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sixeyesgojo · 3 years

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kiss it better

Summary: You had a shitty day at the store. Gojo is here to comfort you <3

Characters: Gojo x Reader

Word count: 1100

A/N: The past few weeks have been super rough - personal matters and on top of that, natural disasters + "I could lose my closest friends thanks to this" type of rough - so I wrote this pretty self-indulgently because I seriously need to be comforted lol. But that doesn't mean you can't imagine yourself in it!! The fanart is fem reader but I don't think I indicated any gender in the fic. Shoutout to the folks who work with customers, you guys are doing an amazing job! Thank you.

This entire fic was inspired by the art by the amazing @yuusagi-chii that I commissioned; check out her blog and leave a reblog on her artworks!! ♥ - posted with permission from the artist

There had been nothing to do. The whole time, Satoru was just lazing on the couch, legs stretched out on the entire thing, and waiting for you to come home as the television showed nothing but garbage.

As soon as they perceived the sound of your dangling keys in front of the door, Satoru’s ears perked up. He had been so bored all day, not knowing what to do on his free day; he was used to being busy all day, every day, around the clock. The lethargy got to the extent where he cleaned every nook and cranny in your shared home, did all the laundry for the week, reorganized the cupboard where his treasures were stored and even took a nap. Originally, he had planned to kidnap you to go on a date with him but unfortunately, your workplace said otherwise, wrecking his not-so-planned-out plan. Admittedly, it did piss him off a little but there was nothing to be done. Satoru just missed you incredibly much since he was usually gone for most days.

Your heavy footsteps that came from the entrance hall, the way your keys seemed to make louder noise than usual and the soft sigh he could hear all indicated that you had a shitty day so far. It really wasn’t rocket science for Satoru to notice little things about you. Probably entitled customers again, he thought. Satoru was well aware that working in a customer-oriented branch had to be unrewarding, draining even. Still, he wanted to tantalize you a bit, to lighten the mood and ease his boredom a little – he would do that on normal days.

However, ‘normal’ was quickly discarded when he saw your face: a hefty scowl and… were those teary eyes? His previous demeanor immediately dropped and a serious one took over. This was definitely not okay.

Satoru had noticed the last few weeks had been a little rough on you. On normal days, teasing you was his favorite thing to do and quite frankly, it was enjoyable to you as well as it lifted your mood after a stressful shift… but today must have been the tipping point and he knew better than to tease you in times like these. The last thing he wanted to be was the cause of your tears.

“Had a rough day?” Satoru asked as he met you in the hallway, wasting no time to slip his arms around your body. Crushing into his chest, you simply nodded without looking at him. You feared that if you did, tears would fall and you would no longer be in control of your emotions. The entire time you spent at work had been filled with some particularly grumpy customers you had to tend to. You had to deal with utterly disrespectful behavior towards you. Yet, you had to stay friendly and polite when, throughout the day, there had been several instances that made you want to quit your job right then and there.

Today had been terrible, so being in the amenity of your home felt uncommonly relieving. In addition to that, being in the comforting space of Satoru’s gentle hug washed off your exhaustion. It was fine to bask in the solace of his embrace for a moment, wasn’t it? Was it okay for you to give in a little and enjoy the moment for all its worth?

“Do you want to talk about it?” “Just the usual trouble but way worse for some reason,” you mumbled into his chest, just loud enough for him to hear. “Tell me about it, baby. It’s better if you get it off of your chest as soon as possible.”

You breathed out, the emotional dam you’ve built today finally breaking, “It’s just… people suck… They s-snap at me for the smallest things… and I know some of those incidents are just part of the job – I really get it a-and I try so hard to stay polite but… it’s just… very hard.”

Throughout your ramblings – how a customer had yelled at you for a minor mistake, how another one treated you like something lesser because of something that was not your mistake, how people would insist on being right and more – he listened intently to each and every word… All the while, Satoru had gently stroked your back with his palm to calm you down. “Say, Toru…there must be something wrong with me for them… to treat me like this, isn’t there?” you finally asked. “No, honey. You are perfectly fine,” he said, suppressing how pissed he actually was at the people who dared treating you badly. “Their attitude just sucks and they don’t deserve being served by someone beautiful like you. Maybe I should give them a piece of my mind some day…” “I just— I don’t even know. People are so mean… and for w-what? Is kindness in this world really that hard to find?” you lamented, choking back a sob as you buried your face deeper into him.

“Can I help you feel better in any way? Are you hungry? Do you want something to eat?” Satoru asked sweetly but the frown on his face made his worry very evident. He didn’t like it at all whenever you came back emotionally drained like this. All Satoru wanted to do was to go and ‘teach them a well-deserved lesson’ but he knew well that it would be against your wishes, so he had no choice but to sit back and be there for you when you needed him the most.

“Let me pamper and spoil my angel for today, hm?” he whispered affectionately, pressing kisses to the top of your head. Finally, you raised your head to look at him. The teary stains on your cheeks and sad expression broke his heart and he swore you could hear it cracking in his ribcage. “I just want you to hold me right now, wanna feel you close to me and nothing more,” you admitted and slung your arms around him tightly.

Promptly taking the chance, Satoru placed a sweet and loving kiss on your forehead. The sensation of his lips on your skin eased a big part of your discomfort away, making you sigh in comfort for the first time in what felt like decades. The effect this man had on you was inexplicable; the way he had the power to make you feel better by simply being there was truly magical. It made your heart flutter in a thousand ways and more.

“Then I’ll have no choice but to kiss it better.”

Taglist (open): @satosuguslut @assbuttbaek @melonnbar @delammi @silversatoru @princesatoru

#gojo x reader #gojo satoru x reader #gojou satoru x reader #gojou x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #gojo satoru x y/n #gojo satoru #gojo x y/n #gojou satoru

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schibi12 · 2 years

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Heyyo!! So this post may get long and a bit personal if you are not interested by that you can keep on scrolling no problem.

Last year I did a post where I told how Tumblr was a huge support for me during the whole quarantine and how I met amazing people in it and strangely enough the same thing happened this year, so take this a YouTube rewind of sorts where I talk about all the great people I've met and befriended and how much I've grown as a person since last year, this is a Tumblr Reblog if you will.

My blog has changed a lot from 2020 to 2021, last year only did occasional reviews and memes for DuckTales and other Disney properties but this year oh boy, I've done a bunch of AUs, I've done art for my AUs and fanart in general,I created Ocs and sonas, I've rambled a lot this year about not only Disney properties but about Looney Tunes, Animaniacs, Marvel, Musicals and just so much more I feel like I have expressed more of who I am to you guys.

And the amazing people I've met in this quite literal hellsite lol, have been so kind and supportive to me that they I am gonna do a roll call/ shoutout to you incredible people and if I forgotten one of you i am so sorry but remember you are great too!!

@blue-main & @joyseer24 I am forever grateful for meeting you two you've been incredibly kind, supportive, helpful and just the greatest friends I've ever had and for being my first internet friends I am glad that it was you guys.

@tophthedaydreamer I am so intimidated to talk you sometimes I don't know why I feel like you are just so much cooler than me even though you are just as dorky as me but you are so talented and thanks to you I've seen the Beetlejuice musical also thanks to you I started doing AUs because I did a silly post about how Iron-Man and Captain America reminded me of Bugs Bunny and Mickey Mouse and you left a nice message in your tags about how this was big brain and how I should continue it and I didn't want to do it but your comment motivate me to do it and I've done a bunch of AUs because of that message in the tags so thanks and I hope to talk to you more in the future.

@lexi0507 thanks to you we have a Discord server and we met a bunch of cool people and you're so cool, unapologetically yourself and supportive and I love your art and ocs.

@wastelandchannel I know we haven't talked recently but thanks to you I think we wouldn't have the Toon Tykes so thank you and I hope you are doing and feeling better.

@ohmymabe you are so nice and I love your art and how creative you are, and you're also kind of a founder of The Toon Tykes with the many AUs and ocs you did of the children of Oswald and Julius y Eres una muy Buena Amiga!

@dizbunny Diz with the Gifs you are so sweet you always have something nice to say and I know you started your journey with art and it's not easy just have patience and don't be too hard on yourself.

@su-nioj We haven't talked that much but you have made amazing art I like to call you the ninja silent but talented and I hope to get to know you more in the future.

@dalia1784 we haven't interacted as much as I want to. It we do follow each other Tumblr and Twitter and we tagged each other on tag games and I hope to get to know you better, but you make amazing art and deserve so much attention and appreciation like literally go follow her she has amazing ocs designs and stories.

@you-big-palooka & @amelia-bedeliaa you keep posting about Disney ducks and Mickey and friends respectively your post always bring me joy or discover a good fic or follow someone who makes amazing fanart and keep on reblogging.

I think that's it if I missed one of my mutuals or you don't take it personally you are amazing and great it's just I listed more people in this post than last year so I might have forgotten a few.

And once again thank you from the bottom of my heart I am forever grateful that I have Tumblr in my life because without it I wouldn't have met all these amazing people and I wouldnt be drawing so thank you to all my followers, mutuals and friends and here's to another year!!

Muchas gracias los quiero mucho!!! 💛

#schibi rambles #personal post #tumblr reblog

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anfie-in-the-box · 3 years

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Hello. You can call me anfie, though ultimately this post isn’t about me. It is about you.

Let me explain.

Almost every day I see so very talented, absolutely amazing creators getting burnt out, apologizing for not creating, or for creating for too long, or for creating a different thing when they “promised” to do another one first, or for sharing something self-indulgent, or something initially created to make themselves feel better, and so on and so forth. So many unnecessary apologies, so much stress and pain. My soul aches so much every time I see something like this.

I think I might find a way to help a little. You see, I’d like to offer you a challenge. It is called NOvember, which is actually a quite straight-forward meaning. Let’s move on to the rules so you can understand.

1. The challenge begins as soon as the prompt list and the rules are posted. You can join whenever you like!

2. The challenge ends with the next November (so on November, 30th, 2021). Though that’s only technically, you can join much later and still use the tag (or not, that’s up to you).

3. The challenge is not for one type of creators specifically. Fanfiction? Cool! Originals? Awesome! Fanart? Wonderful! Original art? Go for it! Comic? Splendid! Melodies, or even songs? Fascinating! Aesthetics? Delightful! Any other form of art? Absolutely lovely. Thank you for bringing something new to this world.

4. You don’t have to post your works every day, week, month, etc. You don’t have to post all of them in November. You don’t owe this challenge anything. This challenge is for you to feel comfortable and safe, so do as you please.

5. This challenge is meant to remind the creators and their audience that it is OK to say NO to things. Some are generally bad and need to be removed permanently. Some are generally good, but there are situations when they are not needed, when they might hurt you or/and people around.

6. Hence the key theme of the challenge — a situation (or situations) when you have to say NO to whatever is in the prompt. For example, on the first day you need to create something about telling depreciation NO. Will it be about self-depreciating thoughts, or about the way grown-ups tend to invalidate children and teens’ problems, or maybe about something else entirely? That’s for you to know and for us, your audience, to find out.

7. It is fine to create and/or post out of order.

8. It is fine to skip some prompts and/or create a few things for just one prompt. If you don’t have any ideas, it’s OK. If a prompt resonates with you so much you can’t stop thinking about it and coming up with more and more concepts, it’s OK, too.

