#massive tw

[kaapstadgirly]

THEY ARE BOMBING RAFAH!!

How evil must you be to be able to lie and chase 1.5+ million people into such a small "safe" space and drop bombs on them?!

These are kids!!! Was 12 000 not enough for them?

[dieletztepanzerhexe]

how are you 23 and a phd student?? explain yourself

[twisted-cupid]

Would you?

!!!MASSIVE TW FOR ALL SORTS OF THINGS!!!

Love me, would you? Stay with me forever, would you? Give me all of your attention, would you? Obsess over me like I obsess over you, would you? Stalk me, would you? Cut me open, would you? Break me down, would you? Only want me, would you? Monitor my each and every move, would you? Be just as insane as me, would you? Give me your entire being, all that you are, would you? Let me “walk you home” without you knowing, would you? Let me keep you safe, would you? Let me protect you from everyone else, would you? Let me give up my entire life for you, would you? Let me die for you, would you? Let me live for you, would you? Let me kill for you, would you? Use me, would you? Let me worship you, would you? Let me slowly tear myself apart for you, would you? Own me, would you? Let me own you, would you? Carve your name into my stomach, chest, and the entirety of my arm, would you? Make me yours, would you? Be mine, would you? Don’t ever leave me, would you? Let me dedicate myself to you, would you? Let me shed my own blood as well as the blood of others for you, would you? Let me know every single thing you do and when you do do it, would you? Let me be obsessive, would you? Let me love you, would you? Love me, would you?

[buildabettermeme]

I hate being alive. Everything is miserable. I need to know other human beings who dont attack, beat up, rape, drug, assault, threaten, bully, harass, or otherwise harm me or my partner. The singular person Ive met who hasnt done any of those things is my partner. Hey fellow queer people; stop raping people. Hey parents, stop physically attacking strangers half your age. Stop fucking kicking your kids out. Hey society, grow the actual fuck up and put in protections for survivors of literally anything?? At all?? I have spent the last year and a half being homeless with my partner, trying and moving constantly to find us a safe place to live, where we wont be hurt, and its not fucking working. I havent been successful. Out of the 14-17 individual places we have "lived" together not a single one of them have been safe. I am so sick and fucking tired of living this way. Why is it so hard to find someone, fucking ANYONE, who isn't physically or sexually violent?? Especially queer people?? What the fuck?? I have no friends at ALL, and its because everyone I was friends with decided to either rape, drug, or assault me, or a combination thereof. Im so done. So fucking done.

[rockbottomwithashovel]

OK so which is more lethal and which is less painful: do I a) try to slit my wrists again, but this time with something less blunt or b) OD on my anti-depressants but take a lot more this time??? or c) maybe hanging but I legit can't find anything to try a rope to. My ceiling would straight up crack.

[legendaryevokercupcake]

Showing the Good of/Redeeming the Horde, Several Pieces at a time

Lady Liadrin: After the Fall of Quel'thalas, Liadrin was forced to kill her now Scourge adoptive father, Vandellor (seen in Bastion). This, combined with the already present stress of the Fall itself, causes her to fall into survivors guilt and bloodlust. If you had watched your friends die painfully and then been forced to murder the man who you would have died alone without, wouldn't you do the same? She is abandoned by the Light in her moment of need and, because of this, lashes out at M'uru, draining the Naaru of it's power and taking Astalor's offer. She does this in anger, and regrets it immensely. She has since rejoined the real Light, being forgiven by the main thing she has wronged. If it can forgive her, so can you.

Grand Magister Rommath: I could go on for days about Rommath, and I probably will. If you've ever been in an abusive relationship, be it romantic, platonic, queerplatonic, familial or any other kind, you know how incredibly difficult it is to get out. You think what you're doing is right. I mean, they can't be that bad, they're your partner in crime! The one you rely on! They're your friend! But they aren't your friend. You're being lied to. For you, it could have been them making you drink more alcohol until you depended on it and they were your best supplier. For me, he (my online best friend) cut me off from most real life socialization, isolating me and making me dependent on him for any social stimulation. For Rommath, it was the Fel. We know that Fel magic is highly addictive. We know that most Sin'dorei are getting a highly filtered version of it that is considerably safer to consume than raw Fel magic. We know that Rommath and Kael'thas are two of the only exceptions. We know that it quite literally drove Kael'thas to going insane and harming his friends.

Imagine being in Rommath's situation. Completely dependent on the now somewhat insane Kael for Fel magic, which you would die without, seeing Kael fall apart. You've been friends (maybe more) for more than most mortals are even alive. You stick around because you can help him. In this action, you throw yourself right into Sargeras' line of fire. You're no longer just dependent on magic, no no no. You're dependent on Fel magic. The edges of your razor sharp psyche begin to break apart, remaining sharp enough to cut diamond, but no longer in the way that a knife is. It's more like the violently shattered glass of the mirror you punched when you realized that your once blue eyes were blazing lime green and brighter than fire. You can see that you're not ok. You can see that it's slowly starting to change you. It changes your mind, bringing the rage further up. It changes your body. You look pale and tired in those shards of mirror on the floor.

But you can't leave. If you leave, he'll die. It'll be all your fault. You keep going. Further away from the light. Further away from the Arcane magic you held so dear. All you have is Kael. All you have is Kael and pure, unadulterated fury.

Can they really blame you for using that fury to try and save your people?

[ur-fav-lucia]

HEAVY TW: 2nd amendment, g*ns, school sh**tings, mentions of American slavery, the American constitution (post under the cut)

2nd amendment defenders will try to validate their beliefs just by saying “well the constitution CLEARLY states we can have g*ns!”

