#the majority of the things i actually get to creating

[semper-draca]

I saw a poll going around about "Do you think it's a good idea for 18 year olds to get married, yes or no, no nuance" and idk I have some thoughts about that lately. (creating my own post because I don't want to bother the op, no one bother the op)

Do I personally think it's a good idea for 18yr olds to get married? No. I think at that age you're pretty young to get married and your choice in partner is not likely to be great. Maybe you only just met your spouse (and thus don't know them that well). Maybe you were high school sweethearts and while you know what your spouse is like while they're going through those years, you don't know what they're going to be like after college or after joining the workforce, and those years can be crazy formative. Maybe, though I hope not, you're marrying someone that your parents picked out for you or otherwise arranged, in which case there's a lot wrong (and you should have protections from familial abuse).

However. I also don't think that there should be any restrictions on 18yr olds getting married. At 18 you are a legal adult (in the majority of countries) and thus you have the right to make even the stupidest of decisions about what happens to you and your body. You can get regrettable tattoos. You can wreck your lungs smoking. You can go into debt buying the world's most expensive car. You should be able to chose to marry your dumb high school sweetheart and you should also be able to chose to divorce them a year later.

I feel as though there's this growing sentiment of "well sure this person is technically an adult, but they're still *young* so they should be protected from making bad choices" and that's. Hm. Young or mentally young or emotionally mature is something that people seem to have a difficult time defining on a level that can actually be logistically enforced or implemented. And we see these days what can happen when people *do* try to implement "but you're so yooooung (and dumb)" policies like what's happening with trans people where "legal adult" is still too young to transition so maybe 25 is the new limit at which you can transition but blah-blah debunked science about brain development so maybe the new limit should be 30 - " etc etc.

At 18, as a legal adult, you should have the freedom to make the decision to get married. You should have the freedom to make any dumb, regrettable, poorly thought out decision that you want, and you should have the freedom of an adult to either reap the rewards or suffer the consequences of your decisions. That's life, baby. Your hand cannot and should not be held forever until some arbitrary time at which some random person thinks you're "old enough". We have an obligation to respect people's rights to make choices that we think are bad. We have an obligation to respect people's rights to do things that they can't take back because we think a hypothetical future version of them could regret it.

We have an obligation to treat adults as adults.

[unityrain24]

i have so much creativity in me and i cannot express it all and it's so frustrating

[morlock-holmes]

My problem with this is that the Court also spent a lot of time constraining the Biden administration over things that, to my eyes, seem far less radical than what the Trump administration is doing.

So what I want to know is what happens when you get this strong unitary executive that also in many cases has no rule-making authority, because "Major questions" doctrine requires lower courts to view statutes narrowly and read limits into them even when such limits are unconstitutional.

But another Supreme Court precedent says that they cannot issue injunctions to stop the government from doing things that might be impermissible under the "Major questions" doctrine in many cases.

They seem to be rebuilding the scope of the executive from the ground up.

Like, kind of my big question is, for example if the next Democratic government creates a student loan relief program, and a Republican state decides to sue them, what are lower courts supposed to do?

Is it the case that the lower court can only enjoin them from instituting student loan debt relief in the specific states which sue?

If the lower courts decide that the are constrained by the Supreme Court from a total injunction, so that the administration actually discards a lot of debt and erases records for blue state students while the case is ongoing, and then the Supreme Court rules that the debt relief was unconstitutional on Major Questions grounds, what...

I mean what happens at that point?

Do kind of wonder what weird game the conservative Supreme Court justices think they are playing, especially the Trump I appointees.

[taffywabbit]

i just woke up so i haven't actually watched the pokemon direct thingy yet, but i heard they mentioned they aren't pushing out another console release at all for 2024 and if that's true then frankly THAT news is way more hype than any actual game announcement could ever be. go girl let us wait!! this is genuinely what i've been begging for for years now

like, oh a new Legends game? that's neat i guess. oh wait it's being given literally ANY time to cook and they aren't crunching Game Freak to hell and back in order to pump out a bunch of half-baked annual releases for the first time in ages?? NOW we're fuckin talking. LOVE to see the torturous cycle broken

[cluescorner]

The most important thing about a Megatron ship is that it cannot end well.

