#these have been on my wishlist for two years. they are the major Thing that’s been on my wishlist for two years.

[foxgloveinspace]

Annnnnd I have a cold. Frick frack.

[the---hermit]

We Are The Champions by Tuono Pettinato and Dario Moccia

Oh boi this will be more of a rant than a review I feel. I read two books by Tuono Pettinato, One is a graphic biography on Alan Turing, which I reviewed here last year, I think? and the other one is a graphic biography about Kurt Cobain (which I haven't read in ages but I remember really loving back in the day). So when I found out about a graphic biography about Freddie Mercury, one of my heros since I was a kid with a father obsessed with Queen, I had to have it. This book has been on my wishlist for ages, and now that I spent money on it and actually read it I wish it was still on my wishlist. I am very mad at this book and so my review is not going to be impartial at all. I don't like comparing books with one another but it's inevitable, the other books by this illustrator felt honest and emotional, and this one just fell flat. There was absolutely no emotion ever. The authors decided to use a lot of self insert scenes of them explaining stuff which in my opinion was unnecessary and broked a lot of the narration, but that's a personal preference. As for the story it feels like these two men just collected in a book all the infos band fans get randomly in their lives of fans of whatever band they are passionate about. There is no bibliography at the back of the book, which makes me think this was the case actually? From whatever kid of biography I expect a bibliography and some kind of actual research to be made. The major thing that has made me very mad is the fact that they speak of Freddie as a gay man instead of the bisexual man he was. And this enrages me personally because for years I thought Freddie was gay, since everyone around me said that, and only a lot time after I found out my hero was actually bisexual, just like me, and that changed a lot of things. A book published in 2016 should have payed attenton to such a detail. And on the queer topics all songs that have a very queer message are glossed over as songs with totally different meaning (no mention of Bohemian Rapsody being a sort of coming to terms with your sexiality and coming out, Bicycle is said to only be inspired by the tour de France, and I Want To Break Free is just about frustrated houswives apparently). I fully understand that if you are not queer you might miss some of the subtext of songs, but if you are writing a biography about someone you might want to do some deeper research into it. With this being said it was a disappointing book, my expectations weren't met and there's not much else to say about it.

[herearedragons]

3, 5, 6, 13, 23 from the video game asks! :)

Thanks for the ask!

video game questions

3. 1-3 games you’ve played in the past 12 months that you really enjoyed

the first Pillars of Eternity game (as evident by how much I've been posting about it) is still great and I 100% recommend it, it is darker fantasy than Dragon Age and there are a couple of Yikes Moments close to the beginning, but you WILL love at least one of your party members and the writing is pretty great. also a lot of its soundtrack was used in season 2 of Critical Role, and there is significant vibe/theme overlap, so if you enjoyed that season you'll probably like something about POE1 (also there are a lot of voices from the cr cast in the game itself. Matt Mercer notoriously voices two(2) of your best friends party members)

Dragon Age: Origins! The OG. The reason I'm even on this website. I had a pretty major reset when I realized that I accidentally locked myself out of Zevran's romance and now I have to do the Sacred Ashes quest again, but once I get through it things will get fun again. I've had a lot of fun writing Kyana meta based on this playthrough earlier this year, and I'm sure I'll have more things to say when I GET OUT OF THAT TEMPLE

I started playing The Sims 4 between writing sessions during NaNo. I made an off-brand Evelyn and another household based on two very old OCs, and I was really invested in them for a while (to the point of considering making fanart of the second household). I stopped playing at some point, but I think that, like Stardew Valley, this is going to be a fun thing to come back to every once in a while.

(the first answer was already very long so I'm putting the rest under the cut)

5. Game(s) coming out that you’re looking forward to

I played the demo for GLITCHED: The RPG a couple of years ago and it's been on my Steam wishlist even since. I don't actually know what's going on with the game (I think it was announced that it would come out in 2023 and then it didn't?), but I really hope that it will come out eventually because the demo is A Lot of my favorite things packed into one game. Like, honestly, even if the game won't be out for a while, I think that the demo itself is a really fun experience.

also, despite everything surrounding Dreadwolf, I'm definitely looking forward to it! though somewhat concerned about actually running the game because I Do Not Think my laptop will be able to handle it.

6. A series you’ve enjoyed since your early days of gaming and still enjoy to this day whether it still has games coming out or is one you return to

.........I mean, this is very much a Dragon Age blog. DA:O was one of my first RPGs (Skyrim was the other) and Here We Are all those years later

13. Quick, name the first song from a game that comes to mind

I haven't actually played it yet, but Challenging A Queen from Stray Gods. I'm definitely going to play it, though, because this is another game that looks like it was made personally For Me. and this song absolutely rules (my favorite version is the first one they played in this video)

23. A “Wow” moment of awe

...technically I didn't play this one either, but I watched a full playthrough of Wandersong on youtube, and the final song sequence I can't really talk about without spoiling everything was. very. Emotional(TM)

also for a more somber kind of awe, I really like the ambience in Emprise du Lion in DA:I and the White March DLC's entire deal in Pillars of Eternity. in both cases the environment made me just kind of pause for a second and take it all in (actually, adding to the song thing, the Abydon's Shell soundtrack from The White March is haunting)

[honeyviscera]

hihiii !! ^O^ hope you dont mind me sending this so suddenly :"D i saw the post thingy ab the questions and it seemed fun !! so if you dont mind:

1, 17, 28 ( + maybe 38 ) ?

( also i hope youre doing well !! ^^ <333 / p )

hiii kiwi!! always nice to hear from you!! (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) and of course i don't mind!! i reblogged the ask game bc i wanted asks :3 i hope you're doing well too <3 anyways, without further ado:

1 - what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

hmmm..... on a bit of a sad note, when i was a kid/young teen, i was always very much an outcast. people consistently found me weird and offputting, and i was very lonely. but i remained true to myself no matter what-- i knew it was pointless to try and "fit in" (because i'd always do it "wrong" anyways)-- so i have a very strong sense of who i am, and i am determined to love myself no matter what. it is also because of this that i'm so determined to be kind. i want to make others feel welcome and loved around me. i don't want to ever treat anyone the way i was treated. i know how much it hurts to be alone, so i want to do what i can to ensure that it won't happen to the people around me. so that's thing #1.

uhhh secondly! for a more lighthearted example, i'd say being in fandom! i've always kind of just kept to myself and have never been involved in major drama, so fandom has always been a favourable experience for me. it started when i was a young teen on pinterest just staring at (what i now know was stolen) fanart and obsessing over my faves, and now i'm on tumblr doing the exact same thing years later! but now i have online friends :) my interests have always brought me so much joy, and having a space to obsess over them as much as i want has just made me even more passionate i think. :3

thirdly, i'd say jazz music. my parents love jazz and play it very often at home. it's a genre i grew up listening to, so it just feels warm, familiar, and home-like. it also inspired me to learn the saxophone in junior and senior high school, and i loved playing jazz songs with others. jazz has been with me for so long :,)

17 - name 3 things that make you happy

oooh ok!!! 1. i love making art, so whenever i get a chance to sit down and make something it's just so nice :))) and i love admiring my creations afterward. 2. i love spending time with my friends! hanging out with them always makes me feel warm. 💖💖 3. my beloved matching bokuto + akaashi nendoroids!!!! i love them so much im so happy to have them. my beloved beloved sons. i love them so much im so lucky i found them at the mall :,)

28 - do you collect anything?

as you might have suspected from my above answer, i collect anime figures! my collection is still very small as i started fairly recently (and my parents are always on me about spending my money more wisely), but i love collecting them!! you can see what figures i have and which ones i want on my myfigurecollection.net profile! ^_^

the two top figures on my wishlist are the new miku x cinnamoroll nendoroid (aaaaaa) and. literally any kaito figure. they really haven't made many......... i need one though :( my little guy :(

38 - fave song at the moment?

i'd say loneliness of spring by inabakumori! the official english cover of it is really good as well. it captures a lot of things i've been feeling lately.......

im also obsessed with chogakusei's newest cover, konton boogie !! :0 it's so good, as his covers always are.

