#if I didn’t have a full time job I def would tho

[freakylilnutjob]

they have arrived!!!

[madelynraemunson]

You can answer this privately, but a few weeks ago I was thinking about if Reader was trying to make Eddie jealous with the song I kissed a girl in the background making out with some girl on the stage you know. Or tryna make him want her more lol.

def need to catch up tho

ooooh a lil toxic lovin’ i see i see 😏💋 thank you for helping with the possessive!eddie dirty talk and reactions, my sweet.

from the CMWYW universe

timeline: shortly after chapter 013

𝐈 𝐇𝐨𝐩𝐞 𝐌𝐲 𝐁𝐨𝐲𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 𝐃𝐨𝐧’𝐭 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐈𝐭 18+

a collaboration with @emsgoodthinkin 💌

modern!strip club owner!eddie x modern!fem!exotic dancer!hargrove reader

CW: jealous!eddie, wlw, possessive!eddie, boyfriend!eddie, biting, degrading kink, eddie calls us a slut lmao, bratty shy girl, dom!eddie, sub!shy girl, lmk if i miss anything

[WC: 2.0k]

“I just think you’re getting a little too into it.”

It’s crazy to think Eddie would draw the line at Gareth and not Steve. Yet here you two are, arguing in the dressing room mid-shift because Eddie realized his D&D friends — who are regulars at his D&D themed strip club — have eyes and money. 

“Babe, this is GARETH we’re talking about here,” you emphasize. “Gareth!”

You’re talking about the Gareth who’s gamer tag is ‘Gareth the “Gare Bear” Emerson’.  The same Gareth who still uses the bunny ear method to tie his shoes. The same Gareth who gets upset when his food touches. Aside from his now relatively toned build, clear skin, and knowledge on self-care and personal hygiene, Gareth Emerson is still the same guy. And that guy is a fucking dweeb.

“Yeah, but Gareth is conventionally attractive now,” your boyfriend points out. “And somebody who’s had no choice but to build their charm from the inside out is a dangerous person.”

Projecting, are we Munson? You think to yourself. You couldn’t believe the audacity of your boyfriend. Ever since you two became exclusive, Eddie has become extra protective of you. You didn’t mind it. You actually preferred it because it means he cares. But really, at work? The place you clock in every day (not only to see him but) to make a living?

“You left scratches on his back last time.”

“He paid me to make a girl jealous.”

“And let’s not forget whatever the fuck that was that you did with Creel,” Eddie adds refusing to hear you out. 

“Henry PAID me for a lap dance,” you hiss. “He was lonely, I was doing my job. He came in and spoiled me and your business on his off day, babe.”

The heat dissolves from Eddie’s cheeks when he hears his pet name. Albeit flattering, this conversation between you two wasn’t over just yet. 

Eddie knew what he saw. He knows that blank, fucked out stare from anywhere, and it was prominent when you were giving Henry a lap dance, using the crinkle of his pants to get yourself off.

There’s no arguing there. But you were single when that happened and Eddie at the time made it really seem like he didn’t want anything with you. None of this was taking away from how ridiculous Eddie was being.

“Okay,” you sigh, still choosing to honor his wishes. “No more dances for Gareth.”

“At least for tonight,” Eddie barters, issuing you a fake pout. “Feeling a little bit jealous, but I’ll get over it.”

Stay away from Gareth, or men in general tonight. You can definitely do that. 

Eddie’s a happy camper now. He watches as you do your thing at Vecna’s Lair, cock twitching eagerly in his pants as you swing down the pole and sink your pelvis onto the stage. The men douse you in ones, fives, tens, twenties. And you let it rain down on you with ease. 

But why is Eddie still so jealous? He can’t help but turn green with envy when he sees you smile at your patrons. When you lock eyes with them as you speak. And the way they gravitate towards you and your pheromones like some magnets on a fridge. 

You seem to be unbothered by everything, unbothered by his presence in a room full of other gentlemen. Eddie needs to test the waters. Eddie needs to know you care.

So he decides to grab a beer and approach the first customer of the opposite sex who happens to spiral into his periphery. It happens to be good ol’ Stephanie tonight. 

A regular during the beginning days of the week, this kind hearted, very approachable redhead welcomes Hellfire’s owner with a smile, offering her beer bottle to Eddie for him to give her a clink, hello. 

“Hey!” he chimes. “How uh, how are you doing?”

“I’m doing well, and yourself?”

Eddie grins. “Not too shabby.” 

Performatively studying her with his eyes, he decides to ask her an innuendo-filled question. “You enjoying yourself tonight?”

“What’s it to ya?”

“I always like to make sure my customers are satisfied.”

Her brow does a fruitful quirk upwards.

“So you’re the owner huh? Already so young and successful. That’s quite impressive.” 

“D’aww,” your boyfriend’s hands clutch his chest. “I appreciate that.” 

You can’t help but look over, stomach warped into knots.

Eddie told you to stay away from guys. So why is he flirting with a girl? Specifically a customer you’ve interacted with before. Not that Eddie would know that, since he’s always in his office when Stephanie is here.

Eddie knows you see him now and that’s all the satisfaction he needs. Knowing he got the reaction he wanted, he excuses himself from Steph, strutting back over to his office to disappear for a while and let your mind wander.

But your mind is already two steps ahead. When Stephanie catches a glimpse of you, her eyes sparkle. You wave her over.

“You just keep coming back for more, don’t you?” you infer as she strides towards you. 

Stephanie chuckles. “You just can’t seem to keep me away, Shy Girl. I owe Vicky and Robin one for putting me onto this joint.”

You swing your legs over so you can divert your attention to your stunning regular. She seems to be receptive to your flirtatious nature. And conveniently, the DJ transitions into a very fitting song:

“How are you doing tonight?” you assess her.

Stephanie shrugs. “I’m doing okay. The chick I was telling you about last week stood me up. So I’m here just trying to make myself feel better.”

“OMG I’m so sorry dude.”

But she brushes it off. “It’s okay. The loneliness will die down. I just gotta feel sorry for myself first.”

You rest a consoling hand on your shoulder. Before becoming exclusive with Eddie, you knew the feeling of rejection all too well. 

“You’re welcome here anytime. Even if you just wanna talk. Girl to girl, we can even do a private room for an hour.”

Just then, Stephanie reaches into her bra and pulls out a twenty dollar bill with the smuggest look on her face. 

“What about center stage? You tryna kiss it all better?”

You could’ve… and would’ve done it without the money. But knowing Eddie is in for the plot twist of his lifetime, you’ve rendered the deal priceless. Happily obliging, you accept the money Stephanie insists you take from her and extend your arms out.

“Bring it in, chica.”

It’s not what I’m used to. Just wanna try you on. I’m curious for you…

And then it happens. It starts with a timid smack of the lips to feel out both your comfort levels. The feeling of safety and trust propels you both further into realms of intensity you wouldn’t have thought of exploring with one another before. She tastes of cherry, with a hint of minty coconut. 

You let out a satisfied hum. It registers as a vibration against her full, vivacious chest. Dancing your fingers in her wavy hair now, you pull her closer to your chest as your lips lock in tandem. 

“WHEW!” you can hear Argyle shout all the way from the kitchen. “GAH DAMN!”

…I kissed a girl and I liked it. The taste of her cherry chapstick…

The uproar creates a chain reaction and soon all the gentlemen at Hellfire are hooting and hollering at the relatively unscripted act of affection in front of them. Soon, the money follows. Grinding your hips against her torso now, you chase the feeling of self-indulgence as you unravel yourself onto Stephanie. Right in time for Eddie to see.

I kissed a girl just to try it. I hope my boyfriend don’t mind it.

Floored, confused, and just a tad aroused, your man stands at the foot of Vecna’s Lair with his hands curling at his sides.

It felt so wrong. It felt so right. Don’t mean I’m in love tonight.

His stiff cock protrudes at the posterior ends of his zipper, boxer briefs shamefully laced with the salty spouts of his leaky tip. Fuck, he’s so hard. But still, oh so very pissed.

I kissed a girl and I liked it. I liked it.

Standing where you knew he’d be, you shoot him a wink, letting him know that you’re well aware of his foiled plan. And after you and Stephanie thank one another for each other’s time, you prance off to the dressing room with mountains of bills in your hands.

———

“You think Eddie’s gonna like this green set?”

There’s an itch to burn the cash you got tonight, so you find yourself browsing the internet for lingerie on your phone.

“Oooh,” Nina coos in approval. “Yes girl. You’re gonna look like a sexy dragon of sorts.”

“Mm. And what about this g-string?”

“Yes, get it. I have the same one and it’s so flattering and comfortable. Look!”

Just then the door shoots open.

“Eddie, what the hell?!” Nina shrieks, quickly donning her cloak to cover up. “Knocking, fucker. Ever heard of it?”

You turn towards the entrance to find your flustered man at the door, scowling at you briefly before turning to apologize to Nina.

“Sorry, Neens,” his gaze softens sincerely. But Nina is already storming out. “I was dumb for that.”

“Yeah, no kidding,” you tsk.

You two wait until your colleague is out of range to engage in what you both know is about to be some pretty reckless behavior. When all is clear, Eddie wastes no time, pouncing on you, pinning you by the wrists to the drawer of your vanity, leaving love bites at the crook of your neck just keen enough to draw blood. 

Pathetically, you love it. Your dripping cunt swells for the intensity — the fury of his rough hands — the vampiric blows to your hot pulse points — the rugged buckling of his hips as he digs his claws into the tender indents of yours.

“Eddie…” you whimper.

“This familiar?” he demands between breaths. 

“Rings a bell,” you muster, tracing his large display of excitement with your trembling palm. “Though it seems like you don’t necessarily…have a problem with it.”

A sinister laugh escapes his throat.

Eddie huffs. “Think you can be a smart aleck with me without repercussions?”

As swift as they come, Eddie flips you around, easing you safely onto the desk portion of your vanity by the your neck. You squirm around like a brat, whining and kicking at him with your heels in playful retaliation. His fingertips then tightly enclose around your thin lacy bralette, causing a minor tear of the sparkly chrome fabric.

Too far. Grabbing him by the wrist, you eye him in disapproval.

“Eds!” you hiss at him, seriously this time.

“You’re buying new sets anyways,” he shrugs indifferently. “You know, with the money you got for being a needy little slut.”

You issue a low grumble as Eddie sinks his body atop the small of your back. The softness in Eddie returns again when he presses delicate kisses around the tip of your chin.

“Mine, remember?”

He spins you around again, ordering you to your knees with an authoritative snap. You oblige a little too quickly, but you don’t care. You’re at the mercy of him tonight and always.

“Yours…” you breathe, knowing he’s about to fuck you and your mouth to spit and tears. “Yours only…”

He smirks, satisfied with himself. You bite your lip eagerly as you watch the King of Hellfire — and your heart — unbuckle his belt, ushering his pants down to line his pulsing cock up against your lips. Desperate for more already, your tongue peaks out to say hello. The deep lines of his snarky face concave further.

“Pucker up, sweetheart.”

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[depressopax]

Nacho Varga relationship headcanons

NSFW version

Fandom - Better call Saul

Pairing: Ignacio “Nacho” Varga x gender neutral reader Genre: Smut, headcanons Warning(s): Sexual content. Situationships. Mentions of oral, handjob/fingering, degradation, penetration, semi-public, cuss words, sub/dom dynamic, pet names (gn) Reader is gender neutral. Might be a bit OOC! Words: 1.6K Summary: Dating Nacho would include…  English is not my main language, if I make any spelling mistakes please let me know so I can improve my writing! AO3 link! SFW version

Nacho is not the relationship type of guy.

He is scared of commitment, but most of all scared of hurting you.

If he is with you, it’s probably more of a Friends with benefits/No strings attached kind of situationship.

Sure he can be your friend and have sex with you - nothing more tho.

Nacho is more of a dom.

I feel like he’s a switch, but that's a side he hasn’t really explored, and would take some convincing for him to do so.

He likes being in charge and on top of his partner

It gives him a sense of control and he feels relaxed when he has you completely at his mercy

Buuuut… 👀

If he REALLY trusts and loves you

Homeboy will let you be on top sometimes. More about that later…

 When having sex with him, he is more of a “fast and rough”-guy

Will have you totally slutted out for him, begging for his touch

He is turned on by your submission and just how much he can dominate you if he wants to

His favorite position to take you in being doggy.

He loves having you on all fours and being able to thrust into you from behind

And he gets to stare at your ass the entire time without shame ;)

And he can give you light spanks on your ass etc…

I feel like he def is an ass guy

Which is the second reason he loves taking you from behind.

When he’s behind you he has full control of pace and is in a powerful position

He is very touchy during sex and likes grabbing your ass, thighs and hips, often with the intention of leaving marks

Speaking of leaving marks…

When he kisses your body, he does so to leave hickeys, and will be like “Oops, didn’t mean for that to happen lmao”

In a way, he likes claiming you

But he wouldn’t let you do the same to him.

Homeboy got them double standards

He is very loud in bed, cussing a lot, grunting and a few moans

He likes it when you are loud too.

Would probably be offended if you weren’t loud, and only fuck you even harder to make you react lmao

Nacho has a thing for degradation, but only when it comes to you.

If you are into that, he won’t hesitate to call you slut, bitch etc…

But he can also praise you during

“Look at you, taking my cock so well”“That’s it, you’re fucking amazing.”

He won't give you pet names tho, he finds it weird.

He prefers receiving oral.

He might give it to you, but then it’s mostly to “return the favor”

He’s not that enthusiastic when giving

Will make sure he does the job and makes you satisfied, because you deserve to feel good

But when receiving?

