#otp: lovely little weirdo

[rosieshipper]

From now on it is no longer the fruity four it is now the fruity five! Move over bitches, it’s time for a new fruit to join the fruit salad!

[redrocketpanda]

Only 2 more episodes of BLUELOCK to go but I need to take a brief interlude to scream about how fucking gay Isagi & Bachira are for each other

Like... Bachira telling Isagi: "I won't wait for you. If you want me, come and get me"

Isagi then spending about 3 episodes pining after Bachira and how much he needs to go beyond his limits if he wants to win Bachira back

And then fucking turning up outside the training room after getting through the next round all like "I'm back to claim you, Bachira"

Bachira's entire fucking episode basically being like "I've been waiting for Isagi my entire life"

Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

[careless-with-your-heart]

Fic Update: Lay You in the Ground (iZombie)

Chapter Five is up @ AO3: (if you found me, would you save me?) READ IT HERE. Blaine finds out that Kitty's been crashing on the roof of The Post.

[mcytblrconfessions]

too much grian hate i love his vibe. he avoids twitter like the plague and uses instagram in place of it. he’s swift to remind the audience to be civil but completely ignores fandom. his otp are his cats. he switches between natural manager and little weirdo on a whim. he enjoys bothering all of his friends but jimmy solidaritygaming in particular. if he is not the most chaotic person in the bit he immediately falls back on being the straight man. not that his minecraft character acts straight, he will NOT stop the homoerotically charged interactions but only pulls them out on a select few. he’s not the main character and it’s annoying when people solely focus on grian when there are other creators on the server with him but he’s not overhyped either and i appreciate him

[sisterdivinium]

You know, for a show with so many female characters that so many of us love given how they all get time in the spotlight one way or another and they fill that time up rather wonderfully since they are deeper and more developed than what we're used to seeing in general media, it is peculiar (to say the least) to see so few "alternative" ships to the main one.

I'm not saying the canon ship doesn't deserve its attention -- I'm wondering instead why the canon ship and it alone seem to guide the WN fans who just so happen to enjoy writing/reading fic or fanart or whatever.

You'd think all these cool women would inspire more ships or combinations thereof, but those of us who aren't invested in avatrice just... Float along, around one another, ignored (and, yes, mostly undisturbed too; being unpopular does have its advantages and that includes a lot less weirdos leaving you strange or awkward messages -- it does not, however, shield us from people flooding our goddamn tags on AO3 with fic that has nothing to do with our little ships and I do wish such negligence of the pairing itself meant we didn't have to deal with this spam...)

I am also not saying that fandom activity should be based solely on shipping (and recently someone on Reddit was rather confused by the fact that a lot of it is, which is quite an interesting topic to discuss in itself -- after all, there is more to fan creativity than shippy fic... Or there used to be), merely that, here, it appears that a canon relationship can outshine interest in the other, non-canon ones. It's already there and it was doubtless well-done by the show, so it's natural that it should claim people's attention, sure. It's just that being canon was never the parameter for whether people were interested in these or those two (or more) characters maybe being involved and trying to explore what that could mean through fanwork.

There has always been a complaint haunting fandom spaces concerning the minuscule amounts of f/f fic, art, discussion, w/e based on how few (interesting or sympathetic or relatable) female characters there are in media at large. So what I'm curious about is why fan creations made around WN -- a show that finally gives us a whole cast of female characters that are what we have been craving for decades -- don't also reflect its diversity.

There are alternative ships (I'm here, all happy in my tiny Doctor Superion bubble, and I know there are Camila/Lilith, Ava/Lilith, Mary/Shannon, Mary/Lilith shippers out there, so a warm hello to you if you're reading this), but go on AO3 and compare the numbers of things tagged with these proper pairings to the grand total of WN stories. Better (or worse) still, do so with the "otp: true" trick or simply by excluding avatrice from the search to see how many are left.

It's... A considerable difference. And a mystery, at least to me.

[yae-energy]

pick up the phone !!! pt2: electric boogaloo

synopsis: my take on whether they’re a caller or texter

cast: maki zenin, yuta okkotsu, toge inumaki x black fem reader

cw: cursing, (yuta’s part is a teeny tiny bit self indulgent 😬 <3 mb y’all)

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maki - texter (occasional caller)

- doesn’t mind being on the phone since it’s you, but is more of a texter

- answers immediately like it’s almost scary

- is a bullet texter 🤷🏽‍♀️ idk she give me those vibes

- like i feel if you’re asleep or smth and she wants to talk to you she WILL spam you

- does not care

- has dnd on but allows your notifs to go through <3

- calls you when she can’t sleep but the second y’all get otp she’s knocked out

- like you’re talking about smth stupid and when you don’t hear her answer you’re like

“this bitch 😶”

- will facetime you but her camera is always off when she does

- however, if your camera is off she will be mad

“yeah go ahead and turn that camera back on you’re not slick 😐”

“mmcht 😒”

- has your contact photo as the picture she took of you kissing her cheek on y’all’s first date

- but then has your name saved as smth like

- “weirdo 🤥”

- always, always. ALWAYS. texts you good night

- she will not sleep until she does

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yuta - caller (facetime)

- loves seeing your face

- facetimes you nonstop

- litterally twice a day he is obsessed with you

“babe can we facetime ☹️ i miss you”

“baby i wanna see your face, facetime me”

“facetime??? 😁”

- loves when you guys eat on the phone together cause he thinks its a date !