[babyloulou89]

Please please please dnt follow me if u have pictures of your dicks it’s a major ick no one wants to see dick pics it’s not a turn on it’s a turn off

Hello** my names Babyloulou but people call me Loulou. And my partner previously none as nappied82 I am a little I have been a little since I 16 I have been in and out of nappies since then and I love them they are a part of me and when I’m not in one I feel like something is missing. iv been diagnosed with two bladder conditions because apparently one isn’t enough for me lol I have to have two one is over active bladder and the other is stress incontinence I was diagnosed with them when I was 25 and half of it was down to me being in water tablets for a long period of time I was on them for about 4 years and it’s weakened my bladder. But I wouldn’t change it. I have the most amazing bf and I couldn’t ask for a better guy. I’m looking to speak to others who are also a little or just wanna chat and make friends

I’m currently in nappies 24/7 and will be for the foreseeable future and o wouldn’t change a thing.

I am not a toy I am a human being and I have feelings so if u wanna chat or be friends then stick to it dnt block me when u get bored and then want to chat again unblock me new year=new me no more miss nice girl I’m not gonna be used anymore

Telegram:babyloulou89

Iv made a wishlist if u would like to buy me anything from it feel free my wishlist is below

https://www.amazon.co.uk/hz/wishlist/ls/1CX1227LZ1XTR?ref_=wl_share

[talesfromthebacklog]

Random: A gamer’s diary entry for October 2023!

While I finish writing, and playing, my next backlog games I’m excited to add to the wishlist ‘Little Goody Two Shoes’. Which looks like it’s going to be getting a physical release. (Which I won’t be picking this game up until the physical drops. I already know I’ll like it.)

One of my favorite YouTube channels called Nostalook worked on the trailer (and I think the in game cutscenes as well) and their work is stunning as usual. It really captures the 90s anime look. It deeply reminds me of Princess Maker.

Also it’s a shoujo yuri. Female romancable characters only! (And they’re all so ✨ PRETTY ✨) I can’t explain how HAPPY that makes me. I just hope it stays in an innocent direction.

You know, because in majority yuri isn’t made for women. 😐

I get it, but at the same time I feel locked out of the content because it’s so obviously not for me. But that’s a complaint for a different post on a different day! Makes me wonder if men feel the same way about yaoi.

I was very bad this month. There were a lot of physical sales. And then my preorders for new games rolled in. I always prioritize my physical games over my… “digital” games, so those will be in the front of my backlog!

Let’s take a look at what I picked up! (I paid full price for nothing on this list. I am wickedly good at finding deals and coupons. Which upon review I will attempt to pass onto you!):

Traumatarium

Dredge

Omori

FaeFarm

Inescapable

Sonic Superstars

Coffee Talk 2

Moon A Remix RPG

I’m already playing a few of these games, so my reviews on those should be out next week!

I decided to skip this month’s two biggest releases altogether until about next year. I want the GOTY Spider-Man 2 when it comes with all of the DLC for $20. The first one was amazing. I’m just willing to wait on it. Which is a similar story for Mario Wonder. I mostly use the fall season to get all the titles I’ve been wanting for a freaking sick deal. Why should I have to pay full price?

The older I get, the more I feel like I appreciate weird games and indie titles more anyway. I feel like those other projects have the freedom to take more aesthetic risks than the big companies. Not because of the creatives inside (They tend to always have good ideas), but the stockholders. 🙄

I adore some of these triple A titles to my core, but I crave to see more new things too. Different things.

Dave The Diver is a good example. That seems rad. I like ocean games. I like that we get more of them now. I’m gonna wait and see if that one gets a physical as well. You collect fish to go back to your restaurant to make sushi? Sign me up!

Don’t even get me started on Limited Run’s releases this month.

While ‘Persona 4’ and ‘This Way Madness Lies’ are no brainers for me; I was EXTREMELY on the fence about ‘Persona 3 Portable’. (I did pick it up reluctantly)

The remake of Persona 3 will be upon us soon and I don’t know if I’ll want to play P3P again. The problem lies in the fact that most of these games become much more expensive later. Buying it on “launch” from Limited Run usually IS the cheaper option.

That shit annoys me so bad. I don’t like picking up games for value. But because the game might be value I have to be ahead of the scalpers and pay for it at its maybe cheapest.

I collect games because I like ‘em. I want to play them and love them. I want to use my stuff. I don’t give a fuck about the “value”. I respect the folks that do care about that stuff but I plain just don’t.

But that’s also just kinda life. Not much can be done about other people. You can only truly control yourself. 🙄

Overall October has been an exceptionally excellent month for gaming! We’ve had so much good stuff come out this fall season. I’m excited for next month as well! Super Mario RPG will be making its re-debut and I can’t wait to talk about that one!

[haru-sen]

Writing Update

Finished up revisions on book two. The working title is The Wolfsbane Trail. Passed it on to my second round beta readers; also have an optional smut chapter for it and a 23k novella that takes place two weeks afterward. I’m 34k into book 3, considering a 2.6 novella from a kid character’s perspective, and debating the merits of starting a new YA or MG fantasy after this.

So as a lot of you know, I’m querying for The Foxglove Pact right now. It feels like a mash-up of job-hunting and online dating: you need to find the right candidate with mutual interest, who you can work well with. They also need to be really into you, because they need to turn around and sell you to a publishing house. So you, as the queri-er have to deal with a lot of rejection from the quer-ee (the agent). Everyone’s heard the stories of well-known authors receiving tons of rejections, so I figured I was pretty prepared for it. (Insert joke about my dating life/job hunting experiences.) And you know, compared to ten years ago, it’s a lot nicer. I have a friend (published and an excellent writer) who received a letter from an agent who told her to stop writing. Very rude. Most form responses now include a line about how the rejection is a matter of personal taste, the agent does not feel like they are the best representative for this work at this time, and that the writer should not give up. Honestly, on its own, it’s not too bad.

And then you get several form rejections in one week. Oof, real cumulative DOT with a mood debuff. I’ve since made rules about not checking that email box first thing in the morning. I also have a couple full manuscripts requested, which helps with the salt.

A majority of agents use Querymanager for submissions, though a significant number still use email. As the writer, I use the sister system Querytracker to check for updates from other people on the site. (Agent A switched genres. Agent B is active again! Agent C went on hiatus.) It can be very helpful. (Agent D doesn’t actually want more of this genre. Agent E is notorious for ghosting people. Agent F is really nice, but might not get back to you for a year.) It can get obsessive. (Agent G normally rejects people after 14 days, but asks for a manuscript after 20. It’s been 30 days. Oh shit, they’ve responded to someone after me. WTF. I need to check my submission confirmation! Maybe they didn’t get it! Oh, here’s the confirmation…) I’m considering a premium membership just so I can better use filters, i.e. hide the rejections. I don’t need updates on the agents who passed on my work. No hard feelings, I’m just focusing on the people who are still options for me.

Unsurprisingly, my most useful feedback was from agents who read the full manuscripts. They liked the voice, they enjoy the story, but… Here’s the weird little nugget that I’ve learned over this process, and I get it. “I already represent something too close to what you have.” Obviously, you should be approaching agents who wishlist the genre you’re writing, but keep an eye on their author list, because most seem to have an (understandable) issue with splitting resources between too-similar clients.

After a couple months of submission, I think my base query letter is solid. I am improving it, as well as my comps and other meta additions. (biography, comparisons i.e. like Skulduggery Pleasant meets Monstress or Sandman Slim meets the Ancient Magus’ Bride), My one-line pitch could use some work. But not everyone asks for one. What do you mean “tell me about yourself?” WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

Ahem.

Anyway, need to get back to book 3.

[hexdsl]

HexDSL in 2023!

I realise that most people have done their “yay 2023” post already. Actually, most people did it while 2022 was still gurgling with death rattles. I, on the other hand have been excitedly waiting for today.

This last five days I have released the short story/novella ‘Week’ on hexdsl.com (Tumblr.) I have also made the story available from Itch for free and on Amazon for as cheap as they will let me (Amazon are asshats.)

This was something I have been planning since before ‘In Her we trust’ was released and was originally, me toying with the idea of changing the point-of-view character for Denouement 3 (don’t worry I’m not doing that, Jon won’t let me)! – I think the story brings a lot of subtle depth to the characters I have created, as well as makes some clear promises regarding Denouement 3, currently tentatively titled ‘Earth War.’

