"good people are out there you just need to get out and find them"
cool thanks. but i'm too tired to keep ~going out and looking for them~ i'm too tired to keep trying, using up all my energy, getting super overwhelmed and burnt out after just a couple weeks of trying as hard as I can, met with other people barely trying back or not being very responsive, and needing to recover from it for a year or more each time because it overwhelms and burns me out so bad. I get nowhere no matter how hard I try, all i get is uselesss advice from people i try to befriend who dont want the responsibility of friending me. i'm tired of trying beyond my limits and causing more issues for myself. or dealing with issues I get from meeting the "wrong" people. if the "right" people exist, why can't they find me? why does it have to be only my job? i'm too tired and overwhelmed and burnt out to do it!!!!! the right people will just easily help and be there for me right? so I guess i just have to keep waiting for them for all eternity????? i'm tired of waiting. give me more than "just wait/keep trying/don't give up" because those instructions unclear and my useless attempts are very discouraging and exhausting and i'm so overwhelmed that i'm losing the ability to even socialize at a minimum at all now!!!!
if humans are meant to be social creatures and we require positive interactions with each other to stay healthy, then why do humans ostracize their own? why do some of us struggle so much and are denied any help and instead blamed? why can't I be given advice on how to live a lonely life without anyone else by my side instead of being told "one day! keep trying! you need people because it's essential to being human!" even though i've been waiting for "one day" for 25 years and could wait 25 more, or even longer? I don't know what i'm doing wrong or how to improve it so waiting is all I have. what if I wait forever?
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mentioned this in my last post under the cut but you have no idea how much it irked me as a physicist to read about how gege consulted a FUCKING ENGINEER about limitless. an engineer. an ENGINGEERRRRRR. i just. not even a mathematician? engineers don't work with theoretical physics. engineers hardly even work with nonreal math! you're out here designing a guy whose powers involve imaginary mass and divergent series and you DON'T even go to like the two fields that actually work with those things on a semi regular basis...an engineer.......what's he telling you....how to build a bridge?????????????
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I don’t care about New Year’s resolutions I don’t care about “it’s the start of the year, lose weight!!!” I don’t care about relationship advice for 2024 I don’t care I don’t care I don’t care
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i think the problem with being a dazai fan is people either love him like a pta mom or think hes The Devil from The Bible. im not saying this in a "everyone needs to see him the same way i do" way but i do think to have like. a proper appreciation for him you do have to hate him a bit. and not in the like "stinky cat" or "pushing him down the stairs" way but in the like "i genuinely wonder whats wrong with you" way. people tend to be in these really extreme camps where they either excuse his actions because he was also a victim or decide he just pretends to be good and he's never put the work in. and it makes it really hard to have a nuanced conversation about dazais time in the mafia or his actions currently, because people are either IN one of the mentioned camps, or they think YOU are. so it gets hard when it comes time to point out even something like him being both a Shitty teenager and a shitty Teenager. does that make sense
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