#puts the SUF into suffering

[darkwitch1999]

☕🥱A Random Headcanon: How Marc Got The Coffee Part I 🥱☕

Collège Françoise Dupont: Boiler Room

Nathaniel: (visibly annoyed) So we’re really doing this, huh?

Nino: Yep.

(Down in the boiler room, Nino had set up a small desk with a desk lamp, a radio that played what sounded like the soundtrack of an old detective movie, a stack of books, and a manila file folder. The teen wore a fake mustache and an old-style detective costume. On each opposing side of the desk stood two chairs, the one on the right being currently occupied by an exhausted Marc Anciel. The poor, tired writer was suffering from the effects of his caffeine crash and could barely keep his eyes open. His make-up was a dreadful mess from when he had his breakdown earlier, his hair was a frazzled mess, the dark circles encased around his eyes looked as though they had gotten deeper and darker, and his body that had before trembled and twitched so terribly now struggled against the intense feeling of exhaustion. Out of earshot in a corner, Nino and Nathaniel discussed Nino’s plan, which Nathaniel found to be very unnecessary, and annoying, and he would have been against taking any part in this ridiculous plan if the artist was not worried about his partner’s well-being.)

Nino: I’m sorry, Nath, but this is the only way.

Nathaniel: There are more than one, much better ways we could handle this! I don’t think this is best for Marc’s well-being right now. Just look at him! (points to the exhausted writer) He needs sleep!

Nino: Look, I get it. Marc’s crashing down from the caffeine and needs rest. But we have to do this for his own good! We need to find out where or more specifically, who did he get that coffee from! (starts counting off his fingers) The first time this happened he asked you to buy the coffee for him because he knew you didn’t know he couldn’t have it. The second time he took advantage of Rose’s kindness and trusting nature to secure the coffee. This time, however, he must have gone to someone who didn’t know that he couldn’t have coffee, and since no one is fessing up, we will have to find out who the guilty culprit is.

Nathaniel: But couldn’t we just ask him after he’s had time to rest and recover? Interrogating him when he’s in this state just seems too cruel. It feels like we’re treating him like some dangerous criminal. 

Nino: (puts a reassuring hand on Nathaniel’s shoulder) Nath, I don’t want to watch him suffer any more than you do, but I’m afraid it has to be this way to prevent another episode from ever happening again. If we let him sleep first, he’ll have more energy and focus to come up with a lie or ID a scapegoat, and it will be even harder to get Marc to confess the truth. Marc may be more reasonable when he’s off the coffee, but he definitely wouldn’t give up his supplier willingly, especially if he knows that the rest of us don’t know who gave him his fix.

Nathaniel: (shoots Nino an incredulous look) “Supplier”? Really, Nino?

Nino: (defensively) Hey, technically caffeine is considered a drug! I looked it up!

Nathaniel: (crosses his arms) Not an illegal one. Hence why I feel like you are treating Marc like a dangerous criminal.

Nino: Oh come on, Nath! The last thing I want to do is treat Marc like a criminal! 

Nathaniel: (raises an eyebrow) Then what’s with the Sherlock Holmes cosplay?

Nino: Because we’re trying to solve a mystery and I thought it would fit the aesthetic! (sighs and pinches the bridge of his nose).

Nathaniel: (appears hesitant) I still don’t like this….this feels like torture.

Nino: Nath, please trust me. I swear we’re not going to torture Marc. Just give us thirty minutes or so to question him, an hour at most. If he doesn’t confess within that amount of time, we’ll back off and let him get some sleep. On the other hand, if he tells us who supplied him with the coffee before the time is up, we’ll let him sleep sooner. And I promise, I’ll back off if he reaches his limit. Whatever happens during this, I won’t make Marc suffer more than he already has.

(Nathaniel pondered for a moment, considering Nino’s plan and compromise. The artist still felt conflicted about putting his partner through an interrogation while he was so sleep-deprived. He knew how physically exhausting the combination of caffeine withdrawal and insomnia from the previous night was on the writer along with the mental and emotional exhaustion of the pressure that Marc was clearly under mixed in with the aftermath of his breakdown from earlier. Nathaniel wanted Marc to rest. He wanted Marc to get better. He wanted to see that beautifully contagious and unburdened smile spread across his partner’s face again and never to see that strained and unhinged smile or the exhausted frown again. However, as guilty as Nathaniel felt for even considering going along with Nino’s plan, he also knew that Nino made some truthful points to defend his plan. Nathaniel didn’t want to admit it, but Nino was right when he argued that Marc wouldn’t easily name whoever gave him the coffee. Rose and himself were willing to own up to mistakes those times they had given Marc coffee, but this time no one is willing to admit that they had given Marc coffee. And knowing the writer, he would try to play off that “everything was fine” and there was no need to worry about who gave him the coffee, desperately trying to avoid talking about what had been bothering him so much and what was causing all the stress and pressure that he was under in the first place. Marc was never one to be willing to talk about his problems with others and always tried to appear as if everything was okay as best he could because he didn’t want to make others feel worried about him. If they were going to have any chance of finding out how Marc got coffee, now was their best and possibly only time while the writer didn’t have the energy to resist telling the truth.)

Nathaniel: (sighs) Forty minutes. We’ll question him for forty minutes and no more. And when I say “that’s enough”, I mean that’s enough. We won’t push him any farther than he can handle.

Nino: (nods in agreement) Alright, deal! Now that that’s settled, let’s get to it. Get ready to assume your role, good cop!

(Nino took a deep breath in and out as he adjusted his usual demeanor into a more serious demeanor as he now bore a stoic expression on his face. As Nino started walking towards the desk, Nathaniel rolled his eyes in annoyance.)

Nathaniel: (annoyed) Right, forgot that Nino wanted to do “Good Cop, Bad Cop” too.

(The two boys approached the desk where the exhausted writer now had his head face down on the desk, moaning in discomfort. Nino sat in the desk chair opposite the writer while Nathaniel stood next to the cosplaying detective. The “detective” then reached into his coat pocket and pulled out a tube of bubble solution and a bubble wand.)

Nino: (blows bubbles from the bubble wand with a stern look) Rise and shine, Marc.

Nathaniel: (smiles nervously) H-Hey Marc…um…how are you feeling?

(Marc rolls his head to the side, revealing his dreadfully exhausted face to the other two boys.) 

Marc: (moans) My head…feels like it's going to split open…

Nino: (blows another bubble) Mhm. That would be the caffeine withdrawal hangover for you. Though we both already know that you are well familiar with the feeling.

Nathaniel: (shoots Nino a warning look) Nino…

Nino: (clears his throat, unfazed by Nathaniel’s glares) Anyway, enough beating around the bush. It’s time we all talk.

(Marc lifted his head off the table to give the “detective” an annoyed, tired look. His expression then turned into one of confusion as he took notice of the outfit that the young boy was wearing. The writer turned to look at Nathaniel with an eyebrow raised in confusion.)

Marc: Nath, why is Nino dressed as Sherlock Holmes?

Nathaniel: (sighs heavily and pinches the bridge of his nose) I have asked the same question, Marc. 

Marc: Wait, does that mean you are supposed to be Watson?

Nathaniel: (shakes his head and glances annoyed at Nino) No, apparently I’m supposed to be “good cop”.

Marc: (tilts his tired head in confusion) Wait…(yawns)...I’m confused….(points to Nathaniel) If you’re “good cop”...(points to Nino) and you’re “Sherlock Holmes”....then who’s “bad cop”...or…what’s even going on here? What are you guys even doing?

Nathaniel: (smirks) Actually, Nino’s supposed to be the “bad cop”. The Sherlock Holmes cosplay is just Nino doing his own thing.

Marc: (gives Nino an incredulous look) You do realize your “Sherlock Holmes” cosplay doesn’t make any sense if you guys are doing “Good Cop, Bad Cop”, right? I mean, for one thing, Sherlock Holmes was far too intelligent and dignified to resort to such a cliche interrogation tactic that wasn’t even developed during his time! Not to mention that Sherlock Holmes didn’t even work for the British Police! Yes, they did work together on a few cases, specifically with Inspectors Lestrade and Gregson the most, but still-...

