#my bad lollllll;;;;; life got in the way

[sillaysockz]

Ok so.....

I have another stupid request similar to the baby Simba one

But it's gonna be Tord in a Mario costume with Edd in a Peach costume with Tord carrying his ass and struggling

yahoo!!

[magicalrocketships]

Tagged by @boxboxlewis!

Musical tag game. Rules: shuffle your ‘on repeat’ playlist and list the first ten songs, then tag some people.

Full disclosure, these are all from my You Are The One Thing In My Way playlist, which has a 100 songs only limit (one in, one out) and I listened to so much when I was working that we are currently On A Break because my Spotify Unwrapped for 2+ years was just this playlist in a different order, and because I couldn't pick a song I was tired of to keep it at 100. So, we're a little old, don't think there's anything newly added on it from the last year, lollllll. They've all got a 'sing along while remote working' vibe. I'll link them at the end.

Nice To Meet You - Niall Horan - not my favourite Niall song but a singalong banger on this particular playlist, good opener for this list

Marchin' On - OneRepublic - this was the soundtrack to a fanvid a million years ago, and as such, imprinted upon my soul attached to very specific fandom clips. Absolutely not the only fanvid soundtrack on this playlist.

Night Changes - One Direction - like, this is a VERY SPECIFIC kind of One Direction singalong song. I'd say you have to be in a particular mood but I listened to bits of this playlist nearly every day for years so that particular mood was very much my life, WHAT DOES THAT SAY, let's not think about it too hard

Vossi Bop - Stormzy - Fuck the government and fuck Boris (YEAH).

Dynamite - Taio Cruz - I DARE you not to sing along, imagine managing a database with this on the go (I can't not imagine it, it's indelibly linked in my brain, this is why me and this playlist are On A Break)

Take Me To Church - Hozier - are you having a bad day? Are you having a GOOD DAY? (I am the first one today) Anyway it DOES NOT MATTER, belt out this chorus, things will be IMMEDIATELY BETTER (i'll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife)

Wake Me Up - Avicii - look, I keep a work notebook and every day I write the song I'm listening to as I'm building my work to-do list, and this has been on that list so many times, it's seen me through more than I care to mention

Girl From Mars - Ash - this was my favourite song aged 14, and I kind of think that any song that is your favourite song aged 14 is part of the foundational building blocks of your life and that's how these things go. I still have a friend who texts me every time she hears it because it reminds her of me.

Nobody To Love - Sigma - this reminds me of Nick Grimshaw and the Breakfast Show. It's also on my I Had Rather Hear My Dog Bark At A Crow writing playlist so quite frankly I've listened to it a MILLION times. Also, I had a total mental block on the end of the quote (love you, brain fog, bestest pal) so I just googled it, and it's fucking SHAKESPEARE, and on the front page of google next to this Shakespeare quote is the fanlore page for MY FIC. It used to be the actual fic so this is better, but, like, soz students studying Much Ado About Nothing, here's a second foundational text, how do you feel about watersports as a topic

Closer - Tegan and Sara - SPEAKING OF FIC. Two things, this is the second fanvid soundtrack song on this list, this being a Nick/Harry fanvid from about... 2013 and it is FOUNDATIONAL to my being. Also this (and a line from it) is the title of the fic I'm currently writing so we're transcending fandoms with this one, baby. HERE COME THE DREAMS OF YOU AND ME.

BONUS TRACK: Parce Mihi Domine, which is a classical track I heard on the radio one night when I couldn't sleep and had SUCH a huge fucking visceral reaction to because I KNEW it accompanied a scene on TV that I'd seen once, but had absolutely ZERO idea what it was. I had to find the PLAYLIST for the radio station, and figure out what the song was by listening to everything from the time it went out to figure out what it was, and then I had to google the piece to find out what it was used as a soundtrack for, and it TURNS OUT it's the end of series one of Queer as Folk US, for that whole bit after Justin is hurt and Brian is in the hospital wearing that fucking blood-covered scarf and fucking CRYING so yes, let's close with THAT FUCKER.

All these 10 (11) songs are on this playlist btw. Oh good, now it's skipped to Fireproof, a song I love so much I have it tattooed, this is fine, let's move on

Tagging @junkshop-disco (because their playlists are always the best), @stolemyhheart, and @imaginarygiraffe

[borom1r]

hmmm 3, 5, 6, 11, 14, 20, 22, 26, 38, 40 for the fun questions meme <3

ooooooo ok these’ll b inchresting :3

3- 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

th lotr trilogy (duh), I Saw the TV Glow, The Last Unicorn :3

5- what made you start your blog?

THIS blog? suicide bait on my old blog :3

tumblr in general? a friend showed it to me in high school n i made one n my life was irreversibly changed lmfao

6- what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

ATTENTION. double edged sword. like ok i try not to let myself care abt attention and try to be rlly careful now abt who i interact with but at the same time it rlly is validating when things Get Attention. some of my favorite fics have little to no engagement :( n like yea its not healthy to create FOR engagement (fast track 2 burnout) but its also like very disheartening to put time n effort n passion into sth only for it to fizzle out in the void

but whatever. ill make weird art forever

11- what do you consider to be romance?

THIS IS SO FUNNY 2 GET bc soooo much recently has made me reevaluate like. how I perceive this lollllll

anyways short answer: idfk man!!!!!!! close friendships n romance r incredibly cloudy in my mind cuz ive got a bad case of dogbrain!!

long answer is i just don’t quantify that stuff the way neurotypical ppl do :3 ties into th autism + nonhumanity. i also think cis ppl being attracted to me is gross lol. ideal romance for me is bein held n tended to like a noble knight tends their sword. I feel love like a dog feels abt their human!!! dogbrained!!! romance is being a guard dog, being a Really Good Boy but just soooo disconnected from like. idk allosexual/neurotypical quantifiers of “romance” for me lol

+ i don’t use th label rlly but im def somewhere on th ace spectrum lol like physical intimacy is only rlly “safe” conceptually when its completely disconnected from th realm of possibility. like thirsting over celebrities or like th knight i have a crush on. + cis ppl desiring me is rlly like.. ew 😒 don’t look @ me anymore man

14- what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

UM. funnily enough im gonna do th Big Thing this summer :3 im going 2 th renaissance festival shirtless this year now tht im post op

s’gonna be scary showin off my scars but i rlly wanna go all out n celebrate finally havin top surgery. like im alive!! despite everything im alive n im happy ^_^ so cis people be damned, im gonna run around like a lil wolfguy for the first weekend!!!!!

20- favourite things about the night?

i love the moon :3

i also love how still n quiet things get

22- say 3 things about someone you love

ITS SO BRAVE!!!!!!!!! ITS LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST GUY I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO PROUD OF IT FOR HOW MUCH WORK IT DOES TO BETTER OUR COMMUNITY N PROUD OF IT FOR PURSUING TRANSITION + CANT WAIT TO SHARE MORE TRANS JOY W/ IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(hiiiiiii Ly hehe!!)

26- fave colour and why?

when i was a kid my favorite colors were neon yellow n neon pink :3 they still kinda are but now i usually stick to like lime green or bright red paired w black. forest green + dark blue r gr8 too

38- fave song at the moment?

DONT ASK ME TO PICK JUST ONE???????

here r some I’ve had on loop lately: Far Away (Roadside Ghost), Anthems for a Seventeen Year Old Girl (Broken Social Scene), I’m Already Gone (Baroness), Sex for Homework (MSI)

40- any bad habits?

oh yea i have dermatillomania lol

it doesn’t rlly bother me to talk abt bc i think “gross” stuff like that deserves to be less stigmatized— my shoulders n back are COVERRRRREED in little scars + scabs

[yuukei-yikes]

Tell us about Shinaya’s breakup :D

HEHDJEIDNEKFJEKDKEK ive had this ask since i posted i was thinking abt it MAN i cannot express to u i just. I WANNA WRITE A FIC SO BAD but AUGH im so bad at it it makes me cringe i cant do that but its basically like all my damn posts together u know. i keep thinking of shintaro's disastrous relationships post str going from ayano to kano to takane etcetc sorry im playing with him like a stress toy making him go thru hell but its so fun

srry i dont wanna have to rewrite a lot of stuff so erm im liking this answer 🫡🫡🫡 and i could link a bunch more just so u SEE MY VISION... but i think linking that is enough. ON AND OFF SHINAYA MY BELOVED

shintaro and ayano sort of having this ridiculous relationship because both are hurting and jumped in a relationship too quick but fighting/being sad about stupid shit is so much easier than dealing with their actual issues that they've got with themselves. like focusing on each other and what they don't like about each other and their relationship is so much easier than crying about how suicidal they are. lollllll SO LIKE this insanity sort of saves them at the same time??

i mean the most ideal would be that instead of getting together they got therapy and the normal kind not the relationship kind. you know. but also theyre traumatized and ugh. its so much easier to resent each other than themselves. its so much easier to be petty. its such a relief to cry over relationship problems than over timeline resets or dead parents and etc. YOU GET ME?????

they keep breaking up and getting back together ridiculously like it is 1000% so dramatic each and everytime. ayano crying her eyes out like its the end of the world and shintaro making 100 sad playlists. and it happens at least monthly. the first time everyone's like WHOA THEY BROKE UP!?!? SHIT!! the second time its like heyyy maybe they'll work it out like last time!! third time its like are you joking. fourth time they're already begging them to stop. by they i mean the dan but especially takane by the way. who do you think is picking up the pieces.

and by the way the one breaking up all the time and being dramatic as hell is shintaro. he gets angry and annoyed and weaponizes the LETS BREAK UP thing because he DOESNT MEAN IT. like he knows he and ayano will work it out later. he gets comfortable again. not to get on the ayano surviving thing, but i think ayano (and hiyori but especially ayano) making it out alive undoes a big part of the message abt moving on. like i love her so im not complaining thats i love having her alive :3 but i like to translate this into shintaro like. he's intensely trying to repress/process all the memories of the other timelines to cope and have a normal life and ends up being this way because he's sort of self sabotaging himself. like ayano's alive and she likes me??? lol. ok?? ill wake up any moment now!! and he feels guilty and undeserving and is sort of a dickhead to her in an unconscious attempt of keeping her away because that's what he deserves according to him. also why he's accepting of takane's intense obsession with him lol bc she's familiar and she is comfortable, unlike ayano who is so rare and one in its kind in all the timelines. he is sort of terrified of her in a way.

the lets break up isnt rly a breakup. its just a leave me alone see u later. LOL i think we talk too much abt kanoshin bringing the worst in each other but what about shinaya. they do that too. yeah we CAN have fluffy shinaya. but like i said it is so easy to focus all this bitterness and sadness into each other and it's so relieving to be sad and angry about this rather than everything else. because this is sort of in their control while everything else isn't, wasn't. and its so unfair. of course its unfair!! but they cant do anything abt it. so they just go crazy on each other. ayano is DESPERATE to be needed. i could link more replies but i will hold myself back. basically her siblings are used to being alone/know she has her own problems and ayano is dealing with this emptiness and feeling of failure bc no one needs her, from her perspective her sacrifice still failed to save everyone, her parents are gone so she needs to step up. like she puts herself under all this pressure and feels Not Good Enough for ANYTHING. and she is dating shintaro.

it's EASY to bother him and try to get him to open up and etc so she ridiculously focuses on that. but it gets on shintaro's nerves to say the least LOL plus all his other issues i mentioned 🫡plus she keeps being like we have to be normal. lets kiss and hold hands and cuddle. but she's too embarrassed to say it/do it and shintaro is even more pathetic about it. so theyre both frustrated about everything and can barely even sit next to each other without acting insane.

AND SORRY BUT I WILL TALK ABT TAKANE🫡💞💗💖💝💕💘ofc. codependent shintaka. of course. it drives ayano CRAZY because on top of all their problems takane is able to talk sense into shintaro each and every single time. and she is soooo jealous like she knows its stupid but she cant help ittt i ALSO TALKED ABT THIS SORRY I KEEP REPEATING MYSELF IM JUST SO CRzy abt it. hehe......the whole mess bringing drama to harutaka too bc shintaro and ayano are so messy theyre contagious is so fun to me. when it comes to shintaro and takane's horrible relationship both their romantic relationships suffer for it but deal with it completely differently. while both haruka and ayano deal with jealousy somewhat, ayano is so hurt and already at the verge of a mental breakdown so she's focusing so many negative emotions on it and AGAIN it just serves as another point of argument between shintaro and ayano while haruka is like. his mental state isnt as convoluted as ayanos, he's rather freaking out and terrified of being left alone. THIS IS ABT SHINAYA so i wont get into harutaka side but lol. heh. Looks at it. zooms in it. like what i mean is that haruka and takane talk and work through it and are like sighs yeah...this is messed up while shintaro and ayano are using it against each other instead of working on it LMAO

ANYWAYS. ayano breaks up with shintaro. vine boom. total breakdown moment like everyone out of the room i wanna talk to you alone. and this time its for REAL. like ayano isnt confrontational at all, all their arguments are always her being pushy abt idk mental health and shintaro's like godddd STOPPPPP and ayano crying and shintaro being like I CANNOT DEAL WITH THAT. IM SORRY I GUESS. CAN U GET OUT OF THE ROOM. WE'LL TALK LATER. but he also sucks so bad at letting the other person know they can count on him so he kind of assumes ayano will do it when she's ready because he KNOWS she's in pain. like. ofc it could go well. ofc shintaro and ayano could work through everything with kindness and comprehension for each other but they're both so sad and suddenly find themselves annoyed at each other one time and it felt so freeing to do that that they just keep doing it. especially shintaro. having ayano be mad at him is sort of relieving because he feels undeserving of her and its like yeah. Yeah!! i know its ooc but shinaya screaming match.god. sorry but all their bottled up emotions abt everything and they take it out on each other for no reason other than theyre giving each other the space and it plays out that way. theyre acting crazy about something so stupid like shintaro not wanting ayano to wear his clothes or whatever. like they scream about that but its not about that. it just feels so good to scream. it feels so good to scream and let it out even if they haven't given themselves the time to process that theyre not... actually screaming abt that at all. theyre screaming about everything else. not even about each other. its about themselves. its always been.its never been about each other. when it is, its stupid. thats why they do it. its just easier. God. they were just not ready for a relationship, especially not one with each other out of all people.

ayano breaks first, therefore dumps shintaro lol. he goes thru his own fucked up arc afterwards while ayano gets help. my man spirals DOWN. whether they get back together or not depends on my mood 🤨 but if they do, its by the time theyre in their mid twenties or something so a few years later LOL i picture them dating like for over a year maybe?? when theyre 18/19. hehe.

like. do you get it.

[lululawrence]

How about 24, 14 and 30?

hiiii sorry i didn't answer earlier, i fell asleep before i got it haha but i can answer now before i finally make my fic list for the month... like three days late oops so ANYWAY thank you for sending these in!!

how was your day today?

i'm answering for today instead of yesterday hahaha today was pretty good! more chill than i originally expected because of a last minute change in plans, so it was nice. the toddler was his usual terror self and i didn't get my sunday afternoon nap that is basically a requirement, but that's alright cause overall it wasn't a bad day haha

any cleaning or organizing life hacks?

oof listen this one has had me thinking. all my cleaning and organizing life hacks are more like adhd and autism life hacks lmaoooo so i'm not so sure they would be helpful for like anyone other than ME. ummm i guess my big one is make your planner a happy place for you to be because you'll have more incentive to use it that way lol mine is covered in stickers that are mostly fan art or lyrics or things that make me happy like flowers or quotes that remind me i'm not a failure hahahahah and it's lots of bright colors so when i open it up to the upcoming week and see all five million appointments and things i have to do even though i'm on year four of total burnout at this point, i don't have a panic attack. the bright colors and flowers and our boys rewire my brain to focus on that instead so my emotions are kept a lot more even and i can then still be productive in looking at the schedule which is super helpful for me haha for cleaning, the two biggest things that have helped me is one: it doesn't have to be done perfectly every time, so just do the best you can and at least it's that much better than it was before. and two: break up the big bads in your life so you don't have to do it all at once. for example, i HATE the bathroom. not because i find it super disgusting or whatever, but because it usually takes more effort for me to scrub the tub or the sink and honestly when i was younger i didn't ever know if i was cleaning them correctly or not. i was essentially guessing and was always too embarrassed to ask for help because the few times i did try to do that, i didn't actually get answers that helped me at all. the answers were kind of lackadaisical and general and would probably make sense to a neurotypical, but to my undiagnosed AuDHD brain, i was LOST man. and like, i'm 38 now, i've finally figured that shit out at least for myself, but even though it's a lot easier now and i know what to do, it still has a lot of negative feelings associated so my executive dysfunction basically says, "yeah nope" when it's time to do it and fucks off hahaha SO what i do is i have different tasks in the bathroom on different days. for example, tuesday is toilet day. dunno why, it just works well having toilets on tuesdays. wednesday is sinks, thursday is mirrors, and friday is the tub. saturday is for if i missed any of those days, then i catch up. or it's april and i just don't clean the bathroom. months like that happen, and we still survive. lol which is actually tip three. you'll still survive even if your plans don't work, so pick yourself up and try again. maybe it'll stick this time!

how do you feel about this weekend?

as in the weekend we just had or the weekend coming up? lollllll the weekend we just had? overall it was an alright one. it was longer than i feel like they usually feel for a lot of reasons, and it was weird because there was a lot of stuff that just wasn't really quite at the usual for us, but yeah not bad! haha kinda glad it's over while also not all that excited about the upcoming week, if that makes sense haha but that's also kinda my life right now so oh well lol

that got long i'm so sorry hahaha hope you at least kind of enjoyed the answers? lol thank you for asking!!!

if you want the link to the post these came from, it's here!

[ssouledout]

well helllooooooooo, it’s been a MIN

it’s been a HOT min honestly. i haven’t been on here in years.. like actual years. i kinda skimmed through my old entries and i want to actually sit down and read each one. because what a time that was!!!! i realize that this blog represents pieces my faith journey 🤯 i don’t think i intended it to be that?? but i was so on fire for Jesus and it really showed. was just barely starting my faith journey and i knew i was in for a ride.. but girl lemme tell you. IT’S BEEN A RIDE LOL. and im just getting started. i want to catch up on what happened these past 2ish 3ish years. 

we’ll start with my love life lol. i’m still single 😇 halo emoji because i’m truly content here right now. and God gave me peace when I left Matt 2+ years ago. like immense peace. but as time went on I started entertaining thoughts that made me question everything that happened. as if I completely forgot what God brought me out of. i became way more social and active on ig and started getting attention from a hs crush.. ignored the holy spirit’s alarm bells and entertained that SMH (if all of my worldly friends told me to stay away, then you know it’s bad bad lol). but i lowkey wanted to check it off my bucket list. also.. with God anything is possible right? i proceeded with much caution and i made sure that didn’t get far. but my character was changing. not entirely because of this man, but just over all. literally saw myself sliding back into who i WAS.. idk where to begin. lemme just say that life away from God ain’t it. especially after he has delivered you from some things. remember that post when i said i gave up mary jane for good? God knew i wasn’t actually ready to give that up yet. after about 8 months of staying weed sober (that’s a long ass time, shows that God was really at work in my heart!!), i started smoking again and thought that if i did it with family members, it was “fine”. all this that i mention was the start of my spiritual and mental downfall. i pinpointed it when it was all happening but i continued living life this way (i dont even want to say it was the old me.. it was different. like I was more in tune with the holy spirit this time. and i was drinking often and partying, but living in my parents’ home. hardly drank ever in college. had wayyy more money than before. confidence was building from working out consistently) until i was unrecognizable to myself. girl i was so broken. but that’s what sin and disobedience does. i reconnected with a lot of people from my past and met new people along the way. reconnected with hs friends. my northridge friends. all the men from my past lollllll (didnt plan this, but it happened?) i even re-gained *feelings* for someone in my past past. but after hanging out with him, those feelings went away thank you Jesus. men make me CRINGE LOL. i see what the enemy was trying to do though. why did i reconnect with these people? idk. i was getting comfortable being more social and felt it was fine to reconnect? prob bc i was feeling more confident too. priorities were just out of line.. aka where was God in this?? far away 

speaking of confidence though.. my body composition is different. she got a booty now, a toned back, and thicker thighs. my weight fluctuates a lot but she’s been looking and ✨feeling✨ good. waist trainers WORK btw. but i stopped wearing them for a while now (not to sound annoying and cliche but diet and exercise is more effective). 

that job i was venting about in previous posts... i stayed for 2 years and some months. it was bad. broken, evil, money hungry company. picked up some bad drinking habits there. formed friendships around gossip and getting drunk 🤢 like who was i?! unrecognizable i tell ya. made me sad realizing that one of my best friends who was also my coworker played a huge role in this. had to distance myself from her all year and it’s been good for my well-being. and she respects the distance i think. things are just different now but im happy with it. after maxim, i got a different recruiting job. was feeling so happy and blessed about it untilllllll my manager... not getting into that rn. in short, he gave off entitled, predatory, bipolar, immature vibes. God used that tho to make me leave.. because ever since i left my job in aug, i’ve been ON FIRE for the Lord!!! taking me from faith to faith. i’m back n betta baby. God’s been trying to 👏  talk 👏  to 👏 me, and i can hear him better now that i’m putting distractions aside. i fasted for the first time in april. and God was quiet - he was like “😗 you already know what you need to work on”. it was sooooo hard for me to let go of my sinful lifestyle.. partying was fun and it was part of my identity. like fr. identity- that’s a whole topic for another time. anyway, i went back to partying after that fast 🙃 this was really recent btw. willingly doing drugs but feeling the conviction. like girl didn’t God bring you out of all of this? thank God for his faithfulness, i don’t deserve his grace!!! in this season God is basically showing WHO he created me to be and how those things i attached myself to don’t serve me, God, or anyone really. i had to lose myself completely to find it tho.. yet again. hurt more this time around. please God no more, i learned my lesson hahahah 😭 

i’m jobless rn. my full time job is spending time with Jesus and i love it here 😭 i ain’t no baby christian anymore. i can proudly say that i’m FINALLY not a lukewarm christian.. sheesh took long enough thank you GOD.

I bought a perfume to wear everyday in this season to remember it!!! valentino voce vita. Here’s a short summary of what God is doing:

- exposed the enemy’s tactics and patterns in my life

- establishing my identity in Him and solidifying it 

- teaching me how to use my authority in Him and how to fully rely/trust in Him

- confirmed that he will give me my man of God and a family (HE GAVE ME A VISION OF HIS FACE AHHHH. he’s got a pointy nose and straight teeth. nice smile)

- placed an urgency in my spirit that something big is happening. and it’s all pointing to Jesus’ return which is sooooooon EEEEEE!! LETS GOOOO

- revealed and confirmed my calling.............. scary fun times LOL. he’s going to USE MEEEEE, idk how that will look exactly. but i started a mukbang channel 3 weeks ago and its growing. (been having fun with my food ig page all year and growing there too! but pausing that for now.) i’m trusting and obeying and not looking back

- gave me an opportunity to be the community service leader for heavenly fire ministry!!! attended their retreat in the beginning of the year btw and met some amazing women who are HOT (humble, open, & transparent)

i know i’m on the right track with the Lord YAY <3 been having sooo many intimate moments with the Lord and i’m excited to keep on experiencing his goodness. spiritual attacks are on a new level - the enemy’s old patterns aren’t working and he’s sending his stronger minions. but i’m covered and i KNOW where i stand. i know where God stands. and i know where the enemy stands. the truth has been revealed and i’m unstoppable on God’s team 🤩 

reminder: Galatians 6:9 (NLT) ‘So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up.’

anywayyyyy i hope to keep posting updates on here. now that i figured out my login info. i really hope and pray for more christ-like friendships. audrey is literally God-sent i love her sooooo much ugh. nikka and i are still friends and we stay encouraging each other!! so something good came out of maxim lol. also grateful for keelee, i hope we can hang more! 

that was a lot. bye for nowwwww ✌️ 

[randombubblegum]

about the phem thing, i think its really a twitter problem. a majority of the people on the shows enjoyed their set and there's nothing but good comments about them on other social media like facebook for example. of course theres twitter people sulking on barricade and claiming phem attacked them by looking at them the wrong way or something but overall last tour seemed pretty ok even with twitter's campaign against them

honestly i thought phems set was rly cringe (when i saw them in nov) bc they were clearly lip syncing the whole time LMAO and honestly the way they got down from the stage to aggressively get in some kids face at barrier for not dancing was like. psychopath behavior lol. thats rly not something you do??? EVER but esp as an opener?????

the other stuff is def a twitter problem tho like them catching heat for calling their unwashed mats “dreads” (bad…) and that whole ugly tiktok about wearing “dyke” shorts captioned “dont tell my boyfriend!” were like, cringe, bad, but the VITRIOL from twitter was like insaneeeee lol….. and that was after the tour (in feb maybe) so its as of yet unclear how well theyll be received this time around lollllll

so like yes it is a twitter problem bc parxies over there love love love to find reasons to manufacture outrage and collect the clout. but also phem is not the first opener theyve done this to and they will not be the last. but also on a personal level i dont like them and think theyre cringey so im kinda like well whatever if twitter wants to end their life ill get the popcorn lol

[ilyalljasonsandnon-jasonsthesame]

Young Justice season 2

(The first ones won't be numbered either)

Ep 1

Damian?????

Forget it, it's Tim

Tim?????

So we're doing the skip Jason thing again, huh?

Or maybe he already died? But the math isn't right?????

What??? the??? fuck???? Care to explain???? Wtf is going on????

Oh, time skip. Ok.

Beast boy!!!!!! <33333

Eps idk

Ok???? Aqualad is bad????

WHERE TF ARE WALLY AND ARTEMIS ISTG IF THEY'RE DEAD

Connor and M'gan broke up oof

So we're once again ignoring Barbara's disability

Oof, Dick told Tim "don't die" three guesses why

Ohhhhh Aqualad's gf died :(((

Why is M'gan dating that guy?

Ep 3 i think (where the aliens explode)

Omg, Tim was involved in an explosion damnnn

Oof, Batman's coming

They don't look happy lol

Get reckt

Dick, you have no right looking at Tim like that

Lol, knew he couldn't be mad at him, like, that's literally what got you where you are my dude.

Lol, when you parallel this with that ep in s1 where every hero is checking on their sidekicks after the tornados thing and they had 1 sidekick each, you'll see things haven't changed much, they changed sidekicks and duos but they still have 1. And then there's Batman, who now has 3

Ep 6 (I don't remember if the roy thing goes in here but whatever)

Bart!!!!!! <333333

Trackers in the water? That's such a Batman thing to do

Roy :(

Omg Liannnnnn

Lol I love that baby

Ep 7

WALLY AND ARTEMIS!!!!! <33333 they're alive :)))))

Oh :(

OMG SHE (M'gan) DID WHAT????? OMFG

OH MY MOTHER FUCKING GOD HE KILLED HER AAAAHHHHHHHHH

Wally's not gonna be happy

Dick's boutta get reckt

Bitch

Bitches all of you

You do not get to play me like that

Ep 8 (first live-tweeted episode yay)

Oof, man, this show may not have Jason but this is exactly the father-son angst i signed up for

OMG THAT'S JASON

Ok, hold up, wait, I need a minute, wait, a moment pls, that's jason

:(((((((

Oof, I think the "people think I'm the same guy but with a different costume" may have hit close to home for tim

Oh God, Tim's looking up at Jason's memorial

Things boutta get angsty

LOL, batman has a lot of kids

I love you bart

Omg, Jade named Lian after her sister

AHHHGGGGGG I HATE SPORTSMASTER SO MF MUCH

Oof, I love the shade to his dad

Oof, get reckt

YOU GO ROY, KILL LUTHOR <33333

LOLLLL BLOW HIM UPPPP

Oh, I've got a feeling Kon and this girl may date in the near future

Icy bitch, you better not ruin the girls' party

LOLLLLLL I KNEW THE CAR WOULD EXPLODE. WAY TO GOOOOO!!!!!

Godddd what a bitch

Aaaaand he ruined the party

Get reckt lol

OHHHHH ARSENAL!!!!

STFU LUTHOR, you're embarrassing urself

OMG HE'S GONNA BLOW LUTHOR'S ARM OFF OH MY FUCKING GODDDDDD. GO AHEAD PLS

With his own merch 😭😭😭 Roy ur a genius mwah

BAHAHAHABAHAHAHA LEX "WHY THE VIOLENCE?" LUTHOR

Ahh shit

Revenge or satisfaction? Both. Both is good.

Ep 9

What is it with batkids and explosions?

Wallyyyyy, you're gonna create a misunderstanding

"StROng fAmILy TiEs" omg stfu Ra's

Ep 10

Ohhh shit

Ep 11

Ooooo she gon dump himmmm

Ep 12

Godddd they're grosss "sorry your daughter was killed, here's 20 bucks" 🤮🤮🤮

UGH slade

Idk which of them is worse

Batkids disappearing during conversations has got to be one of my favorite genders

Roy....

I'm in for making Luthor's life hell but not the right time

Ugh, idk why but I find black beetle soooo annoying like, joker kind of annoying. You're not funny, stop it.

THAT GUY HAS KIDS??????? IS THAT EVEN FUCKING LEGAL?????

Uh oh, he's gonna discover Aqualad's secret and then make him evil, isn't he? Shit

Friend or foe?

Friend :)

Ahhhh, he recognizes Kon as his grandson 🥰🥰🥰

Ep 13

YESSSSS GO ARTEMIS

UGHHHH really?

What a crappy comercial

Teach??? Teach what exactly???

Yeaahhh, hate to agree with slade but it is awkward

Mannnn the gatekeep part didn't work, huh dick?

Lol, I love Bart

Ep 14

Dude, I have a project that's worth my whole grade due in like 4 hours but I'm too hung up on this

YEAHHH YOU TELL HIM EDUARDO

Idk what she's saying but I like her energy

Yeaaaa, hate to agree but yeah. Guy's all red and firey, were you really trying to burn him?

Dude....

Hmmmmkayyy.... I think the scarab took control?????

OMFG AHHHHHHHGGGGGG FOR REALLL???????

Those kids aren't stupid, they would never go with luthor

Omg, seriously?

Ep 15

Bee and guardian are so cute <333

OMFG how the turntables

ROY YOU'RE GONNA DIE WTF

Ugh shit

Ep 16

UGH SHUT UP DIPSHIT

Ummm what if the camera had audio though?

Dude you broke him again 😭😭😭

But girlll what if there are cameras around?

I really don't know who I want to win here

PFAFAGAVABBABAHAHAHA HE'S BLESSED 😭😇🙏❤

Ooooooo Dick's mad

You're gonna get reckt pal

Ep 17

"THeiR oWn CrEAtioNs woRkIng AgAiNSt ThEm" projecting much, lex?

What's his plan? I'm kinda confused now

YOU KICK HIM??? LIKE THE FOOTBALL???

Tf???? I'm really lost here

Ohohohoooo yep, exactly. Luthor.

Poor kids tho

Ep 18

Pfffft those two still going

Weirdo...

She gon dump him now

I love jaime just mentally messing with them

SEE??? I TOLD Y'ALL KON WOULD END UP GOING OUT WITH THAT GIRL

Ok? So I think The Light is betraying The Reach

Ep 19

Shiiiittttt Ra's knowssss

Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit

AHHHHHHHH TRIPLE SHIT

It's over 😭😭😭

I really don't wanna see

This is bad

Fuck

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

OMG

YOU'RE FUCKING KIDDING

THAT BETTER BE ANOTHER ONE OF THEM IN DISGUISE OR I SWEAR

What??? Won what??? Wtf

Bahahahaha omg they've been fucking playeddddd

WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK????????

Ladies and gentlemen, I've been played twice

So the bump was on purpose?

Say what you want but i love witchboy

I'd be like "OMFG HE KILLED RA'S" but I know he'll survive

AWWWWW WALLY AND BART <3333333

Ep 20

Ahhhh shit

I hate not being right :/

I hate that he's smart

Shiiitttt

Someone's gonna die here

I can smell it

Shit

No

No

Wally's gonna die

Shit

I know it

Wally don't push yourself :(((

Fuck

Ugh ofc it had to be Luthor

:((((((

Ohhhh fuck

[moidse]

Yo sometimes i rly feel like screaming and like i have no one i can talk to about dis 😭😭😭

FuCK!!!!! I feel so damn like sexually repressed and like i get horny from THEE smallest things its STUPId and embarrassing.

Ive been soooOOoo sexually repressed this past year and its driving me up the wall. I should not be this horny by dykes giving me the smallest bit of attention--No, i shouldnt be getting this horny/turned on by these dykes, who like arent even insanely my type, like thats also the gag-- i feel like my body is soooooo desperate that im like 💦👅 at the slightest bit of attention a dyke gives me, even if its just friendly... like im so desperate i feel like im seeing what i want to see...

Im sooo horny to have sex with not my partner its fucked and sad and i need to end things but its hard because we live together and are lives are so intertwined at this point and also i do not have any support here outside of them. I truly didnt realize what i was getting into when i moved here. I thought i would be living with them for only a few months but i quickly realized i couldnt afford to move out and my mental health has been the worst this year because of it/this/feeling trapped and stuck in a situation i no longer want to be in... it quickly turned into, im in this relationship for survival purposes which is no good.

Like, i like them, they are a great person and i want to still be in their life, but i so badly want to be able to flirt and mingle with ppl here. I want to have sex with someone else, anyone else, SoOoOOo bad. Like rly rly bad. So bad that v*** just calling me babe gets me slightly turned on and has me fantasizing about them throwing me against a wall asdffkdklsksis fuuuuck i wanna be fucked bad :( lollllll.

Fuck, its hard out here... damn, what scares me is the unknown... i do not know how to nicely end things when are lives are so interwined and we live togrther and share a car and so much shit like how do i just leave this ??? I def need to make friends here which is what im doing... but it hurts my heart that i feel like i cant tell anyone how i feel... because i dont want judgement but also i need to talk to someone and figure out an exit strategy so i know its possible and i can see a path to leaving this situation... fuck... and i dont even wanna think about how hurt they will be :/ it sucks but im not doing them any favors by being with them and knowing in my heart i don't see a future and i so badly want to be with someone new.

I just feel trapped and like i dont know how to leave this in a good way or like trying to be considerate i guess... how van i break up and hurt them the least??? Which is stupid because they will be hurt no matter what... ugh

.. fuck me...

I feel bad that i dont find them attractive anymore.. i feel shallow... also tho i have always felt we didnt have a sexual spark and i just hate how i got to this place by continously not listening to my gut for years telling me this aint it... and they would try to convince me that things can get better and we can work on it but you cant work on just being incompatible...

It sucks but i do feel like i need to move out and not just down stairs and i know its gonna hurt them but i cant keep this up another year... im dying inside... my spirit is crushed and repressed... i hate it here!!! Lol... but fr i cant do another year of this situation...

Every once in a while i feel like i can do this but i deep down know im just like tolerating them... im not passionate about being with them, i dont feel a spark or butterflies, i dont rly like kissing them or them touching me... like its not hot... im just not into them like that and i feel like i have to perform and i cant 24/7 which is why my mental health has been the worst this year... i cant keep doing this to myself and them... i just... it just sucks and its scary but it will be okay eventually and having friends to rely on during this time will be critical i think...

I should talk to a therapist.. but maybe i could reach out to a few friends and say i need support right now and asking if they are open to texts, or phone calls because i just need someone to talk to soon...

[ellsey]

Agents of Shield Rewatch 7x05 A Trout in the Milk

This 70′s intro is hot ngl

Coulson is living for this

I want May’s dress and boots for real though

Ok also I want Daisy’s outfit

Daisy and Sousa clothes shopping in the 70s ugh I need to write that I guess

Sousa is slightly insulted by being called an unfashionable square hahaha

Also he’s trying to figure out time travel which honey, just no

Why have they never changed the password to this place I mean

“bump lemons” DEKE NO

This red track suit is fire though

Also, I adore the way Deke just casually says, “Bye Nana” because it’s so familial and I love that for him

The Lighthouse! Actually not my fave base but oh well we’re going to spend some quality time here

Awww Mackelena date night

But also Mack is right, Elena is selling herself short. She doesn’t need her powers to be amazing.

But *gasp* the Lighthouse is not abandoned!

Being drunk is an emotion? Random

What year is this? I forget

Little Ricky? HAHAHAHA

Freddie’s not dead?? Ugh. Wearing out your welcome must be a Malick family trait.

Poor Sousa and his old-timey speak hahaha

How is Sousa supposed to lay low though because like...he’s supposedly super famous?

Chastity McBride?? Omg May

“I’ve attended a number of seminars” Lollllll

3 years away so 1973 now

UGH NATHANIEL BOOOO

Daisy so wants to kill Gideon I can tell

Omg this show gave me a Dousy fake fiance scene all my dreams came true 

One day they’ll have a real fiance scene of my dreams but unfortunately I’m going to have to write it I guess

The was Sousa says “Whoa, high tech” seeeeeeeeends me

Daisy and Sousa do make a good team though romance aside

Patrick Kutick? PHILLIP J. COULSON NO

Oh yay Chronicoms

I’m crying at how Nathaniel is drinking a glass of milk like this show really fooled me with him

His daddy does love him though I guess

“So Shield takes hostages now?” SIR

I watched Agent Carter. I know what y’all did.

He’s surprisingly less shocked by Daisy quaking people

ENOCH!!!

“Come with me if you want to continue to exist” You are seriously the best Chronicom ever

The picture in my head of Enoch sitting and reading Consumer Reports before picking a getaway vehicle both delights and entertains me

Enoch you are a mess and I love you

I love that whatever has happened in this timeline, Sousa clearly still has a lot of love and respect for Peggy we stan

Aaand now we’re in 1976

Sousa really does follow Daisy around like a little puppy from the start

Uh oh something’s wrong with Jemma

Ok so here’s the thing...I don’t think Sousa was wrong to call out Jemma on this. I mean he’s known her for a hot second. They told him this story and tore him out of his life. And then they have the gall to tell him that no one knows how this works or what’s going on really. Sousa has no reason to trust them (other than he’s hot for Daisy). So I’m kind of on his side here.

But I do appreciate that Deke is willing to go to bat for Nana.

Whew y’all Henry Simmons is working those jeans and that mock turtle-neck ayayaya

Sousa offers to go with Daisy because he says he’s rather be out there working than in the Zephyr where he can disappear at any moment but let’s be real he just wanted to make sure he was wherever Daisy was

GIVE ME MY DREAMS OK

Sousa’s like I’ll protect you...but also I want to watch you work...decisions decisions

His “wows” at that picture of him I’m crying hahahaha

“You look ok for a guy who just aged 20 years” This is the beginning of Daisy’s compliments but not really to him.

But also the way that hits him. Realizing that everyone he knew has changed (if they are even alive) but he hasn’t. I can see why he might think he wants to stay in 76.

Although that will clearly change hahahaha thank goodness

And Daisy is so sweet and understanding I love her

Coulson and May look fab in these uniforms

Nathaniel you are legit the worst

Ugh Freddie Malick you’re boring now

Stoner is a trip hahaha

May’s powers come in handy though

Deke umm...made a choice...

I’m not really sure how to feel about this honestly

Uh oh...it’s Mommy and Daddy Mack!!

Leading to one of the most heartbreaking moments on this show THANKS

So I guess Sibyl didn’t anticipate May’s empath powers?? Or thought they were just...not important??

I don’t really get that

But Mack and Enoch got to pew pew so that’s fun

Omg the first of Nathaniel’s invading our tags 

Unfortunately

So he kidnapped them then just...stopped on the way to try and call Whitehall??

This was a poopy plan from a poopy man

Ok straight up this gets a 100000/10 on the Dousy scale because FAKE FIANCE. Also she said he looks pretty ok which we know translates to super fine. Nathaniel Malick gets a -10/10 on the Bad Guy scale because he suuuuuucks. But this episode also gets a 50/10 on the Realistic Workplace Seminars scale because Stoner has clearly had to watch the predecessors to what my husband has to watch for work (boy do I have some stories about those).

Song for this episode comes from 1973: “Superstition” by Stevie Wonder.

[spnfanficpond]

June 2020 Angel Fish Awards

(New Angel Fish design by @slytherkins!!)

Every month all of you fantastic writers work your asses off to post some truly incredible stories. Our Angel Fish Awards are the way for all of us, as a community of writers and readers, to lift each other up and give praise to those who have captured our attention and deserve a few kind words.

The monthly Angel Fish Awards are peer-nominated, meaning ANYONE IN THE POND CAN NOMINATE ANY POND MEMBER’S FIC. While the Pond was founded to support the Guppies, everyone in this community deserves to be showered with love and feedback, and we hope that by opening this up as a Pond wide system, we’ll be able to share the love as far as it can go.

NOTE: WE’VE BEEN HAVING OCCASIONAL PROBLEMS WITH ASKS GOING MISSING. Please use the Submit button when submitting your nominations and make sure you’re signed into Tumblr or your URL won’t show. (If the form asks for your name and email address, then you’re not signed in.) If you like, you can also send a message to Michelle @mrswhozeewhatsis or Mana @manawhaat to check and make sure we got your submission.

Be sure to read through this whole post as people who were nominated more than once only had one tag activated for tumblr tagging purposes!

WITHOUT FURTHER ADO, HERE ARE JUNE’S ANGEL FISH AWARDS!

Nonimated by @thegirlwhorunswithwinchesters

I Thought You Were Going To Die (oneshot) by @fun-and-fandoms

My nominations for the month wouldn’t be complete without a little bit of angst. Though this one isn’t just that. If you’re easily triggered by mentions of depression and its symptoms, this one’s not for you. But it’s an important topic and I will always encourage any creator who uses their art to remind people it’s okay to talk about it. (Note from Kale, this was actually submitted in May but I missed it.) 

More to Me (oneshot) by @becs-bunker

No spoilers, but I’m so glad this ended the way it did. So sweet <3

Help  (oneshot) by @blushingjared

I came across this fic and was immediately intrigued. Then I started reading and I was captivated from the first sentence until the very last. The author did such a good job with setting the scene and painting the right picture.

Talking Bodies (oneshot) by @ne-gans

This AU-Sam is such a huge weakness of mine. That, in combination with this dangerously filthy masterpiece, is nothing short of perfection.

Nominated by @focusonspn

Into The Woods (series) by @amanda-teaches

So well written, interesting plot and great development. The chemistry between Y/N and Dean is also amazing, and I loved how this mini-series could be so easily part of the show. Totally worth reading.

Nominated by @thoughtslikeamindfield 

Stranger Than FanFiction (series) by @cherry3point14

The premise is similar to the film Stranger Than Fiction – a story about a story being written about you – and it’s just as hilarious. Also, Cherry Pie is still one of the funniest writers in this corner of SPN fandom.

“You’re not supposed to move your head if there’s someone trying to murder you, probably…”

No, I wouldn’t think so, but lollllll

“You’re being insane, out loud.”

Omgggg

“It tried, oh, how the door tried to divert her attention from the unknown men who could be terrible, rule-breaking influences on her. However the door was only wood and she was a stubborn woman made of free will and limbs—a woman who refused to be deceived.”

“Your hand is on the doorknob before the mention of your limbs has finished rattling around your head.  Realistically you don’t want to encourage the voice by doing what it says. After all, the voice’s ultimate goal seems to be killing you.”

BAHAHAHAH omfg you guys

I need to stop quoting from this bc I probably seem insane to those of you who haven’t read this, so stop being judgy buttheads and go read!

Nominated by @flamencodiva

The Choice (series) by @superfanficnatural

A couple of things. 1) this is an amazing fic that highlights Dean unwillingness to let himself go until it’s almost too late. and 2) the smut in this is hot hot hot hot! not for anyone under 18 years of age.

Mert has a way with words and can literally pluck you into one and make you see it as it comes to life in your head.

Mine (series) by @holylulusworld

Lulu has an abundance of different stories she tells and this one is my favorite of her ABO’s at the moment. (although I love all of them) I think this one deserved a mention. I am glad she joined to Pond so I could help nominate and spread her amazing work!

One Night at a Time (series) by @crashdevlin

Another great fic by Cassie! This one shot full of Angst, Smut, and if you squint just the right amount of Dean fluff. She has a way of capturing your attention and putting you in the world as you read.

What He Lost (oneshot) by @jensengirl83

This short story by Brandy is sure to rip your heart out. she leaves just a bit of hope where you think there is a chance only to crush it completely with the ending. This one is sure to bring you to tears if you are looking for the most delicious angsty story to read.

Nominated by @risingpheonix761

Down The Rabbit Hole (oneshot) by @dontshootmespence

So, this was hysterical. XD I love crack fics, and bad smut in particular, and this one hits the spot. (I’ve also learned several new horrible euphemisms lol). The ending, though? Golden!

Nominated by @myinconnelly1

The Affair (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

I love how well all the characters are portrayed I truly hate everyone except the reader! Well done!!  

Red Riding Hood - or how you ran into a wolf... (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

I have nothing to say about this. I will simply allow the puddle I have become to speak for me. 

Last Omega On Earth (oneshot) by @holylulusworld 

This was a great entry in the ABO world. and we need more of this and more like !!!!! Great work!

My Beta (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

I am a greedy little bitch with this fic.  I think I've read it 3-4 since i first read it this month!!!!!! READ THIS FIC!  

Third Period (oneshot) by @fictionalabyss

Some truly inspiring smut.  Inspiring to change my panties. 

Gods of Twilight (series) by @thecleverdame​

I think i posted this fic in my rec before, but it is so amazing and intricate that i can't stop gushing about it.  Fucking awesome. 

Apple Pie (oneshot) by @bad268​ 

The amazingness of this is great, check this guppy out!

Deal (oneshot) by @bad268 

Comedy at some of its's finest!!! 

Confession (oneshot) by @idreamofplaid

THE FLUFFFFFFF!!!! I don't read straight fluff.  So get the tissues ready.

Fallen (series) by idreamofplaid

My therapist has told me i'm not longer allowed to talk about this fic during our sessions.  So instead i shall now talk about it here... *pulls out soapbox* ahem... *gets pulled away with hook*

Memory (oneshot) by @idreamofplaid

This fic is older, but i love it so much.  I recently went back and reread it, and the angst and reconciliation in this fic are heartwrenching.

Home (oneshot) by @emilyshurley

My dentist bill the month was higher than normal, due to the new cavities caused by this fic.

Imperfectly Yours (oneshot) by @emilyshurley

Cuteness overload as you get Dean's perspective of Home ^^

Second Hand News (oneshot) by @emilyshurley

Alright listen. I am a glutton for punishment.  And this fic, I asked for.  Also i had it set within one of the universes we now own.  That all being said, reading this was like a dose of my own medicine and it fucking hurt.

Honesty And Lies (oneshot) by @crashdevlin

This was super dirty, and great.  Totally recommend. 

Nominated by @deanwinchesterswitch

The Classifieds (oneshot) by @talesmaniac89

This is rip your heart out and stomp on it angst right here. So well written, but so, so heartbreaking.

So Much More Than Perfect (oneshot) by @imagineteamfreewill

This fic is one of the sweetest things I’ve ever read. It made me tear up a bit, but who doesn’t love Dean being the most protective, most adorable dad ever?!

Nominated by @mariekoukie6661

Dear Dean (series) by @smol-and-grumpy

It’s one of those series that makes you wants more after every chapter. It’s a brilliant story.

Left Behind (series) by @kittenofdoomage

It’s the only John Fic I can read over and over and over again. Its hot, the plot is awesome! And it makes me wants more each and every time I read it.

Not Much Left (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer

I think Beka tries to kill her readers every time she writes smut… or she just tap into our mind what we want or what we fantasize about. Every single time I’m speechless by her talents!

Yes Professor (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer

It’s a Misha fic, there’s no one who write Misha the way Beka does!!!

Owe You One (series) by @supernatural-jackles

It’s such a great series! The friends with Benefit and Mechanic!Dean… I just love this so much and I don’t have words to describe how good this one is!!

Flirty In French (oneshot) by @fictionalabyss

This is brilliant, and I know its an old one, but from someone who finally decided to read more and from someone who is from Quebec, this is absolutely brilliant! The flirty french pick up line are so hilarious!

Nominated by @moosekateer13

Watching for Comets (series) by @holylulusworld

This fic beautifully captures the song that it was inspired by.

It also showcases things that when things are meant to be.

I’ll will all fall into place.

Please Trust Me (oneshot) by @holylulusworld

This fic beautifully emotionally captures what it’s like to have trust issues.

Nominated by @fictionalabyss

Last Call (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer 

It was everything we needed and wanted.

Culinary Exploits (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer  

Too utterly ridiculous not to get a mention.

His Omega (oneshot) by @iflostreturntosteverogers 

A sweet little comfort fic of Dean being utterly perfect caring for his Omega. Carrie also pulled off keeping this gender neutral, which isn’t something I see a lot of, and probably something I’d struggle with, so hats off to you, babe.

Poison (oneshot) by @supernatural-jackles 

YES omg i feel this on such a level. I’ve gone through that shit myself. A friend who lets you down so profoundly but then acts as if you’re the most toxic person in the world.  Nothing feels as good as letting go of that shit and moving on to better things. This was beautiful, and perfect, and TRUTH.

Amara (oneshot) by @impala-dreamer  

This one hurt. It really hurt, but it hurt so good that I’m left wanting more.

Take Me Now (oneshot) by @sorenmarie87  

If Dawn doesn’t continue this, I’ll riot.

Stuck On You (oneshot) by @kittenofdoomage  

I rarely read a fic this long (I just don’t usually have the time) but it looked too interesting for me to scroll past, and it had me completely captivated. I needed to know what would happen as if I needed air, even though I could guess how it ended, I needed to read the words. Phenomenal.

Thank you all for the awesome work and great feedback!

These are not actual awards! This system is set up so everyone in the pond has a chance to share the love and promote a fic/author that has grabbed your attention. The more people that participate, and the more everyone remembers to submit their own fics after posting, the better this will be :D

THANK YOU ALL AGAIN, KEEP UP THE AMAZING WORK, AND AS ALWAYS, HAPPY WRITING!

[felixcatton]

I agree with u 100% and you were totally clear. That anon was the one who didn’t understand.

Honestly gg sparks way too much debate and people are like sheep, one of them started hating rory (for all the wrong reasons i may add) and the all turned on her. The thing that surprises me the most is that these people seem to be wearing the same gg eyes of everyone inside the show (nevermind that we have the benfit of perspective), and put s1-3 rory in a pedestal, so when she fell (which was obvious too me. Typical case of big fish in small pond goes out into the world) they demonised her for it.

I sometimes feel a big part of the fandom is literally lorelai ??????? Like they react the same way she does about rory (except with more hatred). Personally, i am not a big fan of lorelai, yeah she is fun, but 90% of the time she is an adult acting like a teenager in all it’s immature glory.

Anyways, my hateful rant has finished. I actually only wanted to tell u not to pay attention to annoying people who disagre with everything but that would be hypocritical considering i just spewed a rant of *things that make me mad*

But i love your gifs and opinions. Just wanted to let u know

lol thank so you so much, friend!! the big fish in a small pond thing is so true. part of the reason why i’ll always defend s5-7 rory is that i relate to her so heavily, and i feel like many others do too even if they don’t wanna admit it. like i was on a uni track my entire life, was always so so sure of myself, and then i actually got there and (even knowing it was absolutely the right place for me), i was like “oh shit” and now, after graduating, i’m still like “oh shit” hahaha. those feelings don’t always make sense, they don’t always seem logical to people who aren’t you (as in “of course you’re smart enough for this, you get straight As and you love school, why would you even question this?”), and it’s silly to be like “this is so out of character” or even worse “she’s so lazy and naive” when it’s actually just... a young woman experiencing the real world for the very first time, with a heavy dose of impostor syndrome. so i just find her entire arc so sympathetic and relatable and realistic on a personal level, even aside from actual character analysis.

and i so agree about fandom and lorelai. i do love lorelai personally, but yeah there’s... soooooooo much to unpack about her relationship with rory and it can be frustrating. i’ve always felt that my problem with lorelai as a mother is the exact same problem i have with a lot of gilmore girls fans - thank you for putting words to that! rory was a young girl when the show started (and, i will say it yet again, was in a HEAVILYYYY sheltered environment), so of course she’s changing as the show goes on, of course she makes more mistakes later on than she does at the beginning. that’s not a bad thing, it’s literally just life.

the gilmore girls fandom is definitely a much more contentious place than you’d think a cozy comedy show would warrant lollllll. lots of people like to take a single sentence you say and read into it or misinterpret it in order to accuse you of believing things about the show/rory/fandom that you don’t. again, i’m happy to elaborate/clarify when asked - it’s a complicated show with a complicated fandom, and i can’t possibly do justice to every thought i have on it in a single tumblr post that i wrote on my phone in 5 minutes. just ask what i meant and/or politely share your own thoughts!

[rqs902]

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yang chaowen is really a sensitive kid... man he brings out renyu's song's feels and then brings up ylq to relate to the lyrics bc he knows his friend isnt getting as much appreciation as himself. (this makes even more sense after ylq said he had been crying before ycw went onstage and ycw was comforting him... and then after ycw came off the stage, it was time for ylq to comfort him from crying TT) Their friendship is really something. But then ycw saying he just gets ripped for getting screentime for crying all the time ouch but i dont get the feeling that hes doing it for attention but maybe im becoming partly biased towards chaowen :) 

Lol the fact that they focus so much on xzx and how hes favored by gjm but feels like it's unfair to be treated uncomfortably by other trainees as a result... all i can say is, what do u expect, of course the other kids will be salty, their lives are on the line and theyre getting nothing close to the attention you are, so unfortunately u cant win everything :(

Lol I see why everyone on twitter is annoyed at gjm... Jackson is literally trying to say something meaningful and mentor-like to su er and gjm literally interrupts with his own opinion.... jackson is like unable to finish his thought. and then when Cheng xiao is actually trying to give ma haowen advice, gjm just goes WELL I DISAGREE, THIS IS RENYU'S FAULT and everyone's like wtffffff???? And then he starts saying people can help Xinhai with his terrible dance (ouch) but renyu didnt help haowen sing and Huang enyu MY CHILD just goes: but dancing and singing are different....... and I'm just smh.... gjm really shouldnt act like he knows everything when hes the only mentor with zero actual relevant experience :( Poor renyu literally looks like hes about to burst into tears, ma haowen looks so sorry and appalled renyu's getting yelled at and none of the other mentors seem to agree with gjm lol 

lets appreciate renyu’s song, its really good!!! 

Lol this whole mentor segment is a mess but man chaowen and renyu won a lotta votesss ayyy

I think xue en seeing hwh as a pro rapper shows him humbling himself, since hes technically a more seasoned and popular idol performer

Cheng xiao fangirling over xue en I mean SAME hahahahahahaha awwwwww yzx being soooo genuinely happy for xue en is the cutest!!! Aw cto friendship and xue en crying :’) actually one thing ive noticed i feel like yzx seems like a genuinely kind and cheerful friend, maybe people are bashing him bc he pushed off some leaderly responsibilities to lin mo in the last round but maybe hes just not someone to take on a strict leader role (looks at aj from afo...) and realized that since lin mo has such experience and is really good at it, it makes sense to respect his experience and skill and let him take on that role. of course its unfortunate that means lin mo worked extra for less recognition, but i think it seems like yzx really respected and admired him so im hopeful what happened wasnt due to mean intentions 

watching chen junhao feeling lost oh man :/ maybe he hadnt fully prepared himself for the idol life when first coming on this show. its unfortunate reality that in this kind of idol survival show, the focus is more on stage presence and face and performance, rather than the music itself. Hopefully he really feels that hes found a path forward through this performance. This is a really real way to present him but I'm sad theres not as much focus on li chenxu when this is hissss song

Man both the self composed songs are really good!! Mann them making this song a dance song is really hard to watch for li chenxu bc its makes it hard for him to shine at his own song which is sad :( also lzx's rap is questionable lol but cjh's vocal part in the middle part is so emotional, I hope he felt like he was able to express himself fully there

Lol does gjm not realize they didnt have a choice to not dance. Lollllll cheng xiao literally said they had too much to do and tried very hard but he didnt listen.

Aww jackson teaching them about team work :') o gosh I have PTSD about jin fan getting classified as a vocal now after uuu..... also not surprised the entire segment was about sxl and even the judging portion lol....

Oof Jin fan's voiceeee I love

Man why does Jin fan always get stuck in not dance songs ><

more appreciation for xu zhaohao vocals pls!!! imo sxl has a poor attitude :/ he doesnt perform calmly under pressure and isnt doing well at making a good atmosphere for practice

LOL why do i feel like lin mo is always saying "song" things hahahah hes really a kid

but mannn yan an just walking into the elevator is so oof

Aw duan xuyu is too nice... but I guess this is the leader in him coming out

Aw yan an immediately encouraging xikan when he lost the center to him

Lolll xikans little “heheh” when he won 

Mannnn ngl even tho yan an leaves the show, I kinda wish he had a bigger role in this perf bc it's literally like his jam.... chinese style influenced dance.... I wish he had at least 1 memorable dance move, like I feel like Luo Joe already had one in the last perf and he has one again here (and hes very talented and he deserves recognition!) but yan an has yet to really show anything and im scared hes gonna just disappear soon :/

They all did so well tho!!! Truly a group of dancers. Really made me want to rewatch the whole thing immediately. altho the beginning I cant unsee the lin mo meme LOL 

and xikan did really well!! His stage presence is real. And hes put effort into his facial expressions

Luo Joe being cute is iconic

Aw yan an cheering on lin mo when revealing his votes!!

