#is it just me who sees this cycle over and over again

[ja3honey]

So random thought, whar if you were a songwriter/producer for ateez and you also happen to be very close friends with them? This is the biggest 3am thought I've ever experienced argh.

MDNI 18 +

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So it all started when you went over to the dorm to drop off some mix tapes and other files for Hongjoong. You noticed all the members were home, just lounging and doing their own thing. You greeted them quickly before heading to the home studio Hongjoong made. You were expecting to stay long though, after dropping off all the stuff Joong needed, he thanked you and went straight back to focusing on the sound samples in front of him.

You decided to take your leave until Wooyoung shouted down the hall before you got to the front door, asking —more like begging— you to come play at least a round of mario kart cause they were all trying to prove Yeosang was in fact beatable. He just needed the right competitor.

At first, you tried to decline as nicely as possible, saying, "I need to get home before the storm." But all the boys that sat in the louge all pleaded, needing someone to finally prove Yeosang wrong. You sighed, taking off your shoes and plotting yourself down in between Mingi and Yunho. Who were you to turn down a moment of glory anyways...

You ended up playing three rounds before cycling through all the boys in the room. Beating every single one of them.

Jongho suddenly appeared, saying he was going to order take out and that you should also stay for dinner. Yeosang had left with him to the kitchen to make the order, leaving you, san, wooyoung, yunho, and mingi in the longue room. You didn't have time object Jongho's offer as the minute you went to open your mouth in protest, the rain outside got heavier.

Your phone was also dying, and you still had to walk home... you didn't know what to do.

So you went back down the hall asking Joong for a phone charger, which he let you use his. He was curious as to why you were still at the dorms but too focused to ask.

Seonghwa suddenly met you in the hall saying, "You should stay the night. It doesn't seem like the rain is going to let up anytime soon."

"Thanks, but... I don't want to impose." You would reply.

"Nonsense, here I'll give you some clothes so you can clean up." His bright bunny-ish smile made your heart flutter, making you shy away and just simply agreeing with him. This led to you having a shower and giving Hwa your dirty clothes so he could put them in the wash and dryer so you could wear them tomorrow.

And this all ended you up right in this moment, sitting in nothing but one of Seonghwa's shirts and boxers. You were playing with the hem of the shirt as you watched Wooyoung and San set up a card game on the coffee table. Turns out it was a weird drinking game involving truth and dare. But you all were just going to play it without the alcohol.

A couple of rounds passed, Yunho have to bit Mingis ear, San had to spill a secret no one knew about, Wooyoung stripped of his shirt and you had to sit on someones lap for one whole round—it was Mingis—.

It was your turn again to pick up a card. You rolled the dice, and it landed on the number fivex meaning you got dare. So you picked up one of the cards and read it allowed, "Let the person to your left to me you a hickey."

Yunho was instantly blushing since he was the one in fact sitting on your left. He seemed to be giggling like a teenager the minute you caught his gaze. You didn't see much of a problem at first, even though you were freaking at the idea of the Jeong Yunho putting his mouth on you.

"Okay, uh, but it can't be anywhere visible. I have the shoot tomorrow." You warned him, shifting your body so you were sitting, facing him. He grabbed your hips, pulling you towards him without much effort, onto his lap. Now you were the one blushing.

"How about I do it here?" He pointed to the top of your breast that is covered by the t-shirt. You audibly gulped when he said that. You nodded with a quiet "okay." It was so quiet that everyone only barely heard it.

You had to slid the shirt off since you could pull the collar down enough. You used your right hand to hold the piece of fabric over your chest, covering your front as best as you can. You were basically sitting on Yunho's lap in front of the guys, topless.

Your mind was starting to feel dizzy, tilting back a bit, Yunho got a perfect view of the top of your tits. Your soft, plump boobs. He would give anything to grab a fist full of them right now. But alas, Yunho just simply grabbed your hips, pulling you closer before bringing his head down to latch his warm mouth onto your hot goosebumped skin...

AND THEN I WOKE UP!! 😭😭😭 I WAS SO PISSED OFF.... so anywayy ifejjdsj 😖😵‍💫😵‍💫

[thatacotargirl]

To the Ends of the Earth (2)

You asked for a part 2 to this, and part 2 you shall get!

Part 1 is here!

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A Cassian x Reader Imagine

You wake with a groan. Your stomach was more settled and your head more calm, but a day full of agonising pain isn't the most conducive to a restful nights sleep. Rolling over, you are greeted by an empty bed.

It's hard not to feel a smidge of disappointment that Cassian didn't stay the night. You could have sworn that, last night, you'd heard him finally admit his feelings for you - the same feelings you'd harboured for countless years. Maybe your love wasn't as unrequited as you had once thought.

Dragging yourself up and out of bed, grateful to have not soiled your bedding once again, you head into the bathroom to freshen up and ready yourself for the day. The scent of Cassian still lingered on your clothes and it took everything in you to rip the shirt off your body and throw it in with the pile of dirty laundry.

Had Cassian really said that? Or had you dreamt it? Surely if Cassian really felt that way, he would have stayed? Or did he not realise you'd heard him? Did you hear him?!

You looked in the mirror and pouted at yourself. You were spiralling. Over a male, no less. Shaking off the thoughts, you got yourself washed and dressed, and headed to the dining room for breakfast.

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Cassian and Azriel were already sat at the table, a bowl of porridge in front of them, chatting away. When you entered, both males fell silent.

"Good morning!" you called cheerily, setting yourself down at the table as the House placed a bowl of porridge in front of you.

"Morning, y/n. How are you feeling?", Azriel asked, shovelling another mouthful of porridge in mid-sentence.

"Better thanks, not 100% but better".

You glanced at Cassian, but he simply nodded into his porridge, avoiding eye contact with you. Huh?

"Thanks for you help, Cass", you offer him a smile - only to find it is met with indifference.

"Welcome", he replied, not even offering a glance up to you. You gaze over to Azriel, who simply shrugged, but you couldn't help noticing the small smirk he had on his face, and the sly nod he made in Cassian's direction. Cassian remained silent, finishing his breakfast faster than he has before, and left the table without Azriel, and without a goodbye.

"What was that about?!"

