#idr the tag lmao whatever

[tethered-heartstrings]

total word count goal: 12360 current word count: 14577 😎

[roostertuftart]

Look I dont think youre wrong about people not listening to jewish voices but I am uncomfortable with you advocating so strongly for some groups while being shitty with others like when you liked a post by a racist justifying their use of the nword in the past and never talked about it. Jewish people need to be spoken for but how you pick and choose is suspicious and you cant expect other people to admit their biases when you cant admit your own.

??? Are you seriously trying to say that my concern for someone who was clearly in the midst of a mental breakdown makes it so that I can't support another person trying to speak about how depictions of a character are somewhat problematic???? This is. pathetic but thanks for trying to word it in the most uncharitable way possible lol.

edit: god i definitely worded these tags aggressively so I'm probably gonna make a real apology though I'm not even certain I did what anon is accusing me of??? either way my aggression is more towards them for trying to twist this situation so grossly and not towards anyone genuinely affected by whatever I apparently did (And I am not denying I did... I genuinely don't remember but like... Yeah it was definitely not great on my part if I did what they're saying even if my intentions were different, and the fact that I'm unsure is evidence enough to me that I might have)

Moreover, i have a hunch this anon has sent me bait before and I think it's nasty they're trying to twist an issue about antisemitism into whatever stupid beef they have with me. like... nasty.

Final edit: Any more asks from this anon are being deleted. I wouldn't have even published this one but I feel like that would be sort of hiding any wrongdoing i may have done at any point, but I genuinely do not believe this person means anything they're saying and are only doing this because for whatever reason they do not like me. and I. do not care lol

[enjomo-arch]

Name — Azz  (  but  friends  also  call  me  leo  /  lee.  ) Pronouns — He  /  Him Preferred comms — I  don't  really  mind  the  comms.  IMs  /  Dis.cord  both  is  good.  on  discord  i  have  easier  access  to  reply  when  i  play  games  doe. Name of muse — the  infamous  pirate  narcoleptic  and  walking  matchstick  portgas  d.  ace  Experience in RP — honestly idr ...it's  been  a  long  time  for  sure.  like  7  years  ?  at  least  online. Best experiences — i've  had  many  good  experiences  around  i  think  it's  always  meeting  new  people  to  talk  with.  i'm  like  -  i  can't  shut  up. Pet peeves / dealbreakers —  personal  pet  peeve  is  just  people  trying  to  water  ace  down  as  a  character.  dealbreakers  ...  the  usual  getting  upset  over  whatever  ace  said.  Muse preference ( fluff, angst, smut ) — i  write  what  i  am  given  tbh.  i'm  laid  back  on  smut,  i  can  write  fluff,  angst  is  good.  whatever  is  on  the  table  i  am  just  happy  to  write  it  down  and  have  fun. Plot or memes — memes  cuz  with  plotting  i  gotta  have  any  idea  in  my  pea  sized  brain  to  approach  people  with  it. Long or short replies —  i  tend  to  go  off  in  my  replies  so  i  do  long  even  if  i  don't  need  to.  i  wish  i  could  be  less  insane  and  write  short  stuff  without  setting  the  scene  for  2  paras  lmao. Best time to write — i  write  when  the  winds  carry  me  words  and  the  stars  align  (  morning  or  night  ) Are you like your muse —  i've  had  people  call  me  ace  instead  of  azz  so  i  guess  there  is  a  point  lmao.  in  some  aspects  ace  is  way  too  intense  in  comparision  to  my  own  chocies  but  i  guess  from  different  sides  i  can  relate  to  him.  

tagged : @lobiita tagging: @vonerde , @vulpesse , @goldenfists , @futurepiratekiing , @isutoburu

[starscelly]

15 QUESTIONS, 15 (or whatever) TAGS

thank you @eliooliver83 for tagging me !! i for sure did not forget to do this for like. a whole day. <3

1.  were you named after anybody?

i think one of my dad's family members, idr which one though lmao

2.  when was the last time you cried?

i think i stress cried like two days ago about my schedule. maybe yesterday lmao im a big crier unfortunately

3.  do you have kids?

i have a cat so like kind of

4.  do you use sarcasm a lot?

i would say so i guess!

5.  what sport do you play/have you played?

i would come home and play basketball a lot growing up, but as in officially being on a team and stuff, i did gymnastics for a few years as a little kid, and then switched to soccer until like mid middle school. and then i switched to the most extreme sport (theatre run crew).

6.  what’s the first thing you notice about someone? 

uhhh i have no idea. hair actually maybe? mostly im trying to not like disassociate and remember their name so lmao

7.  eye color?

dark dark brown, almost black

8. scary movie or happy ending?

scary movies are the only things im okay with not having happy endings, so i guess scary movie? my family is huge into horror

9.  any special talents?

im good at picking up art mediums pretty quickly i'd say? i can name stanley cup winners back to the 1940s off the top of my head which is clearly very useful and cool.