He L O V E S  I T

What can he say? It’s a good stress relief 

He just needs to sit down and have you do all the work

He’s not a head pusher, he lets you do things in your own pace

But if it’s too slow or “not good enough”, he’s not shy to guide you

Telling you how to move your mouth, where and when to use tongue

Your gagging is just a bonus to him.

Sorry but not that good at aftercare 😭

He might cuddle you, or give a few kisses

Or just lay in bed talking for a bit

After that? 

He either leaves to go to his place

If it’s late and he’s tired, he stays. But he just ends up falling asleep in your bed

Not the kind of person that cares if the two of you have left a mess. Why would it matter? 

Now for the second part of these headcanons… 👀

Nacho falling in love is rare

But when he does… Oh boy.

You’re his everything, and your sex life with him is totally different from how it used to be.

I feel like he totally acts different towards his FWB and someone he’s in love with

He’ll literally worship you

Sure he’s more of a dom and likes being on top

But if you insist on changing that, he’d be ok with it.

At first he hates the thought of being submissive

But something about seeing you on top of him, having him totally at your mercy…

Oh how the tables have turned.

And he loves it.

He likes how hot and powerful you look

He gets needy AF

Which gives you a good opportunity to be a tease 👀

Enough teasing and he will whimper for you even ;)

Of course he still likes being dominant, especially if you are submissive

But being dominated is nice for change sometimes…

A bit of a service top

He likes it when you boss him around and tell him what to do

The things he does when he’s on top of you - he does for your pleasure rather than for his own. 

Checks in on you a lot, whispering praise and lots of kisses

Fuck it, he even has pet names for you.

Nacho likes giving you spanish pet names, for example: Amorcito, Amor, Cariño

He finds it adorable when you’re flustered and always finds ways to make you that way

Whether it’s with words or touch.. He’ll do it

And tell you how fucking adorable you look

Homeboy is down bad for you

Legit is horny for you almost all the time and not shy to show it.

It’s enough with you wearing something that shows off skin, calling him a pet name or just being sweet to him… He just can’t help it!

He prefers to have sex at home, so he can make you scream his name as he claims you as his

But if his desires are urgent, or if he gets a boner in public etc…

He will take you right there and then.

You’re at some restaurant? At a cafe? Too fucking bad.

He knows how to rile you up, too.

Either by whispering dirty things to you, like telling you how badly he wants to fuck you, how hot you look…

Or simply with touch. 

Squeezing your thigh, having his fingers against the button on your jeans, his cold fingers finding their way into your shirt… You name it

Or his personal favorite:

Guiding your hand towards his crotch, having you gently rub his erection. “See what you do to me, amorcito?” AHDHJASHAD BYE- 🤤

He’ll grab your hand and lead you to the bathroom

But he got some class, at least. So if you’re too loud, he shuts you up, either with his palm against your lips, or with his fingers in your mouth.

He’ll fuck you against the wall while kissing your neck and whispering his love and devotion for you

He finds it entertaining to watch you wobble out of the bathroom after a quickie

…Which is usually just a warm up/appetizer of what’s to come once home ;)

He loves handjobs, especially cuddling up to you in the couch, watching a movie and then sliding his hand into your pants

Or his personal favorite - having you stroke his cock under the blanket whilst watching a movie with his hand around you, pretending nothing is happening…

He likes long, passionate sessions.

Really driving you wild with a combination of being rough and gentle, loving and mean… 

Nacho makes foreplay a big part of sex with you.

He wants to really warm you up and tease you

Likes it when you beg for his cock and to feel him

All I’m gonna say is, you need the warm-up, iykyk 🤭

Although, if he is in a hurry or just frustrated, he doesn’t mind a quickie.

Quickies with him leaves you breathless and with trembling legs “Gotta get to work, see you tonight, amorcito.” He’ll say, and give you a quick kiss before walking away, leaving you longing for more lmao

Oral remains the same as with a FWB

He prefers receiving but happily gives it too. 

But he’s actually more keen to making sure you enjoy receiving it

If he truly loves you, he could spend hours between your legs

E Y E  C O N T A C T

I’m sorry but his eyes??? I’m too autistic for eye contact but DAMN I could stare into his eyes all day <3

He’s very observative to your reactions and it gets him going to see you enjoy his tongue and lips

Probably would let you sit on his face ngl

When you give him head, he’s extra praising

Keeps his hand on the back of your head or on your chin

As a supportive gesture

He loves watching your mouth full of his cock

He is extra loud to let you know you’re doing well

He actually likes and prioritizes aftercare 

He has you cuddled up to him

His fav cuddle position is having your head on his chest, whilst he rubs your back with his hands

Since he tends to get rough when he’s dominating you, he’s keen to make sure you’re alright and not feeling any discomfort.

Happily runs you a bath - and happily joins you, too ;)

If it’s nighttime, he’ll hold you tightly in his arms, telling you how much he loves you etc…

Basically? Very passionate and loving towards someone he’s in love with.

NACHO PLEASE LET ME LOVE YOU AHHH 😭💕 Did I just make a 1.6K words smut headcanons for this gorgeous damn man? Yes. 0 regrets. <3

[finelinevogue]

omg we need a li!harry hideaway blurb👀 i mean obv other than some serious ass groping from harry i assume they’d stick to their saving r rated stuff for outside the villa but i’m sure they’d appreciate that alone time for a bit

anon: u should do a LI blurb where harry and y/n go into the hideaway

anon: li!harry and yn for sure the first couple picked to go to the hideaway, no r rated stuff bc they’re saving that obviously but things still get a bit steamy, i mean how can they not when harry sees yn in her sexy lingerie

anon: OMG i’m dying for a blurb where they get really feral, like wanting to give in badly (of course they don’t tho because they’re good kids) but it’s excruciatingly hard for them to hold back 😚

anon: it would be so fucking hot if they were making out or dry humping and love island!H would notice when y/n ruined her panties 🫣🫣he would tease her soooo much, i know he can be a meanie 

anon: also in ep. 16 li!harry and y/n would def be chosen to go to the hideaway!!!

anon: I know the won’t have sex in the show but i can see them in the hideway still in the underwear with harry on top of her dry humping and it’s so intense they both cum🫣

anon: hideaway blurb whennnn?? congrattss on the job btw!!!

anon: HIDEAWAY MISS ELLIE PLEASE I AM BEGGIN WITH MY LIFE

i feel like some people might want a hideaway blurb? hmm?

“Wait what did we miss?” Y/N asked Harry, pulling away from a kiss after they smashed the heart-rate challenge.

“Um, I don’t know.” Harry said, looking at the other islanders who were all squealing over something.

Everyone started shouting for you and Harry, so you stood up and only then realised that they were talking about you both going into the hideaway. The girls were all screaming and the boys were going crazy for Harry. It had been an unanimous vote that you and Harry would be going into the hideaway tonight. No doubt about it. 

“You sure you want to go?” Harry asked you, pulling you close before the girls got a chance to snatch you away from him. 

“Meet me at the door and find out.” You leaned forwards to nip his bottom lip between your teeth, before sauntering off. It didn’t help Harry that you were still wearing your sexy angel costume from the challenge and so your ass was on full display. 

As you walked off all he could do was look at how lucky he got. Until the boys came over and started bigging him up, making him focus on something other than you and your ass for the time being. 

You had been pulled upstairs by the girls, to get ready for the evening ahead. You kept on excitedly squealing, before settling down and a flurry of anxiety would come over you. If there was a word for being excited and anxious, then that’s how you felt. 

Indiyah pulled out a lingerie set from her wardrobe and held it up. It was a matching lilac lingerie set, with a cute little bow at the front of the bralette and. cheeky pants that would make your ass look amazing ( * ). “How about this?”

The girls cheered and a slight blush crept on your face just thinking about Harry’s reaction to it.

“It’s beautiful.” You nodded, holding out a hand for it.

“And, it’ll look even more beautiful on you.” Paige added. 

Ekin-Su came behind you and started to do your hair for you, styling it the way that you thought would be best. You finished it off yourself, after Ekin-Su added the necessary products to it. 

You touched up on your makeup, adding a softer lipstick than the one you’d been wearing all evening, before moving into the bathroom to go and get changed. You twirled around in the mirror, before walking back out and letting the girls get excited over how hot you looked.

“I don’t know what to wear over it though.” You sighed, turning around to view the set from behind and in awe of how good your body looked in the mirror.

“Either a silky bathrobe..” Gemma started.

“No. I think wear one of his oversized jumpers and then when you’re in the hideaway you can take it off. He won’t be expecting that and it’ll probably make him hornier quicker.” Ekin-Su explained and you had to admit you liked that idea. 

So, you went into Harry’s wardrobe and stole a big jumper that you’d usually wear to bed anyway. It made you look a lot less sexy, but that was the effect you were going for. You also slipped on some slippers, that you got teased looked like grandma slippers, and went back to the girls.

“You look so good like that Y/N, babe.” Paige exclaimed.

“Bestie is gonna get it tonight!” Antigoni sang and danced, the other girls joining in. You laughed and put your face in your hands to hide yourself. 

Then the girls started to file out one by one and head downstairs to where the boys were waiting. Antigoni waited with you at the top of the stairs as you blew out a big breathe of air.

“You alright, honey?” She asked you, holding onto you hand tight.

“It’s just a big night for me.” You nodded, closing your eyes to calm yourself for a brief moment.

“I know. Remember, nothing has to happen though. There’s no pressures. Harry’s not like that.” Antigoni reminded you and you nodded.

Then you both walked down the stairs together to see the rest of them waiting at the bottom. The boys cheered for you and you smiled kindly, not looking at Harry just yet. 

“Only Y/N could get away with wearing a hoodie and still make Harry hard.” Luca joked, acknowledging Harry’s pressing bulge. Harry elbowed him in the side for the unnecessary comment and returned his gaze to you. 

You walked up to him and gave him a hug around his middle. Too much PDA was too much on you, especially when all the islanders are solely focusing on you two. He kissed your forehead and then took your hand to guide you out of the villa and towards the hideaway.

“Y’look beautiful.” Harry said, you both walking ahead in front of everyone else.

“Really?” You looked up to him with awe in your eyes.

“Can’t believe you just asked me that. ‘Course you do!” He chuckled, leaning down to peck your lips quickly.

“Oi, lovebirds. Save something for the hideaway.” Dami shouted and you and Harry both laughed, you tucking your head into Harry’s side as you both walked. 

Luca opened the door for you both and held your hand for you as you crossed the threshold, before bringing Harry in for a man-hug and waving goodbye to you two. The rest of the islanders waved goodbye too before you shut the door behind the of you. 

“No beetroot tonight, hm?” Harry asked, walking to sit on the edge of the bed whilst watching you lock the door. 

“I don’t think she’ll want to see our antics tonight.” You said, turning around and leaning against the door. Your hands stayed behind you as you allowed Harry’s eyes to undress you from across the room.

Harry smirked and dropped his head to hide his grin better.

The room itself was very over the top. It was dressed like a Valentine’s day suite at a romantic hotel. It was decked out with love-heart bunting around the walls and red blanket throws on top of a love-heart shaped bed. It was funny to see that this is what you had been anticipating, yet it was kind of underwhelming now you were here because of how flashy it was. 

“What are you doing all the way over there for? C’mere.” He held out a hand for you and you bit your lip as you tiptoed you way over to him.

“Hi.” You said softly. 

“Hello, baby.” He smiled like a love-sick puppy at you. He rested his head on your stomach and you cupped his head with your hands and leant down to give his head a gentle kiss. He tilted his head back then to be near your face and you leant down again to kiss his lips this time. He happily leant into them, kissing you with passion and love.

His hands went to rest around your waist and you used it as an opportunity to sit down on his lap, straddling his hips carefully. You didn’t break the kiss once whilst you moved, Harry’s hands making sure you were stable and safe the entire time. Your noses brushed past each other as you moved your heads from side to side, never wanting to part from each others heavenly lips. 

You were both too in need of each other. Burning for each others flames.

Harry pulled back reluctantly, that much you could tell by the flurry of after kisses he gave you too. His eyes search for yours and he smiled when he saw you.

“I want you to know I’m not expecting anything from you tonight.” Harry told you, faces reaching so close to each other that his words could be felt against your skin.  

You leaned back a little bit and Harry frowned at how you weren’t verbally responding. Your hands reached for the hem of your jumper and you started to pull it up over your body. Harry’s hands left your waist and ghosted over your body, not touching you just yet. The jumper was over your head after a slow five seconds and Harry couldn’t help but gawk at you and your body. Not to mention, the gorgeous set you were wearing.  

“Oh..” He whispered under his breathe so quietly it was barely heard.

“I, however, came prepared.” You chuckled, watching his eyes roam over your body. His hands still ghosted over your body, as if you were too fragile and precious for him to touch without consent.

“You... God, Y/N.” He laughed to himself, clearing his throat before he spoke any more.

“Cat got your tongue, hm?” You teased.

“I’m trying to be a polite gentleman here, right now, but if you keep up that attitude I’m going to have to fix it right out of you.” He groaned as he moved forwards, your hips rolling over his and simultaneously nudging his heavy bulge.

“Oh yeah? And how would you do that?” 

Harry side-smiled, shaking his head at you. 

Oh, how you were so out of your depth. 

He gripped your ass harshly and stood up, your holding your hands around his neck to keep you safe. His eyes were full of lust and you couldn’t wait to see him unravel because of it. He turned around and threw you back on the bed, you screaming slightly as he did. You landed with an oomf and watched him slowly take his own t-shirt off over his head. 

