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an-aura-about-you · 8 months

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sometimes the best thing about a day of work is that it's over.

#work whinging in the tags #a coworker was out today and will be out on Monday as well #Monday it won't be as bad but today it sucked because this week's the week I do my day team's banks #I don't bother telling my night team this because every time I did before it didn't made any difference #I busted my ass working on the early banks getting them as done as I could #but of course I still get one bank like 6 minutes before my break and it's got a query that requires me to look at 500 items #so naturally I'm late to my break but fuck y'all I AM gonna take my entire break #so of course by the time I get back I already had a bank waiting for me #and I couldn't keep on top of some of my day team's bank work because of it #one of my day team banks ended up taking like an hour between doing that work a 1200 item query & working 4 other banks on the side #and THEN the person who hands out banks forgot to assign one to me until I had already clocked out #for the record they got the bank about 20 minutes before I was scheduled to clock out they had plenty of time to do it #and then I said that I can do it but it was going to be overtime at this point #and they said 'that's okay' so I took that to mean I was supposed to do it #so I said 'ok I'm working on it now'#only for them to ask 'are you working on the bank?'#like yes???? I literally just said I was??????#and that's when I realized that they possibly meant 'that's okay' as 'don't worry about it you can go for the night'#but if that's what they meant THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE USED A PHRASE AS AMBIGUOUS AS 'THAT'S OKAY'

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collophora · 4 months

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Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness

(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)

#star wars #star wars the bad batch #the bad batch fanart #tbb fanart #tbb fanfiction #dumping my “fanfic_doodles.clip” file here literally #sorry the style is messy #now I see them all Im like “ok it's all over the place zero/100 aesthetically pleasuring post”#hhhh its the thought that counts?#And tbh the point is just to convince you to read theses #because I'm like OBSSEEESSED with theses since you appeared in my notes #Every fic is gold #Me baiting my followers with pretty enough pictures to read fanfics #this being said I should really take the time to color properly my stuff #but I don't liiiiiiiiike it #there is tons of more talented artists if people want colored beautiful amazing art #me I can't really make my “”“spontaneous”“” “”“doodles”“” pretty without trying hard and at the end it's meh #They're so flat too #yesterday I was like “oh my scenes are becoming less flat I improved maybe”#Then I scrolled on my storyboard insta and was like #yeah sure no #I'm still faaaaaar away from the industry standards #I studied like at three arts school and I'm still bad at drawing TAT #why is my brain not working v_v #look brain I'm showing you nice pictures learn from them #brain: no Im gonna overfixate on this left hand here and only this #anyway

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somecunttookmyurl · 8 months

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the "all customer service people are trained by management to be illiterate apes you can never get any resolutions by design dont be mean about it" crowd would faint to know there is a guy at my bank RIGHT NOW attempting to resolve an issue that would normally take a week

see. i tried to order food (having nothing of note in the house, and too much pain currently to get down 3 flights of stairs about it) and the payment failed on just eat's end.

but it went through fine on my bank's end, so the funds are tied up in "pending"... for a week. my available balance is now 95p so i can't just do it again

the bank cannot typically do anything about this until the normal time frame for collection passes and they funds just release automatically. just eat have zero contactable customer service

but it is for FOOD and there's no more MONEY and i am a DISABLED CUSTOMER so BY FUCKING GOD not on zeeshan's watch

#i said i live by myself - which i do it's kind of the problem right now #so he's actually said 'i fully understand what you're going through so please know i'm here even if you just want to talk to someone #whilst i wait for a response from the product team'#like. ok king #i hope you can always find a pen when you need one and it always works

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fortes-fortuna-iogurtum · 2 years

