#im really normal about moirails

[eridan-ampora]

i love it when characters are codependent. i love it when losing someone feels like losing a limb. i love it when two people "complete" each other so wholly and terribly that one can barely function without the other. i love it when the fear of losing the only person who understands them is so all-consuming they'll destroy anything to stay together, including themselves.

[waitineedaname]

Sorry to bring up homestuck, but Bingqui just gives me giant pale vibes. Imagining the gentle intimacy of Shen Qingqui tenderly patting Binghe’s face in a blanket pile until he calms down!!!!! And Cuddling!!! Also maybe involuntary purring too just because!

do NOT apologize for bringing up homestuck quadrants, those are the best things to come out of homestuck. palerom bingqiu is SO GOOD!!! especially since part of a moirallegiance for trolls is often like. sometimes about keeping someone from being a threat to society sdlkfjsdlkfj imagining them cuddling and purring in a blanket pile is making me ACHE, i love them so much

[davekat-sucks]

I defo do think Equius is a weirdo, thats kind of the point of his character I think. He was written as a joke character. but i mean if we look past that I feel like Equius is probably one of the best candidates for a character displaying signs of autism?

I mean the guy has some really niche and strange hyperfixations on horses, musculature, etc. He has a very specific way of speaking that others might find strange. and he looks to the hemospectrum for rules / guidance whereas he may struggle with common sense.

I feel like it is obvious if considered more but he does care about people in lower castes than him, its just that how he was raised / his ignorance influences alot of his behavior. but i truly genuinely believe if he was taught differently or given a chance hed have a lot of potential to end up a very kind character.

i mean people forget it but equius hasnt killed a single character in homestuck. but characters like gamzee or vriska who HAVE killed people and are arguably more "problematic" are much more liked. why? i think its just because they are considered traditionally more attractive / likable.

meanwhile equius is the weirdo autistic who sweats, has a freakish disability (being so strong he can not pick up or interact with certain items) , and hyperfixations a bunch of people consider weird. literally the majority of people in the hs universe consider equius super weird.

IDK its just some thoughts i have if u wanna add on im happy to hear it. i just think people make him out so much worse than he really is like. yea he does have problems but god in comparison to alot of other characters he genuinely is not that bad.

the aradiabot thing was defo fucked up too im not gonna deny that , but at the very least his reaction i feel like is something to consider. he seems shocked she doesnt like it, offers that he can take it out, etc. like its still fucked up n i think there should be consequences, but i think it goes to show that he is willing to change if people would give him the chance and if he was taught.

The trolls' customs and cultures are meant to show how they are horny fucked up alien teenagers. Child soldiers, child labor, thinking murder is always justified (moreso if you are part of the upperclass), etc. Equius would be one of the examples shown of how awful Alternia is. And I think Equius is interesting in his own right. Part of the reason he isn't up as high on problematic like Gamzee, Vriska, Eridan, or even his own Dancestor Horuss, is because he is moirails with Nepeta and people think it's wholesome. He can only be seen as normal if he's with her. Without it, people fall the assumption is he gross and weird and not going in depth of his character as an individual. There's implications that Equius was different before Nepeta became his moirail and I would like to see that side. Did he act more wild due to his uncontrolled strength? Does he act a bit more on his sexual desires? Can he learn to better himself if Nepeta is not there to guide him? His fetish is that despite thinking he should be treating lowbloods lesser as a highblood, he gets horny at the thought of said lowbloods trying to put him in his place. It's shown a bit most obviously when Gamzee killed Equius as he smiled like he's turned on. If he didn't get turned on, he could have stopped Gamzee. But he let his sexual desire get the better of him. It was something he struggles to control, even with Nepeta as his moirail. The uncontrollable sexual desires is displayed at its worst with Horuss, as he is more open about his kinks and practices them with Rufioh. The latter troll though having trouble to break up with him. I think Equius was suppose to learn that he can't act this kind of degenerate in serious times or treat others like that.

[atechnobladeapologist]

Paralels between Emerald duo and Codebreakers (canons and headcanons).

First of all they are my favorites character, I cannot even put in words how much I like them, my brain is gonna rot.

Personally I dont like to see the relationship that Phil have with them as something pathernal, but more as something close to the idea of the Moiral quadrant that we had on homestuck.

For you who saved your ass and stayed farrr away from this webcomic (just joking dont take that part too serious), Moirail basicly are besties that has a strings and specials bond, Moirail it’s that person who you feel safe to open up and talk about problems and feelings. That’s it if I dont mistaken me, omg my memorie is so poor, but look if Im wrong this is still the concept that Im looking for okay :c

Based on it, we should normalize kiss your best- COF COF, I mean, normalize writing an open love letter to your best friend in a pretty platonic way (Im not being ironic).

In short, they are best friends, bros, buddys.

Yeh I talk too much, too much, lesgo then.

The totem thing. I like to think Philza is pretty concerned with the boys, because Techno and Elotes are almost two ambulant suicidals just because of the totens, yet Phil is just like omggg sit down and stay quiet just for two entire minutes. I imagine Phil have constantly to bandage and sew up their wounds, SPECIALLY with Etoiles, that French Beast thing and his way of looking at thing intensifies this a lot.

I have a really strong headcanon that in both codebreakers and emerald duo Techno and Etoiles have a very strong relationship with Mumza because of the times they almost died (a pretty fun relationship btw, I bet she gives advices and philosophizes about life with them), at the point they know her even BEFORE know Philza or as long as they know him, and all this often without Philza even knowing, and when he descovers he goes like: WHAT?!

Even though Philza doesnt look physically as strong as them (I like to think he is, for real) the two still admire the man as if he were a super cool older friend, and besides none of them show it to Phil or tell him, they both are like: LOOK that cool guy is MY FRIEND, how cool, isnt it?

Headcanon, the warriors already cried in front him.

