#sorry for my autism rant

[evilesbiautism]

The most common argument you'll hear against self diagnosis is that people will fake being [X] for attention. But every disabled person, physical or otherwise, knows this could only work in online spaces - the world was not made for us, and brandishing your disability as a badge of honor that gives you ~special privileges~ is such a funny idea.

Like, honey - that doesn't happen. No one gets anything from being disabled. Maybe extra accommodations if you're lucky - but nothing else. And the internet isn't as important as you seem to think - eventually it just feels hollow.

Ask disabled people how often they had to fight to get diagnosed so their medical needs could be met and their complaints would be heard. Doctors are just hardwired to delay this as much as possible.

I knew I was autistic since late 2018 - I got an official diagnosis 4 months ago. Knowing yourself and how you can make your own life easier is a lifesaver.

And this isn't even going into how many *cons* there are to a professional diagnosis, like being met with disdain at best and denied services at worst.

I don't care if a 16 year old who self diagnosed after taking 1 online quiz about autism is wrong. And honestly I think it's weird people treat this 'issue' with so much hatred.

[cogdominium]

saw a post in the corporate clash tag that caused me to black out and make this

[frogs00]

Quick rant, people who get pissed about ADHD, Autism, or OCD being called a disability are stupid.

That is what it is, it is a disability and does affect people’s daily lives. I understand not wanting to feel different and such, but it is a disability. “You aren’t disable, you’re just neurodivergent!” Neurodivergence is a disability and it’s fucking hard to live with. People shouldn’t be pushing this off and peoples needs because you want to.

Also, I am in fact physically disabled as well so don’t start anything.

[eclaire-went-bam]

i'm annoyed at how much the left values empathy specifically. you can do good things without having empathy, empathy is not an inherently good quality, and lacking it isn't inherently bad. i hate seeing lefties dunk on someone for "having no empathy," which may or may not be true, but considering how many people preach empathy as an inherent trait of the left & "goodness" is irksome. just dunk on someone for the bad actions they have done, it's not hard.

i know it's a good look to be empathetic, but it really does feel like the end-all-be-all here.

i can still have good politics and want better for people & the world without necessary having empathy for these things. i can still be passionate about certain issues just from a factual standpoint, i can still listen to people affected by them, without necessarily feeling empathy for those most affected by them.

it's just like that one tumblr posts where a user pointed out "yes, even free healthcare to annoying ppl like those who went blind at the nft convention" ;;

i doubt many people are empathetic towards them, but we still acknowledge they should benefit. generally speaking we're trying to benefit even those opposed to us with stuff like free housing & healthcare. those are our politics & beliefs, and they don't suddenly "turn off" when you seee someone you don't like. or, they shouldn't. i can hate someone & still believe they deserve the same rights as me. i could not care if someone died, & yet still believe they should at least be able to keep themselves alive with a minimum wage job

frankly, to suddenly change your beliefs on some specific cases bcs you don't like them specifically is fickle, just like how the left is all restorative justice, until it comes to a specific person or crime that is too far, then it's "maybe we should give the state the right to execute people !"

so it does baffle me why so many people here value empathy like it's an inherent trait in the left, or that those opposed to the left are incapable of empathy & therefore evil & demonic.

empathy can ignite action in most people who have the ability to experience it. but that doesn't mean only those people are or do good, and the language the left uses is real isolating for that.

[eshithepetty]

Ok. Watched dungeon meshi recently .... and why did noone tell me Falin is also autistic??

Like. Yes yes, all the mob vs laios autism polls are fun, but mob is so much more similar to Falin than Laios -  not just in how their autism manifests, or their personality, but like..... they're even both extremely powerful in their magical fields!! They both see and communicate with ghosts!!! They both ride the line between human and monstrous!!!! I love them so much...

But. If we're talking comparisons, between Mob and Laios...

I really think they're two sides of a coin. None is better than the other, they do vastly different things and are great in their own rights because of it.

Laios is an adult with autism who is surrounded by people who are annoyed by his presence or generally find him strange or offputting. He highlights the struggle of that, how hard it can be to find and keep true friends that actually care about you and aren't lying about just tolerating you when you're neurodivergent - and how even when you have great knowledge or skill in something, just as often it helps you, it will also make people look at you weird. He's loud. He's unapologetic. He's passionate!!! And the right people will come to appreciate that. But it doesn't erase the struggle that being so open often comes with.