Azriel's smirk only grows bigger. He knows something, and I'd bet my right hand it has to do with Cassian taking care of me yesterday.

"Perhaps you should find out", Azriel offers, the smirk never leaving his lips.

Is that a challenge? I think it is. And if it's a challenge Cassian wants, it's a challenge he's going to get.

About an hour later, you find yourself heading up to the training ring atop the House of Wind. You have no intention of training today, still going through the throes of your cycle, but a little light stretching never hurt anyone. And, if you happen to be in the skimpiest pair of shorts you own, and the tightest sports bra barely holding you in, whilst Cassian is stood across the ring, that's just a coincidence - right?

Laying out your mat, you start some yoga poses, careful not to make eye contact with the Illyrian brothers sparring opposite you. Even without making eye contact, you can feel Cassian's gaze burning into your soul. You hear a sudden thump, and raise an eye to see Cassian sprawled on the mat, Azriel victorious on top of him.

"Distracted, brother?", Azriel asks mischievously. You have to hold back a giggle, carrying out another pose that you know makes everything stick out in all the right places. You hear Cassian huff, and watch discreetly as they start their sparring match again.

You stay for an hour, stretching out your muscles and working on some core balance, before rolling up your mat.

"Later boys", you call, throwing a wink in their direction. Azriel laughs, waving you off, but Cassian remains frozen solid - not daring to glance in your direction. It doesn't change the heady scent of arousal that wafts in your direction as you spin on your heels though, which takes on a distinct sandalwood tone, the same that had clung to your shirt last night.

Feeling pretty confident, based on Azriel's behaviour today and Cassian's response at the training ring, you decide to kick it up a notch.

You run yourself a bubble bath - which is realistically more bubbles than it is water - and settle yourself in. Cleaning off the sweat from your hour long yoga session, you wait patiently, listening for the distinctive heavy footsteps of the Illyrian General.

When you hear them walking down the hallway, you make your move.

"Is someone out there?", you call. You hear Cassian's footsteps stop outside your door.

"Y/n? All ok?", he calls back cautiously.

Carefully situating yourself so you are completely covered by the bubbles from the neck down, you smirk to yourself.

"Not really - I've got myself in a bit of a pickle and I can't reach it!".

You hear Cassian open your bedroom door and stifle your laugh when he pauses, clearly confused as to where you are.

"Can't reach what?"

"The shampoo, Cass. Give a girl a hand?"

You can almost hear his breathing from how deep it is in the adjoining room.

"Why can't you get it?"

"Why, because I'm all wet silly! Rhys won't be happy if I damage his floor by getting it soaked". You knew it was a bold-faced lie, the House would dry the floor instantly for you. He could correct you, he could tell you that the House would dry the floor, or that the House would even get the bottle for you if you asked it to. Or, he could walk in and give it to you. The choice was his.

You waited, almost giving up, before you saw the doorknob to the bathroom turning. Cassian walked into the room, hands over his eyes, as he reached out blindly to your shelves.

"This one?" he asks, holding up a body lotion.

"Nope"

"This one?" he asked, holding up a bottle of perfume.

"Cass, please just pass me my shampoo".

Cassian turns his back to you, making sure he can't see, before locating the shampoo and passing it to you without looking. You can see how hard his body is moving from his deep breathing.

"Thanks Cass".

"Yep, ok, good, welcome, is, um, is that all?"

He's flustered.

"Yes, thank you".

Then he ran, so fast he almost tripped on the carpet, out of the bathroom - your laughter following in his wake.

As evening approached, you began to get frustrated. You had spent the entire day taunting him, trying to get him to react, and the most you had got out of him was a blush.

You knew you weren't wrong - Cassian had some sort of feelings for you - and you wanted to know what they were. But, if he was going to play this hard to get, it was more than just a challenge you'd taken on - it was a damn suicide mission. You had to hit it in the one place he wouldn't be able to handle. You'd have to fight fire with fire.

As the Inner Circle gathered around the dinner table that night, exchanging stories of their day, your eyes fell to Azriel. He looked at you, confusion marring his face, until he saw your eyes glance over to Cassian, then back to him. His shadows, whirling around his face, filled him in on the rest of your plan; and Azriel smirked, leaning back in his chair.

Dinner was swiftly finished and everyone descended to the sofas in the main living room of the House, glasses of wine and whiskey in hand. You waited until Cassian was seated opposite Azriel, settled with his glass, before you made your move.

Sauntering up to Azriel, you gave him a smile, and sat down on his lap before taking a small sip of your wine. His legs moved, accommodating you, so you could lean against his chest. You didn't dare look up at Cassian, but you could feel the stares from the rest of your family, who were absolutely baffled about the scene unfolding in front of them.

"How about a drinking game?", you suggested, your voice cheeky and mischievous.

"Heck yeah!" Mor replied, "how about truth or dare? If you don't answer the truth or do the dare, you drink".

"Sounds great! Mor, you go first".

A few rounds went by and soon you were all in fits of laughter. Cassian had flown around the House of Wind entirely naked, Feyre had taken a shot of whiskey off of Rhysand's body, and Elain had admitted her crush on Lucien - much to everyone's whooping and excitement, and Elain's sheer mortification. Soon, it was Azriel's turn to ask you a question, and you saw the wicked gleam in his eye before he even opened his mouth.

"Y/n. I dare you to kiss me".

You gape at him, still seated in his lap. You can feel Cassian's gaze blaring at the back of your head as you turn to face Azriel. He winks at you knowingly, and you feel your confidence rising.

"Very well, I'm not one to turn down a dare".

You begin to slowly lean in to Azriel, eyes closed, before you are suddenly hoisted into the air. You open sharply, and realise you are staring down over Cassian's shoulder. You look up and see Azriel laughing on the sofa, Feyre in stitches on the floor, and Rhysand with a beaming smile on his face.

You stay silent as you let Cassian carry you up to his bedroom. He places you on the floor, his face red with fury.

"What the fuck was that about? Do you have feelings for Az?"

It was so comical, you couldn't help but laugh. Cassian stared at you absolutely bewildered.

"What's so funny?"

"He was doing it to wind you up, Cass; we were both in on it, I've been doing it all day".

"But why?"

You felt your own face flood red then, eyes on the floor as you fiddled with you hands.

"I heard you. Last night".