I know that Techno is pretty concerned about his reputation in a certain way but I really like to pass this to Etoiles too, Imagine a moment where they are showing friendly affection for eachother with a hug or something, and out of nowhere they break up and Etoiles says, “man, I’m enjoying this but it hurts my reputation”, even when theres NO ONE close to see it, they’re just so out of touch they have ashamed of it, in the most fluffy way you can imagine that, it’s pretty funny imagine beasts, unshakable warriors that just cant deal with a hug of their best friend.

Techno hear voices, Etoiles get the paranoid <3

They have wavy and curly hair and sometimes Phil helps them to finish their hair, for techno he usually braid his all hair and for Etoiles he do a tiny terere on the side. Philza encourage both to take more care of their hair because he likes the curls and waves.

Techno and Etoiles have completly unexpected hobbies, I like to think that tech know how to sew and he have a whole sketchbook just for crosquis and Etoiles constantly draw and makes small wood sculptures, cute things because he usually gives to Pomme. We can invert this too btw, I think it matchs with both!

Despite Phil’s warnings they simply refuse to have a healthy sleep schedule.

If it was necessary they would sacrifice themselfs for keep the oldman safe.

I didn’t talk much about Phil :c but I was trying to do something more focused on Tecchnoblade and Etoiles in the relationship with him ya know? Maybe another time I’ll do something for our blondie girlie pop.

I truly like how those duos are simillary with eachother even when one of them are different people. Btw codebreakers should be more contrast on the fandom hihi.

Just to remember English is not my mother language so sorry for the poor words choose.

[sadevergreen]

as a camp counselor (technically not currently bc i went home for Illness) and homestuck fan (also technically not currently bc I'm too busy being a camp counselor) i love camp skaia. which homestuck characters are most likely to be the "we're ALL sick there's no reason you can't do the hike up the hill" (has mild cold and vague heatsickness at worst) counselor x "actual lung infection but thinks it's a really normal cold" (very easily gaslit) counselor program group pair? i feel like eridan and kanaya are hot contenders here

ooo ok this is so good- apologies for the ever loving hell that you are about to see but i sought assistance from my dear dear pale friend @marv3l-drag0ns !!!!!!!! MUAH PLATONICALLLY <> ILY they were a huge help in putting this together

BOY DO I HAVE A LOT TO SAY ON THIS, THIS WAS EXTREMELY FUN :D

so let’s begin: my immediate instinct was kanaya and tavros are the most easily gaslit, or adhere most to given direction (we’re not going to talk about HIM). but then who to pair them with? they are both wet cats that won’t work. we decided that YES kanaya and eridan definitely make sense! but in which role? it may seem obvious but NO! eridan too sick? whiny fussy pitiful sopping kitty he’s just a beanbag full of milk! so we decided barely sick eridan, otherwise he’d be throwing a fit. instead he’s referring to his Superior Genes! and kanaya is. strugglin. but fuck man here we are 🤷‍♂️

But we’re not done yet!

the next we considered was karkat and terezi!! especially aided through the lens of karkat’s old crush on terezi; he’s too whipped and in denial to deny a girl a hand!

this led to possibly the funniest thing ever: THE INNER KANKRI THAT EVERYONE HAS AND HE SITS ON YOUR SHOULDER AND REMINDS YOU TO BE DECENT AND LEAVE ROOM FOR KANKRI

for the bigger drawings i capped it off with a good ol favorite of mine; erifef. why did i like them? man idek anymore but it worked really well with the idea of eridan being the sicker one, but being ok such thin ice over his constant whining that he just has to go along with it we just though it was funny hehe. it can be viewed through any lens! snippy or non, s’all good here! it’s all canon.

what is he was sick and he couldn’t whine 🥺 what is he was sick and he wasn’t allowed even a snivle about it 🥺 not a snort 🥺 or a sob 🥺 he’s so pathetic !!!! besides, he can’t be out paced by some fuckin kids!!!! HES A GROWN ADULT 16-18 Y/O CAMP COUNSELOR GODDAMNIT!!

MARVEL: “Feferi: ah yes your sickness you have a functioning immune system and are the most dramatic guy on planet earth (only one of those statements is true)” which statement? :) yeah

she doesn’t believe him anymore <333

Ok and that is it for full line art doodles, but!!! i couldn’t resist drawing some more pairs we pondered

ERIDAN AND KARKAT: omfg so good!! but they would 100% either both be tooooo sick and dead, or they would both be mostly fine

VRISKA AND TAVROS: no. and you know why we’re not doing this one :,( we all instantly knew this one would be here but we are choosing to ignore it im favor of…

TAVROS AND KARKAT: Marvel proposed it and it was very interesting!! i think similar to eridan and karkat, where they’re both dead or both barely sick. no i’m between. aggressive yet positive motivation (?) for the win!!! they further proposed that karkat “eats dirt for a living and doesn’t get sick very often”

Overall this was really fun to put together and answer, and i had a blast getting to colab with a mutual along the way :3 so thank you anon and thank you marvel!! this does bring me to something i’ve been meaning to say,,.,,,

@marv3l-drag0ns ,,? we’ve been friends forever, you know my dogs middle name, we complete each other in a way no one else can! you stop me from eating bones i find on the road, and i stop you from ascending to godtier to avoid going to exams…,…

would you be my

Moirail? <>

anyways! that’s all for now <3 this was so fun :) please send in more asks/ requests like this if you ever think of any more! i definitely feel for the camp counselor piece cause that was me earlier this summer PFF and all the counselors got sick and passed something around (but hey! it was an excuse to sit away from 7 y/olds for a few minutes while i got tea for my sore throat)

[relaxxattack]

hello! i am here because im very much a quadranT enThusiasT. im curious: have you heard of alTerous aTTracTion? To me iT seems preTTy pale and id like To hear whaT you Think :]

i have heard of that! to me alterous attraction is very similar to queerplatonic attraction in that it's an intentionally queer nebulous thing that hang out outside of actual defined boundaries.

