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nathank77 · 17 days

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5/16/24

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I think I'm going to transition back to my old blog.. She doesn't care about me and she prob never read a word after she blocked me. I have left that blog like that for almost 2 months.

I wanted her to read those words I wrote for her but I mean it doesn't matter.

I don't exist to her and I mean tbh I don't mind managing two blogs. So it didn't matter to me I just wanted her to know how I feel.

I suppose to her I look crazy. I'm moving on the best I can, sometimes someone can see you in a way in which you never thought someone could and they give you life. They help you learn how to love yourself and see the beauty in the world and you'd do anything to be apart of their life but this isn't a hostage situation. This can't be forced.

I suppose I'll post here and on dopaminergicaddictions. It doesn't matter. She may never talk to me and although her reading my words is important to me it may not be important to her... and I mean what she wants and needs is more important to me. So I'm going to give up this hopefully she cares about me bullshit and this Hopefully she's here bullshit. She isn't here. She never was and she never cared about me. I meant nothing to her. So even though I spent all that time writing that and I wanted her to read it if she hasn't read it yet. She's the worse thing that ever happened to me and I suppose I don't need her.

I've thought about it. I'm in love with her. I don't want an useless friendship anyways. Once she says me and my husband are doing great I'm going to be happy for her but- I'll also kinda lose interest in her. I'll be like that's good I'm glad to hear it and it'll kinda end there unless she tries to keep the conversation going.

And even then I don't see it staying alive, why? Her husband isn't my people based off of what I know about him. A few personality clashing things. I do wonder how someone with her mind could have fallen in love with a man like that I imagine there is something deep and profound about him. I couldn't imagine someone like her falling for someone if all he was, was the few things she told me about him. Maybe she's trapped in the relationship with him as an abused woman. Maybe she's happy. I hope she's happy.

I just know there must be more to him than what I know and it must be very deep and profound. Yet once he makes one penis joke I'm going to vomit. I don't like raunchy people and if that's her style of humor I mean I'm glad she met her soulmate but he isn't my people.

I mean I'd try to be her friend but i have all these feelings and I mean if he is involved all the time. If it can't be a friendship like me and John where the partner isn't involved like mostly at all i see it fizzling out.

I can see us just being friends. I can't really see myself fitting into her husband's life knowing he makes raunchy jokes. I could see myself fitting into her family but I mean idk. Only cause he won't be raunchy in front of the kids.

I guess everything happens for a reason and I learned my lesson. I'm either going to know her one day or I'm not. And if it's friendship it may be a very insignificant one. And if it's significant it will not fill my viod. As only a romantic partner can do that and it just won't be enough. It'll be another Katelyn or John. Someone I'm glad I know but I'll still feel very alone until I find someone.

As for romance I've ruled it out. So I mean obv I'm trying not to be in love with her. And as long as she's happy I'm happy for her but I'm not sure it's going to advance in a direction that it worth thinking about or putting my blog on hold any longer.

If she really cared she would be here for me. I have psychosis for christ sake.

Maybe she thinks I'm crazy and then she's the worst thing that ever happened to me except for Kristen.

Either way. I'll keep both blogs active. I don't expect to ever hear from her again. And I mean it was at no personal expense to put dopaminergicaddictions on hold. Yet maybe it's worth, "moving on."

She doesn't care about me.

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floresyerrores · 7 months

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Saw a post of how there’s this new trend of like pretty girls who were clearly obviously popular (and probably mean) in school are trying to say they are now the “weird girls” - basically like the new pick mes and it triggered me so bad.

Gave my flashbacks of my childhood and early days of middle school where I was picked on and bullied so bad. Almost forgot how bad it was cus I always looked back on it as part of my “lore” and “growth” lmao it was just a normal part of life right everyone got picked on a little right 😀

It made me into the little bad ass I am today right lol.

It was actually so fucked. I guess I always dealt with it by laughing it off but I actually was bullied so bad I had to switch schools. I didn’t *have* to but my mom became a teacher in my school district that same year while I was getting bullied and when she found out about how bad it was, she asked if I wanted to try a different middle school. My bff had to move schools and my other friends got sent to alternative school so I figured why suffer alone lol and thought a new start could be fun.

Circa 2007/2008 I went thru my early emo/scene in 7th grade (never really grew out of it tbh) and I lost all my friends from 6th grade basically since they thought I was so weird and different but I made new friends who were like me, my little weirdos ❣️

I had my little friend group, like 7 of us, we were the only emo/scene kids in our school so we were really close and would always walk together, eat lunch together etc. Some of us would get picked on worse than the others - me for example, so we always tried to travel in a pack so we wouldn’t get ganged up on.

I remember my math teacher being one of my worst bullies solely for the fact that she was my literal TEACHER and would clown me in front of the whole class and everyone would laugh at me and I would just sit there and take it because I had never experienced that before from my fellow students let alone my own teacher…

One time she asked me if me and my friend group where all dating each other and slept together 💀 we were literally 13 dude and she was asking me essentially about polyamory and orgies. Something I knew nothing about at the time. She would make fun of my friends to my face and think it was funny.

Everyone in her class shunned me and avoided me, no one wanted to sit at the desks next to me - we used to be grouped in 4 desks all facing each other and she would have to pick people to sit at the tables with me and would purposely pick the kids who hated me the most. The all thought I was the devil lmao or some satanist

I used to write in a journal and make silly little lists of random stuff like “people I love” or whatever. I was talking about my friends obviously and I wrote their names down on my “ppl i love” list and one of my close friends shared the same name as one of the girls at the table who would make fun of me. My friends name was Kristen, and the bully was named KIRSTEN. The math teacher called me up to the board to answer something (she always liked to pick on me knowing I was shy and was hated in the class) and when I got back to my desk my journal had been moved and the girl with the same name as my friend was like “omg y’all she LOVES me what do I do 😱 she’s in LOVE with me ewwww” and I just knew that they had read my journal. I felt so embarrassed and like my privacy had been invaded I wanted to cryyyy it was awful. Like bitch why would I love YOU when you obviously hate me, bully me, etc etc.

Obviously that was my fault for leaving my journal out in the open and thinking they would not read it. Tbh I think they went through my bag and found it themselves cus I knew better than to leave it out, but I’m sure they saw me writing in it all the time.

Then, when I got the big chop (cut my long, down to my back hair into a short choppy emo style cut) and went to school feeling so cute about myself, I walked into her class and sat at my assigned desk (in the front because she was cruel and hated me obv). She stood behind me during the lesson and touched my hair/back of my neck then said “oh wow they really hacked your hair huh” and kept inspecting my haircut. Everyone laughed while I silently cried at my desk. The trauma 💀

Another time she said it smelled like weed/smoke in her class and came up right behind me and sniffed me then was like, sorry you just look like the type to do that stuff. You and your…. friends. I was like no. I don’t do any of that (I was still innocent then lol)

It got to so bad to the point where my bff made me report it to our AP because she was his aide at the time and knew it was wrong of her. I used to cry and tell her all the horrible things that happened to me in her class that day. So finally after almost a whole year of her tormenting I listened to her advice and told our AP about what she would do.

She pulled me out of class the next day and tried to give me some half assed apology - said something like if anything she said to me hurt my feelings, that wasn’t her intention, she was just playing with me blah blah blah but I didn’t really care I just said its ok it’s fine cus I was always so shy and non confrontational at that point. I was honestly scared of what she was going to tell me. I had been hoping they would switch me out of her class but it never happened. They did find a sub for her class for awhile so that was a nice break from her even though I still had to deal with the bullies in her class (which she helped to create). I vaguely remember something like they sent her to some empathy training class or something but I could be wrong lol idk.

I can’t remember exactly what happened after but she was gone for awhile towards the end of the year or semester (can’t remember exactly) but she was in a car accident, her car was totaled lol (karma bitch) and she was gone for awhile. She came back with a leg cast, showed us pictures of her totaled car trying to get some sympathy lol and basically just played movies all day or let us do whatever. She told one of the students she liked that she really didn’t care what we did because she would be leaving at the end of the semester and wouldn’t be coming back to teach. Idk if it had anything to do with me reporting her but 🤷🏻‍♀️ karmaaaa

We had some students switch to our math class and this one stoner foo got seated next to me/was put in my group. This chubby Mexican guy (Chris). I called him a fat ass at lunch once cus he had skipped me in the lunch line so I was worried he was gonna be mean and would remember me but I knew he was pretty funny cus he was like “HEY I’m not fat I’m just fluffy” lol. I was also friends with his on/off gf at the time so I would talk to him about his girl problems and try to help him win her back lol. He was the onlyyyyy one who was nice to me and actually talked to me in that class when I literally felt like such a loner. He became like my bff in that class, I would share all my Japanese snacks with him and let him copy my answers lol. I will never forget him or his kindness, he also ended up being my 🍃 plug after I graduated HS up until I moved out of Texas 2 years ago lmao. Thanks Chris 🥲 he really saved me in that class because after that, the teacher never came after me or tried to clown me again. No one messed with me after that because he would always have my back if they tried to say something.

Other bullies in school would just corner me or friends or all of us whenever they got the chance and would just say mean things or ask stupid shit like “do you worship the devil” or “are you a witch” and are you all gay, etc etc. Or they would laugh at us in the hallways and make fun of our clothes. We all had to wear uniforms but ofc my friends and I went out of our way to show off our individuality and would wear skinny jeans and band tees or all black whenever we had the chance and ofc we altered our uniforms to fit our style lol. We were basically walking Hot Topic ads lmaooo. Those bullies were nothing compared to the math teacher.

Another time, on my birthday, my friends had gotten me some gifts and one friend (Justin) gifted me a Hello Kitty plush and also a Dear Daniel plushie bc he knew I loved HK 🥺 I was a little weirdo so I walked around the whole day with my plushies proudly and had a relatively nice day because of all the kind gifts. My friend (Kristen) and I were walking towards our bus at the end of the day and the buses were all lined up as usual, some kids already in their seats waiting to go. We passed by one kid in the window seat (it was open) who was taking a big sip of his bright neon orange Gatorade (I remember it so clearly) and he looked right at me and spit it out the window right at me and Kristen - it landed on me, my hair, my friend and worst of all - my brand new hello kitty and Dear Daniel plushie 😔 staining it orange and completely ruining my whole day. My friend smiled at them and kept us moving to our bus but as soon as we got to our seats on the bus I broke down crying the whole way home. Sad stuff man. The orange never washed off my plushies 💔

I wrote about it in my journal that night and I guess my mom was reading my journal during those days since she thought I was a devil child (lol jk she was just worried about me bc of how I was acting) and that’s how she found out about the bullying and decided to switch me out of that school for good after the school year ended.

Lots of other stuff I went through during that dark period of time but those are the events that I remember so vividly even 10 years later.

Good times!

All part of my lore hahaha

#journal #diary #2007 #bullying #2000s emo #trauma #my lore #lmao #emo days #scene kid #scenecore #lore

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anneboleynqueen · 3 years

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Could you maybe do a review of the movie itself? Also what did you think of Kristen's performance?

