#im going to commit heinous acts

[alilbitlesbian]

Okay, have I not updated my fic in super long?

Yes

Do I have a bunch of very good excuses, the last of which being that I got super sick and am still sick?

Yes

.....Have I been writing for another fic instead of goddamn monsterfuckers?

...yeah

Sorry not sorry, might take a lil longer than expected on the new chap.

[okayonetta]

Local "artist" unable to make art goes on 5000 person killing spree before taking a big freaking nap

[bunabi]

If there are any rich DA fans following me who buy the collector's edition but don't want the tarot cards please sell them to me 🙇🏿‍♀️

[kawaiigirly21]

Our Little Soda Pop: Chapter 8

A few months into her pregnancy, everything seemed normal. Save for the morning sickness, Natasha was her normal self. Until… “Oh my fuck, can you fucking breathe any louder?!” Baby looked at Natasha in shock as she glared at him. “Sorry babe, you ok?” He asked softly. “What kind of fucking question is that!? No! I'm not! You know what? Just get out! Go away!” She yelled then began to cry. “I'm so ugly! I'm fat! My head hurts!” Baby stood frozen in his place with his towel hanging lowly around his waist after getting out of the shower not long before this. “You're not fat babe. That's the baby growing inside of you.” He tried to reason.

“I'm not stupid!! I know that!! What you think I'm fucking dumb!? You fucking ass hole!!” Baby nearly flinched at how quickly Natasha switched up. Especially when her teeth began to sharpen and her eyes glowed. “I don't think you're stupid. You're our smart girl. Just relax and take a deep breath.” He replied while typing away on his phone. Quickly trying to text Jinu and the others to get home soon or better yet, immediately.

As soon as the doors to the elevator opened, the others watched as Baby stayed crouched behind the kitchen counter as Natasha laid on the couch crying heavily and rubbing her 4 month pregnant stomach. “Why don't you love me!?” She cried. “I do love you!! I don't love you throwing shit at me though!” Baby shouted back from behind the counter. “I-im sorry!! WAHHHHH” She cried more. “Ok… let's try and descalate the situation.” Jinu spoke before he and Mystery walked to Natasha and crouched to her level. “Love bug? What's wrong?” He asked as Mystery pressed sweet kisses to her tummy. “I-i don't know… everything feels weird. I'm happy one minute and angry or sad the next… I didn't mean to almost hurt Baby…” She replied softly.

“We're not worried about him. He's been through worse. We're more worried about how these mood swings are affecting you.” Jinu smiled softly and placed a warm hand on her stomach. Rubbing circles into her skin. “Don't worry Tasha, you only got what? Like 4 more months of this? Then you'll be a mom!” Abby grinned. “It's 5.” Romance corrected. “What?” The other man rolled his eyes. “She carries the baby for 9 months. Not 8.” Romance shook his head. “Damn,so it's just gonna keep getting bigger?” Abby gestured to Natasha's pregnant belly and having overheard his comment, she began to cry more. “What the fuck man?!” Mystery shouted, which was rare. “It was just a question!” Abby threw up his hands trying to defend himself.

That night, Natasha sighed in comfort as she shared a bath with Romance. Her back against his chest as his hands massaged her sore breasts. “Feel any better?” He asked softly as he pressed a sweet kiss to her cheek. “Mm yes… I needed this… thank you Romance.” Natasha yawned. “What do you think the baby will be like?” She then asked. “Hmmmm hopefully… nothing like us…” He whispered. Not having liked the life he lived before meeting Natasha. Being demons, he and the others committed heinous acts and lived an egregious lifestyle. As his human form slowly faded away, Romance placed his clawed hands on his mate's growing stomach.

“I want to be a good father… I don't want them to know anything about how we used to be. I want them to have a good life.” He mumbled. Placing her own clawed hand on top of his, Natasha smiled. “You will be a great father. All of you will.” The next day, as Natasha and Abby were out looking at cribs, a small group of fans recognized them. “Oh my gosh!! Look!” Sighing heavily, Abby braced himself to be swarmed with fan girls wanting pictures and autographs. However, he was practically shoved out the way in favor of Natasha. “My mom used to play your songs all the time! I grew up listening to your music!!” One girl squealed.

“My mom is not gonna believe I saw The Empress! Agh! Can I take a quick selfie?” Another asked. “Oh sure. I don't mind a few pictures.” Natasha smiled a soft motherly smile that made the fans feel warm inside. “My parents met at one of your concerts. My mom's favorite song of yours is "Irreplaceable.” Natasha grinned as another fan came in for a selfie. “Oh? I loved writing that song. It was a lot of fun.” Getting a bit irritated and watching the crowd get bigger, Abby slyly grabbed Natasha's hand to pull her out the store. Even then, the questions didn't stop.“When are you making new music?” “Please make new music soon?” “Why'd you leave the spotlight so soon?”