[shivroy]

hello my second shivfic is underway. i am in shiv mindset. god i love shiv roy and also writing

[applebees4prez]

when i say that this was my 9/11 i fully mean it. i would pull out my computer and write it myself if it weren’t so personal to dan. i will go into debt to make this happen. @danielhowell if there is anything i can personally to get dan is not okay out into the world i will do it i don’t care if i’m a freshman in college i would die for this.

[xxdeadkittenxx]

Finally went back to reread the fanfic I was working on a few months ago and I was blushing and kicking my feet so much 🤭 and ofc the second it was starting to get to the good part it ended 😫 at least all I have to do now is write more. The issue is that I wrote most of it during work but now that I’m at the explicit section I can’t really do that :/ we’ll see if I can gather enough free time to sit down and create some steamy scenarios 😈

[theshadowsofthenight]

Hi there! I've been out of the loop for a bit so I'm not super familiar with what you're working on right now, but characters are the biggest draw for me in anything! How about apple and/or moon for the October ask game?

Yeah, to be fair, I looked at the game and went "Oh, oh, an ask game! I should reblog that and see what I get!" without really recognizing that I haven't actually posted any useful info for Salt and the Sea. So it's really my fault.

But anyways, I'll treat it as a place to start talking about it. 🍎 apple: let’s talk about friendship in your wip. do you have any favorite friend/platonic dynamics? any friendships gone sour?

Okay so I've completely and totally failed to talk about characters, but regardless: Context: A heavily OC populated HP fanfic, in The First Year of it:

Favorite: Grace and Sowren. While at the start of the year they really don't know each other, over the course of the year they become close friends due to being Housemates and discovering their similarities, including their similar backgrounds and the fact that they both want to be at the top of the class, but still want to enjoy their lives by say, reading and doing fun stuff. It turns into a good, strong friendship, even if it takes them a while to become friends to the point where they trust each other with secrets. As for the second part, there's nothing in the first year that stands out at the moment. later? Yeah, there are some. 🌙 moon: do any of your OCs have dark backstories or secrets they’re trying to keep?

Yes, but it's not so much that they're trying to keep it hidden as it's not really known or talked about in Britain. Can't have the British Golden Boy's history be tarnished can we? (semi spoilery)

[themyscirah]

When you come up with the coolest concept except you can't let yourself think abt it because you have a major essay due in 3 hours 😡😡😡😡😡

Anyways. EMBASSY DAY AT THE THEMYSCIRAN/AMAZON EMBASSY. YOU SEE MY VISION

[theodore-sallis]

Giant-Size Man-Thing (Vol. 1/1974), #1.

Writer: Steve Gerber; Penciler: Mike Ploog; Inker: Frank Chiaramonte; Colorist: Petra Goldberg; Letterer: John Costanza

[ourceliumnetwork]

y'know. i don't often hate the way my brain is and how difficult it makes certain things for me.

i do a little today though.

[arolesbianism]

Oh yeah here’s my current progress for an extremely rough concept for the stalien planet map, ignore how fucked it’d look projected on a sphere (I checked btw it sure is a thing)

[stellanslashgeode]

Okay, so. Star Wars has all these concepts that weirdo New Left boomer George Lucas tosses in there but because of storyteller limitations it would kill the plot to fully explain them all, so later writers have to come in for the spin-off materials and bat clean-up to fully explain all this crazy crap. And I would like to talk about something that made me actively angry at first, but which I now adore. And that is the Naboo.

So much about Naboo culture is infuriating from a logical standpoint. They have a queen, okay. A constitutionally elected queen? Weird, okay. Don't know why they'd do that but... She's FOURTEEN? Excuse me? Is it a ceremonial thing or, oh no it's not? Legit head of state? Why does she dress like that? Why does she talk like that? I'm so tired.

Here's the explainer. Let me go cook.

