention side accounts dedicated to gossip in this new priv account culture like...idk #if you have to make another account so you can make fun of a friend on main with selected priv friends it just doesn't sit well with me #and not every priv account does this but enough do and it makes me tired #unsolicited hate comments are still as bad as they used to be on ff dot net except now people openly are proud of it more #why do most socmed feel like passive aggressive sticky notes on high school lockers #there is so much more I could say about everything that has left me weary about the internet but I don't know the time or place #and I don't want anyone to think this is about them because it's a general statement. though if you are doing the more inflammatory things.#maybe rethink that. it's not good for anyone else and it's not good for you either #I keep coming back online to check on ppl and see art and I *know* it's draining for my health every time #but I feel a lot better now that i use socmed less overall. and that I try to focus on what makes me happy #it just sucks seeing so many people i care about endure absolutely wild struggles bc people online do not care.#I like rambling in my tags because this is the only place I ramble except my personal journal and to my wife

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thewingedgoat · 3 months

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Ya'll wanna know what's satisfying? Making a person who's been repeadatly going after your best friend realize that you're the thing they should be scared of. You barked and yapped and whined about things I had no control over, oh but the second I bear my teeth it was over. I wasn't even malicious, a mere warning and you cowered away as if I ripped your damn throat out.

You haven't even heard me growl properly, I think it would send you into a damn coma if you did. I've let you treat me like your personal little toy for so long, did your dirty work for you for so long.

'Mom'? My ass. All I ever did for you was your dirty work, communicate for you it was pathetic, on your part.

Pathetic is really the only word I have to describe you. Can't handle having fault on something. It's always someone else's fault eh? Piss on my leg then blame me for it?

Like geez you openly discriminate against a whole group of people because you were told you're overstepping boundaries, boo hoo hunny.

I know you'll see this, you can't help but to watch me. At what point will you finally become self conscious about everything you do?

either way, Gabe says hi~

#idk #vent ish #vent???#idk just a nice lil message #yk who you are

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pup-pee · 10 months

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i have artblock

the 1st drawings r recent(when i get artblock i just try 2 study anatomy idk)

transcript;

bernard; ok, so, listeners ask; jay, how is ur hair not damnaged? what deal did u have 2 make?

bernard; yeah whats ur secret?

jay; would u believe asian magic?

bernard(@ the same time); i mean how can we b sure-

jay; ber-

bernard; wait-

jay; ber!

bernard; wait! yk what i meant!

(thers a jump here bc i was 2 lazy 2 draw)

jay; im coming out again; ive been exposed. my hair is actually from my deal w/batman whos actually the devil

bernard; shup up shut up shut up omg

jay; 50 video special ill b cursing ber. get ready!

baernard; i h8 q n as

#srry 2 bernard who i made look a lil stupid kinda not rlly #he wasnt talking about jays hair @ all #by the “how can we b sure” he means in a “how can we bsure u havent made a deal?”#bernard dowd #jay nakamura #dc #“y did u make this?”#IM SRRY IM SO TIRED OF PPL QUESTIONING ASIAN HAIR PLS #“how is ur hair not burnt off?” “shouldnt u use less?” “is that ur real hair color?” “is ur hair real?”#hcing jay as having anime protagonist hair tho #cause i wanna b silly #2 any1 whos ever touched my hair trying 2 change it & ive told u “yeah thats not gonna work” & THEN U DID IT ANYWAYS FUCK U #im a lil angry lol srry #do ppl not know what poc ppl look like @ all or?????????#no cause ive been complimented on my “tan”...#its just my natural skintone wtf so u mean? i spend all day inside IM PALE AF WDYM TAN????#im ranting in the hastags LMAO GRRRRRRRRR #i just get rlly fed up w/just things i think #fksdlhgkjs idk wanna vent but i think i accidentally did a wiwltte whoops #oh “y did u make this” i wanted 2 color bernards hair lol #its such a dyable color!!!!!!!#colour??#WHICH WAY DO U SPELL IT????? THEY BOTH LOOK FINE 2 ME #ive been eating bread slices its pretty good #puppeeart #yeah im just trying 2 like fill out the tags again bc i think its fun #weeeeeeeeeee #every1 eat potato bread its fluffy & cheap(@ least where i live)#also screw my mom 4 living in la 4 a bit & giving me some of her valley accent actually #how dare u!!!!!(its entirely my fault bc i pick up ppls accents all the time klfdhsjkhf)

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tamedstray · 1 month

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I'm here to write but need to get something out of my system first (it's nothing bad dw) but there is one (1) muse who I have written longer than Vi and she's so similar to Neve Gallus it's not even funny. I'm scared people will think I'm just copying Neve right when I'm missing my girl so hard 😭💀