i don't think that moirallegiance is actually queer or outside of any social boundaries for trolls... it's just a regular old, government mandated or biologically mandated, normative relationship.

moirallegiance is something normal for trolls that they feel a romantic impulse for. it's a separate branch off from their romance, the same way blackrom is-- but i never see people jumping to describe kismeses as qpps. simply because humans are better at understanding something is "real" romance when they explicitly have sex lol -_-

moirallegiance is still a strong romantic feeling for a troll even though they don't have sex, basically.

however.... i can run myself into the ground talking about this over and over, and it won't change the fact that for (most) humans, moirallegiance is something alterous or platonic! and in the end that's okay. relationships, sexuality and romance can't easily be defined or have boundaries put on it no matter how much explaining someone does.

yeah, maybe for humans having a moirail WOULD feel like a strange alterous middleground between platonic and romantic, because a moirallegiance has elements from human platonic friendship and romantic partnership. maybe for some people it would be exactly like a qpp even! the thing is relationships are dependent on the people in them, and different for every single person.

so really there's no use for me trying to explain why moirails are different than qpps or anything, because for most humans, they're probably not. and maybe at the end of the day that's fine and i shouldn't be wasting that much energy anyway lol ^^;

although, no matter how much i try i can't not be annoyed when people equate moirallegiance to platonic best friendship. it's dumb and nerdy of me but like come on, multiple trolls in the comic have said otherwise... T^T

[lolliepops-rox]

new season of RnM made me remember I created Homestuck themed rick OCs partly as a joke but I was never brave enough to post them so here they are now

K-612

Rick 'Rickrd' K-612 is gold blood who made portal tech as to not get helmed. He's got psi to nearly rival the Captors in terms of power. Once off Alterina he drops the last two letters of his name because "fuck the alteRnian naming conventionss! im tRoll Ricckk!!!!!!"

K-612 Mortie is the troll Rick's lusus took in after Rick left, but he isn't Rick's descendant or anything like that. He's more lime than gold, and has weak telekinetic psi without any crazy eyes to go with. I don't have a visual design for him sorry but hopefully I'll make one in future.

When Rick found out about SGRUB he stopped home one last time before that universe got destroyed because Rick is a sentimental bastard. He took Mortie with him on impulse. He developed an even bigger god complex after learning about SGRUB cause trolls made humans. Rick is a Derse Lord of Doom, and Mortie is a Prospit Muse of Blood.

Rick & Mortie are the most toxic moirails ever. They balance each other out sure, but they also actively make each other and everything else worse so no body wins.

K-413

K-413 is a mostly normal Rick, but he read Homestuck and gained it as a special interest, so he hates himself a little more than the average Rick. K-413 Morty wears Dave glasses, he also read Homestuck, but he started at act 5 and has never read intermission 1.

Rick: You can't just, skip whole acts of Homestuck! You're missing important parts of the story!

Morty: I don't really care Rick. Enough of my own life is already stupid scifi bullshit.

Rick: The intermission is hardly SciFi.

Morty: I don't fucking care Rick.

There is also Rick K-1111, aka Cherub Rick, Morty would obvi be his body pair. There is not art for this one just accept it and move on.

also here is a close up of their sign

[fefairys]

saw karkat refer to equius as nepetas "best friend" and like i know it is just because quadrants habent been introduced as a concept yet so of course that is the word that would be used, but it made me think about the other times the term "best friend" has been used

"best friend" seems like a pretty high up title for trolls, yknow? you gotta really trust someone to consider them ur best friend, right? like almost moirail levels of trust. like the term "best friend" could almost practically means the same thing for the pale quadrant as "boyfriend" for the red. ("boyfriend" is used later by vriska about sollux being aradia's boyfriend, and thinking about it, they are probably coded to be in an ongoing red relationship... i will talk about this later when it comes up in my read with his relationship with feferi)

so gamzee refers to karkat as his best friend, and he also refers to sollux as karkat's best friend. i wonder if maybe the pale quadrant isnt always necessarily viewed as exclusive, even normally? i mean i feel like karkat is just polyamorous like thats how i read him in general but like maybe it is normal in society to have more than one moirail? but other evidence seems to maybe imply that this is not the case, the way we see moirallegiance handled with eridan and feferi. i just feel like it would make sense if it were not necessarily always meant to be an exclusive quadrant. like it is not so big of a deal if someone else performs "moirail duties" on someone elses moirail, or for someone to have more than one person they call their moirail.

but. then. that is just how i feel about romance in general in real life also lol. anyways.

im high. back to reading.

[rhyme-draws-stuff]

Fantrolls introduction + Artdump

I made these guys all the way back in October 2023, when I was a bit less than halfway through the comic. They were originally made for a roleplay server but I got too burnt out from school to actually join, and my anxiety was acting up. They're moirails, and wear each other's colors to show that :D

✨a bunch more art and rambling below cut!✨

Name: Iridia Rimian Pronouns: she/they Gender: demigirl Age: 8 sweeps Height: 5'4 Blood: Teal Classpect: Maid of Heart Derse Dreamer

Iridia's the first fantroll I've ever made, she's not exactly supposed to be a trollsona but she kind of started out that way and I did pour all of the anxieties I had at the time into her when I created her, and also gave her my love of cardigans and drawing, her outfit is modeled after one of mine, and we have the same pronouns. So we have some similarities!

Iridia is incredibly scared of the future, she's constantly burnt out and all she wants to do is stay home and draw forever. She struggles to make meaningful connections with people, and is pretty sure she won't live longer than 10 sweeps. Luckily she's not completely alone in the world, she has her moirail and her lussus!

