#im going to put info here for future reference

[multiplicity-positivity]

Had an experience a week or so ago that made me start questioning if ‘I’ was actually a ‘we’, now im trying to get more resources. At the moment, in incredible amounts of denial and refusal, since I’ve never been someone who thought they experienced dissociation or dissociative amnesia, nor do I feel any trauma I’ve gone through is ‘bad enough’ for smth like this, but from what I’ve seen that’s a fairly common plural experience. So, im really curious about median systems, I think is the right term for it. Was wondering if there were any resources on what it /feels/ like? I don’t think I fit a lot of the symptoms or criteria for this, but the last time I thought that I ended up getting an official diagnosis years down the line for the thing I didn’t think I had simply because it ‘wasn’t bad enough’ etc, and im now very hesitant to brush off a strong feeling like this. I don’t know, anything would help, really. Thank you

(I did also send this ask to uniquely-plural, I hope I’m not overstepping. I’m not trying to scam, im just a little bit scared and looking for direction. Sorry. Thank you)

Hiya! We don’t think sending the same ask to multiple blogs to get different takes and advice is a bad thing at all! We hope the lovely folks at uniquely-plural can have some helpful guidance for y’all! :33 honestly we think it’s a great thing when seeking advice to hear from as many folks as possible!

Our biggest post with resources for questioning systems is our resource post for questioning systems, hehe >w< we’ll go ahead and link it since there’s bound to be something listed which could be helpful for you!

As far as specific advice or experiences regarding median systems… we don’t have any specific advice or experiences for you because we aren’t a median system at all. So sorry!! But the blog @median-culture-is is an active blog for median systems, and they might be willing to share a bit about what their experiences are like! You could also scroll through that blog to see what sorts of experiences folks have sent in as culture asks! Feel free to also check out the “#median system” tag here on tumblr for more personal experiences from median systems! >w<

From what we know about median (aka midcontinuum) systems, they exist somewhere between being a singlet and being fully separated individuals. There’s a huge, probably limitless variety of ways a median system can look! There’s no official symptoms or criteria for what makes a system median, other than the fact that they identify with that term and it works well to describe their multiplicity :3 Here’s the pluralpedia entry for median systems in case you could benefit from it!

Also, we feel like it’s worth mentioning that you totally can be a system even without a history of repeated or extensive childhood trauma! Being plural simply means experiencing life as more than one, and many folks out there identify as plural even without having a dissociative disorder like DID or OSDD! We’ll include a couple more posts for you. One included our personal experiences with dissociative amnesia, and the other is our post on dealing with denial! Hopefully these posts can help answer some of your questions or help put your mind at ease a little bit :3

Also also like… trauma is trauma! If it affects you, it affects you. There’s no, like, trauma scale or certain experiences that are objectively bad enough to cause a system to form!! Every person is unique and some people respond to trauma in unique ways. So, like, please don’t downplay your own trauma history!! Besides, it really is a common occurrence for trauma survivors to believe that their trauma history wasn’t all that traumatic, or that they should be fine because other people have had it worse. Please just spend some time validating your experiences and giving yourself/selves a chance to rest and heal!

We hope we’ve touched on everything in your ask in our response! Do please get in touch again if there’s anything we missed or if you have any other questions for us at all. We’re wishing you the very best with figuring out more about yourself and your potential multiplicity!! Have a great day! :33

[ninjagohcs]

HII >:D

want a place where you can share your headcanons about ninjago? well, here it is! anyways i’m going to list the rules and everything else you need to know below

mod applications: closed

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No NSFW hcs.

Don’t attack people for their headcanons

No using slurs even if you can reclaim them

No homo/trans/xeno/etc-phobic stuff allowed. There are characters in this show confirmed to be lbgtq.

Please keep the headcanons Ninjago related

If you plan on submitting a headcanon with heavy topics, please discuss it respectfully and not in too much detail.

Ship headcanons are allowed, but we do not allow proships/darkships (family x family, adult x minor, etc) on this blog. Any of the ninja x Lloyd is also not allowed.

I do not take headcanons on OCs.

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You can both submit and request headcanons! When requesting, though, please don’t request too many characters. (5 is the max)

We will respond to your ask with “.” if we have nothing to say.

To submit an ask, press the button that says “submit a hc here!” and then type whatever you wanted to say. After typing, you can either just send the ask how it is or turn on anonymous mode and add an optional sign-off. I put an example below ⬇️ (these signoffs are recommended if you plan to come back to the blog some time in the future!)

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[anti-terf-posts]

hey chat im feeling petty so.... more for the blocklist here!! im not sure if any of these folks are terfs but they are assholes!

@/feminismisstillahatemovement (terrible name, terrible person, but at least they're funny-ish! also insinuated that im an animal abuser for... ??? idk.)

@/madame-helen (according to them, i am a victim of grooming for just having a tumblr bio? idk.)

@/battle-acs-official (debatable? made fun of me for being a satanist + rebloged the post that had this crap in it but idk,,,)

@/martian-law (liked the post that had this crap in it)

@/afoolofhope (also liked the post with this crap in it)

@/threeeightnine (ditto)

@/kcscribbler (ditto)

@/ebdaddy (ditto)

@/branden-aka-cowboyduke (ditto)

@/crabs-and-bedbugs (ditto. its a shame since they have a badass name)

@/warlord-dak

pleasure doin' business with ya!

Thank you !! Although I would ask for future reference I have more context on why someone is being put on a blocklist, makes it much easier to go through :] /nm /info

[spacealligator]

I'm curious to know how you manage your documents for fics, so I've come to you with a few (possibly fun?) questions regarding your process !

1 - How do you name your documents? 2- If you have a multichapter fic, do you keep it all on one document, have a separate document for every chapter, or something else? 3 - If a situation arises where you want to make a drastic change that can essentially end up deleting thousands of words, do you commit to deleting those chunks and start fixing them right in the original document, or do you resort to making copies first so that you still have the original? Something else, maybe? 4 - Optional freebie slot ! Tell me something about your process that you might want to mention, but I didn't have a question specific enough for you to mention it !

hellou whoooo, thank you so much for the ask, here`s how my mess of a brain organizes everything?

1- most of the time the titles are just the theme of the fic, so for the Handsome Cop universe ie the title of the google docs was police AU for a long time, Ive had names like roommate AU, ame trio AU, flower AU etc very straight foward. I only change the title of the google docs once I settle on a title I really like, and that usually happens when Im about to publish and have to come up with something hehe

2- I keep all chapters in one doc, and also, if Im writing a series, theyre also in the doc because I often need to reference it to check some infos or really just the tone of the writing up until then. The worst part is correcting some info that you`ve been using for some time, like the age of a character changes, or something that happened in their past and they reference it a lot, then I have to go over the whole text and look for the specific mentions of that info and it just sucks

3- I have a google docs called kill your darlings where I put the scenes and ideas that were edited off my final drafts, I often go through the drabbles to check if there`s any cool idea in there I can re use under a new light

oh man 4 it`s gonna be a wild one

while reviewing and editing I often use text to speech tools to make sure that the writing sounds natural, its really useful for non native english speakers like myself

I have a spreadsheet of all my wips, with their % completion status, whats still on the pipeline to be written, and just silly ideas that I want to explore in the future (I had to do this because I had more wips than I could manage and was drowning in plot bunnies hehe)

when Im stuck I like writing on my phone because its hard to care about formatting, so I just shoot hundreds of words into a doc that when I open up in the computer looks like a enormous wall of text, and its easier for me to correct, edit and fill in the gaps once I have the main content on a page (blank pages scare me)

I often write all the dialogue of the scene first, and then fill in the gaps with descriptions and inner monologues, this way I make sure the conversations in my fics have some rhythm to them

most of my stories never had an outline, I just get this scene in my had and then I have to do the work around to get there and after it the consequences of it, right now Im working on my cowboy bebop AU and its the first time I really planned a plot, but I dont know whether is better or not

sometimes I go back to read my fics already posted but I often get an itch to correct things like wording and typos, but I dont because thats a rabbit hole I don`t wanna fall into

I hope you enjoyed reading my answers and got something useful out of them, I`d love to ask you right back and hear about your writing process too!

