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#just like me... in ur bed rn.....
n0ct0urn1quet · 2 years
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@raiden-metal-gear-rising babe as much as id liek to seep tight and go to seep unfortunately there is a fat fucking cat laying directly in the middle of my bed and i donot want to wake him so therefore i will be sleeping on the floor and he can take the damn bed
#KAJSKLBLKFBKLJBLKJG#I MEAN LOOK AT HIM HES ALL CURLED UP AND KNEADING THE BLANKY!!!!!!!! how could i wake him up. i cannot#i will PASS OUT from EXTREME SLEEP DEPRIVATION before i wake my cat up so i can lay down#SKJDBLGK#do u want me to send u a pic of him i can if u want me to#i mean my phone might be dead so dont count on it but KJSLJKLKG#hes very comby! hes cosy :]#just like me... in ur bed rn.....#honesly ur bed looks comfy my bed is like. realy small. i need a bigger bed but my room is so small it literally wouldnt fit#and i have a heater in the most batshit place ever and its just in the way of Everything#id love to have my bed sideways up against the wall where like the head of the bed is against the closet but there is a heater . right ther#so!!!!#but also it sucks bc the area where my bed is is up against the closet sideways so whenever i move the closet doors bang togteher#and its just liek ok :') why even bother trying to sleep ive woken up the whole house just by rolling over twice and banging the doors#SDJKKLG#anyways this is supposde to be a gaypost im just having very unorganized thoguhts rn haha#i ame......thinkying about us living togehr i think ! bceaues aeuugoh i lob u <:]#actually u kno what . i think i can liek make a paypal rn and start doing small comissions to start earning money towards moving in?#like ok i cant do that as my primary job because no one commissions small artists nowadays but like. idk!#i could prolly do a few like $10-$20 commissions? idk maybe 20 is too much haha my arts not THAT good#but idk!!! just small money to be able to at least afford the plane ticket n whatnot. then afterwards i can figure out everythin else#it kinda sucks that we may not be able to visit each other in the summer like we original.y pllanned bc things are just . chaotic rn#esp with my sister moving back in.....sigh......#but idk!!!!!! we'll make it work out itll b alrite i prommy#i just . hghbekjlee. i canot waite 2 see u eventualy... is gona b ebic..... <:]#das all <:] i lub u goonite!!! seep tight!!!! get gooood slepys.. m luby u :] <3
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housecow · 22 days
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I find it strange how you'd like to get so fat that you depend on someone but at the same time you're saying that you wanna do gardening. It's like there is a confrontation between your kink and your regular life...
in fantasy (or with a lot of consideration between me and my feeder) i’d become dependent. realistically, i’ve always dreamt of having my own garden and i think i could keep up with it at over 350lbs tbh
why can’t i have both…… scooter accessible garden pls. with raised beds i won’t have to bend over too much 🥺
bonus. bacon and tomato sandwich w home grown red snapper variety tomatoes, one of the only beefsteak-like varieties that grow in TX 🥳 DELICIOUS w mayo and some black pepper.
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oatbugs · 3 months
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pls i need to provide updates
#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year#and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire#and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f#friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl#acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what#are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and#friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after#everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to#invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me#i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother#and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids#so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo#any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd#and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk#THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date#w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a#few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay#scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK#like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl#like is that even doable#but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much#.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us#god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x#but it would be soooo funny#I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed#popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x#i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like#its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe
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capelizabeth · 2 months
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taylor’s worst sin MUSICALLY is putting the best songs on the deluxe edition because from the bottom of my heart what the FUCK was that???????
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lycanthian · 6 months
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they should invent a me that is closer to my boyfriend
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aurora-cycle · 7 months
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thinking about "he was watching the fireworks." what exactly does duke remember about miss holloway? does he remember how close they were? or does he remember her as a work friend? does he mourn someone he was close to or does he mourn someone he wishes he could've known better? does he remember her having a first name or does he remember only ever knowing her as miss holloway? is he slowly realising how little he knew about her and her past? does he realise how quickly he's forgotten her face and voice? or is he prevented from thinking into it too much?
