#j<3

[ikigaisvt]

quiet love

in which your boyfriend vernon likes showing his love for you in a quiet way.

pairing: vernon x f!reader words count: 2k content: childhood bestfriends to lovers, fluff, domestic warnings: so soft but very corny, contains pretty common prompts imo, vernon's love language is not words of affirmation lol, implied that kids are mean to vernon, mention of driving, drinking, loss and exes, reader is sick at one point (the flu), a lot of food/eating talk, they are so healthy youre gonna throw up, soooo much physical affection they make me SICK (holding hands, kissing, playing with each other's hairs, hugging etc), babe/baby petnames note: omg im alive?!?!? hiii!! it's been so long since i posted a fic! this one is a birthday gift for the loml @vcrnons <3 happy birthday, u know it all already but don't forget i love u sm!!! i hope you enjoy this childhoodbff!vernon (it's ur thing) who's very very in love but very very shy to say it. hope anyone else who sees this fic enjoy too! don't forget to interact with this if u liked it, rbs are very very very appreciated! thank u<3 (also this was proofread by tired me so if there is any mistakes, ignore it pls thanks <3)

Vernon has always been a man of a few words; when you first met him in elementary school, he was the quiet boy and nothing could get him to speak apart from spinning tops and his favorite cartoons. Still, you decided to befriend that calm boy – at the time, people used to think you were only being nice but deep down you knew: you were making a friend for life.

Going through all of the different steps of childhood and teenage hood with Vernon by your side was an experience – you raised hell together, driving your parents crazy. But it was also having a best friend to experience each other’s every first times: first partners, first time driving, first time getting drunk but also first breakup, first bad haircut and first loss. You have seen each other through everything. No, you have watched over each other through everything; wherever you were, Vernon was standing two steps back, making sure you were always safe. And wherever he was, you were always standing two steps back, making sure he was always loved.

And that’s how you both fell in love. It was slow and secure; falling in love with Vernon was never complicated or painful. It was how things dropped into place and none of you ever denied it; at the time you knew you were meant to be – maybe you always did. And so, you let yourself fall into each other’s arms, a safe place, full of quiet love.

You were 24 years old when Vernon first wanted to tell you he loved you; yet, he didn’t have the courage to fess up. Having spent his whole life showing his love through actions, he had a hard time saying it out loud. After a nice date to the cinema and the restaurant, he drove you back home, small talk and look exchanged during the trip. As soon as he puts the car in park, he reaches out to hold your hand, his thumb drawing circles.

“Had a nice time tonight?” he asks.

“Of course I did,” you answer, a blush creeping on your cheeks, “You know I always do with you,” you add, reaching out to cup his cheek.

“You need to go, you have an early day tomorrow,” he tells you, kissing your palm.

“Yeah, I’m going,” you say as you reach down for your bag and open the door, “Let me know when you’re home, okay?”

“Of course,” he says as he holds your face between his hand, “You do the same,” he adds against your lips before kissing you softly.

“It’s literally two steps away, I’m already home,” you chuckle as you exit the car.

“Won’t leave until I get the text, babe,” he smiles as he leans over the center console to look at you.

You roll your eyes sarcastically at him but still, your lips go up into a smile as your cheeks reddens from the way he so apologetically loves and cares for you. This boy would do anything to make sure you see how much he adores you. So, you wave him goodbye and it’s only when you close your front door and his phone buzzes with an i’m home :) drive safe, text me xx that you hear him drive off.

The second time he almost confessed to loving you was when you were 25. You had just gotten over an awful flu that got you bed ridden for days, unable to go on with your schedule as you normally would. You were sleeping the sickness off for hours on end, only waking up when Vernon knocked on your door to check up on you. Honestly, he knew it was only the flu, but he was so scared for you; in his eyes, you always appeared as the strongest women on earth so seeing you so weak and tired pulled at his heartstrings. He thought about confessing his undying love as you were blowing your nose – maybe it will magically heal her, he thought one night. But deep down he knew you needed someone to help you out physically and so, he did. He had taken such good care of you; he kept your home clean, did the laundry and helped you out to the shower if needed. He had thought about doing the cooking but he knew his poor skills wouldn’t get you to eat at all. So, even if you couldn’t finish your plates, he had ordered your favorite meals all week, even if he didn’t really like some of those.