“bae can you pass the salt? 😋”

“boy if you don’t getcho corny ass on somewhere 😭”

- you still do it though cause it makes him laugh, it’s y’all’s little inside joke

- loves facetiming you on wash day cause he likes to watch you detangle your hair

- finds the way you work the different moisturizers and curl definers through your hair satisfying

- tells you you’re pretty nonstop

- has your contact saved as “my pretty girl 💕”

- and the photo is of a picture he took of you during golden hour when the sun was hitting you just right

- sends you good morning and goodnight texts

“good morning beautiful, hope you slept well <3”

“goodnight my love 😴”

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inumaki - texter

- this man is a menace

- A MENACE I SAY

- litterally texts you all day

- like you could be at work and here he is blowing up your phone like a madman

“love, im at work 😭”

“i didn’t ask all that but ok”

- does not give 1, 2, or 3 fucks

- is always

- and i mean

- ALWAYS

- sending you those flirty meme pictures

- he thinks they’re so funny 😭😭😭

- sends hella tiktoks

- doesn’t know how to start a conversation to save his life though so he’ll usually just send something random asf in hopes of getting your attention

- works every time though

- checks on you to make sure you’re having a good day and to remind you to eat and drink water

- sends imsg games

- is an 8 ball god so you hate playing with him

- whenever you start losing you send darts and he get real quiet

“you always do this bs 😒”

- your contact photo is of you wearing a tinfoil hat he made cause he’s gotta protect you from the aliens !!!

- your name is set as “❤️❤️❤️”

- gets the point across perfectly in his opinion

[amoneki-ramblings]

and if you have time 002 Kaneki :) (I am asking everyone)

Let's go !!

002 | Give me a character & I will tell you

How i feel about this character: Ironically I cannot verbalize my thoughts about Kaneki coherently whatsoever. I need him dead. I need to hit him over the head with several hammers. I need him to let himself just relax and drink some coffee and read a good book. He sucks I hate him /affectionate he’s also so fucking cringe Jesus. For every coherent and analytical thought I have about the other characters I have none for Kaneki he simply. Is. He’s Kaneki he’s That Guy he brings me immense pain and he’s so self-destructive and he tries so hard and it Sucks /pos I need to stuff him into a blender

All the people I ship romantically with this character: Hmm oh boy I sure do wonder…Well, aside from the obvious I think Shuuneki could be very interesting when done right, and while I’m not as inclined towards their relationship romantically Hidekane definitely hurts my soul, especially thinking of them before everything went to shit for our poor protagonist

My non-romantic OTP for this character: I love his relationship with Hinami so much he’s such a good big bro :(( Even when he’s out trying to hunt down people and change the world he still sets aside time for her, but even then she’s so concerned for his wellbeing because she can tell how he’s Changed and how he’s pushing himself she just wants him to be happy and take a break :((

My unpopular opinion about this character: Hmmm not sure if I have any at the moment?? I’d agree with anything as long as it’s accurate to his character. Whether you love or despise this guy I will nod my head, I guess just don’t say he’s flawless, person/moral-wise, there’s a lot of good argument for why he can suck actually, but I feel like most people know that.

One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon: I remember seeing in the original storyboards for Root A that Shironeki and Kuroneki actually interact more. While I like how it was saved until the end in the original series (when they hugged) I wouldn’t have minded seeing more of it beforehand. Kuroneki is Shironeki’s doubts voiced back to himself, the more uncertain version of himself that he locks away, and Shironeki simply calls that part of him weak. It makes me miserable. I love it

my OTP: *whistles, looks away*

my cross over ship: Don’t think I have any

a headcanon fact: This is gonna be so random (read: projection) but Kaneki probably bites a lot of things. He bites pencils, he chews straws, he’s especially guilty of biting/chewing his hands/fingers and when he was a human it used to leave marks all over his hands. The hand biting problem gets even worse after the torture. If you put your hand in front of his face he’ll probably bite your fingers. Like a weirdo. He needs to be stopped (I say, fully supporting this behavior; let him be weird and a little unnatural :thumbsup:)

[allylikethecat]

January OTP Prompts

Maybe I was wrong, maybe it's not easier to write these in the morning. Maybe I'm just getting burnt out on them? Who knows, BUT we got today done and we are almost done with the month and I am going to be so ridiculously proud of myself for sticking with it when it's through! Thank you so much again to everyone who has been reading and so supportive. I truly didn't think anyone was going to give these any thought except for myself so thank you so much again!!

