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LANDO NORRIS: the art of self-criticism
Norris More Frustrated At Himself Than Ever As Piastri Wins, The Race 23 // Luster, Raven Leilani // Lando Norris: Qatar was McLaren's chance to beat Max Verstappen, ESPN 23 // Norris confesses he 'messed up' Qatar qualifying, Racingnews365 23 // UNKNOWN // Lando Norris admits 'hurt' over mistakes as McLaren team-mate claims Qatar GP Sprint victory, skysports 23 // The Last of Us // Norris confesses he 'messed up' Qatar qualifying, Racingnews365 23 // Norris: Making mistakes "all I did today" in F1 Qatar GP qualifying // Lando Norris' Radio // The Princess Diarist, Carrie Fisher // Suzanne Rivecca
#f1 web weaving#lando norris#qatar gp 2023#self criticism#self hatred in a way#web weaving#f1#formula 1
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Lando Norris Is Doing It His Way
Lando Norris: âBeing happy with myself isnât easyâ | Lando Norris: âYou donât have to have a killer instinct to be world championâ | Netflix, Drive To Survive S07E02
#lando norris#feeling emotional about lando norris dot blogging dot edu#idk it's like there are times where i've thought that his whole I Don't Have To Be The Most Confident And Ruthless mindset was stubbornness#but the longer I watch him the more I'm convinced it's his strength that being brought up kind and loved and assured has allowed him to hav#a way better understanding of his personal neuroses than someone raised with doubt or self-hatred so I think fuck it let's win like this#let's win a bit silly and a little unconfident but a lot determined and encouraged. let's win with our stupid team.#IT COULD HAPPEN. Lando we can be world champion#nadia's things#critical lando theory
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Rule follower Eddie really makes me laugh so hard, even if you ignore the literal underground fighting ring bc he was grieving and not acting rationally Eddie has never been a rule follower in his life. He was underage drinking, he quit dance and church even though his parents didn't want him to. He was a teenage parent! He ran off to war and didn't go to college, he went to LA where he showed up and immediately was doing crazy things at work despite being technically a probie. He kicks in hotel doors when drunk. Eddie is very concerned with doing the right thing and what he considers to be his responsibilities but he is not and has never been a rule follower
#my beautiful guy forever#i really think almost all bad eddie meta/takes come from trying to shove him into various archtype boxes and he just doesnt fit#eddie is a soldier but he is not a soldier character archetype#eddie was raised catholic but he is not a catholic/lasped catholic archtype#eddie is in love with a man and doesnt know it but he is not a repressed gay man archtype#eddie DOES repress things potentially even his sexuality but he doesnt do it in a way that fits into the tropes and stereotypes#that people try to shove him into#eddies low self worth/self hatred dont have anything to do with his sexuality and he is still a confident person in many ways#anyway i love eddie diaz forever and ever character of all time#i might say more about this later its 8am#also i promise ill talk about buddie at some point#but i meant it when i said this is an eddie blog first#eddie diaz#original txt.
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Something about older Jason looking at the child version of himself, the innocent victim, and feeling the need to defend and avenge him the way no one else will. They'll call him reckless and try to pin the blame for his death on some unique failure of his personality, the problem isn't Robin the problem is he was just a bad fit for Robin! And then older Jason coming back to life and spits on their twisted grief. Fuck you, that innocent child deserved more. You took his memory and ruined it to make yourselves feel better. If no one will give him justice then Jason will take it himself no matter who he has to kill to get there. It's the only way he can move forward.
Something about older Cass looking at this child version of herself, this innocent who has no idea what she was doing when she was tricked into killing, and finding her irredeemable. She will forgive everyone for everything if they need a second chance but she cannot forgive that innocent child. She spends ten years wanting that child to die for their sin, a standard she holds no one else to. And in the end she does have to die. She can never forgive that child until the price has been paid and the guilty, tormented, suicidal mess of a girl is dead and never coming back. Only then can Cass live on. Only then can she smile without feeling the weight of her kill on her back. If no one will give that child the justice they deserve then she will have to do it herself. It's the only way she can move forward.
