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the breaking point | no more secrets.
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this is part of hayden’s background! this will help you to get to know her more and understand her past :)
this is part 3/4 of haydens past! i suggest you read the other parts to make sense of everything! find the mini series masterlist here!
May 11th, 2022 | age 18.
Four weeks of living in your car. Three weeks since Beth tried to stop you. One second away from falling apart.
You were exhausted and a shell of yourself.
It had been nearly a month since your world quietly collapsed. A whole month since you’d started sleeping in the back of your car with the seats pushed down, the hard flooring digging into your ribs and your hoodie bunched beneath your head for a pillow. Since showers at the club became your only source of warmth. Since meals became something you earned with polite smiles and lies about different things.
You’d learned how to manage.
Sort of.
You kept your clothes in your gym bag. They folded with care at first, then just shoved in wherever they’d fit. You learned which staff left early and which ones wouldn’t ask questions if you lingered too long. You knew how to time your arrivals so that no one would notice you were always the first one in and the last one out.
But your body was beginning to betray you.
You’d gotten quieter. Quicker to snap, slower to recover in drills. You weren’t crying yet, but you were close. Your throat had that tight, burning feel all the time now. It was like you were always one comment, one mistake, one joke away from breaking.
Then your luck finally ran out.
You were in the locker room, tiredly changing out of your training gear, when your locker door swung open and everything spilled out.
Your whole life that was in your bag was now on the floor, on display for everyone to see.
The room fell silent. Conversations stopped and all eyes diverted to you before looking at everything that was spilt on the floor. It was exactly normal stuff to keep in your training bag.
Everything was everywhere.
Toiletries. A crumpled photo of you, Maisie and your mum before everything went wrong. Your favourite hoodie. All your socks. A half-eaten granola bar. Your charger, the notebook you used to write in when you couldn’t sleep, a beaten-up pair of trackies that hadn’t been washed in god knows how long.
Your whole life that was stuffed into one bag was now on show.
Katie snorted from across the bench. “Jesus, H, what have yer got in there? You bringing yer whole house or what eh?”
She was joking. You knew she was joking. You could hear the lightness in her tone, the way the others chuckled.
But your heart dropped through your stomach.
Because that was exactly what you were doing. That was your house beside everything else that was packed into boxes and bags in your car.
Your mouth opened, but no sound came out. Your chest started to cave in, the noise of the room muffled around you like you were underwater. You bent down to shove things back into the bag, hands shaking, too fast, too clumsy.
Don’t cry.
Don’t cry.
Don’t cry. Not here.
You grabbed the photo, stuffed it deep under your clothes, zipped the bag with trembling fingers, and bolted.
You heard someone call your name but you didn’t stop.
You barely made it down the corridor before your knees buckled. You slumped against the wall, body trembling, vision blurring. You pressed your fists to your mouth to stop the sobs, but the panic was already in your bloodstream.
Your chest felt tight.
Too tight.
Your fingers tingled.
You couldn’t breathe.
Your brain screamed move, run, get out of here, but your body wouldn’t.
You didn’t even hear them coming.
Beth dropped down in front of you first, her voice low and steady. “Hayden. Hey, hey, it’s okay. I’m here.”
Viv appeared next, crouching beside her, hand reaching to rest gently on your knee. “You’re okay, just breathe, okay?”
And then Leah, her brows pulled together in quiet concern, sliding down the wall to sit beside you.
“I c-can’t—” you gasped, hands trembling against your mouth. “I can’t—”
“You’re alright,” Beth said softly, taking one of your hands and holding it between her own. “Breathe in with me, okay? In… and out. Just follow my voice.”
You tried.
You really tried.
And eventually, your chest started to loosen. The buzzing in your fingers eased. The pressure behind your eyes didn’t, but at least the panic started to calm down enough for you to speak.
“I didn’t mean to—” you choked. “I just…I’m tired. I-I’m so fucking…tired.”
“We know,” Viv said gently. “We’ve seen it. It's okay, we’ll help you.”
The sob bursted out before you could stop it.
“Hayden, what’s going on, kid?” Leah asked you gently, “Please just tell us so we can help.”
“I-I’ve been… living in my car.” The words spilled out quickly. “M-my parents k-kicked me out. They…they came home and-and found me kissing Grace. Said I was disgusting. Said I wasn’t welcome anymore. I didn’t know where to go, and I thought if I told anyone here, I’d get benched or dropped or—I don’t know. I just didn’t want to lose this too.”
Leah’s face didn’t even flicker with judgment, only pain. The kind you feel when someone else’s hurt cuts too close to your own. She slid closer, gently brushing her shoulder against yours.
“They said I was disgusting,” you whispered, your voice cracking. “They said I was an embarrassment… and then they told me to pack my shit and leave. And I did. I just… I left.”
Viv raised an eyebrow, “And you’ve been living in your car since then?”
You nodded, shame rising in your throat like bile as you wiped your eyes. “Almost four weeks. I park near the training ground or sometimes outside a Tesco because the lights make me feel safer. I–I shower here, eat what I can from the canteen, I do my washing at a local laundrette. I keep thinking I’ll figure it out, that it’s temporary, but I’m so tired. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.”
Beth was shaking her head slowly, eyes glossy. “Why didn’t you tell me when I stopped you that day in the car park?”
“Because I didn’t want to be anyone’s charity case,” you said hoarsely. “I didn’t want to ruin what I have here. I finally had something good. I was scared that if I told someone, it’d all disappear. And I didn’t think anyone would… care.”
“Hayden,” Beth said, voice firm now, no space for argument, “we do care. I care. Viv cares. Leah cares. We all do.”
“You could kiss a girl in front of this whole team and the only thing anyone would say is, ‘about bloody time,’” Leah added, trying to soften the moment with a smile. “You’re not wrong for who you love. You love who you love. That’s it. No one would even bat an eyelid here if you kissed a girl.”
Beth leaned in. “Do you know how many of us are gay or somewhere on that spectrum?”
You blinked through your tears.
“We’re not a straight squad,” Viv said dryly. “We’re far from straight, Hayden.”
That pulled the smallest laugh out of you, and it nearly undid you again, how kind they were. How simple they made it sound, like love wasn’t something shameful, but something worth defending. Something worth holding onto.
“I–I don’t want to be a problem,” you said weakly, voice cracking again.
“You’re not a problem,” Beth insisted. “You’re a person. One we love. You’re eighteen, Hayds. You’re meant to be figuring life out, not surviving it on your own.”
You wiped at your eyes with the cuff of your sleeve. “I—I don’t know where to go. I can’t–can't afford my own place.”
“You’re coming with us,” Beth said immediately. “You’re moving in.”
Your head jerked up. “What?”
“We’ve got a spare room at our flat, you can move in with me and Viv.
“I don’t want to get in the way of you and Viv and your relation—”
“You won’t,” Viv interrupted. “We want you there. Both of us.”
Beth nodded firmly, the most serious you’d ever seen her be. “We’re serious, Hayden. You’re not going back to that car, not even for one more night.”
You opened your mouth, ready to protest, to tell them you didn’t want to be a burden or take up space or ruin whatever rhythm they had in their lives. But the words didn’t come. Because the truth was, the offer felt like oxygen. Like a lifeline thrown into the ocean that you were drowning in.
“I don’t have much,” you said quietly. “Just the stuff in my bag and the boxes in my car but I can buy some bits.”
“Don’t worry about it,” Beth said with a soft shrug like it was no big deal. “We’ll swing by and get it after training. You can crash at ours tonight.”
“You don’t even have to unpack right away,” Viv added, “Just… breathe for a bit, okay?”
You didn’t say anything. You couldn’t. Because if you spoke, you were certain you’d cry again. So you nodded instead, tears silently slipping down your cheeks.
Leah stood then and offered you the gentlest grin. “I’ll cover for you with Jonas. Just take the rest of the day. Get your stuff, get settled.”
“But training—”
“You’re eighteen and barely holding yourself together,” Leah said gently. “There’s more to life than football, kiddo. And right now, you need to take care of yourself. Football will still be here tomorrow.”
You nodded again, fingers still trembling in shock.
Beth and Viv helped you up, neither one rushing you. Viv steadied you with a hand on your elbow while Beth picked up your gym bag from where you’d dropped it. You didn’t ask how she found it.
You must’ve dropped it when you rushed out, or maybe one of the girls brought it to her. Either way, it was held gently like something precious, not like it was just a crumpled pile of clothes and a life you’d tried to keep hidden.
No one said anything as they walked you out of the training ground.
The ride to their flat was quiet, you weren’t in any fit state to drive so you got into Beth and Viv’s car. Viv of course played Taylor Swift and no one pressed you to talk. When you got there, Beth handed you the key to the flat like it had always been yours.
That evening was quieter than you expected.
Not heavy, not awkward. Just soft and safe.
Beth didn’t hover, but she didn’t leave you alone either. She kept herself busy in the kitchen unpacking the takeaway that she’d ordered, fussing with drinks and plates and cutlery like it was a dinner party.
Viv moved around with her usual quiet efficiency, clearing space on the coffee table, lighting a candle like it was the most normal thing in the world to do for a shell-shocked teenager who’d just admitted to living out of a car.
You sat on the edge of the sofa, hands in your lap, shoulders tense like you were waiting to be told it was all a joke. That they didn’t actually mean it. That this kindness had an expiration date or they expected you to clean like Cinderella and pay all the bills.
“Got your korma, me lady,” Beth said jokingly, placing the takeaway container in front of you. “And your naan bread. Obviously.”
You nodded, managing a small, grateful “thanks” as you reached for the warm food. It smelled like comfort. Like something real and solid.
The TV played quietly in the background, some reality show neither of them seemed to be watching. It filled the silence in a way that made it feel like home rather than something temporary.
It took a few bites of food before your stomach even remembered what hunger felt like. Then you ate like you hadn’t eaten in days, because you kind of hadn’t. No one commented. Beth just refilled your water glass once. Viv slid a second naan across the table like it was nothing.
When you finally stopped, too full to finish, you sat back and wiped your hands on the napkin.
“This is nice,” you said quietly like admitting it out loud might make it disappear. “Thank you.”
Beth smiled at you over her food. “It is. And you can stay as long as you want. I mean that.”
“I don’t even know how to say thank you,” you murmured.
“You don’t need to,” Viv smiled. “Just eat, sleep, be here.”
You nodded, throat tight again. You glanced around the flat. It was warm and lived in a way yours never had been. There were framed photos on the shelves. Beth with Leah, Viv with her parents, a Polaroid of the two of them at some holiday market, bundled up and smiling.
It was a home.
Not just a house.
And now, somehow, it was yours too.
“Do you want to call Grace?” Beth asked gently, like she already knew the answer might be no.
You hesitated, then shook your head. “I don’t think she knows what happened. We haven’t… spoken. Not since my parents kicked her out.”
Viv looked over, eyes understanding. “Maybe tomorrow.”
“Maybe.” You shrugged.
You sat there a while longer. Eating. Breathing. Just existing without the weight of survival pressing into your ribs. Eventually, Viv disappeared into the back and came out holding a hoodie. It was clean, soft, and a little oversized.
“Figured you might want something comfortable,” she said, offering it.
You took it with both hands, “Thank you.”
“Bathroom’s second door on the right. A spare toothbrush is in the drawer.”
You nodded. That night, you showered until the water turned cold and then stood there a little longer anyway, just breathing in steam. When you finally padded down the hallway with wet hair and damp sleeves, the flat was dark except for the soft glow of the lamp in the living room.
Beth was waiting by the door to the spare room. She didn’t say anything, just opened the door and nodded toward the bed already made up with fresh sheets.
You turned to her at the threshold, voice small. “You really don’t mind?”
Beth just shook her head and opened her arms.
You walked into them without thinking. She held you like she meant it. Like you were something precious instead of broken.
“I’ve got you,” she whispered. “I’ll always be here, I promise.”
And for the first time in weeks, you believed someone.
When she let go, she smiled and nodded toward the bed. “Get some sleep, Hayds.”
“You know your birthday’s in a few days, yeah?” she said eventually, her voice soft.
You blinked. “Yeah. I… kind of forgot.”
Beth tilted her head, giving you a look like, of course, you did. “Well, we didn’t. Viv’s already made a list. She’s weirdly intense about birthdays even though she’s an awkward tattie. You’ll see.”
You stared at her. “You’re doing something for it?”
Beth smiled. “Of course we are. You think we’d let your first birthday with us go unnoticed?”
You shrugged, not trusting your voice. “I’m not really used to… doing anything. Last year my parents didn’t even say anything. Just gave me twenty quid and told me not to be dramatic about it.”
Beth’s smile faded. “Then this year, we’re doing it properly. Cake, food, whatever you want. Presents. You don’t even have to wear jeans.”
That pulled a small laugh out of you, and Beth grinned.
“You’re part of this family now, Hayden. That means birthdays get celebrated, and feelings are allowed, and you don’t have to carry everything by yourself anymore.”
You nodded slowly. “I don’t even know how to… let people do that.”
“We’ll teach you,” Beth said simply. “You’ve got time.”
You curled up under the duvet that smelled faintly like lavender and clean laundry. You held the hoodie to your chest and stared at the ceiling until your eyes got too heavy to fight.
And when you finally fell asleep, it was the first time you didn’t dream about being left behind.
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Some general fandom suggestions
I've been a quiet observer in this fandom for some time, and wanted to make some suggestions. You can take or leave them, it's not my job to police anyone (although there are certainly those who will tell you it's theirs-- it isn't, btw). We've reached a point in this fandom where Jakolas and the 2 Antukes in the world are in adversarial positions to Lukolas. The opposite of love isn't hate- it's indifference. If both of these ships were so confident that they've manifested and are sailing along smoothly, they'd simply ignore us rather than antagonize people who haven't been public facing in the fandom for some time or make wild claims about what Nic or Luke are doing in terms of Lukolas. They're out there doing these things because they do not feel confident in their respective ships since there are a lot of red flags and inconsistencies there. I'm not going to list them because there are so many Lukola bloggers doing an excellent job pointing them out and also because any time we put them out on main, our fave's teams are out there taking our suggestions and trying (and failing, hilariously) to make them look more real. I feel completely indifferent toward Jakolas and Antukes for the reasons listed above.
Now, I am going to address the Lukolas in the room. We have nothing to defend against with Jakolas and Antukes. None of these people, including JD, A, N or L owe us any real glances into their private lives, which I firmly believe we're not getting much of rn because they're on high alert. Historically, when people have quieted down in this fandom, N/L have dropped more hints, whether intentional or unintentional (I'm guessing more the latter than the former).
N has never been public facing in an authentic relationship. If you look back over her history, she mentioned one live-in bf during a podcast interview in 2019 or 2020, but we still don't know his identity. Laurie, who she was reported to be dating, had a long-term male partner he was with while they were linked. She seemingly wasn't with Eamon either, who was spotted kissing a woman that he is now with the month after she attended the RN premiere with him. Alot of these people are listed as her rumored significant others, still, when you go on websites and look at her dating history.
The current approach of some bloggers/ creators to put everything on main isn't going to make her feel more comfortable sharing authentically. I don't blame her. Things got very personal very quickly and seemingly things that were intended to be private were shared without a filter.
Part of the bigger issue we have rn in the fandom, is a general need to be right about everything. I have news for you: every last one of us, every last Jakola, every last Antuke could be wrong. We don't actually know N or L. And again, they don't owe us anything. But the bottom line is any person who says anything as fact is blatantly incorrect here.
Wikipedia changed their rule for updating stars' personal lives in reaction to the many falsehoods published by tabloids. As I mentioned earlier, N is consistently linked with people she never dated in the past. This would be an example of a falsehood. The difference is that she was much less famous at that point and hadn't gone on a 6 month world tour with over 40 hours of interviews with her professional bestie/make out partner. Therefore, tabloids are no longer considered a 'source.' The source would have to be a reputable magazine or a statement from the celebrity themselves. Everything else is simply rumor or conjecture.
But specifically, within the Lukolas, telling anyone what to think or believe is a fool's errand. I can't control what's going on in anyone's head any more than the next person. Similarly, what's said in group chats (IMHO) is not for public consumption. However, when we get to public comment, that's where it gets sticky.
It's important to remember that the parties involved (especially if it does come out at PR at some point), are actual human beings with families. Does it mean I believe they're actually dating these people? No. Do I have to believe that to be respectful? No. Does it mean I have to like them? No. Does it mean I have to respect them? Also no. Does it mean I have to ship them with N or L? Hell no. But does it mean that I should reserve unkind commentary and off color jokes for the gc/ my own twisted mind? Yes. Yes it does.
Alot of the public discussion right now is in absolutes and, "I'm right, you're wrong, get over it." The reality is, nobody, not even the bigger creators or bloggers, actually know N or L. Not even the ones who have met them multiple times. And at the end of the day, I just hope they know there are some people out there who legitimately enjoy their work, want the best for them both, and hope they feel comfortable sharing the truth at some point.
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𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 . . . THE GOSSIP PAGE

a series of clippings of various articles from the hogwarts herald: the school newspaper detailing the progression of my relationship with sirius black and remus lupin. well, at least the public part of it and the scandals that followed us getting together.

𝐆𝐎𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐏 𝐏𝐀𝐆𝐄 . . . 𝐏𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐓 𝐔𝐏 !

as the 1977 school year begins at hogwarts, more than grades are up. old tensions between heirs of pureblood families rise once more. slytherin prince, edmund crowley and gryffindor rebel, sirius black are at each other's throats once more.
many confrontations have already been documented by observing students. the first of which was on the hogwarts express, before either of them had even stepped foot onto the castle's grounds for their fifth year.
however, this year, their arguments have a strange new tension. an almost intimate air colors their words. its starting to make the rest of us wonder: is there more than hate between the prince and the rebel? and, if so, will either of them choose to acknowledge it?
𝐆𝐎𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐏 𝐏𝐀𝐆𝐄 . . . 𝐒𝐋𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐆𝐑𝐘𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐑 𝐑𝐄𝐁𝐄𝐋 𝐀𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐘𝐔𝐋𝐄 𝐁𝐀𝐋𝐋 ?

the yule ball is the biggest dance of all the sabbat celebrations at hogwarts and who goes with each other to the ball is always a source of gossip. however, this year's scandal might just be the biggest in a long time.
the ball had already begun, festivities and music filling the air. the doors opened and everything stopped. cleaned up in a scarlet suit with black curled tamed, walked in sirius black. however, on his arm, was most unexpected. the proper figure of edmund crowley.
the two danced at the ball together and vanished before the event ended, leaving whispered gossip in their wake. the bitter rivals, walking arm in arm as partners into the biggest ball of the year?
now, its got all of us at the hogwarts herald wondering, how long have these two been seeing each other and what will their next steps be? will the rivalry continue or will it fizzle out as new emotions take the front seat?
𝐆𝐎𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐏 𝐏𝐀𝐆𝐄 . . . 𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐀 𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐋𝐒 !

amorentia days always create buzz amongst the student body of hogwarts. it fuels much of our gossip column. however, I think this might be a first.
the moment potions class ended, the word got out. he said, she said, they said. it spread like wildfire. three students had two scents come out of their amortentia. . . each other! and its none other than sirius black, edmund crowley, and remus lupin.
black and lupin have been known to be close friends for a long time, and crowley and black attended last yule ball together. but, each of them having two scents in their amorentia is unheard of.
neither of the three parties involved in this scandal have elected to give their comments, not have they made any public moves. but, who knows what's going on in their hearts?
𝐆𝐎𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐏 𝐏𝐀𝐆𝐄 . . . 𝐇𝐎𝐆𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐒 '𝐍𝐄𝐖𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐏𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 ... 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐏𝐋𝐄 ?

breaking gossip news! the feelings first uncovered on amorentia day have finally come to a resolution. sirius black, remus lupin, and edmund crowley have publicly announced their relationship.
after being avoidant in defining their relationship with each other, the three have finally come forward and have been seen together in hogsmeade on dates.
when asked to comment, crowley said; "yeah? they're both my boyfriends? if you have something you want to say, you can direct your concerns to me. just don't be surprised if you have to see madam pomfrey afterwards." to which, black added, "believe me, he's being dead serious." followed by lupin's snort of laughter.
this unconventional throuple is going to continue to break standards and care very little what people think of them. and frankly, I think that's beautiful.