18. Wind

Matty was like a flower, leaning back with his head tilted towards the sun, letting it beat down on his face, warming his body, a content smile curling across his lips, his curls billowing around him, framing his features in the wind. The bridge of his nose was starting to look a little pink, as were his shoulders and George knew he should get up, should make his way across the boat they had chartered for their day off, and remind him to reapply sunscreen. But for the moment, George stayed seated, admiring him from afar. 

Matty’s hair was getting longer these days, long enough that he complained he was too old for this and needed to get it cut, the curls streaked with gray. The complaints always stalled, at least for a few days, when George dug his fingers into the tangle and pulled. Now, he looked like a woman in a shampoo commercial, his curls wild and windblown. George smiled to himself, knowing that Matty’s eyes were bright behind his sunglasses. 

“What are you staring at, weirdo,” Matty called over the roar of the wind as their charter captain guided the boat over the water. A cheeky grin now playing across features, George shrugged, not caring that he had been caught staring. 

“You,” George called back sweetly and Matty blushed, his cheeks darkening to match the pink blooming across his nose. 

Ross, who was sitting next to him, sipping from a beer, pretended to gag. George just rolled his eyes. Even after ten years together, they had never truly left the honeymoon stage. If you asked George, why should they have moved past it? He loved Matty, always had, and alway would. Just because they had been together for years, doesn’t mean that his presence wasn’t going to make his insides melt. 

George got up, and carefully made his way across the boat to where Matty was sitting, holding onto the seats lining the perimeter of the boat for support. 

“Hey,” he said, plopping down next to him, the wind instantly blowing Matty’s curls into George’s face, causing him to laugh even as he got a mouth full of hair. Matty shifted his weight, angling his body so the wind was now blowing his hair off his face and away from George. 

“Hey,” Matty said, looking up at George over the tops of his sunglasses, what George knew was supposed to come across as seductively, but had Matty bursting into giggles a moment later, ruining the effect. 

“You’re getting burnt,” said George, reaching under the seat to retrieve the backpack he had stashed at the start of the trip, to pull out a bottle of sunscreen and holding it up.

Matty frowned, disliking the sticky lotion, but hating being burnt more. 

“Thanks,” he said, louder than he normally would have spoken to be heard over the wind. 

“Of course,” said George, and Matty twisted, allowing George to rub the thick lotion into his already tender skin. George winced, they should have reapplied sooner. 

Matty shifted again, looking back up at George thoughtfully. George couldn’t resist; he reached out, and dabbed a dollop of sunscreen onto Matty’s nose, causing him to gasp in surprise. George laughed and pulled Matty, sticky and windblown, into his side, while Matty rubbed at his nose, trying desperately to work the thick, cold lotion into his face. 

“I love you,” said George.

Matty chuckled, his nose wrinkled from the sunscreen but he pressed himself against George anyway. “I love you too.” 

Day: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17

[crestoflames]

I know you love to talk about your boy, so Reese for the Ask game

it’s so true, I’ve been called out lol

1: sexuality headcanon: bisexual, as all of scarlet hollow is oops! all bisexuals. i also can see him as demisexual? but that might be my demisexual ass projecting lmao. also he’s 100% a switch

2: otp: Reese x MC or Reese x Kaneeka (Reneeka). honestly love both of them so much. Reese x MC just because duh, I love him a lot and I really like his relationship with my specific MC, and Reese and Kaneeka because I’m a sucker for friends to lovers and I really like that she’s so defensive of him and they clearly care about each other a lot.

3: brotp: Stella and Reese! I love their friendship so much and I’ve had fun exploring it in the fic I’m writing. Stella is the most enthusiastic wingwoman ever and all she wants is Reese to be happy. As an introvert, it can help to have a persistent extrovert friend that still checks in on you even if you’ve been in a situation where you can’t really hang out with people at the moment. So I like that depiction of their friendship, and I think Reese does truly appreciate having Stella as a friend who continues to check in on him.

4: notp: Dr. Kelly x Reese. Just no.

5: first headcanon that pops into my head: idk why i’m blanking on this. ummmm. this is more of a joint headcanon, but in universes where Reese and the MC don’t get together, he has a crush on Kaneeka, and the painting she “stole” from him was actually one he was painting for her at one point but never got a chance to give it to her properly. I know he says he doesn’t usually make art for other people but I believe he did it just this once okay. lol. I swear I usually have more Reese headcanons but I’m blanking today.

