#pls don't scream at me for my bad opinions

[kkujo]

last night i had a mix of tinnitus and sleep deprivation induced auditory hallucinations which was basically just like. literal microphone feedback. and i think it was triggered by me testing my microphone yesterday bc the feedback was awful but yeah i was lying awake and all i could hear was extremely loud microphone feedback in my brain i'm so glad it's over 😭

[alle-ni]

My thoughts about goodomensverse (I'm clinically insane) (my personal opinion) (long post)

Book Crowley:

- absolute disaster

- lonely boy

- grumpiest

- he's so in love with Aziraphale but didn't even realised yet

- a bit dumb sometimes ngl

- very tired

- he's trying so hard save earth and everything he knows but everytime he tries to explain why it's always AZIRAPHALE

- sometimes he's like... your old gay uncle, the old gay uncle of the family except it's a 6000 years old gender fluid demon

- HISS LIKE A SNAKE GANG

- got called dear once and them died (figuratively)

Radio Crowley:

- flirty

- "Humm have you ever seen me in a dress~~??"

- he's like flirting with Aziraphale 24/7

- 0 patience this man is a BOMB

- if Aziraphale ever EVER got slightly flirty with him back he will EXPLODE

- smartest of them all, he's very intelligent

- HISS LIKE A SSSSSNAKE GANG

- he's so in love with Aziraphale and it makes him SO FRUSTRATED

- his Aziraphale is the hardest one to reach, maybe this is why he's so deliberately obvious and direct with him (he's resilient, he will never give up)

- he's like a tsudere teenager collegial except he's a 6000 years old demon with serious issues

- not called dear yet poor soul </3

TV Crowley:

- SILLY

- he's the dumbest of them all, sorry 😭

- red hair

- he's so in love with Aziraphale and everyone notice it's SO OBVIOUS

- he's the most affected by The Bookshop Burning ™ event

- the only one who got to kiss the angel, good for him ig, or sorry, idk

- anxiety bomb he literally (literally) EXPLODE

- strongest soldier bc his Aziraphale is IMPOSSIBLE

- got dumped 2 times more than the others someone pls help him

- the most brave tho

- doesn't hiss a lot :/ free him from this madness let him hiss

- he's like a puppy with giant yellow eyes except it's a 6000 years old snake demon that lies all the time

- protective as hell this man wouldn't let anyone near Aziraphale if possible

- got called dear but at what cost??????????????

Book Aziraphale:

- Anxious all the time, religious trauma except the god is your father and he left you and never talk to you again and the guard angels are your siblings and they want you do be dead

- He's so soft he wants so bad to comfort Crowley but he's really hard to reach

- his Crowley is the most difficult of all of them, he needs to circle him a lot to get in touch

- this man got called names so often I don't think he even cares anymore

- he's very nerdy

- he's the calmest of them all

- really chill

- everyone is so mean to him for no reason

- he has 1 braincell tbh and it's really bad bc his Crowley is not that brilliant too they're both stupid sometimes

- he really REALLY wants to be with Crowley and Crowley only, he sounds almost obligated to be with heaven

- he is really kind to others even when they don't deserve

- he called Crowley dear once and then implode

Radio Aziraphale:

- full of himself

- bastard

- the most closed and oblivious of them all

- he tries to play cool with Crowley all the time (he's slowly getting insane and someday he will jump on this man)

- he's the most self sufficient one he barely holds on Crowley to anything and they're pretty independent

- Crowley can say shit like "Miss me angel~~??" and he would keep a bored face and not react at all (he screamed with the walls 4 hours later)

- he's also a tsudere collegial but he at least try to look cool and composed in public

- he's the Aziraphale that most believes in heaven, he's sure they are good and selfless and the right side

- he's not so brilliant tbh but he got a lot of spirit

- the most active Aziraphale ?? He really put his hand in the dirt and do the things alone

- the most angry and bad tempered of them all, bro scream "WE ARE CLOSED LOOK AT THE DAMN SIGN" when ppl barely touch the bookshop door

- he has a lot of patience with Crowley, not deserved tbh bc he thinks it's his personal job to get in Aziraphale's nerves

- overall he is polite

- he's really proud of their "arrangement" there not only one chance he let go without saying that

- he likes to provoke Crowley sometimes too but not as much as the other way around

- if he ever call Crowley dear he will explode

TV Aziraphale:

- bitchiest

- this man need to be sedated what the fuck Aziraphale

- most nuts of then all he's CRAZY

- he's the most up to do shit with Crowley they're insane together

- he doesn't let Crowley rest he is flirting and being cute and hitting on Crowley all the time

- he's so obviously in love with Crowley its embarrassing

- he's the fruitiest he's the entire salad

- the most... indulgent, if I can say, of them all

- more like an employer of heaven, different of book Aziraphale

- he's the only one with almost white hair

- he got kissed but at what cost

- he's the most intelligent of all of them how can he be this dumb

- he loves little things about earth and humans and life and he seems to be the Aziraphale that most love EARTH itself, like, the life, the humans, the food, the little pleasures we have, the little time of happiness we have between all the shit that is happening... he really loves humans <3

- he's conflicted about heaven, he seems to know that there's something WRONG with how heaven works but still doesn't understand what exactly it is

- "oh but saving me makes him soooo happyyyy~~~"

- overall kind and sweet, in a excited way

[lastoneout]

I do want to chime re: that last post, as someone who lives in a place where it's like 100F+ for like half the year, when things are bad enough it literally doesn't matter what you drink as long as you are consuming liquids. Yes, you should try to drink as much water as you can, but if you literally cannot stand the taste of it literally drink fucking anything. Coffee, tea, soda, and gatorade is better than not drinking any liquids at all. The ONLY drink doesn't hydrate you is alcohol, everything else is fair game.