It's been a few days since you last had a fever, so even if you were still blowing your nose and coughing a little bit, you could still get out of bed and hang out with Vernon. You two decided to have an at-home date, ordering your favorite meals and watching the show you recently started together. Since you were less sick you could finally finish your plate and eat more than usual; even after finishing your food, your stomach was still grumbling.

“I’m still hungry,” you whisper to yourself, not thinking Vernon would hear you.

“Yeah?” he asks, still looking at the TV as he holds a spoon full of food in the air, “Want a bite?” he says as he looks at you.

“Is that okay?” you ask, not wanting to take away his favorite food. Even when you were sick, you saw how Vernon only ordered your favorite foods – he deserved to have every bite of his favorite dish.

“Of course it is!” he smiles at you, extending his spoon in front of you, “You like it?” he asks, waiting for your nods of approval.

You nod enthusiastically, giving him a thumbs up with a smile, “That’s so good!” you exclaim before Vernon reaches for your plate. You look at him, wondering what he is up to before you see him fill your empty plate with more than half of his meal, “No, no, no,” you say, trying to reach for it as Vernon puts it out of reach from you.

“You need to eat, babe,” he says as he puts the dish on your lap, “Go on,” he smiles, patting your head before turning his attention back to his almost finished meal and the tv.

You smile down, cheeks red from your boyfriend’s attention. You notice how he gave you the tastier part of his dish – meat, veggies and a lot of gravy with a good amount of rice – and he kept most of the rice and only a piece of meat for himself. You start to eat happily, re-adjusting your position on the sofa to be closer to him. It might have been a year and a half since you started dating with no I love you’s said, but you know this is how he shows he loves you. And that is enough for you – it will always be.

It's now been two years since you started dating Vernon; you’re 26 years old, living with your boyfriend, your two cats and waking up every day with the love of your life next to you. Life is beautiful and you could not ask for more. To celebrate your anniversary with Vernon, you planned a trip to your hometown - only a 1 hour-drive from home – so you can have your date where you first kissed: at the cinema. If someone told Vernon he would one day ignore a movie to give his attention to a human being, he would have laughed at their face. But here he is. Countless of movies and shows watched with you right there, next to him, and yet you always steal his gaze away from the screen. You are just so beautiful, he thinks to himself. And when he sees you, laughing at a stupid joke from a character, he smiles with you. Not because the joke is funny, no, but because he cannot watch you without his heart filling up and his feelings pouring out onto his lips. He knew since he woke up that day, on your 2 years anniversary, that he would say it. It had been on the tip of his tongue since the first time he saw you in elementary school, smiling at everyone and saving bugs, but he always held it back. He thought it would be too soon, too fast, too much – but how can love ever be those things? he realized recently. He had said I love you a thousand times already through his actions, he had said he loved you out loud to his friends, his family, his cats. He thought now was the time you should hear it. So, all day, his head was in the clouds, thinking how to bring this up, how to say I’m in love with you to his soulmate. It happens when you pull him into your apartment at 1 am, your anniversary already over. You both get rid of your shoes, the tiredness of the day finally falling on your shoulders, before you pull him into you for a hug. Your arms stay at his waist, his heart going thump, thump, thump against yours as his cheek rest on the crown of your head.

“Gonna let you go to sleep,” you mumble against his shirt before letting him go, “I’m gonna shower.”

“Hey- babe,” he says softly to get your attention, his hand wrapping around your wrist, “need to tell you something,” he tells you as you’re pulled back against his chest, hands on his front as one of his rest on your waist, the other one covering your cheek.

“Everything’s okay?” you ask, rubbing circle on the fabric of his shirt.

“Yeah, everything’s good,” he whispers, his eyes going down to look at your lips and up again, “You’re pretty,” he speaks under his breath, a blush making its way on your cheeks – and his.

“Thank you,” you smile as you reach for his neck, pulling him down for a kiss, “You’re not so bad yourself,” you whisper against his lips.

He holds onto your cheeks, your foreheads resting against each other, “I love you,” he murmurs so low you think you made it up but as you open your eyes and see tears in his own, you know this is nothing but real life.

