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inkskinned · 1 day
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this is just my opinion but i think any good media needs obsession behind it. it needs passion, the kind of passion that's no longer "gentle scented candle" and is now "oh shit the house caught on fire". it needs a creator that's biting the floorboards and gnawing the story off their skin. creators are supposed to be wild animals. they are supposed to want to tell a story with the ferocity of eating a good stone fruit while standing over the sink. the same protective, strange instinct as being 7 and making mud potions in pink teacups: you gotta get weird with it.
good media needs unhinged, googling-at-midnight kind of energy. it needs "what kind of seams are invented on this planet" energy and "im just gonna trust the audience to roll with me about this" energy. it needs one person (at least) screaming into the void with so much drive and energy that it forces the story to be real.
sometimes people are baffled when fanfic has some stunning jaw-dropping tattoo-it-on-you lines. and i'm like - well, i don't go here, but that makes sense to me. of fucking course people who have this amount of passion are going to create something good. they moved from a place of genuine love and enjoyment.
so yeah, duh! saturday cartoons have banger lines. random street art is sometimes the most precious heart-wrenching shit you've ever seen. someone singing on tiktok ends up creating your next favorite song. youtubers are giving us 5 hours of carefully researched content. all of this is the impossible equation to latestage capitalism. like, you can't force something to be good. AI cannot make it good. no amount of focus-group testing or market research. what makes a story worth listening to is that someone cares so much about telling it - through dance, art, music, whatever it takes - that they are just a little unhinged about it.
one time my friend told me he stayed up all night researching how many ways there are to peel an orange. he wrote me a poem that made me cry on public transportation. the love came through it like pith, you know? the words all came apart in my hands. it tasted like breakfast.
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atom-writings · 5 months
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tangerine with an autistic s/o
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0.7k words ~ gender neutral headcanons
tw: mention of ableism and subsequent violence
a/n: its my account i write what i want
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Being somewhere on the neurodivergent spectrum himself (don’t @ me,) along with his brother being autistic, it’s unlikely that Tangerine would end up with someone neurotypical anyway.
Constantly nicks you stim toys. It’s like a challenge to him since they’re usually bright and loud somehow.
He finds it so cute when you miss social cues, but he’d never say anything about it to you. He knows it can be embarrassing, and he doesn’t mind explaining what people mean.
He’s endlessly paranoid about the people he loves, so expect constant check-ins. Whenever you’re in public, he likes to hold your hand tight so he knows you’re safe (which is so, so nice when you’re in a crowd.)
When you’re on the verge of going non-verbal or having a meltdown, he notices immediately and gets you out of there. If anyone tries to say anything, he doesn’t even give them the time to do so.
“An’ who are you now? Nobody, tha’s right, fuck off.”
Whenever you talk about your special interests, he pretends he isn’t interested. He’ll sigh and make stupid snarky comments, but if you look closely, you can tell he’s still smiling a little. In reality, he doesn’t mind.
“Right, calm down luv, it’s really not tha’ big of a deal,”
“It’s a big deal to me!”
He sighs heavily and leans back in his chair before speaking again, “An’ by extension… me, now?”
“Yes!” Your ecstatic expression makes him groan, but he still has to cover his mouth to hide his smile.
But still, you might not notice he was really listening until he offhandedly makes a comment that only someone who had been paying crazy close attention would know. 
He might even know things you don’t, just because he comes to associate whatever you love with you. It comforts him to engage with your interests when you’re separated.
As you already know, Tangerine is a prickly person. Normally, he’s quite prone to anger and fits; but with you, he does his best to always remain level-headed. He doesn’t want to hurt you, especially he knows how sensitive you can be to anger. But he can’t help it sometimes. He’d never yell at you, at least. Anything too harsh is apologized for quickly. 
He’s working on it. You are one of the two most important people in his life, after all.
Speaking of which, expect to spend a lot of time with Lemon. Especially at the beginning of your relationship. He’s very nervous to make the wrong move and scare you off, and knowing that Lemon (also autistic) is there makes him worry a lot less. 
Generally, he doesn’t take criticism very well… especially when it comes to his behaviour… but he does try to be as receptive as he can when you’re the one criticising him.
Ableists get the shit beat out of them. Every time. Without fail. He will not stop this even when you ask. Although, if it makes you cry seeing him do that, he might stop himself early just so he can take you home and comfort you. 
Making you cry is the ultimate sin to him.
Even more “extreme” stims and tics don’t bother him. He just tends to tune them out like he does anything else.
He also might be even more vigilant about bringing along your comfort/accessibility items. Before you leave the house, he grabs you by the shoulder and checks you have everything. Again, paranoid.
Along with that, he may be a little infantilizing sometimes. He wants to always be by your side to make sure you’re alright, which can become… frustrating.
Like yes, it’s nice that he wants to drive you everywhere so you don’t have to worry about driving yourself or taking public transportation, but also you’re perfectly capable of doing those things by yourself (or if you’re not, I guess he’s just your knight in shining armour.)
If you’re otherwise incapable of doing some things, like speaking or cooking or whatever, he really doesn’t mind doing them for you. It makes him feel even more like your protector, which makes him so, so happy. As long as you pay him in affection, he won’t complain.
Actually, that’s not true. He complains about everything. But you’ll quickly learn what is “real” complaining, and what is just him being like that.
“Sweetheart, I wan’ you to know tha’ if anyone ever said anythin’ about you tha’s like- rude, in any way, I woul’ personally blow their brains out, understand?”
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gabessquishytum · 1 year
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I only seem to write you here when I’m incoherently tired so sorry in advance.
Im thinking about the wonder that hob and dream look on the world with together. Mr “they invented chimneys” and mr “I’ve never been a human and was locked in a fishbowl for the largest boom of human technical innovation” find joy in /everything/. Running water?? That’s hot?? Every type of food from the whole world available in a ten minute walk??? The fucking internet???? You can call a helpline if you’re sad??? Super tall buildings??? Making tea together every morning and there’s so many kinds? They wake up on different brightly colored sheets each day because dye is no longer as expensive as gold. Dream takes the tube so much he becomes a local cryptid. They stand and hold hands in the national portrait gallery. They watch every rocket launch livestream, no matter what time. They look on Hobs young students with joy. There’s new kinds of bread to eat, new shows opening. New languages to learn (for hob at least) new technology to break with his presence (for dream). There’s cat cafes and science museums and tesco and so many books coming out every day. They love the world together
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Oh I'm so soft about them!!
I'm convinced that sometimes Hob just has to go lie down on the floor and have a little cry over the sheer availability of THINGS. Abundance is the ultimate joy for any hedonist, let alone one who's been around since 1389. Imagine the delight he takes in Poundland, in international food buffets, in public transportation!! I'm fully convinced that one of Hob’s greatest love affairs is with the London Underground. It's there, under your feet! All the time! You can travel to the other side of town (not necessarily quickly, but it's quicker than walking... sometimes).
Mr Depression Personified, freshly unfishbowled Dream of the Endless, is gonna seem like he just took a fat dose of Duloxetine every time he hangs out with Hob. The joy is bone deep, and so infectious. Watching Hobplay Just Dance at 3am because he just remembered that he owns a Wii genuinely heals some part of Dream that shattered long, long ago.
Imagine what it's like for Hob, as well. Spending time with someone who knows that he's actually a medieval peasant who's lived well past his sell-by date. He gets to be honest in his excitement for things like ibuprofen and chocolate flavoured vodka. He can go to museums with Dream, and Dream will understand why he gets that distant misty look in his eyes when he sees a certain familiar object.
Other people can stare or laugh at Hob’s joy, but Dream will never do that. Its never silly or funny to see Hob rave about some entirely ordinary object, it's just. Important. And quite beautiful. For Dream, it's possibly the most beautiful thing in the world.
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tokyo-daaaamn-ji-gang · 7 months
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I can't stop having brainrot about chifuyu with a girlboss gf. Like his gf would make absolute bank thanks to her high paying job but she doesn't look down on chifuyu. In fact she's incredibly supportive of his profession with Peke J land and respects his work. She's very loving and sweet with him but with everyone else she's more blunt and no nonsense. Baji and kazutora are low key scared of her but they see how happy chifuyu is so they respect her and their relationship as well. She wants to spoil him but chifuyu insists that he's the one who should spoil her so she lets him. But whenever she does spoil him he's so appreciative and emotional and ugh he's such a sweetie. Oh and the thought of her being his plus one at takemichi's wedding? Oh don't get me started. Chifuyu constantly uses her handkerchief cuz he keeps crying at the wedding. He's imagining their future and what their wedding will be like. Hina is secretly swooning at how sweet they are while takemichi is happy for his partner and friend. His friends tease him and give him a hard time but she shuts them up with a look of disapproval. Oh and did I mention that her dress absolutely slays and compliments his tux? Because it totally would. Okay sorry that's enough ranting lol I just had to talk about this. Do you like this relationship dynamic? And what are your headcanons about it?
I think it would be very cute! As for hc's this is what I've got for Chifuyu with a girlboss partner!
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Chifuyu makes you little packed lunches to take with you to work. They always have little affectionate notes in them too (he knows you work hard)
You caught the bouquet at Hina and Takemichi's wedding, it made Chifuyu cry harder (he kept trying to explain he was crying because he was happy but you already knew that.
Brags about you a lot, especially to Kazutora and Baji. He just thinks your so great that he can't stop talking about you.
Has told Koko and Kisaki that you're better at business then them
You used to have to hide the cost of the things you bought him (he'd feel bad if it you spent a lot on him).
Texts you excitedly to come to the pet shop when there's new animals in (he knows you love seeing them and he thinks it's cute when you play with them).
Is completely oblivious to your more blunt side and why Baji and Kazutora sometimes act nervously around you.
Times his lunch break to yours so the two of you can have lunch together.
Both you have a habit of sending surprise flowers to each others work places.
When Chifuyu first heard about your job and salary he thought you were joking (he knew you'd be capable of amazing things but didn't think someone so successful would be interested in him)
Chifuyu cried the first time you gave him a gift (even if it was homemade)
You both agree on spoiling cats though!
The first time Chifuyu visits your work, his face is :0 the whole time, he's just looking around in awe. And funnily enough your face was exactly the same the first time you visited the pet shop. 
Accidentally called you his wife once, he went bright red after noticing his mistake too.
Since he already cooks for Baji and Kazutora after work he starts cooking for you too. Inviting you to join the three of them at his house.
Offers to drive you to work if you don't drive (he worries about you walking alone or running into trouble on public transport).
And finally each morning he kisses you before you both leave to go to work. And each evening he kisses you again to greet you when you're both home. 
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je5hko · 1 year
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Trevor Phillips Headcanons
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i decided on adding gifs to headcanons to make it look more “tumblr-ish”, or cooler. I dont fucking know. take the headcanons!!!!!!!
TW!! angst, drugs
He has LOOOOTS of scars from acne and rash. He hates the feeling of bumps on his skin or whatever. The some of the scratches r also from being on drugs 24/7, when he’s intoxicated he scratches himself so bad that he bleeds (mainly because he thinks there are bugs under his skin)
he hates the texture of all kinds of shampoos, he thinks they’re too liquidy, so he uses the soap bar instead.
Absolutely hates texting. Its too tiring for him to read all the messages and emails he gets, he prefers calling.
He RARELY uses any sort of social transport. When he does, its because he’s tired and desperate for transport.
Whenever he sees parents spending time with their children, he sobs. His crying gets even worse when its a mother and son activity.
As a teen, he would draw himself with fictional characters having an orgy. Although he never told anyone about it. Its his dirty little secret
Hes scared of getting better, he convinced himself that he deserves every kind of pain he gets. Physical, mental, doesn’t matter.
My man is KING at Just Dance. No one could ever beat him at it.
He either beats the shit out of Ron when he’s sad, or cuddles with him. Though, he has to be really intoxicated to hug him, so mostly he beats him. Such a cutie am i right?
His love language is physical touch and acts of service FOR SURE. Don’t change my mind.
Even though he knows Michael isn’t really dead, he still misses him. He misses Michael TOWNLEY.
He actually cries really often, has lots of breakdowns durning the day. He’s not ashamed of expressing his feelings, although he hates the idea of him being weak. He would bang his head against the wall when he feels like crying in public.
Sometimes he asked the strippers at Vanilla Unicorn to just cuddle with him. He really needs a hug goddamnit.
Would kiss Michael on the forehead after a successful heist. (Sometimes on the lips) (smooching michael always ends up with a broken nose)
OKAY THATS ALL FOR NOW!!! LET ME KNOW IF YALL WANT A MICHAEL VERSION!!
i swear im gonna start posting more often 😭❤️ I LOVE YALL!!!
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cressthebest · 5 months
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Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 21
chapter 36:
1. “It's been so long. Oh, there you are, here you are, hi,” *deep breath* AHHHHHHHHH
2. 😭😭😭 “Remus keeps a firm grip on him and turns around to promptly leave, which is probably a little rude, considering that the others are here and may wish to greet him, but he honestly can't bring himself to care about that right now” i would expect nothing less
3. WOLFSTAR REUNION!!!! I AM IN SHAMBLES!
4. “On the way, James glances back with a grin, internally wishing Sirius all the good things, because no one deserves them more.”
oh. wow. that’s such a soft line. it’s literally making me melt
5. “Remus could not be more in love if he tried.” shit shit shit shit sobbing. wolfstar deserves the world
6. “He does love Sirius, though. Loves him dearly, with every defiant bone in his body. This man, who doesn't even realize the importance of what he's just done by giving Remus an unopened envelope. Remus, who owns nothing. Remus, who has nothing. Remus, who is not granted privacy or freedom for anything like this, for anything at all.”
i am on PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION and i am BAWLING my eyes out as silently as i possibly can. y’all don’t understand the restraint i have right now to not loudly sob
7. the LETTER has me CRYING
8. THE SECRET MESSAGE
9. oh, okay. remus killed an auror/greyback. it’s honestly not as bad as i thought it would be. also, i love the lily and remus duo. they’re so iconic
10. i LOVE LOVE LOVE that zar made a point for sirius to have the discussion that his demisexuality is NOT because of trauma and he’s always been that way. it’s beautiful <3
11. “”You can ask Regulus and James; I walked around for a solid month making everyone call me Mr. Sirius Macdonald."” STOP PLSS THATS SO FUNNY
12. SIRIUS JUST TOLD REMUS HE LOVED HIM!!! this is literally so sweet
13. andjskjdksksjsms the authors note:
“sirius, internally: a guillotine could not sever the head im about to give this man. good for them 😌”
chapter 37:
1. i’m starting a gofundme to get regulus a balcony
2. "”Sirius doesn't let me drink," James replies flatly.