(tw for eating disorder and self harm)

I wrote a bit already after coming back from the cinema, but sure, I can write some more. Unfortunately I didn't have a very pleasant experience, which surprised me since I loved Jackie. I watched a quick review on yt today, praising how the film goes into Diana's psyche instead of following documented events. The film actually opens with a card saying "a fable from a true tragedy". It's nothing like The Crown (which could be the reason I didn't really like it). At times it feels almost like a thriller, like the movie clip w Anne at the dinner table. Diana is very unstable during the whole movie, she's doing things like picking her own coat for Christmas service, not showing up on time or not shutting her curtains when changing, but family thinks she's creating trouble on purpose, so they go out of their way to control her. Her curtains are sewn shut, the servant played by Timothy Spall fetches her hours before dinner, so that she could get ready and come on time, etc. Pretty much all their scenes are a pain to watch. On Christmas Eve night Diana goes down to the kitchens and snacks on the desserts. He comes in and watches her for some time before she notices. It's so uncomfortable and humiliating, even tho he's behaving like a jerk.

As to saying that I didn't have a pleasant experience, I just feel like the movie is heavy? Diana isn't in a good place during the events of the film. Her weight and eating disorder is mentioned by other people. She has multiple episodes of throwing up in the toilet. After cutting up the tread that her curtains were sewn with she hurts herself, drawing blood. The climax of the movie is her balancing on top of the stairs, looking like she means to hurt herself (Anne appears to her then too). She seems unhinged. She doesn't feel safe in the royal family or by herself. Only with her boys and her few close friends. If I think of it, past the climax is actually when I started to enjoy the film much more. It felt like we're in a hunted house for 3 days and then finally got away in the end.

I'm going off a bit. I honestly think that the movie deserves a second watch. I feel like I wasn't in a right state to watch it, or else I'd have liked it more. Maybe? Even tho I did roll my eyes anytime Anne was mentioned. Whoever came up with the idea to use her as Diana's historical doppelganger doesn't feel properly educated on the subject (I don't believe the whole thing is about them being similar, just about their tragic deaths and the fact that Henry replaced Anne w another woman), which in turn makes Diana look uneducated in a way. I also have a pet peeve about ghosts vs hallucinations.

Kristen's performance was alright? She isn't one of my favourite actors, but I really like her and her work in general. I don't think I've seen anything Oscar worthy exactly tho. Her accent was okay too, I feel like I've heard much worse British accents tbh.

(This is the only time they used the portraits, but it felt so on the nose. At least for a person who instantly recognizes them and actually knows where these portraits are from.)

#spencer 2021 #anne boleyn #ask #eating disorder tw #text #eating disorder mention #eating disorder #self harm tw #depression tw #bulimia #bulimia tw

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shiningsagittarius · 3 years

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Right. Okay. I watched the episodes uninterrupted once just to get the general feeling of it, then I went back and took some notes, so here is my liveblog! (Spoilers ahoy!) (And please keep in mind that I thought the show was great overall and these are just my reactions and opinions!)

1 x 01

What is Constance’s backstory here? Where is she? A school?

I LOVE THE INTRO OMG (It gave me ASOUE vibes but this is the only part that really did)

The bullying going down like every single 90s show

“Why are you so weird? 🤪”

Reynie and Ms. Perumal really clicked, I’m so glad!

What is the deal with the Boatwright Academy????

Reynie is so endearing 🥺 The mismatched socks hdkdgsksgsksg

“It’s like no-one’s at the wheel!” Quite the recurring phrase 🤔

I love the music in this! The costume designs, the set designs, the little details really flesh out the world!

Truthfully, I couldn’t originally see Kristen Schaal as Number Two. Now I can’t possibly imagine anyone else.

The illustrations are a nice touch

Did Mr. Benedict really just put his ramblings in the test??? Hahahaha

“Which would be a gift, considering the academic brutality of the next exam” hdkdgsjhd

RHONDA!

“That’s a great attitude?” THIS KID I SWEAR TO GOD HAHAHA

The kids reacted relatively calmly to the “execution” comment????? It be like that I guess

The extended awkwardness of Reynie sharpening his pencil bringing back repressed school memories for me hdksgkdgs

I like the way they did this second test sequence, it’s pretty much what I imagined

“Would it be possible to get a consolation donut?”

Hm. Not really sure how to phrase this but the pacing is just a little off imo. Like Sticky and Reynie had like five seconds to talk before Kate ran in. I really thought they’d include the part where Reynie accidentally insults Sticky and just let them get to know each other a bit ykwim?

Hello… two random kids?

“I didn’t pass! …Started a small fire as a diversion. Easily containable. No injuries.” Oh my gOD-

mILLIGAN

Kate and Milligan scrunching their faces when staring each other down… foreshadowing at its finest? 😅

Bye Krista :(

I like the split screen idea with the tiles test

Wh. Why are we in a horror game now?

Milligan doing the protective arm thing 🥺

“I’ve noticed something.”

“The smell? The decreased visibility? The flood danger?”

Ah yes, Mr. Benedict’s McMansion /hj

What is Dewey’s… deal?

Mill pond flashback got me like

“My parents love me. They call me their miracle.” I’m CACKLING

Not sure how I feel about the maze part. I guess the changes make sense

I am going to throw Dewey down the stairs 😡

“This isn’t fair!”

“I don’t disagree.”

Byeeeeee Dewey

Tony Hale is absolutely killing it as Mr. Benedict! I was so unsure about the casting but he’s fantastic tbh. I can’t wait to see how he does as Dr. Curtain 👀

Famous… fruit leather??

“Someone much better in many ways! …But in most ways, much worse” hdkdgsksgjdgsksg

The Constance montage hahaha

“Unfortunately, however, no-one is going to the Boatwright Academy”

Poor Sticky especially is so betrayed

Mr. Benedict is making me tear up a bit 🥺

“Needed?” 😭😭😭😭😭😭

1 x 02

Number Two is out for BLOOD

The Recruiters / Ten Men / Baker’s Dozen / Whatever TLS wants to call them this week seem to have a slightly different shtick in the show. No amiable personality, they didn’t even say a damn thing. And they were there for Mr. Benedict, not the children?

Poor Constance :(

“Why don’t you just, I don’t know… call the cops?”

“I wish it were that easy.”

“You have a phone, right?”

The Learning Institute for Veritas and Enlightenment… I kinda like the name change!

I love how none of the kids officially agreed to go on the mission XD

Constance pretending to sleep hdksgskgskshs

“I mean, who’s running the school? I find it very odd that this information isn’t even in the brochure.” That’s… a good point. In the books, it’s a bit strange that no one has ever seen even a photo of an esteemed scientist and headmaster, especially in such a media-centric society

“You’re probably gonna want us to do some sneaking around, maybe break into some offices?”

“I don’t. No. ❤️”

Kate looks crushed jdkdgkdgsks

“We’ve been eating pigeon for months” what is happening here on this day?????

Morse code machines 👀

“Frogs are the better animals, technically” XD

What. Did Constance type. Hdksgsksgsks

Kate comforting Sticky 🥺

“I went to live with [my aunt] and her husband after my parents died.” I don’t like this change. At all. I really REALLY hope this isn’t heading in the direction of “Surprise, Sticky’s parents are actually alive and his REAL family would never have treated him so cruelly!” That would be upsetting on a number of levels

BABY STICKY 😭😭😭

“Town Crier Spelling Classic” “Year of Meat!” What are the game shows in this world? XD

“I snuck into the library and lived there for a couple weeks” So this definitely means Constance’s backstory is different, right?

“So what the heck’s your story?” Hahaha

Why is Milligan telling his story like this is a cafe poetry night??? XD

“Or a very husky mouse.” “The elephant rage of a desperate man” “Into the BAAAaaayyyyy!” “A venomous EEL locks onto my ankle!” “If I wasn’t a left footed swimmer, I might have drowned.” “I survived on peat moss and grub worms” “PELTED WITH GARBAGE” “I am… nothing… I am… no-one…..” I LOVE THIS MAN I LOVE THIS MAN I LOVE HIM

I love the way Constance presents her poem ahahahahahaha XD

“There was a very mischievous boy… oh, I’m not calling you mischievous, I’m sorry, that’s not the point”

NO WHITE KNIGHT DISCUSSION????

Reynie writing his mental letters to Ms. Perumal 😭😭😭

“Kate, seriously, you need to let that go” hdkdgkdgs

*slaps a slightly different beard and mustache on Milligan* ah yes this is an entirely different man

Aww, Kate and Sticky holding hands

Ah, I see they went with the “annoying and chipper college orientation leader” route with Jackson and Jillson huh

Poor Rhonda and Mr. Benedict trying to have an emotional moment and Number Two is just decimating a tree in the background

The dorm rooms look pretty cool. The Institute isn’t really what I imagined it looking like, but it looks very sleek and modern. It’s pretty neat

“It’s upbeat, the vibe. Unless you make it a bummer.” “We can’t control that.” the vIBES HDKSGSKGSJS

It’s a little upsetting that Sticky and Reynie didn’t really get a moment to bond until now (besides the staircase part)

“Adapt or die, George” SAVAGE

Them puzzling over the word “hide”, thinking it’s a code lol

Damn, they almost got caught on the first night

NUMBER TWO BUILT A CABIN????? IN A FEW HOURS????

“Oh no, you might fall 🙄”

“You have a… personality flaw!”

Kate is being a bit touchy about being on a team when she was pretty gung-ho about it earlier. That fits her book character now that I think about it tho

Martinaaa! Her staring down the other students until they won’t answer jdgdjdgsjsg

The other kids’ answers XD

I absolutely LOVE the contrast between Reynie and Kate’s answers: Reyine going the somewhat more conventional puzzle solving way, and Kate using her outside knowledge of engineering to answer.

Dun dun dunnnnnnn…

TLDR:

This show is already so charming, it’s really great! There are a few things I’m unhappy with, like the pacing in some scenes and Sticky’s backstory, but overall the show is definitely honoring the spirit of the book, so I’m really enjoying it! I’m excited to see what the “parallel storyline” for the adults will be. I also want to see where Tony Hale takes Dr. Curtain’s character. If I was forced to do a rating for these two episodes, I think it would be a 9/10!

#mbs liveblog #mbs spoilers #the mysterious benedict society #mysterious benedict society #mbs #let me know what you think!

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babyhoney-28 · 3 years

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So this is me trying to type out some of the thoughts I have regarding the current stunt around Harry.

I have the feeling a lot of us are still trying to make sense of what is going on, because so much about this situation just doesn’t seem to make any sense at all. People are definitely confused and irritated and it seems like no one has really been able to make sense of it all as of yet.