Nino: (slams his hand hard on the desk, startling Marc with a jump) That’s enough out of you! Nathaniel and I are the ones asking the questions here, Anciel!

Marc: (rolls his eyes) And I thought Jean was over dramatic…

Nino: (regains his composure and clears his throat again) Anyway, I hardly think that you’re in any position to judge my choices right now. After all, you’ve made some rather “questionable” decisions yourself recently, now have you?

Marc: Not more questionable than your choice of interrogation methods…or fashion…

Nino: Got nothing to say, huh? That’s fine, we’ll start things off then. (opens the manila folder) I don’t care to mince words with you, so I’m just going to come out and say it. (picks up three pictures from the folder) We all know that someone gave you coffee and we know that someone had to be someone who didn’t know that you couldn’t have coffee for reasons that we all know too well, i.e. one of these three prime suspects.

(Nino places all three photos in front of Marc. The first photo was of Zoé Lee, the second was a photo of Devin Nolan, and the third photo was of Noelle Odeja. Marc takes a brief look at the photos and averted his gaze away from the pictures.)

Marc: You don’t know what you’re talking about, Nino. You couldn’t even be more wrong. (smirks tiredly) That ridiculous hat you’re wearing might be too tight.

Nino: (smirks, unfazed by Marc’s remark) Seeing as though you still have enough energy to be cheeky, you’ll have no problem naming your supplier.

(Nathaniel rolls his eyes at Nino using the word “supplier” again.)

Marc: What makes you think that someone gave me the coffee? How do you know I didn’t just get the coffee myself?

Nino: You mean other than the fact that you’ve done this before?

Nathaniel: (places a hand gently on the writer’s shoulder) Marc, we know you didn’t get the coffee yourself. We know your moms won’t let you have coffee and for good reasons, too. (The writer shifted his eyes away from Nathaniel, but the artist continued.) We also know that the coffee you’ve been drinking is from your mama’s shop since you would never betray the family business by drinking coffee from a different coffee shop, which brings us to the ultimate reason why we know that someone bought the coffee for you. You would never even think of trying to steal coffee from your mama because too good of a person. 

(Marc remained silent, knowing he couldn’t argue with their reasons given that they were right. Marc was raised too well to steal anything and would feel like a traitor if he tried to buy coffee from anywhere other than his mama’s shop. Nino noticed how quiet the writer had become and smiled a satisfied smirk.)

Nino: (smugly) I’ll take your silence as proof that we’re right. Now then, as we speak, our three prime suspects are currently being interrogated by my lovely partner and her best friend…

Marc: (rolls his eyes in annoyance) Great…Alya and Marinette are doing this too, huh? Let me guess, is Alya dressed up as well? Is she Watson? Or maybe she’s that reporter from New York who always writes about Majesta?

Nathaniel: (raises an eyebrow) C’mon Marc, it’s Alya. 

Marc: Yeah, you’re right, Nath. (smirks at Nino) She doesn’t quite share the same flair for the overdramatic as other people do (snickers).

Nino: (slightly offended) Mock me all you want, Anciel. One way or another, we are going to find out the truth. We don’t care how long it takes. We’ll keep going all day and night if we have to.

Marc: (smiles smugly) We can’t stay on school grounds past five.

Nathaniel: And we’re not doing this any longer than forty minutes.

Nino: We’ll keep going till five if we have to.

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Detective Nino is on the case (whether anyone asks or not)! Anyway, hope you guys enjoyed this continuation of the "Why Marc Shouldn't Have Coffee" saga. I was going to do a full headcanon, but I decided to split it into parts since it was getting rather long. Probably a bit out of character for Marc to be a sarcastic, smart mouth in this headcanon, but in his defense, he's exhausted. Stay tuned for part two when we read about Alya interrogating the three suspects. Who do you think did the crime? Share your thoughts, opinions, and theories about the guilty party.

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[roman-catholic-mass-readings]

22nd June >> Mass Readings (USA)

Thursday, Eleventh Week in Ordinary Time 

or

Saints John Fisher, Bishop, and Thomas More, Martyrs 

or

Saint Paulinus of Nola, Bishop.

Thursday, Eleventh Week in Ordinary Time

(Liturgical Colour: Green: A (1))

First Reading 2 Corinthians 11:1-11 I preached the Gospel of God to you without charge.

Brothers and sisters: If only you would put up with a little foolishness from me! Please put up with me. For I am jealous of you with the jealousy of God, since I betrothed you to one husband to present you as a chaste virgin to Christ. But I am afraid that, as the serpent deceived Eve by his cunning, your thoughts may be corrupted from a sincere and pure commitment to Christ. For if someone comes and preaches another Jesus than the one we preached, or if you receive a different spirit from the one you received or a different gospel from the one you accepted, you put up with it well enough. For I think that I am not in any way inferior to these “superapostles.” Even if I am untrained in speaking, I am not so in knowledge; in every way we have made this plain to you in all things.

Did I make a mistake when I humbled myself so that you might be exalted, because I preached the Gospel of God to you without charge? I plundered other churches by accepting from them in order to minister to you. And when I was with you and in need, I did not burden anyone, for the brothers who came from Macedonia supplied my needs. So I refrained and will refrain from burdening you in any way. By the truth of Christ in me, this boast of mine shall not be silenced in the regions of Achaia. And why? Because I do not love you? God knows I do!

The Word of the Lord

R/ Thanks be to God.

Responsorial Psalm Psalm 111:1b-2, 3-4, 7-8

R/ Your works, O Lord, are justice and truth. or R/ Alleluia.

I will give thanks to the LORD with all my heart in the company and assembly of the just. Great are the works of the LORD, exquisite in all their delights.

R/ Your works, O Lord, are justice and truth. or R/ Alleluia.

Majesty and glory are his work, and his justice endures forever. He has won renown for his wondrous deeds; gracious and merciful is the LORD.

R/ Your works, O Lord, are justice and truth. or R/ Alleluia.

The works of his hands are faithful and just; sure are all his precepts, Reliable forever and ever, wrought in truth and equity.

R/ Your works, O Lord, are justice and truth. or R/ Alleluia.

Gospel Acclamation Romans 8:15bc

Alleluia, alleluia. You have received a spirit of adoption as sons through which we cry: Abba! Father! Alleluia, alleluia.

Gospel Matthew 6:7-15 This is how you are to pray.

Jesus said to his disciples: “In praying, do not babble like the pagans, who think that they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them. Your Father knows what you need before you ask him.

“This is how you are to pray:

‘Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name, thy Kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.’

“If you forgive others their transgressions, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you do not forgive others, neither will your Father forgive your transgressions.”

The Gospel of the Lord

R/ Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ.

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Saints John Fisher, Bishop, and Thomas More, Martyrs 

(Liturgical Colour: Red: A (1))

(Readings for the memorial)

(There is a choice today between the readings for the ferial day (Thursday) and those for the memorial. The ferial readings are recommended unless pastoral reasons suggest otherwise)

First Reading 1 Peter 4:12-19 Rejoice to the extent that you share in the sufferings of Christ.

Beloved, do not be surprised that a trial by fire is occurring among you, as if something strange were happening to you. But rejoice to the extent that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that when his glory is revealed you may also rejoice exultantly. If you are insulted for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. But let no one among you be made to suffer as a murderer, a thief, an evildoer, or as an intriguer. But whoever is made to suffer as a Christian should not be ashamed but glorify God because of the name. For it is time for the judgment to begin with the household of God; if it begins with us, how will it end for those who fail to obey the Gospel of God?

And if the righteous one is barely saved, where will the godless and the sinner appear?

As a result, those who suffer in accord with God’s will hand their souls over to a faithful creator as they do good.

The Word of the Lord

R/ Thanks be to God.

Responsorial Psalm Psalm 126:1bc-2ab, 2cd-3, 4-5, 6

R/ Those who sow in tears shall reap rejoicing.

When the LORD brought back the captives of Zion, we were like men dreaming. Then our mouth was filled with laughter, and our tongue with rejoicing.