Anyway, that’s on the agenda for me over these next twelve months?

YouTube: I plan on continuing to put out YouTube videos. There is no end in sight, I am hoping as there are more and more people reading my books, that the focus of the channel will become more and more about my writing and less about ‘stuff I found on the internet’ – That said, I greatly enjoy the rambling nonsense that is enabled by YouTube.

Nancy & Holmes: This is my next full-sized novel. It’s framed like a mystery novel, though a modern, pop culture infused one. It’s about our hero, Nancy. Nancy works in a pub, has seen some shot and to distract her from her own sadness, she willingly getting sucked into investigating murders that happen in her happy seaside town. Nancy’s issues are a major part of the story. This includes her consulting detective, Holmes, being either imaginary or a ghost (she’s really not sure)

It’s scheduled to be my mid-year book, meaning I’m planning a June release. As always, these are just target dates. I wouldn’t ‘ship’ a title unless it was ready and fully baked. At the moment though, it’s looking like it’ll be on time.

All my books have had a mystery element, or at least a concealed element, which we wait to be revealed, but, I think I underestimated the nuance of writing a pure mystery story; I’m learning a lot!

As with all my stories, this will have strong female characters, well-defined morality… and bread products! – Yay toast!

Denouement 3 - Earth War (title subject to change): Denouement 3 will, like the second one, bring new concepts to the characters and challenge their sense of self. I want each book to question what it is to be a hero, and what you have to do to get there. In the first two books, Jon is left feeling like he did nothing, while everyone else in his life is hailing him as a legend. I want Denouement 3 to allow him to flex what he has learned and be a hero on purpose. With intent, drive, morality and now, a well-earned authority.

The current plan is to have Denouement books drop in December each year, for a while as I have a few more planned for the series. I don’t want to write Denouement back-to-back as I did with volumes one and two though. It really was fun to do, but I felt I had basked in the world too much. So much so that I have already written the first act of Denouement 3. I forced myself to go do something else (hence, Nancy & Holmes) to help me evolve as a writer.

The hope is that each Denouement book brings something new, original, and interesting to the table. I think to do that I can’t write them back-to-back. I need to take time to let the dust settle between volumes.

Drop me a line: Thank you for being interested in my rambles, writings, and videos. If you have questions about books, workflow, or thoughts, then please do either drop into my Discord or email me at HexDSL@gmail.com. If you want to send me something pretty, my Amazon Wishlist is here

If you want to support me directly, you can do this on Patreon or by buying books on Itch or Amazon. Honestly, the best thing you can do right now is leave a review!

Thanks. For reading.

[anotherdayforchaosfay]

if you feel like it, pls tell me about your crafting journey? first craft fixation? self-taught, learn from family/friends, videos, classes? subsequent enthusiasms? favorites? proud accomplishments? regrets, if any? stuff you crave trying in the future?

I come from a family, namely my mother's side, of artists and crafters, so keep that in mind. Painters, sculptors, wood workers, potters, quilters, all sorts. As such, all art was actively encouraged.

The first crafty thing I can remember was going to ceramics class with my mom. We would pick out statues we like, paint them with glaze and then have them fired again, or paint them with acrylic paint and take them home. I remember making vases and pots out of play-doh, building cities and towers with Lego blocks, paper mache masks with newspaper and balloons.

When I was nine (so in 1992) friendship bracelets suddenly became VERY popular. I saw a girl in class making them, so she showed me how. My mom saw.mw going through her yarn so I could make my own bracelets, so off to the craft store we went. She bought me 1/4" ribbon, cheap yarn, and a boom of patterns. Hyperfixation launched! A couple years later, while visiting my grandparents, my grandma gave me a couple books of macrame patterns. Hyperfixation evolved! I was using ribbon to make these until I discovered hemp when I was 14 years old. I became very picky about my materials when I was 16, and used the crappy hemp for practice or outdoor items. In my 20s, I started vendoring and doing art trades pretty regularly. That's also when I was introduced to cotton cord that looks and behaves like high quality hemp cord, but is super soft. I was nearly 30 when I learned better methods for creating clasps that don't look like a hot mess. A few people asked how I crochet jewelry because that's apparently what it looked like.

I stopped making jewelry in my 30s due to thr loss of a ligament in my right wrist, chronic pain, and burnout. The last time I tried making jewelry was in 2021, and it was like pulling teeth from a rabid tiger. I have since sold all my supplies, patterns, books, tools, and am very happy about it.

In my early 20s, when I was a uninstudent studying to be an art teacher, I took a watercolor class and Fell. In. Love. OMG I looooooooooooove watercolor painting. Unfortunately, all my paint solidified in their tubes years ago, and have since been tossed. My style is very...flow, dreamscape abstract, and big. I dunnonhow best else to describe it. You can purchase prints and other stuff eith my work though! I'm especially proud of thr two paintings at the top of my page here:

Landscapes and extreme closeups are my preference. Georgia O'Keefe is a major influence on my painting style. I miss painting, but good paint is expensive. I have what I like on my wishlist, so feel free to buy it for me.

Folks familiar with my quilts may see how much my previous work has played a role in my style. My family has mentioned more than once they can see macrame and watercolor in my quilts with how I use color and arrange blocks.

I'm semi-self taught. My mom didn't teach me how to quilt. I remember watching her, so applied that, what I learned in videos, and I regularly ask her for input. She's a terrible teacher and has little patience, plus we live nearly 3000 miles apart. I helped handquilt a lot of her quilts when I was growing up, so that part I had down.

I took classes for painting and drawing when I was hs and uni. I used to draw a lot, namely portraits and cityscapes, bit now I can barely hold a pencil for more than a couple minutes before my hand just...can't. Ligament removal has that effect. I can paint without issue though! The straight lines combined with the flow of light and color is so pleasing to me. It's like moss on a brick wall with powerlines casting shades with the colors of the sunset reflecting off windows and onto the surface of puddles. Visual poetry. I love that shit.

I dabble in photography, and will never claim to be a professional. Here's a picture I took in 2016, and it is by and far the best photograph I have ever taken.

You can have that printed on a variety of items available under it. Please click the link and scroll down. I'm still in awe that I managed to take this picture. I was in flip flops and went running outside when my husband hollered about the sunset. Grabbed my camera and ran in flip flops, hit a dip in thr sidewalk, and got a case of road rash on my right leg. Bleeding and in pain, I took that picture, and then cleaned tf outta the wound. I had a bandaid over it for a week, but I'm allergic to the adhesive and ended up with a scar from the bandaid. That thing didn't fade for five years! Anyway...

My hope is to learn how to make my own clothes. I love the super wide leg pants I wore in the 90s through 2003. Legs wide enough to fit a body. I can find them anymore, and hate denim, so I wanna make then using cotton. Namely Hawaiian floral prints. Big, bold, loud. Fuck, yes! I need to take a class or two though. I'm the sort that needs their hand held for the first few lessons, but once I understand it...well, y'all have see my work. I also intend to learn applique and thread painting over the next couple years. My ultimate goal is to create a series of mini quilts with portraits of all the Dragon Age companions, foundation paper piecing patterns with symbols from the skill/talent trees in all three DA games, a Dune quilt (I'm a huge fan of the book series, love the mini series, the original film is a lesson in How to Fail, give the recent first film 7/10 stats, and can't see part two until it's on disc because epilepsy is a bitch), paint the bedroom to look like a forest with the ceiling looking like the arm of the milky way and tree branches, and make my own wardrobe packed with prints and colors.

Thank you for asking!

[thepoeticfox]

I have this problem where I'm the wrong kind of autistic to ask for hobby/fixation stuff for Christmas so I end up asking for just really practical things cause those tend to make my life easier by upgrading stuff.

What did I ask for this year? He's asked me three different times and it's been different each time. Options, y'know?

First I said bissel little green machine.

Then I said Nintendo switch. Cause I would like a handheld.

Now I've said a new desk.

Two things are very practical. Two things are on the Amazon wishlist. Neither is the switch. Um. My wedding registry? Practical stuff. The majority of my wishlists? Practical.

