#passive suicidality

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[terezicaptor]

"I actually have good mental health you guys are weak" -qtubbo, who has tried to kill himself multiple times and is passively suicidal in canon

[qtubbo]

Guys is it just me or has tubbo gotten a lot more passively suicidal since Fred’s funeral, I haven’t seem him die so much for so little reason in ages… it could just be the tubhole but also it just doesn’t seem right

[d0llyxtears]

I never planned to be an adult…. Why am I here ??

[edge-oftheworld]

someone heard i wanna go out in my sleep now, so i don't feel no pain

"like DIE?!?!"

i'm sorry i can't this was meant to be a possibly happy song

[goodbye-to--a-world]

I don't have active plans to kill myself but I also wouldn't complain if a car happened to crack my skull in two.

[schizoafucktive]

I can’t tell anyone in my life about it. And I don’t want to. But I still want to say it. I have been thinking about ending my life constantly. I am passively suicidal. I want something horrible to happen to me. I will not act on this, but I wanted to put the words into the world. That’s all I needed. Don’t worry about that. Thanks.

[perplexingluciddreams]

so much in my head i can't get it out i think my skull might split i wish i could fucking get it out i need to get it out

al i can think on a loop is: angry angry angry, why did that happen to me i didn't deserve it i was a child i couldn't tell anyone i wish i could've told someone i wish someone had noticed. if i couldn't tell anyone then i wish at least i had the words ability access to memories to tell it ALL now. things just went from one kind of bad to another and keep getting worse. why me why me what did i do to deserve this. everything hurts angry want to die wish i was dead why can't i just have a life. furious angry fed up can't cope loud loud loud bad bad bad

[tyrannosaurusrexie]

When it’s the middle of the night and you’re surrounded by bloody tissues and blades cause you had a bad day <3

[vroomian]

Alexa play 30 by Bo burnham

[terezicaptor]

is anyone thinking abt how sunny has actively been getting herself into danger more lately. Stepping into fires and being slow to get out of them when tubbo asks her. Maybe I'm noticing something that isn't quite there but. It reminds me of tubbo throwing himself off tubchunk and actively getting himself hurt.

[neuroticboyfriend]

I had a rough time last night and had an experience that I want to share, because I know how significant this feeling is... yet there aren't really terms to describe it. Basically, it felt like my life was over - literally. It not only felt like things were hopeless, but like there was no future at all. The only thing that existed to me was the Now, and that felt like it would end any moment. It felt like I was dead, while still being alive.

I didn't (and still dont) plan to commit suicide. But it was a scary feeling - one that usually precipitates a suicide attempt. I've been thinking of calling it emotional suicide / suicidal dissociation (or dissociative suicidality). Idk if there's a term already (apart from passive suicidality), but if anyone's been struggling with this, I hope having a term for it helps somehow. I know how hard life can be, and sometimes, giving names to our experiences is more important than we know.

Also, if you need to hear it... your life is worth it. Things are far from over, and there is hope, even if we cant find it. It's there. It will always be there, as long as we're still alive. <3

[4rtsymugzzz]

my brain is so fucking weird because one moment I'm like "a disgusting person like me doesn't deserve to live" and then literally 5 seconds later I'm like "ok I'm normal again :3"

[00luna]

I win today

[goodbye-to--a-world]

Just figured out that I'm very heavily experiencing passive suicidal ideation and I can't talk about it with the ppl i know because it won't change shit.