"Well, don't say it like that, James. You make it sound like I'm a strict parent, or a controlling spouse," Sirius grumbles. "And I do let you drink, in moderation, when you're in a safe environment and in a good mental state. Don't forget to mention that you only let me drink within those same rules."”
i bet james is upset with the rules he made for sirius so long ago. came back to bite him in the ass
3. describing sirius as “ruffled like an offended bird” has done wonders for my mental health
4. james, remus, and sirius are all hanging out and i am beyond angry that peter doesn’t get to share this moment
5. pandora is such an angel and doesn’t deserve this pain
6. pandora and reg friendship >>>>>>>>>
7. their outfits for the night!! every last one of them is slaying so hard
8. “There's a tense moment where a group of murderers all stare around at each other, not opposed to adding a few more names to their lists. Oh, and Pandora is there, too, startlingly calm despite this.”
yaxley needs to shut his fucking mouth and stop implying that sirius will fuck his way through issues
9. “"You know what they'll assume we're doing."
"Running away," Regulus mutters.
James sighs in exasperation and fond amusement. "No, Reg. Fucking. They'll assume we've snuck off to find a corner to go fuck in."”
😭😭😭😭😭 i love reg. he’s so ready to leave
10. jegulus is getting their shit together and improving. i’m so glad
11. “James swallows. "They're—they destroy things now, when they never did before. They're rough sometimes. Bloody."
"Warm," Regulus counters, pressing another kiss to James' shaking fingers. "Steady. Strong. These hands hold the people you love. These hands care for them. They're gentle. Tender."”
this is love. what they have is love. it’s messy and broken and so difficult, but they’re trying and it’s love
12. and once again we have wolfstar my true loves ☺️☺️
i feel like nows a good time to add to respect bizzarestars’ wishes to not have the fic reposted or reuploaded a different site. i can’t remember his wishes about bookbinding, but respect those as well.
thank you, lovely people
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science-lings · 2 years
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Fuck it, LU headcanons for Sky and Wild exclusively derived from Mario Kart 
 They have the same face, aside from Sky’s slightly more kissable lips and Wild’s scars, their facial features are eerily similar. 
They are also the exact same height of short as fuck but somehow exactly average for a Link. (this is also canon in LU, I just wanted to point it out, you know that old height chart that jojo made...)
They are the only ones legally allowed to drive in a modern AU, Time and Twilight literally just ride horses everywhere or have one of the mario kart bros drive them. Warriors always has either Impa or Athena drive him and Tetra got her learners permit before Wind did so she drives him around. Legend takes public transportation which is why he’s so angry all the time. 
Wild and Sky are complete adrenalin junkies, they may be legally allowed to drive but they both prefer motorcycles and they love going fast. Neither of them have just been caught for speeding yet. 
If they happen to be driving next to each other, they will race, that is a fact. It doesn’t matter who wins though. 
 They both eat mushrooms when they’re angry 
If they can do something with a dramatic flourish, they will, these bitches pull out a sword while they are in a moving car purely because it looks cool and they do similar things while fighting, whether that be twirling their swords while in the middle of a battle, or spinning themselves around even if it will make them dizzy, if it looks cool and there’s an opportunity, they will do it. 
they’re both incredibly competitive and will actually cry a little if they lose at something they’re really passionate about. This is also derived from my feelings about the horseback archery mini game in botw, I have cried after almost getting enough targets but having to go get more bows and arrows just to try again just for some ugly horse armor. And you can’t tell me that Sky wouldn’t have cried from anger if Groose won the loftwing race and was alone with Sun. He just seems like the type. 
They both can canonically feel happiness sometimes
They are both part of the MBCU (mario bros cinematic universe) and will appear in the mario movie (2023) 
They have a complex relationship with turtles, it’s difficult to tell if they hate them or love them. Also every time they see a turtle they have the impulse to chuck it at the other. 
The Hyrule Castle course in Mario Kart is exactly what Hyrule looks like after it’s established, yes there is a giant master sword in the temple of sages (fuck you it’s not the temple of time) and the knights all have ugly ass outfits but somehow not as ugly as the ones they had on skyloft (specifically when they’re on patrol and riding their loftwings, what fashion disasters) 
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jijivishaaaaa · 6 months
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im sentimental. i sleep a lot. sometimes i cry a little on public transport. when my friends tell me they love me, i feel as though my heart will burst. i take pictures of nice dogs i see on the street. i notice the changing of the seasons, and i get excited. i like fresh fruit. little things make me happy, and i hope i stay this way.
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saturnslastgoodbyes · 11 months
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arggghh since I showed off Kotoro I have to show off the other one
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Here’s Lyney Leech!!! I just call him Lyn tho. he’s like my crack idea of ‘wowwww I should give jade h Floyd a younger brother,,,,’
He’s. A little small but it’s ok 💔 and takes pride in dressing femininely!! He likes sewing and creating outfits as well, mostly dragging people in and insisting they be his mannequin. Sometimes he even tries to replicate his brothers expressions or mannerisms to seem ‘cooler’.
he does not know what public transport is, and will cry and whine about it if you try to make him go on a bus or anything. Probably jumps on peoples backs and begs them to give him piggy backs.
He’s generally just silly!! Even if he’s constantly trying to sneak into Pomefiore and has knocked out someone and stolen their uniform to pretend he was from there. Cough.
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I’m sitting in the office sipping coffee trying not to fall asleep at my desk after sleeping like 2 hours last night sometime between 2:00 am and 4:30 am (that is when I checked my phone last before I fell asleep and first after I woke up), since I spent most of the time crying over
the heartbreak I just caused myself when we don’t get queer Roy - like, even if they adress his anger management issues in some other way and don’t completely ruin him as a character, my queer heart now is too invested in my theory
The implications if I’m actually right. Like, how the hug in "Man City" was probably the first time Roy allowed himself to gently touch and hold another man. How that would have deeply affected him. How it would make so much sense for him to get even more bottled up and angry because of denial. And that this is the reason he is so notably off since then. Like, now Roy is Blorbo and poor little meow meow. Also, the beauty of the show actually straightbaiting its audience for two seasons, just sprinkling in enough subtext for people to notice? If I hadn’t been so cynical after being burned too often in the past, I wouldn’t have thought “ah, this is so subversive to give straight alpha males so many queercoded traits” instead of “they are really, actually setting this up, aren’t they? Phil and Brett aren’t queerbaiting and trolling but preparing the oblivious part of the audience, so that they can go ‘What, you are surprised? But we told you so in interviews and on social media explicitely and repeatedly for YEARS.’”
If they don’t go for Jamie x Keeley x Roy endgame (or rather Keeley x Jamie x Roy, since he is the one who glues them together), then I’ve effectively broken my heart, since then I get EITHER the ship I loved dearly from the first time they interacted, that they took from me once before, but I never gave up on (Jamie x Keeley) OR the possibly most impactful queer love story I could have ever dreamt of becoming canon on a mainstream tv show (Jamie x Roy). Like, that is Catradora level childhood-crush-to-enemies-to-friends-to-lovers and the sheer heartbreak of either Roy or Jamie being “He doesn’t want me. Not like I want him” made me cry on public transportation. (If they have the audacity to end this with Roy x Keeley I will burn something down - if I can't have both I want to have at least one)
P.S.: If you’ve sent me an ask or a dm, I haven’t forgotten you, I just fell so deep into the meta writing hole over the weekend and … I’m old, I need to catch up on sleep and will answer tomorrow.
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sweetswesf · 1 year
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Hello, everyone.
I had a good time with my mom. Despite what we’ve gone through, I put all that aside for the weekend and just tried to honor her the best I could so that she could enjoy her time and so that we could make a new memory. At the end she gave me some money and told me she would help me with rent so that I could stay in SF because it didn’t make sense for me to move back home if I needed to move back suddenly for a job.
At first I was like, “how sweet and naiive of her to think I’d get a job shortly after I move back” because I truly don’t know how long this unemployment time will be…
She saw what my day to day was like, and she felt sorry for me. She saw all the homelessness, my small space, heard about my lack of friendships and community here, how non-Black people just walk all over me on the street and don’t respect my space, and she knows I haven’t wanted to be here for a while, but she understands the smartest option at the moment is to just stay here…
I can say that I was really stressed this week. I didn’t have much motivation to do a lot of algorithms, but I still did what I could. I tried a few new food places out trying to fill a void. It helped a little bit, but with me being so conscious about every hour, calorie, and dollar, I’m not quite sure it was worth it. I went to a bakery that is usually really busy, but because I went while most people were at work, it was empty. The loneliness of that was just a reminder of my situation. The other place was in the financial district at lunch time. I didn’t plan to get there at lunch, but with public transportation and how slow I was moving that day, it ended up being at that time. I’m sure the people I saw working probably wish they had time off, but I was thinking “man, how nice would it be to have a job right now and not have to think you’re being irresponsible by eating $15 noodles you could have made for much cheaper…”
I’m continuing to pray and be hopeful for the best. I have to remind myself to keep studying, keep interviewing, keep trying, everyday. My Medi-Cal application STILL hasn’t been approved yet, and what’s better: they won’t answer their phones. I don’t want to go back to pay $700+ for health insurance.
I took SOOO many naps this week just exhausted from my mom’s visit. I did an interview. Interviewer was yawning and not paying attention. I would ask him questions, sometimes repetitively, but he wouldn’t respond to them. I guess he was tuning me out. One question in particular he didn’t respond to, so I continued with the design on that assumption, and he later corrected me on it. I had to remind him that I asked him about that and he didn’t say anything so that he wouldn’t give me negative feedback on that part, but once you call them out, it’s not a good look for you either 🤷🏾‍♀️. I asked for feedback and he told me he couldn’t give me any but that, “I definitely did some good things.” But the way he said that makes me think there were a lot of negatives.
There was some “okay” news for the role I’m hoping for and another person who referred me to a different role said she would bump the recruiter. I just hope I can stay focused, not forget what I have learned thus far, and not be so distracted by my circumstances so that I can get what I want.
I’m struggling with confidence and thinking about all the money I have spent during this time. Every day I wake up like wow, I’ve gone 9 months without a job…
The longest I’ve heard of someone going without a job is 2 years. With every passing day, I feel like I get less and less attractive to open positions and that doesn’t feel great, because I don’t want to settle for a position just to have something.
I won’t forget this time. It’s been traumatic. I still cry everyday.
I’m so emotionally sensitive as well. My mom bought me groceries after I had just bought groceries and it angered me. Just give me the money. I am not lacking in food. I probably am eating too much. I need money for rent and health care, primarily. It made me wonder if she didn’t trust me to spend the money she would give me wisely. She also bought me something that would give me more counter space and it frustrates me because it reminded me of how small and frustrating my counter space is and how I want to be in an apartment with more counter space. I also felt like that money she spent on that could have gone to rent or health care.
I told her how I felt. She understood. Just saying those words to her made me cry. I was frustrated and I was frustrated that I was frustrated. I felt ungrateful. She was trying to help and I was trying to dictate how she should help me. It also just reminded me of my situation again. I didn’t have this stress when I had a job. I didn’t have to have these hard conversations. I didn’t have to be so hyper-vigilant about every dollar.
I’m trying my best to stay calm and just focus on His promise for my life. And just appreciate things, no matter how “sweet” I used to have it. I have to believe that great is coming and that I’m going through this for a reason.
My little brother moved back to LA from Korea. He was there probably less than a month. I thought my mom knew he was on anti-depressant and anxiety meds when I saw them after I had his room cleaned. Apparently she didn’t know. Apparently when they went on their vacation to Arizona, he didn’t take his meds and my cousins told my mom that he was freaking out. Apparently, he didn’t take his meds on his trip to Japan and had a panic attack that my mom had to pay a $1k hospital bill for. Apparently, he wants to move to my grandmother’s house, the house I planned to move to if I had to move home.
My brain couldn’t process all of this and I just shook my head. I want my dream job real bad and healing for myself and my family.
With all this exhaustion, the thought of jumping right into a job fatigues me. Sure I could “take mini breaks” now, but how do I do that on a small budget without over consuming social media?
Speaking of which, I want to try next week to just consume less social media. If I need a break, I need to just walk around, open my Bible, close my eyes.
I wished one of my “friends” who stopped contacting me a happy birthday and offered to take her out. She said she felt really withdrawn. I haven’t heard from her since Monday. I feel that relationship has ended and I need to stop putting so much effort into maintaining it when she’s showed me so many signs that she’s done.
I was thinking about how Lil Wayne said he wanted to kill hisself after he was told he couldn’t rap anymore. I get it. If something you’re so passionate about gets taken away from you, you know you’ll be missing that thing forever and nothing short of God can replace that gratifying feeling. Not saying that it’s smart to consider that, but I don’t judge him for feeling that way. I could see why he felt that way. There is always a brighter day and reason to live and keep trying.
My mentor from my old team who’s been practice interviewing me hasn’t left my side. He’s remained encouraging, and consistently meets with me. I owe that man SO MUCH! I’m thinking about giving him $1k after I get a job, but he deserves SOOO much more than that.
I’m grateful for all the blessings and this time. I know more than what I want is coming and that I’m stronger than I think I am.
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emailing your grandparents is like. i have so much love for you and i hope you know how tightly i packed it in the little xxx i wrote in after my deadname. i smell your perfume every time i smell a rose but i keep accidentally pricking myself on her thorns. i just had a question about kilts and i'm only asking about your renovations to be polite. when you do your renovations, please don't fill in the little mouse hole (i'm hiding in there too). sometimes i look at your house in 2011 on google maps. am i still allowed to live there once i graduate? i hope i can stay in my dad's bedroom but i can't stand the idea of living with you for two months when the most i've ever seen you for is 10 days. can i live in the campervan for a bit? will you put in a good word for me in town so i can find a job for a while? i know everyone in your village knows i'm the girl who lives abroad, but sometimes i wish they knew me as the boy who visits your neighbour and helps with his sheep, but i guess my cousin took that role even though he's younger than me. you always compare me to him. he has beautiful curls but he's even more scared of public transport than i am, but one time you comforted me and told me to do everything step-by-step, because you can't cross a bridge until you've put your shoes on. do you know that my dad can't cry because of you? do you know he yells and hurts me because of you? one time, i had to pretend i had sawdust in my eyes when a fairy door we were making broke and made me really sad, and you got mad at me anyways, but a few months later i received an even more beautiful fairy door in the post. it's on my shelf and i'm looking at it right now, next to granny's doll i received when she died. i can't stand the thought of you dying. i can't stand the thought of you selling the house. i don't know if i'll miss you, and that breaks my heart the most. always sending you lots of love, but i don't know if it's just there out of desire to have some to send or if i really mean it. i'm only emailing you because google won't answer the question i have about kilts, but i'll pretend to want to know about the weather and i'll send you a drawing of a grasshopper i did so you don't feel used. i never know what to say to you but i hope you don't know that. i want to tell you i go by fern. i hope the sun crosses your path soon. sending lots of love, fern xxx.
