#introver thoughts

[introvertlifestyle]

I owe everything that I have done to the fact that I am very much at ease being alone.

Marilynne Robinson (American writer, *1943)

[leeknowslov3r]

✦‎ birds don't sing

౨ৎ "birds dont sing, they just fall from the sky. girls dont call and they never tell you why." - tv girl

ꪆ୧‎‎‎ pairing : lee know × f!reader

✶ cw : mentions of smoking & sex, college!au, roommate! felix and hyunjin, dirty jokes

𖦹 from cali's desk : my first fic on this blog!!! I hope you guys enjoy it !!

copyright leeknowslov3r on tumblr : do not plagarize, repost, or translate ©

Your head pounds as you lay down on your bed and stare up at the glow-in-the-dark stars stuck on your ceiling. You wish to simply turn your brain off, to stop thinking about studying for your mcats, to stop basking in the uncertainty regardibg your future. The future you had dreamt of since you could remember.

Sure, you wouldn't receive an adequate paycheck until you were 32, and you would have to take out a hefty loan to pay for medical school - pursuing medicine has always been all you've ever wanted for yourself.

With your senior year of college being in full swing, you had no time to meet anyone new. The only people you even spent time with nowadays were your roommates Hyunjin and Felix. The two of them were both seniors like yourself, yet the three of you were so different and so similar. The both of them were both busy in their own respect.

Felix attended university on a cheerleading scholarship. He used to do gymnastics in highschool, as he told you one night over dinner, but had to quit his senior year due to a leg injury. Felix was a social butterfly, he knew half the football team and frequently was asked to go to frat parties. He was the golden boy, popular and unafraid of his future.

Hyunjin was much more introvered than Felix, but still remained quite popular around campus. Hyunjin is naturally beautiful and gifted at art. He runs the art club like the navy, and has a quick tongue that no one would suspect him to possess.

However, you were far from any kind of real status among other people. People only knew of you because you were roommates with Felix and Hyunjin.

The two boys have always tried to get you to break out of your shell. While the efforts were ultimately futile, it was nice knowing someone cared.

There's a faint knock on your door before it opens. Felix stands in your doorway holding a bag of takeout food. "Figured you hadn't eaten anything yet, thought I'd pick you up some thai," he smiles his signature smile.

"Yeah, thanks Lix, just put it on my desk," you say from your spot on your bed.

Felix walks over and places the box of food on your desk and hovers momentarily before he asks, "are you okay?"

"Mhm?" you hum, "yeah, 'm fine."

"You just-," Felix pauses, "-seem depressed or something."

"Depression is caused by a combination of genetics, environmental factors, and psychological factors, Lix. I have no fucking reason to be depressed," you retort, saltier than you wish you had.

Felix rolls his eyes and sees through your facade, "is this because of medical school? There's no reason why you wouldn't get in, y/n, you need to take a break."

"Lix, I can't," you wish he would understand, "my MCAT is in one month, I don't have time to relax."

"You realize your life won't end if you do poorly? Right?" Felix comments and crosses his arms.

"This is the only future I know I can have, Lix," you sigh and sit up on your bed and look directly at the boy in your room.

Felix sighs with disappointment, "you won't have a future if you basically fucking kill yourself, which is what you're doing right now. No future is worth wasting your youth."

You know that if he were talking to someone other than yourself he would be right, but he isn't. Your youth - did you even have one?

Sure you are young and have been younger, but were you ever truly young? You spent your entire highschool career working to be valedictorian and get as many scholarships as possible so you could attend a prestigious college - because it looks good on medical school applications. How could you waste your youth when you've only used your youth to prepare for your future.

"Can you go, Lix, I have to study," you request and stand up on the floor, walking over to your desk.

"Yeah, just know - I'm here for you," Felix gives you a sad smile and walks out of your room, closing the door behind himself.

Your alarm blares in your ears and you jolt awake. Your medical textbook must have served as your pillow. You sit up and feel a slight pain in your back as you sit up straight.

Fuck. You had your stem cell research lab study. And you're running late. You jump up from your seat and open your closet to try and find an acceptable outfit to wear.

You throw on the first things you find. Grey sweatpants and a graphic t-shirt. You quickly lace up your white converse before grabbing your school bag and stumble out the front door.

Luckily, you only live 5 minutes off campus, and are able to make it to the science building relatively soon.

You race up to the 6th floor lab and step inside. Your anatomy professor, Dr. Jones, looks at you blankly as you walk in. "Sorry I'm late," you mutter an apology to him and grab your labcoat, slipping it on.

"It's fine, I'm going to grab a coffee, you two want one?"

You know he is just trying to find an excuse to have a smoke, though.

The other person in the room is the student you are collaborating on the study with, Minho Lee. "Yeah, I'll take one," Minho chimes.

"Yeah-yeah m-me too," you huff.

"Okay, I'll be back in a minute," Dr. Jones bids a momentary goodbye and walks out of the lab.

There's a moment of awkwardness between you and Minho before he speaks, "so, long night?"

"Incredibly long."

He chuckles with amusement, "didn't take you for that kind of girl."

You glare at him, "get your head out of the gutter," you huff, "I was studying."

"Oh, I believe you," he says jokingly, "studying anatomy, is very exhausting, in my experience. If you need a study partner I'm always avaliable."

You put your hair up in a hairtie and roll your eyes. Minho Lee always knew how to turn anything dirty. It was almost a gift of his.

He was much more gifted at science, though. He was naturally smart and good looking, two luxuries you didn't possess.

He had every girl in the science department, except you and the lesbians, in a chokehold. You knew he was also applying for medical school. In the future he'd surely find a pretty wife and have a good career.

"Are you here just to annoy me or to work on the study?" you ask rhetorically.

"God, you're clueless," Minho sighs, "I was hitting on you."

"Well can you like... not?"

The shock on his face was comical. It's clear he has never been so blatantly rejected by a woman before.

For the last 3 months, since you and Minho had started the research study, he has made it his personal mission to try and crack you. It wasn't a secret. Honestly, if you didn't have better things to do with your life, you would entertain him and his advances.

You frequently vented to Felix about Minho's unrelenting interest in you. Felix, being concerned that you have never had a boyfriend before, urged you to go for it, even though he knows you never would.

The sunset peeks through your window, the warm glow illuminates your room. You're focused on the textbook in front of you until your doorbell rings.

You know it isn't Hyunjin or Felix, they always kept their keys with them. You sigh with annoyance and leave your room to open the front door.

Minho stares back at you blankly with your bag in his hand. "You forgot this," he states and hands you the bag.

"Oh," you huff, "yeah thanks, Minho."

You close the door in his face after he hands you your bag. Where were your manners? Surely your parents had raised you better than the way you just acted.

You sigh and open the door again and Minho looks at you with confusion. "Sorry, do you want to come in for a minute?," you ask the man in front of you.

"Yeah, sure," he laughs under his breath and steps inside.

He takes in your apartment, looking at all the decorations placed by Hyunjin. You close the door and walk into the kitchen. You open the door to the refrigerator, "do you want something to eat? I can heat up leftover thai food," you ask Minho, who is still looking around.

"Sure," he hums.

You pull the leftovers out of the fridge, shut the door and put the food in the microwave to warm up. "This place is nice, much more homey than I imagined your place being," Minho comments and turns to face you.

"It's cause of my roommates," you reply and walk to sit on the couch in the living room, "Hyunjin and Felix."

"You live with those two?," Minho looks at you incredulously.

"Why're you suprised? Do you know them?," you ask from your seat on the couch.

Minho sighs, "they're just... different from you, I guess. I've seen them around campus and at a few parties before," he pauses for a moment, "also, I'm sorry about coming over uninvited."

"No, it's fine," you smile.

Minho walks over to your couch and sits a respectful distance away from you. "So, when are you taking your MCAT?," Minho asks you.

You grin at the thought of medical school, "in a month," you inform him.

Minho nods in understanding, "then I can see why you've been so stressed lately. I took mine over the summer."

"Yeah," you chuckle, "I want to try and get a 515 or higher. What did you get as your score?"

Minho smiles because you smile, "I'm sure you can do it. I got a 518 on mine," he swallows a lump in his throat, "I'm sorry about earlier... hitting on you and everything, I should've known- well, acted- better."

You're stunned silent, for the first time in a long time, you don't know what to say. "'t's fine," you mumble.

The microwave beeps and you quickly stand up to grab the food. You put the food on plates and grab the silverware needed to eat and bring Minho his plate of food. You grab your plate then sit back down on the couch.

You and Minho talk about everything for what feels like the next few minutes, but what the clock says is hours.

You learn that he used to dance in highschool, and that he has 3 cats, that his favorite color is mint green, and that he wants to be a Cardiothorasic surgeon.

He was easier to talk to than you thought he would be. He seemed more human now, you also realized that you and him were more similar than you previously imagined.

The front door opening interupts Minho's current sentence, Felix and Hyunjin step inside, "it's us y/nnie!," Hyunjin calls out, but then falls silent when he and Felix notice you're sitting in the living room.

Felix and Hyunjin glance at each other then back at you when they notice Minho sitting on the couch with you. "Oh, who is this?," Hyunjin inquires.

Felix closes the door behind the two of them, and waits for a response. "Minho," you introduce the man next to you.

"Wait!," Felix practically screeches, "this is Minho. Like the Minho? The one you told me about?"

"Wait, who is Minho? Why is he important?," Hyunjin asks Felix under his breath.

"He-," Felix begins but upon seeimg the glare you're giving him silences himself, "he's y/n's research partner."

"Yeah," Minho confirms, "I think I'm gonna go," he stands up and looks down at where you sit on the couch, "thanks for dinner, sorry again for coming uninvited," he bids farewell, "see you next week, y/n."

He walks promptly out the door.

As soon as the door shuts behind him, Felix and Hyunjin verbally assault you with comments and questions.

"Did you two... y'know?"

"He is hot. Y/n you didn't tell me he was that fucking hot!"

"Oh, he definitely likes you! Did you see the way he looked at her? 'See you next week, y/n' he's looking forward to seeing you!"

"If you don't go for it, you'd be such a fool, y/n. He's hot and smart!"

You sigh, "no we didn't, and so what if he's hot? We're colleagues- well now we're more like friends I guess."

