#it's smth thoughtless to do

[leezuhh]

what was that post about how people are getting afraid to ask stuff especially to popular bloggers because all of that person's followers will dogpile on them for something mostly innocuous,,,,

[sleepingdeath-light]

sebastian michaelis + fem bimbo s/o smut hcs ; 18+

requested by ; anonymous (01/09/23)

fandom(s) ; black butler

fandom masterlist(s) ; hub | specific

character(s) ; sebastian michaelis

outline ; “would you write sebastian michaelis x bimbo reader? maybe she's smart when doing her duties, but when she knows she can relax she's just a thought-free girl sebastian can use. (maybe their contract mark is over her womb or smth; im 19)”

warning(s) ; sexually explicit content, bimbo!reader, dumbification kink, dom!sebastian, sadist!sebastian, overstimulation, oral sex (male and female receiving), marking kink, slight ownership kink, degradation kink, praise kink, free use kink, vaginal sex, fingering, cream pies, public / semi-public sex acts

minors and ageless blogs will be blocked

sebastian michaelis is, above anything else, the perfect butler and is willing to do anything and everything in order to keep his masters safe and satisfied — whether that’s by cleaning and cooking for them or, in the case of your very unusual contract, fucking the thoughts out of them after a pressing day of work

you weren’t stupid by any means — quite the opposite, in fact, as he’s seen you masterfully manipulate peers and inferiors alike with a wit so sharp it could cut glass, and perform the duties assigned to you with such ease that he’d once questioned why you’d even formed a contract with him in the first place — but it was that same intellect that brought you the strife you’d asked him to relieve you of

after all, one can’t overthink or stress about work when their thoughts are drowned out by the feeling of being stretched out on a long, thick cock — if you’re still even able to think after he’s worked your clit so hard with those long fingers of his that you’re seeing stars and squirting so hard you’ve stained his uniform

of course during work hours he tends to you at all times, waiting on you hand and foot: waking you up in the morning with the day’s paper and fresh breakfast in bed, engaging in light banter and productive conversation with you, bringing you freshly ironed clothes suited to the day’s weather, fetching you documents and books for work, and doing other odd jobs related to the upkeep of your home — he is still a servant, after all

but when you’re ready to wind down and want nothing more than to be used and thoughtless — well, then he’s happy to indulge you there too

happy to force you to your knees (or have you lay on your back with your head hanging over the edge of your bed) and shove his cock down your throat — burying his hands in your hair and fucking your face until your cheeks and lips are covered in spit and your mascara is streaming down your face

happy to kneel between your legs as you sit at your desk or in your lounge room, massaging your thighs and waist and stomach as he uses that talented tongue and those long, slender fingers to bring you to climax over and over again — not stopping until you’re limp and gasping and sobbing, until even his eyelashes are damp with your juices, until your fingers are so tightly wound in his hair that it’s even starting to hurt him and your hands are trembling, until he’s had his fill of you

happy to bend you over the nearest surface and fuck you until your legs and arms give out beneath you — legs spread as far as they can go whilst his hands roughly paw at your waist and ass and breasts (greedy and harsh and possessive), not stopping until your pussy is spent and dripping with his seed and his teeth marks are imprinted on your shoulder

happy to pick you up and fuck, finger, or lick the thoughts from your mind at any moment — you had given him free reign, after all

happy to sit you on his lap with his dick buried in your cunt, strong grip keeping you in place as he forces you to look at your reflection in the mirror — one hand gripping your chin and making you stare at the point where the two of you become one, stare at your contract mark as it flashes and pulses in time with the pulsing of your inner walls around him, not moving until you’re teary eyed and begging him to please touch you

happy to play with and tease you even in front of others: whispering absolute filth into your ear before walking away completely unaffected, giving you suggestive looks across the room whenever others can’t see him, sliding his hand a bit too far up your thigh (when sat side by side) or low down your back (when walking together) for it to be completely innocent, and even making remarks referencing things he knows you enjoy in the bedroom that to others seem completely innocent

happy to leave an array of marks all over your body as a trail of evidence showing just how much of a good girl you are for him — deep bite marks on your thighs, fingerprint bruises on your hips, scratches along your sides, nips along your throat, and deep hickeys all over your breasts (he’s very generous with how much he claims you and he seems to get off on it even after the fact, whenever he notices them on you during the day when you’re working)

happy to call you pretty and perfect and his ‘good girl’ in the same breath that he mocks you for being ‘desperate’ and ‘needy’ and ‘slutty’ — praising you for your obedience and receptiveness and reactiveness to his touch and voice and yet teasing you for being ‘so wet already’ when he hasn’t even touched you yet, even playfully spanking your clit and chuckling against your throat when you yelped and flinched away from his touch

(he is a demon, after all, so it’s only natural that he’d be at least somewhat sadistic in the bedroom — and you have plenty of bite marks, bruises, and scratches all over your body to prove it)

