Ouhggg i thiunk it would be awesome to be interrogated. Pulling out every trick to get me to reveal information, it doesnt have to be true. Edge me till im shaking and slap me and threaten me with knives and mess with my brain and lie to me until i dont know whats real and whats fake and dont know whether you already know or not. Make me reveal my address, and now you can use that to make me do anything. God i wish i had someone irl who would indulge these sorta of fantasies i need to get messed up badddddd i need to be gaslit and manipulated
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Theres something deeply erotic about this photo
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trying to reconnect is so cool your heritage was forcibly removed from you because of imperialism, your family got assimilated because of racism, your country hates you and a random big city middle class white kid with a poorly hidden orientalism fetish can get more resources to learn your language than you . all of this while experiencing the biggest impostor syndrome. i cant even say im reconnecting with my full chest bc i just feel like a fish thrashing in a net and all ive got is this slavic language . what if i exploded
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Lies like a sailor
But he loves like a painter
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sometimes i forget that I actually do have a direct link to brutal colonization cause I was raised in america and I mostly know about african american issues but then remember that my grandpa's dad was tortured by british colonizers for being like, a Wise Man and the british didn't want any leaders left.
and that really fucked up my grandpa and he was kind of a huge piece of shit to my dad, but he was ALSO a genius who built structurally sound three story buildings that are still in place to this day because they were verified by engineers to be Actually Well Built. without even like, knowing how to read.
AND my dad got a free pass to america and has multiple PhDs and masters and like. idk. I guess I'm just feeling appreciative cause my moms side of the family has constantly been downplaying his achievements all my life cause they're all racist petty assholes.
and then mom has the GALL to say we're all Super Smart because of HER side of the family and not because of the side that literally had a professional wise man, then a genius engineer, and then my dad who has multiple doctorates. The fuck. I'm not at one of the best art colleges in the USA because of you're petty mediocre snide judgmental side of the family, MOM.
in conclusion i once again want to kill my mother
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
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wear headphones :)
Transcript:
As much as I'd love to witness more of your prowess, I'd very much like to have that body of yours.
Is that a strap-on?
Machine, I'll cover you in more than blood.
Fuck. *exhale* Shit. Fuck-God! mmmm-ohohoho. fuck. fuck. h-Harder, Machine. Mph! *whimper* Hah... Come on!
End transcription
Sorry for this. I promise this is the worst thing I'll ever post. Unless he somehow manages to do something worse.
I can't really provide the audio sources in a neat way because this is 6 clips stuck together.
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Shipping destiel on the cusp of 2024 is like raising your sword for an army long locked in war against their cruel king. They have been feuding for centuries, the winner never clear and no end in sight. But there is a prophecy, aged a thousand years, and it says that in the year 2024 a hero will appear to lead you to victory. To freedom. To peace. And when 2024 comes, you see a bright light on the horizon. You look closer, eager to gaze upon your savior, and it turns out to be fucking jensen ackles, former knight to the king. And you say "sir ankles, have you truly forsaken your king? Have you come to fight for our cause and deliver us to victory?" And he says "lol idk maybe." And in that moment you know with the utmost certainty that when you ride into battle led by sir jankles, you will probably just be shanked (probably by sir jankles) and die in a ditch. And yet. You pick up your sword. For desitel.
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