#theyre two nerds and i adore them

[arolesbianism]

Breakcore may not be a super strictly defined genre but I swear ppl will call anything that has noises at all like y'know music has like just normal ass music from any other genre breakcore with a straight face and I just have to sit there and try to not reveal I'm a pretentious fuck when it comes to this stuff

[sanjisboyfie]

to help me sleep at night just random individual headcanons from various places of my brain (did it on my phone if typo ignore or u eill explode)

m!reader

if suguru is smoking and you come up to him:

option a: you smoke too, he lights your cigarette up w his lighter, cupping his hand over the flame to make sure it doesnt go out before your end is properly lit, OR he makes sure you have yours in your mouth, before leaning in towards you (his is in his mouth) and pressing the two ends together to make yours light off of his end, OR, he just insists on you two sharing the one hes already smoking, smirking as hes got infinite amount of indirect kisses lined up for him now

option b: you don't smoke, so he immediately stomps it out on the ground and blows the last hit he took into thr opposite direction of you so you dont ahve to smell it/smell like it.

satoru really loves embarassing you two in public, especially in his teen days. out of nowhere, really erotic noises would come from him - obviously unprompted and unprovoked - and he'd just start obnoxiously moaning your name...so fucking embarrassing. its like hes got the humor of a middle schooler. like youre in the arcade playing games w each other, he loses, and then he starts shaking the poor machine and jolting his hips back and forth AS IF hes getting railed when obviously hes FUCKING NOT and screaming "eugh!! uAgh!! HARDER [NAME]!! FUCK" and youre just trying very hard to get him to shut the fuck up

another satoru headcanon, loves gushing to u abt his lil nerd findings. when you were in highschool tgt, he would have you sit in front of him on his bed as he pointed to all the different mechanjcs his gundam figurine (bc he deffo collected them bye its ltr canon) has and going all nerdy by making silly noises like "pshhh! pfooo! baam!" as he makes them dance around in front of you. you just let him indulge you because hes honestly adorable whenever he does get rlly into it and not at all an annoying piece of shit, like he usually is. he might even rock ur bodies back and forth as hes doing all the sound effects too before setting the toy down and jus peppering kisses all over your face and neck. awww the little shit is being cute.

erm erm guys lemme cook w the one piece boys rq.

TRAFALGAR LAW...thats the headcanon.

ok obvs jk. but just imagine laws hands (gigglegiggle) and how theyre always in conract w u. mans cannottt keep his hands to himself. but nooo his hands needs to touch skin or else its not even worth it???? his fingers will slither beneath your shirt and grip onto your pelvis, or they'll go below your waistband and just run up and down your hipbone. if hes coming up from behind you his personal favorite is grabbing the back of your neck with his COLD ASS hands and watching you jump in genuine UNCOMFORTABLENESS and him jus laugh at u. then he kisses the spot he touched, covering the cold sensation w his warm lips. orrrr how about how he literally tugs you around w his hands. idk smth like pulling you inby yourbelt loops and forcing you to sit on his lap, no matter whos w u guys. or how hes always got his hand in yours so hes guiding you places/forcing you to stick near him

luffy gulp. luffy gulp gulp. the absolute sweetest sweetheart. probably loves kissing a lot. when u guys first started dating the only kisses hed accept were if u guys both looked like ducks and your lips were pursed to heaven and beyond. he thought it was rlly cute and liked how it felt. a very smiley teethy kisser if ykwim. 99.9% of ur kisses end up with him grinning ear to ear so youre basically kissing teeth stp but its ok hes babygirl it ok. luffy wants kissed for every single little thing. you gusy woke up? kiss. you guys r gonna eat breakfast? kiss. you guys r about to take a bath? kisses in the bath r fun!!!!! luffy is a kissing enthusiast. give him kisses wtfffff

tbh zoros a biter. like bro definitely bit kids when he was little. but MOVING ON FROM THAT. i mean: hes the type to bite as a form of affection. ABS IF U CANT SEE THE VISION IDC he definitely does. he sees your arms and thinks hmm i shd try eatin that in a very unserious way so he bites it when its in front of him and u genuinely look st him as if he has rabies. then he jus shrugs and ignores it??? which hello why is ur teeth imprinted in my skin rn ur jus gonna ignore it. if you guys r cuddling, he bites your bicep lightly to wake u up because hes too lazy to speak words. zoro rlly is "i no energy word bite yes" like dawg it does NOT work like that. bites your fingers sometimes when u hold hands....then licks it better when youre abiut to dcold him. the thing is this is all v nonchalantly done. like he rlly doesnt see how odd this is so he just does it and then cotninues on as if it isnt lowk v odd and abnormal. bites a lot. (he a freakazoid) dont let him rest his hesd between your legs for nap time he will definitely bite the inside of your thighs and that hurts like a bitch. next thing yk hes biting too close and taking off ur dick. do not risk it w this man.

[mediumgayitalian]

fic rec friday 8

hi!! welcome to fic rec friday. every week, i pick five fics i have bookmarked and rec them with a little review. check them out!

After The War I Went Back To New York by @buoyantsaturn

now that everyone else has written their three-days fics heres mine

first of all -- hamilton title. giggle was giggled. second of all, will being soft on nico day ONE and nico noticing immediately is so so real. fave solangelo dynamic of all time. this is lichrally one of my top five three days fics bc its such a CLASSIC

2. Bones by @buoyantsaturn

“Did you just throw a handful of bones outside?” she asked carefully. “Yes,” Will answered immediately. “Why was there a pile of bones in here in the first place?”

will being super excited over nico's powers >>>>>> literally EVERYTHING else bc he is a huge massive nerd!!! and will's powers are SO SO SO cool!! and theyre basically the same coin anyway. what is necromancy if not healing magic but goth

3. Sunshine and Daisies by @buoyantsaturn

Whenever Will needed a break from studying, or had spare time between classes, he liked to walk around the city, wandering into random shops and looking around for a little while.

Will wanders into the di Angelo siblings' flower shop.

flower shop fics have a little je ne sais quoi, and oumph, if you will,,, they’re irresistible. also. ALIVE BIANCA???? its nearly impossible to do in canonverse but in au....i do adore. she does indeed deserve to be around to tease the shit out of her dweeb brother. it is ever so lovely to see.

4. Two Minutes for Hooking by @buoyantsaturn

He blinked his eyes open, glaring up at Will. “Who the hell are you?” “I’m the medic you’ve been avoiding every practice,” Will answered. “Who the hell are you?”

I LOVE THIS AU. i think its my fave buoyantsaturn fic tbh. like not to reinforce canadian stereotypes or anything but hockey aus are the BOMB, and short king hockey player nico x absolutely takes no shit will??? immaculate vibes. i adore. i adore so so much. i have literally read this series so often that im reasonably certain i could recite the first 500 words from memory

5. Hey There, Darlin' by @buoyantsaturn

Will was pretty, and Nico was angry about it. He knew he shouldn’t have come here. He knew he should’ve just gone back to his cabin and stayed there until breakfast the next day, but no. He saw a cute boy and had to go after him. Of course he did. And then Will had to act like Nico was some kind of savior during the wars, and he smiled at him. That smile alone was enough to make Nico realize that this trip was a mistake.

first of all -- #everything is the same except will is the epitome and they dont meet until now is THEE most intriguing tag maybe ever, i needed to read no more. second of all -- whipped nico. god hes my favourite. third of all the big house scene made me GIGGLE it was so fun and silly. adore.

thank you for joining me this friday!! happy reading!!

[creaturecomfxrts]

Dipper and Mabel pines headcanons?

FINALLY getting around to answering these! since im better at them, heres some college age headcanons that apply just as much to how i view them in the show!

DIPPER PINES

transmasc. duh. of course

parents are INCREDIBLY supportive, super understanding. hes on hormone blockers in the show and starts HRT as soon as hes able, getting top surgery and bottom surgery in his early 20s

bisexual! ran into a guy junior year of highschool and went oh GOD. this is wendy 2.0 im going to die

NERD.

LOVES board games. so much. not just dungeons and dragons and monopoly im talkin everdell, wingspan, cascadia, catan. he loves a good think. he also loves dragging everyone else into playing them with him. he always wins. almost always, anyway

absolutely adores college and everything about it hes a little freak. totally ends up being the president of a few clubs, co creating some, etc. made an occult club AND a hiking club at his college

loves doodling, loves horror. his teachers? not so much. they try not to look at the weird ass creatures he draws on the margins of his very well written homework.

probably goes into something smart. like biochem. or um. stem. im (author) is a liberal arts major all i do is write gay fanfiction.

