#they said it was part of autism

[wrongfourtytwo]

I don’t remember what this was meant to be originally, and. It doesn’t make sense but I enjoyed creating it. Think the scene was original from a fic I’m writing

[emilnikos]

I need non autistic people to realise meltdowns are a real debilitating thing that has a serious effect on your mental and physical health NOWWWWW!!! The way its been trivialized and lessened pisses me the fuck off. It's not a tantrum and it doesn't come from "being too weak-willed" it's painful and it's embarrassing AND MOST OF ALL IT'S INVOLUNTARY!! Don't claim to be an ally to autistic or disabled people and then make fun of people who have meltdowns. Literally get the hell out of my sight

[metaphorically-speaking]

if tomorrow im gonna be haunted, then tonight im gonna be free.

something so meaningful about that line. tomorrow might be the worst day of my life. but tonight, in this moment, i dont care. im gonna make it the best.

something about the helplessness of it all. the worlds fucked and there’s absolutely nothing we can do about it. so lets do nothing about it! lets dance in the living room and sing loudly and off key in the car and order every drink on the menu (even though we know we wont like most of them) and buy stuff we dont need because who cares! we can deal with it tomorrow. tonight im gonna be free.

[imkrisyoung]

Someone in a group that I’m in: You’re quiet.

Me: Yeah, I was more expressive when I was younger, but then people told me I was too loud or talked too much.

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

[rasairui]

I think anybody who thinks autism is more "accepted" nowadays is either in denial or can't see outside themselves. What we actually did is just popularize a really weird infantilized perception of autism that focuses on the symptoms that can be repackaged as "cute" or "quirky," and are continuing to treat people with inconvenient or even upsetting symptoms like garbage. And no I'm not talking about bigots who pull the "I'm literally neurodivergent" bs I'm talking about supposed allies telling me I'm acting like a child for getting too emotional when I literally have "Can't Regulate My Emotions" disorder, or that I'm moving weird, or that my voice never has the right tone to it. Sorry my autism doesn't stop and end at hand flapping and dinosaurs lmao I can gaurantee I'm not enjoying my meltdown any more than you are, buddy! In fact, I'd say I'm having a far worse time than you! I do not make a choice to be emotionally volatile nor do I feel good when I get upset. It's not my fault that emoting "properly" is a performance that takes energy and I really can't do it 100% of the time. Like idk it honestly feels like I still have to mask in supposedly progressive spaces just in a different way.

And of course this doesn't even start to get into people with higher support needs than me who are rarely acknowledged unless they themselves are doing it. It's one of the reasons those posts that are like "Do you think neurodivergence is just autism/adhd, and not (heavily stigmatized other disorder)?" rub me the wrong way. They always seem to be addressing the most sanitized version of autism possible which strikes me as counter intuitive to the point being made. And don't get me wrong, as a system I understand why it's being said but it just really frustrates me because the people these posts are about don't actually think severe cases of autism or adhd are neurodivergence either! They treat higher support needs people with the same disorders like shit!

No I do not think anyone who's ever made a post like that is a bad person nor do I expect every post to have a disclaimer containing every possible nuance but I do think a lot of them are not written with the existence of high support needs or "weird" autism symptoms in mind, which inadvertently feeds into this "palatable autism" thing people keep doing

[soullessjack]

once again trying to convey an idea while trapped in the thinking-faster-than-my-mouth-can-speak state of being hello how is everyone

[recurring-polynya]

Izakaya Kamenoya

I am re-watching the Captain Amagai arc, which I love because it has just a shit-ton of Seireitei slice-of-life worldbuilding. Early in the arc, Kira goes to the bar with Renji and Iba to sob about how his new Third Seat is better than him, and it made me wonder-- do the lieutenants always go to the same bar, or does the anime just make up a new one every time? Episode 172 had a nice shot of the exterior:

I immediately went to Episode 355 (the second New Year's episode), because I'm always thinking about Rukia shotgunning that beer while Renji gazes on lovingly, and it certainly *looks* like same place, but again, maybe that's just a very standard-looking izakaya.

