#life of a borderline

[worthless-mess]

[borderline-buddies]

nobody will understand how badly it hurts when you wither everything you touch and lay waste wherever you step.

[treehoused]

bpd is so fucking stupid cause im splitting on my fp so i hate him and i hope he dies and im having very vivid fantasies of physically harming him. but i also keep checking if hes texted me and hoping he will because i still need his attention to survive even though i genuinely hate him right now

[professionallyunstable]

the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere.

[tezriaetho]

fuck it we ball (malnourished, heavy eve bags, dehydrated, and on the verge of insanity)

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

[rainywhispersblog]

[nemosopenletters-blog]

I just want to be important, too.

[borderlineangel222]

and suddenly, again, I feel really tired, as if the world is draining me of everything i ever had

[unknowinglydeceasedlol]

I genuinely mourn the person I could have been.

[worthless-mess]

[borderline-buddies]

am I the only one who wants a sign that lists out all my mental illnesses to be strapped on my chest so that people who can not handle me leave me the fuck alone

[stuuupidthingsss]

when you are very bad for years, people no longer worry.

you become invisible, a ghost.

I can leave now, everyone has forgotten me.

[professionallyunstable]

so i started to think about some stuff. never doing that again.

[tezriaetho]

i’m fighting a war within my head that i don’t want to fight anymore it’s so exhausting and no one understands

[mirroringshards]

cute bpd things!!

paranoia

*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP

yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D

paranoia

mood depending on them

every text hurts or feels way too good

intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH

the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive

paranoia

fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3

"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"

becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention

never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back

cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME

oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself

"just leave. everyone does anyways"

5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever

*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?

dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had

paranoia