Legit every time I see someone say "only drink water, everything else is bad for you" especially in regards to a disaster situation I want to scream bcs trust me anything is better than not drinking!! And, in fact, just water alone WILL NOT FULLY HYDRATE YOU. If you're eating enough stuff with salt and sugar in it you should be fine but there is a reason that hospitals use a saline solution to hydrate patients, and it's bcs if you don't have enough electrolytes in your system your body just straight up will not absorb the water!! Trust me, I have been super dehydrated before due to the heat despite drinking tons of water and it wasn't until I drank a gatorade that I actually started to feel better bcs I needed the sugars and salts in it to get my body to absorb the water I was drinking!! (Bcs contrary to popular diet culture opinion your body actually needs sugar, salt, and fat to function properly.)

I also know what it's like to try to force yourself to eat or drink something you can't stand and how a lot of the time our bodies just will not let us consume something if we don't like it, so trust me if you hate water to the degree that you will not drink it, DRINK SODA OR COFFEE OR TEA OR GATORADE FFS. You NEED liquids!! You are not hurting yourself, your body WILL hydrate itself with those drinks!! You should ofc again try to ALSO drink water, but if you hate water or don't have safe water just drink a fucking soda.

Add kool-aid or lemonade powder or mio drops or something like that to your water bottles, buy gatorade or pedialyte or another sports drink and drink a cup of water along with them, eat jello and watermelon and cucumbers, make iced tea or coffee and put extra ice in it, freeze juice in an ice-cube tray and put it in your water, have soda or hawaiian punch or sunny d or chocolate milk or whatever, eat popsicles, have soup, literally please just get liquids into you in any way that you can. Every single year summer gets harder and harder and we do not have the luxury of succumbing to "water or nothing" culture, so please just drink SOMETHING bcs nothing kills faster than dehydration and these things WILL hydrate you. Some might not do it as well as others, but they will do it, and that's enough to keep you alive.

TL;DR: Try to drink as much water as you can, but if you can't for whatever reason don't feel bad and pls just drink something, bcs when push comes to shove it's far more important to get liquids into your body than it is to worry about which ones, and drinking soda/juice/a sports drink WITH your water can actually help you stay hydrated BETTER than drinking nothing but water can. As long as you're avoiding alcohol you're fine, so please, just drink something.

[silly-little-gooses]

hi, I have a request. either one of these hc series or both Idk :( (fem s/o) -relationship headcanons with Jameson Hawthorne

-Jameson NSFW headcanons (it's okay if you don't accept :)

hello so I’m a minor and I don’t feel comfortable posting nsfw content, but I know there are many other creators who would love to accept that request. but ofc I’ll do jameson dating headcanons!

what it would be like to date jameson hawthorne:

traveling the world and running away from your problems together

jameson loves when his s/o wears his clothes, he thinks it’s so cute

jameson’s love language is physical touch

jameson is really chill about most things and will let you try makeup on him (he looks so good with eyeliner)

jameson has really bad “hawthorne insomnia” and can only sleep with his s/o, otherwise he has trouble falling asleep + staying asleep

jameson’s guilty pleasure in a relationship is when his s/o plays with his hair

jameson is always there to help with period issues. cramps or cravings, he’s there to help. he doesn’t think any of it is super gross.

being in a relationship with jameson not only gives you a bf, it also gives you a best friend. he would make tiktoks/social media posts with you, sing-scream in the car, and other dorky best friend things

jameson cannot sing for his life, but he’ll sure try to (jokingly) serenade you if a love song comes on

jameson knows what it’s like to be insecure so if you confess you’re insecure about anything, he knows how to comfort you and make you feel confident

jameson is a hopeless romantic, yet also scared of love

jameson is a consent king. he always asks before doing anything, even small things like hugs or high fives

jameson is a really good listener and will listen to you rant forever. deep down, he prefers to listen than to talk

(before you say anything, ik this is cringey😭) jameson is overprotective and worries a lot. your safety is a big priority, since his life is really so dangerous

jameson is wealthy and he knows it. he has no use for all that money, so he’ll totally spend it on his s/o.

jameson's nicknames for a s/o would be pretty girl, my love, and/or sweetheart (heiress is just for avery yall)

jameson will take his s/o to the arcade for a fun date and then proceed to beat them in every game. he is scarily good at arcade games

that’s all I have, tysm for the request! <3

side note: yall pls stop fighting me on my controversial tig opinions list im sorry😭

[mrsjavierp]

Where You Belong?

Chapter 6 - Can't Remember to Forget You

Javier Peña x latin!f!reader

Summary: Running away from life as you always knew to start a new position as Head Chief on a DEA Office, far away, on Colombia. There, you'll face violence, as you never thought you could. There, you'll meet Javier Peña, your stubborn agent...

Warnings (to the whole fic): +18!, angst, smut, cheating, last relationships, drug dealing - Narcos Universe (not so accurate), bad spanish, english is my second language, use of Y/N and Y/LN. No physical description of the reader, only your clothes (sometimes). The POVs are shifting between reader (first person and Narrator - 3rd person)

(If I forgot anything, tell me, pls!)

Word Count: 1.7k

A/N: I'd love to know about you're thinking about it so far! Your opinion is really important! Tks <3 Btw, I'm tagging @pedrostories! Babe, let's show'em why we're so much in love for that man!

Obs: I tried to make a past x present situation, so, anytime you see something written like this, is present. If not, it's just Javi's memory about the night he won't (and can't) forget.

*

Narrator's POV:

"My title might be ambassador, but that's some bullshit politician's word. I know what it means to be on the front lines." - Crosby started.

The ambassador's words were just a sound in the conference room, because Javier's mind was far way, on days before, when he fucked you so hard, for so many hours, until morning...

That damn raining morning, he woke up alone, in his bed, only your forgotten panties left behind.