(and he’s at his roughest when you show off your contract in one way or another — such as when you call him ‘my demon’ or wear something that intentionally shows off your contract mark, which will lead to much more possessive behaviour when you’re alone)

he’s also not at all opposed to fucking or playing with you in public or semi public areas — at most he might suggest finding somewhere a bit more private in order to preserve your reputation amongst your peers, but if you’re insistent then your demon is hardly going to refuse you (just know that he’s not going to go gentle on you just because you decided to proposition him where others might hear or see you, he’s still a demon after all)

but, of course, sebastian is still your loyal servant and once the fun has been had he’s there to take care of you in the aftermath: running you a warm bath, tending to any injuries so they don’t get infected, wiping away all of the blood and cum and saliva without complaint, reassuring and praising you for being so good for him, putting you in fresh bed clothes, and even bringing you some food and water to help you completely recover

you still have work to do and no butler worth his salt would let his mistress risk her career over something so minor

[cleromancy]

What is your opinion on KonTim? I noticed you posting a lot of Kontim lately and I was wondering if you are beginning to like it? Also, since I know you stated you didn't like Kon in the past, are you beginning to change your mind about him?

to be honest my opinions from 12-13 years ago when i was a very angry very opinionated teenager often dont reflect my current opinions. i just want to establish that now.

but for the record my dislike of kon was more of a reflex to the way fandom at the time made him this very flat "aw shucks" kind of cardboard cutout. i only started disliking him when i tried reading more of his comics where he tended to be y'know. more nuanced, he'd be a jerk sometimes, inconsiderate and thoughtless, etc, and then turning around and going on tumblr where the way people talked about him didnt reflect that at all, that was really offputting for me. because i do--and did--love characters who are assholes, but not if thats not... like... acknowledged. and fandom was *aggressively* not acknowledging it, from my perspective. anyway i think when i get around to rereading yj98 ill like him more this time. particularly because i *am* so much older now and will be reading from more of a place of "yeah of course hes a shithead sometimes, hes 16 years old (for a given value of 16 years old)."

as for timkon i wouldn't say i "ship" it. and i would also like to contest the assertion that ive been posting "a lot" of it lately LMAO i think ive posted it like two times in as many weeks, and then maybe 2 more times i rbed smth where they were in the same nonshippy frame or textpost?

but back to the ship itself. to begin with they *are* very good friends whose relationship is important to them both, that changed them both, and that has an impact on characterization. and i dont... think you can read a lot of those old tim comics, if you read him as queer at all, without acknowledging that there was at at least one point something btwn them.

but as far as shipping it goes. first of all i still think most of fandom does it wrong. (if im being serious, theres no "wrong" way to do fandom, but that's also the most succinct way i can put it that i don't vibe with the majority of the stuff thats out there.) second of all i don't... like i dont *want* them to get together, exactly, unless a given writer is doing a really good job at the yarn theyre spinning convincing me otherwise, within the boundaries of that story.

but there *is* something btwn them, romantically speaking, and it has a lot of interesting character/relationship potential to explore for both of them. i am at the moment almost entirely uninterested in exploring it from kons side, which is another reason i dont really ship it, but that might change when i get around to rereading yj98. but i really don't think you can get a full picture of new earth tim drake as a character without admitting he at least had a thing for kon when kon was dead, any other point in time being much more up for interpretation.

so basically! 1. its interesting when its allowed to be interesting and not flattened into featureless fluff 2. i dont ship it AS SUCH but it absolutely was a thing that happened even if they never date or dated, and 3. as for kon himself i think ill be a lot more forgiving now both bc i Am older and bc no one in my fannish circle these days is annoying about him where i see it LMAO

[lorynna]

white woman tears anon from earlier - that's actually fair & i agree with what you said about "white women don't need ass kissing," i think its come to a point where any "defense" of white women (i'm white let me clarify) i feel like i need to clarify that i do not think white privilege *doesn't* exist, i guess that in itself shows the problem. it will already be assumed that whatever i say is white women tears so i need to give a disclaimer that i am not victimizing myself for being a white woman. it makes me feel whiny before even speaking, having an opinion or thoughts is "whining and crying". the self flagellation isn't necessary but i feel obligated to say so otherwise be assumed racist/"karen." i've seen arguments of "don't speak then/we don't need your opinion then" which just turns into an echo chamber and you can't have an actual conversation about anything without it getting shut down immediately. and have women not been told to shut up since literally forever? idk, not the best at describing this because it feels taboo to discuss but hopefully this makes some sense. i'm also not fully versed in the Imane/Angela situation but the hate i've been seeing online is insane, seeing men say "im glad that white girl got hit" like 🫤 is this not just misogyny? men (and many women disappointingly) don't give a shit about women's sports they want to see her get hit because she cried. she cried "white women tears" and she should be hurt for that. this is not giving other women a sour taste in their mouth??

Hello again anon - I'm glad you didn't take my reply negatively - I was worried you might have!

And yes, I totally relate to what you mean about feeling the need to clearly state that you do believe in white privilege before defending any white woman - I did so aswell in my reply to you previously.