[duckedoesartstuff]

ITS LUCCILLE!!! GREETINGS TO LUCCILLE!!! SHE IS HERE!!!!

AGAIN IM SO SORRY THE ART IS ASS 😭im learning to draw with mouse okay

onto the info!!!!! (um, its kind of a lot)

Luccile works for the government as a combat medic during missions!!! The symbol you see on the top right corner is the Rod of Asclepius, and it also appears as a pin on her chest. It is the symbol of medicine. She often ties a blue ribbon in her hair so she is easily spotted as a medic!!

She really, REALLY, hates toppats... The main reason why is because the toppats put her into finanical troubles (robbin banks, stealin money, indentity fraud, whatever toppats do), which ended up being detrimental to her future. She planned to pursue a medical career, but due to finanical troubles she could not pay for college nor medical school. Luccille would end up with only a highschool diploma, landing her in the government as just a combat medic. She is bitter toward Toppats, and sometimes extremely hostile at times. Part of her motivation is getting revenge on the Toppats, or being able to take part in destroying the Toppats orgnization.

That isn't exactly her only motivation though, Luccille is considered a pacafist despite all the violent feelings she has for the toppats. She also likes being a medic just for the reason of being able to help people! This is being contested though because of howard pushing her more towards violence...

moral dilemna

In terms of personality, she is very caring and social. She tries to be the voice of reason (hence the "angel on the shoulder"). She actually cares a lot about her social status. An 'incident' occured, affecting her social status within the government. Her position in the government became a little rocky. (more will be said about it LATER) She gets a little desperate to fix her reputation. One day.... One day she will snap.....

ok time for some miscellaneous stuffs!!! As shown in the reference, her main weapon is a stun baton. It's quite a strong baton with quite a few modes. It goes on a scale of 0-4. 0 is off, 1 is able to stun enemies, 2 is able to stun enemies for longer, 3-4 could probably kill a normal person, but 3-4 could be used to stun stronger people (fusions) Her baton was originally a normal stun baton, only going up to 0-2. When she became friends with Howard though, Howard modified her baton to reach higher levels incase she'd ever need it (extreme foreshadowing ngl)

thas all i got for now!! If im forgettin somethin ill edit this post :3

[chuxxchu]

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚ Welcome to my blog ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

This is just an intro post to my silly little jirai sideblog (will prob be updated over time)

(Tw for sensitive topics + block don’t report !!)

♡ Info about me !!!

!! This blog will contain discussions regarding sensitive topics such as suicidal thoughts, self-harm, and the like so be warned !!

I don’t have a name I particularly go by so call me whatever + im ok with nicknames too :3

Being a side blog, follows and interaction will be from my main (@rigatonirules)

Age: 15 (I’m a minor so act appropriately pls!)

Pronouns: He/they (tho I don’t have a strong preference for any pronouns at all so really call me whatever)

I’m a lifestyle jirai and am getting into wearing fashion too!! ^_^

Not diagnosed with anything (yet) but I know something is wrong with me

I LOVE INTERACTING WITH OTHERS so interactions (ex: asks) is encouraged tehehe >_< I’m attention starved pls

Professional yapper about my interests lol (expanded on below) but I might not post as much about them cuz I can get a bit shameful about them

♡ My interests :D

(Hearts = my FAVORITE favorite things)

Stuff I’m into: Art, Vocaloid, Hololive, ♡Project Sekai ♡, Cookie Run, Needy Streamer Overload, J-fashion (specifically jirai kei + lolita), Madoka Magica, Hetalia, Tgswinwagaa, + more I’m too lazy to put

Favorite little goobers ^^ ( fav characters): ♡ Mizuki Akiyama ♡, Shadow Milk Cookie, Sayaka Miki, Homura Akemi, Ame (nso), Feliciano Vargas, Reo Mikage + more but these are the main ones

(I’m also into vtubers and my oshis are Cecilia Immergreen + IRyS !!)

!! DNI !!

General dni, homophobes, transphobes, racists, trump supports, loli/shotacons, proshippers, general assholes (you know who you are), + irl people who know me (if you think you know me pls leave me alone this is my safe safe from real life and I don’t want it following me here)

I will block freely so if you make uncomfortable I won’t hold back from blocking !

♡ Tags ~

All the different tags will all be labeled under chu just cuz that’s my user and not something I particularly go by (tho if you want to call me that that’s fine with me!!)

#chu yaps !! - yapping tag for just general talking about whatever (might still contain casual references to sensitive stuff tho so be warned)

#chu feels shitty :3 - vents (suicidal thoughts, sh, crippling feeling of guilt and loneliness, the whole shebang)

#chu gets asks! - tag for answering asks (if I ever get them lol)

# chu reblogs :D - kinda self explanatory (tag I use when rebloging posts

(Might add more tags in the future if needed but for now this’ll do I think)

♡ (and finally) Userboxes !

All ones here are from @/jiraisupportgroup

Ty for reading through all this and I hope you enjoy your stay on my blog !! :3

[justajsworkshop]

Thank you.

I'll keep this short but- I had taken a break for a few months. The entire states thing did not do me any good. When I came back, I read too much tumblr, twitter and reddit and now I'm confused on how to proceed.

I came across your blog yesterday and on skimming through a couple of your asks, you seem to not stick to the traditional rules and terminology which I truly appreciate. And I hope you can give me some advice.

-1) The lack of guidelines is making me feel kinda scared. One person tells that all there's left to do is decide, another tells that we have to 'know' it into being. Too much info has left me confused. I think I used feel safe when I knew I just had to do x, y and z and then I'll have what I want. How can I navigate through this? Everything feels kinda mixed up, if that makes sense

2)So, I read this-> https://www.tumblr.com/justajsworkshop/761700924577267712/im-the-anon-who-wanted-to-cry-this-is-silly-but?source=share

ask, because this was one of the questions I had. And the last sentence you wrote was-'manifesting is just choosing what that narrative is.' Do I choose and then...just leave it? I dont react to anything that contradicts what I chose? And where does faith/knowing come into play in all this?

I'm sorry if I sent anything that violates your ask policy. I'll send another ask if it did. Thank you for your time and help❤️

mmm, okay. so, i'm going to address a few of the specific lines you said here, and i think one thing you'll find when getting "answers" from me is that i tend to veer toward posing more questions to you, but my intention is that the questions will help you source answers from yourself instead of an outside god.

i want to give you a quick heads up that this is egregiously long (even by my standards) with minimal proofreading, and it's also very direct. so i recommend reading at a time when you're not feeling super sensitive or precious about yourself. as i say with everything i write, take what resonates. leave what doesn't. trust yourself more than you trust me.

I think I used feel safe when I knew I just had to do x, y and z and then I'll have what I want. How can I navigate through this?

preface: i generally don't answer "how" questions, but this is an open enough one that you actually captured the essence of why i ask people not to start with the word "how." people often want me to tell them what to do, but you're asking how to understand something in a different way. just adding this note here for future reference for other folks.

i'll be direct here: you used to find safety in a step-by-step process because it was easier for you to trust a process instead of trusting yourself.

truthfully, if you want to continue perceiving yourself, reality, and manifestation that way, there's nothing inherently wrong with that. your experience is entirely subjective to your preferences and not what anyone else says.

that being said, the reason i personally caution against putting your faith in processes above all is that what happens when a process "doesn't work?" what happens when results start taking longer or something else happens? and you start spiraling because you believe the process failed you; therefore, you're doing it all wrong, and you spin a narrative that you must be missing something, blah blah blah. the cycle of eternal seeking starts all over again because what you're really seeking is yourself.

anytime you create an external god, they are bound to let you down. plain and simple. so, who is your faith and trust secure in? I AM.