His muscles were tight and defined underneath, from all the working out he had been doing recently. His tanned body glowed under the light of the room, only  for it to go dark because the lights went out for the night. You laughed, because whatever plan he had was now not going to work due to the change in lighting. At least you got to see his lush body at least once. 

****** 18 + from here ******

Whilst you were laughing you didn’t realise Harry had snuck under the covers at the end of the bed and was working his way up to you. Until his lips started to kiss up your legs and thighs. He left wet kisses up your thighs and even bit down slightly, tempted to leave bright red marks so everyone would know that you’re his. 

Forever and always.

He didn’t though, because he knew you’d be pissed off at him. He did kiss your thighs to give them the love they deserve though, running his hands up and down the soft skin too. 

You had to pull the covers up over your head because you were worried that the cameras would pick up what kind of euphoric faces you were making. You carefully took off your microphone, aware that Harry had taken his off too, and you let off little pants of air as he crept closer and closer up to your core.

His hot breathe fanned over you cunt as he moved his head from one of your thighs and to the other. Your breathe hitched and your back arched at the tiny movement. Then you felt his body creep up yours and come to position over yours. You felt his face over yours and you softly opened your eyes to see him looking down at you. Although there was no light, you could still faintly see each other. 

“You are so fucking beautiful, Y/N L/N.” He whispered against your hot lips, which were yearning for a taste of his again.

“Harry, don’t...” You shied away, turning your head to the side.

His fingers tucked under your chin to bring you to face back to him gently. “Hey,  if I want to tell you how pretty you look you’ll damn well let me. I don’t tell you enough, honestly, but you are so perfect baby.” 

He leaned down and kissed you once, twice, three times before he was satisfied. 

“Well, I think you’re pretty perfect too.” You spoke softly.

“I know I am, that’s why y’like me so much.” He teased you, earning a roll of the eyes from you and a small smile too. 

“Oh go fuck yourself.” You laughed.

“I mean I could, but I’d rather I did you instead.”

And the mood changed instantly. It was clear that this was Harry’s way of asking you whether you wanted to do anything this evening. You knew that he would go straight to bed with you now if you wanted, but he had also been left dry so many nights that he would be instantly all over you if you gave the green light. 

“I’d rather you did that too.” You said shyly, kissing his collar bone softly. “But maybe not all the way tonight, if that’s okay?” 

“Hey, we take this at your pace alright? If i only get to kiss your pretty lips tonight then I’d still die a happy man. The happiest.” He smiled.

“You can kiss more than my lips, H.”

“Yeah?“ He smiled cheekily, biting his lip to keep his smile a little more contained.

“Yeah.”

“Okay, lovie.” He nodded.

Harry started by kissing you gently, his soft lips melting onto yours like ice cream on a hot day. You hummed in delight at how fresh he tasted and how much you adored him being so close to you.

Your hands tugged into his hair, pulling him and his body closer. You got to feel his hips roll into yours and his hand softly ran down your body, skimming over your breasts and trailing down your stomach lower and lower. Your breathing became more laboured and your lips had to leave Harry’s unwillingly to try and catch your breathe.

When his fingers trailed over your lace-clothed core your breath hitched. Your lips shut and you stopped in taking air, but it also meant that Harry stopped too.

“Hey, baby. Y’gotta breathe for me lovie. I’m not doing anything until y’breathe for me.” He said softly but sternly, worried you’d make yourself pass out if you weren’t careful.

“Sorry.” You breathed out and back in again, your chest rising to meet Harry’s as you did so.

“It’s okay. Just don’t want you passing out on me. At least not yet.” He smirked earning you to laugh.

He took the opportunity to run his fingers over your core again, making your toes curl and stomach tighten. But you were breathing normally and so Harry continued.

Harry kissed your lips erotically one last time, before trailing his lips down your jawline and onto your neck. He found a spot that made you twitch and decided that’s where he would leave a little mark. He kissed over it softly afterwards, before continuing to move his lips downwards.

When he got to your breasts he tugged the material down slightly over your right nipple and was quick to put his lips to the bud, kissing at first before biting and sucking in a way you’d never experienced before. It was a pleasure unlike any other. Your head tried to sink further into the mattress, to alleviate some of the pleasure but it was wracking over your whole body. His other hand remained on your cunt, moving his fingers very delicately along the lace material.

Your breathing shallowed as Harry moved to your other nipple, which was heavily perky now, and he gave the same treatment to it, whilst adding more pressure to your core. Your stomach felt the tail ends of some beard stubble that he’d missed whilst shaving and it only heightened the burning feelings in your cunt. Your nipples were left to air as Harry trailed his lips down further onto your stomach and below.

You gasped when you felt his lips kiss over your clothed clit harshly, his nose inhaling your scent down there. His hands left you alone down there and trailed up your body to your breasts. He took ahold of them off squeezed them harshly, plucking at your nipples as he so pleased.

He kissed over your clit again, before licking up a stripe and making your whole body enflame with desire.

His hands trailed down again and tugged at the sides of your panties, drawing them down your legs until they were off completely. When he situated his body back, he dragged your legs over his shoulders and moved his hands back up to your boobs. He squeezed hard and licked another strip up your bare cunt this time. You let out an audible moan and Harry’s hands tightened around your breasts in response.

Then he dove his tongue a little deeper, pushing his mouth inside of you as you continued to writher underneath his tight hold. He groaned in pleasure at how good you tasted, sending vibrations through your core and edging you very close to coming already. 

“Shit...” You gasped when Harry flicked his tongue inside of you harshly, picking up his speed as well as his pressure.

He nudged his nose over your clit at the same time that he pinched your nipples, sending you into overdrive. Your hands had to trail into his messy mop of curls, tugging gently to release the pressure building up inside of you. As he squeezed your breasts again, he moved his mouth upwards and focused his lips and tongue to your mound. Sucking and kissing over your clit was his new favourite pastime. He could tell you were enjoying yourself too. 

He kept moaning against your skin whilst you kept moaning to yourself. 

One hand left your breast and came down to your core. Harry didn’t give you a second to adjust before pushing not one, but two fingers inside of you. He kept his mouth focusing on your clit whilst his fingers curled up inside of your cunt and fucked you tirelessly. He set such a fast pace that you didn’t see how he could continue like this, but he never tired and his thrusts only got more powerful. 

“H.. I’m.. I..” You breathed out loud enough for him to hear.

Instead of replying, Harry sped up his actions all over your cunt and your nipples. He smirked when he could feel the rush of your release run through you and your legs started to shake from how strong an orgasm you were having. You breathed heavily as Harry kept on fucking you through your orgasm, his fingers pace making it impossible for you to regain your breathe easily. It was only when he couldn’t feel you release any more and your cunt had stopped making such wet noises that he stopped.

Kissing over your cunt one last time, he then moved up to hover over you and pressed his messy lips to yours. It allowed you to taste yourself all over him and if you hadn’t been so spent, maybe you would’ve come again just by that action alone. 

“I don’t know how I ever went without.” Harry laughed smugly, pulling away from your bruised and bitten lips. 

You tried to speak but you were too spent to say anything. 

“Oh, baby.” Harry laughed some more, brushing hair off your sticky forehead and kissing you softly there afterwards. “Y’okay?”

“Y-yeah but you…” You sighed, still coming down from your high.

“I would stay high and dry if it meant I got to eat you out like that every day.”

“W-well. You can still do that, but i’m letting you let go tonight.”

You turned around, Harry still above you, and started to grind your ass into his dick. He groaned harshly at first, not realising this is what you were going to do, but then he grabbed onto your hips and held on tight as you pushed your ass back onto his clothed cock.

“Fucking hell.” He grunted, bringing your hips back repetitively and letting you grind it as you so pleased.

He pulled down his boxers and let his dick free to move against the outside of your ass. Skin touching skin. You moaned as the contact and looked back to see him. His cock was so thick and long that you might’ve come again just at the sight of him. The feeling of his cock against your ass was so euphoric that you felt yourself riling up for another orgasm.

Harry moved your hips more against him and he gave a few powerful slaps to the sensitive skin, earning moans from both of you. He then moved a hand around to to the front of you and rubbed his fingers over your clit fast. You tried to focus on bouncing your ass back against him, but his fingers were making you weak and you started to slow down. Harry took his cock into his own hand and started pumping it, lining the tip up with the dimples above your ass.

“Come for me baby. Come with me.” He said huskily, before you let go over his fingers again and you felt his release dump all over the bottom of your spin and onto your back. Both of you moaned over the pleasure and when you collapsed down on the bed, Harry didn’t care about the mess made when he collapsed straight on top of you.

“That was a long time coming.” You spoke muffled into the pillow, “Pun intended.”

“Even after letting me have the best wank of my life and you’re still cracking jokes.” He laughed, kissing his lips so softly over your back.

After you’d both cleaned each other up, you both went to sleep and had the best nights sleep of your lives.

[slowjamastan]

hi, I like you and what you post but may I ask what your view is with trans folks? I genuinely just want to know, tbh it doesn’t matter to me your views but I am just curious because you don’t seem particularly judgy but a little more traditional

oh yeah fair question. i hope u dont mind if i expand on my life a bit, bcz my views make more sense w context i think. tldr at the end

so i identified as dif flavors of nonbinary/trans/queer for nearly a decade of my life. ive been on tumblr since 2010, i called myself "trans" since age 14. ages 18~20ish i went to art school. it was a Peak Woke environment if you will and i fit right in. i dropped out when i realized the artists life wasnt for me. I had no idea what to do next with my life, so i did a lot of serious introspection and among many things, made the conscious decision to consider points of view on trans people from places other than tumblr (there is a lot wrong with me), like, i found out that people who didn’t “get” the trans thing aren’t universally stupid and considered their concerns. crazy ik. later i conclude baby steps style "hey i think 'nonbinary' as an identity might make no sense, like at all" and officially moved my worldview away from "identify as whatever you want forever uwu" 

my opinion on nonbinary genderqueer etc people is that it was made up online in the early 00s at best. “but other cultures have third genders—“ yeah you mean like when gay men aren’t considered real men? or when theres no male children in a family and a girl has to take on that role? nonbinary folx are either children or immature adults who can barely function in society. thats not a moral failing btw but it is hard to watch

from this point forward, assume im talking about binary trans people.

i dont believe gendered pronouns are a decision you get to make, theyre when someone looks at you and diagnoses your appearance as one of two things, and trans or not you dont get to decide how other people see you. trying is an easy way to drive yourself insane and get 500 plastic surgeries and do nothing but obsess over your appearance for your short time on earth. this isnt controversial right? we've all seen trashy reality stars with fucked up faces and botched boob jobs right? trans ppl look like that to me. again, not a moral failing, but def a red flag considering, for instance, the price tag and self centeredness transitioning implies. but anyway it feels ridiculous to handle random men in skirts or women with green hair with kiddie gloves in public yk so i just gender em as i see em. i dont give them any space in my brain bcz why should i. sorry if u dont pass and are going to angry tweet ab this interaction, its not my problem

i started identifying with truscum types (because i was never doing the trans thing “for fun” ive been uncomfortable in my body and had complicated feelings on being seen as female for most of my life), and committed to being a trans man full time age 21~22. started therapy soon after while weighing the risks of T on my health and safety and what exactly i wanted from it, even tho i WOULD be kicked out if i medically transitioned and i had no safety net nor any close friends to help me, so i kept putting it off. i was saving as much money as i could from my pt job (while going to community college for my ged) but mentally getting worse and worse. so i got a prescription for ssris.

in a few months, zoloft not only helped my overall mental state but also alleviated the fixation on my body parts being somehow wrong (or maybe it was all the same thing?). it took away my ability to mentally spiral about gender for hours at a time. i dont know if thats a normal effect, or i got placeboed out of wanting to transition somehow. but i experienced the hypothetical scenario "what if you woke up one day and didnt want to be trans anymore" after 10 years of trans identity and organizing my life around transition as a goal.

it was awful but mostly a huge relief. the dysphoria (or dysmorphia or whatever it was) had felt innate and had been with me my whole life and it was just gone, age 23ish. i felt genuinely neutral about myself and my body, and didnt feel like other peoples image of me being “wrong” would make me kms. could have had something to do with my brain maturing also. (as an aside: it felt like 1/3 of my brain had been dedicated to the gender musing pathways and then stopped all at once. my head genuinely hurt. it was a bizarre physical sensation, like a lobe removal, and it took a good year for that to go away)

ive since gone on and off then quit my meds for good, and the mental spiral patterns came back, but its not strictly about my body anymore. its an overthinking pattern that can latch on to anything. (my friend with ocd described a similar cycle she gets caught in. i dont have full blown ocd but i can relate)

i realize my experience isnt universal ofc. gender dysphoria could be a result of a lot of things, but i dont think its an innate hardwired thought pattern. my take is its a result of trauma / autism / mental issues / bi/homosexuality in whatever combination. this is a personal opinion subject to change given evidence, naturally.

anyway. after the dysphoria evaporated, i moved on quick. my ideas about gender were still all over the place. i tried to be more feminine for a while to "match" how i "felt inside". i forced it, didnt enjoy it, but it was fine i guess. i was still insecure about my gender presentation. i still do have body issues, but who doesnt. i wear a mix of clothing styles these days and often get theythemed on vibes alone. im beating the tradwife allegations i promise

this is the point in the average detrans 20-somethings life where she will call herself a TERF semi-ironically and be a shithead online, which is what i did for a while. you pick up new perspectives that feel freeing and suddenly youre above all that gender drama bullshit, like finally you get to look down on the people suffering and laugh because theyre too dumb to "get it." its cathartic after a decade of feeling insane and suddenly feeling capable of living without inherent suffering. i reached gender nirvana and im better than you :3

then you wake up from that and go wait, that was fucking stupid lol. truly terminally online behavior, but i dont have regrets really. the most evil terfily thing i did, if ur wondering, was co-run a blog that reblogged selfies posted in public tumblr mlm tags. i dont think we even added commentary, but we got soooo much hatemail lmaooo. rip straightgirlarchive 🙏

even at peak terf phase i had irl trans friends by the way, and male friends for that matter.

