#im bashing some heads in

[andragoras-in-vanity]

Hes also a confirmed supporter of every canada based white supremacist group, wanted to outlaw homeless encampments without doing anything to actually treat the cause of them, want to repeal our universal healthcare, and vocally pro-trump.

if you havent voted yet today or in early polls, this HAS to be a strategic vote. meaning, as much as the liberals are nincompoops, theyre SAFE nincompoops. theyre the lesser of two evils and this isnt a provincial election, this is for the big seat, the most power, and the conservatives cannot get that. dont throw away a vote because all the options suck. we saw where the us has ended up. just suck it up and cast the vote thatll protect us going forward and we can continue to work for betterment from there.

and god forbid anyone on here would vote conservative but in case you would just because most of the pc premieres are (performstively) vocally opposed to trump.....its not the premieres that land in the prime ministers seat if they win, its pollievre, who will hand us over with no resistance.

i had an Experience while voting today with a protrumper volunteering at the polls so i havent included the information or words id really like to, but holy fuck this country is a shit show and i dont want to end up like my friends down south who are immigrating here. the provincial election didnt count mail-in ballots or alternative voting methods in parts of Southern ontario and there was no acknowledgment of that, so as a visibly trans person voting in a location infested with pc volunteers (actively tryingto promote their politics btw), im unsettled and not convinced mine or anyone else obviously opposed to pollievre will end up counted.

I know most people don't care about anything unless it has to do with the U.S. but can we please start talking about the Canadian election.

Please don't vote for Poilievre. He's basically the Canadian Trump and plans to put in place laws that harm trans youth, and lots of other shit.

Please vote istg this is the only way anything will get better. Poilievre has been kissing millionaires and billionaires asses. He'll make life even harder, and he loves Trump.

Reblogs are appreciated, especially if you aren't Canadian.

This post is about Canada, do not derail or say that "it's worse in America." Canadians are very scared, we deserve to talk about our issues without Americans talking over us.

[lucabyte]

Olive Branch

Wrong Move

[ms--lobotomy]

Thinking about arch-traitor Vulkan.

How would one of the only Primarchs who can truly empathize with humans feel seeing them cooped up in hive cities, eating corpse starch to survive? How would he feel about guardsmen sent to die in the name of conquest, let alone his own flesh and blood?

Even if his kindness doesn't extend to the xenos of the galaxy, he's bound to see one too many of his sons die in the name of the Imperium. In the name of a civilization that will never occur, at least, under the cruel Emperor. He's bound to build some resentment against Him.

He'd lash out, again and again, and he can never truly die. Even if his vision of the galaxy is never meant to be, he can at least be on the right side of history.

[shrimpalbuspotter]

Nothing kills me more than Harry's "it's in their blood" mindset in cursed child. His whole spiel about Scorpius being the black cloud surrounding Albus despite Harry knowing Scorpius isn't evil. He has never seen him show malice or treat anyone unkindly, he's always just been awkward and geeky at most.

But Harry is convinced he's evil anyway because he has ignored all of that to build a construct of some cruel boy who is trying to manipulate his poor son into hating him. He blames all of his father-son issues with Albus on the most obvious choice. The child of Draco Malfoy. The child of a former death eater. The child who carrys the same blood as the man he hated.

And it parallels so terribly the exact issues blood supremacists had with Muggleborns. Their blood is tainted, albeit by something they can't control, and that makes them evil by proxy. Ohhhhhgggh... (Not comparing disliking the child of a death eater to BEING a death eater but. The parallel is undoubtedly there. The reasoning is essentially the same. Ruined blood.)

[charleemoon]

getting a little maybe irritated at how often i see autistic will being refuted because he "made himself out to be that way to avoid attention" ... ??? that's autistic. going out of his way to make yourself appear weird and unsociable so you can avoid socializing is. extremely autistic. lying and exaggerating about yourself out of fear of people getting too close and realizing youre a bad person is extremely autistic. the show honestly backpedals on will's empathy half the time, acting like it is only applicable when it comes to his job, but frequently showing that it isn't. in the first episode, hannibal literally notices his face getting red because they're near two people who are arguing. he's not exaggerating or faking his nightmares, his inability to deattach himself from others. yeah, he's got a complicated psychological profile that autism doesn't entirely cover or explain. that doesn't mean he's not still autistic. his person suit, the person he presents himself as to others, the choice to do that autistic masking. even if part of his masking is hiding behind being autistic in hopes it will make him less favorable to others and not further inspected, that is autistic masking. i think it is so insanely annoying that just because a character wasn't written with the intent in mind doesnt mean you cant accidentally write a valid representation of something anyways. fuller didn't intend on hannigram becoming as romantic as it did, but understood that it came along with the subtext anyways. acting like hes completely above fitting criteria of mental illness because he's "fictional" and has a "fictional" disorder that HIGHLY exemplifies autism is. incredibly stupid. and boring

[maryymaruu]

Burnout and lowkey existential crisis vent rambles - it gets pretty bad, but I do feel better after I spit it out into the internet void

Please, read at your own discretion. Your opinion about me might also suffer, disclaimer.