I AM is the ultimate process. I AM is the method, the way, the how, and the shift. I AM is just your awareness of being. you're aware that you exist, right? you didn't have to follow any process or technique or learn anything to know you exist. you just know because you just are.

(i have tons of posts on your awareness, but the most useful ones are linked in my pinned post.)

i always edit descartes' famous "i think; therefore, i am" to be extra redundant for the sake of emphasis: i exist; therefore, i am. and this leads me into this question of yours:

Do I choose and then...just leave it? I dont react to anything that contradicts what I chose?

we manifest who and what we are conscious of being. your narrative of being isn't just a one-time decision, although it is entirely possible to manifest by deciding once (i do it often). but i want you to pan out and look at the whole forrest and not just the trees.

who do you say you are?

if god were to look at you—to peer into your heart and mind—what's your attitude about yourself and life? what does god see in you? do you perceive yourself as someone who gets what they want? as someone who's capable? as someone who, even if they don't have all the answers now, can and will figure it out for themselves?

as i wrote in a post recently, if the term "states" isn't helpful for you, try attitude, as i find that it encompasses thoughts, feelings, and the perception of self in a way that makes the whole greater than the sum of its parts.

i'm going to reflect back something you said to show you the kind of attitude i'm getting from you (in this small snippet; i know there's more to you than what you wrote here):

The entire states thing did not do me any good. When I came back, I read too much tumblr, twitter and reddit and now I'm confused on how to proceed. I AM someone who is always chasing the right answer. i want to know the right way to do things because i don't trust myself to be the way. i need someone or something outside of me to instruct me because see the process or someone else's word as a greater authority over my word. I AM confused. I AM not worthy of my trust.

god is looking at all that stuff in italics, and god loves and trusts you enough that it said, anything you ask for in my name (the name of I AM, i.e., it is your nature to identify yourself a certain way), it will be added onto you. no ifs, ands, or buts. you ask for it in the name of god, I AM that I AM, it's yours.

so, what does the person who says "I AM confused" and "I AM not worthy of my trust" manifest? an experience of seeking, confusion, overwhelm, and doubt.

I dont react to anything that contradicts what I chose?

you can be non-reactive, but also you don't have to gaslight yourself into unhealthy emotional places. it's not about not reacting; it's about seeing the greater picture. person A says "I AM confused" and treats that as the end. they're literally... living in the end of being confused, and guess what they manifest. person B says, "I AM confused, AND i will figure this shit out." what's the difference between person A and person B? attitude. it's their perception of self and the situation to recognize that everything they're seeing and experiencing rn isn't the full story.

reacting isn't the end of the world. ffs, feel your feelings and do what you need to do to process in healthy ways because repression is just resistance. as neville said, "when you resist evil, you give it your attention; you continue to make it real." in this case, "evil" refers to anything you don't want.

so, if you keep trying "not to react" but it's coming from a place of repressing and pushing it away, you actually end up crediting the undesirable more, and this is why people who go the "fuck the 3D route" tend to get shit exploding back in their face. because they literally say "the 3D is fucked, fuck you" ... and then welp, the 3D fucks them back. like, it has no free will. it has to.

you and reality are one. there is no separation. it's not even just that reality is a mirror or that reality is your thoughts pushed out: all of physical reality is actually happening INSIDE you because physical reality is happening inside the mind of god. and you, your true divine self, are one with the father of all existence.

what makes manifesting confusing as fuck is when people identify with their limited, human self over their divine, limitless, eternal self. as reverend ike says, the only problem man ever has is not knowing himself, not identifying himself correctly.

you'll see it in a bunch of my posts that the first and ONLY step to manifest is to "be still and know that I AM god." and you can actually even chop that down to "know that I AM god" because when you identify as god above all, how can you NOT be one with your desires? how can you be anything else but unbothered and eternally fulfilled? because god is all things, has all things, and through whom all things are possible.

my advice is stop asking how and to start asking who. ask yourself who you really are. ask your true self to reveal themselves to you. ask yourself who do i say i am? and you'll start seeing things not through your physical, limited eyes but through the eyes of god.

anyway, i'm sorry this got so fucking long, and i hope that there was at least a nugget or two in here that helped you. the short of it is, manifesting isn't about how or when or if; it's always about who. who do you say you are? and that will be added onto you because god put all its faith into you to give you the free will to choose your conception of self.

[cpunkwitch]

answering my own questions

[pt: answering my own questions]

dont really get sent anything and not many people sent in the questions when the games were posted and reblogged, and i wanted to talk about stuff, so here we are.

this might end up being a multiple part post series?

ask game one (link)

(if comfortable) tell us about your condition? as much info as youre comfy with sharing.

i have a defect in the base of my spine, since i was born its caused me chronic pain all throughout my development and in recent years its only gotten worse, twisting my spine, headaches, jaw issues etc. i've also got highly suspected rheumatoid arthritis, fibromyalgia and ive been diagnosed with a pretty bad case of anemia so bad that everytime a doctor looks at my results after bloodwork they give me a pained look and say "heyy...did you know your iron is low? like...really really low?". that and a hand full of other things, vitamin deficiencies, etc. i dont mind talking more about this

2. do you know about the spoon theory? if yes, what do you think of it?

i'll be honest, the majority of my knowledge of spoon theory off the top of my head is that "drawer with limited supply of spoons" is the disabled way of saying i only have so much motivation and energy (phys, as "battery" usually refers to social and emotional) in me. i've read up on it ages ago but would not be able to put into better words what i still remember about spoon theory (esp since we had a different host back then), i like that its just so much quicker and easier to convey my amount of ability to do things for the day by saying whether or not i have the spoons for it.

i do like to joke that my drawer is always stocked with knives and forks for the ablests, but sometimes that requires spoons to handle too. /silly

3. do you have mobility aids? if yes, which ones? if no, do you want any in the future?

i've mention how i really wish i could have a wheelchair if i were in a different situation, i dont know if i'll ever get one and i almost cried when my brother responded to my joke of "would you make on for me?" with an "i would if i could", i really would like a wheelchair of some kind in the future if the world were more accessible and i were in a safer place. right now though, i've just got my cane that still needs repainting. i guess my moms back brace counts too, i take it with me to work sometimes.

4. how did you find out about cripplepunk? what drew you to the community and movement?

i dont exactly remember but i've known about it for years. i (prev host) might have come across it looking up different punk aesthetics, though im not completely sure why it showed up in a punk aesthetic list, possibly because its punk and people misinterpreted it? my first glimpse was seeing patches on jackets, spiked customized aids, cripples/phys disabled people in your classic punk attire (piercings, dyed spiked mohawks, ripped jeans and fingerless gloves) and i loved it. im a sucker for self expression through appearance and customizing things and then when i found out it was a whole community for support and centered around being physically disabled in general and slowly came to terms with my own disabled body and started accepting myself, i kinda fell in love with cripplepunk in the "this feels like home" sense.

i could probably ramble way more but i'll stop there.

5. if you deal with any kind of pain, what's your method of pain management?

i use hot packs, ice packs, voltaren cream, sometimes i take a cbd gummy, i do little stretches when i remember them, i take walks and hot baths/showers, im trying to go back to the chiropractor and my favourite instructors in rehab (theyre trans friendly and complimented my cane when i first came in with it i love them so much), and i take whatever meds i can, normally anti-inflammatory like ibuprofen but because i cant swallow pills i either take liquid (yeah, childs liquid meds works, the couple hours of mild relief is still worth it) or powdered tylenol or something. the hot/cold stuff depends on the pain and where on my body the pain is.