Guiding her out the store, Abby growled lowly seeing paparazzi already snapping pictures of them. “Oh my gosh she's pregnant! Is that man next to you the father?!” One asked. “Wait, that's Abby from the Saja Boys! Talk about a cougar. Rob the cradle much Natasha?” Someone rudely asked causing Abby to make a 360° turn. “Fucking excuse me?!” Grabbing his arm, Natasha shook her head. “There's too many cameras baby. Calm down. Let's go home.” She then rubbed her thumb on his muscular forearm in an attempt to calm him down. Taking a deep breath, he nodded and grabbed her hand gently. As he turned to lead her to their car, a photographer made another rude comment. “Hey Abby! Is her pussy tight or loose! You know, because she's way older than you so-”

He never got to finish his sentence because as soon as he made the comment, Abby decked him in the jaw once to knock him out. Then took the camera and threw it into the street, breaking it. “Piece of shit.” He growled as he stomped back to the car and slammed the door after getting in the driver's seat. Not bothering nor caring about the fans that witnessed what he had done. That night, his display of aggression was everywhere.

Chapter 9

[fathertaurus]

Astro Observations

okay I’ve never done one of these before I but I do love them so much and I had a funny list of my own in my notes that I’ve decided to share so enjoy!

Taurus sun people are some of the most noncommittal people I know. Or at least very quick to break things off. Their form of earth energy is focused on grounded-ness and indulging in their senses. If you jeopardize that in the slightest they’re g o n e lmao

Sag sun women have mommy issues the same way Scorpio sun men do

Geminis conflate being romantically interested in someone with being sexually interested—but more often than not, because of their flighty energy (air signs) if someone isn’t matching their free energy vibes then it’s never that serious of a commitment to them

Libra women/femmes are incredibly soft when put in the right circumstances, even upon just meeting someone—if you get a Libra woman/femme when they’re abrasive and show off-y then they don’t like you lol

Cancer moon men/mascs will see mommy milkers on a woman and immediately assume that that is actually their mother and act in accordance. No I won’t be elaborating

Also once a cancer men/masc (sun, moon, rising) meets a Taurus (sun, moon, rising or Venus) they will never let go lmaoo

I think it’s cause Tauruses are just cancers if cancers had a spine (ily cancers I promise) and they can find their sense of confidence in them. But it also leads to a mild obsession. Cancers like to understand everything to a T as it helps them feel emotionally secure

Underdeveloped Leo men/mascs are cocky, but never confident

Sag men/mascs are actually Tauruses in disguise

Yall are the chillest mfs unless provoked. Your sense of peace and retaining that is what drives you, very much Taurus-like

Which is funny because I feel like all the Taurus men I know hold more Sag qualities than Taurus qualities

Aries women/femmes are soooo calm 24:7. Very bubbly, happy go lucky, like truly give off the real energy of what it means to be the youngest signs in the Zodiac. But when put in tight spots or in a position where they have to defend themselves, all hell breaks loose lmao

Aries men/mascs on the other hand are always pissy LMAOO IM SORRY BUT ITS TRUE

Like it’s never that serious I swear

Pisces’ fear of being rejected for their rose colored glasses over life turns them into the scariest people if tried. I think they’re one of those signs that really need to be able to see the bright side of life and do it in a very childlike way, so when that’s judge they immediately turn on you. Like idk if any of yall have ever pissed off a Pisces but uh uh nope I do not play with them when they’re upset

it’s like when the sweet loving house dog suddenly gets rabies and I mean that with love I swear

Also unhealed Pisces women/femmes need to go to jail. Yall do the most heinous things to people because you don’t like yourselves and it’s actually insane!

I feel like if more Scorpios (especially women/femmes) remembered/knew they were ruled by Pluto you’d give yourselves more grace. Pluto rules over death and transformation—you will constantly rebirth in this life, you are destined to consistently shed your skin. That’s why you can’t spend too much time in one place, or you feel like you never truly know who you are. That’s okay! You’re here to remind others that change is inevitable, and that a lack of control is very very beautiful.

Sincerely A Taurus with 6 planets in her 8th house (the 8th house is ruled by Pluto for those who don’t know lol)

Might be a controversial take but I feel like Gemini moons and rising have such promise for being fantastic mothers. The way you are capable of seeing perspectives outside of your own because of your natural duality allows you to nurture in a very unique way that works well for children with inquisitive minds, or at least with Pluto and Jupiter influence in their charts

but it takes a lot of understanding yourself first and figuring out your motives behind the intimate relationships you create

All Leo risings look like cats/lions

* Usually have cat like eyes or long hair (“manes”)

Aquarius men with heavy fire energy in their big 3 or big 6: the most unloyal mfs ever, especially in their friendships lmao — but Aquarius men with water influence in their big 3/6: will build you a house with their bare hands

Aquarius men with air influence? “I love you but I’m afraid to say it” type vibe lmaoooo

Despite being the “oldest” sign in the zodiac all the Pisces’ I’ve met are the youngest siblings lol but maybe that has something to do with coming last in the zodiac?