PSYCHOTIC ASS DORM ROOM. he barely decorated it like a classic college male but has a conspiracy board and thats it. which is full of strange shit hes seen outside of gravity falls. to be fair its very well documented and somewhat neat, just…. strange decor. he lives in a single (introvert)

COVERED in tattoos, but always abides by the suit rule (all tattoos need to be able to be covered by a suit to be professional. he knows this bc hes a neerrrrddd). he has really sick sleeves of runes and other occult like things hes found interesting. he has cipher related tattoos as well and also even got ford to design a few.

he has PROMINENT eye bags. he will never fix his sleep schedule

ended up working as a summer camp counselor for a while right outside if gravity falls! the kids loved him but he couldnt stand the heat and bugs all the time so he only did it for a summer or two

even after turning 21 he doesnt actually drink that much, hes a craft beer enjoyer and likes to make it himelf (Much later in life)

ALWAYS stays in touch with mabel. if anything happens in either of their lives you better BELIEVE theyre already on the phone with eachother

medical marijuana card holder

smokes to help eith his anxiety. it works WONDERS

coffee drinker but actually Does put cream and sugar is coffee. sometimes. other times hes too tired and just thugs it out

MABEL PINES

THE number one it girl ever

NUMBER ONE TRANS ALLY EVERRRRRR she loves her brother so much

pansexual!! she loves cool people, thats her motto

went to a fashion design school, is loving it despite drowning in work

began dying her hair in cool ways through highschool, now she always has some of her natural color present but goes a little crazy on the highlights

found out about huge dangley joke earrings. went absolutely crazy. has an entire space on her desk dedicated to her many many earrings. she has babies, knives, bags of doritos, aliens, glow in the dark ones, anything you could imagine.

fantastic at fashion design. stuggled a lot with the fancier stuff but her teachers were floored when they let her go wild on casual comfy wear. she excells in combining fashion and comfort in really exciting and colorful ways.

a party girl through and through, loves clubs, raves, concerts, anything!

video game lover as well, cracked at pvp games.

still boy crazy, just less so (has had like. 10 college boyfriends)

literally the sweetest friend ever. she loves hosting movie nights and tea parties (bc who wouldnt. theyre awesome)

tea drinker, loves floral teas with honey

HATES. black coffee. a starbucks frap girlie 4ever

has been scouted for modeing multiple times and only accepted when it was a commercial with puppies

love love loves making friendshio bracelets. knows all the patterns, all of her friends have a hefty amount of a bunch of different ones because she just keeps making them

anywwy, here you go! i love these two so much, i hope ive done them justice!

[raythekiller]

Hihi! May I request headcanons for EJ, Jeff, and Toby describing their relationships with others creeps? Who theyre closest, who they dislike the most etc. Thank you!

🗒 ❛ Relationship With Other Creeps HC ༉‧₊˚✧

Featuring: Jeff The Killer, Ticci Toby, Eyeless Jack

#Notes: I tapped a little bit into their relationships on my last post but here's a little more in-depth about it. also i only mentioned Sally in EJ's part but I like to think everyone has a soft spot for her <3

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꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Jeff The Killer

It's a little hard for this motherfucker to get along with anyone for... Obvious reasons. Most people in the manor can't stand him and the feeling's mutual, but he gets along fine with Ben and Toby. Mostly Ben, he actually bullies Toby a bit because he thinks he's weird, but Ben befriended him and now they're a trio.

He especially doesn't like Nina and Jane (obviously). Other than that, he likes to bother EJ whenever he gets the chance just to try to get him pissed off for once (which never works and he gets punished by Slenderman).

꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Ticci Toby

Again, gets along with mainly Jeff and Ben, though he's slightly icky about Jeff. It's more the type of superficial friendship where you mess around together but don't actually trust each other with secrets and stuff. He does trust and vents to Ben quite often, though. He has the opposite kind of friendship with Hoodie, where Hoodie helps him with his issues all the time but they don't really hang out much. Cool uncle situation going on. He also hangs out with Nina quite often.

He basically only doesn't get along with Masky, and trust me, he tried to. Masky just treats him badly because of jealousy and there's not much he can do to make the situation better, and eventually he started disliking him just as much.

꒰⸝⸝₊⛓┊Eyeless Jack

He's extremely quiet and introverted, so he doesn't really interact much to have many relationships around the manor, good or bad. He does hang out with Jane quite a lot (normally having some debate or reading books like the two nerds they are) and he adores Sally. Definitely lets her dress him up as a princess when they have tea parties. Most people actually like him since he cooks some amazing stuff for everyone, but they don't really know him on a personal level.

He doesn't like Jeff for constantly bothering him and pretends he doesn't like Toby and Ben as well since they're kind of a package deal, but he actually doesn't mind the other two when Jeff isn't around to rile them up and they're just acting normal. He actually wishes he could befriend Toby, since he thinks he's a good kid, but doesn't want to seem weird about it.

[everynya]

sorry ive been mia today im oh so tired but i need to get some thoughts out and this is the only way i can gush abt my oc f/o cuz despite the fact i made an entire site for him and all i cant bring myself to talk abt. he. so um yea gush below…if u dunno who tf im talkin abt its all here wuahaha wait i change my mind dont look or whatever

i want him dead. is this anything

OK BUT SRS i made him like. around a tough time in my life after a friend gave me an idea for an oc f/o and holy fuck ive just been so hooked OC F/O SELFSHIPPERS I LOVE YOU ALL SO BAD GIVE ME UR STRENGTH OR SMTH

idk idk i just mixed a mess of characters or things i like or character i wanted to like but didnt and put it all into a conglomerate of a man and added in extra things ive always wanted to mess with….hello my fat short mixed wasian can we honestly edate

emihiko and nayla are like, idk, lots of weird mixes of things? emihiko holds a lot of traits i really adore in a character, i made him very loyal and determined and cocky and a bit of a weirdo nerd and nayla on the other hands holds aspects of me that idk i just need loved or smth. a vampire who constantly pushes people away and isolates pursued by a werewolf who persistently reaches out to him? haha. what do you call …that

he makes me happy. i guess. these two are so domestically annoying and sure theyre a vampire/werewolf but its the least relevant thing. i just wanted a dog boy. nayla finds such a joy with him yet is like ‘i fucking hate you so bad you sick weirdo’ and emi is like ‘hey cmon cant you give me one chanc- wait ur smiling. wait. omg do u like me? uh i mean i knew it lol haha u like me’ and the whole time they were cuddling on emis bed so its like Okay.

EVERY PIECE OF ART OF THEM STILL MAKES ME CRAZY BTW. BTWWWWWW. hahahahahahashhahshsqiisdjsiwjdidifidisisjwiwudiwuwiwejwiaididuf difi edifnod ok what the fuck is this post becoming my guy

hes just everything to me rn…i hadnt had another main fo in YEARS it was fuyu and peach for so so long like actually…and he just idk, i lauv him so so much i wanna **** *** ****** *** **** (kiss him. im just shy or whatever) curse that i have a top 3 now and theyre all BLONDE GRIPS MY HEAD

anyway perceive them again THAANKKK YOUUUU giggles and kicks my feet over this art again btw teehee hee..hee….im hopeless

[stiffyck]

hello i ADORE your alien scar he's SO CUTE

also i am a biology nerd and wanted to say some of your ideas for him actually hold up with real life desert mammal biology!! like the two ears, i know you said one pair is for protection and the other is for affection, but in a lot of desert-dwelling mammals they use their ears as thermoregulators to keep cool, and that's why they're absolutely huge - look up fennec foxe's and you'll see what i mean - so having TWO pairs of regular sized ears could also be a thing for that!! like, ears good for temperature control? so good they have them twice!!

also with him being an omnivore - lots of herbivorous species do actually eat flesh when they can't access the nutrition they need! plants as a food source are good cos they're largely very abundant on the earth but they're vastly inferior in terms of nutritional quality, so if herbivores find themselves where plants don't grow much they will actually go omnivorous to adapt and survive. there have been many recorded instances of turtles, horses, deer, gazelles, sheep, goats and pigs eating carcasses to survive. they don't hunt down things themselves but will go after carcasses to get the nutrition they need, so that fits with scar's species eating lots of things even if they prefer vegetation!

OOOH YESSSSS

I KNOW OF FENNEC FOXES THEYRE SO CUTE SJCJDKFKF

And all of this is so cool thank you sjvjfjvjsfj

[araksi-art]

time for the first oc post here, aka the main reason i started this blog ! yippee!!

here is mattias (left, he/him) and eva (right, she/her)!! they are drinking lemon soda by the river :]

i absolutely adore them.. they're best friends!!! they love each other and theyre so silly and !!! more rambles below the cut bc i love them so

okay okay so! they are both nineteen currently! that is because these two have grown with me since i made them at thirteen :] so now that im starting university so are they ! mattias is in fibre arts and design and eva is in public and social services (tho she's unsure about her choice at the moment)

they became friends in elementary school ! so they've known each other for a long time. at one point, eva's family fostered mattias! they became even closer during that time, confining in each other about their respective queer identities :]

their most common hang out is a makeover, other then board games (nerds), since mattias loves makeup and eva is always happy to try! any fashion in eva's closet was probably picket out by mattias :3

some individual info! mattias davis, or as eva calls him, mattie, is a queer cis guy who presents very feminine! his favorite color is pink and he makes sure the world knows it <3

eva summer is a trans girl and she's just chilling, really. she's having fun with life with her best friend by her side and its going great! her sexuality is fluid, so she decided to just leave it without a name :3 her favorite color is also pink ! they bonded over that when they first met :]

mattias' parents were unsupportive and ended up throwing him out at one point, after which he ended up in care of eva's parents. he ended up reuniting with his mom after a while, but right now he lives at the dorms with low contact to both his birth parents. the summers family has welcomed him to visit anytime tho, and he other does when eva misses them :] they're a duo <3

their story isn't set in a specific country, but its roughly the current world in which several of my other "normal" ocs exist! im drawing from my own experiences for them so inaccuracies are to be expected :P

here's an extra doodle for reading all that <3

[six-demon-bag]

A very important question: Schmidty with or without glasses?

hmm well in case one, he is a giant nerd and extremely adorable and i want to chew on him

in case two, he has big wet baby seal eyes and i want to drown him

one one hand, glasses means i can have them removed all cute and gentle, but on the other, i might forget theyre there when im writing

i need to hold him in my jaws like a dog holding a baby rabbit hhhnnghnnn thats hot i should have written dragon!volkov holding him in his teeth .i i think i need to go write something what was the question

[craw-dacious]

The things I did by Lolo-ro fic review

Chapter by chapter, until i got distracted by the story lol.

