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[stellarsturniolos]

━━ ⟢‘MEANT TO BE’ ╰  MATTHEW STURNIOLO.

pairing: matt sturniolo x plus-sized!reader

content warning: mentions of insecurity & comparison, brief mention of bullying, reader struggles with body image, cursing.

A/N: reblogs and likes are appreciated! i do NOT give consent for my work to be copied or uploaded to any other platform. thank you. this is my first time posting my writing in years, so please be kind. ily.

falling in love with your childhood best friend, matthew bernard sturniolo, was not something you saw coming. although you probably should’ve seen it coming.

you grew up with matt, nick and chris and you’ve always been incredibly close with all three of them — but matt was always special. the two of you had a very unique bond from the moment you met. being around matt was an instant serotonin boost for you, every time you saw him. 

matt was always your overzealous protector — he was always around to make you feel safe, whether it be from something as small as a bumble bee or from something more severe like the assholes who bullied you in high school.

he never failed to make you feel beautiful. every time you saw him, even if it was just on facetime, he complimented you. any time you felt insecure about your body, he was there to comfort you and let you know that he thought you were perfect as you were. 

you always just assumed he did all of those things because he was a very good best friend. even when he would intertwine his fingers with your own, or hold you in his arms a little too tight when you’d hug him goodbye, and you’d feel the fluttery sensation of butterflies in your stomach, you never thought you were in love with him.

you finally came to terms with your true feelings for matt when he went on a date with a flawless instagram model who slid into his dms because she was a fan of the triplets youtube channel. 

you tried to be happy for him. you really did. but the jealousy nearly ate you alive.

for the entire duration of his date, you tried your best to distract yourself — you tried to read your favorite chapters of your favorite book, and you even turned on your most beloved episode of your favorite tv show, but nothing kept your attention. 

you found yourself looking at every photo the model he was on a date with had ever posted on instagram. and comparing yourself to her. she’s tiny, you’re heavy. she has clear skin, you don’t. she’s beautiful, you’re not. 

the insecurity was tearing you apart, slowly but surely. 

you felt sad because you wanted matt to want you. but he was on a date with a hot model who had millions of followers and a perfect body.

and you?

you didn’t look nearly as pretty as she did. not to mention you were just an average college student. you weren’t famous, you didn’t have an abundance of cash lying around, you didn’t understand what it was like to be an influencer. not the way she did. 

what did you have to offer matt? absolutely nothing. but that didn’t stop you from wanting him. 

you felt tears blur your vision and you quickly blinked them away. you didn’t want to cry. 

when you heard a knock on your apartment door, you were pulled out of the hateful thoughts you were thinking about yourself. it was nearly dark outside and you weren’t expecting company, but as they say, curiosity killed the cat. so you opened the door.

you were both surprised and pleased to see matt on the other side of the door.

“oh. hi, matty.” your smile was faint. “not that i’m unhappy to see you, but.. aren’t you supposed to be on a date right now?” 

“i was on a date. but i left.” he said, pushing past you and walking into your apartment. he started pacing and let out a deep sigh. “i left because i don’t want to date her. i.. i wanna date someone else.” 

you felt your heart fall into your ass and you almost forget to respond. of course he’s in love with someone. that’s just your luck. “oh, um.. okay. am i allowed to ask who the lucky girl is?” 

he just stared at you for a long moment — his big, wide, beautiful blue eyes almost stared a hole through your soul.

he moved closer to you and laced his fingers with yours, which wasn’t unusual. you two held hands all the time. but your heart still skipped a beat. 

“i need to tell you something,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “but i need to make something clear first. if you don’t feel the way i feel, i’ll understand, okay? you’re always gonna be my best friend. if friendship is all you wanna give me — that’s enough. you’re always enough. but, um.. i just need you to know that i, uh..” he laughed softly, a nervous chuckle, but continued to hold eye contact with you. almost like he was afraid you’d disappear if he looked away. “this is harder than i thought. holy shit. i just.. want you to know that.. i’m really fucking in love with you. and that’s why i left my date tonight.” 

your mind shut off. your brain felt fucking paralyzed. your entire body was frozen. your mouth moved, but no words would come out.

you felt his hand shaking as he held onto you for dear life. “can you, um, say something? please?” 

the vulnerability in his tone made your brain flip a switch and fucking start working again. “matty.” you breathed out his name, then in a soft voice, you asked. “do you really mean it?” 

instead of responding, he pulled you even closer and then suddenly his lips were touching yours. matthew sturniolo’s lips were touching yours. it was soft, almost hesitant, but it was the most perfect kiss you’d ever experienced. 

he pulled back, but he stayed close. so, so close. too close but not close enough at the same time. “i’ve never said anything more fucking true in my life. i love you.” 

with teary eyes and a bright smile, you said. “fuck. i love you so goddamn much, matt sturniolo.” 

the way he smiled at you in that moment lit up his entire face. and your heart. 

he reached up with both hands, grabbed your face and pulled you in for another kiss. this one more heated than the last. 