i think the best way i could describe my feelings on trans people now is like meeting someone with a face tattoo, who also treats that tat like a religious experience. they can feel like this represents to the world who they are and are very serious about the symbolism of this tattoo, and thats fine. its trendy in many circles to have face tats rn (wont be for long) but theyre built different, they always needed this face tattoo to be themselves. bro u just dont understand the inner journey like u wouldnt GET it.... and then they complain about not being employable or single or how their loved ones are struggling to get used to their new look...you see what im saying. you get it

i dont hate people like this. i dont think trans people are subhuman or anything. but i am so so SO glad im not one of yall anymore u are ANNOYINGGGGG. I WAS ANNOYING!!!!! in hindsight i sucked so much and was insufferable to be around if u werent on My Level Of Gender Understanding which was based on nothing but social media infographics, >10,000 hours of blind introspection, and Vibes

my god if i could go the rest of my life not having to hear or think about trans stuff ever again i would. ive done my time. ive gotten my trauma. i dont wanna deal with this anymore but it is inescapable online and irl.

and of course, as a lesbian, i personally dislike what T does to womens bodies, not even getting into the top surgery epidemic.... plus theres now biological men taking over or shutting down every lesbian space. i gotta say, existing as a gay woman has never been more suicide inducing than current year /lh

but the human condition generates all types and genuinely if youre an adult and are determined to transition or microdose T or whatever, its your choice. we live in a society. im not gonna berate an alcoholic for drinking or a fat person for overeating either. hating yourself isnt a crime and i can say i find transing cringe but thats subjective and no one asked me. im just chillin, truly, and we can be friends even if i disagree with your life choices. like. its on par with being friends with someone with 200k in college debt to me. you made a dumbass decision imo but maybe to you its worth it, and what are either of us gonna do about it now? im not arguing shit brother, live ur life. manage those consequences best u can. i love u

in conclusion i wasnt born destined to be trans, im a gender nonconforming lesbian with mental problems related to gender and social roles because of the lesbian thing. this is a normal experience that i overthought into body dysmorphia and identity delusions because of the culture around me... im definitely not a radical feminist. maybe call me gender crit but i dont care. i dont identify with any labels that strongly. labels are the mind killer.

TLDR: 

-nonbinary isn’t a real thing outside of hyperonline exclusively-politically-left subcultures, which i personally find annoying since ive left it behind in the process of maturing. to each his own but im allowed to roll my eyes and not play along with larping teenagers and it doesn’t make me evil

-there are no major female / male brain differences. there are no gendered souls. gender dysphoria shouldn’t be treated with transition, because extreme body modification is a mental illness problem in every case. i can’t stop anyone with my opinions obviously but if i could talk to my younger self, id say wait until you’re 25 for the brain development, and in the meantime try less invasive/understudied treatments to improve quality of life.

final disclaimer: i am in my 20s. my views on life and social issues will continue to evolve as long as i live, but the cringe i feel when seeing visibly trans people will never truly go away due to personal traumas. and my trans exes, probably. im super over the queer scene, im a normie gay now. blessings peace love and light

[nugget--daddy]

Hi little Nugget!! You kinda asked for this even tho I’m HELLA nosy, so you get hit with it!! Now I’ve concocted the PERFECT list of asks… and you have to answer ALL OF THEM!! *evil cackle*

(But I mean, of course, don’t share anything you’re not comfy with kapeesh? It’s supposed to be fun so let’s keep it that way! You can just skip it if it’s insensitive or if you don’t want to share it alright?)

💣 what is your favorite feature on yourself? (Maybe you brain? :3c)

💣 where are you from? (I have a theory…)

💣 do you have any siblings? (I think I know but gotta confirm…)

💣 dream job? (Name one of mine and you get a kiss.)

💣 favorite hobbies outside of your blog (DEFINITELY know some…)

💣 can you drive? (Can you? I learned in my MS years…)

💣 favorite place you’ve traveled (IF you travel…)

💣 favorite artists (she’s gonna say MCR isn’t she? Well… let’s make sure…)

💣 last song you listened to (Wonder if it’s correspondent to my note above…)

💣 last show you watched (DONT SAY SOUTH PARK!!)

💣 last thing you wrote (ehehe… evil….)

💣 scariest thing that’s happened to you (did I ask already? Well, again!)

💣 craziest thing that’s ever happened to you (mine is def being born 💀💀💀)

💣 favorite food (IF YOU SAY SUSHI—)

💣 least favorite food (let’s not start any fights…)

💣 favorite season? (Now we SHOULD agree…)

💣 favorite genre to read / watch / write (Why do I get the inkling it’s horror…)

💣 if you could make one character real, who would it be (do I even have to ask??)

💣 some place you’d love to visit (Mine’s Tokyo! What’s yours?)

💣 a word your friends would use to describe you (Yeah because YOUR five word description was not very….kind….)

💣 what is your earliest memory (Do you have a good memory even? I’ll bet you do.)

💣 why did you start this blog? (Gotta couple ideas why… but I needa hear it from you!)

💣 when did you start writing fanfic (IF you started writing fanfic.)

💣 how do you come up with the fics you write (we had a chat about inspiration the other day… did we not?)

💣 what is the fic you’re know for (I’m sure you can guess mine…)

💣 what character do you enjoy writing for the most (oh and feel free to answer all these writing questions for an OC or something I don’t mind.)

💣 what character do you not enjoy writing for (UGHHHHHH)

💣 is there a fic you wish you didn’t write (is there? I have plenty.)

💣 what character do you simp for most often (same as the genre…)

💣 favorite characters of all time (List em’!!!)

💣 favorite shows / series of all time (I have a lot…)

💣 a show you would recommend to anyone (don’t you dare say South Park.)

💣 a show you’d tell people to stay away from (…interested….)

💣 favorite kinks to write for (if you write kinks… I know I do!)

💣 kinks you would never write for (list one of my favorites and I might argue you on it… maybe…)

💣 a kink you would like to write but you think you’d be judged (plenty of those out there….)

💣 full fics, imagines or head canons (interpret this one how you like.)

💣 your favorite fanfic from another writer…

A couple of in depth questions!

💣 what is something that’s happened in your life that you wish you could go back and change? (Ooooooh I have TOO MANY of these…)

💣 what is one of your biggest accomplishments? Why is it so important to you? (…lots of these too…)

💣 what is the toughest thing you had to go through, but can say you’ve successfully overcome? (WHAT?! WHAT IS IT??)

💣 what is the best gift someone has ever given you and why is it so important (that plush octopus lol….)

💣 what is your comfort show/series and why is it your comfort show? How has it helped you? (If you answer South Park I might clock out and let the next guy take it 💀)

<3333333 Thank you nugget!!

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💣 what is your favorite feature on yourself? (Maybe you brain? :3c)

Uhhhhhhhhhh my dum charm maybe and my brain??? I dunno???

💣 where are you from? (I have a theory…)

Midwestern usa

💣 do you have any siblings? (I think I know but gotta confirm…)

Two sisters, one’s my half sister, the other is my step sis

💣 dream job? (Name one of mine and you get a kiss.)

Psychiatrist or lawyer

💣 favorite hobbies outside of your blog (DEFINITELY know some…)

Writing, drawing, singing, listening to music, simping for characters, reading

💣 can you drive? (Can you? I learned in my MS years…)

I can drive a golf cart

💣 favorite place you’ve traveled (IF you travel…)

Decora, iowa

💣 favorite artists (she’s gonna say MCR isn’t she? Well… let’s make sure…)

ICP (insane clown posse), Maneskin, and CORPSE. Mcr is one of em too. Gotta love teenagers.

💣 last song you listened to (Wonder if it’s correspondent to my note above…)

Hisoka’s theme

💣 last show you watched (DONT SAY SOUTH PARK!!)

I think it was KIPO and the age of the wonderbeasts 

💣 last thing you wrote (ehehe… evil….)

Besides this and some texts? Notes for social studies. 

💣 scariest thing that’s happened to you (did I ask already? Well, again!)

Uhhhhhhh….getting my blood drawn by four scary needles when i was six or neary dying as a 10 monnth year old and having to get my appendix and part of my bowels removed

💣 craziest thing that’s ever happened to you (mine is def being born 💀💀💀)

Either nearly dyingas a ten month old or getting shoved down the stairs by my cousin and cracking my skull

💣 favorite food (IF YOU SAY SUSHI—)

Its sushi

💣 least favorite food (let’s not start any fights…)

. . . cooked spinach. Or just warm spinach.

💣 favorite season? (Now we SHOULD agree…)

💣 favorite genre to read / watch / write (Why do I get the inkling it’s horror…)

💣 if you could make one character real, who would it be (do I even have to ask??)

DAMMMM- if it was one of my characters, Sabrielle, she could take me to a universe where the characters i like are real or Horror sans. OOO OR MERFY. easy.

💣 some place you’d love to visit (Mine’s Tokyo! What’s yours?)

Salem Massachusetts or Tokyo. 

💣 a word your friends would use to describe you (Yeah because YOUR five word description was not very….kind….)

Dang it. . . skrunkly.

💣 what is your earliest memory (Do you have a good memory even? I’ll bet you do.)

Slapping my bare stomach when i was two.

💣 why did you start this blog? (Gotta couple ideas why… but I needa hear it from you!)

To post some art and like somebody’s art

💣 when did you start writing fanfic (IF you started writing fanfic.)

5th grade, Nightmare’s castle on quotev. Rewriting it on quotev.

💣 how do you come up with the fics you write (we had a chat about inspiration the other day… did we not?)

(i think so.) At first it was by taking quizzes on quotev (which is how i discovered undertale), then it was reading, then it was roleplays, and now its music and daily conversations

💣 what is the fic you’re know for (I’m sure you can guess mine…)

(Playing with my food..?) Uh, probably Nightmare’s castle, my old one. Its how i got 600 followers on quotev.

💣 what character do you enjoy writing for the most (oh and feel free to answer all these writing questions for an OC or something I don’t mind.)

Sabrielle, probably. And Foxglove

💣 what character do you not enjoy writing for (UGHHHHHH)

Nightmare, probably. But not because i dont like him, but HES SO DAMNED HARD TO WRITE

💣 is there a fic you wish you didn’t write (is there? I have plenty.)

Hmmmmmmm…….. Probably ‘Why Does Love Hurt So Much?’

💣 what character do you simp for most often (same as the genre…)

Horror Sans. And Patrick Bateman ngl

💣 favorite characters of all time (List em’!!!)

Horror Sans

Raphael TMNT (my first crush ever was on him dont judge i was in preschool)

Killer Sans 

Butters Skotch (he makes me cry)

Eda (The Owl House)

💣 favorite shows / series of all time (I have a lot…)

💣 a show you would recommend to anyone (don’t you dare say South Park.)

S O U T H  P A R K jk. Star Vs. The Forces Of Evil

💣 a show you’d tell people to stay away from (…interested….)

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. . . . . . .

The Tuttle Twins.

💣 favorite kinks to write for (if you write kinks… I know I do!)

💣 kinks you would never write for (list one of my favorites and I might argue you on it… maybe…)

Masochism, non com, degrading, licking/

💣 a kink you would like to write but you think you’d be judged (plenty of those out there….)

Vore.

💣 full fics, imagines or head canons (interpret this one how you like.)

Uhhhhhhhhhh ive never finished one of my fanfiction genre things really

💣 your favorite fanfic from another writer…

Playing With My Food and Azriel And Her Life

A couple of in depth questions!

💣 what is something that’s happened in your life that you wish you could go back and change? (Ooooooh I have TOO MANY of these…)

. . .dude what the fuck almost every day i have something like this. It’s not getting on quotev and losing my parents trust. I guess its being so naive and trusting when i was younger. Letting myself get broken over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over again.

💣 what is one of your biggest accomplishments? Why is it so important to you? (…lots of these too…)Getting top ELA scores in the entire school district. Why? S U P E R O R I TY. Nah, just kidding. All of my life people have called me stupid. Made me think I wasn't competent. No matter how high I score on tests. No matter how easy the “hard” assignments are. And getting that score and standing in front of the school with the certificate? It proved them wrong.

💣 what is the toughest thing you had to go through, but can say you’ve successfully overcome? (WHAT?! WHAT IS IT??)

Uhhhhh….i guess there was a week in March where my depression was really, really, really, really, really bad. I was extremely tired. I could barely move. The tiniest little things set me off.I hurt. I had a bottle of pills i kept in my room…

I wanted to be alone. I wanted the loud to stop. It hurt so much…

I wanted the pain to stop.

I eventually just got over it.

💣 what is the best gift someone has ever given you and why is it so important (that plush octopus lol….)

Hmm…just…being there to talk. I'm not able to share everything but.  .  .

Its better than nothing.              Its nice. I don't like having to stay silent. Sometimes the silence hurts more than the noise.

💣 what is your comfort show/series and why is it your comfort show? How has it helped you? (If you answer South Park I might clock out and let the next guy take it 💀)

I dont really have one….sorry.

Your welcome, i guess!

[toinfinitywinning]

Moments and massive revelations —the really special realm of Hell.