Typing quirk example:

Your Trolltag is iridescentMelody, and you … pause a lot because . you can.t always . think of the right words … … and sometimes you trail off and forget …

… what you were going to say . … you don.t have any variety to your . punctuation . so you have a collection of emoticons to . convey expressions with .^. ^.^   .-.   .^.   .0.   .u.   .o.   .v.   ._.   .~.  .'.  .×. … … … and … … … … … … when you.re … overwhelmed … talking gets … even harder … … … … and you may use just ._. emoticons to express .~. your feelings .×. … but at other times you can be . a bit long winded . you want to make sure that you.re understood correctly . and all of your points . get conveyed .

Name: Galani Darmor Pronouns: alright with any, but especially likes he/her (specifically in those tenses), ae/aer, and shine/shines Gender: Hero Age: 8.3 sweeps Height: 4'5 Blood: Violet Classpect: Knight of Hope Prospit Dreamer

I made Galani because I realized that Iridia would simply not survive alone in the world, and then as I fleshed aer out to contrast to her I got really attached. A lot of parts of her are also inspired by parts of myself! But maybe a bit less

her deal is basically that he has a huge hero complex. He carries herself with a lot of confidence, which he mostly feels, but he gets very upset if he doesn't feel he's living up to the standard of being "heroic" that he's set up for herself.

Galani can get pretty in shines head about issues of morality.

Typing quirk example:

Your Trolltag is mechaHero, and ✨you talk with a lot of ENTHUSIASM and EMPHASIS!✨ ✨and you like to let people know when you APPROVE 👍 or DISAPPROVE 👎✨

✨if you-were-to-get DISTRESSED you would-start-to-talk MUCH FASTER which-thankfully-never happens because HEROES DONT GET DISTRESSED 👎👎👎✨

Here's some more art of both of them!

This is one of the first Iridia concept arts I made, ft. her lussus!

Here's some early Galani concepts, and me realizing he should be short actually.

sketches of them together!

Pixels arts of them being adorable and in love :D

Also, here's a little chatlog I wrote for them, in their typing quirks:

MH: ✨ hey IRIDIA! 👍✨

MH: ✨ how was WORK today? ✨

IM: … hello . galani ^.^...

IM: … it was . fine …

IM: … mostly -.-

MH: ✨ something happen? 👎✨

IM: … i mean . not really …

IM: … i don.t know ….

IM: … i don't know how . to explain . it was . pretty normal …

IM: … which . might be part of the problem -.-

IM: … but . i think i.d rather talk about something . else …

MH: ✨OK! 👍✨

MH: ✨ want to hear about MECH FIGHTS? ✨

IM: … okay . sure .^.

[undead-clown]

Hey guys whats up anywyss vent undercut

I wanna fucking kms im having such a bad night becuase im just so uoset and it feels like nobody loves me or cares about me and im just gonna die alone i could die tomroriw and nonody would care nobody wants to talk to me or hangout with me and i ruin everything i touch i hurt people and i annoyy people and i bother people and i make people uncomfortable and i dont know ehynpeople force themseleves to be seound me i just wanns die and the onyl reaosn im not gonna kms is cux im scared of ot hurting and im scwred of what the afterlife will be like i just wanna die but i cantbecaude i wanna go to a concert but idek if it matters anymore im hust so upset and when i start to feel better for a minute i go bacj ti being sad againi just wanna be happy all the time and feel good and not be the most ankoying oerson in the world i dont want eveurbody to hate me and i dont want to be so annoying all the time but i cant help it because im the worst and i just wanna die i wanna go and get stuffed with meds so i dont act this way anymore i just wanna take medicine and be normal but ik it foesnt work like that why doednt it work like that i wanna be normal i wanna feel normal and i wNna be happy i just wanna soend my days with someone and for yhem to love me but it really feels like i never will i wanna see my moirail and talk with them all ghe time but i dont think well ever see eachother irl snd tjat makes me sad i just wanna be held i just wanna cuddle and be held i just wanna be held and told itll be okay i just want someone to watcj mobies and videos with who will hold me thats all i want thats all i need i just want to feel loved why doez everybting suck all the time

[meek-shall-inherit]

so how are you this morning

im really normal about thay podcast right now !!!!!also joyous because moirail 😁 how r youuuu ❤️

[astrumocs]

CAN I ASK.. for all the love languages for.. Null. IM NORMAL I PROMISE.

Hmm, alright, this should be quick,

Words of Affirmation -

does your muse like giving compliments?

Oh sure! It's one of the best ways to manipulate someone vulnerable and craving acceptance, so why wouldn't he. The more thoughtful they are... well uh, the worse of a sign that is for someone.

how easy is it for your muse to say‘ i love you’?

It's very easy if that's what he thinks you need to hear in order to get what he wants. Although oftentimes he likes to reel people in-- to the point that they crave it from him-- only to then never quite give it all the way.

what is one compliment your muse is dying to hear?

He simply does not crave compliments anymore.

what is something your muse loves being praised for?

He also simply does not care if he's praised. If you're going to do it, it's not gonna be about anything that matter to him so it's irrelevant.

Acts of Service -

does your muse like it when people do work for them?

It's the way that work should be done, in his opinion. Null prefers to delegate that to do it himself unless it's killing lusii, he likes doing that.

--Rest of the Love Languages under the cut!--

does your muse enjoy giving people a hand with work?

No, not particularly. They will only help with something if it is personally beneficial to them.

what acts of service would your muse appreciate the most?

It would be easier to list the things he didn't want to be done for him, but he doesn't appreciate anything done for him. Not internally, anyway.

what is one chore your muse would prefer someone else do for them?

I think they would prefer if other people did most of the chores around the compound. However, at their hive, they do their own chores and are perfectly content to keep it that way.

Receiving Gifts -

does your muse enjoy giving gifts?

Oh yes, he does like receiving gifts, Null sees them as signs of adoration which is always a good thing in his book. Plus, it gives a lot of insight into the person he receives it from.

what is a gift your muse is hoping to receive?

Can unyielding loyalty be a gift to receive?

does your muse prefer receiving more practical or fun gifts?

