#that and avoiding other obligations

[izamationbroker]

Can y'all tell I'm bored out of my mind rn with how many crazy-ass rants I've gone on this morning? What a way to start this blog, and I was worried I'd be my usual socially anxious self and only quietly reblog other people's shit.

[nias-keca]

[hi-i-just]

Zack is so fun as a character bc when it comes to his relationships, whether the nature is romantic or platonic it still works. The chemistry is so fire, the feelings of love and care are sincere. Zack loves the people in his life, the people loves him back. Whether they're similar to him in personality or complete opposites — it still hits off. Zack and Aerith? The OG, first love forreal. Zack and Cloud? The loyalty, the dedication. Zack and Cissnei? Genuine appreciation and trust. Zack and Sephiroth? Treated each other like actual people. Zack and Tseng? The extra mile, the exception. You genuinely can't lose when it comes to shipping with this guy

[puppyeared]

adhd comix

[cathodic-clairvoyant]

There's a lot about discussion of hdwr that baffles me (not all discussion to be clear, because i do think there's a lot of good discussion about hdwr. But equally so are there the ones that make you wonder if you're reading the same story) and I think one that is especially annoying is the constant infantilization of miwa as this passive eternal victim. It drives me up a wall because this is quite literally an issue she's struggled with within the text of the story! She had an arc about how she dislikes how people treat her this way like towards the beginning of the story! And like even ignoring that, this story is about like nuanced and realistic portrayals of being in relationships and learning how to navigate them and so it's like what's the point if you're going to immediately reduce the characters to "the victim" and "the victimizers?" Is that even interesting? Is that a useful lens to look at interpersonal relationships?

[theflyingfeeling]

yes it's just me whining about the same thing for the billionth time, pls just scroll past nothing new to see here 👋

[charrfie]

Staying up way past my bed time bc I am drawing so many things. Goodnight everypony

[midgardianqueenreturns]

Am I the only one who genuinely enjoys both Three Houses and Engage?

[bnnywngs]

thinking about mdzs parents in modern houses

the jin would definitely be that couple who have this big ass massion, with a gigantic master bedroom, but each would have their own separate walk-in closet and bathroom, and a bed big enough to never touch each other while sleeping, their only son's bedroom on the other side of the house, away from them

the jiang would sleep in different bedrooms, children close to them and only 1 guest bedroom because they're not obligated to welcome people to sleep in the same house

nie a-die would, absolutely, make a custom extra big bed so he can sleep with his beloved wives, the children somewhat way from their bedroom because it's convenient for their night life, they also have this gigantic tub on their suite so the three can use it at the same time

the lan.... would probably sleep in the same bedroom, but in different beds, like those 60's couples, children close to them so they can keep an eye

the wei would have this little two bed one bath cottage 1h from the city where they grow their own vegetables and probably have a goat, they probably have a spreadsheet/blackboard somewhere in the house about the time each can use the bathroom and for how long; would they have solar panels? 🤔

and their children would probably live in the same area/neighborhood/building, with different consistency levels of visiting their parents

[astriiformes]

Talked about this with the counselor I've been seeing at school earlier today but my intense, desperate need to leave a mark on the world (not even in a fame way, in like a "I need to leave this place better than I found it in a big, tangible way" one) and the fact that I only value myself when I feel like I'm adding good to it paired with the fact that I've been an insane perfectionist since I was a very young child and tear myself to shreds and lose all my confidence over tiny mistakes is literally going to kill me some day

[february-academia]

28.04.2023

So much happened this week. (In tags I'll rant about it)

N4 is coming and my prep is not at all good. Took a test today and i failed🥲. But i know my prep is soo bad,it was bound to happen. So have to study for that.

College exams are coming🥹 also have to study for that. The dissertation proposal is in the finalising stage,so that's good. But have to work on it properly imo.

Then i also proposed another research study to my professor and he has encouraged me to go for it. So,also have to work on it.

These very cutu plants in the scorching heat were a treat to eyes and mind.

Got this book from the library and I'm really enjoying reading the essays.