9. No discrimination and hate. This challenge is about taking care of yourself and of other people. This challenge is about support and getting better together.

10. If you’d like to participate, please use the tags #anfie NOvember challenge and #it’ OK to say NO; you can also add your own (for your works only or for a specific form of art, like #anfie writes NOvember or #anfie NOvember aesthetics respectfully). Every option is fine as long as you don’t forget to add my nickname to avoid confusion. After all, there might be other November challenges out there.

11. If something, anything at all goes wrong, please, please, please, do not apologize. It’s OK if you can’t continue the challenge anymore, whatever the reason is. It’s OK if you promised to post something and then didn’t. It’s OK. Just… explain, if you feel like it. But don’t apologize. It isn’t your fault, even if you think otherwise.

Link to the Russian version is HERE

Link to the French version is HERE

Special thanks to:

Zmeal (on ficbook), who made the prompt list look the way it does;

@zu-is-here, who supported the idea and basically made versions in different languages possible.

P. S. If you'd like to say YES to NOvember, but don't want to or cannot participate, consider reblogging, sharing with people who might be interested, and more! If you have any questions then please don't hesitate to contact me.

Last but not least. Take care. Stay safe.

#anfie NOvember challenge #It's OK to say NO #writing challenge #writing prompts #fanfic challenge #art challenge

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moved-to-void-kissed · 2 years

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My Tumblr year in review:

..is under the readmore for conciseness. My initial aversion instinct kicked in when I first saw people posting these, but I figured that now that has passed and it’s a bit closer to the actual end of the year, it wouldn’t hurt for me to see what mine was like. I think this sort of thing is nice to have!

I posted 3,386 times in 2021 - 644 posts created (19%), 2742 posts reblogged (81%). So, for every post I created, I reblogged 4.3 posts.

I added 8,914 tags in 2021 (that’s an average of at least two tags per post!)

#selfshipping - 1803 posts

#selfship - 1802 posts (I wonder what the one post I forgot it on was?)

#ask to tag - 1272 posts

#stuff from other selfshippers - 955 posts

#other selfships - 858 posts

#a call from the void - 687 posts (somehow this is on quite a few more posts than I myself have made according to Tumblr itself? I’m not quite sure why that’s the case)

#eye contact tw - 591 posts

#love: wayfinding waters (aqua) - 350 posts (this doesn’t surprise me in the slightest, she’s definitely the F/O I see the most nice fanart of)

#something i found by following tags - 329 posts

#out of the inbox - 267 posts

Longest Tag: 140 characters

#but for some reason i’m reading pyra’s response along the same lines as “of course i wouldn’t stab you in the back! i don’t have a knife!!’’

My Top Posts in 2021:

"Can you stay here with me for a bit?” “Of course I can, silly! We can be here for as long as you want.” “Thank you.. you’re really helping..”

Like any cat, Sapphire gravitates towards warmth, and Pyra is naturally very warm to the touch. I myself have also been in a lot of pain for the past two days, and heat is pretty much the only thing that helps alleviate that. So, I figured it would make sense to render some Pyra hugs, because I’ve been thinking about her a lot lately ^-^

(Reblogs are greatly appreciated, but by no means required! There’s also a picture to better show how Sapphire’s reference model currently looks under the readmore, if you’re curious, since this is my first time using it in a render!)

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I’m very glad this one made it up to the final list, it’s still a project I’m very proud of ^-^

"Come, let’s dance together, in this madness they call love”

This is my first piece of art for my selfship with La Signora! The picture is quite large so you might have to click or tap on it to see it in better quality, but here it is! I was working on it for most of last night~

Reblogs are greatly appreciated, but by no means required! There are also more alternate angles under the readmore! ^-^

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54 notes • Posted 2021-08-10 23:01:04 GMT

Happy Boyfriend’s Day to all selfshippers who are boyfriends - anyone whose F/Os use that term for them!! Your F/Os love calling you their boyfriend, they love you so so much, and you being in their lives is something they are all super grateful for ^-^

Also, happy Boyfriend’s Day to all selfshippers who have boyfriends - anyone who uses that as a term for any of their F/Os!! They all love you so much, they always treasure every day they spend with you because you mean the world to them, and it makes them super happy to hear you call them your boyfriend!~

(This post does not apply to proshippers or any kind of discriminatory people. They are not welcome to interact with my posts, and never will be.)

157 notes • Posted 2021-10-03 20:14:15 GMT

I would like to wish nonbinary selfshippers, and selfshippers with nonbinary F/Os, a very awesome nonbinary November ^-^

307 notes • Posted 2021-11-05 13:40:44 GMT

Get your Tumblr 2021 Year in Review using that link, if you want to!

#a call from the void #not strictly about selfshipping #year in review #funnily enough it was three of my four main romantic selfships that showed up in some way #since two of my top five posts were of me with pyra and then also with signora #and the third was my message lost piece which featured aqua (and her character tag is also one of my most used!)#so that all works out very well

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mdzsartreblogs · 3 years

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16,000 Post Round Up

I've been so busy, and I got sick, that it's taken me days to get to actually finish this even as I've gone through the data as I've been able. Also, while I've not quite caught up on the queue, I have at least at the moment got it running "full speed" again, and I'll do my best to keep it that way, but no promises. Today was the first day in like three weeks that I was actually able to add everything new in the three tags I check (#mdzs, #mo dao zu shi, and #the untamed) to the queue so...hopefully things are on the upswing and I can start plowing through the stuff I wasn't able to post while the queue was running slower. Thanks for your patience, everyone.

Anyway! Some stats and notes as we reach the latest milestone!

we're at 1,321 followers, which is up 51 since last time!

there are 295 new tags since last time...which is exactly the same as I added for the 15k round up, which is weird...they're mostly artists; there are now 3,543 artists with at least one work reblogged to this blog, an increase of 162 since last time!

If you know where any of the works tagged unknown location are, please let me know. Likewise, if you know any of the artists tagged unknown artist (it’s pretty much all official art), I’d appreciate your help a lot!

If you make fanart, feel free to DM it to this blog, or @ me @unforth (don’t tag @mdzsartreblogs, tumblr rarely shows me those tags). I don’t track any unique source blog tags but I do check #mdzs, #mo dao zu shi, and #the untamed daily and reblog all artwork posted there provided it doesn’t break any of my few rules (also provided that the creator hasn’t blocked me, or I haven’t blocked the creator - I’ve been blocked a handful of times and I block people who post hate in the main tag, and yes, that’s included a few artists.)

Support artists by liking and reblogging their work! Yes, even if you see them on a source blog! DO THE THING! Artists need and deserve our support!

-unforth

And, finally, as usual - some tag usage stats. (read more)

Top 15 Characters Tagged Most Often:

wei wuxian (7,744 works) (no change)

lan wangji (6,263 works) (no change)

jiang cheng (2,301 works (no change))

lan xichen (1,530 works) (no change)

nie huaisang (1,246 works) (no change)

a yuan (1,191 works) (no change)

jin guangyao (1,084 works) (no change)

jin ling (954 works) (no change)

nie mingjue (814 works) (no change)

wen ning (718 works) (no change)

xue yang (693 works) (+1 from 15k post)

xiao xingchen (688 works) (-1 from 15k post)

jiang yanli (610 works) (no change)

lan jingyi (515 works) (no change)

wen qing (475 works) (no change)

Top 15 Ships Tagged Most Often:

wangxian (4,422 works) (no change)

xicheng (313 works) (no change)

xiyao (269 works) (no change)

sangcheng (239 works) (no change)

songxiao (235 works) (no change)

xuexiao (157 works) (no change)

3zun (108 works) (no change)

zhuiling (103 works) (+2 from 15k post)

xisang (98 works) (+2 from 15k post)

xuanli (94 works) (-1 from 15k post)

nielan (93 works) (-3 from 15k post)

nieyao (75 works) (+1 from 15k post)

yanqing (73 works) (-1 from 15k post)

ningxian (46 works) (no change)

songxuexiao (36 works) (no change)

Top 15 Platonic Relationships Tagged Most Often:

twin prides of yunmeng (519 works) (no change)

twin jades of gusu (265 works) (+1 from 15k post)

wangxian are dads (263 works) (-1 from 15k post)

grape uncle (259 works) (+1 from 15k post)

yunmeng siblings (249 works) (-1 from 15k post)

nie brothers (212 works) (no change)

wei wuxian is a dad (174 works) (no change)

junior trio (126 works) (no change)

junior quartet (115 works) (no change)

lan wangji is a dad (114 works) (+1 from 15k post)

yi city family (113 works) (-1 from 15k post)

wen siblings (108 works) (new!)

wei wuxian is an uncle (105 works) (-1 from 15k post)

burial mounds family (97 works) (no change)

one brain cell trio (95 works) (-2 from 15k post)

Top 15 (+1) Artists with the Most Works Reblogged Here: (+1 because I don’t actually count “official art” as an artist)

official art (228 works) (no change)

modao18 (161 works) (no change)

sketchyscribbles (153 works) (+1 from 15k post)

littlesmartart (153 works) (-1 from 15k post)

ibijau (139 works) (no change)

joshua-beeking (119 works) (no change)

hilluhri (104 works) (no change)

elogval (90 works) (+1 from 15k post)

pikazchu (87 works) (+1 from 15k post)

candicewright (85 works) (-2 from 15k post)

bbeiex (83 works) (+1 from 15k post)

wrecklwj (79 works) (+2 from 15k post)

valdrift (76 works) (no change)

xiejie-liubo (76 works) (-3 from 14k post)

wifiwuxians (72 works) (no change)

soursoppi (66 works) (new!)

Most Prolific Artists Who Posted for the First Time Since Last Tag Audit: everyone who posted at least 4 works, and is new to the blog, since the 15,000 post round up is listed here.

silvercrane14 (9 works)

noswordinourlake (7 works)

andyarts-stuff (7 works)

lotreckk (6 works)

fanning-the-flames (6 works)

zirttih (5 works)

willowafsi (4 works)

justanotherdayontheenterprise (4 works)

allirenaneko (4 works)

Top 20 Most Used Other Tags:

portrait (13,998 works) (no change)

digital art (13,164 works) (no change)

comic (2,614 works) (no change)

flowers (2,386 works) (no change)

laughs (2,339 works) (no change)

modern au (1,979 works) (no change)

sketch (1,801 works) (no change)

chibi (1,768 works) (no change)

lan wangji has golden eyes (1,510 works) (no change)

wangxian hug (1,369 works) (no change)

fantasy au (1,242 works) (no change)

yiling laozu (1,118 works) (no change)

food (1,098 works) (+1 from 15k post)

chenqing (1,080 works) (-1 from 15k post)

blood tw (989 works) (no change)

hearts (955 works) (no change)

lemon (943 works) (no change)

stars (934 works) (+1 from 15k post)

bunnies (929 works) (+1 from 15k post)

pencil drawing (928 works) (-2 from 15k post)

Top 5 Actors: the “cast” tag has been used 335 times.

xiao zhan (180 works) (no change)

wang yibo (130 works) (no change)

zhu zanjin (10 works) (no change)

song jiyang (10 works) (no change)

wang zhuocheng (9 works) (no change)

Top 5 Animals:

bunnies (929 works) (no change)

birds (388 works) (no change)

butterflies (231 works) (no change)

cats (135 works) (no change)

dogs (103 works) (no change)

Top 15 Character Attributes:

lan wangji has golden eyes (1,510 works) (no change)

yiling laozu (1,118 works) (no change)

lan sizhui (832 works) (no change)

wei wuxian has red eyes (698 works) (no change)

jiang cheng with braids (522 works) (no change)

fierce corpse wen ning (455 works) (no change)

child a yuan (410 works) (+1 from 15k post)

blind xiao xingchen (407 works) (-1 from 15k post)

jiang cheng has purple eyes (325 works) (no change)

nie mingjue has a mustache (292 works) (no change)

nie mingjue with braids (267 works) (no change)

wei wuxian in lan white (239 works) (no change)

wen yuan (227 works) (no change)

wei wuxian has piercings (219 works) (no change)

child wei wuxian (158 works) (no change)

Top 15 Relationship (romantic or platonic) Attributes:

wangxian hug (1,369 works) (no change)

wangxian kiss (593 works) (no change)

wangxian holding hands (503 works) (no change)

lan wangji carrying wei wuxian (134 works) (no change)

wangxian sharing a bed (112 works) (+1 from 15k post)

xiyao hug (106 works) (+2 from 15k post)

wei wuxian wearing lan wangji's ribbon (106 works) (-2 from 15k post)

xicheng hug (103 works) (-1 from 15k post)

sangcheng hug (79 works) (no change)

wangxian duet (76 works) (no change)

songxiao hug (67 works) (new!)

shuangjie hug (63 works) (new!)

xuexiao hug (61 works) (new!)

lan wangji wearing wei wuxian's ribbon (60 works) (new!)

wangxian forehead touch (60 works) (new!)