There's this joke in Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy where the last living human goes back in time and finds out humans aren't actually from Earth, but an alien culture that tricked all the middle managers, pedantic weirdos, and other infuriating folk into getting in a space arc which they gave the wrong evacuation coordinates to simply get rid of them. The Naboo are like this but they're all artists and poets and hippies, but like classy ones. They fled their home planet during a war and crash landed on Naboo, then did a colonism to the Gungans because, hey, they were fleeing a war and it was do or die. This spiritual rot in their creation story is later rectified by Padmé. But it's super important to their cultural psychology. They're hippies, but will subjugate if needed. They are "peaceful" but I guarantee you every single one of them has a tiny extremely shiny pistol up their sleeve and they will draw down on you if backed against a wall.

The scene that I think says it all is at the end of Phantom Menace when Padmé is surrounded by Nute Gunray and his droids, they've got her dead to rights, but Sabé her double creates a distraction so the queen can make it to her throne. This one piece of furniture is the Naboo in a nutshell. It's richly carved with artistic details, it has two seats to the side so the queen's handmaidens can read the lips of people in the back of the room and use hand signals to communicate with the queen while she can remain focused mostly on who is speaking to her. It is hundreds of years old. And it has a secret compartment in the armrest that is FULL OF GUNS. Layers of artistic opulence hiding their true intentions.

The Naboo were created to be backwards compatible with Princess Leia. They're compassionate pacifists, but they will shot you if needed.

Why do they elect teenage royalty? It's a little creepy. It's giving "age of consent is emotional maturity". It makes no sense.

The explanation they give outsiders is they want youthful idealism untainted by cynicism. What they don't tell you is that they take kids with stated interest in politics and put them in an advanced highly competitive Leadership Academy which is like Model UN mixed with Battle Royale. Well, they don't kill each other but it's intense. It's like what the clones went though just all diplomacy training and tea ceremonies all the time. Which is crazy but so Naboo.

Oh, and all the delegates for the royalty election run using pseudonyms for security. Imagine voting for the head of state but you can't run a background check. It's so crazy.

Why does Padmé dress like that? Well, fashion is one of Naboo's major industries so it's like she's wearing the entire Fall line catalog at once. To advertise not only the talent of her people, but to show how much they favor her. BUT that dress has multiple layers of padding and resin armor. And aforementioned spots for those little silver blasters. And it breaks up her silhouette making her harder to shoot. And it's so elaborate you pay more attention to the crazy dress and not if the person wearing it is really the queen or a decoy. Everything about Naboo is like this.

Queen Amidala has that weird accent while Padmé does not. Because all her handmaidens helped create the accent together so they all can imitate it. It's like if you gave girls at a rowdy sleepover the job of federal counterintelligence. That's what they came up with.

The handmaidens wear colorful identical clothes so you can't tell them apart, hoods to partially conceal their identity, and they don't wear the queen's fancy makeup. So one of them can be the queen and spy on people in the audience. Because the Naboo don't trust shit for shit.

Their public face is so silly to hide all the truly weird shit they do behind the scenes.

They use their reputation as artist hippies to conceal multiple layers of subterfuge and disguise their methods of self defense and assuage their paranoia due to wartime trauma and their disturbing colonial past. All of them are completely off their rocker even by Star Wars standards. And I love them so much. They put on a show so everyone thinks they have them figured out but what they have going on is far more weirder and more sinister than meets the eye. You know how catty, neurotic, and competitive art school students stereotypically are? Yeah, planet art student. Love them!

There you go, @charmwasjess

[salemlunaa]

YOU ARE NOT SEPARATE FROM YOUR DESIRES

creation is finished

Hi my loves, I missed you guys and as you can see I have taken a long break, the longest break since i’ve started blogging. And in that time it lead me to reflect on so much, especially when it comes to manifestation.

And i’m here to tell you that

1. You aren’t separate from what you want

2. Creation is instant

You are an instant creator, as soon as you decide you want something it is done. For instance, let’s say whilst playing League of Legends, you get a notification telling you to come play Candy Crush. That notification wouldn’t exist without the game Candy Crush itself. If there was no such thing as Candy Crush you would not be getting a notification while playing League of Legends. It’s just like desires, a desire is like you getting a “notification” in your current reality, telling you that better one exists. If that reality didn’t exist, it wouldn’t pop into your mind like a notification. That’s how instant creation is. As soon as you want it, it exists, and you ARE it.