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I've been reading Exodus lately and I've just gotten to the portions where God gives the first commands to the people via Moses (twice), and then goes on to give detailed instructions about the tabernacle and how it should be built, and I'm just... we think art is unimportant?? we think things only mean as much as their functionality?? we so easily fall into the trap of believing that beauty means nothing, that it's cheap and only worth whatever mindless distraction it brings, that it's barely more than a cheap sensual thrill, that buildings should just be practical and plain and cheap, that everything should be functional but ultimately disposable, that paintings and dresses and mugs and curtains and carpets are just pretty but have no real value, that beauty is fleeting and vain and therefore shouldn't be thought about too much, if even looked for at all... we fall into these traps so easily, and we forget that there are chapters upon chapters of painstakingly detailed plans to build one portable worship tent, and those plans have been handed down through thousands of years of human history, because beauty and art and skill in craft is important

#I have to go get ready for work now but I will come back to this #and don't even get me started on the parts about God calling specific craftsmen *by name*#he called them!! by name!!! he said 'this man is good at his job. he creates beautiful work. he will build my temple and make it beautiful'#and even more--God inspired him!!!! it was a calling of GOD for him to create beautiful carvings and tapestries and candlesticks!!!#look even if you're not jewish or christian or religious at all you have GOT to see what it means that all these incredibly detailed plans #for building this tent-temple are extremely important #because even if you don't believe in God and don't think that this is all significant bc he personally gave the instructions #and then helped preserve this record of them so we could still read them today #you do have to see how important they were to the people of that time who first wrote them down #and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail #AND the fact that it's been preserved for so long and we can still read all the care that was put into creating this incredible piece #of artwork and worship they made #gurt says stuff #I just. gahhfhhfj. I'm feeling emotional about chapters of the Bible that I can't even fully force myself to pay attention to #bc there's so MUCH and I'm bad at visualizing this stuff and I tend to zone out while listening to it #but the fact that it IS that much!!! that there SO MUCH DETAIL and it goes on for SO LONG that I even struggle to pay attention!!!#that this was THAT IMPORTANT to the people who wrote it and to God!!! as an artist and someone who has always cared about art #this means so much to me ok #christianity #bible verse #bible thoughts #exodus #art #theology

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bread-is-my-life · 1 day

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@tekitothemagpie hey what if I said that I spent 6 hours drawing it because the post you made is absolutely canon

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raiiny-bay · 9 days

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considering... changing the boys' hairs... again.....

#it's been a while since i've given dusty a new style tbh #realistically he would've changed the color ages ago. blue & blond would probably be 50 dye jobs ago by now #but idk if i'm ready to let go of the blue & blond just yet.#as far as kel goes... i do want to give him longer hair bc i think he would grow it out #but i've said before his hair never grows all that long. like. it just doesn't. genetics.#(the bandAU is an exception)#but i think this is an achievable length for him. esp if he flat irons it #i do think... he parts it on the other side though so #gonna have to flip it but that's ok #i still need to make new lashes for dhes too #i've been away from my pc for so long that i forgot everything i was working on lol #rainyrambles

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deoidesign · 4 months

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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moethh · 8 months

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some stupid idea i had where the characters in Les Mis are now ghosts and Javert has been wearing his greatcoat for 200 years so everyone got him some sweaters

#my art #les mis #javert #jean valjean #<- i guess that counts #ghostvert has stars in his hair cause i said so #i think that everyone would eventually figure out how Fashion™ works #except for him #so now he just doesn't wear anything other than the sweaters #its weird posting self-indulgent stuff but i'm fairly certain that sweaters would fix him #edit: ok looking back at this now i just want to say #please click on the image for better quality #i have barely any memory of making this #what happened #thank you for listening to my TED talk

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seaofreverie · 23 days

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A (very random) observation

#honestly though i think there's something to be said about this sort of feeling of closure that ILF has as an album #with the bleak subject matter and some of the lyrics implying apocalyptic scenarios almost #i'm pretty sure i saw some opinions on last wave about how it COULD work as a last tmbg song whether written or performed #it just has this final sort of feeling. and rhythm section want ad is the rare self-referential song so idk it just feels kinda significant #in a sense that both songs stand out a bit from their usual in terms of lyrics. maybe? eh idk #and there is a bit of a 'book-end' type of feel with both songs all things considered #ok i might be entering tmbw interpretations tab levels of looking too deep into it now. sory #but still it's funny that they did this twice (as far as i know) and both times it's the final song on the album #asking questions and screaming are both pretty tmbg things to do at the end of the day though #so maybe this isn't all that odd actually #tmbg #they might be giants