"Okay, at least you acknowledge that he's hot," Felix sighs, "that's progress."

You're convinced you've never been more exhausted. Felix drives you home from the MCAT testing facility and helps you carry your things inside. Hyunjin pounces on you as soon as you walk through the door, "yay! I'm so glad you are finally done!" he exclaims as he hugs you.

"Yeah, me too," you sigh and return his embrace.

Once Hyunjin stops doting on you, you, Hyunjin, and Felix all sit on the couch together, Hyunjin flips through TV chanels trying to find something interesting to watch.

Meanwhile, you finally check your phone and see a notification from Minho.

New Text from Minho :

good luck on your MCAT~~ you'll def do well ^_^ sent 8:40 AM

You can't help but smile at his kindness. For the past two weeks Minho came over every evening and helped you study for your MCAT.

He stayed over until the early hours of the morning going over every topic that would be covered on the test. Some nights, he even fell asleep on the living room couch because he was too tired to walk back to his apartment.

You're positive that he is the main reason you felt so confident going into the exam.

For now, you didn't have to worry about your future, you could finally turn your brain off. "Minho came over earlier and left you a basket," Felix informs you and hands you the gift.

You open the wrapping, inside was a white labcoat with your name embroidered on the right side, a stethescope, a bottle of wine, snacks, and a note asking you to call him. Your heart swells at the kind gesture. You pick up your phone and dial his number.

It only rings twice before he picks up on the other line, "hey, Minho," you greet.

"Hey, how do you think you did?"

"Good, I think I did pretty well," you grin at hearing his voice.

"I'm sure you did great," you can hear his smile, the same smile he would flash when you would get a practice question correct, "I know you're exhausted but maybe next week we could...," he hesitates, "go somewhere together- t-t' celebrate of course?"

Hyunjin and Felix both stare at you expectedly.

You're stunned for a moment before you reply, "a-are you asking m-me out? On a date?"

Now Minho is the stunned one, "... well if you w-want to y'know- maybe we c-could."

"Good," you grin happily, a wave of boldness overcoming you, "tomorrow work for you?"

"Y-yeah, tomorrow works great, I'll pick you up at 8?"

"Yeah, see you tomorrow, Minho."

"See you tomorrow, bye, love you," Minho hangs up the phone.

The words 'love you' whirl around in your brain, you regret not saying them back to him momentarily.

"I have a date!" you squeal.

You and your roommates freak out together and you begin counting down the minutes until tomorrow evening at 8.

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Completed Chaptered AO3 Fics (5) Masterlist

part one, part two, part three, part four

A Different Man (ao3) - RhenNuggs

Summary: Dan is struggling to find love, but it is easier said than done when all he has is a long list of horrible exes. He doesn’t know if he will ever find love. That is, until he gets invited to an unexpected party that may forever change the course of his life.

A Game of Life (ao3) - Koolhotsweetloveberries

Summary: Daniel Howell, an honorable member of the King's Knighthood, does not expect much from his time at court. All changes when the court jester, Philip Lester, enters.

Babylon (ao3) - ottertrashpalace

Summary: Just a little story about two boys realizing that they can make their own rules, and even if it's hard, they are worth it.

because we are fools (ao3) - queerofcups

Summary: He realizes it calmly at first, and then suddenly with more clarity. He’s in love with Phil.

But he absolutely cannot be in love with Phil.

Brick by Brick (ao3) - auroraphilealis (peachrayne), embarrassing_myself

Summary: No one said having an unmated Alpha and an unmated Omega living under the same roof was going to be easy, but add in a mess of feelings and desire, and things go from bad to worse. When Phil Lester asked his best friend, Dan Howell, to move in with him, he thought he could ignore his feelings and refrain from submitting, but with an oblivious Dan scenting him every other day, he decides he has to put a stop to it. Jealousy and misunderstandings collide to throw their lives into chaos, forcing both men to reconsider their relationship. Will they ever get their happy ending, or will prevalent sexism force them apart?

Burning Bibles (ao3) - cherryheartz

Summary: phil lester loved curly headed boys with tattoos on their arms and a joint made with torn bible pages between their soft lips.

and dan howell was exactly that.

Butterfly (ao3) - A_Million_Regrets

Summary: Phil Lester, a lonely writer, finds a dying boy with beautiful black wings on a cold, rainy night in a dingy alleyway. He recognizes the boy as one of the winged men hated by human society. They are considered to be wild, ferocious beasts, but Phil's sympathy forces him to help the boy.

What happens when the boy, considered to be a wild beast, gets too attached and follows him home with an innocent, dimpled smile?

Catch You on the Flipside (ao3) - Amorist (dead_on_the_inside)

Summary: Dan is holding himself together by the seams after running away from a religious cult. He has to ask himself why he keeps going, but deep down, he knows the answer already. It's the same answer it was long before his parents packed up and moved him to a thinly-veiled conversion camp in America—Phil.

Or, my excuse to write self-indulgent angst, because sometimes we need that.

Coffee by Chappell Roan (ao3) - danswideslit

Summary: someone on tumblr mentioned needing a dnp fic with the narrative from coffee and I felt inspired because I love that song a whole lot

Come along (ao3) - ottertrashpalace

Summary: In medieval England, a young knight rides north, sent to serve at the court of the quiet young Duke of Lancaster.

Deeper (ao3) - Scuddleduck

Summary: Inspired by the idea of "Pass Around Party Bottom Dan."

Don’t be scared (ao3) - danisnot3131

Summary: Before agreeing to go on Tour for Interactive Introvers, Dan is hit with the realization that he’s been in love with Phil for years.

I Fell For You (ao3) - TheWolfWithinMe

Summary: Dan's meant to be a good little Angel. Doing what Heaven wants. Following orders. Being the soldier they created.

But then he answers a prayer. From a certain blue-eyed boy so desperate for forgiveness that he's willing to die for it.

A fic about betrayal, freedom, friendship, love and that it's not 'where you're from' that matters but 'who you are.'

I try to picture me without you but I can't (ao3) - solarpower21

Summary: After Dan's tragic death, Phil starts having a bunch of strange dreams where he is still alive. But are they really just dreams?

Or: Phil's soul consciousness can't cope with Dan's death, so he starts hopping between different universes, trying to look for him.

Let Me Be Your Call Boy (ao3) - auroraphilealis (peachrayne), embarrassing_myself

Summary: After coming out as gay to his friends on his birthday, the last thing Dan is expecting is to be gifted a call boy as a present, let alone one that’s been paid for for the entire night. Allowing Phil to show him the ropes is his first mistake, paying him to come back every week is his second, and using him to convince his parents he really is gay is his third. As a successful lawyer, the money isn’t the problem - falling in love is.

life happens, coffee helps (and so do you) (ao3) - halfofacrackedbluesky

Summary: Dan makes friends with the barista at the local coffee shop.

Like a Bowl of Oranges (ao3) - cloej88

Summary: Dan has built a solid career for himself as a ghostwriter. He safely hides behind other people’s words, crafting their tales and pocketing the cash without any threat of notoriety. But lately he has been working on a book of his own, itching for a change.

Phil is an indie filmmaker who happened into some huge breaks over the last few years. He wants to use his influence to uplift queer stories for the screen, so he puts out an open call for story submissions. At his agent’s behest, Dan submits his story.

The writer!Dan and director!Phil friends/co-workers to lovers AU that we never knew we needed.

Live Incidentally (ao3) - yikesola

Summary: At thirty-two, Phil’s fine with this lot in life— manager for Printzoid, a flat he rents on his own in a relatively nice part of London, friends he sees at least twice a month for board game nights, an ex-fiancé he’s trying damn hard to get over, and a brother who means well even if Martyn doesn’t understand why Phil insists there’s a distinction between their father’s artwork being creative and Martyn’s music being creative and Phil’s novelty t-shirts being... not-creative.

A fic about adulthood and opening up.

Monochrome (ao3) - intoapuddle

Summary: When you build your life out of fear that your mental illness could worsen, it leaves little room for excitement. Luckily, Dan has found a space online where he feels comfortable.

My Sanctuary, You're Holy to Me (ao3) - skygremlin

Summary: Sister Daniel isn't very good at being a nun, but she's stuck living in a convent because she's got no other plans. The church needs a new priest for Sunday mass, and the responsibility falls on her to meet him for the first time. Will he see through her false devotion?

Sister Daniel/Father Philip convent au (Sister Daniel's origin story)

names of collision in the dark (ao3) - Anonymous

Summary: Of enemy kingdoms, Prince Dan and Prince Phil meet one fateful night, leading to a surprising friendship that evolves into something more. As the looming threat of a major battle grows stronger, both princes grapple with their roles and the burdens of leadership, all while their growing bond forces them to confront their own kingdoms’ expectations and the possibility of peace in the chaos.

(aka the dan and phil royal au fic they wrote for the gaming channel but taken seriously)

Nothing Like a Storybook (ao3) - Merrydith

Summary: University Of Manchester, 2009

Dan Howell is an aloof loner and Phil Lester a well-known weirdo. In theory they are worlds apart, but a chance post-party meeting under the Manchester moonlight sends their lives spiraling and soon they find they have a lot more in common than they thought.

Origins of the Phass Inflation Post (Dan and Phil in Greece) (ao3) - EverythingIsAsItWas

Summary: Dan and Phil rarely take vacations just for themselves, vacations in which they make no content, do not work, and simply enjoy each other's company. Going to Greece feels like the perfect opportunity for this, but Phil also thinks it's the perfect opportunity for a video... and Dan likes being a little shit.

Ready Player Two (ao3) - jonsaremembers

Summary: Their paths diverge for a time.

some killer queen you are (ao3) - possumdnp

Summary: Dan’s enjoyed taking a break from YouTube, but for some reason, he still feels like something is missing. Determined to fill the creative void in his life, he decides to try out something new: drag.

Someday (ao3) - philsdrill

Summary: “Everyone had a link with their soulmates, some could hear some of their partners thoughts, some had a tattoo that would appear with their partners name; for me, I knew when they got sick.” For a while Phil has thought that his soulmate might have an eating disorder and doesn’t expect to meet him in the restaurant where he works.

taking the veil (ao3) - buskingalbatross

Summary: Twenty-two year old YouTuber Phillippa Lester accompanies her Dad on his trip to fulfill a commission to create a piece of art for a family friend who is living a monastic life in an abbey in the south of England. Angry at her parents and lacking other plans, eighteen-year old Dan Howell tags along with her grandma on an annual, summertime trip of her own: a two week secluded religious retreat at the same abbey.