Top 15 AU Tags:

modern au (1,979 works) (no change)

fantasy au (1,242 works) (no change)

canon divergent au (675 works) (no change)

creature wei wuxian (566 works) (no change)

creature lan wangji (494 works) (no change)

technological anachronism (277 works) (no change)

bunji (206 works) (+1 from 15k post)

bunxian (205 works) (-1 from 15k post)

dragon (188 works) (no change)

creature jiang cheng (176 works) (no change)

cat person (143 works) (+2 from 15k post)

merperson (138 works) (-1 from 15k post)

historical au (134 works) (-1 from 15k post)

creature lan xichen (120 works) (new!)

fox person (111 works) (no change)

Top 10 Memes, Fandom Events, Holidays, and Character Birthdays:

october art challenge (204 works) (no change)

wangxian week (106 works) (no change)

color palette challenge (102 works) (+3 from 15k post)

valentine's day (100 works) (-1 from 15k post)

wei wuxian's birthday (93 works) (no change)

lan wangji's birthday (93 works) (-2 from 15k post)

draw this your style (73 works) (+1 from 15k post)

mermay (72 works) (-1 from 15k post)

mdzs reverse big bang (58 works) (no change)

lunar new year (57 works) (no change)

Top 10 Instruments and Weapons:

chenqing (1,080 works) (no change)

bichen (481 works) (no change)

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#mod post #tag wrangling

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henrystickminbrainrot · 4 years

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Hi yes I was really in the mood for writing, so...

As always, this AU belongs to @rhmg-au . They’re amazing, please follow them, reblog their art, give them fanart, support them in any way possible, etc.

This is a sequel to the previous fic, this time focusing on the Toppat Clan. 👀

TW: killing, killing mentions, guns

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Ellie was biting her nails.

She knew it was a bad habit, but even so, she couldn’t stop. She always did it when she was nervous.

And saying she was nervous was an understatement.

Henry had been captured by the Government, of all people. Reginald said they had some history, but Ellie didn’t know much about that.

All Ellie knew was that leadership was entrusted to her.

Look, she already knew being leader was tough just by watching Henry.

But it was even more tough than she imagined.

Plus, it wasn’t like she was in the best mental state. But her’s was better than Reginald’s, anyway.

To be honest, though, anyone’s mental state can be better than Reginald’s.

Ellie took a sharp breath as she collapsed on her desk and buried her head in her hands. She just rested there for several minutes, trying and failing to not think about Henry.

She couldn’t help it. She owed his life to her.

That was a debt she could never repay.

Was he safe? Was he warm? Was he happy? Was he lonely? Was he well fed? Was he hurt?Was he even alive?! Those questions constantly followed Ellie, swarming around her like a nest of angry hornets.

Ellie had never been one to show emotions. But with loosing her best friend and all the stress of being appointed the temporary leader, she felt like crying more than once.

But she kept it together. If she was stable, the clan was stable. And she knew that’s what Henry would’ve wanted.

Speaking of Henry...

Ellie looked over the notes from her last meeting. It was unbelievable that some Toppats didn’t want to save Henry. So what if it was a trap? Henry is the clans real leader. He got captured helping the clan, and now the clan was going to save him.

That was the plan Ellie was proposing, anyway.

Reginald was fully on board, though she suspected that was just so he could look for RHM. But having him agree with Ellie, despite any alterior motives, was good enough for most of the clan. Now they had to prepare for the Government raid.

Ellie heard a knock at her door, and she jumped. She smoothed her fiery red hair as she walked over to and opened the door.

“Reginald?” she sighed. His face was anxious and excited at the same time. Normally, seeing him would be a surprising sight, but the two had been leaning on each other a lot after Henry was captured.

“Is this a bad time?” he asked. Ellie shrugged.

“Nah. I was just taking a break after that exhausting meeting, anyway.” Ellie said, taking a step back from her door so Reginald could walk in. They sat down on the two beanbags Henry had bought for her. Seeing anything reminded her of Henry. That was a real bittersweet feeling.

“So the Government raid was finally agreed to today,” Reginald began, twiddling his mustache. It wasn’t malicious or anything, it was just a bad habit. Just like Ellie biting her fingernails.

Ellie nodded. “I’m anxious, but the thought of seeing Henry again makes it more than worth it.” Reginald nodded fervently, knocking his top hat off his head. He put it back on before continuing.

“After the meeting ended though, I started thinking. I feel like... we’re endangering the clan, just to go on this rescue mission.” Reginald continued, his voice guilty. Ellie resisted the urge to scoff.

“Henry endangered the clan by going to Earth to rescue the Toppats there, and you didn’t feel bad about that,” she reminded. Reginald hesitated.

“That was... different. Those clan members were in mortal peril. Henry and Right are more... valuable hostages. They wouldn’t kill or hurt them... right?” Reginald asked quietly, his hand curling up into a fist.

“No, of course not!” Ellie quickly said reassuringly. Reginald gave a forced smile, but it was better than nothing.

“I’m just worried about the clan. The Government is so strong... I don’t want anyone to die.”

Ellie took a couple breaths. “Casualties are inevitable in situations like this.” she began. “But if we prepare enough, we can minimize them.” She shrugged. “Just my two cents, though.”

“I suppose you’re right.” Reginald replied unhappily. “But if we can do this the peaceful way, than we don’t have to worry about casualties, right?” he asked hopefully.

Right. The peaceful way. Ellie was going to turn over the Norwegian Emerald and the Romanian Ruby in exchange for Henry and Right. ‘Course, if they didn’t accept the trade, they’d be forced to get violent. Ellie already sent the trade offer to the general, warning him that if they declined, blood would be spilled, and it would be spilled on his conscience.

Ellie personally didn’t think the general had much of a conscience, but the trade was worth a try.

“Don’t worry, Galeforce is smart, or so I’ve been told,” she assured. “He doesn’t want any blood to spill, just like us.” Reginald nodded sagely, a bit of his confidence restored.

“I... thanks, Ellie. I really hope this raid is peaceful.” Reginald said, getting up. Ellie gave a little salute as he left. She leaned back in the beanbag, getting comfier. It felt good to have someone to talk to. Henry was... a man of few words.

After five minutes, Ellie forced herself to get off of the beanbag. She took in a sharp breath as she thrust herself back into her paperwork.

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The Day of the Raid

Well, today was the day.

Where Ellie and Reginald would get their best friends back, whether through trade or force.

Ellie straightened her top hat, wanting to look her very best. Pure adrenaline was the only thing keeping her going right now.

“I’m coming Henry,” she whispered fiercely, lightly slapping her cheeks to phyche herself up.

Despite how excited she was to see her best friend again, despite what she told Reginald, she couldn’t escape the fact that some of the people fighting alongside her wouldn’t be coming back.

It was a gruesome thought. A terrifying thought.

But Henry was more than worth it.

Ellie put on her top hat and grabbed the stop sign leaning on the wall. She chuckled slightly.

“My favorite weapon,” she murmured as she opened the door to her bedroom, taking in many breaths. The walls were filling with clan members getting ready to fight. Ellie easily found Reginald in the crowd. That was a talent of hers. Reginald walked over to her.

“This place is packed. I didn’t realize how many people were willing to go on this mission.” Reginald commented. He had a lot more confidence today, or so it seemed. Both he and Ellie were faking it. Both he and Ellie were terrified. She didn’t know about him, but Ellie was lying to herself just enough that she was able to forget about her fear, just for a moment.

“Henry and Right were both...” Ellie struggled for words. “Important to the clan. On a personal level, I mean.”

“All our members are,” he murmured, his face sad as he was reminded of the ones they’d lost to the mysterious Toppat Killer.

Ellie wanted to find that killer, beat them until there was nothing else to beat, and get revenge for their fallen friends.

“Thinking about them isn’t what you need right now,” she reminded him, her tone fierce, but considerate at the same time. Not sure how well she was pulling THAT off. Reginald cleared his throat significantly.

“Yes, I’m aware,” he sighed. “We should probably head down to Earth, don’t you think?” Reginald prompted. Ellie nodded, a fire in her eyes that couldn’t ever be extinguished.

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Reginald was terrified.

Of COURSE he was terrified. Who WOULDN’T be terrified?

He wished he wasn’t, though.

He was just so worried about Right...

But that wasn’t worth thinking about.

Or maybe it was.

As he and Ellie dragged the two gems behind them, Reginald wasn’t sure WHAT to think.

Other than how much he missed Right.

If the Government did anything to him, he’d crush the whole lot of them.

Or that’s what Reginald kept telling himself.

There was no way to know what had happened to Right until the clan made it to the Government base, gems in tow.

General Galeforce and a blond woman walked out the front door, an odd glint in their eyes.

It occurred to Reginald that woman was Dr. V.

He got a sinking feeling in his chest, but he couldn’t quite say why.

Ellie nodded at the troops as a way of telling them to halt, and she walked over to Galeforce, weaponless.

It was a way of showing peace, she said. It was foolish, in Reginald’s opinion. But if it helped get Right back, he wasn’t complaining.

“General Galeforce,” she said curtly, doing a small bow. Galeforce was silent as his icy eyes surveyed the troops, than the gems.

“You didn’t tell me you were bringing so much troops,” he commented coldly.

“You’ve taken our leader and a very close friend. Bringing this much soldiers is just common sense,” she replied calmly.

Ellie always had the right thing to say. That was something Reginald envied. If they never got Henry back, she’d make a fine leader.

“Have you come to a conclusion on our offer?” Ellie prompted.

“After much careful consideration, we’ve declined it.” Galeforce replied, chuckling at the stunned look on Ellie’s face.

“Any death of our or your troops will be on your hands. Remember that.” Ellie warned, raising her hand to signal the troop to start fire. As she did, however, a lightning fast bullet shot from the roof of the building into Ellie’s side. A sharp screaming broke out as gunshots were fired everywhere.