R/ Those who sow in tears shall reap rejoicing.

Then they said among the nations, “The LORD has done great things for them.” The LORD has done great things for us; we are glad indeed.

R/ Those who sow in tears shall reap rejoicing.

Restore our fortunes, O LORD, like the torrents in the southern desert. Those who sow in tears shall reap rejoicing.

R/ Those who sow in tears shall reap rejoicing.

Although they go forth weeping, carrying the seed to be sown, They shall come back rejoicing, carrying their sheaves.

R/ Those who sow in tears shall reap rejoicing.

Gospel Acclamation Matthew 5:10

Alleluia, alleluia. Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven. Alleluia, alleluia.

Gospel Matthew 10:34-39 I have come to bring not peace but the sword.

Jesus said to the Twelve: “Do not think that I have come to bring peace upon the earth. I have come to bring not peace but the sword. For I have come to set

a man ‘against his father, a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and one’s enemies will be those of his household.’

“Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and whoever does not take up his cross and follow after me is not worthy of me. Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.”

The Gospel of the Lord

R/ Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ.

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Saint Paulinus of Nola, Bishop   

(Liturgical Colour: White: A(1))

(Readings for the memorial)

(There is a choice today between the readings for the ferial day (Thursday) and those for the memorial. The ferial readings are recommended unless pastoral reasons suggest otherwise)

First Reading 2 Corinthians 8:9-15 Christ was rich but he became poor for your sake: to make you rich out of his poverty.

Brothers and sisters: You know the gracious act of our Lord Jesus Christ, that for your sake he became poor although he was rich, so that by his poverty you might become rich. And I am giving counsel in this matter, for it is appropriate for you who began not only to act but to act willingly last year: complete it now, so that your eager willingness may be matched by your completion of it out of what you have. For if the eagerness is there, it is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what one does not have; not that others should have relief while you are burdened, but that as a matter of equality your surplus at the present time should supply their needs, so that their surplus may also supply your needs, that there may be equality. As it is written:

Whoever had much did not have more, and whoever had little did not have less.

The Word of the Lord

R/ Thanks be to God.

Responsorial Psalm Psalm 40:2 and 4ab, 7-8a, 8b-9, 10

R/ Here I am, Lord; I come to do your will.

I have waited, waited for the LORD, and he stooped toward me and heard my cry. And he put a new song into my mouth, a hymn to our God.

R/ Here I am, Lord; I come to do your will.

Sacrifice or oblation you wished not, but ears open to obedience you gave me. Burnt offerings or sin-offerings you sought not; then said I, “Behold I come.”

R/ Here I am, Lord; I come to do your will.

“In the written scroll it is prescribed for me, To do your will, O my God, is my delight, and your law is within my heart!”

R/ Here I am, Lord; I come to do your will.

I announced your justice in the vast assembly; I did not restrain my lips, as you, O LORD, know.

R/ Here I am, Lord; I come to do your will.

Your justice I kept not hid within my heart; your faithfulness and your salvation I have spoken of; I have made no secret of your kindness and your truth in the vast assembly.

R/ Here I am, Lord; I come to do your will.

Gospel Acclamation Matthew 5:3

Alleluia, alleluia. Blessed are the poor in spirit; the Kingdom of heaven is theirs! Alleluia, alleluia.

Gospel Luke 12:32-34 It has pleased the Father to give you the Kingdom.

Jesus said to his disciples: ‘Do not be afraid any longer, little flock, for your Father is pleased to give you the Kingdom. Sell your belongings and give alms. Provide money bags for yourselves that do not wear out, an inexhaustible treasure in heaven that no thief can reach nor moth destroy. For where your treasure is, there also will your heart be.”

The Gospel of the Lord

R/ Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ.

[hadeschan]

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A dolly Pra Sangkajai rubbing tummy or patting his large belly happily represents filling up with food endlessly, and putting an end to hanger. Pra Sankajai traditionally depicted as overweight and love of food and drink. Pra Sankajai with excess body fat, and solely a passive energy store is a symbol of wealth and prosperity as the general population struggled with food shortages and famine. Thais believe that Pra Sankajai amulet brings wealth, riches, contentment, abundance, and prosperity.

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Phraya Tao Ruan, the Turtle King

According to the Jatakas, Jatakas are stories of previous lifetimes of the Buddha, Phraya Toa Ruan refers to the Bodhisattva-turtle, who saved lives, one of the previous life of Buddha.

A story that is often depicted in Buddhist art is the one where the Buddha in a previous life is a Bodhisattva-turtle (that is: a turtle who has vowed to save all sentient beings).

A tale of kindness and great compassion: In a past life, the Buddha appeared as a giant turtle who slept so long that a mountain grew on his back, and people built houses and burned fires. Awakened by the pain from the fires, and wanting to cool himself, the turtle began to crawl toward the sea. But upon seeing people living on his back, and not wanting tom hurt them, he slept another thousand years and endured the pain.

Another tale says, a group of merchants were sailing, when a storm hit. The giant Bodhisattva-turtle saw the ship wreck and saved the merchants by letting them climb on his back. He brought them safely to land. Tired from the long swim and heavy load he fell asleep on the sand. 

The merchants were hungry and thirsty and after the ordeal were still not sure of their lives. They discussed amongst themselves how to find food. One of them said that they should kill and eat the turtle.

The Bodhisattva-turtle heard this and out of compassion for the merchants, decided to stay put and be eaten.

NOTE: Bodhisattvas are sentient beings that seek enlightenment and embrace the principle of compassion to liberate others from suffering.

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Pra Sangkajai / Pra Sangkachai

In Thailand, Budai is sometimes confused with another similar monk widely respected in Thailand, Pra Sangkajai or Sangkachai. Pra Sangkajai, a Thai rendering of Maha Kaccana or Mahakaccayanathera, was a Buddhist Arhata (inSanskrit) or Arahant (in Pali) during the time of the Lord Buddha. Lord Buddha praised Pra Sangkadchai for his excellence in explaining sophisticated dharma(or dhamma) in an easily and correctly understandable manner. Pra Sangkajai (Maha Kaccana) also composed the Madhupinadika Sutra (Madhupindika Sutta MN 18).

One tale of the Thai folklore relates that he was so handsome that once even a man wanted him for a wife. To avoid a similar situation, Pra Sangkachai decided to transform himself into a fat monk. Another tale says he was so attractive that angels and men often compared him with the Buddha. He considered this inappropriate, so disguised himself in an unpleasantly fat body.

Although both Budai and Pra Sangkajai may be found in both Thai and Chinese temples, Pra Sangkajai is found more often in Thai temples, and Budai in Chinese temples. Two points to distinguish them from one another are:

1.Pra Sangkajai has a trace of hair on his head (looking similar to the Buddha’s) while Budai is clearly bald.

2.Pra Sangkajai wears the robes in Theravadin Buddhist fashion with the robes folded across one shoulder, leaving the other uncovered. Budai wears the robes in Chinese style, covering both arms but leaving the front part of the upper body uncovered.

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Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, long-suffering;

Colossians 3:12 KJVAE

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[missfinefeather]

Cluster solidarity :)

[theparticularlygoodfinder]

So far this year we’ve gotten corrupted worm boi Steven:

And corrupted frog boi Patton:

Who’s next?

[learnedkai-s]

@mostsplendid​    pushed    :    zama pushing her out of the way of danger. / / ( accepting ) one worded prompts.

the   young   shin - jin   had   been    no    match    for   the   multiple   attacks,    or   the   battlefield   that   went   alight   with   ki   blasts.    as   despite   the   few   deities   existence   being   shown   the   mortals   had    dared    to   fight   back,    refusing   zamasu’s   beliefs   that   they   were   a   mistake   made   by   the   gods.    it   almost   pained   her   to   see   them    hurt    the   way   they   did.    attention   diverted   by   a   sudden   scream,    a   human   mourning   her   child.    maybe   she   should’ve   stopped   this   when   she   had   the   chance.

            suddenly   she’s   sent    tumbling   forwards,    zamasu   standing   where   she   would’ve   been       /       a   ki   blast   merely   batted   away   as   if   it   was   nothing.    catching   herself   mid   fall   easily,    her   gaze   shifts   to   find   the   saiyans   still   fighting   with   goku   black.    looks   back   to   zamasu,    almost   disheartened,    not   believing   that   she   could’ve   doubted   her   mentor   even   for   a   moment.    easily   she   turns   her   back,    flies   up   to   the   top   of   a   building   where   it’s   safer   knowing   that   she’ll   have   to   thank   him   later.