(🎪 back to the circus itinerary. . .)
#eddie's marauders reality#shiftblr#reality shifting#shifting#shifting realities#desired reality#shifting community#eddie's drs#shifting to marauders era#marauders shifting#marauders era dr#marauders dr#hogwarts shifting#hogwarts dr#shifting to hogwarts#jtscircusevent 🂱#shifting s/o#dr s/o#eddie's pining ღ sirius black#eddie's pining ღ remus lupin
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okay fuck it i wasn’t going to post this but i'm having a moment.
i know we kind of know nothing at this point. a lot of filming has been away from the public eye since there are actors who haven’t been seen on set that we know for sure are in the show. plus anything we have seen is out of context. so really any assumptions would be jumping the gun a little bit, which means this is my disclaimer that i hope i'm completely wrong about what i'm saying and look very stupid later but.
it’s looking more and more like this show completely fumbled foggy nelson and kirsten mcduffie and just gave their roles to karen? which is crazy because as much as i love the OG show they already did that to ben urich (which they were criticized for by comic fans) and then of course there are the many debates about elektra among various sections of fandom. but repeating the ben mistake with foggy while also doing it 20x worse to a character that's even worse to do it to and then just giving kirsten NOTHING to work with is fucking crazy.
and as someone who also ships k*redevil, thought they had a real chance at something after s3, always imagined they would've been together in canon by the end of the OG 5 seasons they originally wanted, and wanted them to be endgame (because sadly and unfortunately, neither show was ever going to make foggy and matt happen lol), this is so insanely off-putting to me, to the point that it may start putting me off things i previously liked if that’s what they did come next year when s2 comes out.
the way karen was originally ignored by this new show is wild and stupid, but i really don’t think the reverse should be happening like this or that karen should be getting literally everything now, all at the expense of the entire rest of the comic book cast, particularly dd’s most important longest running supporting character foggy and arguably matt’s best comic book love interest kirsten (she's SO much more than that too obviously, but like.. the new show isn't letting her be those things either?)
karen has been dead in the comics for a long time. i've always thought her show version should survive and that they shouldn’t kill her, and i stand by that, and i was impressed and glad when they subverted it in s3. but they could’ve kept karen alive and kept her a main character and gave her all the importance she deserves and even had a k*redevil endgame without it being done like this.
there's absolutely a world where they respect foggy's place and importance in matt's life and keep him included and alive, kirsten is treated as the badass she is and gets to do all kinds of law stuff with matt and foggy (and be a supportive friend, if they didn't want to do love interest, because they could still honor the spirit of their relationship), and karen still gets to be everything that was already awesome about her in the OG show.
the writing for this show (yes, even in the new episodes by the new team) is not good enough to justify the decisions being made or the disrespect to almost literally every character.
if you want to diverge from the comics, you don’t solve the issue of karen not being alive anymore by just deleting everyone else's relevancy and replacing every other character that exists with her so you can prop her up. she doesn't even need that, the character the OG show created in her was already awesome. you create new stories and show what having her around would’ve added. you bring back older stories she was in and recontextualize them. you respect the other characters that matter instead of taking things away.
you definitely DON'T antagonize and dismiss and disappoint fans of the source material who care about this stuff just to push your agenda. and this will just turn some fans even more against the ship and the character when they already had a hill to climb with some parts of this fandom. which sucks because i originally hoped that in a world where this show was good that people would change their minds about it, but now i just can't blame them anymore. in the words of matt (apparently), 'fuck it'.
this new show is literally like a dark twisted mirror version of the series i love, like the ultimate be careful what you wish for, and i’m so sad about it today. wish it just stayed cancelled at this point.
#i really tried not to complain today but#i'm livid over the amount of storylines they've adapted and seem to be adapting where they just removed important foggy stuff#because they'd rather just throw him away and make it about somebody else#and honestly justice for kirsten too and every other comic book character that deserved better#like honorable mention to cole who didn't deserve any of what they did to him lmao
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Mary Floyd, Part 1
I've kept y'all waiting long enough for this post, happy Valentine's Day
Born March 6, 1764 in Mastic, Suffolk, New York