The Phat (ao3) - gaydreaming

Summary: When Dan and Phil find an abandoned cat on a late-night walk to Dominos, Dan insists that they aren't going to keep him. After all, they know nothing about taking care of a pet. Dan will have the self control to put his foot down when faced with both Phil's big eyes and the cat's, right? ...Right?

Time is on our side (ao3) - Mysticallykai

Summary: In 2010, AmazingPhil decided to make a video trying to time travel. He ends up meeting his boyfriend Dan in the year 2023 as well as himself, and he has a lot of questions.

voice on the wind (ao3) - CapriciousCrab

Summary: A life-changing injury leaves a desperate musician looking for a miracle. He finds it in the company of a Fae muse, but at what cost?

what, like it's hard? (ao3) - jonsaremembers

Summary: title, obviously, from legally blonde

You are Not Sleeping on The Goddamn Floor (ao3) - pepelovesme

Summary: Dan and Phil's 2009 meeting reimagined. Dan is curious, they talk sexuality. Smut ensues.

[stardewvalleycatycat]

. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖ what i thought of sam and sebby when i first played stardew. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁˖

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ sam

✮⋆˙ I like his vibe, being a musician seeing a character like that gave him some points. I liked his sweet kind personality. getting into his heart events changed my thoughts on him however..

๋࣭ ⭑⚝i really liked his two heart event it was cute seeing him jam out with his friends, and im a huge fan of the sam,abi,sebby friend group dynamic.

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ the 3 heart event was really cute and it showed the dynamic between vincent and same which was cute. i dont have alot else to say about it

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ the 4 heart event however, i didnt like it. it feels childish, you earn 50 friendship points with him for basically lying which i find really dumb.

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ if i thought the 4 heart event was childish the 6 was way more. he does a cool skate trick and lewis catches him doing it and is made about it cause its not allowed. if this led to making a skate park in the town i would enjoy it alot more.

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ the 8 heart event was alot of fun i enjoyed it, it continues on the 2nd heart event and you get to see him, abi and sebby play their concert, my favorite sam heart event.

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ yikes... we know how i feel about the childish sam heart events. if it wasnt for his mom walking in i would enjoy it alot more. but it felt really weird considering his most likely in his 20s

๋࣭ ⭑⚝ in conclusion i enjoy him at the beginning but after that im not a huge fan. he gives man child/himbo energy which im not the biggest fan of.

sebby

‧₊˚ ☾. ⋅ ok im going to have alot more bias cause hes emo and emo guys are like m type >_< i really like his vibe and his introvent nature

‧₊˚ ☾. ⋅ his second heart event was anything special it didnt make me like him or dislike him more. i dont have alot to say about it.

‧₊˚ ☾. ⋅the 4 heart event i really like, cause you got to learn that he owns and drives a motorcycle which foreshadows the 10 heart event and marriage with him.

‧₊˚ ☾. ⋅ the 6th heart event OMGGG I LOVE IT. you get to see him in his element and bond playing his favorite game with him which is cute to see and your bond with him is close enough for him to show you his game.

‧₊˚ ☾. the 8 heart event is so good after the 6th one. it again shows the closeness you are with him now he opens up and talks to you. another set up for later is a frog and if you marry him he has that frog in his room.

‧₊˚ ☾. OH MY FUCKING GOD THIS CUTSECNE. yes my emo motorcycle boy bias. he talks you on a ride to zuzu city and then he confesses his feelings for you and then a sweet kiss between you too. AHHHHHH MY BRAIN TURNED INTO MUSH AFTER THIS. I think you can see who i like better :p

‧₊˚ ☾.in conclusion, for sebby i like how its hard to get close but once you do its SO FUCKING CUTE.

if you have any recommendations for more things or fanfic to write lmk <333

[love-advice-on-call]

Hi sweetheart! I'm in a dilema (not with my relationship) I really hope you can help me, I'm gonna be using fake names just in case, and I'm sorry for any grammar mistake, english is not my first language

I'm friends with these people, Alena, Marie and George. Alena has been feeling pretty bad recently cause life is hard and even she's giving her best it doesn't seems enough (her own words) She has been working since she's 15 (she's almost 40 now) and she enjoys and it's really good at her job, she's really outgoing and people always loves her a lot for that. On the other hand, Marie it's really introvered but she's really sweet once you meet her, she doesn't likes to work but she does has a job. She, like Alena, had an alcoholic dad who used to say horrible things to her, both of them (Alena and Marie) cope with that in different ways but both of them try to be a better person and they know that horrible things their dads used to say aren't the truth

Our friend, George has a new friend, Joe. We met Joe and we could all see that he's a good person + he's a hard worker + he is (or at least tries) to be a good dad for his kid even tho his own dad abandoned him and his mom before he was born. Joe fell in love with Marie the moment he saw her and he fell even harder when he met her personallity

Here's where the problem starts: Alena thinks it's not fair that Joe fell for Marie. Alena says that she should be the one that has a guy like him falling for her, that she's more outgoing than Marie, that she's skinnier, that she LOVES to work and that she doesn't understands how Marie can find guys like Joe so easily + it didn't helped that George told us that Joe told him that he wouldn't mind to be a provider for Marie, that he makes enough money for them to live comfortably without him stoping giving child support for his kid

Now, I can see where Alena is coming from but I also don't think it's Marie's fault that Joe fell in love with her (oh, I think I didn't said this before but they aren't in a relationship yet, but we all think it's a matter of time tho) + it didn't helped that one of Alena's friends, Paula, agrees 100% with everything Alena says. I think we, as friends of Alena, should approach things differently, right? I mean, like I said, I see where Alena is coming from but then, everyone deserves love

Your English is good! Honestly, pretty much everyone who ever writes in saying English is their second language almost always having better grammar/spelling than native speakers.

I say this kind of from a conversation standpoint and less about advice, but I honestly think what Alena is experiencing is almost like a form of culture shock. If you’re an immigrant or a child of an immigrant (like myself) this can especially be a kick in the head. We can be told our whole lives that the way to be appealing to someone else is to have these XYZ qualities. Be thin, having a good job, go to a good school, be a good provider, etc. We achieve these things, then we expect the things we want to come with that because honestly in a way many of us were promised that. Maybe that is a nice husband/wife that makes lots of money and is good looking. After a while a guy shows up who fits everything we were told would come to us and he walks right past us to go for someone else…. and we might think “well I made myself to fit this template piece so hard and that person didn’t. This isn’t fair. Why did I have to do these things… Why don’t they have to do these things? Did I waste a part of my life?” And people like Alena might get angry, but eventually they either cement themselves further in those thoughts and decide that everyone else needs to fit a template to be happy or they realize that the template was kind just meant to be a suggestion and doesn’t matter all that much.

People like Paula may agree with Alena, but people like me agree with you that sometimes these things just happen and everyone deserves to be loved. People will end up finding each other sometimes purely based on how they feel about someone and not the way they might fit into that template that was laid out for us.

Now I will say that in my opinion, Alena saying it is not fair that Joe fell for Marie and not her because she is skinnier, works harder, is more outgoing IS the reason why Joe fell for Marie and not her. It’s kind of a mean thing to say and shows a bit about her personality. You can’t just go around saying things like that about someone (especially a friend) and Alena saying things like that is also an insult towards Marie.

Now here’s the thing (and I’m sure you’re already feeling this): What happens now that we know Alena feels this way and all of you are in this circle of friends together? I don’t think you have too much bearing on what it is Alena says or feels, but what you do have is how you react to those things. If you aren’t already, I think it would be good to stand up for Marie (especially when Marie isn’t around) when Alena digs into Marie about Joe choosing her. I don’t suggest doing it aggressively, but more of letting Alena know that what she is saying isn’t the nicest thing to be saying about Marie. If Alena goes unchecked, then it may make her think it is okay to be saying these things about Marie and she might eventually start bullying Marie which might spoil her relationship with Joe. I don’t want this to turn into a situation where Alena becomes so bitter that she starts to mistreat Joe and Marie. I especially don’t want this to spread out into the rest of your friend group and suddenly we have Alena bullying other people publicly. It is great that you are putting this much care and effort into your friends, but you are just one person at the end of the day and if Alena kind of goes off the rails, then that is that. The best thing you can do as a friend to both of these people is to validate that Marie and Joe is a nice/good thing happening and supporting that Alena will eventually find the person who will like her for her.

Posted May 2, 2025

[passagesofthepluricosm]

Lastland Legacy, Lastland Forever Picrews (Jess' Saga)

Name: Jess Bard

Sexuality: Bisexual

Gender: Genderfluid (they/she/he)

Age at Start of Story: 20

Relationship: Ruth, Ivan, Duke

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff (eventually genetically modifies themself to be the Gifted of Resurrection, albeit they can only bring back people as ghosts)

Hair: Wavy, brown, mid-length down back, tied back

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Brown

Body: Average

Personality: Friendly, happy, enthusiastic, adventurous, optimistic, playful, wants to be just like the Gifted

Name: Ruth Harbor

Sexuality: Bisexual

Gender: Trans woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 21

Relationship: Jess

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff

Hair: Short, black, wavy, fluffy

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Pale

Body: Plump

Personality: Kind, gentle, sweet, caring, nurturing

Name: Volts

Sexuality: Lesbian

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 22

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff

Hair: Clean-shaven

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Brown

Body: Average

Personality: Sharp, impatient, driven, protective of Ruth

Name: Alexei Mikhailov

Sexuality: Pansexual, gray/aro-ace spectrum

Gender: Agender (they/them)

Age at Start of Story: 21

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff

Hair: Short, sleek, white

Eyes: Heterochromia, left eye dark, right eye light

Skin: Pale

Body: Small, thin, sickly

Personality: Emotionless, expressionless, flat, neutral, intelligent, enjoys listening to people, thoughtful, curious, learner, hard to read

