#of... forgetting the pain too
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drawings from paleo expedition to dagestan, done right on the trip. sometimes messy when it was cold and rainy, but i won't correct it. i think it's cool to leave it just the way it was done, and not retouch it after. there will be more drawings later, but those will be done from home
#i need to draw for 2 museums at least to then send it to them as a gift cuz people there were so nice???? AAAA#and yeah im definitely doing back#maybe in autumn... who knows#barghestland#art#artists on tumblr#and#paleoart#???#in a way it is i guess#also i usually don't share things from my sketchbook. but these drawings hold so many nice memories#of clouds that hide top of the mountains#of sitting on a rock#drawing and seeing a scorpion vibing next to u (tiny friend!)#of leaning on a big cow and almost falling asleep on a field with her after the rain#of... forgetting the pain too#of not wanting to even talk about the wonderful time i've had. because it was only for me to remember#so much happened up in the mountains that i'll never forget#thank u big rocks and soil and grass and apricot trees i love you#...#paleoland#fieldbook_barghest_land
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THE FISTBUMP STILL LIVES!!! but through... exchanging blows...
#transformers#maccadam#my art#transformers fanart#megatron#optimus prime#megop#tf one#transformers one#you ever get so excited you accidentally high five your friend too hard#so then youre both holding your hands like#ow.#and for a moment your brains blank out cause of the pain#that yall forget what you were so excited about in the first place#i like to imagine they forgot why they were fighting at that moment
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hello, sekai! 🌎💫☘️💿🎪🎼


it's a good movie sir
#i made this as stickers to give out at the movie! saw it yesterday :)#i'll be giving them out at anime north as well ^_^#came to canada this month. it was soUEUEUEUEUEUE its good Okay ok#i cosplayed tsukasa since it was his borthday yesterday. wore the birthday girl pin. of course#project sekai#pjsk#prsk#proseka#hatsune miku#ichika hoshino#minori hanasato#kohane azusawa#tsukasa tenma#kanade yoisaki#colorful stage#kowareta sekai to utaenai miku#Going in cosplay was really funny. also hit up the japanese arcade first to play taiko. shoutout to the people there who compliment me#and then i turned around and they were wearing tsukasas casual outfit and had a pjsk itabag. and then said they were going to the movie too#Small city(INCORRECT BUZZER)#THE MOVIE WAS SO NICE:) no spoilers but i liked that lots of vocaloid producers were involved it warmed my heart. i love you miku#i was kind of worried abt people being disruptive there was only like 1 or two screams. However at the preshow ads when peppa pig showed up#everyone fucking SCREAMED and clapped i was cryung. Peak#lots of cosplayers n awesome people :) and my bestest friend dressed as ichika playing movie thestre arcade basketball.#Peace and love#WILDCATS X DHOWTIME GOTTA GET MY HEAD IN THE GAME#i havent rlly been playing the actual game much kinda busy but also my wrist was in a lot of pain it made me sad#i cant really tier or play the charts i like to anymore but i love my clowns. Dont talkabout world link 2 O K#sorry for posting this on data on the bus i'll forget if i dont
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Iconic trio (quator)
#genshin impact#genshinimpact#mualani#kinich#kachina#mualani genshin#kinich genshin#kachina genshin#kuhul ajaw#sORRY IF I AM NOT ACTIVE i have exam.....#i have some doodles to post too but I tend to forget them sob#learning is fun but exam is pain 😭😭#calling ajaw a parasite is /affectionate#i need to finish natlan archon quest... 😞#kachina is so cute with her big eyes i love her#mualani calling them babies but kinich is actually the mom friend in the group
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On Grief
or, On the Best Friend You Met in Middle School who will Never Graduate College
giuliano macca / wendell berry / janice / kate elizabeth russell / langston hughes / benjamin alrie saenz / gustav klimt / @ whitealbum / @ robertszombie / beau taplin / stephen king / theodor kittelsen / @ nebulaahh / arch budzar (taylor swift) / @ inanotherunivrse / unknown / @ nebulaahh
#i compiled this while sobbing on the floor of a hotel bathroom#i made my original post and broke down#then realized other people have probably said these things too#and when we have pain we can share it so maybe that sharing can hold someone else who is sobbing on a bathroom floor too#on grief#on death#on loss#on friendship#on memory#on forgetting#web weaving#web weave#poetry#g <3
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“Dain is just an imperfect 21-year-old kid who trusted his dad, and is a little over-protective telling his chronically ill friend to sit the fuck down.”