Maybe this is more of an online-forum-problem, than when you're talking to someone directly irl. I often find it tiring to have discussions on here because there are so many people not even trying to have a good faith conversation but more so aiming to knock of their daily-life frustrations by twisting or laying words in your mouth you haven't said, just to make it seem like a cheap win when all they did was jump to thoughtless assumptions. - so logically you try to minimize every potential possibility for them to accuse you of anything by thoroughly elaborating on all of your beliefs beforehand.

I myself notice how I care less and less about arguing with people online. If it's a healthy conversation where I feel like I am being respected and I can learn smth from it - then sure but I won't waste my time on engaging in a debate where the whole point is to insult each other and where both are not ready to start with good faith.

In the end it doesn't benefit me and prioritizing one's mental health always goes first. So instead of trying to change people's minds (like i tried when I was younger and more patient and naive) I no longer see any shame in just deleting a person's comment from my blog if they have no constructive criticism but only insults etc. This is my space and if someone violates my boundaries I delete it and be done with it, even though sometimes the desire of sending a snappy reply overtakes.

Don't worry - I get what you're saying.

And thanks for writing again ❤️

[bumblebeerror]

I love my mother dearly.

Most of the time she is my savior and my cheerleader and she works so hard for the both of us. I owe her so much.

So I’m stuck, trying to figure out how to bring up the fact that every time she dismisses non-binary as not a real thing or tells me she will not use my pronouns hurts like a bitch, and how to do so without making her feel like I hate her guts. Because I know there are times where she does try and I appreciate them so much.

But it’s that in her more thoughtless moments she’ll casually slip in biology or whatever else because she’s a nurse and she got A’s in anatomy and yadda yadda, and I just.

The thing is I don’t really care that much! Her and my brother are the only people who deadname me now! My cousins and grandparents call me the right name or just avoid using my name so they dont get confused and honestly? That’s perfectly acceptable to me. Congrats, you care enough that you don’t want to hurt me even if you can’t remember my name. A+ love you too. My job refers to me as Rowan. My doctors refer to me as Rowan. My therapist refers to me as Rowan. Right now the only long term communications I have where I’m deadnamed are with the disability lawyers who are trying to get me on disability and it’s because my name’s not legally changed.

But it’s the fact that if I bring it up and want to explain it, she HAS to point out that it doesn’t make sense biologically. She’ll say well I haven’t really changed anything and I want to say so badly yes! Because I never felt comfortable being a woman! So I never was! But if I bring up top surgery it’s what if I regret it? Tough titties if I regret it! I’ve wanted them gone since I started getting them and frankly mother if 16 years of wanting them yeeted off my chest was wrong? I’ll fucking live with it like women who had breast cancer do and move the fuck on. I’ll stuff a bra or smth I don’t really give a damn. I’m 26! I think I can handle the consequences of my own actions and get some stick-on titties.

I don’t know. I’ll figure it out. I just wish I could get her to like. Suspend some fucking disbelief. Trust me about. Me. Without her feeling like I’m yelling at her.

[marmett]

can i say something or will i be killed.

anyway i dont like the nb rep in the fallout show. its so thoughtless. diversity win the brotherhood of steel respects trans ppl's pronouns. like todd. i simply do not think the brotherhood of steel would respect trans people. sorry.

there is smth to be said abt regressive, fascist organizations not caring if someone is trans and pinkwashing the war crimes like the US military has done w/ its girl boss captain marvel shit, but i feel like they didnt put that much thought into it...

[hirokiyuu]

God your Twst post is so Good And Relatable. Welcome to Scarabia/Jamikali stan hell, Ep. 4 permanently altered my brain chemistry and I'm glad it's done the same for you. Can you believe that before playing Twst Kalim was bottom-tier for me because I thought he had a fratboy design but now he's tied with Jamil for Ultimate Fave. The power of Drama And Good Writing I guess. 🙏 Anyway you got more Scarabia thoughts you'd like to share, or just Twst thoughts in general?

ALKHSGLKAHS ur valid. kalim isnt my favorite Individually but ni a duo with jamil theyre just. chef finger kiss. in terms of duos probably my favorite, i love divorce so much ALSKGDHALKSHGD

i really like the scarabia relationship a lot tho. i really like that what kalim did to jamil IS treated as smth he should work on. like he wasn't malicious and he didn't mean to hurt jamil but thoughtlessness can still be painful! it's good. i like that end of book 4 is literally just. theyre divorced now. i havent seen how things go post book 4 but i love that theyre just divorced now. kalim has to do his own laundry. the ideal 'good" endgame jamil/kalim rship for me is jamil goes off on his own for like ten years post graduation after doing his research somewhere else too. dates other guys. learns to be a person. and then maybe later on they reconnect nad kiss but they never marry and also sometimes jamil does just have to leave and be on his own a while. u kno. (suddenly realizes this is just rhos aksh and stares into the sun)

