#oko ninjah quotes

[okoninjah]

It sucks

To see her love everyone so much

Because I know I’m not one of them

[runningfromadream]

She wasn’t my first kiss but she’s the kiss that mattered, the kiss that made me realize I didn’t want to kiss anyone else. So now my lips belong to her. Just look at them…Her name’s written all over them.

Oko Ninjah

[incorrectthomasbarrowquotes]

“I love him. I don’t think people really understand what I’m saying. I love him… I don’t want anyone else. I have no reason to look at other blokes because the only thing I can see is him. He’s the sweetest pain I’ll ever know. And I’ll never be ready to give that up.”

Thomas Barrow during his talk with Mr Carson after he has to confess about the night he kissed Jimmy.

[what-strange-lives-we-live]

She wasn’t my first kiss but she’s the kiss that mattered, the kiss that made me realize I didn’t want to kiss anyone else. So now my lips belong to her. Just look at them… Her name’s written all over them.

Oko Ninjah

[okoninjah]

I miss hearing “I love you”

Before I fall asleep

I miss hearing you start to snore

I miss falling asleep to the way you breathe

I miss the way we’d wake up

I’m always the first one up

Then you wake up hours later

And even miserable, but I’m with you, so it’s somehow still fun

I miss waving you bye

On your way to work

I miss waiting for you text

I miss trying to fold your shirts

I miss our dogs and our cat

But they’ve probably moved on to

You’ve moved on too,

But not me, I’m still in love with all of you

I miss the family we had

It’s the family that I always wanted

Now I’m back with the one that abused and used me

But it was me who was the one who started

I fucked up

And I know that I did

But I miss how we’d talk about things

How we’d talk it out and then forgive

I miss talking about light things

But also the deep things too

I miss not just talking about us

But the things we’d like to do

I miss the way we’d make plans

Plans, I actually looked forward to

Sure maybe I’d be miserable

But it’d somehow still be fun because I’d be with you

Because even if I’m depressed

Or hanging on the end of my rope

I am still having fun

Because with you, I still had some hope

Hope that life was beautiful

Of wander and magic and bliss

And I knew that for a fact

From the second we kissed

From the second our eyes met

I was already in love with

But it’s true what they say

That love just isn’t enough

[okoninjah]

Maybe I loved her too much

Maybe I wasn’t good enough

Maybe she left me here

Because I was held back by fear

Maybe I fucked up a lot

Maybe the fuck ups didn’t stop

Maybe I said too many sorrys

That’s why she doesn’t love me

Maybe I wasn’t too brave

Maybe I misbehaved

Maybe I was too scared to lose her

That’s why we aren’t together

Maybe I messed it all up

Maybe she thought I didn’t give a fuck

Maybe she just didn’t know

That she was where I called home

Maybe she was just fed the fuck up

Maybe my love just wasn’t enough

Maybe we weren’t going to make it

Because she probably faked it

Maybe only I was in love

Maybe only I have issues with trust

Maybe I took too long to get passed it

And she got sick of my shit

Maybe I was too weak

For hours, I didn’t need to speak

Maybe my silence was too loud

Maybe all I did was let her down

Maybe that’s why she left

With my heart and breath

Maybe 5 years was all I get

But damn… how quick did she forget

[okoninjah]

My lips still belong to her

They’re stained with the touch of hers

I miss the days we couldn’t stop kissing

Now we’re not even together

My heart still beats in her direction

Looking for a place to land

But there’s no ocean in Montana or Vegas

There’s no room for me to stand

I miss when we couldn’t go hours without speaking

We missed each other that much

I know you’ve moved on

But sadly, I am still in love

[okoninjah]

You broke my heart

You pushed me to the side and forgot about me

5 years really means not much

Because we can’t even speak

You’re worth missing

You’re worth this heartbreak

But you’ve got to tell me

That it’s worth feeling my heart ache

You broke me -

Without hesitation

You didn’t care about what I had to say

I didn’t have a chance for an explanation

5 years?!

And this is how it ends…

No calls, no texts -

No, “at least we’re friends”

I was in love with you

Before we even met

I fell in love with the stories

I heard from your friends

And then we met

And you actually cared

And it might’ve been stupid of me

But I finally felt like I belonged somewhere

One of your last texts

You said there are people who love me

They love me for show

They don’t love me for me

They don’t even know me

They never did

But you knew everything

From now and back to when I was a kid

I love you so fucking much

This kills me to say

But you don’t care or love me

You stopped somewhere along the way

You stopped looking at me -

Looking at me like I meant something

You stopped touching me -

Not sex, but even just hand holding

And maybe that shouldn’t be such a big thing

But I want to feel close to you

Even if it was just holding your hand

It was something for me to connect to

But after the 10th time asking

It felt like I was just being a nag

But I just wanted to feel you next to me

Now I just wish I could take all those asks back

Now I just wish I could be there with you

Now I just wish we were actually speaking

Because I know once you move

You probably won’t ever speak to me

[okoninjah]