Reginald knew that bullet wasn’t from a gun. It was from a cyborg. Only question is, was it Right? He didn’t have much time to ponder this, though, as he rushed to Ellie’s side.

“I’m fine,” she said through clenched teeth. “Find Right, but find Henry for me, ‘kay?” Sven rushed in and grabbed Ellie as she started to black out. Reginald gave him a quick thumbs up as he took off running, ducking and weaving between the crowd. He was lucky to have missed the especially close bullets. He ran into the Government building. Finding Henry was the most important thing for the clan, but finding Right was the most important thing for HIM. After all Reginald had done for the clan, he figured that he could be a little selfish.

His first thought was the jail cells. That would be too easy, but he had to try. He ran drivenly through the building, hoping the clan was okay with every breath.

He went down a passage he assumed was the cells, and sure enough, he was right. There was only one person in the cells.

“Reginald?!” Henry cried, surprised. “Are you okay? Why are you here?” He connected the dots pretty quickly. “For Right. Of course. But- wait-“ Reginald kicked down the jail cell door.

“No time,” he grunted. “Where’s Right? Where are they keeping him?” Henry took in several sharp breaths.

“That’s what I was trying to say. The thing is-“ A bullet narrowly missed Henry. Reginald snorted and grabbed his pistol, shooting and killing the guard.

“Where is he?” Reginald demanded.

“Dr V!” Henry cried. “She joined the Government and... reprogrammed Right.” His gaze went dark. “Among other things.” Reginald was stunned.

Reprogrammed?

The Government had a brainwashed cyborg working for them?

That couldn’t be good.

“Those BASTARDS!” Reginald yelled. “Right is still a HUMAN! That’s- torture! I’ll kill them all!” Henry looked uncomfortable.

“Look, Reg-“ Reginald shoved Henry aside, tossing him a revolver.

“We’re going to rescue Right, kill Galeforce, and get the clan out of here,” he snarled. Henry shrugged.

“Can’t say that’s not a good plan.” he replied, walking beside Reginald.

“Do you know where he could be?” Reginald asked. Anger was really the only way he could handle his emotions. Reginald had never gone through something like this before. Above all, he hoped Right wasn’t too far gone. Henry shook his head, looking at the ground.

“No, sorry. From what I gathered, he was kinda all over the place.” Reginald let out an annoyed huff.

“Then we’ll tear this place apart looking for him.” he said grimly. As he and Henry walked through the Government base hall, Henry stiffened.

“I hear something... metal walking.” he whispered, sticking a hand in front of Reginald to stop him from going any further. Now that Reginald had stopped, he heard it too. Right! Although it probably wouldn’t be the reunion he wanted it to be.

“What should we do?” he whispered back.

“Walk toward the noise. Quietly.” Henry warned, starting to creep toward the sound of metal walking. Reginald kept pace with him, his heart beating faster and faster. He and Henry stopped at a corner, and Reginald snuck a quick look over the corner. That was Right, alright. Reginald looked over at Henry and nodded. Henry grasped his gun, but Reginald fiercely shook his head no. Henry WASN’T shooting his Right Hand Man. No way. Henry looked at Reginald curiously.

“I’m going to talk to him,” Reginald breathed, his words so quiet they faded into air. Henry looked panicked. Reginald fiercely shook his head. “No, you can’t come with!”

“Who’s there?” asked a familiar voice. Henry gave Reginald a quick salute as he walked calmly toward Right.

Pretty quickly, a gun was aimed at him.

Reginald could tell that Right would’ve shot by now if he were any other Toppat. But the mere sight of him caused Right’s now green eyes to glitch red.

“Right, it’s just me.” he said calmly, though on the inside he was anything but. “Reginald Copperbottom. Don’t shoot.” Right was holding his head as Reginald slowly reached out toward him, but Right shoved him away.

Well, it couldn’t be that easy.

Suddenly, a bullet was shot. Not from him, Henry, or Right. A third party. Another cyborg was rushing down the hallway. This one was wearing red headphones. Henry gasped sharply.

“No no no no,” he whispered, tearing up.

“Henry, go take care of that other cuborg while I try to snap Right out of it.” Reginald commanded. Henry flinched as he made eye contact with the other Android, but Reginald wasn’t focusing on them. He reached out toward Rights hand. Right shoved him away, aiming a gun at him.

“GET AWAY FROM ME!” Right yelled, his eye glitching green to red and back again. Reginald held his hand in front of his face.

The one with the ring.

Right immediately tensed up as he saw the ring. Reginald gritted his teeth and got up.

“Right, we both don’t want to hurt each other,” he said calmly as Right fired a series of wildly inaccurate bullets. Right sank to the floor, his whole body shaking and pulsing with electricity. Reginald took a sharp breath and ran toward Right, hugging him tightly. He heard him gasp and struggle slightly, but Reginald would never let go, not even when Hell freezes over.

“R-Reg...i-i... n-nald?”

#henry stickmin #right hand man green #rhm #RHM-G #fanfic #writing #reginald copperbottom #ellie rose

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hollyand-writes · 4 years

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Just wanted to say that I saw your post about Blond Boy Romance discourse and wanted to thank you for such a succinct write-up about Anders. I got into the fandom in late 2019 and i was SO confused about this huge gap in art and fic. Like, dead links and missing blogs and deleted posts. And I couldn’t figure out what happened because no one was talking about it, and I’m very shy after a mess in my last fandom. So...yeah. Thank you for writing that up, it’s nice to finally know what happened even though it’s really depressing. Also, thanks for staying in this fandom. You’re a wonderful example to others and an amazing creator.

Hello wanderingnork, and a very belated welcome to the fandom! 🙌🏾 Well. Welcome to what’s left of the fandom anyway LOL ❤️

Thanks so much for reaching out and sending me this really kind ask message (the post being referred to is my addition/reblog here) but yeah, I guess for those who weren’t in Dragon Age 2 fandom or the Anders side of fandom between December 2017—July 2018 you wouldn’t have seen how horrifying the bullying got. I’ve seen at least 3 people who aren’t friends with me reblog my post saying that what I described was why they themselves quit DA fandom or the Anders side of fandom too.

And those are the Anders fans who DIDN’T delete their Tumblr blogs. Obviously the ones who DID delete and/or quit aren’t here to confirm that they, too, quit over that Anders wank in 2018.

The worst of it was that the wank was started entirely by a group of Anders fans who – to my knowledge – still see themselves as the real victims to this day, even though they only stopped their callout posts and bullying (both in public and behind the scenes in private) when they learned that the Anders fanartist they were bullying was considering taking legal action. (You KNOW things are bad when fandom wank gets so bad that it becomes actual harassment that breaks the law.) And like I said, they posted some pretty shitty things about those of us who were friends with this artist too, causing many of us to block them.

They backtracked like fuck in July 2018, but after seven months (maybe more?) of constantly bullying this one popular Anders fanartist (who’d repeatedly apologised, deleted the NSFW sideblog AND the offending art, and posted how the whole thing had driven that artist to a breakdown and suicidal thoughts), maybe it should never have got that far?

I don’t know how active they are in DA fandom now – but I DO know one of them notoriously posted that us blocking them was “bullying”, and that “bullying is child abuse” for “children” like themselves... despite the fact that they admitted they were 23 and therefore were very much not a fucking minor or child. (They had a lot to say about how WE should have been responsible for their “online safety” as well, and that Anders was their “comfort character” whom they only wanted to see sweet fluff content for, and they regularly triggered themselves by searching out Anders content that was less than fluffy or sweet to complain about on their blog. Not to mention how many of us queer POC Anders creators in our 20s and 30s – including the Anders artist they bullied – were accused of being “white” and “boomer-passing” for defending Anders content they didn’t like LMAO)

I’m so sorry to hear about the huge gap in art and fic you experienced on coming in to Tumblr Dragon Age fandom, but given how many creators took one look at the bullying and thought “fuck this, I’m leaving” and either deleted their blogs or Anders posts/fic/art/meta or simply left for kink-friendlier fandoms, I am honestly not surprised to hear this. I am also sorry to hear that there was a mess in your last fandom too; and I hope that this fandom is better to you.

Dragon Age fandom is a difficult fandom to be in, but trust me when I say there are lots of good people in it. They’re just harder to find, and often they’re not as prominent or in-your-face as the nastier types. But I know they’re there because I’ve found them, and I treasure them, and I’ve been here since 2014.

I think really all we can do is block the haters as much as possible, and carry on creating whatever the fuck we like – and tagging appropriately. I learned my lesson from that wank in 2018: if someone(s) is really determined to destroy you and just wants you gone, there is no apology or deletion you can give that will be good enough. Besides, there are so many problematic themes and content in Dragon Age canon that I don’t think it’s reasonable to ask creators to completely shy away from exploring those if they want to, or from making OCs that mirror a canon character’s traumatic background, or from writing/drawing canon characters as anything less than healthy and wholesome and pure (which NONE of them are in canon, anyway) – especially if it’s tagged and warned for.

I mean... we all paid Bioware to purchase and play this 18+ game with its uncomfortable, difficult and sometimes problematic themes and content. I feel that if the Dragon Age franchise was so terrible and traumatic and problematic for someone when playing, then I do question why they joined the fandom afterwards. And I don’t think the onus should fall solely on fandom creators – who are doing this for free, unpaid, in our spare times – to create perfect, unproblematic, wholesome content that just wasn’t in the games themselves. Different people have different definitions of what is “perfect”, “unproblematic” or “wholesome” anyway.

(On that last point: look at how the people behind The Mess callout tried to accuse people of being racist for romancing Cullen with pale-skinned Lavellans; back in 2016/2017 you got accused of being racist for romancing Cullen with darker-skinned Lavellans. How times have changed 🤔 There’s a LOT of content in this fandom that I don’t like, or that squicks/repulses me, but as long as it’s tagged in a way that I can avoid it, I’m not gonna police what people create. And if there’s one thing I’ve noticed the Dragon Age fandom IS very good about doing, it’s that most people are careful about handling problematic topics and content in a sensitive way. So that’s not a thing I worry about.)

Anyway. I’m rambling. But yeah, that recap of 2018 (which several people have confirmed is true now) sums up why there is such a huge gap in Anders fanart and fic, and is why very few people create Anders content anymore – I know I myself abandoned a Garrett Hawke/Anders longfic in 2018 because I didn’t want to create for Handers fans if the only ones around were bullies who believed they were victims. But it’s been well over 2 years now, so.... I might get back to writing that fic. The Gym AU is still very much alive in my brain 👀

So! That’s what happened... but despite everything I want to emphasise that there IS much good in this fandom, even if it’s harder to find among all the shit there is 💩 and that I hope your stay here is a good one. Thank you so much for saying you think I’m a wonderful example to others and an amazing creator, though! ❤️ I don’t know how many people will agree, but I do try!

But yeah, if there’s one thing I’ve learned from being here since 2014 – and from surviving several attempts to run me out of fandom (including for having an elf/human OTP) and off this platform – it’s this: The people change, and the characters and subjects being wanked over change, but fandom wank itself never ever changes.