( correction in a tag- she scored less than me in class and she was all sad sad. With her i had to suppress my happiness at moments like these)

[unopenablebox]

this bit of this long post is the part i feel obliged to warn people about:

i am just not ever going to systematically tag every post in which untrue things are said like they’re true as “unreality”. the reasons i am not going to do this are many, but include that it is genuinely very difficult for me to decipher which instances of sarcasm and evident falsehood are supposed to be the morally wrong or confusing ones to expose people to, and in general i am not a good person to follow if it is really important that all statements are factual and unambiguous. like, is the post about how in the cambrian era it was always sunday morning and the ocean was made of sprite ‘unreality’? is it ridiculous enough that it no longer counts as unreality? is it still unreality if it is clearly meant to be describing the impressions created by scientific illustrations of the cambrian, where that really is the atmosphere of those real scientific illustrations? the question occurred to me just now making this post, months after i reblogged it, but is not a filter i am capable of preemptively applying to things like that and you should not follow my blog if you would need that!

the rest of this is just me being sulky about goncharov discourse (well, about meta-goncharov discourse, i guess, as in, i am responding to the current discourse on whether it is acceptable to do goncharov posting, as opposed to “goncharov discourse” the joke about the imaginary film)

the other issue i experience with the moral imperative to label factually incorrect statements is because, uh, if i am making a joke premised on a particular pretense, and immediately follow it with an extensive description of how it was a joke and what the pretense is, it has ceased to be a joke. the post no longer contains a joke in it, because i have put a warning label on it that is in strict opposition to the thing that was supposed to be the joke part.

it’s not that it’s funny to intentionally mislead others. such jokes are premised on assuming others will understand that you are making a joke about something that is not true, since for instance i found the cambrian era post funny in part due to my knowledge that in reality it was sometimes not sunday morning back then and the ocean was made of water. but the joke is that one is pretending something obviously false is true, so by labeling it as “not true” you are no longer making the joke. i’m sincerely sorry that this kind of joke is bad for some people, but it is not the case that it is obvious or effortless to label this kind of thing, nor is it the case that doing so would not impact this kind of joke in the first place; it in fact makes it not a joke anymore.

it’s also not some kind of intrinsically cruel attempt to trick other people. like, the goncharov thing is in fact premised on assuming that other people have seen the goncharov shoe post and that goncharov knowers are the ones enjoying and sharing the joke. it’s not a malicious conspiracy crafted in the hopes that some of your followers have managed to spend two years not seeing the original goncharov post and will believe the movie is real. extensive serious-sounding analysis of an imaginary movie is funny because the audience knows the movie is imaginary and that the writer is in fact making up scenes for there to be symbolism of.

but the jokes. do not work. if you have to systematically re-explain the premise of the joke every time you make it to avoid anyone ever not knowing what you’re talking about. this is also a competing access need, actually: if i am supposed to self-police to avoid ever making a joke based on ironically saying something i think is obviously false, then i am curtailing a significant portion of my ability to ever make jokes online, because that kind of humor is part of how i grew up expressing myself and how i continue to communicate with others. if i am supposed to extensively label everything that’s a reference to something not directly contained within the post, that is in fact curtailing my ability to talk about things with other people, because i do not have anything even remotely resembling a reflexive ability to evaluate my speech for this kind of thing.

some people find it easy to maintain personal blogs with this kind of extensive signposting, or don’t have any particular inclination to make jokes in which things are not true or not labeled, and that’s good for them, and i’m glad they exist since there are people who need things communicated in that way. but it’s morally fine for me to have a blog which is not maximally accessible to all of humankind at all times. and i’m going to continue doing it

[keingleichgewicht]

very intrigued by xie lian's reaction to this whole black water affair which i think i can only sum up as "well there was no second cup of water." the actions of the water-master to save his brother are understandable (o the things you will do for a little sibling you love! big theme of these books) and they are also despicable and thus he xuan's revenge is equally entirely understandable. "outsiders can't interfere in this matter" meaning, what could you possibly do? there is no justice you can bring because the only justice would be for nobody to have to suffer the terrible fate and that's simply not how the world works. so all you can really do is stand there exhausted and watch as the two starving men fight over the only cup of water, and then bandage up the wounds of whoever survives it and honor the corpse of whoever doesn't; you can't condemn, you can't give aid, there is no second cup of water. and xie lian knows it better than anyone

[butchlifeguard]

im so good kisser coded but was born a bad kisser. injustices

[damiemontclair]

This blog is a spoiler safe blog. All spoilers will be reblogged with appropriate warnings for at least 2 weeks after the show is done airing. Spoilertags to block will be listed on my pinned post

[lord-squiggletits]

It actually really annoys me how "expecting people to read the source material" is considered gatekeeping these days because like. Besides the obvious reasons, it's pretty off-putting trying to have conversations with people who only know a bite sized chunk of the overall story they claim to be a fan of? Like it's so off-putting to try and jump into a headcanon conversation like "oh yeah I think you could also add this aspect from this part of the comics" and the response you get is either "I haven't read that part" at best or "I literally don't care" at worst because it's like. Okay. I don't really want to hang out with people who seem disinterested or outright hateful towards the things that I like, so I'm literally just going to leave that space.

I guess you can be a fan of something without consuming every story it has to offer, but it's pretty fucking annoying to share fandom spaces with people who basically don't give a damn about the source material and will call you a meanie if you point out how this is perhaps a little bit strange.