[harlronica]

the planets through the 12th house pt. 2: jupiter-north/south node

the 12th house is the house of the unconscious, and commonly known as the last and most liminal of the zodiac houses. this house relates to karma, invisible enemies, suffering, reckoning, and ultimately- evolution. those with planets through the 12th house often have deeply rooted psychological fears.

now that we know what this house is "known for" it's important to note why this house is truly present in your astrological chart. and that is, by all means, soul transformation, ego death, and soul evolution to the highest form/extent. this house is not detrimental- as it is made out to be. especially if you are self aware, and know how to work with the energies presented by this house.

the 12th house signifies angelic protection to the highest form. you are connected to all through this house. you are protected and watched over during this lifetime, and will not come face to face with your enemies as you are deeply, and angelically protected along your journey to soul evolution and a higher state of consciousness. this house is seen as a blessing and a curse. the curse, only coming from the possibility of multiple dark knights and ego deaths. resulting in (probably many) mental health crisis'. this is only leading you towards enlightenment, and not every soul is strong enough in this incarnation to take on the energies of the 12th house. you will walk through life, continually transforming your soul/ego. every waking moment, you are preparing for death. so that your soul may truly put the past life karma of these planets to rest. truthfully, the 12th house is the greatest blessing that one will ever have in their astrological chart. this is the mark of enlightenment, the mark of new beginnings and endings, and the mark of a second chance. it is nothing to fear, but must be appreciated as your soul is strong enough to take on these energies and yearns for liberation brought forth by the energies of the 12th.

soul liberation/purification can truly only be accessed by this house. if you have 12th house placements you are likely to be more so an evolved soul. as younger souls cannot take on this placement. they will eventually, as will everybody- just not in this incarnation. you were destined for a spiritual path of soul/ego transformation in this lifetime. this house only lives up to the negatives so often preached about, and is only at its detriment when you are more in synch with your lower self over your higher self. with the 12th house present, you have lived multiple- if not many- past lives.

The twelfth house is not about us as individuals. This house is the house of the collective heritage. It shows the collective unconscious, images that were present in the lives of your ancestors just like they are preset in yours. Planets in the twelfth house suggest a strong karmic bond.

The 12th house through the planets:

Jupiter in 12th house: the planet Jupiter illuminates the power one carries during this incarnation. this is the origin that hints at the grail line you're tied to the most, and the aspect of your oversoul.

-a 12th house Jupiter is known to be one of the more lucky karmic aspects and is generally more-so associated with good karma rather than bad karma, but this depends on the chart as a whole as does any 12th house placement. the positive influence that this placement brings the individual is going to be mainly focused and associated with deep, spiritual growth and enlightenment. you have the power to truly liberate your soul by acts of service to others. the negative influence is focused on spiritual involvement that you had in past lives. this can indicate that in a past life you were involved with certain spiritual or religious groups/cults and possibly even a cult or spiritual leader. whether you used your power for good or bad during your involvement with these groups is going to depend on the chart as a whole. it's likely that these people suffered a spiritual abuse of some kind or spiritually abused others in forcing their opinions/ideas on them. it's important that in this lifetime you learn to broaden your perspective and keep an open mind. don't force your views on others, and try to remember that each soul has a specific set path and spiritual journey and most of ours differ greatly from one another. also be careful with certain religious/spiritual groups in this lifetime. it's wise to stay away from them unless you are confident in your judgement and you feel as if being associated with one is truly in alignment with your souls journey/path. otherwise, you are likely to not benefit from them as you already hold such a high level of spiritual knowledge even if it's subconsciously. it's very important that this aspect is treated with care and the chart holder does not succumb to others views/opinions by force but always follow and stay in alignment with their own. as mentioned before, this can be a very good karmic aspect or it can be a very negative one depending on the rest of the chart. if mixed with 8th house placements it's likely to be negative. that doesn't necessarily mean that you are going to have negative experiences, but more-so that you are learning to grow from this negative karma that you suffered through in a past life.

Saturn in 12th house: Saturn is the origin that is the most guiding of your life mission and will reflect in all guides and teachers throughout this incarnation. Saturn re-integrates through ascension cycles, and is the origin aspect of your oversoul.

-a 12th house Saturn is mainly associated with fears of the unknown, but it's also very similar to a 12th house Jupiter. Remember that Saturn represents limitations, restrictions, law and order, hard lessons, self control, and suffering to each individual chart holder. It's malefic in nature which means that it's power and influence is often challenging and misfortune in nature. Saturn is regarded as the lord of karma which means that it's associated with the bringing of correction and justice. It can also be linked with negative consequences and disappointments. Saturn's energy is to bring order and structure out of chaos. It's instinct is to restrict and scale back while Jupiter's is to expand and magnify. Wherever Saturn is found in ones chart, it will endow seriousness of purpose and an element of responsibility to that area. Much like Jupiter in 12th, Saturn in 12th is either going to bring extremely good karma or extremely bad. Once again, it depends on the chart as a whole. If associated with other planets throughout the 8th house it will mainly point towards bad karma. Chart holders with this placement will benefit greatly from any job profession related to metaphysics/spiritual work. If not then some are more focused on their own personal spiritual development. Be careful to not use your power to control others, and always be sure that you are influencing the collective for the higher good and not for reasons of control or this placement will come back to bite you in the ass. It really depends on which zodiac sign falls within Saturn and if it's aligned with any fixed Starseed Origin. Other than that, it's truly hard to say exactly what this placement indicates as far as past lives as it's similar to the power and influence of Jupiter except it integrates karma in a more-so harsh way. Many with this placement used their power in a past life for a means of control whether it was related to spirituality or just in the work force in general. Or it can relate to any disrespect in general towards friends/family members or other relationships. It's unresolved karma that points to possible physical harm of a family member or a friend in a past life. This harm may have been intentional or nonintentional or done so by means of being under control by a third party influence. This harm could have been done out of fear and it may have been the only choice that you had in the moment in regards to your own safety. It could have been something that you had no control over. But, nonetheless it was a mistake that ate to the core of your soul and very well-being. You are meant to heal from it in this lifetime. Of course, this depends on the chart as a whole and the sign that this planet falls into.

Uranus in 12th house: Uranus is the origin that is most assisting with your humanitarian mission and future aspects of your incarnations.

-a 12th house Uranus will depend entirely upon whether Uranus is in a harmonious or poor aspect/position to other major planets in the chart holders astrology chart. This will indicate where your karma with this planet is originating from. I feel like this is the case for all 12th house planets, but more-so Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto since they are generational planets. Those with a 12th house Uranus are likely to feel very "imprisoned" in requiring their key to freedom. These chart holders are hiding something. They are the "closeted rebels" of the astro community. In a past life you were likely executed under extreme or harsh conditions for standing up for the collective/humanity or your community in general. Your beliefs and what you spoke out about were not accepted during this time, and now you are afraid to speak your truth and live in the light of your own personal freedom and independence. It will take some time for you to figure out how to creatively express yourself in this way out of the subconscious fears you hold from past life occurrences. This is an aspect that mainly points to the chart holder doing nothing wrong themselves. You incarnated into that previous time frame to speak your truths and guide your community/humanity and you very well knew the risks in which you were taking to do so. However, the risks were often harsh and met with extreme consequences. Now is time for healing. You likely have great karma from this aspect, unless Uranus is very poorly positioned- even then, it depends on other chart factors. If Uranus is in square or opposition to Mars or Neptune with this position it doesn't necessarily indicate bad karma but rather a need for the chart holder to heal from physical and emotional/psychological trauma. You have increased psychic and intuitive abilities with this aspect. It can be hard to work through, but the outcome of it is generally very favorable. Normally these chart holders are extremely protected in the spiritual and psychic realms, similar to Mars in 12th house chart holders. You're likely to hold a very strong amount of inner spiritual power. Like Mars in 12th, you are a true spiritual warrior!