Still fairly new to marauders but am loving it.

summary review: I truly adored this fic, probably my fave Wolfstar so far. I thought the worldbuilding was fantastic, as well as the characterization of baby Harry. Fairly angsty, but with plenty of fluff to make up for it. The raising Harry idea is becoming one of my favorite tropes, and this fic did an amazing job of weaving parenthood into a world that is still filled with complexities and evil, as well as lives outside of the main characters.

SPOILERS BELOW BEWARE

Chapter One

Again, the aftermath for Remus is getting me

So so so sad, and him believing Sirius innocent  makes it worse

The traitor shit is horrible to deal with emotionally im sure

I am upset to realize just how much remus ignored harry in the books/canon

Like thats ur nephew fr come onnnn

Chapter Two

Aw he’s doing a good job as a dad

This fic is making him out to be very forgetful, fully forgot about both harry and Sirius

The pacing is much more clear in this which I enjoy quite a bit

Cutesy Christmas, cutesy harry

ALSO I LOVED THE HAGRID MOMENT

I do feel like we need to get the Weasleys involved tbh baby Ron and Harry is PEAK

Chap 3

Pls dont let that annoying ass bitch be important, if theyre in trouble bc of this shit ill kms

Shut up Hagrid he needs everything he wants his parents ARE dead brother

Okay actually I like that annoying ass bitch a lot, this is very good

I guess he actually is spoiling him tbf

Ok so he’s actually forgetful as fuck. Forgot Harry’s birthday, forgot about Sirius AGAIN.

Like actually what is going on is his brain damaged

This chapter has been depressing

The fight IN AZKABAN how will this turn into legit wolfstar if they are so mad they fight WHILE SIRIUS IS IMPRISONED

But also he didn’t talk to a single person for 12 years in canon im gonna kms

Marauders is making me realize just how shitty and sad canon was bruh, remus and Sirius were like ALONE, obvie remus did shit and wasn’t a complete waste but its just so SAD

OKAYYYY I TOLD Y’ALL I LOVE A GOOD MOODY MOMENT

Literally obsessed with alastor moody he’s so fucking cool and we BARELY KNEW HIM in the books because of FUCKING CROUCH

This chapter was incredible, good baby harry, good angst, good FIGHT (love romantic arguments, make me nostalgic) (imy [REDACTED] we fought so cutey)

Ok I think I complained earlier about this, but it’s important for there to be conflict and issues when there’s this much trauma. Great plot choice. Also makes it 20x more interesting

Fuck Peter. I fucking hate Peter.

Chapter 4

Ugh stupid muggles messing everything up

Someone should try to kill them all off or something idk they’re getting in the way

But this is shaping up to have some LEGAL ISSUES which I LOVE because im a fucking NERD <33333

Harry is so cute. I actually prefer this to the last baby Harry bc he has sm more personality.

Almost forgot the meat of this chapter omg its good im getting distracted

Sirius and Harry together was a NEED bruh actually so cute

And I talked to you kate about this earlier but remus has been different in other fics and I do kinda like him in this one, he’s more depressed and stressed than normal, but the forgetfulness almost lends itself to aloofness in a way that fits him

I very much appreciated him being so kind to Sirius. While I understand him being pissed at him for thinking he’s a traitor, the man is in Azkaban, like you’ve got to chill out, talk to him about this stuff when you have more than 15 minutes and less dementors

Anyway that scene was nice, I like the idea of their little family

Chappy 5

Good shit again

THIS is the perfect chapter length, not so long I forget what happens but no so short I have to stop reading every five seconds to review

The werewolf prejudice is a big thing in this fic, im not sure how I feel about it. Obviously from an equality standpoint, werewolves should be seen as human. Yet, there is something to the idea that the actual transformed wolf is very dangerous. I’m worried the wolfsbane study will be viewed as Remus “hiding himself” or something like that, when it should be viewed as a solution to the one thing holding werewolves back.

This can’t be compared to real life discrimination. You can’t be like “so you hate minorities” because none of the minorities I know turn into wolves once a month bruh

Anyway, Dumbledore being morally grey-ish, making mistakes but always anti-voldy. He’s such an interesting character. I like his presence in the book as well. Hagrid should come back soon he’s so nice.

Chap 6

Permanent pass <3, so cute. Having to abandon muggle friends? Not cute. Fuck Dumbledore, but only like a little

Not a dumby stan or hater tbh hes just a little silly in both directions

I’m so conflicted on this situation. Yes, it SUCKS that Sirius thought remus was the spy, but it’s not necessarily damning. It’s likely he convinced himself of it because it was the most painful option so it must’ve been the truth. It seems like fear, almost, and jealousy of the wolves over him? Might be over analyzing and overomanticizing but that is what im seeing atm.

The teaching position goes fucking CRAZY man, If remus was my history teacher my life would be GOLDEN

Do you think remus lupin would be a good addition to upper H hall yes or no

Chapter 7

Jesus fuck I forget how sad all this shit is sometimes

To begin with, the teaching position seems great. I do wish Remus would understand that he’s qualified for it

Speaking of teachers, I would love to see who the DADA teacher is, I know its not permanent but still fun

Anyway, I think 7 kids would be the end of me. I love children, and I still relate to Remus far more than Arthur in that scene, there’s actually no fucking way.

Like yes give me a shot I cannot do it, the strong drink joke was a good cover because I am sure its Arthurs greatest desire

Also, love him just dropping interest about muggles, would love to see that chat actually play out but it seems unimportant

But maybe it’ll be how he catches worm tail …

Azkaban visit was good, Sirius is being less racist, and Remus is being kind. Wish they would love each other again already but slow burn wins <3

Also you could just tell that Sirius missed harry, very cute

Chapter 8

Heart hurts, poor Sirius 

I said that remus should be nicer

Chapter 9

Okay, information has been gained

Sorry for short 8 summary

So Sirius FORGOT that he and remus broke up, which is CRAZY

There’s a whole lot of forgetting in this fic im realizing, very relatable

I would actually kill myself

I’m sitting here pondering how I would react in this situation and genuinely tweaking just imagining it

He needs to go break it off with him, he can explain, there’s not really another option for him. If he maintains this it’s going to end poorly. I’m assuming he’s going to do that anyway, as it creates the most drama and is fantastic for the plot

I do think Remus is underestimating the importance of being taken even somewhat seriously by the Wizengamot. I know it’s not what he fully wanted but it’s legitimate progress.

Chapter ten

WHAT DID I SAY HE’S NOT GONNA TELL HIM

This chapter INFURIATED ME

Also im gonna start skipping chapters bc otherwise the review will be long asf

Snape is a piece of work, obviously. Like Remus isn’t being shitty to you and you were a fucking death eater man. Also he despises children which is a red fucking flag

Just let him pet your stupid cat motherfucker

Unless its secretly regulus as an animagus that would be sick asf I saw fan art the other day where he was a cat and it was good

Moving on, im appreciating the slow burn on discovering Peter. Like they easily could have discovered him 3 chapters ago when remus was first there. 

Chapter 11 & 12

The enchanted parchment

Leaving him on delivered is crazy actually

Literally reads exactly like the GHP texts between me and [REDACTED] LMAO

“I guess I’ll talk to you later, assuming you’re at soccer, imy!!”

Actually devastated reading this im going to be honest

Lots of shit going down, forgetting and memory issues are such an interesting plot device, it makes any part of the story unreliable, and confuses the reader just a little bit. It also creates a lot of dramatic irony, which can often be very sad and tragic

Also, order members calling voldy “Voldemort” all high and mighty is a bit strange considering that they all chewed harry out about calling him “He Who Shall Not be Named”

Snape stole the parchment read it and slipped a potion into lupins chocolate that he would give to Sirius to sabotage their relationship

Bc Dumbledore told Snape everything as his extra special spy obviously

Ok so I was wrong it was dementors again. And remus told Sirius about the breakup. Which is, the right thing to do I guess

This is so hard for everybody man, Sirius’ perspective is heartbreaking

At least it shows his chats with dumby, who happens to be the funniest person in this fic

Chapters 13 & 14

Reconciliation came a bit too easily but thats alright, I want them to be happy

The amount I would give to receive a cat for Christmas. I want that so bad bruh.

Ok at least they’re acknowledging how bad Remus is with dates

Okay him being a dog seems helpful, I do feel like that should have been noticed a while ago

Honestly am feeling a bit lost in the romance, long distance pining is not my fave but hopefully Sirius will be freed before long and they can be happy for once.