After Javier let you sit on his face, you went back to the apartment complex, to fuck the way both needed.

Truth be told, you didn't agree on your place, since you didn't want to keep reminding...

In vain, of course.

Your mind was always playing tricks on both of you: showing images of what happened.

Javier looked at you as an art piece, a perfect sculpture under his touch. You melted under him, you actually would let him do all and then some.

Oh, and he did… That was just the opening show.

"And everybody here in this room wants the same thing: to take down Escobar... Now, as a veteran of numerous conflicts, I learned one immutable truth:..." - Crosby continued.

Arriving at Javi's, it was nothing like you expected: as a matter of fact, was clean, organized, not even the rest of his cigarettes' were at its astray.

He couldn't look away, because he couldn't believe that he got into bed with you, his guilty desire, his hidden fantasy.

He undressed you again, hypnotized, as if he wanted to memorize every inch of your skin.

His hands were slow and steady on you.

He sat you down on his sofa, at first, opening your legs again.

"Are you gonna eat me again, Javier?" - you asked, as if you had any power over him. You didn't know, but you were in charge.

Well, mostly in charge.

"I am, cariño. I already miss your pretty little pussy wetting my face... You taste like fucking candy." - he responded, as his fingers touched your lips, avoiding your throbbing clitoris on porpuse. - "I wanna make you scream my name."

You moaned as he buried his face between your legs, licking as a thirsty man.

"The only way to be successful is by working together, by communicating, by sharing intelligence and collaborating. Understood?"

Javier was shaky. The moment to remember how it all started wasn’t that… 

You come undone again and again and one more time after that.

He made you squirt... You thought only your vibrator could do that.

"I probably ruined your sofa, Javi..."

"I don't care, cariño." - he responded, as one of his hands caressed your cheek and the other massaged your pussy, softly.

Javier was still fully dressed and the collar of his shirt was wet.

You squirted so hard it dripped to his neck.

"Javi, please... Let me touch you too." - you begged.

He took his hands off and got up while you were trying to catch your breath. Javier was deciding if you're going to be fucked on the sofa or on his bed...

Until Javier picked you up in his arms and took you to his room. You held him just like that day in the pool.

"Just to be formal, this is Y/N Y/LN, the DEA country attaché. She'll remain to take over all DEA operations in-country. Y/LN?"

He lay you on the bed, softly. His sheets were cold, probably from the breeze coming from the window... It will be raining soon.

Javier took off his clothes, as you sat down and looked at him too.

He was such a handsome man, with a beautiful body.

And, also, a big beautiful dick. Thick and hard... His head was already dripping precum.

Your mouth was watering to suck it. His cock throbbed as your hand went in his direction.

"Can I, Javi?" - I asked.

"Can you what, cariño? I need you to be crystal clear."

"Can I suck your dick, Javi?" - your voice barely came out.

"Yes, cariño. Please, show me how you're thankful to your obedient soldier." - he responded.

You could feel the arrogance in his tone... But you were too much athirst for it. In your fantasies, you came while doing a blowjob.

"Thank you, ambassador. The DEA will be opening field offices in Cali, Cartagena and Barranquilla. As far as the Medellín team is concerned, we will continue to be housed out of CNP headquarters until further notice. But only after some personnel changes have been made."

At that moment, he hated your voice. He hated how you could act like nothing happened... But it did! He wasn't crazy... He missed you so badly.

He even missed hearing you coming next door...

You never sucked someone so hard. His hands held your hair, getting it out of the way for you.

Your tongue licking in a way he never felt so wanted. His veins were bulging. He even invaded your throat a little, but you didn't even gasp.

Javier noticed and would use it later...

"F-fuck, cariño... Such a good girl for me. "

A few moments after, he begged:

"Cariño, stop. Please. I need to be inside of you."

You obey, this time. You needed Javier too...

"All right, now as far as long-term intelligence is concerned, that's under the purview of the CIA, the station chief, Bill Stechner. Bill, you have anything you'd like to add?"

"I'm good."

He positioned on your entrance, his dick aching.

"Look at me, cariño. Look at me as I get in for the first time."

His eyes locked on yours. You weren't able to look away.

He shoved his dick inside of you, inch by inch, until he was all in... Literally.

"Cariño, you're so tight, so wet... O-o-oh fuck..."

"All right, who's here from Centra Spike?"

"Sir, I am. Edward Jacoby."

"All right, let's get Centra Spike back in the air immediately. I want to know every word these assholes say and all the information flows through me and I will disseminate as I see fit." 

You moan, resistant to say his name. You don't want to give this kind of power to Javier.

And he knows it and he'll push it until you say.

Javier took his dick out suddenly, flipped you, so your belly could touch the mattress, and got on top of you again.

His big body covered yours, his skin was just as hot as yours. His hand fondles your back, chilling you. You shivered.

"You can say my name again, cariño, you know, right?" - he pushed inside of you again. - "Don't make me be mean when I know you can be such a good girl."

"Yes, sir." - Jacoby responded.

Your pussy clenched around him, you moaned badly… You could feel his prase in your gut.

"Oh, fuck, cariño..."- Javier held your waist. - "I know you can be louder. Go ahead, show me." - he kissed your neck, leaving a mark.

Pendejo, you thought.

"Oh God, Javier, are you trying to kill me?" -

You finally managed to respond. - "I'm going to come, oh fuck!"

He pulled your hair, turning your face to him, but your eyes were closed.

"Open your eyes, cariño... I'll let you come as long as you look at me."

You open your eyes and then practically scream his name. You can feel his cock throbbing inside.

"Where do you want me, cariño?"

"I-i-inside, Javi..."

You both shared an orgasm as he held your hair to look at your face.

Javier Peña could swear that nothing was prettier than seeing you come.

The prettiest thing he ever saw in his entire life.