Mob's narrative, on the other hand, is a coming of age story. It's about a traumatized autistic kid who isn't open, isn't loud, who makes an effort to not stand out - because he got burnt in the past, and he himself burnt others in the past, as a result of how his autism manifests. And it's about how he comes to realize that coming out of that shell is worth it. That there will be kind people waiting on the other side, that you're not doing anyone any good by ignoring your own wants and needs. That you have good to offer to the world!! That there's good people to meet !!! That you have more strength in yourself than you think !!!! And how even at your most destructive, all your flaws and true colors revealed, mask finally off .... your friends will still love you. Because you were always yourself. Even when you were hiding.

They do different things.

Dungeon meshi is a more realistic story - there's no otherwordly psychic powers amplifying the autistic symptoms present. It's just a weird, wonderful autistic man with his encyclopedia of knowledge and his small gaggle of friends. And the autism may not be absolutely central .. but it's there. Following the story every step of the way, influencing it that way or the other.

Mob Psycho 100 on the other hand is a lot more fantastical, and a lot more idealistic. There's no heavy worldbuilding to dive into, and the monsters and antagonists they face aren't the main course - instead, the main focus is on Mob, and his inner world, and gradually revealing more of it. In that way - while DM is an 'outside looking in' kinda story, mp100 is an 'inside looking out' one.

And I love both of them.

(Keep in mind I haven't read the dungeon meshi manga yet, just watched the anime ;^^ so I'm sorry that there's probably a lot more to add to the comparison on that front. Please don't spoil in the notes tho!!)

[sonicranger1]

Can't believe i'm forced to say this again but alas- (<- No one is forcing me to do this)

BESTIES! ERROR AND NIGHTMARE AREN'T CANON TO INK! DREAM IS NOT CANON TO INK!

The only one that could possibly be canon to Ink is Swap if we take into consideration the canceled comic Comyet did a long while back! And the art Comyet has done with Ink and Error I'm 99% sure is just a what-if, not canon interpretation on how they think they possibly would interact together

Everytime I see someone with their full chest exclaim how the dream twins or Error are canon to ink I internally die inside I'm sorry

[virmbot]

Random ass post but like, people being open and accepting of autism n stuff is great but like... it might just be me but i like never hear people talk about adhd. Its probably stupid but like people are always like "this character has autism" but i never see the same for adhd and whenever i do its usually overshadowed by autism hcs or whatever, i didnt even know there was an adhd awareness month until recently and i fucking HAVE adhd, i grew up with this shit! Dont even get me started on representation in media, like, i dont relate to any of those characters at all! Like wow, thanks, the representation i get is bart fucking simpson. Idk i just wanted to yell into the void, people are probably gonna hate me for this but i don't really care

[benrybenrybenry-chr]

I can never truly claim that Sherlock Holmes is a small fandom despite nobody my age in my city even really knowing abt it because it USED to be so popular and adapted every five seconds but it ISNT anymore and everyone only knows bbc sherlock which is FINE but I'm DISAPPOINTED and-

[autisticlee]

"good people are out there you just need to get out and find them"

cool thanks. but i'm too tired to keep ~going out and looking for them~ i'm too tired to keep trying, using up all my energy, getting super overwhelmed and burnt out after just a couple weeks of trying as hard as I can, met with other people barely trying back or not being very responsive, and needing to recover from it for a year or more each time because it overwhelms and burns me out so bad. I get nowhere no matter how hard I try, all i get is uselesss advice from people i try to befriend who dont want the responsibility of friending me. i'm tired of trying beyond my limits and causing more issues for myself. or dealing with issues I get from meeting the "wrong" people. if the "right" people exist, why can't they find me? why does it have to be only my job? i'm too tired and overwhelmed and burnt out to do it!!!!! the right people will just easily help and be there for me right? so I guess i just have to keep waiting for them for all eternity????? i'm tired of waiting. give me more than "just wait/keep trying/don't give up" because those instructions unclear and my useless attempts are very discouraging and exhausting and i'm so overwhelmed that i'm losing the ability to even socialize at a minimum at all now!!!!

if humans are meant to be social creatures and we require positive interactions with each other to stay healthy, then why do humans ostracize their own? why do some of us struggle so much and are denied any help and instead blamed? why can't I be given advice on how to live a lonely life without anyone else by my side instead of being told "one day! keep trying! you need people because it's essential to being human!" even though i've been waiting for "one day" for 25 years and could wait 25 more, or even longer? I don't know what i'm doing wrong or how to improve it so waiting is all I have. what if I wait forever?