Practical, personally, but externally he's happy to receive whatever you're kind enough to give to him.

does your muse like it when someone spends a lot of money on them?

No, he really doesn't, nor does he need anyone to be doing that, what with all of his purple blood money.

Quality Time  -

what is your muse’s ideal date night? 

Null's ideal date night is not having to have a date night.

how comfortable is your muse with prolonged eye contact?

He's Very comfortable with it, in fact, he seeks it out. Null could hold eye contact for an unnaturally long time.

does your muse prefer conversation or just sitting quietly with their s/o?

He does not want to have S/o's, and he doesn't crave that kind of relationship, either. Although he is technically moirails w/ Parlus... Null would vastly prefer silence if he has to spend time with them, but that's never gonna happen lol.

is it easy for your muse to devote their full attention to one person at a time?

If the need arises for such a thing, absolutely.

Physical Touch -

does your muse like being hugged?

No, not at all. If he had it his way, he would never hug anyone, but that's not really conducive to what he's trying to do, so...

where could someone touch your muse to calm them down?

If you touch him without his explicit permission/request, he will not be any calmer for it tbh.

is there anywhere on your muse’s body they want to be touched most?

Um, nowhere lol.

does your muse find themselves subconsciously seeking out physical contact? ( ie. reaching for s/o’s hand without realizing it )

Null doesn't really subconsciously do anything, or if he does it's rare. As for contact? No, never.

[karkatwaddles]

Gamzee and Me.

Hey everyone! This is a Murder or sober Gamzee fanfiction with the reader. I love writing fanfictions, and I was originally going to make this just a fanfiction for me, but I decided to share it to the world. Im really proud of it so I hope you all like it! Here we go! TW: Violence, Blood, Injuries, Sober/Murder Gamzee. 

                       honk. 

                                          HONK.

                                                                   honk. 

                                                                                      HONK.

                                                                :o)

The honking had been happening for such a long while, not stopping no matter how far they ran, no matter where they went, the honking just continued. It filled the halls, all the rooms, and it would always get louder. They continued to run, running out of breath, legs hurting as if they would collapse if they took one more step. No matter how far, it felt as if the honking got nothing but louder and closer. It filled their head. Everything was chaos in the meteor, Nepeta, Feferi, Tavros, Eridan, and Equius, they were all dead. Sollux was blind, Kanaya was a rainbow drinker, and Gamzee had… gone insane. He was responsible for the deaths of Nepeta and Equius, and apparently, had been chasing down Karkat for such a long while. Speaking of which, he nor Terezi could be found, and Y/N just wanted to find someone alive….someone sane, they were scared and panicked, especially with the honking, the intense noise of the murderous clown-like troll basically following them. It filled their head, bouncing through their ears and not leaving them alone. As they ran, running through the dark halls, they put their hands over their ears. 

“Fuck fuck fuck!” They said to themselves as they sprinted, as fast as they could, just trying to get away from what seemed to be Gamzee chasing them. Closing their eyes, shutting them tight, they were scared. The (insert blood color here) troll had been running for so long, going through this maze of a meteor. They weren’t even originally supposed to be here, but as the group of 12 trolls had decided to play the game of sgrub, they were dragged along, now stuck there without any way back to their planet. With what happened, their new world, their prize for beating the game was destroyed, they had been living on this meteor, talking to humans and such, trying to help them through their own game, but now, with the start of Gamzee going missing, everything had gone to the worst. More than half of them were dead, injured, or just bat shit crazy. The fear they felt in their chest was like a knife in their chest that kept getting yanked out over and over again. 

Closing their eyes was probably the biggest mistake they had made. There was a reason why the honks seemed to be getting louder as they ran because as they did, they fell down a large flight of stairs. They let out a scream, hitting their bones in the hard edges, and even hitting their forehead. Soon enough though, they landed at the end of the flight, groaning as the pain of falling erupted their body. At least two ribs and his arm were broken, and now they had a gash on their forehead, blood running down their face. 

“Shit..” They mumbled, sitting up against a wall, putting their hand against their bloodied head. They brought their arm out, looking at the blood on their hand before hearing another loud honk. It felt as if the honking had stopped while they were falling, and so when they heard the noise, they jolted, being startled. They looked down the hall, seeing a figure with long curled horns, holding clubs. Their eyes widened and they stood as quick as they could, running right back up the stairs, colored tears beginning to form in their eyes. They didn’t want to die. Apparently, they were heading towards where Gamzee was, and when Y/N had fallen down the stairs, he had been watching the whole time. The fear they felt, was even more intense now that they had seen him. The clown had blood all over him, from his face to his clothes. His eyes were red instead of the normal orange… he was a scary force to behold. 

“Please….please…” They whispered, running and running, just wanting to get to someplace where they could hide. But as they ran, they ended up tripping on some random rubble, falling on their face. They curled up for a moment, holding their nose as a loud crack had come from their face as they fell. They broke their nose. A creepy chuckle was heard behind them, and they shot up, looking at the clown who was oh so close. Their eyes widened, tears beginning to fall down their face. 

“Gamzee…please don’t hurt me.” They said as they scooted back, trying to turn and run again, but before they could even stand from the position they were in, their wrist was grabbed harshly by a bloodied hand. They whipped their head towards Gamzee who lifted them off the ground from their broken arm. They winced at the pain. 

“...it hurts please..stop..” They said out of pure desperation to live. Tears streamed down their face as they struggled. They didn’t want to die, not here, and definitely not by Gamzee’s hands. Gamzee raised an eyebrow with his menacing smile. 

“IT HURTS? well, maybe THE MESSIAHS wouldn’t have led me to you brother IF THEY DIDN’T WANT ME to motherfucking HURT YOU.” He said as he brought them closer to his face. They looked at him in the eyes, and with how close they were, Y/N brought their head back and then headbutted him harshly. It made them dizzy, sure, but it caused Gamzee to let go, and drop them. They hurried to their feet, sprinting off once more, and they could hear a slight growl from behind. That definitely angered the troll. They let out a shaken breath, running towards the place they originated from when they started running. They were mumbling to themselves about Gamz, thinking about how he would never...never hurt them right? This couldn’t be him, they were so close before this. He called them one of his best friends, and of course, Karkat was his Moirail, but he was just such a close friend to them. They felt so betrayed and so hurt, they just wanted to collapse right there, but adrenaline kept them going. 