hmmm overall thoughts......... my friend baited me into twst bc she knows i like when characters are Not Good People and so like. twst being full of htat is really nice wwww i like that kalim is thoughtless i like that jamil is a lying schemer i like that riddle is too uptight and azul is manipulative and leona is lazy and all of that its all v nice. so far i haven't met a character i Dislike tho i do have some i like more than others

i like riddle a lot....... epel also (guy who started playing during harveston) deuce is stupid nd my son. i have my eye on lilia and malleus also....... in terms of ship stuff i also really like floyd/riddle ALKHGLAKSHDG what if i was a rules obsessed freak who nevertheless is leraning to respect others nad their points of view and you were a whimsical eelman who did whatever he wanted adn even tho most ppl found me boring you did not and in fact loved (teasing) me and we were both boys. what then

[obstinaterixatrix]

ppl can be really good at accidentally writing potentially compelling romance and absolutely garbo at writing intentional romance it’s so fascinating

[willowfey]

ok i know i said my brother has never had a correct opinion in his life but he just told me that society doesn’t teach men to respect women but he learned how to respect women by having a strong mother and powerful sister who always share what they believe in and i’m 🥺 he can have a Right i guess...

[griffintail]

I’m surprised people think techno’s grief extends to pure violence. When it’s clear the news of his S/O death leaves him trembling on the floor, and letting out pained wails his first night alone. Leaving him delirious in denial as Philza has to keep watch to make sure he doesn’t kill himself trying to bring them back. And as the grief seeps in he is left to sleep through dreamless nights and live through thoughtless days. And at the end, acceptance isn’t voluntary, he’s too tired to do anything else. (Please write smth for this I can’t sleep this idea’s been eating at me for days)

I went a bit off script- I hope you still enjoy. :)

The Bolt

In-Game

Pairings: Technoblade x GN! Reader

Warnings: Death, Blood, Angst

Part 2

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

        Techno blocked the axe coming for his face with his shield as he chugged his last regeneration potion.

        The last battle of L’Manberg was over and he needed to find (Y/N) and get home to safety. He gave a whistle that echoed across the battlefield before pushing Sapnap away from him. Booking it away, he went towards the meet-up spot Phil and (Y/N) had agreed with him.

        “Phil, I want you to have the totem.” Techno held it out to his friend.

        He saw Phil running from the wreckage the withers were causing as he could see the (H/C) head of hair weaving through the chaos. Techno lost his concentration as he stared at (Y/N), everything a dull roar as he smiled softly at their figure. Creating the scene of anarchy and chaos.

        “Wait, I’m your damn fiancé, why don’t I get it?” (Y/N) gave a dramatic huff as they put a hand on their chest.

        It was true, they both only had one life but…

        “Because, you and I, we never die blood goddess,” Techno smirked.

        “TECHNO!” They screamed.

        He had missed seeing the crossbow aiming at him because he had been looking at (Y/N)…

        He went to get his shield but he would be too slow…

        Then there was a cracking as an ender pearl shattered in front of him and in a cloud of purple sparks appeared (Y/N), who gasped as they caught the crossbow bolt in the stomach.

        “You’re such an idiot.” (Y/N) laughed. “Now! Let’s celebrate our freedom from the child by blowing up a nation!”

        Techno laughed as he enjoyed the sparkle in their eyes at the thought of the anarchy.

        “No, no, no!” Techno caught them as they fell, Jack quickly loading his crossbow again.

        He needed to go.

        Scooping them up, he bolted for where Phil was watching in wide-eyed shock. Phil managed to snap out of it though and covered Techno’s retreat as he tried to reassure (Y/N).

        “It’s ok, we’re going to get you home, alright? Come on, you’re going to need to keep your eyes open for me beautiful.”

        But (Y/N) winced before crying out as the crossbow bolt brought them pain. The voices were screaming in panic with them and Techno.

        WE NEED TO GO FASTER! WE’RE OUT OF HEALTH POTIONS! WHY DID THEY TAKE THE BOLT! PHIL, HELP TECHNO! GO GO GO GO!

        “I’m here mate!” Phil ran beside him now, taking off his jacket. “We got to keep pressure on it till we get to the potions. I sent a crow ahead to get one faster hopefully.”

        Phil kept pace as pressed the jacket around the bleeding wound, (Y/N) letting out another scream. Techno wanted to scream himself as he ground his teeth together to keep himself together.

        They had to cross the nether to get home!

        They had so far to go!

        That crow needed to get here yesterday!

        “T-Techno.” (Y/N) sputtered.

        “Quiet, keep your strength,” Techno demanded.

        “I-I-I…” They muttered before their eyes blinked closed.

        “We got to stop.” Phil panicked.

        “We don’t have any potions!” Techno also panicked.

        “We have to slow down the bleeding now!”

        The pair stopped as Techno put (Y/N) down as Phil tried to work as fast as he could being the experienced healer. He tried to stem the bleeding as best he could, he couldn’t take the bolt out though and it had to have hit something important because there was too much damn blood!