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I'm going to say something extremely controversial, but it's something that's been on my mind:
Not all bodies are beautiful.
'Woah there! That's like, body shaming! You can't say that!!' you cry. But just... hear me out. I work with the general public and see them in fewer clothes than they'd probably like and/or realize (I'm a lifeguard). I have seen all kinds of people. Thin, fat, tattooed, weird old men, tiny babies, everything!! And listen, not all bodies are ones that are nice to look at. This isn't because of anything the person did, or even because of "conventional beauty standards". Bodies are weird, squishy things full of gross stuff and that bulge in weird places and don't fit nicely into swimsuits. Sometimes they're funny colors or make gross sounds or are wonkily proportioned. That's just how it is, not all of them look good while existing, and that's 100% okay!!
That's the thing, they may not be beautiful, but all bodies are incredible.
Every single person has things that are absolute pure magic about them because the human body is one of the most amazing things on this planet!! We all have skin that covers and keeps everything in! That has amazing sensors in it that can tell our brains about everything from pain to how soft that dog is! It's got little cells that tell it what color to be, and can even change color with sun exposure to protect the literal thousands of miles of instructions packaged inside every little cell! Sometimes, if you're lucky, your skin can be more than one color! And have cool patterns on it!! Awesome!! Then there's what's under the skin! Miles and miles of blood vessels! A heart that can both sustain the life of its owner and be a comfort to others and reflect the emotions of the person and respond to stress and..!!! We have fat around our organs because organs need protection! And it's a good place to keep extra nourishment if something were to happen because it can get broken down and mobilized fast! We have a liver that does so many functions we don't even know everything about them yet! They also casually regrow themselves like some kind of cool regeneration power from a comic book. But it just Does That. We have cellulite because lady bodies are made to hold more fat safely because we have the ability to create entirely new human life and it needs to survive even in times when you basically have an entire other life sucking the energy and calories out of you. Is it "beautiful" by the way it looks? No! But it's AMAZING by its function (even if it's super inconvenient now). We have a whole electrical system inside us!! That powers every single part of the body and takes messages everywhere and connects all the things. The same system allows us to move and speak and think complex thoughts and make up stories and read books and conceptualize the taste of chocolate and the color we call our favorite and helps us understand algebra and chemistry and the plot of Lord of the Rings and you're telling me this isn't magic?? I think you're lying.
Some other things that aren't "pretty" but are nevertheless super cool: - Varicose veins (you have VEINS dude!!! your own little O2 transport system!! and those veins have valves! and gravity had a bit too much to say about that! And now they stick out a bit, but, like, how cool???) - Scars (Sometimes they're super cool!! sometimes... not so much! But they're all signs you lived and did things that had a great enough impact to leave a mark?? Not to mention scar tissue is its own unique kind of tissue and its composition depends on the injury that gave you the scar (as well as some other factors)? That's because collagen is a thing!! So cool??)
We all have these things. These weird and fascinating and wondrously weird things about our bodies and you want to tell me that what matters is "all bodies are beautiful"? Absolutely not. Some bodies are not beautiful. Some bodies are downright ugly. That's just how bodies are. And that's okay.
But all bodies are incredible, miraculous, fascinating works of art!! That's what they are!
And they're even more special because, the one you have?? Is yours!! And we're creators at heart, friends, and our bodies tell the story of who we are and who we have been, and most importantly, who we are becoming. And guess what?? Not everyone has to understand your work of art! Because it's yours to adorn and change as you choose. And even if you're not satisfied with your own, you can rest assured that your body, no matter its "beauty" status, is one of the most amazing things in the entire universe.
TL;DR - Not all bodies are beautiful, but every single body is one of the most incredible things in the universe, and I think that is even cooler than what society thinks about "beauty".
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21, 26, 30-32, 39-43 for whichever ocs you want :D
THANK U CHASE!! gonna talk abt the Tos family bc they're always on my mind :]
(🦁: Lux, 🦗: Ferdinand, 🐏: Athanasius, 🐦: Zephyr, 🦙: Alan)
21. Why do they get up in the morning?
🦁: After reconciling with his family and reuniting with the love of his life, he's just genuinely happy to be alive :]
🦗: He spent a long time in a sort of stasis, and although conscious, he wouldn't consider that time as "living". Now that he's back, he wants to treasure his time and finds joy in doing the little, basic things that he couldn't before.
🐏: Better than lying around all day. She likes to be busy! She's also got a sometimes intensive lab job to get to, and she's the primary breadwinner for the household (sharing an apartment with Zeph)
🐦: Gotta get work done. Even if she doesn't want to. Also generally doing better... getting him up isn't as hard as it used to be.
🦙: Xe gets stir-crazy so easily sdfkhjsd. They like going to school, generally, now that it's Normal and not Bad. He likes helping her dads around the house and going out to meet with xer brother(s) and friends :]
26. What is their preferred mode of transportation?
🦁: He has a license but prefers to bike or walk most places.
🦗: Also has a license and a car but likes taking public transportation, when available!
🐏: She has a scooter for shorter trips and a motorcycle for longer ones :]
🐦: Don't put her behind the wheel of a vehicle he'll start crying. Usually bums a ride from her sister or his friend Clara :]
🦙: Has a cute little moped that he rides everywhere! She also carries a foldable cane for if they have to walk for any prolonged time.
30. Who do they most regret meeting?
🦁: His great aunt... the woman who took him away to Saluria.
🐏: She's had a few bad exes here and there, but she doesn't think about them much (or, at least, she tries not to)
🦙: The director of his old school. Xe was nothing more than an asset to him; raw metal ready to be shaped into a piercing blade.
31. Who are they the most glad to have met?
🦁: Ferdinand <3
🦗: Lux <3
🐏: Zephyr, Lux, and their dad, Jules :]
🐦: Athanasius and Clara :]
🦙: His dads and Alex + David!
32. Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke?
🦁: He doesn't have any specific story but sometimes he'll talk about the most insane shit that happened during the war and then not elaborate sdjkgfs.
🐏: "___-er? I hardly know 'er!" She thinks this is the funniest thing in the world.
39. How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people?
🦁: He doesn't ignore it per say, but doesn't speak up unless it's causing undue problems for multiple other people, not just himself.
🐏: She has a hard time ignoring people's flaws, big or small, which has caused conflict in the past. She can be blunt about pointing them out, but she doesn't mean to be cruel about it; in her mind, if the problem is spoken, it is easier to address.
🐦: She won't say it to your face but he WILL complain to Thana and her friends later. Non-confrontational, sometimes to a fault.
40. How sensitive are they to their own flaws?
🦁: ehe..
🦗: hm.
🐏: well,
🐦: erm.
🦙: Xe's normal actually.
41. How do they feel about children?
🦁: Never thought he'd be a dad (especially at his age), but considers himself incredibly blessed to be able to help raise Alan :]
🦗: Also never thought he would have kids, but always wanted to! Loves his kid and loved his time as a teacher.
🐏: Likes kids and loves her nephew but doesn't see herself ever having kids of her own.
🐦: Somewhat adverse to children, but more because she's just incredibly awkward and doesn't know how to interact.
🦙: <- is a child (but is generally kind towards younger kids)
42. How badly do they want to reach their end goal?
🦁: He went though hell to survive, to make it back home alive and to see his family one last time... Things have very drastically changed since then, but he'd do anything to keep his loved ones happy and safe.
🦗: <- Guy who spent over a decade building himself a new body because he refused to die.
🐏: She'd love to have a wife and a house and be retired but honestly she's just waiting to see where life takes her.
🐦: She's not in too much of a rush. He's learning to enjoy the process, especially as she's gotten older (and started transitioning).
🦙: Xe's not sure if he has an end goal other than "be happy" and "don't die until you're old).
43. If someone asked them to explain their sexuality, how would they do so?
🦁: Gay man (man in a loose sense, only a man insofar as he is attracted to men in a gay way).
🦗: Exclusively attracted to other men
🐏: Butch lesbian
🐦: Bi and aro, t4t
🦙: *shrugs*
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Cleo - Pt. 1
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Life is always interesting for you. No matter what you do, some bad luck always seems to follow you around. The sheer amount of bones broken that you could list off on both your fingers and toes scares most people. Additionally, the amount of broken friendships that you could count on two hands also scares most people, which, unfortunately, keeps them away from you as well.
So, basically, you were unlucky in everything. Everything but academics. Textbooks, libraries, and ancient history pull on your heartstrings like nothing else. It was an awfully lonely existence, however, as your dad always reassures you, the life of a genius is a lonely path to take.
No matter how much you repeat that in your mind, your heart still flattens itself whenever it sees a group of friends messing around with each other, two girls linking arms as they walk down the street, or just people existing in complete comfort with each other. Dang, you are one lonely girl.
You silently wipe your eyes as they tear up. It’s embarrassing to cry in public, especially in a library; it’s too intimate of a space for something as loud as sobbing your absolute eyes out. You actually start snickering to yourself as you think about how stupid–in your opinion–it is that you’re crying about something that happened so long ago. Two years, in early high school, was for some reason, a long time ago for you. Perhaps we should discuss your perception of time.
You had lost perhaps the strongest friendship you had ever had. You thought that one would last, you thought it would completely make you forget the friends who had cut you off in middle school and even elementary for being just a bit too odd to hang around them. Kids could and will always, be cruel.
She had left, like all the others. Though, this time, she had taken to starting rumors about you as she left your heart in a wake of destruction. Your dislike of people in general started with her and will probably end with her as well. She hadn’t really grown into a saint while you two were apart.
You close your book and abruptly stand up from the table. You’ve had enough of your head being so sad, you’re going to the beach. Now. Just, gonna sit on the sand and listen to the water, maybe check out the book you are reading right now and read it there. Yeah, that’s what you’ll do! That’ll cheer you right up!
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You avoid public transport at all costs. I know that sounds weird but, after an old, drunk man dispensed all his stomach contents on your favorite jacket when you were riding the bus, you have sworn off all forms of public transport.
So, you walked to the beach.
When you arrive, you scrunch your nose at the sheer amount of people littering the sands. With this cesspit of people, are you sure that your usual quiet spot is going to be as quiet as it usually is? You march your way over anyway, hoping for the best.
The best actually happens! There isn’t a person in sight of your little, rock formation, to the far right of the entire beach. It isn’t normal that people venture this far; if you go to a public beach, you’re most likely not coming for the quiet.
Well, there is one person that comes out here, one that you recognize from some of your AP classes from last school year, but he only comes to fish and doesn’t bother you too much whenever you’re there. Though, sometimes he brings a girl–that you also recognize from school–with him and she’s more talkative than him, though not enough to bother you. They seem like the picture perfect couple though you’re not entirely sure that they’re actually together.
You sit down and make yourself comfortable, leaning against one of the rocks. You prop open your book on your legs and tuck a strand of your (H/C) hair behind you ear.
You get lost and you get lost hard. The book you’re reading is a narrative about a princess that fought in a war of her father’s making, slaying dragons and enemies faster than any of the soldiers under her command. She was powerful, she was brave, and she fell in love with a wonderful man. She was everything that you want to be. She experienced everything you want to experience. It was both painful and therapeutic to read.
And then, caught up in the climax of this beautiful story, you hear the most irritating, grating voice.
“So, you’re still reading fantasies?” It mocks, and your blood goes cold. You know that voice, you hate that voice, that voice haunts your dreams and forces tears out of your ducts.
You look up. She’s there. I’m not sure who else you expected. Your oldest, most despised friend looms over you. Tiffany, her little minion, stands beside her.
“Miriam. Tiffany,” you acknowledge, slamming your book, very happy that it was a hardcover because it made the best sound when aggressively shut. For whatever reason, you knew this very well.
You stand, not one to be looked down on. You glance around her skeptically as she crosses her arms and looks you up and down.
“Where’s your boy toy?” You snip, looking her in the eye, very content with the three inch height advantage you have over her.
“Surfing with Nate. Where’s your social life?” She quips back, prompting only a raised eyebrow from yourself.
“Running away from you, it seems.” You roll your eyes. “And, Miriam, honestly, I don’t really want to talk to you and this,” you gesture towards your rocks, “isn’t really your scene.”
“It’s my scene if I say it’s my scene.” She steps forward and is now completely in your bubble. She sets a hand on the front of your shoulder causing you to sneer. “Admit it, you have never had anymore friends after me.” She laughs, keeping her hand where it is. She remembers, she remembers everything. The fact that physical affection was something you love, the fact that fantasy is your favorite genre, and the fact that you still, very deeply, miss her.
Then she hammers the last nail in the coffin. “But, who am I kidding, you never had any friends before me either. You were my, how do I put this, pity project?” She smiles wickedly, your heart dropping and your eyes filling with tears. She knows she has you. “You are nothing, (Y/N), and I know that since I know you ,” she says, giving you a solid push, nearly knocking you off your feet. You drop your book in the process of trying to catch your balance.
Tiffany picks it up with a grin and hands it to Miriam. Miriam opens her mouth to let out another torrent of insults when a voice interrupts her.
“Why don’t you leave her alone?” The voice is sweet but authoritative, as if the owner held power that no one else did. A girl, the one that always came with the fisher boy to your secret spot, steps out from around a cluster of rocks.
“Oh, Cleo.” The disgust in Miriam’s voice mirrors that of her expression. “When did you get here?”
The girl stands tall, the sun glancing off of her tanned skin, turning parts of it honey colored. Her voice trembles slightly when she speaks, as if she doesn’t use it this way often.
“I was here long enough to hear you say all of those horrible things to her. You have no reason to be so mean, Miriam. Get lost.”
You admire this girl’s ferocity in spite of her obvious uneasiness. You smile weakly to yourself.
“Ugh, this is no fun when Cleo’s playing Little Miss Hero.” Miriam tosses the book at you, hitting you square in the chest. You lose a bit of air from the blow but clutch the book tightly. “C’mon, Tiffany.” She turns her back to you but still yells over her shoulder to you. “See you around, Nobody.”