Buddy. The constitution was written when SLAVERY was LEGAL and anyone who wasn’t a cis straight white man didn’t have rights.

Also, if kids are old enough to get SH0T at in school, they are old enough to have a fucking say in who should have a g*n. I was in kindergarten when I had my first real lockdown.

This shit isn’t normal or something that should be protected by the law. Children are more important than AK-47s.

[clearlyetc13]

MASSIVE TW FOR SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

SERIOUSLY I JUST NEED TO VENT

TRIGGER WARNING

Anyways its so odd being an adult rn bc I feel obliged to stay alive for all the bad things happening to others, all the good things happening to me, and not to mention all the people I love who without I would have given up a long time ago. But the more selfish part of me wants to give up, because I can only play pretend for so long.

I just... feel so hopeless so much of the time. And I can't tell anyone because I can't afford to be institutionalized again and I can't live with myself knowing the hurt I would cause to my relationships if I attempted and failed. While I would not hold it against anyone, I know I would lose so many people because they just could not handle that fear of losing me again. And thats okay. But I don't want to be here anymore, and every day that goes by I have to fight so FUCKING hard to be here to fight for better. But I don't want better. I want to be dead.

And I don't know how to be better. I dont know how to want to be better either. So much trauma has become a tidal wave and I just can't handle the pain inside me for much longer. I can't make it go away. And the islands of joy I do have can only do so much when I'm already drowning. And I am drowning.

[extinguishedcandle]

uh slight tw

im so fucking tired

i know other people have it worse

and i should be grateful

but i feel so invalid

i feel like i need more trauma

i'm just overreacting

and i feel like i'm a bad person because of this

but is it bad i wish they actually hit me

then i would have proof

maybe it's normal to take away necessities of living

but i know it's not

i didn't fucking ask to be born

don't make it seem like i did

i don't want to be here either i would die if i could

i can hear you when you say you don't want me alive

wish you guys went back in time

even though i wouldn't have met <him3

but fuck

i shouldn't be denied of food or water

i shouldn't have to pay that back to you

you are my fucking parents

you decided to give birth to me

so you have that fucking responsibility

i guess that's what happens when you're drunk all the time, father

fucking slap me across the face i guess i deserved it

fuck

i'm just so hurt

[ratcandy]

today i had a discussion with someone on the things we call scorpions that are not scorpions . because entomologists love to call things by names they are not actually.

ended up with this little . presentation. guide. thing. there are probably many, many more, but this is what we came up with on the Spot

[starzofeternity]

TW: Thoughts of Suicide and Harm

Many of you know i had a GF, she was amazing, probably was/still is the best person in the world to me, but i discovered just how toxic I am, and its unhealthy to any relationships i want/will be a part of

Maple, Andrew, Jury.... all amazing people with great personalities. I wouldn't date them any longer for the purpose of itd be awkward (for obvious reasons), and im not mentally stable enough for a relationship

I did some research and uncovered the trait known as "Codependency," a toxic one-side-benefits relationship where the giver relies/depends on reassurance, and tries to do anything in their power to make the other person happy, and it usually puts strain on the giver, and they often view themselves as "lesser than human", and it eventually bleeds through and puts strain on both sides

The definition varies depending on where you look, but most have similar/same premises

I decided to work on myself, but with working against myself to fix what's wrong, I quickly realized it is a lot harder to do than i anticipated, i started feeling like two completely different people were inside of me, fighting for control... it started feeling like hell... i started doing things, and saying stuff i would normally never say, i started having suicidal tendencies.

I feel like im at a dead end, nowhere to go, and im left to fight the thoughts with nothing but my fists and depression.

My only thing keeping me going is the potential to maybe see a spark of hope... i have yet to find a clearing in the fog...

I lightly cut my hand at work the other day and played it off as if i cut it on a TV box

[little-dark-space]

TW for like everything, don’t read this if your in a bad place

I’m so fucking angry right now

Haven’t I been through enough, haven’t I suffered enough for this stupid world?!?

I lose my dad at age 13, after that I get severe dissociative problems for fucking years, because a little kid should NOT have to deal with losing someone so close.

Then, at age 16, I fucking finally ‘wake up’ from my dissociative period, and I don’t have a fucking personality, oh no, I have no fucking close who I am!

So, I absorb the personalities of my favorite characters, unknowingly becoming a system.

But gues sfuckjnv what! Now I have severe depression, which, by the way, runs in my goddamn family. And hey! I’m pretty sure my dad committed suicide but I’m too goddamn afraid to ask, because if he couldn’t beat it, then how the fuck am I supposed to?!?

Oh, and I have anxiety, so I can’t talk to people about my issues. I have to take so many goaddman pills just to function like a normal human being, and then more problems pop up, and I just want to ducking quit

Woah, I’m transgender, BAM! I have gender dysphoria and can’t tell my religious family who I actually am! Makes my life even fuckin harder. Because oh damn if they kicked me out, well I guess I’d just fucking die because my family is the only one who actually cares about me, and they don’t even know who I am.

And, just recently? Even more shit I have to deal with. Arthritis runs in my family, and I probably have it! Or some weird ass physical problem, because I can’t even pick things up without my wrists and elbows hurting like they’re breaking. I can’t go up stairs without being in immense physical pain, can’t go on my phone without my fingers and wrists hurting, I can’t even shower without being in pain from just standing there. It fucking sucks

And guess what, my anxiety is making it difficult to go to the doctors for that because my doctor is on vacation!! So, I have to go to a walk in clinic, but honestly I’m 17 and I doubt they’d fucking listen to me.

So yeah, life’s pretty shit right now, and I’m really goddamn angry