I feel like Scorpio women either embrace sexuality or the occult. Like either you’re sexualized so much you’re whole life you alchemize it into a power trip or you reject it completely and turn into a witch

If you have Virgo in your big 3 you probably have tummy issues <3

[umathurwin]

i completely agree with all your takes omg. i feel likes sofias character and her contribution to the show is completely unnecessary and if it’s for rafes character arc i personally think that that should’ve been him actually sticking up for sister instead of his dead dad above all? and the only reason they hug being because “it’s what dad would’ve wanted” i fear his development is nonexistent yet helooooo. this might be a tad far and it won’t make full sense now they’ve killed off jj but i honestly thought rafe should’ve been the main(?) character to die, i mean it’s not like a simple sorry takes back everything he’s done and i just think him dying to save his family would be the best for him but yk alas!!! his development has not started even at the second last season, if he pulls a ward and realises last minute and sacrifices himself for his family ig thats fitting but they’ve already killed off jj so im just wondering honestly how this is gonna go in season 5 ngl

i have alwaysssss hated the hug and make up scene and i’m so glad it’s being brought up now. i brought it up to my english lit mom and she recommended an alternative that i’m personally satisfied with but i know most will not be lol

in canon he just… weeps and whines about how no one trusts him or is loyal to him. and sarah is like welp. i’m all you’ve got so get over it! (??) but it should be more like— sarah points out that any perceived slight she had committed against him was in reaction or retaliation to a much more heinous act that he had done first. she’d point out that anyone he was gentle to first, repaid in kind. and that if rafe took the first step towards trust and a good faith relationship, they could potentially rekindle the sibling love they have for one another. i don’t personally expect some grand gesture from him like a heroic death (but if you do…. valid. no lie), i just feel like he needed to hear those words from someone he loves to potentially grow

or yknow just keep him half villain half protagonist. what the hell sure

[concerningwolves]

my sister's been watching S.W.A.T and this morning I was feeling so mentally fried I watched the first episode myself, because this stuff IS easy to watch. except I should know by now that I can't watch police procedurals because the copaganda starts driving me up the fucking walls. and S.W.A.T is of the particularly insidious type that works so so hard to gloss over the problems inherent in the police force by focusing on how this particular fictional police force is Actually Good (because Diversity).

I keep circling back to this bit of an episode my sister was watching where one of the team members is enthusiastically explaining to a civilian how S.W.A.T can use cameras across the city to find any vehicle's past & current locations within seconds, and it's framed as "isn't this piece of tech SO COOL". which it's not. it's horrifying – especially in the context of a bunch of people who are allowed to go out and commit lethal force against other people, legally, with government/state backing.

And then tonight mum and I were watching Silent Witness, and I was still ruminating over S.W.A.T, so when the armed police went into this suspect's house and started yelling at & manhandling him, even though he wasn't resisting at all, a little part of me just. snapped.

Mum often expresses sadness that I don't usually watch TV in the evenings with her anymore, but this is why. she enjoys police procedurals. i used to but now im sick of them. i'm sick of the constant portrayals of these people who can ruin and end lives as heroes who help put away the Scary Nasty Freaks. i can analyse and dissect them and poke at the nuts and bolts to see precisely how the copaganda functions, but Im. So tired of doing that. because we KNOW that policing as a system is inherently broken.

we're meant to watch a guy be screamed at, forced to turn with his face to the wall, practically be shoved and talked to like he's the scum of the earth – we're meant to watch all that, and still root for the pigs. because why? because this guy is weird? because there's cannibalism fantasies on his internet search history? surely it's obvious to anyone with half a brain what the writers are doing: they're setting up this character – who I am 99% sure is a red herring – to be so unlikeable and weird and wrong, that the audience will go "oh well even though he was innocent of [x] crime, they were right to treat him like that". it plays into this punitive mindset that only serves to justify the existence of the police.

Meanwhile our news is full of stuff about institutional abuse, systemic racism, members of the police who have committed heinous acts and gotten away with it. and like most UK news sources aren't exactly unbiased so if these stories get through, it's gotta be bad. it's gotta be big. and it's not just here, either – all over the world, as we see fascism and far right movements gaining traction, reports keep coming up about police who have done terrible things with their power. I think it's impossible for anyone with an internet connection or access to a TV or radio, or who just generally exists as part of society, to not be aware that this shit is happening. that it's costing people's lives and wrecking communities.

But there are still cop shows that are obsessed with making the police look good.