I might write her on discord tho 👉👈 her muse is too low and distant rn for a blog, I just miss that girl

#south asian ✅#amputee ✅#works with secrets ✅#kinda noir vibe? idk im just working on fandom vibes i havent read the books ro comics ok ✅#ooc.#ooc. tbd #anyway have my lil vent

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gawayne · 3 months

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#gonna do a little throwback and vent a bit here lmao #I may have pushed myself a lil far by doing a couple impact scenes and then wandering thru a bunch of crowds to watch the fireworks 💀#felt incredible on sunday night had a bad panic attack last night and haven’t been right today I just feel so down and strange #idk if it’s cause we got to discussing trauma and mental illness or if I’m just a lil depressed but I’m in a very pre-medication headspace #and then I rly feel bad cause he walked me home so he was out later than me and then soon after he got home there was a shooting near where #we were. and he’s the one who gets nervous about being out at night I’m always flippant about it #n I feel stupid and careless keeping him out so late just making sure I was alright #idk idk. hoping this is all part of coming off all that adrenaline and I’ll be normal in a couple days #I didn’t anticipate it at all cause the pain was pretty light. but it was all insanely good so maybe it’s more about how high up you get lol #idk! advice welcome if you’ve had a similar experience hdjfjsj

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wildwood-faun · 4 months

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got soooo many things happening in the coming few weeks and it's p much all things I've been looking forward to but because it's so much in such a short time it's making me feel kind of unsettled and sad

#biggest thing rn is plant dyeing course which is something i've wanted to do since FOREVER but now it's nearer and I'm 🙃#and i don't want to do my usual pulling through difficulties thing which is idk mild dissociation until it's over #cause it's things I wanna do!!#anyway don't mind me feeling sorry for myself because fun things are happening i just needed a wee lil vent #applied faunology

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i-wiggle-i-squirm-bc-i-am-a-worm · 2 years

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thank goodness she got the ladybug miraculous

#I mean Gabe sucks but being the moth/butterfly holder is probably made 10x easier when you can afford a whole separate room for ur lil gys #where I live rn we have a sponge moth takeover #it was really bad in the fall but even in the dead of winter these guys are still in my room #this happened to me this morning and I'm still fucking mad abt it #nothing like opening your phone and being jumpscared by moths flying to your phone #also I know it's the butterfly miraculous but I just need to vent abt my moth situation #miraculous lb #marinette dupen chang #miraculeakless #also is the ml fandom safe to join again?? I've been gone for so long I miss it #miraculous au #I guess?????#this is just a dumb little comic idk but yea technically au #wiggly's art

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brainrot-stitch · 2 months

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Ough

#vent post #why can i not. look tbe way i wwnt #starts violently biting adn tearing at the fabrics arounf me #what the.freak!!!#ehy does everything always hurtall the time #tweaking out #gang the demons are getting my ass again #if i suddenly dropped dead that would fix me i think #i feel like such a fucking bitch for being unhappy with my weight because like. idk. is it fatphobic?? ive heard it be called that before #and also other ppl who have similar weights to mine are happy so. why should i not be #i giggle and i laugh and i joke but why am i actuayly like this browgat the freak #alsow hy am i soo fucked in the head #im like “teehee i just got silly as i grew!” HELL NAH. i was a lil fucked in the head as a KID😭😭😭😭😭#i remember going to bed one night and my mom was gonna read a chapter of a book to me and i specifically chose the torture chapter and it #caused a huge argument in the family #and i also drew SO MUCH GORE in elementary school #like girl😭🙏you have never been exposed to this. what is up with u #there are also a bunch of other instances but my vent art back then was also wild. as in more gore #now its just weirdly abstract with bright colors and a lota eyes #lots. lots of eyes.#whwre was i going with this #idk i hate my head. my little fucked up little brain #the way i think is crazy because emotions are usually depicted as scenes or images or feelings(its different than emotion trust)#and theres still blood. theres so much gory shit in my head. like girl get out of there!!! thats not where u belong!!!!!!#and then also the daydreams #ougghh the daydreams....#i hate the daydreams i wabt them to stop so bad but i physically cannot and also they r one of my few sources of comfort ESPECIALLY in #situations i cant get out of or distract myself in any other way #and sometimes its fine but also sometimes they fucking suck and its scary because im not here im THERE and so much shit happens there #lore drop

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lying-on-floors · 13 days

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I cannot properly emotionally regulate myself without medication and it sucks so much more when people in your life are active assholes who like riling you up bc it's funny to them.

my sis in law called me and my brother was with her and he decided to give me shit FOR 20 MINUTES bc of me going to my friends house (19, currently unemployed, uninsured and living with mom) and not my friend coming over here. At first, it was fine, annoying, sure, but fine, BUT THEN HE KEPT GOING.