Stubbornness. Pain. Lament. Jealousy. No Confidence but w/ a good selfie smile b/c ur Dog can’t take pictures, & no stick b/c u Def picked the wrong one or something. I say similar thoughts a lot…and w/ teardrops on my guitar …so I’m paying close attention. This stuff is dangersome.

Okay. I’ll just make a list.

Growth and learning during:

- humility. throw your Pride out the Door-you will need help.

- regardless of the wrong’s you righted before getting sick. They’re still achievements, but they’re not realized. So then you think was it worth it? Yes, but is it too much to ask to bask in it for just a bit? I mean I am talking multiple, major Life changes. Ha—here’s COVID-19. After that you better be in for the Long-Haul too ‘cuz…

- appreciation for the very minute of things we do in a Day. Getting the mail is difficult for me. Brushing my teeth —out of breath so have to incorporate breaks to breathe Right.

- there are more people Who care about you than you ever knew. It’s not just b/c you’re going through this, people just may be more Vocal. Makes complete sense but took me a bit to get there.

- you will want to throw something, scream into a pillow, drown in self pity —some of which you think you don’t deserve or are allowed. Do it anyway. Safely.

- some days u just gotta laugh. I mean fr b/c u can’t even cry. And things R absurd LOL

- regardless of your spiritual Life or beliefs. You’re gonna be angry at the God or State of mind supposed to save you and take it all away. Then realize that’s not at all the point. We’re not puppets. Think of how dull Life would be w/o the ecstasy from an achievement or how mundane if we didn’t have anything to have Faith in or Hope for or Love or forgive. That’s why we’re not born in Heaven maybe. We have to try first. I don’t want to be a Lazarus. I wanna fight. And we may never know an answer or reason to any of it. That’s gonna take a lifetime to settle b/c there is no rationality to be had.

- I do not mean this to pettifog. You actually do find out Who comes through for you. That old country song line.

- it’s possible to have a Good Day even full of Pain and Discomfort but u kinda have to make yourself and accept its potential consequence for participating.

- the little things aren’t little anymore. You envy people Who can do normal things. Things you used to do without a problem in the world.

- I’ve had to do a lot of fixing in my Life. This may not be perfectly fixed. We don’t have a Choice but to either live with it as a strength and inspiration or stay negative and pouty about what once was. Even tho you have every reason to.

- you will learn so much about yourself. So much. And most things I’ve learned have been new revelations. May have always been there but there to manifest as needed. It’s not all great but I’m not the same person just a few more grayish hairs.

- you will experience numbness. You can sit with it & pull your compression socks down for a bit, b/c this is something no one deserves. You just can’t live there.

- patience. You will never have to try harder. Hyper, hyper sensitivity.

- a journey to healing IF ever realized will be the hardest job you’ve ever had to do. More overtime than you can be paid. And u didn’t even interview. In a material result and no result world it’s disconcerting not to “get anything back”

- you’ll think back about previous hard times. How in that moment life was the worst it could ever be. How much time do u have lol. Next bad thing, ugh so much harder. And while all of this is very true, and all real, i will tell you that to know true strength is to come into any light possible while wielding off not just the physical, but all the emotions of the rainbow and mind. This even is a choice. People complimented you about your strength and are inspired by your determination to think u can. Girl were we wrong...you can make all the “Right” choices and healthy habits and still get punked over and over by Kevin McCalister. When I appreciate people now I try to take their “all” of them. Who are they in that moment. It is a different Life. And anyone else’s journey? Maybe I’ll be lucky enough to witness triumph b/c of how many obstacles went unseen. Yet they made it.

- the only person allowed to say “it could be worse” is you. Period. To be otherwise feels a bit like a competition. We, going through it, already know that. I have the same complaint when it feels like some people or orgs compete for who’s ‘wokest’? B/c if that’s why we’re / I’m doing how disingenuous.

- when words/phrases like holiday or vacation or lets Go out give you more Anxiety and worsen your Physical Health—that’s when you know your Life has done a 180. Especially if those were the times you lived for. This hard Truth and reality is one of the hardest for me. I already had Anxiety about unpacking after vacation before I packed in the first place but whether or not waiting until you really have to Go to the bathroom so u can (while you’re up) also get some water is just something I would have thought before as one of the dumbest things I’d ever heard. And how cruel is that knowing what I know and feel now.

- Life is not a give and take like we want it to be. If that were the Case I’m not positive we’d ever know what healing or getting better really means. Not only that—you may give more than any other, and nothing. You may see the best doctors and access to all the Meds and tests put forward. Nothing. Pretty soon things are hollow and harrowing. Kind of like the celebrities Who swear that money does not make you happy. It’s like a bandaid that doesn’t stay on in the shower, the ones at Doc offices u get after shots. With mickey on them.

- I think joy is like a preventative medicine. When you practice taking it, You save it up and changes you. Like any of my tattoos, there’s gotta be a story there or something meaningful even if your answer starts off, “well spring break senior year we were…’ you get it. Hangover 1-3 movies. HappYness fleets around. More drug like. Addictive really. Impulsive. Every big chain company’s biggest threat if they can get us hooked. You just got swindled. Ha and to Go a bit more political—people know this scheme is pyramid like and use sneaky ways to have Power over you. Goodness I’m not trying to make this sound like a happy cult but there’s just Def a difference.

- you are exhausted mind body and Soul and regardless of consequence you have to choose some times to be present b/c for me I don’t want to Miss out on vacations and holiday’s. But it is an hourly debate. But I can’t just sit there every significant interaction.

- you’re tired. You’ve been strong, resilient, ppl tell you and u appreciate it. But I get tired of having to stay strong. It’s just so overwhelming and for me especially b/c “I can do it alone.” I’ve failed at that a few times.

- you’ll notice things you never have before. Suddenly they mean something like whether u can drive to get Food.

- being a bit redundant but part of stewardship on my End is allowing the help. Someone WANTS to do something for you for THEIR spiritual needs. Not in a vain type of Way. Let them. We’ve all been on the other side.

- you will experience a full range of emotions. Address them separately. Ppl still might look up to you.

- you’ll wanna give up. Don’t. Maybe your continuing going on is the stewardship someone recognizes in themselves. Idk. Pay it forward?

- lastly. YOU don’t KNOW everything. Karma could very well be your best friend, but that line of thinking is non productive and will only take u so far before you’re complaining re something else. B/c regardless of what I’ve done, —and given its timing you learn a karma hostage relationship is something easier holding on to than facing it. Just deflect.

That’s okay. When ready move on to the New Testament. I’m not fully there. But, I have to think the puppet analogy doesn’t apply here too. Shit happens. Ask that dude running with Forrest with a tshirt company dream that died and some dog shizz. Just control what you can. Easier said than done. Thats why when we do overcome—it means more. It’s engrained. Forever inevitable if you can continue to separate the wheat from the chaff. Card Game of Bullshit.

- ppl at some point think you’re being dramatic and begging for attention as if any more attention is what would heal us

- comments like you look Good or sound fine fall deaf. Well So do ppl Right before they kill themselves. Anymore how u look doesn’t have Shit of a correlation

- you’ll get on ppl’s nerves

- you’ll be resented and questioned how sick u really are. Trust me faking —that’s the last Fucking thing on our minds.

- I don’t need to explain anything

[ashen-laguz]

ok so in project moon games, whenever someone has like. really really REALLY intense emotional spikes, to the point of completely shaking their very core beliefs or crumbling something they deeply attatch themselves to or whatever, they tend to essentially go sicko mode - tho the extent of said sicko mode depends on like. how well they handle it.

if they can accept it and move on, then they manifest EGO which is like. essentially being a super human. if they don't and let their negativity eat at them, then they distort and essentially turn into some sort of abomination creature that causes trouble and probly kills

a lot of EGO in limbus / all the EGO in lob corp is based on various abnormalities in the games (abnos essentially being SCP-like creatures) so i thought it'd be fun to doodle some EGO for different hatoful characters based on different abnormalities!

…how i drew dream of a black swan EGO for hitori def veered more into distortion territory tho. o o p s

anyways imma copy-paste the dream of a black swan lore under the cut for those who are curious because i picked this one for hitori for good reason :)

"Elijah had a large family to provide for."

"Her impoverished parents would always say: “Although we don't have anything to pass onto you, we have the most valuable treasure, honesty and diligence. These may not be of great help to you now, but they will make all of you happy someday.” "

"One day, a dense fog covered the city. The hazy fog, thought to be a natural phenomenon at first, didn't dissipate even after a few days had passed. Some claimed it was making them feel nauseous or making them retch, but most people thought nothing of it. A lot of people continued to work and go about their days in the fog. Of course, Elijah was one of the people who had to be okay with it. She was the only family member with a proper job, and the inheritance of poverty had left them in huge debt. Elijah had several brothers, but their wills were broken after being faced with several failures. Elijah was always tired, but she thought if she just worked a little harder, things would work themselves out. Just like what her parents used to say to her, and just like in fairy tales. Just like that bird who eventually spread its white wings and became the envy of all."

"Some people left the city to escape the fog. They said the city was done for. Elijah didn't listen. Elijah felt queasy at times. She felt her whole body blistering. Almost there, just a little more; if she held out just a little longer, the clothes made of nettles would be complete, and if she threw them to her brothers she once loved dearly, then the days when her family lived harmoniously could be restored."

"One day, on the way home after work, she bumped into a pedestrian running at full speed. Though the pedestrian who crashed into her was at a full sprint, he was unable to get back up, so she offered him a helping hand, asking if he was alright. He slapped her hand away and got up on his own. The pedestrian took a few faltering steps before collapsing again. The man seemed like he was running away from something; he seemed worried that Elijah would hurt him. Elijah tried to ask him what was wrong.

However, the pedestrian opened his mouth first. The simple act of opening his mouth seemed labored, so she patiently waited for him to talk. The pedestrian didn’t open his mouth to speak; he began to vomit a mixture of blood and waste. The gooey mixture poured from his mouth at first, then it gushed out from his nose, ears, and eyes. If he hadn’t been expelling from all of his orifices, then Elijah might have tried to help him. Elijah thought she heard a shout in the distance. She left the vomiting man behind and started to walk slowly."

"What happens when the black swan wakes up from dreaming of a white swan? There were many people amidst the fog. Some screaming, some laughing. Some wielding clubs, some curled up; bodies covered in wounds. Dark, wet, and fetid dregs were scattered all over the ground, covered in footprints. She began to look for her brothers. Her family who needed to wear the nettle clothing to be free from the curse. Ones whom she shared happy dreams with. She saw her dear brothers in the distance. Elijah fell to her knees and finally started to puke up the thing everyone else was vomiting. The lake ripples gently. As if a number of swans just took flight."

[wayv2728]

Rich Boy AU x WayV

In honor of 100 followers!!

Please acknowledge: I’m not writing about their actual families or lives, these are just roles I could see them in.

I beg of you guys, please send in rich boy AU asks cause I’ll be basing the answers off of these characters.

Kun

His dad’s a big shot airline pilot

He makes bank so his mom was always a full time mother

Very much a mommy’s boy

Super proper and polite

Probably dates people but through his parents others setting him up

Only because he’s a little nervous and doesn’t know how to talk someone up

Class President 100%

Has had 1 serious partner and they broke up because they moved away

PDA is not his thing

Very cautious about his public image

His parents want him to find someone while he’s young and commit to them

As I said cautious about his image & wants to keep a pristine reputation but the second you’re out of the public’s view oh the way he’d kiss you

I just know he’s an amazing kisser

Ten

His parents would be politicians

Like he’d be the Governor’s son or something (talking about America here cause idk how other governments work)

His parents want nothing more than for their son to be good & have a good reputation

But he’s actually very rebellious

His parents just happen to be really clueless about what their son gets up to

Not the type to settle down at all

Except he’s lowkey a hopeless romantic

Like if someone were to make him laugh and smile a lot he could definitely catch feelings

Relationship would start as either FWB or a hookup, never actual dating

Doesn’t want his bad boy reputation getting ruined

But as a s/o he’d be really affectionate and romantic

You try to hold his hand in public & he’d move your hand away until nobody was looking, then he’d hold onto it tight

Wears a necklace you bought him cause it has some really sweet secret meaning that nobody knows except you & him and it makes him feel special

Winwin

The son of some big hot shot lawyer

Golden boy

Everyone wants their kid to grow up like him

He’s a good guy, like actually

Probably has had a couple of serious relationships so he’s kind of an expert

Has a dark side tho? Like not a dark past or secret drug dealing job but like there’s def a side to him the public doesn’t see

Like he seems all sweet and innocent but then boom he’s really possessive and kinky

Really knows how to love someone

The kind of guy that seems perfect on paper & maybe something falls through and you break up but find each other again

Parents would set him up on dates all the time cause they want him to have a family & be successful

Lucas

He’d be the one with the family that opens a mega corporation

Didn’t get a lot of attention from his parents growing up so he resorts to being quite the player

Prob lost his v card at a young age (16 or so)

Has a new woman on his arm daily as it seems

It would be really hard to convince him to actually date someone

Just not the commitment type

Kinkyyy

Hard to tame

Overall just a really great lay but he’d be difficult to get as a boyfriend

Not saying it’s impossible but it’s not easy

If you did manage to tame him and get him as a boyfriend, he’d be a little iffy about it first

Oh boy the jealousy he’d get

He’d have a hard time telling and showing you how he feels but tbh he’d get into fights about you

Someone’s bullying you? Beats them up. Flirting with you? Beats them up. Etc.