Mary with Henry and Maria circa 1790. Note the little toy carriage on the ground. That's a whole ‘nother discussion on changes on views of children and their development, but I wanted to point out how adorable it is.
Here, you can see Setauket and the dropped pin is the Floyd estate.
Looking at one of the very few (if not only) identified letters written by Mary, she signed them Maria, and had the nickname Polly as well. (As noted in Jefferson’s letters to his daughter and to Madison where he says Polly Floyd.) For the purposes of this post, I will refer to her as Mary, to distinguish from Maria Hallett and Maria Tallmadge Cushman.
Mary was born to Hannah Jones Floyd (1740-1781) and to Major General William Floyd (1734-1821) who were married in 1760. She grew up with her older brother Nicoll (1762-1852) and her younger sister Catherine ‘Kitty’ (1767 - 1832).
After Hannah died, William remarried Joanna Strong (1742-1826) of Setauket in 1784. Yes, those Strongs. William and Joanna had two children Ann (1785-1809) and Elizabeth (1789-1820). Mary had already married to Ben and was living Connecticut when Ann was born, so she likely did not have much interaction with her two younger half sisters.
Not much is known about Mary's early life. Her mother and father were prominent patriots. William was elected to the provincial assembly in 1769 and was selected as a delegate for the first Continental Congress. He became a colonel (through nomination) of the Western Regiment of Suffolk County and eventually rose to the rank of Major General. He split his duties between the military and Congress while also trying to find time to be with his family.
While he was away, Hannah took over running of the estate. It should be said that there were enslaved people at the Mastic estate. In a 1790 census there were 14 enslaved people and 5 free people of color working at the mastic estate. Before the war, sources are not clear, but it is likely that any enslaved persons at the estate either came to Connecticut with the refugees or joined the British with the promise of freedom.
When Mary was 12, the Floyd family fled with other refugees to Connecticut after the British took Long Island. Family history says that Hannah buried the family silver before fleeing with her children and neighbors across the sound. For the next seven years the family lived in Middleton, Connecticut while the British used the Mastic house for their cavalry units for the rest of the war.
This may have been one of the pieces of family silver buried. It belonged to Mary’s paternal grandparents
Hannah enrolled all three children in school while in Middleton, and William would visit his family often when he could be excused from his duties in Congress. However, the family were refugees, and only very little pay was provided by Congress for William’s duties. I could not find much more information about this, but it wouldn't be far fetched to infer that there was financial insecurity.
Tragedy struck the Floyd family again. Hannah, unfortunately would never see their home again. Her health had declined and she died May 16, 1781 at the age of 41. She was buried in Connecticut. Mary was 17.
It is not known who took care of the Floyd children while their father served in congress, but by the winter of ‘82-83 they were living at Mary House’s boarding house with their father in Philadelphia.
Benjamin Tallmadge, being of the second continental dragoons, had visited Middleton several times during the war. He set up winter quarters in Wethersfield, Connecticut, just by Middleton in the Winter of 76-77, he also tells of visiting Wethersfield in the winter of 79-80. Additionally there was a winter camp in Durham and he passed through Middleton several times while serving in the dragoons. It is extremely likely if not certain that he met Mary and the rest of the Floyd family during this time.
As soon as word of peace came, William returned to his home in Mastic to find the estate completely ransacked. He rebuilt the house and on April 29, 1783, he and his children left Philadelphia for Long Island.
It was during the winter and spring of 1783 that James Madison fell in love with Catherine while in Philadelphia. You can read the letters between Thomas Jefferson and Madison where they mention Kitty. Portrait miniatures were shared, very common among engagements. Sadly for Madison, by late July, Kitty had fallen in love with William Clarkson (later on Dr. Clarkson) and broke off the engagement, leaving Madison heartbroken. According to one source, he never got over Kitty. He found old letters that he had written to Jefferson about her and was so upset he inked out the references to his love for her.
Speaking of Thomas Jefferson. Mary and Martha ‘Patsy’ Jefferson (daughter of Jefferson, not wife) were penpals. Only one letter can be found in the Library of Congress but based on the letters Jefferson and Madison sent each other, and the letters between Jefferson and his daughter, there were far more between the girls.
But Jefferson’s letter to Madison mentions a bundle of enclosed letters from Patsy to Mary.
The letter Mary wrote that was mentioned above was dated January 11, 1784. It includes references to Patsy enjoying the song she sent and her desire to see Patsy again… but not in Virginia. It’s likely these two met in Philadelphia
It’s strange that she never mentioned a certain Colonel Tallmadge. Maybe he hadn’t gotten to Mastic yet or the courtship was not yet as serious to lead to an engagement. Or perhaps she mentioned it in a previous letter. We may never know.
It was over autumn and winter of 1783-84, according to Ben’s memoirs, that he visited areas of Long Island, including Mastic. Not much about their courtship, but it is clear that they absolutely loved each other.
I will cover the rest of her life in the next part.
#mary floyd#mary floyd tallmadge#benjamin tallmadge#william floyd#turn: washington's spies#turn amc#turn washingtons spies#american revolution#ollie fell down the rabbit hole#if you find any error let me know#sources for everything are in the next part
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People like this have made me terrified that I am mischaracterizing my favorite character by playing into his strengths and emphasizing them so much... That I'm making things "too anime", "too over-the-top", and by doing that straying away from the groundedness that made the character compelling in the first place... But I think it's better to be a fan who loves someone so much they're willing to step into goofy over-the-top showcases of strength and morals out of love than being a fake fan who only ever rags on what they proclaim is so dear to them. I dunno. I don't think I'm wrong in saying that. I'm hella insecure when it comes to my own writing, especially with this guy because I want to do him as much justice as I possibly can as a writer. But I have to convince myself that it's not too much.
#logs#it doesn't help that i've been exposed to a lot of bad writing and cynical critique in general‚ so i'm even more fearful...#but i think the cure for that is to just... read more‚ and read with an honest heart#i don't know... i feel like i have a lot of growth to do as a person‚ as a reader and writer before i can execute this to the level where it#can truly be considered a masterpiece. grounded‚ yet not so. over-the-top in every way while also providing meaningful critique and#commentary on the nature of humanity. gutwrenching dialogue packed neatly with the most insane displays of asskicking. commentary on how war#is cruel and bad and only sows misery contrasted with the coolest battle scenes you have ever seen. these are the essence of the things i#love‚ and i want to be able to channel that through my own writing as well. it's the only way to do justice to the source material‚ the only#way to truly pay a tribute to the things that i love.#now that i am free‚ i can finally become more cultured... read more books‚ watch more films‚ inhale old mecha anime... it's what i've always#dreamed of doing#i just need to undo the mental shackles of ''i cannot do this right now''... i can. i finally can. i just need to let my mind catch up to#that. give it a little push along the way#once that's done... the journey begins.#i anguish a lot over the fact that my writing is locked in a tomb for the next decade... but sometimes‚ like now‚ i think‚ hey‚ maybe that#isn't so bad. imagine how many movies you can watch in those ten years... good movies‚ bad ones‚ exceptional ones... i'll have grown so much#as a writer by that point in time because i'll have learned the ''how'' part of what i want to write. i have the ''what'' already‚ and a#general idea of ''how''‚ but... ten years from now‚ i'll be able to write everything in a way that truly makes my eyes shine#a rare moment of me being hopeful for the future... i cherish it as those don't last very long in my life. i more often tend to despair#(cursed be the chemical disbalance!)#but yeah. there is a lot to look forward to despite the hardships. sure it would've been nice to just... have it all here‚ but... that's not#the world i live in. and maybe this one isn't so bad‚ either.#i have my box of scraps. now i just need to make it out of the cave.#the deadliest type of man is one with motivation and a purpose. right?
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silly oc doodle..... ballroom yuri
#ocs#ok so im gonna ramble/complain in the tags for a bit bc i love to complain its mostly not even gonna be relevant to the ocs but anyway ok#yknow that diagram abt art skills thats like ability to see/ability to draw#im at the BAD PART OF IT RN#i wanna draw fanart so bad but then i get annoyed bc the fanart doesnt look as good as the source material GHRG which is a totally#unreasonable thing to think bc source material is drawn by Professionals but you know how it is. Art Hard etc etc complain etc etc#need to do more studies etc etc#i wanna be able to draw really good so i can draw the things i love!!!!! even if its hard and tedious i wanna practise!!!! i love art!!!!!!#dont think about whats easy think about whats fun - bokuto koutarou etc#anyway everyday i am sad i have to sit in front of a desk for 8 hours instead of practising drawing :( i wanna table at a con this year....#but is there even time.....#ANYWAY this is somewhat relevant bc in an effort to be less hard on myself mayhaps i will try draw more oc things so i dont feel pressure#(self imposed)#to make it perfect kjskjkd#or at least not as much#and hopefully get over my brain's tendency to Compare Everything#i have like 3 vague sets of ocs (one less vague than the others ive posted one of the characters from that on my main art blog before sjdks#these two are from the next less vague set there is a plot premise and some side characters too. shdks#i thought abt them a couple months ago but then i watched strictly ballroom w sophie n i was reminded of them again#anyway im not good at coming up w fully fleshed out stories i just like to doodle ppl n think of random connected scenarios sometimes sdjk#i did a mini free online life drawing course in the break n i tried to apply what i learnt here.... i will keep practising when i can.....#well. if u read all the way to the end. hello :) KJASKA#im going to shower....
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Except now we also have to contend with 'AI' (Machine learning) aggregates that make it even harder to find the Thing you need, because most the search results now are cloaked info-barfers that are just ouroboros-ing information tidbits that have a 50/50 or so chance of being even kinda right, so who knows if the Thing that you've been presented with even is the Thing.
This is especially frustrating when dealing with incredibly niche medical/surgical/biological information for what should be obvious reasons. You'll get a result, sure, but you'll need to spend an extra hour or so to make sure you don't end up in the hospital just because a formerly useful resource is now run by bots.
People are definitely going to die because of this.
"every possible kind of content can be found on the internet" yeah sure except for the One fucking thing I'm looking for. why does no one want to talk about the One Singular thing I'm looking for. but yeah other than that everything is on here.
#I mean I don't put all my eggs in internet search result baskets of course#but y'know sometimes it'd be nice to not have to go get an actual catalog to see what kind of poison something is#or how to do some kind of procedure#nowadays your best bet for accurate information is somehow reddit#crowdsourced info can have bad apples but bot sourced info is pretty much half meh apples and half rocks painted like apples#thankfully most people don't need to know how to do minor field surgery but most people have money#and/or access to doctors and proper vets#now; *I* know what I'm doing for the most part; but the next person who finds themself needing to learn might find it harder than I did#and disclaimer I don't make real surgery a habit; sibling and I have got debridement routine down pat#dead flesh isn't surgery but we follow similar protocols#with pretty good results so far if I do say so myself#had a hen with a nasty lookin pressure sore on her chest; is currently pretty much completely healed and fat and happy and warm all winter#cause she's been of service keeping my hen with balance issues company#rather wish I had process photos of that wound cause I think we did pretty darn good#it looked real gnarly at first#and I didn't find a ton of info online on it so it was pretty much 'welp we'll do what I'd do if it was me and keep a close eye on her'#btw hydrochlorous acid appears to be a legit fuckin godsend#done lots of research on it and actual trustworthy studies and shit have confirmed it's like both the gentlest and strongest anti-microbial#stuff's the shit#been using it on everything for years as vetricyn cause there's just. not a lot out there for farm animal care. but now I just get it from#the chemical manufacturer and it's so nice to have around#been using that for flushes for a good while; always seems to work great knock on wood#plus hey it's a good face cleanser#anyway#I am very tired#what else is new
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professor!John who teaches history at university. You finally have classes with him and since the beginning of the year, all the girls in your year talk about how hot he is. He is something over 40 and he won the secret dilf competition that you made with your friends.
You take extra good time preparing for his classes, not just you learn the materials for the lesson, you also make sure that your outfit looks nice, that your hair is perfectly styled, and your makeup looks flawless. You always wear short skirts and cute tops to his classes, and you are 100% sure that when you wear knee high socks, he looks at you more that on the other girls.
John noticed you the very first time you came to his class. You sat in the first row like the good girl you are, and you raised your hand every time he asked questions. There were so many girls in his classes who tried to seduce him, but none of them were as smart as you were. You always had perfect score on your test, and he knew that you wanted to make him proud. It was just a bonus that when you crossed your legs on the chair you were sitting, he could sometimes see your panties.
He tried to wait until the end of the year, to approach you, so he wouldn’t be your professor anymore when he would fuck you. But you gave him no choice with your flirty remarks and your outfits.
That’s why he called you into his office after your lesson ended. He wanted to speak with you about the paper you were working on, and he wanted you to tell him how it was going.
When you get into his office you start to talk about your paper. You hoped that he called you there for other reasons, but he is patiently listening while you ramble about the sources and literature you found. After a while he asks you if you would mind if he smoke, he tells you that he needs a little bit of relaxation before his next class.
You watched him as he lights up a cigarette and offers you one. You decline and watch him blow out the smoke. “You sure you don’t want one?” he asks and when you tell him that you never really smoked, he pats his thigh and tells you to come closer.
“You know, this time of the year everything is so hectic” he says, “maybe you could help me with some pent-up stress, you know. What you think?”
That’s how you end up on the floor on your knees under his desk. You kneel between his thighs unzipping his trousers and taking out his thick cock. He is bigger that you imagined, and you know that there’s no way you can take him whole into your mouth. He gathers your hair in his hand, and he makes you look up at him. “You always look so pretty for me, but I think you will look even better with these lips around my dick” he says, and he gently guides your head to his crotch.
You choke on him quite a lot. You can take half of his length without a problem but after that, your gag reflex makes you stop. You hear him mumble something about training your mouth. When John finishes his cigarette, he makes you stand up, your lipstick ruined, most of it is on his cock like a pretty mark you left.
He bends you over his desk, pulling your skirt up. You can feel his cock teasing you through your underwear. When he pulls your panties down and starts to push inside you can feel him stretching you. “Just like that, you’re taking me so well, you’re so wet for me” he says. John pushes one hand under your t-shirt, pulling it up so he can see your tits. He tells you to take it off, so you just stand there in your skirt and knee-high socks.
He fucks you rough, quick thrust that makes your eyes roll. He plays with your nipples, twisting and pulling them until your breast are sensitive. You know that you don’t have a lot of time, anytime now his colleague could come back from their lunch break and find you like this.
When John starts to rub circles on your clit you can feel your orgasm approaching. With one hand he rubs your most sensitive part, and the other one is around your throat. “I need you to cum on my cock, I need you to milk me dry with your sweet wet pussy” he tells you and you can feel that he is also close. You cum like the good girl you are right as he tells you. A few moments later he is cuming inside you, his hot seed spilling in your pussy.
He helps you to put your clothes on. He pulls up your panties, and when he sees that his cum is spilling from your pussy, he quickly pushes two fingers inside you, saying that it needs to stay where it belongs. You’re still there, in his office with your thighs still trembling when his colleague comes back. John walks you out on the hallway, saying that you should come to see him again tomorrow at noon, that you still have a lot of work to do. You just hope that his colleague can’t hear when he whispers that you should come without panties this time.
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Chubby reader x monster!141…. Chubby reader where you are at all-time-low after your ex cheated on you with the woman you had always been insecure of (she was everything you were not), so now you are just done. Done with him, with her, with your terrible work that forced you to come in even while sick, done with life.
So you go to a bar, and intend to fully drink yourself and all your sorrows away. You don’t even care enough to ask any friends to accompany you- they knew. They fucking knew. Calling them friends anymore is just stupid- and you don’t care enough to look around at anyone; you know you aren’t anyone’s preference either.
When a man, big and burly, curling horns and two big ass wings (maybe one of those dragon shifters? You know harpies have feathers, but the rest of your brain is too muddled) sits down next to you, you just ignore him and continue nursing your drink, trying your best to bite back the tears in your eyes.
“That’s enough now, love,” he croons, and much to your confusion, he takes the glass away from you. His voice is rough and rumbling, like thunder. Too hazy, too drunk, you don’t even care enough to get angry at him. No, your eyes fill with tears instead. “No, no, calm down. Let’s get you out of here, alright, little love?”
Another man joins your other side, just as big and burly but shorter than the dragon man who is making you tear up by holding your drink, your source of solace tonight, hostage in his hand. This one is a werewolf, his ears flicking in your direction much like his grin and his tail eagerly thumping to and fro against your chair.
“Sweet lass,” he croons, your teary eyes flicking towards him. You can see his hands clench in the air. Why, why, why- you just wanted to drink away. They are both so handsome, such a shame they clearly don’t like you and are just bothering you for the sake of bothering you, a fat woman in a miserable corner. “Enough tears and enough alcohol, aye, hen? Yer aff yer heid!”
His words are so strange, your tears momentarily pause. “What…?” You wonder outloud, shivering when you feel a warm breath across your neck, warming your skin. The dragon. His hand settles on your lower back, nudging you to get off the chair with them, and you feel like crying again. He probably can feel all the fat there, how horrible-
“Careful there, little love.” Dragon steadies you with two hands when you get dizzy, and with weak hands you try to swat at him, try to move away, but the werewolf is at your other side and keeping you pressed between them.
“S’op… stop callin’ me that,” you mumble. The tears roll down then. “Not- not funny, not at all-“
Two other hands on your back, a tail thumping against the back of your thighs, you are still led outside even as you babble about everything. Your size, your ex, the one your ex cheated, your work, your ex-
You want your damn drink back.
For their part, Price and Johnny didn’t think coming out for a drink tonight would lead to finding their last soulmate. The second they had entered the dinky bar, John had expected to need to puff out a deep, smoky breath to keep his nose clean from all the overwhelming smells and Johnny had prepared to to keep his nose happily pressed into John’s skin.
They hadn’t expected to smell you, something like the smell of stepping into a warm home after spending time out in winter, something like watching soft, golden sunlight stream into the nest room on a morning they spend sleeping in with Kyle and Simon. Like soulmate, like the last link of John’s hoarde and Johnny’s pack, and he has no doubt that you are Kyle’s nest and Simon’s. Simply his. A part of him just as you are a part of them.
Driven so wholly by instincts, seeing you drunk and crying pushing them even more into said instincts, they easily you herd along with them, back to their home. All explanations, everything else can wait until tomorrow. You are so soft to the touch, all tender and squishy, they already think you so perfect. In the back of the car, it doesn’t take seconds before you are dozing off and dead to the world, already so trusting.
By tomorrow morning, Simon would be easily able to track down where you live and get all your items. And also find that shitty ex of yours. John hasn’t yet decided if he wants to thank or beat him.
Watching the way Johnny holds you in his lap from the rearview mirror while he drives, hands squeezing your lovehandles with a low groan, mumbling about how much he already adores you, soft bonnie hen, all theirs- John decides he doesn’t give a single fuck about your ex at the moment. He needs to hold you between his arms and wings, in the comfort of his nest.
Fuck, he might end up breaking more than just a few speed limits.
Part two
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I can't keep quiet any longer: JK Rowling was not turned transphobic by the mold. I know this because I spent a month this year infected with mold, and it did not make me transphobic. It merely granted me many omens and portents. I can confirm that mold does, in fact, make you a better poster. The mold makes you crave naught but posts. But it does not make you hate anyone. Besides the Shadow Man, who does linger
I hate the "haha, did OP have a CO2 leak XD?" thing. First of all, it's so profoundly anti-creativity, and anti-intellectual, the idea that anything that's slightly out of the ordinary must be the protect of an altered mind; it's "haha were you on DRUGS when you wrote that?" given a new veneer of millennial internet humor. Second of all, I didn't have a CO2 leak, I was infected with mold
#unreality cw#except for the mold part!#i really was infected with mold when i wrote the OP#the worst part was the source of it was next to my room#so i ALSO got sick from the chemicals they used to clean everything#fun!
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clumsy!reader is still bad at yoga and yoga instructor!rafe wants to keep her all to himself...
c/w: rafe being touchy & blatantly flirting w her, him getting jealous, slightly suggestive, reader being oblivious, 18+ mdni!
wc: 1.9k
idk if anyone missed him but he's back & better than ever !! (after a small vacation that ended up being almost 3 months :D)
some parts are more or less inspired by this, this, this & this ask
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Rafe is in the midst of helping someone fix their posture when he hears the gates of heaven opening in the form of a melodious giggle chiming from the back of the room. He lifts his head in order to detect the source of such a vibrant sound; noticing that his favorite client is currently directing her attention towards some guy next to her.
The joyful expression she’s sporting makes a scowl paint over his features. Why is this random man making her laugh like that?
“Yeah, you got it. Just keep workin’ on it though,” he quickly dismisses the person he was helping before stomping over to find her practically lying on the floor with the guy’s hands on her calf, along with his mat pulled far too close to hers for Rafe’s liking.
“I think you should bend it more here, right? I’m honestly not too sure,” the guy chuckles as he tries to figure out what she’s doing wrong.
“No cause I have no idea how everyone else makes it seem so easy. It’s so hard to get it right, I feel so stupid half the time,” she complains with a huff, not even noticing Rafe looming within earshot.
“Seriously, I thought this was a beginner’s class but it feels like some of these poses are meant for like literal pros,” he continues with a shake of his head.
“I know, right?” another peal of laughter bubbles from her throat as she shifts into a seated position, giving up altogether.
“Everything alright?” Rafe doesn’t mean for his tone to come out so clipped but there’s something in the way the guy’s touching her so freely that makes his hands curl into fists.
He keeps reminding himself over and over again that this is a client, which means that he can’t just smash his face in— no matter how severely his fingers are itching for it right about now.
“Oh, I was just trying to help her with this,” the guy explains in tandem with her head turning to look at Rafe. She seems startled.
“Well, why don’t you focus on your own form for a change? I mean, s’kinda my job to help her, yeah?” he scoffs, making the guy halt his movements in a state of surprise before he's lifting his hands up in apology.
“Damn, sorry dude,” he mutters out from under his breath while Rafe merely glares at him with the words stay professional bouncing around his skull.
A tense silence follows, making her grow quiet while she takes slow sips from her water bottle as a distraction; wondering why he seems so bothered to see her talking to someone else.
However, when he finally turns his attention towards her, she shrugs it off as him merely having a bad day because it seems like the only logical explanation to her. Because at the end of the day, him being jealous makes as much sense to her as her math homework in high school.
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Rafe is convinced that the universe is purposefully trying to poke and prod at his limits, giving his carefully curated facade opportunities to crack— allowing for the borderline psychotic aspects of his personality to breathe through the crevices. Because only a week later, Rafe sees her entering the gym with another guy she seems to be awfully friendly with.
“That’s crazy, I don’t even wanna know what Kie said to that,” she rolls her eyes jokingly while he’s showing her something on his phone.
”Yeeeah, guess you could say she wasn’t the biggest fan,” he laughs in a carefree manner, raking a hand through his disheveled, sand-colored hair.
“For some reason I’m not surprised,” she mutters out before she notices Rafe standing in the hallway leading to the yoga class. “Oh, gotta go so I’m not late. See you after?”
“Yeah, I’ll be here. Think Pope said he’s gonna join me for leg day, so we’ll see if I’m still standing when you get back. But you have fun,” he offers her a wave before walking away towards the locker rooms.
And at last, her warm eyes meet Rafe’s. “Hi,” her voice is soft, nearly shy; a stark contrast to her demeanor only a few seconds ago.
“Hey,” he greets her in a casual manner, although his mind is somewhere else entirely. “So, that your boyfriend or?” he tries to approach the subject with nonchalance because it’s not necessarily any of his business.
He’s not even sure why he’s asking— keeps telling himself that he’s just curious and tries to appear friendly by making small talk. After all, some clients have given him feedback on his apparently intimidating aura, claiming they don’t always have the courage to ask for his help because they get anxious he’ll judge them. Therefore, it's something he’s been trying to work on.
“What? Oh, JJ? No, he’s just a friend. He goes to the gym here, so I usually just tag along with him. Free ride, right?” she answers with a lighthearted tone.
“Right. Yeah,” he scratches at the back of his neck, contemplating whether or not to ask the next question since he doesn’t want to overstep any boundaries. However, there’s something deep in his stomach that grumbles at the prospect of her being in a relationship, makes him feel nearly insane and ultimately, makes the decision for him.
“You, uh, you got one?”
“What?” she asks, features coated in confusion.
“A boyfriend, I mean,” his gaze is unwavering, eager.
“Oh, um— no, I don’t. Why?” her puzzled eyes flit over the lines of his countenance, seemingly trying to grasp onto his motives.
“Just, uh…wondering. I mean, he’d be kind of a dick if he’s not drivin’ you here himself,” he shrugs, a strange sort of relief making his shoulders feather-light when she lets out an airy giggle in response.
“Yeah, honestly sometimes wish I had one just so he could drive me around and stuff,” she jokes while they begin to pad over to the class.
“You don’t have your license yet?” he raises his brows in surprise.
“No, I do. I just don’t really like driving. I don’t know why but it’s so stressful to me. Usually try to avoid it as much as I can,” she elaborates while gathering her hair away from her face and securing the strands into a ponytail.
“Oh yeah? Well, if you ever need a ride home just let me know, alright?” he says, fighting the urge to tuck a loose tendril that has managed to escape the restraints of her hair tie back behind her ear.
“Really? That’s so sweet of you! But, um, wouldn’t wanna be a bother,” the hesitation is present in her voice.
“Nah, couldn’t bother me if you tried,” he promises, wishing they could talk for longer. However, the ocean of people flooding inside the room behind them cuts their conversation short.
“You’re just saying that,” she dismisses him with a playful scoff.
“M’being for real. You’re my favorite face around here. Plus, makes my job more fun when you’re always stumblin' on your feet,” he can’t help his mouth from twisting upwards at the way her eyes round out in response to his words.
“Shut up. I’m gonna go set down my mat now, before there’s only space right in front of you,” she offers him a giddy smile that makes him grin like an idiot. Then, she’s tiptoeing away from him in order to locate a vacant spot.
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Rafe has become awfully familiar with these newfound feelings of fondness for the girl who’s by far the most helpless little bambi he’s ever encountered. He thinks she should honestly pick another hobby at this point, because maybe yoga just isn’t meant for her. However, he’d never say any of that out loud because even the thought of not seeing her getting all flustered while she loses her balance whenever he’s near makes him feel physically unwell.
He’s not entirely sure whether her apparently oblivious brain simply hasn’t caught onto the fact that he so clearly has a thing for her, or if she’s well aware and merely chooses to be a tease about it. Nonetheless, the moment she walked into the class today, he could feel his workout shorts tightening and all she’d offered him was a simple smile.
And now she’s right in front of him, all tangled limbs and pretty eyes blinking up at him— practically begging for his guidance and for him to put his hands all over her (something she doesn’t seem to mind all that much).
“You put this cute little set on just for me, huh?” he rasps out while his thumb smooths over the bubblegum pink fabric; feeling it out as he pinches the stretchy fabric between his fingertips, making her breath get caught in her throat in the process.
“Oh, um— just wanted to…try out some new stuff I ordered. You think it’s cute?” she stares at him with something bashful glimmering in her eyes.
“Mhm. Fits you nice,” he mumbles out as his gaze lingers on the way the tight material wraps around her figure, not leaving much to the (his) imagination. He bets it’d be so easy to just rip right through these cute yoga pants and pull her closer with a firm grip on her hips before burying his face between her plush thighs.
“Thanks,” she peeps out, flustered.
He tries to shake off the improper, filthy thoughts with a clear of his throat when he gets caught staring at her for a little too long.
“So, you actually wanna bend your leg on the other side of your body on the mat and support your foot with your left arm not the right one. Easy to get them confused,” he chuckles as she shifts her position according to his instructions as best as she can.
“Like this?” she seeks reassurance with a soft tone.
“Yeah, just like that, Bambi. Good job,” his mouth quirks up some while her mind begins to cloud over in response to his low cadence. She’s not entirely sure what exactly it is about him that makes her feel so fuzzy on the inside, but she thinks it’s nice, thinks she wants to always have him this close to her— wants him even closer.
She doesn’t remember the last time she’s had such an intense crush on someone— slowly turning into a crazy person by each second of not knowing whether he’s merely flirting with her for his own amusement or because he’s actually into her. However, she thinks she’s embarrassed herself in front of him far too many times for the latter to be true in any reality.
“Then need you to move your right hand here,” he adjusts her form with a grip on her wrist while he maneuvers her to his liking; tingles erupting all over the skin he skims over with his fingertips.
Her head is spinning.
“See? Knew you could do it. Feels nice, hm?” he rumbles out, letting his hands rest on her shoulders for support, despite the position not really requiring it.
She hums her response because she doesn’t trust for any coherent words to stumble out of her mouth at the moment, all the while Rafe is desperately trying to not pay attention to the nearly painful situation in his pants.
#for some reason ended up writing this mostly from rafe's pov which i don't usually do but it was pretty fun tbh#yoga instructor!rafe#rafe cameron#rafe imagine#rafe obx#rafe outer banks#rafe x reader#rafe cameron imagine#rafe cameron x reader#outerbanks rafe#outer banks#obx fanfiction#obx#obx fic#rafe fanfiction#rafe fic#rafe cameron outer banks#outer banks fanfiction#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron x female reader#rafe cameron x y/n#rafe fluff#rafe cameron fluff#rafe cameron obx#rafe cameron au#rafe cameron fic#rafe cameron blurb#rafe cameron drabble#outer banks rafe#rafe au
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hihihihi! 🥹💕 i want to let you know that i adore your hotch fics! and i wanted to ask if you’d be ok—but no pressure!!!— to write one with bombshell!reader waking up from anesthesia and forgetting hotch and her are already together and starts flirting with him the way bombshell!reader absolutely would lol? thank you!
thanks for requesting lovely! fem, 1k
You don’t remember waking up, but you’re sitting against a pillow with a yoghurt in your hand. You must’ve been on some sort of auto-pilot… Are you in a hospital gown?
You put your yoghurt down on the table that’s been wheeled over your lap and stare at the white-blue chequered gown creased between your thighs. Your head feels heavy.
“You okay?”
You drag your gaze to the source of the voice.
Agent Hotchner sits in the chair next to your bed. He has one leg crossed over the other, but he notices your confusion and his nonchalance turns to concern. “You need help?”
“With the yoghurt?” you ask.
“Yeah, honey. I can help.”
You roll that over in your mind. Stern Agent Hotchner just called you honey.
You’ve been trying to convince him for a while that you’re someone worth being sweet to. Trying to sway him, because there are parts of him you can’t get out of your head when he’s not around. He has not yet been swayed. Honey is a hand held out you’re going to snatch.
Hotch stands. He goes to pick up your yoghurt.
“What, are you gonna spoon feed me?” you ask, a clumsy drawl to your voice.
“I was going to… but I don’t like your tone.”
Is he flirting back? You must’ve hit your head. “Coward,” you murmur. Speaking of hitting your head, there’s a throbbing behind your eyes, and a dryness to your throat bordering on uncomfortable. The yoghurt was there for a reason, clearly, but you don’t have the energy in you to eat seductively.
“My head hurts,” you say quietly.
You close your eyes.
“I know.” A hand touches your face. You stay very still, though your heart doesn’t. “You don’t feel too hot. Do you want a drink? I can get you anything.”
“Your hand is so big…”
“Not so much bigger than your own,” he says.
“Prove it.”
He says your name like he knows you well, which sets your racing heart off all over again. But, used to hiding from him, you open your eyes to watch him and wipe all surprise from your face. You raise your hand, and he raises his, and you press your fingers together. Your fingertips don’t reach his, his palm wider, warmer. You thread your fingers carefully into the gaps between his, your lips curling into a satisfied smile.
Less satisfied when he closes his hand around yours.
“You’re teasing me,” you say.
“Honey, I have no idea what you’re talking about. Why don’t you lay back properly?”
“Super, super forward.” You lay back under the pressure of his hand, stricken by the feeling that he’s done something like that before. You rest your head against your elevated pillows and have to give up —you can’t hide how surprised you are at his open touching, his face so close to yours you can see every warm fleck in his dark eyes.
“You look startled,” he murmurs.
“I think you’ve been bodysnatched.”
“I have?”
“Yes.” You nod. “I can’t keep up. And I’m usually pretty great at that.”
“At what?”
“Flirting.”
“Oh,” he says, taking your hand again, pulling it toward his mouth, “you think I’m flirting?”
“Is there something wrong with me?”
“Not beyond the usual. You’re more lucid than they suspected you’d be, actually.” He kisses your knuckles.
“I’ve hit my head.”
“No, honey, you were under anaesthesia. Everything’s fine.”
“You’ve hit your head.”
He breathes out a laugh. “I don’t remember any injuries, but I’d love to know why you think so.”
“You’re kissing me.”
He pauses, lowering your hand. “Yes?” he says cautiously.
“Would you want to do it again?”
Hotch puts your hand on your chest. He cups your cheek in one hand, takes your shoulder into the other, and leans down to see you eye to eye. “Are you feeling okay?” he asks. You can feel the love he has for you in each word.
Weirdly, you can feel it in yourself, too. Like, more than a crush. More than wanting him to spin you around or play with your thigh under a desk. You really love him.
“I think I forgot you,” you say softly.
“Amnesia is a very common symptom of anaesthesia, don’t worry.” He pulls your face up to peck you, quick but not without a gentleness that has your hands thrumming with pins and needle. “I thought you were acting strange, but I put it down to discomfort. Sorry, I imagine it’s very disconcerting to feel you don’t know me.”
He just kissed you. “No, I know you, I just… I think I love you, but you don’t usually want me back.”
He rubs your cheek with his thumb. “I’ve always wanted you,” he says, his dulcet tenor another comfort entirely. “And I love you, whether you remember it or not. Should we try to finish your yoghurt?”
“You really love me?”
He turns your face to press a kiss into your eyebrow. “You don’t remember?”
“I do–” You begin before thinking about it, and realise that you’re telling the truth. You remember that he loves you. Agent Hotchner loves you. He’s in your hospital room handling you like thin glass.
“Well, is there much else to remember?”
You practically smirk at him. “I can think of some things.”
“Wow!” He leans down for another kiss. “You’re awful,” he murmurs, his smile soft on your lips.
#aaron hotchner x reader#aaron hotchner x you#aaron hotchner x y/n#aaron hotchner#aaron hotchner fic#aaron hotchner blurb#aaron hotchner drabble#aaron hotchner imagine#aaron hotchner fanfic#aaron hotchner fanfiction#hotch x reader#hotch#hotch x you#hotch blurb#hotch drabble#criminal minds
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Hi! Just wanna raise some awareness here because South America is on fucking fire and I need to see more people talking about this.
Source: RSOE EDIS x
Im just going to talk about the ones i'm closest to, but if you know about these fires, feel free to add in the reblogs!
Chile
In Chile there's (up to Feb 5) 160 wild fires, of which 40 are still trying to be controlled by authorities. The president, Gabriel Boric, has declared State of Emergency in the whole country, and theres a Red Alert Code in most part of the country.
Isla de Chiloé, Southern Chile (900 km away from Santiago de Chile)
This is a (recently controlled) fire that lasted a week, but many neighborhoods were burnt to the ground.