Name: Myles Letterman

Sexuality: Gay/Androsexual

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 21

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff

Hair: Short, brown, intentionally mussed up

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Tan

Body: Thin, lanky

Personality: Flirty, funny, sassy, dramatic

Name: [Redacted] Hathaway

Sexuality: Questioning

Gender: Third gender (xe/xem/xyr)

Age at Start of Story: 21

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff

Hair: Fluffy, poofy, white-blonde

Eyes: Blue

Skin: Pale

Body: Plump, large, broad, husky

Personality: Shy, anxious, nervous, awkward, wants to be friends

Name: Jorgen Sorensen

Sexuality: Bisexual, demisexual

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 30

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff

Hair: Long, thick, black

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Pale, scarred

Body: Broad, muscled

Personality: Quiet, introverted, looks scary but is actually kind, wise, gentle, and emotionally intelligent

Name: Missy Hathaway

Sexuality: Straight

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 26

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Westcliff

Hair: Fluffy, poofy, white-blonde

Eyes: Blue

Skin: Pale

Body: Plump, large, broad, husky

Personality: Sharp, strict, stern, orderly, overachieving, intelligent

Name: Anna Potterson

Sexuality: Lesbian

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 30

Relationship: Wife of Harmony

Status: Leader of Westcliff

Hair: Gold, tied back in ponytail

Eyes: Gray

Skin: Peach

Body: Average

Personality: Kind, intelligent, prefers to observe and then react

Name: Harmony Potterson

Sexuality: Lesbian

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 30

Relationship: Wife of Anna

Status: Second-in-command of Westcliff

Hair: Long, curly, dirty-blonde

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Peach

Body: Average

Personality: Similar to Anna, but stricter and slightly more impatient

Name: Igor Hart

Sexuality: Straight

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 50

Relationship: N/A

Status: Leader of Eastvale

Hair: Short, wispy, patchy, white

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Pale, wrinkled

Body: Withered, hunched

Personality: Power-hungry, opportunistic

Name: Ivan Hart

Sexuality: Bisexual, demisexual

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 25

Relationship: Jess

Status: Second-in-command of Eastvale

Hair: Short, sleek, shaggy, black

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Pale

Body: Tall, broad, lithe, muscled

Personality: Quiet, introverted, kind, wise, gentle, and emotionally intelligent

Name: Lori Harbor

Sexuality: Lesbian

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 26

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Eastvale

Hair: Black mohawk with neon-dyed tips

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Pale

Body: Average

Personality: Gruff, blunt, stern, witty, sarcastic, sassy, impatient, protective of her sister

Name: Kendall Wright

Sexuality: Lesbian

Gender: Demi gender (xe/xem/xyr)

Age at Start of Story: 21

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Eastvale

Hair: Orange-blonde, short, pulled back, messy at the edges

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Peach-pinkish

Body: Tall, slender, lanky

Personality: Bullying, arrogant, haughty, superior

Name: Katris Casswan

Sexuality: Straight

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 20

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Northplain

Hair: Long, brown, braided

Eyes: Brown

Skin: White

Body: Average

Personality: Aloof, asocial, sullen, but also cares deeply about social justice, albeit misguided at times

Name: Zane Xanderson

Sexuality: Bisexual

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 25

Relationship: Crushing on Katris

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Northplain

Hair: Black, short, spiky, shaggy, wild

Eyes: Dark green

Skin: Tan

Body: Large, tall, broad, muscled

Personality: Serious, stoic, aloof, and mysterious from afar; fiery, fierce, passionate, and protective up close

Name: Cullen Mellblack

Sexuality: Crushing on Katris

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 20

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Northplain

Hair: Short, slightly shaggy, various shades of blonde

Eyes: Blue

Skin: Pale peach

Body: Plump

Personality: Warm, friendly, kind, understanding, emotionally intelligent, less impulsive and aggressive than Zane

Name: Duke Milens

Sexuality: Demisexual

Gender: Genderflux (he/they)

Age at Start of Story: 20

Relationship: Jess

Status: Lastland Legionnaire deployed at Northplain

Hair: Short, fluffy, gold-brown-orange

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Tan

Body: Plump

Personality: Calm, quiet, wise, gentle, inquisitive, passive, friendly, caring

Name: Ranger Reyes

Sexuality: Pansexual

Gender: Third/other gender (xe/xem/xyr)

Age at Start of Story: 30

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Northplain

Hair: Black dreadlocks

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Dark

Body: Average height, muscled

Personality: Stern, caring, friendly, serious but not without humor

Name: Casux Tavish

Sexuality: Aro-ace

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 25

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Northplain

Hair: Red, shaggy, wild

Eyes: Blue

Skin: Freckled

Body: Average

Personality: Goofball, comedian, acrobat, prankster, rulebreaker, jokester

Name: Argos Dimitriadis

Sexuality: Gay

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 40

Relationship: Husband of Romulus

Status: Leader of Southwood

Hair: Long, thick, sleek, black, tied back, up in a bun

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Bright, scarred

Body: Tall, broad, muscled

Personality: Stoic, stern, protective, fierce

Name: Romulus Dimitriadis

Sexuality: Gay

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 35

Relationship: Husband of Argos

Status: Second-in-command of Southwood

Hair: Short, curly, light gold

Eyes: Brown

Skin: Peach

Body: Tall, lithe

Personality: Snobby, intelligent, impatient, cultured

Name: Polltor Tavish

Sexuality: Aro-ace

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 25

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland Legionnaire stationed at Southwood

Hair: Red, shaggy, wild

Eyes: Green

Skin: Freckled

Body: Average

Personality: Goofball, comedian, acrobat, prankster, rulebreaker, jokester

Name: Chief Luna Kade

Sexuality: Demisexual

Gender: Cis man (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 60

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland leader

Hair: Long, sleek, white

Eyes: Gray

Skin: Pale

Body: Tall, lithe, thin

Personality: Stern, fatherly, calm, wise, relatively neutral, tries to stay out of conflict, exasperated 

Name: Ebony Bard

Sexuality: Pansexual

Gender: Intersex, genderqueer (she/they/he)

Age at Start of Story: 45

Relationship: Wife of Gloria

Status: Lastland civilian

Hair: Thick, bushy, black, midway down back or tied back

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Dark

Body: Tall, lithe, bony

Personality: Fierce, stern, sharp, secretly loving and maternal

Name: Gloria Bard

Sexuality: Lesbian/gynosexual

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 45

Relationship: Wife of Ebony

Status: Lastland civilian

Hair: Short, gold, bobbed/curled

Eyes: Blue

Skin: Pale

Body: Short, plump

Personality: Loving, sweet, soft, perfectionist, can be fretful

Name: Mell Bard

Sexuality: Questioning

Gender: Cis woman (she/her)

Age at Start of Story: 15

Relationship: N/A

Status: Lastland civilian

Hair: Dark, curly, midway down back

Eyes: Dark

Skin: Tan

Body: Small

Personality: Sassy, sarcastic, teasing, precocious, a little materialistic

Name: Ethan Milens

Sexuality: Questioning

Gender: Cis boy (he/him)

Age at Start of Story: 15

Relationship: Single

Status: Lastland civilian

Hair: Short, fluffy, gold-brown-orange

Eyes: Light brown

Skin: Light brown

Body: Thin, lanky

Personality: Sassy, snarky, sarcastic, friendly, energetic, less physically inclined than his brother

[danekez]

I wonder what life would be like medicated.

[phanfictioncatalogue]

Friends to Lovers (8) Masterlist

part one, part two, part three, part four, part five, part six, part seven

About useless lists and oblivious teenagers (ao3) - OliveTheHobbit

Summary: Phil helps Dan with his sexuality crisis while he tries to overcome the fact he is head over heels for him. Oh, and they have a date day.

Apartment 126 (ao3) - girlboss128

Summary: Dan is 23 year old video editor living in a London flat. His days are boring and he lives life as a hopeless romantic. Then, Phil Lester, a 27 year old Internet celebrity moves in across the hall. Dan after one glance decides he needs Phil in his life. Dan is forward and persistent. How could this end?

April Fools (ao3) - hygge

Summary: Dan proposes an April Fools Day prank that he thinks will shock the Internet. But, when it comes time to share it with the world, Phil has second thoughts. There is something he needs to get off of his chest instead.

Big Love (ao3) - winstonlives

Summary: Phil wakes up freezing one night, only to find out he is shrinking. Panicked and tiny he goes to Dan for help. Together the two deal with the challenges that come along with being too small for the normal world. Relying on each other, and working together, they realize their friendship, is in fact more than just friendship.

Come Clean (ao3) - castrotophic

Summary: Dan thinks Phil might be in love with him, but he's not quite sure how to figure it out.

Craving Control (ao3) - starwatersong

Summary: Phil is intrigued by the hypnotist at the YouTuber Summit in 2016 and finds himself oddly fascinated by hypnotism. Is Dan helping him find one for a video for Phil’s benefit… or Dan’s? Some timeline mixing where Phil’s fortune telling video takes place in an earlier time. They’re living in London apartment #1 in this story.

Don’t be scared (ao3) - danisnot3131

Summary: Before agreeing to go on Tour for Interactive Introvers, Dan is hit with the realization that he’s been in love with Phil for years.

Do You Know How in Love With You I Am (Please Notice) (ao3) - phantasticworks

Summary: Based on a Phan!The Office AU drawing by @laurainlilac on tumblr

Dan works at a small paper company, but the brightside to this boring career is that his best friend Phil is just a few feet away at reception. The downside to this is that he’s hopelessly, irrevocably in love with said best friend. Oh, and Phil is engaged, too.

A short little story about best friends, being in love, and pining hopelessly after the boy you think you can’t have. But, don’t worry, there’s a happy ending in here somewhere.

drop your heart I’ll save it for you(ao3) - Anonymous

Summary: Tenderness isn’t part of the deal, nor are soft words, or feelings, or kisses that don’t lead to fucking. It’s not what Dan asked for, and it’s certainly not why someone would choose to fuck their friend slash flatmate slash colleague who they absolutely don’t have any feelings for.

Drunken Nonsense (ao3) - Spring_Haze

Summary: Young Dan and Phil end up playing their own drunken version of truth or dare following a few too many cocktails at the Lester Family Christmas Gathering in Phil’s family home. Confessions are made, and two best friends become lovers.