I just am so curious as to why they broke up, I know thats the point but it just doesn’t make sense

Also ignore my random theories I keep throwing about, I dont actually believe snapes cat is regulus or that Snape poisoned Sirius its just fun

Chapters 15-16

They explained the plan so I know it will go horribly wrong

HELL FUCKING YEAH THEY GOT HIM THAT SNEAKY LITTLE CUNT HATE THAT MOTHERFUCKER FUCK PETER I HATE PETER

Still not happy. I dont know what I expected

2 chapters and they’ll kiss, im expecting a huge fight in chapter 17

Chapters 17-20

Ok this is strange. The relationship dynamic has developed very differently than I thought it would. They really need to figure out this memory I’m sure it all a misunderstanding or some stupid shit like that

Someone thought someone else killed somebody else

Also why is this so mirroring to me and [REDACTED] from like July forward

Distant over text/parchment, not allowed to say I love you, basically only physical, guilt for things I couldn’t remember

Except for the baby and trauma and everything

Last fic was me and remus being the same this time it’s Sirius. When am I going to consume content and not think about [REDACTED] again Im tired of him being in my brain

Chap 21-22

KATE I TOLD YOU NO I LOVE YOU FICS I HATE THIS

I also talked about [redacted] with ppl for like an hour and a half last night it was terrible

Did it again the next night bro why is that rat still in my head

23-24

The memories are throwing me for a loop. On the one hand, everything is devastatingly sad. On the other hand, they’re all being emo and need to get it together

Sirius getting “lost in his memories” is a cool idea though, I’m liking the new magic thats being explored in this fic

I need them to have a huge blowup fight. Like a massive fight that sucks and is terrible. I don’t know how they’d do it but I need it

Also I think I can take one more “oh poor Sirius” memory until I blow my brains out. Big whoop your plan failed and you were insecure about it, I’d reach out to the closest person to blame to. I blamed [REDACTED] for not winning an award at model un, not his fault. Sirius can blame Remus for his plan failing and have a moody moment then move on, trust can be rebuilt.

Last five chapters

Ok everything is happy again and the reunion went FANTASTIC

The one thing I feel like I haven’t commented on enough in this fic is Snape

His character is well done, he’s so mean and bitchy but not like completely evil which is just hilarious, I love his and Remus’s dynamic its very good

I also think his relationship with Harry is funny, and I’m glad it’s not as shitty as it started out.

“Harry, friendly and bright-eyed, took the opportunity of silence to lean onto the counter, put his face right up to the goblin’s, and say, “Meow.”

Remus pulled Harry off the counter, embarrassed, and plopped him on the ground. “Don’t meow at people, love.”

That is actually the silliest cutest thing I’ve ever read in my entire life. Literally would birth a child rn bc of how cute that is. Jesus fucking christ bruh

Can they stop making out in public. Like in front of one other person in public. Its so awk

I KEEP TRYING TO GIVE KUDOS THIS IS LIKE SUGAR BRUH SO SWEET

My criticisms are growing though, there are a few things im concerned about but im gonna finish the story before I discuss

Why can I not escape my Draco phase. One sentence about “the little Malfoy” and harry going on playdates and I RUSH to think about how that changes their school dynamic and how they treat each other and all this shit

Looks like they’re leaving some loose ends on purpose, telling not showing a lot here at the end tbh

I WANT A CHILD HE’S SO CUTE

This is the first time ive actually been obsessed with a child character hes ADORABLE

Gonna read the epilogue before writing my final review, but don’t want to take it in for my review

FINAL REVIEW:

Ok. Done. Having to write this a day after finishing because I fell asleep right after

My favorite parts

ANGST: very well done, miscommunication can sometimes be overdone but I feel like it worked this time. I loved how easily apparent the love that was still there was. 

Humor: This fic made me laugh out loud multiple times. This was mostly Harry, but there were a couple of moments from the doctor guy and Arthur that made me giggle

CHILD: literally have never seen a child portrayal that was this good. Like literally from beginning to end it was good. I’m sure some people would read this fic and say 2 yo harry is too advanced, but he’s so bright and I feel like growing up with Remus would breed him to be a talker. The accuracy of the 8 yo and 11 yo at the end was good as well, it ticks me off when people fuck up ages of a child, especially one so parenting-focused as this

Depth of world building: I could truly see this world, like I understood the flat, I understood the weasleys, I understood the dorm at Hogwarts. The scene at their graves, everything was great.

Now my weaknesses

Some underdeveloped plots

Peter: they brought up having to talk to him, made it a big deal with getting a memory and then just abandoned it and said “remus had the perfect memory.” Then, the memory was SO MUNDANE. I’m sure the author just fucked up and had to figure something out, which is fine, just was a little dissapointing.

Poison: this is another where I think the plot just ran away from the author, but I was expecting something more than “Sirius asked them to fix it and they did”

Some(?) characterizations

Remus was perfect. Sirius was a little too nice, he’s volatile and little bitt crazy and I got less of that in this fic. Sometimes it was perfect. This isn’t really a criticism, more “it could be a little better”

Overall: 8.3/10

I truly adored this fic, probably my fave wolfstar so far. However, I know this is just because I love children and loved baby harry so much, so my rating is attempting to be unbiased.

[himbos-hotline]

"Waiting outside in the car after dropping the other off to ensure they at least get inside their homes safely before driving away. "

for Cole and Jay!

I love the way he looks at me

Word count: 3785 words Ship: Jay Orton/Adam Cole [baybay], Refrences to the Polycule, Implied loosely Kenny Omega/Hangman Adam Page [but yknow its there, theyre boyfriends.] Matt Jackson & Nick Jackson, Matt Jackson & Matt Jackson & Jay Jackson AU: Highschool!AU Characters: Jay, Adam Cole, "Hangman" Adam Page, Kenny Omega, Mother Cole, Matt and Nick Jackson Triggers: I don't think there is any triggers? Authors note: High school Jay and Cole my beloved. Jay is angry and needs a nap because how dare Cole be so fucking adorable and how DARE his brothers make friends with him!

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Jay scowls at her brother over her science textbook. She hears Cole laugh and she presses her lips together in a small frown. It's not that she doesn’t like Adam Cole, she thinks he's fine as a person; with blue eyes rimmed with gold and the constant smell of cinnamon that follows him around. It’s just he's so obnoxious. He tries too hard in French class to make friends, sitting at the table in the corner. He puts his hand up faster than them, answers questions louder than them. He even got the locker next to Kenny, Jay practically had first dibs on it! 

“Your face is gonna stay that way if the wind changes.” Nick’s voice splits through her looping thoughts. He jolts, nearly smacking him with the textbook. “Sorry kid.” he rests a calming hand on their shoulder, looking over towards the half-open kitchen door, “don’t you normally study in there?” 

“Can’t.” Jay says simply, leaning up against the back of the couch. “Matt has his new best friend over.” They wave a dismissive hand over at the door, rolling his eyes when she hears Cole laugh again. “Some stupid mathletics thing.” 

“Heh nerds.” Nick sinks beside her, tapping his shoulder. Jay leans against his big brother's side, giving him a small smile when he wraps them in a side hug, warm and protective in the way that only the slightly older brother can. “He’ll go home soon enough, before mama comes home.” 

Jay gives a half shrug, turning his attention back to the science textbook open in front of him. The words merge together and in the end, she gives up. Slamming the book closed and resting her head against her brother's shoulder again. “I have a French test tomorrow. I'm gonna go study.” 

“Good, you should.” Cole is smiling down at them, his backpack thrown lazily over his shoulder. He chuckles, leaning against the top of the couch when Jay rolls her eyes.

“Shut up Cole, we get the same marks every exam.” Jay retorts, glancing up at him as she gathers her school supplies. “I’m going to my room.”

Matt and Nick look at each other as if sharing an inside joke. Using his elbow, Jay jabs Nick in his side, rolling their wrist to prompt him to speak. Nick smiles sweetly and presses his lips stubbornly together. Matt does the same, holding both his hands up in surrender. Frustration paints itself in the corner of Jay’s eyes as he squirms his way past, trying not to breathe as he shoves past Cole. There's the soft smell of cinnamon that stabs at Jay’s nostrils and it feels like she's choking, she takes a deep breath as she takes the stairs two at a time. The door to their bedroom opens and slams closed.

Nick and him share a room and have for as long as Jay can remember. But now as she sits with her back towards the door, Jay wishes that Nick had his own room. He presses his face against his knees and sighs, gripping at the fabric of her backpack. She doesn’t mind Adam Cole as a person but there's a fluttering feeling of anger that bites at the sides of their stomach whenever he’s around. He makes her feel nauseous and like the inside of her lungs is covered with honey and every breath has to fight to come out whenever he’s around them. Jay grips his hands into fists, watching how his knuckles turn white even when painted in the sunset that creeps up the carpeted floor. 

Jay watches as it paints their shared room with reds and yellows and oranges. It feels like she's just walked into a paint canvas and despite the chill in the fall air there's a warmth that floats through the window and thaws the anxious chill in her chest. They let the back of his head rest against the painted hardwood and their eyes slip closed. 

There's the distant sound of the front door opening, the far away voices of his brothers talking about Nick’s band class and Matt’s bulk of computer science homework. The sound of footsteps and then the impatient knocking of her big brother. “Jay mama says it’s time for dinner.” 

Jay blinks heavily, rolling their head to the side. The bright colors of the sunset had been replaced by the white light of the full moon. He doesn't remember falling asleep but he knows it's something she won’t do again. Pain runs its way up the back of zeir legs when he stands and unlocks the bedroom door. Matt’s standing almost sheepishly when she steps outside and rubs the pain out of her neck. “Sorry…” 

“It's okay.” He places a comforting hand on her back, pulling him quickly into his side. “What's your problem with Cole? Are you still upset that he took the locker next to Kenny?” 

Yes. Jay thinks instantly, letting the word bubble up her throat and onto his tongue before pressing it against the roof of his mouth. It fizzles away and still held by her brother Jay just shrugs. “No, I just don't like the guy.” 