        Then a few minutes later…

        (Y/N)’s chest stopping moving…

        “No. No, no, no. Breath damn it!” Techno commanded, putting a hand on their shoulder.

        “Techno…” Phil said quietly, tears in his eyes.

        “Where’s your crow!?” Techno shouted. “We need a potion now!”

        “…It’s not going to help Techno.”

        “It has to! We—They’re not gone! They…they…”

        Techno put his forehead on theirs as tears gathered in his eyes.

        “Please…don’t leave me. I love you; I need you…”

        But (Y/N) had fallen and lost their last life…

        …

        Techno had carried (Y/N) all the way home to the tundra and he held them for a while before he finally let himself bury them. Then…

        He just sat there for hours, shaking.

        In the freezing cold.

        Next to the mound of dirt.

        “Techno, mate. You got to come in.” Phil muttered as he came out as night was starting to fall.

        “I don’t want to leave them,” Techno mumbled.

        The voices were quiet whispers as they talked about all the things they loved about (Y/N) and Techno just sat listening to them, ignoring as Phil protested.

        “They wouldn’t want you to die with them mate.” Phil finally broke through the voices.

        Techno huffed, tears falling behind his mask. “And they didn’t want to die either.”

        Phil sighed before just sitting next to his old friend.

        “What are you doing?” Techno looked at him.

        “You got to pass out eventually. Doubt all the adrenaline from the fight is helping.”

        It really wasn’t. Techno felt bone tired and his body wanted nothing more than for him to sleep but he wanted nothing more to sit here with…(Y/N). He was covered in the blood of his lover and those he harmed today. Maybe it was all karma everything he had done…

        It took another hour but finally, Techno’s body took control and he was out. Phil let out a long sigh before dragging the man into his own home. It was going to be a hard time for a while…

        …

        Phil thought Techno would be the same as the first night, that the other man would become unresponsive. His assumptions had been false though. In fact, it was worse.

        Techno didn’t eat or sleep properly, which Phil had expected, but what he didn’t expect was for Techno to practically go insane as he poured over hundreds of lore books, trying to figure out how to bring (Y/N) back.

        “Techno, mate, you need to take a break from this.”

        “No, I will get them back. If I can just figure this out…I can do it.”

        “You can’t do it if you die too!”

        Phil went around these circles for hours, Techno sometimes striking low saying if he can figure it out, he could bring Wilbur back as well. Techno went full force into his work, the voices only encouraging his behavior as they threw out ideas to research. He had never listened to his voices more than now.

        Techno had been so invested in his work, he didn’t notice when Phil gave Ranboo to build on the land, mostly because Phil gave him one rule, leave Techno be. Phil knew Techno the best and was trying his damn best to knock Techno back.

        The blood god was pouring over notes for a hopeful experiment when Phil came in, food in hand as always.

        “It’s late Techno, eat and go to bed,” Phil told him.

        “After I’m done,” Techno muttered.

        “Techno.”

        “After. I’m done. Phil.” Techno gave him a dark glare before going back to his notes.

        Phil sighed, putting the food down on the table. “Tommy locked Dream in prison.”

        Techno frowned. That made him glance at Phil.

        “Why?”

        “Something about his discs as usual.” Phil crossed his arms, shrugging. “We got a notice on the radios that Dream lost two lives to Tommy.”

        “Huh,” Techno mumbled, looking at his work again. “Kid should have finished him…”

        Techno scribbled out a sentence. That wouldn’t make sense.

        “Probably, I don’t know why he didn’t. Ranboo might know though.” Phil smirked to himself, his tactic working a bit well in his favor.

        Techno’s interest was at least separating a bit from his research.

        “Who?” Techno pulled over one of his sheets.

        “The kid living outside the house.”

        “Heh?” Techno looked up fully at that.

        “He’s been here for weeks Techno; you’ve just been so caught up you haven’t noticed.” Phil pointed out now. “You need a break mate. You’re going…you’re going to kill yourself doing this.”

        Techno looked at the papers in his hand.

        “Techno, you need to fight another day. Come on.” (Y/N) tried to coax him away from preparing potions. “I’m tired.”

        He clenched the papers as the voices were scattered, none of them focused on one thing right now.

        “…Fine. I’ll at least talk to the kid.” Techno grumbled, getting up.

        “Take the food.” Phil grinned.

        Techno rolled his eyes, taking the bread but nothing else. He ate it as he left the house, his eyes not daring to travel to the beautiful flowers around the mound of dirt. Indeed, on his land, was a little house in the side of the hill. Huffing, he went over as the voices were skeptical, remembering one boy named Ranboo from L’Manberg and visiting Tommy.

        “I can’t believe the little brat!” (Y/N) screamed as they paced around the house. “We gave him shelter! I should him love! AND HE BETRAYS US!”

        Techno closed his eyes, his body shaking before trying to distract himself by knocking on the door.

        “Phil?” A voice called from the other side before they opened the door.

        The tall boy shrank seeing Technoblade at his door.