I'm not the "collects every type of Spiderman toy ever made" flavor of autistic, I'm the "office supplies genuinely make me very happy" flavor of autistic. It just makes gift holidays weird because I grew up being told that I'm "not supposed to" ask for ✨ practical✨ things, it's the perfect time to ask for silly things.

[vampiremonday]

Ramble about a personal feeling that makes me feel like a bitch

I am all for a world where people contribute what they are ABLE. My mom was on disability for most of my life until her passing, but there were times before she was sick when she could have worked part-time and been happier and healthier for it, but disability rules made that impossible in a practical sense.

I see people crowdfunding and raising money and trying to monetize anything and everything online because they - due to physical disability, mental illness, or various concerns about personal safety - cannot work in a traditional setting to the degree that is required to “live.” I contribute to these campaigns sometimes, and I definitely feel like they should be supported and be able to exist.

On the other hand, there is a part of me that feels like I am just... hanging on by a thread, emotionally, socially, and mentally, a lot of the time, but that I am not fucked up and disadvantaged enough to merit help from anyone.

My dad got remarried last November, and that is a thing I don’t really know if I want to vent about here. The tl;dr is that I admire him deeply for standing up for me when it is necessary in this situation (it isn’t always but when it rains it pours for a few hours) but that he rushed into a situation without really appreciating that he would have to stand up for me until after the fact.

But anyway, when I moved to middle Tennessee two years ago, my dad went with me and helped me move in. Since I had a semi-furnished room when I moved down further south in eastern Tennessee for last school year and stayed for this upcoming one, he didn’t come. He has helped me a lot in other ways, but he didn’t make a drive that was half as long. And I get that he’s getting older and honestly part of me feels torn on if he even should help me with major physical stuff sometimes, but...

It all just adds to that feeling that I cannot expect help from any quarter. Practical or material help just seem to be beyond my reach.

Teachers sometimes post wishlists for their classrooms on Facebook. I know distant acquaintances and current and former coworkers who do. I did this year. A cousin asked for my paypal and gave me some money. That is certainly better than nothing and I’m glad. However, nobody else actually did anything in response.

And really, I just feel like I sometimes need nearness of someone who wants to help me. I get called upon to help others both in my personal and professional life. I consider it somewhat a duty, and I actually wanted a job where I could help real human beings. But lacking a life partner and nearby family and my dad’s increased responsibilities to his new wife make me feel like I am just not broken enough to be able to just fall to my knees and say “I can’t,” anymore.

Because I can. It’s just that the cost of being able to “can” is so great that I can barely do anything else or hope for anything else out of my life. I have enough money to subsist. I don’t have enough money to pivot toward a new phase of life. I have enough money to throw $20 or even sometimes $50 at someone’s dire situation or material lack, but sometimes I feel like those people are just at a place where they are allowed to reach out for help with more insistence than I am allowed to. And that makes me feel awful. But I guess I just... need help and support I’m not getting and that it doesn’t have to directly compare or correlate to people who need things more badly than I do, just like greater pain doesn’t cancel out lesser pain in terms of people’s physical needs.

[what-the-stories-have-foretold]

Valentinesday Headcanons

Happy Valentinesday my loves ❤

If you want, I can write some Valentines hc's for some other characters the coming weeks as well. My Navigation is here. However, because exam season starts now, it might take some time/I might take breaks every once in a while.

Note: I´ve written for one character per fandom I write for (majority of my fandoms)

Warnings: None. It´s very, very fluffy

Characters: Remus Lupin, Peter Maximoff, Richard Grayson, Sugawara Koushi, L Lawliet, Furuya Rei, Edmund Pevensie, Edogawa Ranpo

Remus Lupin

🐺 Staying in bed as long as possible

🐺 Cuddling

🐺 Standing up at around eleven or twelve to make brunch together

🐺 Him hugging you whilst you stir or cut ingredients

🐺 Eating on the couch whilst listening to an audiobook and mocking the characters every once in a while

🐺 Going on a walk, hand in hand. Kudos if the shops are closed. Standing in front of the shop windows and looking at all the stuff there

🐺 Back on the couch and reading. At times together, at times cuddled up, everyone with their own book. Taking turns reading out loud (or maybe you get really lucky and he reads for you)

🐺 Not really any presents, just spending time together. Maybe chocolate or a book/audiobook you both enjoy or the other wanted, but that´s about it.

🐺 Cooking dinner together

🐺 Watching a movie you both enjoy

🐺 Overall very cozy and quiet (as long as the others don´t come over. Though honestly that would be a lot of fun as well. Just a lot more exploring outside)

Peter Maximoff

🎶 It depends, I guess

🎶 Maybe you go to arcades

🎶 The cinema

🎶 But I think he would enjoy a lot of cuddling as well.

🎶 A pillowfort and a movie marathon

🎶 If you´re like me and start feeling dizzy after like three movies, get in breaks where you cook whilst Peter entertains you (it´s really funny actually, also kisses you every few seconds. Either on the cheek or he dramatically swoops you up in his arms. There is no in between)

🎶 Also, breaks where you go on a walk. He´ll be running around a lot and getting (stealing) you lots of different things, but it´s really sweet.

🎶 Maybe also invite his little sister over for a movie or two.

🎶 Whenever he sees you two cuddled up together he just melts

🎶 It´s similar to Remus´, just a lot louder, wilder and way more laughing

🎶 Also: tickle and pillow fights are going to happen. I don´t make the rules

🎶 (You get him a game, he get´s you either a sweet little necklace/bracelet or just something he thinks you will enjoy like a book, movie or a videogame)

Richard Grayson

🦇 If there´s a carnival in town, you´re going

🦇 If there´s a festival, you´re going

🦇 If there´s anything to explore outside

🦇 You´re going

🦇 It´s a lot of fun and a lot of him tugging you with him

🦇 His eyes are going to be big and excited, a bright smile on his lips, nonstop

🦇 You get an unhealthy amount of ice cream and other sweets

🦇 It´s overall going to be very fun and a beautiful day

🦇 In the end you´ll probably eat dinner at home, depending on how you´re feeling selfmade or takeout and watch a movie

🦇 You bought all the food, he bought all the tickets. (He tried to pay everything, but you probably did too. Just always arguing over who gets to pay. That was your solution)

🦇 Btw he´ll win you so much junk omg

Sugawara Koushi

🥇 Similarly to Richard, you will spend a lot of time outside, if there´s a carnival, you might visit it, but if not you´ll just take a walk through the entire city.

🥇 You go to a café and just talk a lot (he´ll tell you about the latest nonsense the kids pulled) or have a cute little picnic in the park

🥇 You´re also holding hands the entire time

🥇 It will be very wholesome and sweet

🥇 He´ll give you your favourite flowers when he picks you up

🥇 Because he insists on picking you up.

🥇 You´ll get him a picture of you both

🥇 P.S. Someone from the team will see you. At the end of the day, all of them are stalking you two. They think they are slick. They are not. Suga is very sorry, you find it hilarious.

L Lawliet

🍰 Honestly, it depends on the case (quite literally)

🍰 If anyone around him should mention Valentinesday an awful lot (read Watari, Matsuda, Misa), he´ll do something

🍰 Without the Kira case he´d (make Watari) get a lot of sweets and cake into the main area

🍰 Did you watch the Drama? In the background there is some sort of pillowfort

🍰 It´s now decorated with lots of fairy lights.

🍰 Your favourite book will be there and so will be a laptop for movies

🍰 You´ll cuddle a lot and he´ll probably fall asleep on either your lap or your chest

🍰 That´s why there´s the book and Laptop

🍰 He´ll probably sleep and cuddle you the entire time (he looks so cute please protect him omg I want this)

🍰 Honestly, he might get you a book you have wanted or something that´s on an account wishlist (which of course he didn´t hack into. He´s a detective remember. That one day your sleeve looked a bit different, that´s how he knew)

🍰 He might get you some very expensive jewelry as well, especially in the beginning of your relationship

🍰 It´s the first thing about Valentinesday you´ll see and he´s got money. Also, he doesn´t have any experience with love. This will, for a very long time be, how he shows love

🍰 Now during the Kira case you won´t expect anything to begin with. You don´t really do any year, because he´s, you know, L. But that´s okay.

🍰 You spend your time alone in your room, because he wants you safe, maybe a quick walk, but that´s about it.