“Oh,” you gasp softly, taken aback, “I love you too,” you say, smiling up at the love of your life.

“I know this was long overdue and I’m sorry it took me so long-“ he starts to babble, uneasiness bubbling in his chest before you cut him off with a kiss.

“It’s okay,” you whisper, playing with the hair at his nape, “To me, you’ve said it a thousand times,” you reassure him as he blushes, chuckling softly at how you always find the right words for him, “But a thousand more wouldn’t hurt,” you tease slightly, making him snort.

“I love you,” he repeats, his arms wrapping around your shoulders as yours find a resting place at his waist, rubbing his back over his shirt.

“Again,” you say with a smile in your voice before kissing his chest in an I love you too.

“I love you,” he says against your hair, his hands making its way under the straps of your dress.

“Again,” you ask him, never getting enough of these words flowing out of his lips.

“I love you,” he whispers against the shell of your ear, leaving a kiss behind, “so much.”

“I’ll never get tired of hearing this,” you whisper, your hands meeting the end of his shirt, “I love you,” you say as you touch his bare back.

“I love you, I love you, I love you,” he says like a mantra, “I’d unlearn any other words so all you could hear is my love for you,” he whispers, his eyes meeting yours, before your lips collide – just like your worlds did so many years ago.

You’ve always found reassurance in this quiet love you and Vernon were giving each other – but maybe you liked your love being a little louder sometimes.

thank u for reading! hope you enjoyed hehe <3

[girlofhoneyandglass]

lol I need to rant about one of my paras (j) a bit

ok so i originally said that he's an older version of one of my earliest characters, that's not true, he's a different character, but oh my god

like how did this guy just randomly turn up one day, make up an entire hierarchy, a fuckign LANGUAGE, a colour/bandana code and code words for twenty different things?! and they make SENSE?

like omg i love you j, but why why why did you have to do this?

Like literally I can't put into words, he makes me feel so safe and loved and appreciated and safe and comfortable but it's still so much to deal with and I'm so tired I just wish it would stop for two fucking SECONDS that's all I need I NEED A FUCKING BREAK FROM THIS I need my brain to just fucking shut down and STOP

just stop THINKING, stop making shit up, please I can't fuckign HANDLE IT ANYMORE its too much I have almost 60.FUCKING CHARACTERS HOW AM I EVER SUPPOSED TO STOP

please someone tell me what to do i so exhausted I can't fucking stop these thoughts and I keep getting angry at my paras but they don't deserve it I love them I'm so scared of fucking up I just wanted people who knew and loved everything about me and wouldn't ever hurt me and that would stay with my for the rest of my life why did it have to be this complicated please I WANT A FUCKING BREAK I CANT DO THIS

i wish i could just turn off my brain, turn of my senses, turn everything fucking OFF I can't anymore wtf

And it makes me so fucking angry that this isn't recognized as a mental illness because it literally has taken so fucking much from me it's like my brain went huh so I either kill myself or develop a coping mechanism that keeps me alive but also just barely and I'll never know what it feel like to be completely mentally in the moment again? and went oh that's easy like no WTF

I literally cannot anymore, and my paras can't even comfort me anymore because I keep thinking YOURE NOT REAL I NEED TO TELL YOU YOURE NOT REAL YOU CAN'T SAVE ME YOURE NOT HERE

fuck this shit

[bleufleurdelis]

me: what would you do to keep me with you if i wanted to leave?

my gf: break your legs or cut them off, actually.

me: …really?

my gf: yeah. you won’t go anywhere then, will you? :)

[alizachan]

Good Job Aliza. You made a Sexym'n.

;-;

even tho he’s a bish?

[killadelphia]

[pwncessgf]

[nocterish]

Gone

Been working on this for some time ever since I saw The Nice And Accurate Prophecies week and I just had to join because I'm brain rotting about them.

So here's DAY 1: “And there will be great lamentations.”

Here's a still version of it just so it can hurt more

[mrghostrat]

who am i to refuse a warmup crowley meme

[willgrahamscock]

Oh, god. I understand now. This look Aziraphale has right after Crowley kissed him. I didn't understand why he'd look disgusted when we as the audience know that their feelings are mutual, and as Neil hinted, they both wanted to confess in this episode, but the Metatron changed that. "Do it again."