You and Cleo stand and stare at each other for a couple of seconds before she slowly walks closer to you.
“Are you alright? Miriam was saying such horrible things.” She bends down a bit to look at your face as you stare at the ground, unable to meet her eyes when yours are filled with unshed tears. She sets a hand on your shoulder and pumps her fist. “You’re doing amazing, I’m sure all that Miriam said is a lie!”
The tears start flowing and everything hits you in the stomach. Your knees buckle beneath you. All of these years of loneliness, betrayal, lies, and rumors beat on you like a war drum and all of it is coming out in front of a girl that you hardly know.
She kneels down in front of you, keeping her hands on your shoulders and whispering quiet ‘Hey, hey, it’s gonna be okay’s.
“I’m so sorry,” you apologize hoarsely in between sobs. “You can leave, I’m just being dramatic, it’s okay.”
Cleo shakes her head adamantly. “Whatever you’re crying about is too serious for me to just leave.” She comes to your side. “Do you mind if I hug you? Do you like hugs?”
You laugh, wiping tears with the back of your hand. “If you want.”
She then proceeds to give you the tightest hug you have had in a very long time. You start crying anew. She jumps back from you, seemingly surprised.
“I am so sorry, I just, gracious, I think that the last person other than my family to hug me like that was Miriam.”
Her brow knits together. “You and Miriam must have been close.” Her eyes then widen. “Wait, were you friends in 9th grade?”
You smile wryly. “Yeah, I’m surprised you remember. I don’t think we’ve ever had any classes together.” You look up at her, slightly embarrassed. “I actually think this is the first time I’ve actually learned your name.”
She shrugs it off. “Don’t worry about it. The only reason I know your name is because Lewis talked about you a few times, saying you were in a few of his AP classes.”
“Oh, fisher boy, so that’s his name.” You shake your head, disappointed in yourself. “I should have learned his name.”
“Oh, don’t worry about that either, he always said you were too buried in your books to really pay attention to anyone but the teacher.”
Your eyes cast downward. “Yeah, after Miriam and I stopped being friends after all of that crap she gave me, I kinda gave up on people.” You cover your mouth, just now realizing how much about yourself you’d revealed to this girl. “Oh, I’m so sorry, you hardly know me and I’m trauma dumping.”
She cocks her head. “Why are you saying sorry? You obviously needed to get that out and I’m more than happy to listen.”
You start crying again.
Cleo starts to panic. “I made you cry again, I’m sorry!”
You put a hand up and chuckle. “Don’t worry, just the immediate reaction to realizing that my hatred for people was ill-founded.”
She looks at you with the most empathetic, vulnerable, brown eyes and gives you the sweetest smile. You’re slightly surprised at how you never realized how pretty the fisher boy’s girl was.
“I’m glad I helped you realize that.” She stands up and puts her hand out to you. “How about we go get a juice, (Y/N)? It’s on me.”
You take her hand and return her smile.
“Yeah, I’d like that.”
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The White Dove Pt 37 - Sweden
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This one’s a fair bit longer but it all fits into the next leg of the story so it’s all worth it in the end. :)
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The day before holiday break and you had taken your final bow for papers the next morning to be gathered with copies of magazines that covered the show and your performance in it. All to distract from the pain left from an introduction to the Repetition Ranger who was able to create doubles of people that after a few fights you had to put an end to the chaos by finding out the doubles would repeat anything said on certain frequencies. So a song was used to signal which were the fakes and right away all of them burst into dust upon the discovery. That pain and the call from the Ambassador of Sweden who had arranged a flight out on your behalf for you and Eddie.
Like wildfire your name and involved emancipation case had lit up the papers and now it was official business. Now that you were reinvigorating a near decade old hope that degenerative diseases could be reversed or at least halted from progression a home was rented on behalf of yourselves nearby the research center. For court and transportation, as you were licensed to drive, a car was assigned part of the package deal. For what you could offer your country on top of being known for the homeland of one so talented already none of this would cost you a single cent.
Shy of one million people Stolkholm was a large city, and on the outskirts of it the lab sat for adequate silence and space with a smaller suburb nearby that would be patrolled to ensure your privacy from press and loitering public alike. They wanted you to have a peaceful Yule and prying eyes would only harm that chance.
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Clothes already were packed inside a new set of suitcases you had bought for this trip, each with white rabbits on it around the same quote, ‘How long is forever? Sometimes, just a second.’ From Alice in Wonderland that you hoped would be unique enough to not be taken by anyone else inside the airport upon landing. Now you just had to tuck the honeycomb shaped mechanism into your clothes to keep from being jostled about. Being inside the checked bags surely would have it pass by with little irritation to your things to being loaded in the back of the plane. Already you had dropped off the gifts for your friends and Gwen since you were missing it, and even nervous beyond compare you couldn’t even bother to look at their messages of well wishes for the trip as it would only worsen things.
“Have my passport, underwear, jacket, spare boots, got my pop up typewriter you made me. Everything on my list is marked off, yours? Wanna bring your shark pillow?” he asked and you nodded making him grab it to add to the blanket he’d pulled off your bed to fill the spare space in his medium sized bag around his pack of paper and legal pads to keep busy while you were in the lab to finish off his story.
“Thank you,” you whispered feeling tears already brimming in your eyes luring him over to hug you tightly.
“I can work anywhere and you are not going alone in this. Courthouse and lab alike. I know it’s a couple hours from the town your parents moved you to as a baby, but it’s still their lab.” You nodded and he said, “Now, let’s go take the things down to give Eldfall a few minutes before we go to apologize fully for not having the time to ship him to Sweden with us. And just hope we don’t get a four am phone call the garage is in flames.”
“I’m certain if he throws that big a tantrum we’ll wake up with him inside the cottage,” you said making him chuckle to your weak giggle. Apologies were given to Eldfalls, who heart breakingly gave off a low pitched hum as if it was readying to cry like a mechanical whine but seemed to fall silent then power down its engine that had you on the verge of tears and need to step out a moment, only to find the car there to pick you up.
Six suitcases checked and two carry on bags in hand in line for security you waited for the gradual shared steps forward until you both nearly fell down taking off your boots to pass through the metal detectors. Armed fully with your bee metal weapons in shorts under your jeans your eyes traveled upwards to the slide of hands down the center of your inner thighs from the TSA agent. Who after a second verbalized pass dipped lower to feel around your ankles and then work their way up the outer sides of your legs to feel better around your waist under the base of your lopsided sweater. Around the underside of your bust her hands moved to pat and smooth across your back, warning of a move of the chunky braid to reveal a glimpse of a Yoshi band-aid surrounded by a green bruise. “You have an injury on your shoulder?”
And over it you glanced at them and nodded, “Scared my neighbor’s cat off a shelf right out of a nap,” instantly making them smirk.
“My tabby likes to sleep on top of open doors. Quite familiar with that terror of a clawed hat.” Making you giggle and force back the memory of being slammed into a wall by the Goblin who you stopped from stealing his oddest goal yet, the parade car meant to hold Santa’s Sleigh. Right in time for on a sort of probation Iron Man was let off his leash to take him on and grant you this break away from the cackling dingbat.
Right up to your scalp careful fingers smoothed through your curls to ensure your thick locks weren’t concealing something before you could be cleared and allowed to add your shoes and jacket again. Out of the tray when that was through items from your bags were inspected, including the pen disguised allergy injector you had in there just in case, along with all the things you both carefully had packed to be easy to bring out when needed. Such as your pop up lantern, stove, wheelbarrow and spade disguised as a small set of compact folding portraits and mirrors of various powers to not cause them any worry or you any hassle of explaining why you had any such materials inside your purse.
All the same beyond that you were freed once you had hold of your hat and patchwork fox fur prada bag from Carter you chose in its larger size to help you at the lab and court as well to hold as many papers as necessary. Eddie in a shift of the grip on his bag turned to take hold of your hand and lead the way to your gate. A few second looks your way came the whole time you felt you crossed the entire building twice over to check in and take your seats inside a secluded lounge linked to your airline direct to Sweden.
So close to eight hours once you had boarded into the front of the plane hushed utterances came from those in areas close behind and those in the rows around yours on their way back home for the holidays who recognized you and Eddie right away. Into the far left window seat you eased to take up the pair to ready for takeoff and not get distracted.
Clear boat enthusiasts promptly filled the two seats in the middle row. Their passion shown by sailing themed sweaters and buttons on their coats who gave you both quick waves and grins you and Eddie returned while groggy bodies filled the far right pair of seats in your row. Two seats in each row would change to two outer rows of three seats and a middle row of two was the layout for the back of the plane. Not much more space was to be had up front but you did get a few fancier takeaway gifts and a few more inches you of everyone most certainly didn’t need for your stature. But for Eddie’s sake you accepted the few inches more so he could be more comfortable.
It was all timed so you could arrive two hours from when the court proceedings would kick off. Every two hours there would be a sort of meal, two small snacks and a larger meal to be followed by a third snack without time for a fourth as you were to land by then. Even the built in monitor for an entertainment system did little to keep your mind off things but at least after the second snack with his own nod off Eddie wordlessly lured you into a nap. Still eventually a dark sky was seen through the windows everyone opened for landing.
Outside of the snow dusted tarmac views of the airport came to be all your window could show. Getting off the plane seemed to be easier than getting on as you were let off amongst the first group nearest the door to collect your things.
“I did warn you about the sunlight, right?”
“Yes.” Eddie answered behind you but still looked out the window and then to the clock on the wall he used to wind his watch to the right time. “I didn’t think it’d be this dark still though.”
“Well, we should, get our luggage and then head to the car rental.” But beyond a glass wall a line of rope barriers held back a group of reporters who began to steal pictures of the both of you as the same Ambassador who came to visit you stood with a smile readying to greet your older self and adopted brother. “Oh, this is new.”
“I don’t remember hearing about the welcome wagon.” He muttered to you.
“Neither do I.” You muttered back and closed the distance to have him offer a hand to shake.
“Welcome back to Sweden Miss Pluto. We wished for you to have a great welcome and I do have to warn we are moving courthouses as the heating has gone out in the original one. For these instances the Supreme Court building will be used until the repairs are completed and I myself are here to apologize and act as your guide for a tour of the lesser traveled parts of the building as there will be a time gap between arrival and the hearing.”
“Oh, thank you. Sounds like fun.”
“Do you have luggage?”
“Yes, quite a bit, I wasn’t sure what I’d need.”
His grin spread in greeting Eddie who looked at you as you began to stroke the palm of the hand that Eldfalls had bitten in its beginning to prickle. A flash of a silver scar in an Asgardian rune on your skin was here then gone explaining the sensation you had back on Svartalfheim you hadn’t paid mind to. The sudden cloud of flames stirred shrieks and a drop of bodies to knees or crouched between those who locked up to peer up at the sudden occurrence. Right in the middle mere seconds after the flames erupted Eldfalls became visible causing you to just keep standing still staring up at the humming ship who proudly seemed to say hello in its defiance for remaining behind.
“Take a picture! Take a picture!” The boat enthusiasts from your flight said fumbling out their phones while your hand lowered from its grip around your necklace. They found their feet as many others did while you simply stared at the ship that had you glad this was a high three story section of the airport to leave room for it to hover above your heads.
“I’m sorry,” you said to the now chuckling Ambassador who eyed the ship in awe. “Eldfalls sort of, pops up when I leave the city sometimes.”
“King Vili’s ship,” a few people murmured as the press turned to snap a few pictures while the crowd behind you spilled out into the larger space now filling with more bodies to get a better look at the magical ship.
Just as soon at it arrived over its scales the snap of metal had your eyes narrow. In an unsettling sort of contortion that warped the scales in angles and the mast to bend this way then that as each section of the hull warped and wiggled until the head of the dragon on the front started to expand and behind it a body of a dragon appear stunning everyone all the more. Now five feet long the large winged metal beast with gnawed of tail and gashes on its back to show where the missing section of mast went to Eldfalls lowered to stand on his back haunches beside you with a pleased look on his face. “You have never done that before.” You said flatly in Swedish making the metal creature actually chuckle deeply to the remark.
King Vili in the legends you knew of was rumored to have a great dragon as a companion in battle and now all the more this was proof you had found his very same ship that had followed you here. He did answer you, but in Asgardian to share that you had not repaired his wings and hull yet. The blank look back at him however had him smirk and blow smoke rings to show his missing parts.
“Simply stupendous!” The Ambassador exclaimed in a clap of his hands, “The museum in Norway will be beside themselves in ecstasy knowing that he is here to tour the museum exhibit with you when you travel there.” And he said, “For now, your luggage.” He said and you nodded following him to the baggage claim as Eldfalls began to hover to float over your head on a ripple of ghostly flames wafting under his head, neck and belly all the way through the maze of stunned people throughout this maze of a building.
Your six bags were simple to find and with the smallest propped on top of the middle one you and Eddie wheeled the bags toward the exit gate where the security warned over a radio set simply peered up at Eldfalls as those waiting outside did the same. Most having laughed at the verbal warning of a dragon coming out that swiftly changed to people snapping pictures.
“The car rental is this way.” The Ambassador said gesturing to your right to follow the walkway to the visibly marked rental shop where a line free counter was suddenly opened by means of removing the paper sign it was closed. Normally guests no matter their standing would have to wait to not draw attention to anyone in the usual Swedish fashion of Lagam lifestyle, moderation, humility and a treasuring of comfort and simplicity. However there were court times to keep on track for an important state matter and this once you could hold exception to the usual. Even more so as those in line wide eyed gawked at the hovering dragon who turned and twisted to get inside the building where a few patient children approached him upon his landing.
“Is there an age limit on car rentals?” You asked the Ambassador softly who chuckled and shook his head.
“You are considered legally an adult in America so legally you can rent a car here. Why do you ask?”
“You have to be 24 in America.”
“Why?” Was all he asked and you shrugged.
“Not sure you can marry, drink, buy guns and vote by that age not sure what they need other than demanding a credit card. Do I need a credit card?”
“This is just a formality, we have backed the car chosen for your stay they merely need to copy your driving information and ID to complete the transfer.”
“Oh,” you said. And flashed a grin at the woman who ushered you closer to the counter you stood on your toes and still couldn’t see over. Luring Eddie forward to prop you on a raised leg he pinned to the counter to have you seated and within reach of what they required upon his thigh in a one legged stance amusing a few people in line who moved to split into that line now that it was open again.