🍰 He´ll send everyone home earlier because: “You should spend time with your family, I guess. Misa has been going on and on about it.” Whilst waving them away. Not even sparing them a glance

🍰 Shortly before midnight then he´ll come into your room to join you in bed

🍰 He´ll lay his head on you chest, maybe you´ll talk in hushed voices for a bit, but all in all you´ll just cuddle and sleep

Furuya Rei

🥃 Usually, I would say, he´ll take you out to a fancy restaurant

🥃 But it´s currently dangerous so he´ll invite you over to his (living together would also be pretty dangerous) and prepare a candlelight dinner.

🥃 You´ll still wear elegant clothes and so will he (dress shirt and suit pants)

🥃 He´ll gift you a pretty necklace, bracelet or even a ring

🥃 Overall very classy and traditional I guess

🥃 He´ll drive you home to make sure you get there safely.

🥃 Waits until the light is turned on in your apartment and you wave at him through the window

Edmund Pevensie

🔦 Whether you´re in Narnia or not doesn´t matter

🔦 You´ll explore a forest

🔦 Or rather, you´ll run around

🔦 He will mostly run in front of you and

🔦 Will you look at that

🔦 Someone must have prepared a picnic

🔦 Well I guess it can´t be helped, we´ll have to picnic now

🔦 You will talk and laugh the entire time

🔦 You´ll have a cute moment where he tugs flowers behind your ear

🔦 And then he will tackle and tickle you

🔦 It will be very sweet and a lot of fun

🔦 You´ll come home dishelved, panting and with massive smiles on your faces (not because of what you might think though!)

Edogawa Ranpo

🔍 Honestly, there´s not much to say

🍭 He´s clingy and loves sweets

🔍 So…

🍭 Cuddles and sweets

🔍 If you´re lucky you can get him to go on a walk with you (tell him you´ll go to a bakery)

🍭 You´ll hold hands the entire time (both because you don´t want to let go and because you don´t want to loose him)

🔍 Maybe he´ll solve a case along the way

🍭 Praise him

🔍 Please do.

🍭 I know I´ve said this before, but it´s very sweet and cozy.

🔍 A lot of surprise hugs, unless you´re already cuddling. In that case it´s a lot of sudden squeezes

🍭 I want this as well

[fraks]

LEVERAGE REDEMPTION 1x15 THE MUDDY WATERS JOB

- i can't believe this is the first part of the finale already. @cminerva and i have been speculating about the finale since the episode titles + descriptions were released. well, since before that, really, but the titles and descriptions gave us so much fodder, oh god. my prediction was that they'd do another first/second david job that would wreck us completely. so. you know.

- i watched all eight eps in a row, the night they were released, but @cminerva only got to watch the first two, so i had be very vague and spoiler-free in the texts i sent her when all i wanted to do was YELL, but once i got to the finale, i couldn't possibly be vague anymore, so i stated typing up my reactions in a notes file. that's gonna be super useful for this post now.

- ok let's do this! harry's daughter sneaking out, interesting start. harry's ex is beautiful. but jesus she REALLY traded down.

- harry delivering their mail. :') and eliot fixing the place up. EVERYONE IS SO AT HOME AT THE BASE. 😍 omg sophie's wearing a shirt that could definitely belong to harry.

- uhhhh wasn't tom baker nate's alias? side-eyeing the writers tbh. miss river song—hardison c'mon. LMAO TEDDY BEAR. harry and soph are so delighted, i love it. fjsjfhskdjfjjdjdjd "MISS SOPHIE DEVEREAUX, FROM ALL THE WAY FROM ACROSS THE POND!" harry your accent is ATROCIOUS. but THEY'RE FLIRTING!!! "stop it!" fjakfbskfjksfj HELP ME I AM DYING HERE. (now we've had him saying her name while she's actually in the room, but in a horrible accent, so like. all i want is one soft "sophie" right to her face. bonus points if they're naked.)

- "i need to give you some dialect lessons." - "i'll take 'em." i'm sure you will, harry. 😏 the only time i was ever this eager to learn things from someone was when i was head over heels in love with them, so. just saying.

- nooooooooo. sophie can't leave. SHE CANNOT. ugh parker's reaction is everything. she loves sophie so much and has been fighting to keep her with them since 1x01. and i don't think sophie has realised how much it really means to parker to have her there.

- i also live for harry's reaction. he's so crushed because he thought they had something. not the something he wants, but a friendship, at least. and she just talks so casually about leaving them all behind it crushes him. you can actually SEE his heart breaking.

- and then later he sends parker off with eliot and specifically assigns sophie and himself to a task, TOGETHER. i'm guessing he either hopes he can change her mind or, failing that, he wants to spend what little time they have with her before she goes.

- but first, harry's daughter shows up. lmao because she used the tracking app harry tried to sneak onto her phone to track HIM. :') i like breanna's nerd girlfriend, but if they'd made becky a few years older, breanna would currently be falling all over herself trying to impress HER instead. (yes, this was originally on my wishlist for s2. also yes, i am okay with not getting it.)

- "he never did business with really bad people like—" - "...like i did?" CALLED IT. @cminerva and i figured the strain in their relationship would have been harry's work, and not just the many hours of it, but more that he defended so many evil people. "i get it." oh maaaan it KILLS him to know his daughter thinks so badly of him. because he IS a good man, at his core.

- "what, was the monopoly man busy?" gjajfjskfjekd PARKER!!!

- lmao harry defends ethan so eagerly, sophie's little smirk makes me think SHE thinks harry and ethan might have been an item. before he drops the bombshell of ethan being married to harry's ex, that is.

- breanna going on strike is... idk, i'm torn. it's obviously mostly played for laughs, giving harry and sophie the task of hacking (😂), but also, the last time they weren't sure what to do, they voted, and the majority won. there was never any talk of strikes? it feels kind of weird and ooc to me that breanna just says no and basically abandons them, especially after harry's asked for help. and her attitude about the whole thing... not helping.

- but lmao harry planning to learn hacking from the binders. what a NERD. a clueless, naïve nerd, but a nerd nonetheless.

- "how hard can it be, hacking?" oh sophie, sweetie.

- lmfao "stupid little lawyer man." - "breanna!" - "i did something wrong..." you think, harry? 😂

- omg when eliot and parker come back to the base and ask what happened, sophie says "we (!) tried our hand at hacking", but harry points to himself while she says it. this is one of the many, many reasons why i love this character: he's so absolutely willing to own up to his mistakes—not just the big, obvious ones they're all trying to redeem him from, but just the small ones, too, and i think that's mostly noah's acting choices, i doubt any of that is scripted. it's making me very emotional because it's obvious noah loves this character, too. and the WAY he takes the blame for the things he did wrong just reinforces my headcanon of anxiety disorder harry who has had therapy.

- you REALLY left harry for this dude, grace? really? i mean i know looks don't mean anything in the long run, but jeeeeesus. this dude doesn't even come across as a good guy.

- lmfao parker carding harry i cannot. "oh look, he's human." i love her.

- that red top on sophie looks amazing. my wishlist for s2 had her in another red dress, but i'll take this, too. red on sophie is just... [chef's kiss]

- OUCH. that ethan guy is a piece of work. "i believe in being civil." okay two things. a) i like that harry doesn't, idk, hate his ex and that he didn't make it hard for her to leave and find someone else, someone even he considered "better", cause even back then, he KNEW what he was doing was wrong. b) but also, this "being civil" thing i think might just have been another symptom of his attitude of "never picking a side". it's a really easy way to make sure nothing ever touches you, that no one can ever blame you. if he HAD fought for his ex and made it hard for her to leave him, she could have thrown that back in his face. by staying "neutral" (or as he calls it "civil", cause lbr, there is no true "neutral" in a breakup like that), he made sure none of the immediate blame could fall on him. SHE left him. SHE asked for a divorce. stuff like that. but he knows now that it was precisely that, his INaction, that put the final nail in the coffin of his marriage. which ties in very nicely with what he says to sophie in that one scene in jackal job.