How Life Changes (ao3) - madd09

Summary: Phil had no idea how much his life was going to change when Cornelia and Martyn announced they were expecting and how it would end up being a catalyst for him and Dan,

Keep These Secrets In A Lie (ao3) - CanDanAndPhilNot (enbycalhoun)

Summary: Dan and Phil are friends. But friends don’t act the way they do.

Like a cicada rhythm. (ao3) - emmibug

Summary: every night they share the same bed, legs twisted together, arms holding each other close. dan and phil haven’t grown up from their childlike sense of friendship which leads people to believe there’s something deeper going on.

a dan and phil childhood best friends to lovers AU where they share the same bed and always have done.

Midnight Cab Rides to You (ao3) - QueenKatelynTheAristocrat

Summary: “Whenever he felt the spiralling of his thoughts that indicated an impending breakdown, there was only ever one place he would go. He wondered how many breakdowns he had left before Phil got sick of him.”

Also known as: Dan can’t stand another damn minute on campus, so he does the only thing he can think of to make himself feel like he isn’t dying. He gets a cab to Phil’s flat.

never quite as it seems (ao3) - Ablissa

Summary: Phil has a unique gift that allows him to see something he never expected to see - his best friend Dan, meeting the person that would most likely become the love of his life. It hasn’t happened yet, and right now, Dan has no idea what lies ahead.

When old feelings resurface and every choice may have a big impact on the upcoming events, will Phil be able to make the right decision?

Stars in His Eyes (ao3) - harleymoony

Summary: Once every week, Dan and Phil sneak out of their houses to go stargazing together. Tonight is Dan’s birthday, and Phil has something planned for that, of course.

stuck on you (ao3) - watergator

Summary: dan finds himself in a rather awkward predicament and phil ends up having to helping him

you only know you love him when you let him go (ao3) - orphan_account

Summary: Dan was sitting on his beanbag chair and nodding along to Phil’s story, tossing a ball into the air as he stared at his best friend.

While Phil continued describing how pretty Amanda looked and how amazing the movie was, Dan was focused on Phil himself. He let his eyes roam over Phil’s face, catching on shiny irises and sharp cheekbones and pink lips, and thinking of how much he’d love to feel those lips against his own.

And suddenly, everything made sense to Dan.

He froze, the ball falling on his head as his chest filled with terror. Phil continued with his story, delightfully oblivious to the panic attack Dan was two seconds away from having. He was attracted to his best friend, and big time, too, but Phil now had a girlfriend, and one he’d been wanting for over two years.

Well, fuck.

You’re All my Reasons (ao3) - QueenKatelynTheAristocrat

Summary: “Phil wished he could think of the right thing to say. It would be nice if at times like this his English Language degree knowledge would kick in and provide him with the words to make Dan understand that he could tell Phil anything, that there was nothing he could say that would scare Phil away, but alas.”

In which Dan’s depression doesn’t allow him to leave his room for two days, and Phil struggles to find the words, but what comes to realize is that maybe words aren’t always necessary.

Just a bit of hurt/comfort fluff to get you through your day.

You're The Only Friend I Need (ao3) - microwaveoven

Summary: Little snippets of Dan and Phil's lives from childhood to 2024. Based on the idea if they had been friends since they were kids and went to the same school

You set my soul alight (ao3) - Wolf_Of_Westeros

Summary: Dan likes Phil. Phil likes Dan. Neither of them know about it.

[moscnios]

hello!! ₍₍ ◝(　ﾟ∀ ﾟ )◟ ⁾⁾

How are you writer-sama?? (or do you prefer chan?)

I have a request for u! (ﾉ0)ﾉ💌 (but idk if you are comfortable doing these characters..😅)

How do you think this introverts: Zoro, Law and Ace (kinda introv?) Would act with their s/o once they're "comfortable enough" with them? cuz I feel like their s/o would have some kind of "privileges" (?) and a somehow "different treatment"?? if you know what I mean (◕દ◕)

bc i think that at a certain point of the relationship they will already know and have already seen all of their different sides and aspects and so they accept them wholely (is that a word?) 😔 so they naturally feel more at ease and kind of lower more their defensive side with them.. 🥺 i hope it's clear 😭 and of course if you want to do it love! It can be a headcanon maybe?and preferably a fem!reader?

Sending love~💚

BYE BYE !! ⋋✿ ⁰ 0 ⁰ ✿⋌

✸  headcanons  %  being comfortable with their s/o.

✸    characters! . . .  law, zoro & ace.

✸    cw(s)! . . .  no pronouns used. slight angst in all three. mentions of bathing in ace’s. ( just physical intimacy ) not proofread.

✸    notes! . . .  ofc i’m comfortable with these characters. i can never shut up about them lmaoo. it gives me the opportunity to keep talking about these clowns my loves. thank you for requesting !!

law will not get into a relationship unless he builds that trust and is comfortable enough with you first

it takes him a lot of time. and i mean a long time. and he doesn’t want you to just sit around and wait for him to be ready because you deserve better

however if you do stay and are willing to wait for him, he can’t pretend that he’s not thankful you will wait

when he finally feels that he is ready, when he is comfortable enough to start a relationship with you, it’s the little things he does. things such as:

him waiting for you at the door of his office, asking if you’re coming in or not. when you know he’s only asking is because he enjoys it when you’re in his office

making sure you eat before he does

relying on you to complete his toughest orders but always making sure to say a quick ‘good luck’ before you go

or even when he smirks when you call him captain

one night in his office, completely out of the blue he tells you the story of corazon. he appreciates how attentive you listen to him, how you rush to his side when he becomes emotional, how you don’t judge him, and how you ask if he needs a hug

he never thought he’d be saying yes to one. but here he was, head in the croak of your neck as you allowed him finally be able to let it out

zoro, like law, is likely not going to get into a relationship without building up the trust first. however, it doesn’t take him as long to finally give the relationship a shot

he wants to lay everything out on the table before he enters a relationship with you. he wants you to know exactly the kind of man he is

he’s very honest about how he’s never been in a committed relationship before and how he probably couldn’t even try to be the textbook definition of romantic if he tried. but the most important he says is, that he wants to change that, for you

he loves when you take naps with him, while he falls asleep to the rhythm of your breathing. because he can’t sleep unless he knows you are okay

when he’s training he enjoys your company. you don’t even have to be saying anything or doing anything. he just enjoys your company

the way to know if he trusts you or not is if he trusts you with his swords. if you are not a swords-person already, he will definitely try to teach you a trick or two in case you need it in the future

the ultimate test of knowing he trusts you is when he hands you one of his own swords to train you

if you bring it up, he’ll brush off your concerns by admitting that he would trust no one else with his blades

i may be alone in this BUT at the beginning of your relationship with him, ace is not all that keen on physical affection

he’ll wrestle somebody. but the sheer act of someone wrapping their arms around him in a romantic sense made him a bit uncomfortable

overtime when he finds himself more comfortable and confident in himself and your relationship, he’ll definitely give physical affection a second shot

but in true ace fashion, he’ll probably ask for it in the most nonsensical way possible because nothing is very simple with him

get ready for a lot of cuddling with little spoon ace

ace’s favorite form of physical intimacy is bathing with you. he prefers having his back pressed against your chest while you wash his hair. he feels safe and loved in your arms

it is in one of your baths together that he tells you the truth about his heritage, which he was holding off on because he was worried you’d see him differently

when you express that you don’t care who his parents were and where he came from, he couldn’t be more thankful that he found someone like you

© MANGEKYUOU. /  ☻

[kittyann]

🔥 Intense BRO-Dynamics with Actual Siblings (no BL, just brotherly angst) (1/2)

POSSIBLE MAJOR SPOILERS BELOW

1. HELLO, MONSTER (2015)

Long-lost siblings. Amnesia. Serial killer. Psychological drama.

2. REMEMBER YOU (2021)

A brilliant Thai adaptation of “Hello, Monster.”

3. EAST OF EDEN (2008)

Switched at birth. Rivalry. Love triangle. Revenge. Melodrama.

4. ICE FANTASY (2016)

Age gap. Birth secrets. Fire vs. Ice. Royalty. Separation and Reunion. Supernatural.

5. ORTHROS NO INU (2009)

Supernatural. Long-lost siblings. Mystery. Life vs Death.

6. PINOCCHIO (2014)

Long-lost siblings. Orphans. Revenge. Hidden identity.

7. THE BIRTH OF THE DRAMA KING (2019)

Comedy. Wuxia. Long-lost siblings. Hidden identity. Misunderstandings.

8. CAN YOU HEAR MY HEART? (2013)

Adopted siblings. Hidden identity. Deaf character. Love triangle. Melodrama.

[nadoriky]

DAY 1 - Heaven official's blessing

The first character I will discuss today is: Xie Lian

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on what basis do I know the MBTI of  the character ?

I see a lot of posts that tell that Xie Lian is INFJ which is one of the options I will never choose to describe this character there is a similar traits of course between the INFP and INFJ ,but there are points that you should consider when you try to know what type of person is in front of you.

for me, I don’t like to separate every trait by its letter for example if he cries a lot, he is F(Feeling) or he likes to go out so he is an E( extrovert ), because this is not a good way to understand the personality. what you do now is defined the personality in a superficially way that gives you the wrong understanding of the whole character.

for me, I understood how the character acts like and what was the reason that make he\she act like that then how this character will solve their problems or live with it .. etc then after this, I can judge what type of character are we having. this is the opposite way for what most do.

for example,

if I had a character that likes to go out the first thing I will say what for

is that person likes to go out to see nature and observe people from long distances and cool his/her mind in a small corner of the park?

how does he feel when he returns back to the home he has the energy or does he need to charge back?

all of this and I can't also tell if he is E or I because you should see more in him considering the rest of the aspects of personality.

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let’s start 

when I first say INFPs the first image comes to the mind that they are cute, sensitive, and weak personality which lives in a tough world that they are so cute to handle.

if that is what you imagine I will excuse you to reset your thoughts again because INFP is one of the strongest, stablest, and powerful characters .

why xie lian is an infp ?

the character we deal with 

- was a prince before and ends to be a rubbish collector .