#wanderingnork #replies #also #tagging this as #anders #fandom wank #fandom critical #long post

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lesbiansouplol · 3 years

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New Beginnings, A Sanders Sides Fanfiction 2

Personal Note: Thank you thank you thank you to everyone who liked and reblogged last chapter! This is my first fic on tumblr and I'm super happy all of you enjoyed it. If you still like me after this chapter I'm going to be posting new chapters every Saturday. Thanks again!

Summary of story: Patton starts working as an art teacher at a new school, where he meets Logan, and quickly catches feelings. After meeting some of his students, however, he gets quite concerned about Virgil’s home life, and works with Logan and Janus to get him away from his abusive parents, all while trying to figure out his newly budding romance with Logan, and trying to be a good teacher with the unfortunate little to no funding being put into the arts.

Summary of chapter: Virgil leaves his house early and gets to school. Anxiety ensues and he gets some concerning news from our favorite science teacher.

Chapters out: 4/?

word count: 1,263

warnings/tags: A*xiety att*ck, p*king, alc*hol mentions, mentions of parents f*ghting, swearing, some angst, teeny tiny bit of Logan angst but Virgil takes the crown for angsty-est boy.

Here's the first chapter: https://lesbiansouplol.tumblr.com/post/663993431770742784/new-beginnings-a-sanders-sides-fan-fiction

NOTE: I understand last chapter was really fluffy, and we'll get back to that soon! But if you find any of the above warnings triggering or upsetting, please take care of yourself. I won't be hurt if you put your mental health first. Find some cute fanart to internally scream about for a bit :)

Chapter 2: The Rough Idea

It’s early, I’m tired, and I had... not enough hours of sleep last night.

They say you aren’t supposed to run away from your problems, but sometimes that feels like the only option... or at least avoiding them as much as you can.

I put on clothes, packed a breakfast, got my backpack, and was ready to go. School isn’t going to start for hours, but the sooner I get out the better.

As I open the door to leave I wave goodbye to my dad, who’s sleeping on the couch with a beer bottle in hand.

He and Mom got into a pretty big fight last night. It ended like they always do, my dad getting upset and drinking his sadness away while my mom kicks him out of the bedroom so he can “think about what he’s done”.

Who knows what he did this time.

Regardless, I’m leaving before either of them wakes up and I find out. My phone says 6:30, which means I have some time to waste before school.

I run out to the shed, grab my skateboard, put my headphones on and start the music. Today I’m feeling like some Icon for Hire.

It takes me 30 minutes to get to school, since I have some more time I drop by the skate park across the road and mess around for a bit. No one is there this early anyway, so it’s safe.

I ate my breakfast, and I played around for a bit, I’ve been trying to do a kick flip for the past couple of weeks. Some dude on YouTube said after you learn that, a “whole new world of tricks opens up to you”.

Plus he looked like a lame stoner type, so chances are he knows about this stuff.

Buses started arriving and I tried my best to silently slip into the crowd. Then I made a very bad mistake, I started thinking. I recognize all of these people. Sure, maybe not by name, but I know their faces.

There’s the blonde girl with glasses that always looks frustrated and I’ve never seen her without a book... or with a smile.

There’s that super smiley kid that hums to himself and references cartoons, and he’s always with the coffee guy, who, honestly I don’t know much about.

There was the girl that pretended to be a cat a few years back. She seems more stable now, but best not to talk to her because you might get hissed at.

We got to the halls and people grouped up before heading to classes. As they all left, I just got this unexplainable feeling in my gut.

I know all these people. I’ve seen them cry in the halls, and heard them when they talk shit behind their friends’ back; I’ve heard the embarrassing speeches, and the public rejections. I’ve witnessed some pivotal moments in these people’s lives.

... But how many of them know me?

I’m just a blob. A dummy dressed in black, pretending to be cool, all the while too afraid to talk to anyone. I’m too afraid to have a group, too afraid to affect people in any meaningful way.

The anxiety rises in my stomach.

Not this shit again.

Can I just make up my mind already? Do I want recognition? Do I want to be the center of attention, or do I want to be a nobody?

Blend into the crowd or stand out?

Maybe... maybe it’s time for a new beginning.

Maybe I can stand out this time. Maybe I don’t have to be a nobody.

There were three people left in the hall, two people that looked like they were dating saying goodbye and planning to meet up again, and then a girl in a grey hoodie that was facing the lockers. Her shoulders are shaking like she’s laughing at something.

With some strangely determined confidence, I pushed my anxiety down.

I put my hand out in her direction. It felt so robotic and wrong and weird and -I should probably stop now before- “Hi. I’m Virgil. W-what’s so funny?”

She turned around, and oh shit. Her eyes were red and puffy, her cheeks had tears racing down them, and - fuck, I can’t deal with this.

I gave a shaky “oh, I’m sorry.” Before practically running away. Where was I even going?

The bile rising in my throat answered that question pretty quickly. So there I sat, on the bathroom floor, after puking my guts out.

First days are great, right? I can’t wait to leave and go face people again. It’ll be so fun.

Maybe a new beginning isn’t what I need.

After maybe an hour I managed to convince myself to leave the bathroom and make at least a few of my classes…

This was a bad idea.

You see, the second I started heading to class, the science teacher walked by. I didn’t remember his name, but some students called him “Mr. Robot”, probably had something to do with the fact that this man was never not tense, and he could quote all the textbooks he gave us word for word, like he was… well, a robot.

To be fair though, at least you’d assume he’s passionate about what he’s teaching. That’s way better than the history teacher, who usually just plays some random video off YouTube and gives us tests. It’s about the only class I don’t skip a lot because I can just sit in the back of the room with my headphones and forget I exist for an hour.

Speaking of skipping…

“Ah, Mr. Storm, I’ve actually been hoping to figuratively run into you.” Mr. Robot said.

I stopped, bracing for the worst. “Oh?”

“Yes, I would like to know if you are aware of the fact you have missed seventeen of my classes.” He said, and while he probably wasn’t trying to look intimidating, he was succeeding. “And,” He continued. “If you are aware that without a proper note from your parent or guardian, missing that many classes is grounds for detention.”

To be honest I should’ve seen something like this coming. This specific class was right after lunch, and whether I pass out from exhaustion, have bad anxiety, or even just don’t feel like it, I have a hard time making it on time, if at all.

“No sir, I didn’t know that.” I said, feeling like it was the safest option.

“I see. Well, unfortunately I’ve already brought this up with Principle Sanders, and he requests a meeting with you during fifth period. And while I hope you have a plan to catch up on all the information you missed, I can talk to Mr. Sanders if you would be interested in a tutor.” Mr. Robot explained.

While this was far from what I was bracing for, it still wasn’t the best. “Thank you, Mr. Ro- I mean, thank you.”

If you were paying attention, you might’ve been able to see his face fall, only for a second, before he returned to his blank, emotionless self.

“Well, I must go to class. Good day, Mr. Storm.” He said, before quickly walking off, and within only seconds I was alone again.

The thought of talking to the principle was a little concerning, if he called my parents in then it wouldn’t be pretty. Not that detention would be much better either

I started walking to class, hoping that by some magic I wouldn’t be too terribly late to History, not that the teacher would mind.

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drzenlin · 3 years

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*Crawls out of the trashcans, a little wild eyed*

Okay, okay, listen. Just listen.

*Holds out new au idea*

I did it again.

Bare with me, here. Okay? This is kind of the thing that I do. I make ideas. Do I complete them? No. Do I actually write on them and make scenes and junk? Not always. Okay, but listen. Hear me out.

My latest obsession has been My Hero Academia, okay? I like it. It’s fun. We’re about to get the fifth season. It’s great. (I mentioned how many ideas I already had in the previous ramble post. We’re on twenty something. It’s getting ridiculous.) I’ve started diving into the fandom. It’s great. I like the fandom. Reading fanfictions and looking at fanart. Awesome. A+ good content.

The thing is..... And bare with me here. The thing is I see a lot of fantasy aus. There’s quite a bit. (We can thank that wonderful end credits in, what? Season four was it? I can’t be bothered to look it up. The canon fantasy au.) But I don’t see the delve into a lot of monster ideas. I don’t see a lot werewolves or vampires or anything of that sort. I’ve seen a couple of “I see dead people” sort of aus. Particularly when it comes to playing in the putty that is Midoryia Izuku’s quirk and lack thereof. (Don’t get me wrong. I like playing in that same putty. It’s so fun to change it and make it fun and interesting with extra heapings of angst and pain and whump-ege.) Though that has to do with more quirk stuff than anything else. I’ve seen a few monster ideas but not a lot. And the monster lover in me just kind of.... wilts. Sadness.

I love monsters. A lot. It’s not a new behavior of mine. Some of you who follow me might have.... guessed that with some of the things that I reblog. (I’m not brave enough to admit it quite yet. Give me a few more ramble posts and we’ll see.) But, coming from The Witcher fandom, I’m seeing a vast lacking in the way of monster content in the MHA fandom. And that sucks. A lot.

(Don’t make me be the one that fills that tag. Please. I’m not sure I can commit to that yet!!! I’m not brave enough!!!)

So, in conclusion, I wanna see more monster stuff in the MHA fandom. Like, werewolves and fae (the dark kind, folks. I love those kinds) and dragons (not just from the fantasy au. We can have more dragons, I assure you. We can do that. It’s okay.) and vampires (I’ve seen a few. It brings me hope) and sea monsters (mermaids and sea monsters anyone? Oooo, sea monster mermaids!!!) and all sorts of other scary things that go bump in the night.

And it’s okay. You have my permission (for what it’s worth). You don’t have to make a whole new au idea. It doesn’t have to be a full au. Mix it in with canon. (I like doing this best. It gives you the flavor of canon but adds that spicy goodness. Werewolves, right alongside quirks, anyone? Just think about little, baby Izuku shifting in front of Katsuki for the first time. Just think about it. I’ll give you a moment with that thought..... it’s good, isn’t it? So good.)

All of this has a point. I got side tracked by werewolves. (Not new. I love me a good werewolf. Always have.) But, the new au idea is kind of..... needs a lot of explanation. There’s a race I made and I wanted to play around with that in my newest fandom obsession. (Of course I did. I’m only human. Ish.) But I can say I like adding dark, fae type monster-y content into canon. Taking a world and melding it into something a little more wild and fantastical and playing with how people go missing or come out of the woods a changed person. I like playing with that sort of world that has magic, thinly veiled under the surface. Where if we don’t speak about it, it might not look this way. Everything is fine, when the sun is up and people are all around you but as the sun begins to set, people go indoors, other things slink around the corners of buildings, hiding away in alleyways. Do they want to consume you? Do they wish to play a malicious game? Are they just curious little critters that are not seen but once in a blue moon? It’s like urban fantasy and dark academia a little bit. Like..... *Snaps fingers* I know I have an example, somewhere rattling around in my brain. Like, traditional fairy tales, where Little Red Riding Hood gets eaten by the wolf but then turns around and kills him. Like ghost stories and haunting and, hmmmm. I don’t know if I’m getting my idea across here. What was that movie with Vin Diesel in it? The Last Witch Hunter? The Witch Hunter? Where he was a Viking cursed by the head witch to live forever and he had to fight her in modern times? That one.(I feel as though that one wasn’t talked about a whole lot. I enjoyed it, though I would have liked it better if there was more good witches and more content, honestly. Was it a book? Can anyone tell me? I think I’d like to read it if there was.) But like that, mixed up with traditional Grimm’s fairy tales and like..... whimsy. So, The Book of Cells and the other one they did. Song of the Sea? (I swear I actually know things. I’m not this much of a ditz. These are late night ramblings.) I like this type of world, universe, type thing. And I enjoy just, taking it and laying a fandom over top of it. So, this just kind of..... combines with my latest fandom. MHA. *Jazz hands*

I swear there’s more specifics to this than just that. But I’ve rambled long enough, honestly. I’m not even sure how many people are going to actually read this keyboard smash of a ramble. (My sisters are required. They wanted me to post more content. This is all on you two.) I might actually go in depth about the actual au idea and about that race that I invented. (If.... we could call it that? It’s a complicated can of worms to open, honestly. That and I need to figure how to make read mores. This is a long post.)