- "probably doesn't hurt that because of me, you don't have to pay alimony or child support." YOU LITTLE TWAT. harry has made a LOT of mistakes in his life, but i don't believe for a second that he would've minded paying alimony, let alone child support. i mean, he's a lawyer, for god's sake. if he'd wanted a pre-nup that would've kept him from paying alimony, he probably could've had one. and we KNOW he's loaded. and especially now, he no longer cares about the money. i mean, he's been living in a room in a slightly run-down old theatre with four housemates, basically, instead of staying at his presumably huge and fancy own apartment or house.

- another "sophie". i want harry to say her name all the time thanks. 😭

- EVERYONE EATING TOGETHER AGAIN! lol i can no longer watch these guys (or any other fictional characters) eat chinese food without thinking about the audio commentary for the original show. 😍

- oooh good plan, parker. you go to the platform and take eliot and breanna with you. it'll give harry and sophie some time alone. 😏

- "the security of my family" u g h harry listen. your daughter is your family, OBVIOUSLY. but your ex is not. if anything, this TEAM is your family now. this is what @cminerva i were afraid of, that by making harry's ex's husband a bad guy / mark, the writers would open the door for harry to go back to his ex. and i'm 100% against that, and not only because i ship h/s. that's not even my main reason, actually, though i will admit it plays a big role. no, the main reason is that harry is a different person now. and going back to his ex would throw him back into a life that he once had but left, even just by NOT acting when she left him. and if he's back in that situation again, well. it's very easy to fall back into old patterns once you're back in a familiar environment, isn't it? i'm not saying his ex would drive him to doing bad things, or that she did that when he first went crooked. no, that was HIS choice. but thanks to harry and now ethan, she's always had a certain standard of living that she no doubt wants to keep, and harry would fall over backwards trying to make that happen, and lbr, these guys don't exactly make money from conning bad guys. as far as we know, the original team still lives off their one big score from nigerian job, personally. hardison probably makes sure leverage international has some income for bases and clothes and props and whatnot, but personally, i doubt these guys would take so much as a penny from a mark if that penny could instead go towards helping people. so harry has not had any official income since the beginning of the season. he probably has assets that generate income for him, but the money he got from being a lawyer was probably his main source. and he'd want to make his ex happy, so he'd probably slip back into doing bad things, and i DO NOT WANT THAT FOR HIM. my little baby thief who's been working so, so hard on his redemption.

- SOPHIE WITH A PONYTAIL. i was so looking forward to this and it's just as hot as i expected. what is even hotter than i expected is that PINSTRIPE VEST SHE'S WEARING.

- "why would you be covered in oil?" ghskfhsifhkehfkejf 😂 it only just occurred to me that these bits are 4th wall breaks, in a way. i just hadn't realised because they're DONE SO WELL. (i ususally hate 4th wall breaks.)

- "oil happens." gjskfbksfnksbfjefbjdnfjeke I CANNOT.

- lol i have absolutely no notes about this upcoming h/s scene from the first time i watched the ep, so i'm guessing i was too overwhelmed.

- "i thought i might find you here." SHE LOOKS SO GOOD. and she knows where his ex lives, which i assume is where they used to live together.

- "when i lost grace, i reconciled myself to the fact that i lost her to a better man. a decent man. maybe i didn't deserve her." OUCH. and exactly what i suspected. there's no way that this wonderful, wonderful man doesn't have anxiety over all the bad things he's done.

- "is that it? have you been seeking redemption for grace and becky?" GOT IT IN ONE, SOPH.

- "if you can't use the law as a guideline to show you what's morally right and wrong, then what do you have?" a) leverage asking the TOUGHEST questions since 2008. b) he's not wrong. c) i don't think i can imagine HOW hard it must be for him, this whole redemption process. i mean, he knows he did the wrong things. but how does he know that? because it FELT wrong. and because he saw other people's pain. and then because the crew has been telling him. but the law, the thing he's spent his entire life on, tells him the exact opposite. so all this time, all these months now that he's been with the leverage team, there has always been a part of him that has told him what he's doing NOW is wrong. because it's against the law. and i think a part of him is always going to be struggling with that if he stays with the team.

- "mr. wilson, i think you need to recalibrate your entire thinking about morality. life isn't always as clear-cut as we'd like. life's complicated." THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE DEFINING QUOTE. OF THIS ENTIRE SHOW.

- "how did you recalibrate your thinking about morality?" - "well. there is honour amongst thieves. i started there." i am SOBBING. i know this episode and this entire season really is about harry, but my GOD. sophie has grown SO much, since nigerian job obviously but also since the end of leverage 1.0 and even since the beginning of 2.0—so, so much. talking about harry and his arc comes to me fairly easily, but talking about sophie is just. hard. she means so much to me. i might come back to this in another post. i do want to talk more about her arc in this entire season.

- on a more shallow note, JEEEEESUS gina is gorgeous. and idk if that was a coincidence or ~filming magic, but it's overcast in this scene EXCEPT for the moment when sophie says "there's honour amongst thieves". it's not a lot, but you can tell that the sun comes peeking out for that one second and hits her face and she just GLOWS. JFC.

- also i know it probably doesn't mean anything, but when sophie leaves, the way harry turns and looks back at what i assume is his old house (i.e. his ex and his old life), then turns back to sophie and looks at her and then walks after her DOES THINGS TO ME. it could be such a beautiful metaphor for the way he's being torn in half.

- awwwwman, the kids talking about sophie leaving. "she's gotta find out who she is." !!!!!! I JUST!!!!! i think i've got something about this in my "yell at @cminerva" notes for the next ep, so i'll just. stop for now. but i have all the feelings anyone has ever had about this.

- nooooo i think harry just got all dressed up to meet his ex. GDI WRITERS WHAT ARE YOU DOING.

- yeaaaah they've just tanked the ot3. i am UPSET. "i've always admired you and hardison's relationship." AS IF YOU'RE NOT PART OF THAT RELATIONSHIP YOU DUMMY.

- "i think the reason hardison and i work so well is because he's the first person who saw me. i mean, he really knew me." is such a sweet thing to say, parker.

- awwww but. that was an eliot+parker scene that would be SUPER cute family vibes if it weren't for that bitter anti-ot3 aftertaste...

- LMFAO SOPHIE IS HAVING ELIOT'S BABY 😂 i know at least one (1) person who will appreciate this tidbit. i love how sophie just like, goes with the "sweetheart". you can almost SEE her thought process. "ah, eliot's not alone. guess i'm having his baby!" and lmfao breanna "baby?" dhakhfksbdjejd

- harry doing actual lawyering in court? HOT AF. i don't have a secret thing for lawyers or the law, but watching someone—anyone—be super competent is always crazy attractive. (yes, this show makes me sweat a lot.)

- lmfao "how did you meet the missus? was it romantic?" what this episode DESPERATELY needs here is a flashback to the first time eliot saw sophie, playing lady macbeth in chicago back in nigerian job, and a shot of his horrified face.

- ugh harry don't run after grace. if this were any other show, or fanfic, grace would now ask harry about that gorgeous woman in the red dress. "oh grow up, harry. what did you think was going to happen? i was going to leave him and come running back to you?" wow maybe it was harry who deserved better all along. yes, it was naïve and frankly wrong of him to assume or even hope for this. but it was a GENUINE hope, a genuine wish, and i can't blame him for that. if he really HAS been trying to find redemption so his ex would come back to him (which i don't think he has—maybe that was part of it for him, but he's been wanting to be better for himself, too, and above all, for his daughter), it's going to be even harder going forward, knowing that outcome he hoped for isn't going to happen.

- "where's harry? all his stuff is gone, he cleaned out his room." oh shit they're doing it THEY'RE REALLY GOING THERE THIS IS FIRST DAVID ALL OVER AGAIN, ONLY IN REVERSE. oh jesus christ i did not expect this.

- PARKER+SOPHIE CUDDLE I CAN'T. 😭 I LOVE THESE PEOPLE SO MUCH. "you always knew that this was gonna be my last tour. i'm just not the same person i used to be. i need to go and figure out who the person is that i'm going to be." I AM A WRECK THANKS.

- and so is eliot ugh. these people threw him a baby shower like, YESTERDAY. leverage redemption really not pulling ANY punches, are they?

- oh fuck. OH FUCK. "well, let's just say that i've decided to recalibrate my entire way of thinking about morality." OH FUUUCK.

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

I know nothing about Canadian history, except MMIWG, although that isn't really history I guess... Would you share a tiny bit?