10.  where were you born?

like 30mins outside of boston

11.  what are your hobbies?

this lol. drawing, reading, video games, going on walks and drives, etc.

12. do you have pets?

i have my beloved cat, but im living with my family atm so there's also another cat, a small dog (both are "the family's"/my mom's), and then two big dogs (my brother's) here.

13.  how tall are you?

5'7"-5'8" which basically makes me a giant in MA.

14. favorite subject in school? 

i lived in the pottery classroom my senior year of hs bc that teacher was and still is my ride or die but. not including visual art stuff, i usually liked english and history classes

15.  dream job?

i'm studying to be an art teacher atm so probably that! there is the pipe dream of doing something hockey related but idek what that would be so

tags: aaaa if i tagged you for the last thing or you just want to do this please feel free!!! i love being nosy and learning things abt my mutuals <3

[butterbeb]

it's oc time babey

[steal-this-album]

4 for the fandom ask game?

4. Favorite show/book/fandom/etc?

oooh good question :o at the moment it is hermitcraft and 3rd life/last life smp!! :D maybe i'm more engaged with it because it has much more an active fandom/constant supply of content compared to my other special interests lmao (though i do get more comfort out of coraline and monsters inc/monsters university :D)

[detective4blog]

@nio-bee-um well yeehaw man

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Send me an ask with the title that most intrigues you and I’ll post a little snippet of it and/or tell you something about it! And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

Ah boy, time to see how many WIPs I truly have........laughs nervously. (Also dw I'm breaking this into ships as well 😭✌️) oh and sidenote all my WIPs are on Wattpad and that site never fucking loads my descriptions so yeehaw, half of these are me guessing 💔

Johnitary:

John, Desr: AU (?) of John being on a dating app and meeting Jim. Idr if this is before or after The Great Game.

Rubber Band: I don't remember what the fuck this one was about whoops.

There's a few Oneshots in drafts too but I don't title those so moving right along.

The Crossovers™:

Shoulder Touch: Criminal Minds and Sherlock crossover, Spencer Reid/Sebastian Moran. It's cute as fuck tbh shut up.

The Hunter, The Angel, and The Psycic: Yes I spelled it like that shut up. Supernatural and Pysch crossover, Dean/Castiel/Shawn. Don't ask.

Mormor:

Restarting. . .: Why did I do the three dots like that? Anyway. Cyborg Sebastian AU, he nearly died and lost memory. It's an oldie actually.

Ordinary Tiger: Ugh I need to rename this one. This isn't actually a full on draft but it's a WIP bc editing. Coffeeshop AU with some ordinary!Sebastian. Oh and a sprinkle of pastel AU bc fuck it. Jim's the same fuckin bastardly simp. Basically the live in fic™ but Sebastian is actually an adorable ordinary person.

Johnstian:

Broken Bullet: My take on the post-Reichenbach fics that frequent this pairing. Anyway.

Wolf Eyes: I do not know anything about this one since I didn't write shit down in it and my description ain't loading, I do know it's Johnstian bc I remember talking about it with Crow.

Mystrade:

Side note I completely forgot half of these existed till now

One Week: Fake dating vacation, Idr why they were fake dating exactly. Oh and pining.

Time Together: Greg considers retirement, Mycroft is a pining idiot, and Greg is a flirty little shit. The only word written for this is "surprisingly". Wow.

Jars or whatever the fuck Ethan Mars/Norman Jayden was called:

Handcuffed: Soulmates AU, I think it's the "world is black and white till your soulmate touches you", takes place during the "Fugitive" chapter

Codywan and Cody/Obi Wan/Satine:

Dialtone: Modern long distance AU, also has Rexwalker. I think they meet at a party or somethin' similar.

Fairylights: Another Modern AU but this time it's Satine/Obi Wan/Cody. I think they were roommates in this one.

Blissful Chaos: Not modern AU but it is Cody/Satine/Obi Wan. I think AU where Satine lives for one and for two Palpabitch doesn't get to do shit so post-war.

Fics I Don't Have The Heart To Delete:

Purriness and Bugaboy: Starts crying. Miraculous Ladybug fic, reversal AU I think (Adrien is Ladybug, Marinette is Chat Noir, but Adrien is still the flirty superhero???). I think this was one of the first real fics I wrote.

Dinner?: Whatever the fuck Oswald/Edward from Gotham is called. I gave up on it bc I didn't know what I was doing lmao bye.

And that's it that's all my WIPs that are not oneshots!

I do not know enough people to tag so fuckin. @satan-incarnate-666 @hitoshi-toshi @bookshop-cryptid @conduitstreetcat @anyone (also no pressure!)