You sighted and he still held you close. He'd never let you go again.

"Oh, Javi... I can't believe it happened..." - You confessed, with your eyes closed. You couldn't look at him just yet.

"Look at me, preciosa."

"I can't. I'll wake up and you won't be here." - your voice was low, in pain.

"Please, look at me." - slowly, you opened your eyes. Your fantasy came true. Javier smiled.

Javier and you shared an intimate glance.

Oh fuck...

"When Escobar sticks his fucking head out, we're gonna nail that son of a bitch. Dismissed all."

*

Finishing the meeting, you and Javier leave the embassy at the same, talking about Steve:

"What about him? Other than the fact that he wasn't here today, Peña?"

"Well, I suggested that he stay home. You mentioned making some changes... What exactly does that mean?"

You look at him, without any emotion:

"It means I'm making some changes."

"You know Murphy is a good agent. He's done a lot of good work down here."

You rolled your eyes.

"Yeah! I know!" - you said, pissed. You took a file out of your briefcase and showed it to Javier. - "Looks like he almost threw it all out the window."

Javier examined the papers showing Steve in a mugshot and the police report. He took a deep breath, without an answer.

"Do you have any idea the strings that were pulled to get that Wall Street pendejo not to press charges?"

"Sounds to me like the guy would've had a dog sniffing up his ass before he got on the plane... Maybe Steve did him a favor." - his hands were on his waist, his foot tapping and his tone was condescending.

You snorted.

"Was that a 'thank you'? Be straight to me, Peña, and I'll be straight with you. I don't need Steve... Not like that. You know it."

Another breath taken.

"Cariño..."

"No, Peña. Y/LN or jefe."

"We've been here longer than you, you've been down here like... Two hours?"

You chose to ignore the offense.

"It may not make the front page, but you know Steve and all he has done. He's a good man. He's going through some shit right now... You know he was at the airport to try to stop Connie and Olivia from leaving to Miami. He didn't make it... Add that to watching Escobar build a 5 star prison and making the colombian army look like a joke, by walking out the back door."

You both shared a look. His puppy brown eyes were begging, you could feel it. Begging for what, was the question.

"We all deserve to see this through... Jefe."

You just left him. Again.

You had a lot to do with the changes and new offices.

Next

[itsmelb]

2022 - the year I discovered BL!

(The master post no one needs but everyone gets anyway haha)

1. I fell in love with...the passion!

What you have to know about me is, that I love realness in series. Emotion vise. Like real anger, sadness and passion. I love it when you feel the chemistry. And it hit me like lightning when I saw MileApo play the Kinnporsche. If you know my blog you know that I wasn't interested in Asian TV/Music or anything related to such series. But I couldn't help myself (like many other people haha) bc of the sexiness of them boys (I mean look at them omg) and I fell deeper than I dreamed of.

2. I felt that...in my heart and soul!

It's no secret that I am obsessed with Kinnporsche. I fell in love with Mile at first sight. I love his old soul sm. And you never ever can oversee Apo with his tiny waist and bright aura. I struggled with Vegas at first. But Bibs had me from the moment I saw everything in his eyes. And him with Bui hits different. But now it's like Jeff Satur everywhere. And Barcode grew sm on me that I can't look away when they are together. And just like that all the boys grew on me like...like a family I might never see in person (sobbing) but I love them sm and cherish the moments through my phone. I don't know how you guys feel about this but it's just not explainable how much I could smile, cry and scream for them. My heart is full..

3. I feel like...I am stuck in a love circle!

And in this mood I came here. Tumblr. And the gate of BLs opened wide...haha. I got many recs. Like Cutie Pie, Lita, Unforgotten night, the eclipse, viseversa, between us,...or the slightly older ones like Tharntype, don't say no, 2gether the series... so much happend. It felt and still feels like a love circle (like the devils circle just with love haha). And the obsession grew so far that I couldn't and still can't focus on other series anymore. It's really bad. (..but so f***ing worth it!!)

4. Feeling...the music!

I love music. Show me a good sound and I am obsessed with it. And all the BLs have music! What a nice discovery! I fell for Jeff's voice like Lucifer from heaven. With no turn back. Hide isn't my most listened song of the year for no reason haha. And at all the send offs and tour and collaborations made me feel the Thai Music sm. I can't sing the lyrics well but I try haha. It was an eye opener for a new genre of feels. I especially love the rock versions of songs. The Tharntype theme song is really good also. (Give some recs pls if u know good songs though 😁)

5. ...and we all felt that!

I met @librariesperson here and we both knew that we share the same thoughts immediately. We joke that it's destiny. Kinnporsche did that. It gives us an obsession to share. Like we all are close friends. Like the cast is. And I just wish that we all stay together and be a Fandom they can be proud of. ❤️

6. I will still feel it...in the future!

I just became obsessed in the right time. The filmography and acting got better. The realness and passion on NC scenes are top tier. And it will get even better next year! The trailers of gmmtv, dmd are out and promising...and Boc hasn't even give us some trailers! The expectation is high. I am praying for a Jeffbarcode series. (With an happy ending ok!!!) And BBB will have projects. And MileApo for sure. And all the other ones. I just wanna see them happy. And Jeff will give us some good songs I know it just now...

...oh and @ all the writers of FFs. Thanks for your hard work. I/we see u. We love u. We don't know what we will do without u. Pls write more Kimchay pretty pls 🤞🏻😁🙏🏻

And that's my year with BL. My opinions. My wishes. And for the last one..