Canadian history is fun and complicated and as someone with a teaching degree it is layered af and the way our different provinces operate further complicates these things. We have much to improve on but there are many advancements and developments already done and being done.

That being said, Canadian history has it's share of proud and shameful moments which should be discussed more broadly because hey we're actually a pretty significant ally to some serious world powers in history.

See below the cut for my ranting.

The precursor should be stated that I haven't taught Canadian history in a few years and it's always best to find references for my hearsay lmao.

First a lot of Canadian history will start with Contact (columbus and all that) however in Canada its most Cousteau and Cabot. That being said, Canada has a vast history prior to contact including Viking settlements and of course indigenous history which we continue to uncover to this day as a way of understanding the present state of our indigenous communities and reconcilation.

Canada was mostly colonised by the French and British. These two cultures are constantly at each other. They struggled over the territory until the French lost Quebec in the Seven Years War in 1775. French Canadians were given what’s considered a lenient truce for the time as they were allowed to maintain their language and culture, however this not solve the issue of tensions and assimilation inherent to Canadian culture. French Canadians exist outside of Quebec to this day.

Fur trade was the main business for a long time in Canada (I have a book on my wishlist because I wanna fucks with this harder even though it is hugely taught in basic Canadian history). The North West Company and Huron Bay Company were the two significant traders in the company and a version of the latter now exists as a department story in Canada as the Bay. These two company’s lost much of their power when Britain made Canada a commonwealth and took control of the provinces and territories gradually.

Canada’s economy has always been significantly tied to other countries. Firstly, mercantilism was the way too go, with north american colonies selling raw goods to european powers and buying them back as actual goods, ie. furniture. Canada became a significant trade partner with Britain and later the US, moccassins were a top seller across the border in the 19th century.

Tecumseh is well known in both US and Canadian history but is a major symbol of indigenous history over here to his influence on trying to maintain indigenous independence on both sides of the border and his involvement in the War of 1812.

The War of 1812 is called a victory by whichever side is talking. The US will claim they won and Canada will say the same because we burned the White House, but also, on the border, the Brits marched a small unit of soldiers in circles and convinced the Americans they had like thousands of soldiers lmao.

Laura Secord warned the British of an American attack in this war and now there’s a chocolate boutique named after her. Yay?

Canada had a rebellion in 1837 led by Mackenzie King but it was comparatively lowkey compared to other countries and unsuccessful. The most dramatic event is arguably the burning of newspaper office (may be mistaken) but I recall they wanted to preserve the printing presses for their own uses.

The act of Canada becoming a country happened July 1, 1867 and was called Confederation and so Canada day falls on July 1 every year. It was the union of four provinces; BC, Nova Scotia, Ontario, and Quebec. Canada gained more provinces and territories and gradually gained more internal power into the twentieth century.

Indigenous, or First Nations, Metis, and Inuit communities in Canada fall under the outdated “Indian Act” which maintains their “status” and rights and is the pillar to this day only because it is necessary to continue to address these issues. It remains problematic and is continually amended. 

Canada looked to increase immigration towards the end of the 19th century, they instated highly discriminatory laws which tended to deter or exclude “eastern” and non-anglo peoples. The continual journey law said that anyone sailing from India or Asia had to travel in a single trip without stops to enter the country which was near impossible at the time. This led to the Kamagata Maru incident which left a boat full of people stranded on a boat off the Canadian coast.

WWI saw Canada define itself as a wing of the British Army (along with Australians). Canadian soldiers wore maple leaves to demarcate themselves and this is one of the reasons it’s now on our flag. We are cited as having significant effect in battle such as Vimy Ridge and Passchendaele, along with major battles like Ypres.

First Nations soldiers were involved in both wars at a significant percentage, the highest enrollment rate of any population in Canada. In WWI they were often used as snipers because of their hunting practices and experience with rifles. This... well, we’ll come back to this issue as many were not and still are not recognised.

Tommy Douglas founded universal healthcare and has since been voted the Greatest Canadian. He was a premier of Saskatchewan and found the CCF which is now the NDP, a leftist Canadian party.

WWII saw Canada have great failures at Dunkirk and Dieppe, however Canada was still significant as they provided land for training bases and participated in many campaigns including Italy, D Day, and the liberation of the Netherlands and surrounding areas.

Twofold, the Dutch continue to honour Canada to this day and send tulip bulbs as a show of thanks.

Second, the lands used for these bases were often negotiated from indigenous communities with the promise of return at the end of the conflict. This didn’t happen for many and caused land struggles well into the present which have at times led to death. See Ipperwash et.al.

Canada had segregation. Viola Desmond refused to leave a white only area of a theatre in 1946 as a challenge to this. Canada experienced much of its civil rights changes at a pace with the US. Again US and Canadian history is at time very parallel.

Residential Schools existed in Canada from the 19th century to 1996. These schools have recently received some overdue notoriety for abducting aboriginal children for the sake of assimilation, abuse, and murder. Students were taken from their families to be re-educated as a systemic effort to erase their culture and resolve the tension between them. This should be condemned entirely and is disgraceful. Canada has a lot of work to do. Also, the Catholic and Protestant churches ran these schools.

As well, First Nations veterans were barred from participating in Remembrance Day events until into the nineties despite the land and people they contributed to Canada’s war efforts and claims to fame. This is another tick in the hey that’s fucked up column.

I left out a lot and highlighted most of the things that interested me but there is so much more to know and learn about Canada. I recommend this site as a starting point.

Other topics to look at:

Louis Riel

Acadian Expulsion

Famous Five

Group of Seven

Post War US-Canada Trade

Africville, Nova Scotia

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i need to vent. so you can read if you like but not necessary !! i have a lot on my mind and just need to get it out.

i don’t have as much passion as i used to when it comes to roleplaying on this site. i think nowadays, more often than not, i find it tiring and kind of a hassle to navigate. there are great people on here of course, many talented and kind people, but i don’t have as much energy or time to give as i used to, which is also something i’m okay with.

no matter what i seem to do, the effort i pour into muses who are women doesn’t seem to largely go anywhere ( unless it’s with close rp partners ). whenever i’m inactive on on here and then i go to round up drafts, more than half of them are always for my male muses. if i ask, my women usually have been dropped. i can start out with a balanced amount of drafts ( platonic, romantic; a good amount for my women and men ) but usually the drafts that have a higher and faster reply rate are always the romantic ones...for my men. this happens every single time i round up drafts after a long period of inactivity. it gets so. tiring.

and usually when i’m tagged in shippy things ?? it’s exclusively for my men. and usually when i get spontaneous praise on my portrayals ??? usually for my men. i notice anytime someone replies to one of my more popular male muses, i get a fresh surge of followers right after that, too.

it’s just...as dramatic as it sounds, aggravating. that something so silly and unimportant can factor into how my muses are received. read the bios for my female muses. they’re usually much more in depth and filled with headcanons because they’re where my passion lies, yet that doesn’t seem to matter. if a male muse has an attractive faceclaim, people won’t even need to read their bio or know their canon to show romantic interest in them !! it’s transparent and frustrating.

i still remember when i used to write wishlists for my muses, because i thought that would help me achieve a better balance all around for my characters while showing i was open to fresh dynamics with new partners. i mentioned both in depth platonic and romantic ideas for almost every muse i wrote one for. when i posted one for two different primary female muses, i wasn’t approached for any romantic prospects. when i posted one for a male muse, i was almost instantly dm’ed and bombarded with five different romantic proposals. that’s how it always seems to go, so i stopped posting wishlists altogether. if anything i only discuss wishlist things i’d like to write in private nowadays.

i’ve basically written every type of male character you can think of. if i’m honest, i only have the utmost and fresh passion for two among the ones i’m writing now due to them being unlike any guys i’ve portrayed in the past; though i do like rex a lot, he’s pretty fun, he’s still similar to a couple muses i’ve taken on so it feels like slipping on an old pair of shoes when i portray him. overall, when it comes to male muses, i’ve seen it all, i’ve written it all. i’ve written them in all sorts of romances, messy, fluffy, a mixture of the two, etc. there’s only one dynamic i haven’t had the opportunity to explore though i have no doubt if i posted about wanting to explore it i’d get offers.

