Thinking about the misery of the mundane and the supernatural for Lucy Westenra.
I’ve been in situations of great sickness and pain that seemed always to drag. To only ever feel worse, with ‘good’ days being those that simply didn’t change their level of agony. And even then, at least I could hide in sleep and hope something changed when I woke. Eventually it did. Eventually I felt better.
But Lucy? Lucy is sinking. Withering. Fading. Gasping like someone drowning.
(I cannot get enough air)
And as this slow slide continues, perhaps she even scents a corner of the truth: that she is dying. Which is a horror to consider all its own.
(No no not yet I had so much more to do and it all hurts can it not be painless please please I was going to be so happy)
But imagine if under all of that, she caught on that there is something worse waiting under it. Something that should not be imitating the steps of simple human ailment as it not only kills her, but comes for more than blood and breath—it is a disease of the inhuman and the unearthly, and it wants to own her. For eternity.
In dreams the soul screams, trying to warn her with the buried sixth sense that animals have never shed but humans taught themselves to disregard.
(Wake up! Wake up and get away! The Devil is real and his teeth are dragging us away to his Hell like a brute drags his screaming catch by her hair and there is no escape even in death for death is the threshold to him oh O God wake up and run WAKE UP AND RUN—)
Not that Lucy gets to remember. The only things she keeps from her dreams is the fear.
Perhaps she’ll recall everything at the last breath.
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Another day, another installment of Everything I'll Never Say! Dear Lockwood is starting to realize that there is actually quite a lot he should say.
Part 3, Part 5
TAPE 1, SIDE 2, PART 2
[click]
Well, George and Holly still think I'm an idiot, but I'm a correct idiot, so I'll take it.
I just need to find the perfect job. It needs to be one that I couldn't refuse, of course, but more than that, it needs to be one you can't refuse, either. It needs to be a job that needs us. Both of us.
It needs to be a job that needs you.
[brief pause]
[sigh]
God, I hope this works.
I don't—I mean, I do want you back. Here. With me. And George and Holly. At least, I want you back in my—our lives.
But the only way that'll happen is if it's your choice. And the best way to do that is to show you that… that I trust you. That even if I don't understand how your Talent works and even though what you can do and the way you do it terrifies me. [brief laugh] I thought I was fearless, and then you showed up.
And as much as I know you'll say there are things that scare you, honestly, I think you have me beat. From what I see in the papers, maybe that isn't as bad a thing as I thought.
I did look into that collapsed house case. There wasn't anything you could have done differently; not without leaving someone else to die. I know you wouldn't do that.
I still think you're safest here, with people who understand you. People you—hopefully—still trust.
You can't use your Talent to its fullest with other teams, I'd wager. But we know about your abilities. And the Skull. Hope he's doing well, no matter what he thinks about me. Not like he ever had a favorable opinion of me to begin with, after all.
He's not my first choice for company, either, but you're not alone with him around. Whatever else I may have said or thought, none of it was that you deserve to be alone. I know far too much about being alone.
[long pause]
Anyway, I need to find a case. Holly's been doing some looking, but—as much as it pains me to admit—we've got nothing worth your involvement right now.
Maybe you're stealing cases from us. [awkward chuckle]
We got desperate and had to resort to glorified pest control a few weeks back. Turns out gassing the rat colony living in one's cellar results in the new problem of dozens of rat ghosts.
I mean, we could have told the old man that, but he's certainly older than the Problem and hadn't known.
DEPRAC apparently had better things to do than salt the place, and really, for the job it paid well. Old chap said his grandkids wouldn't come over because they could hear the "infernal" scratching, and whatever he had to pay would be worth it. George said he was glad he couldn't hear it all because even what he could hear would drive him mad. I wonder what you would've thought.
I wonder that a lot.
[sigh]
[muffled] God, I miss talking with you, Lucy.
I mean, I talk with Holly and George, but it's just… it's not the same. Maybe—almost certainly—I give them too little credit, but I don't feel like I can tell them about everything the way I want to with you. More like I don't want to. And I know I wasn't good at not saying things I shouldn't, and when it comes to things I should say…
[sigh]
[long pause]
Lucy, I…
[muffled sigh, footsteps]
[distant] God, what a pathetic idiot. Can't even say it when she's not here.
[footsteps continue] What would I do anyway; show up on her doorstep on bended knee? Tell you exactly how I feel and how stupid I've been? Beg you to come back? Promise whatever you want?
[weary sigh] No; I'm going to do this right. I'll get the business out of the way first. You deserve that. And then maybe—
[unintelligible shouting from downstairs]
[sigh] Well, business is business, I guess.
[calling away from recorder] I'll be down in a minute!
[fading footsteps]
[silence]
[click]
END OF TAPE 1
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Scrimbly Jacqueline 36/52: tfw you sacrifice yourself to save a pal from experiencing The Horrors™ too early and fucking up the ENTIRE timeline
She's seen the time fracture in action. She knows exactly what it wants to do.
And she knows exactly what she needs to do.
The moment she sees the fracture zero in on Lucy, she's running. She drops her staff (it disappears before it even hits the ground) and relies on her instincts. Shoves her hands back as the summer sprite glamour falls. The snow jumps up to aid her, but it's not enough, it's not enough, she needs to use her full power set or it'll be too late and Lucy—
She grits her teeth.
No.
No.
She's not gonna let that happen.
The snow pushes her forward as she reaches up and tears the simple silver bangle with the small hourglass charm off her wrist, tossing it down into the snow behind her.
The second glamour drops. Her powers are at her full disposal once again and she is flying across the battlefield, piercing blue eyes set on the large, dark, fragment hovering dangerously above Lucy.
She'll make it, but only just.
"Wait!"
"What are you doing?!?"