The whole South is in red alert for constant sudden fires that spread quickly due to the lack of rain and the elevated temperatues in the zone. Just today, two fires had to be controlled in the main land next to this island, and more are being reported in the Los Lagos region. This is added to the "controlled" intentional fires that farmers make to clean their fields of old crops along the Central-South parts of the country, mostly surrunding the main route, Ruta 5, that connects the whole country, thus making it hard to see and breathe because of the smoke. (flashnews, most of them get out of control quickly.)
Valparaiso/Viña del Mar, Central Chile (100 km away from Santiago de Chile)

A fire that started on Friday 2nd and grew exponentially because of the wind and the dry, hot climate. More than 100 people are dead, with 70 unrecognized bodies and other 400 that have dissapeared. At least 30000 people that have lost everything to the fire.
There's massive evacuations from this and the neighboring city, Viña Del Mar.
This is said to be the second most deadly fire in the century, surpased by Australia in 2009.
45000+ hectares that include land and neighborhoods have been burnt down.
I could go on about this one, so more info here and here



Argentina
Parque Los Alerces (Esquel), Chubut
The fire strarted on the 25th January, and the climate has made it hard to contain. 3000 hectares of native forest have been burnt to teh ground. It is now growing in the direction of the nearest city, Esquel. Theres been evacuations between yesterday and today (4 and 5th Febuary)
Parque Nahuel Huapi (Bariloche), Río Negro
The reason why im writing this. The city woke up today covered in smoke after a wildfire developed yesterday during the night. The reason? A fireplace that was not turned off in a place where people cannot disembark and can only be reached via boats.


As of now, there's not much information about the fire but hopefully the firefighters will be able to contain it before it reaches Tronador Mountain, where an ancient glaciar is.
...which leads me to the other point i wanted to talk about.
Firefighters
They volunteer to do this job.
In Argentina and Chile, firefighting is not rewarded with a salary, and most of the times they dont even have full firehouses to stay in. These people are at their houses, ready to jump into action and run to the station the second the alarm goes off.
They are neighbors, people that risk their lives and run into danger willingly, just because they want to help the community.
I felt the need to give a shout-out to these people and say:
Don't be a fucking dick, don't start fires in the woods unless it's an approved place, and if you do, TURN IT OFF.
Pour abundant water on it, and do not stop when you don't see any more flames.
Keep pouring water until the ashes don't burn/feel like room temperature in your hand if you put it 10 cm away from it, and even then, pour some more just to be sure.
No heat and no smoke mean a safely extinguished fire.
Save lives and forests.
#dont even get me started on the denial of climate change from my president#didnt wanna get political here#argentina#chile#argieposting#argieblr#soff speaks#wildfires
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⚣ Jason: The Rebel 🏍️
⚣🏍️ A/N → @swimmingpainterhandsfreak Jason's installment of the High School AU Courting series. One day, I will learn how to keep a fic under 10k words... today isn't it though. Conner's up next and both his and Dick's are linked at the end. Enjoy! WARNINGS: 18+ MDNI | Omegaverse | Courting Rituals | High School AU | Alpha Jason Todd | Omega Male Reader | Angst | Fluff | Humor | No one is a vigilante | Dick and Jason are not brothers | Jason is the stereotypical bad boy | Minor Character Death | Smut | Explicit Language | jealousy & Possessiveness | Oral Sex | Fingering | Dirty Talk | Rough Sex | Breeding Kink | Creampie |
⚣🏍️ Summary → Jason's always been misunderstood, except by one person. Someone who's always stuck by him and defended him even when others were against him. Now, he plans to make sure he's always by his side. How though?
⚣🏍️ Words → 38.9K
REBLOGS & replies are greatly appreciated, please! ❤️
⚣ ENJOY 🏍️