She wasn’t my first kiss

But she’s the kiss I miss the most

She’s the kiss I crave and ache for

She’s the kiss that made my lips stain with the touch of hers…

And hopefully I feel that for the rest of my life

Because I will forever miss her kiss

[okoninjah]

You weren’t my first kiss

That much is true

But from now until forever

These lips of mine belong to you

[okoninjah]

I fucked up

And she realized that I’m not worth it…

She realized I really am nothing

She realized that I don’t matter

She realized she doesn’t love me

She realized that I’m not important

She realized that I don’t need to be there

She realized it’s been long enough

She realized that she no longer cared

She realized that I’m not good enough

She realized my kisses no longer mattered

She realized that neither did my touch

She realized she didn’t need to talk to me

She realized that I’m just not enough

She realized she could ignore texts

She realized that the sound of her voice would break me

She realized I wouldn’t call her -

Because the pauses in between would be deafening

She realized that I my biological family was still around

She realized that, oh and this is the best

She realized that I’m just not anything at all

So like the others, she left

[okoninjah]

It’s you…

It’s always been you

And it’s always going to be you

I am always going to want to be with you and be able to be in love with you and love you openly with my full heart

It’s your eyes that hooked me

Your ears that listened to my darkest secrets

Your lips had me addicted

And your hands kept me safe in comfort

They’re not you…

They don’t laugh like you

Or smile as bright as you

Their presence doesn’t ignite a fire within me

And my heart doesn’t tremble when I see anyone else

I love you

You’re the one I prayed for and made wishes on stars for

It’s you

It has always and will always -

Be you.

[okoninjah]

Why do your lips knock me out like whiskey…

I’m out of here, no worries….

Maybe you’d like to leave with me…

If it’s okay, I’d rather not be lonely…

[okoninjah]

You dance when there isn't even music on

Honestly just off of that, I feel that you're the one

Tell me, tell me

What I've gotta do

Just to stay here forever with you

I swear your brown eyes have color too

Orange, purple, red and even frickin blue

I don't, I don't

Know how that's true

But I swear it's only with you

And you do this little thing when you're nervous

You fidget with your hands and bite your lip

I think, I think

That it's cute

And nothing's as cute as you

Your lips have to be some kind of sweet

Like every time we kiss, I'm swept off my feet

How the, how the

Fuck is that possible

Like all my problems, you solve them all

(to be continued...)

Oko Ninjah (you)

[okoninjah]

I don’t know about love. I just know about us and our love. And this love… Feels both incredible and terrifying. To give your heart to someone, willingly and full of trust to not break it is like a weight has been lifted - yet there’s a hollow feeling in your chest reserved for heartbreak just in case. It’s true… When asked about love a lot of people talk about the heartbreak but here’s the truth about how I feel. You know, the good stuff. It feels like everyday is my birthday, Christmas, Fourth of July, New Years… But instead of presents, I get to wake up with her - fireworks included. Every kiss, every touch, every word, every look means something. Whether it’s “you mean the world” or “you’re an idiot” it all means the same thing; I love you. I hope reincarnation is real! Right? Because it feels like this love is the first of its kind but also that it’d last lifetimes and eons. I want us to last that long. I want us to love in every lifetime, every dimension, every universe, every form of the word. She makes me feel like my heart is constantly fluttering and somehow instead of panicking I just feel bliss. And fuck… Her eyes. Her eyes! I could never forget her eyes. I could never see again right this second and I would still be able to describe the color of her eyes. They’re obviously brown. But sometimes when the light hits them just right, there’s a bit of green hidden in it’s depth and if you look just a bit deeper I swear you could see specks of orange. And looking into her eyes? Are you kidding me? It’s like the world pauses and I suddenly stop breathing because breathing doesn’t seem so important compared to looking into her eyes. But, of course I am breathing it’s just soft because all I can really hear is the sound of my heart throbbing… Holding hands never seemed so important until the second I held hers. Now when I look at my hand I wonder why my fingers aren’t locked through hers. Okay, I think that’s enough. So there, that’s some of the good. At least that’s how I feel. How do you?

Oko Ninjah (love: some of the good)

[okoninjah]

Remember we’d be up all night

Talking til the sunrise?

Like the night we first met

I was wrecked, I was so upset

You saw the cuts on my arms and spoke to me

Like you cared, like I mattered or something

I fell for you right then and there

Because you spoke to me with words full of care

We were drinking lime flavored rum with chasers

I already pictured our life together

I already pictured me kissing your lips

It was nerve wrecking and tied my stomach in twists

I was already in love with you by the end of the night

I wanted you with me, by my side

But I fucked up, I lost you, I messed it all up

Because I’m just not good enough