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #391

“if you wanna soar with vultures, you’ll have to swallow crow”

Have you ever been to Australia? No. I want to visit a friend there, but honestly, Australia scares me too much lmao. That place is like, the Hard mode in life. Who was the last person you know to have a birthday? My sister's husband just had his. Are you wearing a necklace? If so, describe it. No. Do you know anyone who is left-handed? My best fren. Ever wear out a CD? What was it? Haha, yeah... I caused a few scratches on Ozzy's Black Rain, as well as one more of his, where the album name is surprisingly evading me. What’s your favorite card game? Magic: The Gathering. What’s your favorite fast food meal? Burgers or chicken tenders are usually my go-to, depending on the place. Where is the best restaurant you’ve ever eaten in at? The Cheesecake Factory. @_@ Lamb chops or pork chops? I've actually never tried lamb chops before, but I've always thought they look yummy. If you HAD to pick ONE song to listen to for the rest of your life, and that would be the only song you ever heard, what would it be? "Life Won't Wait" by Ozzy Osbourne, probably. It's very motivating. Ever heard of Shinedown? Yeah, I like 'em. They're one of Dad's faves. What size is your bed? Queen. What is the first meal you remember eating? Hell if I know. What was the first movie you ever saw? I also don't remember. What percentile of your class were you in? The top. Can you name every place you’ve ever had sex? I probably could, but I'm not going to. What forms of birth control have you used? The pill and also just not having a sex life lmao. Do you use sponges or dishcloths when doing the dishes? A sponge. What’s your favorite song on the top twenty right now? I have zero clue what's in the top twenty. Ever punched a wall? No. What was the last bug you killed and what did you use? An ant in the house. My fingers. Ever get pulled over by the cops and get away without a ticket? I've never been pulled over. What was your first legal alcoholic drink? A margarita, I think? What’s the most expensive things your parents ever bought you? Probably this laptop. What’s the most expensive thing you’ve bought? My snake. Or my most recent tattoo, idr. What is your favorite cover song? I think Disturbed's "Sound of Silence" is unbeatable as a cover. Well, or Johnny Cash's "Hurt." Both SLAUGHTER the originals. Did you ever drop out of school? College, three times. Ever raise a child that wasn’t your own for more than 3 months? No. Strangest medical procedure ever performed on you? Considering the location, having a pilonidal cyst drained by pushing on it. Jesus FUCKING Christ it hurt so goddamn bad. Does the place you work have music playing? What sort? I don’t have a job. Do you use Windows, Mac, Linux, or something else entirely? Windows. Do you cut tags out of clothing so they don’t itch and bother you? Yes. How many times a year do you go on vacation? Zero, generally. What is your favorite time period in history to learn about? The Holocaust. What’s the saddest report you have ever seen on the news? *shrug* I don't watch the news. In your honest opinion, what is the scariest sea creature you know? Putting aside my illogical fear of whale sharks, probably giant squid. Like no thank u. What superpower do you think would be the most handy in times of trouble? Teleportation. Do you believe there is just one love for everyone, or…? No. There are WAY too many people in the world for that. Plus, you're talking to a person who has been in love with two different individuals, and both were perfectly valid feelings. Why are you best friends with your best friend? She's just simply amazing. Strong, funny, intelligent, caring, supportive, loyal... She's, again, amazing. Do you world peace is truly a possibility in the future? Realistically, no. But it's nice to imagine. Pretend you are a really good cook, what meal would you make? *shrug* It would depend on what I wanted to eat. What do you think of when you look at the stars? Just the vastness of everything, and I wonder what it's like up there in outer space. If a turtle doesn’t have a shell, is he homeless or naked? Dead? Their shells are part of their actual skeletal structure. What’s one thing you feel you must do in your life before it ends? Just... feel like I did something. What Disney princess are you most like? Personality-wise, I mean. Maybe Belle? To be totally honest, I don't really remember the details of most of their personalities. What do you think is the most important thing in this life is? Love. Do you use any acne medication? Not anymore. Have you ever tried to learn another language? How did it go? I took Latin for one semester, and it was hard as FUCK. I quickly changed to German next semester and did that for all four available classes. Do you still have a landline phone in your home? No. Throughout a typical week, which places are you likely to go? I go to the TMS therapy office every weekday, and I might ride with my mom to pick up groceries or something. How often do you use your webcam, if you even have one that is? Never anymore because my mic doesn't work on this laptop, so there's no reason to. Do you have a lock number or pattern for your phone? Neither, actually. What was the last thing you bought from a liquor store? Mom bought a nice bottle of some pink lemonade Smirnoff the other day for us to try, but she left it at my sister's. ;-; It looked soooo good. Is there any cereal in your house? What kind? Yeah. Mom got some Honey Nut Cheerios and Reese's Puffs. What's the most number of people you've ever lived with? Excluding myself, I wanna say five. Do you celebrate St. Patrick's Day? No. Do you have any pets? How long have you had them? I've had Venus forrrr... I want to say four years, and Roman for two, I think. What's your favourite kind of cheese? American. Have you danced in the rain? No. Who is your favorite person to text? Sara. What’s your favorite brand of jeans? I haven't worn jeans in many years. Do you enjoy Mario games? Not especially. Mario Kart is fun, though. What’s your favorite online game? World of Warcraft. Have you ever been hit with a ball in gym class? Yes. That shit hurts. Who was last to cook for you? My mom. Would you ever wish to explore a cave? YES!!!!! You see the person you fell hardest for. What do you do? Freeze, physically and mentally. Have you ever ridden in a car with someone who was high? Yes, because I was afraid to say no. Did you ever date the last person you kissed? Yes. Have you ever held a snake? Plenty of times. How often do you have friends over to your house? Never. Have you ever had a boss who acted unprofessionally? No. Who was the last person who cried around you? Why did they start crying? Was it unexpected? My mom, because she always feels unwanted at Ashley's house. It wasn't unexpected, honestly. She cries a lot in the car when she leaves my sister's house, honestly. It's heartbreaking. Do you have any exercises you do everyday? No. :/ Are you more of a dog or cat person? I'm a cat person. That only becomes more apparent with time, really. Have you ever had a dream of stabbing someone? I probably have, given I've had nightmares of strangling someone, punching and slapping people... all kinds of stuff. My nightmares are so fucking violent and I hate it. Would you ever have a bird as a pet? No. Have you ever had to speak at a funeral? No. Do you know someone who’s been cremated? My dog, as well as my younger sister's old pup. And Mom's. What is your favorite animated movie? The Lion King. Did your grandparents teach you anything? To not be horrendously old-fashioned and to never have kids, yes. Congrats, Grandma, I took both things to heart. Do you want/have a Bachelor's degree? No. Are you into superheroes? Who's your favourite? Not massively, no. I like Deadpool (yeah, yeah, antihero, whatever) and Spider-Man. Have you ever played Cards Against Humanity? Did you like it? Yes to both. Have you ever played a drinking game? Which ones? I don't think so. Did you ever play Neopets when you were younger? Yes, I LOVED them. Sometimes I'm still tempted to make a new account, I shit you not, lol. Have you ever been to Mexico? No. Have your parents ever worked in medicine? My mom was a pharmacy technician or some title like that for a long time. Is there anything unusual about your house? I don't think so? How many serious relationships have you been in? Two. Do you listen to Rise Against? I only know "Re-education (Through Labor)," but I LOVE that song. When was the last time you congratulated someone? It was probably something on Facebook, but idr. Have you ever taken care of a newborn baby? Go no, I could never. How old were you when you got your ears pierced? I don't remember my age, but old enough where I did it of my own volition. Do you snore when you sleep? No. Surprising for someone with sleep apnea as horrendous as mine. What was the last type of burger you ate? I had a McDouble from McDonald's a few nights ago.