Richard Siken//Good Omens

[ikigaisvt]

your top 5 favourite jeonghan moments?💝

J- this is so hard,, the way i could name so many moments of this boy,, he truly makes me the happiest, there's so many important moments that made him be this important to me.

you got me going on a rant so im absolutely sorry to anyone who's gonna read this,, it's way too long but oh well, i just really love this boy.

- first one is clearly in in the soop 2, when he talks to seungcheol & dino and he says "i want to be someone like an island". the first time i saw this moment, i sobbed my eyes out because he actually succeeded at his goal; he is my island, in all ways possible. (expect i never leave him when i get better). i aspire to be this good of a person (imagine being able to wish people could use you to get better and leave once they're happy? im in shambles,,)

- second one is, once again, a moment that pulls at my heart strings. it's in going seventeen ttt ep.23 (camping ver.) when they all talk about how much they love and care for their team and seungcheol suddenly says (about jeonghan): "he talks like he almost only has us." and hoshi adds that jeonghan once said he hopes the members don't undermine themselves because he only has them. and jeonghan just,, gets the biggest smile on his face, blushes so profoundly and giggles while hiding behind his jacket, i just- shy and blushy hannie is my fav hannie! jeonghan was always presented to me as a prankster, someone that doesn't show deep emotions but once i got to know him on my own, i realised how he doesn't say much about his feelings but he feels a lot. it's clearly one of the moment that pulled me in <;3

- enough about heartfelt stuffs! fourth one was during caratland 2023,,, it was on day 2? when he asked, during greetings, what day is today? and carats answered nothing because today wasn't a special day at all. he was SO happy with his prank, he got so smiley and kept saying good good like. MAN. you can prank me everyday if you look this cute. i love him.

- third one is when he teaches dokyeom what gaslight means. i don't know what it is about that video but i just LOVE it,, i watch it 24/7. tbh that whole live has such good vibes i just absolutely adore it!! and in general, jeonghan lives are my favorite things on earth <3 he is just so chill, so funny and so comfortable, it feels like being on a video call with a friend!

- fifth one is in going seventeen good offer when jeonghan betrays cheol/gyu and their team and for like. 10 minutes? he ends up team less but THEN he sides with hoshi's team and get them a win despite them being way behind on the other team! i think it really shows how intelligent he is and how the members are willing to follow anything he says,, i just love that gose so much

[girlofhoneyandglass]

explaining the group/gang part 2/5: Diagramms of the hierarchy and more explanations

Ok so the Ranges show how close they are to being first in command, usually no one under First Range will ever, just because there’s always someone from them there and the ppl under first range don’t wanna/see themselves fit to be first in command, so it works out. The Rows show the dominant/submissive dynamics in the group anyone under someone else usually submits to them in some way, they don’t have to but most do.

The second in command is usually very close with the first and usually not as submissive towards them, aka they are more on an equal level. (Still not completely tho)

the only exception to this is Vienna and j, when j is first and Vienna second, she is completely submissive to him. Her position in upper row still remains because she is still dominant toward everyone else

then there’s j and Azur, az is j‘s sub but because he is the highest in command‘s sub he has a high status (range) and is mostly second in command when Vienna is not there and is then either in the same position that Vienna is to j or in the usual upper row to high row dynamic

That’s about it for now, please ask any questions you may have!

[daily-dragon-drawing]

Mr J dragon!! (With an annoying lil brother kofu dragon) 🤭

#74 & #75 - 流浪貓 (liúlàng māo / stray cat) & 威脅者 (wēixié zhě / menace) - My two favorite internet cats!!! A master and his apprentice 💖🐈💕🐈‍⬛💞

@straycatj I turned you into a dragon…I hope it’s ok……

[bleufleurdelis]

we could be in the most beautiful place in the entire universe and i’d still rather look at her<3

[mutualcombat]

SPIDERWEAVE GANG RISE UP

[i-seeaspaceshipinthe-sky]

Crowley really fights for his life every time he tries to read something

[insp.]

+ honorable mentions:

[pwncessgf]