#dc#cassandra cain#dc rambles#Jason Todd#They're so messed up in such fun inverted ways#Everyone's always like oh what would Robin Jason think of red hood but I think what red hood thinks of Robin#Is equally as important#Likewise baby cass would most likely feel relief that someday she escapes the all consuming self hatred#And older Cass would feel... A lot. Regret she spent so long hating this child. Grief for what she was tricked into doing.#But I don't think she's ever fully going to get rid of all that cold hatred. That emotion that let's her look at her 8 year old self#And sentence them to death. Only them. No one else. Because people are good deep down but this child is rotten.#She's so mentally ill and relatable <3#It's not even recognisable hatred because it's so clinical and all consuming. She doesn't hate herself she just believes she deserves to di#What do you mean that's a sign of self hatred Barbara don't be silly she's perfectly fine.
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I had a dream about Sebek and a fly.
Sebek was going about his normal business, when he noticed a fly sitting on his hand. He casually brushed the fly off, before lifting his gaze to resume his duties. However, out of the corner of his vision, he caught sight of the fly, back on his hand. He swatted at it again. But somehow, it remained where it was. He shook his hand, twisted it about, swiped at it multiple times but no matter how hard he tried to get rid of it, the fly remained on his hand. Growing increasingly frustrated, he even tried to crush the fly in his hand. But the fly still remained. He couldn't help but let out a cry of anger and upset as tears began to stream down his face, for he was desperate to be rid of this fly. This fly that would not release its hold on him. This fly that clung to the back of his mind every second of the day. And there was nothing he could do but despair.
#twisted wonderland#twst#sebek zigvolt#my art#fly symbolism...#flies can represent the brevity of human life#so given sebek's... *motions* everything#his whole issue with humans... which comes from his own internal struggles and self hatred#BUT ALSO what I believe comes from a very strong fear of human fragility#like his father or silver or all of his school mates won't be in his life for very long...#well.. this all just makes for good angst doesn't it#this might be a concept i will flesh out more in the future#but it would take some work to portray it the way i would want#so for now this will do#even while unconscious my brain thinks of ways to make sebek suffer#silver and lilia and malleus comforted him at the end of the dream tho so it's okay#he's just a big mess
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Chip: okay. do you know where Gillion is?
King: we are unaware of such creature.
Chip: then what good are you.
i LOVE the dunjon arc. i LOVE chip being so fucked up over this
#the way biz plays chip especially during this episode is everything to me#so insane of him#all chip can do is fight to find gillion#and then heâs done.#lost so much of himself to the guilt of losing gillion#i love riptide. i love fnc#also absolutely love how condi played jay in this episode#her being afraid and sad so chip has to shakily comfort her. being so angry she ignores chip trying to negotiate and shoots the puppeteer.#until they take a short rest. its quiet and now chip is crying because itâs his fault and jay has to comfort him.#but its hard to get through to him. his self hatred is too stubborn right now. but she does her best and now sheâs just so solemn as she#watches chip resign himself to anger#i really do just ramble in tags huh#jrwi riptide#chip bastard#idk if i should tag jay because sheâs only in the tags#iâll do it anyway#because i love her#jay ferin
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Now that the dreams are finally over, I'd just like to mention how it was a great addition to the story, for multiple reasons:
- Firstly, there's the fact that both Diasomnia and Ignihyde are generally isolated dorms. Sure they have vignettes and club members, but most of the cast didn't interact much with Idia, not to mention how we needed to add Sebek to the first year gang. So, having these dorms be part of the dream crew, getting to know the other students, their dreams and POVs, generally speedrunning the "friendship forged by fire" process, was necessary, especially with the endgame in the horizon.
- Secondly, there were the grudges amongst overblotters to tackle. While Riddle, Vil and Idia have no qualms with the previous dorms that aided the player in their respective chapters, Leona, Azul and Jamil still hold some degree of resentment (mostly Azul with Leona destroying his contracts and Jamil with Azul's fake livestream, but Leona also didn't like Heartshackle and Jack's interference back in Book 2). So, having the dreams go in the opposite order is a way to "settle the score", as in "you saw me at my worst and I just saw your craziest dreams so we're even". Which is also necessary, seeing as we're about to reach the endgame...
- Lastly, they were just entertaining. A chance to have some wacky shenanigans with the cast and check up on some of their character arcs that may have been ignored due to story pacing.
That being said, I love how the final fight focused on each dorm instead of everyone fighting all at once. While they've been able to work together with mostly random teams at times, the students generally have more sinergy with the other members of their dorms. Even if we're bound to see other team-ups in the future, for now it's better to stick with what already works.