Cassian froze.

Several minutes went by in silence.

"Did ... did you mean it?"

Several more minutes went by before you dared to look up, your eyes meeting Cassian's. You saw the guarded look in them, his eyes searching yours. Clearly, they found what they were looking for, because his entire body softened.

"I meant every word of it".

You lunged at him, wrapping your legs around his waist and arms around his neck as he hoisted you up and into his chest. You both stayed like that, holding each other for some time. When you lifted your head from his shoulder, you noticed he was smiling, his eyes swimming with love and adoration. You felt a warmth in your heart that you'd never felt before, and clung to him tighter, resting your head back on his shoulder with a sigh.

"I'd go to the ends of the Earth for you too, Cass".

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[buckybarnesb-tch]

Yan. College Student!Klaus M. A-Z

(I’ve done several Alphabets for Klaus already but I thought to do one for my Human!High School series but then I thought…Yandere College Student! And here we are😈)

A stands for AFFECTION: how would they show affection?

•Gift Giving is Klaus’ love language

•Before you even knew who he was he was sending you flowers almost everyday, especially after overhearing you tell your best friend that you love how strongly your (usually gross smelling thanks to so many other students in the wing) dorm room smells of roses thanks to the constant cycle of fresh flowers being delivered

•After he introduces himself to you for the first time (which he believes is your 6 month anniversary) he gives you a black Eternity Collar that he keeps the key to so that you can never remove it, clearly loving the knowledge that you are wearing a collar that he has gifted you

B stands for BLOODY: how bloody are they willing to get for their object of obsession?

•Klaus has made it clear that he is willing to do whatever he deems necessary to “protect you” in any way and that sometimes means getting his hands bloody

•You made the mistake around the third month of your Stalker (though he signed all of his love letters to you ‘Your Loving Boyfriend’) sending you letters and gifts, of going out on a date with a boy from your Econ class. He had been asking you out relentlessly for over 2 months and while you originally said “No” because of your Stalker, his persistence had also creeped you out (arguably in a much worse way than your Stalker). You finally said you would go to dinner with him just to get him to stop asking and he took you to a fancy little place in town. He was an asshole as you knew he would be and it seemed your Stalker noticed that too

•Your stalker believed that the idiot you went on a date with had threatened you into it and so you were forgiven…he wasn’t though and he found himself thrown off a bridge to his death later that night (though everyone else would believe it a suicide)

C stands for CRUELTY: would they ever hurt their object of obsession?

•Klaus does not physically hurt you, he won’t hit you or beat you (he had been beaten his entire childhood and he’s sensitive about it)

•The most painful thing he does is when he’s really angry he will occasionally grab you by the collar that he gave you and drag you around by it

D stands for DARLING: would they cross their object of obsession’s limits?

•Sexually, no, he will never do something that you are afraid of or that you don’t like

•Other limits are non-existent. What limits? You are his girl and your relationship has no limits

E stands for EXPOSED: how much do they expose their own feelings to their object of obsession?

•Klaus tells you about his feelings for you immediately

•Your first “interaction” with Klaus was his first letter that he sent you along with the bouquet of flowers, the letter containing his thoughts and feelings for you that he poured out onto the paper and you were instantly torn between being flattered by how gorgeous and wonderful he thought you were and being creeped out by how he was clearly watching you and had been for God knows how long

•He never hid his feelings from you in any regard, not even when he is angry with you for whatever slight you have committed without knowing it

‘I have loved you since the day I first saw you, you looked at me and I was done for, I knew it instantly.’

‘Everything I am is yours, I exist only for you and seeing you in pain hurts me more than words can express. You should never have reason to shed a tear Princess and if you tell me who it was that brought tears to your eyes, I will ensure that they never have the chance again.’

‘How could you allow him to put his hands on you like that?! Does this relationship mean nothing to you? Do I Mean Nothing to You?! I have not so much as thought about touching another girl since the day we met and you are on a date?!’

‘I cannot express how sorry I am for scaring you my Darling. I should never get upset with you, especially for something that isn’t your fault. That idiot boy pressured you into a date and you were afraid, my Princess was scared and all I did was make it worse, I am so sorry. Please forgive me for the words I wrote in anger and please accept these flowers as my sincere apology, as well as the idiot boy who pressured you into a date now never being able to set eyes on you again. No one hurts you and doesn’t suffer for it, you will never have to worry about him again.’

•His mood swings were terrifying even before you met him when all of your interactions were through his letters and texts to you. You had no idea who he was and you hid all of the letters from everyone, keeping it a secret for the entire 6 months that he stalked you before arriving at your door and instantly behaving like you had been dating the entire time

F stands for FIGHT: how would they react to their object of obsession fighting back?

•He wouldn’t understand it at all and it would confuse him before potentially enraging him if you don’t stop quickly

•You are his girl, you’ve been together happily for months and he wouldn’t understand why you’re suddenly behaving like this

G stands for GAME: do they think this is just a game?

•No, this is in no way a game

•You are Klaus’ everything and it’s not something that he takes lightly. He will kill for you if he has to, and he has done just that

H stands for HELL: what would be their object of obsession’s worst experience with them?

•Your worst experience was probably when you needed to pretend that you had nothing to do with your dates death and that he had just committed suicide

•You were questioned by everyone since he had been with you the night before, wondering how he was, if he was acting strangely, asking why he would do this and you needed to pretend you had no clue

•It was extremely stressful and you locked yourself in your room for 3 days to avoid people, not even answering for the deliveries which just worried your Stalker

I stands for IDEAL: what are their plans for their object of obsession?

•Klaus plans for you to be his forever

•He plans to graduate and take care of you, you’re going to move into a condo together and enjoy being together for a while before you have some kids and spend the rest of your lives together

J stands for JEALOUSY: how they react when jealous? Do they get jealous?

•You do not want Klaus getting jealous, he gets violent

•Klaus will instantly see another man as a threat to you and he will want to get rid of that threat anyway he can and he will absolutely kill for you

K stands for KINDNESS: how they act around their object of obsession?

•Klaus worships you

•He will give you anything you want! You want to watch your favorite movie? Fuck studying for his exam, his baby wants to watch a movie! You have a craving for ice cream at 1am? Fuck his early morning class, his Princess wants ice cream!

