#possible npd

[cluster-b-culture-is]

possible bpd/npd culture is wanting to keep in touch with friends but not being able to for some reason, even though you want to and feeling bad about the possibility of them no longer considering you as friends

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[abysmalklown]

does anyone have any books i could read to maybe understand myself better, like any actual recommendations, i wanna know why i did the stuff i did

[borderline-culture-is]

bpd ( + possibly npd? ) culture is getting upset when another person says that they & your fp look good together, thinking that it should've been you instead of them ...

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[clown-vents]

My friend’s art got over 100 likes, mine never reach double digits. I want to be happy for them but I just want them dead.

[equalperson]

I'm tired of people treating narcissism as "abusive hellspawn disorder" so every overconfident/cocky-but-good character is a narcissist now. sonic is a narcissist. rainbow dash is a narcissist. papyrus is a narcissist. fuck it miku is a narcissist too. they're all narcs.

[totallynotjack]

dear narcissists...

damn you look good

[king-candybug-backup]

Ok I’m staying on anon because this is kind of embarrassing to admit, but is it weird that this fanfic has helped me understand NPD WAY more? 😅 Specifically this part:

“Knowing how it should look and knowing how it feels are two very different things.” He growled under his breath. “... Okay…” Vanellope gave a tiny nod, though her puzzled frown still remained. “Well, is there anything I can do that’d, like… help ya understand it better?” For some reason, all that question did was set something off within the troubled Cy-bug. “No, I just don’t get it! I can’t get it! You all act like it’s so easy to just know how to care, how to understand each other in all these specific little ways, like it’s part of your programming, but all I get is one big error message, and somehow that’s my fault?!” Some sort of mix between a bitter laugh and a resentful scoff left his throat. “It’s like everyone else has been gifted with a perfectly functional go-kart, but I got one with a faulty engine, and I’m just expected to know how to fix it without a toolkit.” He growled. “It’s so frustrating.”

I don’t have NPD, but I do have autism, and there’s a lot of ways I feel like I can relate to him here. I never really thought about how these feelings could also apply to NPD, just in a different way. (I should probably admit that I’m a bit biased against NPD havers due to negative experiences, which I know is wrong of me, shit’s just hard, man. ;v; But I’ve been trying to unravel all that stigma within myself, and this has definitely helped a little.) Also those posts about splitting were really helpful too, thanks ❤️

YOOO, AUTISM BUDDIES! <333 And YAAAYYYY I’M SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT AAAAHHHHHH 💖💖💖💖💖 Tbh, a big part of me was really worried that the whole “go-kart” metaphor was kind of cringe lmfao, BUT LIKE, THEY’RE BOTH RACERS, I HAD TO. 😭 I still think it’s a little bit cringey because I’m hypercritical of myself lmfao, BUT WHATEVER, IF IT WORKS, IT WORKS I GUESS, FHSDFXHCGFDJHVBJ and yeah, I think neurodivergent people who aren’t Cluster B can have a harder time empathizing with Cluster B disorders even though a lot of the symptoms overlap, simply because it’s kind of peddled like “These are the Bad disorders that only Bad people have”, so people (wrongly) assume there’s more “choice” involved in how NPD folks think or feel, when in reality we’re all just out here getting royally screwed by our brains and they have no more choice in that than we do, yet they constantly get hit with the “How dare you have a different brain” stick. 😭 Like that is NOT the way to help people develop healthy ways to deal with it, guys.

Btw as happy as I am that I could help you understand some things, I AM ALSO ON MY KNEES BEGGING YOU TO PLEASE CHECK OUT THE r/NPD COMMUNITY, I promise you that NPD becomes a LOT easier to get a better understanding of when you hear about it from people who actually HAVE it! There's a whole bunch of really enlightening discussions in there about a variety of different topics (I have also elaborated more on how to effectively research NPD here) I am by no means an expert, I’m just doing my best with what I know, and pretty much all the best information I’ve gotten has been from listening to people who HAVE it. (That and my writer acquaintance who’s super mega educated about Cluster B disorders, but not everybody has a Cluster B pro to go to HASGFDVBJKN)

[cel-system]

I hate humans I hate humans I hate humans you are all so USELESS you will never get it right and I can't stand being around you I wish I could create my own dimension and banish you to it and even if you learn your lesson I won't care. I dont want you around me if you're going to be so stupid and put me in danger. Get away get away get away. I hate you all none of you are safe or good or smart.