- was a beloved god for his race ends with all his race stable him with the sword 

- his mother and father commit suicide because for his point of view he was the reason 

- tried to commit suicide but didn’t work because he is a god .

- he got alone and lost in his own world trying to understand what just happened as an army walked on him with their feet 

all what we see and we can still see a smile on his face not a normal character can get to this stage after all what happen.

Xie Lian was a Introved diplomat man that can change another mind without having a good social connection in fact he is very awkward when it comes to dealing with people here we can see his introverted side. the first situation that popped into my mind was when I try to see how he communicate with others. I see the part when he goes to the bar and orders than when the waiter asks him to pay he just keeps searching for the money in his clothes then the garbage bag that makes the owner tells him that he doesn't want money. 

Xie Lian was a prince who don't have to deal with people. He only deals with the country's issues by his diplomat way.he can’t clear the misunderstanding between him and his friend because this need the person to say why he does this or to ask them clearly what makes them think that he doesn’t care for them (the situation is big also because both his friend are introverts) all this can’t be told with introverted way, because their will still be a misunderstanding 

that shows us that Xie Lian is an introvert but also a diplomat 

the introvert diplomats here are : [INFP - INFJ].

Xie Lian Feeling side ?

for INFPs they like to be feeling stable far away from your imagination they would do anything to be stable but there is the thing that shows in Xie Lian that he does want to be lonely that shows a lot when Hua cheng [san lang] shows in his life you will see how he get worried when he didn’t come back he was afraid he will be alone and lonely again.

but you can ask here why san lang [Hua cheng] because this person is having what exactly what Xie Lian wants  [not what you think you dirty mind 😏 ]

Hua Cheng is a very comfortable person when it comes to Xie Lian, not an angry person who shouts and picks a fight he is very simple and cool in his own way. this is a very good thing for Xie Lian he wants to be a person who makes him feel safe not a powerful person because he is the powerful one. 

reasons that he isn’t infj 

- here is one of the things that I will not consider that this person is not INFJ because when it comes to INFJ feeling they always choose a person that is very different from them if they are stable they will want a changeable person. They always follow their lover this is also a thing INFPs will not do because INFPs don’t like other to control their actions that show when Xie Lian even after he becomes again a popular god still collects the garbage and doesn’t always stay with Hua Cheng in his ghost town that a thing an INFJs will never do because they like to be with their lover whatever happens because they are very possessive.

Xie Lian isn't an organizer or a planner one at all

I could have begun with this point first but like i said i don’t like to see the character as litters so i have to clear some point to be able to see the character more deeply 

But how can be a god who likes to collect old stuff without planning where to go or what hour should he start work ... all of this should how he like to move freely without a plan he gets his own plan when the station comes this were the Perceiving Function start to work. 

we of course dealing with a P person as for me as ENTJ i can’t deal with a situation without having a plan and Xie Lian is exactly the opposite of this.

THE END

there is still a lot of things I didn’t mention about Xie Lian but I really take a lot of time to write this as my first time writing a long post like this it may be a little bit of unorganized review about the character I wish I also didn’t make a lot of grammar mistakes ...

ALSO write your own opinion so we can discuss about it 

say you later 

[azilastuff]

Perjalanan Jauh dan Misi Membuktikan Cinta

Sepertinya dalam beberapa waktu belakangan ini, aku banyak menuliskan seputar perjalanan. Main lagi, pergi lagi, ke mana lagi. Tentu saja aku tidak melakukannya tanpa sebab, bisa pergi sejauh itu artinya memang ada sesuatu yang sangat penting untuk aku tuju. Bagaimana pun, aku harap ini bukan yang terakhir.

Agustus ini, setidaknya aku pergi ke 3 lokasi: Indramayu, Jatinangor, dan Cianjur. Ketiganya aku laju dengan mengendarai motor sendiri. Maklum, ya, terhalang kondisi finansial. Sisanya, karena penasaran dan merasa mampu untuk pergi.

✨ 07/08/2022, 5 a.m ke Indramayu.

Perjalanan yang satu ini cukup challenging bukan karena aku belum pernah ke Indramayu, tetapi karena start dari lokasi KKN di mana dua malam sebelumnya tidak cukup tidur akibat persiapan dan acara diseminasi kegiatan KKN di balai desa. Pukul 4 a.m sudah harus bangun padahal baru tidur pukul 2 a.m.

Mau ke mana, nih?

Salah satu teman dekatku menikah, yeay. Akadnya pukul 9 a.m, sedangkan aku harus menempuh 3 jam perjalanan untuk sampai ke lokasi. Belum harus mampir ke kos dulu karena ada sesuatu yang perlu diambil.

Ini termasuk perjalanan yang mudah. Soalnya masih pagi, kondisi jalannya familiar, aspalnya bagus, dan aku sedang sehat. Alhamdulillah. Dress code aku adalah gamis biru dan kerudung hitam.

Pernikahan yang aku penuhi haknya, walimahnya dijalankan dengan syar’i:

tempat duduk tamu perempuan dan laki-laki dipisah, tidak ada panggung atau lagu-lagu dangdut, pengantin perempuan tidak ditampilkan ke hadapan tamu laki-laki, foto-foto bersama pengantin juga sesuai dengan gendernya, dan ada hijab yang menutup tamu laki-laki perempuan.

There’s something I learn here. Sebagai orang yang melihat banyak temannya sudah menikah, aku harus menerima kenyataan bahwa ya inilah hidup. What inside our brains and lives won’t be the same anymore. Their universes are changing. Mine stays—terus menggembung tetapi semakin kosong dan sepi.

Good thing, aku bersyukur pada Allah telah memberikan teman-temanku teman hidup yang baik—dan aku berdoa semoga selalu baik☺️🫰✨

✨ 11/08/2022, 6 a.m ke Jatinangor.

Dua malam sebelumnya, aku dikabari oleh teman dekat semasa SMA bahwa dia akhirnya sidang akhir skripsi. Tentu saja aku senang sekali karena sejak masuk bulan ke delapan ini, aku menantikan teman terakhir seangkatanku menyelesaikan kuliahnya. Because it’s her special day, suddenly I thought about how to make it more special.

I asked her, may I visit you? She said, yes. She’s glad to have me.

Aku mengecek gmaps, ada rute jalan yang ingin aku coba untuk bisa sampai ke Jatinangor (Bandung sih lebih tepatnya), yaitu melalui jalur selatan. Karena banyak orang termasuk aku, khawatir di Cadas Pangeran yang berkelok dan berjurang itu. Apalagi kendaraannya ramai dan besar.

Jadi, kemarin bisa tiba mampir ke Departemen Matematika Unpad lewat Cikijing—Garut—Nagreg—Cilenyi—Jatinangor. Aspalnya mulus, sebelum tiba di Cilenyi jalanannya lowong, dan hanya habis biaya bensin sebesar 16rb.

Ketika bertemu dengan temanku itu, lega banget. Satu misi telah selesai lagi tahun ini. Melihatnya penuh energi dan tidak ragu melakukan physical touch ke aku yang mudah waswas, semacam ada daya yang menaikkan baterai aku. Lapar saja sih, sudah siang dan aku belum sempat sarapan soalnya 😆

Akhirnya kami makan siang di Jatos, aku pesan capcay ayam—dia pesan steak. Alhamdulillah, aku ditraktir minuman dari gerai kesukaannya dan aku seperti biasa memilih jenis varian mangga. Enak banget, ya Allah, pengen lagi.

Dia cerita, sidangnya hanya berlangsung selama 33 menit. Komentar dosennya juga bikin hati senang karena temanku mampu menjalankan sidangnya dengan baik. Masyaa Allah, berkah-berkah ya, teman. Ditunggu kabar-kabar lainnya ✨

Kami sempat vidcall dengan teman semasa SMA kami juga yang tinggal di Bandung, tapi sayang aku belum sempat ketemu karena waktunya belum tepat. Dulunya ini adalah teman satu meja di sekolah—sabar banget orangnya karena bagiku dia yang ekstrover hebat bisa betah sama aku yang introver. Semoga ada rezeki ke Bandung lagi!

✨ 11/08/2022, 3.30 p.m, ke Cianjur.

Di tengah makan siang itu, aku mengabari teman dekatku yang lain kalau dari gmaps hanya tinggal 3 jam lagi untuk tiba ke Cianjur—dan aku bertekad ke sana, juga sudah bekal satu set baju ganti. Alhamdulillah bahwa dia juga hari ini pulang dari kerjanya dan besok + lusa adalah jadwal liburnya.

Karena sama-sama jauh jika memilih pulang, ya sudah aku memilih lanjut pergi. Bismillah.

Lalu dihantam macetnya Bandung dan Cimahi. Masyaa Allah. Haha 😭 betulan habis 2 jam merayap doang, ya Rabb. Sehat-sehat deh orang Bandung dan Cimahi, ya. Kalian kuat plus keren :’)

Perjalanan ke Cianjur itu sebenarnya lebih aman kalau menurut pandangan aku ya, soalnya jalanannya tidak sepi, jika dibandingkan ke Jatinangor tadi. Cuma karena sudah keburu malam, aku jadi ngga bisa memerhatikan kiri kanan. Makanya terasa seperti kosong selain jalan raya.

Pukul 20.30 tiba di rumah temanku juga akhirnya, dan rumahnya homie banget, ya Allah. Kala itu terjawab sudah kenapa pernah kudengar suara jam dinding yang tiap 15 menit sekali bunyi seperti di rumah mbahku—ya karena rumahnya ternyata begitu (susah aku menjelaskannya).

Alert, dinginnya minta ampun. Aku sampai ngga bisa membedakan, badanku ini kaku karena kedinginan atau karena kelelahan, haha.

Ada rasa terharu yang dalam aku sampai di rumahnya. Dia masih ngga percaya aku ke Jatinangor naik motor, aku juga tidak percaya tiba-tiba saja aku ada di kamarnya. Kukira setelah ketemu di pernikahan teman Indramayu yang kuceritakan tadi, akan ada jeda lama untuk kami ketemu lagi. Ternyata hanya selang 4 hari saja. Makasih ya Allah ✨

✨ 12/08/2022, ke Kebon Raya Cibodas–Cianjur.