My will to live and orientation as where to go in life has disappeared along my will to draw. I oriented my life around me drawing and creating, and now I feel like I can't create no more and now my life has no direction.

I don't know what else to do, I'm trying to cling onto drawing, but it feels horrible. I don't want to let go, because I don't like anything else but... I don't really like drawing anymore either... I've lost my passion.

Nothing is satisfying, I don't like anything, im not good enough at anything else, I can't do shit. Because I don't want to do anything anymore. Not for real. I "want" to do things, but don't want to DO things.

There are things out there that I think I want, but I'm not actually motivated enough to go the path to get there. I'm more likely to just lay down and think about it, how nice it is, but then never do it.

I can get surges of motivation sometimes, I think I know what I want, but it disappears so quickly, and I'm back in bed. Because I'm not used to ever following through with dreams and wishes like that. My entire life it's been like that, "oh I wished I did that", "oh it'd be so nice to go do this and that" and it ALWAYS stayed at that and nothing else. And it was a normal thing for where I grew up in. Because I don't believe in myself for shit- I hate that I have to regurgitate lies and pretend in order to convince people that I'm not the absolute hopeless fuck up of a worthless mess. I always have to pretend I'm okay, I'm normal, that I'm good enough, that I'm not an absolutely hopeless, worthless sinner who deserves nothing but punishment, that guilt doesn't eat away at me like a fucking acid.

How am I supposed to "put myself out there"? How am I supposed to go to interviews and tell people "you want to hire me I'm good" when I'm fucking not? How am I supposed to show my face to anyone out there and make friends when I feel like a criminal out on the run?

[sneppu]

uhhh idk lily thoughts (I'm about to spew critical rambling bullshit, big sorry. these things are my badly worded opinions and nothing else.)

thinkin bout how my feelings for Lily are so complicated tbh.. in canon, I cannot like her. I just can't. The disconnect between what the narrative tries to tell us about her and the reality of who she is and what she does are just too jarring to me. for all that she's meant to be a paragon of virtue and goodness, her actions and choices come across wrong and off and bad in a way that is visceral to me, as someone who has been bullied and sexually assaulted myself. And to clarify, I'm not talking about her breaking off her friendship with Severus; she had every right to do that, and I dont think I've seen a single Snape fan actually seriously state otherwise - but because she *knowingly and deliberately chose to get with an abusive bully.* That she and Snape were no longer friends is irrelevant to me. I understand not everyone feels this way, and that's fine. But It's important to me, and so it carries weight to me. The implications are just too offputting to me, and yes, I am biased. Snape is my favorite little guy, after all. I dont pretend otherwise. To each their own, and she, as written in canon, is certainly not for me, historical context and location be damned.

So i can't like her in canon. If anything, I cant help but feel acute resentment for her character, because it feels almost like betrayal to be told "here is a perfect and good person" and then get.. that. Ironically, I would like her a whole lot more if the narrative didnt try insist on her goodness and instead was just like "actually, ngl she was kinda shitty sometimes. questionable as hell. she was a bit of a gremlin and a little bit fucked up" because then it would feel honest. she would no longer feel like a hypocrite to me, and then those moments of kindness would carry more weight, would feel more meaningful. Her actions would be more believable, would feel more nuanced and I would maybe even love her.

...and that, ultimately is what my problem with her is. she has all the potential to be such an interesting character, but she instead falls short of being a full character at all. it's not her fault; this is a jkr skill issue (and her portrayal of female characters in general leaves A Lot to be desired.), so in the end i'm not too pressed.

its exactly why i like Lily so much more in the context of fanworks. Canon lily? offputting. An incomplete character. but fanfic lily? such potential! she could *actually* be the good person she was meant to be and make different choices or at very least have reasoning that makes more sense! or she could go a new direction entirely and be an absolute gremlin menace alongside Snape and in the process, add more interest and nuance that way! all of these things are enjoyable, and for this reason i cannot say I truly hate her - because I do love her so so much when people make her their own and make her make sense, to do her justice and preserve what - i think - would have been that spark that brought Severus and Lily together in the firstplace - whether it be genuine kindness, or a friendship based on being able to relate to one another at a deeper level, on having that shared weirdness together, or even both things! (that's not to say I love every portrayal; and sometimes there are pet peeves, but they do not ruin the character for me in that scenario, for the simple reason that in these fics she *IS* ultimately a full character, which is more than what can be said about canon lily.) ... and that's the joy of fanfics and fanart and creation, isnt it? that you can make your own ideas come to life, put things together in a way that makes sense to you, and see how others would make a these stories and characters come to life. its why I can despise the marauders in their canon, and yet ship everyone of them with Severus given the right scenario. it's why I can dislike snily in the context of canon, and see their relationship as purely platonic under that lens, and yet wholeheartedly ship them otherwise in the context of fanfics and fanworks. It's why when I say i ship Severus Snape with literally everyone I can truly and genuinely mean it. Because I do. I think theres always room for a scenario, for a characterization, or AU, to allow for it. Fiction is a lovely and magical thing, and it ultimately exists for enjoyment, for entertainment and creativity.

anyway, idk if i worded this wrongly or weirdly but tldr: I dislike and am put off by canon lily, but I love what lily can be, what she could be, what she SHOULD be, I love what fans are able to do with her, I love what I wish she was.