"J—Winnie! Winnie, STOP."
She ignores every single warning. Mel, Jack, and her Lucy fall on deaf ears as she closes the gap between the splintered piece of time and pre-Horrors Lucy.
"This is gonna hurt like a bitch," she says, and springs off her pile of snow like a diver jumping the high dive, arms out, crashing right into Lucy as the fracture hits her right in the back.
It's breathtaking.
Literally.
She can't breath.
Pain blossoms. In sharp succession. Onetwothree (all THREE?? REALLY? FOR FUCK'S SAKE, she thinks) shink-shink-shink and she is bleeding, she is bleeding so so bad but Lucy is tucked up against her and is safe, she's in one piece and she is there and she is okay.
They fall to the floor with a thud, rolling for a moment. She grabs the snow, stopping herself, letting Lucy go.
The redhead rolls once more before managing to stop herself and sit up on her knees, watching with horror as 'Winnie' pushes herself up. A puddle of blood is quickly spreading around her, and in the distance, Mel and the other Lucy are panicking, frazzled, wands out and at the ready as they rush across the field towards them.
Blood seeps between her fingers. She coughs; a dribble of red creeps out the corner of her mouth. She moves her right hand away from her chest, blood glistening against her pale palm.
She winces. Her left hand is still holding her stomach tightly, glowing a light blue now. There is a sharp cracking sound as ice blossoms across her stomach, a feeble attempt to stop the bleeding.
Lucy can't help but let out a sharp gasp.
She looks up at her, then; a sharp, piercing blue gaze, concern lining her features. She coughs; blood splatters.
"Are you okay, Luce?"
Lucy doesn't say anything. She is transfixed, staring at the blue eyes, the very very familiar blue eyes. She thinks back to that familiar warm presence, acutely felt as she sought to help Jack.
The warm presence that had returned every time she was near older Lucy's friend.
"Jacqueline?!"
I think this is number 3?? Of 5?? Of the @kscribbs suggestions! This one is delightfully angsty. I've mentioned before about how I bug her about a "The Forgiven" AU that involves ML Lucy and Jacqueline time travelling and nonsense ensuing? Yeah! This is where this is from 🤭🤭🤭
Quick Facts:
Mel knows from the get-go who Jacqueline is. Lucy, as well, but that's because she doesn't really need to disguise herself the way Jacqueline does!
The pair of them pop into this timeline to take care of a time fracture that escaped from their timeline, and immediately get their asses handed to them bc it was stronger than either of them expected—the question is, why?
They go to Mel after that immediate defeat and stay with her while they figure things out
They both have a glamour to appear younger; the little bangle I describe? FT gives it to them to help with said glamour and make their powers seem not as advanced as they are, since they're trying to appear the same age as Forgiven!Lucy
Jacqueline has a second glamour she wove into her staff to make her appear more summer spritey than winter spritey. Since she's dead in this universe, she disguises herself as a summer sprite and goes by Winnie (short for Winifred, she claims, and definitely NOT Winter which is definitely NOT her middle name because she's definitely NOT a very alive and well Jacqueline from another universe) for reasons. Which I have. But am too sleepy today to elaborate on, lol.
Forgiven!Jack and Lucy are sus but Jacqueline is okay at keeping her true identity on the DL, probably bc Lucy and Mel are a HUGE help with that bc let's be real, Jacqueline ain't SLICK
They drag her to the Springs and then CS General after this. She is a terrible patient and her non-existence causes problems in CSG and so does she
But she'll be okay! :)
Forgiven!Lucy finds out who she is after THAT stunt; Jacqueline asks her not to tell Jack while she's bleeding out so, y'know, given the whole bleeding out thing, Lucy agrees (for now)
Jack finds out a few days later after Jacqueline does more dumb shit bc post hospital visit, she gets fed up and misses her wife and kids (that's milf jacquie babes!) and is like I WILL GO FIND THE SPLINTER MYSELF and learns VERY VIOLENTLY why the splinter is so much more powerful than they expected!
Ends up on Jack's couch with a magic shortage and it all goes down then >:)
hmm...I think I'll leave you with that!
Will I ever fully write this thing? I don't know! It's fun to theorize and entertain K with, and this drabble sure was fun, but my GOD her writing is so fucking GOOD I don't think I could match the gorgeous style at all! Please read Miller's Law if you get the chance, it's so so SO GOOD! And The Forgiven, which is an alternate ending to the Jacqueline Dies AU! Which you can find Part 1 of, Blood Upon the Snow, HERE and Part 2: Ghosts of the Past, HERE.
(Like the titles? I've been trying to name that sucker for AGES. Still not totally sold on Part 2's title, but for now it works :)
Design wise, I bugged K for what she thought ML!Lucy would look like at this point as well as Forgiven!Lucy, and she showed me some lovely little doodles and I based them off of those! I really like oldML!Lucy's design a LOT! Look how cool her hair is!
Perspectives and proportions are all off but! A) this is a SCRIMBLY! I'm not supposed to THINK about that sorta stuff! That was the POINT to them! And B) I'm only just starting to refine doodles and it's baby steps! Practise makes perfect!
Colours wise, I am going to fistfight the purples I used for older Luce bc they looked lighter based on the caps and the test lines and when I used them? YEAH. NO. WAY DARKER! IT'S TWO DIFFERENT SHADES AND YOU CAN'T EVEN TELL!!! One day, I'll have a full set of the alcohol based markers I like and THEN I won't HAVE that problem, IN THEORY! AH. And Mel's SHIRT is too YELLOW! GRAHHHHHHHH.
Right. So. This is the FIRST September scrimble! One more and I am caught up to where I should be next week! And I PROMISE the next two are gonna be so cute and fluffy and silly I SWEAR!
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