No matter how far they ran, the honking continued to close in. They ran into the main room, the original room they were all in, and there laid Feferi on the horn pile. Y/N was always close to Feferi and the others, so seeing her gone hurt, just as much as the betrayal of Gamzee. They quickly glanced around. That’s right, they almost forgot about Gamzee, and so they ran under one of the desks to hide. It was their best bet right now. 

Then Gamzee came into the room. His footsteps, his honks, any noise he made, it felt like would destroy their eardrums each time. They put their hands over their ears, talking deep, quiet breaths, praying to themselves that he wouldn’t find them. Then the sound of chairs began to move, and so, they glanced up, and right there in front of them, his red eyes glared into them, into their soul. Their heart dropped, mumbling apologies and pleads to him, just wanting to survive. 

They were pulled out of under the desk, being forced out into the open. They squeezed their eyes shut, causing more tears to fall, their breath quickening. Gamzee held them up once more by their wrist and he would chuckle a bit before throwing them into the opposite wall. They shouted out of pain, curling up against that wall, shaking and whimpering. They weren’t usually this weak, actually one of the strongest emotionally in the group, but this was a whole new level. Their heart was pounding in their chest, pain consumed them, and so did fear. They didn’t want this. 

His footsteps were heavy as he began to walk back over to them, he would bring his club up, getting ready to hit them across the had for the last finishing blow to kill them, but something stopped him. He looked back, as someone had grabbed the club he was using, and there stood none other than Karkat Vantas. His eyes widened, and Gamzee would yank the club out of his hands, elbowing him in the stomach, causing the mutant blood troll to be pushed back, right onto the ground. 

Y/N looked up at Gamzee, distracted by the other troll. Even with broken ribs, broken arms, a pounding head, they would stand. Using the wall behind them, gripping onto the rough rock, and would grab Gamzee by the collar of his shirt, causing him to whip his head back over to them, and they pulled him into a kiss. They always felt red feelings towards him, but this isn’t how they wanted to tell him. The troll’s eyes widened and he would slowly succumb to the kiss, putting his arm down, dropping the club, leaning into Y/N. They would separate themselves from him, mumbling an apology before hitting him right in the neck, knocking him out. He collapsed in their arms, and they would gently put him down as they too went to the ground, knees collapsing on them, and they would start to sob. Their entire body hurt from the emotions and physical pain they felt. Karkat’s eyebrows furrowed, walking over to them, looking down at the unconscious troll, he would sit next to Y/N. 

“YOU DID GOOD. IT’S...GOING TO BE OK.” He said to them. Y/N said nothing and only curled up, putting their knees to their chest, wrapping their arms around themselves, sobbing into their arms. This was the worst day of their life. Karkat would wrap his arms around them in a comforting way...How could this happen? How could this become of them all? It was so..horrid.

[sunkissed-mogai]

dave irl + a troll irl but i wont bring it up in case they arent okay with doubles coz i know they look at this lol

Matesprite/Red feelings/<3 are the most akin to human romance, as you said lol, and i think andrew hussie connected that as well because the example given was two humans. but also its kinda weird bc its also kinda different in a way. most trolls consider it sexual but im p sure asexual matesprites exist so idk lol. theres a lotta stuff that goes into it. that goes for most other quadrants- just as normal love is complicated, troll love is even more complicated.

you were pretty accurate with Moirallegiance/pale feelings/<>. these things are akin to queerplatonic partners, in a more 'i was literally made for you/p' way. It is a form of guardianship, but it isn't simply about being platonic soul bros forever. they are like aa,,, a protector of their moirail's heart. They keep each other grounded n junk.

Kismesistude/black feelings/<3< are like.. Hate-love? like 'god i want to kiss your stupid face and then punch you 20 times in a row' kind of thing. Basically 'fuck your enemy but also fuck your enemy'. killing your kismesis is a strict no-no, though, as you can only have one and that destroys the mutual weird respect/let me kiss you/im gonna punch you thing going on. "the tension in kismesissitude relies not only on hatred and annoyance of ones more irksome aspects, but also a level of admiration for their more positive aspects"

Auspisticism/ashen/♣ is automatically poly lol. Basically, two people hate each other and want to tear each other up, and the middle person, the auspistice, makes sure they dont kill each other so they can continue to be in the relationship bc again fate and junk."An auspistice is a "facilitator" of some sort between a pair, mediating interactions between them and keeping their relationship functional." i personally am an aromantic auspistice so i dont have a lot to say on this lol

if you think you have red feelings for someone and you get together but it doesnt work out, then its because you quite literally werent made for each other. its like a 'soulmate based system' that trolls take really seriously. For example, pale feelings are described as "A troll is compelled by fate to watch over their moirail and keep them in line." fate stuff woo

sorry i like ranting about stuffs

-Ghost anon

oh woah!! thank you for the explanation!! yeah, i found a little bit on it, but it wasn't very helpful- it said ashen and pale feelings were just "platonic but a little different" and i had to kinda figure it out. ashen feelings seem kinda cool!! honestly, this whole thing is really cool! thank you so much for the detailed info!!

[vodkanrainbows]

Xefros' Daymare

Well my dudes, I already wrote a fanfic about Dammek having a daymare, so this time Xefros is the one to have a daymare.

Some Background Information: This takes place after the events of Hiveswap, wherein Xefros and Dammek leave their lives on Alternia behind to start fresh (Joey is the one to persuade Xefros into coming back to Earth with her) and stay in Earth. They are now living at the Half-Harley Manor with Joey and Jude. Now that Dammek and Xefros don't have to do Dammek's rebellion, Dammek now devotes his life to spend time with Xefros and has learned how to treat him right (especially after getting yelled at by Joey).