#Rebecca Yarros#Dain Aetos#pro Dain Aetos#REBECCA SAID SO#The Empyrean#Onyx Storm#Fourth Wing#Iron Flame#Rebecca Yarros quotes#The Empyrean series#can’t wait for Empyrean 4#look I get it I had my phase too#but by the end of IF I’m just sad for him#OS was cruel to all#and re-reads are just painful#and yes I love him with Sloane#but I never hated him (I liked him in FW & wanted to LOVE him but it wasn’t right in the pov lens at the time… he’s learning too & TRYING).#and IF he picks Violet & goes to kill Varrish. He leaves EVERYTHING for the right thing. Hell in OS he translated for the nightgown lmao.#and then you reread and I just feel for (well all of them) but him too#He got his slap the fandom had their feels as did Violet now let’s move on and see them as full characters; cause he’s a great one.#and now I’m full pro Dain#As the interviewer said: “We all have some Dain in us.”#And yes (being a chronically ill person) there are people we love that say “sit the fuck down” and were like “stop it!”#but it doesn’t mean we don’t love them anymore.#“& yes he invaded her privacy but so did Xaden & yall don’t seem to mind that— IS IT BECAUSE HE’S HOT?! Cause that’s a double standard!”#Also lmao whoever said Dain wasn’t hot; did you forget the almost friends to lovers hook? More importantly ENEMIES TO LOVERS#“Gods don’t I know it”?! … We sure the man isn’t a dragon cause that line is fire🤣#the only thing he did wrong was invading her privacy (and yes on rereads that hurts) but it was his dad; he didnt know; he carries enough OK#I love Dain! Rebecca said she LOVES DAIN!! “I LOVE DAIN!”#this post better age well & not betray me
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Delicious in Dungeon PV 3 | The Canaries
#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#mithrun#cithis#lycion#otta#fleki#pattadol#tansu floke#cithis ofri#mithrun of the house of kerensil#dungeon meshi spoilers#delicious in dungeon spoilers#every time i forget what a pain colouring anime is#so this is too messy for my proper blog#but. mithrun.... <3#i cant wait for his fight scenes#also his voice is sooo good hsdfsdhf
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Cobra Kai | 6.15
#cobra kai#lawrusso#ckedit#cobrakaiedit#efedits#johnny lawrence#daniel larusso#i've been kinda mia lately but i'm here!!! made these like a month ago and i keep forgetting to post them sooooooo. here you go#insane scene. no words. but the biggest pain in the ass to make it look good#it has been giffed already by a lot of wonderful gifmakers here but i wanted to gif it so bad too hbrdfhcb#hope you like these <3#i miss them so much......#also * johnny confirmed what who said that. 😗 I SAID THAT. BILLY AND RALPHIE SAID THAT
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i love that isafrin can be the most straightforwardly romancey, wholesome pairing on a surface level and then you go one (1) level deeper and run into siffrin’s seething guilt and convoluted feelings around touch and intimacy and the extent to which they want or don’t want those things in a specifically romantic way or if he was trying to seek connection and love in any way he could once he knew that Isabeau wanted those things from him in that context, and the combined power trip/self disgust at “manipulating” Isabeau’s desires without his knowledge to make themself feel wanted and in control. and then you keep going and there’s also Isabeau’s own warped self image (still, in spite of all his changes, fearing that he’s someone that would be shameful to know), his “emotionally stable pillar” role and self-taught therapy talk masking his deep fears of real confrontation (struggling loop after loop to confess, not wanting Odile to confront Siffrin about their weird behavior in the sus quest bathroom talk) and how Siffrin’s fear of vulnerability and Isabeau’s fear of Pushing Too Hard allow both of their issues to fester unspoken long after it’s clear that the problems exist.