Sholat subuh di Cianjur itu pahalanya bisa double ngga sih? Dingin banget soalnya buat ambil wudhu. Kan, perjuangan banget, tuh, hehe. Meskipun bangun sepagi itu, kami baru keluar rumah sekitar pukul 10 a.m. Kena matahari itu rasanya nikmat sekali. Hangat. Berbekal tahu krispi, gorengan, dan cincau panda, kami naik angkot untuk tiba di Cibodas.

Satu hal yang muncul di benak aku saat tiba di Kebon Raya: sangat Indonesia sekali. Bagus, hijau, lapang, sepi, dingin, nyaman, berpohon. Yang berkesan untuk aku adalah saat aku bisa rebahan di rumput. Enak banget. Badan aku yang sudah bobrok karena safar ini membutuhkannya 🥹

Ada perasaan bersalah sih karena aku merasa agak ngga sehat, jadi mudah lelah. Makanya ngga bisa maksimal eksplor sana sini. Bahkan saat melewati rumah kaca ketika keliling dengan shuttle bus juga, aku—kami tidak turun saking aku sudah terlanjur tidak tertarik karena low battery.

But, the fact that we spent time together there is priceless for me. We talked a lot. She took care of my well being. We discussed that specific thing about anime. Makan gorengan, molennya enak. Bersyukur bersama karena tidak nekad ke gate 2. Ended up walking beneath the rain under the umbrella ☔️ 

✨ 13/08/2022, 8 a.m, kembali ke kos.

Perjalanan pulang ini kalau dilihat di gmaps, membutuhkan waktu sekitar 6,5 jam. Berbekal pengalaman pergi, ada dua jalur yang harus aku hindari:

(1) Bandung ke arah Pasteur dan Gedung Sate—dihindari agar tidak kena macet, dan (2) Panawangan, Ciamis—dihindari karena mengelilingi satu gunung yang tidak perlu.

Aku pamit pada temanku dan mamanya. Rasanya berat, tapi harus kuat. Raga aku sudah minta menyerah untuk seharian di jalan sebenarnya, namun 3 hari 2 malam safar ini sudah kebih dari cukup. Harus kembali ke mundane life lagi.

Daaan, seru banget bisa melalui Jln. Soekarno Hatta melewati Bandung. Lancar. Alhamdulillah. Sangat tertolong sekali.

Jadi, dhuhur itu sudah selesai setengah perjalanan. Istirahat kedua kali sebentar di SPBU. Kemudian lanjut lagi setelah isi bensin dan perut. Mendekati Cikijing juga akhirnya aku bisa peka untuk belok ke jalan potong. Meskipun topografinya tidak sesantai Panawangan—harus stay di gigi 2.

Alhamdulillah, tiba di kosan sekitar pukul 4.30 p.m, lengkap dengan makan sore. Tak lupa kukabari lagi temanku bahwa aku sudah sampai.

✨ Things You May Learn, Readers.

🍟 Meskipun aku bisa melakukan perjalanan motor sendirian seperti itu, aku tidak akan merekomendasikannya untuk perjalanan > 3 jam dan baru pertama kali. Keuntungannya memang murah di biaya, aku hanya menghabiskan 60rb untuk bensin saja. Tapi harga lainnya yang dibayar adalah stamina. Kecuali kamu terbiasa mudik segila tahun lalu pasca pandemi naik motor, silakan saja.

Catatan: aku tidak mengidap magh, asma, alergi, vertigo, darah rendah, dsb. Bagi yang punya, lebih baik tidak pergi sendirian.

🍟 It’s not about the place and how close or far it is, it’s about who you’ll meet. Sama seperti naik haji—meskipun Mekah memang istimewa dibuat-Nya, tapi yang kita ingin tuju, kan, panggilan Allah-nya. Makanya mau sejauh atau seberesiko apapun perjalanannya, kita mau dan berusaha memampukan diri.

Begitu pun safar yang aku lakukan. Ada pertimbangan. Ada tujuan. Ada sosok yang aku anggap penting dan aku mau berjuang untuk itu—dan ada yang saling mementingkan. Ini bukan sekadar, “yuk, main ke sini.” Tapi, “kenapa dan kepada siapa aku harus pergi ke sana?“

🍟 Di balik perjalanan yang tampak mudah itu, ada banyak hal yang perlu diingat:

(1) aku tidak akan mampu kalau bukan Allah yang mampukan ✨ (2) Allah sering meminta kita untuk berkelana di muka Bumi dan mengambil pelajaran, jadi bersemangatlah untuk senantiasa bersiap diri 📝 (3) safar adalah wasilah non ibadah mahdhah untuk mendekatkan diri pada Allah, jadi ibadah mahdhah-nya justru tidak boleh diskip hanya karena alasan safar 🙃 (4) pastikan bahwa energi teman yang akan kamu kunjungi (minimal) sama besarnya dengan energimu. Di jalan itu sudah lelah, kan. Kalau temanmu tidak mampu menyambut dengan baik, akan lelah dua kali lipat. Alhamdulillah, teman-temanku energinya lebih besar semua kemarin 🌼 (5) di balik apa yang aku perlihatkan pada publik, ada perjuangan bertahan hidup yang tidak aku tunjukkan—jadi, semoga tidak pernah terbesit di benak pembaca untuk membandingkan hidupmu dengan secarik trip singkat aku, ya. Semoga pembaca ikut bahagia bareng aku 💛

🍟 Titik keberadaan SPBU itu penting untuk kita tahu kenapa dia ada di situ. Ada rute jalan panjang yang diawali dan diakhiri oleh SPBU di setiap kiri dan kanan lajur—karena memang tidak memungkinkan topografinya untuk ada SPBU lagi di pertengahan rute. Ada jalan yang lurus-lurus saja tapi SPBU-nya banyak—karena hobi banget jadi sarang macet rutenya.

Aku sempat meremehkan ketika pulang kemarin, saat menuju Bandung keluar dari Padalarang, ada rute yang diawali dan diakhiri oleh SPBU. Aku tidak mengisi karena kupikir akan ada lagi SPBU. Tahunya ngga ada! Pom mini juga ngga terlihat. Alhamdulillah ada nemu satu pertamax eceran, ya Allah. Belilah 1 liter. Itu leganya, masyaa Allah. Berasa nemu check point di game survival.

🍟 Boleh lapar, tapi jangan dehidrasi. Itu sih prinsip aku. Apalagi di lampu merah Bandung, kan lama tuh, ya, nunggu hijaunya. Minum! Pasti sempat. Hehe. Kalau dehidrasi, bisa berasa panas banget dan jadi lemas. Bekal paling tidak 2 botol air 600 ml.

🍟 You may ever thought (at any body): kalau bisa pergi sejauh itu ke sana, kenapa tidak bisa pergi ke sini (apalagi lebih dekat)? Secara personal aku sering mendapatkan pertanyaan itu dengan nada skeptis. Jawabannya sederhana sebenarnya: kesempatannya tidak sama, kemampuannya tidak sama, dan worthiness-nya juga tidak sama.

It amazes me how people always think that we must be available for things that they think it’s important to attend, when they don’t even ask us, “how are you? you good? you okay? is there anything you do on that day? are you still in pain?” etc. What surprises me more is it’s always about us that need to adjust everything on our sides, not them trying to adjust themselves and make a move.

Sebelum bertanya yang dipacu oleh prasangka atau keinginan menangih hak, dahulukan simpati dan penuhi hak orang lain yang belum kita penuhi :’)

✨ Misi Membuktikan Cinta

Kalau dipikir-pikir, buat apa, kan, ya, jauh-jauh ke sana kemari? Ya, salah satunya buat misi yang satu ini. Sebelumnya aku tidak sadar bahwa inilah kenyataan lainnya. Sampai teman yang sidang tadi mengirimkan hadits ini padaku selepas aku berpisah dengannya:

“Sesungguhnya seseorang ada yang ingin mengunjungi saudaranya di kota lain. Allah lalu mengutus malaikat untuknya di jalan yang akan ia lalui. Malaikat itu pun berjumpa dengannya seraya bertanya, ‘Ke mana engkau akan pergi? Ia menjawab, ‘Aku ingin mengunjungi saudaraku di kota ini?’ Malaikat itu bertanya kembali, ‘Apakah ada suatu nikmat yang terkumpul untukmu karena sebab dia?’ Ia menjawab, ‘Tidak. Aku hanya mencintai dia karena Allah ‘azza wa jalla.’ Malaikat itu berkata, ‘Sesungguhnya aku adalah utusan Allah untukmu. Allah sungguh mencintaimu karena kecintaan engkau padanya’.” (HR. Muslim no. 2567) — Rumaysho.

Hati aku langsung hangat saat baca hadits ini dan lupa kalau hadits ini memang ada! Semoga Allah benar-benar sayang sama aku, habisnya aku mau dan butuh disayang Allah.

Gara-gara ini, aku jadi iseng kepikiran, mengunjungi itu termasuk love language apa? Quality time, ya? Kemudian yang menjamu adalah act of service? atau harusnya ada jenis love language lain? Haha, apaan sih 😅 seru-seruan sajalah dikit-dikit.

Namun, tanpa berusaha membuktikan pun, sebenarnya rasa sayang yang kita miliki pada orang lain itulah yang akan mendorong kita untuk mampu menemuinya—ketika kesempatannya ada (ingat, tetap ada sk berlaku). Karena kalau ngga sayang, ya buat apa ketemu, kaaan. Mending tidur, hehe.

Rasa sayang itu ternyata perlu dirawat. Ngga bisa sekadar yasudah ada, atau harus sayang just because any reason you have. Makanya ada pertemuan yang aku merasa mudah melakukannya; ada juga yang sepertinya ngga dulu deh untuk ketemu. Ya, karena ada perbedaan usaha merawat kasih sayang tersebut. Ngga bisa hanya satu pihak, harus keduanya—dan tentu saja penting banget melibatkan Allah.

Makanya pergi yang terbaru ini, capek sih pasti iya, namun rasanya itu mudaaah sekali. Kenapa? Karena aku merasakan sayang yang sama besarnya dan itu menguatkan aku dan perasaan senangku untuk pergi ✨

✨ Memori Berkesan Lainnya

Ketika sedang berhenti di Indomart untuk beli air after I passed Padalarang, bapak parkir bertanya padaku yang sedang duduk minum dulu, aku mau pulang ke mana. Aku jawab, xxx. Beliau timpali, “wah, masih 30 menit lagi. Hati-hati di jalan, ya.”