What I want to start with, because it’s what’s been the hardest for me to wrap my head around, is the wedding situation. Especially the pictures showing Harry happily officiating Jeff and his wife. I don’t want to really go into the fact that holding a wedding these days, especially in a city like LA where covid cases are running over the hospitals, is extremely ignorant, inconsiderate and basically a big fuck you to everyone who is struggling because of the virus for whatever reason that may be.

I think we all felt extremely disappointed in Harry for not only attending this wedding despite the pandemic, but also officiating it. This behaviour is quite frankly very hypocritical, especially considering he put out that stay at home shirt, yet has since then not at all been acting accordingly. We all thought he knew better and would do better than this and we have every right to be upset about it.

It also was really weird to see Harry so happy next to Jeff, when most of us had the feeling, especially over the last couple of month, that Harry isn’t doing very well atm. We’ve seen the acceptance speech videos, watched the jingle balls performance and how off, exhausted and unhappy he seemed. Tbh it was and still is really concerning. We therefore have been worried and suspecting that Jeff is miss-managing Harry, trying to create an idol and image out of Harry that he himself has said multiple times he doesn’t want to be. All Harry wants to do is make music and entertain people. But here is his team, pushing him down everyone’s throat and creating fake narratives to make him more interesting, to the point where people are already getting tired of him, because they are basically creating an image for him that is just not very likeable (e.g. queerbaiter & homewrecker).

People have been quite vocal over their dislike towards Jeff, while simultaneously another part of Harry’s fandom have been aggressively defending him, those that view Jeff as Harry’s best friend (which ironically are the same people that not only shit on the other 1d boys but also on Harry’s actual familiy).

So here we were all worried about Harry, believing he was unhappy with the situation he was in because of what his team and Jeff are turning him into (which has gone as far as articles being written about it) when suddenly those pictures of Harry officiating Jeff’s wedding drop, contradicting what we were thinking, while simultaneously proving what other fans believe, that they are in fact close friends.

So this was the part that confused me the most over this whole situation. Why would Harry so happily participate in this wedding and stunt when he seemed so unhappy and had every right to be so?

Here comes the part where I might be reaching, but the more information we got about this wedding, the more sketchy and sus it became. When I first hear people suggest this whole wedding was a stunt, I thought people were reaching, but the more I think about it the more realistic I think it is. Because:

1) why was there paparazzi if this was a private wedding?

2) why did Harry bring a +1 when this was a small private wedding that took place during a pandemic. There’s really no justification for her to have been there, especially when they just started dating

3) when did this wedding take place? This weekend? In November? Because there apparently haven’t been any events at that location due to covid

4) the wedding dress situation is sus. A dress from 2018 that was most likely second hand, whatever. But the fact that it was not fitted to her at all is just very suspicious

5) They might have been married for some time according to some articles

It looks like the paparazzi were there for Harry alone, both to show that he officiated the wedding (and prove the close friendship) and be used in order to announce the relationship. The paps were called there with an intention after all, and Olivia, even if she really was Harry’s gf, had absolutely no business being there given the current circumstances and restrictions. You just don’t bring +1 to a wedding at the moment, especially not if you only just started dating them.

All of this considered, I have the feeling this entire wedding might have been faked with the function to 1) show that Harry and Jeff are close friends and 2) to announce the relationship. Faking a wedding really isn’t that hard if you think about it, all you need is a location, some people in suits and robes, a couple and a photographer. I’d say the current situation makes it even easier because everything is smaller and toned down anyways. It also isn’t that unimaginable that they would pull shit like this. Jeffs dad is allegedly worse than Simon, and we all know what Simon did to Louis. What is faking one wedding that helps dealing with two issues at once compared to baby gate? Even if said wedding took place during a pandemic (this is where I think this whole thing may have actually taken place in November when the covid situation wasn’t as bad)..

Obviously, H&O is a PR stunt. It’s so painfully obvious in fact, it’s pretty much developed into a comedy show within less than 24 hours.

Now, the question that we are all still having is why? Why pair these two, when it puts both of them in such a bad light and certainly can’t be beneficial for their careers in any way, shape or form? Why did Olivia agree to this when this compromises her professionalism? Those seem to be the main questions that people are struggling to come to find a reasonable answer for. However, if one looks back at other Hollywood scandals, this seems to fit right in there, or isn’t even half as bad as some previous scandals or gossip. Think of the Jennifer, Brad and Angelina situation or the cheating scandal around Kristen Steward for example. It’s stories like this that are eaten up by the media and the general public (especially the American audience), because it’s juicy and scandalous and something to gossip about. But in the long run, it’s probably not as career damaging as we make it out to be, since people will get tired and move on to the next drama. It will taint their reputations yes, but also bring them a lot of attention and will most likely not be as ruinous to their careers as we think.

But what could be in it for Olivia? Promo for the movie, maybe because the interest from the go wasn’t big enough yet? She might have other projects coming up that she could need the attention for.. I don’t know but she will have her reasons.

As for Harry, I think we have to admit that he has been without a stunt for much longer than we could have hoped for.. He’s been in involved in narratives just as bad before, this only earns him one more bad title (homewrecker). This stunt however certainly helps in making him even more of a household name, which is exactly what his team has been going for. Thinking further ahead, Olivia might be who future songs of his could be claimed to be about. My hope for the reason of this stunt, as it is the hope of all of us, is that something is going to change about Louis’ stunt situation soon, that baby gate might really soon come to an end and that H&O serves to prevent Larry speculation to arise.

This leaves the question of how long this stunt is going to last. It by now seems like they really are going through with this stunt, so we might have to deal with this for a while (though part of me still hopes they will pull a they are just friends and he is being there for her after her break up card)...

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This trent of making the villians in superhero movies be working class people/former poor people who either are trying to fight the ruling & rich class or become rich themselves and because of it turn to be completely courrupt is... a lot. Cant wait for the superhero bubble to burst tbh

I KNOW?????? if this is the trend replacing gaycoded villains i want OUT!!

i feel like i might have been more forgiving of ww84 if i’d see it on the big screen and gotten the chance to be entranced by the Visuals but like, i torrented it and saw it on my very own laptop and progressively lost my mind along the way. i love the scene where diana beats up a dude harassing women and it’s framed in a positive light and then cheetah does the literal exact same thing (exact same dude too) and the movie is like...ruh roh this means she’s Turning Evil Now. not that i’m aligned with cheetah either but she gets the honour of delivering the whole “people like me vs people like you” speech and yet she’s still ostensibly upper middle class and her literal only issue is that people don’t like her (understandable, she’s kristen wiig)

making maxwell lord, dc’s resident rich white man, an immigrant who grew up in poverty and whose fatal flaw is wanting to be rich is absolutely straight up deranged though. i’m baffled by the fact that every review i’ve seen is like “IS MAXWELL A TRUMP ALLUSION?!?!?!?!?!” and like, i sincerely don’t care about that but Did We Even See The Same Movie. i expected a whole lot more people talking about that, even though like you said it’s definitely a trend and it’s possible audiences have just become very desensitized. id argue that this is worse than like, marvel’s whole situation with vulture in spidey homecoming though

#ww84 spoilers #wonder woman 1984 spoilers #anon #ask

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So like. I kinda sat down to write about this one, and I feel like I don’t know what to write about. There’s a lot to write about, but like... [scrubs face] it’s like, there’s a lot of emotional (sledge)hammers with this one, and it’s hard to pick apart so I can actually talk about it. Paralyzed by there being so much, you know?

God writing this one was like pulling teeth, tbh.

Buckle up lads, this one clocks in at over 2k. Mobile users I’m so sorry.

I think the first thing I’m gonna tackle is the name of this one. It’s called The Truth, but in the context of Clay, that previously had an incredibly specific meaning. “The Truth” wasn’t so much a phrase as it was referring to the real truth of the Precursors and the nature of Eve and Adam, and the truth of humanity as a whole. Historically, every mention of “The Truth” around Clay refers to that specific idea, and now we have a new thing that uses the same name. It’s kind of interesting too, because the Truth that Clay shared was very explicitly something he was giving to other people, after learning about it for himself. And in this case, this is Truth that he’s being given, either about his situation, or the situation of his successor.

This memory opens up with a doctor and Warren Vidic talking, after the episode that Clay had with the Bleeding Effect, and the doctor makes mention of Clay having been here a year already. He administers a medicine that’s actually an anti-psychotic, as a way of trying to stabilize Clay’s deteriorating mental state. There’s no guarantee that it’ll actually work, is the issue, mostly because the Bleeding Effect isn’t exactly a well known mental condition, and what everyone knows about it is simply what they’ve found out via the Subjects. Which is a very small group of people. I do wonder, though, about the Bleeding Effect as a .. hmm, genetic thing? It’s seeing the memories of your ancestors superimposed over your own perception of the world, and it’s implied that it’s because of the Precursor DNA that you can even have that happen, because it’s linked to Eagle Vision. Or at least, that’s what I’ve gotten so far, I could be completely wrong.

The conversation with the doctor gets shooed away in favor of a conversation between Clay and his father, and like. I really wonder at the timing of it, if it’s supposed to be a conversation that Clay had while he was in Abstergo. It’s possible that it was a conversation that happened before Clay got sent in, but he sounds too resigned and weary I feel like, to have it happen outside of his imprisonment. Another reason why I feel like it’s after is because the last conversation we heard with Clay and his father was during the Bleeding Effect, when Clay was telling him about the Assassins, and things dissolved into a fight when Harold made it about money. This conversation feels like it’s a while after that, after Clay’s resigned himself to not being able to really convince his father of anything.

Before Clay dives into the mainframe, there’s another glitch, which causes your controller to rumble. The screen goes noisy, and what shows is an exit at the end of a long walkway. This isn’t the first time we’ve seen glitches or hallucinations, but it’s freaky literally every time.

We watch as Clay starts to hack through Abstergo’s systems after that, and the actual design of “going into” the mainframe is covered in a dozen different firewalls. It’s a neat sort of visual way to show just how hard Clay’s hacking is, as well as how many firewalls there are, because if he gets caught, he can get killed.

Right before he goes in, on the right side of the “mainframe” is a code cipher.

This is a Caesar cipher with an alphabetical shift of 3, and it reads "Lucy, she Is aLways behind You." The capital letters spell out LILY -- traditionally lilies were associated with death. Now, you could interpret this as “Lucy’s got his back, she’s his teammate.” Which like, maybe. But with the addition of the word lily, and knowing that Lucy betrays him... nah. It’s more like she’s a threatening presence that needs to be watched.

Clay snoops through Vidic’s mainframe and learns that Vidic is specifically after Desmond. Now, we know that this is at least over a year of Clay’s being here, and that Desmond was captured September 1st. What I’m really saying is just how long did Abstergo know about Desmond, and what lengths did they go to research him before they took him? Another question I have is like -- I know ac1 said that Abstergo found him via his fingerprints for his motorcycle license, but just how would that give them access to his genetic profile. Granted, that’s probably some early installment weirdness of ac1, but. (That being said, I remember reading a fic where they made mention of Desmond donating plasma for cash, and that’s how Abstergo found him, which is more believable than fingerprints....)