𐚁 crumb

[slasher-syndicate]

how tf u end up with npd after being neglected like is this reverse psychology im confused 😭😭😭😭

[npdclaraoswald]

I want to be clear that when I say I think Ford (or Clara for that matter, given my url) has NPD, I'm not saying it as a moral indictment or that I think they're evil. I'd like to think that's already clear from the way I post about them, but the Ford video essay I'm watching is talking about how people use the idea of NPD to villify Ford and say he's abusing and/or endangering his family. So I want to reiterate that that is not at all why I have this reading of Ford, nor do I think he's abusive. (He does endager the kids, but name a GF character that doesn't- it's a kids fantasy series, they're going to be the ones to fight the monsters, and that means the adults in their life, just narratively speaking, can't be the most attentive).

Despite what ableists on the internet would have you believe, the primary characteristic of NPD is not, in fact, being a self absorbed, abusive asshole. It's difficulty regulating your self esteem in a way that has negative impacts on your relationship with others and yourself, and I think both of these characters have that in spades. I liked the headcanon for Ford before, but the thing that really made me believe it was this bit from thisisnotawebsitedotcom

To me, Ford's issues managing his self image don't primarily manifest in his troubled relationship with Stan- though it does undoubtedly play a role, I think most of their problems just come from being constantly compared to each other and growing up in an abusive household- or the kids. It's in his relationship to himself: how, despite believing he's a genius, he also clearly hates himself and his difficulty connecting to others. How he bears the weight of the world on his shoulders because he thinks it's his responsibility as the smart one, and that weight is crushing him, but he can't ask for help because he believes it's his burden to bear alone. How he blames himself for the apocalypse, despite that obviously being Bill's fault and no one else's. How his abuser was able to target and manipulate him by feeding into both of his simultaneously high and low self esteem. How he was unable to reach out to his family about the abuse he suffered because he thought for sure they'd blame him for it as much as he blames himself for not seeing through Bill sooner, because he thinks he should have been smart enough to.

I love Ford (and Clara). I don't think NPD makes them evil, nor do I think they are evil. I think they're both incredibly flawed individuals, just like everyone else on Earth, but I think they experience those flaws in a unique way within their self perception. And that that unique experience is what makes them so compelling as characters. And I think anyone trying to claim that they're evil, and especially that they're evil for having a mental illness is ridiculous

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Bpd (+ possible npd?) culture is always feeling like the attention is on you but its always either "everyone loves me/has a crush on me" or "everyone knows everything bad I did and hates me and trash talks me"

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[abysmalklown]

PLEASE HELP

i need some advice, anyone that sees this how can i better myself? i think i have NPD and i emotionally abused my last partner, does anyone know how i can start bettering myself, my therapy doesnt start till next after my vacation, im serious i wanna get better for his sake and mine, i dont want to hurt anyone ever again and if someone sees this and gives me advice i will follow it

[musicalmoritz]

So funny to me how everyone on TikTok suddenly has a doctorate in psychology when it comes to NPD

[clown-vents]

Seeing people close to me do better than me is honestly just further proof I’m not good enough and I never was. There is something inherently wrong with me.

[totallynotjack]

for all my narcissist guys, gals and enby pals, that includes you fellow questioning pals, you are valid and seen, k? k

[sw33tl1es]

Someone Complained about Kaito's mischaraterization and among valid things they put people hcing him as a Gay man or having NPD? What.

One thing is people believing he genuinely would beat up gay people up and another is an harmless sexuality hc and him having a personality disorder (which I personally don't see him as but I can totally see the argument)