[iamthebestquality]

ive been a kpop fan for a hot minute, and back when i got into it, i thought it was gonna be just some passing hyperfixation-a phase. spoiler-it wasn't a phase lol, and being part of kpop fandom changed my life. it broadened my horizons, and, as weird as it may sound, taught me many important lessons about media literacy, critical thinking, and forming my own opinions about a subject after meaningful reflection.

but, i just can't shake off this persistent ick that i've been feeling down to my bones with kpop ever since all the riize drama started to unfold over the past year or so. witnessing the supercilious entitlement of these insipid, and pathetically delusional "fans" has been hard to stomach, but not because this is something new.

this attitude has never been new to kpop, and it's come in different forms that i've see with tvxq, 2pm, exo, bts to name a few. although, there are many more similar examples of people, "fans," who are so strongly attached to a delusion because they have nothing of substance within their lives, or to offer the world, that they forget that the characters of their tepid fantasies are real people who exist, and operate outside of the shockingly strange, make-believe, mental-illness-manifested prison they've housed these idols, and themselves, in. it's beyond parasocial, it's parasitic. these "fans," these attitudes, these sentiments, have always existed in some way, shape, or form. and not just in kpop. it can be found anywhere, and everywhere.

however, those funeral wreaths were deplorable. the act itself was heinous, and cruel. but the people behind it, and their intentions just reeked so strongly of insecurity, i could smell it through the layers of self-preservation, and deep-seated low self-esteem. it's been hard to reckon with the impact those wreathes must have on seunghan, and the gravity of the entire situation, when i can't muster enough energy to care about, or even pity, the existence of those who waste their money, and capacities on these nugatory moral offences, who don't even live in reality.

the most jarring thing about this entire situation is that, as years pass, these "fans" who were once so steadfast, and committed to upholding their fantasies that they disregarded the humanity of another person in the process, slowly but surely, all the albums on their shelves, the posters on their walls, the merch, and other paraphernalia they've collected, find their way into boxes that sit in the back of a closet. they don't know it, but it's the last time they turn on their lightstick before it goes into the same box. the number of concerts, and fanmeetings they attend dwindle because they have other plans now. maybe they have partners, a family, other priorities. their intense, manic love has evolved into nostalgia, and fondness. their life has moved on. their age has afforded them wisdom to look back on their lives, and wonder what the big deal was, while blissfully ignoring their involvement in the matter. they're gonna grow up, live their lives, and detach themselves from the kpop group comprised of living, breathing people that they used as a half-baked coping mechanism to make their menial lives more bearable. these "fans" will grow up, and move on, while seunghan carries the weight of the insecurities that they unfairly projected onto him for longer than they can comfortably make sense of.

this rant is just a projection of how i feel about everything going on in the world, not just kpop, but this ick has been hard to ignore. it's even changed the way kpop sounds to me. all my favourite kpop songs just unpleasantly nag at me, and all im reminded of are rows, and rows of those stupid fucking flowers covering blocks of seoul. and i don't even stan riize lol

i hope these "fans" grow up well, and i hope their lives develop meaning beyond some kpop group. after seeing those wreathes, i don't think i can stomach kpop anymore unless something changes. one thing's for sure, the relationship between riize, and briize is undoubtedly changed, and possibly the relationship between all idols, and their fans, as well.

[undead-discourse]

genuinely have to wonder what these people who are so staunchly anti non-offending paraphiles want to happen to said paraphiles. like... what, do you want them to be killed for their thoughts they cant control? you think they deserve to die because theyre mentally ill? do people with homocidal intrusive thoughts deserve to die too, for an act they have not and likely will never commit? i hate to break it to you, but paraphilias are way more common than you think, and the people who have them are humans just like you. some of them seemingly come from nowhere, but a lot of them stem from trauma, which yall dont like to think about because it reminds you that if things just went a little differently, you couldve ended up like the inhuman, irredeemable monsters you advocate for the murder of. either way, its literally not something that the paraphile can control. fundamentally its unlikely any of them will ever be able to shirk their attractions. they can, however, just like you, control their actions. they are people with mental illnesses so stigmatized that its socially acceptable to publicly call for their slaughter. if you fancy yourself someone who thinks that people can be reformed and rehabilitated, someone who identifies as a prison abolishionist or an anarchist, you cannot also advocate for the involuntary killing of people with mental disorders. and you cannot perpetuate this culture of shame and fear and hostility, because all it does is push paraphiles who desperately need help further into isolation, away from the help that they need, and closer to actually offending. if someone is outed as a paraphile, their entire life is ruined. all of their connections are severed. theyre met with constant active hostility for something they never asked for and something they cannot control. so why, then, would a paraphile ever feel comfortable asking for help? how could they ever feel like they can reach out to a professional or even just to their friends and family when the risk is so high? when theyre told that theyre going to hurt people no matter what anyway?