6. do you stand or sit in the shower or do you prefer baths/find bathing easier rather than showers?

i take baths for my muscles and during the damn monthly ouch in order to relax my body. i take showers just for my shoulders and when im feeling icky and wanna rinse off or something, i take showers on a "regular" basis and i normally stand because the only way i sit is if im crouched in the tub and if i do that i get extra dizzy standing up to get out when i turn the water off. thankfully im no longer near passing out when i take a shower but i still have to sit on the floor matt after because my legs demand rest. i gotta be careful with hot water cuz not only will it make me overheat quickly (i will not realize if in standing in blood-boiling hot water and turning myself into a cooked lobster until after im out) but it can also cause me to literally fall asleep in the bath which can go wrong.

7. do you have a sort of comfort item or safety blanket that helps you feel better, especially on the worst days?

a couple things. a few of them are stuffies/plushies, or music, games or books to help me keep my mind off it i suppose.

8. name 3 things you hate about hospitals/doctors/nurses/the medical system

a) a lot of them refuse to take people seriously or actually listen. sure maybe theyre tired or heard the same shtick before and wanna make sure this person isnt just a drug user trying to pity their way into getting more, but even then all matters a patient presents them with should still be taken seriously and never brushed off or mocked.

b) the fact that the er, the place you take a ticket and wait, is called the Emergency Room, when its normally scheduled appointments and people taken in by the ambulance that are top priority. sure its called the er because most visits through the er are rushed "emergency" last minute visits, people going there because they couldnt schedule an appointment and needed to see someone on that day, but still it feels wrong to call it the emergency room when its really just a waiting room and regardless of the visit they arent actually treated as emergencies. the whole system of just going to see a doctor feels messed up and most of the time you end up just going to see a nurse, get a check up and leave when they tell you what they got after a talk and examination or they schedule to see you again when a doctor is available. because of this i tend to prefer walk in clinics.

c) the fact that they charge to damn much, no matter if youre insured, it still charges so much. no matter what they do. and yeah, healthcare in canada is free to an extent if youre insured but a lot of times they charge more than your insurance can cover and not everyone can get/has insurance. not to mention the medical debt so many people have in america. i get that staff and hospitals need pay and funding but the government should have that covered and not have the patients charged so much for getting help. i almost got charged over 3k just for my short visit to the ward because there was an issue with my insurance and thats a whole angry story for another time.

9. whats an accessibility tool you wish was more accessible/that you had access to?

one of them is aac, the one i have on my phone i have to disconnect my phone to and has a limited amount of phrases i can pick from. id like it better if the app or just aac programs in general when directly to your device speaker by default, had more options for more ease conversing and none of them were behind a damn pay wall, in-app purchase or otherwise. i rarely use it for several reasons but i'd love if i could use it more with less limitations.

also wheelchair ramps. i dont have a wheelchair ramp but i wish people stopped walking on them when theyre clearly able-bodied, i wished my parents taught me and my siblings what the ramps were for and not to run up and down them as well as other parents to their kids because those things are supposed to be clear for a wheelchair user. i also think the corners should be rounded for ease of turning and that wheelchair accessible paths in general should be firm to the ground (not a wimpy matt on the sand that flips over and gets buried on the beach unmaintained), maintained and cleaned regularly, not have any gaps (ive seen so many of the small ones installed in doorways that have a height gap above the ground which causes trouble getting the wheelchair on the ramp let alone through the damn door) and not have railings made of metal if theyre outside (they can often reflect light into peoples eyes and get too hot to touch in the sun both of which are not good issues to have no matter how small they seem.)

those are at least the first to come to mind.

10. whats the worst accessability cockblock you've seen ableds do/make?

theres quite a few i've seen but atm nothing significant comes to mind other than overpricing mobility aids or placing paywalls in front of aids in general.

however there was the few times in more than one school i went to you had to go to the office, provide a 'valid' reason and ask them for a key to the elevator, otherwise they make you take the stairs. i know they do it because they dont want able-bodied kids messing with it n shit but its stupid, it should be accessible to everyone regardless. thank fuck both collages ive been to so far give free elevator use to any staff or student but in the schools i went to i was only allowed have the access key because i couldnt walk up the steps on my sprained/twisted ankle and i had to give it back at the end of every day. the last school even limited my use to just the morning or 1-2 periods that i had on the second floor. nevermind if my locker was up there.

11. whats an accessibility tool youre very thankful for?

screen readers. my little brother uses/used em more than me and i dont use them too often but im glad they exist in general i used them when i was younger and my english teachers gave us work on the computer, i used it like an audiobook and it helped me majorly. i hate that people dont always provide translations to things and make things harder on screen readers by using coloured, tiny, non-serif font-ed or 'quirked' text but ever since i was a kid i was just as happy they existed as i was about braille.

12. name 3 things you like about hospitals/docs/nurses/the medical system

a) that there are some people there who are actually hoping, willing and ready to listen and help others.

b) that they provide things for kids like toys in the waiting room, people who specialize in caring for kids in the hospital, some doctors even have their office decorated. one doctor i went to had her entire office winnie the pooh themed and it helped me out a lot when i got blood work done n stuff, it was really comforting to stare at pooh bear instead of the sharp pokey in my arm.

c) that things are usually kept quiet with low voices, as it reduces risk of overstimulation as well as avoids hurting anyones head and protects privacy of those talking about whats going on. voices are usually only raised to a normal talking level when in the privacy of a nurse or doctor office and its something i dont see really acknowledged anywhere.

13. do you have any favourite disability rep? (media or character)

not picking from my own sources, when it comes to physical disability rep, its hard for me to pick something that involves a realistic character because most of them arent very well portrayed or i cant personally relate to. i can list Freddy freeman as one, hes a crutch user and how the shazam movie portrayed him does well in expressing what ableism can be like for some visibly disabled kids in school. i could probably list some shows that handle disability well through other means if i thought of them, i know theres a few that handle it through super heros being disabled (the one spider-person who's got both a wheelchair and a cane from the recent spiderverse movie for example) or non-human characters having differences that are implied to be disabilities, and i adore that creativity, especially with showing disabled super heros as it tells disabled kids theyre still strong, not broken, they can still be cool and do great things just like able-bodied people. hard for me to name specific things off the top of my head though, guess i like specific tropes around disability rep more than anything. it helps normalize disability and thats what really makes me happy with it. (thats a big reason why i made @/your-fave-is-crippled)

14. least favourite/worst disability rep?

not phys disabled but sia's fucked up movie right off the bat still angers me. i cant name any specifics once again, normally if theres some rep that i dont like i purposely forget they exist to begin with, they arent worth remembering if they arent gonna do it right, y'know? id rather forget and move on than linger and rage about it if i can help it.

15. list some creators (youtubers/bloggers etc) that are disabled and/or cater to a disabled audience that you enjoy? (if any)

@crippled-pvp, @cripple-culture-is are a couple blogs i follow that i enjoy seeing on my dash (sorry if you dont want to be tagged!)

there was a deaf/hoh girl i used to frequent the content of as she talks a lot about signing and i really enjoyed her videos, shes such a sweet person but i never remembered her name nor any of the other creators i watched/followed. no one else comes to mind atm

16. favourite aspect about the general disabled community?

i like that there are people with advice at the ready, whatever question you have or info you need etc, theres always going to be someone with the words you need. i just like how helpful people can be in general in this community and how easily support is accessed through the community.

17. least favourite aspect about the general disabled community?

the fact that theres in-fighting, fake claiming, judgment, quick assumptions, and general internalized ableism still going on when we're supposed to be a community helping each other out not tearing each other down. im not just talking about the fight over "inclusion vs exclusion" on cripplepunk and other sub/separate communities in the disability community.