6: favorite line from this character: “MC gets me. This is a cat I can jive with.” so iconic and i fell for this corny weirdo right away

7: one way in which I relate to this character: chronically ill introvert with very little relationship experience who missed out on typical young adult/teen experiences due to being sick for large swaths of high school. we would bond a lot over that and he would never judge me for my inexperience. also just the way he gets passionate and infodumps about his interests is so similar to me, I would love to just sit with him and we can infodump to each other lol.

8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: uhhh not much? less of something about him in particular but more of just being known as a huge fan of his. reesemancers have a Reputation™️ as very overzealous and passionate and I would say I have definitely contributed to that lmao. OH! the part where he bolts from Wayne in the obedient ending is definitely second-hand embarrassment inducing, even if I understand why he did it. it’s just very funny and kind of ridiculous that he’s so unhinged and on an ego trip in that ending but as soon as he sees Wayne he’s like “NOPE, I’M OUT”. also I do agree with people that eating his mom as his way to kill her makes me kind of uncomfortable just as a concept, but the art is great and I find cannibalism being used as symbolism or metaphor in a piece of art to be very interesting. (gained more appreciation for it after watching Yellowjackets)

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? problematic cinnamon roll? if that’s a thing? lol. he killed people but i think it’s funny and hot /j

[rosieshipper]

A collection of incorrect quotes

Tags: @astralshipper @aricka-and-her-fictional-others @magicalpuppyprincess @recordplayershipping @wolfofthedead

[bilbosmom-belladonna]

Fic Writer 20 Questions

Thank you for the tag @insertmeaningfulusername! Sorry it took me so long, I was... well, I was adding more fics to my total 😂

1.) How many works do you have on ao3?

8 (hi, I'm new here)

2.) What’s your ao3 word count?

116,779

3.) What fandoms do you write for?

Currently I'm writing for Star Wars and Stranger Things. But who knows where the wind may take me!

4.) What are your top five fics by kudos?

Maybe 10% Better, Stranger Things (Steddie)

Trying to Escape What You Can't Let Go, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (genfic)

Plans, Star Wars: Rebels (Kalluzeb)

Less Talk More Rokk, Stranger Things (Steddie)

A Flimsi Excuse, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (Fox/Quinlan Vos)

5.) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Absolutely! I love hearing from people and I love the chance to expand on my thought process during writing. It's like people showing up on my doorstep asking for a live director's cut interview (in the best way). I could talk about that stuff for aaaages.

6.) What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

That would have to be my Jangobi fic A Mandalorian Comes Riding, which is tagged Major Character Death for a reason! Which is funny because I rarely read stories like that but... I wrote one?

7.) What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I mean, there are more than one. For Star Wars it's Trying to Escape What You Can't Let Go, and for Stranger Things/Steddie it's either Maybe 10% Better or my schmoopy Christmas fic, Our Kind of Advent.

8.) Do you get hate on fics?

Uh, not yet?

9.) Do you write smut? If so what kind?

I do! Though I haven't published any yet; stay tuned for January.

10.) Do you write cross overs? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

No, I only write dumb crossovers in my brain. They never have a plot, it's just me going "wouldn't it be cool if..." and then agreeing with myself that it would, indeed, be cool.

11.) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not to my knowledge...

12.) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not yet, but I am open to it!

13.) Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

I have not! To be honest I have no idea how cowriting works in a practical sense and I don't know if I would actually enjoy it.

14.) What’s your all time favourite ship?

I have never been an OTP kind of gal, so I won't commit myself. I am changeable, like the tides.

15.) What’s a WIP you’d like to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I'm pretty new to writing fic so I don't have a mountain of WIPs (yet?) but I have a Foxiyo fake-marriage fic that I kind of over-plotted in the outline and now my brain doesn't want to sit down and actually write the story. Maybe one day when I've forgotten enough about it I will get back to it.

16.) What are your writing strengths?

I think I am pretty darn good at writing dialogue in general and banter specifically. I love a flirty and/or teasing conversation.

16.) What are your writing weaknesses?

I feel like I have to work very hard to remind myself to include descriptions of places. And like, metaphors. I don't really do a lot of metaphors.

17.) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I've only done a smattering of Mando'a so far, but I'm open to it! I speak French so that's an option, though I don't see it coming up much in the fandoms I currently write in.

18.) First fandom you wrote for?

Star Wars: Rebels; I wrote Plans in 2018 and then just yeeted it into the sun and ran away. Took me until 2023 to start "really" writing.

19.) Favourite fic you’ve ever written?

I'm very proud of Meet in the Middle, the RexObi fic that kind of felt like it came to me in a fever dream and expelled itself from my body without my input. It's kind of a strange little story but I like that it's a weirdo.