Like he said the ID was scanned and you signed the proper slips and took hold of the keys to the mystery car to which you were assigned. A short distance across the walkway you took your bags with Eldfalls behind to enter the rental garage, following the numbers to a giggle worthy mint two door sporty coupe. “Oh this is adorable,” you whispered to yourself making Eddie chuckle at the click of the trunk opening when you tapped the button twice to make it do so. Suitcases loaded easily with the larger four in the trunk and the smaller pair and your carry on bags you filled the back seat with.
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Outside the garage now was a car the Ambassador climbed into having shared he would lead the way to your rental home first so you could unload your things at least and then turn right back around to follow him to the courthouse. Waving your hand Eldfalls in a fiery mist warped through the seats to fill what space was left in the backseat to not have to fly atop the roof of the car.
“I don’t think they were expecting us to bring a dragon,” you said turning out of the garage making Eddie chuckle in his adjustment to the radio station.
“Why wouldn’t they expect us to bring a dragon? Downright rude to not think we’d bring a dragon.” He said making you giggle. From what you recognized you named all the way through the white coated city barely lit by just hints of moonlight through the snow dropping clouds.
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“Oh we got a red house,” you said excitedly as you passed the women on a walk with their dogs in the dark early morning usual routine with a couple cyclists to follow who were curious at the flag donning car and mint one behind it. Around a corner you saw wooden red houses in rows along a curving street. Fenced in small plots of yards had each little barn like structure look quite quaint to be able to stay in while you were here. A guard on the street opened a side gate that allowed you to drive around to the hidden front of the house that helped have a touch more privacy and a clear shot of the surrounding trees to the suburb and sky overhead that gorgeous view to exit the lovely hone each day. “Oh this is nice,” you sighed and helped to bring your things inside the door the Ambassador unlocked for you.
“Two bedrooms, and two baths. The kitchen has been newly remodeled so the stove would work with the solar panels over the garage.” Beyond the front room he had stopped to gesture to each room he named then after your glances into each deep grey or pale orange space he showed you the side sitting room with a fireplace off the side of the larger living room sharing an open space with the dining table opposite the kitchen. “Living room and a side study that can act as an office as well, that cabinet pulls down into a work desk. As does this bookshelf.” He said about a pivoted empty set of shelves that with a simple press moved to lay flat and lock into a second desk. “Does this suit your needs?”
“Oh it’s more than I expected, thank you. Our places are one room, so a house to rent is wild in comparison of space.” You said making him grin.
“Now, back to the courthouse and your tour.” Excitement in his voice had you a bit curious, and with just hold of your purse again you were out the door as Eddie made sure he had his pocket notebook and a pen in case he needed it.
Alongside the car keys, on a keychain you had brought with you, the house keys were hooked on in the drive back out of the driveway that a bee hidden in your hair memorized the location and house number in case the task had slipped your mind. Discussion again of the wait for new heirs had Eddie changing the station again in the Swedish share on the newly married Crown Princess you had heard echoes of from crowds on your way through the airport. News of that and the Prince who was rumored to be kindling a secretive romance with a certain someone after being single a few years now after his first public relationship that ended amicably.
Gossip came up, much like a headline you only glimpsed within those walls, of a man you’d only seen online, grandfather, father to the only maternal aunt you had who was a professional Ice Dancer and didn’t want nor couldn’t have children, an Earl whose picture was right next to yours. You didn’t get a good look but while you drove your bees were searching online for the copy of the story and at a light you looked to the ac vent beside the radio where Chester projected the story off his back.
“What’s that say?” Eddie asked and looked between your picture and the man’s. “Who is that?”
“My grandfather.” You sighed and in a ripple of the letters you looked back to the road as the light changed. Across the Swedish papers also similar to the story in Norway noted the same lineage that Eddie raised a finger to scroll through the now translated story.
“Says you’re marked as his heir since his eldest daughter got bumped off the lineage, for what they say as permanent lack of an heir.” He looked to you, “What does that mean?”
“Nothing much he doesn’t have any real say over anything. There’s 200 families of nobility in Denmark, he’s got property but we’ve never met. I think he does something with fishing boats, like an assembly line or something,” you said turning the wheel as you reached the courthouse.
“Are you okay with this?” He asked slightly concerned about your stoic expression.
“Doesn’t mean anything.” You said shaking your head, “I mean he’s barely over 50, the man has just a glimmer of silver hair.”
“And he doesn’t want to meet you?”
You shrugged and said, “Not sure. I never met the guy and mama barely spoke about him, he’d probably just assume I was after something to contact him now.”
“I think you should write him.” Eddie said, “Even if to say ‘hello I just want you to know you have a little Viking named Pluto in your bloodline. I have a dragon and have enclosed a picture of him for your castle.’” He said making you giggle.
“He doesn’t have a castle.”
“Manor,” he teased, “Upon his vast estate he will have a picture of you and Eldfalls.”
“Alright,” you giggles and said, “Tonight I’ll borrow your typewriter and print a picture of me and Eldfalls.”
“I’m sure he’ll appreciate it.”
“Oh I’m certain. I hear he’s quite proud of being a bloodline not of German heritage. Like for Sweden and I believe Norway as well they’re German not Scandinavian.”
“This has Queen Victoria all over it.”
“She did breed an empire.” You said making him chuckle.
“Be good to know he’s got a true blue Viking in his line still.”
“I read he’s Protestant, might try to cast me off for being Norse Pagan.”
“Oh he’ll have to get through Eldfalls to do that.” He said making the metal dragon throatily growl in agreement making you steal a smirking look back at him in the rear view mirror as his four feet of claws were flexed again to not tear into the back seat.
Into a garage you were shown and the bar to block entrance for payment remained up for the man in the booth to wave you in as guest of the Ambassador to not have to pay. Safely into a spot you parked and climbed out to watch Eldfalls float and wiggle his way out of the car making you withhold a sigh to how badly this can go. Onto your seat you left your hat to not forget it as you tucked the handle of your bag in the bend of your arm and locked the car.
“We called ahead about the dragon, they’re gonna let him in.”
A guard said and you replied making him chuckle to himself, “And here I thought we’d see true results of storming Supreme Court with a dragon.”
Out into the street from a side exit you walked to spot a group of people talking over a newspaper they had bought across the street. All whom fell silent and looked up to stare, not just at the dragon but yourself from the picture on the paper. “The Viscountess,” one of them whispered and drew out a phone to capture a picture of you.
Deeper in the article it covered your numerous public works from performance to credits of your inventions and single award so far from competitions Columbia to go alongside enrollment and team wins for both Color Guard and Academic Decathlon championships since you had been accepted. Travels and link to a surprisingly unnamed American reporter joined a note of the biggest Scandinavian related news once it had mentioned your orphan status and twice missing branding as a child, Eldfalls. Aside from that this medical patent and research business was more than enough to dig up old ghosts of your lineage to tie you to just in case you might have been from a long line of greatness.
This you could look past, Eddie however felt even more upset that your mother’s family now had cast you off or hadn’t bothered to look for you at all. He could only assume some plot to keep the inheritance away from you or some other seedy venture you were being excluded to keep hidden from your knowledge. But he had to calm down as his forehead and jaw had clenched and furrowed to a level so prominent he couldn’t ignore it or allow the expression to stay and possibly be shown the door for poor attitude leaving you alone in this.
Wands in a security check within the front etched glass door blocked front hall were held by numerous guards who took care to check you all and then your bag only to simply peer on as Eldfalls in his Asgardian metal glory didn’t phase the detector arch at all when he passed through it. As if they had imagined him behind your group that was gone all there was to do was to scan and inspect the pool of press who were bent on hurrying to line up for seats as you were turned to head for the more exclusive floors for the start of your tour.
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“We are here today to hear the case of IE Research Center vs Sweden, to petition the courts for emancipation upon the case of one Pluto Lagertha Pear to loosen the patent restrictions upon the methods used by the minor’s parents who developed them. Correct?” Affirmative answers were given as you stole a glance over the ring of judge seats one lone Judge sat in the center of, then to the legal council representing the claim to keep you a minor on one table opposite the twins, Idun and Epli. The duo who helped to found the center with your parents and had been keeping the same study alive all this time since their disappearance. Merely collecting long term data of effects of the initial compound. They looked exactly how you remembered, right down to the lockets like your mother’s from other gods that bonded the three of them so deeply. One word whispered by Yggdrasil to you now in view of them through the wooden barrier between the front row you sat in to their table as parties within this case had your eyes narrow a moment, “Beserkers.”
The Judge though had your eyes on him as he said, “Before I hear either party I would first wish to hear from Miss Pear. She is amongst us I see.” He gestured a hand to the podium in the center of it all right across from his seat adding, “Ominous I understand however there are no evidence boxes to call you to young lady.” And with a nod you stood leaving your purse behind to walk to the podium. The wooden gate you brushed apart, stealing a glance at the twins gave you a kind apologetic grin for forcing you into this. Behind you Eldfalls straightened up, keeping his glowing eyes locked upon your back as you stepped onto the attached wooden steps to be able to see over the wooden barrier that were added upon word of how short you were like they did for other vertically challenged people summoned here for one reason or another.
“Miss Pear, kindly tell me a bit about yourself.”
“I live a fairly simple life,” you answered plainly already making the corners of his mouth ease up at the pleasant answer compared to what little was known of a major gap of your youth so far. “I live in an apartment, attend school for my High School degree and also Columbia University as well to gain ground on a Bachelors degree. I work, and have hobbies, I dream and invent, spend time with friends and my brother Eddie, and during the summers we have traveled the past couple years and plan to again this summer.”
“Tell me about the dwelling you have chosen for yourself, if you please?” He questioned and you drew in a breath to answer.
“I live on the top floor of a building in Queens usually for immigrants, for the space rent is quite fair for New York. I built my own heater and air con, even New  York can get rather hot in the summertime. All of it is one room, aside from the bath and closet. When I first moved in through my job at a theater I found my bed, it was a prop in a play. There is a second hand furniture shop I found in lower Manhattan. I have an odd collection of lamps, three ostrich feather and two shaped like trees. Three whale themed chairs, a sloped couch and one like a cloud. Most of that I got good deals because the owner felt he couldn’t get rid of them,” you said making him and a few of the reporters grin at the mental images. “He also somehow came across two wardrobes my ancestor built from his furniture line, just out of nowhere, like a sign from the Norns I hadn’t lost my history as well as my home.”
“Does your job in the theater pay well?” You gave a list of your jobs and basic pay, with an average on commission you earned and that you tried to put away half of each check if not for rent but for savings. “How far are you in your education?”
“I was set to graduate High School this year until a bill was passed raising core credit requirements so I will have to take a few more classes next year. I am also almost halfway through my Bachelor degree requirements.”
“I understand you were taken to Russia from your family home, you were rather young, but do you remember how you were taken?”
“I would rather not talk about that, if, you wouldn’t mind.” A noise from the gallery of press and the Ambassador had you turn your head to glance back making the Judge shift his head to your almost mournful gaze that dipped back behind a mask of a glance up at him.
“To understand your case, I must ask and insist, however I will say this,” he looked to the woman keeping record of the case, “Miss Belle, stop recording,” the woman complied and laid her hands on her lap as he looked to the press. “All members of press turn off your recorders and raise your pens in the air, none of this answer is to be taken down or made quotation to or reference in any publication.” Sharply you drew in a breath to the sound of every person of press doing just that, and he asked again, “Now, Miss Pear, as best you can remember how were you taken to Russia? No court within this country issued you there.”
Steely your eyes sank from him to the crest on the table in front of his seat, “I remember, I was with my mother, in her room. We had a metal vase and it fell over. I came out, and saw my father kill the first eight men,”
“The first eight?” he whispered to himself as a few members in the press covered their mouths.
Warmly a tear fell down your cheek in stating what you knew would only cement nightmares later on, “He told me to run, but they shot me with something, and I couldn’t. They took my parents, and the house was on fire. I just remember the fire, then I woke up cuffed to a bed. I didn’t know where I was, it was all stone, set up like a school, without windows, and always cold. The older girls said to behave,” off your belly you raised your hand to blot your curled sleeve against your cheek to keep from nearly tearing the wool apart by clenching your grip any tighter. “There was no child prostitution ring, everyone thinks that. They took us, taught us languages, all the subjects, and when they taught us enough they assigned us to families. Where we were taught to fly, skydive, dive, hike, track. I don’t know what to call it aside from doomsday preppers. We were put in dance classes, taken to hair appointments, but they never left us alone, we weren’t allowed to talk. We were not allowed to fail.”
You paused and in that silence he asked, trying to understand the deepening look in your eyes you kept off of him, “How did they keep you there when they took off the chains? The older girls did not try to help you escape? There must have been a good number of you there to all remain complacent.  If you did fail, what happened then?”
“I tried to run. We all did. They did what they did to all the girls, beat us and hung us inside a sack in a sensory deprivation room, we weren’t allowed to have friends. When one of us showed a bond kindling with another girl they killed one of the pair,” gasps and sniffles could be heard behind you while Eddie mentally urged you to keep strong. “The first time I failed an evaluation they broke my femur,” you said causing his lips to part he promptly closed again to keep calm as more tears fell down your cheek, “I was told if I failed again they would break my other leg. So I passed. I always passed, and listened to my teachers. One especially who taught me to never let them think I stood a chance.”
Shakily you drew a breath and continued while a few members of the press with pens raised still felt it hard to keep their hands from shaking, “I made myself a magnificent liar, be close to perfect as possible. I did as I was told. I was assigned a family, and one day, they stopped locking the door and leaving the room to answer calls. I was cast in The Nutcracker. The plan, was to come to New York and refuse to leave, but they suddenly planned on moving me and my fake sister. So I got dressed for ballet rehearsals and came back on time, packed a bag with a few things, I knew where the safe was. Took it all, they had my parents’ jewelry with my papers, and I walked right out the door. Took the bus to the airport, I saw two women there to get me, but I managed past security and on the plane.
First step was a p.o box, then a bank account, then a burner phone I could get internet access through. But by the time I had landed my fake parents had killed themselves, all the girls were gone, houses up for sale and empty or burned down. One of my contacts with the military in the States said they found a number of the girls not long ago, asked me if I knew their real names for their headstones.” A few people behind you took a few moments to hunch forward at the next trembling breath you drew in, “I only knew what the girls shared by accident, habits, names they made up for themselves. What some of them looked like before they were put into procedures to hide their true faces. But there were so many other girls they hadn’t found yet. I got citizenship in America, and met Eddie not long after. He got me into therapy. I’m better, but I can’t say I wasn’t a little bit terrified to come back here again.”