        “Uhhhhh…hi,” Ranboo muttered, looking anywhere but the pig masked man.

        Techno didn’t care really for pleasantries right now, so might as well get straight to the point.

        “Hi, heard you might know why they locked Dream away rather than just kill him,” Techno grunted.

        He hated the fact that Dream also had a favor over him. Would have been nicer for him if they had killed the smiley masked man.

        “Oh yeah…I was there…hang on,” Ranboo muttered, taking a book off his belt and flipping through. “He uh…Dream said he had a book that could bring back the dead.”

        Every. Single. Voice. Went silent.

        As Techno stared at the tall hybrid, who shifted nervously at the stare.

        “He did now?” Techno muttered.

        “Y-Yeah. He said he could bring Wilbur back for Tommy.”

        Techno didn’t care about the rest as his cape fluttered behind him as he took a determined march to the house to grab his things. If Dream wanted to cash in that favor, he owed him one more thing…

[chocogi]

masterlist! I finally went on to do this! see i told yall i’ld do it for realsies

making this, i’ve realized just how little i actually contribute to sagau lmao pls i need reqs to work on

Genshin Impact-

my favorite angst train with some moots

“What’s this? Huh? What’s this?” ft. Albedo, Klee and Jean

[self-aware]

Holy puppeteer

writing under cold water. pt.1 | pt.2 | pt.3 | ongoing…

Scientific Matters. pt.1 | ongoing..

Villain (Teniwoha • Villain)

A peek into the self aware AU of this blog

this has no title. literally.

Sentient Genshin Characters-headcannon style pt.1 | pt. 2 | ongoing..?

Is it just me, or does Body by Mother Mother fit Sagau?

I made this with sagau in mind but it’s about as vague as the happiness in my life so it should be okay to use in other scenarios

kaeya except its the keep smth frozen for 10 seconds achievement

[general genshin]

Zhongli, Childe, Xiao with an albino s/o

lumine plays rapunzel but aether’s the hair; a prompt

Muted - includes thoma, eula and zhongli!

s/o who likes suits and fancy tuxedos! includes kaeya, diluc and zhongli!

[death drabble series (theyre seriously just about characters dying and under 100 words lmao)]

warning? theyre pretty shit

-klee

-noelle

-ningguang

-itto/granny oni

-amber

Crossovers

-Alchemist’s Assistant (Albedo finds a Skychild)

-Alchemist's Skychild (A sort-of continuation of alchemists assistant)

Sky! Children Of The Light-

The infamous “I took way too long for something as short as this”

Sky!Cotl- The enigma that is the player.

Eden; the gardens of dragons and despair

main tags only in this blog!

#moot!! #moots!! or #cute moot! - interactions with the few moots i have >:3

#thoughtless meja - no real purpose, just says that i was braindead while writing whatever post has this tag

#meja.665 drabbles - drabbles!

#meja.665 fics - usually a series of fics i write for some of the fandoms I’m in! But there’s a few standalones.

#meja.665 imagines - brainrot or headcannon-esque posts

#star.of.the.sea requested! - requested fics, drabbles or imagines

#mejamad >:( -me being mad? rants i guess

[temeraire]

im going to come out and say it. 'speeding' has often been used as an excuse to pull over marginalized groups for no reason other than to start altercations. im not saying "go 70 in a 30 school zone" but i am saying if you're this hellbent on speed limits you're bootlicking. (also if everyone around you is going 10 mph over the limit, its called 'follow the flow of traffic' and if you dont, your chances of bein hit skyrocket. so.)

nah like i fully agree that "speeding" is used as an excuse to wrongfully accuse and start shit w marginalised groups by cops and thats 100% real. like im fully with you there. and i also think speed traps are bullshit and used to trap people bc speed limits themselves can be placed in a predatory/intentionally difficult way to trap people into being unable to like.. slow in time and therefore be caught speeding. fully agree w you!! its bullshit!! its evil!!!

but speeding itself is absolutely a danger and absolutely causes real harm and thats undeniable. its not bootlicking to acknowledge that speeding kills people and hurts people and makes the road (and areas around roads) dangerous for everyone, not just yourself. its a selfish and thoughtless thing to do imo and im not backing down on that. i also think youre coming from a very american pov here? (not intended to sound confrontational).

like i def didnt explain myself fully in that post but like the thing im criticising isnt really just individuals speeding (because yeah if everyone around you on a freeway is going 10 over then it can for sure cause problems to not go w that) but rather the entire culture around speeding and the fact that someone might consider it normal to imagine everyone around them going 10 over. like that, to me, is fucked. imagining going out on the freeway and seeing everyone around me going 10mph (aka 16kph) over the limit is terrifying. like i think its just a complete cultural difference here where americans assume their experiences and attitudes are universal and normal when they arent

you also say "im not saying go 70 in a 30 school zone" and like yeah ofc but like. where do you draw the line then? 40 over is no good but what about 30 over? 20 over? a very small increase in speed drastically increases the time it takes to stop a moving vehicle in an emergency, and if theres other people in the area going even faster then they're going to take even longer to stop and potentially crash into you or swerve to avoid and crash into other shit, or pedestrians or houses or other cars. like ik this sounds basic and patronising but i cant emphasise enough that the idea of this happening should not be smth that someone is willing to risk to get somewhere a bit faster. if youre driving multi-tonne machines around on the road w limited ability to communicate w other drivers then you need to all be on the same page

