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my bf told me last night while i was crying to him ab my ed that "if you start again ill start" and "yk even if you dont maybe i will, seems like suchhh a goodd idea" said in a minorly sarcastic tone. i think its made me want to ⭐ve more, but he doesnt know that.

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yk its bad when ur literally having dreams where ur eating (the food is all just rice cakes?)

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having an extreme fear of v0m!tivg but needing to purge is horrid.

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already getting some of the first dizziness and shaking today, ive only eaten an orange slice (have been chewing on them and js eating the juices to try and keep hunger strikes away) and drank some coffee, with fake sugar and creamer, and 4 tater tots... (all in all like, idk, 170kcals, js as long as i stay under 500 ill be happy)

i was gnna do a 3 day water fast but i think im ok for now. but if theres any motivation to js fuckin do it for me pls pls pls tell me :3

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and that's the one (photo) you tear up into tiny bits and then go and stick your fingers down your throat and throw up ~ kate spicer

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cool tip maybe ? i dunno~

ngl sometimes, - bc im american - if i turn my weight into stones itll make me feel better, bc like, 12 stones doesn't sound much !! then again it does depend if i know how much those stones weigh, which i dont, so we'll act like i weigh just a few pebbles :33

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oh my god these>>>> (dm for credit or removal) aaaaaa >:3 taken off pinterest and one is obvisouly rose calloway <3

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(tw) M̷̷3̷A̷̷N̷̷S̷̷P̷̷0̷

(mainly targeted towards myself) dont u DARE fucking binge. do u realize how u look, like a fucking fatass, not just bc ur stuffing food into ur mouth but do u see urself, ur stomach bloating, it getting bigger, ur thighs touching, u know what i mean, the food getting on ur face thats getting chubbier and chubbier, u look so unhealthy, that pizza falling onto ur shirt when u couldve instead been sitting in a shivering cold bliss with a clean empty stomach, but no. instead your acting like a goddamn pig.

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heyyy, opinions on how im doing this?

i dont go over 500 cals a day

exercising before eating (and yes if like i per say burn 200 i will allow myself 200 extra calories, is that ok? does it techinally burn those 200 cals, i heard it does?)

i workout at the gym 5 days a week usually, and when i do i have set days, i always do 10mins of walking/speedwalking and core, and then like leg day, arm day, ect thrown in there.

i only mainly track cals and protein but i stay away from high sugar or high fatty foods.

any tips? anything i should be aware of that is bad? or will this work, any advice is helpful, or any reassurance is nice too bc i keep doubting myself haha

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i like js started this acc tysm guys ily all <33 abmd keep going !! ill be posting more tommorw (busy today)

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i dont swallow i spit.

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hi guys >:33333333333

m back for a little bit!! life been very busy :p so im sorry!

weigh in is 152.8 so teehee

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I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH OMG (also i hit 166lbs eheehehe)

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aaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

js realized the amt of creamer i use in my coffee is over 600cals and ALOT. of sugar, i dont even use that much!!!!!!!! rlly gonna cut back on that soon tho D:

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snack :3

100-120cals