I also can’t help but wonder like -- what’s going through Clay’s mind as he realizes that the Desmond Miles that Juno spoke of during his Bleed is the next Subject, and his successor? Or is it that he was completely unsurprised because Juno gave him a look into the possible future with the Calculations?

Anyways, Clay finds out what Vidic wants, and excitedly says that they can leave, and we follow the path to see what looks like a broken stone circle at the base of two beams of light.

(The wireframe is just the gameplay mechanic) I have... no earthly idea what this is, or what it could possibly mean. I think this is the only broken structure you see in all the memories, Desmond or Clay’s. It’s vaguely reminiscent of a broken film wheel, but I’m not sure if that’s what it’s supposed to be. But like, it’s so goddamn conspicuous because it’s the only broken structure we find. ls it supposed to symbolize a broken trust, a loss of faith after witnessing the “play” unfold?? .

Speaking of the “play”-- what the fuck. What the actual fuck. Is it supposed to make me uncomfortable? Because by god it did that. The sharp departure from how the rest of the narrative has been told is jarring as fuck, especially because it’s so like, proper. I swear, all that’s missing is like, a slightly off-key oldtimey music track and you’ll have a full blown horror segment. Maybe I’m just being dramatic, but like -- finding the broken wheel when that’s already something weird, having the camera forcibly taken away from you so you can watch this performance. And like, just listening to Warren monologue at Lucy is disturbing as well, for reasons that are hard to articulate.

It’s like -- Meta wise, I know why she’s not talking. Her voice actress, Kristen Bell, had left and didn’t renew her contract (as her contract was only for 3 games), thus not being able to voice Lucy for any further appearances. IIRC, this is actually why Lucy was written to die, instead of simply recasting her, and then they had to scramble to make the “She’s a Templar!” twist work. Jury’s still out if it did or not, but like -- I do appreciate them trying to explain why she defected during her undercover years, but like... Ugh. It still leaves such a sour taste in my mouth, because it’s obviously a writing scramble and not a cohesive narrative that was plotted from the beginning.

For a comparison, Clay’s story and ultimate fate feels complete, it feels alright. Yeah, it’s arguably a worse fate than Lucy, he died twice over, but like. We knew he was dead from the first moment we saw him, we knew that there was only one way that this could really go, a tragedy. There was a clear progression of his story, and the fact that you know how it ends. That being said, I do wonder about Clay’s death as a Subject in ac2, before the plotbeats of Lucy being a Templar were set in stone for Brotherhood. I know that the 20 glyphs in ac2 did talk about how Lucy was there when Clay killed himself, but I kinda doubt that it was in the same context of “she was supposed to save him but deliberately betrayed him due to her loyalties”. I guess what I’m getting at is that Lucy’s story feels terrible due to the writing surrounding it, while Clay’s feels deliberately terrible because that was the point.

Back to my original point of “Lucy not talking”-- while there is a meta reason for it, I kinda want to ascribe a narrative reason, despite the meta outweighing the narrative.

Lucy is characterized by almost never showing the full extent of her feelings or motivations, leaving you to wonder what’s actually going on in her head constantly. Sure, she leaned on Desmond a lot, but there’s also an undercurrent of a power imbalance there, and we always got the sense that she kept more to herself than she revealed. By having Warren talk at her, we’re further kept from knowing just what she felt about all of this, and instead we’re given another glimpse of the strange relationship that Warren and Lucy had.

Warren was her boss, but also her superior in the Templar order, and the man who saved her life from his own company. Back in ac1, Lucy recounts to Desmond how she was attacked in the middle of the night, going to be silenced by Abstergo so she couldn’t talk about the Animus, only for Warren to save her life by telling the men to stand down. The assailants were people that she interacted with every day, even ate lunch with. This is after she’d been with Abstergo for a while, and finally feeling like she was being taken seriously with her work (as well as her undergrad thesis/work) she was going to be killed to keep quiet. We don’t actually know why Warren saved her, but it’s my firm belief that that’s when Lucy changed alliances to the Templars.

However, I do wonder about the confrontation between Lucy and Warren at the end of ac2, during the credits. I know, I know, her being a Templar wasn’t really a thing in ac2 (I think), so therefore you have to take it all with a grain of salt, but like. The conversation here brings attention to it, where Warren tells her “Make sure you look very upset. You need to be convincing.” And I can’t help but wonder if Warren and Lucy ended up trading insults that hit way too close to home in order to further the deception... It wouldn’t be hard to pretend to be hurt if she actually was hurt by what he said, y’know?

I think the last thing about Warren’s speech that really bugs me is like -- he tacks on the whole “Oh, yes. Once inside their hideout, perhaps you might ask the Assassins why they left you alone for so many years.” And like. That just gets under my skin in a lot of ways because like-- he’s got a point, the Assassin’s methods are Rather Horrible™ with how they completely cut her off for a deep cover mission at seventeen (no I will not ever be over that), but the way he says it just. He’s clearly manipulating her to entrench her further onto his own side, and I just. Ngh. I kinda wonder if the delivery of the line was intended for the audience rather than Lucy herself, because she already knows all this, and for him to bring it up feels like an insult to her intelligence. It feels kinda slimy in a way that I can’t really describe. Or maybe it’s just because I just do NOT like Vidic.

There’s also the question of like, how did Clay see this -- this is all dramatized for the sake of us, the audience, but did he watch this via video feeds or something??? The thought of him watching Lucy and Warren talk about his successor is kinda jarring tbh. Also this throws a wrench into the ending of ac1 (though tbh what DOESN’T throw a wrench into ac1) where they were going to dispose of Desmond only for Lucy to intervene. Is it because Warren and Lucy were operating on their own project that wasn’t exactly approved by the Templar higher ups?? Or something??

This whole memory says that Desmond was their goldmine for the amount of genetic information he held, so why would the higher ups -- wait. Unless the whole thing was a ploy by having Lucy speak up in “defense” of Desmond in order to get him to trust her some more.... Hrm.... Granted that fits, it’s just a sort of way of re-contextualizing the ending of ac1...

Waves hand anyways Clay finds out about this plan for Lucy to gain Desmond’s trust and give them the data, and then we finally have control again. There’s this sort of distorted error noise, and the red blocks start to fill up the room, threatening you as they force you closer and closer to the screen, which only shows a picture of a door with a strange symbol on top of it.

This is the symbol for 3 Juno, an asteroid in our solar system that’s the 11th largest, and contains 1% of total mass of the asteroid belt. It was discovered September 1st, 1804, by Karl Ludwig Harding, and initially considered to be a planet, along with a few other asteroid/dwarf planets at the time. It was given this symbol, ⚵, like how Mercury, Venus, and Jupiter all have their own symbols.

Aside from the obvious “hey that’s Juno, she’s the big bad of this shit”, there’s a couple things that stood out to me. The date of discovery, September 1st -- that’s the same date that Desmond got captured by Abstergo, gives me pause. I’m not sure if it’s something that was intentional on the dev’s part, or if they were just looking for a symbol that would represent Juno. Either way, that’s enough of a coincidence that it makes me feel unsettled, the same way that Lucy was bothered by the date of the satellite launch being 72 days away. It might just be an honest coincidence, but considering that this is Clay we’re dealing with... nah.

Another thing that the AC wiki told me is that this is also the symbol for the Instruments of the First Will, an in-universe religious organization that worships the Precursors, and specifically Juno. Now, this organization doesn’t actually appear until at least ac4 Black Flag, and continues on all the way through Syndicate. This is more like an early bird cameo than a full blown reference, as we still have to get through ac3, But it’s still interesting to point out and look at, and wonder what’s going on with it all.

Anyways, the door itself is actually part of the screen, and impassible, and it stays that way as the bricks come closing in, chasing you. It’s really tense tbh, with this feeling of claustrophobia on top of the revelations you were forced to watch. It also doesn’t help that like. You had control wrenched away from you so you could watch the conversation, and the speech was long enough to lull you into maybe putting your controller down to watch, and then with a rumble you suddenly have control again and are being chased towards a door that doesn’t open.

The picture of a door becomes an actual door after the blocks get closer and closer, and we break through into the light, and onto memory 7.

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What was the most unsettling film you’ve seen? Unsettling films are my jam, man. To name a few, there’s Eraserhead, Room, Midsommar, Eyes Wide Shut, Misery, and most recently, I’m Thinking of Ending Things. Eraserhead takes the cake though. That movie always makes me queasy...

What unethical experiment would have the biggest positive impact on society as a whole? I’m a firm believer in nothing good ever comes out of unethical practices. I’ll never forget reading about an experiment where a group of newborn babies were given basic needs like food and being bathed, but weren’t shown any affection whatsoever and it was meant to see if humans can survive with just the most basic physiological needs. By the end of the experiment period half of the babies were dead. The results were honestly a lot bleaker than how I’ve put it, but I don’t wanna be a downer lol. Suffice it to say that experiment haunted me for days after reading it.

When was the last time you were snooping, and found something you wish you hadn’t? It was around a week or so ago, I’m pretty sure.

Which celebrity or band has the worst fan base? My sister is into K-pop and I hear insights from her all the time, but her one constant is that BTS breeds the most annoying, toxic fans. I’d have to agree. Ariana Grande’s fandom was also annoying at one point, but I haven’t heard much from them making a mess these days.

What are you interested in that most people aren’t? Autobiographies.

If you were given a PhD degree, but had no more knowledge of the subject of the degree besides what you have now, what degree would you want to be given to you? Why would I deserve a PhD on something I’m clearly not qualified for...I’m not sure I’m following this question right, but I don’t feel like thinking too hard about it.

What smartphone feature would you actually be excited for a company to implement? I’m happy with the features that are widespread now, but I wish companies adhere more to countries other than the common ones like US, UK, Australia, etc. I always see ads about phones being able to tell you how much movie tickets cost or track boarding passes, but those are all irrelevant here. It makes a lot of Apple’s basic apps useless on this side of the world haha.

What’s something people don’t worry about but really should? Long-term effects of poor habits like not getting enough sleep or drinking too many cups of coffee. I know because I’m guilty of this.

What movie quotes do you use on a regular basis? “I won’t think about that now, I’ll think about it tomorrow,” but I usually say it to myself, especially when I feel stressed.

Do you think that children born today will have better or worse lives than their parents? Better, but idk if that’s just me being biased because my generation will be the next parents lol. I just think that a lot of Gen X parents still have a lot of dated prejudices and mindsets that my generation was able to learn better from. For example my mom doesn’t like using people’s preferred names, especially if they’ve transitioned -_____- and I know I’d never want to set such an example for my kids.

What’s the funniest joke you know by heart? I know I’ve come across hilarious ones but I always fail to come up with one when asked on the spot.