Anyway, the trash goblin has spoken.

*Crawls back into the trashcans, peaks over the lip. Hisses.*

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bladekindeyewear · 3 years

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HS^2 bloggin’ mainline 2020-12-25

I’m not going to spend time BLOGGING an upd8 on Christmas morning!

...yes I am who the fuck am I kidding. (Bonus stuff and Hiveswap are still well on hold though.)

So are we gonna follow up on the main ship? Probably not, right, with that perfect Karkat point to cut away, right? We’re just going to leave Roxy’s question hanging, as well as makeouts etiquette, and leave while having seen a COUPLE FRAMES of non-possessed canon Jade with only whatever fun fanart was inspired across the internet by the moment to tide us over????

Yeah, probably.

Ugh, more Dirk. I guess it’s overdue. :(

> CHAPTER 16. Welcome to my Secret Lair

Oh huh, I guess not? So... Jane’s, or Rose and Kanaya’s?

Karkat stays for longer than John thought he would. They talk a bit, but mostly they are quiet. Eventually, Karkat gets called away on yet more important war business, leaving John with one final touch on the shoulder. John leans into it in response, though he’s a bit ashamed of chasing down a sliver of physical affection so soon after obliterating Karkat’s evening like he had.

Pretty much, yeah. Can’t blame either of them.

When Karkat is finally gone, John still doesn’t move. It isn’t as though he has nowhere else to go, since there are quite a few places he might attempt to make himself useful, for better or for worse.

You’re still abandoning the task that was explicitly yours to protect your literal kid and his friends, but, oh well. Low-point. Dave dead, house dead, broke news, I get it.

He just doesn’t feel ready for that yet. The remnants of his house are still smoldering, and he can’t stop staring at them. It would make sense, he thinks, to want to root around through the rubble for anything that’s still intact; some half-charred keepsake to claim as the last thing left that’s still his. But he doesn’t want to do it, and he doesn’t want to think about it. And he still can’t move.

Can’t move. No Breath huh? What’s going to get him to, then?

> (==>)

Oh boy, that might help. XD She’s pretty good at that.

> (==>)

Still with the waistline gap. And was his phone always yellow like his God-Tier shoes?

ROXY: hey john can u do me a quick solid ROXY: actly idk how quick itll be but its definitely solid ROXY: harry anderson says i just missed u being here but could u skip back on over?

Nice, huh! No judgment, just a hey-any-chance-you-could-swing-back. He sort of needs to be needed right now, in a simple, almost everyday non-judgmental way I guess. (That’s what he NEEDED anyway-- whether he deserved it though is up for debate.)

ROXY: i need help w/smth and yr darling boy is holed up in his room working on some fuckin craft project or other and cant be bothered

YES SEW JOHN A BETTER FITTING FUCKING OUTFIT

ROXY: and now that me and u are freshly on speakin terms again i might as well take advantage of that olive branch and put u to work ROXY: assumin you havent died in an air raid, that is ROXY: which id also be interested in knowin about so if u wld be so kind as to reply instead of leavin me hangin

Heheheh. Gosh Roxy is always the best.

JOHN: yea yea sorry im here. JOHN: i just had a hard time getting my phone out of these fucking tiny pants.

Hah.

JOHN: and also my house is bombed out so i'm kinda grappling with that. JOHN: but i honestly am not sure how much longer i need to sit around staring at it. trying to align my memories of my youth with whatever is happening right now so JOHN: short version is no i’m not dead, and yeah i can come back over there and help you out. ROXY: oh sweet yr alive and down to do manual labor its a win/win JOHN: see you soon.

Yep! Pulled away from all the metaphorical, ultra-meaningful bullshit, back to some brass tacks with some easy humor. Definitely something Roxy can do well.~

> (==>)

EXCUSE ME. What is that outfit and pose. Did you--

ROXY: sup ROXY: follow me ROXY: well were just going to my room so i guess technically u know the way JOHN: haha ok.

Did you invite him over for the manual labor of banging you while your son is sewing in the other room

Or maybe the labor is making him a new sibling. JFC

Is this plan part of why we got the sudden content warning that was mocked or was that mainly for Hiveswap

John follows, trying to shake the ominous feeling he got from what she’d just said. He’d been in and out of this house a lot in the past few days. Why should this be any different?

I DUNNO JOHN DOES THIS SEEM DIFFERENT TO YOU

> (==>)

Yea this seems like a fucc room.

JOHN: it’s not like i could forget! ROXY: ya i guess u only really saw the living room when you were here the other day but i have changed some stuff up ROXY: done a lil redecoratin here n there

So it’s MORE of a fucc room than previously >__>”

ROXY: may have to do a smidge more if my old bff decides im next on the list for bombing out ROXY: but so far so good

Ah geez.

ROXY: just a coupla exploded cars in the yard from some shenanigans our dear son and his friends were in but u kno it is what it is!!!

Well, that’ll buff out easy.

ROXY: can i get u anything? ROXY: just made some coffee JOHN: no, uh, i’m good.

Of course she has a fancy handled winecoffeeglass (and the handle does look ridiculous but it’d be too hot to hold otherwise)

Roxy shrugs and swirls her own coffee around in her novelty mug. John looks around. A lot about the room is the same. The family photos, the rug. There’s a lot more cat stuff in there now, though. The bed is new. John feels like he’s about to take a test he hasn’t studied for. He makes himself focus on what she’s saying.

That would be the feeling.

> (==>)

MY GOD. Roxy is so fucking good at this holy shit

She KNOWS she’s making him squirm and she loves it

JOHN: so uh anyway. JOHN: what was this favor? ROXY: yo why dont u just come rest yr tush for a bit ROXY: take a lil relax next 2 me here JOHN: haha uh. JOHN: roxy i uh. JOHN: im flattered, but i don’t know if that’s really the right step right now. JOHN: don’t get me wrong, everything seems so fucked up right now that when i try to think about what might actually BE the right step, it feels like a huge cartoon question mark might physically manifest over my head. JOHN: but I’m not sure if um rekindling our physical relationship is really the best--

So is Roxy trolling him, about to reveal she wasn’t thinking of sex and was just making things seem sultry? Or just had “lol jk” as an option-select, maybe.

> (==>)

ROXY: r u kiddin me rn egbert JOHN: i’m not? unless you were, in which case yeah lets say i was also kidding. JOHN: oh my god, i’m sorry, i don’t know why this making me freak out.

OH NOOO NOT THE DISDAAAAIN - CRITICAL HIT D:

ROXY: i remember our past boot knockin with fondness but that is a situation im not interested in revisiting

boot knockin XD

ROXY: look john ROXY: i was trying to be polite about it ROXY: offering u sustenance n rest n all ROXY: but you look like shit ROXY: i just wanted to catch up on the whole heinous war situation were in and maybe check in on e/o before leaping strait to the real n actual nonsexual manual labor favor i have in mind for u JOHN: oh.

Hey, she can’t help looking sexy she’s too good at it.

Is the manual labor moving the crashed cars? Can’t Roxy pull that off on her own, or... banish the cars to the void or something? (Oh, but WOULD she want to do it on her own when she can rope in John and bring him down to earth by giving him a useful task? And admittedly his strength and wallet would make things easier.)

John feels his shoulders unbunch. Of course. Yeah. He’s almost embarrassed by how relieved he feels. So what if his ex wife wanted to hook up? Shouldn’t that be a situation he could navigate? Don’t people like to find solace in human physical connection during dire times? Why did the idea of it make his mind white out in panic more than, say, any number of the traumas he just experienced?

Probably some gender stuff mixed up in there too, June.

He doesn’t know, but he believes Roxy that he must look pretty haggard. He probably feels haggard? Maybe sitting down will feel better.

Just put your feet up yeah

> (==>)

WHAT A CUTE IMAGE

JOHN: sorry. like i said, my "how to react to stuff" meter is completely fucked right now. ROXY: thats fair bud

she’s used to being patient with you don’t worry otherwise you never would’ve gotten this far

ROXY: real fast i do need to do a quick takeback of all that shit i said last time we talked about janey not being literally the most evil person we knew or whatever ROXY: i guess i was hopped up on arguin or somethin since that was before we hit our conversational vibe bc of course u were right and i shoulda listened

Ouch. Yeah, we saw just lately just how far off the deep end she was. (Where was that funny upd8 reaction art summarizing the bit where Kanaya was holding Tavros hostage and Jane was transparently debating “hmm do I let my son die?” and Kanaya and Tavros were just looking at each-other flat-mouthed nervous? I REALLY wanted to share that but I don’t usually want to reblog or put most stuff HS^2 not under a read-more, for spoiler purposes, usually.)

ROXY: im just glad ur ok ROXY: or like alive JOHN: yeah, jury's still out on "ok" but, you know. ROXY: ya ROXY: u said ur house is gone?? JOHN: yep. JOHN: completely. ROXY: jeez ROXY: i would ask how ur feelin but like the answer 2 that has got 2b "prtty bad"

Talk it ouuuut~~ get those feels out there and articulated john

JOHN: yeah. JOHN: i mean. JOHN: no? JOHN: it’s weird. JOHN: it feels like it should be a bigger deal, I guess? JOHN: like it’s my HOUSE. JOHN: but mostly it always felt like my dad’s house? JOHN: and when i started living there after i moved out of here, it was like i crammed myself back into whatever was left of my kid self? JOHN: and it didn’t feel good, but it at least was familiar, you know? JOHN: like living there let me feel closer to my dad, trying to be like the way i remember him, or like how i remember him wanting me to be, or something? JOHN: and i didn’t realize how much i hated doing that until i saw it all go up in flames. JOHN: so i guess i could have used my powers to stop the fire and save whatever was left of the place, but i couldn’t bring myself to do it. JOHN: like some fucked up part of me was glad i got there too late? JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison. JOHN: and even now i keep trying to explain it away, as though it’s because of how fucked up everything else is that it made me feel good. JOHN: but that’s just bullshit. JOHN: it DID feel good. JOHN: i DO feel free. JOHN: sorry.

I was kind of saying some Breath/Blood stuff at the time of him losing his last tie to his stubborn sticking-to-his-kid-self bit? Except now we’re mixing it in with June Egbert and his gender-identity questions too.

ROXY: no need 2 apologize ROXY: we just delved in2 my whole gender thing last time so it seems fine for u to have a turn JOHN: i didn’t say it was a gender thing.

Oh shit

ROXY: well no i just meant like i did some sharing ROXY: like referrin 2 the topic i brought up when we chatted last ROXY: but like now that u mention it ROXY: *meaningful pause* JOHN: … JOHN: i JOHN: ROXY: lol well we can move on 2 the favor part if youd rather ROXY: stick a lil pin in that topic n come back 2 it when u have had sleep

Are you just INCREDIBLY incisive Roxy or have you and John talked about this before?