•You hate that he does things like that but he will never stop, he loves to see you happy and it’s the most important thing!

L stands for LOVE LETTER: how would they approach their object of obsession?

•He stalks her for 6 months sending letters and gifts almost everyday believing you are in a committed relationship

M stands for MASK: how different are their public persona from their true selves?

•Klaus is a nerdy, shy kind of guy and most people wouldn’t even notice him in the back of the class

•With you he’s a very dominant person and that last word you would ever use to describe your boyfriend is “shy”

N stands for NAUGHTY: how would they punish their object of obsession?

•Klaus’ favorite punishment is when he locks you in his dorm room and you end up forced to stay with him, only leaving when you have class but usually ending up stuck there all weekend

O stands for OPPRESSION: how many rights would they take from their object of obsession?

•All of them

•You live for him, to be his Princess and your entire life (in his opinion) should be about your relationship. What rights do you need? Where do you need to go? What do you need to do that he can’t do for you?

P stands for PATIENCE: how patient are they with their object of obsession?

•Klaus isn’t known for his patience

•Honestly, after finally meeting him you were shocked that he waited 6 whole months to meet you officially

Q stands for QUIT: if their object of obsession died or escaped, would they ever be able to move on?

•Died: Klaus would lose his mind. He would end up having a massive psychotic break and killing God knows how many people before being locked in an asylum for the rest of his life

•Escaped: He would never stop looking for you. No matter how long you’ve gotten away for, a month, a year, 10 years, just when you think you’re safe and you settle down he would find you and lock you away with him forever

R stands for REGRET: would they ever regret harming their object of obsession? Would they ever let them go?

•Klaus wouldn’t let you go, however if he did actually hurt you in his anger he would quickly regret it as soon as he calmed down

•He would take care of any injury and baby you for weeks afterwards until he knows you forgive him completely

S stands for STIGMA: what made their yandere tendencies bloom?

•The day he first saw you in class he just knew you were his

•From that moment he refused to fight his feelings, why fight destiny?

T stands for TEARS: how would they react to their object of obsession crying/breaking?

•Your tears typically send him into a panic

•He absolutely hates seeing you cry for any reason, and though when he’s angry and you cry he will just ignore it, he quickly falls right back into babying you and letting you cry on his shoulder until you feel all better

U stands for UNIQUE: something different they would do compared to others yanderes.

•The 6 months it took him to meet you in person for the first time was definitely different

•However while most Yanderes would want to lock you away (and while he did love having you all to himself) he allowed you to finish your schooling right along side of him before locking you away in the house he got the two of you after college when he was ready to stuff you full of his babies

V stands for VICE: what weakness their object of obsession could use against them?

•Y/n found out quite early that not only could she weaponize his jealousy but her tears as well

•Like most Yanderes, Klaus is profoundly jealous but he also can’t handle her crying and will do just about anything to get her to stop. As long as she doesn’t push it too far she can get almost anything she wants

W stands for WIT’S END: would they hurt their object of obsession?

•Klaus wouldn’t hurt you on purpose

•You have occasionally gotten him so upset that he ended up shoving you against the wall too hard or grabbing your arm so hard it bruises but it is very rare as he is quite attentive about that

X stands for XOANON: would they worship their object of obsession?

•The ground you walk on every moment of every day

•Klaus absolutely adores you and there is nothing you could do to change that. You’re half convinced that he believes you to be a Goddess in human form

Y stands for YEARN: how long would they pine after their object of obsession before they snap?

•He couldn’t even wait one whole day after meeting you before he sent you the first flower bouquet and letter, however 6 months was his limit before he couldn’t stand not being able to touch you anymore without losing his mind

Z stands for ZENITH: would they ever break their object of obsession?

•He would never break your spirit completely, however you would eventually do as he wanted knowing that you were never getting away from him

•Being with Klaus wasn’t so bad, honestly it could be much worse and with how much he loves you you knew you would always have just about anything you wanted

Klaus Mikaelson Masterlist

[amateurasstrologer]

BY NECESSITY #1 SATURN IN PISCES

Hi babies, what’s up? You thought I forgot about you? 

Well, you’re right, I did. But I’m back, bitches - at least for today - to remind you that astrology is still the shit. So, before I ghost again, let’s talk. This week it’s a Saturn in Pisces special. 

Now, before you’re like, “Are you kidding? This bitch comes back after how long to talk about some random ass placement that doesn’t even apply to me? Ugh.” Just take a breath. Saturn is in Pisces. Right now. In the sky. So even if you’re not getting extra fucked like all the people having their Saturn Return, you’re still experiencing the energy and all the shit I’m about to say still applies to you. 

Alright. First, let’s talk Saturn. Saturn is all about form. It’s foundations, it’s structure, it’s hard, it’s the shit you stand on that you forget you’re standing on (until a transit happens and forces you to look down in ice cold terror). It’s important to remember that Saturn deals with all foundations - which foundation (physical, mental, etc.) depends on which sign you’re working with. When Pisces gets involved, you’re dealing with your psychological, emotional foundation.

Next, Pisces. Pisces is about all dissolution. Pisces is last in line for a reason. All the shit you absorbed during your little life cycle - collective beliefs and ideals, definitions of success, definitions of failure, the shit your parents believed, the shit their parents believed, etc. - someone needs to dissolve all that loud biz (cue Pisces) so you can get back in touch with the real true you (cue Aries). Pisces is on that transcendental shit - it’s here to elevate you, it’s fucking your foundations up in a beautifully painful liquidation process, as in we’re closing everything has got to go this business is over forever goodbye we’re done. 

When you put these two together and you get a fucking shit show. Hardening and dissolving? Opposites. Pisces is like “yes I’m here to love you forget you ever had a structure all of this is meaningless it’s time blend in the timeless space of forgiveness we’ll feel it all and understand the origin of life the mystery of life heart eyes” and Saturn is like “Look at your life! Build something! Be accountable! These are your limits - learn them! Wake up! You dropped your spine! Go pick it up! But also good luck bending over to pick it up because you don’t have a spine! Ha!” 

It doesn’t take eyes to see that Saturn is not comfy in Pisces. And it’s true, Pisces and Saturn do bring very different shit to the party. But relationships are raw materials, babies, it’s what you make with them that matters.