I wish you all a great new years eve! And a happy, healthy and lovely new Year 2023. Enjoy your time! See ya soon 🤞🏻💜

[traumxrei-archive]

I also love idol groups and would love to watch a concert with Idia- but if he starts gushing about a specific member or something I'd have to smoosh his face in my hands and be all "No. We both like idols, but you only like me, k? So no gushing over some girl in front of me, k? Cause that rouses my insecurities. I luv u, but plz no ❤️" I didn't realize how bad that sounds until after I finished typing it out. But like- if you're gonna gush over an idol, let me dress as one and gush over me instead 😭

(referring to this post)

PLS i can imagine this happening so clearlyyy let me just *furious writing noises* :

idia was the one who got you into premo. after giving their albums a listen, you got hooked and now you go to premo concerts with him. this time, you're attending a live concert. as the concert starts up, you're arguing over which premo member is the best bc he thinks it's atropos but OBVIOUSLY it's clotho in your opinion- but he starts making heart eyes at atropos and you just gotta remind him that he has a whole ass living breathing partner next to him fjdskfj

you: idia, sweetie look at me, look at me.

idia: *literally drops his lightstick* wh-what- what's happening—?

you: i am your idol now. worship me.

[ it turned into a small drabble so. drabble below the cut hehe ]

and he's like ???? what ???? until a few weeks later you walk into his room and he starts screaming bloody murder bc "y-you can't just show up in atropos cosplay and nOT tell me about it—!! i'm losing health points as we speak- no, stand back, don't get closer ! uhm...t-tell ortho i need a rez-"

and idia faints. spectacularly. wonderfully. (he got so excited that his anemic-ass stood too quickly and wHABAM he blacked out) you catch him before he hits the ground, like the great partner that you are. two seconds later ortho bursts into the room and he's like "NII-SAN !! WHAT HAPPENED !!" and you shrug, idia settled into your arms, bc all you did is walk into the room in a costume. (you knew exactly what you did but it was fun to feign ignorance to see idia's reaction hehe)

oh and you don't forget to tell ortho that idia specifically requested a rez, so. yeah. ortho does something that looks suspiciously like he blasted a premo song in his ears. idia wakes up almost immediately, eyes snapping open. and he almost faints again bc your face was right in front of his. you were holding him. in your arms. YOU WERE HOLDING HIM BC HE FAINTED IN THE PREMO COSTUME- aaaaanndd ortho had to make him do breathing exercises to calm down jdfksjfk

@ the anonnie who sent this, sorry this ended up kinda. big. i just love bullying idia sm (lovingly ofc he's just so jfdksjf *squishes him like he's a nui*)

[luckloveandwaterfalls]

thoughts on the grieve family pls and thanks

Oh I have many, you have no idea!

So the Grieves are in a completely horrific position, where not one of their champions has won over eight hundred years. Understandably, this—along with the public opinion of them—is discouraging. Every twenty years, they send one of their kids to die. Usually right away too, so there's little hope that any of the Grieves would survive. This is an unambiguously bad situation.

By AoUV, the Grieves have given up. It's so obvious. They have zero involvement in Gavin's life and don't even include him in family photos, accepting that he is going to die at seventeen. His parents clearly aren't happy with their marriage, but they don't do anything about it. They drink and scream at each other, and ignore Gavin, and drink some more.

The problem isn't even that they've given up expecting to win the tournament. They've also completely given up on their kids (and I'm using the plural intentionally). Almost immediately after the tournament begins, Gavin's parents get rid of all of his possessions and leave his room bare. I can't even find words to describe how fucked up this is. They don't even wait. They don't even hold out hope for his survival. It's like he's already dead, like he's been dead his whole life.

To a lesser extent, they behave this way at Callista's wedding too, which I find super interesting. Her father kind of shoves her at the groom once he walks her down the aisle, like he's disgusted, like she's dead to him. Like he's saying that Roland Payne can have her, the Grieves don't want her anymore. Callista's great crime is...not wanting to be associated with the Grieves. Not wanting anything to do with that reputation and name.

Which...okay? I don't like how she treats Gavin, but this is peculiar because Gavin remarks that Fergus is their parents' favorite because he isn't old enough to be ashamed of his family. Callista, therefore, is both old enough and ashamed of them. Rightfully so, and not because they don't win the tournament. But her parents are ashamed, too. They don't take any pride in being Grieves because they literally don't try anymore, so it makes me think that it's less of disgrace and more bitterness. Like none of them are happy, so they resent Callista for verbalizing it and actually breaking away.

That's pure extrapolation, but it seems plausible considering the bizarre way everyone is acting at Callista's wedding. Truly wtf levels of family dysfunction.

So back to Gavin, the issue is that they have given up on him. They gave up on him years ago. Good parents in their position would look back at the centuries of dying Grieves and do everything in their power to make Gavin strong enough. They would help him train, get him access to advanced spellwork, find quality sponsorships that would help him succeed. They would take an active interest in making sure their kid doesn't die. I feel justified in saying that this is a) the bare minimum and b) the reasonable thing for a parent to do.

But they gave up on Gavin as a champion, and they gave up on Gavin as a child. That scene in All of Our Demise when he's remembering having nightmares as a kid and all he can hear is his parents yelling? It broke my heart. It's such a lonely position for a kid to be in, and then for Callista to shut the door in his face is even worse.

The relationship between Gavin and Callista is so complicated and real that I might make a separate post about it. To summarize: their parents suck, which gave them no good options. Callista shouldn't have been put in the position of a parental figure when she didn’t even have one, and she shouldn’t have been there for Fergus but not Gavin when they needed her. Gavin shouldn’t have been left in the lurch when he desperately needed validation and support as a child. Gavin shouldn’t have had to look after his younger brother because no one else would. Fergus shouldn’t have had to grow up in such a hostile, turbulent environment with an ostracized sister and a brother who was expected to die.

The banquet scene in AoUV boils my blood. Even if the Grieves didn't have such an abysmal track record with the tournament, even if everyone had equal odds of winning, that's a 1 in 7 chance you'll see your kid alive again. And the Grieves, historically, have much lower odds. And Gavin's parents go off to get drunk and don't say a word to him the whole time.