[callanee]

Tagged by @aerialbolditalic

Nicknames: Ollie, Dino, Beehive, Alex, and Jamestown

Height: 5'0

Last Thing I Googled: Rugrats Chanukah, I was trying to find the Chanukah special bc I wanted to watch it lmao

Song Stuck in My Head: Perfect Color by SafetySuit

Amount of Sleep: Last night, 5 hours but lately anywhere between 2 and 6 hours

Dream Job: Research Entomologist, preferably with a grant to do research into isolated Cave pools

Currently Wearing: Green Plaid Sweat pants and a binder lmao

Favorite Song: uhhh currently either Drugs by lil Aaron, Kingdom of My Welcome Addiction by IMAX, or Dark Side of Your Room by All Time Low

Favorite Instrument: Either the Drums or Harp

Favorite Animal Song: Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace

Random: Found out one of my Coworker's boyfriends thinks I'm trying to steal her from him which is funny as hell

Recent Pic: I know this is a weird thing but it's the author of a book series my friend recced me

And thn ima tag @kai-kryppz @red-swimmerz @mlm-cryptid @rompinkrose @whatever Bugg's current user is idr and @coolfire333

[immortalled]

&.   𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓   𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄   𝐈’𝐃   𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄   𝐓𝐎   𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖   𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 !!  