I decided that trying to translate the kanji might help. They're more visible in the first image. The ones on the paper lantern, 酒処 were easy, because they just say izakaya (literally, "alcohol" and "place"). That just supported the idea that this was just some generic bar. For the kanji on the wooden lantern, which appeared to be the same as the ones on the sign above the door, I managed to puzzle out the bottommost one, 屋, which means "shop" or "restaurant." Hmm.

At this point, I was feeling a little stumped, so I went looking for other screen shots.

Other bar scenes I could remember took place in: Episode 179 (Ukitake and Kyouraku try to angle Amagai into a threesome). This had a clearer shot of the sign, and it's definitely the same as the lantern.

Ep 305 (Kira and Hisagi go for drinks after work and run into Unohana having "Ladies' Night" with Soi Fon, the Kotetsu sisters, and Yachiru ????)

And finally, Episode 265 (the end of the Sword Beasts arc, Ladies' Night again, I guess, this time with zanpakutou)

and bingo, they actually translated it for me, this time!!

In, the only one that didn't turn out to take place at Izakaya Kamenoya was from Ep. 303, the first New Year's episode. The SWA holds their holiday luncheon here (the sign says 茶屋, or "tea house") .

It is also not the place where Rukia and Renji announce their engagement in WDKALY, that place is called Safflower, and it's fancier and it's specifically mentioned that it's way classier than everyone's usual digs.

That's neither here nor there, let's get back to Izakaya Kamenoya!

Later on, like when I was 90% of the way through writing this post, I realized there was an earlier shot of the sign in episode 172 that was also translated (which I thought I remembered and then assumed I had hallucinated when I couldn't find it, but it was from a separate trip to bar with Kibune and Kira's shitty subordinates). Conveniently, it's also probably the most readable out of all of them. EDIT: I didn't notice when I pasted this in here, but they translate it as Kamegameya here, which seems like a mistake? B3 suggests they might have read the second character as a repetition (with the k turning into a g, which I don't know all the details of, but I assume it's that thing that happens in Japanese when a word is in the interior of another word and it gets a harder consonant, the same way the s in "sakura" in Senbonzakura becomes a z). Google also tells me that the name of Yugi's grandfather's game shop in Yu-Gi-Oh is called Kame Game, so I wonder if the subtitler here was just working on muscle memory 😂. I'm sticking with Kamenoya, although Turtle Turtle Bar has its own charm)

The three characters in the upper left are 居酒屋, which is just a different way to spell izakaya.

"Kame" was easy to translate, it's the leftmost large character on the sign, 亀. It means "turtle", but the second meaning is "heavy drinker," so I'm guessing this might be a bit of a pun. Unfortunately, googling didn't turn up any further detail on this.

I puzzled a little over the middle character, until I realized that it might be 之, which is an older version of の. Oh, says me, who only speaks the Japanese I picked up from anime, it's Kame no ya, the way all the inns in Kakuriyo end in "ya." It just means "House of the Turtle", or "Turtle's Pub."

Turtle's Pub. Can we just take a moment to reflect on the fact that the lieutenants (and sometimes captains) like to hang out at someplace called Turtle's? I am so charmed by this. I have not been so excited since the time I realized that Renji was wearing the koi hoodie in the Bount Arc OP.

It's possible that it was just named by a guy who has "kame" as part of his name or who likes turtles, or as I said, maybe it's a pun, but there are two other possibilities I thought of:

In line with this post on the naming scheme for the Seireitei Gates, perhaps it's in the north part of the city, and named after Genbu the Black Tortoise-Snake

When I am making up business names in my fanfic, I often like to associate them with the squads they are near-- dragons for stuff near Squad 10, fish for 13, firebirds for things that are more city-wide. It's partially trying to tap into squad solidarity, and partially so people have a clue where your place is located in this stupid maze city. I love the idea of some former captain with a turtle-themed zanpakutou, whose is fondly remembered because someone happened to name a good bar after them.