[ganondorf]

ik i rbed that post but smth just feels very odd about the whole like. "only men watch intelligent films that make you think (which is cringey) and girls love watching dumb thoughtless capitalist churned propaganda marvel movies and do not appreciate what they watch on a technical or artistic level. which is obv the superior option"

[turnaboutspoiler]

Hey everyone! I haven't posted much about idolish7, but I want you to know that it's one of my favorite fandoms, and since the 5th part was announced I want to share my thoughts on the topic based on the pv. Also I have to warn about spoilers for the previous parts and some other stories.

Oh, and one more thing! I haven't read the last anniversary story yet so I don't know if there were any important things and "bridges" to pt5, but as soon as I have time for it I read it and if there will be smth changes my mind I'll let you know.

So starting with Zool members!

MIDOU TORAO

"Someday, it will come true. For now, whatever it is, I'd like to personally experience it"

OR

"Someday it'll come true. But for now, I'll have you experience on how big of a scale it is"

I found two versions of his phrase giving us two totaly different meanings. I don't know which one is the right one since I don't know japanese at all, but I have comments for both.

The first line however stays the same. I guess we're gonna have a new arc for Zool as a group since they have a new manager now (who I'll talk about later), and considering their lost at BoW at the end of pt4 it sounds pretty possible. This ending has shown us that Zool still have to make their way of growing up, becoming independant. So yes, I think this is what we'll get in pt5.

And then next lines clashes. But my main thought on them that we're finally gonna have Torao's personal arc. We had Toma and Haru's in pt3 and Minami's in pt4 while Torao stayed aside for the whole time. We only know his backstory briefly from the AQ story but definitely it was not enough. So it seems that Torao May even become a centric Zool character in pt5 (I have another option for this one however). Maybe we'll even see his family members like his father or elder brother, who was the only person in this family Torao had good relationships with. I really hope this to be true.

Also can't imagine this to be a coincidence that Torao comes the very first. Believe me, there's gonna be some mess with him.

INUMARU TOMA

"Each from different places, we battled, we survived, and we met. And then, we became ZOOL"

OR

"We've all been fighting in different places, survived and met. And then we became ZOOL"

So this are the words of a true leader! These lines sounds like something Toma could say protecting his group and his friends. But protecting from whom exactly? Then again, we'll go to this later=) Also it can be a message for Zool's fans like "look, we all have different stories but we stay strong together". And I feel like this phrase is reffering to the AQ story about ballons which actually were the connecting thread between Zool members back at the time (thanks to that btw I have a trigger for ballons).

But aside everything of this, this is actually a very powerful speech. It shows that Toma would do anything to protect Zool and I guess he could do something thoughtless and stupid in despair (as I believe that something bad is gonna happen to Zool), which, of course, will have its consequences. Also I want Toma to have his own leader arc, like is this role really fits him..? (yeah, I like angst;P)

ISUMI HARUKA

"Up until now, what I wanted to say... There were so many things I wished someone would listen to. I'm glad I'm finally being heard"

OR

"Until now, There's been so much stuff I wanted to talk about... So many things I wanted someone to hear. I'm happy that they can be heard now"

These lines broke my heart. I'm so happy Haru have friends like that now. Friends, who support him, who believe in him, who merely listen to what he has to say.

...And that's why I think Haru would suffer the most in case something bad happens to Zool.

Haru is the youngest group member, he's still a kid, and it's very important for him to have Minami, Toma and Torao around. Not only as friends but also as people he can rely on. He'll never say it out loud though. And I believe these lines could be a part of Haru's personal monologue or just his thoughts. Maybe he's even gonna have some kind of mental breakdown, who knows...

NATSUME MINAMI

"Understood, please leave it to me. I will make a song of revenge to make up for the lost at Black and White"

OR

"Understood. Please leave it to me. I'll compose a song for our revenge at Black or White's return match"

This is the direct refference to pt4 ending, which was already mentioned here. Considering Sakura's death and Minami's motivation for this competition, it has to be really hard for Minami to hold their lost. It's just naturally he, like noone else, wants revenge. But what confuses me is the first word — "understood". Clearly it's an answer to someone else's speech. Maybe Minami was told to create a song which becomes legendary and put Zool on the top of the pedestal. Or maybe it was an answer to the discussion of BoW above Zool members. Anyway it sounds like a challenge Minami decided to accept (the line "leave it to me" proves it).