Saturn and Pisces, together, create an opportunity for you to give your psychological, emotional foundation a fucking upgrade. Pisces helps you dissolve the fake ass bull shit persona you’ve been passing off as a self, and Saturn helps you reform into a person who, you know, you’re actually happy to be - a person with a psychological foundation based on inner-truth, not on societal/cultural/ancestral rules and regulations. Bitch, you’re a treasure! You’re a beautiful unique person, not a robot! If you wanted to be all copy paste should have reincarnated as a keyboard smh. Wake up.

Saturn in Pisces is a call to transform yourself on a spiritual level. The deepest level. (Deeper than you Scorpio sorry.) This isn’t some find a new job, find a new hobby bull shit. This is deep unconscious reconditioning. This is scary, triggering shit. You thought Pisces was out here just blending in the gooey goodness of love? Please. Think about what dissolution actually means. You want to be psychologically free? You want to scrub your karma? Get in touch with your essence? Lol. Girl. Get ready. This transformation process is a gnarly, confusing, and, most importantly, it takes time (thanks, Saturn). Just can’t rush it. 

Alright, before you get too scared to continue, let me say it one more time for the people in the back: When Saturn is in Pisces, the unconscious, emotional (Pisces) foundation (Saturn) of your life stops being hidden. Material that was collecting dust (and power) in your unconscious (Pisces) is suddenly visible (Saturn). Surprise, bitch! Time to take a look.

Okay. Now, what happens when you’re confronted with your very own subconscious (Pisces) scaffolding (Saturn)? Well, two options: 

(1) You lose perspective and collapse the transformation process before it has time to do its thing, dissolving your sense of self (Pisces) and hardening around rigid beliefs (Saturn) to bring yourself back to a superficial sense of safety, making your life temporarily more stable and comfy but ten million times harder to confront your psychological foundation at the next opportunity.

(2) You stay focused on the big picture and face your fears, dissolving the toxic beliefs you were unconsciously building your life on (Pisces) and reforming your identity (Saturn) into something real and true, making your life temporarily more lonely and difficult but ten million times easier to relate to yourself and others forever and ever amen.

“Uh wtf who would pick option one?” You, me, anyone allowing themselves to actually feel the crippling existential dread of having to face the unknown (Pisces) or anyone who can’t bear the thought of looking critically at their inherited beliefs (Saturn). It’s not an opportunity for the faint of heart. Or for anyone who doesn’t have, at the very least, one friend. And not some moralizing “forgiveness heals all wounds hang in there” type of friend - I’m talking some real ass, truth staring ass, love you anyways bitch.

So, why did I return from the underworld to tell you this shit now? Because Saturn is only halfway through it’s uncomfortable stay on the Pisces commune. Listen - if you’re starting to feel crazy, like (1) “I swear some shit must be up I just cannot catch a break from feeling like living shit” and (2) “why does the same shit continue to happen to me over and over again like fuck I thought I got over this shit in 1933” it’s because (1) you’re being called to transform and transformation is an active process time to stop being dragged around use you legs and (2) part of this particular transformation process is acknowledging that you did not leave any shit in 1933 and you’ve actually been dragging that ugly shit around in your unconscious and it’s secretly been controlling every decision you’ve made since then. Sorry.

“Ugh, can I just close my eyes and open them when this whack ass transit is over?” Sure. They’re your eyes, babe. But, just between you and me, why would you want to do that? This is a wonderfully unique time to face the truth (Saturn) and give yourself compassion and grace (Pisces), so that you can, oh, I don’t know, turn this car around before you and your unconscious Thelma and Louise yourselves. For a limited time only - the lights are on! There is no better time to look at this shit. The cosmic support is here. Right now. Let these lunar lovelies carry you through. 

The key to navigating this transit successfully (and consciously), is to pay attention to what you’re dissolving, and what you’re hardening around. Be suspicious about the shit you take for granted emotionally - investigate that foundation - ask yourself: Where did this shit even come from? Is this the psychological foundation I want to perpetuate? Don’t keep trying to wrap yourself back up in that shed skin, babies, it’s not a good look. Embrace the rawness.

The energies are active, the pressure is there, but if you open yourself to working with the energy of the times instead of just closing your eyes and hoping for the best, you can completely transform your life over the next 12 months. No joke. No exaggeration.

Until we meet again, bitches, happy charting.

XO BULLSHIT FREE ASTROLOGY 

[conceptofjoy]

dirkhal reconciliation is crazy to me because its two people who self flagellate a fuck ton but also doesnt necessarily get what they did wrong (dirk i mean lol hal just eggs him on a lotttt). hal has like crazy low trust in him treating her like a decent person and dirks like i understand cause im a piece of shit BUT at the same time there's this undercurrent of like ok get over it already its just me.

they both cant just cut their losses and fuck out of eachothers lives because as much as dirk hates his own company, it's the only reliable/stable "other person" that exists on earth c. like having hal around would keep him from accidentally stress making new clones for real. i mean theres cons too like how they end up becoming this echo chamber that fucks with people around them but like there needs to be a balance like all things.

uhh what else. oh so like in a dirk fashion, he'd totally do this thing once in a while that's like an extreme "trust building" situation. sort of stemming that confusion as to why hal's not 100% comfortable around him (as if he's either lol). so it's like a manufactured slash manipulated scenario where his plan is to "get hal to see that he wont like aaaaactually cause her harm ever again" or something. and hal literally being a dirk clone Gets whats going on and's like oh fuck you. and thoroughly avoids him for weeks. and dirk was like ohh yeah im a fucking idiot this happens last time too bluhhh im a terrible person. they reconcile again then theres a build up of mutual trust over time and this kind of cycles decreasingly as they grow up/ get fucking HELP.

[mightymizora]

Was talking to a Real Life friend about BG3 and they asked if I write about Astarion and I said no, and realised as we were talking that it doesn’t come from a point of liking or not liking the character, but instead a feeling that they did everything I wanted them to do with the character. I just have nothing to add! He doesn’t really have a link to the main plot (probably because Cazador’s involvement in the upper city was going to be more substantial at conception, fine, but even still) so everything kind of hinges on what we see during the game. And we get it! We get a man who hinges on the moment completely. Whereas I think a lot of the other companions being connected to the central plot brings weight to the decisions of their pathways, his really is the fantastic question of:

Do I want to break the cycle, knowing that this model of freedom from it brings immeasurable personal cost, or do I want to seek power, knowing it will make me the very thing that destroyed me?

and Gale and Shadowheart obviously have this too, but they also have family, and a real yearning desire to connect and be better. Their decisions around devotion to a Goddess or finding free will are more complex.