AND THE ROTTEN CHERRY ON TOP OF THE SHITTY CAKE was my sis in law asking if my friend was "just a friend," AND OFC HE IS BC I AM GAY. GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY. I LIKE WOMEN. I AM A GIRL KISSER. I'm not out to them because I don't feel safe or comfortable coming out to them bc they're republican conservative christians (Catholic) but men and women CAN BE FRIENDS.

So, when medicated, I can emotionally regulate myself A LOT EASIER! And I'm unmedicated bc I don't have health insurance, and I can't get health insurance BC I LITERALLY CANNOT AFFORD IT. MY MOM CANNOT AFFORD IT AND MY BROTHER BELIEVES I DONT NEED IT BUT I NEED MY MEDICATION. I've been off of meds for TWO DAYS and I've already spiraled into emotional instability and I don't have access to free Healthcare right now SO I CANNOT GET MY MEDS BC I HAVE NO MORE FUCKING REFILLS!

I am losing my shit rn. I cannot keep doing this shit (life) unmedicated. I cannot emotionally regulate myself, which in turn causes me to regulate by hurting myself and breaking things in my house bc I refuse to take it out on someone BUT IT DOESNT HELP THAT MY MOM IS KIND OF AN ABUSIVE POS AND SHE KNOWS IM UNMEDICATED.

GRRRHAHSHSHSJKRISJSHAHSBSHGRAHRAHARAHARAHRAHEHDJKSIAJANAKAKAKAAKKSHTKSIRUURUUDJSHYBDJJSJ4NTK

I'm fine, though.

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peter-weir · 20 days

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desperately feeling like i need to do something to make sure i’m not wasting my life! i want to travel somewhere and have plans i follow through on and momentum! anyway opening instagram was a bad choice

#i go through phases of just avoiding insta for like 3 months and then peeking a bit #and everyone is like traveling overseas and doing things and i’m like 🥲#idk maybe also cause it’s warmer weather and life feels more sped up now?#can never shake that ‘time is running out’ feeling #also like. the depression. is a factor #anyway i’m doing better than i was!!#this is just my lil vent for the day 😇#life #personal

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aprincessofthevoid · 23 days

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Lil ranty here I apologize, but my Dr's office is useless

How tf does a doctors office LOSE results from a Holter monitor test??? Like you mfs think I just F O R G O T being hooked up to wires n tape n shit for 3 gd days??? Hello??? I fr need a new doctor... this office also lost multuple referrals to diff specialists

Which BTW when I got into see the ppl eventually conformed I have a GIGANTIC mass on my uterus that's trying to glue itself to my spine AND the other one was an audiologist who confirmed I had minor hearing loss... not a call back about either. No fucks given...

Best part?? I asked to be switched to a diff doctor cus there's one seeing 3 outta 4 of my immediate fam that lives here (One just doesn't live as close to this clinic as the rest of us) and they claim they don't swap patients between Dr's... yet I've seen 3 other doctors at appointments that were SUPPOSE to be "my" Dr and only saw my ACTUAL doctor when I had a breakdown and told their upper management about all the bullshit and issues and misreading of results I'd experienced (skipping the 8x8x9cm mass and reading where i had a 2cm cyst)... so they got in trouble and are revving up the damage control rn cus I probably COULD fucking sue for medical neglect at this point... OH and the referral that they supposedly made that the specialist, said specalist claims they had absolutely no record of. Not that I like, missed it, or it got denied. It NEVER HAPPENED lmfao.

Also this is all a bigger issue rn with my uterus trying to glue my organs together cus I found out I'm pregnant... and was apparently suppose to have my first appointment with the OB like 7-8 weeks... I'm 8 weeks 3 days rn and they don't have an opening for almost 2 weeks... cus one of the mfs are going on a short vacation... yall pray for me cus I'm either gonna have to go full Karen or imma fr have to resist burning the place down at this rate...

#aprincessofthevoid speaks #words #vent #ranting #rant #medical bullshit #medical neglect #endometriosis #endo #im so over it #lmao #by time theyre of use to me ill be able to know the sex #they also wanna send me for genetic testing and i can take the free one or pay like $560+ for one that tests for a lil more???#idk #sounds like a money grab #one dr kept asking if i had insurance so they might just be greedy #btw im canadian healthcare is free i shouldn't be paying for ANYTHING

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