[thedistortionshallways]

People who genuinely believe all asexuals are sex repulsed and can't even stand to think about the act are frustrating but also funny because bro who do you think is writing your well written 30k kinktober fic that leaves you gobsmacked because of how explicit it is lmao, anyways happy October 3rd yall and god bless the many many aces who write fanfiction

[adhderall]

tired of mfs acting like there aren't people who do suffer more in shit society.... "oh capitalism and work culture is hard for EVERYBODY though" ok sure but most people are able to function at a baseline level while i can hardly even do that. also most people aren't getting constantly fired from their jobs for shit they can't really help.... like fuck off lmao

[hinamie]

playing around w slightly different hair renders

[okawarihappylife]

i am once again thinking abt the lost potential that is hypmic.

[citrine-elephant]

potential re6 remake... capcom, please... just need a small little scene... simmons/leon torture scene.... cmon... just fuck up leon a lil. have him get away....

tie him to a chair and beat his ass a little. cmon.... capcom please. on my knees, hair tied back.

[engagemy-others]

yippee yay being in the meljayvik tag yaaay i hope this will affect my "for you" dash nicely. oh its a confessional blog where people are just nasty on anon. okay. great. this is nice 🙃

[bubblesxo]

expectations walking into a "climate change and politics" panel at my college: talking about laws and bills and regulations, which, while informative, is unfortunately very depressing and easy to predict

surprisingly engaging, realistic, and hopeful reality: talking about how capitalism takes away human agency + companies chase money rather than doing the right thing even when everyone besides the profiteers wants them not to, how there are more ethical ways of organizing the economy (notably through ancient women-led trading methods and other models of social care, etc.), how we can and should keep these things in mind as we move forward *as a community rather than individuals,* and how communities should have control over the way they live and that there are people and groups that are working toward that in different ways and places

i love my catholic university <3

[quailxcrossing]

i finally watched hunchback of notre dame and it was great, i almost cried only once and Hellfire indeed changed me

[yingren]

wip brain chatter about ren & healing.

healing is a delicate and complicated subject for ren, largely because, at his core, he despises the very idea of it. more than anything, he loathes the act of others trying to heal him. accepting help of any kind is something he already struggles with, but it becomes infinitely harder when that help is laced with pity or what he perceives as irrational concern. after all, why would anyone waste their energy trying to fix something that can mend itself? to him, it’s unnecessary, almost aggravating, and he has no qualms about showing his frustration openly when someone insists on offering their aid.

if you try to heal him, don’t expect gratitude or thanks. he might understand your intentions, but the act itself feels like a fundamental misunderstanding of who he is.

the crux of the issue lies deeper. ren harbors a profound self-loathing, particularly toward his own prolonged existence and the inescapable consequences of his past actions. his disdain for healing stems from his view of it as a futile gesture, a reminder of the sins he cannot erase and the rest he cannot achieve. again, this ties back to how to him death is the only true peace he currently knows, the only reprieve from the endless cycle he’s trapped in.

what he can’t fight against isn’t an external force - not the ipc, the xianzhou alliance, jingliu, dan heng, or elio - but himself. his own body, which turned healing into something grotesque and involuntary, something he can neither escape nor control. 

for ren, healing is a reminder of everything he wishes to reject. it’s not a kindness to him, it’s an affront, an intrusion. it’s no wonder, then, that attempts to heal him do nothing but provoke his anger, leaving him unable to appreciate the gesture the way others might.

of course, there are exceptions to this rule. if someone knows ren very well ( and the emphasis truly is on very ) , there’s a chance he might allow it depending heavily on the context and the relationship dynamic they share. even so, he’ll still resent the act and dislike the idea of anyone expending their energy and time on healing him. however, in rare cases, he might come to understand that the attempt isn’t entirely for his sake but rather for the healer’s own reasons or peace of mind.

that said, such dynamics are exceedingly uncommon. if you’re considering a situation where your muse might want to heal ren, i recommend we discuss it in detail beforehand. it’s likely he won’t take it well or react positively, so it’s essential for me as his writer to set expectations for how such an interaction might unfold. the last thing i want is for us to have a misunderstanding because of how ren might react / act in the case of being healed against his will. even if it is to be kind to him, he might tell your muse off unless they are part of the exception.