When was the last time you felt you had a new lease on life? LOL RIGHT NOW

What’s the funniest actual name you’ve heard of someone having? It’s more stupid than funny and I know I’ve already mentioned this before, but Covid Bryant as a first and second name still takes the cake for me. My sister went to school with a girl whose name is just her surname backwards, and for a time I was really weirded out by it. But in the times I’ve seen her she really owns her name and never looks bothered by it, so I quickly stopped caring.

Which charity or charitable cause is most deserving of money? For me it would have to be organizations for animal welfare.

What TV show character would it be the most fun to change places with for a week? Post-El Camino Jesse Pinkman. I wouldn’t want to live through his chaotic shit from Breaking Bad, but his fate after El Camino is something I’m super envious of.

What was cool when you were young but isn’t cool now? Flip phones, Blackberry phones, Roshes, Frappuccinos.

If you were moving to another country, but could only pack one carry-on sized bag, what would you pack? Phone, laptop, their chargers, important IDs, some of my favorite tops and jeans, underwear, essential toiletries, wallet, a family photo, a journal and pen, earphones, certain knickknacks to remember Gab and my dogs by. Minus the clothes, all of these are pretty tiny so I think these would all fit in the bag just fine.

What’s the most ironic thing you’ve seen happen? I don’t know. I’m not really a fan of rating the most/worst this and that stuff in my life, either. I feel like I unnecessarily rack my brain too hard for them when I take surveys to have a chill time.

If magic was real, what spell would you try to learn first? Probably something that’d keep my dogs from dying.

If you were a ghost and could possess people, what would you make them do? No thanks. I’d be the chillest ghost tbh, I’d like to just sneak up on people’s business and hang out but never interfere in them.

What goal do you think humanity is not focused enough on achieving? Climate change, global warming, alleviation of poverty. Corporations and the few people who actually have the power and money to change things only ever come up with short-term shit like donations and never look at the big picture. What problem are you currently grappling with? So many personal ones. But just like the recurring theme of my surveys so far, “I don’t want to get into it.”

What character in a movie could have been great, but the actor they cast didn’t fit the role? As much as I love Kristen Stewart, I heard she was cast as Princess Diana for an upcoming film and I’m not really feeling that decision. They could’ve gone with a British actress for starters?????? The movie is still in production but it is pretty annoying to think about lmao.

What game have you spent the most hours playing? Probably GTA: San Andreas as a kid.

What’s the most comfortable bed or chair you’ve ever been in? Luxury hotel beds are always so fluffy and comfortable.

What’s the craziest conversation you’ve overheard? Omg one time at a coffee shop Gabie and I sat beside this older couple that obviously was going through some heavy SHIT. There was a lot of animosity and tension between them and I caught the lady silently break into tears a few times. I never overheard anything but then again they sat in silence for hours until the lady finally walked out on him. Never knew what it was about but I’ve always guessed that the man did something crappy, like cheat, and was discovered. It was a really sad sight and a crazy situation to witness and I think I felt even more sorry because they were obviously in their 50s or 60s. I hope the woman is in a better place now as she looked rough as fuck that evening.

What’s the hardest you’ve ever worked? I wore a lot of hats when I was in my college org, and that was on top of balancing my acads as well.

What movie, picture, or video always makes you laugh no matter how often you watch it? That scene from Friends where Ross plays the keyboard for Chandler, Phoebe, Monica, and Rachel.

What artist or band do you always recommend when someone asks for a music recommendation? It depends on what music they’re into and if I have actually have a recommendation in mind for them. I obviously can’t suggest Paramore to someone who mainly listens to metal.

If you could have an all-expenses paid trip to see any famous world monument, which monument would you choose? I’m down for any monuments that are super ancient like Stonehenge or the Pyramids of Giza.

If animals could talk, which animal would be the most annoying? I’d go with frogs, but only because they get annoyingly loud in the evening.

What’s the most addicted to a game you’ve ever been? Playing The Sims, Mario Kart, Rock Band, or games in the Burnout franchise.

What’s the coldest you’ve ever been? Japan was so fucking cold when I was there. Didn’t do my research and ended up being dressed poorly, and I was so cold I could barely talk to my parents or fully enjoy my time. Sagada was also nearly unbearable in the early morning.

Which protagonist from a book or movie would make the worst roommate? Not from a book or movie, but BoJack Horseman. Diane can also be in the running as I always found her too whiny. I get that she had her personal shit to deal with, but I don’t think living with her would be good for my own sanity and mental health.

Do you eat food that’s past its expiration date if it still smells and looks fine? It annoys my chef dad to death that I don’t lol. No matter how great it looks, I’d bounce. I once ate expired Kit Kats that tasted like cardboard and that scared me off of expired food forever.

What’s the most ridiculous thing you have bought? I once bought a stupid novelty soap that to this day I’ve never even opened. It’s in one of my drawers, and I plan to just throw it out at some point.

What’s the funniest comedy skit you’ve seen? Not a fan of these but one that got to me is Dear Sister from SNL.

What’s the most depressing meal you’ve eaten? A few years ago there was a local breakfast place that offered red velvet pancakes for a limited time and I was all over that crap, so I went and ordered. The actual pancakes ended up not being any bigger than my palm, and I remember not being able to hide my disappointment once the server placed the dish on my table haha. I felt so scammed. I had to order something else to feel full, because those pancakes were stupidly small.

What tips or tricks have you picked up from your job/jobs? One of my superiors, when she was presenting a pitch to our director yesterday, kept asking questions and picking at the director’s brain so that she can get suggestions and answers straight from the director herself and so that she didn’t have to do any brainstorming anymore. I thought that was a pretty nifty and clever hack.

What outdoor activity haven’t you tried, but would like to? Hiking a mountain!

What songs hit you with a wave of nostalgia every time you hear them? Umbrella by Rihanna feat. Jay-Z.

What’s the worst backhanded compliment you could give someone? Idk, anything can be the worst depending on the context. I’m not a fan of giving those, though.

What’s the most interesting documentary you’ve ever watched? Unsolved Mysteries’ Dupont de Ligonnès episode was a lot of fun to watch.

What was the last song you sang along to? I think it was Thinking of You by Katy Perry? but I’m not entirely sure. I haven’t sung along to anything in a while.

What app can you not believe someone hasn’t made yet? I don’t really download and use a lot of apps other than the basic ones, so I don’t care too much.

When was the last time you face palmed? Last night.

If you were given five million dollars to open a small museum, what kind of museum would you create? I’d give it away to the Martial Law museum currently being made near my university so that it can do more to show the atrocities of the Marcoses. And so that I can piss off my pro-Marcos relatives.

Which of your vices or bad habits would be the hardest to give up? Uh hating myself, if that counts.

What really needs to be modernized? Public transportation systems in this country.

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i wouldn’t change a thing about you - d.d

Requested? No: I just wanted to write this tbh but #50. “nothing is wrong with you..” & #52. “i wouldn’t change a thing about you..”

Word Count: 1.4k

Warnings?: Yes, anxiety!!

a/n: hi, everyone ! this is my first time writing a david fic so don’t be too harsh !! basically i created my own prompt of the reader struggling with anxiety and she has a panic attack at a party that dave’s filming at (so tw !!). it all ends in a horrendous amount of fluff.

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posting days at david’s house were busy from the get-go and this morning was no different. you had woken up to the sounds of screaming and david’s famous vlog laugh coming from his laptop’s speakers.

you rubbed your eyes, yawning, as you shifted towards your boyfriend, “g’mornin’ bubs.”

he paused his editing and looked towards you with a soft smile on his face, “hi, baby.”

he pushed some hair out of your face as he placed a kiss on your forehead.

“what’s the plan for today, hm? jonah’s not planning on putting another circus in this house is he?” you asked, scrunching up your nose.

giggling, he shook his head, “no, i don’t think so. there is a party at some college tonight that i might head to, if you wanna join me?”

“you know i wouldn’t miss zane getting drunk for anything,” you laughed.

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as you were finishing up the final touches of your makeup, you saw david’s head poke around of the corner of the bathroom, “hi baby. are you almost ready?”

“yes, bubs. just gotta change real quick.”

“i think you already look beautiful in what you’re wearing though,” he mumbled, with a small pout forming on his lips.

you raised a single eyebrow at him, glancing down at the hoodie and leggings you were wearing.

“i’m wearing your hoodie and a pair of old leggings, dave, i would hardly count this as party ready.”

he walked towards you, circling his arms around your waist and nuzzling his head into the nape of your neck, “but then everyone will flirt with you while i’m filming,” he mumbled, “plus, if you wear my hoodie, everyone will know you’re mine.”

“oh baby davey, everyone already knows i’m yours,” you giggled, pushing him softly, “now, c’mon, lemme get dressed so we can leave.”

sighing, he let you go and after a couple of minutes you were both in his tesla ready to go.

“are you feeling alright today, bub? anxious or anything?” he sweetly asked you as he began driving to the party.

turning your head to him, you smiled, “i think so. was feelin’ a tiny bit this morning, but ‘m better now.”

“you let me know if it gets bad again, promise?”

you nod back at him, confirming the promise, as you tilt your head back towards the window once again. you were so extremely thankful to have a boyfriend like david, who cared immensely about your mental health, but sometimes it made you worry that you weren’t good enough for him. you would overthink and become anxious over the thought of david always worrying about you, knowing he probably had twenty other things to worry about. but you were pulled from that dark place time and time again as you would voice these thoughts to david. he would wrap his arms around you, pressing loving kisses to your face, all while letting you know that you were always at the top of his priority list.

—

once you had arrived at the party, david and you headed straight towards your friend group. you were quickly pulled away from david by carly, and you had just enough time to glance his way and wave a little, knowing that you most likely wouldn’t see him again until the end of the night.

“y/n!! it’s so good to see you here!!” carly smiled at you, as she led you to where erin, corinna and kristen were.

“y/n!!!” they all cheered once they noticed you and carly walking towards them.

you spent about an hour catching up with them, only excusing yourself to go get a drink.

“y’all want anything?” you offered, straightening the skirt you were wearing.

they all mumbled their no’s, and you shrugged at them, heading towards the kitchen.

after you had poured yourself a drink, you leaned your back against the counter and finally took note of how many people were actually there. the party had grown tremendously since the time you and david had arrived, and you were too caught up with the girls to even notice. you began to feel your heart rate pick up, which was a sign that your anxiety was also picking up. you started to take deep breaths, focusing on calming yourself down, which proved to be slightly working. you continued to glance around the room, hoping to find that mop of dark hair that you knew was going to give you some comfort. after looking for what felt like hours, which was most likely only thirty seconds, you found him, except the feeling of comfort is not what you felt at all once you spotted him.

he was leaning against the wall while a (very) pretty girl around your age was talking to him. rationally, you knew that david would never do anything to hurt you, but because you were already anxious, the overwhelming anxiety grew into just that - overwhelming. your brain was rushed with negative thoughts of david leaving you to find someone much better, someone who was more mentally stable than you.

you hadn’t realized, but your heart was beating, what felt like, a mile a minute, and your hands were trembling slightly. you tried to control it by doing your breathing excercises, but it only helped to make things worse. you could feel the tears welling up in your eyes, even though you knew that nothing was happening. there was something so wrong with you, knowing that you were having an anxiety attack over nothing. you glanced at david one last time before you headed towards the door, craving some fresh air and quiet - knowing it would calm you down.

once you made it outside, you walked to david’s tesla, sitting down beside it. you crossed your legs, and placed your head in your hands, letting the tears slip down. you shakily began breathing again, needing to calm yourself down before david noticed you were gone, but you knew that was no such luck, when only a couple of seconds later you heard the door to the house opening again.