You wiped your cheeks with both fingertips and sleeves as a few people behind you did the same to the Judge clearing his throat to not let his voice waver. “Thank you, I honor the strength it must have taken to withstand that for eight years then survive alone until you began to build a new family unit every child requires, and I do hope you find peace after such painful experiences.” You nodded and he said, “We are going to go back on the record now,” you nodded and the press was given warning to have chance to make notes again as the party acting against the case of emancipation adjusted their position in their seats uncertain of what to feel in this task of theirs. “Concerning this case, what are your feelings about being in the center of this lawsuit?”
“I lost eight years of my life,” you said and lips parted behind you in shock at possibly bringing up what you had just shared again on the record. “The very last entry in my father’s notes was a check on my mother’s blood work. She volunteered as a subject in their approved trial on humans. And it came back negative for Wilson’s disease.” That won a few gasps as the twins behind you nodded and smirked at both your strength and continued means to stay calm for this. “75% of the other cases came back negative or markedly lower on their own blood work showing the illnesses were reversing. My parents cured Wilson’s disease and several others. My mother showed improvement on daily functions such as mobility and was closer to being able to breathe on her own again. But we were divided and our home was burned down. Eight years so many people have suffered without my parents being here to continue their work.”
Again you paused to inhale, a pause he noted and waited for you to finish. “I might not know what I want to be when I am older, or what I want to study in for graduate courses. But I know their work, I built a smoother machine to help the process and shorten it by weeks to recreate the compounds. I used it to make my own anti-anaphylactic injections before the medical system was improved in the States. I want to continue their work and help people and stop their suffering.”
“You have a birthday soon, yes?”
“January 14th. I am turning 17.”
“More than justifiably you have proven to show that you are more than capable to provide for yourself and act to the responsibility of adulthood and all the trials that come with it. You have self reliance and a support system should you fall short as we all do from time to time. For these reasons I will grant emancipation and permit clearance of use of any patents and information inherited to and belonging to you from your parents currently barred by your age to grant freedom of medical trials surrounding those properties which are rightfully and legally yours to use how you deem fit. And I wish you all the best of luck for your endeavors to finish your parents’ fine work and then build upon it.”
You were excused back to your seat to find Eddie with Venom pooled in his sleeve a bit around one of your bees he was using to help translate what you said who proudly took hold of your hand as you sat down again. Final tasks of the closing of the case including signing of paperwork and well wishes for IE research center were concluded with the slam of a gavel. Idun and Epli once outside remained with you as the Ambassador guided the press away noting their need to be elsewhere, Eldfalls up at the duo peered and began to speak in Asgardian and answered back sharing how long they had been on the planet, the same amount of time as he had been here.
“So, you aren’t from lines of Vikings like you told my parents?”
Epli answered, “We do apologize, we wed amongst Vikings, however we right away saw the brilliance of both your parents and helped to assemble the center. And we understand Norman Osborn has been up to genetic mutation research.”
“This is because we had help hiding Dr Connors after his bad experiment, right?”
“Exactly,” Idun answered. “We have no doubt the solution will work and be vastly improved upon. However we did require legal backup before he could try to have any contracts or, well,”
“Blackmail,” Epli cut in, “They mean blackmail. He would stoop to it, we heard from Elliot that he is rather forceful upon gaining ideas from gatherings of yours he can interrupt. We have been keeping the study subject health progress up to date. After an initial show of proof the compounds work on tissue samples we can have more volunteer donors and get back up to a second round of human trials. Once that has begun any other study using the patents and formulas can be punished severely and possibly have their right to apply for trials suspended indefinitely for the act.”
Idun said, “We were off to breakfast, care to join us and we can leave it today or possibly give you a tour of the place tomorrow?”
“If I was to get anything done I’d have to go back and grab the machine I made for the solution testing.”
“And we shall stop after we get you two fed,” Epli said with a grin.
And Idun added with a smile of their own, “Look like you could both use a good meal.”
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The internet already had begun to spread around that a well mannered dragon was on the loose and following a certain duo around. So finding the corner in the wall to eat at welcoming to him was not entirely unbelievable. From your pocket in a need to get your phone you had to turn it on and wade past the unread alert bubbles of the past almost two days to your notes to show them what you required.
Inside your hair the bees there compiled a few pictures from the travels to post and drop playful comments on each day to help distract those when they woke up so you would have a bit more free time to catch up with what they had sent already. And while you savored the meal the duo shared their initial intention to have the other Beserkers ease the news to you over the next year that they were their kin and wished to ease a meeting with you. After a surely awkward or emotional reunion they could touch on the research study and the notes your parents had hidden away with you alone knowing how to get access to it.
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Like a time capsule as you held the honeycomb device to your belly mid tour you noticed the forest scenery wallpaper had been freshened up, with new flooring after the carpeting had given out. Up in the hills in a small curve the castle like stone building the quartet had bought and fixed up together now stood as a minor clinic for the nearby town on top of the research subject progress to keep doors open until you were old enough to be talked to about the patents.
Tall towers trimmed flat in alternating rise and dips of square tan blocks to truly show this place as a castle alternated with those that were domed with stained glass or steeped to a point in a mixture of Medieval and Gothic styles. Each made to be libraries of information for each office nearby or open for patients waiting there. Every door had a carving of some ancient scene from Nordic legends and tapestries around the walkways from wing to wing with an open kitchen and grand dining hall that also did serve meals publicly for those in need free of charge.
All restored, and while some parts were modernized with insulation, wiring and environmentally self reliant means of power to not tax the city nearby the monument was amongst the landmarks of the city that visitors could enjoy tales of how the ruins had been left and now stood in reminder of its resonate glory.
You loved to explore this place as a kid and more so now, and now you were co-owner, not a founder but no less suited in their eyes for what they knew you capable of achieving to pick things up again.
Right out of a movie however an ornately framed oval silver plated etching of your mother had you frozen at the reflection of your face beside hers. While you had your father’s eyes and hair most of your face was hers, aside from your ears that was a smaller blend of both of theirs and a nose that must have been older than either of them off a relative you hadn’t had the chance to meet. Her portrait hung next to his outside the lab wing in a memorial beside a smaller one of your younger self the twins said they would have a more current one to hang up without taking down the old one. More proof this place could grow and remain firm through the years.
Inside the lab samples of various subjects were labeled inside of a clear doored wall of fridges marked for specific order to not mix things up. Perfectly organized and not a thing out of place to ensure efficiency for your visit, it began with you hanging up your jacket and purse in the proper locker along the wall. An empty new desk had been assembled to hold your work, and was engraved as such, that you put your machine on. Sleeves were rolled up and hands washed with gloves passed around for a third Beserker to come and film the process to have solid proof to get the research project backed.
Without opening the sample a ring from the top of the hive contraption was removed to encircle the sample releasing lasers as it did to gather the genetic code of any sample in the center of it. The beginnings of a buzz of the machine grew louder to an array of lights passing between seams around the outer casing of it as if it was a partially see through hive and bees internally could be traced going about their work. An empty vial just two inches tall and barely the width of a penny was added to the small slot designated for it in the wait.
For three minutes you explained the process the machine was carrying out until it gave off a few trilling notes and a rubber pointed nozzle was seen lowering into the open vial to release just enough of the compound to fill it. With a syringe the liquid was emptied from the vial and added to the genetic sample.
Notes for the process by another Beserker were taken and a new sample was brought out to get onto the second of ten samples to try. As it readied the solution you were seen swapping the vials and using a mixture of sterilizing compounds to clean the rubber tube you swapped for a second out of the sealed pouch you had set aside. Like an assembly line the process was completed and then it was called for the day enabling you all to clean up and sanitize the lab with samples sealed under watch of a camera to ensure it would be monitored for absolute proof they were not tampered with.
Now you just had to think of a name for the new method attributed to this trial as you couldn’t reuse the original name your parents had chosen for their method with hopes to cure these diseases.
Alone with Eddie to the rental you went, both simply eager to be alone after the exhausting trip and tasks you had to carry out. And while he sat at the end of the couch working on a notepad of his latest ideas for his story you sat on the floor halfway slumped onto the coffee table staring at the tries to write a letter to your grandfather. You were living well, surviving, alive.
Simplicity was taken advantage of and a simple share of your apartment in Queens, two schools, and two steady jobs until the summer were shared to show you were financially sound and not asking for money. You didn’t know if you had ever met before, as it could have happened before your memory allowed you to pull from, and you said as much.
A simple inquisition of familial relations you might have as the family ledgers were lost in the fire you hoped to add to one day. Note of having written to your busy aunt was made as well as an easy scapegoat of reason to have been reluctant to contact him. He was a nautical expert and perhaps could relate to your predicament of having trouble on perfecting a new mast for Eldfalls. You didn’t ask for help, simply shared the work you had done on the magical ship so far to where you were stuck.
Just a hello and distant wave from afar with note of an email and phone number to cofactors you at anytime to go with the address used for your stay. Two pictures were added and after a pop by the post office to buy some stamps needed to get the letter to Denmark you dropped it in the slot to be sent off and then had to walk away to head back to the house and stare again at your notes on that stubborn mast.
Even with a miniature model you had printed of what was already there Eldfalls stood by with an amused glimmer in his eye to every zap he gave the model that didn’t keep steady again after you lowered it in a means to lift it up again. It just kept falling down and you had to glare at the stubborn thing until you were stomping into the kitchen to stress cook luring Eddie off his notes to help you prep the meal he would help to eat and clear up after.
Daily plans were made on a sheet of paper and tomorrow a trip to a nearby Viking and series of museums were to be explored while the twins would be testing the samples for progress to present to the officials holding the reigns on a new trial.
“Hey, the museum for my ancestor’s furniture is open tomorrow,” you said having been procrastinating from glaring at your model making Eddie smirk and take the notepad.
“Adding that to the top of the list.”
With a smirk you asked, “You won’t mind taking a tour of cabinets and wardrobes for three hours?”
“We can take it twice and I will still love it. Make it a full day. Squeeze as much into one day as we can for museums.”
“Did you want to drive or take the train?”
“Train might be easier on you if you’re up for it.”
“Well it’s a 7 and a half hour trip.”
“When’s the next train?” He asked making you smirk, “Get some good night footage for your travel videos before we sneak footage of the museum tour.”
“Train’s in two hours,” you said and he pulled his wallet out to have the card you were given for travel funds to order the tickets.
“Rest we can take care of over there. Still have a few grand from the jackpot you helped me get on that poker site. How’s your original video going?”
“Good. Everyone says they like it and they wish me well and all that. Everyone has their trip, Harry’s had some party he hoped I could have gone to. Apparently he invited the football team and the cheerleaders and pretty much everyone who is popular. Still making his bundle of connections. Soon he might have so many friends he’ll forget I exist.”
“Well if his party was a smash hopefully by New Years you won’t be hearing about his next party at all,” he said smiling at you widely making you giggle.
“Okay, so we have to squeeze in a stop by the Viking museum as well. Maybe we can get them to let Eldfalls look around too. Let him see how popular he is and possibly have to break him out if they try to get him to stay.” In front of the smoldering fireplace curled up in a sort of ball his body was coiled, not sleeping but relaxing within the quiet space with just you two.
“So we make a day of it and take a late train back.”
“I got a return set too on credit, so we can choose when we come back.”
You nodded and he scooted closer to give you a hug, “We can sleep on the train. Break in the beds tomorrow.”
“I don’t think I would get much sleep anyways.” After a moment a message on your social page made you smirk as a lifelong friend of your dad’s sent you an offer to put you up for the final two nights of Yule. To not miss it amongst people who love and care about you with mention of pictures of your last time at the celebration with them when you were a small child. “Some of Papa’s friends invited us to stay at theirs for the final nights of Yule.”
“Oh we are going, adding that to the list.” He said making you smile at the eager addition.
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Second glances from those in the sparsely crowded train station filled the walk to the self check in station that printed your tickets and the actual entrance to the lower levels where you split groups of people who all peered up at Eldfalls. Cumbersomely he managed past the conductor at the door and through the thin hallway to your sleeper car where he slumped both on the end of your empty bench and most of the floor as you and Eddie removed your boots to ready for a try to sleep.
For almost eight hours pops of flames entered your dreams to be blown away by thundering gusts of wind while ghostly faces of memories of time in the Red Room fled at the sound of roars. Through your skin at the first squirm in Eddie’s arms Venom had oozed and got to haunting your very nightmares into a kinder albeit boring eventual dream, when your subconscious caught on you were being watched, of yourself arguing with customers over books that don’t exist inside the water park that oddly took the shape of your book shop.
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Overnight copies of the former first round of the human trial with personal identifiable information on subjects still blocked out were released online to science journals, that paired with your quote in court of your parents curing Wilson’s disease and others proved it to be true. Your email blew up as anyone who knew how to get in touch with you tried to as papers and science journals spread the word.
Drastic news to be followed by news of the name you had chosen for your new round of the trial that could possibly be approved soon. SMDottir. To honor of your parents who used their initials within their method’s name and your label as their heir to continue the work. A machine of your creation used to speed up the process drastically was not missed either.
And by the time you were half an hour from Oslo station you had gotten a call from the Ambassador of Norway, who had gotten word you were on the way to their country and he wanted to know your itinerary for the day trip. He and some unnamed figures wished to meet you and after your trip to the furniture museum at the Viking museum they wanted to meet you and the dragon known to be traveling with you.
“Another Ambassador?” Eddie asked and you nodded leaning back into his chest as he heaved a sigh. “Wonder who he’s dragging along to meet you.”
“I don’t know, but if they make me miss our trip to the open park before it gets dark I’m gonna be so upset. Sunset there is incredible.”
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True to your word it was hours in the furniture museum, but Eddie didn’t care at the incredible show of detail and craftsmanship put into each piece. Two of which the curator of the museum himself had assured you he would make note of your having mentioned you found a copy of them in New York and the creator’s descendant had owned some of the very pieces in display.
Outside the Viking museum after the hefty walk and bus travel to get to the grander side of town you stopped at the flag donning car in front of four more outside the museum. “I’m guessing that’s the King’s car.” Eddie said with a nod and turned, “I wore my good sweater at least.” He said making you giggle and turn with him, looping your arm back under his to head for the door with a long line already outside of it. The floating dragon at your side when you readied to take the back of the line had a uniformed guard approach you and say in his native tongue, “Miss Pear, they are waiting inside for you, tickets already purchased.”
“Oh, thank you,” you said and translated for Eddie, “Said we already have our tickets inside.”