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dawnthefluffyduck · 2 months

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New game interest unlocked

(crow in bottom right belongs to @patchwork-crow-writes)

#ramarl #phantasy star online #long tag warning lol i rambled #so i was introduced to phantasy star online #i think its safe to say i really enjoy the game #thank you mr crow for showing me this game :D i have new creatures to scribble now #there shall be more of these doodles #i promise you that #meant to post this wayyyyy earlier today but uh #my car broke down :') ....again :')#last week it wouldn't turn on and the headlights weren't working so we were like ''ok this is a battery issue and i need a new one''#because jumping the car didnt fix it #so we took my old battery to a shop and they tested its charge before showing us which new one we should get #but the battery had charge???????? so we went back home to troubleshoot #and then found the hooks(?idk what they're called) that connected the battery to the car had something corroded on them #so we grabbed a can of coke and scrubbed away #hooked the battery back up and bam car was working #so the issue was those hooks #until two days ago when my car didnt work again #looked at the battery again and the hooks came loose; tightened them up and bam car working again #and now at this point I'm scared to go anywhere cause what if i get stranded on my own??#so this morning i said ''alright I'm gonna drive myself to church just to be sure that my car works''#AND WOULD YOU GUESS WHAT HAPPENED #at this point i just wish the damn battery was dead and that i could replace it and move on from this #i know they're a bit pricey but jesus this is exhausting #but i can't just buy a new battery if im not sure that's the actual problem because then I'd have a battery and nothing to do with it #i hate having a car sometimes i just want a bus system #or a jeep #but preferably a bus system #sorry rambles thats a long way of saying i didnt post this earlier because ive been working on my car lol

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sealrock · 6 months

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>corporate needs you to find the difference between this picture and this picture >they're the same picture

#we interrupt the tarot gpose series for a silly 5-minute meme remake #yea i did this before but i'm doing it AGAIN #andi after finding hector's doppelganger on the first: i won't mess things up this time #me the writer: lol. lmao even #i haven't properly introduced her yet but this is chryseis: paris' half-sister from the first #their relationship wasn't so meme worthy in the beginning mind you. it was very much like cain and abel #andi figured she could start over anew on the first and chryseis was paris' replacement #but it's ok now chrys lives on the source after endwalker because interdimensional travel was achieved because I SAID SO #'but cid how would this even work-' ssshhhhhhhhh #i wanted to give paris a baby sibling for the longest time let me have this #mygposes.#ffxivsnaps #gposers #ffxiv gpose #ffxiv oc #hyur

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doubleedgemode · 3 months

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The Dandy with his Hand on his chest

I wanted to do a big piece before the month ended and I had been thinking on drawing a study of "The Nobleman with his Hand on his Chest" by El Greco with Slayer for a good while, because I adore that painting and believe it fits him, since it has a mysterious yet noble aura to me. Very dandy!

I love Slayer's Rev2 Color 4, so I got really happy when it returned as Color 10 in Strive, now with a very stylish nail polish, too.