Jason Todd? Everyone knows who Jason Todd is.
Tall, broad-shouldered, and built like a damn Greek statue sculpted for war, he had the kind of physique that made gym rats jealous and made people think twice before testing him. His thick arms and solid chest stretched against whatever shirt he threw on, the fabric clinging to the kind of muscle that wasn’t just for show. Defined abs, powerful legs, and prominent veins running down his forearms made it clear: Jason Todd wasn't just strong—he was dangerous.
Wherever he went, people whispered, stared, or stepped aside, as if Gotham Collegiate Academy’s resident bad boy carried an aura that warned against getting too close. Some saw him as dangerous, untouchable, a walking storm wrapped in dark clothes and bad decisions. Others were drawn to him, intoxicated by the thrill of someone so effortlessly rebellious, untamed, and unpredictable.
He wasn’t just some brooding delinquent, though. Jason Todd had the kind of presence that made authority figures nervous and classmates curious. He was the guy who rolled up to school on a motorcycle, smirking at the rules he planned to ignore. The guy who didn't care about popularity but still managed to be one of the most talked-about names in the halls.
Everything about him screamed “don’t mess with me”, and yet—people did.
They stared. They whispered. They speculated. Because Jason Todd didn’t just look like trouble—he was trouble.
“How does a delinquent like him manage to get into one of the most prestigious schools in all of Gotham?”
“Well, obviously, he’s well connected. I mean, look who his friends are. If I were friends with the sons of two billionaires, I’d take advantage of those relationships too.”
Many—students and faculty alike—had their own speculations and theories about how someone like Jason was able to go to a school like Gotham Collegiate Academy. It wasn’t exactly classified information about where he came from or who his dad was.
BREAKING NEWS: NOTORIOUS LOCAL FIGURE ARRESTED IN CITYWIDE CRIME RING INVESTIGATION
“In a shocking turn of events, authorities have arrested Willis Todd, a well-known automotive shop owner with alleged ties to multiple criminal organizations, in connection to the recent string of high-profile robberies and thefts plaguing the city.
Law enforcement sources confirm that Todd, long rumored to have underworld connections, was taken into custody earlier today as part of an ongoing, large-scale investigation into organized crime operations. Authorities believe his business may have served as a front for illicit activities, potentially linking him to a wider criminal network operating across the city.
Details of the arrest are still unfolding, but officials describe this as a major breakthrough in the effort to dismantle one of the most elusive theft rings in recent history. More updates to come as this developing story continues.”
As one might imagine, Jason didn’t have the best home life.
Willis Todd had done the best he could with the scraps life had thrown at him. He’d fought, clawed, and hustled to carve out something—anything—that resembled stability for his son. If you had asked him, years ago, what kind of life he dreamed of for them, he’d never in a million years have said this.
Not handcuffs. Not mugshots. Not his son watching him get dragged away.
He swallowed hard, the weight of failure settling deep in his chest as he turned to face the boy he’d tried so damn hard to protect.
“Son... I’ve gotta go away for a while.”
His voice was rough, strained—like it hurt to say the words out loud. Maybe because it did.
Jason was only eight years old when his dad went to prison, left in the care of the only other family he’d ever known outside of his father and his deceased stepmother.
His birth mother? A blank face in a picture he’d never seen.
His dad never spoke about her. Never reminisced. Never even slipped up and said her name. If she was a ghost, she wasn’t haunting him—because ghosts left behind something. A memory. A whisper. A trace. She left nothing.
So, the only mother he had ever known was Catherine Todd, and even she had been taken from him too soon. Cancer, illness, something bad—he didn’t know what exactly. He only knew that one day, she was there, and the next, she wasn’t. Jason was five. Too young to understand, old enough to remember.
Life could be a lot of things, but for Jason? Kind wasn’t one of them.
His classmates wouldn’t understand that. Their biggest problems were petty fights, weekend plans, or the wrong shade of a designer bag. They called it “struggles.” Jason called it a luxury.
Because none of them knew what it was like to wonder if dinner would be stale bread or expired cereal with water.
None of them knew—and he was sure they never would—just how long it took for cereal to actually expire.
Maybe that’s why their nasty little words never got under his skin. Because how could someone like that hurt him? Someone who lost their mind over a scratch on their brand-new sports car? A missed vacation? A bad hair day?
They didn’t know strife. They didn’t know struggle.
Everything had been spoon-fed to them since birth. And yet, they had the nerve to look down on him.
They whispered about him in hallways, convinced he had cheated his way into Gotham Collegiate Academy—because clearly, someone like him couldn’t have earned it. Clearly, it had to be his best friends’ rich parents pulling the strings.
Jason laughed at that.
Because if they only knew the truth—that one of the few things Willis Todd got right was making sure his kid was damn smart—they’d choke on their silver spoons.
With no money for tutors or fancy lessons, what else was there for the youngest Todd to do?
Fix cars with his old man. Read every damn book the public library had.
And he did.
And yet, none of them would ever know it. Jason didn’t even really care to prove it, because there were only a few—a very small few—who mattered to him, especially one in particular.
So, while Jason Todd might have had the reputation of a reckless who lived for trouble, the reality was different. He wasn’t aimless or cruel, nor was he the heartless rebel everyone assumed. Beneath the grit, the sharp edges, and the infamous scowl, there was someone intelligent, fiercely loyal, protective, and—though he’d rather chew glass than admit it—capable of being soft in the right company.
Despite coming from a family that had its fair share of struggles, Jason never played the victim. He worked for everything he had, even if past methods weren’t always… legal. He didn’t need peer validation, didn’t need approval from teachers or his peers. He had his real ones, and that was enough.
People made up their own stories about him.
Some called him a troublemaker—the kind you don’t want to owe, don’t want to cross, don’t want staring at you from across the hall with that sharp, unreadable expression. Teachers watched him closely, expecting him to lash out, to skip class, to prove their assumptions right. Parents warned their kids to steer clear, because a boy like Jason Todd? He had “bad news” written all over him.
Some called him a lost cause—whispered about how he didn’t belong at GCA, how he’d end up like his father, how one day, he’d stop showing up and no one would be surprised. The rich kids sneered, convinced he was some charity case riding on the coattails of his wealthy best friends, too stupid, too rough around the edges to have gotten in on his own.
And then there were the ones who just… wanted him.
Because trouble is intoxicating when it looks like Jason Todd.
Some wanted to know him—not the stories, not the reputation, but him. They wanted to understand what made him tick, what secrets he kept behind that dark, unreadable gaze. They wanted to be the one person he let in, the exception to his indifference.
And others? Many more than most would assume—just wanted him.
Because Jason Todd wasn’t just dangerous—he was gorgeous. All broad shoulders, sharp jaw, and muscle wrapped up in leather and bad decisions. His voice? Low, rough, like the distant rumble of his motorcycle on an empty road. His presence? Unshakable. People didn’t just see him—they felt him, like a pulse in the air, something you couldn’t ignore even if you tried.
And maybe that was the most frustrating thing of all.
Because no matter what story they made up about him—whether they feared him, pitied him, or wanted to pull him into the nearest empty bathroom stall and make a mistake—they all had one thing in common.
They couldn’t stop looking.
But one thing was clear: Jason Todd didn’t do relationships.
Which is why Gotham’s most prestigious high school was absolutely losing its collective mind over the rumor that he was seeing someone.
The only question was, who?
"Are you blind? It’s obviously Y/N," Sasha scoffed, rolling her eyes.
"OMG, yes! You’d have to be stupid not to see it. Those two have been orbiting each other since, like, birth," Manny gushed, practically bouncing in his seat. "They’re so cute together. I can definitely see Jason being a simp for him."
Kevin let out a low chuckle, spinning a football between his hands. "What is it with you omegas romanticizing some sappy, soft alpha?" he said, shaking his head. "You all act like an Alpha’s job is to whisper sweet nothings and play house. News flash—real alphas don’t do that shit."
He leaned back, smirking. "And Jason? No way in hell he’d be some love-sick puppy over an omega. He’s got everything an alpha needs to keep Y/N hooked—strength, presence, dominance, and the right kind of equipment to have him walking sideways. But then, only another real alpha like myself would recognize that."
Kevin threw a pointed look across the table. "Not like some of these soft-ass, house-trained alphas prancing around GCA—like his two little ballerina buddies, Dick and Conner." His smirk deepened. "They’re practically omegas themselves. No wonder they get along so well with you all."
A chorus of groans and eye rolls followed, earning Kevin a round of unimpressed looks from the group.
"Jesus Christ, Kevin." Sasha groaned, smacking him on the shoulder.
"What?" Kevin grinned, "Can’t say I’m not speaking truth."
"Oh yeah? Then I’m sure you won’t mind saying that to your football captain’s face, right?" Manny drawled, arching a brow in challenge.
Kevin’s cocky smirk faltered for half a second before he scoffed, shifting in his seat. "Pfft, I mean—come on, it’s just jokes. No need to get all serious about it. Besides, not like Conner would care anyway." He waved a hand dismissively, suddenly very interested in the football in his hands.
The table erupted into laughter.
"Yeah, that’s what I thought." Manny grinned, shaking his head. “Anyways, Jason might have that tough guy look, but it’s clear he’s got a soft spot. And that soft spot is Y/N. Because wherever Y/N is…”
Sasha suddenly perked up, her eyes locking with Manny’s as they both grinned
“...he ain’t never too far away.” They both finished together, laughing obnoxiously while slapping and hugging each other like they didn’t know what to do with themselves.
Clearly, some inside joke the two other boys at the table were not in on.
And while usually, he’d find the silly antics of his two friends amusing, Ethan, who had been mostly quiet up until now, suddenly scoffed, arms crossed as he leaned back in his seat. "Sure, Jason’s big enough to scare off anyone dumb enough to try something—but is that really enough? Y/N doesn’t need a guard dog. He needs someone who actually listens, someone who won’t just punch his way through every problem."
That earned him a few raised eyebrows.
"Oh?" Sasha smirked, resting her chin on her hand. "Do go on, Ethan. Tell us why Jason, our six-foot-plus human guard dog, isn’t good enough for sweet little Y/N."
Ethan rolled his eyes. "You know exactly what I mean. Jason’s… Jason. He’s reckless, doesn’t think before he acts, and he’s emotionally closed off. Sure, he can fight off anyone who looks at Y/N the wrong way, but that’s not what makes a good alpha. Y/N needs someone who actually listens, who knows how to handle emotions—not just punch his way through every problem."
The table went silent for half a second before Sasha let out a low whistle.
"Wow. That was a very heartfelt, totally unbiased take. Definitely nothing personal there."
Manny smirked, nudging Ethan’s arm. "Yeah, man. Sounds almost like… oh, I don’t know… someone who’s still salty over a 7th-grade crush on their lab partner."
Ethan’s face twisted into an immediate scowl. "Oh my god, would you let that go? That was years ago."
"And yet," Manny grinned, "here you are, still pressed."
Kevin snorted. "And, dude, no offense, but Jason would break you in half. You may not be a direct threat being a Beta and all, but that dude’s got possessive written all over him. He barely leaves Y/N’s side.”
Suddenly, Manny and Sasha looked at each other again, “Wherever Y/N is…he ain’t never too far away.” The two recited together before bursting out into another fit of shits and giggles.
Ethan’s brow twitched as he shoved Kevin’s football off the table in retaliation.
"Whatever. Y’all are insufferable."
Jason Todd had always been a fixture in Y/N’s life, like a constant shadow, a familiar presence, something woven so deeply into his world that he couldn’t remember a time before him.
Their parents—specifically Y/N’s omega dad, his Papa, and Jason’s father—were old friends from high school. The kind of “old friends” that always made Y/N’s alpha dad narrow his eyes whenever the topic came up. Suspiciously long silences, pointed looks, a change of subject.
"You and Willis were just friends, huh?" he’d ask, cutting into his steak with a little too much force.
Jason’s dad, leaning back in his chair with a lazy smirk, would take a slow sip of his beer before answering.
"Depends on what you mean by ‘just friends,’" Willis would say, all too pleased with himself.
Jason and Y/N never really understood why until they were older, when Y/N’s Papa would sometimes mutter about “old flames” and his Dad would immediately puff his chest out and skirt them away to their room to have a long serious “talk” that always ended with a bunch of noises and creaking.
Ignorance is bliss.
But whatever the nature of their parents’ past, one thing was clear: Jason and Y/N were inevitable.
Back when they were kids, Jason had been different. Lighter. Freer. Not as hardened by the world, not as reserved or closed-off as he was now. He was the kid who would laugh the loudest, drag Y/N along on every adventure, challenge Dick to races, and teach Conner the best hiding spots in the house. Their little group had been inseparable, but even among them, Jason and Y/N had always been the closest.
"C’mon, Y/N, hurry up!" Jason would yell, grabbing his tiny wrist and pulling him along toward his dad’s auto shop, the library, or some hidden corner of the house where they could plot their next grand adventure.
The two were inseparable, always up to something, always together, always getting into trouble with Dick and Conner.
Jason wasn’t as tough then, but his protectiveness over Y/N? That was always there.
"You’re not gonna cry, are you?" Jason would say, puffing out his chest whenever some bigger kid tried to push Y/N around. "‘Cause you don’t gotta. I’ll handle it."
And handle it he did. The amount of times Y/N’s Papa had to scold Jason for throwing hands on the playground was more than anyone could count.
But one of Jason’s favorite things—something he’d never admit out loud—was when Y/N listened to him read.
They’d sit on the floor of his dad’s auto shop, grease-stained books spread between them, Jason flipping through whatever novel he had gotten lost in that week.
"Do the voices," Y/N would insist, eyes wide with expectation.
Jason would groan, but he’d do it anyway—grumbling about how "annoying" Y/N was while still giving the best damn dramatic reading of a fantasy novel Gotham had ever seen.
And the motorcycle Jason rode today?
That was theirs.
"One day," Y/N had grinned, wiping grease from his hands as Jason tightened a bolt, "this is gonna be our ride. We’ll take it anywhere we want."
"Yeah?" Jason smirked, eyes bright with excitement. "Where to first?"
"Everywhere."
That had been a promise.
One Jason intended to keep.
Then everything changed.
Jason was eight years old when his dad was arrested. He had sat on the couch, legs swinging, watching the news in confusion as his father’s mugshot flashed across the screen.
The words didn’t make sense at first. "Criminal organizations." "Underworld connections." "Large-scale theft ring."
But then, he heard it.
"Willis Todd has been arrested."
And suddenly, everything made sense.
"Son..." His dad’s voice was rough, strained—like it hurt to say the words out loud.
Jason didn’t want to look at him.
"I’ve gotta go away for a while."
The words echoed in Jason’s head long after his father was dragged away in handcuffs. He didn’t cry. He just… stared.
And Y/N was there. Right beside him. Holding his hand.
That night, Jason packed a bag and moved in with Y/N’s family.
Y/N was thrilled. His Papa was more than willing. His father? Not so much.
"Are we really doing this?" Y/N’s Dad had muttered to his husband.
"He has nowhere else to go," his Papa had said simply, already making Jason a plate of food.
Jason pretended not to hear the hesitation, but he saw it. Felt it. He saw the way Y/N’s Dad watched him, waiting for the moment he’d "turn out like his father."
It wasn’t a secret that Y/N’s dad wasn’t exactly fond of Willis Todd. His suspicion extended to Jason, not because of who he was but because of who he might become.
But he never did.
But Jason never did. And over the years, he grew on the man.
Maybe it was because Jason treated Y/N like the most important thing in the world. Maybe it was because, despite his rough edges, Jason never disrespected his authority. Maybe it was because Y/N’s dad saw the way Jason looked at his son, like he’d tear the world apart to keep him safe.
Either way, he softened.
So much so that by the time Jason was a teenager, the man who had once been his biggest skeptic had become his biggest supporter.
Which was why the man was also the first to set rules.
It was after Jason and Y/N presented—alpha and omega—that the rules slammed down like a damn gavel in court.
"No more sleepovers."
"No being alone in each other’s rooms with the doors closed."
"No unsupervised nights out."
Y/N hated it. "Dad, we’re not even dating."
"Not yet," his father had muttered.
Jason, for all his rebellious nature, didn’t argue. He understood better than Y/N did. Their dynamic had changed. Their instincts had shifted. And if anyone knew what kind of effect Y/N had on him, it was Jason himself.
So he didn’t fight the rules. He followed them—begrudgingly, but still.
At least, until he moved back home.
When Jason’s dad got out of prison, he went back home. He had no choice.
But the years that followed would be a lesson in cruelty—a slow, grinding proof that rock bottom is just a myth, and that no matter how deep you think you’ve fallen, there’s always further to go.
Jason’s knuckles ached.
His breathing was shallow, ragged, his heart hammering in his chest as he stood in the middle of the kitchen, fists clenched so tightly his nails dug into his palms. Across from him, Willis Todd glared, nostrils flared, muscles tensed, shoulders squared like he was bracing for a second round.
The house smelled like anger. Like hot-blooded rage barely contained beneath thinly veiled restraint.
The table was half-shoved against the wall, the chair Jason had knocked over laying in splintered pieces on the tile.
Willis wiped a trickle of blood from the corner of his mouth, eyeing Jason with something between frustration and reluctant respect.
"That all you got, boy?" he muttered, voice thick with warning.
Jason breathed heavily, chest rising and falling, his body taut with the kind of tension that had nowhere to go.
"You back to working for them, huh?" Jason spat, his voice low, seething. "You back to being some errand boy for the assholes that got you locked up in the first place?"
Willis’s eyes darkened.
"Watch your mouth, Jason."
But Jason didn’t want to watch his mouth. He wanted to spit fire, to hurl every bit of frustration, of disappointment, of betrayal onto the man who had ruined his life and was too damn selfish to realize it.
"You think I’m stupid?" Jason snapped. "Think I don’t see the extra cash? The new parts you’re suddenly able to afford for the shop?" His teeth clenched. "How long till you get caught this time? Huh? Another five years? Another ten? And what—then I’m supposed to just sit back and watch while they drag your ass off again?"
Willis’s expression twisted, his hands slamming down on the counter.
"That’s not your got-damn business, Jason!"
Jason’s laugh was sharp, humorless.
"Not my business? Not my—" He let out a breath, shaking his head, eyes wild. "I was the one sitting in that courtroom. I was the one watching Mom cry herself to sleep every night while you were inside. I was the one visiting you behind fucking plexiglass."
Willis’s jaw tightened.
Jason’s voice cracked, his breath shuddering. "Did you think I wouldn’t find out? For two seconds, did you consider that your son is a lot older now and can tell when his dad is up to some shady ass shit?”
A pause.
"I’m not a kid anymore, Dad."
Willis exhaled through his nose, his head shaking, fingers flexing at his sides.
"Then stop acting like one."
Jason snapped.
Before he even thought about it, his body had already moved, shoving his father back against the counter.
Willis was older, stronger, broader, but Jason was faster, fueled by something raw, something relentless. He saw the way his father’s shoulders tensed, not from fear but from instinct, from years of being someone people didn’t shove around without consequence.
For a split second, Jason thought Willis was gonna hit him back.
And maybe some twisted part of him wanted him to.
But he didn’t.
Instead, Willis’s hands gripped Jason’s shoulders, fingers digging in hard enough to bruise, his voice dangerously low.
"You think you’re grown, huh?" His father’s breath was hot against Jason’s face, his grip tightening. "Think you can take me just ‘cause you got a little muscle now?"
Jason’s chest heaved, his eyes burning, his throat tight.
"I don’t wanna take you," Jason muttered, voice thick with something he refused to name. "I just want you to be better."
The words hit harder than any punch could have.
Because for the first time, his father’s expression changed.
The anger didn’t fade. But beneath it, beneath the frustration, there was something else.
Something that looked a hell of a lot like guilt.
Willis let go. Turned away.
Jason didn’t stay to see whatever expression crossed his father’s face next.
Because his legs were already moving, his body already acting on instinct, carrying him out the door, down the street, toward the only place that felt like home anymore.
Between his father’s absence, the taunts from classmates, and the weight of his own anger, Jason had never felt more like he was constantly on the verge of burning out. He hated visiting his dad in prison, hated seeing him in orange, hated the way their time together always ended with an alarm and a guard telling him to leave.
But, through it all, Y/N was there.
Every visit. Every fight. Every time Jason came home angry, every time he didn’t want to talk, every time he needed a way out.
"Window’s open."
Jason barely remembered the run to Y/N’s house. By the time his phone vibrated with the text signaling his green light to go in, all he knew was that his breath was ragged, his hands were shaking, and his body felt too tight, too wound up, too full of something that had nowhere to go.
His muscles burned, his blood ran hot, and the storm inside him—the one that started the second his father spat those words at him—was still raging, still clawing at the edges of his restraint, still begging for a way out.
He didn’t waste a second. Didn’t think. Didn’t hesitate.
Just moved.
He scaled the tree like he had a hundred times before, the cold night air biting at his skin before he swung himself through the window with a practiced ease that should’ve been concerning.
And then—fuck.
The scent hit him first.
Warmth. Comfort. Y/N.
His room was dimly lit, golden hues stretching over the sheets, the books stacked on the nightstand, the sweatshirt Y/N had probably stolen from him days ago. But Jason barely registered any of that because his scent was everywhere—strong, thick, filling Jason’s lungs, wrapping around his senses like a noose.
Lavender and something sweeter, something uniquely Y/N, something Jason had spent years pretending didn’t make his pulse quicken and his instincts snarl.
And before he could even breathe properly, something solid, warm, and impossibly soft crashed into his chest.
Jason cleared his throat, shaking off whatever the hell that slip-up was, before huffing out an "Oof—" as Y/N burrowed against his chest, his body warm and pliant from sleep.
Jason staggered back, only barely catching himself as Y/N practically melted against him, bare skin brushing against fabric, his body all heat, all curves, all sleepy weight pressing into Jason like he belonged there.
And fuck, Jason was not ready for this.
"Are you okay?" Y/N mumbled, voice thick with concern but also soft, wrecked drowsiness, like he had been waiting for Jason even in his sleep.
His cheek pressed against the fabric of Jason’s hoodie, right over his chest, right over his got-damn heartbeat that was now slamming hard enough to break through ribs.
Jason sucked in a slow, measured breath, his grip on Y/N’s hips too tight, too desperate, his fingers twitching where they clutched the soft skin beneath his shirt.
He needed to answer. Needed to move, needed to do something other than feel.
But Y/N was in his arms, open and pliant, warm and vulnerable, pressing into him like he didn’t know what he was doing to Jason’s self-control.
And Jason was too wound up, too exhausted, too fucking weak to fight it.
His instincts screamed.
To pull him closer. To nuzzle against his throat, breathe him in properly, let that scent flood his system until it drowned out everything else.
His jaw locked tight—breath hissing between his teeth, his entire body coiled in restraint so fierce it made his bones ache.
He wasn’t okay.
Not even remotely.
But Y/N was here. In his arms. Holding him, grounding him, filling his senses with something so sweet, so intoxicating, it almost made the pain go away.
Almost.
Jason’s fingers curled tighter into Y/N’s shirt. He exhaled, low and rough.
"Yeah."
A beat.
His grip tightened.
"I am now."
Y/N gave a small tug at his hoodie.
"Come on. Bed."
Jason hesitated.
He wasn’t sure he could handle this.
But he let himself be pulled anyway.
The moment they hit the mattress, Y/N curled into his side like it was second nature, like this was where he belonged. One arm slung carelessly across Jason’s stomach, his leg hooking over his like he had every right to drape himself over an alpha twice his size.
Jason wasn’t two seconds from unraveling.
He already had.
His throat burned, his hands still half-clenched into fists, his mind still spinning with too many thoughts he didn’t know how to put into words.
And then—soft fingers.
Threading through his hair. Scraping lightly against his scalp.
Jason let out a shaky breath, his chest rising and falling in time with Y/N’s.
"I hate him," Jason muttered, voice barely above a whisper.
"No, you don’t."
Jason swallowed hard, fingers tightening around the fabric of Y/N’s hoodie. "I want to."
A pause.
Y/N shifted, pressing his ear against Jason’s chest, listening to the sound of his heartbeat.
"You don’t have to figure it out right now."
Jason let out a breath, his fingers unclenching as he lifted a hand to rest against Y/N’s back.
"You’re so damn small," Jason muttered, voice still rough, but softer now, the fight draining out of him.
Y/N huffed. "And yet, I’m taking up more space in this bed than you."
“Well, yes…because you’re a bed, sheet, and blanket hogger.”
Y/N lifted his head to turn an arched brow towards the alpha, “Don’t push it, Todd.”
Jason exhaled a short laugh, his shoulders finally relaxing.
He wasn’t okay.
Not even close.
But right now? With Y/N’s fingers tangled in his hair, with the scent of lavender and warmth pressing into his chest, with the sound of Y/N’s even breathing grounding him—
He could pretend he was.
And for tonight, that was enough.
Y/N was his anchor. The one thing in his life that didn’t feel like it would get ripped away. But Jason knew better than anyone—nothing lasted forever.
And deep down, he feared the day or even just the possibility of a day when Y/N might decide he was done dealing with him and would leave him behind, just like everyone else important to him.
But, as deep as that fear gnawed at him, the chance of it happening was slim to none as Y/N would constantly go out of his way to reassure Jason, without even saying it that he wasn’t going anywhere.
That didn’t mean there weren’t outside forces that would try to take the omega from him either. As they grew older, Jason would settle with the belief that life, the universe, Baba Yaga, or whatever mystical force out there had a bone to pick with him, and him only, as it seemed intent on trying to take the one source of his happiness away from him.
Then again, he is a teenager and thus has the dramatic capabilities of a thousand Broadway actors so there’s that.
But, as they grew older, and approached young adulthood, it became clear that Jason wasn’t the only one who wanted to have and keep Y/N in their lives forever, as more than just friends. He really should have seen it coming.
Y/N had always been the type to draw people in, all warmth and easy smiles, the kind of omega that had alphas tripping over themselves just to get a second glance. It had always been like that—even before they hit their secondary gender presentations, even before Jason really understood what it meant to want someone like this.
And for a long time, it hadn’t mattered.
Because Jason had always been there first.
Until the other alphas stopped just looking and started acting like they had a chance. It started to feel like he was one wrong move away from snapping, because for months—months—he’d been forced to watch, to endure the constant, infuriating reminders that he wasn’t the only one who wanted Y/N. And he’d been dealing with this shit for months now.
Or maybe longer. Maybe it had been years of this slow, creeping realization clawing at the edges of his mind, waiting for him to stop being such a dumbass and just accept it already.
Because everyone else already knew.
Dick had given him the look months ago, arms crossed, smirk way too fucking smug.
"Dude. You’re gone for him."
Conner had just snorted. "Oh, he’s been gone. We’re just waiting for him to catch up."
Even Y/N’s omega dad, who had always been nothing but warm and understanding toward Jason, had just patted his shoulder one night and sighed, knowingly.
"You poor thing."
Like Jason was some lovesick bastard everyone could see drowning except him.
And maybe he had been.
Because suddenly, everything felt different.
The way Y/N would lean against him without thinking, tuck himself into Jason’s space like he belonged there. The way his scent had stopped just being familiar and started being fucking intoxicating.
And worse—the way Jason’s instincts responded to it.
Like some primal, animalistic part of him had already decided—this is mine.