[helloiamthatlilwitch]

Hi have sum quick doodles on my iPad before it locks itself (don’t ask)

Pls reblog (ugh I feel so bad after asking this-)

[brechtian]

(Mostly Signed!! YA + Sanderson) books I own and am extremely willing to sell for cheaper than average listings bc I don’t want them anymore. a lot are hardcovers (heads up most are signed but some include personalization with my name sorry. if ur name is Ella congrats tho). All are very very good quality or like new bc I was delicate with my books when I was younger (prices are for the lot of every book described in a listing and all are negotiable!)

Six of crows & crooked kingdom (1st/1st) both signed - $90 + shipping

Shadow & bone (hc) and siege & storm (pb) both signed and original covers - $75 + shipping

divergent books, all signed with inscriptions - $100 + shipping

mistborn second gen (wax and wayne), bands of mourning is a signed 1st/1st, alloy of law is a used 1st/1st, shadows of self is a used 1st/1st. $150 + shipping SOLD

Alloy of law 1st/1st former library copy - $45 + shipping

Steelheart by Brandon Sanderson trilogy, firefight & calamity 1st eds hardcovers; steelheart just paperback. $35 + shipping SOLD

hardcover signed copies of first dragonsteel editions of legion and legion: skin deep by Sanderson, rare - $75 + shipping SOLD

Darkest minds trilogy + companion novel, first two books signed, all except first book hardcover - $80 + shipping

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heartless and renegades by meyer signed hardcover 1st/1sts with inscriptions - $50 + shipping

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Grave mercy (paperback) & mortal heart (hardcover) both signed - $45 + shipping

The Entire selection trilogy & sequel trilogy all signed. Sequel trilogy are all hardbacks, original trilogy paperbacks. - $185 + shipping

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Way of Kings signed hardback like new/unread - $100 + shipping

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Elantris signed no printing number - $150 SOLD

Warbreaker signed and inscribed w/ my name, former library copy - $95

Arcanum Unbounded signed hardcover first edition - $150 + shipping SOLD

Rhythm of War 1st/1st SOLD

Okay um there’s more but these r the main listings for now, see my reblog with the more comprehensive Sanderson listings if you are interested in his signed books (I have a lot!).

[littl3d0ll-art]

How does the goat feel about Shamura? A lot of people ship the goat and Shamura based off the idea that Shamura was the goats god, but if your goat is a golem what do they think about them, so they hate them for what the bishops did to the lamb, do they not care (would they try to use them and the other bishops to figure out narinders weaknesses and get rid of him?)

Okay I was gonna sleep on this but then I got an idea that made me go really fucking insane and now I have to rant. Sorry in advance, also I’m kinda making most of this up as I go so there’s a chance everything changes in the future. This also might not be very coherent

The goat honestly doesn’t care much for any of the bishops, they beat each of them twice already and as followers they’re non-threatening, especially once they become bishops to the lamb’s cult.

They do however attempt to grow closer to the bishops as a way of getting more personal information on Narinder, and also maybe if they’re friends with his siblings he’ll let his guard down and become friends with them too. I think this would actually be a good way to kickstart their character development… they start paying attention to others besides the lamb mainly to get rid of them so they can have the lamb all to themself, and with this they inevitably grow closer to other people and start expanding their world slowly. Then once it’s too late they realize they actually care about these other people, and that maybe their relationship to the lamb isn’t all that great, and they don’t even know who they are outside of the lamb’s influence so maybe they should work on that… anyways it’s a very slow process and takes place over the course of thousands of years because they’re very stubborn and the codependency runs deep.

For the individual bishops, once they get close to them the goat will actually enjoy being with them all even if they don’t realize it. Leshy and Shamura might be good sparring partners, while Heket and Kallamar would be good to chill out with I think. For romantic feelings… honestly if they ever get over the lamb they might just never get with anyone. If they do I guess I can see them working with Shamura, but I love the idea of my goat being with Kallamar- they’re both so fucking pathetic

[shutupdevvie]

here’s me and tal except we’re actually danny and josh

this is the most it seems we will get for now

[theforgottencrow]