Neptune in 12th house: Neptune represents the origin that feels most familiar to you. Linked to your most recent past life and karmic occurrences. You're likely to feel this origin strongly in deep space.

-a 12th house Neptune is a favorable position as the 12th house works best and is at home here. This aspect is generally considered to be a spiritual blessing with no harsh karmic influences. However, that greatly depends on the position of Neptune. If under harsh karmic influences it generally refers to a past life filled with drugs and other methods of escapism. This is likely to have resulted in an accidental or even an intended suicide. Either way, if any harsh karma results from this planet it has to do with the chart holders own negative actions towards oneself in a past life, and not towards others. Other than that there's a great deal of positive influence here that allows the chart holder to easily tap into their own subconscious and connect with the divine. You find inspiration easily, and your sensitivity and powerful intuition can help you find solutions where most people without this placement couldn't. These chart holders have great potential to grow into very wise people, and they are likely to be within great alignment with their higher self which allows them to show great compassion and empathy to the world. Since Neptune generally refers to one of our most recent past life experiences, it's likely that you worked extra hard in a past life in relieving yourself of any karmic baggage. Now you receive a 12th house blessing! <3

Pluto in 12th house: Pluto is the origin in which you are most connected to in the underworld. This is your 1st and 2nd dimensional origin expression. Pluto's main theme is trauma and regeneration.

-a 12th house Pluto is restricted from the usual power of Pluto. These chart holders often have trouble expressing their sexuality, and indicates unhealthy power dynamics. This is an extremely karmic placement. It can indicate emotional and physical abuse, mainly stemming from the childhood of the chart holder, and this abuse can also be of a sexual nature. This experience is often hidden in the subconscious of the chart holder, and it can be an experience of this lifetime or an experience of a past life. Control is more important to these chart holders than most, but the fear of losing control is even stronger. In a past life you may have instilled guilt in others, taking up the role as a martyr and gaining power. Or you may have used it in other ways such as emotional manipulation. These themes are likely present again in this incarnation, but the chart holder may be unaware of their mind games. However, others around them can easily feel it. If harder aspects are placed on Pluto it could indicate that you were involved in crime in a past life or perhaps prostitution. The chart holder is likely to struggle with low self-esteem. Pluto is your powerhouse, you need it to find your own power. When it is placed in the 12th house, you are blocked from accessing it. Due to this the chart holder is likely to struggle with a feeling of helplessness and low self-confidence. These chart holders are also likely to struggle greatly with sleep or nightmares.

North Node in 12th house: The North Node is our transit route for seeding consciousness. This is your deliverance and conception of consciousness, and the direction in which you are headed in this lifetime/incarnation. This is not a karmic placement by any means. The only negative aspect this could possibly bring is at times you may feel a loss for your sense of purpose/direction in this lifetime. However, this is a positive placement for those walking a spiritual path/journey in this lifetime, and generally it's only recognized as positive by the chart holders. Unless they have harder aspects blocking their spirituality/spiritual pursuits in life. Even if they do, all the positive influences of this placement will still be felt by the chart holder. With a 12th house North Node you are destined for a spiritual journey. Blessed with innate psychic/intuitive abilities you will have many spiritual encounters and strong psychic episodes. You're destined to come face to face with spiritual teachers/gurus throughout this entire incarnation on Earth. Astral projection/out-of-body experiences are likely to be very common for you. In a past life you likely didn't focus much on your spirituality as it was not yet needed nor required for your spiritual growth. In this lifetime, you are ready to face any previous karma baggage and make sure that it is resolved so you can finally heal and move forward. If paired with other 12th house placements, this is a strong indication that your soul is ready to end its incarnation cycle.

South Node in 12th house: The South Node is the origin in which you came from and is tied to your most recent past life. This is the origin that is linked to the memories of your previous existence. This is also not a karmic placement. You walked a spiritual journey in a previous life. You either learned and healed from your karmic baggage, or you didn't. If you did, this position is a spiritual blessing and you likely incarnated into this lifetime with an innate sense of self-awareness, strong psychic, and intuitive abilities. You incarnated into this lifetime with the intent of doing things you may not have signed up for in a previous lifetime for spiritual/soul growth reasons. If you did not learn or heal from previous karmic baggage then you likely incarnated again with further intent of doing so. Similar to North Node in 12th house, you are prone to astral projection and out-of-body experiences.

What are your 12th house placements? Mine are Mercury, Mars, and North Node (which I will cover as well.)

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[writemywaytoyourheart]

This one is for OC and JK!!

How much did you guys miss each other when you were separated??

Do you think you can handle separation again? 🥺 Also has jk been more protective of you since then??

Jungkook bites his lip and looks at the fidgety girl next to him.

____ smiles at him, then clears her throat, "He's g-gonna make me answer," She laughs.

The laughter dies down as she says quietly, "I d-don't think I could even des-describe how much it h-hurt," ____ swallows thickly, a faint smile gracing her features when Jungkook reaches over to gently squeeze her hand.

"I h-hated waking up, g-going to sleep, it f-felt like he w-was everywhere but nowhere. I th-think the worst part w-was the fact that I thought he pl-played me the whole time and that I w-was the only one suf-suffering."

The young hitman looks at her sadly and she turns to smile at him, feeling bad that she made him sad. 

Jungkook shakes his head, "It's okay, you don't need to reassure me," He whispers, "I'm a big boy, I can handle being sad."

She laughs lightly as he squeezes her hand again, "S-Since you're all grown up, y-you should answer too."

Jungkook sighs with a laugh, "You got me, damn it...um, a lot. I- I missed her a lot. I didn't realize how much I could miss her until she wasn't there, and it hurt like hell knowing that she was in so much pain because of me."

His brows furrow unconsciously, "I hated not being able to explain everything to her. I feel like the only way to describe it physically is like someone stabbing you in the heart repeatedly. It sounds cheesy, but it's true. I don’t think I can describe what it did to me mentally."

Jungkook bites his lip in thought then he looks at ____, "The way you described it was perfect. It was like you were everywhere but nowhere at the same time. It was horrible, I don't even want to think about it. I'm just grateful Tae and Jimin kept us alive," He lets out a sad chuckle.

____ smiles sadly and nods, "Y-Yeah...to answer y-your second question, I d-don't think I could handle it. N-Not under those circumstances at least. I don't l-like it when he leaves, b-but I'm not completely dep-dependent on him, ya know?"

Jungkook nods at her words, "I agree. I do get extremely nervous though, that she's going to have a seizure and I won't be there to help her. It hurts and makes me anxious, yeah. But I don't feel like I'm gonna die."

A moment of silence passes, then Jungkook speaks up again, "If I don't see her for longer than a day, I throw a hissy fit."

A laugh bursts out of ____'s lips at his words. She puts a hand over her mouth to contain it, but Jungkook just shakes his head, a huge smile on his lips at the sound of her laughter.

After a second to compose herself, ____ wags a finger in Jungkook's face, "D-Don't make me laugh, I almost p-peed my pants."

Jungkook bites back his own laugh at her choice of words.

____ puts a hand to her chin in thought, "Is h-he more protective of me...? D-definitely-"

"Hey now, isn't that my question to answer?" Jungkook huffs, cheeks bright red at being exposed.

____ looks at him, eyes wide, "No! They a-addressed it t-t-to me!"

Jungkook crosses his arms and sinks down into his chair, his mood darkening like a little rain cloud.

____ shakes her head and rolls her eyes, "Ignore him, h-he's just being a little b-baby. He is d-definitely more pr-protective, not that he wasn't before, b-but he will randomly take my h-hand and he keeps looking at me like I'll d-disappear any second."

Jungkook harrumphs, "I do not-"

"Sh-should we ask Tae?" ____ counters.

