Demons in my head and monsters around me, I am not scared of them anymore. When I see them now, I dont feel afraid . I feel furious . I feel thousands of volts of anger running through my viens . I swear , if they ever come face to face with me again I will tear them limb to limb .
~excerpts from my journal of self destruction
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A Gust of Words Vol. 4, 8.10.24
“Not A Lengthy Visitor"
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Opportunity raps and taps
Upon my graven sleep
My clear breathed coffin
Maudlin Mondays
Greet the week with open embrace
Weeping like willows used for floorboards
Whips each step onward
Cracking me awake in the sleep light thunder
In midst of sleepless nights
The rapping, oh the tapping
From my door, floorboards
And more
The house is aching, moaning, more
The chance that pounds from every pore
Sure I will wake
With energy greater than
The prior day
Will I seize at that noise
Snatch the very bugle
From the wilting angels lips
Morning fog will hide the way
As beneath my sheets I hideaway
Miserable Monday, I loathe the
Owe the
Your solemnity
Found in the beak of a woodpecker
Making opportunities knocks
Nicks each bite
I wake but will I stir?
My soul separated from my body
There I lay and here I stand
The will and the willful and the will not
Pubescently leaping to each rap
Beyond that lifeless door imposing
Open:
Says I
Beyond? — Tomorrow
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There's this thing in my chest, I'm unable to define it's just bigger than pain and smaller than grief don't know what to name it or maybe I'm awake all night just to name it
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A Reminder
Please remember this freeing thought,
"life has no true meaning.
Our subjective thoughts make the landscape
of our personal perspective.
We are all Gods unto ourselves
and should be worshiped as such --
do not desecrate the holy temple of thyself."
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"The simplicity. The stars. The sundering.
The sanctity and the sin.
I will all be gone. With only ashes and
Epitaphs to echo."
- Hathaway Hayes (excerpt from "005")
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This pen is romantic.
Me having it is romantic.
But what could possibly be so romantic about a pen? It's just a pen, right? Oh... It's the pen he gave me once when I was at his place. Actually, I took it for a moment to note something and then I gave it back to him. But he said: "Keep it. Use it to give your exams. Let it be your lucky charm." Those words were fucking romantic. And I didn't realize it at the moment. So I kept it. And I have had it since.
We broke up.
And I still have it. I use it to write down important things and I fear one day I might lose it.
I don't want to lose it.
Me having this pen is romantic.
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Forse sono io che non so più dove sto
Forse l'occhio è proprio il mio
Che mi vedo dentro
Ma a volte tutto mi pare uguale
È così stupendo e così banale
È come le cose che dovrei fare
Tipo imparare ad amarmi prima di imparare ad amare
Io volevo te
-Mezzosangue
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How many times your heart breaks soundlessly that it doesn't make any noise but you do feel something within has crashed .
@madheartsmuse
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and where do I begin?
there is a softness here,
flaxen-hued light settling itself shallow,
blurring the green around the edges as it forces water to your eyes.
your breath is forced to catch as the light shines on, and stillness becomes itself-
unbridled purity,
holy reverence.
these things that were
(alone, without witness),
these things that were,
forcing you to remember that
you are.
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I've never believed I'm that 'better' in everyone's life because I acknowledge others' strengths. I understand people can surpass me in various aspects. Everyone I'm close to, will find 'better' and go for it making me realize I'm never enough in any area of my life. Embracing humility, I value continuous improvement and learning from those who excel in different areas. I'm always trying to become that 'better' for them who is not that much easy to let go.
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Slumbering happiness
Permeating lucid dreams
Body of sadness
Buried and exhumed
Time and time again
My tongue: crude matter
Unseemly beauty
Wind billows sullied sheets
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I am made of dry reeds;
a single spark will set me alight
to burn away throughout the night.
The eyes on the charred vessel remind me
that my body is of service,
even if its is to just burn away,
to be nothing more
than a momentary blaze
to keep the darkness at bay.
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Stupidi noi litigavamo per la parte del manico,
E l'amore è un coltello con due lame.
-Sanlordseastate
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