𝟎𝟏 .   ALIAS   /   NAME : :   spark

𝟎𝟐 .   BIRTHDAY : :     may 23  

𝟎𝟑 .   ZODIAC   SIGN : :  gemini

𝟎𝟒 .     HEIGHT : :    4′11″

𝟎𝟓 .     HOBBIES : :  reading, writing, drawing, photography, horseback riding, ukulele, cooking

 𝟎𝟔 .     FAVOURITE   COLOUR : :  lavender 

𝟎𝟕 .     FAVOURITE   BOOK : :   that’s far too difficult. i can’t answer that lol. but i’ll answer what i’m reading now... i’m currently still trudging v e r y slowly through the last 100 or so pages of stephen king’s it. it’s good but like... i’m so weary of this clown, my dudes. the only thing keeping me going is the promise it’ll end and my love for stan. i’m sad he’s more of a cameo in his own friend group than anything lmao

𝟎𝟖 .   LAST   SONG : :   yellow by coldplay

𝟎𝟗 .     LAST   FILM   /   SHOW : :  u h... some cheesy horror film from the ‘50s. idr the name. the woman and the monster? maybe?? the title was really generic and the woman didn’t actually do anything lmao

𝟏𝟎 .     INSPIRATION : :   besides the source material, music! i like making huge playlists for characters. i also have known a couple guys a lot like nathan, mostly in high school. i drew some headcanons from those dudes.

 𝟏𝟏 .     STORY   BEHIND   URL : :    immortality is nathan’s power. i really like urls that are actual words and don’t have x’s or c’s or v’s or whatevers in them. something shortish and snappy. i’d hoped for something with pic ‘n’ mix but “immortalled” was the best i could come up with at the time and i’ve just not changed it. 

tagged by: @tempportal (thank you, dear!!!)

tagging:  @conjuredead, @perfectdisastcr, @indeliblymarred, @pxppinmolly, @voiceofmany, @scribedhorror, @spectrev, @rumorsilenced

[aphroditzy]

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better.

tagged by @pirncessleia thank u lovebug!

name/nickname: 'ate’ uh babygirl, princess. the usual!

gender: cis woman

star sign: taurus

height: 5′0″

time: 8:28pm

birthday: may 8

favorite bands: green day, uhhhhhhhhh 

favorite solo artists: um! sza, ariana grande, uh halsey, sabrina claudio, kiana lede !!

song stuck in my head: bright by julie and the phantoms lmao

last movie: lmao uh i don’t remember i don’t have the mental capacity for movies rn ACTUALLY it was 17 again on netflix

last show: netflix’s julie and the phantoms LMAO i’m exposing myself

when did i create this blog: uh maybe,,,, late 2014 or early 2015 idr

what do i post: idk whatever this WAS an rp blog and now i’m jsut myself

last thing googled: kelly kapowski outfits

other blogs: i have my indie @lovepctions

do i get asks: not frequently, but sometimes yes

why i chose my url: ditzy daughter of aphrodite !

following: 384

followers: 1878

average hours of sleep: 7-9 hrs !!

lucky number: uh 4 or 8 !

instruments: i used to play competitive concert band - first chair clarinet

what am i wearing: @pirncessleia EXCUSE ME UR OUTFIT IN THIS ANSWER KISS ME ! also i’m wear rainbow booty shorts and a navy blue tank top with a cute little lavender laced bralette picking out and my hair in a bun

dream job: sustainable clothing boutique owner !

dream trip: uh greece ig !

favorite song: yikes maybe edge of desire by john mayer (gross i just luv that song)

last book read: white tears, brown scars by ruby hamad !

top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: uhhhhhhhhhhhhh none idk maybe........... anything happy tbh??? like percy jackson, uh, that’s it 

idk i’m not gonna tag anyone unless they wanna do it tbh !!!!

[rahayn]

Tag 9 people you want to know better/catch up with

Tagged by @lottiesnotebook!

Last song: it’s technically whatever was playing on the radio in the lab but idr (i wanna say coldplay?), but before that it was from eden (hozier) according to spotify

Last film: i rewatched the little vampire and the first hobbit film on the plane

Currently watching: i am finally caught up on all of surivor lmao so i just started rewatching the witcher

Currently reading: a fuckton of science articles, smoke gets in your eyes (caitlin doughty), and also the witcher but in dutch bc i wake up every morning and choose violence apparently

Currently craving: the ramen two feet to my left that i could make at literally any moment and just........haven’t yet

Tagging @gayvampireman, @standard-roch, @cmyk8, @stainedglassgoblin, @not-all-trains, @hyperionangel, @colonelkepler, and that’s definitely not nine people but tumblr keeps glitching on me while i try to @ people so if anybody else wants to do it go nuts

[thegeminisage]

tag game

i got tagged by @fishoutofcamelot ty i’m making a new post bc the old thread was Long!!

Age: the big three oh, about to hit 31 next month

Gender: female

Star Sign: i guess i’m a cancer but i’m cancer/gemini cusp

Height: 5′2 :/

Sexuality: [giant ace pride flag]

Hogwarts House: HUFFLEPUFF!!