“Okay, okay.” Matt doesn’t say anything until they are sitting in the canteen the next day.  

Jay rubs his hands against the front of his jeans before picking up a clementine from the small pile in the middle of the group. Rain drums against the canteen windows, heavy and rhythmic. Children walk past the small group of friends who sit in a circle on the floor, sharing fruit and snacks. Kenny has his head on Adam’s lap, doodling in the back of his math book. He’s smiling in a way that makes Jay’s stomach feel warm and he’s careful to lean over and press a kiss to his cheek. 

“Gross.” Nick grumbles playfully, covering his mouth as he chews on apple slices, there's peanut butter on the corner of his mouth. Adam reaches out, stroking his thumb across 

his friends lips until it disappears and he licks the peanut butter off his thumb. “Thanks.” Nick replies simply, shrugging when Matt tilts his head confused. 

Jay looks between her brothers, wishing that she was also clued in to whatever connection Matt and Nick had. She’s lived with them her entire life, yet as they talk with their eyes Jay is just as confused as the rest of their little friend group. He gives up with his venture at trying to understand them, turning back to the clementine in his hands. He digs their nail into the flesh and exposes the soft orange flesh under. The smell tickles their nose; bittersweet and tingling as she breathes. 

They pick at the pith, letting it drop onto a crumpled napkin before he splits the fresh fruit in half, tapping Adam on the back of the palm. He makes a small sound, looking up from his book before holding his hand out. Jay places segments into his hand and smiles when his lips brush against the hinge of zeir jaw. “Thank you darlin’” He hums, pressing another kiss to the shell of her ear. It makes Jay giggle

“Can I join?” Cole’s voice is unnaturally shy, his hands tucked into the front of his hoodie. Rain pins his hair to his forehead, framing his eyes in a way that makes the sticky feeling in Jay’s lungs return. The fruit suddenly tastes sour in her mouth and it takes everything in him to swallow the bile-like taste. Trying their best to keep his face neutral, Jay nods, ignoring the look his friends give each other. 

Cole’s smile is little and awkward, almost as if he was surprised by the reply. He squirms between Matt and Nick, picking awkwardly at one of the pins on his backpack, Jay scoots closer to Adam, letting Kenny drape his legs over their legs when zey get close enough. “I was thinking..Why don’t you come round today?” 

Jay nearly chokes on their own spit, he drops his clementine on the floor in surprise. “Excuse me?” 

“For the French project?” Cole raises an awkward eyebrow, reaching down to scoop the dirt-covered fruit from the floor and wrapping it in a napkin before dropping it into the nearby trash can. He stretches and Jay pretends not to watch the way his hair, despite twisted into wet rat tails, brushes against the curve of his jaw in a way that makes Jay want to tuck the damp strands behind his ear. 

She shakes her head, grips at the loose fabric of Adam’s jeans in nervousness and after a few seconds finds her words. “sure…I’ll have to ask my mom-” 

“Mama said it was fine.” Her brothers reply instantly, not looking up from their phones. Kenny rolls his head to look up at Jay and flashes them a smile that's nothing short of comforting. She glances down at him and nods. Jay releases their grip on Adam’s leg, running an apologetic thumb across the curve of his hip before placing both hands in their lap. 

“What's your last class?” Cole asks, brushing wet hair off his face, he pulls it into a ponytail and the exposed nape of his neck makes Jay feel like she's drowning. He forgets everything that isn’t Cole kneeling in front of her, her stomach knots and-

“Math.” Adam finally answers for her, smiling when Jay nods silently, rubbing at the apple of their cheeks.Theres a blush creeping up the back of her neck and it makes Adam chuckle breathily. 

“Yeah…room 219” Jay finally stumbles over his words, side-eyeing her brothers when they chuckle, the sound barely hidden by the flurry of backpacks being zipped up and the sound of other high school children returning from the outside; stained with rain. Cole smiles, teeth white and perfect and Jay returns the smile, swallowing the nerves. 

“I’ll uh pick you up after class.” Cole says, like it's an order and Jay is quick to nod, the bell to signal the end of lunch breaking off any reply they had. The small group untangles themselves from one another, parting ways at the stairs. Adam wraps a secure arm around Jay as they squirm through busy corridors, nearly falling through the door to their math class. 

The two of them sit at the back, holding hands under the desk. Adam works quietly, mumbling replies to the teacher's questions under his breath, never loud enough for Mr.Gunn to hear but always loud enough that Jay manages to scribble them down before the teacher reaches his desk. 

Jay wishes that they remembered anything he learned in math class that day. He wishes that he focused on calculus instead of the way that Cole’s hair curled as it dried, how his eyes looked lined with gold and the way his lips, perfect and pink, looked so full that Jay could potentially lose himself in the cave that was Cole’s mouth. 

Something unlocks deep inside his chest, something that feels like nicotine flooding through his veins. His entire body feels open, exposed and he places his head on his desk, smacking it so hard against the table that Adam looks up from packing his back, green eyes startled. 

“What's wrong?” He asks, almost by instinct, placing a hand between his friend's shoulder blades, rubbing gently when they make a small pained sound. 

“I think I like Cole.” Jay replies, gripping the corners of his desk. 

“Oh.” Adam replies, kneeling down beside her desk. The classroom is half empty and Mr. Gunn barely looks up when Adam presses a kiss to the side of Jay’s face to make zem look at him. 

“Yeah.” Jay whispers, the word coming out more like a whine as he tilts his head to blink at Adam. “dya think I could sneak out of the class before he sees?” 

Adam glances up at the door and shakes his head. “Nah. I’ll let you two go.” Jay scrambles for Adam’s hand as he leaves, resting his forehead against their desk again when he disappears, letting Cole squirm past. 

Jay watches his converses creep into their eyeline and slowly zey raise their head, mis-matched eyes meeting his blue ones. Something warm pools in her chest and Jay is unable to stop a smile creeping across her face. He wants to protest, to scowl at the worried look in his eyes, to say that she doesn't feel well and call her mother to pick her up, pretending to be sick so they don’t come into school tomorrow..or the next day. Jay could fake his death and beg his parents to move zem to another high school. 

One that isn't populated with Adam Cole. 

“Hi.” She says, like they’re friends. Maybe they are and Jay just didn't notice. 

Cole grins, bright and happy. “My mom’s waiting outside.” 

Jay nods again, letting him help gather his math textbooks. He closes their notebook and tucks it securely into their backpack. “You have nice handwriting.” 

“Thanks..” 

The conversation lulls as they walk through the mostly empty corridors, stopping at Cole’s locker so he can throw his sports kit in. Jay glances as Kennys locker, traces the stickers that decorate the garish red with his eyes. “They’re cool stickers.”

“Yeah.” Jay feels almost guilty for not having more to say. But the honey is hardening in his lungs making it hard to talk. Cole nods kindly, he looks like he's going to say something but he stops when Jay looks at him. 

“Why is your mom picking you up?” Jay asks, hoping that her tone doesn’t sound rude. Cole chuckles, sticking his hands into his hoodie pockets. 

“She had to pick my little brother up from daycare and was in the area.” He explains, tilting his head when Jay makes a small sound of interest. “What?” He asks, jogging ahead slightly to open the door to the parking lot. Jay smiles, bowing his head in thanks as they walk into the parking lot.  Maybe it's reflex, maybe it's because Cole has a little brother but he takes Jay by the hand as they walk. 

His hands are warm despite the chilly fall weather and Jay feels her stomach tangle. Their hand feels heavy and stone-like in his and Jay has to fight against the feeling, bending his knuckles until he’s holding his hand back. As soon as her fingertips brush against the curve of his knuckles, every muscle comes undone. Jay releases a heavy breath, squeaking when Cole pulls her towards the car, not letting go of their hand until they’re standing beside the car. 

He opens the car door for her, grinning when Jay’s multi-colored eyes flick from the open door to his soft face. Surprise melts into an emotion they’ve never shown around him before. Butterflies feel like they are swarming around his stomach, fluttering up his throat when Jay gets in and once sure his fingers are away, closes the car door. 

“Did you two have a good day at school?” His mother asks when Cole sinks into the passenger side of the car. He nods, looking at Jay through the rearview mirror. Jay nods back. “Good. So French huh?” 

“Yes Ma’am.” Jay replies, resting his hands in his lap.  His parents raised him to be polite. So they raise their chin and push their shoulders back until he’s sitting straight in the back seat of his brother's best friend's car. His mother chuckles and Jay tilts her head in confusion. 

“Oh don’t worry about all of that sweetheart.” She doesn’t take her eyes off the road when she speaks to Jay and a part of zem is glad, he can rest against the warm leather. “Adam, I want your door open if you’re going to study in your room. I know what boys your age get up too.” 

“Mom!” Cole squeaks, an embarrassed blush exploding across his face. “Please, you’re embarrassing me.” His mother laughs and Jay feels themselves smile, giggling when Cole pulls his hoodie up to cover his face. He stays that way until they pull into the garage. 

“Now you two go, or you can both put away groceries.” 

Jay and Cole nod simultaneously, chuckling at the sudden shared movement. Cole reaches into the backseats, slinging Jay’s backpack across his other shoulder. Without another word or a backward glance. Cole walks off into the house, leaving Jay trailing along, trying to undo the laces of his boots as zey go. 