So, to reiterate, it isn't just that the Grieves have given up on getting high magick. They've completely given up on their son, and by extension on being a parent. They don't know a single thing about Gavin, his interests, his goals, his abilities, because they just don't care. They've never tried to care. They've never tried to get attached to a boy that they're throwing away, and they've never even considered trying to help him survive. To them, it's a waste. It's like he's just an inconvenient necessity to buy them another twenty years.

In summary: I can't hate Callista because of the situation she was thrust into, but my god she could have handled it better. Fergus is a sweetheart who thankfully has a good relationship with his brother. Gavin is going to need a lot of therapy to deal with the shit his parents put him through. And the Grieves are a different brand of fucked-up than the rest of the families, not because they're trying so hard to win that they become despicable, but because of how thoroughly they've given up.

[threebooksoneplot]

ok so this is a hypothetical scenario bc i listen to a buncha pods about books and sometimes the podcasters have Bad Takes and will b like "i think people generally think [insert bad take]" and i always want to scream and reach out to them like: no. respectfully, i luv ur pod, but shut up ur wrong, or at least to be like: if ur gonna insist on having this take at least acknowledge that there are also other takes out there pls n thanks (yall do this its gr8 im here for it!) anyway i was wondering if someone said something to that effect to you would you be like: ok noted thanks for the feedback ... or would you be like: anyway ur wrong actually bye what would ur response to this incredibly vague hypothetical scenario be?? im curious! thanks for indulging me/my curiosity lol ... ok thats all bye

I mean, I (G) feel like we've definitely done both of those things at different times! kinda depends on the take. like, does the phrase "it's not that deep" apply? then we're probably gonna go for a jokey "you're wrong" Response B. In fact, I'd say 90% of the time when we go for Response B we are joking (James did nothing wrong and Victoria should get to kill Bella as a treat.)

but in general we tryyyyyy to leave room for nuance and point out where we ourselves are biased? you guys are the best judge of whether or not we succeed at that, lol. personally I think the key is just doing what you said above, and acknowledging other takes exist. our experiences are not universal! we try to keep our finger on the pulse (haha vampire jokes) of what other fans are saying even as we acknowledge that "other fans" is a HUGE and diverse category that includes everyone from Cheryl in the Bite Me Edward facebook group who's been writing edbella fic on ff.net since 2009 to Emersyn on tiktok who saw Twilight for the first time last year to Princess Weekes, who just released a new video essay on how not all critiques of the series are bad faith vitriol.

it's also why we have guests! shannon and I are in such close agreement on most things that we knew from the start we wanted to introduce more diversity of opinions, lol.

we ourselves definitely have opinions of the reactionary "we've heard this take we disagree with one too many times online and now we can't help but rip it to shreds when it comes up" variety (stan renee for clear skin) but consider this our re-upped commitment to pointing out to the audience whenever that's the case. we know some of you guys probably like, touch grass and may not be aware of the niche online twilight discourse that poisons our brains 24/7

overall, New Moon has been a great place to build up our "acknowledge that other takes exist" muscles! it feels like every 5 pages we were both stopping to be like "well I don't find this compelling, but I can see why someone else...might...like this." it's definitely opened up my perspective to reread the books after years of being in fandom and being exposed to so many opinions.

so, yeah: it's a boring answer, but our response to the hypothetical situation would depend on the hypothetical take. we hope (and continue to work) to always leave room in our Serious discussions for other points of view!!

[dont-touch-the-flower-child]

hii this is for the character asks!

just anything about shinsuke pls :)

Always happy to!

Sexuality Headcanon: asexual (likely demisexual) and gay. That red light district anecdote during the joui war screams asexuality to me.

The gay headcanon is because none of his (very limited) interactions with female characters have given me any hint of romantic chemistry. I'm getting that he's not nearly as smooth with women as his joui buddies are.

Gender Headcanon: a guy but in a femme fatale way

A ship I have with said character: bantaka as I have talked about before, though I'm also open to several other ships including ZuraTaka and HijiTaka.

A BROTP I have with said character: with the rest of joui 4. I think Hijikata and him also have the potential to be buddies.

It's a real shame we don't see Shinsuke hang out more with Kamui or the yorozuya kids. His relationships with Matako and Takechi could also be explored more (even though I don't like how Sorachi handled Shinsuke's relationship with Matako).

A NOTP I have with said character: I'm going to get tomatoes thrown at me for this but. Gintaka is a no-go here. Mostly bc everything abt that ship puts me in a bad headspace

I don't ship him with any female characters either for the same reasons I gave for the gay headcanon.

A random headcanon: Shinsuke dresses the way he does... because it's comfortable. It has nothing to do with seduction really. I'm inappropriately dressed, you say? Come now, you know how I don't like things around my neck. Can't a man have his chest out? It's just my body, no different from anyone else's. Quit staring my eyes are up here

(Everyone lives AU) Sometime after the Tendoshuu is successfully banished Shinsuke retires from joui activities and buys a house in Edo/Tokyo. He leaves rebuilding the country to Zura because, as he's said, he simply wanted to destroy, and now the destroying's done. The Kiheitai is disbanded in name with everyone free to go wherever they please, but Bansai, Matako and Takechi still live with Shinsuke.

After a few years of rest and soul-searching Shinsuke opens up a school and becomes a teacher. He is, despite everything, deeply adored by his students.

(And maybe he also gets a cat. I feel that he's a cat person.)

General Opinion over said character: Best charcater. I love him. Even though he gets done dirty post-shogun assassination arc, and Sorachi can't seem to stay consistent on certain parts of his character, and his screentime is woefully little, he's an absolute delight.

