#maybe i should go to therapy

[astrologysaysno]

You can find my first post about trainee Shang Qinghua here

Expanding on the lore of trainee Shang Qinghua, I believe that as an author, he would definitely put random songs he likes as part of PIDW lore.

Head Disciple Shang Qinghua is spectating Qing Jing Peak with his master for a performance. News has spread of the Peak Lord unearthing some old prehistoric songs that have never been played before, and that Qing Jing has been able to successfully decipher some of the old text symbols to be played.

Shang Qinghua hears it for the first time and is at first a little off put by the fact that he recognizes it somewhat but then he remembers and begins to die inside, cause how do you explain the fact that he knows this mysterious, centuries old song, and that this actually a k-pop b-side track from about two millenias into the future.

This becomes an unfortunate dilemma where, due to the song's catchy nature, when he thought no one was looking, Shang Qinghua began singing the song.

The big problem here is that what the Qing Jing Peak has deciphered was simply a musical score sheet, and that the version Shang Qinghua is singing isn't just vocalisations, there's actual words.

Being heard by the An Ding Peak Lord, he gets the bright idea of contacting the Qing Jing Peak Lord and begins to force Qinghua and Shen Jiu to collaborate to complete the song and perform it.

No one is happy in this scenario.

Shang Qinghua now has to figure out how to work with the scum-villain-to-be Shen Jiu without giving away his nature as a transmigrator, his connection to Mobei-jun, and messing up the plot and everything going wrong

Shen Jiu now has to collab with his greatest (one-sided) nemesis into creating a show-worthy performance, all the while trying to investigate Shang Qinghua and his shady secrets.

Mobei-Jun now believes he has a rival fighting for Qinghua's affections and that he's clearly losing cause. Have you seen these lyrics? Obviously, my rival is getting the upper hand, and I won't stand for that.

[sofitai28]

excerpts from richard siken’s “wishbone” that i might finish at some point. idk i was trying something new lmao

[exile-on-uwustreet]

maybe I feel weird and maladjusted because I am weird and maladjusted, the thing that my condition is famous for causing

[saltyfilmmajor]

Just read a fic that scalped my entire existence

[louisarmpits]

i need to stop using tumblr as a diary

[oreocoffee]

Wow, I’m such a ball of anger, ima go back to being in love with a man who don’t want me ✨😝✌️”cause I see forever in your eyes”

Everything seems much better when I’m in lust & cum.

[haluton]

[silverghost1001]

Idk what's wrong with me, I've been too tired to even miss my friends and boyfriend, and I feel like im ignoring them. The only reason im not "ignoring" my bf as much is because he always tries and sticks right beside me, never going too far. But i can feel im getting more and more distant from everyone, that I've been rejecting touch and affection more and more. And I too much of a coward to try and talk about it with anyone. I hate this. I feel so guilty and idk what to do to make it better. Everything feels wrong and i almost told my aunt that I wanted to go Home. We WERE at home, but it never feels like home. Hasn't in so many years... I should talk about it. Try being smart and communicating, but i feel like it would just annoy and bother people and they already have their own problems to deal with and I'm scared of loosing them. Im scared they'll confront me about it at some point and i wont know what to say or do. I wanna go Home and be okay

[silverwindptv]

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[languill]

Sometimes reminded of how people won't remember hurtful things they've said to you, even if they've stuck with you for years.

Even if it wasn't malicious.

Probably especially if it wasn't malicious.

It's something that could've redefined a relationship to you, and for them it was just a Tuesday.

[10nantscompanion]

0.05%??

[harleymonster]

I think I have decided that I will help her declutter/dehoard? and get that storage unit empty so I can stop paying for it and then I am done. I am so angry.

[agentwaffle]

I'm just now realizing that the reason I can't help others calm down or feel better is because I wasn't taught to express emotions in anyway which is also how I deal with problems, I ignore them on a related note I haven't slept good in a while-

[trying-to-fit-in-the-box]

I was just trying to enjoy a nice day where a fob song came out and then I got diagnosed with depression by insta

[tinysillylemonman]

i’m rewatching some reaction videos i filmed of myself last night, boy howdy does this show make me mentally ill

[zivazivc]

Did Les ever dated in the past? Also is he with anyone recently?

Les quit school really early, like 10-years-old early, and he started working soon after, so he didn't really have friends his age. That kinda puts a buffer on a teenager's social and love life. Though there was something that happened at a house party once, that was, uh... a bad experience, and it left him with a lot of issues. Also, partially because of this, he's not really someone who acts on his crushes. So he never dated before.

But at one point the band spent a few months in the same location (dunno the reason yet, but maybe they weren't getting enough gigs and they had to take up some part time jobs for a while), and Les developed a crush on a bartender at a nearby club.

She's the only OC of mine who's visually a bigger weirdo than Les, and he definitely saw a little bit of himself in her, and hoping for someone with some shared life experience, it's what initially attracted him toward her and vice versa.

So they had a thing going on for a short time. It never developed into anything serious because sadly they are very alike, which means they are BOTH morons who are shy about making the first move. And after a while they came to the agreement that they were better as just friends.

Floyd with his persistent crush was not happy about the possible romance at first, but he ended up being happy for Les, and he finally decided to give his hopeless longing a rest, since the only good it was doing was growing a rift between his and Les's friendship.

Funny enough it was Floyd backing down which allowed the two to grow closer. Les lowered his guard since he no longer had to overthink if Floyd would interpret anything he did or said as some kind of flirting or act of love, and he no longer had to brace himself for any uncomfortable romancing coming from Floyd either.

They were already good friends since the start but they became much more casual with each other and began to understand each other on a deeper level as years passed. As Floyd got older and more mature, and became an equal with the rest of the bandmates, it was actually Les who fell for him, hard. He didn't really do anything about it though, but Floyd eventually realized this and you know he did something about it. Though Floyd's crush had gone from looking at Les as this cool experienced older guy when he was younger to now seeing him as a shy innocent teddy bear compared to his lewd self ksjhdkjs.

So technically they became each other's first proper all-encompassing relationship. And by that I mean that besides the lovey-dovey obvious stuff, they were also best friends and helped each other grow a lot. Also Floyd by the time they got together, already started a habit of hooking up with strangers at parties, so being with Les forced him to slow down and progress through a relationship slowly and at a healthy pace for someone his age (since you can't really get anywhere with Les without a lot of patience). And Floyd got Les to become comfortable with opening up and talking about his deep-rooted feelings. They talked about issues they faced, many of which were related to Les's childhood trauma, instead of him just ignoring or suppressing it all. (Floyd also opened up about his own family trauma with Les obviously, but he talked about it even before they got together.)

The relationship, especially at the start, could still be considered questionable from an outsider's perspective, but so was the band's lifestyle in general. They were good for each other during that period while they were growing up and figuring themselves and each other out, which is what matters I think.

It was honestly mainly Floyd's undiagnosed bipolar disorder that made the relationship suffer toward the end of Floyd's days in the band. It created a lot of trust issues between Floyd and Les, and also Floyd and everyone else, heck it even made Floyd distrust himself, since he and none else knew or understood what was happening with him. This led to a lot of misery and anger that he mostly ended up directing at Les, and it was what eventually made them break up and Floyd leave.