#ok I'm attempting to keep my kilometric rambles in the tags instead of the post to not scare away people so keep reading if you want #slayer #guilty gear #guilty gear strive #guilty gear fanart #art tag2b named #before this painting I wouldn't have counted the og painting as one of my favs but now I do #I remember first seeing it in an artbook as a kid in which it was described as dismal and that actually scared me lol. It impacted me a lot #for a painting.. nowadays I feel it's awesome but again I still find it to have a bit of a mysterious aura. I hope this doesn't come off as #me going “I don't get this artwork so oooh it's scary!” but me thinking it has an aura that captivates your imagination #that being said I DID want MY version to be a bit unnerving or spooky because. color 10 slayer come on! I hope it worked #tried to do proper more complex lighting this time. I learnt a lot.. I def made the face's more dramatic but couldn't get the rest to look #the same plus I kinda like the face's contrasting with the rest of the lighting. also I do enjoy the end result of the body lighting #slayer's face is so tough.. that alone took me three days #idk what was going on w the background. it's a bit similar to my hos/ab.a pic's but fair enough #one day I'll learn to make complex detailed backgrounds. not today. it kind of came out like sm64d.s character portraits which could be a #bit unsettling for young me so it just works #sorry I enjoyed drawing this a lot so I have a lot of thoughts about it. thank you if you read. hope you enjoy the drawing :)#eye contact

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thedreadvampy · 24 days

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think I figured out why I've been in a full trauma trigger state for the last week+ and iiiiiiit is embarrassing

it's because I went on a nice date that I enjoyed

and in the background without even TALKING TO ME ABOUT IT my brain decided to start freaking the fuck out about the inevitability of abuse and the essential harm I do by existing in the world. but like. in the background. to the degree that I have at most been vaguely aware that that's even a thought process I was having let alone that it was what was distressing me.

but I have laid out some timelines of when I entered 24/7-panic-attack mode and it lines up precisely to going home after a nice date. for fuck's sake.

trauma is stupid and emotions are dumb. and if trauma shit is going to fuck up my whole week my brain could at least have the good grace to tell me what I'm upset about.

#red said #the reason it's embarrassing is that it has genuinely been REALLY bad this week #i very nearly ended up hiding under my desk at work. 4 different people have asked if I'm doing ok #i was so dizzy and spaced out that it took me 15 minutes to start a 30 minute meeting #whereupon i dropped the same pen six times in about 30 seconds #also my wrist has been hurting me so fucking bad it's been in a brace for 2 days. which is. inexplicably. a consistent anxiety symptom.#now this might not SOUND like a full on panic attack but the thing to understand is i spent enough of my childhood having them #that i am like. 60% effective at suppressing the obvious symptoms and powering through #and i just get left with the numbness and dizziness and mental incapacity #but the flip side is that they don't go AWAY they last literal days #anyway it's been a wee while since i felt this bad. I'm hoping now I've identified what is going on i might be slightly less AAARGH tomorro

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velvet-games · 3 months

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I genuinely need a hug after the completely unnecessary panic I just went through cause I thought I couldn't upload my art here anymore 😭

#ok this is literally so stupid so I'm just gonna put it in the tags #I have a vpn on my computer and not my phone #and I'm used to uploading pictures by putting it in a draft or emailing it to myself #but tumblr is blocked and so is gmail (and google stuff in general)#so I tried making a yahoo email #but it wouldn't accept my phone number bc it's not local #then I tried multiple school emails that don't use google #outlook said fuck you and didn't accept them #tried messaging my brother about the vpn but my messages don't send here #tried using wechat but I got logged out and I don't remember my password #tried slack but that was stupid for like 500 reasons #tried bandapp but it uses a google login or a phone number #also don't remember my password on there #ok I swear I keep track of passwords now I made these accs at a different time #thought about resorting to my laptop's camera but realized I wasn't that desperate yet #was gonna use my mom's phone but her phone number isn't fixed yet either #apparently discord works? but I can't message myself and I don't have a single friend on there that I would send hazbin images to #a literal hour later #I realize. I realize my phone can transfer images directly to my computer. because i'm a fucking idiot.#anyway everything's fine now #I'm gonna go lie down and cry #velvet rambles

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tardis--dreams · 2 months

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Today was a good day because despite the horrors and home office i got to talk to my work bestie via teams and this is enough to carry me through the rest of the week ♡