[lemonthepotato]

I diagnose her with tism.

will do nontism pink icons too. wanted to add the infinity symbol somewhere but uh… I couldn’t get it to look fine so w/e.

[venu6star]

as much as i love braime with all my heart i wish ppl would talk ab brienne more individually and her character because i truly am obsessed with her!!! i think she’s one of the most revolutionary female characters ever tbh (i think a lot of the asoiaf girls are kinda revolutionary but that’s because they’re much more well written than a lot of characters) like when do creators ever let they’re supposedly “masculine” female characters be soft and genuinely empathetic as well as heroic?? when do creators ever let a woman be ugly! like the complexity of her never being able to fit in anywhere, she’s not allowed to be woman because she’s ugly and the society she’s born in can’t even stomach her and when she tries to defy the gender roles that said society won’t even let her fit into by picking up sword she’s mocked and ridiculed and her womahood is stripped of her even more and tells her to be more like a woman !!! JUST RAHHHHH i love her sm i’m sorry ab this rant i’m tired and have been thinking ab her. BEFORE I END FHIS RANT i fuckjng HATE HATE HATE d&ds depiction of brienne they could not understand even what her arc was ab!!! they stripped her of everything she is!!! her loyalty, her naivety, her empathy, her heroism ITS ALL JUST GONE!!! instead they decide to make her the stereotypical badass androgynous warrior woman and like there’s nothing wrong with that trope hell i like it but all the nuance surrounding her arc and her gender are just gone. i would’ve loved to see gwen play a book accurate brienne because i loveee gwen and she is what saved show brienne for me

[oceanwithouthermoon]

idk if anyone else experiences this, but im SO bad at like picturing a characters voice when im reading something, like i guess some people can just automatically hear character voices of what theyre reading but it doesnt happen naturally for me at all so i always end up reading everything in my own voice.. but if im reading fanfiction or a book with a show/movie adaptation, i like to look up clips and try to listen to the characters voice while reading it so i can picture it better, and suddenly the text has SOOOO much more impact with the right voice.. i feel like this is gonna sound stupid or like common sense but i swear i just feel like im missing out because it doesnt have the same effect when i read it how i normally do..

very specifically talking about saiki, because he has such a specific tone and i just can't replicate it in my head no matter how hard i try, so whenever im reading the manga or a fic, i gotta listen to clips of him talking because the experience is so. much. better.

[penofwildfire]

Y'know I'm pretty sure obsessively thinking about a lego cartoon all day every day for over a decade to the point that it's a key part of your entire personality and one of the first things people know about you is just. Not a very allistic thing to do. Y'know? You understand me?

[skybristle]

maybe this is just me being annoyed but whenever i try to talk abt my ocs here [which i very rarely do for this exact reason] it always gets zero engagement whatsoever. like i dont come here for Attention i come here for interaction which do kind of go hand in hand but. getting like 7 likes any time i pour my heart out about my guys is. disheartening. and it sucks because talking abt them is part of the way to get people to care! but i dont have the motivation for comics all the time [and when i do they dont get much attention either]. i feel like i should just stick to discord but im soo desprate to be heard and i feel like its hard to find The Right People to talk to

[glowstickblood]

Having autism is genuinely an insane experience because so much of my life right now is trying to make sure I’m not getting irrationally angry at people for no reason,,,, Like I can not overstate how often the things that trigger my anger are absolutely no one else’s fault.

For example: when I’m cooking, unless you are doing the activity with me, I do not want you in the same room as me. It doesn’t matter if you’re just trying to hangout and talk, or just sitting down nearby, or even if you’re cooking your own meal - if you interact with me in any capacity while I am Doing The ThingTM I will be mad about it, and that’s not your fault!

The worst part is how unfair the whole situation is. It’s no one’s fault they wanna exist in a communal space with me, people don’t deserve to have my anger inflicted upon them for just being around! It’s also not fair to me because I don’t want to be upset at them? I don’t like being mad at people! I don’t like being angry! I refuse to hurt other people just because I have a weirdly specific trigger!

Autism really decides ‘No’ sometimes and I guess we (me) all just gotta deal with it huh?

[daily-lightbulbii]

(//i don't normally do text but cw in the tags erm. i went a little off track)