I guess it could be his new motivation for composing, but somehow I don't think it would be the only one. It could be at the beginning, but not at the end.

~~~~

And I also want to add that it's highly possible we're gonna see more Zool's interactions with other groups. Probably more Minami with Nagi, Haru with Iori and Tamaki, Toma with Mitsu, Yamato or Ryu, Torao with Gaku and etc. And maybe other groups could help Zool with their situation in pt5. I believe we'll get a lot of scenes with sincere conversations between Zool and other groups.

Soooo that's all for Zool (for now at least). I hope I didn't forget or skipped something. Next go Re:vale!

[gaylittleinnkeepers]

It was really weird i didnt realize what i was doing. Do u ever kinda have a thoughtless moment when ur body kinda moves on autopilot for a bit while u zone out? That happened while i was eating the squashies but i forgot to swallow or smth so i choaked

sigh…………

mel i would be scared you would die but at this point i think ur invincible or something

(also yeah i know the feeling, i once drank a whole boba thing and did not swallow any of the bubbles and it was honestly really funny)

[fairycosmos]

I'm sobbing so loudly right now, I heard my father talking about depression and saying that it's just in the head and that if you just think happy thoughts it'll go away and people who kill themselves let the bad thoughts take over. I thought I could trust my father considering that he's much nicer to me compared to my mother but I was wrong. I guess I should've never hoped. Nobody in my family cares about me and my fucked up brain. I started crying to I had to leave and I messaged a friend of mine if I could talk to her and she stopped being active on Instagram as soon as I messaged her, I thought since she lived america she was probably busy or smth. I tried to message a friend who lived in the city, I said " I hope I'm not disturbing you" She replied I wasn't and asked how I was doing. I reply that I'm doing not that great and if I could call her. She just left the thing on read and went offline too. I feel so fucking alone and if I didn't want to die earlier, I sure as fuck do now. Trusting people is such a big fucking mistake I wonder why I even do it at this point. Nobody cares, nobody loves me, nobody needs me and I feel like it's all my fault. Maybe I'm just not worth their time to understand me. I know you're going through a lot already Chloe, so I understand if you don't want to respond to this, I really just needed to let this out before I go :)

i don’t feel good about letting your message slide. it seems like you’re in a really tough spot right now, and im sorry. can’t imagine how hard it must feel. i hope you’re in a place where you can really hear this out, but if not know you can always come back to it later. seems like a lot of people have been letting you down lately, but the common thread in your ask was that it was always because of their crappy actions - not because of anything you did or because it’s what you deserved. and im really sorry about your dad, too. it sounds like he’s really ignorant about mental health in general, and he has no business speaking on the topic to be honest. you know his shallow and unfounded opinion isn’t reflective of you or your struggles. you know that. but still, i know it’s really hard to hear someone you’re supposed to rely on say something like that. as for your friends, well. not everyone’s an asshole but everyone acts like one at some point or another, and it’s so unfair that you’ve had to experience so much of that today - especially when you’re in such a vulnerable state. i wanted to say im proud of you for reaching out to them in the first place, even if it didn’t go super well. it takes a lot of work to get to the point where you even want to talk when you’re hurting, and i think it’s a good sign that you did. though i get why it may not feel that way at the moment. i promise, you didn’t make a mistake by wanting to open up. it might’ve just been the wrong people or the wrong timing, and that’s not on you. look, i understand that there’s nothing i can do or say that will change the fundamentals of your situation. it seems like you’ve been carrying this for ages, and suicidal thoughts are obviously an extremely serious thing. im not trying to minimise that by saying any of this. and im not trying to patronise. i just wanted you to know that you are not alone and that you are not doomed to be in this position forever, no matter what your brain is telling you. of course, it’s completely normal to need love and comfort from others, but at the same time they do not and never will dictate your worth. whether or not you deserve to live does not depend on them and what they think of you. you deserve it inherently, which means it never goes away. it’s not your fault people are thoughtless - none of what is happening is your fault. are you currently seeing a mental health professional? is calling a suicide hotline or looking into a mental health support group in your area an option for you? i know it must feel very stressful and tiring, but it really just seems like you need to be heard. and there are people who can help you out with that. who can talk you through your episodes and enable you to figure out how to make them more manageable and less blinding in the future. there is so much that can be done and you are not hopeless. unfortunately, i think it just takes a bit of time to build up a support network when the people around you don’t understand, but it is absolutely possible. i get that it’s exhausting, and it’s alright if right now you just need to sob it out, im the same. seems like you’re not alone in more ways than one. cry until the tiredness comes, which it will if you let it. you have options, even if you don’t feel that way right now. so often, suicidal thoughts are so chaotic and intense that they aren’t built to last. they burn out fast, and i hope you allow yourself to get to that point before acting on your emotions. please, if you feel like you’re a danger to yourself, please alert the authorities, call a hotline or someone else you trust, even a little. you are so worthy and you are going to do and be so much, just by being who you are. you deserve better and i have no doubt you will find better, if you give it another chance. sending so much love. please take care and do the right thing for yourself. focus on what you need, not what you want or feel. hugs x https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines