#not only do you have to be cool with me ticcing/stimming

[comfycozycrossfox]

anyway i cant be friends with neurotypical people and people that only interact with normal people because theyll look at me strangely when i tic in a store while my friends are just like "is this joanns fabrics overstimulating for you dawg"

[freehounyaoi]

HALF LIFE VRAI (+gorgeous & og gordon) HEADCANONS IF YOU EVEN CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BENREY WOOO

during. the end, he had 2 extra eyes, one above his left eye one below his right eye, now he has scars where they laid, they’re faint but he. is autistic im sorry he’s too me to not be he had a tail during the end too faint freckles ^_^ he REALLY likes red meat he likes blue flavor, not blueberries, not blue raspberry, blue stubble YAYY specifically in end, benreys feet to knees and hands to elbows fade into rlly dark blue/black looks like he’s dying of illness but like. has never been sick disassociates very often very touch very very touchy polyamorous, exes with forzen & is now crushing on both Tommy & gordon orphaned, kinda lived on his own since he isn’t human, picked his own name doesn’t actually have brothers, he’s a loser breaths through his mouth esp when he’s comfortable weird but like imagine he’s cuddled up to someone and he just yeah

COOMER YAYYY

fat, idc i’m right

gender-fluid, transmasc & gay ^_^ old man yaoi with bubby YAYYY

cool little funky punching enhancement thingies

big ol’ doe brown eyes

brunette hair before he started graying

after the resonance cascade he retired, they deserve it

has nightmares over clones. a lot, a big lot

autistic, everyone knows the science team kinda is autistic,

going off the autistic thing, one of his vocal stims is hello gordon

loves talking, loves it so much, he loves just talking to people she likes

has a high score on punch out & that one punching game where you punch the punching bag to get evaluated on

the reason is divorced because he realized he was gay

hawaiian shirts FTW!!

(most of these are somewhat canon, holly (his va) headcanons him as transmasc, short and stocky, and 5’4!)

Bubbster

Intersex & bisexual (idc if gir hcs him as straight it’s my world now/pf)

if he didn’t live with Coomer after the resonance cascade, he’d probably just be a basement dweller and just sit in the corner and cry

Bionic legs :3

canonically test tube baby, he’s probably really freaked the fuck out over it & has had genuine panic attacks over being artificially made, only in front of coomer

literally always has epi-pens for coomer

naturally(?) ginger idk what you wanna consider it, he’s canonically like 6 but in my head he’s like 67, he’s been locked in black mesa for 67 years

blue eyes

has a leather jacket with a tiger on it he will wear just to do so

has made the science team watch scrubs.. twice

picks at skin as a stress tick

has tourettes

near blind

when he got his bionic heart he died so he will sometimes just be like “hey guys i’ve died before”

being put back in the tube after betraying gordon was one of the worst things he’s been through, it was terrifying

GORDON FEETMAN!!!

also fat

joshua exists but he was an accidental pregnancy (gordon seahorse father yayy)

ftm based off last hc, that’s just canon cuz i said so

joshua is like, 9 in my head so gordon had him at like 18

bisexual

has a crush on benrey (canon but yk)

mexican and african

curly ass hair, takes really good care of it, always smells nice

bilingual

blind in left eye, 25% prescription in right eye

feels guilty as fuck even when everyone would joke about him being the cause of the RC

also autistic

wayne did not dk him justice when he lost his hand, he was screaming so gutturally loud it was painful, he strained his voice so bad, the pain was so excruciatingly terrible

tommy genuinely was the only one he could trust after benrey & bubby turned their backs on him, and that sucked because his feelings for benrey before that point were getting to him

only was adamant about not being friends with benrey at the end because of the betrayal, he wanted to hate benrey

tommy is like his. comfort friend, he doesn’t have to worry about him.. he does but he always feels comfy around him

Tommy cool man

Autistic, ADHD, PTSD and OCD

G man species, half human

strawberry enthusiasts:3 (me too)

every flavor tic tac enthusiast, always give the science team tic tacs like all the time

not very good at games enjoys playing them though

very touchy for multiple reasons

Sunkist service dog for multiple things as well, helps with panic attacks, PTSD symptoms, anxiety attacks etc

Tommy doesn’t know how Sunkist was trained to do all this, he made her sk he just kinda accepts it for how she is, and loves her

compression hugs, likes being laid on top of, it’s comforting

looks scrawny but can like. genuinely pick up all the science team & benrey with ease

started collecting propeller hats after the RC

the reason he can read sweet voice is cuz g-man species

thinking about getting a cat, maine coon or norwegian forest cat, he likes big ass animals

Sunkist is LARGE like large as fuck for a golden Tommy made sure she was huge

milk enjoyer :3 drinks it with most of his meals

wears readers

ANGEL KISSES!! (moles or beauty marks whatever you wanna call them)

tooth gap :3

walks on tiptoes

Gorgeous

6’7

cuts his hair into a fringe, lets it grow out to shoulder length, then cuts it fringe, never ending cycle

beauty marks man

freckles too

nobody fucking knows his trauma

doesn’t understand why he can understand cicero?? he just.. can??

learned ASL as a kid

clearly has some form of mommy issues he will not touch on

wears solid colors, he doesn’t wear shirts with decals, or anything, a. he doesn’t like them. b. for ASL purpose, it’s recommended to wear light/dark clothes (light in his case) depending on your skin tone to MAKE it easier to read sign, usually in light pink

prefers skirts cuz.. they’re comfy, usually knee & ankle length.. sometimes he will wear mini skirts……. cuz he’s gross

actually hates head crabs.

would be a nudist if it was sociably acceptable

actually really enjoys video games! he doesn’t talk about it, he’s good at them too

he’s a dog person, he wants a saint bernard

freeman YAYY

6’

beauty marks

patchy beard

dark hazel eyes

starting to grey, short pony tail

has scars from his HEV suit

actually lost his hearing DUE to the RC, his mother was deaf so that’s why he knows ASL, it completely shot out his hearing

has always dressed nice

cat person

Alyx is like his daughter to him

i can’t decide if he’s trans or not

same situation with gorgeous, he wears solid colors for ASL purpose

him and cicero have yet to find a way to communicate

when he found out alyx learned ASL for her boyfriend (this is canon, was planned for episode 3) he was over the moon

enjoys IASIP (it’s always sunny in philadelphia)

scary when he’s pissed off

G-Manual samual

major RBF

scottish

moles kuz hes kawaii

wears readers

hes autistic

going on with him being autistic, the fabric his suits are a comfort fabric to him

enjoys sitcoms

drinks his coffee straight black

he is trans masc to me

praises his employers like god tbh

if he were to drink, which he doesnt, his go to drink would be rum on ice

some form of alien, not from xen though, no one knows where hes from

some type of holy creature??? he cant die?? hes weird

you'll never see it but he doesnt bleed red, his blood is black

enjoys fishing

goes to bed at 11pm, wakes up at 4am hes weird

hes also the best father ever???

songs that remind me of science team members + benrey the 6th

Benrey the 6th

I Will - Mitski

Kiss Me, Son Of God - They Might Be Giants

I’m Gonna Win - Rob Cantor

Mad World - Tears for Fears

We Will Commit Wolf Murder - Of Montreal

Gallery Piece - Of Montreal

Everybody Wants to Rule the World - Tears for Fears

The Party's Crashing Us - Of Montreal

Tommy Coolman

Living Island - POGO

Fireflies - Owlcity

Teenage Dirtbag - Weetus

rises the moon - liana flores

Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy - Queen

Head Over Heels - Tears for Fears

[imlivinginyourtrashcan]

Give me your Blyndeff sister headcanons please.

You got it, Boss!

MOLLY BLYNDEFF:

Starting off, I think shes autistic. Look, i know this is low hanging fruit, but i mean... come on...

I have a list of all the nervous tics she has, which include:

Chewing on her hoodie strings

Clicking a pen, mechanical pencil, figit cube

Cracking her body, mostly her hands, fingers and wrists

Chewing her inner cheek

Biting herself

Shaking anything jingly

Nervous hand flappies

Pacing

I also have a list of stims that i kinda projected:

Hand flaps are a big one

Same with fist shaking

Patting her thighs too

She also makes small popping noises

Ok back to ACTUAL headcannons:

Doesnt do well at amusement parks, but is cool about the scary halloweeny stuff

Quiet kid in school on the days she goes

Vocalizes what she does (aka making sounds as she does stuff) (akaaka her walking and she goes "eh eh eh eh")

I feel like she indulges in horror games, thinks the cutesy stuff is boring

Did not realize she was autistic until Trixie said "Thats neat Molly! By the way, did you ever get diagnosed for autism?" After she went on a whole rant about bear facts.

Speaking of facts, hyperfixation/special interest list:

Bears

Pokémon

Lethal company

Any horror game you give her, really

Horror movies

History (this is me protecting)

Actual Headcannons:

Textures are iffy for her

Shes touch seeking but will freak out if she feels or tastes a weird texture like with fleeces or fabrics

Naven triedd to help her with this, but it didn't work out and she spat out the food while apologizing

Likes Rasin Brain, its the only cereal thats not sweet

Drinks black coffee and tea

I feel like she owns a green Nokia with a bear keychain

Music taste is probably those nice music box covers or really quiet piano with rain ambiance.

LORELAI BLYNDEFF:

Shes autistic too, but not at the same spectrum level as Molly

Abandonment Issues

If shes stressed she'll stim while talking out loud to herself

Had HORRIBLE meltdowns when she was younger, she stopped around the time Molly was born since her parents said she had to set an example

Sweet tooth, favorite flavor is Birthday Cake

I can sense she has a Dnd special intrest, most definetly has played Baldurs Gate 3 at some point

Warrior Cats kid

Bedazzles everything she owns

Horrible cook. Dont let her touch an oven

Her and Molly used to infodump together before they started hating eachother

Def a bedazzled flip phone girlie

Idk why but I feel like shes a Chai drinker, no explination I just feel it.

Also really likes Halloweeny stuff

She struggles more with school work than Molly (Proof, her spelling in PoP) but she doesnt want to ask for help cuz she feels stupid about it so she just does it wrong

Full Hyperfixation/Special Intrest List:

Fantasy

Dungeons and Dragons/TTRPGS

Baldurs Gate 3

Rabbits/Bunnies/Etc

Harry Potter (Fuck JKR)

Warrior Cats

Wings of Fire

Percy Jackson

Actual Headcannons:

I feel like shes an Art Kid

Specializes in Pottery and Doodles

Also has taken up plushie making! Without an Epithet, I may add

She doesnt have an issue with texture most of the time; but if she feels any slime or coldness on her hands she'll flip.

She likes the popular music; but secretly loves fantasy game soundtracks and vocaloid. DWEEB!!!! (Me too i get it Lori)

Storing money to go to a Renaissance Faire

She sometimes uses her dream bubbles for Dnd campaigns with the friends she has! Or she would if she had any

I feel like she sits alone at lunch :(

Loves Boba! Tried getting Molly to taste it but she spat out a Pearl

Theater kid. Gut feeling.

Thats all from me, anon! Enjoy!!

[faded-euphoria]

Creepypasta headcanons?

ive been waiting for this one😩😩

BTW- I use their real names in this and I added a cut cuz this bicth l0nG

General Creepypasta headcannons

I’m a firm believer in the Tim and Brian having their own cabin in a forest away from the mansion. 

Toby doesn’t just have the jerking tics and stuttering tics, he has certain words, noises, and actions he does. 

Expanding on that I bet Toby also stims when he’s excited.

Jeff was relieved to see Liu alive, and other Creeps are helping them become the brothers they used to be 

Eyeless Jack is the actual appointed doctor for the Creeps because thats what he was gonna be anyway, he ‘finished’ his degree thanks to the massive ass library in the mansion

There’s definitely an art studio, like a big one.  

 There’s a sensory room. 

The kitchen was absolute chaos until Helen showed up(BloodyPainter)

Jane actively avoids Jeff, and has most of his daily routine memorized so she doesn't run into him, most of the Creeps know this and try to keep them separated

All the video game Creeps have an digital home space.

Theres absolutely a movie night and only a certain few Creeps go to it, everyone else locks their doors and hides to keep away from going.

Everyone has to do chores, and let me tell you theres been so many times where someone hasn't done their part around the mansion and has absolutely gotten their ass kicked for it.

Slender doesn't play a huge role in everything like some people might think, I feel like he's his most cannon self in Marble Hornets, so he's just chilling around making sure everything is going smoothly and if it's not he basically just does his migraine static stuff to assert dominance or whatever it is.

People actually don't go to BEN for help when it comes to technical issues mainly because he'd end up goofing everything up again for shits and giggles.

I feel like the second best option would actually be either Brian or Eyeless Jack.

I don't think any of the Creeps would go out of their way to have an overly eccentric room, all of them are either normal or just plain.

Maybe Helen has a cool little nifty room cuz he's painted all over the walls, and Jeff and Toby might have holes in their walls and scratches from knives and hatchets or something, theres definitely bloody spot here and there in some of the Creeps rooms, though

I have so many bedroom headcannons I could definitely do separate headcanons on those.

Sally and Lazari have a suite typa bedroom that's connected with a playroom.

OKAYOKAY, enough bedroom stuff

theres prank wars in the mansion

thats all im saying on that

most Creeps keep to themselves, and a lot of them do so because they don't want to see the reality of their situation.

they're almost all scared of what's happening to them and they do confide in eachother alot and i think thats what keeps them at least a little sane.

[lowcallyfruity]

forgive me if this has been answered already, but do you have any sebek headcanons? thank you :)

EEK!!! I DO!!! I have a lot actually 😭😭😭 I loveee Sebek so I think about him a lot :3

Hcs under the cut <3

Okay ☝️ first we’re gonna start with my WOKE headcanons 😍

I hc Sebek as Uranic!!! (Simple but I like it :3)

I also HC him as Egyptian and Mexican!!!

He has Audhd (and a more recent hc of mine BPD and NPD)

😢😢 one thing about me is I have stim Hcs for my neurodivergent characters sooo yeah ummm I’m gonna share a few :3

Yelling and being loud is a stim but it’s also because he has bad impulse and volume control!

He grunts and coughs a lot and also grits his teeth

He has a lot of stims using his arms like clenching his fists, cracking knuckles, flapping his arms/hands (something he picked up from Malleus) and moving his arms a certain way

A lot of his stims include his mouth of arms/hands!

Most of his stims he keeps to himself, especially the ones that draw attention/are disruptive

He chews stuff A LOT. His pens are CHEWED UP. He finds it embarrassing but he can’t help it :(

He can get overstimulated easily, but sometimes it just depends.

When he’s overstimulated he tends to hit his head

He used to get overwhelmed and overstimulated somewhat easily and would start tearing up. When he entered NCR he decided he would stop doing that to be the best guard possible. He still tears up when overwhelmed and overstimulated but it’s rare and in like.. long extreme situations.

LOVES HUGGING AND SQUISHING/SQUEEZING. Gives bear hugs. Absolutely bone crushing hugs. His hugs could probably fix your back- or make it worse 😭

Has probably masked unknowingly, but it NEVER lasts.

Also has tics that tend to be triggered in cold weather. Occasionally warm weather.

Mostly motor tics like head jerking!

Normally tics then stims

Sebek is a very physical person. He LOVES hugging and doing anything with his body. He loves working out and moving and stimming because it keeps him happy. He just feels the need to be active or it feels like he’ll explode- he feels things very intensely and a lot of it stresses him out because his emotions are too strong and big to handle

Another thing is he’s terrified of kissing on the lips- Every time he tries to do it he gets scared and backs out- and if he does manages to kiss *insert person you ship him with* it doesn’t last- like. It only lasts 1 second and he immediately backs away because he just can’t take it 😭 not because he doesn’t enjoy it! It’s just he gets embarrassed and soemthing about it makes him really nervous

I think Sebek is half crocodile fae…so like… physically he’s a bit different… but not a lot compared to his mother or grandfather!! I think that he has teeth a bit similar to crocodile teeth! But because he’s still young they don’t look the same they do for his mom and stuff :3 (if that makes sense lol)

HE HYPERFIXATES ON ALL OF HIS FAVORITE PEOPLE/ CLOSE FRIENDS!!! I like to think he has hyperfixate on silver, Lilia, his mom, dad, grandpa,siblings etc. at points of his life.

On his parents when he was little, later Baal and when he met Lilia he hyperfixated on him, then silver. .. and basically it progresses like that.

Currently it’s malleus (obviously) but he is obsessed with other things, like culture and Lilia. But they’re not the biggest focus.

Oh he has loads of scars. Not only from him training and fighting, but because he loves running around! He has little scars and bruises on his legs and arms because of it :( accidentally hurting himself while having fun and running. A lot of times he wakes up with new ones too, it’s very confusing to him.

Sebek likes wearing funky weird little socks…. Like… I do think he wears formal white/black socks but he also has socks with patterns, matching ones, mismatched ones, colorful ones, ones with little patterns….

Eeek Sebek loves pink <3 and also likes yellows and reds but prefers pink he thinks the color is so cool and fascinating

OMG HE LOVESSSSS FLOWERS SO MUCH <33 he loves looking at them and collecting them! He has a secret book with a bunch of pressed flowers <3 he doesn’t know a lot about their meanings but he does really like them, and can identify some of them :3

His hair is wavy but also kind of nice to touch? He brushes it constantly so it ends up being somewhat soft

Whenever he loves someone or thinks someone is so super cool he will praise them so much <3 he is my hype man <3 he’s also very honest and pretty blunt so you can tell when he’s honest…

He likes making his own things :3 he loves doing hand crafted stuff….especially with like wood…. And plants…sometimes metal/iron. It’s kind of like a side hobby…..

He can’t handle too much spice- he can eat most spicy foods…

[didderd]

Nervous mutual again! Hello :)

How often do people with tourrette's, uh, for lack of a better word, tic? Cus with my own stims [sorry making this all about myself </3] I usually stim almost constantly when un-occupied, is it similar with tics, in that it's a near constant stream of movement, or is it a slower build up, where you only do a few if you're not experiencing a tic attack?

[Sorry again if this is kinda dumb! [I really should just google it, but I like taking excuses to talk to people. You seem cool aha]]

Hello! :D

You don't have to apologize. Never a bad question, especially if you'r trying to figure yourself out. <3 (Also I get wanting the excuse to talk lol. You're giving me excuses to talk about tics, which I am very happy abt.)

This really depends on a lot of things. Like how severe your tic disorder is. I'm not sure exactly where I fall on the scale, but mine is somewhere between moderate-severe. (Probably severe lol.) So I am ticcing a majority of most days if I'm not super focused on something.

Also depends on how active your tics are atm. Depending on the person, it can fluctuate a lot. One day your tics could be super active, ticcing constantly, the next they could be unnoticeable or not even there. You could even go a week or a month, with little to no tics. (Ofc those kinda things are pretty rare, but they happen. Probably more common with a mild diagnosis.) (I did once or twice go at least a week without tics bc I was sick. fkn. forgot I even had Tourette's there for a moment lol.)

When your tics are pretty active, it may not be a constant stream of movement (again, depending on the person and the tics), but like varying between a split second and a few seconds, and on occasion a long moment, in between each tic. (This is my own experience.)

[sergeantsporks]

Hello, I have a writting request if you are still accepting them? Projecting here for sure, but it would be cool to see Autism and/or Tourettes representation for comfort characters, AKA Hunter from the Owl House. Maybe something like Hunter being afraid to stim or tic in front of their new family at the Owl house, leading to sensory overload or a tic attack? But the whole Owl House would be accepting, caring and there for him during these attacks. Thank you regardless, I really enjoy your work!

Hell yeah babe, you project onto the boy, I'll help I'll try anyway

“Going to meet up with Gus and Willow! Bye!”

Hunter looked up from the potion ingredients he was chopping up. “Bye!” he bit down on his lip before he could hold it out, watching Luz run out the door. “Bye,” he whispered again under his breath instead, “Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye.” He continued chopping up roots. “Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye.”

“Hey, whatcha mumbling about over there, kid?” Eda asked from the stove.

“Nothing.” Hunter focused on the roots he was chopping, and the steady cut of the knife. Crunch. Crunch. Crunch.

They continued in relative silence, only broken up by the occasional curse from Eda as the potion bubbled unexpectedly. She scooped up the roots Hunter had chopped, dumping them in the pot. “Thanks, kid.”

“You’re welcome. Anything else for me to do?”

She gave him the side-eye. “I told you that you don’t have to help me with everything. Go do something that you want to do.”

Hunter nodded. “Right. Something… I want to do.” He started to bounce on the balls of his feet, then stopped. Not the time. Or place. “Something I want to do,” he repeated.

Eda stopped stirring. “Oh my titan, do you even know what to do with downtime? What did you do when you had a break in the coven?”

“Took a nap. But I don’t need to do that right now, because I… got plenty of sleep.”

“What do you like?”

What do I like?

Reading, sure. But that would mean navigating through Bonesborough to get to the library, and he didn’t… want to do that.

“Mmmmmmmmm…”

“Titan, kid. You need to find a hobby.”

“Sorry.” The word stuck in his head, repeating itself. “Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.”

“Hey, whoa, it’s okay, you just haven’t—”

“Sorry,” Hunter cut her off, “Sorry, Eda. Sorry. Sorry.”

She stopped, tilting her head at him. “Uh—you okay, Hunter?”

Hunter bit down on his lip again. Stop that, you’re weirding her out. “Sorry,” he mumbled again, and bit down harder. Quit it!

One more.

“Sorry.”

And just like that, the urge stopped. Hunter scooted out of the kitchen before Eda could say anything else.

Should have known better than to say “sorry.”

It had just been that “apologies” sounded too formal in the situation. Not that sounding a little too formal would have been worse than what had just happened, he supposed. Hunter rocked back and forth, bouncing up and down on the balls of his feet. Calm down. It was just one outburst. Bounce. Hunter’s shoulders relaxed, and he let out a deep breath. Bounce. Better.

“Heyyyyyyy, Hunter, are we doing exercise?”

Hunter jumped, almost immediately tensing as Hooty stuck his face in the room. The bird-worm started to wave up and down.

“I can do it too, we can be bouncing buddies!”

Hunter slammed a hand over Hooty’s mouth. “I was not bouncing,” he hissed, “Shut!”

“Yes you were,” Hooty mumbled through his hand, “I saw you. I can see everything in the owl house. We can jump together, it’ll be—”

Hunter’s face flushed, and he squeezed the bird’s beak shut tighter. “Quit making fun of me! I was not bouncing!”

The demon could see everything? Hunter started to think back on every day he’d been here. Have I done anything he saw? His ears turned red just thinking about it. “If you tell anyone—”

“Lips sealed,” Hooty mumbled, shaking Hunter off. “This can be our buddy secret!”

Hunter crossed his arms, fuming. “We’re not buddies! It’s not a secret!”

Eda poked her head in from the kitchen. “What’s a secret?”

“NOTHING!” Hunter yelped, holding Hooty’s mouth shut before the bird could say anything else.

Hooty shook free again. “Yeah… nothing.” He gave Hunter a wink and slid back outside. Hunter ran his hand through his hair, suppressing a groan.

Eda winced. “Ah, sorry about him.”

Sorry. Hunter bit down on his lip, hard. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. He tasted blood, but he just shrugged at the owl lady in response, ignoring the bright pain from his mouth. Do not say anything.

Eda went back into the kitchen, and Hunter put a hand to his mouth. “Ow.”

The front door slammed open, and Luz was back inside, her clothes sizzling. “Change of plans!” she said cheerfully, “It is raining! Gus and Willow are here now!”

“Slightly singed!” Gus called cheerfully.

“But okay!” Willow amended.

Hunter ducked up the stairs as they flopped on the couch, chatting aimlessly. King tugged on his sleeve. “Hey, have you seen my—”

“No! No, I haven’t!”

Hunter shut the door of his room behind him, covering his ears with his hands to block out the sounds of the downstairs.

Deep breath.

In. Out.

Hunter forced himself to hold absolutely still.

Just breathe.

His palisman warbled gently at him, and Hunter shook his head, clutching his ears tighter.

It’s too loud

I need to get out of here

I need to go

Go, go, go, go, gogogogogogogogo—

“Hunty? You okay?”

Hunter let out a strangled scream as Hooty stuck his face in the window. “Go! Away!”

There was a pause in the conversation downstairs, and feet tramped up the stairs. “Hunter?” Luz called, “Everything alright?”

Hunter pushed Hooty away from the window and climbed out, climbing down the side of the house.

“Hey!” Hooty called, “You can’t—it’s raining!”

Hunter ignored the bird, his feet pounding on the ground as he ran out into the rain.

Scalding-hot water dropped on his skin, but Hunter ignored the pain, dashing under the cover of the trees. The water hissed on the leaves, and Hunter covered his ears again, rocking back and forth. He bounced up and down in place, breathing deeply.

The sound of the rain started sounding less and less loud, and Hunter removed his hands from his ears, still bouncing.

If they saw you right now—

You look ridiculous—

Why can’t you just hold still—

But it didn’t matter. Because there wasn’t anyone to see him out here, and no one would be out here, because it was raining, and you’d have to be really, really stupid to be out right now, and even though the burning raindrops hurt, it was worth it for a minute alone, away from the noise of the owl house, where he could just bounce in peace.

“Hunter?”

Hunter froze.

No. No, no, no, no, no.

He turned to face the girl holding an enchanted umbrella over her head. “Heeeeyyyyyy, Luz!”

“You doing okay?”

“No. No, it’s noisy and—I shouldn’t have run out, I’m sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.” Stop it, stop it, stop it. “Sorry, Luz. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.”

She didn’t seem to notice the repetition. “It’s okay.” Luz scooted closer, holding her umbrella over him. “Gets kinda noisy in the Owl House. I’m sorry.”

“Sorry,” Hunter repeated after her, then bit on his lip again to keep himself from continuing.

Luz tilted her head. “Go ahead,” she said simply.

Go ahead. “Sorry,” Hunter said again, “Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.”

Go ahead.

No one had ever said that before.

Usually it was “shut up” and “quit saying that.”

Hunter bounced up and down, then stopped. “Um—” He stopped himself from saying sorry just in time. “I’m—it’s—”

Luz shrugged, bouncing herself. “Stressful. It’s not for everyone, I know.” She shrugged again. “You know that when Eda stresses, she turns into a giant owl monster, right?”

“Yeah.”

“Oh, and our tower is broken because Hooty pitched a fit.”

“Really?”

“Yep. And King discovered his voice powers when he was having a meltdown.”

Where was she going with this? “Huh.”

Luz rocked back and forth. “Eda turns into a massive owl monster. You need to bounce. We all have something.” She grinned at him. “You’re at the owl house, now. You bounce whenever you want.”

“It’s just…” Hunter ran a hand through his hair. “I don’t know.”

“Hey. How about we start looking for a way to soundproof your room? So that you have somewhere to go if you start getting overwhelmed. Better than going out in the boiling rain.” Luz shrugged. “I get it. They told you not to express yourself, they told you to fit into the perfect image. People told me that, too. But you don’t have to hide at the Owl House. We’re all weirdos, it’s sort of our motto. So don’t worry about it.”

Hunter shifted from foot to foot, and despite himself, bounced gently on the balls of his feet. It helped that Luz was doing it. “It’s just… embarrassing.”

“That’s okay. We’ll leave you alone if you need us to. But if you don’t want to be alone, well—none of us are going to care if you start bouncing. Or repeating yourself. Or anything else. You don’t need to hide it. And you definitely don’t need to hurt yourself to stop—no running out in the rain, no biting your lip to hide.”

Don’t hide it.

Just… express yourself.

“It’s not just me,” Luz said quietly, “Eda and King—even Hooty, but Hooty can’t judge anyone anyway—feel the same way.” She held the umbrella handle out to him. “If you want to be alone out here for a bit to recover, I’ll go.”

Hunter took the umbrella handle, the canopy bobbing up and down with his movement. “What about the rain?”

“It’s slowing down. I’ll run fast, you got out here alright. See you later?”

Hunter nodded. “See you soon.”

She dashed out, running back towards the owl house. “Bye!”

Hunter waved after her. “Byeeeeeeeeeeee!”

[that-was-anticlimactic]

sk8 headcanons because i am Bored

autistic langa likes frozen fruit a lot—strawberries are his favorite—because he likes the cool texture

reki has lip freckles that really stand out after he’s been in the sun a lot ! there’s like four or five of them :)

just thinking about “all those friday nights / under the lights / under the bleachers together / you and i were meant to be something more than a faded memory / till you and i / something divided us” but matchablossom,,,

“but i’ve already lost it once / what i already won / i’ve lost too much now to care / but i know that something’s still there” ,,, matchablossom,,, ahhhhh

miya and shadow being besties,,, shadow being miya’s parental figure and miya being his adopted nb child,,,

shadow being the first person miya comes out as nonbinary to,,,

adam going to jail,,,

reki having a stuffed animal collection and letting miya name some and then realizing that miya never had a stuffed animal growing up so reki gives miya one of his older ones that he loved as a child and then buys them a new one too… and miya asks reki to name it for them because sentiments,,,

after seeing the girl he had a crush on kiss someone else, shadow takes out his feelings on the only thing he knows how to—skating at s but he’s not in a good mind and he feels sick because he thought he thought he thought he had a chance and he doesn’t pay close enough attention and gets hurt and miya calls him an idiot and patches him up and shadow feels like a kid again but it’s kind of nice to have someone else actually help with his wounds instead of just attempting to wash them and then cover them with makeup by himself,,,

joe and shadow bonding over hating the feeling of loneliness so they make up for it the only way they know how which is being loud and being extra because they don’t feel as lonely if they’re loud

reki, miya, and cherry = adhd club

cherry and reki drawing together… and reki teaching cherry how to be more loose and carefree when he draws and cherry teaching reki how to add more structure to his art,,,

langa stealing and wearing reki’s headbands,,,

langa with glasses

reki’s sisters doing cherry and joe’s hair,,, or even reki, langa, and miya doing their hair and shadow just watches and takes pictures and reki puts cherry’s hair in fishtails because he had practice with his sisters and cherry secretly likes it (and so does joe) and miya and langa just. completely messing up joe’s hair and putting hair clips in it and langa attempts a ponytail kind of like how cherry does his hair at s (and no cherry did Not find it very attractive shut up)

shadow being a scrapbooker and having like ten scrapbooks from his life,,,

shadow not being as good of an artist as cherry or reki but he does it because he enjoys it and when cherry and reki find out they invite him to draw with them

the crew / sk8 fam all going to shadow’s house and doing a couple scrapbook pages together and it’s a mess but it’s them and it’s one of shadow’s favorite pages because he’s never scrapbooked with anyone before

langa is just naturally beautiful and photogenic so the art squad always asks him to model for them if they want to draw people

joe has depression because i want him to

and shadow has anxiety

because i do Not want any of them to be neurotypical

yeah so joe has depression, shadow has anxiety, cherry has add and anxiety, miya had adhd and separation anxiety, langa is autistic, reki has tourette’s and adhd and depression ✌🏻

when miya gets old enough, shadow gets them a part time job at the flower shop

miya likes a lot of pillows

langa sleeps with no pillows (unless reki is partially his pillow)

thinking about after reki’s second beef with adam,,, joe after he tells adam off and they’re away from the crowd, he passes out because let’s be real—there is absolutely no way he didn’t get injured and the worse one is probably a broken nose and a huge gash at the back of his head with like skin peeling and stuff like need stitches so the gang all goes to cherry’s and they help patch reki up

somewhere in that time the love hotel gets brought up and by extension getting hit by the car and getting beat up and joe and shadow are on the verge of slamming their heads against the wall at reki’s nonchalantness

and reki’s p injured so he’s laying in the couch with his head resting in langa’s lap,,,

joe tells everyone embarrassing cherry stories from school like all the time (but joe was a foolish child so cherry gets revenge)

miya likes crime documentaries

joe unironically watched supernatural and that’s part of the reason why he and cherry broke up

(maybe joe just thought dean was attractive—sue him!)

lol wait what if cherry sued adam to pay for reki’s medical bills since they inevitably had to take him to the hospital

cherry constantly tells joe that he will sue him

joe may unironically watched spn, but cherry unironically watched glee

langa wrote destiel fanfiction once upon a time

langa wrote cas bakes dean a pie--

miya is carla’s favorite (after cherry)

cherry and langa with weighted blankets also

sometimes reki steals langa’s but only if he stays the night or langa brings it over and usually if he “steals” it, it’s them sharing it or reki needs the comfort of the weight if he’s not having a good time mentally lol

joe with depression,,, i just think about that a lot sometimes,,, sometimes cooking feels meaningless and, like langa, he only feels something when he skates but it’s only this temporary feeling of joy and life,,,

and shadow with anxiety,,, over-compensating his anxiety by being shadow at night and being over the top and sometimes mean because internalized ableism,,, and if he pretends he doesn’t have anxiety then maybe he won’t feel it late at night or when everything seems to go wrong during a shift at work and he keeps dropping flowers because his hands are shaking and girls don’t like guys with anxiety, right ??? so shadow thinks that he CAN’T have anxiety :/// poor dude

miya with separation anxiety pushing people away before they get attached because if they push them away before they become friends, then they wouldn’t be able to leave them,,,

langa always bouncing his foot in class and all the time because it’s his main form of stimming (look at that boy and try to tell me he doesn’t bounce his legs like there’s no tomorrow i dare you) and sometimes it makes his legs sore and cherry and joe once recommended using a heating pad if it got really sore and langa does sometimes and it makes him happy

reki with ts having anxiety when he has to speak in front of the class / do presentations because he’s hyper-aware of his tics,,, so he always meets langa’s eyes and watches langa the whole time and langa sometimes mimes taking deep breaths which really helps but honestly just seeing langa makes reki feel like he can do anything (because he would do anything for langa)

cherry doodling to stim as a child and always getting in trouble for it because teachers used to like get pissed when students doodled (or maybe they still do and it’s just always been pissy teachers and not specifically teachers when our parents were kids) and eventually cherry got fed up with getting points docked for doodling so he started writing lists and stuff and been realized he had impeccable handwriting (also joe let cherry doodle on his hand during classes they had together so cherry wouldn’t get in trouble)

cherry once had a dream that he was rachel berry and joe was finn uhh *insert last name here* from glee and joe had a beautiful voice when they sang duets in his dream so he managed to convince joe to sing in reality and turns out joe cannot sing and cherry’s glee dreams were never the same (look i am tired lol)

joe likes being the strong one in the group and he enjoys being able to mess around / show off by just casually picking people up (he also does it as an expression of love because they’re basically hugs depending on how he holds you) and one day cherry is like… done with it ??? and just strolls up to joe and just throws him over his shoulder or something and joe combusts because he did Not know cherry can do that and no his face isn’t red shut up he doesn’t find this attractive what’re you talking about

miya wants a sword and keeps trying to convince everyone to get them one for their birthday but no one will agree because ‘they’ll hurt themselves and everyone else it does not matter that all your favorite characters have swords that does not mean You should have one’

langa is the kind of person that puts peanut butter on a cheeseburger

reki’s love language is a mix of gift giving and acts of service, but he tends to lean more towards giving gifts. his receiving love language is words of affirmation but he does Not know that yet (langa does—hence his constant “you’re amazing, reki”—and eventually so does the rest of their gang lol)

shadow likes theatre

miya has internet friends,,, so does cherry,,,

joe posts those affirmations on his story all the time

reki’s texts are sometime hard to read because a) his hands get injured a lot and b) tourette’s but langa (and soon the others) learn how to read reki texts

langa sleeps with a fan on for white noise

shadow was worried (and feeling a little left out but if he doesn’t acknowledge it, then that emotion is not real… that’s how that works, right???) since he was in the hospital when reki skated against adam the second time, so when they all went back to cherry’s to tend to reki’s numerous wounds and also celebrate friendship, miya kept shadow on a face time call the entire evening

langa has an android phone

reki is super comfortable with periods because he lives with five girls—he also usually has a couple of pads and tampons on him at all times because he’s the older sibling lol

langa wears socks with sandals,,, so does shadow,,,

shadow’s feet get cold easily so he wears fluffy socks a lot

cherry keeps his fingernails at the perfect length to dramatically tap them against the table (also to freak people out by doing that)

miya is Not a morning person

miya also likes having the windows to shadow’s car rolled up because their hair gets in their face otherwise but shadow likes them down so it’s this constant struggle

i still stand by cherry suing ad*m and using the money he won to pay for reki’s medical bills (… and shadow’s… and langa’s if he needs any)

i just feel like many people have reason to sue ad*m

ponytail langa rights

joe had really bad acne as a child and teen and cherry helped him feel less self-conscious about it and helped him embrace having acne and that’s one reason why he exposes so much skin as joe because it’s a reminder of personal growth <3

also joe has acne scars on his chin and cheeks

joe has cherry’s calligraphy all over his walls

ik i already said so in reki with ts headcanons but he doodles pictures for everyone in the sk8 fam and they all keep each and every one and shadow even puts them in his scrapbook

let langa punch adam 2k21

let reki punch adam 2k21

actually they All deserve to punch adam 2k21

miya’s favorite movie is coraline

langa can’t snap his fingers

joe and cherry always argue over whether even numbers or odd numbers are best

miya does esports

joe was in marching band and was in drumline

cherry stays up late to look at the stars and he had those plastic stars taped to his ceiling as a child

reki eats tomatoes like apples and it makes joe want to cry

okay if the atla & and the sk8 characters became internet friends… these are who i think they’d be internet friends with…

cherry: katara

joe: suki

langa: sokka

miya: aang

reki: zuko

shadow: toph

note: suki, joe, miya, and aang are all actually besties. aang is the kind of person that would usually annoy miya but they just can’t dislike aang no matter how much he may want to and they somehow find themselves attached

but suki and miya would also get along really well because I know they would and aang and joe would just have fun and like it’s what they deserve so they are interchangeable / all besties

also sk8 characters if they were benders...

cherry: fire or waterbender,,, cannot decide

joe: earthbender

langa: waterbender

miya: firebender

reki: resident nonbender

shadow: earthbender

[vulearanger]

Greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you to much. I noticed how tumblr is acting up for you so take your time. May I please have a romantic matchup for tmnt? I use all pronouns and I’m pansexual with a preference to masculinity. My Myers Briggs type is INFJ and Enneagram type is 4. My star sign is Taurus, moon sign is Gemini. Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m rather introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I’m into dressing in all black and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers and murder documentaries. I also like to visit abandoned hospitals and houses just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. A friend of mine even likes to call me "discount vomitboyx". I’ve also been called "doomer boy kinnie", and "Remake of Daria" before. I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start conversing, which may or may not come off as rude to people. When I finally become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. Most of my humor comes off really insulting, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke if it becomes a problem. Lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. Especially with the types mentioned above. I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, reading and or listening to music ( My Chemical Romance, Arch Enemy, MurderDolls, Slipknot, Get Scared, The Used, sometimes Will Wood, Jazmin Bean or Mother Mother, etc. ), or even occasionally gaming on my switch or reading and talk about Greek mythology. I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I’m guilty of being very submissive, and I suffer from asperger syndrome, depression and anxiety. I have small tics, but they only flare when I’m stressed or mad. Along with stims where I bite the inside of my cheek, pull my hair, fidget with my fingers and bounce my leg. I even hiss or squeal when I’m upset. I’ve also been developing a eating disorder. If you do get to this, thanks for your time. - coii

Of course, darling) Forgive me for making it so long time.

So, i thought to pair you with Raphael, but i don't think he's not who you need.

But I'll choose for you Donatello.

Tbh, he was a little bit surprised to see you watching these films, but lately he realized, how interesting it can be. But he will join you only if you ask him, though it's happening usually.

Gods, he loves the difference between your highs, and it would be really easily for him to get you on his hands and carry somewhere. If you want to read or draw, he will just put you on his knees and hold you close, doing his own business, also admiring your cuteness.

If you're going somewhere abandoned places, he will always come with you. He don't want you to get hurt, and he want to make sure everything is under control, that there is no any bandits or someone like that.

Donnie have s lot of patience, so he will used to hear sometimes from you some rude words, and, you know, he won't be offended about it. He knows your situation, so he understands it.

Well, honestly, he don't mind children, but he knows his brother, so he will calm or you, or Mikey down. If it's the first way, then he will pull you close to him, kiss in the temple, rub your shoulders and say something that will cool you.

Don always taking photo of you sleeping with toys, and happily will buy you every plushie thing that you'll like.

Oooh, Greek mythology. That's the most interesting mythology and he can make some very funny jokes, so he definitely will try to make you laugh, and your jokes will empress him. He won't be offended, but he will warn you about what you shouldn't make jokes.

You shouldn't feel guilty about being submissive, Don will care about you as much as possible, study everything about depression, Asperger's syndrome, eating disorders. And he will take the dominant position with no problem. You can rely on him with no doubts.

If you're really touch starved, oh, his fingers always will be on your waist, shoulders and wherever places you like, so he will take your touches with pleasure.

Well, that's all. Hope you liked that, darling. I read a little bit about your syndrome and i wish you a lot of powers to handle with it. It's not a curse, but not everyone can stand it. God bless you. See ya🖤

[dionysianfreak]

some spicy things I do in my practice because of ADHD

given that it's literally my brain, adhd takes over a lot of things in my life. it finds a way to wiggle into everything I do in both bad and good ways. it's just how it is being neurodivergent and it's just how life goes for me, but that doesn't mean it doesn't aid me in many ways. growing up we aren't taught about mental divergency. we're taught the abled and neurotypical way and that's it, but in truth neurodivergent people only struggle due to not having the resources to do things the way that'll let them work efficiently. so here is a list of ways my personal adhd effects my pagan practice and ways I incorporate it into my worship !

stimming

stimming ! i stim a LOT and sometimes, if the emotion I feel is strong enough, they turn to uncontrollable tics. this also means that when during things like rituals, I'll have to pause so I don't tic and ruin something. this is totally normal and okay ! I've never once had a problem with it, and the Gods just patiently waited for it to pass as it always does. we both know it's just something that happens and it's apart of me, it isn't something to be ashamed of or hide.

accepting stimming once I was diagnosed was also something I did as a devotional act to Dionysos ! instead of trying to mask or push down the urge to stim, I'd allow myself to just let it out. my stims vary between very overt to covert, and accepting the overt ones as normal was a feat worthy of devotion imo. you can also keep stim toys on your altar when you're not using them, if you wanted to.

time and schedules

consistent worship ????? never heard of her. same goes for offerings. sometimes I give 294894 offerings in a day and sometimes I've given one offering in a week, it just depends on my ever changing behavior. there's no need to be stuck on a schedule if you don't want to or even make one to begin with. when I first started out, I asked Hermès, Apollon, and Dionysos (who I worshipped at the time) if I should make a schedule and the no was so hard I haven't asked since. my worship is a part of my daily life, as just like I don't drive places every day I don't worship every day. both are still important in my life regardless if I'm actively doing it or not. if you stuggle with consistency, I urge you to speak with the Gods you worship and see if making things more fluid would help !

hyperfixation is also a pain in the ass sometimes, especially when it becomes something other than paganism. due to the free nature of my practice and that I've chosen to devote, it sometimes translates into "well I don't haveeee to do this" and suddenly poof, all the motivation is gone. it's VERY hard to come back when your brain is so wired on something else entirely, and I understand the feeling. during these times I personally do very small things to keep up. if I make dinner for myself, I'll offer a portion and eat with the Gods just to show that I'm participating even when I'm struggling to. the small things count.

RSD - Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria

my RSD is crippling in my life, and it's reach extends to paganism sometimes as well (if you're unaware, RSD is the extreme sensitivity to perceived rejection in any form). sometimes during readings I receive a card that I believe is saying something "negative". sometimes it's criticism, sometimes advice, sometimes it's a slap on the wrist, but no matter what it is in reality I'm at the mercy of my brain to interpret it. so this has lead to meltdowns, long depressive/anxious episodes, and crying fests when I think a deity is angry with me. it has gotten so bad before that delusions have appeared and made me believe false memories or feelings of hatred from the Gods.

it's so hard and I'm so sorry if anyone else has to deal with it. to help with this, I have to fight to remind myself that advice is not an attack. the Gods are trying to help me and, even if They were angry at me, I've made mistakes before and They've allowed me to grow from them. i also have a checklist of questions I ask myself to allow logic and reality back into my head. a few questions include "have i done anything recently that's worthy of anger from a God ?", "is this something that will last forever ?", and "is this a message that has something to teach me ?".

impulsiveness

ask most people with ADHD about being impulsive and you'll probably receive a nervous side glace. we're impulsive often, which can do a multitude of things in paganism. one, starting a devoting and never finishing it. i am SO guilty of this one, and it make me feel bad even now. i have plenty up unfinished plans, drawings, and other devotional items that look around and guilt me. I've been in this cycle for a year and I don't think I'll ever grow out of it, but from what I've noticed the Gods don't mind. doing some of a devotion is a wonderful feat, and the energy that took is a wonderful offering even if you don't finish it.

I'm sure other adhd people and probably some autistic people have been in the position of "I just discovered this new Deity and oh my god I NEED to worship them RIGHT NOW or I'll DIE". They're just SO COOL and you automatically feel a connection. then three weeks later you feel demotivated to worship Them and now you feel terrible about it. don't worry, me too. to help with this nowadays I personally honor for a bit then worship if the worship relationship doesn't involve any help between us. this is what I did with Pan, and it worked VERY well for me. i recognized our connection but I didn't feel the pressure to consistently worship Him.

back to the start of the second paragraph, if you're stuck in that situation just communicate with the Deity. it can be hard to admit you're wrong, especially with adhd. however, just sitting down and calling to Them to let them know how you feel and that you think you made a mistake is a huge communicative step !

demotivation

this. one. sucks. inbetween hyperfixations, being stressed out or anxious, going through a depressive episode, and more can cause very deep demotivation and loss of energy in people with ADHD and other disorders. sometimes I'll just lay in my floor with my headphones on for hours because I literally can't find the energy to get up. a lot of people worry that this directly conflicts with Paganism and would slow progress. i understand why it seems that way, especially since adhd is a very "GO FAST, DO THIS THING N O W" disorder. there's actually a few solutions here I can think of

devote your personal healing to the Gods as this can give your brain a "reward" and can help you personally feel better in many ways. after weeks without a shower, devote a bath to a Deity or maybe eat breakfast at Their altar if you haven't been eating much. allow Them to be your motivation

take a break entirely. paganism certrainly isn't a 24/7/365 commitment and your practice molds to your needs. if you're just absolutely knocked out and need rest, take a break. I've taken MANY breaks before. I've been forced on breaks too because the Gods noticed my mental health declining before I did. never feel ashamed for needing time for yourself

do multiple small things rather than big things. a little bit of your dinner when you eat, redecorate Their altar or space, listen to music that reminds you of Them, think of Them when you're out and about in case you see something. you can weave devotion into daily acts in order to reinforce mundane things you need to do and calm your mind about paganism.

and finally, miscellaneous list of other things I do that are too small for their own section.

if you need to keep track of divination readings, no need to write down every reading you've ever had in detail. you can voice record them as you go, take photos of the cards, or use apps like Labyrinthos that can act as a tarot log.

your altar doesn't need to look perfect, it should reflect your worship and your devotion to a Deity. this means if your altar looks like a mess, as mine ALWAYS do, it's perfectly okay ! clutter aesthetic altars are the most beautiful altars in my eyes, and they're so worthy of adoration. I've never once heard of a Deity disliking an altar, They appreciate our work to put in a space just for Them. let your altar look messy and wild as you want, altars don't need to be aesthetic or color coordinated

you see everywhere that many of us are devoted to one deity in particular or multiple, I fit in here too. i just wanted to say that you never have to devote to any Deity if you don't want to. you could worship when you need help from a specific Deity or worship a different deity every month. never feel like you have to tie yourself down just because other people feel comfortable doing so.

you don't have to celebrate every festival. it's okay to skip celebrations that don't really apply to you or are at an inconvenient time ! you could also reschedule if you find yourself wanting to celebrate but burnt out or busy.

[starboystation]

bestie. BESTIE. Charlie buddy chum pal amigo

Crutchie headcanons please *slides a plate of warm cookies across table* please.

((Oh and also I beg thee for help I don’t know which character todo next for the MLP au))

FALLS DOWN THE STAIRS. MY TIME HAS COME

These are very scatter-brained and I jump around to different topics a lot I apologize </3

He's a cat person but he also loves dogs!! To be fair he likes All animals

He's like a Disney princess yk animals just follow him around and he just goes along with it

He has a pet cat named Charlie Jr that he found in an alley and it didn't have a collar or anything and it was Small and Cold so obviously he had to take it home

AND THEN HE NOTICES IT'S MISSING A LEG AND HE'S JUST "!!!!!! HE'S LIKE ME" . SO OBVIOUSLY HE HAD TO TAKE IT HOME!!!!!!!!

So yeah he sneaks a cat into the lodge which doesn't really go over well but with enough begging and mild guilt tripping he gets to keep it <3

He's actually a very chill lil guy. Just sleeps all the time n sits by the windows in the sun . Baby boy

But he meows REALLY loud every time Crutchie has to leave in the mornings so on MULTIPLE occasions Crutchie has skipped a day of selling against his better judgement to stay back at the lodge w Charlie Jr

He has a comfort plushie named Nutmeg ! She's just like this super simple lil teddy bear that his mom gave to him before she uhh Died. And now it's very special to him and he takes her absolutely Everywhere

I think sometimes Buttons will make lil clothes for her and give em to Crutchie on his birthday or something. I just think it'd be cute ok <333333

Crutchie wears his hat backwards because Jack used to do that when they first met

And Crutchie being the dumb 8 year old he was looked up to Jack SO incredibly much and started doing the same thing. And he just never really Stopped because he still thinks it's really cool

He wears like 5 fucking shirts or whateva because he's TRANS, baby!!!!

Obviously there isn't really a safe way to bind in 1899 and given his already Not The Strongest immune system he opts to just layer up a ton to hide his chest!

He gets super overheated in the summer but it's ok because Gender Euphoria 👍 (that's a joke please take care of yourselves Mwah)

Along wITH THAT I think initially he didn't Know he was trans and just pretended to be a boy to hide his identity after he runs away from home (abusive dad and such)

And so he switches his name n pronouns and cuts his hair and dresses like a boy and then he's just "haha wait a minute"

And Jack had told him about being trans before because! Jack! Is also trans! And then Crutchie's just "OHHHHHHH SO I'M NOT A GIRL IN THE FIRST PLACE haha that's silly!"

I think he's nonbinary actually! Nonbinary boy specifically (we're nb boy and nb girl solidarity)

And I think he uses he/they pronouns but if neopronouns were mainstream in 1899 he'd probably hoard so many of them. Like ohmygod

IF XENOGENDERS WERE A THING IN 1899 AS WELL I THINK HE'D GO BATSHIT OVER THEM /POS

Anyway enough of my xenogender neoprn user Crutchie nonsense

He's autistic because I said so! But he's definitely "gifted student" autistic if you know what I mean (yes I am once again projecting)

He had a few years of education when he was younger, before his mom got sick and they couldn't really Afford school anymore, so he knows how to read and write and stuff and he Excelled at it

He never really got to the point of Gifted Student Burnout because he only had a few years in school but! He definitely felt the Overwhelming Expectations (that .. also goes along with the abusive dad and such :"))

ANYWAY I think him and Jack are adhd/autistic solidarity and I just KNOW they stim together nonstop. Because are you REALLY besties if you don't stim together /lhj

Along with the topic of nd stuff! He has tics !

Most of his tics are motor tics because of Anxiety but he has a few vocal tics sometimes

(Yes I'm projecting again Help Me)

OH ALSO NOW THAT I BROUGHT UP ANXIETY,, HE IS SO MENTALLY ILL I won't go into detail about that even though I would LOVE to but basic rundown is.

He's Very mentally ill and depressed and he thinks everyone hates him and everyone's gonna abandon him but he just . Pretends he's fine because he doesn't wanna be a burden or anything HELP

He feels like he's already enough of a burden because of his disability and General Insecurity and he doesn't want to worry anyone more with his problems yk.

(Yes this is mostly projection as well! I really need a fucking therapist! /lh)

OH OH he's queerplatonic and in a qpr with Jack! I just think it's neat 👉👈

He had those Feelings for Jack for the longest time but he never said anything because he was just like

"WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS I wanna kiss him and cuddle him and hold his hand but it's not like.. no I don't want him to be my boyfriend but not just my friend either like I wouldn't wanna marry him but I want him to look at me like he looks at those other girls so bad but but it's not that I want him to crush on me like that it's just-"

LIKE. HE'S SO CONFUSED. ALL THE TIME

And I think one time they're on the rooftop at like idk 2 am and they're both sleep deprived and Crutchie just brings it up offhand and Jack's just like "lol same"

They've been qpps ever since. Yeah.

OK SORRY THATS A BAD CUTOFF BUT I HAVE SAID TOO MANY WORDS. Thank u for letting me infodump though this was so fun actually omg /gen

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Teeth || Demetri Volturi x Reader ||

A request from @volturidoll13 that is continued from this headcanon right here ——-> Demetri Reacting to a Stimming Reader <——-. I hope I’ve done you justice once more with this one chickadee :D </b>

Part 2: This fic

Part 3: Control (fic)

Warnings: TW for anxiety. Readers stimming will stem from anxiety, if you are having a rough time with yours right now be careful reading this one, and please know you’re not alone! I guess maybe a warning for biting to? There’s some biting going on.

Words: 2620

Summary: It’s been a little over two months since Demetri discovered your stimming. He’s remained vigilant ever since, keeping your anxiety at bay with a whole host of tips and tricks he’s learned over the course of your time together. The one thing he cannot stop is the march of time, and yours is running out fast…

You weren’t sure what had made you so nervous back then, why Demetri finding about your autism was such a big deal, why you were so afraid your stimming would be an issue between you both, that your anxiety and it’s side effects would somehow ruin his perception of you. In reality, telling Demetri the whole truth had been the best thing you had ever done. His sensitivity was astounding to you, because he really was diligent in checking in with you and keeping things as calm as possible in your now shared room – your baths had become a now weekly occurrence. He never treated you like you were made of porcelain either despite all his little interventions, no, he whole-heartedly encouraged your every attempt to explore and integrate yourself into the Volturi with your new found confidence, but when you needed the support he was always prepared.

Your newfound confidence came with a price.

After just a week of venturing out of your shared room you had been called to the throne room, a terrifying moment in itself given you had met them only once before to explain why you hadn’t been bleeding out with the rest of your tour group on the floor, and Aro had taken your hand with a sickly smile before joyfully exclaiming something in Italian you had had no idea how to go about translating. That was two months ago, and now you had only a single month left to live before you joined them in their immortality, perpetually frozen as you were, never moving forward, never evolving. The concept was terrifying given the stories you’d heard of newborns. You didn’t want to hurt people or be that volatile little newborn who became violent on a whim. You didn’t want to feel the inferno in your throat begging you to commit unspeakable acts of cruelty against a race you were currently still apart of.

A month left of mortality.

A month left before you became someone entirely new.

Felix’s sudden grunt snapped you out of that particular reverie, and you blinked at the bright sunlight invading your eyes despite the shade you had situated yourself in under a twisted old red maple, planted in Didyme’s honour oh so long ago and still going strong thanks to Aro’s tender loving care. They had chosen to sit beneath the branches simply because it made their skin sparkle less, which was far easier on your eyes and far less distracting since you had a tendency to try and rub off Demetri’s sparkles, like they were glitter on his skin you could just remove. Jane was smiling at your giant friend, whose teeth were clenched tight before he suddenly relaxed and shot her a glare.

“Now now children play nicely.” Demetri chided from beside you. He’d been sat a while, smoothly redirecting conversation from you when he saw your attention falter. You had been zoning in and out a lot the past few days, your mind clearly elsewhere. He’d kept half an eye on you as the twins debated a book they’d been reading the past week, Felix teasing them as was his usual manner until Jane caved to the temptation to cripple him with her trademarked glare. You clearly were not okay, but you hadn’t come to him to say as such just yet, so he’d not pressured you into talking. Perhaps after this afternoon he should? You usually jumped at any chance you got to spend time with them all, enjoying the social interaction after the long days you spent either studying Italian or with them absent performing duties you would soon help them undertake.

“What do you think Y/N? You said you’d read The Hunger Games before, what do you think of the idea that the death of Primrose is symbolic of the death of the last of Katniss’s innocence?” Alec questioned. The boy was equally as perceptive as Demetri, having found himself insatiably curious since the day Demetri had quietly spoken with them about it to ensure they didn’t harass you, and consequently had gone on to read everything he could get his hands on about your condition. It was painfully obvious to all of them your head wasn’t in the conversation but none of them brought it up, instead finding ways to lead you seamlessly back into the group when you wandered off. Your brows furrowed as you tried to think over Alec’s question, but your mind was pulled in too many directions at once. You were so focused on the dark thoughts swirling around your future immortality that your mind struggled to conjure the image of the book cover, never mind its contents.

“Erm…I don’t really…she lost it way before that.” You stumbled your way through the answer and it was audible to everyone there the way your teeth clanked together when your jaw clenched. You did your best not to flinch as Demetri cast you a concerned glance. You’d been doing that a lot, your teeth gnashing and grinding as you clenched your jaw over and over. It was a tic he had seen before, though not quite as frequently as this, and it set alarm bells ringing in his head as a thousand articles and memories hit him full force. Alec hummed, not looking entirely like he agreed with you while Jane grinned, triumph in her eyes.

“Ha! See brother, I told you!” she didn’t seemingly notice the way you flinched, teeth gnashing audibly once more at her exclamation. Alec’s face was immediately taken over by a scowl, and the pair were bickering once more while Felix watched on with obvious amusement. Demetri had given you his sole attention instead, tuning out their argument to instead take notice of the way the muscles in your jaw moved, your gaze distant and entirely unfocused as you lost yourself to your thoughts again. He didn’t actually think you were aware of the way your hand moved until he gently snatched it mid-air. You blinked, staring uncomprehendingly at the frozen fingers clasped around your wrist, centimetres from your open mouth that you quickly snapped closed. Demetri made no comment after that, sliding his hand up to intertwine your fingers together and squeeze your palm lightly.

You squeezed back with a weak smile, mentally already berating yourself for your behaviour. You hadn’t even noticed you were about to bite yourself but now you had you could feel the way your jaw ached, the entire lower part of your jaw tense from the amount your stimming had overworked it that afternoon. Demetri soothingly ran his thumb in circles over your knuckles but even his cool touch wasn’t enough to drag you from your misery today. You had less than a month to live and there was so much you wouldn’t get to do after that. You had always wanted to travel to try some of your favourite foods in their home contexts – you could only imagine how good authentic Chinese food would taste. You wanted to sleep in a five-star hotel just to see what a memory foam mattress might do to improve your sleep.

It was all trivial stuff (you were painfully aware since Caius had told you so when you’d brought it up) but they were simple things for your bucket list, you dared not even consider the big dreams you had because they would be impossible once you were-

“Ah ah ah.” Demetri caught your hand again. He still held one in his grip but the other had whipped up to make it’s way into your mouth. You completely disregarded his warning, a burning need inside of you driving your head forward in an effort to clamp your teeth around your finger, sure in the knowledge it would bring some relief if you could manage it. Demetri didn’t let you, and your head quickly turned for his hand instead. He didn’t comment when your teeth almost broke trying to break through his skin. You immediately recoiled, both horrified and mortified at what you had done, but despite the fact you wouldn’t meet his eyes, Demetri pulled you close to his chest and kissed the top of your head.

“I’m sorry, I-“

“What have I told you about apologising to me about this?” he tutted, lifting your chin with one of his index fingers. He quickly had to let go when your hand flashed up to your mouth again, desperate to chew down on something.

“To stop apologising. Sor-er…I…” you cringed, the apology ready to fall from your lips but your fear of disappointing him latching it’s claws into you and making you bite down on your tongue instead.

“You never need to apologise to me for this my love, I love every part of you, even the parts of you you struggle to love yourself.” Demetri assured you quietly. Your teeth began to grind once more because what if he didn’t see you that same way after your change? What if your crimson eyes and still heart were abhorrent to him since he revered your human-self so much?

“Can we go?” you mumbled, your head spinning with all the worrisome thoughts tumbling about it. Demetri searched your face briefly as he nodded, very well aware that this wasn’t something he could encourage you to keep fighting and you needed to tap out now and recover.

“Of course. Excuse us you three.” He glanced to them briefly, knowing they’d have heard your quiet conversation anyway so to lie would be pointless. You couldn’t bring yourself to look at them, too embarrassed by your stimming today to meet their eyes. You’d bitten your vampire mate in front of them, after all.

“Thank you.” You mumbled, keeping your head down as you walked along beside him. Demetri hadn’t let go of one of your hands, squeezing gently every now and then to try and encourage you to channel your anxiety into your hand instead of your mouth. Perhaps he ought to buy you a stressball? You’d liked the last one, though it had disappeared somewhere around the castle and sadly, his gift only worked on people and not tracking down inanimate objects.  

“Don’t thank me yet, might I give you some advice?” he enquired. You looked up at him, your expression inviting him warily to speak, though you weren’t sure what he could add since this was your lived experience, and one he had only read about. “As you go to bite down open your mouth a fraction wider, it will allow you to clamp your teeth into a wider surface area and hold your prey stiller.” He advised, half a smirk dancing on his lips. He was failing abysmally at trying to hide it.

“I – excuse me?” you were somewhat astonished he’d given you advice on how to bite yourself better. What happened to your caring mate? The one who did his best to help you calm your anxiety. The one who held your hand on nights it felt like you couldn’t breathe?

“I thought it would be sound advice,” he said, giving up on his efforts now to fight back his smirk, “As my little vampire in training, you need to know how to bite down properly. If I had been your prey just now I would have easily escaped, and you would be left hungry.” You stopped stock still, eyes bugging a bit in your head as your brain just…stopped working.

“What…did you just call me?” you asked. Demetri had walked on ahead as if nothing was wrong, but he paused to turn back towards you now with a shit-eating grin on his face, crimson eyes sparkling.

“My little vampire in training. Unless of course, you would prefer puppy? They chew on things to, no?” he tilted his head at you while your jaw dropped. Just for a brief moment there was clarity in your head, the sheer absurdity of his comment punching through all your anxious thoughts. You felt you should be insulted, was it an insult? Coming from someone other than Demetri maybe it would be but this was the man who listened to every little thought in your head, wiped away every tear and held you while you cried. No, Demetri could never do you harm, whether it was with words or fists he was bound to protect you always, he was incapable of insulting you meaningfully.

“Your little – Demetri!” you scolded. God did your jaw ache. He chuckled.

“Alright alright forgive me…though can I say, I feared your bite far more than Felix’s.” he held out his hand to you and you automatically sidled up to slip your palm against his, Demetri turning you both back in the direction of your shared room before you began to walk once more.

“Felix’s has bitten you?” you asked, your curiosity sparked.

“Oh yes. You see, when I first joined the Guard Felix was assigned to my combat training. He won every round. I, however, am a quick learner, and once I began to pick up his teachings I won my first spar against him quite easily…and the one after that, and the one after that…he gets bitey when he loses.” He revealed. You bit your lip, fighting back a smile as you imagine the hulking man tossed onto his back by your own, lithe tracker. It was a funny enough sight in itself, but adding the image of him lunging with teeth barred to gnaw on your mate was even funnier. It should have been frightening but you knew the gentle giant too well to think he would ever attack his comrades with any malicious intent.

“Alec best watch his back then, he’s getting close to Felix’s high score on Crash Bandicoot.” You mused. Demetri snorted briefly.

“Yet another fun story…Alec once locked himself in his room for three whole days when Jane picked up one of his games and completed a level he’d been stuck on for weeks on her first try.” He told you. Your smile grew a little wider, stretching across your face as you imagined the calmer witch twin throwing said hissy fit. Demetri continued his stories long after you entered your room, laying on his side with you opposite him as he regaled you with one story after another. Aro had once dropped a book on his foot after a late night of studying, looked around to ensure nobody had seen, and stuffed it back on the shelf so fast he had placed it back upside down. Jane had a beautiful singing voice but had been startled so badly by Felix interrupting her once she’d slipped right up the scale on the last word and tortured poor Felix for a whole hour straight for ruining her song.

Story after story you listened, enraptured by his smooth baritone while he played with your hair, soothing your turbulent mind as you focused on his words and his words alone. You might wake up tomorrow and find you were once more trapped in the cycle of anxiety that you were hard-pressed to escape one it got you in it’s clutches, or maybe this blessed moment of relief would last and tomorrow you would be free once more for a little bit longer until the next moment something you felt was too big too manage came along. For today, Demetri had lulled you to sleep against his side, your breathing slow and even for the first time that day. Whatever you had to face next, whatever challenges might come your way, you knew on your worst days Demetri would always be with you to help you overcome them, armed with all the latest mummyblog advice for you to rebuke.

[stimmedtavi]

about me!

hey!! are u interested in who i am? that's pretty cool :D here's some info on me.

first here's my carrd

here's some other stuff about me: - yes i use sea/seaself but you don't have to use those pronouns for me, i don't mind as long as you don't refer to me as it/it's and she/her - i kin! my highest kin is octane and i don't really enjoy having personal contact with doubles. if u just rlly like octane i don't mind that at all but if you are also someone who has tav as your highest kins i'd feel most comfortable if you didn't message me directly or anything. kind of stupid and this sort of fluctuates but eh it's my account so.. - if you write serious nsfw about tavi on tumblr i do not feel comfortable with you interacting with my posts. i'm 16 meaning i'm underaged and i feel extremely uncomfortable when nsfw blogs rb posts of mine with something... ""interesting"" as either the tags or the caption. - that being said JOKES abt nsfw stuff are hilarious to me. as long as you aren't someone who writes massive fics about octane getting dicked down to hell i do not care!! - if you write r/pe, inc/est or b//stiality fics do not come near this blog. do not ever talk to me or interact. i fucking despise you and you make me angrier than you know. - in the past i've said that i won't write for trans octane because as a trans person talking ab dysphoria triggers my own. this still stands true but i don't take it so seriously anymore. if requested i will write for him, if not then it most likely won't happen. - i'm open for all requests as long as they are nsfw and not triggering. i write heavy angst sometimes but i'm never going to write something that has serious offenses like sa or r/pe because as i've stated previously it makes me angry. - self shippers with octane are fine to interact but i think maybe i should make it clear since i'm a kinnie i don't want to rp w you.. i had that happen in a discord server once it was kind of odd. didn't enjoy.

ok swag now that that big. thing is over here comes me and my apex stats!

APEX STUFF!! mains: octane (obvi), crypto, lifeline, wattson characters i also feel comfortable playing: revenant, loba, horizon - started playing in season 4 - i used to only get to play 2-3 times a week bcs i only had a console at my papas - i now have a second account at my mamas so on that account i'm only level 10 or so but at my papas i'm level 311 or smthn dumb like that users: stimmedtavi and onjahelijah kdr: it isn't very good lol.. i think it's .56 rn (it's a work in progress i promise T-T) fav loadout: r301 and wingman can i carry? if by carry you mean get your banner after you die bcs i'm terrified of everything than yes!! precaution to playing apex with me: i have severe anxiety and get overwhelmed very quickly, i will most likely not play with mic on due to this. if we play together more often i will probably turn mic on but then again it's distracting for me. i am very good at pinging things tho so communication is no issue! when i do have my mic on you may hear me ticcing or stimming in the background bcs my mic is shitty and oversensitive.. just ignore it lol sorry. you might also hear my teeth chattering bcs i shake a lot when i play apex still nsbdkv this is mostly why i don't play on mic apart from the fact i sound like a little baby. i'm still not super good at this game but i play for fun, not to win. i like this game a lot but if you're sweaty i'm not the teammate for you so don't add me if you're expecting a lot lol. this is long sorry i just don't want to disappoint someone with my lack of Epic Gamerness.

[solarcitymelodies]

Wowza sorry y'all about the random massive Rockafire spam, I'm pretty sure ??most?? People on here? know me for just Knight Rider because that's the only thing I've ever REALLY posted about--

but I Do Not Care it's RAE hours right now so uhhh here's some headcannons that probably aren't Canon compliant very much because I just got into RAE like last week

So like. I feel like Mitzi is a Good Amount younger than the rest of the band like she was in highschool when she joined, the rest of em were all Adults™ and she was a little bit nervous about it because...... ADULTS™

She was just lookin for a place to get her singing voice out there, because ya girl REALLY wanted to perform, and showbiz happened to have a slot open, but she did not expect all of the members to be older than her (although looking back, she realized she probably should have expected that)

It was intimidating at first but Billy Bob and Fatz were just the absolute sweetest and they introduced her properly to the rest of the band because she was like "oh I barely talk to them because I get nervous :(" and the resident dads p much said "aight we can do all the talking for you then, how about that?" And badabing badaboom she's now attached to these two and like honestly who isn't or maybe that's just me but ANYWAYS I feel like the band would become a second home/safe space for her

Yeah fr some reason I have BIG long headcannon for her joining the band but the rest of them? Nobody knows how they got there for all I know they just Showed Up One Day

Also I came across this

https://youtu.be/UU7BeUWQBDI

Which got me thinkin about what my headcannons were as far as sexuality/gender stuff

And I find the concept of Billy Bob being Very Much Straight And Ignorant but trying his hardest to be a good ally SO funny like if someone came out to him he'd probably be like "oh!! I don't understand why you would choose that lifestyle but I respect you!!" not realizing how incredibly stupid he sounds sjkrjh like I don't think he can very easily wrap his head around how people are just. not cishet. so he's like "OH then it must be a choice, right? like you can choose to be gay but you're born straight. Right?" and everyone just shakes their heads in the background but he does earnestly try his best and my man would rather DIE than disrespect someone's pronouns I know this for sure

Fatz is pretty similar, straight ally and a lil confused but he's got the spirit, you know? He still least knows being gay (as well as,,, m o s t sexualities that aren't straight, although some he doesn't get/know about at all) isn't a choice but he hasn't quite grasped that being trans is also not a choice. He will respect your pronouns to hell and back but by god he doesn't get it,,, he's trying though and he feels very accomplished in himself that he's starting to get the hang of using they/them even though he slips up a lot

The rest of the band encourages the HELL out of these two because they're. Trying their best and making an honest effort which is more than a pretty good chunk of people would give

Rolfe, Earl, and Dook are the reasons Billy Bob and Fatz are trying so hard to understand it lmao

Rolfe took it upon himself to hang up a MASSIVE gay pride flag backstage, being the flaming homosexual that he is, and the rest of the squad quickly realized "oh he's GAY gay he wasn't kidding" because at first they literally thought he was joking as he was actually just being openly and obnoxiously a raging mlm (and like I mean no shade to him this isn't me tryna to make fun of it because my dumb sapphic ass almost crashed my car once because I saw a pretty girl walk down the street. And by "once" I mean. Yesterday.) Anyways yeah that's when the rest of em Realized and were like "OH" but after the massive pride flag was hung up that prompted Dook to come out and they were all like "???? YOU TOO????"

Dook is a non-binary ICON he's a demiboy and goes by both he/him and they/them and probably would have a bunch of pride pins I think,,, I'm not really sure of his sexuality though!! honestly he kinda gives me bisexual vibes but Who Knows . Not me. He has a HELL of a time trying to explain his gender to the rest of the band (except for Rolfe because like. He's a part of the community so he knows) and basically he was met with "so you're just a dude but ✨spicy✨?" and it was like, "no, but I have no idea how to explain it in a way that will make sense to you, so. yes?" And that explanation seemed to suffice for most of them

Mitzi went in knowing NOTHING about what being non-binary was so she asked a l o t of questions about it, which Dook just kinda dealt with answering (he's heard most of it before, and it gets tiring after a while. if you're nb or trans or honestly any part of LGBTQ+ you know what I mean) but he thought it was really sweet of her to be so determined to learn about it and eventually she did get a grasp on it ish, so she was able to understand why it wasn't just ✨spicy male✨ (the conversation pretty much went "well if i was just male, don't you think I would label myself that way instead?" "....oH TRUE!!!") and she ended up a VERY passionate ally, and she'll ask occasionally about how to be better at it, bein a queen as she is 👉👉 also definitely started questioning her sexuality after a while and just went with "maybe bicurious" and Rolfe, Dook, and Earl were all like "ONE OF US, ONE OF US"

Earl has never once spoken about his sexuality in his life, because 1. He's very aware that's an awkward conversation to have with a puppet, and 2. He's aroace anyways, which is basically what people assume even if they don't realize it just for their own peace of mind, because seriously, puppets and any identity that ISN'T aroace creates a really uncomfortable mental image for... Most people, pretty much. So it's not like he ever needed to say anything about it, which is convenient for him because he wouldn't want to say anything either way. not worth the risk of embarrassing himself and making everyone feel awkward

(side note ish though Rolfe 100% came out to Earl first and was met with "I already knew that but okay." Rolfe was mildly offended)

And spEAKING OF EARL he's VERY much sentient but he can't say he's particularly enthusiastic about it because Rolfe has to carry him around everywhere

He can move on his own but it's limited and generally annoying to maneuver around with his tiny body so he just says screw it half the time and stays on Rolfe's arm or hitch a ride on Random Object, but like... Yeah, the majority of the time Rolfe just has to deal with only having one arm available and a puppet directly next to him making fun of him at every possible chance

They high-key have chaotic and unorganized college roommate vibes (like they're actually roommates because... Where tf is Earl supposed to go?? So Rolfe took him in) and idk if this is really like a part of my headcannons or if I just think it's funny so I keep entertaining the idea of it but I think it would be Fantastic if Rolfe had no idea how to cook but Earl somehow did so this idiot is trying to take instructions from a puppet, who can't physically show him what to do, and it's like Hell's Kitchen live featuring a furry and a sentient stuffed animal

Aaaaamd going off of my Rolfe and Earl headcannons still Rolfe for SURE has some sort of executive dysfunction issue. ADD or ADHD I'm not sure (probably ADHD) but he definitely has it also this totally isn't just me projecting how dare you accuse me of that

And!!! More about Dook!!!! I don't know how or why I thought up of this but I cannot possibly imagine him any other way now-- he's autistic and space is his Big Huge special interest, and if you ever ask him about it you have to be prepared to get infodumped or possibly even shown a PowerPoint presentation, because GOD he loves space!!! He wants everyone to know all about it!! He knows not everyone thinks it's as cool as he does so he tries to keep his mouth shut but when someone asks about it he can't help himself and will infodump a LOT, also haha drumming stims go brrrr, playing the drums isn't really a stim but he likes to just take his drumsticks and whack em around in the air and get that good ol Wavy Arm Action (wavy arms is best stim change my mind you can't it's GOOD)

Also i bbbbelieve earlier I reposted somethin about someone else headcannoning that he has echolalia, which I don't really know enough about to say anything on it?? But even if he doesn't have echolalia he'd probably repeat phrases over and over until he gets tired of them (which is,,, something I do lmao, it's either memes I get stuck in my head or things I've heard from various medias I like the inflections in (like one tiktokker I saw was talking about their tourettes and their vocal tics and one of them was "uh oh! How unfortunate!" and now I CAN'T STOP SAYING IT)) but like uhhh yeah :))) repeating phrases that get stuck in your head for various reasons for the win

This is already really long so I'm just gonna vibe out thanks for coming to my Ted talk feel free to ask questions I probably won't be able to answer a lot of em though because my headcannons are a Mess hehe >:)

[sunriseindigo]

001 - any fandom you like!

i’ve seen a lot of people do sdra2 so imma do dra because my god i have some takes for that >=D

Favorite character:

miss kurokawa!!!!! yamato ayame and kinji are also major comfort characters too!!

Least Favorite character:

mitch :) u should understand why :)

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

in no specific order,,, uh satsuyame, reikako, otohiko, tsuhara anddddd reikane!!! hatamori and makitai are really great too 

Character I find most attractive:

the ultimate exorcist, spinter, sniper, and professor

Character I would marry:

黒川 美佳子 :3

Character I would be best friends with:

literally all of sunshine trio!! they’re super cool and i would like to hang out with them... same with yamato!! we can stim and tic together :D

kanata and kakeru are really pog... u know it would be such a shame if they uh. adopted me haha would that be crazy or what....

a random thought:

hey why tf hasn’t this game been fully translated yet. it’s been five years since this game was completed. what are we doing

An unpopular opinion:

dra (hear me out) is better character and fandom wise compared to sdra2. the amount of experiences that i’ve dealt (especially negative) being in the sdra2 fandom is literally pushing me to the limits to the point where i’m considering moving to the dra fandom entirely. 

My Canon OTP:

i mean,, the only canon ship in dra is satsuhiko and that’s a discomfort ship for me soo none????

My Non-canon OTP:

r-reikako and tsuhara *cries*

Most Badass Character:

쿠로카와 미카코 and kinji too!!! like holy shit!!!

Most Epic Villain:

is utsuro a villain??? idk i don’t really feel that attached to him so akane!!

Pairing I am not a fan of:

well you see i don’t want to be hunted for sport so you can uh... go check out my about me page!!! i need to update it again cuz i forgot stuff (again) so yeah!!

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):

tsurugi and kizuna... oh my god u two deserve so much better omg what the hell. what the ffuck

Favourite Friendship:

i mean mikako tsurugi and yamato are friends right??? i want to see more friendship content about them..... also sunshine trio makes me really really happy so :D

Character I most identify with:

akane, kinji and kiyoka.... yes i am fully aware that i am mentally unstable....

Character I wish I could be:

hmmm maybe kanata!!!! she’s really kind and friendly and aahskagekg she’s also a major comfort character!!! satsuki too becuz i’m emotionally attached to her too and cute clowns make me go <3

[omegatheace]

things I do that made me realize I’m definitely not neurotypical

- Continuously winking my right eye because it feels weird (is it a nervous tic? a stim? please help I can’t stop doing it in front of people unintentionally)

- Running fingers over eyelashes to remove loose ones and blow them away

- Getting on SSBU Spirit Board and staring at it until it refreshes every 5 minutes and I get to see ten more characters I’ve never heard of

- Open the fridge. Close the fridge. Open the pantry. Close the pantry. Maybe there’s waffles in the freezer. No waffles. No box meals either. Nothing to eat in the freezer. Have I had ice cream today? Yes I have, I probably shouldn’t have another bowl. Look for something healthy in the pantry. Look for something healthy in the fridge. Eat an entire bell pepper. Well that’s my veggie for the day, now I can have more sugar. Eat five cookies

- Open photos app. Close photos app. Check Discord. The one chat I’m in has no new activity. Open photos app. Click on photo I’ve hyperfixated on this week. Stare at it. Close photos. Open photos. Look for new memes. I haven’t looked at any memes. Close photos. Open ph

- *Duke Nukem voice* “Damn it. I’ve been banned from Dave n’ Busters.”

- mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mother 3 mot

- “kuma kuma kuma kuma kuma kuma kumatoraaa”

- apple bottom jeans boots with the fur with the fur

- I have to take a walk. I do not care that it is 12:45 AM, 5 degrees Fahrenheit and pitch black out. I Have to Walk. Move my Feet. Smell the Air. Outside.

- “Gotta turn on a video because I cannot physically concentrate without some sort of background noise” (concentrates for one minute too long) “shit I haven’t been paying attention to my video I gotta start it over”

- I have to shower before 10:30. Don’t worry it’s only 9. Watch someone play a video game. Don’t leave the room in case you miss anything cool. They get off. It’s 11:45. I am Filthy and I must deal with that now.

- exfoliate my skin with the goldfish crumbs in my bed

- is there a Cat in this room? stop everything you’re doing. smother cat

- listen to Cabinet Man on repeat for five hours so I can play out my hypothetical AMV in my head

- “Oh yeah that show seems like something I’d really enjoy, I’ll have to check it out sometime” *doesn’t watch anything because I don’t want to turn off my music*

- I had a wild ass medicine-induced dream last night and I feel like a completely different person after acquiring this forbidden knowledge

- *astral projects for three hours* oh shit this is the best thing I’ve ever seen did I actually draw this - *stares at drawing for five seconds too long* I hate it. Disgusting.

- you gotta pop your wrist. you gotta. satisfying. good sound. wiggle u hand

- yeah I really have to piss and my blood sugar is so low that I cannot sit still but I Have To Finish This

- if I can’t hug this fictional character in the next thirty seconds i am going to cry

- *tries to look as queer as possible in front of my family instead of actually coming out*

- *gives 2-finger salute for no reason at all and to no one in particular because it increases my internalized charisma stat*