Eventually you find out it’s because he cares about you & doesn’t know how to tell you

Xiaojun

Probably the son of some super successful actor or model

Another golden boy

A great student

Top of his class, president of some clubs, etc

Would def choose to go to an Ivy League school & 100% gets into most if not all of them

Hasn’t really thought about dating

Has had hookups and dates every now and then but nothing serious

Hopes to do some kind of international relations work in his life

Travels a lot

As a boyfriend he’d be really careful and cautious

Wants to make sure he’s doing everything right

Probably lots of small gifts from him

Isn’t afraid to tell you he loves you once he knows it for sure

Shows you off to everyone!! Would be hesitant to do so at first but he loves it really

The type to ask you to help him make an ex jealous or feel bad about dumping him

Hendery

He’d be the one with the strict & overprotective parents

Like they only want him dating other rich people (he wouldn’t care at all & would just date whoever made him happy)

Probably moved from China to your city when he was a kid

Comes off as charming and prince-like but is really mysterious

Not one who likes commitment

Like lots of hookups, one night stands, etc

He could commit to someone if they started as a FWB type thing

Like it was a hookup but he had a really great time and you become friends and he’d start to realize he’s caught feelings

Doesn’t really know how to love

Wouldnt realize he’s in love for the longest time

Honestly he’s not the smartest when it comes to love but someone talks some sense into him

If you were his s/o, he’d be super affectionate

Really into PDA, like “let’s make out in front of the paparazzi”

Does things for the sake of pissing off his parents

The type to run off to Europe with his s/o and half of the money his family’s saved for his college

Yangyang

Trust fund baby type

Parents own some kind of charity or something & are philanthropists

Has quite a bit of experience with dating but from 2 or 3 serious partners he’s had in the past

Spoils his s/o like crazy

Lots of gifts (mostly clothes & jewelry)

Didn’t get enough attention from his parents so he’s a little needy but understandably so

Likes the thought of having a sugar baby

Loves the feeling of providing for someone so he would prefer dating someone lower or middle class

Wants to be taken seriously as a grown up but nobody does

Would try and start his own business at a young age which would end up failing cause he’s young & naive but in his failure he’d learn and eventually start a new business that would take off rapidly & be a major success

He wouldn’t seem like the kind of guy you’d want to take home to meet your parents but I feel like he’s grown a lot and would want more than anything to prove himself to his own parents as well as yours

[suganovakawa]

Hello I wanna say that I love ur work 🥺 I’m new to the haikyuu fandom and ur work gives me life! Can I request a HC with Tanaka, Daichi, Suga & asahi and how they would react when they see other teams at a tournament flirt with you and how they act when they’re jealous? Thank you !

absolutely omg i love my karasuno babies and them being jEALOUS??? this is my calling goodBYE

btw btw welcome to the hq fandom bby !! enjoy your stay here 🥺💞💘💓

𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐋𝐘 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐎𝐅𝐅 !

karasuno boys fend off other teams as they try to flirt with you !

— check out my masterlist !!

these boys don’t take too kindly to other teams trying to flirt with you . . . and they’re not gonna deal with it for much longer ! >:)

a / n : jealous anything >>>> and you cannot change my mind because it’s my weakness k thx bye 🥰

— ask to be added to my taglist !!

taglist : @yams046 @janellion

ryuunosuke tanaka

lmao flirting w you is like asking for a death sentence i do not make the rules

tanaka is not afraid to show you off , nor is he afraid to show off your guys’ relationship at tournaments either

he has full trust in you dw , but that doesn’t mean he trusts the men that get a little too close for comfort

if his death glare alone doesn’t scare them off i feel so sorry for them

ryu will 100% call someone out if they’re obviously flirting with you

“ hey , punk ??? you’re trying to flirt with them , huh ??? gotta tell ya , you’re out of luck , go find someone else . this hot stuff right here is mine , thank you very much . ”

he gets so confused when you get embarrassed because what ??? he’s just telling them the truth

“ ryu ! you can’t just call me ‘ hot stuff ’ in the middle of the gym !! ”

“ why not , baby ? you are hot stuff ! they’re just bummed out you’re not theirs . ”

not to mention , 8 times out of 10 noya will probably be right there with tanaka scaring off the suitors

those two are literally your bodyguards , and once they know that someone else has their sights set on you , do not expect them to leave your side

also , he holds a FULL GRUDGE against ladies men type people

cough cough tooru i’m talking bout u bby

you are to stay a mile away from oikawa and all of aoba johsai at all times , ryu will not accept otherwise

oh , and terushima ??? YEAH HES NOT EVEN GONNA LAY EYES ON YOU ONCE LMAO

at least , not without tanaka’s arm wrapped around your waist

gotta make sure they understand you ain’t on the market

all in all a very protective baby crow , can and will fight anyone who tries flirting with you so pls don’t test him

daichi sawamura

daichi is definitely the silent but deadly type let me assure you

i don’t care where that man is , he’ll always have an eye on you regardless

oh and he’ll probably have the rest of his team have their eyes on you too ; just in case there is a small instance where he can’t keep his eyes on you

yuu , ryu , and shoyo will be paying the most attention to you when the captain is not able to watch over you at the tournaments

lord have mercy to those who somehow actually get past daichi’s security

my best guess is that you’re probably on like , a water bottle run in between games , so that everyone can have fresh cold water during timeouts n whatnot

yeah you’ll probably get hit on by another guy in the halls ( let’s pretend it’s yuuji because i love him so much LMAO pls hit on me teru )

anyway he’ll def be at your neck like how he was tryna get kiyoko’s number

sadly you can’t do much because you have a bunch of water bottles in your hands so you’re just tryna shimmy away but terushima is not having it

out of nowhere his face blanks

literally pales

you’re about to ask him what that’s about until you feel an arm snake around your waist

like i said , the silent but deadly type

you can’t see daichi’s face as he’s staring down yuuji , but you can hear the annoyance in his voice

“ oh there you are , y/n . you need help carrying these water bottles , baby ? ”

you turn to yuuji , who has his hands up — clearly getting the message daichi was giving to him

“ alright alright , my bad ~ ! didn’t know they were yours , man . i’ll take my leave . ”

but he did add a “ see you later cutie ” before leaving the two of you alone

you couldn’t help but laugh as the captain latched onto you protectively as the two of you went back to the gym

“ daichi , it’s okay , he’s gone now ! you’ve done your job in saving me ”

“ nonsense . i can sense their eyes on you from everywhere . you’re not leaving my sight again , y/n . ”

koushi sugawara

koushi is definitely also a silent jealous type

but he’s more mellow when showing it subtly

but don’t get me wrong , the effect it leaves on others is just as menacing

he’s the type to leave that shiver of fear when he shows up

basically he’s a sweetie until people mess with you and that’s just on periodt

suga is not too protective over you , since he does trust you and has full confidence you won’t do anything to hurt him

cough cough he still wants the other nasty boogers keeping their hands off you though

i literally just imagine him going up to people like “ :))))) ??? ” when people try flirting with you LMAO

like ?? no ??? they’re ??? mine ????

not ???????? yours ??????

he’ll have that chilling ring in his voice that’s deadpan but menacing at the same time — sometimes he even scares you with it

you had a run in with tooru at the preliminaries , RIP bless his soul

you went to go watch a match while karasuno was resting ; seijoh was resting at the same time

he got a little too close for comfort in the audience stand

flashed you a famous smile of his , “ what’s a cutie like you doing here alone ? ”

“ she’s not alone , actually . ”

KFKKDKFKFKD both of your heads went a whole 180 at the sound of koushi’s voice

oh no he had that creepy smile again

“ baby , we were just looking for you . is oikawa bothering you ? ”

he turned his :) to tooru , who had already stepped a decent distance away from you

“ heaven forbid you’d be bothering y/n , oikawa , when you have a whole fanbase of girls you could be bothering instead . ”

the great king had never been so scared of a karasuno player in his life

he left in a hurry without saying much — though he was grumbling something you two couldn’t understand

switch from scary suga to soft suga uwu

he wrapped his arms around you and grinned pleasantly this time as he hugged you

“ sweetheart , don’t hesitate to tell me if anyone else is like that to you , okay ? i’ll make them go away . ”

“ koushi , you’re so scary when you’re angry ”

“ i am ? i didn’t think i was ”

“ look at how oikawa backed away when you came up ! hardly anyone can phase him ”

“ oh . maybe i am scary , but only when it comes to you . ”

he laughed and took you by the hand , and you two walked back to the rest of the team

scary suga never fails to keep the nasty boogers away

asahi azumane

he won’t even realize he’s jealous until someone points it out to him

i think nishi would be the one to point it out to him , because woah asahi looks mad

“ yo , asahi ? you good ? your knuckles are turning white ! ”

he’s been looking your direction ever since the date tech players started surrounding you , striking up conversation

he didn’t even realize yuu was talking to him until he literally had to jump up and wave in his face

asahi snapped out of it once noya caught his attention — his fists were still clenched tho

“ oh — noya . i’m fine , why ? ”

the libero didn’t buy it one bit because he didn’t know the ace even had it in him to be angry

he looked to where asahi had his eyes on the whole time before turning back to the third year with a smirk

“ you’re gonna let them just flirt with y/n like that ? what kind of boyfriend are you ? go go go ! ”

oh no yuu what did you do

“ they’re flirting with y/n ? ”

he was f u r i o u s at the thought of it

oh no no no they were not going to be flirting with you , not while asahi was your boyfriend no sir

he stormed over towards you — your back was towards karasuno so the date tech players noticed him first

asahi + scary dark death glare = run

and the date tech players — besides aone — did just that , scampering off in a hurry

you were confused until you turned around , smiling when you saw your giant teddy bear of a boyfriend

you were utterly oblivious to the stare down between him and aone

“ asahi ! shouldn’t you be practicing now ? ”

he placed a gentle but firm arm around your waist , pulling you closer to him without taking his eyes off date tech’s ace

“ yeah , but we were looking for you . i’ve come to bring you back , y/n . ”

oh heck yeah there was tension as he brought you back to your guys’ court

“ those players weren’t flirting with you , were they y/n ? ”

“ huh ? oh no ! i was just catching up with a couple of them , since i went to middle school with some of them . why ? ”

“ oh , nothing ”

you couldn’t even ask him anything else as he walked away without another word , which was very not like him

you had to get the answer from nishinoya later on , who was laughing hysterically at your description of the way your boyfriend was acting

“ OMG Y/N HE REALLY WAS JEALOUS , I TOLD HIM THAT DATE TECH WAS FLIRTING WITH YOU I CANT BELIEVE HE BELIEVED ME ”

after the tournament both of you were blubbering apologies to each other

you apologizing for making asahi jealous

and asahi apologizing for acting like a brat about it

in summary , asahi + jealousy = pls save yourself from that man he is terrifying

he’ll make it up to you with tons n tons of cuddles later so he’s still your big teddy bear <3

[curryaboo]

— hi all :] i was tagged by @morksuns & @zaynsbengaligf to do this seemingly nameless tag game o_O tysm my mishtis 💗💖💕💓

do you make your bed?

yep but i always employ my sister’s help otherwise i wouldn’t have a bed to sleep on at the end of the day i’d just give up and lay a pillow on the floor :[

what’s your favourite number?

i rlly just like the look of 444

what is your job?

full time tumblr resident (yes unemployed)

if you could go back to school, would you?

i mean i just got out of sec/high school this summer and my sisters have started a new term this past week & i get like anxiety & heavy sadness from just being around ppl that are still attending school djjfsjdn can u tell i hated going to school ?? but anyway i’m gonna end up at uni sooner or later in my life so i can’t dodge it too much

can you parallel park?

cant even drive yet mate 💔💔💔

a job you had that would surprise people?

uhh the jobs that i have had are as ordinary as can be !! :)

do you think aliens are real?

i do have some… hope?? that they are & i would LOVE for them to be real . idk but i remember not too long ago my friend showed us this picture of the galaxy (or was it smth vaster??) with earth’s position in it all & yeah i just told her that you can’t look at how minuscule we are as a species and a planet and not at least question that there may be other complex organisms out there

can you drive a manual car?

i cannae drive any type of car

what’s your guilty pleasure?

objectively shitty bollywood music </3 also flawed and eye roll-worthy media in general . you season 3 is coming out soon so i’m gonna be having a great time :]]

tattoos?

zero but if i was allowed (?) to get them then i’d def have a couple of small ones :3

favourite colour?

probably a type of lavender or a dusty baby purple :>

favourite type of music?

2010s bollywood music which isn’t a genre per say but it’s what i listen to the most unfortunately

do you like puzzles?

yess but i haven’t done one in ages now

any phobias?

i don’t think so ?? i just have mild & irrational fears of random things tho

favourite childhood sport?

rounders!!! & basketball (short girl representation)

do you talk to yourself?

all the time and i would do it more if i didn’t live with other ppl

what movie do you adore?

taare zameen par which is probably the best movie bollywood has made :)

coffee or tea?

coffee!! (my stomach screams no)

first thing you wanted to be growing up?

a scientist 😭 (which is a very vague term ://)

i’m gonna taaaag @chameli @fishpakora @waterz @flowerwebs @lotadz @bollydizis + anyone else that’d like to do this !!!