No pressure tagging @sexysmeagolshitposting @sankt-jesper @brooks-skirata (hiii!)

[hotpinkboots]

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~Muffet is such a little brat- but in a good way,of course, you know.

~Will tease you and purposely try to freak you out.

~She is going to pet you.

~So get used to constantly having your hair played with and getting it ruined because she's petting it.

~She likes to sneak up on you and put one of her cold hands on the back of your neck to give you the chills.

~Muffet absolutely needs to know your favorite tea and pastry.

~She also will bake for you! But y'know. I hope you like spider legs.

~Hardly ever says your name, you're only known as "dearie", now.

~Occasionally will call you her "delectable pastry"

~She wants to buy pretty lace clothing for you and put lil' bows and ribbons in your hair. Dress you up all pretty.

~You'll have a whole collection of pretty new tea sets from her.

~...She buys you items she likes, more often than items you'd like. But it's just because she just wants you to match with her~

~Everyone kind of thinks she's...strange. They know she's a lil' money hungry weirdo 💜💜💜

~Mettaton fusses over you when Muffet comes to take you away from a visit with him. She's a bit obsessive over you, but not in a yandere way. Just a bit clingy.

~Sans is a little bit worried.

~Papyrus is worried as well, but supportive.

~Undyne:

~Alphys thinks she's weird, too, but you and Muffet... "o-oh my gosh, it's my new OTP! ehehe...hehe.....heh."

~Muffet loves her new pet ;)

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SHE IS SO UNDERRATED, IT'S NOT FAIIIIR!!! I had to write something with her, Muffet's one of my favorites. She's so fun.

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[incoherentbabblings]

Heyyy kinda saw Year of the otp and i want to ask if you take any fic req (and it’s okay if you don’t) but the (seemly) unrequited love or university au on April for seems interesting for imsteph or dickkory kejwksk

Take good care 💕💕

Oh! I'm so pleased to get a request! I did wonder if anyone saw that post. Let's go for it then! Here is one for April - I have combined the two. Some smutty time here, but (as you'd expect) nothing that explicit. This is beyond sappy. Hyup! If anyone wants to request ones for later in the year, here's the original post!

One More Mistake

It was a mistake.

Or so Stephanie told herself. Frat House party, too much to drink, the classmate she had come to see, one drunken and ill-advised night later, Tim and Stephanie were in a pharmacy, collecting a morning after pill.

She wasn’t pregnant, that was fine. What was less fine was Tim saying,

“Do you want it to be a thing?”

By ‘thing’, Stephanie had assumed he meant sex. She should have asked for clarity, but instead, she let her head get in the way, and told herself that if Tim had wanted her - romantically - he would have pursued her long before drunk sex. One didn’t wake up after a sloppy one night stand and think oh, no you are the one, you drooling on my back mid thrust half asleep proved it! 

Right?

Stephanie had decided long before sleeping with Tim that she loved him. Earnestly, foolishly, desperately. He was that weirdo who asked questions during lectures, sitting in the second row (not the first, that would be truly weird) and typing far faster than Stephanie could match with a pad and paper. He was that oddball who was dungeon master of a rather eclectic DnD session group, with the posters and books to back it up. He was the foolish boy who was nothing short of a good Samaritan, finding a lost dog and returning it to their owner expecting and accepting no reward, or chasing after a thief when an old lady had her purse taken and managing to body slam the thug into a wall.

He was the beautiful boy that she was so madly, pathetically in love with, that she would rather take a sliver of affection from him, meaningless and empty as it was, than have nothing at all.

No kissing. That was her own rule. Kissing made it too real. Pull his head down instead, right next to her neck, so she didn’t have to look him in the eye. If he looked, he’d know. If they kissed, he’d know. She couldn’t bear the rejection that would inevitably make their relationship, as ill defined and one sided as it was, come crashing down. 

Any rational person would realize such a relationship was doomed. Unhealthy. The sex was good, the pair of them climaxed without fail each time, drunk or not, but their day to day interactions remained unchanged. She still would turn up to lectures five minutes late, Tim near the front as always having arrived fifteen minutes early. Their working groups and tutorials and seminars remained firmly on work and work alone. 

What little pieces of information she'd managed to scrape together from watching and listening to his conversations with others only made her heart ache further. Dead mom, a trying but for the most part absent father, nice enough step-mom, a general dissatisfaction with where life was taking him despite an overwhelming pressure to succeed at something…

Stephanie knew what she was - a very convenient way to blow off steam.

So she let him. She wanted to be useful. And she would close her eyes, hold him as close as she dared, pretend there was something there, only for each time causing her heart to die just a little more. 