Like he was just waiting for Y/N to catch up.
But the worst part? The part that had Jason on edge, restless, constantly biting back frustration?
Y/N had no fucking clue.
None.
Didn’t notice the way people looked at him. Didn’t realize when alphas got too close, let their hands linger, smiled too long. Didn’t see the way Jason was this close to wrecking someone every got-damn time it happened.
And that?
That was gonna be a fucking problem.
Jason already had the reputation of a rebel, a problem, a walking time bomb just waiting to go off. A future delinquent, just like his old man.
And if things kept going the way they were going, he wouldn’t just live up to that reputation—he’d shatter it. Hell, at this rate, he’d outdo his father in record time.
Thankfully, Y/N, in all his infinite wisdom, had suggested Jason find an outlet for his anger, something to keep him from self-destructing.
"Maybe you just need something physical to work all that aggression out," Y/N had mused one night, casually twirling his pencil between his fingers as they lay on their stomachs doing homework.
Jason had immediately short-circuited.
His body froze, his breath caught, and suddenly, he was thinking about things that had absolutely nothing to do with exercise.
And Y/N—oblivious, innocent, completely unaware of what he’d just done to Jason’s brain—kept talking.
"You know, like boxing, maybe wrestling? Even just running?"
Jason exhaled slowly through his nose, forcing himself to shove the very unhelpful mental images away while also squeezing his front against the floor, thinking maybe if he suffocated it, his hard-on would go away.
Logic is key.
But, Y/N had obviously meant actual physical activity.
Not what Jason’s instincts immediately jumped to.
Which, in hindsight, was stupid, considering Jason was no stranger to the gym.
People didn’t just stop and stare at him because of his reputation, or because he was at a school they thought he didn’t belong in.
No—they stared because Jason Todd was built like a fucking problem.
Broad shoulders, a strong, sculpted chest, thick arms that flexed under the weight of whatever he was lifting.
A physique that made it painfully clear that Jason wasn’t just strong—he was the kind of strong that made people nervous.
And Y/N?
He wasn’t nervous.
He just smiled at him, completely unaware that Jason was barely keeping himself together. Then again, it always felt like he was keeping himself together.
Whether it was him standing in some random house on a Friday night, at some stupid house party he didn’t want to be at. Leaning against the wall, arms crossed, watching Y/N laugh at something—head tilted back, eyes shining, fucking beautiful.
And then, some wannabe alpha sat too close, got too comfortable.
Jason watched as the guy brushed his hand along Y/N’s wrist, leaned in like he had the right, like he thought he had a shot.
Jason’s jaw locked.
Every muscle in his body coiled tight.
He smelled it before anything else—that faint hint of something territorial, a challenge.
Like the bastard had the nerve to think he could even compete.
Jason’s vision went red.
The next thing he knew, he was moving.
Didn’t think. Didn’t hesitate. Just stepped forward, slid into the space between Y/N and the asshole, and let the weight of his presence do the talking.
The guy barely had time to register the shift before Jason was staring him down, slow, deliberate.
"Problem?" Jason asked, voice low, rough, dangerous.
The alpha froze, throat bobbing. "Uh—no. No problem, man."
"Yeah? Then move."
He did.
And Y/N?
Didn’t even notice.
Just turned to Jason with that same easy smile, like the alpha hadn’t just sent some dickhead running with a single look.
"You good?" Y/N asked, like Jason hadn’t just come within inches of wrecking someone for daring to touch him.
Jason gritted his teeth while subtly grabbing Y/N’s wrists, rubbing his fingers over it. "Peachy."
Or the night after another fight with his dad—yelling, slamming doors, Jason’s fists clenched so tight his knuckles ached, the rage still simmering beneath his skin like a lit fuse.
And somehow, like instinct, like fate, like the only goddamn place his body knew to go when everything else burned around him, Jason found himself in Y/N’s bed again.
The window had still been slightly open from where he’d climbed through, letting in a chill that should’ve cooled the room.
But Jason didn’t feel the cold.
All he felt was heat. Actually…
It felt like he was fighting for his goddamn life.
First, it was the scent—thick, saturating the air, clinging to him, sinking into his lungs. He barely made it through the window without feeling like he was about to be consumed whole by it.
That familiar sweetness, that pulsating warmth—overpowering whatever fucking candle Y/N had burning, drowning out everything else, until Jason felt like he was sinking.
Jason sucked in a slow, sharp breath because—fuck.
It was everywhere.
The scent. The heat. The subtle press of something soft and pliant nestled against his thigh, just beneath the sheets.
Jason went rigid.
Too close.
Too dangerous.
His instincts once again had snarled, a sharp, territorial need coiling deep in his gut, flooding his veins like an intoxicant he couldn’t shake off.
Because it wasn’t just warmth pressing against him—it was need.
It was the soft, feverish h eat between Y/N’s thighs, the part of him Jason had no business being hyperaware of, but couldn’t ignore if he tried.
And fuck, why was it so warm?
Jason’s breath came out rough, uneven, his fingers twitching where they gripped the back of Y/N’s hoodie like a lifeline.
He needed to focus.
On anything else.
But Y/N was breathing slow and steady against his chest, his scent thick, heavy, so got-damn sweet it was practically drugging Jason on the spot.
The omega was practically folded around Jason, wrapped up against him like a second skin, like he was meant to be there. His arms draped lazily across Jason’s stomach, his body tucking into his side, his leg hooking over Jason’s like it had every damn right to be there.
Jason clenched his jaw, shifting slightly, trying—failing—not to notice the slick heat pressed up against his hip, the way every slight movement had it rubbing against him in a way that was making his own situation dangerously uncomfortable.
Fuck.
The frustration, the exhaustion, the leftover anger from the fight with his dad—it all tangled with something deeper, something baser, something Jason knew damn well he shouldn’t be feeling right now.
Not when his cock was already straining against the fabric of his sweats, throbbing, aching, caught between desperate restraint and something far more primal.
Not when every primal, alpha-driven instinct in his body was howling at him to roll over, press Y/N into the mattress, and rut into that soft, needy heat until it was dripping with him—until it was stretched, swollen, stuffed full with his claim.
Not when his instincts demanded he take, ruin, own—mark every inch of that trembling body, make sure Y/N never smelled like anything but him again.
Not when the thought of knotting him, filling him, locking them together in something permanent, something carnal, something undeniably his made Jason’s entire body ache with the kind of need that bordered on pain.
Jason bit the inside of his cheek, hard.
How the fuck was Y/N sleeping through this?
How did he not feel what he was doing to the alpha? Not sense his utmost distress and peril at the situation he was in?
Jason squeezed his eyes shut.
This is why sleepovers got banned.
Holy shit, this is exactly why sleepovers got banned.
And the worst part?
Jason was starting to wonder if those rules had been for both of them.
Or if they’d been for him.
Because this? This was torture.
A slow, burning kind of agony, caught between the instinctual need to take and the desperate need to stay right here, safe, wrapped in Y/N’s warmth, without ruining everything.
And fuck, he didn’t know which one was worse.
Y/N was the only thing that could steady him and wreck him in the same breath. The one person who could pull him back from the edge, quiet the chaos in his head— but also the one who could drive him out of his fucking mind without even trying.
He wasn’t sure how the hell he survived the night.
But the next morning, as he watched Y/N stretch, shirt rising to expose a sliver of bare skin, hair messy, eyes still heavy with sleep—
Jason knew.
He wasn’t gonna survive much longer.
So, that Monday night, Jason Todd did the one thing no other alpha had the balls to do.
He went to Y/N’s father.
Because Jason was done waiting.
And if he was gonna do this, he was gonna do it right.
The front door he was very familiar with but often never used felt heavier than usual.
Jason stood there for a solid ten minutes, hands clenched into fists, running through every possible outcome of this conversation like it was a goddamn battle plan.
He’d been in rooms with Gotham’s worst before when visiting his dad. He had thrown hands with grown-ass alphas and men twice his size. He had taken beatings, dealt with cops, lived through shit most people wouldn’t believe.
But this?
This was a new level of terrifying.
Before he could bitch out, the door swung open, and Jason suddenly found himself face to face with Y/N’s father—broad, unimpressed, and already raising an eyebrow.
"Jason."
Jason swallowed, forcing himself to meet the man’s stare head-on.
"I wanna court your son."
Better to just rip off the band-aid than keep beating around the bush…or not? He didn’t know—he was fucking nervous.
Silence.
The longest fucking ten seconds of Jason’s life.
Y/N’s dad just stared, unreadable as ever, before tilting his head slightly.
"That so?"
Jason nodded, standing his ground even as his heart tried to punch its way out of his ribcage.
Another long pause.
Then, the man exhaled, glancing over his shoulder before calling out—
"Babe, I owe you twenty bucks!"
Jason blinked. What?
A second later, Y/N’s other Papa appeared from the kitchen, drying his hands on a towel, looking annoyingly smug.
"Told you he’d get there before graduation," he said, waving a hand in Jason’s general direction.
Y/N’s father grumbled under his breath, reaching into his wallet. "Damn kid had me convinced he was gonna be dense about it forever."
Jason stood there, completely thrown. "You… bet on this?"
Y/N’s Papa smirked, leisurely counting the cash from his husband before finally locking eyes with Jason.
"Took you long enough."
Jason’s brain short-circuited. He didn’t know whether to feel relieved or deeply offended.
Then, with the kind of knowing smirk that Jason was all too familiar with from his son and that made his own stomach twist, Y/N’s Papa added,
"But just so we're clear—if you're officially courting my son, I can’t keep pretending not to notice your little late-night ‘visits’ through the window anymore."
Jason felt the heat rush to his face as his heart nearly slammed out of his chest.
Shit. One can imagine the very interesting and tense conversation that happened afterward as they waited for Y/N to come home, especially from the Omega’s father, who also was not overtly happy at the mention of the late-night visits.
That same night, when Y/N returned home and spotted the familiar motorcycle parked in his driveway, a warm flicker of anticipation bloomed in his chest.
Jason was here.
But that warmth was doused immediately when his eyes landed on him.
Jason Todd—the same Jason who could stare down a room full of people without flinching, who never backed down from a fight, who laughed in the face of authority—was sitting on his porch, hunched over, elbows braced on his knees, hands clenched into fists.
And he looked… nervous.
Not angry. Not frustrated. Nervous.
Y/N’s stomach twisted.
Jason could be furious, and it wouldn’t shake him. He could be bleeding, and Y/N would roll up his sleeves and handle it. But this? This was new.
His hands felt clammy as he climbed the steps, heart hammering, because Jason looking like this—like his mind was at war with itself, like he was fighting something bigger than his usual battles—meant something serious.
And serious, when it came to Jason, could mean a lot of things.
Y/N swallowed, trying to keep his voice steady. "Jay?"
Jason’s head snapped up immediately, like he hadn’t even heard him approach, like he had been too caught up in his own storm to notice the outside world.
And the second those piercing blue eyes locked onto him, something in Jason’s entire body just—unclenched.
Like he had been holding his breath this entire time and only now, now, that Y/N was standing in front of him, could he actually breathe.
Y/N stepped closer. "What’s wrong?"
Jason let out a slow, uneven exhale, then shook his head, like he was still trying to get himself together.
Then, finally, he spoke.
"Nothin’s wrong." His voice was rough, but softer than usual, like there was more sitting behind those words. More that he wasn’t saying yet.
Y/N narrowed his eyes. "Bullshit."
Jason huffed out a small, barely-there laugh, rubbing the back of his neck. "Okay, maybe not nothin’… but it’s not bad." He shifted, like he wasn’t quite sure what to do with himself.
And that? That made Y/N even more nervous.
Jason never hesitated.
"Okay…not gonna lie, you’re kind of freaking me out here. What’s going on, Jason?"
Jason let out a long, suffering sigh, leveling Y/N with a flat stare—the kind that usually made people nervous.
But Y/N wasn’t people.
And the omega knew that look for what it really was.
Pouting.
Jason Todd—Gotham Collegiate’s most infamous bad boy, the alpha who had everyone either terrified or thirsting—was pouting.
All because Y/N had called him Jason instead of his usual nicknames.
Y/N barely had time to register it before Jason’s brow twitched, his voice dropping into a low, grumbling mutter.
"You know I hate it when you call me that."
Y/N arched a brow. "It’s your name."
Jason’s scowl deepened, arms crossing over his broad chest, making him look even more like an overgrown, sulky teenager. "Yeah, well… it doesn’t sound right when it’s coming from you."
And Y/N knew exactly what he meant.
Jason had never been just Jason to him.
He had always been Jay. Or, more notably—Jaybirdie—among other names to come.
The nickname was one of those things neither of them really remembered starting, only that, according to their parents, Jason had been obsessed with birds as a kid—specifically robins.
"I don’t know what it was," Y/N’s Papa had laughed once, recounting the memory. "But Jason had a phase where he was convinced he was a damn bird. Would run around flapping his arms, chirping, climbing everything in sight—"
"—still climbs everything in sight," Y/N’s dad had grumbled.
Y/N had beamed at a then nine-year-old Jason, eyes twinkling with mischief. "You’re like a little jaybird!"
And just like that—Jaybird and subsequently ‘Jaybirdie’ was born.
It was a name that had followed them through childhood, whispered between giggles under blanket forts, shouted across the playground when Jason was daring Y/N to keep up with his reckless stunts, scribbled into the margins of school notebooks when passing notes in class.
It was his name—a name no one else called him.
Because Jason had never let anyone else call him that.
Not even Dick, who had tried once in middle school only to be met with the most unimpressed, deadpan stare imaginable.
"Try that again, Grayson, and I swear to god—"
But when Y/N said it?
Jason melted. Not that he’d ever admit it.
After that, it became law—no one but Y/N called him Jaybirdie. And Y/N should ever call Jason anything but, or one of the other plentiful nicknames he’d had for him.
"Jason—"
…
Call the cops because the law’s been broken.
Jason, looking entirely done with this conversation, exhaled sharply and muttered—
"Whatever, just—here."
As if deciding something in real-time, he reached into his jacket pocket and pulled something out.
Jason glanced at him, clearly catching his reaction, because his lips twitched, a shadow of his usual cocky smirk ghosting across his face. "Relax, sweetheart. Not that kinda box."
Y/N did not relax.
Because Jason still looked serious. And Jason only looked serious when things mattered.
Slowly, he opened the box, revealing a simple yet striking silver ring inside. Simple, unpolished, but solid. Sturdy.
Familiar.
Y/N’s stomach flipped because—holy shit.
It was made from one of Jason’s old bike chains.
The same damn chain Y/N had broken last year when he’d taken Jason’s motorcycle for a joyride and crashed it into a very unfortunate mailbox.
Y/N had come out with only a few scrapes, but Jason was still pissed. Not because of the bike.
Because Y/N had gotten hurt from it, even if it was in a small manner.
And now, here he was, giving him a ring made from that same damn bike.
Y/N almost teared up.
Almost.
Jason exhaled, rubbing a thumb over the metal before looking back up at Y/N, something raw flickering behind his eyes. "It’s for you."
Y/N’s voice felt stuck in his throat. "Jason, I—"
But Jason wasn’t done.
He stood up, stepping closer, pulling something else from beside him—a motorcycle helmet.
Sleek. Sturdy. And unmistakably red. A match to his own.
And somehow—everything made sense.
Jason exhaled slowly, shifting his weight like he wasn’t sure what to do with himself.
Then, voice low, he said, "The ring's from the old chain. Figured it was fitting, since you can’t seem to keep your hands off my damn bike."
Y/N stomach did a flip at that, as he tried to hold in his nervous laugh. He just wouldn’t let that go.
Jason smirked, but it softened almost instantly. He tapped the helmet.
"This is the real thing, though."
His voice dipped lower, softer.
"The helmet’s so you can always be with me. Whenever you wanna be."
Y/N’s throat tightened.
Because the motorcycle wasn’t just Jason’s.
It was theirs.
It was years of sneaking out, of riding under Gotham’s neon lights, of Jason showing him how to shift gears, of Y/N pressing his cheek against Jason’s back as the wind roared around them.
Y/N’s chest ached.
He knew what Jason was really saying.
Jason Todd didn’t share things. He didn’t give pieces of himself away to just anyone. But here he was, offering Y/N something that meant more than words ever could.
It was a delcaration, a silent I choose you, a this is forever if you want it to be.
Y/N’s throat tightened. "Jason…"
Jason held his gaze, shoulders tense, eyes unreadable. "Say somethin’, sweetheart."
Y/N didn’t think.
Didn’t hesitate.
He just moved.
One second, he was standing still. The next, he was grabbing Jason by the collar of his jacket and yanking him down into a kiss so deep, so desperate, so all-consuming, it stole the breath straight from his lungs.
Jason made a sound—low, surprised—but he recovered fast.
Really fast.
Because suddenly, strong hands were gripping Y/N’s waist, yanking him flush against a firm, solid chest, and—fuck.
Jason kissed like he fought—with everything he had.
Heat. Teeth. Desperation. Like he had been waiting for this, needing this, for a long, long time.
And Y/N?
Y/N was gone.
The feeling of Jason’s hands on him, the way his lips moved, the low, near-growl in his throat—it was enough to send a shiver down his spine.
The motorcycle helmet hit the porch with a soft thud, forgotten.
Jason was the first to pull back, just barely, his breath ragged, forehead still pressed against Y/N’s.
He huffed out a small, breathless laugh, voice a little rough but undeniably fond. "So… I’m guessin’ that’s a yes?"
Y/N, still dazed, still completely wrecked, somehow still managed to find his smart mouth.
“Technically, you never asked me a question.” His lips curled, teasing, knowing exactly what he was doing. “But, if I’m assuming correctly, then…” He tilted his head, smiling. “It’s a maybe.”
Now it was Jason’s turn to freeze. His expression shifted—lips parting slightly, brows twitching downward.
A full-body offense.
"A maybe?"
A full-grown alpha, pouting, arms wrapped around Y/N’s waist like a clingy damn koala. Jason nuzzled into his throat, breath hot against his skin, muttering, grumbling, sulking.
"Unbelievable."
Y/N bit back a laugh, hands sliding over broad shoulders.
"I mean, I dunno, Jaybirdie, you didn’t exactly—"
Jason bit him.
Not hard, just enough to make Y/N squeak—just enough to shut him up. Childish…but effective.
Jason pulled back, scowling, still clinging, and—fuck, he was adorable.
"Try that again," Jason grumbled, low, almost grumpy. "Because I swear to god, Y/N—if you leave me hanging with a maybe after all that—"
Y/N was laughing now, warm and breathless, hugging him back.
"Okay, okay," he hummed, fingers tangling in Jason’s hair, voice soft with something more real.
He pressed a kiss to Jason’s jaw, right over the spot he had just nipped.
"It’s a yes, dummy."
Jason huffed, but Y/N could feel his grin.
"Good."
And then—because Jason Todd was a menace—
He kissed him again.
Obviously, the school was buzzing with gossip the next day when Jason pulled up to the front entrance with Y/N perched on the back of his motorcycle, both donning their matching helmets like a damn statement piece.
But that? That wasn’t what had people stopping mid-step.
No, the real show—the thing that had the entire hallway vibrating with whispers—was the silver ring glinting on Y/N’s hand.
A ring that, at that exact moment, was enclosed in Jason Todd’s much larger one as he strode down the hall, cutting a direct path through the crowd without a single glance at anyone else.
Jason didn’t need to look.
He could already feel the stares.
And the thing about Jason Todd?
He thrived off that shit.
Shoulders squared, chin lifted, his entire presence radiated smug, alpha satisfaction as he led Y/N to his locker like he was escorting a prize only he had the right to claim. And judging by the bitching expressions of half the alphas in the building? He wasn’t wrong.
Jason’s chest puffed up just a little more, an unmistakable fuck you energy rolling off him as he caught sight of the bitter stares from guys who had never stood a chance in the first place.
Because, let’s be real—Y/N was never theirs.
And now?
Now, he never would be.
Jason squeezed Y/N’s hand, fingers tightening possessively around his while unconsciously playing with the ring on the Omega’s finger as they stopped at his locker. Then, finally, he flicked his eyes up, gaze lazily sweeping over the crowd of sulking, jealous bastards.
And fuck—it felt good.
Conner and Dick found them shortly after, spotting Jason still keeping Y/N tucked against his side like some overgrown, territorial wolfdog. But, to their credit, Jason wasn’t actively growling at them, which—by his standards—was basically rolling out a red carpet of acceptance.
The pair of alphas shared a look, an entire conversation passing between them as they took in the absolute sight in front of them.
Their two closest friends.
Finally. Together.
It was about damn time.
Dick, naturally, was the first to speak up.
Hands on his hips, grinning like a damn idiot, he let out a dramatic sigh. "Wow. So it only took you, what—your entire life to finally make a move?"
Jason’s eye twitched.
Conner snorted, crossing his arms as he tilted his head in fake contemplation. "I dunno, Dick. I think we might be giving him too much credit. Could’ve easily taken another five years at the rate he was going."
Jason scowled, shoulders tensing like he was about two seconds away from decking them both.
Y/N, however, was cracking up, pressing his face into Jason’s shoulder as he tried (and failed) to contain his laughter.
Jason turned that glare on him next. "Don’t encourage them."
Dick smirked. "Oh, no, no. Let him laugh, Jay. This is a monumental occasion." He pressed a hand to his chest, eyes mockingly emotional. "My little Jason—courting like a real alpha. Who would’ve thought?"
Jason clicked his tongue, face deadpan. "I will throw you down a flight of stairs."
Conner chuckled. "Relax, dude. We’re happy for you."
Dick grinned, slinging an arm around Jason’s shoulder in the worst decision of his life. "Yeah, bro. Really. We love this for you."
Jason immediately shoved him off. "Don’t touch me."
Y/N, still shaking with laughter, squeezed Jason’s hand, leaning up to peck his cheek. "They’re just messing with you, Jay."
Jason huffed, but Y/N could feel the tension leaving his body.
Conner smirked. "Seriously, man. Took you long enough, but… you did good."
Dick winked at Y/N. "And you must be so proud of him. Your big, bad alpha finally figured out how to ask you out. What an achievement."
Jason bristled. "Okay, I’m leaving."
Y/N just laughed harder.
“Oh, my FUCK! They’re so CUTE together!”
Manny screeched, nearly vibrating out of his skin as he watched Jason Todd—grumpy, brooding, anti-social Jason Todd—casually holding Y/N’s hand like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Down the hall, standing at their usual locker hangout spot, he, Ethan, Sasha, and Kara were practically witnessing a historical event.
Ethan, rubbing his ear with a pained expression, groaned. “Manny, volume please.”
Manny waved him off. “Oh, hush you with your sensitive ass ears. You are not about to tell me that this isn’t the most romantic thing you’ve ever seen in your entire life.”
Sasha gushed, practically vibrating with excitement. “I know! I heard from Caitlyn earlier that the ring Y/N’s wearing isn’t just some random accessory—Jason made it himself. Like, actually put it together with his own hands.”
Manny gasped, clutching his chest like he’d been struck. “Fanfiction could never…”
Unless?
…
Pfff, yeah right.
Kara crossed her arms, smirking. “Oh yeah, we totally suffered watching Jason Todd be a dramatic, lovesick idiot all this time.”
Manny nodded violently. “Exactly! And now LOOK AT THEM! They’re literally giving black cat/golden retriever energy. Ugh…my fucking dream. Oh, to be Y/N? Think I could find a witch to cast a spell to switch our bodies?”
Ethan, long-suffering, just sighed. “Manny, you seriously need to—”
“OH, SHIT! LOOK! LOOK! Jason’s GLARING at anyone who stares too long! MY GOD, HE’S FERAL! THIS IS BETTER THAN TELEVISION.”
Sasha actually cackled. “How long are you guys betting before he physically body-checks someone for looking at Y/N too hard.”
Kara raised an eyebrow. “I give it until lunch.”
Ethan, frowning at the sore sight, but not wanting to be left out hummed thoughtfully. “I say by next period.”
Manny, grinning like a madman, slammed a twenty on the table. “Bitch, I say ten minutes.
Kara grinned, shaking her head. “Y’all are terrible.”
Just a note: Manny won the bet.
After dropping Y/N off at his class, Jason leaned against the lockers, arms crossed, watching like he always did. Dick and Conner flanked him, still snickering and talking shit, their teasing only getting worse now that Y/N was out of earshot.
Jason, as annoyed as he was, just rolled his eyes, exhaling through his nose. He let them talk. Let them have their fun.
Because his focus was elsewhere.
And then—it happened.
One of Conner’s teammates—some over-bronzed, protein-powdered, roid-raging benchwarmer from Kevin’s crew—made the worst decision of his life.
The guy, a walking case of bad judgment and even worse acne, had been eyeing Y/N for weeks.
Just another alpha in the long line of idiots convinced he had a shot. Another poor bastard with a plan.
He was in the same class as Y/N. Had probably been waiting for the perfect moment to make his move—to ask him to the upcoming dance, maybe try his luck.
But the problem?
Jason got to Y/N first.
And Pimple Roid Rage?
He wasn’t handling it well.
Jason wasn’t oblivious—he’d clocked the guy’s pathetic pining a long time ago.
Always hovering near Y/N in class, standing just a little too close. Always watching him, lingering, waiting for a chance. Always shooting Jason dirty looks across the cafeteria, like some scorned, lovesick puppy who just realized his favorite toy was already claimed.
As mentioned before, one of the main reasons Y/N’s father had warmed up to Jason long before the idea of them becoming a couple was ever on the table was the younger Alpha’s unyielding protectiveness over his son.
Even back then, Jason had been watching out for Y/N, stepping in when necessary, making it very clear that no one—no one—was going to mess with him and get away with it.
So while Y/N’s father wasn’t exactly thrilled about the chaos after getting a call from the school’s principal, he also wasn’t disappointed, either.
Not even close.
If anything, it only reinforced his decision to grant Jason his blessing to court his son.
And, well…
The idea of having Jason Todd as a future son-in-law was starting to sound more appealing by the day.
So much so, in fact, that he may or may not have casually floated the idea of a wedding planner to his husband later that evening—
But…what even happened?
Well…
Long story short, Pimple Face decided to shoot his shot anyway, convinced that a little direct confrontation would somehow tip the odds in his favor.
And sure, Y/N was seated at his desk, but that didn’t stop the dumbass from getting bold—too bold.
One second, the guy was smirking, fingers daring to slip under Y/N’s chin, tilting his head up like he had any right to touch him.
The next?
The next moment, he suddenly was no longer in the classroom. Then, he was airborne. And, finally, in the blink of an eye, he was slammed against the lockers in the hallway—hard enough to leave a dent.
The entire hall went silent.
The air crackled with Jason’s fury, his teeth bared, shoulders squared, and one massive hand fisting the guy’s collar so tight his feet barely touched the ground.
"You must be out of your fucking mind." Jason’s voice was low, dangerously calm in the way that promised imminent destruction.
The guy gasped, struggling against Jason’s grip, panic flooding his expression.
Jason didn’t blink. Didn’t flinch.
Didn’t move—except for his other hand, which slammed right beside the guy’s head, denting another locker on impact.
"Go on. Say something. Give me a reason not to make you regret waking up today."
Y/N, still processing, barely had a chance to breathe before Jason turned his dark, burning gaze on him.
"You okay?" The question was simple, but the way he said it—deep, thick with possession, with a silent tell me yes before I put him through the wall—made heat bloom in Y/N’s stomach.
Y/N swallowed, heart racing, breath shaky.
Not because of the alpha currently reaching zen with the metal lockers, fuck him. No, Y/N was currently trying to calm his racing heart because Jason was pissed.
And it was hot as hell.
Y/N exhaled slowly, pressing a hand to Jason’s chest—not to push him away, but to remind him he was there.
"Jay," he murmured.
Jason’s eyes flickered, still locked on Y/N, jaw clenched so tight it could shatter stone.
Y/N licked his lips.
"I’m fine."
Jason inhaled sharply. Then, after a beat, he turned back to the alpha, who was still choked up with fear at the menacing and disgusted look thrown at him.
“Touch him again and you’ll be lucky if any doctor is able to fix your hands,” He whispered, before letting go—shoving the guy aside like he was nothing.
The poor bastard stumbled, barely catching himself, before bolting down the hall like his ass was on fire. Within five minutes, the entire school was buzzing like a swarm of bees, whispers spreading like wildfire.
And in the middle of it all?
A very smug Manny, lounging at his own locker, grinning ear to ear as his phone pinged repeatedly—each notification another $20 from his very salty friends reluctantly paying up.
“Easiest money I’ve ever made,” he typed into the group chat, attaching a meme for maximum gloating.