all this to say. duality of isafrin. makes my heart full and warm and happy to see the sweet, fluffy, silly love and connection between them (mutually romantic or otherwise). and then also. the delicious, delicious complications. gnawing on them like a dog with a beloved bone
#isat#isat spoilers#mypost#isafrin#loopsafrin#sloopis#<- for what i’m about to say because#and then. AND THEN. you add loop in there. and their unique convoluted feelings towards each of them#the pendulum swing between visceral hatred & jealousy & bitterness and overwhelming love & understanding & tenderness.#the guilt of loving a ‘replacement’ and forgetting the original. trapped in wondering what could have been in another life#if they hadn’t given it up.#AND their feelings towards isafrin as a pairing#[leans forward] it’s about the Yearning. and also about how knowing the yearning is mutual doesn’t actually resolve anything#because do you Deserve it. do you deserve to be here and part of this after everything you’ve done and failed to do.#is Having it any less painful than Not having it? or is just a different kind of agony#<- questions all 3 of them get to ponder.#bc isabeau is not immune to the guilt of knowing some version of him failed these people he claims to love over and over and over#until it broke one entirely and was almost too late for the other#BUT ALSO. falling in love with the same person twice. not just because of the similarities but because of the differences#<- true for both isabeau and loop#how can they not? but also how can they bear to?#siffrin and loop in a guilt contest about who Deserves happiness and acceptance more without recognizing that it can be possible for both#(not just in a romantic context but in an Everything context)#isabeau’s dissonance and isolation when faced with how well siffrin and loop Know and Understand one another#both because of their shared origins and bc they’re the only ones who know what the timeloop was Actually like#while everyone else is left piecing together scattered clues from the most tight-lipped people in existence#did you think this was an otp post. [rips off disguise] it was an ot3 post all along!!! mwahahaha!!!#to be clear every time i talk about a ship it will never just mean ‘this relationship But Romantic’#i mean every facet of what makes them compelling. the love and complications are both there in every interpretation#and that’s what i’m chewing on
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Reuniting with a distorted past.
Extra:(New personality tested gone wrong)

wanted to play with rin living in the aftermath aus aswell and had these drawings laying around to share so yay
Panel 1: Was buried alive.
Comic 1: Who are you supposed to be?



new friends
Comic 2: Misguided protection.

obito still sensing the warning signs of rin losing her temper. anyways they proceeded to be dragged into the ocean by rin like some sea monster
Comic 3: Finding out (Now what will you do?)
obito is harshly brought back from his delusions because now its not just kushina but rin too who he needs to ripped out the tail beast from
#naruto#naruto fanart#kakashi hatake#rin nohara#obito uchiha#naruto sukea#fanart#art#my art#sketch#drawing#digital art#hope i can add something new and if not may i shall add fuel to the fire for rin!! :)#So Rin loses ALL of her memories forever (kinda)#the only thing that remains for sure is the feeling of missing something that she'll never reach it again#she's alone and is left to roam directionless until she meets an elderly civilian that is also alone#she stays with her for a year+ but she passes away. But Rin with her new identity decides to walk forward (with love comes pain#but to love at all was the greatest thing to her.) She cherishes her new memories and won't let it stop her from moving on#inbetween this time frame she meets isobu in her mind after he gains enough form within her (who is also without memories)#Now WAY LATER she meets Sukea who looks like he's about to panic and she tries to help (which uh doesnt work too well)#but then Sukea joins her on her travels (sending minato an letter through his summons of rin being alive and forgetting the mission)#they both wander around (he doesnt know how to bring up their past) but then obito appears (always at the wrong times)#At first glance he's pissed but then realizes that this isnt fake AND its both the worse thing yet best thing to ever happen#Now Rin thinks she made two new friends who give her feelings of warmth but they both also reminded her of something old she thinks#PS Minato and Kushina are freaking out back in the village but can't do anything about it (Obito hasn't acted on his plans yet so yes)
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Death Loves No One
Cause if he did he'd want to keep them forever
After obtaining the title as Ghost King and losing all his family, Danny started to feel lonely. He had friends, ghosts that would stay for eternity by his side but it wasn't the same. Danny felt that his personal connections were what kept him sane, the evenings with Clockwork calmed him down, but it wasn't the same calm that Jazz used to provide.
So, when he was given the title of Equilibrium it wasn't really a big deal. It was just another title among a thousand others, Clockwork advised him to visit earth to discover his purpose but also warned him that he would not look human.