Today was particularly difficult. He wouldn’t let her hold him. Instead, he pulled her up so they were sitting entangled, his right hand was wrapped around her waist, the left holding onto her hand so tightly Stephanie believed the blood circulation to be suffering. She did not care, pretending that he was holding on to her because he needed her, she anchored him and comforted him and was an irreplaceable facet of his life and -

She made a mistake.

Her lips found his, just for a moment, brushing skin and heat and warmth. 

Tim jerked back, the expression of his face shocked (disgusted), startling Stephanie out of her day dream. Ashamed, she pressed her forehead to his collarbone, and let him finish his task.

Which he did, dutiful as ever, making Stephanie tremble and gasp and want nothing more than for him to once say what he felt, and mean it. 

She felt him finish with little more than a gasp and a quiver, then the expected happened. He moved out from underneath Stephanie, ignoring her as she immediately rolled away, grabbing her thin worn sheet to cover herself. Staring at his clothes on the floor scattered across the room, Stephanie listened as Tim sat on the edge of the mattress. She heard him tie off and throw away the condom. She heard him sigh, run his hand through his hair (she could do that for him, always, forever, as long as he wanted), then simply sit breathing for a moment.

Turn around, she wanted to ask, no, beg, Turn around and hold me. 

But he didn’t, instead he stood up, padded over to her tiny en-suite bathroom, and Stephanie heard him turn her cramped shower on. He’d come back through for his clothes, mutter about having to go finish the paper they both had not written on statistical thermodynamics that was due by the end of the week, and leave Stephanie behind, the room feeling much colder suddenly.

Stephanie continued to stare at his clothes, silently screeching as she watched, in an out of body experience, herself reach for his jacket. She was holding it reverently, back still to the bathroom. The noise of water running through old pipes stopped, and soon Tim emerged to the sight of Stephanie with her back to him, holding his denim jacket.

Piece by piece he collected his clothes, until all that remained was the darn coat.

She turned, resisting the urge to sniff and look pathetic, and handed it over. Remaining conscious of the fact that she was still naked and had yet to clean herself up, Stephanie twisted until she was sitting against the headboard, sheets pulled up under her arms. Determinedly, emptily, she stared at the foot of the bed.

“I have to work on that report,” Tim said, as expected.

Words would not come, so Stephanie nodded. Her throat closed up, feeling very tight. Damn, she really needed to open a window, the room was stifling and hot and must have stank - 

Tim paused at her door, then looked back.

“Steph?”

She made a humming noise in response, but continued to glare at her hidden feet.

“...I don’t wanna do this anymore.”

Oh. There it was. There was the broken heart. Of course. She wasn’t worth trying for, she wasn’t worth keeping, of course she knew this would happen. There was only ever going to be one outcome, so why should she feel her breath be stolen? Why should she feel her stomach turn in a nauseous tumble, threatening to remove any chance of dignity from this goodbye? She knew this would happen. 

And yet she burst into tears all the same.

Tim, to his usual oblivious idiot credit, looked mortified. “Wait - wait I…”

He came over, touching Stephanie’s shoulder. She flinched, strangling out a pathetic apology.

“I thought…!” Tim trailed off. “This is too hard for me! I can’t keep sleeping with you and pretending there’s nothing more. You don’t even look at me, let alone…”

“All I do is look at you,” Stephanie warbled. “And it isn’t enough.”

“You…” Tim got down on his knees, then took one of her hands, cradling them in his own. The distinctive dripping noise of fallen tears came, plip plop, onto the white bed sheet. Stephanie breathed unsteadily, then wiped them away. 

“Stephanie,” Tim tried again. “What would be enough for you?”

She said nothing, only shaking her head. “Tell me,” Tim urged.

“You wouldn’t be able to give it,” she whimpered.

“Try me.”

One hand moved into her hair, dishevelled and sweaty and tangled, stroking with his thumb the space behind her ear. She turned into the motion, finally looking at Tim on his knees before her. 

One last mistake, she told herself. Stephanie would hurt herself one more time.

“I want all of you,” she said.

Tim blinked twice, slowly, reminding Stephanie of a cat. Then, as if in slow motion, his blank expression melted, and his chest heaved a great sigh, as if a great weight had been lifted from his shoulders.

“I can give you that,” he said simply. 

“You…” Stephanie reached up, holding the wrist that cradled her hair. There was no pain, only a startling and intense feeling of hope. “You have all of me,” she whispered, pulling him up.

He perched himself back on the bed, letting the jacket fall once more to the floor.

“Then I guess we can keep doing this.”

And he kissed her, and all Stephanie’s mistakes felt right all at once.

[lostcauses-noregrets]

Hey Lost, bit of a weird and maybe stupid question but how do you enjoy eruri in the fandom so peacefully? I love aot and eruri but I get so worked up from the chaos, I've muted and blocked people but I still seem to find the negativity all the time. How do you deal with the hate?