Jungkook sinks further into his chair, "Whatever," He mumbles.

____ makes a face at his grumpiness, "Y-You can say so-something embarrassing about m-me if you want? If it w-will make you feel better-"

Before she can even finish, Jungkook is sitting up and he's got a troublesome smirk on his stupidly handsome face, no longer wallowing in his rage.

"____ makes these cute sounds whenever I kiss her-"

"J-Jungkook!"

"She'll never admit it, but she was really nervous the first time we made out and kept-"

"Yah! W-We promised we'd n-never talk about it!" ____ slaps her hand over his mouth.

Jungkook is about to pull her hand away when she hisses lowly, "S-Say another word and I'll t-t-tell them about what happened th-the morning after that night-"

Jungkook snatches her hand from his mouth, "Well, it seems like we're all out of time, sorry. Thank you for the questions!"

____ shakes her head at him before smiling, "Yes, th-thank you! I hope our a-answers were w-want you wanted."

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[astrowithkaro]

Hi there, could you do a birthday language for December 10th if you haven't? Thank you!!💗

Language Of Birthdays: December 10 - Sagittarius

[You can find the rest of the series here; or check out my masterlist]

The Day Of Inner Fervor

Those born on December 10 tend to internalize their feelings and proceed through life modestly convinced of their worth. If they draw attention to themselves it is most likely to strengthen their message or further their cause. Conceit, pride, arrogance and egotism at times seem unknown to these individuals, whose greatest desire is to serve others. Rarely, however, do others understand the depth of December 10 emotions, which are an extremely private affair and not easily shared. Indeed, the most singular gift those born on this day can give is to reveal themselves, as this act indicates great trust.

Belief is an important theme in the lives of December 10 people. Devotional types, they pray at the altar of character, wisdom, morality and revere only the finest characteristics of human nature. Very often, however, they reserve their greatest interest for non-human subjects, because they instinctively recognize that flesh and blood beings rarely live up to the highest ideals. Nature in particular holds a fascination for December 10 people, whether it be animals, plant life or untouched natural settings. Philosophically deep, those born on this day spend far more time than most pondering questions of existence. They may put their faith in God. Nature, the Universe, scientific laws or in a moving Spirit behind all things, but they generally put their faith somewhere. Indeed such things are not mutually exclusive for them.

December 10 people often give an impression of other-worldliness. They do seem to dwell on a plane far removed from the pettiness and suffering of everyday life. For this reason it may be difficult not only for them to take their place in the world of society but also to find a mate with whom they can share their abundant idealism. If they do find such a person, that person may serve as their bulwark, protector and supporter.

It is most often fortunate for all concerned when December 10 people assume positions of leadership as they make both sympathetic and understanding bosses who not only maintain good relations with co-workers but also have a knack for staying above the fray and avoiding no-win conflicts. Those born on this day often make good, nurturing, interested parents as well—as long as their mate will take an active role in sharing the responsibilities of parenthood. Sadly, it is rare that their sensitive nature can stomach what is required of them to latch on to power. Admittedly December 10 people may not handle stress well and therefore high-power roles should only be taken on if they can be handled with equanimity and can ultimately pro- vide them with the kind of comfortable living situation and privacy they require.

Strengths:

Inwardly calm

Appreciative

Spiritual

Weaknesses:

Inscrutable

Reclusive

Advice

December 10 people must be careful not to bury themselves emotionally. They should always keep avenues open to the outside social world. If they become too withdrawn, they may suf-fer emotional difficulties which become increasingly harder to discuss or share with anyone. Having a small circle of friends and if possible an understanding mate helps enormously. On the other hand those born on this day should not become too dependent on any one person. no matter how trustworthy or helpful. December 10 people have a great need to give, and all nurturing activities such as cooking, raising children or making a comfortable home seem to keep them in good health. Sharing food, particularly, and developing a healthy diet built around fresh foods and tasty recipes is important for their positive orientation toward life. Only mild exercise is recommended, such as walking in the open air, or gardening. Finding a means to enjoy country life is particularly recommended.

Resist your tendency to withdraw from the world

Maintain a bond with others

Believe in people as well as God or Nature

Don't be afraid of rejection

Fight to be heard, if necessary

[uberoll-oystercrackers]

mitski // i don’t smoke

ah wow yes so. i’ve never done a... lyric comic before? very daunting. but you see, this happened because i was possessed. it was simply out of my hands really. so now this exists.

i’m not sure if this speaks well enough for itself but i will try to elaborate on some of it. this all has to do with how trauma is something you can’t just pick up or put down at will. you don’t get over certain things, you just have to learn how to live with them. but that learning curve can be very, very steep. there can be just as much love in your heart as rage, as much rage as regret. sometimes you will be in a place where all you can do is lash out. having a support network is important, but it often leaves much to be desired.

what do you do when you lose the love of your life? when you lose your best friend? what do you do when you lose yourself? things can’t go back to the way they were, and they can’t stay like this.

you need help. unfortunately it’s not the kind you can give to yourself.

i would think this disclaimer isn’t necessary but just in case to be super thorough and cautious: this is not romantic, this is not desirable. a lot of my larsadie fanart pretty much straight up rejects canon starting at episode Off Colors and onward lmao. but this comic doesn’t... steven universe future left a lot to be desired for me personally. lars and sadie’s characters had grown more and more foreign to me over the course of season 5 of the series proper and into SUF, or as i’ve joked to my friends, SUFfer. i know a lot of people enjoyed it and thought the arcs and... ‘development’ made sense and of course that’s all well and good. there are lots of different ways to interpret the same media and it’s fun and exciting to look into what other people got out of the SU universe as a whole! but well, loads of time after the fact, here i sit: unsatiated.

i have touched on it now and again on various posts, sometimes just in the tags. but it was always very jarring to me how drastic lars’ personality change was, how the show tried to convince us he was mostly or completely fine with leaving his home, family, and friends behind to fuck around in space i guess?, how sadie went from being literally ill from lars’ absence to acting like she couldn’t care less if he stayed dead on homeworld. they were best friends. they were best friends! maybe i’m not making my case here, but then again i’m not setting out to do so. this is my reaction to and thought process of the fates of these characters i have loved for years. i love them, i love thinking about them, and i want the best for them.

i just think the path to healing would be a lot rockier, more layered, and more complex than what was shown in canon. steven is the main character, only so much time to accomplish so many things, and the canonical lesson of lars and sadie ending their relationship and ultimately their friendship in favor of prioritizing their own wants and needs was a good and necessary lesson, and of course it fits in the show as a whole. but were lars and sadie truly the best candidates for that lesson..? personally i don’t feel that is the case.

that’s why we make fanworks, right?

[lovelikedestiny]

3. Joe: Take my heart and I'll lay down my weapons

Under sunny skies,

or when it rains.

The thin surface of ice under Joe's feet crunches suspiciously with every slight movement and the muffled tone that sounds as the cracks spread, tells Joe how deep it goes down if the ground beneath him were to break.

And it will.

The only question is when.

Joe is actually just waiting for the ground to break away from under him, is filled with a nerve-wracking tension that makes him restless and hectic, preventing him from sleeping properly or letting him sink into the atmosphere that is gradually returning to normal. However, the nervousness, the fear, that fills him like caustic poison is one of the stones that stand in the way of getting to the state that existed before Nicky's illness and all subsequent events.

If that state still exists at all.

A small part of Joe fears that nothing will ever be the same again, because what happened and what he pushes with all his might into the farthest corner of his mind, desperate and therefore all the more dogged, has shaken their world so violently, that his insides feel exposed and beaten.

But Joe wants it to be the same as before. He wants to be able to look Nicky in the eye without seeing the shining pools deprived of any life. He wants to be able to touch Nicky without remembering the missing heartbeat and the escaped warmth. Joe wants to love Nicky.

But that is exactly what he is so afraid of that he thinks he is suffocating and detests himself for it. Because how can he be afraid of loving his better half, his soulmate? Something he's been doing for more than nine centuries without thinking about it like breathing.

Nicolo, my moon when I'm lost in darkness.