#twst#twst spoilers#riddle rosehearts#malleus draconia#idia shroud#leona kingscholar#jamil viper#kalim al asim#vil schoenheit#azul ashengrotto#sebek zigvolt#silver vanrouge#also riddle needs a second round of therapy to deal with that self hatred#though cater and trey seem to be working to rectify that#i know the dreams took some time and space#but still a generally fun idea#made Idia getting the SSRs way more impactful
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I am so happy to be in this fandom space :â) this is an appreciation post for everyone who has made art or written or even shared headcanons for the scum villain fandomâyouâre amazing!!! Rahhh!!! Do you know how amazing and privileged I feel to be able to see and interact and appreciate otherâs creative talents!! That they courageously put out online!!! Thereâs so many wonderful ideas and fun community interactions here đ„čSending you all flowers đ
And if youâve ever interacted with my doodles iâm giving you a big warm smooch on the forehead and putting you in my pocket. Mine now. I appreciate you so much!!!! I read all the tags on my artwork and please know I love it. It literally lifts my mood so much. Even if itâs a simple tag, Iâm always so honored to have known people took the time out of their day to even look at my stuff <333
Iâm approaching 1k here and wondering if I should do something as a thank youâidk, i donât like putting emphasis on metrics, but at the same time I would like to give back to the community that feels like home and allowed me to meet and make such wonderful friends. If anyone has any ideas, lmk?
BUT YEAH BIG LOVE TO ALL THE SCUMMIES OUT THERE, YOU ALL NEVER FAIL TO MAKE MY DAY BETTER!! đ
#I am SO FUCKING CORNYYYY#IDC IDC I LOVE YOU ALL#I have been feeling really shitty about my art also so the best way to overcome that is so put something positive out#Iâm working thru the self hatred slowly!! never fear#svsss#hoots#blabbering
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iâve had a thought: leader sacrifices themselves for whumpee, leaving the team without direction. obviously, whumpee is taking this pretty hard, blaming themselves for the team falling apart, repeating âit shouldâve been me,â over and over again. the team try and comfort whumpee, convince them it wasnât their fault, but when whumpee asks them if they seriously believe it shouldâve been leader instead of whumpee, they canât answer. because yeah, it kinda shouldâve been whumpee, for the sake of the mission. without whumpee, the team could carry on, albeit in mourning. but without leader, theyâre done for. the team doesnât say as much; they donât say anything, they canât, because itâs either lie or tell the truth, and both feel so wrong. but their silence is answer enough for whumpee, who just looks at them with wet eyes and a scowl to hide their misery as they quietly say, âexactly.â
#i love it when whumpee says really self hating things that arenât true in the way they think#but are still kinda true#and no one can really argue with them about it because theyâre kinda right#and it just reinforces whumpeeâs self hatred#and makes the team feel guilty as shit#because itâs not whumpeeâs fault#theyâre not a bad person#they have loads of people who care about them#but they shouldâve been the one who died#delicious#whump#whump prompt#whump scenario
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rewatching season 1 with the context of "oh thats a memory-wiped blank slate helena eagan waking up on the table" is such a completely different experience than watching it the first time around. she really was ready to fight and kill someone from the second she woke up, before she even knew her name. i love her
#helena eagan you will always be famous to me#it really is just a story of extreme self hatred huh#and in a way... self love#i think helly kind of represents the love that helena doesnt think she deserves#helly knows whats right and wrong and shes willing to fight for it#helena has suspicions about whats right and wrong but nothing concrete and shes too scared and traumatized to fight for anything#but helly is the part of her that says fuck no we will not be a part of this#and shes going to kick her own ass until helena wakes up to that fact#hellyna you are so complex and interesting i need to rattle you around in a jar
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Zenitsu agatsuma has got to be the biggest egg I have ever seen in my entire life
#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#zenitsu agatsuma#nezuko kamado#thereâs genuinely no way bro doesnât have smth going on with his gender#nezukos bamboo necklace is chewlery btw hehe#I hope I was able to capture the expression of like#just genuine tender yearning#itâs something heâs always had the longing for but never quite understood where it came from#or even what it was#just a very empty hole in his body that he could only ever describe as self hatred and disgust even if he knew that wasnât quite right#I think when theyâre older nezuko would rlly help him like#get comfortable w the idea of actually exploring his identity#heâs spent so much of his life just truly and bitterly hating himself to the core#he couldnât stomach the idea of thinking about who he was beyond the surface level#I think nezuko would make him feel so much more okay with himself and help try to get him to a point of at the very least knowing who he is#itâs a very long road that zenitsu really honestly isnât sure if heâs comfortable with#but he canât help but at least try#if not for himself but for the ache of the child inside himself who has so desperately longed for comfort and love and belonging#he wants to know that child who was so brutally outcasted could eventually find a home#he wants to believe thereâs hope for himself#Zenko chan I love you so much#she is so important 2 meâŠ..#sorry transed your zenitsu. no yeah we canât undo it. yeah heâs a she now. sorry nothin I can do.