Ha! That's a very good question. To be honest it's partially just practice; I've been around in fandom for so long that I've learned to create really strong boundaries. Fandom for me has always been a place for creativity, community and escapism, so I'm really defensive about curating my fandom experience. I don't hesitate to block or mute anyone who brings negativity or drama into my fandom space, and that includes people in the Eruri fandom if necessary.

Being active on twitter and tumblr and keeping an open ask box does mean that it's impossible to completely dodge hate, negativity and drama, but it is possible to tune it out and tone it down. It's important to come to terms with the fact that, most of the time, you can't change the way other people think. There will always be fans who hate your otp, who have a wildly different view of your favourite characters, or who prefer other ships, and that's okay, just let them go their own way and concentrate on enjoying your own ship instead. Then there are other people who simply take delight in shitting on anything that brings joy to others. It's really important to ignore these assholes and don't let them impinge on your enjoyment of your ship.

The thing about fandom is that it unites a vast diversity of people who may have very little in common other than their love of a particular ship. It's a miracle that fans get on as well as they do, but we shouldn't be too surprised when they don't. Having said that, we're all only human and it can get really annoying and upsetting when people wilfully cause drama, or post hot takes that are designed to stir up trouble. That's when it helps to have a small group of trusted friends on a discord or backchannel where you can vent your frustrations in private. I've said it before and I'll say it again, the best way to experience fandom is with a small circle of like-minded weirdos who you would trust with your life. If you're lucky, these people might become your life long friends too ♡

PS If all else fails, ridicule is a useful antidote to hate 🐐

[gizkasparadise]

Worst second lead syndrome in KDRAMA?

there's a couple of contenders :'D

mr. sunshine: gu dong mae and kim hui seong

when the female lead has 3 love interests and you like 2 of them way more than the one who was endgame 🤡. dong mae/ae sin reminded me so, so much of a more dark version of one of my eternal OTPs, renji/rukia from bleach: childhood connection, woman from a noble class, guy from a rough background, they separate and reconnect years later. although in mr. sunshine the guy turns to organized crime :'| but the pining. the scene where ae sin's dress goes over dong mae's hands will keep me fed for years!

hui seong on the other hand was just so damn likeable. i have a thing for the Sad Clown character archetype and i think him and ae sin could have really understood each other given some more time, but sadly that doesn't exist for ANY of the couples in this drama.

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reply 1994: chil bong yi/"seven shut-outs"

lol the second lead syndrome that got me to drop an entire drama :'D i remember their kiss scene at the party and how it cut to him having to run extra laps during baseball practice but he was smiling the whole time and i was like no i cant watch this guy become a punching bag for 10 more eps :'D

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she was pretty: kim shin hyuk

on the one hand, we got a certified Weirdo who is super into the female lead before her makeover, is supportive of her at work, and looks like the center of one of the biggest kpop groups of all time?

on the other hand, we got a mean boss who used to be a childhood friend, but apparently doesn't recognize her anymore because she's no longer hot

like. this was no contest??

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cheese in the trap: baek in ho

now that i've read the webtoon, i actually like the main couple a little more, but in terms of drama!CITT, it should have been baek in ho all the way. the two had way more chemistry, better scenes, and better development. it says something that i was way sadder about their friendship breakup than hong seol's breakup with her actual boyfriend

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my first first love: seo do hyun

SONG YI LITERALLY SAID HE WAS HER LOVE STORY?! ugh!!!! this one continues to baffle me, because they actually dated in the drama, had great chemistry, and the only reason they drifted apart was because do hyun had family obligations and couldnt just drop everything at any moment the way tae oh could. tae oh + song yi felt shoehorned in together at the end, and their love story fell flat comparatively. tbh i interpret do hyun's present to song yi as a "see you when you're ready for your second husband" beginning and i will not accept other interpretations

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and last but not least:

chicago typewriter: yoo jin oh/shin yul

this one-sided love story totally wrecked me. he mentored her, he betrayed their organization to save her life, she shot him for it. he comes back as a ghost and still loves her ;; like!!! ahhhhhhh. it didn't help that se ju was a dick for the first half of the drama. the scene with seol's shoelaces coming undone and "someone's missing you" will wreck me until the end of my days

[shslskaterboy]

protagonists for the character questionnaire!