ROXY: like i said the other day its not like this shits figureoutable in 1 sitting anyways JOHN: yeah... ROXY: sooooooo ROXY: movin on

It’s just fine for Roxy to slow-roll this yeah, if she’s going to pry open that door a little

ROXY: dont be mad but theres a part of the house u didnt know abt the whole time u lived here JOHN: what? ROXY: yea ROXY: i got a secret lair ROXY: for my sciences

OH FUCK YES SCIENCE LAB, of COURSE Roxy would want a cool science lab basement because she always wants a cool science lab basement

ROXY: and i get to it via a transportalizer underneath our bed ROXY: which is 2 heavy 2 move by my lonesome so i just needed to borrow some o your aforementioned powers of wind

Okay no. Wait. What the fuck?

First of all, as funny and MSPaintAdventures-y as furniture being in the way of things is, why would you block it with a bed too heavy to move, but,

Second of all, more importantly, how is a GOD-TIER ROXY not strong enough to lift a heavy bed?!?!?!? Either she’s lying to get John involved in things or this is a gendered cop-out because these characters are superheroes at the TOP of their echeladders, given obnoxiously powerful video-game strength and athletics only to then have ascended into DEITIES. God-Tier Roxy could probably have lifted a bed like that when she was SEVENTEEN! And now she’s an ADULT, out-of-shape or otherwise! If this were a whole CAR I might be willing to handwave it, but just a heavy BED?!? And none of the GUYS are going to have this much trouble lifting a bed like this, are they?? This just feels like following classic cartoony gender tropes in the complete absence of these characters’ super powers, what the fuck, and also Roxy if you didn’t make it Transportalizer-only access you could have given it an entrance you could phase through with your fancy powers to get to. FUCK.

This feels stupid.

ROXY: so if u dont mind woosh away JOHN: uh ok, well... JOHN: a secret science lair, sure, i can deal with that. JOHN: why not! JOHN: it doesn’t work out great when i do the windy thing indoors, though. ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit

Roxy flexes, the corner of her mouth pulled up into a familiar grin. John feels his guts, so recently calmed, twist up into knots again. Her eyebrows shoot up and the smile loosens. He must have shown something on his face.

You’re already THIS sensitive about gendertalk?

ROXY: ok or just like push when i push ROXY: we both got sick muscles ROXY: no other adjectives necessary JOHN: yeah ok. ROXY: on 3?

Please, please reinforce the idea that they both have sick strength, because they fucking do and the idea that Roxy actually a hundred percent NEEDED John to do this is BS.

> (==>)

JOHN: holy shit? ROXY: sorry to lop yet another huge scoop onto ur lil brains ice cream revelation sundae JOHN: so wait, if this thing's always been under the bed, how’d you get down here before without me? ROXY: well thats neither here nor there john JOHN: i mean it is kinda. Here. ROXY: fine ok checkmate ROXY: i dont ACTUALLY need ur nerdgrit for this escapade ROXY: like im sorry but i said it ROXY: i mostly just wanted to see you and show u wats down here

THANK FUCKING CHRIST.

If that wasn’t actually just a lie to get him involved I was going to stay SO mad. Of COURSE Roxy can move a fucking BED no matter how heavy it is. OF COURSE.

ROXY: and also uve been ~sent for~ JOHN: ok but like ROXY: john i am inviting u 2 my inner sanctum ROXY: i am literally bringing out the word "sanctum" in case u werent already clued in 2 how cool this is ROXY: so do u wanna go into my secret lair or wat JOHN: yeah!? JOHN: yes? i guess? ROXY: aight good

Yes John of course you want to stop fighting it

ROXY: then as they told me in the hospital before lil h a was born ROXY: just push

eyeroll, but yeah, of course

> (==>)

Oh cool, sprite form version of her loungewear.

> (==>)

Sorry for my compulsion to post every full-frame image of Roxy in this awesome outfi-WERE YOU KEEPING CALLIOPE UNDER YOUR BED THIS WHOLE TIME?!?????

That’s like... almost a fucking metaphor isn’t it???? For the relationship you preferred in the other timeline and possibly THIS one TOO or

ROXY: hey callieee i got him ROXY: o damn john sorry i shoulda also told u callies here weve been hangin out again ROXY: 1 more freak for ur bean

Oh huh, so this isn’t an always thing. And these two can get close in more than one timeline where it would’ve worked out nicely. :)

JOHN: oh it's ok, my bean feels pretty well adjusted to freakage at this point so keep them coming if you like! ROXY: k cool i will JOHN: do i get to know what that big thing under the sheet is? ROXY: hmmmmmm no JOHN: oh ok. JOHN: are you sure? i mean, it seems like a pretty prominent feature of the room. JOHN: space. JOHN: wherever we are. ROXY: and a totally mysterious n COMPLETELY inconspicuous feature it will have to remain for now ROXY: we r kinda in a hurry here fyi ROXY: and by that i mean ROXY: we are in precisely the amount of hurry that means im excused from having to a that specific q rn JOHN: right, sorry. JOHN: i will pay no attention to the object behind the curtain. ROXY: u catch on fast egbert ROXY: anyway theres more cool info coming so just follow me

I don’t have any big theories. Is it just the Hiveswap device or something? If Calliope helped with it it’d help explain the Cherubic theme.

> (==>)

JOHN: so... this is all downstairs? JOHN: it seems like you had a lot of work done. ROXY: well no not x actly ROXY: were in the old meteor JOHN: under the house??? ROXY: ok so ROXY: in hindsight it may have been a bit misleading 2 say like ROXY: "downstairs" ROXY: in reference to a place which is hells of buried underground and may not actually be literally under the house ROXY: but there is no time to explain all that rn john so instead im going to refer u to my adorable little green friend here CALLIOPE: #U_U# ROXY: (hehe) CALLIOPE: *AHEM* CALLIOPE: hi john! CALLIOPE: long time no see. ^u^

Cherubs just really like dark cavelike places full of weird tech don’t they.

> (==>)

THEY’RE SO CUTE

JOHN: oh, uh. hey callie! JOHN: it sure has been a while huh. JOHN: now that i think about it, the last time the three of us hung out like this... CALLIOPE: was when i was aggressively third wheeling yoUr prenUptial coUrtship? CALLIOPE: if yoU dont mind, john, i'd rather not rehash that period of oUr lives. CALLIOPE: it was more than a little painfUl for me. JOHN: oh. JOHN: god, jeez, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to-- CALLIOPE: hee hee john i am only pUlling yoUr leg, don't worry. CALLIOPE: if anything i was personally a little thrilled with how things shook oUt in that respect. CALLIOPE: imagine, if yoU will, a yoUng cherUb raised in solitUde, whose only solace was the convolUted and tUmUltUoUs romantic schemata she projected onto her only friends from another Universe. CALLIOPE: and then fUrther imagine that this yoUng cherUb, throUgh varioUs even *more* convolUted contrivances, ended Up in the company of those selfsafe friends as an eqUal participant in their sphere of social discoUrse! CALLIOPE: it is a joy the like of which yoU possibly cannot fathom. u_u

Reinforcing that things turning out this way was in fact the FANTASY that Calliope was writing over in the Canon timeline. Just, heavily, HEAVILY implied that the Candy timeline is -- or at least originated as -- Calliope’s fanfiction as a Muse of Space, and its competition for audience interest with canon is the essential conflict between alt!Calliope and Dirk (or Dirk and Andrew Hussie).

CALLIOPE: so to pUt it simply, getting to experience sUch emotional drama myself was an impossibly enriching experience. CALLIOPE: possibly a first for my species! CALLIOPE: it's actUally qUite interesting, if yoU ROXY: *nudge* CALLIOPE: oh, right. yes. i'm getting a little carried away, haha. CALLIOPE: argh, i'm sorry, this is not how i planned to begin this vital conversation.

Vital conversation? What sorta truth-bombs are coming?

CALLIOPE: but to sUmmarise, what i was trying to say is: CALLIOPE: don't beat yourself Up aboUt it john. CALLIOPE: besides, hUman divorces are even more fascinating than i had ever imagined, and being able to witness yoUrs in motion was an honoUr. CALLIOPE: so i consider Us aboUt even at this point. JOHN: hahaha!!! JOHN: okay, well that's good to know! CALLIOPE: ^u^

Holy SHIT that was savage! And we’ll NEVER know whether or not she really intended it so savagely, either.~

JOHN: so um... JOHN: i hear that there's this big secret thing you wanna tell me about? CALLIOPE: oh right, yes of course! CALLIOPE: let me jUst say first of all how thrilled i am that yoU're on board. CALLIOPE: i wasn't sUre if yoUr natUral inclinations woUld have preclUded yoUr coming to such a place as this, and yet here yoU are. CALLIOPE: this whole endeavoUr will be *so* mUch easier with yoUr help.

Uh oh.

Hopefully babies aren’t involved.

JOHN: oh! well, shucks. JOHN: not really sure what that means but i'm just glad to be of use somewhere, haha. JOHN: which, speaking of somewhere, CALLIOPE: ah right, right. yoU're probably a little cUrioUs as to where the dickens we are. CALLIOPE: how much do yoU know aboUt black holes? JOHN: um... like, the big space things? CALLIOPE: they aren't always big actUally, and in fact their relative smallness is practically their defining qUality. JOHN: oh. CALLIOPE: bUt okay i think we are on the same page. CALLIOPE: so, what if i told yoU that we are inside of a black hole right now.

Oh dear, we’re getting into the canon/noncanon divide?

JOHN: um... JOHN: like, HERE? JOHN: we just transportalized into a black hole? CALLIOPE: no, i mean, what if oUr whole WORLD was inside a black hole. JOHN: ok.

Yeah, that’s gonna be John’s reaction. “ok.” Pretty much inevitable.

CALLIOPE: earth c, or at least oUr version of it, has, from the moment we crossed the victory threshold, been inside a black hole. JOHN: ok. CALLIOPE: and not just any black hole, bUt the very black hole in which the green sUn Ultimately met its demise, allowing oUr victory in the first instance! JOHN: huh! ROXY: ("huh!") ROXY: (rofl my fucking ao egbert) JOHN: (shhhh!)

And Roxy enjoys his non-reaction reactions as much as we do, hehe.

CALLIOPE: bUt, paradoxically, the critical moment which determined its capture within the black hole happened *after* that point. CALLIOPE: i refer of coUrse to yoUr decision not to retUrn to the mediUm and fight my brother. JOHN: wait, wait. JOHN: you mean, the meat and candy thing? JOHN: oh my god. JOHN: you mean i actually DID make a mistake that day. CALLIOPE: well, that's not exactly what that-- JOHN: ugh, i fucking KNEW it! JOHN: i'm so sorry. JOHN: i'm so sorry that i put the earth inside a black hole everyone. ): ROXY: john ROXY: listen ROXY: u have got to get out of this mindset i am begging you JOHN: ):

Yeah shake him out of this shit.