“Well, so it begins as Theoden would say.” His eyes sealing a moment to glance at one of the bees in your hair shivering it’s wings to release the snowflakes that gathered on them. Over one side of you head your curls were flipped, the other half braided back secured by bees, and braids within the larger bit helped to have your bees gather to help with recordings and watch for any sign of people who might try to hurt or take Eldfalls. Or at least that was what you told yourself you were keeping them on guard for. Subtly your fingers adjusted on Eddie’s jacket sleeve on the quicker trot to the front doors. There a second guard let you three inside and held it open long enough for Eldfalls, who was being filmed by nearly everyone in line to get inside safely down to the end of his gnarled tail.
You weren’t handed any tickets. Simply greeted with hand shake after handshake and several eager men, who guided you back, Beyond the crowds of people already paid inside and waiting for tours to start who were filming and taking pictures of Eldfalls hovering over your head. To show you to the proper exhibit that was currently closed off by rope barriers moved for your group upon sight.
And right in the center of the front entrance, being told about the opening pieces on display up front, your mouth dropped open to see, not just the King of Norway. But his wife and two children beside the Queen of Denmark, who had her own two sons, who were opposite the King and Queen of Sweden with their two children.
“Okay,” you muttered to yourself, “Bit more than just an official or two,” you said to Eddie who inched a bit closer to your side as the group began to turn at notice of the rope barrier being moved.
“Here you are,” the King of Norway said first in English, the language chosen so that everyone would understand one another. To the lot of them you gave a quick curtsy greeting him formally and he spoke again, “Viscountess Pluto, welcome back to Norway, this may seem like an ambush but we all wished to have a time to meet with you here and get to know you all ourselves.”
He introduced his family and then let the King of Sweden take his own turn and the Queen of Denmark last who said with a pat of her hand on the back of yours she gained a hold of with a stunning offer of her palm to you. “I myself am very proud of your work, all fields. Quite accomplished. I am proud to know you are bonded to me by a distant cousin in law. You remind me so much of your mother, one of the loveliest of my relations I ever had the joy to meet. Have you spoken to your grandfather on a possible trip to meet this holiday as you have traveled here?”
“I wrote him a letter. Unless he met me when I was a toddler or younger I don’t have recollection of meeting him, I have written to my aunt though a few years back and she did not want to have much to do with me. So I wasn’t going to press him to have contact with me.”
“Your grandfather speaks so fondly of you. From afar he has been keeping me abreast of your achievements and gave us notice of your show. We purchased copies, of Sleeping Beauty and The Nutcracker, you were magnificent. Pay no mind to your aunt, a wild card that one refused much to do with any of her duties to her country and name aside from her sport. Throwing it all away. I shall contact him later today to warn him of your letter and to contact you for your trip to Denmark, we will welcome you warmly as you have been here and Sweden.”
“Thank you, Your Majesty.” More questions for Eddie, who was being shuffled and greeted as well came before the awe stricken stares when Eldfalls moved to the exhibit that fed into a large room lit up brilliantly around the hologram of how you found the ship day one that blended through phases. At the final image, in dragon form, he himself walked closer and in his awkward snapping contortion of scales changed back to his ship form to hover for the awed museum workers and nobles who listened to your share of the repairs you had done just leaving the mast and sail before you would give it a flight test.
Scans of him were granted with a tent being erected to let the team do that while you moved to the rest of the exhibit then return in time for him to be uncovered by the same team who scanned him the first time. Sound of other bodies entering now that the rope barrier was removed gradually voices of guides grew closer as you were asked by the scanning team, “Miss Pluto, what metal did you use for the hole in the hull?”
“It’s an Asgardian metal, it’s a long name but it means Hue-Blue, when it’s in liquid form it turns a deep royal blue. I’ve met a few exiled Asgardians here who helped me with the diagrams and they shared the name of it.”
The King of Norway asked, “Exiled Asgardians?”
“Yes, self exile, there was a war between the realms and they chose not to continue the war and remain here instead of returning to Asgard. Most of them were stone masons, artists or gardeners and bakers. They all served in the required training on smaller skiffs than Eldfalls, this model was for the Ruling Clan. Others used models without masts and sails so they only have a vague idea on how it is constructed but they were a great help.”
The Queen of Sweden asked, “Did they help you trade for the metal from Asgard?”
“Oh no, sorry, um, I have a 3D printer I developed that can atomically scan and replicate any metal, even Hue-Blue. I still have to find a compatible chord for the sail however. Might have to do some sleuthing on varied kinds to find one both strong enough and light enough to handle his speed and requirements as it helps to power different aspects of the ship’s defenses as well.”
The King of Norway said, “Our stores are open to you, any chord you desire and quantity will be yours to finish this magnificent beauty.”
“Thank you,” barely was able to escape your lips in a near loss of your voice from shock.
The Princess of Sweden asked with a curious grin, “Have you managed to find the hatch into the hull yet? Or do you still had to wiggle down beside the mast?”
“Still wiggling,” you giggled back, “Still searching for hidden hatches. He loves being a living mystery.” Pictures of both him and the families here were stolen by those who could steal the hasty trek into the first groups where you also answered a few questions they had as well before you were asked to a lunch stunningly at a place nearby they rented out fully for privacy.
And in a stolen moment at your side the King of Norway waited to get near to you and Eddie to say he would do all he could to have another round of the trial pushed forward. As a young child in his family had been diagnosed with MS and they had been given poorly prognosis for treatment in the years ahead for her to look forward to. A claim that did not have you any less concerned for how the new round of these trials might go and how he especially might take it if it went sour in the end. But they weren’t the only ones, big names online had been shoving the names of loved ones they knew who would be grateful for any chance to improve their daily lives amongst hundreds of average people who were doing the same. Shouting into the void for a chance to get better.
Glad to stay behind and be living proof of your hard work Eldfalls remained only adding more excitement to the tour as the real ship was still here even if the young woman in the repair videos had gone to eat. Progress from the first images were monumental and once repaired fully only left wonder for what an Asgardian ship could really do.
You, however, didn’t feel as thrilled in wait to fill a seat in the car the Queen of Denmark arrived in. Just a glance at your phone for a second to silence the alert tones of your social pages that had suddenly blown up and your heart dropped to your stomach.
Pictures from Harry’s party had been all over the majority of pages tagging yours, a great chunk of which showed pictures of him either with his arm around Gwen or with them on his rooftop balcony kissing her in the moonlight. Ricky and your friends within the marching band tried to be supportive of you while shutting down the number of claims from Beverly’s group of friends who were claiming that Gwen had made a major upgrade. Online you didn’t do a thing, simply sent a private message to your friends to just let it lose steam.
You’d seen it and they all just had to wait and be supportive any way they could as most imagined your holiday ruined at the news. Silenced again even the vibration was shut off as you closed the text that came in from Harry. The first of a stream you ignored in pocketing your phone as it spelled the pair of them just couldn’t hide their true feelings anymore when they were forced to confront them.
Into the car you lowered to take up the seat with Eddie behind you to fill the sideways angled seats, both listening to the Princes who kept the conversation going on the short drive before you got out again. Oddly casual each of them chose their seats around the two you and Eddie chose, a special menu had been prepped for the official visit to be respectful of allergies, out of which drinks and meals were selected. Mingled in the questioning and talks of the others the Queen of Sweden asked you, “Pluto, would you happen to be seeing anyone at this time?” Having spent a short time sharing on how her son had just begun a new relationship while their daughter was well known to be just married.
“I happen to be single,” you said making Eddie, mid sip of his drink, steal a casual glance your way. “I was seeing someone for a couple months but we decided to just be friends.”
And her smile grew, “Well we certainly know a good number of fine young men to draw your eye.”
Rather charming you felt you appealed to their comfort levels of being around. Not entirely official and one who they could not feel entirely obligated to be around or nice to. You were pleasant, poised, behaved beautifully and were assured to be welcomed for official visits again soon once their holiday plans had passed.
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Just as the King had promised a car was waiting outside to take you both to the best spot for a surplus of choices for sail materials. The driver nodded his head to your thanks at opening the door in the night cast car that only drove home you had missed the sunset you wanted to show off to Eddie. In the driver’s hurry back to the front of the car Eddie asked, “Alright, you want to explain the single comment?”
Out of your pocket you brought up the posts first dropping his jaw and then the now stream of messages from Harry who had been expecting and now demanded a response. “Oh he is so lucky we are on a different continent.”
With a shrug you said, “He gets what he wants, and he didn’t want to share my attention it seemed.”
Lowly he said in a lean closer, “For a second I thought it was an issue with being in a gay relationship.”
“From what I know there’s a great deal of acceptance, at least publicly in Scandinavia.”
“Well if I can’t go after him I am tearing a limb off his dad.”
“I just know if he is right and he is my mate I’m cutting his head off.”
“He is not your mate. That little creepy troll doll will never deserve you no matter how hard he works to make himself human.” After your glance at the window to the night sky, “I can see the sunset anytime, Sis. We are coming back for Yule, remember?”
“Yes, and I can show you the park there, they had this huge wooden playground set with cool tunnels and slides and everything.”
“I can’t wait to see it.”
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“Oh wow.” You both said once inside the endless red painted steel rack filled building. Rows of finer thread making the burly man who let you in chuckle and gesture his hand to the side.
“Feel free to browse as long as you need. Our King said you are to get all the supplies required to help complete a sail to complete the famous Eldfalls. Let us know if you need any help.”
“Thank you,” you said and they stepped away to leave you, pausing as you asked, “Is it okay if I film some stuff?”
“Absolutely. We keep all the super secret product in the back and out of view. Be proud to be part of your online record to completing your new sail.” And with a chuckle he stepped away to get back to work so you can get to exploring.
Playfully the commentary from you and Eddie was recorded by the bees hovering around you, capturing the enjoyment you got out of the task and few comments of being promised supplies just for the ship and not for your own hobbies. Using a square scanner a few ends of the large spools to see if they would be compatible or not.
Some colorful choices had you pause and adorably for the worker who came to check on you say, “Ooh,” and have him bring out a handheld to scan the barcodes for them to save for your order. “I think these five, my original design had blue but this gold and emerald shiny one could be perfect with a tweak to the design.” Measurements were given and onto the next section you were seen moving to in what took longer to go for the base material that would support the thread to embroider the design you had just chosen.
Shock by another worker in Eldfall’s sudden appearance when the museum was readying to close warned you to the head that floated up beside yours to look at the end of the sample you had just scanned. “You wouldn’t be willing to help pick a base sail material for me would you?” lowly he chuckled and with a nudge of his hand began to move you and Eddie along. Looking himself over the choices until he found a silver thicker wound wool sample you scanned and smirked in seeing it matched the base material of his tattered sail, even if it didn’t match the color.
“That one?” the closest worker asked in a check on you guys and you nodded.
“Eldfalls says this is the one.”
“Hmm,” he said, “Can’t say we’ve ever sold any, normally customers go synthetic,” and with a scan of the barcode he said, “Yup, so you’ll have plenty to do what you need with it. Just how much were you needing?”
“I figured he would like the most natural one you had, and wool would fit the ticket. This should go nicely with the metal based threads in his sail to secure the currents sent through it.”
“Really going to be something,” he said with a grin to Eldfalls. “Do you have a company in the States up to weave it for you?”
“Oh no, I have been adapting my loom, going to do it myself. Going to take a while but I have a plan and mockup on how to break it down and complete it. Just have to get the mast rebuilt first to hold the sail, if anything to help when I need to dry it from the heat soak.”
The address to the garage by your place was taken down and in the middle of January they confirmed it would be delivered for you to sign for the materials for your sail and back out to the street you walked. Having told the car earlier you could call for a cab when you didn’t know how long it would take. But in the nice night air you both choice to take the snowy hike back to the train station as you confirmed the return trip time on the way.
Sharing one of the beds on the train you slept, clinging to your brother while he tried to not let his anger for how Harry had treated you have him jolt awake and spoil what sleep you could get as Venom protected you in your dreams again. The meal halfway in the meal car was greatly appreciated and somehow timed itself to when you were bothered awake by more phone notices. But another nap later and you were back in the garage collecting your rental car to get back to the rental to freshen up and have some privacy.
Overnight the Wilson’s disease samples and several others had been proven to be free of any trace of the illnesses with others greatly reduced, and proof by means of documentation and footage were taken and consulted by the council in charge of clearing another round of the trial. So close to the holidays no matter what it would wait until at least the day after that anything would happen. Still stories in papers of all three countries had run of the meeting of the nobles with a ‘true daughter of Scandinavia’ as the Queen of Denmark had named you, parents of two countries, and you born in the third, bringing a Viking relic back to life. Sure most of it was for press, but the hopeful talk of that endeavor and the research at least brightened your mood a little.
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Once changed by the fire you both relaxed, him again on work with his notes as you edited the footage of your trip to Sweden and others to have a few videos to post, the first of which you did to add to your notifications. The video that would have the nobles in it however would just have a few of the press captured pictures to not have any unapproved footage of them in it to upset them. And by the time you would post the one of the sail hunting venture the company chosen in return would leave ample thanks for your praise and mention of their company name in some form of return for to being able to pay, as you shared the King had graciously promised you any supplies necessary.
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“Viscountess,” a voice asked when you had arrived at the first stop of the few you’d planned when you decided to go exploring more of Sweden in your rented car.
“Hello,” you answered the man with the camera who caught your fix of the scarf around your neck to enable you to zip up your leather jacket.
He named his press outlet and asked, “We were just wondering what your plans for Christmas were?”
“While I’m not Christian I am heading back to Norway for a couple days to stay with a friend of my father’s in his home town.”
“Not Christian, Catholic then?” he asked curiously only widening your grin.
“Norse Pagan, as my parents were, they invited me to the end of the Yule festival out there. Haven’t been since I was very little.”
“A Pagan noble, wow, well I wish you safe travels and a merry Yule.” He said making his retreat to grant you both privacy.
“And a bountiful Yule to yourself,” you replied making him chuckle and nod and made your way to Eddie’s side doubling his grin as he got to loop an arm around your back. Softer you told him, “That will make a lovely headline.” Making him chuckle and look onward to where you were headed.
“Oh, any hint of your teacher Max yet?”
“Messaged me earlier, he and his mom are going to come by the festival too. Spending the day with her for a private gift trade and said she’s excited to both come and to meet me and my adopted brother.”
“Funny, you are clearly the draw in this.”
“I will have you know she married a journalist. Loves a good scoop,” you said making him chuckle.