18. favourite aspect about cripplepunk?

i think my answer to "what drew you to cripplepunk" also answers this.

19. least favourite aspect about cripplepunk?

honestly? none. i hate the people forcing themselves into a space not meant to include them nor benefits them in the first place. i cant actually think of an issue i have with the cpunk community, only issues with people outside being upset over how "exclusive" it is because they want in.

20. free space:

feel free to ask me about any of my answers! i'll make a second post for the second ask game some other time. its currently 11pm and i have to get up early for morning classes yuck

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[simplysurviving89]

first post explanation.

hey, so if you made it here .. congrats? turn around while you can? i guess i should explain a little more on why i created this account. So in the summer of 2022 two family members came to me and said they think somethings going on with my daughter and i should take her to the GP for an ASD referal, i got them to make lists of what theyd seen in her and i observed her and did the same, we took this to the GP who agreed, then contacted us a week later to say the referal was declined as it has to be school that do it. So off i went to make an appointment with school to talk it through, they had no SENCO teacher at this point and all i got from the headteacher was 'we havnt seen this in school, we havnt seen that in school, we wont see these traits because of this reason ...' .. basically felt like i was being fobbed off. He told me i could do a self referral to CAHMS as all the issues seemed to be at home. I tried this and they rejected me, stating the referral had to be through school. I messaged the headteacher this information and he didnt seem bothered. So i decied to wait until they did appoint a new SENCO, which was after christmas. At the next parents evening i raised my concerns with her school teacher (who was fab!), he straight away got me a meeting with the new SENCO, i talked over my concerns with her who listened to everything i had to say, agreed with parts and said a referral for an ASD assessment seems like the best route to take, from there they had to complete 2 terms worth of in school assessments, her teacher started noticing some of her anxieties, social queues, food issues etc, so now i have to wait until closer to christmas until their assessments are done, update my own referral pack and hand it in to them and then all this can be sent off to CAHMS. Then its onto the waiting list. While all this is going on i had my sister tell me she thinks i might be autistic too, and one of my close friends (whos husband is autistic) tells me she also sees traits in me. Well all this led my overactive brain into melting down over the last 6 months, i now feel like im going through a midlife crisis of who am i? do i even understand myself? has half my life been a lie? have i been masking all this time? how do i unravel all this and find the real me, how do i get back to a place where i feel content with myself. so here i am. if you made it this far you deserve a medal! all future posts will be updates on my thoughts, feelings, info dumping, a safe place to be myself and put the worries somewhere other than in my head.

[get-the-treasure]

school log #1

9-5-17

Happy last ‘first day of high school’ I’m finally a senior let’s fuck shit up.

Assembly: i came in and first went to hug taylor cause jahsbfjfaks i havent seen her all summer nd did i tear up? yeah kind of lmao i missed taylor sm what a gem. then i went by like. the squad (for memory reasons: ???? ppl on the side, jade, bean, yadi, eren, rye showed up, dalon showed up, sammy showed up, ashley showed up, might be missing someone?). eren gave me a bitching smoothie (bless ty) nd i think we all just talked like we normally would. its nice to just slip into normal conversation with people wou havent seen in what feels like forever.

Hour 3 (Homegroup): sat in hg for like 2 hours. we got some new freshman of whom i only can name 3 because i missed the others names. nd i also only kno one of the sophomores by name cause i forgot the others. maybe we should talk w maya sometime? ive seen her around a few times and she looks like shes mostly alone? we got our lockers too. sike some middle schoolers took our lockers and now we have to wait until tomorrow to figure out if we can get them b a c k. then i knocked over the smoothie eren gave me nd like a little came out but not much so um thanks god. we filled out this helping sheet thing that were going to be checked on every monday soooo better keep up on work i guess. also there was a lot of talk of grilled cheese up the ass???

Hour 1 (AP Bio): i turned in my poster board and we just went over the same rubric we went over when i signed up for the class smh. doesnt seem like itll be hard tho? sammy might have to drop it if she doesnt do her entire thing over and turn it in tomorrow and even then he might say no. so heres to hoping. also sabastion sat by our table nd honestly w h y do we have to have mutual friends i hate my life.

Hour 2 (ROPE): went over like oNLY the autobiography part of the rope packet tbh. also amy said we should know who our thesis paper advisors are but 1. i didnt even know what the thesis paper was and 2. the day ended and i still have no idea who my thesis advisor is weLL GUESS ILL SUFFER. im worried i wont have a good autobiography and that i wont be able to keep up with rope, but if i just dont goof around (lol) then it shouldnt be a  w  f  u  l. i notice a big student mood is being like ‘i want to die’ when school starts but christ its not rlly that bad? u get a normal ish sleep schedule, its easier to hang out w friends imo, and the work isnt even that hard you just have to pay attention and do it. it kind of bugs me honestly when school breathes and someones like THIS IS THE WORST THING ON EARTH FUCK SCHOOL FUCK ALL THE WORK THIS SUCKS cause its literally not that bad if you just idk. dont goof off all the time. sometimes u can goof off im sure everyone does sometimes. just. do ur work nd dont get so uppity about it. also idk if nyone will even read these but this isnt directed at anyone.

Hour 4 (English 12): our class is huge lmao. sammy and i got seats by jimmy, josselin, and ariel but i think eren wants us to get to class earlier tomorrow so we can sit together w yadi at the back of the room. but we get out of hg when peter lets us out soooo we cant rlly control when he lets us out.

Lunch: there was a lil spider where i sit so i kind of shooed him away so i could sit and i ended up cramping a lot. the worst part abt school imo is the chairs are just as hard as the floor and i have awful pelvis issues so my entire lower half starts to freeze and lock up and it hurts rlly bad getting up or shifting after sitting still for a while, so i fidget a lot and shift positions a lot so i can try and reduce the pain. nyways i played music nd sidney nd alexis sat down by us and theyre really quiet (whenever i would see them in the halls on the way to class and they had a free hour or it was lunch nd id see them they were always quiet then too) and sidney left her chapstick and i hope she remembered to grab it (i told her at the assembly at the end of the day because i forgot to grab it to give back to her). i cant rlly remember what else happened honestly??? thats of noting at least.

Hour 5 (Free): eren and i are probably going to sit in michelles room for this hour since she has chairs and 3 hours in a row on the floor is going to bust my ass so bad. eren started doing work but we ended up just talking and eating and listening to a vine comp.

Hour 6 (Free): sammy came down and we did basically the same as the previous hour but more talking and laughing. i cant remember what we talked about tho?? or nything else?? (edit: we tlaked about fucking and spanx)

Hour 7 (Government): eren sammy nd i had put our stuff down in michelles room early to save our spots (but i bet ill be the only one still at the table tomorrow because they have to go to the front) and then eren nd i left to go to the bathroom then fill sammys water bottle and by the time we came back in michelle was like ‘please arrive on time’ like 1 we were in here first nd 2 the bathroom was packed nd were supposed to go between classes i couldnt piss any faster thanks tho. we got the syllabus and an intro to the class/classroom and thank god jared isnt in this class fuckkkk. also we have to do debates like in front of the class?? no t h a nk you i hate it

Hour 8 (Advanced Drawing/Painting): we just sat around ny amy was like ‘heres what well do’ but ariel sammy nd i basically talked the entire time we all know how art works.

Assembly: a final assembly to wrap everything up with all grades together (since middle nd high had separate assemblies this morning) and i dont kno if we got any important information i think it was just things only 6th graders nd new students need to know cause we hear the same spiel every year. then i guess we all left??? 