Now Joe is more lost than he has been in a long time and it crawls under his skin like ants. Settles there with tiny spikes and tears at him every time he tries to free himself from it.

Find me! Everything in him screams when Nicky smiles at him, a weight in the corners of his mouth reflecting in his eyes, but all Joe does is give back a faint version of his smile. Save me. Find me. Findfindfindfind.

His insides lie in glittering pieces and with every movement, every breath, they cut and tear and shred, unstoppable, untraceable, and the feeling of not knowing what to do, of having no advice is as overwhelming as a night without a moon, deep black and blinding.

Nicolo, where are you?

The moon, which always guides him, is swallowed up by clouds and Joe is helpless, lost, wandering around panting, stumbling in the direction of the arms, which always catch him without being able to see or feel them. And Joe is so scared that he wants to tear his hair out, scream, sob, run, kiss and hold Nicky, but he can't get anything out through his constricted throat, can't free himself from the body that holds him captive, paralyzes him, keeps him away from Nicky.

He needs Nicky, wants to go to Nicky, wants Nicky.

Only the man to whom he opened his heart and gave it to him can pick up the pieces of Joe and put him back together again, and that is impossible. How can he ask Nicky to fix him, to help him when Nicky is also shattered on the floor like a broken mirror in which every image is lost? Joe sees this every time Nicky looks at him, his open eyes clouded with pain that has no physical cause. It is unbearable to know that despite the effect of the antiserum, Nicky is still suffering and Joe is not a support in his own agony, but rather a burden.

It wasn't a lie when Joe told Copley that Nicky would be his rock if the surf threatened to drown him. They have now been caught by a crashing wave and smashed against the cliff, but the suction threatens to pull them both out into the open sea without a way to prevent this and to find a hold. All the time when Nicky was getting tired faster, spitting blood and coughing and wasting away right in front of Joe's nose. When he was ripped out of Joe's very grasp by death, which seemed unstoppable and, with threatening presence, watched every raising of Nicky's chest, his rattling and weakening breath, Joe fought.

Every smile from you is my salvation, every breath from you my favorite song.

Fought for the person who is more important to him than his own life, fought for love, for his family, as he always had and always would, without thinking or hesitating, because Joe's feelings don't change quickly once they have settled.

But his emotions is where the problem lies, because Joe, when overwhelmed and overstrained, is flooded by too many emotions, which cause impenetrable chaos in his head, making everything too loud, too bright, too much, just too much.

The power reserves that have kept Joe going to look for a cure for Nicky, who clung to life for the sake of Joe and his family, tried to survive as best as he could and fight the fucking serum, are empty, dried up like a withered oasis.

Joe can't fight anymore because he gave everything he could muster when Nicky was killed by Quynh, with the prospect of being separated from Nicky forever, never being able to hold, to taste, to feel him again. Never to be able to see that little grin again, which is just the crook of the corner of his mouth, so subtle that it could almost be overlooked if Nicky's eyes wouldn't get as soft as the soothing sea under the caressing sun.

Never again.

Rarely have two words weighed so much that they nearly crushed Joe underneath, with bone-breaking force that squeezed his lungs so hard he could only see black and white dots dancing in his field of vision while the blood rushed in his ears. Nicky's last gasp, Yu...suf..., through bloody saliva and red teeth, the warm, pulsating juice of life under the jacket that Joe pressed on Nicky's chest, pleading, praying, crying, dying because Nicky was dying too.

Never again. Nicky. No. Please. Nicolo. My love. My heart. Don't do that to me. I'm begging you.

It's like a recording that repeats itself over and over again in his head, as crystal clear as if Joe were reliving it over and over again, because every tiny detail of the night he lost the love of his life was burned into his mind like a hot poker and pierced his heart like Cupid's arrow, only much more poisonous, more destructive.

The entire energy reserves that had struggled to keep Joe from going crazy when Nicky was dead, completely dead, stiff as a doll on the sofa, not warm, never warm again, that crazy hope that the antiserum obtained from Copley would work, do something, has gone out like a candle flame in the wind and Joe is struggling. Struggling to breathe, struggling with the burden of the past weeks, days, hours, minutes that did not offer a break from the fear of losing everything, the worry and the helplessness.

Wrung out. That's how Joe feels. Wrung out and still wound up, exhausted and yet humming and trembling from something that feels suspiciously like suppressed hysteria, deaf to the world and yet hypersensitive. Joe exists without being.

Continue reading on AO3 ;)

[petersasteria]

‘someday my prince will come’ with peter parker, please?💗

You probably expected fluff, but you requested this to ME; the queen of disappointing people x

Someday My Prince Will Come - Peter Parker

This is inspired by one of my favorite Glee scenes.

"𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐞'𝐥𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧"

“I can’t believe we’ll be living together!” You gushed as you looked at Peter. He quickly smiled at you before returning his gaze on the road. “We’re fresh high school graduates and we’re off to the same college. We also get to live together in an apartment nearby because we saved up for it. I’m so excited, Pete! Like, I can’t find the right words to describe what I’m feeling right now.”

“We’re here.” Peter said softly as he parked at the airport’s parking lot. You looked out your window and laughed, “Pete, this is the wrong address. Are you okay? Come on, let’s go. I want to see our apartment.”

Peter turned to you and said, “You’re not going to the apartment.”

“This isn’t funny, Pete.” You frowned.

“Thank god I’m not joking then.” Peter said. “You’re boarding the plane to go to Paris, Y/N. Your mom will meet you there and help you get settled in your dorm at the university you’re meant to go to. You can’t go to M.I.T with me because you don’t belong there, Y/N. You won’t be happy.”

“B-But I have you and you make me happy, Peter. You make me really happy and I don’t care if I’ll be attending university at M.I.T with some course that I’m not fully good at. As long as you’re there, I’ll be fine.” You said, your breath beginning to be shaky.

“No, Y/N. You’ll go to Paris now.” Peter said sternly. “You won’t drop your scholarship at your dream school for fashion design just for me, alright? We’re not moving in together.”

“So, you don’t want to move in with me?”

“I want to, Y/N. I really do, but I can’t watch you suffer.” Peter shook his head.

“I’m not suf-”

“Not yet.” Peter sighed. “When I imagined what it would be like to live with you, at first, I imagined it to be so fucking amazing. But recently, it started to shift into something different. I imagined you doing your science-related homework that you don’t even give a shit about and you looked so unhappy and tired. Of course, you would lie to me and tell me that you’re okay and that you can push through.”

“But when I kept imagining it, I saw the look in your eyes, Y/N. You had this look in your eyes asking yourself what would’ve happened if you took that scholarship in Paris because it’s been your dream for so long. The thought of you staying at M.I.T studying something you don’t like makes me sick.”

“But it won’t matter! I just want to be with you and if that means I have to go to M.I.T to be with you, then I will. We’ll stay up late together just doing those tech-y projects while we eat our favorite takeout. It’s romantic, Peter! I won’t have that if I go to Paris.” You explained in hopes that you would change his mind.

“Do you love me?” Peter asked.

“What kind of question is that? Of course, I do!” You answered.

“Then, be honest. Are you really willing to give up your life long dream just to be with me at M.I.T? Are you sure about giving up Paris for Boston? Answer me with complete honesty.” Peter said.

“No one’s a hundred percent sure of everything, Peter.”

“Yeah, but the fact that I asked you a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question and you gave me that answer, means that you’re not sure that you’re willing to give up something you’re passionate about.” Peter said. “I’m so sure that you’re a talented girl and I’m sure that you’ll do great things. You have to experience things on your own to get there and-”

“Wait a minute-”

“No, listen to me, Y/N/N. You’re going to-”

“Wait a-”

“-have these amazing experiences and great opportunities. Those great things are waiting for you in Paris with your scholarship.”

“Wait, are you breaking up with me?” You asked as tears clouded your vision. Peter gulped and said, “I’m setting you free.”

“Oh my god, Peter.” You gasped and turned away from him.