full disclosure, im a paraphile. i wont specify anything beyond that. but for the longest time i really did feel like an irredeemable monster who was doomed to hurt others, that it was only a matter of time. that mindset, unsurprisingly, is not very conducive to recovery. it was only when i found other paraphiles online, learned i wasnt alone, that i didnt have to feel like the only option was death, that i finally felt like i could take control of myself. the isolation was the biggest hindrance to that. feeling like i was entirely alone in the world aside from people who had committed heinous acts, because the paraphiles who havent obviously cant talk about it. except they do, in small corners of the internet, where they still face incredible harassment and shame. still, knowing i was in the company of good people and knowing that my attraction wasnt some conscious choice on my part that made me into an inherent monster helped majorly. i didnt choose to grow up in the environment that i did. i didnt choose what i was exposed to as a kid. i didnt choose how any of that would affect me. i didnt choose to be a paraphile. but i am choosing to be a good person despite it, and im choosing to let other paraphiles know that they can do the same. i know there are some reading this. youre not alone, you can get help, and you can choose to be a fantastic person. youre not doomed. you dont have to die to keep others safe.

to summarize: paraphiles are human beings with mental illnesses just like many of you. and just like you, they need help and support, but its incredibly difficult to get that when the public opinion on them is generally "you deserve to die no matter what." we are incredibly common. you probably know a paraphile. and if that deeply upsets you on a moral level, i hope you know thats the reason why paraphiles hide it and just get worse and worse.

paraphiles are always going to be here no matter how hard you wish they were all dead. thats just a fact. so you can keep making graphic threats against mentally ill people, literally only causing further harm to them and to others, or you can show compassion and a genuine desire to see things get better by at the very least not perpetuating obvious anti-recovery, pro capital punishment, pro thought crime propaganda.

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[cerealkiller866]

ramble bc im pissed abt this lol

ignore any bad grammar and run on sentences 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

also cw for some mentions of cp/child abuse! also swearing

have yall seen that guy (im assuming hes on tt/yt, on ig his account is the_internet_sweetheart)? the one with all the face tattoos and such? his whole page is dedicated to calling out people who say mean shit to him? i dont follow him but he pops up in my feed sometimes; normally i think his stuff is pretty funny and i like seeing him be petty, but today i saw a video of him reacting to a comment a woman left on his video where he got a child tattooed on his body. im pretty sure i saw the original video that the comment was left on—basically, a woman left a comment on one of his posts, so he got a picture of her and her child tattooed on him as a ‘gotcha.’ a lot of the time, he digs up dirt on his haters (like being abusive, getting arrested, etc) and roasts them for it, and since theyre all adults (from what ive seen) ive never had an issue with it, but i personally think that this is way too far. if he got a tattoo of just her, i dont really think itd be that big of a deal—sure, its weird and insanely petty, but at the end of the day, an adult consensually putting their pictures online can understand the potential consequences (its also something hes done multiple times before; im not sure exactly how many). a child, however, cannot. if you wanna be petty and troll the trolls, go ahead. be my guest. especially if theyre bad people outside of the internet—if anything, it draws more attention to their harmful behavior. but dragging kids into it is unacceptable, and having a kids face PERMANENTLY TATTOOED ON YOUR BODY is weirdo behavior. like REALLY fucking weird. to be clear, im not accusing this dude of being a pdf/child abuser. i think thats a really awful thing to accuse someone of without evidence or to use as an insult, (partially because youre essentially suggesting that they committed one of the most heinous acts a person can commit and partially because it undermines the seriousness of those actions and genuine accusations), but still. those kids did nothing wrong, and dragging them into the situation to get back at their parents is wicked fucked up. at the end of the day, they did not consent to having their faces on the internet and punishing them for the actions of their parents is just wrong. like imagine growing up and finding out that a random guy on the internet has your baby pictures tattooed on him. thats W E I R D. anyways, this other woman left a comment saying basically “this is really fucked up,” and he basically did the same thing to her (pulled up a picture of her and her kid and got it tattooed). the interesting thing is, he replaced her with art the clown—(as a HUGE terrifier fan i kinda love that lol)—so really, the only person whose face he had was the kid’s (he did that with the first woman too; i forgot who the character was that he replaced her with). the whole point the video was trying to make was ‘dont post your kids on the internet bc people on there will be weird abt it!’ i definitely agree with the message—kids who are too young to consent to having their faces on the internet and under the potential consequences should not be posted (its a bit different if its your personal page with just friends/family; thats usually fine as long as the pictures arent overly embarrassing or things that the kids would reasonably be upset abt later on). still though, i think proving this point by…doing weird stuff with pictures of children wrong? like yeah, sure, its definitely not the worst thing someone could do—especially with advancements in ai/editing technology, making inappropriate images/videos of kids isnt impossible, and the internet is full of creeps who LOVE that shit. even though on the scale of Worst Things You Could Do With Pictures of Kids on the Internet this might be objectively less harmful than making/selling cp of them or putting them in pdf spaces, its still wrong. you just dragged an innocent kid into a situation that they should have no involvement in and, if anything, made their pictures more public by posting them on your platform. to be cont.