Additional Notes: Dammek and Joey are kismesis, and Xefros and Dammek are no longer moirails, but matesprits instead.

Characters: Dammek, Xefros, Joey (mentioned), Jude (mentioned)

Ships: Xefros ❤ Dammek, Xefros ♦ Dammek (mentioned), Joey ��� Dammek (mentioned)

Warnings: Red Dammek/Xefros, since some people don't like them being shipped red.

Story below the cut! Enjoy me writing at 4 in the morning :)

Ever since Joey was able to convince Xefros to come to live on Earth with her and her brother, Jude, he has been much happier with his now matesprit, Dammek. The two were able to reconcile after Xefros broke off their Moirallegiance for a few months. They recently got back to dating and officially became matesprites. Xefros had flushed feelings for Dammek since the very beginning, but decided to never tell him in fear of being told that Dammek didn't feel the same and would reject him. So Xefros was extremely surprised (and relieved) when Dammek revealed to Xefros that he indeed felt the same. Since they're no longer having to rebel against Trizza, Dammek now treats Xefros right and they spend a lot of time together.

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It was a peaceful night at Half-Harley Manor. Everybody was asleep and the manor was a quiet as can be. Dammek and Xefros share a room together and share a bed. Dammek was sleeping just fine, but Xefros was whining softly under his breath in his sleep.

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Dammek: xeFros, we have to talk.

Xefros: sure! what is it?

Dammek: so i've been thinking...

Dammek: about our relationship together.

Xefros' bloodpusher sank. Uh oh...

Xefros: oh... uh...

Xefros: really?? X:O

Dammek nodded.

Dammek: yes.

Dammek: i think...

Dammek paused for a sec, breaking eye contact with Xefros.

Dammek: we should break up.

Xefros covered his mouth in shock.

Xefros: what?

Xefros: w-why?

Dammek: xeFros, you know i like you a whole lot, but i'm not always gonna have time for you!

Xefros: b-but you said youd always have time for me...

Dammek: that was then, xeFros. things change, y'know?

Xefros' eyes started to well up, burgundy tears threatening to run down his cheeks.

Dammek: i'm sorry, xeFros, but we're done.

Xefros: dammek please

Xefros: dont you DARE leave me!

Xefros was full on crying now, grabbing Dammek by his hoodie sleeve. Dammek was refusing to make eye contact.

Xefros: i-i love you!!! im IN LOVE with you!

Xefros: please!

Xefros: i dont want you to go

Xefros: i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i love you, i lov-

Xefros was interrupted when Dammek suddenly yanked his arm out of Xefros' tight grip, which made Xefros fall backwards onto his back. Xefros yelped in pain.

Dammek was now crying as he leaned over Xefros' body currently on the ground.

Dammek: enough!

Dammek: i said we're done! what part of that are you not getting, huh?!

Dammek: just leave me alone, dammit!

Xefros was still laying on his back, looking up at Dammek with blurry vision. Burgundy tears are now violently falling down his cheeks and onto the ground below him. Xefros only whimpered in response to Dammek shouting at him.

Dammek: ...goodbye, xeFros.

Xefros' eyes widened when he heard this, swiftly jolting up into a sitting position, ignoring the pain in his possibly broken back. Xefros suddenly started to scream at Dammek's now disappearing form as Dammek was walking away from Xefros.

Xefros: DAMMEK!!!!

Xefros: NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO DAMMEK PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME PLEASE!

Xefros stopped screaming when he realized Dammek probably can't hear him anymore. He lie back onto his back as he cried silently to himself.

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Xefros awoke with a scream.

Xefros: DAMMEK!!!!!!!!

Suddenly, Dammek started moving frantically in the bed, jumping to his feet.

Dammek: xeFros?! what the Fuck happened?!

Xefros was crying.

Xefros: d-dammek?

Dammek turned around to look at Xefros with wide eyes. Dammek got back up into the bed and nestled next to his matesprit. Dammek grabbed Xefros and held on tight.

Dammek: yeah, i'm right here babe

Dammek: what happened?

Dammek: tell me everything, ok?

Xefros was still crying, but he felt a little better with Dammek holding him tightly.

Xefros: i...

Xefros: i had a daymare

Dammek pulled back from Xefros slightly, looking at Xefros with his beautiful eyes. He had no sunglasses on, which gave Xefros a good chance to look into his eyes, which were glowing green because of the pitch darkness that they are sitting in. Xefros is the only one Dammek allows to see him without his trademark shades on. Dammek is extremely insecure about his eyes, which is why he wears them, but Xefros thinks Dammek's eyes are beautiful. Xefros even prefers seeing Dammek without the shades on. "my eyes are only for you, baby," Dammek has told Xefros.

Dammek: a daymare? about what?

Xefros: y-you dumped me...

Dammek: ...what?

Xefros nodded.

Xefros: you said you no longer had time for me...

Xefros: i-i tried to atop you from leaving me a-and you...

Xefros had to gulp and take a deep breath. Dammek rubbed Xefros arms up and down in reassurance.

Dammek: it's okay. tell me more baby.

Xefros: ...y-you started to scream at me telling me to leave you alone and i screamed and screamed for you but you wouldnt come back no matter how loud i screamed...

Xefros: i just...

Xefros: dont want you to leave me!!!!

Dammek jumped at Xefros' sudden shouting, but quickly recovered and sat up a little and straddled Xefros' lap. Dammek put one finger underneath Xefros' chin, forcing Xefros took look at him. Dammek was scowling.

Dammek: hey.

Dammek: look at me, baby. listen carefully For me, ok?

Xefros nodded.

Dammek: xeF, you know that'll never happen. i'll always have time for you. i will not leave your side, no matter what happens.