 Cole has his own room. The walls are painted a soft pinkish color and there's a small collection of pictures above his bed. Jay stares at them awkwardly while Cole is downstairs, she can hear him talking to another man. There’s a small boy who captures Jay’s attention. He’s staring at her from a picture on Cole’s desk. He has short brown curls and chubby cheeks. His front tooth is missing and Jay leans closer, smiling at the kid's bright blue eyes. “Heh, cute.” She says out loud without thinking. 

“Thanks.” Cole stands in his doorway, holding two glasses of soda. “I was like six in that picture? I think.” He says, nodding to the picture that Jay is holding, she doesn't remember picking it up but she puts it down quick enough. “The man is my grandpa.” 

“Cool.”  He has to do something with his hands, they are heavy and hanging uselessly by his sides. “so…French project?” 

Cole nods, putting the glasses down on the desk. He smiles and Jay smiles back. It's nightfall by the time they finish. Jay has pen marks on his hands and Cole’s mouth is stained in the corner with blank ink, he’s chewing on a straw, reading through the notes the two of them took. 

“You have uh-” Jay rubs at their face with his thumb, swallowing when Cole glances up at her. “Come here.” They don’t mean for it to sound like an order but something swirls in the corner of Cole’s eyes. 

Something that makes Jay want to tangle a hand into his hair and pull it softly, to listen to the sounds he makes. Her mouth feels dry when he crawls closer to her, hands in his lap and head tilted somewhat to the side. “What?” He whispers and Jay feels light headed. 

“You have pen on your mouth…” Jay whispers, letting his legs spread so his thighs brush against his hips. It makes him smile, barely able to repress a shiver at the feeling of Jay’s jeans rubbing against his sweatpants. Jay leans closer, letting a hand rest cautiously against the curve of his face. 

There’s a silent question and Cole nods curtly, barely dipping his chin to his chest before Jay rubs at the corner of his mouth, fingers spreading out against the hinge of his jaw. Cole’s eyes look like they're glossing over as his lips part slightly. 

Black pen ink smudges its way onto Jay’s thumb, staining their pale skin like the way spilled tar stains the ocean. His lips are soft against the calloused skin of his thumb, he smells of cinnamon and his fingers are working their way up Jay’s wrist. His hand is holding theirs. His lips are on hers. 

Jay feels breathless as his eyes flutter closed. Cole’s tongue licks slightly at Jay’s bottom lip, toying with zier lip ring. They want to open their mouths, let him tangle their limbs together. He wants to feel his hands tangling their way through her clothes, fiddling with the flies of his jeans. 

“Adam! Your friend has to go home now!” His mother calls upstairs and it startles Cole’s lips off his. Jay blinks, quiet and startled. “Adam, don't make me come up there!”

“Coming mom!” Adam calls, finally finding his voice as he shifts away to stand. “Sorry.” He whispers, holding his hand nervously out to Jay, who's still sitting surprised on his bedroom floor, face red and lips softly kiss-swollen. 

Jay’s brain whirls into working again, He takes a deep breath, in through the nose and out through the mouth before taking Cole’s hand. “Don’t be..you’re a really good kisser.”  

The reply makes Cole laugh and Jay joins in, lacing their fingers between his. “We should go downstairs..my moms gonna worry if I'm not back by eight.” Cole checks the clock on the wall and it makes sense why his mother is yelling for them. 

“Okay. I'll come with my mom to drop you home.” 

Jay smiles “Okay.” Cole doesn’t let go of their joined hands until Jay has to tie his shoelaces, in the back of the car.  The two of them sit side by side in the car ride home, looking out the window as Cole’s thumb strokes lines down Jay’s little finger. “It’s the second house on the left..” Jay says when his mother turns into their road. 

“I uh, had a great time tonight.” Jay says when his mother pulls up outside his house. Cole smiles, giving his hand another squeeze. He’s slow to release zeir hand as Jay gets out of the car. Cole closes the door and rolls down the window, resting his chin against the open window. 

“We should do it again sometime. Maybe next time we have another French project?” He tilts his head slightly, tongue darting out to blush against his bottom lip. Jay nods, knowing that he doesn’t mean about powerpoints and posters. 

“I’d like that.” Jay presses his hand quickly to the side of Cole’s face, knocking their foreheads together. There’s the sound of the front door unlocking behind Jay and with a reluctant smile, she pulls away and starts walking up the path, occasionally looking back. 

Cole still has his head out the window like a puppy wanting to feel the wind of its face. Some small makes its way into Jay’s heart as she climbs the porch steps. Matt stands on the doorstep, tapping his fingers impatiently on the door. 

“Did you have a nice time with your new friend?” He asks when Jay is close enough to poke in the side. He raises an eyebrow, watching as Cole pulls himself back into the car and rolls up the window. 

Jay glances over his shoulder, drops his backpack at his big brother's feet and waves. Cole and his mother wave back, only starting to pull away when Jay is across the threshold of the front door. 

Watching through the living room curtains, Jay waves until the car disappears around the corner and into the night. “I did, yes.” She replies simply, squeaking before skipping past Matt and going to his room.

“Well, is there anything to tell us?!” Matt yells upstairs.

“Nope!” 

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Would you like to share your thoughts on the bokuakakuroken dynamic?

OKAY so uhh it took me longer to get to this than anticipated. unfortunately i got this ask RIGHT before i started my shift, and its been ough, more than 12 hours since i ended my shift, which means my thoughts had so much time to change and morph

i will try to gather my thoughts into coherency fjakjbas (no promises tho,,), these arent all necessarily romantic, i think they CAN be! but i think if they are a polycule, theyre a friendgroup first?? idk, i think they are a mix of romantic, queerplatonic, friendship soup yknow??

but i really enjoy the subtle rivalry between akaashi and kenma on the court. It's not the overt goading and gloating that bokuto and kuro have with each other, but its there. And I adore it. Captains and setters mirroring each other... balance... in my brain. I think there is lots of team work OFF the court between kenma and akaashi too, especially when it comes to making fun of bokuto and kuroo. they have an understanding

i think bokuto and kenma are an interesting pair. in volleyball, bokuto is WAY TOO MUCH for kenma. he's loud and boisterous and greedy. he's like shouyou, kenma can't get away with anything. off the court, bokuto is STILL A LOT, but he also shows such *genuine* interest in kenma's interests, he's attentive and engaged. he also gets *way less* scandalized by nudity and gore in Kenma's more intense games. Kenma isnt great at explaining things, but bokutos go gettem attitude makes him a pretty fun player two

kuroo and akaashi... i thought about them a lot. to me, they are STEM and HUMANITIES solidarity. I'm going to tangent to curate the vibe~~.

The separation of stem and humanities is a fairly recent development in education/academia. in the european renaissance, art and science were so deeply interconnected. to be an artist you had to understand the natural world. it helped you greatly as a scientist if you could depict the world you saw. Leonardo da Vinci probably comes to mind, incredible artist and inventor. He stared at water for hours watching it ripple. He believed that if you were not outside drawing every second you could, you were hardly an artist at all (he was VERY hardcore, and VERY uhh.. most ppl didnt like him much. Same with michelangelo. Raphael was the renaissance's golden boy, it's why the pope was in close contact with him while he did the school of athens in his library while michelangelo was still waiting for a letter back from the pope about the sistine chapel (pope didnt wanna talk to him) none of this is relevant but i LOVE talking about this stuff. Bernini is my favorite, though he is Baroque/late renaissance rather than High Renaissance (after the mannerist movement!! very important distinction. (did you know there were TWO bernini's? Gianlorenzo's father, pietro would have been more famous if his son wasn't a prodigy. but he wasn't resentful, he ate up his son's skill, was very proud "i will be known as the father an mentor of the great gianlorenzo!" cute stuff) what number of parenthesis am i at? i think this is the last one)

i digress. I think of akaashi, a literature nerd, and kuroo, a science nerd. and I think of them appreciating that about each other. I like to think that if one of them has intense, burning thoughts about something that moves them, a passage written so beautifully, a chemical reaction so moving, they share with each other. both of them i think, share a certain appreciation for the beauty in the world, and can really appreciate the beauty that the other's perspective comes from. they bleed into each other, akaashi starts thinking more of the physical world, and kuroo, already a metaphorical savant (we are blood, anyone?) appreciates akaashi's musing (absolutely LAUGHED at him the first time Akaashi waxed poetic about bokuto though. They have solidarity but they still lowkey antagonize each other aksfjbaksjfbaskjfbakj)

i think ill cut my thoughts off here. ive really rambled and i think most of it wasn't STRICTLY about bokuakakuroken, but when i was thinking about them yesterday, this.. kinda was the deal. my thoughts can be really difficult to capture and tie down, theyre amorphous clouds that twist and change in hurricane winds so sometimes they just come out as "WAAHA CRYING SOBBINGS OUGH" because thats the only way i can get them out before they slip away

im supposed to be writing things down more, it helps me a lot. but, if you were interested in maybe a sneak peak of what its like to try to think of a single topic in my brain,,, here u go! please enjoy the content you asked for, and i hope the content you DIDNT ask for was at least a little bit interesting <3

[likefeathers]

band review #1: owalloil

im not sure exactly how i want to format these posts yet, so i apologize if this is a bit rambly.

great seoul invasion brought a lot of new bands to my attention, which ive been beyond thankful for because oh my god theyre all SO talented. one of these has been owalloil! i really enjoyed watching their live audition, where they played their songs ‘young adult’ and ‘tree.’ i added them to my playlist after hearing them, but never listened to those songs much afterwards and never dove into the rest of their discography...