[eveningclouds]

ok well i guess i’m just wondering how you decided which school was best for you. i feel pretty overwhelmed because i have to make a decision by the end of the month and i can’t help but think that if i choose one over the other i wont reach my full potential or i wont ‘become who i’m meant to be’ if that makes sense. i feel like im already grieving all the memories/friendships i could have developed and i haven’t even settled on a decision yet. i also didn’t expect to get into the schools that i got to because the acceptance rates were so low this year. but for some strange reason they seem to want me lol. and now i have to face the reality that i could actually attend schools that i never thought i would be able to go to. my parents just want the best for me but i know they want me to go to a top school and follow in my brother’s footsteps. i’m just scared i’ll make the wrong choice and regret it. sorry for the rant… i just feel helpless :(

firstly congratulations on ur accomplishments !!! 🥳🎊💗 very happy for u

here are some things i considered when deciding where to go, & some things i wish i considered in retrospect

one thing to keep in mind is that rankings are hiiighly manipulable. universities r rly good at gaming their stats to inflate their (already subjective) ranking on usnews/wherever. & just bc a school has a large endowment doesn't necessarily mean they'll Actually Spend that money on their students. what's more indicative of ur future success, imo, is the availability of resources ur school offers.

for example: how big are the libraries? what's the ratio of therapists to students? how accessible is career counseling? what's the gym like? how does the school tangibly support first generation students? & most importantly (!!!): what kind of financial aid package/scholarships are u working with?

i would also suggest considering what degree of independence/freedom at which u thrive. my friends at nyu for example all have their own apartments and are basically adults bc nyu is like. directly in the city. most upperclassmen at my school, however, still live on campus, & therefore don't have to worry abt maintaining groceries/utilities/etc as much, but also have to deal with more rules about like owning candles or whatever. my friends who stayed in state for college usually visit their family every month, which can either be a relaxing escape from campus, or can be stifling. being out of state, it's more of a hassle to visit home (which was a huuuge mess during covid).

finally, think about what ur interested in pursuing in the future (this can and will change over time!). if ur uncertain about what u wanna major in, how easy is it to change majors at each school? specialized schools for tech or arts or wtvr tend to make it harder to switch majors around, which sucks if u wanna experiment more, but is great if u need more structure/focus in ur field. if ur degree is like, not super stable in the job market or requires grad school (ex psychology), def give a lot of thought to how feasible it is to double major & tuition (u can always go somewhere 'prestigious' for grad school & save money now!). + does ur school offer a dual bachelors/masters program (if ur interested)?

u mention future friendships & missed opportunities & i do want to reassure you that you are going to have friendships & opportunities wherever you go (🧿🧿🧿). although party schools in the idk cornfields with a huge drinking culture and small liberal arts schools where everyone wears trench coats will have different Vibes, there are really cool people anywhere and everywhere. (for Vibes, look at students' like, day in the life vlogs on youtube! not college produced vids tho). u cannnnnn see this as infinite missed opportunities, but u can also see this as a guarantee of (eventually) fulfilling experiences!

this is getting long already but one final note is that even if u pick The Best School Ever For Ur Fullest Potential (which is a bit of a myth), u will probably have at least a few weeks where u feel super lonely and insecure and regretful of ur choices. esp when ur younger i think it's really easy to believe that Every Choice You Make is Ruining Your Life Permanently. but u can't rly live ur life on trying to predict the whims of ur future self. take into account what will provide a stable, fulfilling, supportive environment for who you are today & then remain confident that nothing is permanent, that becoming/understanding who ur meant to be will happen anywhere bc it's. who ur meant to be (tho some environments r def more conducive than others), & that ur making the best decision for urself Now based on the information u have Today. 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽

[stvpidinlove]

[ OLIVIA HOLT, SHE/HER, CIS WOMAN ]  —  [ REGAN MORGAN ]  is a child of  [ MORPHEUS ]  with the power of  [ PRECOGNITIVE DREAMING ] .  they were born in  [ 1995 ]  and have been in nemean lion since  [ 2019 ] .  with the change, they  [ ARE TRAINING IN ]  the  [ AMBASSADOR ]  role which makes sense since they’re usually  [ SCROLLING HER CURSED TIKTOK FYP & CONFUSING HER FOLLOWERS ON TWITTER ] .  if you’d like to meet them try the  [ MOON ]  building .

tl;dr she’s a deranged menace to society

BASICS

hometown: milford, pennsylvania

eye color: brown

hair color:  blonde

height: 5′3

sexuality: bisexual

birthday: january 19, 1995 ( capricorn )

BIO

regan’s mother was never the type to settle down. before meeting morpheus, her longest relationship had been three months. so when the guy seemed commitment-phobic, that was perfect for her. until, of course, she found out she was pregnant. she didn’t want to get married but she was at an age where the idea of motherhood...didn’t repulse her. so she wanted to keep the baby, at which point the father of her child didn’t get down on one knee, he started to explain the kinds of responsibilities she’d face as the mother of his child.

having the child of a god in her womb inflated her ego, which was pretty impressive considering how big it already was. see, regan’s mother was a southern belle without any of the class or manners. she’d breezed through the pageant circuit as a teen, winning a number of titles with minimal effort. her talent was essentially crying on demand and looking pretty while doing it. knowing she’d slept with a god, like an honest to...god felt sort of fitting. like, duh, who else would she have her first child with?

this also led to a brief but intense fixation with shakespeare, who name dropped gods like it was his job, which led to her choosing the name regan from king lear.

she moved to pennsylvania with regan when her daughter was only four years old, because some guy practically begged her to let him take care of her, and she had nowhere better to go. until, eventually, she did, thanks to the world of avon. her mother started selling out of boredom but then it turned out she was good at it, so good that she could easily buy a place once she got bored of her rich boyfriend, and move out with regan.

thankfully, her mother got out of the pyramid scheme before she got in too deep. she was hired by an actual, reputable cosmetics company and given a desk job to work in sales, which she was still a natural at. because she had a full time job now, regan spent a lot of time with nannies...and that’s nannies plural because regan was one of those kids who drove her caretakers to quit on a regular basis.

but not because she was a handful. she was pretty self-sufficient, actually, and totally well-behaved, she was just kind of...weird. she’d leave her room for dinner with all of her clothes suddenly on backwards and say nothing as if it was normal and act confused when her nanny asked about it. she’d stare at the tv when it was off, she’d spend one day only speaking in whispers, she’d write vaguely threatening messages on the mirror with her mother’s red lipstick.

all of this was because regan knew it was scary to adults, which made it fun for her. she wasn’t, like, actually disturbed. well, aside from the dreams she had sometimes. she’d have a dream about a baby bird falling from a nest, she’d watch its chest move for minutes before it died, then she’d wake up the next day and find a dead bird outside the sliding glass doors to the backyard.

for a while she thought they were coincidences. then she thought she was making things happen in her sleep, and that it was her job to stop bad things from happening, to save every baby bird that asked for help in her dreams. it took her a few years to accept that just because she sometimes saw the future didn’t mean she had any power to change it. she was warned so she could prepare herself, which only made her feel more powerless.

but being regan, she chose to cope with this aspect of her life with avoidance and humor. she doesn’t want to pick and choose what she worries about and what she doesn’t, so she decided a long time ago not to take anything seriously.

for reasons unknown, regan’s mother actually decided to have another child after regan. but she was unconventional, too, hence regan being...the way she is, so she never actually married the father of regan’s half-brother, but they have been together for the past 15 years, so.

her brother is eleven years younger than she is, so in regan’s mind, a baby. whenever left with the task of babysitting him while the two were growing up, it would be regan who suggested ice cream for breakfast and sock sliding around the living room at dangerous speeds.

RANDOM FACTS

i want to v*mit saying this but.....she’s kind of like........the female version of stevesuptic. except for she’s cute <3

her entire twitch account is kind of satirical, like it’s very hard to gauge what her actual personality is. i don’t think her viewers bully her the way they bully steve bc she would bully them back LMAO but they ask her a lot of random ass super weird sometimes borderline disturbing questions and she answers them like it’s normal

she def has weird/creepy drawings whenever playing gartic phone tho /:

ig you could say her channel is like shit posting but make it a streamer. she has a really nice set up and she always looks made up in her streams but then the content is her playing like a cat dating sim for four hours

she’s actually pretty shit at most games that require any level of skill and her following comes entirely from her personality and her Brand ig, she’s just entertaining to watch bc she says and does the most ??? things. like she’s not a gamer girl and doesn’t say she is she just has a twitch and plays games for the attention

also she has a cat named muffintop (best part of the muffin, not the offensive term for a woman’s stomach, though she will say that’s what it means if someone asks) who she regularly posts memes of and like most of her twitch emotes are her cat. you can find examples on her pinterest board lmao

i think it’s pretty hard to get an actual vision out of regan? she mostly keeps those to herself and just lies about her dreams. she’ll just be like, “yeah actually i had a dream you were gonna choke on some oatmeal so stay safe out there.” she’s also only partially sure when a dream is actually about the future.

her like <3 symbol that represents her is butterflies, she has a ton of butterfly shit

POSSIBLE CONNECTIONS

idk if i am requesting a roommate for once, idk if i wanna subject anyone to that

someone naive who believes her any time she says something is Going To Happen, no matter how stupid it is and no matter how many times things simply do not happen??

a bestie because...............................i just feel like she wormed her way into someone’s inner circle and they’re just stuck with her now

[archivessuggest]

I’m planning an overall series where the Fears still exist but instead of them being fears they’re just the overall 13-14 magics that make up the world they live in but also it’s a Harry Potter crossover which is ONLY important in so much as one of the previous Magnus employees was a warlock that liked to play around with the old archival staff and made them what basically amounts to a secret door that they open and it’s a full ass living area sorta like one of the Hogwarts common rooms (cozy and lots of stone walls and such cause my personal HP theory which is way more important than canon cause a lot of canon was racist and ignorant, is that it’s not that magic can’t be around tech it’s just that magic sorta makes tech evolve because magic lives in the air like tech waves which means magic and wifi too close tend to get weird n shit like that) and when Jon gets the archivist position there him and Martin (who becomes a worker there too) get debriefed by Elias (who is still Jonas but Elias actuallyWILLINGLY gave his body over after one too many failed suicide attempts ooof and Jonas is ACTUALLY a good person bent on the preservation of magic knowledge n shit but also rich af lol) and Jon was informed that if he took the job the Archivist position would change him but for the better in a lot of ways and so he said okay and they moved down there but after they get attacked by Prentis (gotta keep some villains but it’s just easier if they work for a non-evil place lol) they hire additional security for the archives which are Barisa and Daisy (cause ACAB even in UK so let them have redemption arc where they leave the force) and Georgie and Melanie eventually get jobs there too and move in with them and bring The Admiral and it’s found family in the basement. Sasha is alive and happy but she works out in the actual basement beyond the secret door because she works with computers, Daisy basically follows Jon around like an oversized puppy to bodyguard him if he leaves which makes Martin hella jealous when he realizes Jon likes her but Barisa is basically the only person Daisy likes like that and she finds it hilarious and it’s amazing.

Anyways. One day Jon and Daisy are heading home from a grocery run (they have a secret entrance from the outside of the archives so they’re not tramping through the whole ass institute with groceries and getting weird looks) and they find two kittens in a cardboard box in an alley. So obviously they bring the babies home too. The Admiral immediately claims them as his children, which is good cause Georgie and Jon have fostered kittens before and after their checkups and shots they are ready to take in the new babies.

But the hilarious part. The fuckin hilarious part. Is one day. One of the kittens. Follows Jon out of the archives (he tends to let the cats choose if they want to go to his office with him or not since he still uses it as his office outside the communal living quarters, and one of them chose to cling today) and he gets pointed out by one of the Less Magically Inclined staff upstairs. So. Jon. Is like. ‘Oh shit.’

But Daisy suddenly pops up behind him and picks up the baby (who loves his giant momma) and asks why Jon brought him to work today. And Jon catches on. Cause the guy who pointed him out legit just accused him of hiding a kitten in the basement and ‘that is SO not allowed, is it???’ And Jon wanted to stop the guy before he got reported to HR, so he’s all ‘oh. Okay. Bag? Baby made nest in bag??? Didn’t see!!! Took baby to work!!!!’ And it’s the dumbest excuse ever but they buy it with the simple fact that Jon is the biggest workaholic ever and probably wouldn’t run a kitten home just cause he accidentally brought him in lmaooooo.

Anyways. I just need a FIC where they have a secret cobblestone cottage in the basement that can be infinite and is v cosy and they all love it. Tim and Martin basically control the kitchen and even tho a lot of them like making their own food, sometimes Martin and Tim take it over for a day to stuff the fridge full of leftovers and meal prep. Sasha and Barisa like sitting in the main room’s armchairs and reading books for hours. Jon and the cats love the giant fireplace (which def works for floo too but it’s a closed system so you need permission to get in first) because warm, Georgie does her podcast still and Melanie goes to therapy because she’s still got a lotta issues, even when she doesn’t hate Jon and the Institute (and acting as tho those are her only issues when she’s openly stated that she’s had anger issues for as long as she could remember and have lead to a lot of self endangerment both past and current... ya my girl needs help) and can be in the same room as Jon with them only minimally hissing at each other, Daisy is happy and safe knowing that her charge (Jon) and her mate (Barisa) are safe and well cared for, (maybe she’s a werewolf... tho not the same way HP does it cause that’s a mega homophobic and evil way I like writing them like Teen Wolf wolves cause let them be growly and in control at times but yes they v much still belong to the Hunt) and it’s just nice all over.

Everyone is happy. Deal with it. The only reason why I really came up with HP crossover to begin with cause my OTP Draco/Harry/Luna came to smack my brain and I decided that Harry woulda been grabbed by The Distortion right after Hogwarts cause he walkin around with the elder wand, the invisibility cloak, the philosophers stone, the sword of griffendor, AND the resurrection stone.