[alilbitlesbian]

finally wrote another chapter of monsterfuckers in what is probably the sexiest move of my career.

anyway read it on ao3, titled Goddamn Monsterfuckers, im abb to lose my marbles

[spitdrunken]

not gonna make any more promises about activity because Life LMAO (full time student + part time job + attempted social life = hell) but man a couple of months ago my girlfriend made me watch spiderman 1 & 2 (original ones) and i have been a changed person ever since. sent so many rambles to her about these two men. anyway. have a bit of a fic im working on.

notes: mermaid(? dunno what else to call it) au

Oh, how many times have you wished to be hatched from a different egg…!

But, no, fate had decided that you must be born as a shrimp, among so many others. Why couldn’t you have been one of the predators, large, and able to navigate the coral reefs you call home without fear? You wish for it, and yet it’s a mode of existence so far away from yours that you can hardly imagine it.

You had many siblings, once. Now, few of them remain, scattered amongst the vast expanse of the reefs. A part of you is glad that you haven’t been able to track them. If you can’t find them, that means others can’t, either. As for the ones you do know the location off, it’s better not to go and see them, either. You have no desire to risk your life to the predator they’ve bonded with. The most you catch is whispers from well-connected prey, to whom new bonds are one of the greatest sources of gossip. Down here, information is key to survival, and misinformation can get you killed.

If there is anyone who has much misinformation drifting around about him, it would be a particularly vicious octopus nicknamed Octavius. Or supposed to be vicious, at least. There is no way to know for certain. The incidents that continue to be spoken of happened many a shrimp’s lifetime ago though, compared with other creatures, that is no time at all. That is not to mention that octopi are notoriously solitary, and no one has seen this Octavius himself in forever. Still, the crime he has supposedly committed—the act of killing prey for one’s own enjoyment, rather than survival—is heinous enough that you can’t write it all off either. It must contain some pearl of truth, covered in muck as it may be. All the same, Octavius is exactly the one you want to seek out. You certainly wouldn’t blame anyone for accusing you of having a death wish. You may have one, considering being alive is so utterly exhausting. All it consists of is being in a constant state of fear, and scrambling to find your next meal. Your antennae twitch thinking about those lucky cleaner shrimp, who no longer have a care in the world. Whereas trying to bond with any predator is normally a risk, you’ve developed a plan.

So many horrific stories about Octavius regularly make the rounds, that you, for once, can be certain no one has bonded with him. No one else has been stupid enough to try. If you die, at least you tried.

[newvegascowboy]

re: your sa vs murder post, I would argue that sa is a form of torture. To torture and then kill is worse than just torturing or just killing, because there is a greater degree of directed malicious and violent behaviour. Torturing and not killing vs killing and not torturing would depend on whether the method of killing was comparable to the suffering incurred by the torture.

I feel like a lot of people tend to picture death from murder as a relatively quick thing. There may be pain and fear, but in fiction it often doesn't take long before death claims someone. We therefore have a societal tendency to perceive that death from murder is often not "that bad", unless the murderer intends it to be so and willfully and carefully draws it out. Thus I think people are more prone to feeling the torture and long-term suffering of an sa victim to be worse, because that suggests to them a more concerted malicious effort and more overall pain dealt. I think a great deal is that people underestimate how painful dying is unless conditions are perfect for instantaneous death.

So to your mind, if a character tortured another and then let them live, would that be as disagreeable as a character that rapes someone but doesn't kill them? In both those scenarios, someone is left with an immense amount of lifelong trauma - but several people have said that murder is better because the victim doesn't have to deal with it afterwards.

In the context of Fallout, since im a Fallout blog, it's highly reasonable to say that certain characters have committed acts of torture. 2 of your companions in Fallout 4 are raiders (or a former raider, in Cait's case). Gage actively raids and approves of it, but he's still a fan favorite to a lot of people. It's been a long time since I played through nuka world so I don't remember any dialogue off the top if my head, but I wouldn't be surprised if the act of rape was implied in Nuka World. They have a slave district, after all. Consent would be pretty dubious, at best. While I don't think Gage would have committed an act of rape, it's possible he works with people who have.

And that's kind of the core of what I'm getting at. Rape as always implied to be a true villain's act. You can murder or raid as much as you like and you'll get a narrative pass, but if you rape or assault, THAT crosses the line. There is no redemption for you, do not pass go. Functionally, I suppose there is no real difference between the nuka world raiders and Caesar's Legion, but because The Legion is implied to exist on some level of sex slavery, that makes them automatically worse and less redeemable than any other raider gang. Or the Fiends, who are Cannibal murderers, but Cook Cook is one of like, two people in the game with Evil Karma, is explicitly stated to be a rapist. Caesar, the leader of the Fascism LARP, doesn't even have Evil karma.

There is clearly some unspoken rule here that uses rape and SA as a shorthand for true villainy. I think there's a level of pretty privilege, or at least appeal, that allows characters to get away with some particularly heinous acts and not others. Like yeah your honor he did all that, but he was hot doing it, so who cares. Psychologically speaking, part of what I think plays into it is that danger is seen as desirable. I come back to the idea that murder is easier to romanticize.