until a few days ago!!

i decided to put their music on shuffle while on my way to get breakfast; usually i wont listen to new music first thing in the morning but i was in a Mood and decided why not lol. i actually remember this really vividly, because the weather was amazing--it was foggy and not too hot, and there were leaves falling everywhere. the vibes were immaculate and i feel like they really complimented owalloils sound...which is what ill be moving onto!

i wasnt entirely sure what to expect after listening to the two aforementioned songs..i liked that they were upbeat, but often times ill listen to a song or two from a band, like them a lot then find out none of their other songs sound like that (not that its always a bad thing!). owalloil, however, leads a really nice transition from their softer songs to their more upbeat ones. they have an INCREDIBLY distinct sound, which is something that always pulls me deep into a kband

before i talk about the instruments and roles within the band, i wanna talk about the members. there are three members; leader and synth kwak jihyeon, vocalist and guitarist ryu jiho, and guitarist jang taewung. jiho and taewung are enfps and jihyeon is infp which i think is the funniest dynamic on the planet. jihyeon looks like their supervisor who never outright admits how much he adores his children... anyway! jiho is an absolute sunshine im a bit shocked its possible to be as cute as he is. he has the most ADORABLE smile on earth i cherish it dearly. taewung...i haven’t completely figured this dude out yet but hes like jihos partner in crime. overall incredible vibes with these guys

now onto instruments, you probably noticed i didnt mention a bassist or drummer (or have been waiting to hear me talk about this if you already stan!). owalloil has by far the most unique instrument lineup ive seen in a band. they were lowkey ridiculed for it on great seoul invasion, but i think the idea that a band must consist of the four traditional elements is so outdated. im not completely sure about this, but from what i hear and gather from my knowledge of synthetic instruments, it sounds like jihyeon produces the bass and drum sounds using his synth getup. the rhythm lines sound like they have less full of a base compared to recorded instruments, especially when you compare their independent tracks to their songs from great seoul invasion, where they had a guest bassist and drummer. im a total nerd for synthy stuff, so you can imagine this sound is right up my alley. jiho’s voice is REALLY nice. like. really really nice. the veeeeery vague rasp, the curve of his vowels, the range, its all just perfect. its really fun listening to how much energy his voice can have when singing quicker paced songs, and how relaxing and soft it can be in owalloil’s ballads. i was actually a bit sleepy while listening to them in one of my classes recently...they make incredible lullabies! taewung is a really fun guitarist to listen to. the bands guitar parts always sound like the ocean, very flowy and wavy and they have this glimmer to them that makes them really memorable as something that makes you feel lively. overall, owalloil is a complete feel-good band

oh oh real quick though, theres another thing i wanted to add about instruments! in one of their gsi stages, ‘the world we lived,’ jihyeon plays the glockenspiel! if youre unaware, glockenspiel is a mallet percussion instrument, like a tiny metal xylophone. it adds the most beautiful sound to the song..to me it sounds like twinkling stars. as a mallet percussionist myself seeing jihyeon play it honestly made me consider biasing him even more...

my favorite songs by them are ‘warrior’, ‘tree’, and ‘echo!’ the melody of echo is SO satisfying, and the lyrics to warrior are so gorgeous, especially the chorus. tree is so fun and its special to me as the first owalloil song i heard!

all in all these guys are an incredible addition to my stan list, and im honestly so thankful they seem to be getting a lot of traction from other kband stans these days. lets hope they go far!

[geodetojoy]

so cozy in this inbox- you’ve even got fruit snacks in here! im stayin forever if that’s okay

rng selected questions from the “distracting asks” this time! and yes more proofreading yayyy

23, 18, 10, 15, 3

carry on fellow pb blossom member o7

hello again dearest mads!!!! little did you know the fruit snacks were a lure you have no choice but to stay now >:)

23. talk about a WIP?

oh man ive got a lot on hold at the moment, buuut ill go with my tati/barb painting im working on (that I believe i sent you the current version of- its been a bit lmaoo)

i mean first of all i just really wanted to give my girls at least a bit of happiness. is it temporary? in canon? definitely not. but they deserve to have each other to lean on and to feel safe with

and i really love the concepts of bi/aro barb and lesbian/aroace tati so. they dont have a defined relationship, they just love each other and thats all that matters.

ive got a few ideas in my head of how their relationship would come to be, but i think its something they both tried to view from analytical lenses if that makes sense? especially with barb, my poor heteronormative victim. she definitely does not like the idea that she might care for tati in a more realistic way than she did with curt until she tried to put her fears behind her and consider it from a position of just what would make her happy. when she realized the answer to that question was tati, she was both extremely relieved and utterly terrified. with tati, she was so afraid of how easily barb was peeling back the walls she had built up so meticulously, but after she realized that it was probably healthier for her, she accepted the care with loving, almost desperate arms.

they definitely started out as incredible friends, both being able to bond over their shared experiences of discrimination in their jobs over being women in the 50s and 60s in such male-dominated places of work. and for some reason, tati finds it extremely easy to open up to barb and barb just cares so much and just wants to take care of her so bad and that love is always reciprocated, out of fear of losing barb at the beginning, but then out of sheer appreciation and adoration as time passed.

theyre in an incredibly healthy relationship, both because they had no pressure as women to be devoid of emotion and because i think they would talk about their emotions sooooo much with barb as a scientist and tati as a healing trauma survivor.

anyways! got a bit sidetracked, but my WIP is a painting of them cuddling on a couch in their shared apartment :3 the blinds are closed, ofc, and the place is scarcely decorated aside from the necessary furniture, but to them its the most beautiful home ever because they have the other there with them

the idea for the finished piece is to have the orange glow from the sun beaming through the blinds illuminating the room just enough to see them, but have it dark enough to enshroud them in shadow, hiding from the rest of the world. but what we can see is safe, warm, cozy, and quiet :3

18. Dream Job?

Game dev baby!! I wanna make every single aspect of a game entirely on my own one day, but honestly id settle for doing any part of the process in a company or group as long as i can pitch in!!

10. Favorite animal?

im so bad at choosing just one. so im giving you two :)

fennec foxes and red pandas!!!!!

15. Favorite subject?

(im assuming this to be school subject bc subject in general is. entirely too vague lmaoo)

Any and all math!!! im a nerd from head to fucking toe and i am PROUD OF IT

3. 5 songs you have been recently obsessed with?

YIPPEE MORE MUSIC QUESTIONS I LOVE TALKING ABOUT MUSIC I LOVE

(btw one of these is gonna be an album bc it has five songs on it and i cannot bear to exclude others for the sake of putting all five of them)

DoNotReadMe.wav by Charlie Slimecicle. is anyone surprised by this? if so that means i need to post about it more

The Wisdom Saga from EPIC the musical!!!!!! been listening to it since its release im obsessed!!!!

Facade from Cinderella's Castle!!! its just!!!! gah!!!! it sounds so good!!!!

Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter. im blaming joel for this one even though it was like a month ago

Once in a Lifetime by Talking Heads. i thiiiink this is the one? if not they keep playing a song just like it at work and every time i try to remember it later to figure out what song it is i forget how the melody goes and i lose my shit but its taken over my every thought I JUST WANNA KNOW WHAT SONG IT ISSSSS

ty for the ask again mads!!!! love ya forever and always my pb blossom buddy <333333

[sins-cheotic-mess]

WOMEN

GIRLS

I LOBV GIRLS'

nice people, quiet people, hugs.

WOMEN

I LOVR GIELSSSS

YOU LIKE WEMON???

YOU LIKE GIRLS????

WELL... ALL MY OCS ACTUALLY FILL THOSE REQUIREMENTS.. EXCEPT THE FEMBOYS!!

BUT QUIET NICE PEOPLE >:]c... WHO LIKE PHISICAL CONTACT..

SOOOOOO WE GOT SIN(OC), SHE IS A TOUGH GIRL, PRETTY FIT, BUT QUIET AND NICE, SHE IS PRETTY TRAUMATIZED BUT ALL THAT DOES IS MAKE HER TIRED EASYER AND WELL BE QUIET

WE GOT NOVA, EVEN THOUGH IN CANON SHE IS A KID.. SHE IS THE SAME WHEN SHE GROWS UP TO A TEEN AND ADULT, SHE IS QUIET AND CUTE CATGIRL NERD, SHE LOVESSS TO LEARN AND DOESNT LIKE PHISICAL CONTACT.. EXCEPT WITH HER FAMILY AND THE PERSON SHE LIKES!! SHE IS A LITTLE TRAUMATIZE BEING A LAB EXPERIMENT AND ALL... BUT ITS OK, SHE LOVES LEARNING ABOUT SPACE THOUGH Uw U!!!

NOVA HAS A SISTER.. HEYLEY, SHE WOULD BE A TOMBOY WICH IS PRETTY QUIET AND KIND, SHE NORMALLY ACTS IN THE INTREST OF OTHERS MORE THEN HER OWN.. SO FAR THERE ARE ONLY TWO VERSIONS OF HER... THE APOCALYPSE ONES AND HER CANON SELF

APOCALYPSE.. THAT.. IS A PERSON YES, FROM A NON UNDERTALE AU... SO SHE IS SHY AND QUIET... AND LOVES TOUCH.. AT 19 SHE WOULD BE FIXED.. AKA THE EXPERIMENTS DONE ON HER WOULD BE CURED!! AND SHE CAN FINNALY TOUCH PEOPLE WITHOUT THEM DYING!! SHE WOULD LOVE HUGS AND TALKING, BUT WOULD BE GENERALLY JUST CUTE AND BLUSHY IF SHE LIKES YA U. U!!!