Danny accepted it but didn't take it seriously, he couldn't help but get scared when people started screaming around him. He wasn't doing anything weird, he was visiting the cemetery, his family's graves, but everyone was running away scared.
He realized that since he lost Jazz (the last one to leave) he no longer looked human. He wondered if it was possible that someone might be interested in talking to him but dismissed it. Some people began to nickname him "Death" because all he did was stay in the cemetery.
That's why it was extremely rare to find a boy calling him every day and making a small talk, he became attached to the boy. The boy would visit different graves but always stayed to talk to him, never yelled, or called him a bad name. Danny couldn't help but love him the same way he loved his family.
He wasn't surprised that the boy died soon after (knowing him brought misfortune didn't it?), but he never stopped visiting the cemetery. So, when the boy rose from his grave completely disoriented, Danny wondered if it was somehow his fault.
#dpxdc#ghost king danny#Danny lost his family#he felt cursed after it#as if everything around him is destined to die faster#his family did not stay as ghosts because they were at peace#Danny never was#His lack of contact with people made him less human#because the halfa began to forget how to be human during his pain#and his core reacted to his emotions#changing his appearance#dc x dp#dp x dc#Jason was the one who visited the cemetery#he liked to leave flowers for his mother#and Danny never scared him because Jason always thought death was kind#and maybe too lonely#Danny wonders if the fact that he became attached to Jason led to his earlier death#or to a half-life like his#he's not supposed to love after all
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i put my hand near my mouth so i know i'm still breathing
#another tuxedomoon inspired comic !!!!!!!! (the audience is unfazed)#this is after the 5th moon incident#in the 2 years of vash being eric and wolfwood being vash-less#eriks** tf was that autocorrect#also i think he had absolutely not good sex in order to forget abt vash#painful and miserable yk#hence the 'boys buying boys/pleasure bringing pain is all the same' lines#im especially proud of this composition#and it's based on one of my favourite songs so it deserves the best art (or as good as i can yk)#the song is called 'desire' by tuxedomoon#and it has a minute long monologue that i know by heart bc it's amazing#and its very vashwood coded too#anyway#trigun#vashwood#my art#nicholas d. wolfwood#vash the stampede#trigun fanart#trigun maximum#tuxedomoon#Spotify
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anyways when richard siken said "if you can point to it, you don't need a word for it. you only need a word for it when it's no longer there"
and when tolkien said "but of bliss and glad life there is little to be said, before it ends; as works fair and wonderful, while still they endure for eyes to see, are their own record, and only when they are in peril or broken for ever do they pass into song."
and when claudia said "diaries are friends of last resort"
we don't see madeleine and claudia in their months together because their happiness was created in the present and presence of each other, and captured only in the eyes of the other. there's no need to share to strangers what was already shared between the people it mattered most to. the voyeurs of the world will only ever see the outline of where pleasure lies.
#it is SO <- guy who's tearing down the curtains and clawing at the wallpaper#memory is a monster because with each iteration the jubilation of life succumbs to time and distance#you forget because in the moment you were too busy experiencing it to write it down#and when the archive of memory fades you only have the written proof to mark times past. and those are words of loss and pain#the circuitous nature of regret demands that the more you look to the past the greater the tragedy and the duller the joy will be#and the more you try to find meaning in that pain the more you will sift through its ashes and find another ache or grief to greet you#happiness can only be found by carving it out of the future and holding it in the present#and vampires are damned to remain trying to reclaim the past#argh.#iwtv
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AAUUGGHH IM SO HAPPY WITH THIS(took me so long but we don't talk about how this has been a wip since early november) but ANYWAYS
they are just so <333 i will never let go of this ship and in my head they are a lovely couple under the mistletoe every december, they read stories together by the fire and drink hot chocolate together <<333
anyways, happy holidays everyone! christmas or whatever you celebrate and if you don't celebrate at all then i hope you have a good day/night!