“baby??” he asked, frantically, “what happened? did someone hurt you? what can i do?”

“you can’t do anything, dave! it’s just me, you know, almost having an anxiety attack in the middle of a party for no fucking reason,” you laughed dryly, shaking your head furiously at yourself.

“oh, bubs,” he whispered, sitting down in front of you and grasping your hands tightly in his.

“no david, there’s something wrong with me. you deserve someone who isn’t going to flip a switch when they see you with another girl - even if i know you would never do that to me,” you cut him off when you noticed his protests.

“y/n, there is nothing wrong with you. i wouldn’t change a single thing about you, okay?” he said sincerely, pushing back your hair and wiping off some of your tears.

you sighed shakily, finally gaining the courage to look up at him.

“there’s my bubs,” he softly smiled. “y/n, listen. i love you - wait, correction, i’m in love with you. i want the whole thing with you, okay? the house, the marriage, the kids - god, i never thought i would say that.”

you laughed softly at him, fresh tears making their way, but this time for a much happier reason.

he continued, “i promise you, baby. there’s nothing wrong with you. you struggle with anxiety, yes, but that does not mean there’s something wrong with you. you are such a fighter, angel. you wake up every day and fight the darkness in your mind, and do you know how brave that is? i could never in a million years find a girl like you. you make me want to be good, y/n. i couldn’t ever give you up. but you need please come find me the next time this happens. i was scared half to death when heath ran up to me, saying you had run out the door.”

you cringed slightly, sniffling, “i’m so sorry, dave. i didn’t mean to worry you. it just all happened so fast, i don’t even remember what caused it.”

“baby, the last thing i want you to do is apologize for having feelings, okay? let’s just get you home so we can cuddle and i can start editing, m’kay?”

you nodded, accepting his offer to help pull you up only to be pulled into a warm embrace shortly after.

“thank you,” you mumbled against his chest, “i’m so thankful for you. i love you.”

“i love you too, y/n. let’s go home, hm?”

#david dobrik #david dobrik imagine #dd #vlog squad #fluff #major fluff #like a shit ton #also slight tw with anxiety #imagine #fanfic #fiction #i wish this was true #y/n is one lucky hoe

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internetremix · 5 years

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What are the crews thoughts on Game of Thrones???

Alex: i don't watch hbo i just go on twitter and get the full experience from 1500 very angry tweets about game of thrones

Kristen: Haha yeeaah these days you don't have to watch the show, you can just get it all via angry tweets and gif sets.

Atwas: Alex's method is the one I subscribe to as well, tbh. Maybe I'll watch the whole thing once it's over. Maybe not.

Kristen: HOOOOOOO I have feelings about Game of Thrones strap the fuck in.

I've been watching it with my dad since like... 2013? Which by the way watching Game of Thrones with your very conservative father is a weird experience and I don't recommend it but we're committed now, but uh anyway.

There's a lot of things I really love about Game of Thrones. I love most of the characters, the production value is amazing, it's beautiful to look at (until it's too dark lololol looking at you Battle of Winterfell), the music is absolutely gorgeous. The opening tbh makes me tear up as soon as the strings hit, it's just a really intense instrumental piece and I could honestly write an essay just about how that song makes me feel and what I feel like it's conveying and I'm a huge nerd.

But the show has had problems since like, season four? There's some real issues with how women are written in it, don't even get me started on how a whole lot of sex scenes magically became nonconsensual that were once noooot like that.And then there's the race issues and uh.... lots of little sloppy things getting sloppier as the seasons have gone on.

The thing that I find most frustrating is the post-books happenings, many of which, in theory, I wanted. But these things feel unearned, so they aren't what they should be. It used to be sometimes entire seasons would go to getting pieces around the board and then suddenly I guess Westeros is pretty fucking small and people can just fucking teleport or whatever. And then of course there's the stuff I didn't want, which is also happening, which feels worse because I'm like "this bad writing wasn't even a shortcut to something that might've been narratively satisfying".We're heading into the finale now and it's honestly kind of amazing just how much the show has absolutely imploded in on itself. I don't expect GoT to end happily, because it's not that kind of show. But I did hope that whatever tragedy or bittersweet victory we got would feel earned, and that's not happening. I was planning on rewatching the show once it was finished but now I don't want to- that's a huge timesink for something that ends up collapsing in on itself.

But at least we got Daenerys with her starbucks cup, which is my new favorite production fuck-up. Amazing.

Bro: Whomst with her what

Alex:

Juno: Oh No

Kristen: She finally got her coffee

Uprising: I heard they kinda totally flipped daenerys' character around from what it was the whole rest of the show and that's kinda sad

Kristen: Yep. They claim there was foreshadowing and like. I can see how they'd claim that? But it wasn't well done. In the end her flip seemingly happened over the course of two episodes for very bad reasons.

Alex: “I am Not Here to Be Queen of the Ashes.”

Tex: I don't watch it so idk what's actually happening

Kristen: Neither do the writers

Alex: Daenerys became Mad Queen because someone gave her a venti for "Dennis"

Kristen: The ultimate "can I speak to your manager" rage

Alex: wait shit, i guess i should have answered this spam email from that one video i did

Kristen: "$20, a ship and my dragons" LMAO Goddamnit Alex WHY DIDN'T YOU GIVE HER $20! THE SEVEN KINGDOMS ARE FUCKING WRECKED AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT

Jojo: I like the dragon lady

Kristen: I have some bad news for you.

Jojo: Shh don’t spoil I haven’t watched... any of it

Alex: then i have some more bad news for you, you read this chat

Jojo: D arnit

Kristen: Jojo save yourself, don't do it. As I weep over the opening credits again and eat ice cream.

Phill: I loved every episode I've watched so far. the only problem is that western civilisation now has to deal with the equivalent of an anime going past the manga, and they're pissed.

Xander: RIP to all the parents who named their kids Daenerys

Kristen: Hahahahahaha. Honestly this only makes me want to name my kid Daenerys. I will not do it but man it's tempting. "WHY DID YOU NAME YOUR DAUGHTER AFTER THE MAD QUEEN??" "I have very high expectations."

Alex: "It's a boy!" "he is still daenerys"

Xander: The rumor come out: Kristen names daughter Murder God

Kristen: Please no, my kids can't have my name

Phill: Rumour come out: Kristen is pregnant

Xander: Kristen is pregnant?! STOP THE PRESSES

Kristen: Haha I am not. But I would like kids some day.

Xander: SHE IS PREGNANT

IGNORE THE DENIALS OF THE MOTHER

SHE IS BECOME THE BROOD QUEEN

Kristen: I. Uh.

Alex: is kriscuit pregante

Kristen: Um.

Phill: OH, ITS THE GLORIOUS FIRST STAGE OF PREGANCY: COMPLETE OBLIVIOUSNESS OF THE PREGNANCY

Kristen: Yeah I'm pregnant with multiple hellspawn and I can't wait for my little bundles of bloodlust to burst forth so we can reign hell upon this earth

Alex: so, you know, average friday

Xander: Okay, but you don't have to brag about it. I mean like, you're pregnant, cool. Calm down.

Phill: You know, the American dream

Kristen: Hahahahaha. God that would be great.

"Okay so I've got the names all picked out."

"These are all the names of fictional tyrants."

"And?"

Xander: Caligula Vladislav Trawcynski, get down here RIGHT NOW

Kristen: CALIGULA damn it is a shame Stephen would never go for that one

Xander: Okay but like phuck Stephen because Cal Trawcynski is a bitchin name

Phill: CALIGULA! SMALLER HITER! GREG FROM ACCOUNTING, GET DRESSED OR YOULL BE LATE FOR SCHOOL

Xander: HENRY VIII I SWEAR TO GOD, IF YOU DON'T CLEAN YOUR ROOM.

Uprising: queelag. my first daughters name.

Alex: and like dmp before you, no one but one person will get the reference, and i guess assume queelag is just a normal ass name

Xander: Just name your kid Cal. If Stephen asks what it's short for, respond with "How dare you speak to me."

Xander: Anyway, My daughter will be named Kristen. Kristen Rybitski. Because let's trap that name in pollock town forever.

Kristen: You monster

Xander: Even better: Kristen Trawcynski Rybitski.

Or, in her most advanced form: Kristski Trawczynski Rybitski

Phill: You stop right there

Alex: skiskiskiskiskiskisskiskiski

Kristen: you are a monster

Xander: But to actually answer the tumblr question: It's real bad. I'm not super invested, but ultimately I don't care because HBO is about to get some amazing shows to replace it

Like Watchmen and His Dark Materials

#whole crew #ask the ir crew #this post is a ride #game of thrones #andyces55

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Sutter could never defend Tara because he made everything he could to make the average Soa fan hate her,I’m tired of reading dudes and not only dudes tbh,how a bitch she was,she went against Jax and even worse,Gemma😱she faked a pregnancy😪people say she became Gemma bc she was harsh to Lyla after Opie died🙄and Gemma was so nice to her😒Oh god!Charlie didn’t go to SDCC last year,it was pretty weird,he definetly changed the tone in s7,he sometimes was cute though like he said Tara was the only woman he ever loved,the one he thought to be destined to be with and that even in s6 making it right for her was always in the back of his mind🤧lol That’s right,Kim Dickens doesnt follow anything Soa and they don’t follow her either,Sutter has mentioned her once,since he ignores Colette🙄but he never tagged her,but he did tag and even follow Kristen Renton👀🤣Jax shutting romance with Wendy down was good,but she almost sobbing was painful,girl,this man injected you,stooop🙅🏽‍♀️

You’re absolutely right!! He fed into that fanbase because he knew people hated her!! Sutter not coming to Tara’s defense just villainized her more, which is what he wanted 😤. It’s all because of the rivalry he set up between Tara and Gemma! He wanted people to side with Gemma so bad, so that’s how he wrote it. I mean the fake miscarriage scene made her seem like a villian and he actually wanted Gemma to be a victim??? Oh god that was a deleted scene too 🤣. All Tara did was tell her to get her shit together! A little harsh yes, but Gemma has said worse! Yes! I feel like the tone was very different for the last SDCC! I don’t think I watched all of the footage, but was Katey even there?? Idk you’d think it would be more hyped! Yes!! I remember him saying how he was going to miss Maggie and Tara! And I think he tried to comfort the fans by telling us that Tara was with him throughout the season! Like Jax wouldn’t forget her and neither would he 😭. Wow!! That really surprises me! Give me the tea Kim 🤣! You’d think Sutter would follow her, since he’s such a big fan of Deadwood. That’s so strange! Oh my god we were watching that scene and I’m just like stfu Wendy 🤣! Like stop crying over him, he’s done nothing but treat you like shit!