What I really like about Astarion is that his spawn ending is insanely inconvenient to him. He doesn’t want to form an attachment! He doesn’t want to be a better person! He is dragged kicking and screaming towards it because he knows it is going to be a life of immense sacrifice and he doesn’t wanna! And do you blame him? Literal centuries of torture, why would he want anything but power?

But we got all of the plot beats I personally could want at release. We got the catharsis. We got the dread horror of him ascending. We got to see all those little moments of him learning how to connect again, to take autonomy over his own body and decisions. I have nothing to add to that!

[ecoamerica]

Watch the American Climate Leadership Awards 2024 now: https://youtu.be/bWiW4Rp8vF0?feature=shared

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[maleyanderecafe]

Have you played the game Life Cycles over on itch.io? One of the main characters, Harmonia, had some good yandere moments, especially in one of the bad ends. There’s also another guy who turns out to be pretty yandere toward the main character, though that one is kind of a spoiler cuz it’s supposed to be a twist.

I haven't heard of this game, so thank you so much for telling me about it! Life Cycles is a game about an aphid named Oggie and a ladybug named Harmonia. There are eight endings in total with two routes. I do really wish there was a walkthrough for this game though. I was actually mandering around trying to find this game for a bit too. As stated, there are two yandere like characters in the game. You can find more at @bugbytegames if you are interested.

The story starts out with a flashback of an aphid named Oggie who finds a larva/baby ladybug outside of his nest. The ladybug is crying as it's hungry and that everyone views him as a monster, thus isolating him. Oggie tries to cheer him up, feeding him honeydew and promising to come back to look after him. These flashbacks come in and out of the story depending on what happens in the route. Oggie wakes up in his grove of aphids and goes outside to greet his friend, Bean. As we explore around, we find that there are guard ants that work with aphids to protect them as they feed, with Oggie mentioning that he can't remember life without them. As he goes to feed in one of the groves, however, the guard is attacked by a ladybug and the whole grove goes into panic. Depending on if you get caught by the ladybug or not, this is what determines the initial route split.

Being caught by the ladybug will lead to Oggie beat bitten in the neck. As he fades away, he realizes that he is just a small portion of the entire nest, and that he won't be missed. He ends up waking up in a room completely healed and confused why he's still alive. The ladybug comes in to greet him, stating that he seems to have really strong regenerative abilities as he was able to recover from near death in about an hour and as a result, the ladybug is keeping him as an infinite food supply. The ladybug, Haromnia, can feed Oggie bread and berries, both of which Oggie will happily eat, as he hasn't eaten anything that isn't sweet. We see that while Harmonia does sort of view Oggie as food, that he really does care for him, thinking about what foods to eat and whatnot. As the story goes on, Oggie continues to have dreams of the ladybug, with the ladybug in his dreams telling him he'll protect him, the two laying down together or playing games and eventually that Oggie is trying to hide the ladybug so that he won't get found. Harmonia eventually allows Oggie to explore the house and even cooks food for Oggie, before eventually going out to the river. Oggie finds a cave nearby, which Harmonia bring him to, the place where he was hatched. Oggie finds this place very familiar and eventually falls asleep. He dreams again about his ladybug friend and when he wakes up, he finds that Harmonia has fallen asleep as well. He can't make himself leave after he hears Harmonia crying in his sleep about how someone promised him they wouldn't leave. As a result, Oggie goes back to sleep next to him. Harmonia wakes up panicked in believing that Oggie had left only to find him sleeping soundly as his side. When Oggie wakes up, he explains the only reason he stayed was because he heard Harmonia cry out in his sleep. When they go back, Harmonia cooks for Oggie once again and even gives him a plant for Oggie to take care of. Oggie gets more comfortable living in his room until one day he finds it unlocked. Instead of escaping, he ends up checking in on Haromina in his room, but gets pulled into a hug as well. He tries to get out of his grasp, but ends up falling asleep instead. When Harmonia wakes up, he's surprised to find Oggie sleeping with him, with Oggie explaining again that it's because Harmonia was crying in his sleep. As the story goes on, Oggie starts to move out of his room and sleeps next to Harmonia, transforming the backroom into storage of sorts. The two of them live more as partner, even when Harmonia goes out to hunt other bugs. Eventually, Harmonia brings Oggie out to the woods in the snow to a special place with blueberries. As they enjoy their time there, the two are encountered by a bird who is not happy that these two insects are in his territory. Harmonia fights back, as he knows that this was recently claimed territory and tries to fight him when the bird attempts to eat Oggie. Unable to watch Harmonia get killed, Oggie ends up defending Harmonia and is gashed with a wound on his stomach. He wakes up soon after with Harmonia worrying over him, but with his regenerative ability, seem completely fine. Oggie suddenly hugs Harmonia, having remembered that he was the ladybug that he tried to help all those years ago, and the two of them reunite. His dream shows that the two of them attempted to run away together, but instead the ants dragged him back into the colony. Having finally remembered each other they happily continue their life.

If Harmonia doesn't feed Oggie these things, their relationship will get worse, with Oggie getting nightmares about his hive and the ants. Eventually, Harmonia will let down his guard, leading to Oggie escaping from him and back into his nest. However, the ant guard refuses to let him in and instead pushes him away, stating that the life of one aphid isn't worth the lives of the rest. Completely with shock and betrayal, Harmonia will drag him back as a bad ending. If only fed one of the two items, Oggie can attempt to escape when Harmonia lets him check out the rest of the house. He gets caught immediately and is brought back to his room. Later, Harmonia will talk about how it was a mistake to have hoped that he would have trusted him, and that even though he is being used as a food source, he still views Oggie as a human (or I guess in this case, another living bug) with opinions. Harmonia even talks when gathering water for Oggie that it felt instinctual for him to get near Oggie of all aphids and that it had to be him. Oggie can try to escape again later when Harmonia accidentally leaves the door open while he's sleeping, but when he does escape, Harmonia will see him leave and let him escape. When going back to the nest, Oggie seems depressed, having forced to continue his day to day under the ants. Similarly, if only fed berries, but not bread, when Oggie is attacked by the bird, he will instead find himself back at the colony upon waking up, unable to leave to tell Harmonia about their past together. The guards tell him that Harmonia left him there to make sure he was safe and because he felt he wasn't strong enough to protect him.