Both murder and rape are extensions pf violence, but one is more about exerting power over someone, and its not as easy to eroticize. It's pure fantasy to look at a dangerous man who has killed someone and think that you would be the exception, but that's where the fiction plays a vital role. You look at a character and think "he would murder For Me" but when it comes to rape, I don't think it's as appealing to think along those lines. Like... he would rape For Me? No. He would rape me? Sure, a sexual fantasy for some people, but not nearly as relatable. Murder can be seen as an act of love, protection, or even devotion, even if committed unjustly. Rape is inherently a more selfish act.

[corviiids]

I saw your post about Achilles and Patroclus (the one for the ask game) and it was really interesting, I like the points you made and I enjoyed reading it, but I have a question about Achilles' bloodlust before Patroclus' death: what about what he did to Troilus? This happens before Patroclus' death in most accounts, so Achilles is very brutal with it for someone, who says he prefers to ransom the Trojans rather than kill them.

Yes, Troilus had to die, if the Achaeans wanted to win the war, but his death didn't have to be so brutal. Furthermore, Achilles kills him in a sanctuary (Apollo's temple) with no regard for the consequences, and then throws the kid's head to Hector and a few other of his brothers (there are also even more severe versions about what Achilles did to this kid before and/or after killing him)

And then there's Polyxena, who usually is accompanying Troilus and gets kidnapped (and most likely r*ped) by Achilles after he kills her brother. In some versions she was partially the cause of Achilles' death, setting up his ambush by her brothers in Apollo's temple (which in my opinion seems like her way of avenging Troilus' death).

And then the ghost of Achilles demands her sacrifice (either as revenge to her revenge or because he still wants to have her, or both, 'm not sure), otherwise the Achaeans wouldn't be able to leave Troy.

I'm really curious about your thoughts on what Achilles did to these two.

(The argument about the Iliad characters is never ending and there are tons of different takes and opinions. I'm not trying to pick up an argument, I just want to hear you take on this, maybe what versions of these myths you prefer, why do you think Achilles acted the way he did and how does it fit in his characteristic you wrote previously?)

hellooo yeah so first and foremost obviously due to the nature of mythology it's always going to be kind of impossible to have, like, one unified "version" of a character that brings together every depiction of them throughout history, as you said. i think every storyteller is going to add something to a figure that doesn't necessarily mesh with every other depiction. it's like spiderman. it's for that reason that in that post (i had to go read it again lol i forgot exactly what i said but im pretty sure) i only talked about events that happened in or were referred to in the iliad. i.. clearly.. dont have a very good memory so i could very much be wrong about this but i dont think polyxena is mentioned in the iliad and troilus is only mentioned by name, i don't thiiiiiink the story of his death is relayed? i could be wrong! but yeah all of which is to say if my characterisation of achilles seems inconsistent with other myths, it sometimes might just be because it simply is. i dont try to account for every myth bc i would explode into a shower of snails

that said though i think in this instance we can find a compatibility. my point in that post wasn't that achilles isn't ever bloodthirsty or brutal, only that he shouldn't be defined by his bloodlust. quoting my own post bc again i had to go reread it

it's not that he isn't violent or hasn't killed or that he has reservations about taking lives

it's uncontroversial that he committed a lot of pretty heinous acts and clearly has the capacity for great cruelty and does not really weigh kindness or compassion or charity as a major factor in his decision-making. from my post again

he doesn't fight to kill, he fights to win. that's not hugely different in terms of the outcome, given it is in a war context where defeat and death tend to mean the same thing, but it IS different from a personality and character perspective, because it tells us achilles is at worst indifferent to human life rather than actually being driven by a desire to take it. better? worse? doesn't matter, not my point - just different.

achilles is more than happy to commit atrocities. it doesn't bother him to do so, morally. indifference to human life is sometimes indistinguishable from being outright driven by a desire to kill first and foremost. sometimes it's worse. achilles kind of does what he wants - he enjoys excelling at things - he excels at killing. so, stands to reason he might take a particularly brutal or bloodthirsty action if he feels like it. im putting the rest of this under a cut because it got long again