Sepertinya beliau punya anak seusiaku juga kalau dilihat dari luar. Aku tentu saja merasa senang karena sebagai stranger, ada yang berbaik sikap sama aku.

Kali kedua, di Alfamart. Ini sebelum belok memotong jalan agar tidak lewat Panawangan saat pulang. Tidak ada bapak parkir, jadi aku agak kesulitan mau masuk ke jalan umum lagi. Eh, tahunya bapak penjual gorengan bantuin aku menyetop rentetan mobil biar aku bisa jalan.

Lagi-lagi aku jadi sedikit senang karena ada yang peduli sama aku di tempat asing seperti itu :’) Semoga kedua bapak itu senantiasa diliputi rahmat oleh Allah 🫰

—

Anyways. That’s it. Ngga tahu sih, ini kepanjangan atau tidak. Tapi, bagimu yang membaca sampai akhir, terima kasih. Aku titip doakan hal-hal baik untuk aku dan teman-temanku, ya :’) dan semoga kebaikan Allah limpahkan juga padamu, aamiin.

Selamat menyayangi manusia, untuk kita sesama makhluk Allah yang Allah beri naluri nau’ yang mampu membuat kita memiliki rasa sayang 💛

08.22, 15/08/2022.

[theintrovertedleo08]

Was There...

Ever A Time You Would Let Me GRAB That

Ever A Time That I Could Of SNAG That

(Shit) Ever A Time

That I Could Of SWINGED That

Reverse It Backward Sayin “Miss BRING It Back”

*Chuckles*

I Mean Should Have I Said Somethin?

Dont Wanna Flow In Poetry, N Then It Mean Nothing

Should I Tookin The Charge Like A BULL?

Risking The Crash Like A Dummy

Wall Of Rejection In FULL (View)

I’ll Be That DUDE, and Hit That HUGE U

Turn It Around Like,Reverse Card; Back To YOU

(But)

Was There A Time That You Wish That Time We Had WAS RIGHT?

Or Wish You Could Go Back & See That SIGHT?

Me & You? MIGHT

Gotta See How The Sky Lookin Before We Go Take Flight

....... eh off the top, no plot it’s off the heart

When I be thinking of you, but where is the spark?

[il-ballo-della-vita-maneskin]

Hello! Can I get Måneskin matchup? 💚

Appearance: She/her. 179,5cm tall, rectangle body shape. Fair skin complexion with quite a few birthmarks. Dyed brown with honey-red highlights, shoulder-length, straight hair with bangs. The left eye is a mix of two colors – a smaller portion of (darker) greyish-blue and a larger portion of hazel; while the right eye is just a (lighter) greyish-blue. Heptagon face shape with two dimples on the left cheek and one on the right cheek (only visible while smiling). A gap between the upper front teeth.

Personality (good and bad traits): Ever since I was a kid, I was always quite mature for my age – I identify myself as an old soul. I come off as polite and well-mannered to strangers, yet I tend to keep it to myself by being reserved. But, that’s because I have social anxiety and I’m nervous and shy when meeting/talking to people. The only people I’m comfortable with being with my inner circle – closest friends and family. I am usually more “open” with my friends than with my family. With my friends I can be my “truest-self” – I smile more, I laugh more, I feel more accepted and understood. I am the mom and the fashionista of the group. Don’t get me wrong, I am fiercely protective of my family, especially of my mother and younger sister. But, lately, I’ve been feeling like the “black sheep” of the family, Cinderella who’s been taken advantage of. I express my affection for the people I care about in little, but practical, ways. I can be a little stiff when it comes to open, gushy displays of affection. Others turn to me for help and advice. I’m kind-hearted and generous, always ready to help a person in need. Always have been motherly towards children. Very awkward at keeping small talk (usually with people that I’m not that close with). Absolutely, hate speaking in front of a public, and if I do, because of my nervousness, I tend to mess up my words and/or I practice whatever I’m about to say in my head at first. I appreciate the simplicity and am often most comfortable when I’m not getting too much attention from the world. I am sensitive – both to criticism and to others’ feelings (I sponge up the feelings and moods of people and the environment around me). Have a hard time saying no or expressing my true thoughts, feelings. I get influenced by other people’s opinions/thoughts quite hard (I take everything to the heart), that is why I tend to keep a lot to myself (may come off as a little bit tense, secretive, mysterious). I avoid the harsh reality by daydreaming (almost every day) – imagining myself in situations far from my current circumstances. Sort of like a self-escape. I worry a lot and overthink almost everything. I am easily distracted and my attention span can be quite short. I have an internal struggle between my needs and wants. I can lack focus and be indecisive as a result – when I decide on one route, I am pulled in another direction at the same time (“But what if…”, “on the other hand...”). That is why I’m having a bit of a struggle with deciding what I want to do in the future (career-wise). I am easily overwhelmed by pressure and stress. There is a self-destructive side to me (self-critical, lack of self-confidence) that I’m working on by confronting my fears (coming out of my shell). Don’t like taking pictures, or other people taking pictures of me. I feel most content when I’ve straightened out all the details of everyday life. I have a routine, that I follow by mostly every day, and if something small changes in that routine, I start to have a small internal anxiety attack. Also, I like to do things my own way, like, when it comes to cleaning the house or organizing stuff, etc. I get triggered even if people don’t do the laundry the way I do. I guess you could describe me as a perfectionist, clean/control freak. In triggering situations I can be impulsive, spontaneous, quick to act. Quick flare-ups of anger/annoyance when being provoked on my patience. Even when I’m feeling low, I manage to find humor in life and have fun with whatever I do have. Although I tend to bottle things up, I am an emotional person and my emotions are genuine – I love and care deeply and passionately and wish no ill will upon anyone, yet it hards for me to imagine someone falling in love with me or just liking me.

Hobbies, likes: My hobbies are cleaning, writing (re-writing song lyrics, making small notes, writing stories), listening to any type of music, catching up on my favorite films and TV shows, hanging out with friends, going to the cinema, or the club, being out in nature, reading, traveling. I like history, cooking, fashion magazines (or fashion in general), road trips, spirituality, mythology, books, orange juice, previous decades, cottage-core, dark academia.

Overall: Hufflepuff. INFP-T. Bi-sexual. Pisces-Aries cusp sign. “Looks like could kill you, but is actually a cinnamon roll.” A feminist, support LGBTQ+ community. That’s it, thank you!

ethan, ethan, ethan

he is also an introvent and seems mature, so i think he would very easily understand where you are coming from. he would appreciate your routine, but would also try to get you out of your shell. don’t get me wrong, he wouldn’t do anything you’re uncomfortable with, but would try to make you comfortable with being more open, both to new experiences and new people.

whenever you panic over something, worry too much or have doubts, he would be there to comfort you and stop you from feeling low. when it comes to being too affected and influenced by other people’s opinions and thoughts, i think he would definitely understand, as someone who needs to listen to what people want from him and his band, but would always be there to help you understand that your opinion is valid and the most important one. he would also remind you all the time that you deserve to be loved and that you are loved.

you would be hanging out with your friends and go to parties with them whenever you both feel like it, but would also spend much time just reading, cooking, going for long walks and to cinemas on your own. i also think road trips, whether with friends or not, where you listen to music, bring orange juice and travel to places you would both like to visit would be a must.

to people you would seem like a quiet and shy, cute couple, though you’d probably be far louder and more playful when with people you hold dear.

have a great day💕

[intpandinfpfreaking-blog]

This is our type. 

INTP: Yes, I’m a girl and yes, now you understand because to me is difficult in society? I’m a girl with 89% Thinking! I’m a mess, my life is just so improvised, but I love it!

And that is INFP. Yeah, those percentages are constantly evolving but I'm still a snowflakes. But like every time I take this test, doubts still cripples. But being snowflakish is not that bad.

What tipe are you?

[phanfictioncatalogue]

hi! could you please link me to some ii era canon compliant fics about body appreciation? bcoz we know, like, they got fit for the months of tour, and id just like to read something about that. body worship, smut, pwp is fine, but i would really appreciate some soft fics, fluff, them working out together etc. i tried searching on ao3 with the search in results but didnt get much. sorry i know this is long and incredibly specific, but could u please help me out?

thanks for running this awesome blog!

I can only find two fics really fitting this

A Little Vitamin D (ao3) - Spring_Haze

Summary: Phil is surprised to find Dan in a rather inviting position on the outdoor patio of their beach villa on the coast of Australia. The couple enjoys semi-public sex in the sun.

Appreciating Your Thighs (ao3) - yikesola

Summary: Dan’s character is crawling on the floor. Phil asks him what he’s doing. “Just appreciating your… thighs,” he says before Phil erupts in giggles and Dan’s voice jumps two octaves to comment how high the maid skirt is on Phil’s character. It’s funny, it’s suggestive, but maybe it suggests more than they want it to.

A fic about tour bants and bruises.

Here’s some more fluffy ii smut that might also be close enough to what you’re looking for:

My 'alone' includes you. (ao3) - KujiraHanma

Summary: Dan and Phil are on their Interactive Introvers 2018 World Tour. Needing a break from the tour (and work) they take a walk along the beach. Phil recognizes that as an introvert, and recharging by being alone, he can recharge with Dan.

Thank God we're home (ao3) - Shambelina

Summary: Dan and Phil return from touring and they have sex. That's it, that's the plot.

Thank You, Love You, Baby (ao3) - Spring_Haze

Summary: Despite the long day, Dan and Phil are desperate to be together following their first two shows in Brighton, England. The couple celebrates with a load of Greek food and a sexy shower.

you're the only place I call home (ao3) - t_hens

Summary: With one world tour already under their belts, Phil thought the second one would be a piece of cake, but as they're finishing up the American leg, the exhaustion is settling deep in his bones. He's craving more of their London home than the tiny taste his blue and green pillow can offer him. He can't quite understand why Dan isn't feeling the same homesickness he's experiencing, until he realizes that home has been a little closer than the 5,000 miles away that he thought it was the whole time.

-Rae