Trust me. That bitch was like ‘wtfffff’ and stalked the kid till he was disappeared. Then Luna (who’s existence was only known cause of Harry) found the yellow door like four years later and walked in without hesitation. She later on takes over Michael instead of Helen and she’s strong enough to keep things sane. Then she ejects Harry (who’s still somewhat human but becoming an avatar) and drops him on Draco’s doorstep and tells him to take Harry to the Magnus institute so they can make sure he’s as harmless as he seems. Which she already knew and it was mainly just a slightly long term plan (lmao long term it only took three months) to get Draco to willingly leave with them too lmaoooo Luna was all ‘hmmm... why have ONE ex bf when I can have both of them???’ And now. Ships. Harry is their... pet? Ya.

Anyways byyyye.

[4dtk]

3. Are you a virgin?

7. Can you commit to one person?

11. Do you ever want to get married?

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

56. State 8 facts about your body

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

83. Who was your first kiss with?

3. are you a virgin?

sadly i am. heartbreak. i only know about all these things bc i’m so curious and i read smut like it’s my full time job.

7. can you commit to one person?

if i’m super in love and appreciate that person then yes, i think so. had an ex of like a year and i was literally smitten with him i never talked to any other guy lol. if we’re talking about the talking stage or flirting stage tho... i don’t think so. unless i know i’m gonna keep you in my life for a good amount of time, it’s likely i’ll entertain other people who wanna talk to me. i get bored easily, sorry #sagthingz

11. do you ever want to get married?

ooh another hard question. in a way, i guess. but marriage will probably just have my parents asking for kids and i do NOT wanna have kids. they’re tempting sometimes (bro. i literally have a breeding/creampie kink. i swear to fucking god.) but idk. going back to marriage, i kinda like it i guess, but i don’t want to be tied down that much. it’s hard to explain — commitment is scary for me.

21. do you think someone has feelings for you?

i wish lol, but i don’t think so. i keep getting tarot readings on my fyp but no one’s come up to talk to me or anything sooooo we’ll see. if anything happens, i’ll def update you guys. i’ve been manifesting a sugar daddy tho, let’s see how that goes 😀

85. would you ever date someone off of the internet?

i have, like thrice. dated a girl, wasn't that serious though, had feelings for a while and it died off like a few months later because we were too busy to talk to each other. it’s hard, especially since i met them through fandom (v*ltron. DON’T COME AT MEEEE i liked it a lot at the time) and once the show ended, we lost interest and in a way with each other. that was the third one, the first “gf” was just me being delusional bc i was desperate for an r/s. i did have feelings, but i think it was more like excitement of being able to call people pet names and shit.

now, wanna hear about the second one? it was going fine. we talked, we talked, like over video and stuff because we were in different countries and i was honestly getting attached and one day she decides to message me about how i’m making her feel guilty for not being able to do anything. about what? i used to say ‘i want to die’ quite a bit before. i know it’s not a healthy coping mechanism, but i picked it up from the internet pretty young. i just wished she just brought it up instead of sending me a long ass paragraph and then blocking me LMFAO. i was pissed. i understand that that phrase might be kinda negative, and if you want me to stop saying it i’ll genuinely stop, because it won’t be good for my brain too. (learnt this late, now i’m trying to be more positive and say those instead of ‘i wanna die’) oh well whatever. her friend had to text me and say it was a misunderstanding but i just told her if she wants to talk to me she should just tell me herself. blocked the whole lot of them! 🥱

38. have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

i think so. i’m not sure, tbh. maybe it was because i liked the way he talked and stuff, plus he played basketball lol. it’s a new change to always knowing guys that only play soccer. and he was a good friend to me for a good amount of time.

42. how long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

baby, i’ve been touched-starved for as long as i can remember. i don’t think it’ll take very long before i eventually cave.

44. how many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

just those three plus the ex that i mentioned, i think. i had like this one guy i was interested in (before any of them came into the picture), but his hand-holding game during the movie was so bad i blocked him. i felt bad but the deed had already been done. plus i was 13 i didn’t even fucking know what i was doing.

56. state 8 facts about your body

i have a birthmark on my right forearm. i have like something similar to stretch marks? i’m not entirely sure but they’re mostly on my thighs. i am super fucking hairy, i hate it. i think i have nice fingers, people said i could be a hand model lol. i have tattoos(???). i can’t get tanned, i just get sunburnt. i’m left-handed (is that counted...). i have sensitive skin, i can’t use necklaces for long.

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

talk to me about things i like and i’ll also do it for you, like people are so hot when they show interest in what i like. SEND ME SONGS!!! even if we aren’t romantically involved i love to hear about new songs. write me little letters. doesn’t have to be long, but you bet i’ll keep that shit bc i’ll reread it fifty times over. be nice, kind. if you’re mean to homophobes, racists and anti-maskers and people like that, i will support you. lol be mean all you want, but if you talk rudely to people in retail or customer service or is just a straight-up bully that’s an instant turn off. lastly, i guess pay attention. i’m not a person to voice out my needs and problems and i’ll eventually have to, but for the more minute things i’ll probably just keep my mouth shut. if you ask me “d’ya wanna say something? you good?” i’ll probably kiss you on the spot.

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

for me, i think it’s a great opportunity to be in tune with your sexuality and have some comfort/acceptance/appreciation with your body. i think it’s also important that both parties (or more) have fun and are comfortable in the bedroom and ofc, consensual! it can honestly range from just like pure fucking to like making love, but as long as they are enjoying themselves!

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

bestie i’m a virgin. okay but hypothetically, making out just does it for me. just straddling the other and feeling the other one up. with the stupid red lights and playlist on speakers, it sounds immaculate right now. if we’re talking about something more sexual, i would say dry humping, the slow ones where you’re super playful and teasing and just relishing in the other’s presence b4 the actual deed.

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

idk why, and this is kinda... not very good, but i look a lot at your fashion. if you can’t give a shit to dress up in a decent way??? you know when you’re going to the city or whatever, idk, then hhhhhhmmmm. i know it’s mean, but i look at people’s clothes a lot, not in a “oh you can’t afford it kind of way”, but then again, if that’s all they can afford, then who am i to judge? i know. i feel like i only feel this way because the country i am in is general pretty expensive and so when i look at one person’s outfit who puts effort in choosing accessories to another person who just wears shorts and flip-flops like 😭 i’m sorry i know it can’t be helped bc they might be comfortable in that just... i digress.

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

i m-worded in a public bus before. it was overseas 😭 and no it didn’t have cameras and yes it was empty. me and my parents were on our way back and i just had the randomest fucking urge (i started at like... a young age), so i went to the back on the bus and just had to rub one out so uhm. 👍🏼

83. Who was your first kiss with?

NO ONE i am so sad. someone come kiss me right fucking now

[woogurl]

so i decided to make a short analysis and i say short because i don’t know how short it’ll be. 

this is in regards to the anon who said that kq seems to push woosan too much in choreos/taking pics together/high fives/etc.

don’t get me wrong, i’m not here to prove to you that these moments aren’t fanservice because as i mentioned before, that they often are. however, i do not think kq is always responsible for all these moments. i think they have many subtle moments that make me think otherwise. 

i know when we think of fanservice moments, there’s no doubt that fake love

and this legendary, sensational ass performance tops them all.

now before we rid these moments as just fanservice, can we talk about how comfortable they are with doing this kind of stuff. yeh many group ships do fanservice, but understand that MOST do not go this far. Nor do they commit to this degree. even with korea’s culture, there are just some boundaries most of these men do not want to cross. let’s talk about a fanservice moment with nct, and use mark and johnny as an example. there’s a moment where they get very close and intimate during superhuman but they always seem very uncomfortable. at least mark does. he simply does not seem to like this type of intimacy with males. and that’s completely fine.  

i also want to use nct as a whole as an example there’s many times where the company tries to get them to do fanservice but to no avail. they just laugh and joke around, and that’s because they see each other as brothers. i’m not referring to any specific ships. i simply mean in general. so the company makes them do fanservice but they’re not forced to “enjoy it or do it often”.

now let’s take a very intimate taejin moment didn’t want to do a popular ship for obvious reasons. sorry taejin shippers. 

the intensity is there on tae’s side, but not jin. it just seems like he’s doing his job and giving the fans a bit of fanservice. there’s also a more intense taejin moment where there seems to be a lot of sexual tension, but i’m not convinced that there is because they’re obviously doing it for the camera. they’re both good actors so. i’m sure they could convince anyone that they have incredible chemistry and sexual tension.

but let’s be real, it’s not convincing when it’s obvious that they’re just giving their fans a show. so i can understand why people are like woosan are doing it for show. esp because unlike any other ship there’s so many woosan moments in their choreos and they just dance together so often. and i’m gonna assume the anon brought this up because there’s woosan moments in their newest song inception and fever. LET’S NOT EVEN MENTION THE LYRICS. now ateez is one of those groups who does a lot of fanservice in choreo’s in general, but they def use woosan to their advantage. why? because it’s such a popular ship, but so is seongjoong as i mentioned before. they could capitalize on seongjoong as well, but their moments are often less organic when they do do fanservice. like i said they don’t pretend to enjoy it. hongjoong is very open about his disgust with skinship. so no i don’t think kq forces woosan to pretend to enjoy it. i think they just genuinely enjoy the fanservice.

so let’s take some subtle moments during woosan choreo’s.  

now, this iconic moment was during random play dance in budapest and it isn’t actually apart of any choreo, but mind you seonghwa and mingi were supposed to do a couple dance as punishment. but was like fuck fanservice. well they did give us a different type of fanservice hip thrusts. while woosan was basically like...

can u see the difference in atmosphere, like woosan didn’t have to do anything but they started dancing as if they were really at a club. san was literally eye-fucking woo and biting his lips and shit like damn. lmfao.

woo of course was like okay, that’s enough and pointed to mingi and seonghwa, u prob can’t see because it’s hard to capture but if u watch the vid u’d see woo was like. “ok, das enough, pay attention to mingi and seonghwa”. san was really feeling it tho. enfen.

next moment was during the expedition tour in lisbon. they were doing a random play dance. 

first of all i didn’t even know this moment existed. someone pointed it out in a dm. @ 1:48 there was a lot of tension between woo and san. it was just a random moment during the play dance. the way they looked at each other and san flicked woo’s chin. oomph. HONGJOONG WAS NOT HAVING IT and quickly intervened. san was lowkey mad at hj. 

in the end, woosan ended back up together, despite being separated. 

anyway next moment during Random Dance in Milan (Magazzini Generali). they were dancing to monsta x shoot out and woo wanted him and san to do it together. so he went the opposite way of everyone else.

at this point woo and san were trying to find a way to properly interact with each other but it was so messy because everything was unplanned. they were so attentive to each other that when jongho came and asked them to do the second verse(?) move they just ignored the poor baby. ‘cause they obv had other plans.

jongho ended up doing it by himself while woosan continued with their own plans. ooOOP.

woo wanted to do another song with san, and i guess he wanted them to do the same thing i’m not sure, but san looked just as confused as well. but he did his best in doing what i guess he figured woo wanted him to do. he was up for it tho, he was like what is it? i’ll do it. xD. i know some of y’all are like btch get a youtube channel so we could see the moments better. but idk how to do utubesokey;c

woo ended up getting shy and embarrassed for some reason and san was quick to comfort him. it was super sweet.

next moment is the Random Play Dance in Berlin. Where they were both shyly dancing to twice. They didn’t know what to do, or at least was too shy to do it so san just grabbed woo and started dancing with him. It was another cute moment.

the entire time they were just planning on what they should do together, and san literally waited on woo to see what he wanted to do because woo often takes initiative in general between the two of them. they would just constantly keep touching each other and looking at each other. he was so attentive to woo that he wasn’t paying attention to yunho and seonghwa dancing so jongho and woo both had to point at them so san would turn his attention there. lol. 

san’s attention was still mostly on woo because he grabbed him to dance with. what i’ve noticed during these random play dance moments during tour is that they absolutely love interacting with each other, touching and keeping their attention on each other. it would be foolish to think they’re forced to act that way 24/7 because of kq. they react this way because they’re naturally close to each other and are okay with psychically being close to one another.

next moment is the Random Play Dance in Atlanta. 

yes, it does include the famous fake love woosan dance, but i still think it’s valid because as i’ve said before they’re incredibly comfortable with these types of interactions. also would like to mention how attentive san is to woo once again. for the most part his attention is mainly on woo if you pay attention to him closely.

next the Warsaw ATEEZ My Way SAN focus, san was incredibly attentive to wooyoung. san locks eyes with woo multiple times. i’m just gonna highlight obv moments.

0:45

2:12

NEXT. let met just say 181118 was a glorious fansign. 

Pirate King SAN focus the moment at 1:36 during pirate king where san was like, 'c'mere' to woo.

the moment at 2:22-24 where he was trying to get woo's attention but woo's focus was elsewhere.

the moment at 2:26 he really wanted woo's attention. crjkc j fjmk. that tongue tho mingi.

he then decides to use seonghwa to make woo jealous at 2:39.

he tried to get his attention again at 2:56.

let's talk about the my way cam too, that was full of subtle woosan as well.

not subtle, but still includes moments that isn't part of the org choreo.

once again san is so attentive to woo. if i haven't said this before san is so much more transparent than woo. and u can see that during these moments especially.

san all up in my man's space. sxdrcfgvbjkl 

san being relatable. He's so focused on woo that the members have to push him to the correct spot.

anywaY the point is they enjoy these kind of things  because they’re naturally close and intimate irl. so it makes their interactions looks completely natural and organic. so u don’t have to worry about them being ‘forced’ to do fanservice. ‘cause what woosan has is just something u can’t compare to another ship.