After School: my dad picked me up and hell be picking us up every day from now on (unless like smthn comes up u kno its whatever). he didnt say anything on the ride home unlike when he and mom would both pick us up and theyd both ask a lot of questions. i thought he was angry and i ended up being right. he and my mom got into a bad argument she told me later on and now shes changing the locks so he doesnt have a key. its kind of upsetting how she said i should be civil with like whoever my parents may end up dating nd the entire family and whatnot but she (vise versa) cant even be civil with him or the rest of our family so??? nice example you set for your kids, parents. anyways my dad is also apparently switching up stuff he says like what hell pay and what theyll keep asset wise and how theyd cooperate for our sake and now hes changing what he said during court and all this mess and i feel like hes doing it to spite my mom but hes also spiting us in the process because we rely on our mom. ughhhhh this is stupid difficult to deal w id rather just not have to hear this stuff but moms always on the phone talking about anything and everything and were forced to hear. nyways lol

[fuzzytrashbird]

meow! meow! meow! meow!

i commissioned @drearyprince to write a song about my OC !!! 

they took every little idea i had and said “what if that but better” /hj 

but seriously i love everything about this!!!! wah!!!!! 

i wanna dive a bit into my own stupid thoughts for this and info about the OC so read below for that 

first of all omg i was such a FOOL with my ideas!!!!!! i knew i wanted a song about my new boy Marshall aka The Bride of Bone, but all my ideas led to a silly ending, were a bit too much, or were just BORING. 

initially, the end, where it says “Or so they say...” i wanted to be a joke thing that led into a lil gif of Marshall and Skelly (his skeleton friend) bouncing like hahaha u were led to believe this silly tale BUT MARCEL SENT ME A WIP OF THE SONG WHERE IT HAS THE CRYPTIC “Or so they say...” AND I WAS LIKE THROWING MY IDEA IN THE TRASH I LOVED EVERYTHING ABOUT IT 

along with that, at first i was gonna try to work my butt off for an animatic kind of thing with various drawings that would’ve been fairly simple for me, but then i finished this 

which was just going to be like. a reference for the characters for me to go off of for the rest of the art and i was ready to make more, but again, when Marcel sent me the WIP i was like i know what i must do. 

so i made this background

then i put them together and my brain was like. this. is. IT. ITS PERFECT.  

so i hand Marcel the art to make the video under the impression they’d just use a still image and some fading in or out so they don’t have to work too much bc i was like dw about it you don’t gotta work ur ass off THEN THEY MADE THAT BEAUTIFUL VIDEO TOO?????????? bro im not ok this is so good, y’all im sobbing 

here’s a little bit about Marshall/The Bride Of Bone, if you’re interested. 

“’On full moon nights in summer, if you wander too far into the open field, you might find The Bride of Bone. Dancing in the falling snow with death itself, you are enticed to come closer until you vanish in the snow.’ In reality, this legend known by almost everyone in the surrounding area is nothing more than that. A legend. A legend started by an 8 year old at that. Marshall, also known as the main butler at the Williams family home, and as The Bride of Bone, is a bit eccentric. Upon showing off some of his powers to the only son of the Williams family, he unintentionally started a rumor in the boy's elementary school. As the rumor spread among the children trying to scare each other and the boy told him things spiraled, he decided to help the young master. Taking up going into the field with a fake skeleton he had painted to look real, he would dance a waltz under the summer's full moons. A dance of death, as they called it. Of course, no one has truly died from his snow, but sometimes legends get out of hand.“

Marshall is my newest OC, and, as mentioned, the main butler for the Williams family home. He is also... quite a bit more than human, though not many know that. He adores the only son of the Williams family, Sebastian, and one day while Sebastian was having a bad day, Marshall tried to cheer him up. Not only did he manage that, but he made Sebastian the talk of his elementary school for a few years, before the rumor got out of hand and became a legend as time passed. Now, Marshall carries out the legend on summer’s full moons simply because he finds himself enjoying the dance and has always enjoyed winter more than summer, so being able to make it snow is a plus. 

i have yet to decide on a lot about him, but i look forward to sharing anything i come up with in the future 

here’s a casual Marshall to end the post :3 

[bleadmaxille]

I’m Getting Suspicious of the New Character~

In case you want to get into the movie “Sonic the Hedgehog 2″ blind to some extent, I’ll put this ramble under a “Read More” since it includes a new clip from the movie!

Note: I am unsure of his name so I will keep referring to him as “the new character” for safety.

First off, when I saw that there would be another actor/character added into the human cast, I didn’t think too much of it- most of my brain thought they just needed someone to fill in the role of Rachel’s partner since she happens to get married in the movie.

.... but that small part of me thought 

“Actually wait, the Sonic Movie Team aren’t the type to ‘add things just because ‘why not’’ ” 

since I genuinely think the Sonic Cinematic Universe aka. SCU is quite meticulously made with careful planning and careful decisions, whether those details are explicit or blending into the background.

Thus, with that in mind, I decided to wait for more announcements/clips/trailers that could give more info, I couldn’t help but think there’s more to him than just “Rachel’s future husband.”

And then the official Sonic Movie Twitter account dropped new posters! They look neat! and side note: THEY GAVE DONUT LORD, PRETZEL LADY, AGENT STONE AND EVEN RACHEL THEIR OWN POSTERS?!?! RESPECT, SONIC MOVIE TEAM, YOU HAVE MY RESPECT just an fyi, I adore the human characters in the SCU so this made me happy!

and then I saw the new character get a poster of his own as well.

My first reaction was 

“Oh neat! They didn’t leave him out~! Although personally I would have liked a liiitle bit of a clip in some tv spot or trailer for `Crazy Carl or Wade Whipple or~”

and then I stopped myself. Because I started thinking 

“... WAIT, HE HAS A BIG ENOUGH ROLE TO HAVE A POSTER ALONGSIDE PEOPLE LIKE TOM AND MADDIE AND AGENT STONE?”

It FELT like a big deal to me (and it still does now!) because I originally thought he has a very minor role, similar to Crazy Carl, Wade Whipple, Rachel’s daughter Jojo (but don’t get me wrong, I am more than down for those minor characters to appear too). I believed so hard he was just needed to make the background more full- BUT NO NO NO, IM STARTING TO BELIEVE HE HAS A BIGGER PURPOSE CUZ THE SCU TEAM SEEM TO BE PRETTY PARTICULAR ABOUT DETAIL, NGL

But then that leads to the question

“If he DOES have a bigger role to fill, what IS that role?”

SO SO at this point, new character is officially in my sights due to my brain going hyperdrive over what he could add to the table. Unfortunately, his solo poster itself is not enough for me to get a feel of what his personality/motives could possibly be, so I decided to look out for more content

.... WHICH FORTUNATELY WASNT TOO LONG! Because as of the time I scrolled through the #sonic movie tag here on Tumblr (literally a bit before I started typing this ramble), I discovered that Donut Lord’s actor, aka. James Marsden, was interviewed and during said interview there was a revealed clip! I found it intriguing because I don’t think we got a Tom-centered or human-character centered clip from the movie that doesn’t include Robotnik or Agent Stone or even Sonic! Plus it ALSO happens to feature solely in the venue for Rachel’s wedding, which I think we only saw glimpses of in other and bigger trailers and teasers.

So in the clip, it takes place in (what I’m almost completely sure is) the venue for Rachel’s wedding. It starts off with the new character talking with Tom and telling Tom that “seriously bro, you got some work to do” with Rachel, meaning he is aware of Rachel’s distaste of Tom. And then Rachel and Maddie stand up and join their lovers’ sides, with Rachel telling Tom she is GLAD he is with them for the wedding (cough cough LIAR cough) and that she OFFERS TO “Bury the hatchet” with Tom, aka. become more friendly with each other (cough cough SOUNDS LIKE A LIE). Buuut then cue Rachel “hugging” Tom and then whispering to his ear that if he ruins her ending she “will end him.” AND TOM IS VISIBLY NOT OK WITH THAT.