something else that’s truly bizarre. i came to find out that i didn’t even know how to write smut from the perspective of a woman anymore because during the occasions i did write smut, the majority of the time it was from a man’s viewpoint. i didn’t have the experience of writing it with women, so i lacked confidence in doing so until recently ??? within the last year. and hey, i’m good at it !!! one of my partners on discord was so impressed they said they felt lucky to be writing it with me. it’s just ridiculous...how i was so used to writing as men initiating, making the first move, charming, seducing, and courting women, etc that i felt i couldn’t do it if it was a woman. because in all of my rp history, i’ve basically only had the fortune of ships for men advancing and meaningfully developing enough to get that far.

so like i mentioned about having vast amounts of experience with writing men...obviously the same cannot be said for female muses. i’ve barely written women in comparison. at this point in my roleplay career, i’m writing women !!! finally. i’m letting myself focus on them and exploring different types of women with varying backgrounds and dispositions and quirks, something i never was able to do in the past. it’s refreshing. but so bittersweet because in spite of how many more women i write compared to men, the amount of adoration and attention is still overwhelmingly biased towards my male muses.

it’s really impacted my ability to write as of late. i generally don’t care to write men as much anymore. and someone even pointed out to me how they noticed that my women don’t seem to have as many romantic ships as my men, as a whole, which is...absolutely true. if i didn’t have romances with my friends, my women would only have platonic threads, and my men would overrun my blog in popularity.

i don’t have as much time or energy to write as i used to and when i do i can’t help but feel frustrated and like  maybe it’s being wasted. i also just wish my women could get the same amount of love as my men, that the love i did get didn’t have to be from my friends. that i could play two characters from the same film or show and not worry about the male half eclipsing the woman in popularity in terms of threads, ships, etc.

regardless, i think about how a toxic friend of mine tried to dissuade me from writing women anymore, insisting i wrote men better, degrading my writing for my women so i’d write men she was interested in shipping with. i think about her sometimes along with the male muse bias in the rpc, and i’m more proud of myself for not giving in and just reverting back to only playing males again. i know i’d be guaranteed easy threads, ships, be generally showered with attention, but i won’t do it. i prefer to write women more and i embrace that. even if it’s frustrating. even if i get very discouraged in noticing the difference in treatment i get.

this is a long rant with no organization. a lot, though not all, of this has been said in private to friends before but i didn’t want to blow up anyone’s messages after getting frustrated yet again with the state of my other blog. i’m still working on dropping muses, some i never expected to consider. i feel like more will be let go of potentially than i even initially planned. sadly, sometimes i worry i’ll never get the spark i used to have when it comes to enjoying this as a hobby. maybe i won’t. maybe i will. i voluntarily don’t spend as much time on here as i used to either way !!! but i’ll be around until i reach a point i get truly fed up with it / this site dies and probably move to disco rp exclusively. that time isn’t here though...yet. so i’ll try to enjoy it with my faves while i can.

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My side blog is @ourwrittenstories <--- Multi Muse! (probably why a random Stiles blog followed you)

Rules and Muse info for Mobile~~

Under the read more you will find rules as well as info on my particular Stiles, AU’s, and Tags to look up!

Rules

Rule one

Please be patient with me. I’m either stupid fast at replying or I take a few days. If it seems I’ve forgotten you, though, send me an IM

Rule Two

That being said I will reply when I feel like. I will always tell you if I need to drop a thread, if I take long it doesn’t mean I’ve dropped it. If you need to drop it because I’m taking too long, let me know. I promise not to be mad.

Rule Three

I will not RP with anyone under the age of 18, even if the thread has no smut. I’m sorry, but no. This is an adult oriented blog. Heavy themes, along with smut, will be regularly posted in rp formal and/or in images.

Rule Four

I will not RP with anime/cartoon/game FC’s (There are exceptions like RE8 chars). I will also not RP with any deceased FC’s

Rule Five

As awesome as it would be to be bilingual, I only speak and know English.  Anything you see me post that is not English was brought to you by Google Translate.

Rule Six

I do not have a verse page, but that doesn’t mean I’m not open to AU’s. I LOVE AU’s. I’m a multi-ship multi-post blog and am trash for any and all AU’s. Just ask!

Rule Seven

I can write a lot in my replies (And a lot of it can be unnecessary detail) but don't feel pressured to match my length! Just, please, try to give me something more than two sentences to work with. I don't typically enjoy writing short replies, but I understand muses can be fickle things.

Rule Eight

I don't enjoy pregnancy threads or writing children so I, typically, will steer clear of those types of threads. If our muses have been in a long relationship (and we have been writing partners for a while as well) I may make an exception, but don't come in expecting babies. My girls all have IUD's unless stated otherwise. That being said I am 100% down with the breeding kink.

Rule Nine

If a muse has (unknown) somewhere in their age it means they are old old. Like 100+, so age can be changed if you are uncomfortable with age gap.

Rule Ten

I have a handful of chronic issues that effect my sleep and my mood so I'm up all hours of the day. I live in EST time zone, but I'm often up at 4AM so.....it's a gamble lol!

Rule Eleven

I have SEVERE ANXIETY and struggle messaging new people. IF I FOLLOWED YOU I WANT TO RP WITH YOU! I'm probably just figuring out how to message you without puking lol. I would appreciate the help, if you want, or you can wait until I gather the enrve.

Rule Twelve

My grammar isn't the best in the galaxy, ok? I over use comma's and never really figured out the semi-colon. If something is horribly wrong or you can't understand what I've written, just ask please.

Rule Thirteen

I will tag major triggers (ie; Snakes, Spiders etc) but I won't tag smut or NSFW unless it really needs it.

Rule Fourteen

If I have ever posted a meme please feel free to send one in even if it was a year ago! With that in mind, I do prefer introduction threads with new muns/characters if I am not familiar with them.

Rule Fifteen

Don't like my starters

Rule Sixteen

Don't God-Mod blah blah and Follow TOS k I love you <3 <3

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Stiles

Age: 19

Height: 5'10"

Sexuality: Pansexual (? Testing)

Residence: Beacon Hills

Parents: Sherriff John Stilinski

Siblings: None

Abilities: Superior Sarcasm, awesome baseball bat skills

Occupation: Part Time Barrista when he’s not out kicking ass

Personality: Sarcastic, Hyper active, Loyal to a fault, Paranoid

Background: To keep it simple my Stiles is canon up until the last episode of the last season. He lives in beacon hills with his father, his best friends are all weird supernatural creatures, and he was once a murderous void. Now, while the pack is at play, Stiles has taken a job as a Barrista in some mom and pops cafe slash bookstore. The old woman who runs it can barely get down the stairs anymore so Stilinskerino is basically the one who runs the joint. Until the bills and taxes come rolling around, then the old lady practically runs down stairs to do whatever it is she does to keep the shop running. Stiles doesn’t come into work those days.

Kinks: Biting, D/s , Daddykink, spanking, just be rough with him okay? DIRTY TALK. TALK ALL THE DIRTY TO HIM. CALL HIM NAMES AND JUST UGH DIRTY TALK

Banned Kinks: Childplay, Scat, waterbording, Incest (Step is ok) MPreg

D/s Preference: Sub/Brat for men and Top/verse for Women

SafeWord: Red or Kanima.

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AU’s

Canon Verse: This verse is the typical one. Stiles caught up completely to the end of the most recent Season Finale.

Void Verse: In this verse Stiles gave into the wills of Void and is now a dark entity that enjoys the pleasure of torture, murder, and all around chaos.

Emissary/Spark Verse: Same as the canon verse but he’s more in tuned with his magic.

Grunge Verse: Set back in the early 90’s Stiles is a drummer for the band The Pack along with band mates Scott, Erica, and Derek.

Spidey Verse: Okay this one I’m still working on/playing with in my mind But basically Stiles gets an Internship at Oz Corp and is bitten by a Radio Active Spider. When he comes back to Beacon Hills he tries to hide it from the pack but also uses it to help them in secret.

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Tags

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#Selfie;; - Photo’s

#Wishlist;; - Wanted plots 

#Wanted Opposite;; - Wanted FC or Characters to RP with

#Cassette;; - Song lists

#Aesthetic;; - Shit Stiles likes

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