I do wish people would stop giving him traits he doesn't have though... and maybe notice the fun ones that he Does have?? I mean. He likes giving nicknames. He's terrible coming up with insults and retorts. He creates a tough baddie persona for himself that manages to fool nobody. He likes people more than he'd allow himself to admit. god he's such a loser (affectionate). let me kiss him

Thanks for the ask! I had fun doing this!!

[mushiewrites]

Heyheyhey I have something important that I’d like your opinion on friend—!

Tickle tools on Dream’s tum-tum: how would he react to different ones and which would be the worst?

My brain got hooked after reading the Lee Ranboo Ler Aimsey fic where Aimsey was tickling Ran’s back with a hairbrush and I wanted her to get his tummy with it and whenever I think of tummy tickles I immediately think of Dream now so—

Hi hi Sean! (I swear I'm working on prompts everyone I just am not in the best place mentally rn!!!)

I haven't read that fic but feel free to send it my way bc it sounds ADORABLE. But omg yes, any excuse to talk about Dream and his tummy 🥺

IF YOU'RE NOT INTO TICKLE TOOLS PLS KEEP SCROLLING

Feathers:

With Dream, I feel like the soft part would have him giggling quietly, blushing like crazy and hiding his face in his hands because of how flustering something so simple is.

BUT the opposite end - the hard stiff end - has him absolutely squealing. Dragging the pointy end along his tummy, poking along the lower pudge or swirling it around in his bellybutton will have him howling.

Art Supplies:

Think of simple paint brushes - they work enough, almost acting as feathers because of how soft they are (sometimes worse depending on the stiffness of the bristles).

However, a paint brush with paint / markers are a little more flustering. Not only does it tickle more, causing Dream to squirm and try and grab at the ler's wrists, he's unable to fight back due to the fact that the "art" would get messed up. And after, Dream has to look at all the "I'm ticklish!" "Tickle me here!" "Death spot!" and all the other writing left by the ler. (Bonus flustered Dream: realizing that the ler has to now scrub the ink / paint off)

Electric Toothbrushes: So I don't ever see these in fics (at least in this lil community), but I can vouch that this is the meanest thing EVER. So I imagine the bristles on the toothbrush without it turning on would make Dream break into high pitched giggles, trying not to squirm away because he likes the way it feels against his skin. But as soon as they switch it on, and the bristles begin swirling, he screams, wheezing and thrashing and bucking his hips to get it away as it slowly works its way towards the middle of his tummy. And when it makes its home pressed inside his bellybutton, he goes silent, tears forming in his eyes as he squeezes them shut, going limp because of how bad it tickles.

I hope this was okay I didn't proof read and wrote this while multitasking.

[sp4c3b0yw0rld]

Today I watched...

The Black Phone (2021)

And I didn't like it.

SPOILERS BELOW

Here goes my review/opinion/complaint:

First of all, WHAT ARE YOU DOING BOY, WHY ARE YOU GOING NEAR A BLACK VAN THAT SAYS "ABRACADABRA" TO HELP A WEIRD GUY WHO JUST THREW HIS SHOPPING BAG IN FRONT OF YOU KNOWING THAT 5 KIDS HAVE BEEN KIDNAPPED BY SOMEONE WITH A VAN?

Also, it wasn't even that dark, how did anybody notice the BIG BLACK "ABRACADABRA" VAN?

This guys gotta be the most useless police officers I've ever seen in a movie (couldn't find a photo of them, but if you've watched the movie ykwim).

That scene when Finn goes upstairs and the guy is asleep made me scream at the screen. Like, why don't you just hit him or knock him or smth BEFORE trying to escape? He had things there, objects he could have used to knock him; if he had, the movie would've been over (and so would my suffering). But he didn't.

He tried to escape, he was caught and back inside the basement again. Wow.

I did my best not to turn off the TV and keep watching, that was the real horror.

And well the end is... Idk how to describe it, it all feels very rushed, very spontaneous.

More context needed.

A lot of people recommended me this movie, and I still can't understand why.

Final rating: 4.5 out of 10 (I mean, it's not that bad, but I wouldn't rewatch it and didn't like it)

In the end, this is only my opinion, if you've enjoyed this movie that's fine, just don't recommend me anything more pls (jk).

bye n see you soon!

[virtualbunny]

Miller's squad: dom, switch or sub?

listen this is my first time attempting to write so don't go bonkers on me for having a bad imagination. Anyways, let's gooooo

John Miller: Dom, he's a high school teacher and a captain which means he basically has to be a dominant person (i suppose) and maybe that goes for in the bedroom also.

Mike Horvath: Also a dom, he's second in command which also means he's also quite dominant if i'm correct. I mean, he litreally threw Reiben onto the ground and pointed a gun at him.

Timothy Upham: A sub, i know i know it's a popular opinion but his aura ( idk lol ) screams that about him.

Daniel Jackson: And again, a dom. Maybe i'm just biased but the way he grabbed Steamboat Willes shirt makes me crumble.

Richard Reiben: For the fourth time also a dom. Again, maybe i'm just biased but the way he yells and his nonchalant attitude makes him seem that way.

Irwin Wade: Here's an unpopular opinion, he's a switch with a dom lean. Why? you may ask, well the way he scolded the guys and the way he scream cocksucker etc at the beach made him seem that way.

Stanley Mellish: To me he seems like a switch with a dom lean, idk why but he's a litte aggresive but also kind in a way but mostly harsh. Again, idk it's hard to tell. Or maybe he doesn't have lean.

Adrian Caparzo: Unpopular opinion again, he's a switch with a sub lean. Don't know how to explain it well but it just seems right.

Okay people i'm done, my mind has found it's inner peace (not really). Also i'm very sorry if this was bad my brain lacks knowledge. ALSO AGAIN i need feedback pls give me some but don't be harsh i'll cry myself to sleep again. HAVE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT xx <3

[finniestoncrane]

Tag 10 people you want to get to know better!

