#studying and crying

[derangedchameleon]

I was about to write: I love the fact that Katniss‘ first reaction to Haymitch‘s absolutely traumatising story is „You need some goose eggs. Goose eggs will help.“

And then I realised… She‘s mimicking Peeta. Peeta comes back to 12 and the first thing he does is plant primroses. And somehow… that helped her. So she‘s doing the same thing for Haymitch.

[sweetsummerjane]

Little manga study from Devil May cry 😈 hehe

[vhenan-ma-ghilana]

hand studies, might as well make it of a special certain professor ❤️

[my-brain-soup]

My favorite comments from Dream's "I'm sorry... but not to tommyinnit" vid:

[winterbunz]

ghosts of your touch, echoes of home

a little closeup

[frenchublog]

🏹💘...!

[orchidsarchives]

You’re sitting on Jason’s lap, kissing his neck while he’s on the couch in his black Armani suit. He smells like one of his expensive colognes and faintly of the cigarette he decided to smoke after his shower. He looks pretty layed out underneath you. His hair’s slicked back, eyebrows are furrowed and shirt’s half unbuttoned.

He knows he’s running late for another one of Bruce’s galas, but he’s not making any effort to stop you, except for when he lets out a whiney “fuck, don’t leave any marks,” when your teeth graze the sensitive spot on his neck.

His eyes are closed shut, but his hands pull you in closer.

Shit, he really doesn’t want to leave…

[izloveshorses]

greta gerwig really said. when this girl gets a little sad and confused by the weird and complicated and uncomfortable parts of being human and growing up, she meets god and sits at her kitchen table, drinks her tea, holds her hands. and she asks god if she’s allowed to be happy. and god tells her she doesn’t need her permission. she tells her she’s going to be okay.

[squidthusiast]

Sometimes you just need a good hug

[apricustar]

trials and tribulations of evan buckley a tragedy in 97 parts ok homotron 3000

[apiratefellinlovewithastar]

JUST TWO DADS DOING WHAT THEY THOUGHT WAS BEST FOR THEIR BABIES

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#Shut Up They Went from Studying Together In The Shop to Studying Together In The Car

[repressionmd]

thinking about a young melissa king in and out of centres for her sister then in and out of hospital for her mom and then for her dad and watching everything with big wide open eyes and cleaning her mom's IV sites so gently and having a nurse laugh softly and say you'd make a wonderful nurse one day and only being able to stare at her because what do you say to that when your mom is dying and no one can save her. thinking about a young melissa king who cared so much who had so many big emotions and nowhere to put them because she had to explain things to becca when their parents died and she had to be the adult for them both and she couldn't do that with tears in her eyes. thinking about a melissa king in medical school who sniffled through and wept at the end of their oncology lectures, a melissa king who ignored the other student's stares, ignored the people watching her pull out a phone with shaking hands to look at pictures of her sister, to listen to recordings of her mom's voice and the ocean, ignored the whispers that she wouldn't be strong enough, that she clearly wasn't cut out for it. that medical school was so competitive, and she was a wasted space. thinking about melissa king who did an emergency medicine rotation and felt oddly, truly at home. after years of sorting through chaos in her mind, after years of figuring it out as she went along, she fit right in. mostly. she still needed her crutches. she still knows it's obvious that there's something different about her. she chooses not to think about it, instead focusing on how damn good she is, because she knows she is, if she can just focus. if she gets a little frustrated and has to cool off privately, then everyone in the ED needs to do that every once in a while. thinking about a mel king who is nervous and excited for her first day. who wonders if she'll make any friends. who is met with the most bouyant individual she's ever met. who looks at her like she's the sun. who sees her difference and makes her take a break and tells her "you're sensitive, and this place is tough for sensitive people." who flinches internally at that, because of course it was going to go there. but then he says "but we need them, badly." thinking of melissa king - brilliant at doing what she needs to without being asked, but oh, then someone asks.

[demonio-fleurs]

I find Estinien in the Post-Endwalker patches to be so fascinating, because out of everyone, he is probably the most vocally hopeful and optimistic. That isn't to say that Y'shtola, Vrtra, Zero, and the WoL aren't, but it's Estinien who is constantly reassuring Vrtra-- We will find Azdaja, she is alive, we will find her, and we will bring her back. It's Estinien who suggest to Zero that they-- the "no longer Scions" -- will not stop until they find a way to save the Thirteenth. At every turn, at every misstep, at every roadblock, Estinien stays hopeful and optimistic.

And while some may find it out of character, I actually think it is very much in character for him, and I also think it is the natural endpoint of his character growth post-Dragonsong. Because I think that the moment that Alphinaud and the WoL ripped Nidhogg's eyes from his armor, Estinien became hopeful and optimistic. I just don't think he understood that, and I think the feelings were foreign to him, but he definitely felt them.

Because in spite of his speech to the Scions about how he views the world differently from them, in spite of him saying that he views it as a "realist" whereas they are the dreamers, the optimists, he says to Fordola earlier on "dreams worth fighting for don't die so easily." In the DRG 70 quests, he has hope that Orn Khai, himself, and the WoL will be able to aid Faunehm. Estinien Post-Dragonsong thru Endwalker is hopeful and optimistic, he just isn't ready to admit it yet.

What helps him accept it, what helps him be more openly hopeful and optimistic, is his sacrifice at Ultima Thule. I haven't read the dialogue since playing it for the first time, but based off of my own recollections, I recall him mentioning knowing that he needed to step forward and confront the dragon who was wallowing in regret and remorse. He needed to step forward, and take a risk, and that feeling he felt was I think the moment Estinien became an optimist. Because he knew, instinctively, that by doing so he would be risking his own life, but he would also be paving the way forward for the rest of the Scions.

He had no way of knowing that! No confirmation, nor proof! But in that moment, he had faith, and he had hope, and he had optimism, that in sacrificing himself the others would be able to press forward.

And for Estinien Varlineau-- the pessimist, the realist-- that was enough for him.

[mangywayway]

missing my wife

[storytellering]

quick study of that one concept art Vergil by Ikeno because I felt like I needed a refresher on 3V's features