“Do you know how hard this is for me?! Do you know how many times I’ve cried about this? Y/N, I found out from your parents that you turned down your scholarship to Paris and did you know how heartbroken I felt when they also told me that, that was your dream school you were giving up on? Did you know how many times I laid wide awake in my bed just thinking, ‘my girl’s not going to her dream school’?” Peter said. He was frustrated.

“No! I’m not going. Fuck that shit. You’re my dream now, Peter. Let’s just forget about this and drive to Boston. I won’t go to Paris; not without you.”

“We both know I can’t go to Paris.”

“Then, I’ll stay here! I’ll go wherever you’re going!” You cried.

“Tough luck because I won’t fucking let you.” Peter choked up. “Y/N, you’re getting on that plane, alright? You’re going to Paris and you’re going to be the best fashion designer the world has ever seen. And you’re going to do all of that without me; that’s how much I love you.”

You looked at him and you were sobbing. He was sobbing too and he cupped your face with his hands.

“As much as both of us hate it, we have to let go. If we’re meant to be together, then we’re going to be together whether it’s in Paris or in New York or in Boston or anywhere else in the world.” Peter cried.

“I love you so much.” You said with tears streaming down your face.

“I love you.” Peter said before pulling you in for a kiss which lasted long, knowing that it’ll be your last. You pulled away and cried as Peter wiped his tears and got out of the car to get your suitcase.

You got out of the car as you and Peter walked hand in hand inside the airport.

“Okay, this is the part where we say goodbye.” Peter slowly lets go of your hand and you were starting to tear up again. “I put your passport in your back pack and here’s your plane ticket.”

Peter took out the plane ticket from the pocket of his hoodie before kissing you one last time and hugged you tightly right after.

“Have fun in Paris, alright? I’ll miss you and I love you.” Peter whispered and pulled away.

“I love you so much, Peter.” You sniffed. You hugged him once more until it was announced that your flight was boarding. You let go of Peter, said goodbye to him and walked to security. He watched as you walked away and his heart broke at every step you took, but he knew it was for your own good and happiness.

You looked at him when you showed your boarding pass. Peter waved at you and gave you a small smile. You returned the smile and boarded the plane. When Peter couldn’t see you anymore, he left and went back to his car.

Both of you were completely heartbroken, but both of you knew that you’ll see each other someday. After all, both of you were meant to be.

* * * *

I’m sorry if I made anyone cry 

𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐊𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓: @blueleatherbag​ @harryismysunflower​ @buckys-little-hoe​ @justanothermarvelmaniac​ @itstaskeen​ @heeeyitskay​ @slytherin-chaser​ @quaksonhehe​ @yaya4302​ @lil-mellow-bunbun​ @starlight-starks​ @swiftmind​ @alexx-stancati​ @sovereignparker​ @nerdyandproudofitsstuff​ @pearce14​ @xfirstfemale-marauderx​ @cherthegoddess​ @chewymoustachio​ @cocoamoonmalfoy​ @parkerlovebot

𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓: @marvelousell @justasmisunderstoodasloki @rubberducky-jrr @petersholland @osterfieldnholland @miraclesoflove @god-knows-what-am-i-doing @perspectiveparker @hollands-weasley @itstaskeen @call-me-baby-gir1 @the-panwitch @iamaunicorn4704 @chloecreatesfictions @holland-styles @halfblood-princess-505 @spidey-reids-2003 @whatthefuckimbisexual @justanothermarvelmaniac @unsaidholland @musicalkeys @lost-in-the-stars03 @hufflepuffprincess24 @hollanddolanfangirl @parkerpeter24 @bellelittleoff

[ramblingguy54]

SUF’s Double Hitters & Importance

Damn. Just fucking damn. As a dude in my late twenties, who’s seriously passionate about romance, but still has yet to actually get into having any genuine experience with it, this episode seriously hurt to watch. Christ, look at how utterly crushed Steven is here. The animators did a fantastic job in displaying how defeated this kid feels. These two new episodes were so wonderful in exploring Steven’s trauma and how much that has ended up defining his whole existence from the very start. This moment of Steven breaking into tears may honestly be on my top list of heartbreaking scenes from his character arc. He’s looked toward fusion with Connie as his last hope for genuine escape from those years of internal pain, which naturally she turned him down for now because it’s all kinds of unhealthy. Besides the obvious fact that they’re both still too young for such a heavy commitment like marriage, Steven’s not in a right state of mind whatsoever and is impulsively looking for any “be all end all” resolution that will solve all his problems with a 180 heel turn.

Together Forever was intended to be Steven’s breaking point for his emotional issues and by God did it execute that idea to the fullest 100%. All that existential dread is written over Steven’s face when Connie tries to put off studying to help someone who needs a shoulder to cry on and so much more. Rather than make it about himself once more Steven defaults to thinking of her needs instead of confronting the bigger issue in front of himself, which is topped of by this soul crushing look of a fake smile. Seriously, that look is enough to make me cry because I know that expression all too well. That’s the kind of smile signaling someone at their wit’s end, who doesn’t know what else to do anymore, but resort to what he’s been doing since the earlier seasons, being gritting his teeth and staying quiet about it all. He’s a ticking time bomb waiting to go off.    

“I think all these experiences have been subjecting your body to a harmful amount of stress and that’s affecting your ability to respond new forms of stress in a healthy way. You’ve been dealing with genuine threats from such a young age, your body is now responding to smaller threats, as if your life were in danger.”

We all knew Steven’s therapy session was coming and it put the spotlight on, you all guessed it, surrounding his heavy childhood trauma ranging from the Gem War, insecurities about his mother Pink Diamond and how that reflects onto his own self-esteem, and many other iconic unfortunate scenarios earlier in the show, like when he saw Amethyst shape-shifting into Rose to spite Greg for “taking” her away from them all. What a shocker amirite? Seriously though, these new episodes wonderfully delivered on getting to see Steven suffer from not dealing with his emotional baggage properly, due to the environment he grew up in and how that affected him in turn to not further speak up about it, considering Steven was always viewed to be so much more than just another kid. We’re now finally seeing all those consequences boil over from all that crap and I love so much that Future is making a big point to illustrate all this. I can’t begin to describe how happy I am they referenced Storm In The Room here because that episode is another seriously important one in Steven’s PTSD journey of facing himself. I answered an anon ask awhile back mentioning how terrific this episode was for Steven’s characterization, so it’s very nice to see them give a big nod to that moment with him venting in Pink Diamond’s room.

Future is a beyond noteworthy addition to Steven Universe’s original story because it doesn’t just sweep all the previous shit that Steven has endured underneath the rug without looking back on it. SUF’s big vocal point is all about the kid facing his inner demons, which is something I deeply appreciate with how down to Earth the writers are making this additional series in general. Honestly, looking at SUF as simply an additional series is such an understatement in hindsight, given all the important stuff they’re tackling here. When I heard about Future’s announcement before it first started airing, I wasn’t sure how necessary it was going to be overall and could simply be ignored, but nope.

Future’s extremely important for those who want to see Steven face his past and not have it be overlooked, by simply saving the universe from enslavement and especially destruction. Color me impressed by tonight’s new episodes.

[missfinefeather]

Wakraya

Don't be alarmed, I checked, it's not 'all', but there were some issues.

OH!

This is because Tumblr has changed their tag system

Tags have spaces now, not dashes

So for example

Your liveblog for The Question is tagged as "https://missfinefeather.tumblr.com/tagged/The-Question/chrono"

This no longer works, now it needs to be "https://missfinefeather.tumblr.com/tagged/The%20Question/chrono"

This goes for every tag on your Tumblr that has a space in it. Y i k e s

I’ve since went back and fixed the Steven Universe Master List, so it should be all linking now.

Now, the Homestuck Master List I haven’t gotten to. Hundreds upon hundreds of links now broken, fuck me.

Homestuck was before I got a system down for liveblog tags so, yeah I’m going to have to go fix all that eventually. Siiiiiiiiiggghhh....

I guess that’s what I’m working on tonight. Hopefully it won’t take long.

EDIT: Fixed the Homestuck Master List. Let me know if I screwed up or missed anything.