Jason didn’t get suspended like he usually would’ve for a stunt like that, but the principal did still give him detention along with the other alpha for essentially sexually harassing Y/N. Y/N’s parents along with Willis both made it clear that if Jason was getting punished, so should the football player who put his hands where they didn’t belong in the first place.
Jason was merely defending him.
And the principal was smart enough to put them in separate classrooms for the duration of their punishment. More so for the benchwarmer’s protection, which didn’t help his ego.
Conner—who of course witnessed the whole thing firsthand—promised Jason he’d make the Alpha pay for it double at practice after the whole ordeal. And detention wasn’t too bad.
Ms. Ridges was the one monitoring, which basically meant Jason had free rein to do whatever the hell he wanted since she barely paid attention to anything other than her crossword puzzles.
So, naturally, Jason spent his time doing the most important thing possible—
Texting his omega.
Jason: this is 100% your fault
Jason: u need to stop being hot
Y/N: wow. tragic. truly.
Y/N: but i simply cannot do that. would be a crime to rob the world of… well, me.
Y/N: besides, I wasn’t the one who practically tackled Richie and left some poor kid’s locker looking like a car crash scene…
Jason:

Y/N: RUDE
This was their relationship and Jason’s courting almost in a nutshell.
Honestly? It was like watching two people who were already married—except they were still seniors in high school.
Jason had never made a big deal about courting the way other alphas did—at least, in his mind he didn’t. To him, it was just stuff he’d do anyway—whether they were friends, dating, married, or even enemies.
And who doesn’t love a good enemies-to-lovers trope?
If anyone brought it up, Jason would just roll his eyes, shrug, and mutter some bullshit about “formalities” and “making sure his dad’s happy.”
And by dad, he meant both of their dads.
Willis Todd was surprisingly traditional about this kind of thing—had even placed his own money on the bet with Y/N’s parents for when Jason would eventually propose. But more than that, he had made sure Jason did things right and respectfully.
He even helped make Y/N’s ring.
Y/N only figured that part out much later, which, in hindsight, made the gift all the more special.
And while Jason acted like the whole courting thing wasn’t a big deal…
Y/N knew the truth.
Because even though Jason’s version of courting wasn’t flashy like the rich preppy kids at their school, he damn sure took it seriously.
And, unlike half the wannabe alphas in their class, Jason prided himself on proving—every single day—that he was the best and only alpha fit for Y/N.
It was practically his day job. Just… without the pay rate.
Or salary.
Or health benefits.
Or a 401K.
Or a retirement plan.
...Actually, the retirement part might be included.
The point was, Jason didn’t need extravagant gifts or public displays of devotion. And not just because he couldn’t afford them.
He cared about the smaller things.
The thoughtful things.
The practical things.
It was Jason instructing Y/N to pop his hood, while making his way to the front of his car with that sexy, dominanting walk. Y/N had casually mentioned his engine making a weird noise while they were cuddling on the couch, and within 20 minutes, Jason went home to grab his toolkit and was back at the L/N’s residence working on the Omega’s car.
Apparently, Y/N was long overdue for an oil change. It’s not his fault he didn’t know though…he’s just a baby.
That night, Y/N’s Dad called Willis Todd to tell him what a hell of a son he was raising.
Which, considering the tense history between them? That was a big fucking deal.
It was also Jason volunteering to carry every single grocery bag inside after tagging along with Y/N and his Papa to run errands.
Y/N had barely gotten a single bag in his hands before Jason was already grabbing—snatching everything away from him while giving the omega an offended scowl and a look in his eyes that told him to just stand there and look handsome.
"Was Dad like this when he was courting you?"
His Papa, sipping his lemonade, didn’t even hesitate.
“Yep. Still haven’t carried a bag to this day.” And that’s on waiting for the right one.
But it wasn’t just groceries.
It was his bookbag, his schoolbooks, even a single notebook.
Because, according to Jason—
"Why should you carry it when I’m right here?"
It was Jason always walking Y/N home, opening the door for him, bringing him food, making sure he had medicine when he was sick.
And if anyone ever questioned it?
Jason would just glare, deadpan, and say—
“What, you think I’m gonna let someone else do it?”
Because no.
Jason Todd would not, in fact, let anyone else do it.
Hell would have snow days before that happened.
And Y/N would just smile, shake his head, and let him have his way.
He wasn’t the poetic type. He wasn’t going to write love letters or give corny, dramatic speeches.
But his actions?
They screamed devotion louder than words ever could.
Like when Y/N mentioned offhandedly that he liked a specific brand of snacks—and the next day, Jason was pulling them out of his book bag for him during lunch.
Or when Y/N shivered in class once—and Jason somehow had a hoodie waiting for him within minutes, placed over his shoulders like it was nothing. Or when Y/N sighed, exhausted, after a long day, and Jason just pulled him into his lap without a word, carding his fingers through his hair until he dozed off.
And Y/N would tease him about it.
“Jay, you’re basically already my boyfriend. What’s the courting even for?”
Jason would just grunt.
“Formality.”
Because Jason was damn sure he was going to earn Y/N’s parents' approval. And if he didn’t?
Well. That wouldn’t change a damn thing about what he was doing. But, it was nice to do it without having to hide or be sneaky.
Unless we were talking about his late-night visits—which only stopped for about a week. Then, Y/N texted him one night and…well, the picture is already clear.
He’d already been busted for the late-night visits, and while he was hesitant to outright defy his parents’ orders, he was—unfortunately, or rather very fortunately— far too weak to resist the sight of his Omega lounging around in nothing but a thin tank top and those damn sleep shorts that clung just a little too high on his thighs and rode up every time he shifted.
And it wasn’t always just about sneaking in to see Y/N—sometimes, Jason just needed an escape. A break from his own house. A place that actually felt like home.
So, while his parents weren’t exactly thrilled about it, they also weren’t too hard on him. That being said—Y/N’s dad was still strict. And very clear about his boundaries.
“You put a baby in my son… I put a bullet in your ass.”
He was half joking, half serious.
(…Mostly serious.)
But it didn’t do much to deter them. They were teenagers, after all. And now, with the shift in their relationship, those late-night sleepovers? Things had taken a very quick turn.
Y/N could feel it every time—the way Jason’s breathing deepened, the way his grip tightened just a little more than usual, the way his mouth brushed over the back of Y/N’s neck, slow, teasing, while he held him firmly from behind.
And then—his voice.
Low. Rough.
“You drive me fucking crazy, you know that?”
Y/N shivered. And, if he was being honest?
He was definitely at fault.
Ever since that one night—that one time and then every time after that Jason had slept over and had to fight every primal instinct not to pin Y/N down and rut into him—it was like walking on a tightrope every time he got into that bed.
Because Y/N?
Y/N was also a menace just like his boyfriend.
Always cuddling too close, rubbing against him, stretching in ways that made Jason’s self-control damn near non-existent.
And tonight? Tonight was no different.
Except this time?
Jason nearly gave in. He was seconds away from losing his fucking mind.
Y/N was already pinned beneath him, flushed and trembling, thighs slick and spread, making a fucking mess on the sheets. Jason had no business being this goddamn hard, this close to breaking, but Y/N wasn’t making it easy.
He should’ve rolled off, thrown himself in a cold shower, done literally anything other than what he was doing right now. But, no…what was he doing instead?
He was grinding against the omega, slowly, teasingly, letting Y/N feel every inch of his cock straining through his sweats, letting him ache for it, letting him need. Jason grinned against Y/N’s skin, slow and mean, fingers teasing along the slicked-up skin of his thighs, his ribs, his chest, taking his sweet, vengeful time.
Jason shouldn’t be doing this. He shouldn’t be doing this.
Shouldn’t be grinding against Y/N, shouldn’t be letting his cock drag against slicked-up skin, shouldn’t be letting himself feel exactly how ready Y/N was for him.
Because fuck, he could feel everything.
Even through the thin fabric of his sweats, Jason could trace the heat of Y/N’s rim, could feel just how soaked he was, the slick dampening his own clothes—warm, wet, and so fucking inviting that Jason nearly lost it right then and there.
And then Y/N had to fucking whine. Loud.
Jason’s body reacted before his brain could catch up. His hand was over Y/N’s mouth in an instant, pressing firm, shutting him up.
Y/N went still immediately, wide-eyed, pupils blown, body locked in place like instinct had taken over. Jason exhaled slowly, nostrils flaring. His fingers curled around Y/N’s jaw, tilting his head back, holding him still, forcing him to meet his gaze.
“Do that shit again, and I’ll gag you next time.”
A high, muffled noise left Y/N’s throat, his thighs squeezing together, and Jason groaned, eyes dark, heated, fucking dangerous.
“Got-damn it.” Jason buried his face in Y/N’s throat, inhaling deep, his grip tightening, his cock throbbing painfully against his sweats. “You don’t even fucking realize what you do to me, do you?”
Y/N whimpered against his palm, his body trembling, soaking the sheets with slick, and Jason felt every second of it.
Every twitch. Every shiver. Every desperate attempt to move, to grind up, to find friction.
Jason let out a rough, breathless chuckle, voice dripping with authority.
“You wanna be loud? Huh?” His tone was mocking, taunting, sharp with amusement. “Go ahead, sweetheart. Let’s wake the whole fuckin’ house up. Let’s have your dad walk in here and see just how much of a desperate little mess you are for me.”
Y/N’s whole body fucking seized, a strangled whimper muffled against Jason’s hand, hips twitching upon instinct.
Jason grinned, sharp and knowing. “Oh, you like that, huh?”
He ground his hips down again, slower this time, deliberate, letting Y/N feel every inch of him pressing up against where he needed it most.
And then—
The scent shifted and Jason froze.
Something sweet. Something new.
His eyes snapped down to Y/N’s heaving, sweat-slicked chest, and fuck.
Y/N’s nipples were wet, a thin, milky fluid pearling at the tips, trickling down the curve of his ribs. Jason’s entire fucking brain short-circuited. Because he did that. He fucking did that.
A deep, guttural growl rumbled in his chest, pure fucking alpha pride flooding his system, primal instincts howling that he’d driven Y/N so far into arousal that his body couldn’t help but respond.
Y/N, half-dazed, still gasping, followed Jason’s heated gaze, blinking in confusion before—
His face went red.
“Oh my god—”
Jason grinned, slow and predatory, fingers sliding over Y/N’s nipple, smearing the warm fluid with his thumb, rolling it between his fingers.
“Would you look at that?” His voice was mocking, taunting, dripping with satisfaction. “And here I thought you weren’t desperate enough to soak the sheets for me, but now you’re fuckin’ leaking too?”
Y/N let out the most pitiful noise Jason had ever heard, body tensing, thighs clenching around his waist.
Jason groaned, his cock throbbing painfully, because fuck, this was it. This was the second highest form of omega submission, second only to being knotted.
This was his. His omega. His body, responding to him and only him.
Jason didn’t even realize he’d moved until his lips were wrapped around Y/N’s nipple, tongue flicking slow and teasing, collecting every drop.
The second it hit his tongue—
Jason fucking groaned.
Because holy shit.
Sweet. So fucking sweet.
It was warm and rich, like the deepest honey, but better, smoother, more intoxicating, rolling over Jason’s tongue like fucking liquid gold. Jason sucked harder, letting more of it coat his tongue, letting the taste sink into his bloodstream, burning him up from the inside out.
Y/N let out a wrecked, broken sob, body shuddering, back arching up into Jason’s mouth.
Jason growled against his chest, his free hand sliding down, gripping Y/N’s hip, locking him in place.
Mine.
His instincts screamed it, his body demanded it, and for one wild, dangerous second—
Jason nearly fucking snapped. Because he needed more.
He needed to bury himself deep, make Y/N take it, knot him right here, fuck him until his body couldn’t do anything but take Jason’s seed—
Jason ripped himself away, panting hard, jaw clenched so tight it ached.
Fuck.
Fuck.
"You’re lucky I’m not fucking you full right now. You’d be a fucking mess by morning."
Y/N whimpered, squirming, but Jason held him still, keeping his body pinned and pliant.
"Bet you’d like that, huh?" Jason murmured, dragging his tongue over the other nipple, groaning low at the taste. "Bet you’d love for me to fill you up, knot you right here, make you fucking take it."
Y/N shuddered, another helpless whine escaping, his body flushed all over.
Jason just grinned against his chest, loving how wrecked Y/N looked. His beautiful, leaking, slick-dripping omega.
“Gotta say, sweetheart,” Jason murmured, voice thick with amusement, dangerous in its slowness, “this is only fair.”
Y/N, half-gone, dazed and twitching, barely managed a breathy, “What—?”
Jason chuckled, dragging his fingertips through the thin, pearly streaks of fluid still trickling from Y/N’s nipples, spreading it, letting Y/N feel how messy he was, how exposed.
“Oh, you don’t remember?” Jason taunted, his grip tightening around Y/N’s thigh, pulling it higher around his waist. “Let me remind you, baby. You remember all those nights I slept in your bed? How you’d roll over and press that hot, needy mess against me?”
Y/N whimpered, cheeks burning, body tensing beneath him. The Alpha’s smirk widened.
“Yeah. Now you remember.”
His fingers dipped lower, sliding just close enough to tease, but not nearly enough to satisfy.
“You don’t know how many nights I woke up hard as a fucking rock because you couldn’t keep still,” Jason muttered, grinding his hips just enough to make Y/N feel exactly what that frustration built up to. “You’d rub all over me, make those little noises in your sleep, and I had to fucking sit there, suffering, pretending like I wasn’t about two seconds from flipping you onto your back and making you take it.”
Y/N let out the softest, most pitiful sound, thighs clenching, hips twitching involuntarily.
Jason groaned, pressing a teasing kiss to Y/N’s jaw, smug as hell. “And now look at you,” he crooned, mocking, mean, eating up every second of Y/N’s helpless little squirms.
“Dripping. Leaking. Practically begging for me.”
Y/N hid his face in Jason’s shoulder, shaking. Jason just chuckled darkly.
“What’s wrong, sweetheart?” Jason murmured against his ear, his tone sickly sweet, full of smug satisfaction. “Can’t handle what you started?”
Y/N whined again, thighs clenching around Jason’s waist, slick dripping down between them. Jason felt it. Smelled it.
And fuck, he wanted to ruin him.
To press Y/N down, spread him wide, fuck him so deep he’d still feel it tomorrow. His instincts were screaming at him—breed, claim, mark, take.
It would be so easy. So fucking easy.
But Jason?
Jason was in control. He had to be.
Even as he felt his self-restraint slipping, even as his body was aching to give in, even as his mouth watered at the scent of slick soaking into the mattress—
Jason forced himself to stop.
He ripped his hand away from Y/N’s mouth, dragging his thumb across swollen lips, smirking when Y/N tried to chase it.
“That’s what I thought,” Jason murmured, voice thick with satisfaction.
Y/N let out a desperate, broken whimper, thighs still twitching, body still aching for more.
Jason smirked.
"Be patient, sweetheart."
Because when Jason finally knotted him?
Y/N wouldn’t be walking for a week. But, it seemed the omega was willing to try his luck tonight, as Jason felt fingers slipping beneath the waistband of his sweats, just barely brushing him—
Jason growled. A low, guttural warning.
“Stop.”
Jason’s grip tightened. His body locked up, every inch of him wired too tight, too hot, too close to breaking. He exhaled slowly, his breath hot against Y/N’s throat, trying to get himself under control.
“…Behave,” he muttered, voice low and wrecked, pressing a grounding kiss to Y/N’s shoulder.
Y/N barely managed a nod.
“Good boy. Not yet,” Jason exhaled through his nose, gripping Y/N’s chin, forcing his dazed gaze back up to him. His lips curled, but it wasn’t teasing—it was fond. “I want you,” Jason’s voice dropped, rough and thick with heat, his thumb brushing over Y/N’s bottom lip, lingering. “But not yet. Not like this. I’m not gonna—” He swallowed, voice softer now. “I wanna do this right. You deserve that.”
Y/N’s fingers curled into his shoulders, pulling him closer, pressing open-mouthed kisses along his jaw. Soft at first. Then hotter, needier, tongue flicking against his pulse point just to hear Jason’s breath stutter. And Jason—big, bad Jason Todd—fucking melted. His weight fully pressed down, his grip tightened, and suddenly—Y/N was flipped onto his stomach.
Jason’s breath was hot against his ear, his body grounding and deliberate as his hand slid between Y/N’s thighs, spreading them wider. His fingertips brushed against slick, damp shorts and Jason groaned, half in frustration, half in approval. “Oh fuck, baby. You’re driving me insane.”
Y/N whimpered, hips trembling, thighs slick and shaking, pressing against Jason’s hand like he couldn’t help himself. Jason smirked, voice thick with amusement. “Be patient.” Then, slowly, he sank his teeth into Y/N’s shoulder—hard enough to bruise, but not break skin. Y/N gasped, back arching, thighs clenching around Jason’s wrist.
Jason groaned, satisfied, his free hand sliding up Y/N’s stomach, palm pressed firm against his ribs, holding him in place.
Jason was really trying to behave himself.
Really.
But another look at Y/N—flushed, dazed, lips swollen from his teeth, completely pliant beneath him—and Jason lost his patience.
A low, wrecked growl rumbled in his chest, his body moving before his brain could stop him. His hands shot down, fingers hooking into the waistband of Y/N’s shorts and underwear, yanking them down in one sharp motion.
The next second—his own sweats and boxers were shoved down, his cock finally free, thick and flushed and aching—
And then—
Bare skin. Heat.
The moment Jason slotted their bodies together, the moment he felt the slicked-up warmth of Y/N’s entrance pressing right up against his cock, he nearly fucking lost it. A deep, animalistic groan tore from his throat, his hips rolling forward instinctively, grinding into the wet heat, the tip catching just barely against the soft, sensitive rim.
Y/N gasped, back arching, thighs trembling, and Jason’s restraint shattered. Because fuck, he could feel everything.
Every soft, wet, aching inch of Y/N’s body ready to take him. His cock throbbed painfully, the tip leaking against slicked-up skin, every muscle in his body tight, coiled, on the verge of snapping again.
He could just—
Just a little more—
Just one good push forward—
He could feel every inch of Y/N’s slicked-up entrance, could feel the wet heat pressing right against his cock, the way his body trembled, opened up, begged to be taken. But it wasn’t just that.
It was Y/N’s reaction.
The way he whimpered, the way he squirmed, the way he fought to get Jason inside. Y/N was clinging to him, arms wrapped around Jason’s shoulders, legs locked tight around his waist, hips rolling, grinding up, trying so fucking hard to pull Jason in.
“J-Jason—” his voice cracked, high-pitched, needy, fucking wrecked.
Jason growled, locking Y/N’s hips in place, holding him down, refusing to let him move.
Y/N whined. Loud. Desperate. Pitiful.
His fingers dug into Jason’s biceps, his nails scratching down his back, clinging, yanking, trying to push him deeper. Jason could feel the tremors rolling through him, could hear the whimpering little sobs, the broken, pleading moans, the way his omega was fighting to be claimed.
Jason smirked against his throat, mocking, cruel.
“That bad, sweetheart?”
Y/N nodded frantically, writhing beneath him, hips rolling up again, chasing the friction.
Jason tightened his grip, forcing Y/N down, refusing to let him have what he wanted.
“No—please—” Y/N was barely coherent, panting, gasping, eyes unfocused, lost in the need.
Jason chuckled, voice low, taunting, dripping with amusement.
“You think crying’s gonna change my mind?”
Y/N’s body convulsed and a wrecked sob tore from his throat. And it was the most beautiful thing Jason had ever heard.
So much so that he gave in—for just one second.
His hips rolled forward, letting the tip of his cock slide against Y/N’s entrance, pressing just barely against the slicked-up rim, letting Y/N feel just how fucking close he was to having it.
Y/N let out the most broken, shattered moan Jason had ever heard, full-body trembling, clinging to Jason like he’d die if he pulled away.
Jason groaned, lips pressing against Y/N’s ear, voice thick with restraint, rough with frustration.
“You want my dick that bad, sweetheart? Hm?”
Jason stopped. A sharp, wrecked inhale. A visible shudder. Then Jason’s voice—low, teasing, still full of hunger.
“Too bad.”
Y/N let out a full-body shudder, a sob of frustration, trembling beneath him.
Jason ripped his lower end away, forcing his hips back, shaking, panting, his cock still aching, flushed, dripping against his stomach.
Y/N whimpered at the loss, still shaking, still needy, still desperate. Jason smirked, but it was wrecked, his voice low, teasing, but tinged with frustration.
“You almost got me, sweetheart,” he murmured, grinding one last time before finally pulling away completely.
Y/N whimpered again, a helpless, wrecked sound that nearly undid him. Jason chuckled darkly, pressing his forehead against Y/N’s.
“Tell me who you belong to.”
Y/N’s breath hitched, lips parting, a full-body shiver rolling through him. Jason’s fingers tightened around his jaw, tilting his face up.
“Say it.” Jason’s voice dropped, slow and dangerous, thick with possession.
Y/N swallowed. “…You.”
Jason grinned, sharp and predatory.
“Damn right.”
And then, with a final bite to Y/N’s bottom lip, Jason separated them. He forced himself to breathe, forced himself to pull away, even as his cock throbbed between his legs, demanding to raid the fertile and lush sanctuary between the omega’s assailable thighs.
It really needed to be studied how he could go from damn near feral to soft in the blink of an eye.
One minute, he had Y/N pinned beneath him and then on top of him, breath hot against his skin, whispering filth into his ear—praising, promising, taunting.
The next?
He was cleaning the omega up himself, taking his time, hands slow and careful, his body still wired too fucking tight to even think about calming down. He was wiping him down gently, a warm, damp rag sliding slowly over sweat-slicked skin.
Once satisfied, Jason pulled out a fresh pair of underwear and shorts from the Omega’s drawer for him, turning around to give him privacy while he fixed himself up. His body ached, hard and unsatisfied, his dick pressing painfully against the waistband of his trousers, wanting nothing more than to penetrate, fuck, knot, breed.
He gritted his teeth, willing it away, finally tugging his own sweats back up before climbing into bed. He grabbed Y/N’s wrist and tugged him down. And instead of pulling Y/N against his chest like usual—Jason laid directly on top of him.
Y/N huffed. “Jay—”
Jason just grumbled, burying his face against Y/N’s chest, wrapping his arms around him like a goddamn teddy bear.
“Shut up…this is where I live now,” Jason muttered, voice muffled.
Y/N snorted.
Jason’s weight was solid and warm, his grip strong, but the way he nuzzled into Y/N’s skin was so soft that it was almost unfair. Slowly, Y/N lifted a hand, threading his fingers through Jason’s hair, scratching lightly at his scalp.
Jason groaned in satisfaction, shifting closer, tucking his arms tighter around Y/N’s waist. Y/N smiled sleepily. “…Clingy.”
Jason scoffed, but it wasn’t nearly as gruff as it should’ve been.
“Shut up.”
But he didn’t let go. Not even a little.
If anything? He held tighter.
Because Jason Todd was many things.
A menace. A rebel. A walking disaster.
But when it came to Y/N?
Yeah…he was clingy.
“You’re gonna be the death of me,” Jason murmured against his skin.
→ This story concludes on AO3:

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Weirwood Tree



Summery : While in labour with their second child, Cregan and his wife take s short walk to the Weirwood tree to help get things moving.
Characters : Cregan Stark x f!wife reader (no use of Y/N)
Warnings : Pregnancy and childbirth (nothing explicit)
Word count : 3k
A/N : Turns out you never shake being a Stark girl, Ily Cregan so much.
“I’m sorry t’say it, my lady, but your labours have slowed up,” the midwife said softly as she drew the sheets back over Lady Starks bent knees before dipping her hands in a bowl of water.
“Slowed up?” Lady Stark repeated incredulously, dropping her head back on the feather pillow, “but it's been hours already,” she added, tears burning her eyes.
The second child of Lord Cregan stark and his lady wife was in no rush to make their way into the world. Despite the frequency and strength of her earlier pains once the midwife and maester had been sent for, everything seemed to have come to an uncomfortable halt.
The midwife had brought her ancient grandmother along with her, known through Winterfell and the winter town as Auld Joan, she had been a midwife in her own time and had delivered Cregan's father and uncle. She was mostly blind and deaf now but still attended births but spent most of the time sitting as close to a heat source as possible and dispensing wisdom if necessary. She was currently sitting in a chair next to the roaring fire, her ancient hands clasped on her lap, knuckles bulging out of shape and fingers curled like claws.
“I know it's been a while,” the midwife said soothingly, placing a warm hand on Lady Stark's knee, “but sometimes it's just like this,”.
“The last one wasn't like this,” Lady Stark grumbled, her mood darkening as she tried to shift around into a more comfortable position.
“You mustn't compare one with another,” the midwife soothed before touching a cold cloth to the lady's forehead.
“A walk will geyit moving ,” the old woman wheezed from her seat by the fire, “no’ this lying about,”.
The maester, who had been mostly disinterested in proceedings up until this point shot the old woman a dark look, he was standing in the far corner of the room, a leather case of vicious metal tools clutched jealously to his chest. His grey robes matched his grey and sickly looking skin. He wasn't particularly interested in births or deaths or the everyday ailments of life and resented being summoned to the birthing room of any woman.
“This position is agreed upon as being the correct way for labouring mothers,” he said coldly in a clipped southern accent.
“Agreed by men who know nothing about it,” the crone grumbled.
“What does she mean?” Lady Stark asked the midwife who was now gently feeling the swell of the lady's belly.
“Baby's not quite in righ’ place, that's why things have slowed,” she explained as she pressed on the left side of the belly, Lady Stark winced, “but grandmother thinks a little walk might get things moving again,”.
The midwife glanced over at her grandmother who had closed her eyes and was now looking peaceful in the flickering light of the fire, she looked back at her lady and dabbed the cloth over her cheeks before putting it back beside the bowl of cold water.
“What do you think?”Lady Stark asked.
She shrugged, making a point not to look towards the maester before replying.
“It helped me with mine, and it wouldn't do you any harm,”.
The maester opened his mouth to disagree and lady stark held up her hand to silence him.
“Just walking through the keep, out into the godswood for the fresh air should do it,” the midwife continued.
The lady nodded and lifted herself up onto her elbows, she addressed the maester, privately enjoying ordering the sour faced man about.
“Lord Cregan is outside the door, fetch him in,” she said.
Cregan Stark had paced the halls outside of his wife's rooms since he'd been asked to leave them several hours before. While he wasn't accustomed to being removed from parts of his own castle he respected that father's, even lords, were not expected to be present at the births of their children,so he was surprised to hear the door opening when he was fairly certain nothing much had happened yet.
“My Lord?” The voice of the maester echoed off the walls as the lord strode into view, “your wife would like to see you,”.
He nodded, his face stern as he stepped past the man and into the warm, dark room.
“Seven Hells,” he murmured as he pulled at the collar of his shirt, instantly feeling the heat of the room rolling over him like a wave, sweat breaking out on his forehead and upper lip.
As he looked around the room he was surprised to see the midwife helping his wife into her fur boots, a long, heavy cloak already covering her shoulders.
“Going somewhere?” He asked, raising an eyebrow.
She turned her flushed face to him and smiled.
“Yes, we're going for a walk,”.
Cregan’s brows rose but he nodded without further comment, knowing better than to ask questions. He watched nervously as the midwife helped his wife to her feet, ready to spring forward at any moment if it looked like Lady Stark might lose her balance.
Once he was happy she was safely on her feet, Cregan stepped towards them, offering his arm to his wife, who took a small step and linked her arm through his.
“Twice around the godswood’ll do it,” Auld Joan spoke from the chair, she opened one ancient eye that could just be seen through the folds of skin that made up her face.
“Or as far as you need’t,” the midwife added, her eyes flicking towards the maester.
From the darkest corner of the room the maester muttered under his breath “foolishness” but no one else could hear him or pay him a moment's more attention.
As the Lord and Lady of Winterfell stepped out of the stifling room and into the cooler corridor of the keep they both gave a sigh of relief. As they walked they instinctively drew closer to one another. Finding comfort and strength in each other's presence.
“This is an unexpected pleasure,” Cregan said as they stepped through the door of the keep and into the much colder air of the inner bailey. The ground was a mess of mud, straw, snow and grey brown slush that cracked and crunched under their boots.
“Yes,” she agreed, her hand tightening on his arm as her foot slipped a little on a patch of hidden ice, “Auld Joan felt this would be the best way to get things moving again,”.
Cregan nodded, “She's seen a fair few babes born in her time, she knows what she's talking about,” he paused and took a deep breath of cold air, “I think she might have even delivered my grandfather,”.
“Surely not!” She exclaimed, looking up at her husband's handsome profile, “that would make her more than a hundred years old,”.
“I've heard of stranger things in these parts,” Cregan said with a shrug.
They walked quietly together, moving slowly and carefully through the slush.
“Not as easy as last time then?” He asked as they made their way past the archery butts where the young men of the household were practising and past the stables with their snorting horses and young boys shovelling straw.
“No, this one seems to have an obstinate Stark streak in them already,” she replied with a soft laugh that sounded like music to Cregan's ears.
“I seem to recall your own family are known for their stubbornness so I won't be taking all the responsibility for that,”.
“Pigheadedness, I believe my father called it,” she replied with a laugh, Cregan gave his own snort of laughter.
“Your father certainly has a way with words,” he agreed. Recalling a few choice phrases her father had used for him during their courtship.
As the pair crossed into the godswood the sounds of the keep and the town beyond the walls seemed to fade away and they became the only two people in the world. The ground was covered in a dusting of snow which had frozen overnight and now crunched under foot. From the dark canopy of the trees small birds sang between themselves and bounced from branch to branch, leaves rusting and falling to the ground in their wake.
“Aly is worried we won't have enough time for her when the baby arrives,” Lady Stark said as they passed under the first dark boughs, “she kept asking me if we were going to send her away when I was putting her to bed last night,”.
“She's a sensitive soul,” Cregan replied with a soft laugh, his mind wandering to the little girl who was at that moment playing in the same nursery he played in as a child, waiting for his own younger sibling to be born.
“I dread the day we do need to send her away,” she lamented, drawing her body even closer to his in the cold air. Her free hand resting low on the swell of her belly.
“We've many years before that day, my love,” he soothed, “and perhaps many more babes to fill our home,”.
Lady Stark laughed softly, feeling the dull ache of her labours growing in strength as they followed the well known path through the trees.
“You are insatiable, always wanting more,” she said softly and Cregan laughed.
They had been married 6 years and now were as comfortable with one another as any married couple could expect to be. Having been friends before they’re union had made things easier but the months after Cregan’s return from war had tested them to their limits. The time spent apart had been long and difficult for the both of them, when Cregan had left he was already old beyond his years but on his return he was darker and colder than the longest winter night. He’d forgotten laughter, softness and gentleness and his first few months back in Winterfell had been fraught as the two learned to live with one another again and find their way back to the happiness they’d briefly shared before the dragons tore the realm apart.
The followed a well trodden path through the woods, her arm wrapped tightly through his and his hand resting over hers, warm and solid. As they walked, Cregan listened to her breathing, noticing every change to her breath and hitch in her voice. He was ready to take her in his arms at any moment to rush her back to the midwife if was necessary.
They turned a corner in the path and were now on course to the weirwood tree, its ancient face seemed to watch their approach and its blood red leaves reflected in the black water at its roots.
Suddenly Lady Stark stopped, her free hand going to her belly with a sharp intake of breath, she groaned, her teeth biting into her top lip as a strong contraction wracked her body. Cregan tightened his hold on her, fear gripping at his heart and twisting his stomach.
After a few seconds of pain her face relaxed and her eyes opened, her cheeks were flushed with colour and despite the cold there was sweat at her hair line.
“I think this might be working,” she said with a small smile, “or perhaps the baby can feel the tree,” she added, glancing toward the weirwood.
“A good Stark then,” Cregan replied, forcing a lightness in his voice he didn’t feel.
She stepped toward the tree and he followed her closely, never letting her more than an arm's reach from him. Once close enough she placed her hands on the tree, feeling the rough bark rasp against her skin.
“Do you think the old kings of the north were born under this tree?” she asked, turning her face up as a shaft of wintery sunlight broke through the dense leaf cover, “snow and leaves for their midwife?”.
Cregan raised his eyebrow in thought for a moment before replying.
“They were certainly conceived under it,” he smiled.
“Yes, I remember the stories,” she agreed, turning to look at her husband and seeing the playful glimmer in his eyes.
During the long months of the war she’d found comfort in the thousands of books in the Winterfell library, starting with the histories of the North going all the way back to the first men and how those ancient kings of the North did everything important in their lives in sight of a weirwood tree, they were born, married, made oaths and died as close to the trees as they possibly could. The histories had included stories of rituals the ancient peoples had contrived to conceive their children under the boughs of the weirwood trees, they believed these children would have the gifts of prophecy or live impossibly long lives because the powers of the tree flowed through them.
“Perhaps, when you’re healed, we should try it ourselves,” Cregan teased.
“When this one is delivered I’ll let you know if you’ll be welcome in my bed again,” she replied with a sly smile, before adding “my lord,”.
Cregan gave a bark-like laugh, stepping closer to her and slipping his arm over her lower back and around her waist. She turned to face him, moving her hands from the ancient and cold bark of the tree to the living warmth of his shoulders, she studied his features before taking a deep breath and letting her forehead press against his. Another contraction wracked her body, she groaned and gripped tightly at the fur and wool of his cloak, taking strength from his body into her own.
“I think we need to go back,” she said softly, their foreheads still pressed together.
“I think so,” he agreed without hesitation.
Keeping his arm wrapped around her waist the two of them turned, she leaned heavily on Cregan as they completed the loop around the godswood and headed back through the castle courtyard. The space now almost completely empty as most of the household had been summoned for the midday meal.
The progress was slow but they soon made it back to Lady Stark’s chambers, the room was cooler now, the windows had been thrown open but the coverings drawn across them to keep the room dark. The two women were sitting by the fire, talking quietly while the maester was still standing in the corner of the room, glaring.
The midwife jumped to her feet and took Lady Stark’s arm, allowing her to slip from Cregan’s hold and move toward the bed.
“How are you feeling my lady?” the midwife asked softly.
“It helped, the pains are coming much more quickly now,” the lady replied.
“Baby will be here soon,” the midwife agreed, “perhaps before the noon meal is over,”
Lady Stark glanced over her shoulder at her husband pausing by the door. His broad shoulders blocked out almost all of the hallway behind him.
“I want you to stay,” she said softly as she was helped back onto the bed.
He smiled but shook his head.
“This is not my place” he said softly, as he felt a burning sensation at the back of his throat and in his eyes as he fought the sudden overwhelm of emotions.
“Thank you, my lord,” the old crone said from her seat, “we’ll take care of them,”.
Cregan nodded, knowing well enough when he was being asked to leave, he gave his wife a final look before stepping out of the room and closing the door behind himself and resuming his pacing. He wondered if his own father had paced nervously or if he had taken to the woods to hunt until the deed was over with and the child was cleaned and neatly wrapped in a blanket. He couldn’t imagine being any further than the castle gate while Lady Stark laboured.
As the midwife predicted the midday meal hadn’t finished before there was the high pitched, squalling cry of a newborn that caused Cregan to stop in his tracks and lean heavily against the wall of the hallway, his hand clutching at his heart that was beating fast enough to burst.
The door to the chambers opened and the midwife stepped out, a smile on her face as she saw her lord in a moment of unguarded emotion.
“A son, my lord, hale and hearty and with plenty to say for himself,” she said, the sounds of the crying child still coming clearly from the room behind her.
“God's be praised,” Cregan said, his voice cracking with emotion.
“Come meet him,”.
Cregan felt his knees turn to water when he stepped into Lady Stark's rooms, the sight of his beloved wife cradling a squalling newborn was a joy that pierced his heart like an arrow.
“Your son, my lord” she said with a tired smile, turning the bundle just enough for Cregan to be able to see the child's face.
He stooped and took the child, cradling him close to his chest, for a few seconds the child stopped wailing, his blue eyes opening wide and taking in his first sight of his father. The two of them looked at each other for a few seconds, Cregan's own eyes filling with tears. One hot tear was about to track down Cregan's face when the baby in his arms screwed his eyes shut, opened his mouth and started to howl, his cries even more desperate than before.
Lady Stark laughed from her seat on the bed, holding her arms out to take the child back.
“Give him back, you're upsetting our son,” she said, grinning at Cregan who jealously clung onto the child, rocking him gently and trying to sooth the screaming babe.
“Sorry my boy,” Cregan said softly, “but you'll just have to get used to me,”.
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