#he has bewitched me #we don't often have actual calls and communicate via chat only and usually when someone calls me #or suggests to do a teams call i roll my eyes and hiss at my laptop #but in this case i smiled and kicked with my feet (from joy)- like what an absolute delight and honor #also he said 'when I'm not there anymore' in german which also is used to say 'when I'm dead' which was fun #because i Have already bought the goodbye card for him and it is a condolences card #which is very funny in my opinion (it says 'in memory of a [nice/lovely/kind/...] person' and that's what he is so it fits lol)#(i probably already talked about this. oh well. you'll hear me talking about it some more probably)#ok now back to suffering #void screams #work stuff

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averlym · 1 year

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whshdfhfjf.,,,

#close up!! because i firstly Did Not render them with such insanity in order for tumblr's lack of general resolution to make it blur #look at all the lines!!! teehee i still really really like this style of digital painting it's super super fun to do!!! and also secondly #because i went back and added a tag ramble and as i seem to often be doing??? lately?? reached the 30 tag limit and went 'hm ok how else..'#anyway the tag essay on that one is now up and talks about the artwork generally and miscellaneous thoughts!! that said. i need a space to #ramble about beatrix at Length because look you don't draw and paint etc a character for like ten hours without having a lot of thoughts #anyways ! i digress terrifically. tag rambles are more like trains of thoughts masquerading as subways and you get on and it's unfortunately #a rollercoaster track. but this is My Blog and i can do Whatever I Want as long as i don't hurt anyone <- affirmations!! also Harm Principle #lately it's been like *kicks up feet* *opens tumblr tags* *treats it as own personal journal* and tbh Good for me!! anyways back to beatrix #fun fact ! the thing that pushed me over the edge to go watch the musical after looking through the tumblr tag was a very specific poll.#and the fact that the winning option was blue hair and pronouns made me double over laughing so hard i had to go see the source material #mm i feel like lately the academic Context has been tossing me essentially into a blender HAHA ;-; so everyone in adamandi is to some extent #a Mood. but bea-specific (haha be specific)(sorry!)(wow this is the same reaction mechanism of my friend who points out innuendos)(...)#i think it's the wanting to prove herself. like from the whole abuela etc thing there's proof here she's got a Stable Support System of sort #and instead what beatrix continues to do is push themselves. 'i guess u could say i'm married to my work? god that's depressing' // no one #here to enforce that // abuela tells me to rest says i'm constantly stressed and i'll just get depressed like before but i still have to try #like. that shred of desperation that pushes you to the brink to neglect yourself (well i guess physically but also your morals..) and like!!#the whole 'lose half your soul thing' proves she's self aware!! like they know what they're doing is super dubious yknow! but they're still #they're still doing it even if it goes into conflict with their morality system in a way and then they justify it to themselves (see pt 1 #of ghostwriter) and the whole wanting to achieve at all costs Despite the self awareness. (i think? this aspect also applied to quincy. but #thoughts on him will come later). more beatrix specific also is the fact that they genuinely adore their work.. 'i just love it here where #you know they'll be printing forever and you are just part of it' because that does kind of resonate with me. also the being behind in the #competition is real!!! i'm maybe talking about Art as a subject because that same drive for it exists on my good days i think. even #even when nothing seems to be going right and you've ended up at the back the intent passion inherent in what you do is still there!!!#the genuine. care she has for reporting. is so !!!!! to me... other beatrix thoughts include 'why reveal yourself at the end' aka vincent's #'u should have stayed silent u had a smart plan' like rip to them but i would not // it feels with bea's complex character i can't imagine h #her Not doing that. like the guilt is real i guess. and i am running out of tags but! smth also about her fervent hope or smth that she'll #eventually get to where she wants. and the resilient determination.. 'i won't let their deaths be pointless there's more good i'm gonna do'#they're so so real for that. i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing; seeing myself reflected in aspects of characters like this.. but it's #it's there regardless. smth smth just make your peace with the person you are ig!! tldr beatrix campbell my beloved. hehe #adamandi

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