What I wanna to mention here from this clip is that, while its solely based on my own judgment, the new character feels .... sketchy to me. I’m not entirely sure yet, to be honest, but he just feels ... off.

As in, “this guy’s gotta have some bigger role or hidden motives” type of off.

I could definitely be overthinking this, but my brain thinks he’s sounding “salty” or “tense” while talking to Tom, like he has something against him.

Admittedly, I don’t really have much to go off on XD so this ramble is simply me ranting over what is nothing but speculation at the moment.

So yes, I will have to wait and watch the movie to make any more judgements since we technically already got the “final” trailer for it (understandably because it is VERY near to the movie’s theatrical release.)

At the meantime, what do YOU guys think about him and what are your predictions? Will he just be a minor character filling in the background or have a bigger role to play? Maybe even offer a shock/surprise element? 

(Maybe even .... have a secret motive related to a notable group of people, like, lets say, G.U.N.?!)

BUT AGAIN, just speculation HAHAHAH alright take care and thanks for reading! IM SO EXCITED FOR THE MOVIE~

[thesnakeoutsider]

We made a HUGE project. I mean we even make a f dam short movie about this. This is the level of inspiration that Glitch gives to us. We started in November… the time really fly’s . And all the artist that come to this with us are amazing, but I need to said that this project would exist without two of them.

Liz helped me sooo much with ideas, corrections and company this months.

@rainidot helped my with toons of art when I was drowning in the “we don’t have ghost art!” Crisis.

Both of them watch me cry and go dead for a lot of irl reasons and stayed. Plus they keep me going in the brain riot. Screaming and plotting with me, enjoining the story that brings us together.

Im really grateful to have them in my life now. Is kinda a funny story cuz I maybe pick up Liz and the ‘tsim took us form 0 to 100 but… Rain come to my life kicking the door down when I wasn’t expecting anyone to be there. And talk to me like if she was there since the beginning of the times.

We are soo different but still we find each other thanks to @scientificallywrongsoap and here we are. And I believe that we still have a lot of time together in the future.

And I hope that we can still make projects like this. Or even bigger now that they know my other friends and we prove that create together is always the best way to do it.

Now I’m gonna leave here. My fav “files” of The Glitch Project.

This one is the Subject 7-1 page. I have soo much ideas for him cuz he is one of my favs, and hunting his info was fun. I rewatched all his playlist again. We cross reference stuff and drawing the little notes in the notebook was my fav part. I have a soft spot for diaries and drawings in them. Plus the blood effect? Proud of myself for that.

My second fav is the page for “The Glitch” I know that he was at first like Subject 7-1 says “a copy of a copy” and OC of Sunny Day Jack, but I believe that his existence is one of the reasons that I fall even more for Glitch’s stories. I watched a reflection of a lot of my creative process. And a he throw a hard rock to my head with a few stuff that I will not share.

But there’s a video where he materialize with Jack the circle of creation. And finally I could put a representation to the feel that I have in the inside for a long time.

And I wanted that to be part of his file. So I created this. The figure in the center is … the transcript of the videos where he comes to the stage and starts to shine.

The little art with the flowers is the one I did when he become Biblical Accurate König, I remember that I wanted to give him something to remember. And the forget me no are the best flowers for that, those flowers are actually present in a lot of my art. And the sketches in the notebook are my actual sketches! Except for the sun stiker that one is from Darling Doe. Really one of my favs.

And last but not least, The Smith and Zed pages, cuz the hell I remember how to use green runes! And I’m just in love of those two I mean i always belive that my first fic form the Glitchverse will be about Swagger -cuz I’m swagger coded- or Subject 7-1 but no it was them. The Smith and Zed, the monster I will become when I have time to write more about those too.

And that’s it. Bye

Do you know that feeling when you see a project start, you participate in its development, you get to know and spend time with people, you have fun and a little bit of stress working on it and once it's done you feel kinda weird.

You're happy, because of the good memories, because of the people you worked with, because "It's complete! Hurray!".

And yet... You're kinda sad, because it's finally over. It's done. You're done.

But still, you're happy. Because you know there's always something new that might come along.

[flokali]

as a person who doesnt care much for ei [tho i havent done her story quest yet !! so im not working w all the info] from the archon quest my main impression of her was her cowardice, so tbh hearing ur takes on her is super interesting !! and its lowkey making me like her more lol -💉

(Here’s the link to the OG ask btw)

Syringe my beloved! Ah, yes, my Ei is the best character agenda is spreading well I see >_< I definitely recommend her second story quest because it was just… chefs kiss! Amazing! Under the cut because it got long, again…

Like, I cannot talk enough about how amazing she is to me as a character! She’s so complex and seeing her evolve from the Archon Quest to her second Story Quest was so fun and I’m really hoping we see more of Ei and her development in the future even as we advance towards other nations. I’d dare to say I enjoy her over Zhongli and Venti for the sole reason there’s so much development, like, don’t get me wrong - I love both of them but Ei is just so special to me; I loved her first SQ but the second one definitely put things into perspective.

Personally, her first story quest was just so sad, imagine working your whole life towards a goal and being so caught up on the end result you never get to experience life and the less, how can I say… other fruit of labor? A lot of time when we work towards one goal we can unknowingly allow for other opportunities and experiences to flourish alongside.

I think she’s a really relatable character in the sense we often times end up too caught up within ourselves and our own whims to appreciate what’s around us, especially when we think of an idealized past, you know? A lot of Ei’s character lies in the romanticization of the past, which is what lead to a lot of her poor decision making - which is awfully human if you think about it.

In many ways, she was definitely a coward - a lot of her ignorance felt purposeful, like she herself was setting herself up to not know what was going on outside in fear of being hurt again, if you think about it; she was quite literally in her own mind in a constant state of meditation, to me it read as a coping method to try and ignore the world around her, much like one can daydream during hard situations to try and form an escape (this is more in reference to when you do so purposefully and knowingly). But there was also a lot of strength in her decision to face Inazuma, she could have perfectly allowed herself to turn the traveler down and go back to her old ways, but instead she opted to try out the mundanity of life and see how things have evolved - albeit for the better or for worse.

I won’t say much about her second SQ but it definitely helps shape her in a more cohesive way!

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I'm an editor in need of an agent opinion pls! Im new to acquiring - 1.5 years. After rejecting once, most agents never talk to me again, not even to say thx for feedback. My 9 sales are on 1st subs from that person or repeats. I respond within a week if its a clear no and <1 month if its a maybe and I illustrate why it wasnt a fit each time. I realize it may be *what* Im saying/how- but is responding quick/giving 2-3 paragraphs feedback a fauxpas? Is there some etiquette agents expect?

You sound like a ding-danged UNICORN, hon! A WEEK for a no is great, and feedback on a maybe is wonderful. THANK YOU, from all agents, and I'm very sorry if they aren't saying it themselves.

For the declines, like if you want the agent to send you more (but different) things, you can keep the conversation going -- So something like, "This isn't a fit for me, I'm not taking on Picture Book biographies because my colleague so-and-so does so many of those, BUT, I'd love to see XYZ if you happen to have anything like that! I'm attaching my most updated wishlist for your reference and I'd love to set up a call!" This might not always work (sometimes we see "no" and just file it away under "no") -- but at least you should make some more Agent Buddies that way.

As for feedback - I'm NOT SAYING that you do this!!! But I have had the experience a few times where editors -- particularly brilliant young editors in their first couple of years of acquiring -- give feedback with like... Too Much Info, in a way that can be very off-putting.**

For example: I send a MG contemporary. Editor spends two paragraphs in response telling me why it will never sell. "This feels didactic, the characters are flat, nothing happens, I'm not sure why this book was written, it is doing nothing new, it does not distinguish itself and won't sell in this market."