Favorite animals: cats, obviously, but i really like rodent friends too. i’ve never been fortunate enough to own a rodent as a pet (because...i have cats...) but they are so nice to hold

Average Hours of Sleep: lmao. these days i’m very very lucky to get 4 per night

Current Time: almost 5pm :( where does the time go, i am time blind, please send help

Dogs or Cats: CATS

Blankets You Sleep With: 1 large fluffy comforter and 5 fluffy cats

Dream Job: wouldn’t we all like to be fulltime novelists...in a more realistic scope i would really like to be a vet tech someday if i can ever save up enough to go back to college...i love animals sfm i’d love to work with them as like my Career

When Did I Make This Blog: god like...2010 i think...a literal decade ago jesus

Followers: like 1300 or 1400 idr without looking. tbh i wouldn’t be happy with a five-digit count...i want enough followers to get anon asks on the reg but NOT enough that one of my personal posts spawns discourse (rip cristina)

Why Did I Make This Blog: a banner ad on deviantart gave my computer a virus and i wanted somehwere else to post my zelda fanart LMAO

Reason Behind My URL: ugh okay. so when i was a very wee tween (like middle school) me and all my friends decided we were “sages” and like one buddy was the forest sage and another was the water sage or whatever and i was MISINFORMED about my star sign but i thought sure geimini means stars and it’s like jem and she has pink hair so that’ll make me super special and i just...haven’t thought of anything better so i never changed it. i don’t like it at all actually! it’s childish! but how do you replace something like that? how do i pick a new name for myself that i’m gonna keep FOREVER? cause im from the oldschool where usernames were p-permanent and the same across many platforms so people could Find you...idk if i’ll ever change it, but there is merit to having had the same name for almost 20 years. people who were friends with me a long time ago have been able to look me up again and say hello! and that’s really swell i think

gonna tag @bunnikkila @spectral-stardust @youngbenkenobi @machidielontheway @season5-thiccmerlin and anyone else who wants to do it!!

[nivq87]

I tried to write a tag post last night but I had too many and it got cut off and my head hurt so I just deleted it but the tl;dr is I finally finished the candy route of the epilogues it was a lot more depressing than I thought it was gonna be

long aimless ramble under the cut

like, idk back when it was new I remember some folks saying it was like as syrupy as the route name would imply and so I inferred it was gonna get real trickstery and then it never did? I think it was about page 20/41 that I realized that it wasn’t gonna go down like that. I didn’t get very far when it was new because I still had some bitter feelings because of meat and the whole tone was just really alienating for some reason. I’ve left the tab open and pinned this whole time, and over the few couple months i’d been reading a page here and there when the mood would strike me, and it would still be just as bizarre as I’d left it, so i’d stop.

Last night I was just in the right mood for something crack and stupid and decided to brace for that kinda vibe and just finish it. Partially because I’m a bit curious about whatever the hell is going on with homestuck2 and want the context, and also because I still had at the bottom of my emails a few ao3 notices about some people’s reaction fic to the epilogues that I wanted to be able to have context for, Especially FRIENDFICTION by oxfordroulette, which already sounded conceptually hilarious, like most things she writes are.

But yeah, going in I expected it to feel like shitty hello kitty bandaid on some wounds that probably need stitches, but the whole vibe just felt super depressing and bleak. Not even just the john parts, all of them. The whole time I was absently thinking of that jane line about dirk’s detective pony edit, how it was cathartic in all the worst ways, and I could relate to that sentiment.

and while I was typing my post last night, I was also thinking about that pbs youtube think channel that was my first introduction to homestuck, and how they compared it to this novel Ulysses, because it was also just real long and on some level a chore to get through. I don’t remember my exact train of thought that got me there to that video again, but I watched the video again just now to try and remember why and:

a) lmao that novel is only 265k words, granted it’s like real dense words, some of which the author made up

b) wow would I even have got to this point in my life if I hadn’t found that channel and watched that video? it was sept 2012 and I remember starting homestuck a month later, getting caught up by thanksgiving, and idr the connecting reasons but I ended up seeking out fan art on DA, which led to me seeing fanfic on DA, and then to ao3 and tumblr, and by the time my birthday rolled around that january I was waiting outside in the cold for the lecture hall to open up just SUPER JAZZED because the serendipity gospels updated. Like, that fall and winter was a real swan dive into a different phase of my life that, if it hasn’t ended yet, sure lasted a long while. The only other medias that have held my attention so long and so consistently have been also fun garbage world of warcraft, and totally not garbage avatar the last airbender and discworld.

c) I keep having this ephemeral thought that I keep wanting to put here, but as soon as I think it I end up on a tangent thought and promptly forget it. Idk, I guess just feeling kinda nostalgic for 2012-14 era homestuck fandom.

meh, anyway this was supposed to be about candy, but like usual i got sidetracked. thinking about other things. but yeah this morning now that my head wasn’t hurting I read those upd8 fics that were languishing in my emails, and they were certainly a lot of fun. I keep feeling like I need to ascribe worth to it, like were those fics worth having powered through the epilogues, and I don’t quite know where this thought is coming from. I feel like I am pretty good at dropping medias as soon as they stop being enjoyable for me, and I guess my feelings about the epilogues are just kinda complicated. Like, maybe I should have just tapped out and moved on, but there’s still parts of the fandom that hold my interest which I guess make it not so simple. I still want to know what’s gonna happen next, but I guess my initial bitterness at it not living up to my expectations at that time just, appropriately, put homestuck on hiatus for myself.