Sweet babies @sweetums0kitty and @abbyyaytes tagged me and I am kicking my feet, giggling and screaming ;-;

relationship status: i'm married, i met my husband on our university course when i was 19 and he was 17 (what he wanted was a plus size goth milf and he got it)

favourite colour: i love pink and black and mustard yellow

favourite food: my death row meal would be a large big mac meal with irn bru

song stuck in your head: cabinet man by lemon demon and don't let's start by tmbg (i am down bad for my arkham riddler playlist)

time: 09:10am (i am avoiding work)

dream trip: we want to go to amsterdam this year so i can get ripped and go to the zoo while my (sober) husband escorts me around

last book you read: true to form it was "history of a drowning boy" by dennis nilsen - i had to check goodreads because i am a terrible reader

last book you enjoyed reading: history of a drowning boy, it's filled with sticky notes of bits i just thought were fascinating

last book you hated reading: anything by adam nevill, what a let down

bonus!

favourite thing to cook/bake: french toast (i can't bake, cooking is art, baking is science and i am no scientist)

favourite craft to do in your free time: i like drawing and i like knitting (can't do repetitive things too long though or my tics come out)

most niche dislike: when you put your shoes on and it makes your socks go tight on your toes as they slide up literally was complaining about that to one of my two irl friends yesterday

opinion on circus(es): i really do not like clowns but come at me freak show was one of the better ahs seasons, maybe the circuses that come to scotland are like...not so good...

do you have a sense of direction: absolutely the fuck i do not

TAGGING as many beaut mutuals as i could see in my notifications (who weren't already cross tagged) because i can do whatever the fuck i want (and pls dont feel pressured to do!): @crowinhell @noodyl-blasstal @gaypetergriffin @dmmaws @paprikaspice @mietko @sugahbabieexo @tomhiddlesmom @yrrejydak @riddlers-den @biohazards0 @kissthegenius @thesnailsarefalling @sassypotatomoose

[virtualcoffeemoon]

what do you think of Taylor's new album? any thoughts? favorite song/lyric?

Hi anon! How are you?

My first reaction to the album honestly was meh, but after running around 10 miles to it I have fallen in love. I can't say I have a fave song but I'll give you my top 13 in no particular order : Florida!!!, who's afraid of little old me, the manuscript, thanK you aIMee, So long London ( it's been stuck in my head for the last 48 hours lmao) I can do it with a broken heart, peter, cassandra, the albatross, the alchemy,Clara Bow,Imgonnagetyouback, I hate it here

some lines that stand out to me : " And you say I abandoned the ship but I was going down with it"- So long, London

" And our town, it looks so small, from way up here Screamed "Thank you, Aimee" to the night sky" - thanK you aIMee

" The devil that you know Looks now more like an angel " - The albatross

"Lookin' backwards Might be the only way to move forward" - The manuscript

 " I was tame, I was gentle 'til the circus life made me mean Don't you worry folks, we took out all her teeth " - Who's afraid of little old me?

" Show me that this world is bigger than us Then sent me back where I came from " - Down Bad

I really loved the album because of how personal it was, I'm not trying to be creepy I mean the way Taylor communicated her honest feelings and talked about how she felt insane during the time of the break up with Joe and Matty is a show of her incredibly talented self. The songs that are probably some of the best examples are but daddy I love him and I can do it with a broken heart. In icdiwabh she talks about how she is miserable and feels as though she is left alone in isolation no one is there for her. In but daddy I love him taylor talks about how "fans" creepily invade her boundaries to analyze and boundaries and even speculate she's pregnant.

I'll probably edit this to go more into detail but yeah.

Thanks for asking and pls tell me your opinion, online hugs!!!!

[f1nalboys]

🍊🍈🍇🫐

For the fruit ask game!

THANK YOU MY BELOVEDDDDD

🍊: Who's a character you don't write for that often, but keep meaning to write for more? (They're so interesting! But maybe you have trouble pinning them down, or keep getting distracted by another blorbo...)

SIGHSSSS ok there r so many :( def all of the girls i write for (i’m sorry women 😔) as well as the non slashers since i’ve turned this into a multi fandom acc! i get super focused on one or two characters and then just,,,, cant think of anything to write for anyone else 😭 i also have a hard time writing for the new characters i add bc i feel like i don’t have their character down as well as the ones i write for all the time which i need to get out of the mindset of fr

🍈: Who's your blorbo and what are some of your favorite headcanons/ideas about them that repeatedly show up in your fics? Free pass to rant about blorbo opinions.

RANDYSYDTDTTYTT :D thank u for giving me the ability to talk abt this silly guy. so something i haven’t mentioned a ton but i firmly believe in is that randy is jewish! i also think he’s a fashion guy and will make his own clothes :3 I ALSO FULLY BELIEVE RANDY IS CUNTY no more incel loser bullshit (that’s a lie bc i have a soft spot for incel randy sorry) but i’m sick of everyone making him some 1 dimensional loser pining after sidney when he has so much more going for him and his character as well! like yes, the crush on sid is a major part of it but he never pressures her into being with him or leaving billy and she genuinely enjoys his company like???? stop making him evil guys pls i’m BEGGINGGGGG TOUUUU :((( also stop? making him being a bully 😭 sorry but that loser was not in the business of actually bullying people or sexually harassing anyone and i’m not hearing y’all out at all.

🍇: Is there a particular scene/episode/book/etc that you want to just write a million fics about, over and over? Which one?

jealous randy i’m scream 2, all of the besr but specifically how carmys brain works as he navigates life without his brother and how it’s difficult, too gun maverick and them bonding, crack fics for all my faves, the sinclair brothers bonding. lots and lots honestly, my little google doc of ideas is very long currently it’s bad

answered 🫐 here :3