#utmv#ink sans#nightmare sans#inkmare#ink x nightmare#undertale au#undertale#my wacky stuff#eldritch rambles#happy holidays!!!!! :DDD#also Inks blush is a pain in the ass to drw idk why i forget every time but GOD DAMN i spent like 2 hours trying to get it right/lh#matterafact everything about him too#nightmare is my simple king <3#i wanted to give him more design on his sweater but i didn't wanna spend anymore time on this than i already did#Ink would force him to wear one though#i think anyways
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Look what came through the mail today! The letters & ( •̀ω•́ )σ 3 little gremlins from letterstoear.

Just wanna say i adore the flower stickers on the letters too much, they are that much worth mentioning.
#letterstoear#nui#twst#twisted wonderland#sebek zigvolt#malleus draconia#twst grim#mod posting#okay but i love squishing the bears with my thumb; they just have the right thickness to be pressed on#i really like the flower stickers; they look like romantically artistic wax seal#the letters are pleasantly nice#i love the part where cheka personally request for an audience with yuu thru sebek 🥺🥺🥹🥹 too cute hnggh .......#sebek becoming our little mailman for our little invitation aw 🥹 for those who wanna know the context of the letter;#i requested a letter from sebek that he sent home while he was away accompanying malleus on other country duty#my other favorite part is just him simply opening the letter with 'My love'#i'm sealed 🥹 the first paragraph is written so sweetly#i enjoy reading the letter slowly outside in peaceful afternoon today; i ran it through together with sebek nui#this will be my treasured keepsake from now on 🥹; it seriously made me miss letters and wish i have someone to send this kind of letter to#it was a bit funny how the envelope sebek's letter came from is sticked with the guys from free! sticker fhsdsh 🤣😂#and me with the white haired guy like WHo are u?? fsjdsdjsd (´つヮ⊂); but it's a really nice service#the thank you letter came with such a cute and yummy folding paper; thank you for the stickers too#i feel like there's a bit whoopsie on grim's winky eye fshfh like i think the sharpie just blurs the separating space '<' supposed to have#and just combine it all together into one angry eye; and sebek bear's eyes are just a little bigger than i expected it to be#but the more i look at them i think they are just having a little individuality & still cute#i embraced it all together while knowing the fact none of handmade thing would always be the same one with the other; hehe sebek nui has fr#i kinda forget that there's this kind of clip earring fshd; because i always get the ones that work like screw from aliexpress#i know that the literal clip one would just be literal meaning of pain fsh; just like the magnet one my father once got me when i was a kid#it was painful but pretty; tho i lost it quickly bcs magnet easily get loosed once one part of it moves around when u touch ur hair or face#anyhow i had a pleasant day because of this; thank you very much ! sebek nui said 'thank you' too! ‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚. ❀ ✿ 𖤣…
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I’m curious about the onesie now
also @pizzaplex-stargazer cuz you noticed too!
here's what Moon was rocking before Clip started making clothes:

after their PizzaPlex went under, the DCA bois had to figure out a lot of things, one being: clothes. unfortunately, Moon's really big, so he struggled to find things that fit him and were comfortable. the onesie is the first thing he found that fit him and made him feel really cozy. so he still wears it at home (he prefers comfy clothes at home anyways) when he needs a pick-me-up.
of course, he can't work at the salon in a bunny onesie, so here's what Clip made him (under Sundrop's direction):

Moon does prefer comfy clothes, but he has to admit, sometimes he likes the attention these clothes get him. he's iffy about them though, he feels that they show too much of him and he prefers the specific kind of comfort that comes from being an amorphous bundle of coziness.
#fnaf moon#fnaf sun#fnaf dca#dca fandom#New Do Same You AU#Moon New Do Same You AU#Sun New Do Same You AU#this AU is full of silly and angst i swear#look Moon in a rabbit onesie! (:#he likes it because it hides his body and he can momentarily forget that he was forced into a body that isn't his ):#he can be a silly little gremlin again (:#and not think about what he looks like under the fabric ):#the bunny onesie was honestly just a silly idea i had early on even before i thought of Moon's body upgrades#i just thought it would be in-character for Moon to like comfy clothes and would wear comfy clothes when he's not out in public#but i was worried the bunny onesie would be too silly?#but after chatting with friends about it#i just#i had to keep it in#look at how happy Moon is!#he's a little moon bunny!#let him have some joy#i've wrote a painful backstory for him anyway let him have this#traditional art#crab art#bright colours#ask the crab
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