Oh goodness I hope you’re ready for another essay

Makoto my dear boy

Favourite thing? He’s the most some guy ever. Just a little creature. He’s so relatable because who among us hasn’t been in a situation where we feel wildly outclassed and surrounded by people who are cooler and more talented than us? Despite everything he just keeps going, what a legend

Least favourite is people who are wrong about him. How does anyone play that game and say he’s a nothing character? I just don’t get it, stop disrespecting my son

Honestly he’s got way more excellent lines than people give him credit for, but my favourite has to be “I always choose meat over veggies because I’m still in my teens… my meat teens.” Like WHAT are you talking about king I love it

Brotp probably him and Aoi. It’s the positivity besties

Otp is Naegiri. There’s just so much mutual respect between them and the story does a great job of writing them together that I can’t help but love him

Notp is probably just him with anyone that’s not kirigiri, or togami really. Whilst I personally hc Byakuya as aroace I do get why people ship naegami and I do think it’s kinda hilarious

I hc that him and Komaru are besties. Absolutely attached at the hip. They hang out all the time and he loves doing stuff with her, and is so so excited to introduce her to his new friends

The song I associate with him most is Fireflies by Owl City

Favourite art of him is the one where he’s tripping and his shoe just flies the fuck off. What a silly little man I love him

Hajime my beloved (I’m gonna be normal I swear)

To put it as succinctly as possible, he is just my favourite type of guy. He’s such a bitch, he’s so snarky about everything, he’s simultaneously the smartest and dumbest person in any given room, and he actually cares very deeply for things but he won’t readily admit to it. He’s got one of the more interesting arcs to me and in general I find him very relatable. He’s the best, my favourite protagonist probably

Least favourite is maybe less about him and more about Izuru Kamukura, and that is how underused he was. Obviously this is an opinion many people know about me, but it bears repeating because the concept of Kamukura was SO COOL and they barely even touched it and I’m mad about it every single day

Another guy that has so many good lines, but I think my favourite is “I thought I’d finally become someone I could be proud of, not some fucking backup student.” It just hits me so hard every time

Brotp probably him and Fuyuhiko or him and Impostor. I just think those three are the ones in the group with the highest sense of responsibility and they are the tired parents of this silly goofy pack of weirdos

Otp. It’s Komahina. Everyone knows this about me and I will refrain from writing an entire essay about why but suffice it to say. They are prefect

Notp is really anyone who’s not Komaeda, but specifically Nanami and Tsumiki are big on the No list for me

I have so many headcanons that my adhd brain can’t even begin to process them in a cohesive way, so I’ll just say that emo-punk autistic Hinata is my absolute beloved. Also man’s definitely has an anxiety disorder. And nooooo I’m definitely not projecting why do you ask

Unpopular opinion (so far the only character I’ve had one for) is that he’s not bi, he’s just gay. And look I love headcanoning every character ever as bi (again tooooootally not projecting) but whenever I replay/rewatch the game I see him being so gay about the men and being so uninterested in the girls (excepted for the super-forced hinanami stuff that I ignore)

I have sooooo many songs so I had to think about this a lot but I think I’m gonna say the best Hinata song is Life Less Frightening by Rise Against

Every image is the best image of him but specifically this one is so good

He’s fucking tired of this shit and he wants to be done with this despair nonsense and I love him for it

Shuichi Saihara, whom I am also normal about

It’s so hard to pinpoint why I love Saihara so much, but I think part of it is the fact that underneath his anxious exterior, he is actually very snarky. I’m always a slut for the sarcastic characters and I like the he is that as well as being generally polite to his classmates. He cares deeply and has a tendency to overthink things (totally not relatable) and I just need to give this poor man a HUG

Least favourite thing is how he interacts with Ouma in the canon outside of ftes. A good example of this being when he finds Ouma bleeding from the head on the floor and doesn’t seem to show any actual concern for him, which seems very out of character to me. I just think there was a lot more they could’ve done to build a connection between protag and antag that would’ve served to make the story more interesting, much the way the relationship between Hinata and Komaeda does

Short and sweet, my favourite Saihara line is simply “I refuse.” I am a big supporter of the idea that Shuichi should’ve been allowed to go a little crazy in chapter 6, and his whole telling off hope and despair speech was very fun. He really went “fuck you and your stupid game” and I just love it

Brotp has gotta be Kaito and Maki. I love the training trio and I think they have a great dynamic

Otp is saiouma. And yes I know I just raised a complaint about their lacklustre interactions in the game, but hey, canon can’t hurt me if I don’t look. There is a lot of potential for excellent character dynamics and that’s what I’m gonna focus on

Notp is saimatsu. Sorry anyone who likes them but it’s so comphet to me. Again, that is a gay boy and a lesbian, not a romantic couple

I hc that he really likes singing. Not to a professional degree or anything, but he does it while he works and it serves as a calming vocal stim for him. His voice is definitely very soft and sweet, which doesn’t lend itself well to his preferred genre of music (my sweet sweet emo boy) but that doesn’t stop him from trying

Again, so many songs I could choose from, but I will go with Swing Life Away by Rise Against because he’s just my sweet guy, my love, my boy

And once more, every image of Shuichi is my favourite, but I very specifically love his Serious Face sprite

I guess the takeaway is I like it when the protags get serious and start to shut shit down