Aw I'm surprised 100 ways kids didnt get more votes.... lol ngl i feel like this show is just randomly adding vote bonuses in for random reasons not prespecified for kids they like.... cough gjm yet again

but oo the next ep looks fun hahahha im excited for a happier ep thats not as stressful.

Ycw keeping it real 2020: "im not good at controlling emotions.... i hope if you want to cry or laugh do it loudly, dont care about what other people think"

ok so maybe im liking more new kids than i expected, but i think thats a good thing that the show is making them likable and some kids are able to stand out! honestly i realized I kinda can see why they eliminated so many to begin with. It's sad but also kinda nice tbh (ouch, i know) bc if they really got rid of the ones who have less skill, it makes it easier for the others who dont have to teach from zero (cough lin mo) And then those with skill get to have at least 3(?) stages, unlike qcyn where jin fan got eliminated after only doing 1 silly stage lol The skill level of the stages is also raised, like there's multiple groups of almost all people who are well qualified. im sure the kids are happy that they get to do more stages, im sure that means a lot to them. 

At least on snzm they attempt to give most trainees a positive light and give screentime to more than just the top 10 trainees. and they allow someee time for vocals, dancers and rappers to get appreciation (even tho dancers are still dominating lol)

but yea honestly I disliked the judging on pdc2019 too tho so at least the judges here can be supportive... at times. it is SUPER biased and gjm is very vocal despite his lack of knowledge tho lol 

it's so bad bc I feel like my standards for shows are so low at this point. my standards get lowered with every show I watch. It's like I guess the snzm songs are okay bc I hated the ones on afo more so at least the stages aren't thattt bad lol At least the rules/general setup aren't as terrible as they were on afo..... at least the camera time isnt as biased as it was on qcyn.... sigh the show isnt doing great, and itd be best if the show would help the tygers get more popular, but I guess its prob better than just doing nothing at star master lol. 

qcyn was just painful to watch from "spirit of the knight" onward bc momo literally was buried, mistreated, disrespected and taken advantage of. at least on snzm he gets some screentime and positive recognition.....

tbh i like snzm, maybe thats an unpopular opinion, but at least there have been some really great stages, where the kids really get to shine. at least i can confidently say that bc of snzm, i have met some new kids who i will be sure to follow for new music moving forward :) 

[honeyjxsung]

SKZ Song Tag

tagged by @nine-r-none you cutie

entrance: if you could speak any other language which would you choose?

i’ve always wanted to speak korean, tagalog, and japanese

miroh: what was the last thing you tried for the first time?

i don’t remember anything big but one thing is going on a road trip with just me and my cousins. 

victory song: when was the last time you accomplished something really big? what was it?

:((( i don’t think ive accomplished anything big yet because if i did, then i would remember it.

maze of memories: what’s your best memory?

going to the Stray Kids concert. whOO what a night

boxer: do you like physical activity?

oof i play tennis, i guess that counts. so yes i do

chronosaurus: who’s your favourite greek god(dess)?

athena is a badass mf

19: what kinds of worries do you have about your future?

im worried about not being able to find the right friends, i’ve noticed that ive always fell into the wrong group and their bad actions influenced me, and i dont like it. 

road not taken: if you were going to a deserted island, what three things would you take?

a bOAT, food, and water, ahaha

side effects: list some possible side effects from stanning stray kids

uh happiness? LOL ok to be real: stanning stray kids brought me a sense of hope, happiness, and comfort, and im really glad those 9 dorks were apart of my life this year

tmt: do you like astronomy?

i find the topic interesting, however i don’t see myself applying it into my future career :(

mixtape 1: do you doubt yourself at all?

all the time. i tend to overthink a lot so it makes me feel bad about myself huuuu

mixtape 2: what’s something that gets you through a rough time?

i love listening to music when im having a hard time, i also just turn off all my lights and cry by myself in my room lollllll

mixtape 3: what’s the best gift you’ve ever recieved?

hmmm i don’t really remember the BEST gift, but if i had to choose some it would be all the heartwarming letters that my friends and family gave me

mixtape 4: when was the last time you got lost?

Lost literally or lost figuratively? I don’t think i’ve really been lost literally, even though my sense of direction isn’t that great, but there were some moments where i really lost myself and it was during the end of the school year in may and after summer break. 

stop: where do you want to be most right now?

In bed, no doubt. Also i wanna be in someone’s arms but that’s asking for too much.

double knot: if you directed a movie about your life, what genre would it be?

a drama lollllll, but then again i don’t think anything interesting happens in my life haha

levanter: when was the last time you had to give something up?

darn i don’t remember as well. i think i gave up studying all day to have fun with my family LOL

booster: what are three songs that get you hyped up?

Get Cool all the way, Midsummer Madness- 88 rising, Miroh

astronaut: if you could go on an adventure anywhere, where would you go?

I’ve always wanted to visit Japan, but generally all of East/ Southeast Asia.

sunshine: tag some blogs who brighten up your dash

@sptegami @ph0ebevix @changbeanie @chwrryeols @kpoptart216 @jisungsjheekies @bhubblemilk

you can stay: when did stray kids become your home?

i discovered them in october, but i realized how much i love them and considered them my ‘home’ in november. i remember they released N/S Street Ver. that day lol. tmi

mixtape 5: do you have an article of clothing you always wear?

leggings and a large sweater/hoodie. hehe

i taggggg my loves: @sptegami @chwrryeols @ph0ebevix @helladead-hellaradical

[and-allthat-jazz]

OH MY GODDDD I'M LIVIDDDD

holy shit I gotta spill this piping hot tea to somebody.

SO.  

In middle and high school, I had this friend named Jane. (not real name, but actually pretty close) She was always SOOO pretty, so popular, and very, very religious. I was always a little jealous of her, but she was basically my 2nd best friend. She was amazing for so long... what comes to mind is when she organized a food drive for my family after my mom got diagnosed with cancer. I loved Jane so much.

And we actually stayed kind of close in college. She liked my now fiance, Mark... because he was the son of 2 pastors... I guess she thought he would be a "good Christian boy for me" which in a way, yeah he was. 

But THEN. IT HAPPENED.

She found out we were living together. Dropped me like a rotten, piping hot potato. Radio silence for years, and when our families got together, she gave me the cold shoulder and a snide look.

But anyway. It sucks, but life goes on. Fast forward about 4 years or so. I’m engaged to Mark, we’re getting married in about a month and a half!!! Yay!!!

At her sister's wedding about 6 months ago, she introduces her WHOLE family to her new boyfriend (AT THE WEDDING where she's MAID OF HONOR!) He seems nice enough, but I guess we all figured they were still in the happiness of a new relationship... especially considering she hadn’t really dated anyone prior, no one can fit her high standards. 

A couple of months later, about 2 months prior to my wedding... my parents get an invitation to their wedding! And get this!!! Her mother spilled the beans on almost every detail on MY wedding and they’re STEALING about half of it. 

The meal. The color scheme (not the Roaring 20's theme, probably because they won't allow alcohol or, y’know. Fun.) EVEN THE GODDAMN VENUE FOR THE RECEPTION!!! What the hell??? It’s a COURTHOUSE, albeit a historical one turned into a museum. You’d think that would be the last place Mrs. Christ would want her wedding to be associated with???

But here's the catch. Their wedding is 2 weeks after mine. So everybody gonna know exactly where they got the idea!!!! Fuck you Jane, you self-righteous prick!!!

(Best part? Mom has a bad feeling it's all so rushed because it's possible that Jane's pregnant! BITCH IF YOU DIDN'T HARP ON ME FOR USING BIRTH CONTROL IN HIGH SCHOOL (for endometriosis, not like I was even getting any action) YOU MIGHT NOT HAVE THIS PROBLEMMM LOLLLLLL)

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 188: Hard Knocks Path to Redemption

Previously on BnHA: The Todoroki kids sans Shouto (and Dabi lulz) visited their mom at the hospital and awkwardly discussed Endeavor officially becoming the #1 hero. Shouto’s older brother Natsuo wasn’t happy about it, saying that the world doesn’t know about “what he did” and how he treated his family. But interestingly, Rei came to his defense, saying that things were more complex than that. She said she doesn’t know what’s going on in his heart, “but he hasn’t left us behind.” We then cut to Endeavor’s fight with the High Tide Noumu, which basically consisted of Endeavor hovering for a few seconds with his flames, and then getting very violently flung through a building. Like, he was basically used as a human laser saw to cut the top of this high rise clean off. A bunch of people nearly fell to their deaths, but thankfully Hawks saved them all with his ridiculously OP Mighty Wings quirk. Speaking of Hawks, idk but it sure is some shifty bullshit that Your Highness Noumu just happened to attack him and Endeavor in this building right when they were having a chitchat about Noumus. Something is definitely up you guys.

Today on BnHA: Endeavor continues to battle the High Heaven Noumu and pulls off some impressive feats, such as dicing a falling building into tiny pieces with his flames so that the spectators below don’t get crushed. Unfortunately these techniques come at a price, and he finds himself beginning to struggle due to the heat building up in his body. Meanwhile the High Hopes Noumu remains mostly unfazed, even dispatching a bunch of disgusting slimy clone things to wreak some havoc and distract Hawks and the other pros on the scene so that they can’t assist. Realizing he has no choice but to Go For It, Endeavor powers up his flames and hits the Noumu with massive flame attack: Prominence Burn. Unfortunately the Noumu anticipates his actions and is able to avoid being completely disintegrated. He regenerates, and then brutally slashes/stabs Endeavor in the most ironic spots possible -- his torso (nearly the same place where All Might was wounded by AFO), and his left eye (don’t think I have to explain this one lol). It’s all very violent, and probably not the sort of thing you’d want your child to witness on live television -- oh hey there Shouto. Didn’t see you there. Uh... well, shit.