I’m lowkey reminded that after terry pratchett died, I finally got my hands on the science of discworld books, but I have never read them, because then after I do, there will really be nothing left, and I guess the idea that there’s still something left on the horizon is a small comfort, it’s not over yet. but there’s probably no reason to hold back on homestuck because last night I was also thinking of post about how hussie has shown that he sucks at endings, and has realized that he doesn’t have to work out how to do a satisfying ending if he just never lets it end.

I really wish tumblr didn’t eat the last 5 tags on the post I made last night because now that i’m more awake and in less head pain, trying to rewrite the post has quadrupled its length, and while I think I hit most of my original thoughts, it certainly got away from me too. really wish I could remember what I wanted to put down at c).

[1zdex]

tagged by @bunnycykes (thank you so much!!!! this made me smile)

RULES: answer the following 22 questions and then tag however many people you’d like!

STARZY WILL PROCEED WITH MORE INFO THAN ANYONE ASKED FOR

Name: except here. as i put out too much info about myself as it is im sorry but you guys are still getting my penname unless we’re close Maria

Nickname: Starzy, Starz, Aqua, H20, Ryan/Brennt mun, Kitty, Lil Mouse, Badger, idr any others. There’s probably mean nicknames I don’t know about *killed*

Zodiac sign: PEGASus!!!!!!!!!! I don’t put any stock in astrology (but the actual sign is virgo. Just for the record. Whatever the horoscope tells you will probably be completely wrong. For me. ;) )

Height: 5′2″ last i checked. which was a while ago but. i’m pretty sure i haven’t grown.

Hogwarts house: *looks up my last answer* Kindlehorn. The one that everyone hates because we shun magic. They hate us so much for ruining the ‘fun’, they wrote us out of history. JK Rowling was disgusted with us and dumped us from the pages of her chronicles. but we have Jesus so we’re overall content not to care. (this makes much more sense in context of my previous answer but I don’t want to copy/paste ;P Just listen to my insane ramblings instead.)

Last thing I googled: ...my zodiac cuz i care so little i never bother to retain what it is in my memory. busted. But that only proves how i literally just don’t put any stock in it. I only look it up for... “quizzes” merely for sake of curiosity because those quizzes ONLY give you an answer based on the zodiac. Zodiacs are based on constellations. But honestly? No idea what virgo looks like in the sky. I tend not to like what the constellations “draw”. They look better as just dots of light imo. Stars are great by themselves. ...Before that I looked up the lyrics to Relient K’s “Don’t blink” even if both were technically Bing because even though Bing S U C K S I’m literally too lazy to change it back to google after it forced itself onto my browser without consent.

Favorite musician(s): Relient K, The Classic Crime, Skillet, Superchic[K], Evanescence, Within Temptation, Tenth Avenue North... well i typically just kinda pick songs here and there from artists so it’s kinda hard to say beyond that? I love some of Cascada’s stuff. Asking what genres i like--wait. Nevermind.

Last song I listened to: Grey by Barlowgirl

Song stuck in my head right now: um. i’m literally still listening to the aformentioned song. Is it possible to have another song stuck in your head as you listen to a song? maybe? i can’t remember.

Followers: 299. I can’t wrap my head around it. I don’t even roleplay on this blog anymore. I have to assume it’s because i stopped posting ooc (usually...) and so even though I don’t post roleplay stuff, I still reblog psa stuff. Whenever I say stuff ooc people generally ignore me lmao

Following: 837. (about 200 are rp and the rest are asthetic/writing/other) no offense to anyone but thank God most of them are inactive bc i have an obsession with scrolling my dash which has become a major problem on my 15 minute work breaks trying to go down to the last post i remember on my dash within a time limit and usually this means I end up taking more than 15 minutes -- *inhales* im a bad worker

Amount of sleep: i try to get 8 hours every night but that doesn’t always happen. sometimes i don’t so well, and sometimes i have the morning available so when i wake up and my lethargy kicks in like i only slept 4 hours... i go back to bed and sleep up to 12 hours which im trying not to do anymore. im missing out on life.

