#is this an actual thing?

[annlillyjose]

i’m not very sure if i like the first chapter of dairy whiskey as much as i like the rest of it

[duckgens]

catcf horror au but I have an ai help w the designs (n then do more myself cuz it wasn’t that detailed)

[wonderlandmind4]

Huh. I’m gonna get a little real here for a second, thanks to a tik tok video that sparked the “oh shit, that’s me…is that me??”

So, trigger warning for eating disorders (just in case)

When I was in middle school, around 13, for some reason I couldn’t hold my breakfast down, and would get sick before class started. So…I stopped eating breakfast because I’m my 13 yr old mind I thought that was the solution. I would still eat lunch and snack, etc. just not breakfast.

Throughout 9th grade….I would RARELY eat lunch, and for me I thought it was because I didn’t have money (nor did I ask) for school lunch and only ate if my cooking class made something or I got a snack from a vending machine. Which meant….I was only eating one meal. (I was also quite depressed and didn’t realize it until later) but that changed when I went to a different high school and starting playing softball for that school.

Flashforwad to just starting college…I was sick for two weeks straight, and the only thing I could eat was literally cherrios, rice, toast. (But I’ve always had bad GI issues) luckily this got better after some medicine.

As I got older, I would fall into a pattern of one meal or maybe two a day, but much later in the day- and with that always came “I’m fat, too fat, I don’t eat a lot why am I still “fat” and curvy” I was never actually underweight nor did I actually binge.

Then, 2009 was a horrible year for me when it came to my emotions, anxiety and depression and basically….I did drop a lot of weight in a very short amount of time and although I used to call it “my skinny year” my best friend has since helped me recognize that it wasn’t my “skinny year” it was actually dangerous and unhealthy and that was basically a trauma response.

Moving on a few years, food for me got better, or well, maybe some over eating happened but whatever, I wasn’t ever turning down my mom/family’s Puerto Rican food. But once I reached my mid twenties I struggled with eating healthy and working out in a positive way, and again, if it wasn’t for my best friend, it would have been so much worse.

Flash forward to now, (I don’t want to type every little detail and event throughout my life about this, so this is kinda the short version) and after finally a fantastic workout/training coach and supportive group (it’s actually Don Saladino who’s a celebrity fitness trainer and start doing programs for us non celebrity folks during Covid) my mentality with food and working out has changed and gotten healthier.

So now, due to my job being physical and my body demanding good nutrition, I made a habit of at least eat a banana in the morning, or two, or a smoothie, or something small before work. I try to have a good portion of carbs and protein and veggies during my work day and same for dinner.

However, I still struggle in a way where I don’t even realize it on my days off. Sometimes, I go all day without eating. ALL DAY. And all I’ll have is water and/or coffee and don’t eat until 8/9pm. And this, was what that tik tok user pointed out who also does that…is this on a spectrum of an eating disorder? Have I always had this issue from when I was 13? Was it hidden behind my GI issues and anxiety or tied to it? (Was it my mother? Hello Hispanic trauma)

I tell my best friend this on the phone and she always asks, “how come you didn’t eat today? Try maybe eating fruit, a smoothie if you can?” And it’s never mean or nasty, she’s coming from a place of concern in a way of where I think she thinks I might fall back into what she’s seen be do or that voice in my brain start whispering again.

Why does it take me this long to fully realize and understand and name something for what it really is/was (this is the second time)

Just some last night thoughts and realizations :/

[vilea777]

sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour

[gabrielora]

When I was younger and researching the autism diagnosis criteria and symptoms, I thought “oh I couldn’t POSSIBLY be autistic.” Because when I read “takes everything literally” I thought it literally meant EVERYTHING and I was like “I don’t take EVERYTHING literally, just most things!” And I just realized the other day that it didn’t actually mean EVERYTHING and that was an overstatement.

[theadhdgoblin]

[nikrei]

I keep seeing people use this image as a reaction to people's original posts:

Which I think is really incorrect, because with an original post they haven't come up to ur window, u've come up to their window.

So I made this, as a more accurate reaction for original posts:

[angelicgarnet]

the way people online talk about autism is getting really weird, like do they know that neurotypicals still have interests? that someone being passionate about a hobby doesn't mean they're autistic? you guys know that right

[aimlesspoet]

a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

[spitblaze]

do *you* think with your dick?

I think with my packer

[foundfamilynonsense]

Had a dream where mini golf was added to the Olympics. And one of the Olympic mini golf athletes lost the gold because she hit the windmill.

And she tweets with a picture of the windmill and the caption “bout to go through my Don Quixote phase” and honestly I think that’s the funniest thing my brain has ever come up with.

[worthless-mess]

"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired

[bynux]

hey I'm sorry I stopped in the middle of that sentence my brain decided to flush its cache and I totally forgot what this conversation was

[whats-this-mustelid]

I just think that 'animals are living intelligent creatures that have feelings and deserve to be respected' and 'when done properly farming is beneficial to both people and animals and there's nothing wrong with raising and killing animals for food, clothing, and other products' are concepts that very much can and should coexist

[angelsonthesideline]

[acorviart]

not to sound like a boomer, but I need some people to learn how to write emails in a semi-professional (at the very least) format so you're not cold emailing a business/potential employer/any other stranger about formal matters in the exact same way you'd DM a close friend on instagram

the formality/language can loosen up in the email chain once you've established a rapport and you match the other person if they're being less formal, but please don't have the very first email you send a stranger be written in all lowercase ultra-casual sms slang with no greeting or signature and a billion emojis