Um... wow. I didn't ask, and yes it will? The problem here is two-fold - the editor is leading with their ego, acting like their opinions are facts. Additionally, they are insulting not just my author and their writing, but also ME and my taste. Not inspiring!

A better way to approach this is to be positive, say something kind, and make the reason for the decline clearly a YOU thing, rather than a "this sucks" thing. Like, "There's a great voice here and I get why you are so fond of this. I did love the premise, but for me the execution felt a little muddled. I found myself getting confused and distracted in the middle there. Ultimately, when I'm on the fence I've realized that I just have to say no, so I'm afraid it has to be a pass, but thanks so much for sending, can't wait to connect with you on something in the future, etc. etc" . . . [Again, I'm not saying that's your problem - but MAYBE that's a BIT of your problem?]

Basically, if you know it is going to be a no regardless, I don't think you need to feel pressure to give a ton of feedback about all the things that are "wrong" with it. At the end of the day, it just wasn't a fit for you, so save yourself the trouble. BUT, if you think that your feedback could potentially legit take this from a "maybe" to a "YES" -- then ask if they want to potentially do an R&R, and THEN spend the time giving them all your wonderful thoughts.

I have no idea if that's helpful but anyway. (Reveal yourself to me in email and I promise I'll write back! :D )

** (And yes, the brilliant young editors generally DO grow out of this and get better 'bedside manner', I think when they are around a bit longer and realize that sometimes they are just WRONG. Like, OK, you turned down this manuscript and said it would never sell and it ended up getting a bunch of starred reviews and awards and now the author is famous.... um.... LOL.)

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annoying revali anon again... im sorry but I want to ask more, your post about link's age was really thoughtful, even though most of the info is in the game I didn't think about it and I never saw other people talk about it (even if so many people are always aking guesses about link's age!) so I want to ask, do you know Revali and Sidon's age too... please and thanks...

Ok, Sidon is easy but Revali is a tough one! And I don’t have the time to source properly. I’ve actually been writing a post about the ages of all the relevant BOTW characters (that’s why I had this info at hand for that other Link post too!) but adding quotes, screenshots, etc. takes a lot of time.

So here is a very informal answer until I manage to compile everything:

- Adult Sidon is, canonically, older than 100 (obviously XD) but younger than 130, I estimate around 110ish since we know he’s much younger than Rivan (who’s over 130). Sidon is also canonically considered more on the “young adult Zora” side than on the “middle aged Zora” side (for comparison, Bazz and Gaddison are confirmed middle aged). Zora a bit younger than 100 are more or less already considered adults or late teens (like Dunma) so Sidon might had been an adult for a while. I hope this made sense lol.

Regarding the current twitter drama: Zora mature in a very different way, much slower in general, and not necessarily perfectly proportionally slower than the other races. You can’t equate Zora age to Hylians, don’t ask “would that make Sidon around 23 in human age” that makes no sense... he’s a +100 young adult by Zora standards because he’s a Zora.

- Revali’s most likely just barely an adult, and somewhere around the same age as Link (17-19). For reference, this is everything I had to say about Link’s age / LINK /. Anyway back to Ravioli Pasta Boy, we can only make a good guess about him being around that awkward age between teen and adult. I’ll try to explain as short as possible:

- I’ll start saying that, unlike the case of the Zora, Rito age and life expectancy are the same as for Hylians. We can infer this from Revali’s own dialogue in the Champion’s Ballad, as well as from Creating a Champion. The book also tells us that Kass is considerably older than Teba, but we have nothing to compare them to Revali, that I have found. While the Zora talk a lot about their age (since it’s relevant to Link’s past and his old bonds with them) we have no numbers to compare for the Rito, sorry. STILL, go on and read:

- Revali uses “boku” to refer to himself in Japanese. It would be very awkward for anyone other than a male child/teen to use “boku”. An adult man would use boku in some settings, not in the way Revali does in my opinion (I explain why on this other post) but some people disagree... so I won’t say this is conclusive evidence on it’s own BUT I can stack this hint with the next few ones:

- Urbosa's Diary: “Revali is of the youngest Rito generation” (the diary has different wording in the different localizations but ultimately says that).

- Urbosa’s diary putting Zelda, Link, Revali and Mipha in the same age group (yes, Mipha too, don’t ask me I didn’t write this game lol)

- Revali’s considerably shorter than the other Rito adults (and I’m not even talking about Teba who is actually taller than the other Rito men).

- Other more speculative hints: 

- Revali still has the same face markings as the Rito children. It might be just a design choice but why not mention it. A lot of the stuff in this game is very deliberate, so yeah.

- Revali’s emotional immaturity; 

- The fact that he was designed to be Link’s rival (stated in Creating a Champion); 

- The fact he didn’t have any descendancy, unlike Urbosa or Daruk, even though he loves his homeland and his people so much, he gets along with children, and all he ever wanted was to see the Rito thrive. One would think, he didn’t have the time to have a family :(

- The age gap between Revali and Teba matching the trend of the other co-pilots in which one is an older adult (Urbosa, Daruk, Teba and Sidon) and the other a youngster (Riju, Yunobo, Revali and Mipha). Creating a Champion says Yunobo is “a young adult Goron still growing” and I think all of us can see how that’s very possibly the same case with Link, Revali and Mipha.

- Creating a Champion also highlights how adult/big/confident Teba is that he isn’t bothered at all by criticism, being mostly aware of his own shortcomings, feeling no shame and just working hard. A big contrast with Revali, who while being just as hard working, is a bit of a bratty kid and an overachiever who hates being caught in what he considers “a moment of weakness” (a moment of shame). So, again, deliberate decisions while designing the characters.

I might be missing something big but that’s all for now! I’m confident most of the facts are correct (please notice that I mentioned when I make estimations and when I speculate, versus when I’m giving actual canon data and quoting!). Again, I haven’t put together all my sources yet, the quotes are from memory an paraphrased, double-check before quoting me on this ;D

Also! Do what you want with this info, make your own conclusions. Link and Sidon’s age frames are a bit more restrictive and Zelda literally turned 17 the day of the Calamity (I think the only character with her age set in stone lol), but otherwise the game and book would be like “eh, Riju was designed to look around 12 but Gerudo mature faster... Paya was designed to be around Link’s age, between 18-20... Purah is, uh, 120, kinda......... Link found the Master Sword when he was 12 or 13, maybe........¿¿?...?” like, what do you mean, does Link not fcking remember if he got the sword when he was 12 or 15 lmao!!!! Assholes!!! XD  

So like, yeah ahahahha. You think Revali is 17? The game says Sure Why Not. You say Revali’s 24 and a short king? Perfectly possible too honestly. We stan short King Revali, wow much sass in such smol birb. Big bow go brrrr

Last thing about Teba and Revali because I wanted the Age of Calamity SPOILERSSS at the end: 

 - In Age of Calamity *SPOILERSSS*  Teba’s dad instincts kick in on a couple of occasions... there are many battle combos I haven’t seen yet, but at least once Teba goes to Revali to give some emotional support (in the battle before the last, I think); in another occasion to help him speak his true feelings (as in literally voicing them in Revali’s stead because Teba is that blunt and Revali is... you know, like he is.) As it happens between the other co-pilots, the older one often reassures the younger one (Mipha and Sidon still have an older sister/younger brother dynamic even if Sidon came from the future and is now literally older than her lol so the rule still applies! XD). So again, I feel like the age difference between Teba and Revali is noticeable, even though Teba is still a young dad himself... but I honestly feel that if someone wanted to say both Revali and Teba are like, 25, no one could tell them that the canon says otherwise XD