#self date

[phasesofamoonchild]

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[feehippielove]

🤡I LOVE CLOWNS 🤡

🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡❤️🤡

[hereiamletmebe]

Taking this cute ass to the fair

[creatingnikki]

7 am, the beach is grey and chilly and the water on my feet feels like a balm after your words screeched.

8 am, the the fancy coffee doesn't feel so overpriced anymore and I thank the plastic that I can tap tap tap away, and one that I would, if I hadn't studied economics and didn't understand how credit worked.

9 am, I am writing paper napkin poetry with a borrowed pen from the cute guy across the table. He was leaving but let me have the pen. Kindness exists.

10 am, I am at the book sale. There's nobody else. Just me and a thousand books in a room. The dream.

11 am, I come home with bags full of fruit and arms full of books. I crash. I am content. I conquered this weekend.

[ebrubodyy]

Kendimle 🧡

[gardenofmymiind]

Found and cleaned off my college rigs. Alongside them were my mini fave brand of candle, and my old speaker. I got SO STOKED!!! Set it up all up and was filled with such pleasant nostalgia.

I would do this exact set up when I had my little self dates or when I was sad/stressed too (which was uhhh all the time haha…). I would go to the dispensary, get some nice dabs and weed. If I had enough money I would get my fave sushi to go. Drive down to the ocean, hotbox my car and light the candles and perch them up on my dash and listen to my fave music as the sun set. Then I would walk down to the dunes to look at stars, and lay in the sand. After, I would go to sleep in my car, wake and do homework as the sun rose. Shower at a friends house if I can, and continue on to classes the next morning.

[charayiam]

took myself on a museum date

[cinnamon-irl]

study&self date

I miss my summer study routine.I hope I can return soon.Lately I've been feeling overwhelmed with school and exams and have stopped studying for my main exam. I think I need new changes...🤔😧👾

But these days I'm in a phase where I'm more in tune with myself and I like being alone with myself. I think I'm at the stage of being able to accept myself as I am. Of course, I try even if I don't go in a straight line. That's what matters. I try to look at everything less personally, in a different perspective and in the bigger picture. You are valuable because you are yourself. There will be people who love you and will accept you just for who you are. Don't worry and try to be happy with yourself. Because the only person who can give you anything is you.

🩷💘💗

[unofficialchronicle]

[ucanyildiz]

[daiisoo]

It was a flowery week (´• ω •`) ♡

[feehippielove]

🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡

🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡🎡🎠🤡

[creatingnikki]

At times when you’re sad, the answer isn’t always a cry or a conversation with a loved one. Sometimes...sometimes it’s just a glass of wine, your favourite scented candles, strawberry waffles, and a book of quotes from the Bhagavad Gita. 

This particular bottle of white wine was something I came across at the NYE celebration this time and the person to bring it was my textbook arch nemesis from high school. The last lot of French vanilla candles were bought using my credit card reward points because after you spend 10,000 bucks, capitalism will reward you with 100. And as for the waffles, wait, let me take a bite. 

Fucking delicious. 

Made me moan the way the last guy I was with could not. And the quotes from the Gita! Want to go through some with me?

Information makes our mind fat, application makes it fit. Be mentally fit, not fat. 

Don’t care so much for the desire that it doesn’t care for the desirer. 

Information does not have to be new to be helpful - it just has to be timely. 

These are mostly interpretations of the author of the verses from the Gita. Oh, did I mention that I ordered strawberry waffles with nutella ones? Because the combination is to die for. No, I am not satisfied by a little. I want more and I want to mix and match to suit my taste. Maybe that’s why I fail with people; I cannot mix and match people’s hearts, skills, and smiles. 

When I was moving into this apartment, my first, I told you I can’t wait to buy wine glasses. How that would be so adult. I said I’d like to get two. And you told me at least get four. wouldn’t you want to entertain multiple friends at once? 

You were just getting to know me then so you didn’t know that I didn’t do groups; that I was a one-on-one let’s see into each other souls and comfort each other as the world burns kind of person. Intense, yes. I am intense. And a lot of the times I am upset that people cannot deal with this intensity and leave or cannot match this intensity and I have to leave. But can I?

Am I not feeling so miserable and having such a hard time because I too have not learned how to deal with my intensity? Or the fluctuations in the same? From 100 to zero without a warning, no foretelling, no twitching of the eyebrow. Shouldn’t I, out of anyone else, out of everyone else, shouldn’t I first learn to manage my intensity? Yes, yes, yes. But how? 

By doing this. By spending time by myself without the urge to reach out to someone, or scroll on my phone, or binge watch something, or step out of my house for any kind of distraction to come occupy me. Mindfulness, essentially. It all feels messed up, like the odds are stacked against me. Like no matter how hard I try, this life is nothing but a Sisyphean task. A Sisyphean task with a twist. 

There is not just one boulder that I have to roll up the hill. There are half a dozen. And once I reach the top, there is no telling which one is going to roll down the next. There is this continuous shifting and configuring to enable the rolling up of one specific type of boulder. It’s exhausting yes, but also so very confusing. 

I’ll end this now. Go work on my website or maybe lie down for some time. But here’s another quote from the book that may make you feel slightly better like I do perhaps feel:

Whenever things seem to fall apart, calm yourself by remembering times when things have fallen in place — destiny is not against you.

Destiny is not against you. 

[introverted-kindas0ul]

I love this silly goofy man far too much.

Although when he dedicated Something Changed to Steve, it made me fully sob. Not cool, Jarvis. (still love u tho)

[enchantechante]

Artist Date W3: Thrifting

And the youtube channel is updated with a mini-adventure to the Thrift Sto'. Who doesn't love lewks for less?

I've always wanted to be a fashion designer and this makes me feel as creative as that life seems.

My wish for myself is that I learn to play with the world around me. That I lean into rest, recovery & finishing this book this Summer (finally!).

[evesprettylittlediaryy]

Having a coffee in a self-date. I had some paperwork for compulsory internship yesterday. All of them was completed ✔️.

Now, I should go and attend to my cousin's engagement ceremony in two days. I should pack things and get ready for a long drive. Hopefully, it will be a nice event for me too. I will count this travel as a quick holiday before I start to my internship.