#that i just forgot about

[gammija]

@a-mag-a-day Today I'm thinking about Martin, specifically, how quote-unquote human he really still is

he's clearly fallen on the side of 'Watcher' in the Eyepocalypse, not surprising perhaps, cause he already was able to turn invisible or something like it in s4 from the Lonely, and had to be 'both Lonely and Watching' enough for Peter's plan to at least work in theory. and while not as deep in it as Jon, he's still worked for the Eye for 10 years iirc, and he's marked by it to the point that it's a part of his domain

Martin in canon appears occasionally insensitive to Jon's new impulses, acting as the straight man to his avatar-ness. But we know that Martin's really good at acting like how he thinks things ought to be, while ignoring how he knows them to be deep down. (examples: him being the last one to accept Sasha is gone, at first instance assuming Jon must've been brainwashed in 142 Scrutiny, "I'm knackered!' -'Are you?' -'... ok, well, no, but i feel like i should be")

so i wonder, how much of his reactions are because Jon's words are genuinely alien to him, and how much is just posturing, exaggerating how he feels like he should react, to ignore when Jon's experiences feel relatable, or that niggling idea that, if everyone in this world is either victim or watcher, and Martin feels remarkably good, all things considered... well.

Or,

[watchmakermori]

manifesting the worst tory election result in history tomorrow. like to charge reblog to cast and reply to send the tories to a shadow dimension for 3000 years

[hinamie]

surprise it's yuri!!!in 2024

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

[gatoburr0]

lesbians are so awesome I wish they were real

[heyhanibee]

Kataang Week—Day 3: Parenting/First-Time Parents

[bluegiragi]

reward (part 1)

early access + nsfw on patreon

[isjasz]

📸📸📸 (screenshot redraws :D)

[velnna]

Mwa

[linkeduniverse]

September Art

[sabh0]

@///_bsd_edits on Instagram gave me the idea to draw that based on one Ueda and Kimisawa interaction

The thing ^

[machinerot]

[svampira]

snack time🤤

[mothfulhansel]

once long ago i had a dream where people kept pissing me off but every time i got angry they would smooch me on the forehead and it was so sweet and unexpected i just immediately forgot how was i even angry i decided to project it into Zoro and Sanji

[kitamars]

doodles as i relive my spideyman phase from eighth grade

[bishicat]

end-of-the-world meet cute ♡♡♡~