I looked up that extremely questionable Blood War era Seireitei map, wondering if maybe Squad 3 was near the north gate:

It turns out it is not (assuming the unlabeled squads just go in order), but you know what is? Squad 10. So if Kamenoya is named after the North Gate, I assume everyone drinks there because it's close to Matsumoto.

(thank you very much to @kaicko for checking my work)

[stationk17]

Hroo Hraa

(some small notes under the cut)

Uploading this image again but with an edit. As I drew this I was uncertain as to the deal between Jon and Scarecrow and I did not want to project too hard onto them, so I went the spooky route. TURNS OUT MY INSTICNTS WERE RIGHT and while the space I played in was fun, I did not want this piece in particular to be in that anymore. I am the host of a system though (with Jon as a cohost funnily enough) so I will come back to play in this space some other time, because it is fun

[felixisfruity]

my mom when she teaches me something unclearly (ex. calling something “points” when there are no points graphed) and then yells at me when i don’t understand and tell her that i did what she told me and it was wrong

[lord-of-cats-n-sleep]

I was thinking about how Gojo, the strongest sorcerer alive has only one weakness, his best friend from high school. Like I just can’t express enough that they hadn’t talked in like ten years until Getou’s death and he was still his biggest weakness. There is no possible straight explanation for the one weakness and only way to defeat strongest sorcerer being his his best friend he hadn’t talked to in YEARS. Gay. They are gay.

[chicago-geniza]

Class divide! Inside the family

[ilycosy]

Cosyy you’re literally so awesome like the bottom Ike story 😋😋😋😋 i ate it right up and it was so goooood. Like girl how do you do it we all wanna know

tbh ,,, 🫣🫣🫣 i base a lot of the stuff off my bf shshskjs (OBVI besides the toxic bits) .. it definitely helps that i gen love luke as a character too !!!!

[gynecologistmsfrizzle]

I love my job. I get to make animal sounds and sometimes a small autistic boy with no socks on will walk up to me and pour several dozen plastic dinosaurs and a half cup of sand on the floor. It’s awesome.

[pixthepixel]

IT´S OFFICIAL! YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[hell-propaganda]

It’s not an issue of not understanding each other. A lot of times it is maybe, it’s hard to explain your own viewpoint, it’s hard to see someone else’s perspective if you fundamentally disagree, it’s frustrating when you can’t get them to see yours. But like. End of the day, both sides can eventually be explained. And after that it really does come down to an issue of values.

I was talking with my dad about two months ago because I wanted to visit my mom but he was home instead. Inevitably an argument about religion happened.

In case anyone reading this doesn’t know, Jehovah’s Witnesses believe that God will kill all unrepentant sinners in a second death after the Resurrection, giving everyone one last chance to repent before eliminating them for good— no afterlife. Personally I prefer this interpretation to the mainstream Christian take of eternal torture. Even a long drawn out death eventually has an end point where the pain stops. It also makes it easier to talk about as a legal system in modern times: sinning is a death penalty offense. On the Day of Judgement, Jehovah is both judge and executioner.

Anyway my dad couldn’t understand why I wouldn’t just obey God’s laws if I understood the consequences, which he knew I did. I said if my choices were to obey God or die, then that wasn’t any different from him holding a gun to my head. That’s free will in name only. And my dad agreed. He agreed that theology is a gun-to-your-head situation.

He didn’t understand why I wouldn’t follow God’s laws in that scenario. I didn’t understand why he would. My dad values his life above his freedom. I value my freedom above my life.

So it’s not that we have two sides here who can’t comprehend the other’s viewpoint. We have two sides here who are seeing the same question and giving different answers. We both have different ways of justifying it to ourselves— I call God a dictator, my dad calls his rules a seatbelt— but in the end we’re facing the same choice and we know it. Your life or your freedom. It’s not live free or die, it’s live free AND die. That’s our choice.