Heyo! I randomly came across your blog some little while ago, and have only REALLY checked out your masterpost just now. When it came to things you've listed as things you enjoy, I actually was unaware most of those existed, as I'm pathetic at exploring the internet at times and randomly finding fandoms. SO, I do ask, if you could give a short basic idea on the fandom or hyperfixation or the type of genre of music the band or song belongs to and other songs or artists that may be a bit MORE popular for whatever reason and thereby more likely to be recognized by me or even just links to the songs so I can understand what it's like if it's hard to explain in words. If clarification is needed, I ask this so as to better understand a person on the internet and expand my sphere of media and perhaps obtain new hobbies or hyperfixations and thereby learn of the greatness something may be that I don't know of because of my lack of knowledge on the subject. This is also partially asked so what I can do is find a masterpost for a basic idea of these things, pin it on say, a secondary blog, and then suddenly spam my mutuals with related shit with then a link to it in case they want to learn more about this new fandom or sets of fandoms I've suddenly entered. Thank you for reading this long-as-a-Chinese-Dragon ask and for spending your time reading this.

I’m gonna be honest- my ass does NOT understand what your initially asking for- I struggle to understand questions I read if they’re longer even though I’ve re-read this over 10 times now 😭

I can’t tell if you’re asking me for a brief summary of what each fandom/fandom hyperfixation I’m in is abt/why? But- please clarify :”)))

I THINK i understand the music one you said though…so ima try and do a few of them?? Uhm srry if it’s wrong but-

1. Mindless Self Indulgence’s genre of music is Electropunk, Industrial Rock, and Digital Hardcore. They’ve made the songs Shut Me Up, Stupid MF, Sex for Homework, Get it Up, What do They Know, etc-

2. Cave Town’s genre of music is Alternative/Indie. They’ve made the songs Boys will be Bugs, Lemon Boy, Devil Town, This is Home, Juliet, etc- (I definitely recommend them if you don’t know them already, they’re a really good artist)

3. Derivakat’s genre of music is Dance/Electronic, Pop, and Indie Pop. They’ve made the songs Tool, REVIVED, Smile, Pomegranate Lips, Nightmare, Casino Royal, Cycle, etc-

4. Ryan Mack’s genre of music is Pop. They’ve created the songs I Should’ve Stayed Home, Overwhelmed, Forever and Ever and Always, Broke, Guess that’s Love, Sad Fuck, etc-

uh- that’s all I’m gonna do for now and srry if it wasn’t what you asked for- again really srry that I don’t understand but if you could maybe shorten it and make the question a tad more clear I could maybe answer it better 🥹

[dearestsilhouette]

man. how I js wanna be an animal or smth.

a dog who can run around outside and do tricks that impress people and snuggle up on someone’s lap. a house cat that can climb trees and jump around and sleep whenever and claw at scratching posts. maybe a fox that can run through forests and see pretty sights and possibly even be taken care of by a human.

to be an animal would be a dream.

[koushuwu]

princesstooru -> miyukij

i realize now that literally all my links will be fucked due to this… but i had to do it.

[themoonunderstoodmydadjokes]

I’m just gonna say this and then I’ll probably just be quiet for the time being or until it bothers me again… but bodies that are not white and skinny deserve as much attention, support, praise, love, enthusiasm, etc as you give to the bodies that are white and skinny on this site…

[sunlightfeeling]

Believe: Kimi ni Kakeru Hashi - Episode 3 (2024)

Takeuchi Ryōma as Kuroki Masaoki/Wakamatsu Hirouchi

Amami Yuki as Kariyama Reiko

[jewishbarbies]

I love how I can literally post about anything as much as I want and no one gives a shit but the second I answer “too many” asks in a row about ts then I’m “spending so much time and energy” and it’s “obsessive”. at least y’all are consistent, i guess.

[dunewizard]

Reblog to GET the person you reblogged this from

[wikipediathefreeencyclopedia]

everyday i wake up and choose love and just once i would like to wake up and have it choose me back

[idkmanwtfishumanityanymore]

Just a scrolling account

Just made this to browse the insanity of Tumblr- do not interact at all, like- AT ALL. This is a burner account I guess. (This is a lie now- this is my alt. Y’all can call me Brite, Karma, or “Hum” (for the humanity part in my name) idc which of the three is used👍)

DNI if you’re nsfw like. At all- if I talk about tickling, it’s not meant in any creepy way😟 icky nasty gross get away from me if you interpret any of my posts as horny or fetish or anything like that begone- *scared asexual noises-*

[juvian]

Hi I’m Alex, I’m a occasional wannabe artist that post pokemon fanart and love anime, Fairy tail in particular is my life, I would love more mutuals if you wanna follow me I would appreciate 🥺💙

[decembermoonskz]

sometimes I think about posting… and then I don’t wanna.