If you can see it in your mind you can have it. I don’t care what it is, jumping to a whole new reality, getting your dream body, revising a major event. If you can desire it, there is already a reality where you have that thing. Nothing is impossible, only the ego assigns labels to things.

And what do you have to do to get there? Absolutely nothing, nothing but living in the knowing that you are it. Once you realise that creation is finished and that time is an illusion, you collapse the illusion of time and space and you get what you want instantly.

Now why is it so effortless? Because as god, you are everything. You are not separate from your desires. The need to do techniques shows that you believe that you must do something to get your desire, and that is the illusion of separation, you believing you do something or try and be someone to created. When in fact, creation is finished and you need to do nothing but be in the present moment, knowing you have what you want.

The Idea that you need to move from A to B is an illusionistic concept. When in actuality, you are A AND B. Whether A or B is visible or invisible to you is where you decide to shift and place your consciousness.

YOU ARE ALL THAT IS 👁️🌀

[comikbook]

so you talk about your religious trauma and it’s a major theme in your art, and i was wondering what your current relationship with religion is? is in, do you practice any religion or consider yourself religious? if it isn’t too personal :)

im willing to answer !! i dont talk about it on most of my socials outright because people tend to misinterpret things intensely when it comes to this kind of topic, but ill give it a shot trying to write it out. In fact, I will give the whole story of my experience with religion. So its gonna be long.

there will be talk of psychosis, eating disorders, delusions, and self harm in this post. However I will not be graphic in my descriptions.

To start out I suppose for context, my parents are not catholic. my mom doesn’t talk about religion, and my dad doesnt follow anything in the real sense, but practices a lot of principals of buddhism. My nana was catholic, and my extended family vary in their religious beliefs.

That being said, (i think to my nana’s influence) when i started school i attended a small private catholic school which has since been shut down. fun fact ! if you’ve ever watched the Netflix doc “The Keepers” my school was only about 3 miles from where one of the nun’s bodies were found. The priest who was suspected to be the one to blame previously taught at the school i went to before moving to the one he is known for teaching at. Not really relevant, but i did always feel a bit uneasy there as a child so it was a weird thing to find out later.

Anyways, I attended this catholic school for 3 years. pre-k, kindergarden, and first grade. I would often ask to use the restroom and just wander around the halls or hide in the bathroom. I would get scolded for asking questions that were “inappropriate”. The one i remember most vividly was “If God created all of us, who created God ?” to one of the nuns, who became upset with me. We weren’t taught whar we should have been, and when I did move to public school i was far behind my peers in specifically science, math, and history, but I digress. This is my one class photo from our yearbook !

It is important to note that my first remembered instance of psychosis started when i attended this private school. My mom was picking me up one day, there was heavy traffic. She was trying to get over and was complaining no one would let her. I caught myself staring at my reflection in the front mirror of the car, and the clicking of the blinker kind of overwhelmed me. In the constant clicking I “decoded” a message that involved me being told to do something particularly violent. In my small brain in addition to my outside influences, I thought the person that sent this message to me was God. I was confused as to why, but I felt i did something wrong to deserve it. i quietly prayed in the back seat internally for forgiveness.

So I started to receive more messages from “God” commanding me to do something or another, typically vile in some way. i would hear this voice in my head frequently, until eventually it faded out and stopped. I dont remember when it stopped, i just remember i had this experience as a child and then when i was a little older i just didnt think about it anymore.

I do have gaps in my memory of my childhood, pretty big ones, for reasons im still struggling to understand to this day. So that makes things fuzzy. I do remember falling back into religion briefly in middle school, but eventually fell out of it again.

As i approached the end of highschool my mental health was tanking. Mostly with depression and anxiety, however this wouldnt be the worst it would get. In 2019 I was in college and things were getting increasingly worse. I was one of the few people that loved the isolation of the quarantine actually, i fear if not for that what was to come would have been way worse.