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Scout hating Spy this, Spy hating Scout that
Hear me out. Complicated comfort father-son dynamic
#I need them to resent each other but also yearn for the other's comfort#I want Spy to hold EXCURCIATING self hatred for himself for abandoning Scout#And I need Scout to be absolutely pissed that Spy's his dad but also wish for a fatherly bond from him#I can't stand people just depicting them as strictly hating each other#I KNOW there's underlying care in them deep down#I mean Scout picks up some habits from Spy#And Spy could just not do shit for Scout but he's been there for him in his own way#team fortress 2#tf2#tf2 spydad#spydad#mod vent#rant
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the things that come back
#akia art#our life#olba#baxter ward#olba mc#more cheesy tastes đ€Ł reconciliation or catharsis or smth#for context maggie did the (stay in touch and split 'amicably')!#ik the nuances are too granular to account for ingame but it would've been fun to see reflective dialogue from the mc :<#i find the interaction btwn culpability/agency in this dlc fascinating#baxter blames himself for everything out of self-hatred but also to control the situation in a way that gives it Knowable Dimensions#smth smth fearing the ocean bc there's a beginning but no foreseeable end#how fitting for him to feature in a game titled 'beginning and always'#hope i haven't totally bungled him tho LOL#back to goofy stuff now that i've gotten All This out of my system đ€Ł
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six times ai di teased about chen yi's crâ crush vs the first time ai di realized he was the crush
Chiang Tien as AI DI & Chen Bowen as CHEN YI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#userrain#userspicy#pdribs#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#he's an icon he's a legend and he Is the moment#i have nothing else to add to this im just obsessed with him#WE *ALL* SEE WHAT YOU'RE DOING WITH YOUR EYES AI DI. chen yi included ofc <3#i also kinda love how he Continues to tease like this even when cdy isnt involved#like the.....idk the word im looking for. the way he fakes this confidence. this arrogant self-assurance. from ep9 forward like#'oh you liked it that much? you want another taste??' (actual self-hatred spiral in the background)#bc listen...thats also what makes the last gif so hot........okay.#cuz you see that self-assurance For Real......but also how it still takes his breath away >:)#OKAY ANYWAY. im putting myself in jail just like ai di did.#nobody is doing it like him idc. or Them idc idc
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Autism culture is not feeling things in the normal way and hating yourself for it
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#Mod Emri#Neurodivergent culture#Actually Neurodivergent#tw self deprecation#tw self hatred#tw internalized ableism#internalized ableism mention#hey hey anon- i promise you ânormalâ is an illusion & a half#yes our autistic brains tend to work & subsequently feel things in ways neurotypicals (stereotypically) don't#but it is JUST AS ânormalâ as their methods and not worth hating yourself over in the slightest#having been through this kinda thing before i promise it's much more helpful trying to learn to view how you feel&your autism neutrally /nf
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"For the good of those who see in us, the defense of our beloved people, whom we love above all else and whose love we reciprocate, requires us to use our children as instruments and bargaining tools to obtain the necessary ends." â Rodrigo Borgia (Lucrezia Giovane, directed by Luciano Ercoli)
#the second juan/lucrezia don't comply with playing the roles rodrigo wants them to...he rages at them and the affection is taken away#mind you he told the both of them that they're the light of his life...while it's true in some ways...he ultimately uses them as pawns#also cesare never had any illusions that he was the light of his father's life because he misconceived he was always his father's shadow...#it was hard for rodrigo to admit the deep and immense love for the perfect son made in his image because he has self-loathe#but in the end he was in fact his father's true heir and his father's everything and cesare realized that when it was too late#too late meaning years of hatred and jealousy towards juan and ended up killing him when he was on the same boat as his. juan had it worse.#because rodrigo really made his kids feel unvalued in different ways; cesare thought juan was the fav while juan thought cesare was the fav#juan borgia#lucrezia borgia#the borgias#theborgiasedit#perioddramaedit#perioddramacentral#tvedit#cinemapix#tvarchive#weloveperioddrama#jeremy irons#smallscreensource#by jen
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