#idk wtf is wrong with me

[kissoflightning]

DBH character's reaction when they farted audibly and you called them out on it

[landlockedcorsair]

For all the things I cannot feel or understand, why tf do I experience obsession? Why tf can I experience parasocial connections? I barely connect to people who live with me. I can barely comprehend those I’m closest to. What’s the difference? Maybe the parasocial is similar to how it feels to read a book? It’s on the same spectrum as imagination?

Growing up, when I had crushes, it felt quite similar, so I suspect it’s related to fantasy (pg) and imagination or creativity. It’s my brain making it feel significant because it’s nicer than being alone. My brains filling in the gaps, fitting someone else into a role. That’s my suspicion.

But it makes me wonder. It feels related to my sapiosexuality. My most intense attraction is felt towards those who I think are intelligent in a way I’m not, or a way I wish I was. Or even in a way I am, who express it differently than I could. I don’t see intelligence on a line, I see it on a spectrum in every direction.

I guess to tie it all together — I fixate on what I aspire to be, or the ghost of what I could have been; if someone exceeds my abilities or is more clever, I can’t help but getting tripped up. Your “attraction” is my obsessive fixation trying to figure out how to be better than everyone else. As I am a distorted mirror of anyone who perceives me, so are all others a reflection of my eviscerated ego.

[milkbones]

I'm obsessing over someone emotionally unavailable, and idk wtf is wrong with me. I've tried keeping myself busy and distracted, but it isn't helping. Sometimes I really hate my brain. 😭

[eatpastaandrunfast69]

i can not for the life of me figure out how in the bubble butt fuck im supposed to start chatting in a discord server like do i just say hi??? do i come up with an introduction??? like i joined a redacted server and literally all ive done is ask abt roles and read all theyre chats THATS IT LMAO

[fuck-off-im-ace]

You ever dissociate so hard that you see your bus coming, think to yourself "i should get my wallet out and signal to the driver that i want to get in" and then you stay there, completly unmoving, watch the bus driver stop a bit to see if you want to get in, get puzzled by your stare but absence of movement and just drive off slowly? Just me?

[ritathesongbirb]

crack fic idea: there's an Eevee outbreak outside Medali so mc spends an absurd amount of time (read: multiple weeks) shiny hunting and it doesn't escape a certain gym leader's notice. Shenanigans ensue

[epiphanygoddess]

Muzan to Kokushibo: 👁️ 👄 👁️

Muzan to Everyone: 🕳️ 👄 🕳️

[lost-my-sanity1]

the category is cheek thingey and they're winning it😭

(are they really rivals with THESE materials in them????)

[redjukebox]

Does anyone else feel like they get really defensive of autism when it’s brought up for any reason? Like, idk if that’s the right word but anytime it’s brought up I get really defensive of myself, even if I’m simply watching a video talking about it in some way.

I’m watching a video of someone relating it to dhmis and their talking about their experience growing up with it and I just have this scared defensive feeling.

I don’t really know how to describe it

Like I’m angry, scared, sad and defensive

Maybe it’s because I’ve gone my entire life without a diagnosis and no help so when I hear about people’s experiences (good or bad) I get jealous?? Idk but it’s so weird

Like it’s to the point where I avoid content surrounding autism

Maybe it’s because it’s easy for people (neurotypicals mostly) to get info so wrong and I’m scared the info will be wrong and I’m so tired of info being wrong?? I really don’t know

Does this happen to anyone else (specifically autistic people)??

[themightycourtjester]

Ugh- I don't even know if what I've been experiencing(more frequently, not rarely like before that'd I'd just pass off as the shivers or just a random twitch) are seizures or not, but they're super stressful and distressing. It doesn't help that right now, I'm at a point in my life where everything is overwhelming the fuck out of me.

I managed to bump up an appointment with my GP for Monday, and I'm probably going to see if she can refer me to a neurologist or an epileptologist(or both) because this is stressing me tf out. There is family history of seizures, my mom had one back in 2019 and my older sib has epilepsy.

I'm just so overwhelmed and I have no idea wtf is wrong with me. It seems like as soon as I start working on one health issue, another one pops up!

[p1xel-ra1nb0w]

Im way past my period so I'm probably just depressed atp.

[onlygayinthecomics]

My body is so tense I'm literally shaking lol

[ekiveki]

Slightl tw for venting and cursing

(It's ab weight)

Yk when you lose 8kg and nobody you hang around says anything?

Like, you starve yourself and they dgaf?

They know you skip almost every meal and don't know the last time they see me eating?

Like, you lose 8 fucking kilograms and they don't say dog shit?!

Like nothing changed

Like they don't care

Like I did all of that for nothing?

It's eight fucking kilos, the human eyes sees the fucking difference after 3 kg, they could have seen the difference almost 3 fucking times

And now I cannot eat normally?

Do I try to maintain my weight? Do I try to lose more?

I mean, I now have under-average weight and before I had a bit over-average and nobody says shit?

Well, my family does but that's cuz they no me like family, yk?

It's not the same

Plus, my fam doesn't know how much I don't eat

Like all of this shit is fucking too much

[leasbeansurprise]

Pimples and moles

I was starting to feel like I was becoming a mole, the kind of mole that’s hidden in your own body, like the mole I have in the outer corner of my right eye, right in between my lashes and waterline, I was becoming a mole that you forget about and then when you see it it’s just like, “oh, that’s right!, you exist, I confused you for makeup “ I didn’t want to be like that anymore, I wanted to be a pimple, an annoying bright red pimple you get in the tip of your nose right before an important day, I want to be noticed and remembered, I want to be talked about, I want to be SO there it annoys people. I hope I’m starting to get to that path, I just have to remind myself every time I look in the mirror who I want to be.

[aejiee]

Old man yaoi

[aasthamoon]

I am melancholy personified, the fear painfully curls itself in my spine. My life is needle in my mouth and I am hopelessly searching for thread to stich my tearing life.

I am no longer able to pull words out of my teeth, and even if they somehow escape they tend to disappear in the space between two breaths.

Inside a body that once was a home to sprouting poetry is now filled with rotten hollow words.

It shouldn't be this empty inside a body that used to hum the songs played in radio.

Those eyes which once shined like diamonds in dark, they don't deserve to be clouded with tears and dark hollow pits of hopelessness.

It shouldn't be so empty inside a body that once used to radiate so much love.

Yet this emptiness, sometimes, swallows me whole.

-aastha☽∞