WE ALSO GOT GEN!! ALTHOUGH SHE IS ASEXUAL... DUE TO TRAUMA, SHE LIKES PHISICAL TOUCH, SHE CANT TALK.. AND IS VERY KIND... UNLESS FRISK TAKES OVER THEYRE BODY, THEN SHE IS A GENOCIDAL MANIAC, BUT ITS OK EITHER WAY!! SHE GETS RID OF THEM EVENTUALLY.. THEN SHE IS PERFECT!! SHE WOULD DATE THOUGH, NOT KNOWING WHAT IT IS, MAKES IT EASYER TO DO IT BY MISTAKE

WE GOTTTTT NEW!DUST FRISK!! THEY WERE A GENOCIDAL MANIAC BUT NOW.. THEY ARE A CALM COOL PERSON, SHE DOESNT TALK MUCH BUT LIKES HUGS ALOT AND HOOLDING HANDS AND ETC.. THEYRE NICE EVEN AS A GENOCIDER SO.. I THINK IT FITS!!

SPLICETALE TIME, ERENITY IS A QUIET KID WHO DOESNT TEND TO TALK, SHE... IM NOT SURE HER SEXUALITY YET.. SHE IS RESERVED AND ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE.. THEY ARE KIND BUT DONT TEND TO ACT MUCH ON THAT KINDNESS DUE TO BEING ONNHER PHONE.. SHE IS INDIFRENT TO TOUCH.. BUT WILL HUG ALL THE TIME SHE SEES YOU IF YOU MAKE IT KNOWN THAT ITS SOMETHING YOU LIKE!!!

MERALYN, ONE OF ERENITY'S TWO BIO MOM'S FRIENDS, SHE IS OVER STIMULATED, CUTE, NICE, SHY, TIRED AND VERY AFFECTIONET, EVEN THOUGH SHE DOES HAVE A GIRLFRIEND.. IN THE CASE SHE WOULDNT HAVE HER GIRLFRIEND SHE COULD BE A PERFECT GF

HAPPY!SIN SHE IS ALSO CALLED KIRA, SHE IS CUTE, SHY, QUIET, EASILY EMBARASED.. NOT USE TO INTEMACY OR AFFECTION, SHE IS A DRUG ADDICT THOUGH.. BUT HER DRUGS ARNT ADICTIVE, SHE JUST ISNT VERY HAPPY WITH LIFE!! SHE LOST HER FAMILY ALL AT ONCE... SO SHE DIDNT KNOW WHAT ELSR TO DO...

I DO HAVE MORE THAT FIT THE PARAMETERS DISCRIBED BUT THATS ALL I COULD REMEMBER Uw U!! ALSO WANA SEE DRAWINGS/PICREWS OF THEM???

[noblest-roman-of-all]

silence

day 7! if theres any major errors, sorry i might have a minor concussion cause im a dumbass. heres some cute analogical for you!

parirings: virgil/logan

tw: anxiety attacks, poor self esteem and negative self talk

Virgil has a tendency to blow things out of proportion. He knows he does, his therapist has talked to him about cognitive distortions and all the ways that it can mess with his perception of the world and the things happening to him. 

With that in mind, Virgil is still pretty sure this is the worst day of his life. 

The worst part of it all is that there wasn’t any particular thing that happened, no great catastrophe. Just a series of small, kinda shitty things that snowballed into him curled up on the floor in a dusty corner of the library, shaking and gasping and entirely unable to move. He’d had panic attacks before, but they were almost never this bad, especially since he’d started going to Dr. Picani, and the thought that he’d somehow failed, that Picani would be disappointed, sends him spiralling even deeper. 

He hears footsteps approaching, and his breath hitches again. Shit, he thought he was the only one in the section of the library, now there was somebody who might find him, who might see him like this. He hears whoever it was take a few steps forward, and then- 

“Hello?” And of course, because this is the worst day of Virgil’s shitty life, it was Logan Baker, the unfairly brilliant, stupidly attractive sophomore who was in Virgil’s English 112 class, and who almost definitely hated him. Who was now standing in front of Virgil, having a complete breakdown, looking like an utter idiot, and if he didn’t dislike Virgil before he absolutely would now, seeing him in a state like this in public, why was he such a fucking mess that he couldn’t manage to get somewhere private so no one would have to see him like this-

Virgil’s spiralling thoughts come to a screeching halt when he notices that Logan has not turned and quickly walked in the other direction, or pulled out his phone to make fun of Virgil to his friends, but has instead sat down, leaning against the opposite bookshelf so he is facing Virgil, but still a few feet away. He looks Virgil over with a keen eye, but not critical. It doesn’t help Virgil, necessarily, but it… doesn’t add to his panic. Which is good. 

“I assume asking if you are ‘okay’ is a bit redundant,” Logan says. “Is there anything I can do to help you?” 

Virgil… really wasn’t expecting that. He opens his mouth to respond, but all he can manage is a quiet croak. He hides his head back in his knees, wanting the floor to just swallow him whole at this point. Logan doesn’t laugh though, just lets out a thoughtful hum. 

“Can you speak? It’s alright if you can’t,” he says plainly. Virgil shakes his head slightly, glad he’s not being pushed to speak when apparently, his body is refusing to do so. Logan lets out that same hum again. Then, after a moment of quiet, he speaks up again. 

“Would it help you if I spoke?” The question is quiet, almost timid in a way Virgil had never heard him sound. “I’ve been made aware I have a… soothing voice, although I wouldn’t think to call it that myself,” he says in a tone that if it came from anyone else, Virgil would call it sheepish. Virgil nods quickly. 

“I assume that nod means it’s okay for me to speak,” Logan says, a huff of laughter in his tone. Virgil smiles into his arms and nods again. 

“I’m aware that for some people, being left alone is preferable, but many people find comfort in hearing another person’s voice. It allows the mind something to focus on, I suppose, to prevent from spiralling.” There’s a pause, and then Logan continues, a bit quieter. “I know it helps me.”

Virgil looks up at that, making a small, curious sound. Logan smiles, soft and unsurprised. 

“I know people don’t expect it of me, but I’m not neurotypical. I have ADHD, and oftentimes I get overwhelmed. I’ve found it’s helpful to hear someone else’s voice, to have something to latch on to,” Logan explains calmly. Virgil sits on the thought for a moment, and then nods. It makes sense to him. When Logan doesn’t say anything else, he makes a gesture with his hand, trying to indicate ‘keep going’. It seems to work, because Logan picks right up again easily. 

“I’m not great with these-these emotional things.” The way he spits out the word emotional makes that clear enough. Virgil lets out a sound that isn’t quite a laugh, but is closer to happy than any other sound he’d made recently. Logan’s lip quirks up in a semblance of a smile. 

“My roommate, Patton, he’s better at all of this than I am. I understand it from an intellectual perspective, but I admit that I struggle actually applying it.” Logan stays there, sitting on the hard ground of the library, talking to Virgil, for about an hour. He talks about his roommate Patton, who’s an early education major, and his friend Roman, a theater and performance major. He talks about the classes he’s taking for his major, astronomy. He talks about professors he loves, ones he hates. He talks about the little burger place near campus Patton drags him to every Friday so they can do karaoke, and how as much as he pretends to hate it, he secretly loves it. He talks, and for the first time Virgil gets to see someone other than Logan Baker, mildly intimidating straight A student. He gets to see Logan, who’s admittedly a bit of a dork and cares about his friends more than he would ever admit.

Eventually, Virgil manages to unfurl himself, his breathing relatively even and his mind no longer filled with swirling, hurtful words. Logan stutters to a stop when he realizes Virgil is now sitting up straight, actively listening now. 

“I, um, see you’re feeling better. I apologize for revealing so much personal information, it’s just-” Logan stops when Virgil chuckles. 

“It’s alright, dude. I, uh, actually enjoyed it,” Virgil admits with a flush. Logan looks equally flustered, and moves to stand up. 

“Well, seeing that you’re in a better state now, I’ll be on my way. Have a good afternoon, Virgil.” With that, he makes to hurry off. Virgil lurches up and grabs his wrist before he can go. 

“I… never told you my name. How did you…” Virgil trails off. Logan actually manages to look more flustered. 

“I, well, we share an English course, and I… appreciate your input. It’s interesting, and it makes me think,” Logan mutters. Virgil breaks into a smile at that, and pushes himself up as quickly as he dares. 

“Well, I’ve been down there for about 2 hours now. I really need to stretch my legs, and probably get something to eat,” Virgil says. Logan nods and starts to turn away. 

“Of course, I don’t mean to interrupt your plans.” Virgil grabs Logan again, his shoulder this time, and Logan turns on his heel. 

“Well, I was thinking. You said that burger place isn’t too far from campus, right?” Virgil asks. Logan gives him an odd look, and Virgil sighs. “I’m trying to ask you to get lunch with me, dork.” Logan lets out a shocked laugh. 

“As much as I appreciated the silence from earlier, I think I much prefer you like this,” Logan admits. He gestures for Virgil to walk alongside him as they walk off. 

Alright. Maybe this isn’t the worst day of Virgil’s life. Maybe, it’s actually the best.