#ilovedhim

[1amthoughtslove]

I think I actually loved him, and that's the worst part

[tylerthegirlandwriter]

Sometimes I unplug the internet and force myself to exist, like last night - I played Sudoku at the bar With a glass of schnapps, Discussing how I’m not a writer With a philosophy major.

(Secretly, I know writing is just a physical reaction To the never-ending list of things I want to tell you)

You, my best friend, turn 23 today – And you don’t know. I mean, you know it’s your birthday But you don’t know that you are my best friend And today is not the day for that declaration.

(While I’m at it, I will tell you that you are my soulmate, Like Happy Birthday, my little Aries)

Another man wants to be with me, you know. He emails me, misspelling words and Cursing under his breath at a city That literally saved my life.

(I can’t be with him right now, even though His nicotine breath tastes so good)

Three days from now I will wake up alone. I'll fall asleep under my duvet -- But then you will be there, again Lightly shaking me awake from my bad dreams.

(Dangling me over that familiar edge, like One more time for good measure)

[smolgurl609]

Heartbreak - 10-30-2022

Today, my parents decided to break up me and my bf. we have been dating for 5months and 8 or 7 days. But they said we can still be friends. I texted him I need to tell him something and how much I was crying and wanted to fight so that I can fix my grade in 1 failing class. I love him dearly and now, I have to suffer with this broken heart and sorrow for 2wks or longer. this is how much he is to me. I love him to death, he is the most innocent man I have dated. Despite our 1yr age difference, I love him. I wish I didnt have a sensitive heart, a naive and kind heart, an insecure mindset, an easily jealous heart, or an easily manipulated mind and heart. As much as I'm happy he would want to be friends if we broke up, I will tell him that my parents decided on it today... I can't help but overthink the more sadness I'm adding. he lost his parents at a young age, his mom in jail, his dad died, and now me, gf and now a friend. I convinced him to not cut because it would make me feel like a bad gf and make me realize I can't change a person. I know we all cant but, but I always try to because I'm too kind-hearted. I'm sensitive and love to help people. Why are heartbreaks so hard, especially for those you truly love more than you did with your first ex? If needed, I will be crying and hugging my Shiba plush, Mikey, named after him...

[skinnyelff]

i kept saying that we should get married, then that morning i suddenly told you that we dont have to get married anymore. You called me cause you got worried. You made me feel loved but all of it is gone now.

[unabashedlyspeedypaper]

Anniversary of cutting ties with the closest parame I’ve ever fucking had. I fucking loved him. He was EVERYTHING I needed. It was SO fucking hard! But I did it, for me. For my life. MY life. Not his life. He was becoming a kind of poison to me, changing my perception of who I was so that I didn’t even know my thoughts from his anymore. It was terrifying. I’m not posting his name for privacy reasons, as he was very personal to me. Comment and share if you feel so inclined! My heart was beaten, bleeding, and broken for him ~ but now I’m healed. And he’s still around, it’s just very different. In a good way. There IS hope. Even though it’s so fucking hard. There is total fucking HOPE. ❤️

[thebadthewickedthedead]

nov. 2017

“We burned like a wildfire, fast and chaotic. You’ve left me looking insane, like I was psychotic.

I am sexy, and incredibly smart, but no matter what, you can’t extinguish my wild-heart.

Now that you’ve left, you think you’re above me. Honey... without you, I’m still me.

I’m everything I was, because before you came. I was a whole field, one that puts your tiny garden to shame.”

- wild like the flowers that grow // R.M

[maadsrevolution]

I’m currently crying over Sam Cortland in my room just because I love Sam, he deserved better, and I also think that he deserves to be cried over every once and a while

[idepaturesouth]

Clyde,

when i said i love you

i meant it

so come back

if you really loved me too

lets be us again

just like we used to

rory

[myheartspeaksaboutyou]

Yes, this is better than a simple ''im sorry'', its a real apology. If they really want u they will find a way. Efforts made us fall in love and being effortless can also let us fall out of love

[poetreissella-blog]

[steppedonflowers-blog]

I miss you

I miss you

I miss you like the waves miss the shore

Like England misses the sun

Like my puppy misses me when I’m gone

I miss you so much

But most of all I miss your touch

[messydreamclub]

maybe i deserve all this

unknown

02/18

it’s been eight days, eight whole fucking days, since i last saw him. i’m holding on to that memory of him walking away, not even turning back, not even noticing me. i tried to see him Friday, Saturday and today and no bloody luck, instead all i could see were broken promises and dead dreams. i’m going insane, all because of a stupid boy, who doesn’t care.

[yellowumbrellasighting]

What about me?

: i can still picture the moment i realized that i was absolutely intoxicated by you. you smiled a pearly, dazzling smile across the field.. just as you would when we'd play futbol.

but you were with another girl. and you loved her, and you told us you loved her because she wouldn't give up on you.

and i thought that if i continued to wait for you, i would get a chance. so i did... and it finally came teo years to that momentous day. and i was so excited to see you once again. you even invited me over and i thought... this is it.

here's my open window.

but, as fast as it was opened, that window was shut it my face...

there's another. and ever since that day, i have asked myself one question... :

[skinnyelff]

he loved me on his terms

[nofinalfantasy]

Azt beszéltük meg, hogy számíthatunk egymásra. Ragaszkodtál hozzám, talán jobban is mint én hozzád az utóbbi időben... Most hol vagy? Hogyan tudsz úgy tenni, mintha nem is léteznék?

mintha nem is létezett volna ami kettőnk között volt

[thebadthewickedthedead]

I talked to you for the first time after the break up.

I thought it would be better.

I thought it’d make me feel better.

I thought I would want nothing to do with you, especially after everything you did.

But it didn’t,

I thought wrong.

I wanted you to stop pretending like everything you did was okay.

Yes,

You apologised.

But,

It was a shit apology.

Do you realise how much pain and heartache I went through?

Do you realise that someone’s feelings and emotions aren’t a toy that you can just play with?

Do you realise I can’t look at myself or other people anymore because I feel inadequate?

You have no right to come back into my life.

You had no right to give me a halfassed apology, I don’t need it.

You have no right to want to be my friend.

But,

Thank you.

I contemplated for a while,

What’d it’d be like to have you in my life again.

For months.

And now that you started talking to me,

I see how selfish and insensitive you are.

I am doing fine without you.

Yes, I captured your best friend’s eyes for a while.

But,

Nothing came out of it.

I have respect for myself over betraying the trust you have towards them.

I hope you don’t take someone’s kindness as a form of weakness babe.

Trust me, fuck me over once more and karma won’t be the only one you’ll have to answer to.