(As always, all comments not marked with an ETA are my unspoiled reactions from my first readthrough of this chapter. I’ve read up through chapter 209 now, so any ETAs will reflect that.)

interesting title!

I wonder which of his four kids this is referring to? ngl I’ve been missing the U.A. kids for these past couple chapters so it would be nice to get Shouto back in here

holy shittttt

thiiiiiiiis is bad. that is some serious destruction. not something they can just shrug their shoulders about later, especially in BnHA where damage like this actually has lasting consequences

lol some other heroes are watching from a distance and they’re all “did Endeavor just Vidalia Chop Wizard that whole fucking building”

meanwhile Hawks is tumbling to safety on a nearby rooftop

and he’s referring here to Endeavor’s opening line in the chapter, “I’ll dice you up and burn you until there’s nothing left”

(ETA: in addition to being the first reluctant hero in the series, Hawks is also the quippiest we’ve had by far. Hawks is all your dialogue polished up by a Marvel screenwriting team or what)

I appreciate Hawks’s efforts at combat banter, but all I keep thinking is that those pieces actually did look remarkably neat and uniform, and that it wouldn’t kill him to show a little appreciation for what was honest to god one of the most insane quirk feats we’ve seen to date

also, looking at this picture more closely, my disbelief is gonna need a little more suspending, because I honestly don’t feel like either of them should currently be able to fly the way they’re doing lol. Hawks’s wings are in a pretty sorry state at the moment

and here comes High Treason Noumu back at them again, and he’s grumbling “bird...” like he’s all pissy at Hawks

lol what is this

what the hell is this quirk. does he shoot air gun fists or something. and this other guy has all of his fingers fucking disconnected for no apparent reason. like, what the hell is that even gonna do besides gross people out

(ETA: and isn’t this Tokage’s quirk as well. getting lazy are we Horikoshi)

now High Score Noumu is doing something disturbing oh god

ffffffffff WHAT IS THIS. WHY DO WE HAVE TO LOOK AT A CLOSE UP OF IT

Endeavor’s hitting it with another fire blast. thanks man

and now he’s doing a mental tally of the thing’s quirks

and don’t forget “can fucking talk.” not to mention what I still think is the most intriguing one of all, “has Kurogiri’s fucking face”

oh and I guess this is a new one

fucking gross ew fuck sick gross ugh!! why are they so gooey sob

I don’t really understand what’s going on but Endeavor seems to have it all figured out, so here

okay so he wants to fight strong opponents like Endeavor so he made some disgusting clones to deal with the small fries I guess

-- hold up. that muscle amplification quirk... that looks and sounds a whole lot like Muscular’s, though

is it just coincidence? that this Noumu just so happens to be so strikingly similar to not one but two captured villains previously associated with the League?? just what in the hell is going on here dammit

meanwhile, as Endeavor observed, the Noumus that emerged from his body look completely different and appear to be just your everyday run-of-the-mill Noumus

just a little grosser is all

Hawks is swooping down and taking them out without much effort. looks like he’s gotten most of his feathers back too

he’s telling everyone to keep evacuating

and he says that to be frank, power struggles aren’t his “forte”

so he’s acknowledging that he doesn’t have the All Might Factor, so to speak? that even though he’s strong and popular, he’s not at that level of always beating the big bads no matter what?

you know, that actually makes some sense. I can maybe understand a little better just why he was bothering Endeavor so much. that is, if it weren’t for the fact that I STILL DON’T TRUST YOU, HAWKS, YOU SUSPICIOUS LITTLE SERAPH

High Speed Noumu is asking Endeavor if he’s done shooting those red hot little slice-and-dice death rays

oh snap this thing really is smart

it’s not just talking and thinking, it’s fucking analyzing. there’s some real brainpower at work in this thing

now Endeavor is talking about his quirk, and I’m just gonna post the panel because like hell am I gonna try to summarize this

he was thinking this a few panels earlier, too. that he’s got a lot of heat built up now

and now he’s thinking about Rei and his kids with their ice powers

fuck me but every single time I start wanting to root for Endeavor he’s gotta go and remind us of this, though

also!? fourth kid alert!?? and this kid seems to have white hair just like all the others, and seems to be younger than Natsuo in this shot. which would seem to go against the prevailing theory? explain yourself, manga

(ETA: lol and I got an ask about this just today. I gotta give this some thought. but I still think it’s Dabi! maybe Endeavor is just confused about what his non-Shouto children looks like because he spent so much time ignoring them all!)

so now Highlander Noumu is making a crazy face and extending his arms or muscle fibers or whatever the fuck these things are again, and saying he wants to test out his new power on Endeavor

shiiiiiit this does not look good

this doesn’t seem like the kind of move he can maintain for very long given what he was saying earlier

he’s shouting at the Noumu that he’ll incinerate him until there’s nothing left, and his regeneration won’t be enough

well this has worked before, to be fair. back in Hosu

but why do I get the feeling that isn’t going to be the case this time, though

lollllll

is this the literal translation. is there some other meaning of “prominence” other than “famous and well-known” that I’m not thinking of. I guess it can also mean “something that sticks out a lot”, but I don’t see how that would apply to this attack

basically, to me this reads as “Endeavor’s I-Wanna-Be-Famous Big Fire Attack”

and damned if that just doesn’t say it all, though

he’s thinking back to what he said at the JP Hero Billboard thing. “just watch me”

and that he won’t disgrace himself by failing here

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh shit

HE WAS SO CLOSE

THIS THING IS REALLY FUCKING HARDCORE OMG

OH MY GOD

you’re telling me that Endeavor’s attack actually worked, but that he wasn’t able to disintegrate the whole Noumu because HE FUCKING RIPPED HIS OWN FUCKING HEAD OFF AND FRISBEE-D IT TO SAFETY AHEAD OF TIME!?

OH SHIT

goddamn -- fucking --

DAMMIT. COME ON ENDEAVOR. DON’T FUCKING DIE, DUDE. FUCKING GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER AND BEAT THIS HIGH FIVE NOUMU ALREADY, THE WORLD NEEDS YOU

ARE YOU SERIOUS

ARE YOU TELLING ME THE TWO OF THEM JUST HAPPENED TO BE WATCHING?? ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS, SHIT

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

motherfucker oh shit you guysssss

(ETA: how does he even still have that eye though)

you guys. oh shit. this is so bad. you don’t understand

shit. because let me tell you, the very first thing that ran through my head was that he’s going to look so much hotter now and fuck, you guys. I KNOW THAT’S NOT WHAT I’M SUPPOSED TO BE THINKING RIGHT NOW. BUT I CAN’T HELP IT. noooo what the hell is wrong with me I feel like slapping myself lmao

I fucking started laughing in real life at my own absurd reaction. I am ruining the mood of this chapter so damn fast

nooooooo

the parallels, though. oh shit. the same eye

and did Shouto’s quirk activate just now?? are those flames on his left side? oh shit

okay I need to get myself under control. fucking stop this now. stop thinking about how much hotter Endeavor is going to be with a big ol’ slashy scar along the left side of his face. and maybe an eyepatch. oh god. no, stop

(ETA: I really thought there was going to be an eyepatch. how does he still have that eye)

and now we’re cutting back to U.A. and Aizawa is gently telling Eri he’s gonna take her back to his room and I can’t you guys. first Endeavor losing his fucking eye and now Aizawa being a loving, protective parent on two counts, because LOOK WHAT HE SAYS RIGHT AFTER

now All Might is gripping at his stomach wound nooooo

seems like every big hero has That Moment, huh

oh fuckkkkk

fuuuuuck, Endeavor. going for that hard knocks path to redemption, huh

but I fucking can’t, though, because I just keep picturing Horikoshi’s creative process. like, you fucking troll, though. goes and creates the worst character of all time (not literally, I’m just being dramatic here just let me have this) and does his absolute fucking best to make him as terrible as possible, and then challenges himself to redeem him nonetheless. “how can I make readers actually feel sympathy for Todoroki fucking Enji in spite of everything? oh I know I’ll take away everything he ever wanted and make him finally start to realize what was really important and have him finally start trying to be a better husband and father. and then I’ll fucking murder him”

and like, I really need to stop laughing at this chapter, though. I’m ruining it, I know. if it helps, it’s not mirthful laughter though! the best way I can describe it is “haunted house laughter.” like, this is how I react when I’m walking through any sort of haunted attraction, and I’m really tense and excited and on edge. my weird natural response is usually to start laughing, possibly as my brain’s way of psyching myself up to be brave and reminding myself that it’s not real and they’re only actors. I feel like that, for some reason. and I don’t know why, but it’s actually a very positive thing, because this is the first time in quite a while that I’ve gotten this excited about the manga, actually

so I’m sorry, Endeavor. I’m not laughing at you, I’m laughing because OH SHIT THIS IS GETTING GOOD and I’m really loving it. and also because Horikoshi has got some serious balls

(ETA: and because this is Kamino all over again. and I was fucking pumped. angst!! stakes!! tension!! there was just a ton of adrenaline all of a sudden and I didn’t really know what to do with it so my brain was like “well then let’s just do something really weird!”)

anyway, so we’re cutting back to Shouto and U.A., where Shouto is watching his dad die on live television

aaaaaand that’s the chapter end

my god. this went from “eh” to “epic” in like .06 seconds. is this the fight that anon was talking about a while back? because this was pretty damn good, I gotta say. fucking damn