Lucky number: another thing i don’t really believe in but as far as my fav number i always liked 5 for some reason.

What I’m wearing: blue jeans, black jacket that fits just right, and underneath it, an “emo” sweater hoodie that’s actually really too small for me but no one can tell because it’s under my zipped-up-jacket. i like this shirt. even if no one can see it. >> m i n e

Dream job: lol, i gave up on dream junk. but i do want to keep applying to the local humane society. that would be a more comfortable work environment for me personally. im not much of a dog person though so i would want to work with cats. Don’t hate dogs. Just... i don’t like being licked. mew

Dream trip(s): I’ve been getting into my Bible more {kinda}, and the more i do i’ve lightly had the thought of seeing Israel. I’m not like... set on it though. I honestly don’t know if there’s anywhere I really care about going in particular anymore?

Favorite food(s): no idea what it’s called: cream of mushroom soup cooked and blended with beef over rice. kinda similar to S.O.S. I also like Ramen, Pho, and (a bunch of other things yet i’m picky?) chips and salsa.

Instruments: My favorite instrument is the Triangle. I can play a mean rendition of “Infinite” by Dangerkids... @fritzymagpies and khloe have heard it. They can attest. It is super bad!! (on your ears)

Languages: just english. i tried to learn spanish for school. no hablo bien. muy mal. muy. i can’t really say anything else in spanish. That’s 3 years of learning folks, down the drain.

Favorite song(s): mmmm... i have no idea. well one i like is “It’s a Dream (Anesthesia remix)” by East Clubbers.

Random fact: i talk too much. about nothing. BUT YOU ALREADY KNEW THAT, DIDNT YOU. (starzy’s next big feat: learning to be mute. and not be judged for it.)

Aesthetic: fairytales, Jesus, star shapes, actual stars, mermicorn stuff, sparklies, kitties, and pink/purple/blue or pastel color schemes. (blue tho)

tagging - KHLOE I CAN’T TAG YOU DANGIT--wait bwahaha @m3dicinal-music, @fritzymagpies, @theaiexperiment, @sacredprayer, @the-dark-omochao, @the-inked-quill, aaand uh. i think i’m a bit shy to tag anyone else (if they find this info too personal or whatnot i don’t know them well enough) so IF YOU WANNA, STEAL THE MEME. THING. (i don’t condone any other type of theft tyvm)

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Get to know the blogger

i was tagged by @wiktoriagore and haha. i still have to do that oc gifs meme you tagged me in IT’S IN MY DRAFTS IT’LL COME I’M JUST VERY SLOW

Rules are: Answer the questions and tag 10 people you want to know better.

i’mma tag some people i can remember seeing on my activity page a bunch~ (thank u all for validating my posts lmao <3) @evilweasel24 @ctrh-5 @svint-of-the-deep @momo202 @linkadinkinsink @aria2234 @shepperoni @lolsanddrugcartels @theshylittleelfgirl

Name: Max

Gender: female

Star sign: aquarius

Height: 5′9ish/176cm

Wallpaper on phone: THIS PIC on my tablet

Hogwarts house: either slytherin or ravenclaw i’ve given up trying to figure it out lol

First ever crush on a teacher: never happened eyyy

Coolest Halloween Costume: my favorite was this ‘vampire’ dress with cool sleeves that i wore with some accessories to be a mage from dragonlance

Favourite 90’s Kid’s Show: fUCK what’s the cutoff for this. like how far into the 2000′s can i go. the only one i can think of without research that was definitely in the 90′s was big comfy couch, my mom said i loved that one. OMG WAIT NO REDWALL. REDWALL SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE 90′S please be the 90′s YES IT STARTED AIRING IN 1999 I’LL SAY REDWALL

Last kiss: also never happened eyyyyyyy living my best aroace life

Have you ever been stood up: well like not on a date but a new friend in college said she’d text me the next day about getting together to keep watching orphan black (i was introducing her to it) and she never did and when i saw her later and asked why she said she got drunk and passed out and forgot

Favourite pair of shoes: my vibram kso’s

Have you ever been to Vegas: nope

Favourite fruit: ‘local’ (whatever that means in a big grocery store lmao) strawberries

Stupidest thing you’ve ever done: when i was little i decided to put my tongue on a metal pole (in winter) to see if it would actually get stuck because we watched movies/shows with it and it seemed weird but my tongue didn’t stick thank god

All time favourite shows: MERLIN, season one of new doctor who, BAKUGAN also season 1 maybe 2 basically when masquerade was there idr, 6teen, you know what basically anything that was on teletoon pre-2013 except maybe ben10 i don’t remember being really into that one

Last movie you saw in theatres: at first i thought it was star wars 7 but nO it was the latest transformers movie because my parents made me go see it with my little brother instead of potc 5 or spiderman and i never got to see EITHER ONE uGH