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For the ask game... ONE THROUGH ONE HUNDRED

ur ask popped up in my notifs and my first reaction was ‘ADI PAAVI’ which. i dont know how to explain in english sdfkjdskjgkdsjfg

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? i don’t rlly use any of these tbh im a primate who downloads all her music

is your room messy or clean? MESSY my brother literally roasted me abt it today

what color are your eyes? brown!!

do you like your name? why? o yea sure i like it but i do feel like it’s kind of awkward on the tongue, even for people who are used to it (indians). idk its a mess but personally i like my name, wish people would refer to me by it more often

what is your relationship status? single asf unfortunately

describe your personality in 3 words or less a bisexual mess

what color hair do you have? black

what kind of car do you drive? color? i drive my dad’s car which is a white i10… if i ever get a car for myself though it’d be a sky blue honda civic probably

where do you shop? i dont fuckin shop lmao i HATE shopping for clothes it just makes me feel worse about myself. if i absolutely have to though i just buy clothes wherever my brother buys em

how would you describe your style? its honestly a mess i have no sense of style,, or at least i dont feel comfortable enough w my body to express myself. but like the Ideal would be three things: either hardcore 80s, bad biker bitch or the suave suit woman look

favorite social media account setheverman

what size bed do you have? single bed

any siblings? i have one younger brother and hes horrible i love him

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? taiwan they have nice food there

favorite snapchat filter? i dont use snapchat tbh

favorite makeup brand(s) i dont use makeup either but i used to, and i liked maybelline a lot back then

how many times a week do you shower? 7 at best, 5 at worst

favorite tv show? does anime count. haikyuu

shoe size? uk 6 iirc

how tall are you? 153cm midget

sandals or sneakers? both are nice… lets go with sneakers

do you go to the gym? no but i work out occasionally

describe your dream date im a huge sap so like,,, stargazing?? a carnival or something of the sort… honestly i dont have a dream date i’d rather just go somewhere, anywhere, and spend time talking

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? buddy i dont even know where my wallet is (though i think it’s around 1500 rupees)

what color socks are you wearing? right now, none but all my socks are bland and boring white black gray

how many pillows do you sleep with? one

do you have a job? what do you do? nope im just a miserable college student

how many friends do you have? 1 best friend, 2 idiots i care about quite a bit, a bunch of people who’ve stuck around despite me feeling like i don’t deserve them and whom i’m grateful for. not a big circle by any means but enough to make me feel like i dont have to ‘earn’ affection

whats the worst thing you have ever done? o boy o man where do i even start… i used to lie a lot,, but i think the worst thing i did was in 10th grade when i stepped on a wasp to assert my dominance and then just felt rlly bad about it

whats your favorite candle scent? i dont like scented candles :/ i have a lot of sensory issues re: smells

3 favorite boy names ??????? ive never thought of these before tbh i dont rlly have any favorites??

3 favorite girl names refer above

favorite actor? jeff goldblum

favorite actress? cate blanchett

who is your celebrity crush? kristen stewart but also like,, tied with cate blanchett

favorite movie? i have a bunch of favorites… but independence day lmao

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? i used to!! my favorite book is lord of the flies

money or brains? money binch $$$$$ (edit i just realized this is probs supposed to be about your s/o?? in which case. brains i guess)

do you have a nickname? what is it? i don’t go by my old name/nickname online anymore so i guess my new nickname is just keiji or kannagi

how many times have you been to the hospital? zero i think, at least for myself

top 10 favorite songs OH BOY… honestly rn im a little biased bc ive been listening to depeche mode NON STOP for the past week so lets just say. this playlist of 6 songs here and then some all time favs like miklagard overture by turisas, under bergets rot by finntroll, curse my name by blind guardian and starchild by wintersun

do you take any medications daily? yeah, for my allergies

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) dry as the fuckin sahara

what is your biggest fear? that i won’t have any friends one day

how many kids do you want? zero i think. though maybe my mindset will change once i grow older

whats your go to hair style? a ponytail… tbh i want to cut my hair so its like chin length, that used to be such a Look TM on me

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) i’d say its medium to big, somewhere in the middle? (i live with my parents)

who is your role model? i don’t really have one, but i find myself looking up to my brother a lot

what was the last compliment you received? i think it was when my friends told me this green kurti looked really good on me

what was the last text you sent? ‘HOLY SHIT’

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? i knew from the very beginning (he isnt a huge deal where i live)

what is your dream car? honestly something super retro, or maybe a dodge challenger

opinion on smoking? Bad. one of my friends smokes and im her mom friend and i wish she’d stop

do you go to college? yeah and i hate it

what is your dream job? farmer

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? rural areas :(

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? no but i do take soap bars

do you have freckles? nope

do you smile for pictures? yeah!!! i look uglee otherwise

how many pictures do you have on your phone? i honestly dont know my phone doesnt show the total amount

have you ever peed in the woods? nope

do you still watch cartoons? UHH YEAH THATS WHAT MY BLOGS ABOUT

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? im vegetarian

Favorite dipping sauce? that spicy red stuff

what do you wear to bed? usually salwar pants and a tshirt

have you ever won a spelling bee? nope but ive only participated in one, so

what are your hobbies? i like writing a LOT, and i kinda like drawing, im good at graphic design but i dont do it often. i like learning languages

can you draw? yep!!

do you play an instrument? i used to play the keyboard and the drums; looking to get back into drumming soon

what was the last concert you saw? i havent been to any :(

tea or coffee? coffee tastes better imo but its bad for my stomach so tea i guess (but only the milk chai they make here none of that leaf water crap)

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? havent been to either but donuts r nice, better than coffee

do you want to get married? i think yeah, if im super in love with the other person

what is your crush’s first and last initial? i’d rather not say it here, in case they see it

are you going to change your last name when you get married? nope, but maybe hyphenate it, but even then id rather just keep my last name as it is

what color looks best on you? red, but also blue

do you miss anyone right now? my best friend but i miss her like every day (she lives in a different state)

do you sleep with your door open or closed? closed, but open if it’s too stuffy. though even then i’d rather open a window

do you believe in ghosts? nope

what is your biggest pet peeve? when people don’t put as much effort into the conversation as i do!!! like binch im TRYING do u know how HARD it is for me

last person you called my dad

favorite ice cream flavor? HMMMMM… mango?? i dont know man i like everything. vanilla’s also nice

regular oreos or golden oreos? regular… golden oreos are discount oreos

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? dont like sprinkles :/

what shirt are you wearing? a ripoff metallica tshirt

what is your phone background? julian from the arcana lmao (my lockscreen however is some pretty scenery from kiki’s delivery service)

are you outgoing or shy? i wouldnt say im shy, just ridden with a lot of useless anxiety. but if i have to talk to people i can do it, im quite outgoing when i put my mind to it

do you like it when people play with your hair? NO. BAD (unless it’s people i love and trust a lot)

do you like your neighbors? theyre alright i guess? i’ll be honest my family has feuds with some of them so i don’t talk to them too much

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? in the morning, and then if i go to college, once after i come back. ideally i wash it thrice a day but hah

have you ever been high? nah

have you ever been drunk? nope

last thing you ate? uhh i think it was curd rice

favorite lyrics right now you treat me like a dog, get me down on my knees; we call it master and servant

summer or winter? autumn? autumn

day or night? i dont really have a preference

dark, milk, or white chocolate? I LOVE ALL THREE though my favorite would be milk

favorite month? may. it’s a full holiday month here

what is your zodiac sign? taurus sun, sagittarius moon

who was the last person you cried in front of? i can’t remember? probably my mom

#thank you laura youre the best #ask #lancelier #logan tag #vaaya moodu

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spyrothetimelord · 7 years

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50 things about meee

Tagged by @theempresskaizer @kakihoden @incorrectmidc @nijigendiaries Thanks guys!

Rules: fill this out and tag at least one person you’d like to know more about! Or just fill it out! Or don’t! Answer only some of them! Make up your own questions! “What kind of requirement is that”, you ask? A reasonable one! Who am I to tell you what to do? Anything goes!

1. What kind of food can’t you stand?: most foods tbh… I’m legit probably the pickiest eater you will ever meet. 2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick?: The way my ears smell when I need to clean my gauges lolololol 3. Have you got any useless talents?: I can lick my elbow. 4. If you could be really really good at one thing, what would it be?: art. and saying that specifically to encompass both my writing and drawing 5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking: there are so many but I’ve loved Keanu Reeves since I was really young lol, Reese Witherspoon, Kristen Bell, Arden Cho, Fan Bingbing…. uhhh I have a longish list if I think for too long so… 6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid?: video games, cartoons/anime, playing with random toys and coming up with complex stories that can only be described now as soap operas xD 7. What is something you’re proud of?: my commitment to people, even if I resent it sometimes. 8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate?: intolerance of other people 9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower?: I’d love to be a follower for once but most people I get stuck with are not driven enough to be leaders or literally don’t make decisions that are more efficient or better for the end result 10. What kind of student are/were you?: “I wish I had a whole class full of her”

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life?: Yeah probably, but I couldn’t think back on what that might be.