If Oggie doesn't get captured, he'll instead run out to the guard outside for assistance before being told to go into the shelter with the other aphids. At night, he takes a walk outside and finds the ladybug passed out near the river. Not wanting to leave him, he takes him back to his house where he hugs Oggie while sleeping. Unable to leave and with the crying ladybug on top of him, he waits until he wakes up. The ladybug will thank Oggie for saving him, with Oggie proposing a deal to feed him. He states that he'll come back and give him honeydew so as long as he doesn't attack the aphid in his colony, to which he agrees. While waiting in the colony, he continues to have dreams about the ladybug in his past, how he tried to promise him not to attack aphids and fed him. He also talks to Bean about how he feels about the colony and what the ants are doing. If he acts chipper, then Bean will respond back in a chipper manner, but if he starts to question the ants, Bean will start to get suspicious. Oggie will find a way out of the colony as at night the ants guard the exits. With this, he is able to give the ladybug, Harmonia, the honeydew, which is basically extract from his abdomen, something that many creatures, including the ants and Harmonia, enjoy. Harmonia ends up bringing Oggie out to a field for a picnic and the two talk about their experiences, about how Oggie doesn't really like the ants controlling everything they do and how he wishes that bugs could just get along without hurting each other. On the day where the grove is finally cleared and ready for feeding, Oggie finds the secret entrance where Harmonia was able to get in and sneaks out in the middle of the day. He is excited to surprise Harmonia in the day, but when going into his house, he finds him killing and eating another bug. He runs out terrified, with Harmonia trying to talk to him, about how the honeydew can't sustain him and that he is a bug eater and has to eat bugs. Oggie seems to understand this deep in his heart, but accepts Harmonia nevertheless, even going back to the place where he was eating the bug to say his prayers to it. At night, Oggie asks Harmonia to walk him back to his hive, but upon attempting to enter is caught by the guards. If Oggie made Bean suspicious about it, Bean will come out, telling Oggie that he called the guards since he caught him going out at night. They knock him and Harmonia out and Oggie has a dream about the ladybug again. Here we see the two of them try to run away, but Bean has called the guards to stop them. He hugs Oggie stating that everything will be back to normal and tries to coax him back into the colony. Upon waking up, Oggie tells Harmonia the revelation that they met when they were children. The guards come by and tell Oggie that his body will be fed to the birds, revealing that the ants have been selling their honeydew to predators like birds and other insect eaters. Oggie grows angry at this. as he believes that the aphids could have done this themselves without the ant's help. Oggie is able to squeeze out thanks to Haromnia but then is encountered by Bean. Bean attempts to manipulate him into staying in the colony, as he tries to make sure that everything goes back to the way that it was. Oggie rejects Bean, stating that they can't stay like this, and that there is more outside of the colony. Bean relents, giving him the keys to cage, allowing Oggie to release Harmonia. The ending has the two of them escaping, talking about how they were happy to find each other while hiding in the special spot they went to and eventually go back to revolutionize the aphids against the ants.

If Oggie thinks about going back to the colony, Bean will attempt to attack Oggie, only for him to get pushed out of the way and forced to dangle off of the edge. Oggie escapes with Harmonia and as they believe the colony will be after them, goes to another place all together. If Oggie doesn't tip off Bean with his comments, when he returns to the colony, he is instead encountered by a guard. This guard seems to remember apprehending him and Harmonia as children and takes Oggie to the jails. If Oggie struggles, the guard will end up breaking his arm, which of course heals when he's in the jail. The guard finds out about this and decides to basically use Oggie as meat, with the bad ending of them chopping off his arms and legs to barter with other animals. If Oggie does not struggle, Harmonia will end up saving him and escaping with him.

One of the things I really like about this game is how they incorporate real life bug symbiosis, specifically between Aphids and Ants. The way that the ants use and basically farm the aphids is a solid plot idea that works well in this world. The idea that the ants and even Harmonia are able to trade things with birds (when they're not hungry) is a fun idea too, and of course the general idea of ladybugs being killers and eating bugs (including aphids). This kind of bug eat bug world is really fun to read about and is a refreshing take on this kind of story. I also quite like the designs of the insects as well, with aphids like Oggie wearing overalls symbolizing their more herbivore like nature, the ants wearing guard outfits and looking identical as their role and function as guard ants while Harmonia has longer hair to make for the wings that he has. It's always really fun reading or playing games where you can really feel that the creator has a strong passion for something, in this case, insects. In general, I'm pretty impressed how the creator was able to make such an interesting world based off of the insects and their biology in the real world. You can learn quite a bit about various insects just by playing the game. It's really fun seeing how the ants affect Oggie's life to the point where he no longer really washes his own clothes or even knows how to cook, and how for Harmonia, he did try eating other things besides other insects, but ultimately couldn't due to his nature.

In terms of yanderes though, I'm not sure I would call them fully yandere, maybe light yanderes. Although the creator did say that Bean has some yandere tendencies (which we can see) there are some endings that don't really lean into it as much. I can for sure see it when Bean attempts to lunge at Oggie only to be shoved off, but he does also let Oggie go at the end of another route. This is generally par for the course in many types of games, so it's not like it completely takes Bean out of the picture, but I can see where his tendencies do come from. In the after credits, the creator does note that Bean is aware of the fact that the ants basically treat them like cattle, but because he is so dependent on the idea that everything is the same, he simply ignores it, which is what he tries to make Oggie do as well. I would say that Harmonia and Bean both fall more under the overprotective type most of the time, with Bean masking his want of having his only friend Oggie to stay in the colony, while Harmonia is especially overprotective when he is younger. Harmonia definitely does have more yandere traits, from kidnapping him and dragging him back to his house, but also in some endings lets him go back to the colony, either because Oggie is just not having it after Harmonia decided to only feed him leaves, or because Harmonia just felt he wasn't strong enough to protect him. I will say the bad ending where Harmonia drags him back after the colony rejects him is pretty yandere like, and the entire thing about the childhood friend was very cute.