My symptoms of psychosis started to creep back into my life. I was already isolating before the quarantine, but got worse after it had started. I know i said i enjoyed it, and i did, but it also fed into some bad habits. Anyways I was becoming increasingly scared and paranoid, I was actively self harming, I was extremely depressed. I had plans to take my own life, a few of them actually. I started eating less. I didnt think much of it, I was just depressed, i have been depressed most of my life so this was just a particularly bad bout for me is what i thought.

That is, until one night where I had my first psychotic episode. It remains to be the worst and only very big episode i have had. I dealt with it mostly alone, never alerting my family of it. I was on the phone with one friend i had at the time, although they were not the kindest to me overall. Despite that they sat with me. This episode led to me standing in one place for over 2 hours too scared to move. When I finally did, it seemed to trigger a more violent outburst.

I wont go into too much detail but i left the experience cried out, bloodied, and heavily bruised. My legs were entirely black and blue for over a month following. After this episode I finally decided to try to get help, and I met with my psychiatrist for the first time. I was immediately put on several antidepressants which ended up being beneficial but in the beginning caused me to lose my appetite entirely. This is when i fell more and more into my eating disorder. With this though, I was still experiencing delusions and hallucinations and got put on my first antipsychotic.

It helped with my symptoms, and it helped me get back to a normal weight. Even tho at the time I was abusing my adderall I was still able to get my body (mostly) back to normal, at least physically. That being said, while my symptoms were lessened they were not gone, it just became less scary to me. Maybe it was because I was being desensitized, but thats something to ponder another time.

I started to become more and more infatuated with catholicism again from that original episode forward. I was obsessed and that voice of god returned to me. I started hearing clicking and chirping coming from the back of my right ear, which ive dubbed as a “chip” in my brain placed by god for me to receive his messages. I thought there was an evil inside of me that needed to be let out, which i did by participating in frequent bloodletting to force out the bad, and make my body create newer, cleaner, and holier blood. This was something i felt I had to keep up often so that this evil force wouldnt take over. I was eventually able to stop self harming, and have been clean for over 2 years now. It is hard and i still feel the need to “cleanse” myself, but i try my best to push it down.

Fast foreward to 2022 and I would start the first piece in my painting series. I still experienced symptoms but much less frequently ! I started to detail my experience thru art. I would finish the first piece in my series titled “Forgive Me Father” in 2023. Since then I have made many more.

So we finally get to today. I have waited to talk about my current relationship with religion until the end as I felt the context was necessary, and to be honest it is complicated. As you can tell, It has effected me greatly and has come and gone in my life.

I would say from where I am now, I am not religious. A better way to put it i suppose is i consciously make the choice to not be. Like I said its complicated.

I like to think of it as there is two of me in my body. One is paranoid, scared, and extremely delusional. This is the part that still believes god is communicating with them. This is the person that still prays for forgiveness and cries over the fear of being sent to hell for their sins, all approved and constructed by god himself. and then theres my rational side, which exists im sure solely because of my medication. This part is extremely self aware, can tell when i am being delusional or irrational, who knows this is something caused by my illness. They exist side by side, at the same time, always. They fight in my head for control but always exist simultaniously, think of it like a pie chart. one may be more prevelant but the other is still always there.

So in a way, there is a lot I do personally believe. That being said the reason I do believe is because of my schizophrenia. So I choose to navigate my life as someone who actively does not believe as an attempt to not let the delusion control me. do i think people who are religious are delusional ? I do not, but I know in my personal case what leads me to believe these things is an unwell mind.

I still have an intense fascination with catholicism and religion in general. I think its a beautiful thing, it moves me, but i must keep it at a distance to avoid hurting me. It is not something I can actively engage in outside of general interest because it would kill me, and despite my previous statements i would like to live at least a little longer haha.

With all that said, and I doubt anyone will read this whole thing, its been a rollercoaster of a ride. If anyone has questions about it, feel free to ask. Im an open book about this stuff online most days, and Im willing to offer any information about it.