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everymlmhybrid · 5 months
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this part genuinely makes me feel like eating dry wall like i can't explain how i feel about it without making some of you finally tire of me and block me about it i think
#.txt#reservoir dogs -#sorry for just randomly posting clips . i was actually working on my vid i swear but then i started Thinking. and here we are.#anyways going genuinely insane in the tags . i'm so sorry. ->#(im only sorry for the sheer amount of tags or if u disagree w/ my interpretations / headcanons. if ur just annoyed lmfao sucks to be you!)#anyways. you guys ever think abt the way orange HAS TO know white's lying to him abt his odds of survival.#bc i think abt that genuinely constantly. all the time thinking about it.#also the ''joe's gonna get you 100% again'' -> first of all . lol. second of all -> ''he was the only one i wasn't 100% on'' hello? HELLO!!#also freddy's voice here makes me feel like punching walls . like it makes me wail in anguish.#no but yeah i think abt the theme of lying & the fact some of the first lies we hear are in this scene in a way#also this part is leaning wayyy harder on headcanon but i always think. like if orange WASNT lying abt who he is. then it'd be reasonable#forhim to not know how likely he is to die and/or how blatantly larry's lying (''i'm talking days!'') but as a cop he SOOO knows he's fcked#but like . what's he gonna do. ''hey i know that's bullshit'' like obviously not and partly bc of How he knows but also bc like#you just don't argue with the only guy who's caring for you while you're seemingly on the brink of death!! LMAO#and certainly not when he's the only one telling you you'll be fine!! even if he's just bullshitting you so you don't freak out!!#I DON'T KNOW i go kinda insane about this scene . as . you can tell.#if you too are insane about this and the implications . don't worry. in several months. my fic will feed you. you will see.#idk . larry lying to and/or for him <33333333 kinda makes me go insane. kinda makes me go wild.#idk. i should be getting ready for bed rn. WHATEVER. bye. logging off. if you read all these i'm in love with you okay#i've just been turngin them around in my head like a microwave for hours so i needed to infodump or else i would explode i think
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inkykeiji · 1 year
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@ ᴛᴏᴅᴏʀᴏᴋɪ ᴛᴏᴜʏᴀ: your mom called, i told her you’re fucking up big time <3
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pollinatedpansy · 4 months
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Omg you're talking about me in tags without me even sending an ask that genuinely is making me smile and giggle on call with friends that's so cute
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Anon I literally cannot explain how excited I get when the little Tumblr icon with the question mark pops up in my notifs,, and when I see it's you??? You've like Pavlov's dogged me into being wet and needy and smiling like an idiot, if I can pay back what I feel when I see your notifs then I'm doing my job correctly >:3
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ask-the-bone-boys · 3 months
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(scarf asker) sorry i saw the 'rude asks allowed' rule and went a bit ham 😅 i thought it'd be funny like he finally has his debut and immediately gets a tomato thrown at him but i can send a different ask
[[don't worry about it!! i can totally see where the confusion came from lol, i mostly put that in bc ppl would sometimes be TOO respectful of the characters when i wanted them to be pushed farther for the sake of talking about things they otherwise wouldn't! but since this event's only just starting it's been kinda jarring for like half the asks i've gotten to be straight up hostile right off the bat. we gotta work up to that first!]]
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bc it's like. and i was GOING to talk to you about the religion aspect of it because it is also partly a letter to God where i am like bro fuck me why is everything so hard; but also like. u know that already i could talk myself into the ground about that already so like yeah. i never posted this one bc it explicitly mentioned my age in a way that i Do Not have the heard to change and also i am emotionally fragile about it and it was probably one of the last songs i wrote before the one i made for tater last year... and it's SO SAD man. it started out as a poem about me hating summer now and the fact that i hated hating summer now because it used to be my favorite season, but then every single thing that made me love the season got taken away from me--the place i was in when i got to experience it, the people i got to be with, the friends and the family and the spending time with all of those people who were so important to me--and then it kind of slowly turned into me going why is everything that i am fucked up how do you even wait for me when i'm like this why must time pass and why does the hurt only get worse. and there's like no real point to me talking about this song i do not think i am going anywhere with this but it is SO IMPRESSIVE how badly i did not want to listen to it until like. over a year later. and now every time i listen to it it's wild because i always get to have the fun realization that this fits literally any breakdown i could have that would have me listening to sad music like goddamn it is it a versatile little fucker of a song.
but also it is interesting because there are parts in there that i've grown a little about and i can look back and be glad that i have moved on from it. it's like a little marker fr like one day when i'm like fifty i can look back on this song and be like haha fuck you life i won. so i'm kind of just. drifting along waiting for that i think
FJFJRJR ALL OF THIS IS SO REAL DUDE IM
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bc literally same omfg DUUDE. *shakes you and then hugs you and then shakes you again*
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napping-sapphic · 2 years
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Making soup at midnight has SUCH an energy to it
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piplupod · 7 months
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me like four days ago to an old friend who msged me to reconnect: "yeah no i think things are settling down maybe after this last month of actual hell"
today: mother's medical situation has been handed a kablooey and the next few months are going to be Even Harder
#she is getting a biopsy tomorrow. and um. medications are being fucked with to drastic degrees#and we're going to have to wait several months for surgery when she was supposed to originally get it next month#fucking hell i am so incredibly stressed fjjfkdl i dont want this to be happening at all#i am the caregiver who is in charge of making sure she's conscious and okay at all times when dad's not available#i.e. he is at work or sleeping (shift worker)#and then bc of this im also on 911 calling duty if she ever does have smth happen#which isnt entirely out of the question. augh.#its uhm. a rly fucked thing to have to be the caregiver for ur abuser. im not doing very well tbh fjdkdl#this is also why hiatus is happening rn dhdksl things are so incredibly nightmarish rn#idk how im doing as well as i am <- is incredibly out of touch w reality and dissociating to dangerous degrees#idk!! i am frightened and exhausted and i just am begging whatever higher power may exist to let this be over one way or another honestly#get me out or get me gone or do smth to another of the chess pieces in this game so it can all finally stop#i need to go do 1k more words before bed tonight if i want to keep on track w november writign month#but i also desperately am needing to do my nightly drawing+decompressing fbfjdkdl so idk what to do its already 9pm augh augh#luckily i have dbt tomorrow so i will get to See real live ppl again tomorrow#its been a week since i talked to or have seen anyone outside of family face to face fbkfdl#god i am so fucked fjkfdl this is so so so bad and i cannot do anything abt any of it#i rly fucking wish dbt was helpful for ongoing situations but it seems like its only for short term bad times fjfjdldl#im so gjfkdld this is so fucked and i am aaaaaaaaa#pippen needs 2nd breakfast#vent tw
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skittlewaffle · 1 year
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Christmas gift for @madame-mongoose !!! ✨
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teruthecreator · 11 months
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i don’t know what else to do i think i just need to fucking kill myself or something i honestly can’t do it anymore
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