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion: water and open spaces. but worse than that, the out of bounds parts of video games. seriously, scares the heck out of me. 13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable?: I used to relate to Zoey from Marked but haven’t read in a while so not sure anymore lol 14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties?: *has never been drunk* and uhhh I sit in one spot and talk to people I know only. Or people who make easy conversation 15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone?: I fall in love with looks easily lol, but it takes a while for me to trust people 16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends?: depends why. one close friend is always great but having casual ones for many situations and areas I go to in my life would also be good. 17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak?: I’m a neat-freak in my mind but life makes me a slob 18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy: My old bed that I accidentally caught fire. The joke was that everyone wanted to sleep in my bed because it was the most comfortable one we had. 19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday?: Nope, and not sure. I like picking out names though. 20. What was your favorite book as a child? Goodnight Moon and The Very Hungry Caterpillar are special to me 21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about: uhhh??? fidget-spinners tbh 22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated: uhhh??? I’m not sure… normal friendships? 23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose?: y’all thought I’d say Rayvis but you’re wrong. I’d be glued to Ruby Rose from RWBY 24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday?: become fluent in each of my chosen languages 25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat?: I try to when someone is not getting any other support or the offender is wrong, but sometimes I don’t care to do excess research to seem more “valid” to others 26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in?: I can’t think of anything lol.. does saying “hella” count? xD 27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for?: literally just me as a child lol 28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable?: integrity 29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.): ugh I was the crazy cat lady and everyone would get me various cat print things and most were verrrrrrry tacky lol 30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones?: Nope. English and lol pig latin xD Learning Japanese, with goals of French and Arabic sometime 31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside?: I definitely like city life more 32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving?: leggings. as. pants. 33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else?: let everyone look at someone else. I joke all the time with my mom about making everyone look away from me at my hypothetical wedding. 34. Favorite holiday?: don’t celebrate any 35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously?: both, but which depends on the situation 36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.): no, because I’m a firm believer that going back to something allows you to see new things while laughing/crying/etc the other things you already experienced before 37. What hobbies do you have?: video gaming lol, watching shows/YouTube/playthroughs, writing, drawing… I’m very boring 38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have?: access to the cheat codes of life (like you know how you can pause the game or open a menu and enter codes for various things? I wanna do that in real life) 39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you: I can be talkative 40. Something that took you way too long to figure out: ??? not sure. I had something and then forgot lol 41. Worst injury you’ve had?: I haven’t really been too injured but I’ve had major back injuries before and once my cat scratched me and I couldn’t move my arm lol 42. Any morbid fascinations?: I get easily grossed out so none really 43. Describe your sense of humor: sarcastic, can get dark, memes 44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose? skipping era I’d choose to live in Japan or maybe Europe

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at: staying motivated 46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through: um? not sure xD 47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.): I wouldn’t get a tattoo at all but of the two, the one on my face. I wouldn’t want something offending on my body. 48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist?: both, but maybe more pessimist? I don’t know lol 49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you?: compliments make me shy so probably anything genuine 50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you: that I’m mean or unkind all the time

Tagging! @passengersaraht @lustfullyleocrawford @emigotchi @princessdiarymdc @trixtzu @amagami-hime @leorysxi @juzbijou @cheekrubsu and any and all who’d like to!

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1: How tall or short do you wish you were? - 5′8″ to 5′10″2: What’s your dream pet? (Real or not) - I can barely take care of myself3: Do you have a favorite clothing style? - I’ve got a thing for a good suit but I live in tees/polos and jeans4: What was your favorite video game growing up? - Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. It still is5: What three things/people do you think of most each day: At the current moment, we’re all thinking of Taylor constantly6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say? - It’d be so long, dude.7: What is your opinion on [insert person/thing here]? - Didn’t give me a topic mate8: What is your Greek personality type? [Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, or Melancholic] - Melancholic9: Are you ticklish? - Very10: Are you allergic to anything? - Nope11: What’s your sexuality? - Too gay to function12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa? - Cocoa! Always!13: Are you a cat or dog person? - Cats14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson? - Even not wanting to be immortal, Vampire is the best option15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber? - Miniladd16: How tall are you?- 5′5″17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to? - Something gender neutral or something else that starts with Z18: How much do you weigh? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!] - Too much19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits? - Not really20: Do you like space or the ocean more? - The ocean21: Are you religious? - No22: Pet peeves? - People who don’t know they’re order in a drive thru23: Would you rather be nocturnal or diurnal [opposite of nocturnal]? - I’d be at least a little more functional if I were diurnal but I’m nocturnal so24: Favorite constellation? Orion, though I’m not into astronomy25: Favorite star? - Sirius I guess26: Do you like ball-jointed dolls? - I don’t like dools27: Any phobias or fears? - Spiders. I don’t like heights either.28: Do you think global warming is real? - Yes29: Do you believe in reincarnation? - I’m open to the concept30: Favorite movie? - This was asked below31: Do you get scared easily? - I’ve got a strong startle response that probably makes it seem worse than it is32: How many pets have you own in your lifetime? - 1 rabbit, a few fish, and two hermit crabs33: Blog rate? [You’ll rate the blog of the one who’s asking.] - You asked on anon, mate34: What is a color that calms you? - Blue35: Where would you like to travel and/or live? - I’d like to live by the water or in London but will settle for a decent house here. I’d like to travel pretty much everywhere36: Where were you born? - SoCal (which is the best Cal)37: What is your eye color? - Blue38: Introvert or extrovert? - Introvert39: Do you believe in horoscopes and zodiacs? - No but they’re interesting and entertaining concepts40: Hugs or kisses?- Hugs by default41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now? - Taylor so I could ask her what the fuck. Or go down to Florida and see Cole and Kristen.42: Who is someone you love deeply? - My dad and my best friend43: Any piercings you want? - None at the moment44: Do you like tattoos and piercings? - I’d hope so given the state of my left forearm45: Do you smoke or have you ever done so? - No and I have no plans to.46: Talk about your crush, if you have one! - I’m crush free47: What is a sound you really hate? - High pitched electronic sounds or anything like nails on a chalkboard48: A sound you really love? - The sound of rain49: Can you do a backflip? - No50: Can you do the splits? - No51: Favorite actor and/or actress? - Gillian Anderson52: Favorite movie? - Alien or Silence of the Lambs53: How are you feeling right now? - Tired54: What color would you like your hair to be right now? - I like the current colour but if I had to change it, maybe blue?55: When did you feel happiest? - When I’m sleeping56: Something that calms you down? - the sound of rain57: Have any mental disorders? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!] - Depression, anxiety, autism.58: What does your URL mean? - That I couldn’t come up with anything decent or fandom related that wasn’t already taken59: What three words describe you the most? - No idea. Tired is one of them.

“Kinky, gay, entertaining” - @knitsweatersyo

60: Do you believe in evolution? - Yes61: What makes you unfollow a blog? - Bad content or reblogging those posts where Taylor is tagged 12000 times.62: What makes you follow a blog? - Quality content and them being on my dash or someone recommending them.63: Favorite kind of person: Anyone I click with really64: Favorite animal(s): Wolves65: Name three of your favorite blogs.- @knitsweatersyo, @georgiastars, @Taylor (Sorry Karlie!)66: Favorite emoticon:👀67: Favorite meme:Sometimes Things That Are Expensive Are Worse68: What is your MBTI personality type? - INTP69: What is your star sign? - Gemini70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog?- I do not have a dog. (Though with the number of photos I get of Waldo....)71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most? - Not sure I have a favourite72: Post a selfie or two? - check the My Face tag73: Do you have platform shoes? - No74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself? - I’m not that interesting. I live in Sin City but I don’t drink, smoke, or gamble.75: Can you do a front flip? - No76: Do you like birds? - Kind of77: Do you like to swim? - I’m not particularly good at it but I live in the desert so a pool is always a good thing78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you? - Swimming79: Something you wish didn’t exist: Our current political situation.80: Some thing you wish did exist: Me having the ability to function. Or a gift of $1 million.81: Piercings you have? - None82: Something you really enjoy doing: Writing.83: Favorite person to talk to: @knitsweatersyo84: What was your first impression of Tumblr? - “I’m just going to join and casually lurk the fandom but I won’t get involved.”85: How many followers do you have? - 186786: Can you run a mile within ten minutes? - Probably not87: Do your socks always match? - Usually88: Can you touch your toes and keep your legs straight completely? - Haven’t tried in a while but it’s safe to assume no89: What are your birthstones? - Pearls and Alexandrite90: If you were an animal, which one would you be? - A wolf maybe?91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be? - Not a big fan of flowers so idk. Maybe given where I live and how personable I am, some sort of cactus?92: A store you hate? - Record stores because they want to make me spend all my money93: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day? - 094: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds? - Read minds, but I also feel like Flying is a healthier option for me95: Do you like to wear camo? - Not since I was 1296: Winter or summer? - Winter97: How long can you hold your breath for? - Not that long. 98: Least favorite person? - So many people.99: Someone you look up to: Taylor?100: A store you love? - Record stores101: Favorite type of shoes - Boots or Trainers102: Where do you live? - Middle of the fucking desert103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why? - Nope104: What is your favorite mineral or gem? - Not really. Some of them look cool but that’s about it.105: Do you drink milk? - Yes.106: Do you like bugs? - Nope.107: Do you like spiders? - Fuck no.108: Something you get paranoid about? - I have anxiety.109: Can you draw: No110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked? - There’ve been a few but I can’t think of any111: A question you hate being asked? - “have you considered going back to college?”112: Ever been bitten by a spider? - Once I think113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach? - Yes114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days? - Cloudy115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now: - My future wife wherever the fuck she is.116: Favorite cloud type: - Cumulonimbus117: What color do you wish the sky was? - I’m pretty content with it being blue118: Do you have freckles?- a few here and there.119: Favorite thing about a person: I’m guessing personality isn’t a good answer here so I’ll go with their laugh.120: Fruits or vegetables? - Veggies!!121: Something you want to do right now: Sleep122: Is the ocean or sky prettier? - The sky usually but I MISS the ocean123: Sweet or sour foods? - Sweet124: Bright or dim lights? - Dim125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature? - Nope126: Something you hate about Tumblr: It’s toxic culture127: Something you love about Tumblr: How easy it is to keep up with your interests128: What do you think about the least? - Obviously whatever I can’t think to list.129: What would you want written on your tombstone? - I don’t want a tombstone.130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now? - So many republicans.131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself? - My ability to write132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures? - No133: Computer or TV? - Computer134: Do you like roller coasters? - Some of them135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness? - I get motion sick in the right conditions136: Are your ears lobed or attached? - Lobed137: Do you believe in karma? - Yes138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are? - Negative three139: What nicknames do you have/have had? - I don’t really have any?140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends? - I was an only child in a neighborhood without kids at that age so likely141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink? - Yep142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others? - Neutral probably but maybe a bad influence? Idk.143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help? - I suck at picking out gifts tbh144: What makes you angry - Our current political situation145: How many languages do you speak fluently? - 1, and not even coherently half the time146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries? - Girls147: Are you androgynous? - Not quite but it might be close148: Favorite physical thing about yourself: My eyes149: Favorite thing about your personality: I’m not as annoying as I could be?150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person. - Taylor so, again, I can ask her what the fuck. Ed Sheeran because he seems to suck at keeping secrets. Whoever the fuck has the lotto numbers.151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose? - I’d much rather go forward.152: Do you like BuzzFeed? - It’s a good way to kill time.153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? [If you have one.] - I’m single154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons? - No. I’m not very touchy feely.155: Do you like to play with others’ hair? - I don’t invade personal space like that (and yet i love to have mine played with)156: What embarrasses you? - My dad telling childhood stories of me157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious: Again, I have anxiety.158: Biggest lie you have ever told: I’m straight.159: How many people are you following? - 679160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)? - 74628161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)? - 0162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)? - 142,878163: Last time you cried and why: - I cried from laughter the other night if that counts over a broom conversation. Other than that it was probably because my muse was being angsty.164: Do you have long or short hair? - Short165: Longest your hair has ever been: It used to be well past my shoulders166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religon? - I dislike organized religion but respect spirituality.167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created? - Not in particular. It’s interesting to speculate about but there’s other shit I’d prefer science focus on.168: Do you like to wear makeup? - I don’t OWN makeup.169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds? - Probably not170: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully? - Yep

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