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Shoulder to ankle you made use of your emerald and white velvet and lace long sleeved dress, with tall boots, tights and your dragon decorated shawl. Eddie also wore the best sweater and jeans he had to go with his boots and couldn’t help but smile as you worked your nerves about the meeting with your grandfather away amongst the other teens to weave you and him holly and leaf headdresses after you had help in painting your faces. Songs and languages he couldn’t understand made all the more beautiful by the light of the bonfire and open lanterns for the field chosen to celebrate in surrounded by hay bales to help lock in what heat possible. He truly could feel what you shared in the past year of what this felt like, celebration of this faith amongst all your people who loved and cherished you while accepting your love and warm wishes in return. The feast was inside, but the dancing and events were all out in the star lit snowy night lit up more by the bright nearly full moon.
Memories, both painful and now becoming clearer of your last time here as a small child only made this more poignant enough to wish the night would never end. That this trip would never end. All through his camera roll for several rolls of film he had captured all he could between bouts that small children would steal it away for small bursts to add their own mysterious pictures to the mix. Capturing warm hugs and star brightening smiles of those who remembered you and shared of old times and who was unable to be here with you all.
And much like the past days a few members of press had take to joining in the masses to be quite obvious in recording just how this new noble would intend to participate in this holiday, amongst the masses or off to the side in observance. Eldfalls however in the mix of pictures would provide a memorable one, you atop a wooden ceremonial seat acting in your own turn for model for the supply of portraits to be hung from this festival, with him draped adoringly at your side with his head atop your lap. Countless people had taken pictures with him and small children clambered all over his playful self, having even taken part in pretending to foil a mock battle as kindly asked, but he always gravitated back to his beloved master he claimed who basked in this ceremony.
Max in the mix at the feast beside his mother did have to laugh as you said, “Either of you call me Viscountess and I will scream.”
To which Max chuckled in reply, “The proper way to address you is Lady Victory,” making you roll your eyes, “But I will keep that just in my head.”
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Two days and several copies of pictures of your last Yule later and you were napping on a five hour train to Denmark. Not at his estate, in fact a good while away for the week your grandfather had rented a place closer to the station where you would meet him. There he had a meal prepared you could enjoy in private as he got to know who you had grown to be. With white blonde hair in a well tended braid and pale green eyes your mother had inherited the man who was tall and lanky, built more lean to show a finer level of sports he had been raised into enjoying suitable to his rank. Out of his usual suit in a sweater, blazer and warm slacks that partly showed his colorful socks and dress boots when seated, he hoped to give a warmer impression of this meeting than in business attire.
The temperature for you however had you in black jeans, tall socks and boots with a warm sweater and your double breasted jacket as Eddie reused his nice sweater he washed from a few days before. Right inside the front entrance an aid had let you into the warm space and accepted both of your coats then turned to guide you beyond a glass set of doors to the living room. There the man himself stood up smoothing his hands anxiously over the front of his pant legs in their adjusting fall at the motion and then to his blazer he kept from buttoning to remind himself he was not in a suit. “Pluto,” he said with a creeping smile at finally seeing you in person again.
“Grandfather,” you said hushedly and flinched a grin in return. To your right you gestured to Eddie, “This is Eddie.”
Right away his hand extended for them to shake hands, “Yes, Thengel Beornson, and I thank you, whole heartedly for caring for Pluto as your own.”
Eddie shook his head, “Didn’t stand a chance when I first crossed her path. I’m glad to meet you.”
Their hands released and Thengel looked to you again, “The last time we met you were three years old, I was informed by the Queen of your letter, and I do understand why you bore reluctance to contact me. Especially,” he let out a sharp breath and drew in another, “Sigurd, has always been more tempestuous than Sigyn, always, so secluded off the desire from anything aside from chasing her dream on the ice. Even quite venomously against myself and,” shakily he drew in a breath and was clearly fighting tears from building into his eyes, “Sigyn and now you. I am so terribly sorry.” His hands raised palms up having broken them from a moment of smoothing his palms together.
Shaking your head you said reaching out to graze your fingers over his forearm to pat your palm there in a comforting bit of contact that had his hand angle to rest his fingers around your arm in return. “It’s painful, I know I look like her at least halfway. That was partly why she said she didn’t want to talk to me again. And to be honest what I can remember about them most times,” you paused and stole a glance at your arms.
“You must have been through something so very daunting,” he said making you look up again, “We must be so terrifying. You are enjoying your trip to Sweden?” he asked with concern at the tears pooling in your eyes.
“I was so scared,” you managed to whisper, “Out in New York I rarely have nightmares now thanks to my therapy. But coming home, it seems people have an impression of me, and me being afraid,”
That had his free hand come to rest on your shoulder, “No one, is a stranger to fear. I am not in the belief that fear makes you lesser. I know, Magnus and my Sigyn gave you all their strength to get you here today, I will never flinch in my support of you. You have built a life, come, I have pictures, and so much more.” From snapshots and clippings of your achievements to a box of letters he drafted in a means to mail to you, and had been able to once he paid a man in New York to hunt down your address to be able to write to you.
Hours over tea, a meal and warm drinks after seemed to at least get you closer to the point were you were able to move in for a timid hug he melted into and pulled back. Confirming he could meet with you after his week away on a stop to Sweden once his business was finished that was taking him away. “I will see you in a week, my magical girl.”
“I think that went well,” you said luring Eddie to draw you into his side.
“It did. He seems open to let you choose what you’re willing to do with your life.”
“And he likes you, that’s good.” You said looking back at the box of letters and scrapbook of copies of pictures he had been sent of you with copies of letters your parents sent to him.
“My mama wrote to him about the garden, do you think he knows what I can do? He called me magical.” You asked looking up at Eddie.
“Well we can check the letters on the train. Even if he did know, I mean I hate to belittle things, but, what could he say about it and to who?”
“You have a point, just, be odd if he did know. Most people who know have powers too, all Gwen knows is I have duct tape and grappler chords.”
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Halfway across the world LA seemed to be coated in black cloth. Seven of the Kardashians, Beyonce, Gwen Stefani, Madonna, Justin Bieber, the younger two Jonas Brothers, Mathew Morrison, half the main casts of Glee and Grey’s Anatomy and other actors and reality stars on the way to an award show were amongst others traveling elsewhere who were shot out of the sky. Quickly it was realized a rocket the Green Goblin had shot into the sky caused every private jet in the air to plummet down to the earth while all commercial carriers and the Blackhowls currently aloft felt no impact at all grounding all celebrities and elite who kept their own craft at hand.
That was phase one it seemed as major dealerships across the country who sold the smaller crafts began to be attacked by tiny green robotic drones that had been ejected from his rocket. Havoc was being wreaked upon the elite causing them to suffer the ghastly task of sharing aircraft with the common people by flying commercial thus doubling their customer base who were clawing for first class seats to have the most privacy possible.
Both acts only summoning confirmation calls for you that your craft were safe and didn’t seem phased at all as you assured the systems would be undetectable for most emp’s and devices like them that could be used to target aircraft from afar in a single pulse. But it did have them breech the topic of another set of Blackhowls and a safer craft for the President to fly in.
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For three days Eldfalls made stops in the Viking exhibits within Denmark and Sweden as you helped to gain samples of blood work to check the status on the thirty patients who were chosen for this new round. Just as he had said the King of Norway had added pressure to answer what physicians had already been doing as part of your legal case and beside a small girl inside one of the rooms at the castle he stood in wait for your arrival. She amongst others had been assigned their own rooms and hooked up to monitors already to track their results, the twins already had gone to greet the ten year old girl and grinned as you entered with the wheeled cart holding your machine on it.
The King asked, “Do we get to remain here for the administration of the medicine?”
“I wouldn’t see why not,” you said then greeted the girl who gave you an anxious grin, “Though that will be a bit, your potassium is a bit low.”
Making her mother say in a defeated tone, “We are being sent away then.”
Epli responded, “Quite the contrary, just a shot of potassium and we will check her levels in half an hour and we should be able to start.” Calming the family who watched her get the simple shot in her iv port and was left to try and relax as you moved on.
Amongst the number of Parkinsons patients an actor was seated atop his armchair in the room, having been weaned off his meds the day prior looked you over in wonder as he had asked to meet you. “Hello,”
“Wow you look young,” was his response making you chuckle and he apologized. “Sorry, that, sounded rude.”
“Not rude at all. I’ll be 17 soon, I’m not an official doctor yet,” you said as he eyed the twins who readied their tray of supplies for the injection as you readied the ring off the top of the machine. “Hence Idun and Epli here monitoring me, I made the machine that quickens this process, used to take two weeks to ready a dose, now it’s a few minutes. May I scan your hand?” you asked and they nodded watching you take hold of their fidgeting hand gently strapped to the railing on the bed at their request to not trouble the process with too much motion.
“Of course.”
“Shouldn’t hurt at all,” you said, “So I just man the machine and they handle the actual patient care.”
“I read the original study, said patients with symptoms more than a decade weren’t cured the first dose. How many do you think it will take?” They asked clearly showing the weariness in their eyes of the weight of the disease.
“From what I recall there were only two doses given in the initial trial, three months apart. I would hate to give you a number and disappoint, but I wouldn’t imagine it would pass ten. My mother had two doses and it cured her Chorea, which is similar to the physical motions Parkinson’s sets off. Of course it didn’t reverse the damage done, she was ready to work in rehab for physical motions to come back to a degree.”
He nodded and said with a half hearted smile, “I’ll take less than ten. Do my best to not fight the process.”
Every patient had you on the verge of tears, more so when after an hour of injection severe fevers and fluctuating physical responses had you outside for air with the families while the twins kept the patients under care of their fellow Beserker staff members. News of the new round however brought a slew of visitors from the initial round, most still in wheelchairs or on crutches but far beyond compare to what they had been like over a decade ago. Them and their family members who came with them shared support and warm thoughts to those in wait and yourself, most of whom recalled hearing about or even seeing in passing at the start of the new round. They knew it would work, possibly better for this batch with new eyes on it to help it along in improvement.
One day the patients would be in and out of trouble while you recorded all the notes you could with the typewriter your parents used in their study to help the twins keep on top of the thirty struggling patients. File folders meticulously kept until a break of calm came about with soothing wet cloth baths to help them all freshen up and be prepped for the following blood work. This would begin the following three months of monitoring.
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“Eighteen have no further genetic code for their illnesses.” You said and looked to Idun who grinned mid elated chuckle.
They said, “For now, that is good, daily checks on fluids and after a week we go for the second dose and placebo dose for those who show no trace. Then we wait three months and see if we can expand the trials to a new round of 30 new patients.”
Epli, “End of the year they should approve us to administer the drug how we please. Contact foundations to send information for patients to be sent for to receive the doses.”
“And we can’t tell them their results yet, King should love that.”
Idun replied, “He understood the terms, he is being rather patient. So no concern after the next dose when you head back to New York.”
Epli said, “We aren’t going to keep you here the entire trial. The final months are all review of results, which we will keep you in the loop.”
“I feel bad leaving you to deal with all this.” You said making them chuckle and shake their heads.
Idun answered, “You enjoy your exploring and time off, get yourself a nice manicure and pedicure, I know you said you usually keep your appointments rather regularly.”
So you did. The next stop on your trip was to a small spa that for you and Eddie laid out a full body and facial set of massages as well as a pedicure and manicure that leisurely took up half your day. New health drinks between sessions at the lounge were enjoyed while you relaxed in the plushy robes given to you. Mid stare at the smoothie draining out of the recyclable straw had Eddie ask you, “Straw clogged?”
“There’s a tube inside the mast,” you said looking at him widening his smile, “What if the tube channels and concentrates the currents of the engine to keep it solid?”
“Certainly could give it a shot,” he said making you smile and calm the staff who were wondering at your pause in enjoying the drink with a big sip of the blended mixture you fought against the grimace that wanted to settle on your face at its almost rancid taste.
While a spa didn’t seem to some a decent way to spend money from the card given to you each and every museum or spot you stopped in was given reviews on your page. To show more of your travel adventures since you couldn’t share anything on the trial to keep it confidential until approval for public use outside of studies. And given what the Ambassador knew of your past and how well the original trial round went any bit of touring funds to keep you in good spirits was well worth it if these deadly diseases could be cured or at least curbed.
Afterwards, once terms of the offered contract was detailed to you, a deal to have you use the commercial airliner designs you had drafted up when the US Military had first mentioned talks of you coming up with a more stable craft for the President to use. Alongside a lawyer you signed the deal with an aircraft company in Sweden that would produce the cleaner planes for use throughout Scandinavia.
Already Sweden powered most of the country by means of recycled goods converted to energy complete with busses using food compost as fuel and a way to fly without using oil could change things drastically for their independence power-wise. Detailed down to the final screw a simpler less lethal way to build the system that was not for military use, and therefore not breaking the term in your contract to keep the Blackhowls exclusive to the US for the time being, pretty much any engineer who followed it to the letter could build them. Shock for them would come in the numbers that would have it be far more lenient in weight issues and greater in ability to wire within the passenger cabins for more options to comfort and entertainment.
Surely it would take half a year to have a decent fleet and the pilots up to standard on the new flight system you handed over a simulator program for. But would be more than worth it as into that trust of yours for every plane you would get $5 million each and a bonus of $20 million when they have the entire planned fleet in the air. 20 years they would have permission to use your design with a term that should they have to replace any aircraft once they have a number remade enough for a new fleet the bonus sum would be paid again. A deal further cementing your future, whenever you had reached 24 years old and could gain access to it finally.
Two days after the second dose however when your grandfather had to get back to work in another country, in the start of a new year, now proudly with three evenings spent with his granddaughter, back at the airport you found yourself posting a message you were headed to New York.
Already you would be late for the new semester and Morita had said to take a spare day when you did get back if you needed it to recover from the travels. Through your bees you saw Eldfalls as agreed had flown himself back to the garage and would wait for your return to hear how your miniature models would fare to test the design of a new mast to be replicated on a grander scale.
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“Found a plan to crack the Goliath code.” Tony Stark said through the phone once Rhodey picked up the early morning call.
“I already don’t like the sound of this, but I’ll bite. What’s the plan?”
“The kid, you said she has a commercial flight design she made for a possible Air Force One they haven’t touched yet.”
“And?”
“I bought a plane factory and a private plane airline. I’m gonna sign her as designer of the airline, and for every jet we sell I’m giving her half the profits. Talked to legal, will have to go into a trust for her age, but I can pay her 40k for the first 50 we make and each 50 after.”
“Tony, I’m not seeing how this cracks the code?”
“Because I’ll be able to see how she codes this and I can work backwards from there.”
“And just what happens if you can’t crack this code either?”
“Well then, I’ll look into selling Stark industries to the kid because clearly I am out gunned and she deserves it.” Making Rhodey chuckle to himself.
 *.*.*
Pt 38
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