achilles choosing to ransom lycaon isn't proof that he is a merciful soul. it's just that he isn't at war for the love of making war and ending lives in and of itself. he absolutely does not give a shit about lycaon at all as an individual. if someone doesnt have to die, he might decide to let them go (vs someone who's in this because they love killing and therefore would just kill anyway). or he might kill them. if someone DOES have to die, achilles wouldn't go out of his way to make it a kind end. he might if he feels like it. but he might not. the bottom line is he can be bloodthirsty, but that's not his core driving trait. he's not in this to kill, he's in this to win and to be remembered for it. the killing is incidental (if he wins enough then it doesn't matter if his victims survive or not), so it'll happen or it won't and it doesn't really matter to him. so yeah, a plea for mercy might work on him better than it might work on someone who really actively wants to kill people because maybe he has no particular stake in killing them, which is why ive said he isn't fundamentally driven by bloodlust. but like if achilles thinks it might be fun to kill someone in a brutal way, no voice in his head is gonna be like Whoa there champ! How about not doing that? bc his reasons for not killing aren't ethical concerns, it's just a byproduct of what drives him. this is a fine distinction i know but i think it's important. again im not arguing (and wont ever) that achilles is a good moral figure, it's more just about understanding who he is. the killing isn't his goal hence why hes willing to ransom trojan soldiers moreso than the other greeks but if he DOES kill he's probably also going to do it more brutally than others again because his reasons were never rooted in morality to begin with

basically in terms of how im able to marry my view of achilles not being driven by bloodlust with the fact that he does objectively violent and brutal acts, i think those things are compatible with each other bc he can be bloodthirsty without that being the core driving force of his character and the thing that makeshim what he is. does that make sense? the issue i was railing against specifically w that post was that he tends to be depicted as a guy who just wants to fight kill bite kill blood blood blood and i think he DOES act like that guy but that's not the be all and end all of him. killing is incidental to winning, but he can take it or leave it - what i refer to as the breakdown of achilles' character following patroclus' death is the transition in achilles from "i want to win, and i'll kill to make that happen" to "i want to kill for the sake of killing" it stops being about glory and starts being about destruction and pain

[lockandkeyhyena]

Is violence against Alvin allowed

i’m going to very tentatively say that i genuinely don’t know where i stand on this.

the story is, in practice, very anti retributive justice (i just rewatched contrapoints’ video on it and i have been thinking about it a lot) and fundamentally about a horrible person becoming better. i’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently on my point of view on violence as a form of revenge (as opposed to a tool of the oppressed, where the riot is the language of the unheard) and i suppose the idea of an eye for an eye appeals to me less and less as i examine the humanity that resides in every individual, no matter how heinous.

the question i suppose i am left with is- is it productive? to sit down and examine it, the crime has already been committed, we gain nothing but sadistic pleasure from the act, and while by no means does it make us as bad as them (that’s a silly argument) it’s all… pointless?

i guess my final stance is that violence is never productive unless utilised as a response to immediate harm, and while it offers a short-term release, it’s simply not worth it to enact that harm upon another person.

i’m definitely open to discussing this however! im kind of rushed writing this before dinner and cant put all my thoughts down

[sovietsquiddo]

im gonna make a blog post for divine chronicles and just start infodumping to get shit out there that maybe someone reads a little bit of.

I guess I'll need to do a bit of a summary of things to start going into detail on the different aspects of everything.

Divine Chronicles is a novel I have been actively writing for something like 10 years at this point, it is not the only story I have been working on but it is by far the most in depth and far along one.

I've done extensive private worldbuilding on this story and completely torn down and rewritten it multiple times, I'm currently working on the first draft of the first book in the series, so I want to hopefully engage people with my story and maybe attract questions that help me further flesh things out.

The placeholder name I've been using for the world is Terra Grostin.

Terra Grostin is a world where magic is within everything. As far back as mortal history has recorded, every single being on the planet was imbued with magical energy that it could learn to harness and use. Many different intelligent species emerged over time from this, allowing for a myriad of diverse cultures to explode. These cultures unite under the banner of 'mortals'.

The first recorded history begins after an event known as The First Cataclysm. Very little is known about the event itself aside from the fact that it was devastating, wiping out the majority of mortals and driving many mortal species extinct.

There is evidence of civilized society prior to the first calamity, but a majority of it has been destroyed along with most writings and artifacts from that timeframe.

There are massive blank spots from there on in mortal history, chunks of hundreds to even thousands of years that have not a single scrap of information available about them.

The one organization that has stood despite all of this since before the first cataclysm is The Mages College, the body of learning in charge of both educating others in magic and enforcing boundaries to prevent those who would delve too deep from doing so.

Mortals did not rise to prominence alone however.

Also inhabiting this world are gods, who, in exchange for loyalty and favorable actions, grant various incredible boons and assistance to their charges.

There are more gods than stars in the sky, each one representing a unique concept.

Some people devote their entire lives to their gods, mutilating their bodies, or committing heinous or heroic acts in tribute.

Others arrive at a pact of convenience, only providing their service when it's mutually beneficial.

Likewise a god is free to withhold their blessings, or outright ignore acts in their favor should they wish.

A gods power is corollary to several factors including the concept it represents, the followers it has garnered, and the meaning and intention behind the act of faith exchanged.

Popular gods include: the goddess of sacrifice, the god of agriculture, the goddess of fate, and the god of combat.

Alright infodump over for now I'll reblog this with more eventually. If you have questions feel free to shoot me an ask.