ROXY: your choice literally didnt matter ROXY: the whole thing was symbolic in the first place ROXY: literally symbolic in the case of the picnic i mean come on ROXY: it was just some steak and a plate of candy suckers JOHN: oh. CALLIOPE: i mean, i wouldn't go so far as to say that the meal we shared was unimportant, given the sacred significance of the two options i presented. CALLIOPE: but yes, yoUr choice of snack was infinitely less important than the choice which it presaged. CALLIOPE: and even then, calling it a choice woUld be sorely misleading. CALLIOPE: think of it like a coin flip. CALLIOPE: the series of events that led to Us being trapped beyond the event horizon of an Ubermassive black hole could be considered "tails", while the events which would have occUrred otherwise could be considered "heads". CALLIOPE: since both were possible, and paradox space is the way it is, they actUally both happened. and we jUst "happened" (hee hee) to get tails instead of heads. JOHN: you mean we ended up with the bad possibility. CALLIOPE: not at all! since both possibilities depend on one another's existence, it really doesn't make sense to call them "right" or "wrong". they both just "are". JOHN: o...kay... CALLIOPE: u_u

Yeah, it’s going to take a bit more than that to convince him he didn’t make the “wrong decision”.

CALLIOPE: i realise that this may be a lot to process. CALLIOPE: it's easy to forget that this wasn't obvioUs to everyone from the beginning. CALLIOPE: anyway, the reason i went on this tangent in the first place was to explain that the space we are standing in right now has a special significance, in that it is the location which corresponds to the black hole's singUlarity. JOHN: oh, wow. JOHN: um. JOHN: ok so, sorry if this is a dumb question to ask suddenly, but what does being inside of a black hole actually... mean for us? JOHN: is that bad? JOHN: is it like in movie, um, JOHN: shoot. JOHN: roxy what was that matthew mcconaughey movie from your earth that we watched? ROXY: u mean interstellar JOHN: RIGHT. JOHN: the one with the organ. JOHN: man. i cried at that movie so much. ROXY: lol u can say that again ROXY: iirc at least part of y u got so weepy was the fact that u couldnt believe a version of earth existed where ppl got 2 watch more mcconaughey films than you JOHN: listen. JOHN: i simply don't think you all appreciated the gift you were given. CALLIOPE: i don't believe i'm familiar with this particular film ^u^;; ROXY: oh dont worry cal you didnt miss much JOHN: (gasp)

This is all gold

ROXY: but the important point is that no its not really an interstellar type situation here egbert ROXY: ur not gonna enter a weird time vortex and change the trajectory of a little girls life with the power of love JOHN: aw.

Dammit, now we have to be on the lookout for that possibility. Or it did sort of already happen more than once to John. ...Whatever.

CALLIOPE: to go back to your original question, john. CALLIOPE: it's not strictly speaking "bad" for Us to be inside of a black hole, mUch thoUgh that contradicts most of what anyone knows about them. CALLIOPE: of coUrse, if we had fallen into it, that woUld be a whole other kettle of fish. CALLIOPE: the tidal forces woUld have stretched Us all into spaghetti and then ripped us apart! CALLIOPE: bUt the natUre of oUr arrival was more akin to simply "being" here, sUddenly. one moment we were not, and the next moment we were, and somehow always had been. CALLIOPE: in everyday, practical terms, being inside of a black hole has very little bearing on Us. CALLIOPE: i mean, the natUre of space and time is a little finicky in here, bUt for the most part it doesn't seem to be anything too oUt of the ordinary. CALLIOPE: bUt beyond that, it means that we are sealed away from the rest of existence. CALLIOPE: oUr sphere of inflUence is limited to the sphere of the black hole's bounding horizon. CALLIOPE: as far as everyone else is concerned, we might as well not even exist! JOHN: is there no way we could let anyone know that we're in here...? CALLIOPE: almost certainly not!

No? So this doesn’t have to do with the divide?

CALLIOPE: there are very few ways for anything to escape the kind of predicament that we are in right now. one of them is to be an all-powerfUl being with control over the very fabric of space, with the energy of two Universes at yoUr disposal. CALLIOPE: in which case, escape woUld become rather trivial, if a little Unscientific. JOHN: ok. i am going to assume that we can't just do that. CALLIOPE: yoU've hit the nail on the head, UnfortUnately. U_U CALLIOPE: the method i described was the one employed by my alternate self, who yoU may recall crashed through the event horizon in the body that once belonged to jade harley. CALLIOPE: she departed through a pUnctUre she created in the black hole's surface shortly after consUming my brother, a deed which provided her with the necessary "oomph", and which was frankly rather breathtaking to watch. =u= CALLIOPE: bUt Upon her departUre, the rift closed for good. as far as i can see, there's simply no way for Us to commUnicate with the world oUtside the black hole.

What the heck? Calliope SAW all this? Is this her Muse powers at work, letting her observe these things, or was she there? And John certainly did NOT see ANY of what Calliope just said happen.

CALLIOPE: i woUld certainly be very sUrprised to find oUt that anyone had managed sUch a thing!

So we’re going to find that out if we haven’t already. Maybe something to do with the way Vrissy just conks out narcoleptically?

JOHN: ...right. JOHN: so... let me just get this straight. JOHN: knowing that we're inside of a black hole... does that actually change anything? JOHN: like, can't we just go on living like normal? CALLIOPE: oh absolUtely not. CALLIOPE: i don't know if yoU've noticed john bUt this world is on the brink of a total cataclysm. JOHN: oh.

Um, what?

CALLIOPE: oUr exclUsion from the overarching coUrse of events which governs all reality means that oUr existence here is liable to dramatic and violent Upheaval. CALLIOPE: to pUt it another way, becaUse nothing in here "matters", we are likely to be sUbjected to things which are a bit bats in the belfry, for no reason other than it's totally insignificant to the wider canon of reality. CALLIOPE: and mUch thoUgh i am personally titillated by some of the conseqUences of this predicament, it is a degrading way for Us to live. u_u JOHN: that's... certainly one way to put it, yeah...

No plot-armor for your entire timeline, I guess, yep. Outside of canon, we can imagine and write about ANYTHING happening to the characters, or just drop their existence entirely, much like a doomed offshoot timeline. It’s a plot stability that depended heavily on the threat of Lord English and being trapped in a story, and without it things are bound to see a BIT chaotic (or “degrading” if you view it as subjected to the whims of fanfic writers, certainly).

CALLIOPE: at first, i believed that this was simply necessary. Us playing tails to oUr coUnterparts' heads, the black to their white, and so forth. CALLIOPE: bUt over the years i have come to the conclUsion that this is simply not kosher. ROXY: its total bs is what it is CALLIOPE: right, yes. CALLIOPE: a steaming pile of bUllshite. CALLIOPE: and so we have decided that something needs to be done aboUt it.

Ah fuck. You’re going to regulate non-canon? “Canonize” it? Is the fact that you eventually succeed at whatever it is you’re trying to do part of why we have the story presented to us in this bifurcated structure?

ROXY: this is finally where u come in jegbert ROXY: we gots quests for yous CALLIOPE: hee hee, yes. CALLIOPE: or *a* quest, to be specific. JOHN: oh boy! ROXY: (this fkin nerd i s2g)

Roxy and Calliope setting him on this quest as a Rogue of Void and a Muse of Space feels fitting.

JOHN: i'm not sure how i can go about freeing us from a hellish space prison, but i'm up for giving it a try i guess? JOHN: i have... literally nothing better to be doing at this point. except for maybe hanging out with harry anderson. ROXY: nice save lol

YEAH WE’RE STILL GLOSSING OVER HOW YOU LEFT HIM UNPROTECTED, JERK

ROXY: but u dont need to worry abt busting us outta space jail tbh ROXY: thats not ur problem to fix JOHN: oh. JOHN: i'm... not sure i follow, then. ROXY: i mean yeah ur gonna obvs facilitate it in a sense ROXY: but only by going and busting the person who can actually help us outta normal earth jail CALLIOPE: we need yoU to free vriska from the clUtches of oUr misgUided friend jane, and bring her here, to the singUlarity. ROXY: weve been calling it the plot point CALLIOPE: yes, the plot point is a key part of oUr plan. CALLIOPE: as far as we have been able to sUrmise, the only remaining method for escaping oUr grim confinement depends on leveraging the UniqUe properties of this location to create an event of sUch catalcysmic proportions that it simply cannot be contained within the black hole any more. CALLIOPE: something SO dramatic, so hyper-relevant, that it becomes ontologically impossible for anyone to ignore it. CALLIOPE: for that, we need an individUal of sUfficient narrative cloUt, so to speak. CALLIOPE: and to liberate her, who better than the embodiment of the aspect of freedom itself? CALLIOPE: ... CALLIOPE: phew. okay, i'm finished. CALLIOPE: CALLIOPE: sorry, that took longer than i expected to go throUgh.

..............................

OOooooh, kay.

Whatever this is, it’s going to be really weird and PROBABLY infuriating and/or shippy, and I’m probably not going to like it. Plus it seems like it’s some sort of inverse belated canonization of some other black-hole-rescue theories I went on about at some point. Although, related to that link, “aspect of freedom” if anyone wasn’t paying attention! That’s a (sorta-)canon mention of the purpose of it!

They’re going to attention-wh-- attention-hog themselves out of the black hole so that they’re “considered canon” too, or close enough. Huh.

ROXY: what r u talking about cals that was great ROXY: i could listen 2 u plotsplain for years CALLIOPE: oh you >u< ROXY: fyi this was why i wanted u to get a move on eggbread ROXY: so callie could have more time 2 infodump ROXY: thats love bitchhhhhh JOHN: hahaha. JOHN: ok, well, i think i understood all that?

Love with who? Callie, John, both?

In reality, John isn’t sure what most of this means. But on balance, it feels okay? He’s gone back and forth about a hundred times in the last week about where his place in everything is, so he might as well ride this out. Plus, the last time a Lalonde kind of told him to do something, he thinks that he chose not to, and look where that got him. And it’s not like he has other plans. He may as well do this! It’s at least going to get him involved in things again, if nothing else. He turns to go, and then hears a sound. It’s the sound of feet and knocking on doors, echoed through stone and digital static.

Oh shit. Is Andrew trapped behind some fourth walls behind the curtains.

> (==>)

Oh RIGHT also that DEVICE is where they want to bring Vriska. Are they going to overturn part of canon itself with a super-retcon thus making this timeline unbelievably relevant or--? Maybe make all the PESTERQUESTS canon or something?! I don’t know. Maybe they’re INTENTIONALLY starting the game like Vriska wanted to??????

Guh, this is something so big that I don’t WANT to theorize about it, do I.

JOHN: did you hear that? ROXY: wha ROXY: oh yeah uh ROXY: i may have messaged rose and kan and jade to check on them too ROXY: so its prob onea them showin up ROXY: they don’t need to know bout all this tho ROXY: we got time to chat with them b4 u go get vriska

No, even if it’s a knock at the somehow-top-level-house-even-under-buried-- oh, right, maybe it’s covering in part a monitoring system that looks up there. But still, part of that sound was DOUBTLESS these two hiding something, all standing in front of the curtain like that.

JOHN: i’ll go stall em. ROXY: thx babe ROXY: oh is it 2 soon for that joke or JOHN: no, weirdly enough, that one’s fine. ROXY: oh good ok see u up there soon!

How is calling your significant other “babe” not cool REGARDLESS of gender?! Like wasn’t that always cool? --Oh wait is it because they’re not together or... but... guh, I don’t know.

Anyway, see y’all after the holidays at least.

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