Dammek: i am not perFect, but i really am trying. i love you so much, always have. even when i was treating you like shit.

Dammek: of course joey would try and convince you that i didn't care about you, and you believed her and you dumped me. you realized that we were meant to be together, so you came back to me and we started the relationship from Fresh.

Dammek: but joey was right about one thing. i was not a good moirail to you. sure i cared about you, but i was too caught up in that stupid rebellion to give you the time we should've spent together. i was selFish. i was bossy and put you through dangerous shit, not caring about the consequences. i hurt you so many Fucking times but you never realized it because of how much you looked up to me. i took advantage of that because i knew you'd always come back to me. jude helped me realize a lot of things, xeFros. he helped me realize that a TRUE Friend wouldn't do the things i did to you. i am glad i came to earth. if the portal wouldn't have activated, we would still be rebelling and i'd still be treating you like shit. hell, we wouldn't even be matesprits right now!

Dammek: so in short, i was a shitty person who didn't treat you right.

Dammek released Xefros chin, putting his hand on Xefros' waist.

Dammek: you are literally the best person in my liFe, you always have been. even back then.

Dammek: i love you so Fucking much, baby. you have no idea.

Suddenly, Xefros shifted and pushed Dammek down into the bed and into the mattress. Xefros was covering Dammek's face in kisses. Dammek laughed.

Dammek: xeFros!!

Xefros made his way from Dammek's face to Dammek's throat, splaying kisses all over there too. Dammek gasped a little, wrapping his arms around Xefros with a growl and bared fangs, as if to protect him. Joey and Jude didn't wake up to Xefros' screams. Dammek didn't really have a reason to growl and show of his fangs like that since Joey and Jude mean no harm at all. He still kinda thinks Joey means harm, but he guesses this is normal since they're now in a black relationship. But Dammek still does this whenever anyone harms his friends.

Xefros stopped kissing Dammek's neck. Dammek still has his arms around Xefros. Damnek buries his head in Xefros' neck, purring.

Xefros: thanks, dammek

Xefros: i feel so much better now...

Dammek's reply was slightly muffled, but Xefros understands him anyways.

Dammek: anything for you, baby.

Dammek and Xefros part.

Dammek: wanna go back to bed?

Xefros: sure

Dammek smiled as he got under the covers with Xefros. Dammek opened his arms for Xefros so they can cuddle. Xefros purrs and quickly accepts Dammek's embrace. Dammek pulls Xefros close to him, kissing Xefros on the lips. They locked lips for a few seconds before they broke the kiss. Xefros buries his face into Dammek's neck before finally closing his eyes and falling asleep. Xefros is so grateful to have Dammek in his life.

[lemon-pilled]

bloodswap andari (maybe???)

 because just thinking about it wasnt enough lol-

i honestly have no idea what im doing or why, but when my brain says do it i do it. andari is my trollsona, shes jade so i wont do a jade version of her cos thats dumb. i guess ill start with rust? but i should probably introduce andari or something. ok.

andair leinol is my trollsona. shes a jadeblood, has a hive that looks like a tree and is a tree, and has a barkbeast lusus (who she calls norri). regular andari is kinda a jerk? like, she lives in a forest and shoots down anyone who walks too deep into said forest. except for her quadrants but she only has a moirail. she talks | l!ke th!s. !f no one xan understand then thats the!r problem not hers. |.

she acts like someone who cares very little about anything. which is true, she only really cares for her hive and her lusus (and her moirail too).  id say she dosent like the caste system that much but lives by it cause she dosent want to get culled. yknow what thats the one thing that all the andaris have in common.

yeah ok bloodswap time :33

so rust!andari is quiet. other lowbloods dont seem to like that about her, so they stay away, which makes her a great target for the highbloods to bully, which then just causes her to be even more secluded, and the whole cycle loops. she accepts it, cause hey shes a lowblood what else is she supposed to do? somehow its also sorta lucky. if the highbloods love to push this one troll around, they probably wouldnt cull her. of course shes still scared of what would happen if they eventually got tired of her. rust!andari wears oversized longsleeved shirts and pants, to make herself seem smaller and blend into the crowd.

bronze!andari would be determined and hard-working. she wants to come off as a good worker, though sometimes she overworks herself and ends up getting hurt. she will gladly listen to trolls in higher castes, since she dosent want to be culled, and also because she thinks that her hate for the caste system is forbidden and shouldnt even exist.

gold!andari is a bit of a crackhead. her psionics are neon green and yellow. she stays in her hive most of the time because shes not exactly a social person. 

fuck its hard to write a good desc for all the castes so imma just stick to something simple. anyways

lime/mutant!andari is always on the run. not cause shes an outlaw, but cause shes scared of being found out.

olive!andari acts like a feral animal just to make people stay away from the area around her hive/hole in the tree.

jade andari is normal andari lol

teal!andari likes to pretend to be a detective, but really shes just there for show. she does work as a legislacerator, but shes not the best.

cerulean!andari will offer her services (spreading propaganda) for a price. she be a sneaky, sly bitch.

indigo!andari really likes to suck up to the highbloods. like, if a purple, violet or fuchsia tells her to do something, shell do it. anything for the highbloods, am i right.

purple!andari is a cuckoo. she dosent exactly like the church, but as long as they let her kill stuff then who gives a damn.

violet!andari looooves her weapons. especially if they have shiny things (jewels). also her lusus is now a manta ray, not a dog. shes pretty ruthless, loves to dress up as her ancestor or some other famous violetblood.

fuchsia!andari would probably be nicknamed the hidden heiress, since she spends most of her time underwater. the only trolls that know what shes like would be violetbloods. the only time she might even be seen out of water would be when shes hunting lusii to keep g’lbgloyb quiet (i think g’lbgolyb is the lusus for every fuchsia heiress? not sure lol).

but yea this is the base ideas i have for all the bloodswap versions of andari

maybe ill draw some art of each one?