All things considered, I really like Life Cycles. I really wish there was a tutorial because i kept looping over and over again trying to find that one ending where Harmonia brings him back to the colony. Still, I really like the world and characters and it's just a fun cute game to play overall with bits of elements of yandere. I hope that this creator makes more games with them and maybe adds more yandere elements into it (just for me).

[anonzentimes]

i find it honestly kind of insane how misunderstood komaeda is online like maybe its because i did his ftes on my own playtrough but just from playing dr2 once to me he never felt like a "uwu hope boy" or a "hope obsessed male junko", he just felt like his own guy with his own reasons that have nuance and arent bound to black and white good or bad mentalities, and because i got all of that from 1 playtrough i honestly thought nagito was not that hard to understand and now i see people boxing him on one or the other and i just sit there like did we play the same game ???????

im also someone that overthinks a lot and wants my interpretations of characters to line up with canon as much as i can and i dont dare to talk on the internet about characters i dont fully grasp so its bonkers to me how many people are so openly completely missing the entire point of nagitos character........

It really is annoying how some people completely miss his character or think he has to be stuffed in specific categories, part of what makes his character so great is that he cares so much and is so sweet but is morally gray when it comes to his absolute beliefs/obsessive coping mechanism but even in the end his moral grayness doesn't have ill intentions. He's messed up by the circumstances of his life and the diagnosis also impacts things, he's still a really sweet boy who cares a lot and all of that is a MIX. Nagito is basically the moral grayness added to Danganronpa 2 that makes its messages more impactful and interesting. Nagito is practically a parallel to both Makoto and Hajime, and with his own sweetness and personality, problematic coping mechanisms from circumstances/luck cycle, and appearance it creates somebody completely new and wonderful. Somebody who's Super LOVABLE!!! In fact Nagito is so easy to misinterpret that the Wiki actually says "He's revealed to be a psychopath," which kind of undermines everything about him as well as isn't actually correct to the definition of a psychopath >:(

also the male Junko thing is inherently wrong because his mindset is completely different and Junko is also well written in her own way, the crazy eyes make people think of it or make jokes about it but it's just completely wrong Lol. Nagito loves Hope and believes despair is absolutely NECESSARY for Hope. Again, more of a parallel to Makoto, Not Junko. And then for the whole "uwu" boy it's like, c'mon dude. I know you didn't say these and are indeed agreeing with annoyance with these statements but I get annoyed too so I wanted to add a mini ramble about it too HAHA!

Anyways, I guess overall I just wish people could enjoy him with completely understanding him more, It feels really good for me at least. Probably because he's the biggest special interest i've ever had in my life and mere mentioning him gives me happiness, but I digress I think he doesn't have to be put into specific boxes. Good people can do bad things, he's a complex character with a lot of depth. In a weird way his character is definitely over the top fantasy from the franchise being that way, but what Danganronpa does is make that feel real. In that aspect Nagito feels realistic with how he isn't just black or white.

thanks for your ask and thank you for letting me ramble on my birthday <3 :D!!!!!

[mourningcttlfsh]

maturing is realizing that there will always be someone who is going to hate you for your interests no matter what they are

[introspectivememories]

touch-starved bernard dowd is sooo canon to me

[skitskatdacat63]

I'm looking at 2009 vettonso pics with cofi rn and they're so AUGHHHHH 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Seriously like, calm before the storm, they don't know what's going to happen in the following seasons, they're quite cute with each other, etc. Actually their dynamic in these is similar to what they were like in the later years but the difference of "not knowing what's gonna happen yet" vs. "they've been through so much together and have both come out on the other side."

I mean I'm so vettonso-brained rn, as you know, so take this with a grain of salt, but for me it's like, Fernando looking at Seb like "hmmm who is this rookie, he reminds me of myself when I was in his position"

STOP BEING SO SOFT, YOU'RE GOING TO KILL ME 😭😭😭

[dullahandyke]

i look at some of u guys talking abt a new show u watched or a new thing u read and im like. holy shit thats a thing u can do. im in awe of u. i spend my time slowly ping-ponging between several interests whose base componants i can never experience because i get scard

[representative-blank]

Notes for POs, from a very, very pissed off congressional debater:

If there is a tie, you, the PO, vote to break the tie. You do not, and I mean do not, just declare that the bill fails.

If you are at a tournament that doesn’t have preset precedence and recency, and you’re starting out the session, you then need to pick speakers at random. What does random mean? Random means you pick whoever stands up first. Not who you want, not someone from your school, if you need to pick from randomness, you need to pick whoever stands up first.

Do not hold grudges or try and screw over a specific speaker if you thought they did really well. I cannot stress this enough, if you pick randomly, you pick whoever stands up first

more to be added

[trans-cuchulainn]

also what is wrong with me that when people try and be gentle-sympathetic when i'm in grumpy pain overwhelm shutdown mode i just want to hit something

"are you okay? ❤" no i'm filled with murderous rage, stop being soft-nice to me before i break something

[steakout-05]

eeuuaghh i would like everyone to know that i apologise if i have not responded to your reblogs/mentions/posts on tumblr, i have really terrible social anxiety and for some reason people talking to me makes my nervous system think i'm being hunted for sport by a resident evil boss. sorry if i havent responded i'm not being rude i'm just having a panic attack :P

additionally: social anxiety is actually the reason why a lot of my old posts from late 2022 had weird spacing and spelling mistakes. i was too anxious to type properly

[archiephd]

man if you're voting for biden just to vote against trump, just say that. we have got to get over this harm reduction shit when what we really mean is harm reduced for us, me, mr american and literally nobody else on this bitch of an earth. if the only and most emphasized thing we do to reduce the harm our president and their platform does to the living is vote, we are reducing nothing. for anyone or ourselves, because voting alone doesn't challenge the trajectory of anything. it buys 4 more years before we have to do it all again, if that. thinking this way is what promises having to think this way again, and again, and again and again. in 2024, who american leftists vote for 1 day of the year matters little compared to what we do the other 364.